all your stuffed animals love you. they're not sad if they're in a box, or on the floor, or not held/played with as much. they understand. they know that you might need another stuffie more, or that you don't have enough space. they're just happy to be with you, and if you ever give them away, they'll be happy there too. stuffies are for comfort. they understand. they love you too. it's okay.

Due to personal reasons I will be loving myself with my whole heart

You are not a bother. You are not a burden. You are not a waste of space. You are not annoying every person you talk to. Your existence matters. Your presence makes a good difference.

hyperspecific good morning, night, afternoon, evening, void-hour to people with:

breathy voices

voices that cut off halfway though

choppy voices

whispering voices

higher pitched voices

no voices

mechanic-sounded voices

augmented voices

monotone voices

inaudible voices

voices that barely get through

voices that repeat

voices that skip syllables

voices that pause between words

voices that shake and waver in pitch and volume

voices that clutter

voices that stutter

voices that make sounds not words

🌹🌹

Growth is uncomfortable because you’ve never been here before.

🪷

this is the sign...

...that you were looking for.

don't wait anymore. it's your time to shine.

you are capable and you are ready. there is nothing too tough for you.

there is no need to wait anymore. a brighter future awaits you. start your journey towards it, today ✨

Reminder, if you are butch/masc, it doesn't mean that you are not allowed to be soft and sensitive. Just because some people see it as a weakness. Its not! Be soft! Be sensitive! Be empathic! There is so much strength in that!

🌸 a few reminders 🌸

~ you don't have to be super productive everyday

~ you are allowed to take up space

~ your feelings are valid

~ we don't move at the same pace, take your time

if you're gaining weight in recovery and feel bad about it, that's your body trying to keep you alive. I know it's extremely difficult to deal with your body changing, especially because our disorders are so image based, but your body isn't thinking about that. Its sole purpose is to keep you alive, and that's what it's doing for you.

Your body may not be able to trust you right now, and if you feel out of control, that could be why. But don't worry, a day will come where it can begin to rely on you again to give it what it needs.

hi if you set a boundary or asked for help recently, no matter what the outcome was, i'm proud of you. you are very brave, even if you don't see it.

and if today was rough for you, i am proud of you.

and if you suffered today silently, i am proud of you.

and if you struggled with eating but you still ate, i am proud of you.

and if you were not happy for your body but you let it exist in the peace, i am proud of you.

whatever happened today good or bad, whatever you felt today - i am still very much proud of you, please keep going my friend, i love you.

꒰ Some positive reminders ꒱

You are not obligated to forgive those who have hurt you. Never ever. You don't have to forgive them, accept their apologies, trust them, or let them back into your life for any reason.

Its not negative or anti recovery either. You can still heal without forgiving your abusers or other toxic people in your life. You don't owe them your forgiveness, you don't owe them a goddamn thing.

Congratulations. You've made it. Again. It shouldn't come as a surprise, but if it does - if you had to fight to get here, if you had to claw your way to the end of this year - that's fine. If you've been waiting for the final days to roll in after a cozy (or a crazy?) Christmas, they are here at last. Close your eyes. Think of everything you've achieved this year. Think of moments that made you wish you could bottle them up and keep them forever, warm days drenched in sunlight and laughter that made your stomach hurt and people who make you feel so light it feels like flying. Imagine how many more moments like these 2024 will have in store. I hope you find the courage to chase them. I hope you hold on to these people, no matter what life throws your way. I know the missing won't stop, it won't go away, but I hope you'll find it easier to bear. Don't forget that problems aren't solved overnight, but that things do look different after a good night's sleep. I hope the next year will bring you closer to the person you want to be, to the person you are meant to be. Please don't be afraid of change. Of growth. Of letting go and moving on. It's a process, one that does not end with December 31st. It begins and ends with you. And in one year's time, you'll be sitting in the exact same spot, wondering how you got here - but maybe you won't. I hope you'll know, hope you'll remember how you pushed through. Maybe in one year's time, you'll look back at the greatest year of your life (so far). From the bottom of my heart, I hope you do.

hi, 2024 / n.j.