I think I may just have to accept that my mum had absolutely buckwild manic pixie dream girl game back in the day

fantasizing about protective festival!ellie

warnings: 18+ explicit sexual descriptions, drug use, alcohol use, very Very brief choking kink, implied homophobia, mild possession, pet names

an: an offering until i finish part 2 of you belong to me i thought of this at work and knew she would be a festival girlie okokenjoy

she def tried to convince u to let her buy an airtag and stick it in ur outfit just in case she lost you in the crowd “you could just call me els” “what if ur phone dies” she pouted

she wore a simple button up that was unbuttoned with a sports bra underneath, her abs showing which made ur toes curl and loose basketball shorts. meanwhile u had to spend hours trying to find what to wear, always earning a “everything looks so good on you baby” as ellie watched u change for the 8th time

“absolutely not” she protested one of the more scandalous outfits u tried on, typically she wouldn’t care and actually liked ur skin showing to be able to flaunt you around “you know how these people are there, i don’t need you being ogled all night”

no bc watching her dance at the actual festival was intoxicating, grinding up behind you going with the beat of the music, grabbing ur ass and feeling u up in a way that felt hungry

also note she had a blunt resting in her mouth while she danced on u AHH

im also picturing her in a backwards worn out ball cap do with that what u will,, ok carrying on

u were only crossed, as when u suggested trying something a bit harder ellie def had something to say "idk babe u dont even take well to being too high sometimes" "fine but were doing shots!"

so u both were wasted, she guided ur hips with her hands to spin you around to face her the strobe lights started going crazy for the drop of the song that was playing

ellie hit the blunt while u watched not even questioning it bc she was so fucking fine while doing

she inhaled slightly and leaned in, grabbed ur neck face and blew the smoke into your mouth for u after u exhaled she wrapped her free arm around ur waist pulling u closer in

this time she kissed u and kissed u hard, still grinding to the music while doing so ofc

her hand wandering around ur back down to ur ass and when the kiss ended u continued dancing and ellie took a quick glance around

she saw a guy poking at his friend then pointing to u and her and immediately protective mode was activated

"cmon, i gotta go to the bathroom" grabbing ur hand and not even giving u the chance to respond "ellieeeeeeeee"

u guys were towards the back because "i dont wanna lose u in the crowd plus i think i would suffocate"

"els we just went to the bathroom" "i saw some guys staring at us, i didn't like the looks of it" she was very occasionally glancing in the direction where u guys came from, obviously worried

"lets go finish this and then go back" she suggested and brought u to the back of one of the food stands,, holding ur hand the entire time of course kinda too tight like she was white knuckling that shit

u guys passed it back and forth a few times before the redness of your perfect eyes, being crossed, and full on craving u overwhelmed her

"els!" u giggled as she sucked on ur exposed neck, marking every single square inch she possibly could before moving to ur jaw

ellie being ellie she lightly bit ur earlobe sending shockwaves thru u n feeling the surge of confidence ((and bc shes a cocky shit)) she goes "let those try guys come near you, you're mine"

immediate butterflies. immediate pulsing in ur pussy like oh my GOD and being so horrendously down bad u say "i'm yours"

instinctively u stretched ur arms over her shoulders and as soon as u started to move ur hands thru her hair in pleasure she threw the remaining blunt to the ground and literally picked u up

like hoisted u up so that ur legs were around her waist, one of her hands placed itself on ur back the other firmly on ur ass

this was all mid kiss btw

she spun around and crashed ur back into the back of the food stand and bc shes so strong she could hold you there basically by holding herself so close to you

she reached a hand down feeling ur pussy thru the very light shorts u had on "no underwear, huh baby?" all u could do was shake ur head the feeling of her touching u was overwhelming to say the least "and already so wet, tsk tsk"

u blushed but thank god it was dark bc she wouldve teased u about it and u wanted so badly for her to just kiss u again u leaned in slightly as if asking permission

"and so needy" "please, els" "what was that?" she paused her fingers on ur core and u whined "words princess, i need words"

sigh, anyway

leaving the festival she knew u were drained and let u piggy back most of the way to the car, she drove back home letting u sleep peacefully in the passenger seat

when u guys got back home she was fully prepared to carry u in but u woke up

but u were way to tired to get ready for bed so she undressed u, showered u, and put u in one of her tee shirts and ultimately put u to bed only to be interrupted by her coming to cuddle only a short time later

literally anything with atsumu i love him and ur writing is always up to par so. i will be happy with anything. but a cute birthday themed piece could be fun perhaps

thank u so much i wrote this specifically for u and i managed to write a weirdly formatted atsumu centered fic that barely went over 1k words. we are so back

contains: fluff, mild childhood angst, a black eye, birthday cake word count: 1163 gender neutral reader x miya atsumu :p

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October 5th, 1995 

Atsumu Miya is born. He’s gifted a bright flash of light, the sound of his own cries, and - seven minutes later - a brother. 

October 5th, 2003

There was a HAPPY BIRTHDAY banner taped to the cabinets in the kitchen. The R was ripped nearly in half, and the colors were dull. 

It was the same one as last year, and the year before that. 

Atsumu walked through the threshold with his brother right next to him. Osamu knew how to say thank you in the right way to get the best hug from their mom. 

They were presented with one singular cupcake. 

“Why can’t we ever get our own?” 

The two boys sat too close at the kitchen table, the strawberry cake sat right in front of them. 

“You have to learn how to share, Atsumu.” 

He knew how to share. There was nothing left to learn.

One candle was mashed in the frosting. Mom lit the flame and Atsumu watched wax dripping onto his half as she sang their happy birthday song, and told them to make a wish. 

Atsumu and Osamu looked at each other, then blew at the candle at the exact same time. 

The cupcake was cut in half, and Atsumu’s stomach hurt before he could finish his. Osamu took it without being asked. 

But if they had each gotten their own, Atsumu would've had more to share with his brother. 

October 5th, 2010

Atsumu was fifteen and he knew everything. He was always right - never, ever wrong, and if anyone disagreed, they’d have to take it up directly with him. 

He knew how to run his mouth. Maybe it was what he was best at. He’d never lost an argument - until his fifteenth birthday. 

He’d gotten good at taking his aggression out in healthy ways - mostly in sports. But, sometimes, the words he spit couldn’t be left on the court. 

He would say what he wanted, and he didn’t care who heard or hurt. 

He didn’t know what he had coming to him. 

The entire team had already abandoned the gym, all but Atsumu and the shitty middle blocker who played like he didn’t know his position. 

Atsumu was outside stretching when his words hit his ears. “You’re a piece of shit, Miya.” 

“Oh my god - get in line, dude, you’re about the fifth person today to let me know.” 

“That many people wanna rip your head off? I wish one of them would teach you how to shut the fuck up.” 

“And I wish someone would teach you how to block the fuckin’ ball.” 

The guy didn’t reply. He took one step in Atsumu’s direction - he remembered hearing the crunch of gravel under the guy's foot. His shoulder moved with the step, and with it, the first real punch Atsumu had ever been thrown. 

And it hit. Hard. Ten times harder than any hits from Osamu. 

The guy’s fist collided with Atsumu’s cheek and then he walked away. Atsumu didn’t even have a chance to hit back - he was frozen in place, anyway. There was no fight in him. He was too surprised. 

A black eye wasn’t on his wishlist for his birthday, but it’s what he got. A lesson learned? Not so much. 

October 5th, 2019

He was another year older - so what. 

The only part of Atsumu’s birthday that he liked was giving his brother a stupidly expensive gift, because it gave him an excuse to gloat. 

Other than that? It was a day like any other. 

Birthdays were nowhere near special to him - especially his own. But it just so happened that on that specific birthday, he had his first date with you. 

And it didn’t even come up in conversation. Neither did his twin brother, or any of his volleyball stories he’d usually tell to impress a date. 

Atsumu found out that he didn’t need to impress you, and he hardly needed to talk about himself. 

He left that date feeling like he was friends with you, and maybe that wasn’t how he should feel after a date, but he was beaming. The hours with you at that hole in the wall bar didn’t feel like enough. 

He took that feeling and ran with it, and he hoped - he prayed - you’d follow him. 

October 5th, 2022

It’d been late nights for as long as Atsumu could remember. He’d come home and you’d already be in bed - if he was lucky, you’d wake up just long enough to tell him you love him. 

That night was different from the rest. 

That night, he would be coming home to - literally - an empty home. 

Finally, you and Atsumu had moved into the house of your dreams that was yours. But, for the time being, you were living out of boxes and waiting for furniture deliveries. 

He opened the door to a dark living room and an even darker hallway, and he didn’t bother turning any on lights to get to the kitchen. 

There was a shred of light there, coming from an old bulb above the stove. He looked around the empty room and what he found was out of place. 

There you were, sat on the floor. A chair was next to you, funnily enough, but it was taken by a round white cake. A handful of candles were stuck into the top. 

“What are you doing?” he asked, the same time you spoke. 

“There’s my birthday boy,” and your voice was all sleepy smiles. “Happy birthday. Happy anniversary.” 

He sat in front of you, right on the floor, not caring when his knees popped on the way down. 

“Did you stay up just to tell me that?” 

“What’s wrong with that?” 

You picked up the cake and presented it to him like you were proud of it, and the size of his grin matched yours. 

“How mad would you be if I just tipped this up,” and he tapped the bottom of the plate, “right into your face?” 

“Atsumu.” Every time you said his name like that, he laughed. “I would kill you.”

“On my birthday?” 

He watched you pout as you sat the cake down again. “Aren’t you going to say thank you?” 

“Thank you,” he said, like he was insisting. He wrapped his hands around your legs and scooted you closer to him. “Thank you, baby, this is so nice.” 

You hummed. “You’re welcome.” And you dipped your finger in the frosting on the cake, and Atsumu immediately caught your wrist when you moved it toward his face. 

“Don’t you dare.” 

You kept pushing, and he didn’t push back fast enough - your finger and the glob of frosting smushed right into his cheek. 

And you laughed loud enough to fill the empty rooms of your house, and Atsumu didn’t know how to tell you how in love he was. 

He had birthday cake for dinner that night, and it settled into a sugary stomach ache. It was the best October 5th he'd lived through so far.

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got a request for a drabble? send it in, i might write it :)  

You remind me of him. Fem! Y/n

Warning: angst, y/n being talkative abt her curse tech, spoiler jjk manga, self-sacrifice, mahito.

"suguru?"

"hm?"

"when I grow up, I wana be like you! Your awesome!!!"

"for sure buddy, now come here, I'll do ur hair like mine"

"thanks big brother suguru!"

"anything for my little sister."

You searched everywhere. Literally everywhere and then u found nanami sensei. "nanami sensei!" you called for him as he looked at you. "don't call me sensei" you chuckle. "uh, have you seen gojo sensei anywhere?" you ask him. "no i haven't but he probably budging megumi or itadori." you slowly nodded. "also, new hairstyle?" nanami said to you as he look at your hair.

"yes! Well not really. It's an old hairstyle and I just remembered how to do it." he nodded. "well I better start searching for gojo sensei again. Bye sensei!" and with that you ran to find gojo sensei.

Few minutes later you saw itadori and gojo sensei talking. Your eyes lit up and walk up to them. "gojo sensei!!! Itadori!!!" you yelled catching their attentions. "oh! Y/n!" itadori waved at you as you waved at him back.

"I've been searching for you gojo sensei!" suddenly he came closer to you "well this is new. What's with ur hair?" you jump a little. "what? My big brother used to make this hairstyle to me. I had a long hair when I was a kid, but it kinda saddened me when I couldn't find him anywhere after I turned 10. And I wana ask you if u like it?! It reminds me of my brother so much"

"really?! That hairstyle is so cool y/n!" itadori compliment as you nodded happily while gojo is lost at his own thoughts.

Is y/n suguru's younger sister? Impossible I never saw her. You really have ur way to suprise me y/n. "gojo sensei??" suddenly he snapped and look at you two. "i said what do u think of this hairstyle?"

"i think it looks amazing. You really do know how to make a cool hairstyle!" gojo cheered as you smile. "of course! After all, my brother teach me. He's such an awesome brother. Of course I'm going to find him soon enough." gojo smile and patted ur hair. "sure. Wana go lunch? My treat of course." your smile widen and so did itadori. "YAY LETS GO!!" you two cheered.

Blood dripping from ur mouth as your eyes widen. "s-suguru?" the cursed turned around and saw your fragile body. "oh y/n! I miss you." he smiled creepily. "why do u have stitches on ur face and what did u do to gojo sensei.." you spoke as you raised ur hand to blew the cursed without moving. He began smirking. "oh you saw?"

"your not suguru. Your someone else. Tell me who u are." another guy with alot of stitches laugh as he walk beside 'suguru' "your suguru is long gone now. Do u want to meet him also? I can make it easier for you!" you were too angry and didn't focus on a fat tears falling from ur eye.

"i would be useless." you spoke suddenly. "oh? Talking bad about urself. Whys that?" the guy with blue hair spoke messing with you. "you.. You were able to prison gojo sensei and I know I had 0 chances of winning but its between life of death for me right now. Lets fight. Let's fight until I am unable to breath."

He smirk as he charged towards you. "that's the spirit! A sorcerer admitting herself that she's weak." you dodge his attack as you kept quite. Taking out ur weapon and put a cursed energy on it to exorcist the curse near you as you dodge the main curse infront of you. You couldn't keep running because you know you'll ran out of energy and the curse could easily kill you so you came up with a plan.

"what's ur name?" you suddenly ask. "I dont have a name but people call me mahito. What's urs?" nonestop attacking you as you spin-jump to throw ur weapon at his body. Blood coming from its body. "y/n.. Y/n geto. I'm originally adopted." you snap ur finger as your cursed weapon went through its body and went back to you.

"why would u consider urself weak if u can spill blood from me?" he smirk. "the weakest one always end up the strongest." you calmly said. He healed himself and alot of curses went towards your directions. You used ur cursed tech as each of the curse blew. "according to gojo sensei I could defeat special grade curse but there's also 50 percent chances I might die."

"why do u want to kill us?"

"haha! Isn't it obvious? Us curse don't need weakling on this place we called earth." you sigh. "i see. I wonder why, why did you even end up in this world? Your such a useless cursed who want to take over the world. Selfish. Weakling always have a group. So what I'm saying is your such a weak ugly curse who knows that u can't be defeated without ur friends help."

Mahito slam you to the wall as the wall broke. Your vision start to get blurry as you smile. "you know overused cursed tech can also be called as suicide?" mahito smiled when u said that. "i may not be able to kill you even if I overused my cursed tech but I'll be able to blow half of the curse on this place."

"I've heard about you, I really do and I get irritated when I see ur face. I also have a feeling gojo isn't a quitter like me but what I'm doing is very dumb and useful at the same time. My curse tech isn't harming humans."

You continued to spoke as mahito stabbed you. "I hate talkative humans." you chuckle as you start to push ur curse tech to the limits where you had to go.

Mahito saw ur last smile before you took ur last breath. Y/N curse is really powerful that half of mahito body is gone. But that doesn't mean he can't heal himself.

"great job. You actually did kill this strong sorcerer." 'suguru' spoke. "I didnt. She sacrifice herself for human lifes. But whatever, its not like I care anywhere. It just make my job easier since she's the third hardest person to kill."

You know ur small predicament post?? you should make a reverse version where s/o is smaller!

A Smaller Predicament [Genshin Impact x Smol!Reader]

Characters: Scaramouche, Diluc, Kaeya, Childe, Xiao, Zhongli, Albedo

Synopsis: Not only did you shrink, you went pocket sized as well!

(A sequel to "A Small Predicament")

(A/n): Sorry for the long wait anon, and I kind of added a twist to the scenario for more diversity hahaha hope you don't mind >_<. And why is Childe the poster boy for this series lmao.

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Childe

When Childe walks in, he doesn't see you....until he looked down. He almost crunched you beneath his feet if it weren't for your constant flailing of arms and screeching voice. He blanks out for a hot minute as you clung onto his toes, doesn't dare to move an inch because he's so petrified (even though there's nothing to be afraid of??). But honestly if Childe moved right now, he might accidentally flail you to the side and that's the last thing he wants.

"WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU??" He screamed so loud it nearly blew you out of proportion. Seems like he's going to have alot of adjusting to do. Childe is a tall man (canonically the tallest) and he knows how impulsive he can get which is why he bought a handmade dollhouse from one of the Liyue merchants for you to stay in.

Though there's something about your tiny size that makes his heart flutter. With your face so small with a pair of eyes far too big, *clutches chest* "My oujo-chan is so cute" -Childe probably. He won't stop saying them over again and you were growing tired of his gushing reactions. He can't help it. He wants to spoil you rotten. You fit right onto the flat of his palms, the way you just snuggle up againts his finger and he just- swoons, might tear up (bruh).

Toys may be for kids but for Childe it was now his favourite pass time. While you navigate around the wooden dollhouse, he pitches in by moving around the furniture to make it easier for you. Offers to carry you through the rooms like a personal elevator. And please, please let him tuck you to bed. He has to pinch his fingers to grab the blanket. It's so adorable to him.

Loves it when you snuggle up against his collar. He thinks it would be the best area for you to be nearby him since the risk of you getting hit by anything (or him) by accident is very slim chance. Sometimes he pulls up his collar so that you're more comfortable and cradled within. He would have to avert his eyes down rather than turning his head if he wanted to look at you otherwise you'd be hit by his chin and that would hurt.

The poking sensation with you by his neck can bother him since he's veeeery tickilish there. Plus, Childe can get easily sweaty so have fun with that.

You have a feeling that he wasn't so pleased when you transformed back. You might be right. Actually, you are right. He secretly has an extra potion hidden somewhere...just in case.

Diluc

Mortified, his soul just left his body. To think things couldn't get any worse ever since he turned into a child to the point no one took him seriously, now you're literally the size of an apple. Oh god what if his bird suddenly swoops in and gobbles you right up? Or the wrath of the wind comes by, swirling you away towards a tornado. Needless to say, Diluc grew paranoid over your well-being ever since.

Due to your extremely small size, he will ensure that you are supervised by him (except at night where he has places to go). In otherwords, you're slipped into the inner pocket of his coat. It's super warm, you can fall asleep (and feel his heartbeat awww). Diluc doesn't like keeping you in places where people can see you, it would be too easy for outer things to access your tiny form (or maybe he secretly likes the feeling of you in his pocket.)

And he's such a gentleman about it. You noticed how careful he moves among his footsteps because he's worried that you might get dizzy. Diluc guards the pocket at close parameter, keeping an eye on things so he won't bump into them. As if he was treading on thin ice (you even suggested it was best to leave you home but he's too overprotective for his own good).

You're like his little assistant. Diluc does so much paperwork through out the day and although the act was small, he finds it endearing how you would help bring the papers back to it's rightful pile or pushing the ink bowl towards him. Or during his shifts at Angel's Share, crawling around the glass utensils and trying to find a specific wine beverage on his shelf. Of course that only happens when the shop is closed, how is he going to explain to his patrons that you shrank and now live in his pocket?

He dislikes the thought of you wandering too far. It's so easy for you to get lost especially when the mansion is so large.

At night you now sleep atop the fluff of the pillow. Diluc is a calm sleeper so he won't have to worry about hitting into you. However he radiates warmth so you just subconicously roll towards to his face. He usually wakes up with you sprawled over his nose. He can hardly breath (careful, he might just sneeze too).

This all happened because of the experiements you participated with Albedo. Diluc ensures that doesn't happen again. It will take some tencaious effort to convince him otherwise.

Scaramouche

Fuck this guy. He treats you like his new pet, a new toy (though you technically are one). He has this arrogant, smug and sadistic look as if he was a predator looking at his prey and grabs you by the collar before dangling you up in the air.

"Hmph, looks like the tables have turned," he says while toying with your state. You tell him he's just angry because he's short himself and mad that everyone else in the Fatui organization is taller than him. Scaramouche demon face activated. He's about to devour you. (Maybe you should keep your mouth shut this time. Honestly your relationship with him is pretty weird).

His hat is so fun to play with. You'd swing around like Tarzan using the strings that were hanging from it. His head was your playground now which annoys him to an enourmous extent because it makes him look ridiculous. Scaramouche will have a hard time catching you since you move around so much. Climb around him, especially the back of his neck. He'll start wheezing when you tickle him there.

The type to put you in a box but also the type to keep you on his shoulders. Being relied on makes him feel taller (lmfao). Scaramouche seemse to have developed a habit to poke your cheeks whenever he needed your attention and you bit him back once when he pushed too hard that you nearly fell off. Despite your size, your teeth still hurt. He threatens to put you back into the box if you don't behave and the outcome ends with a full out brawl as he tries to grab you again while you run around, pulling the strands of his hair to climb on top of his hat. (This is literally Tom and Jerry wtf.)

After transforming back, he outwardly admits his disappointmen. Scaramouche says it suits you better (when he actually meant that he highly prefers you small). You marked his words, keeping an extra vial for your own entertainment in the near future.

Xiao

Xiao was face-palming against his forehead real hard about this. For the love of Rex Lapis, what kind of trouble have you gotten yourself into this time? First it was the child incident, now you're the size of his finger? Good grief, looks like he will have to keep an eye on you from now on but at the same time he's scared to get too close, you are nothing but a tiny mortal in which he would have to double his effort to look after.

He lets you sit at the crown of his head rather than anywhere else. You insisted since it was easier to see everything at a nice distance (plus he's short so you won't have to worry about him bumping into door frames). You noticed that Xiao also has a little strand sticking out from the center (ahoge) and you sometimes grab onto it for stability. Turns out he's quite sensitive there and winces when you pull too hard.

For the remaining week as the antedote was being prepared, Xiao became extremely aggressive over your well-being, he looks as if he's ready to massacre everything in his way...which he did. Clears out the monsters off the path before going on daily strolls with you, you wouldn't have to lift a finger from now on. No one except for him is allowed to hold you unless they're a trustworthy person. You could feel his sharp eyes glued on you like a hawk when walking into the grasp of Zhongli's hand.

You once accidentally tripped into his almond tofu when he wasn't looking and he almost ate you. Turns out being small made his job as your gaurdian ten times harder (especially when you're the clumsy type). If you were to fall off the table, he would have to catch you right? Xiao often bumps into furnitures in the process...ouch!

He's very soft. It's all over his forehead, his mouth, his eyes. When he looks at you, his tense eatures melted away and there's an invisible fondness over them as he cradles you in his palm. The way you snuggle in them is lke the most precious thing in the world.

When you turn back, there's a wave of relief. He was really stressed out you know?

Zhongli

His first thought is to get you as far as he can from the Funeral Parlour before Hu Tao finds you. Who knows what that child might have in mind. Zhongli takes one of his empty tea pots and urges you to go inside, or carries a tea cup with you in it, he likes placing you on objects while carrying you around.

Zhongli realizes that you can no longer use the household items like before so he has to remake them to your standards- especially when he realized he doesn't have the mora to buy you a dollhouse. He improvises. Takes a handkerchief to make your blanket, his cups for your bathtub, Zhongli had to cut the foot into byte-sized too. But in terms of clothes, well he had to make them as well. Living thousands of years would mean he would have lot of experience. Sewing was one of them luckily. But that would mean he has to take your measurements as well. In the end, most of the things he made were dresses since they were alot easier.

You like to sneak in between his shirt and his vest tucked behind the coat he wears. Unfortunately Zhongli doesn't seem to have visible pockets (most likely the reason why he doesn't carry mora either), though if you don't hold on tight you might just slip down his vest and right to his stomach. It makes him chuckle when that happens even if the amount of effort to get you out took more than he thought since his attire is quite complicated to put on. If you really want to climb on him, he'll find a seperate pouch (but realizes it won't be a good idea when there's alot of pick-pocketers in Liyue streets).

All of a sudden he reads you bedtime stories. It's some sort of inner instinct that tells him he's taking care of a child now (he's right though). You realized that his voice was equivalent to a thunder's roar due to size difference. He would have to whisper now.

It will always be part of his precious memories when you turned pocket-sized. Zhongli still keeps the clothing he made somewhere in his closets too.

Kaeya

Amused by this eventful situation. Absolutely thrilled! He's not evil like Scaramouche but this new version of his s/o is both adorable and fun at the same time. You're so easy to tickle, just one poke using his finger against your hips makes you yelp. Sometimes he twirls your hair or taps your forehead gently despite your protest, he's so handsy like always in an affectionate yet annoying way.

Kaeya picks you up and places you among the fluffy comfort of his feathery scarf. You sneezed, the last time he cleaned it was before he went on a mission with the knights. Though you have to admit, it's the best feeling in the world. It's so soft you might sink deeper into the fabric. He likes to put you in places where he can talk to you easily, sometimes on the table while he downs on his wine. Normally you have to take the bottle away before it gets too much, now you have to push it away which he finds very entertaining at your futile attempts.

"Don't you have anything better to do?" you tell him. Since you turned byte-sized, he can't seem to stop playing around. Takes his two fingers and pretends they're legs walking across the surface. You would turn around and he halts, Kaeya sends you his signature grin. When he promises that he wouldn't do anything funny, you would let him hold you. Since hugs are out of the equation, Kaeya gives you his finger instead to wrap your arms around. He can't get enough seeing you like this, things he couldn't do when you were normal-sized. he enjoys your reactions way too much.

His favourite pass time is helping you brush your hair because the hairbursh is too big for you to handle. Kaeya ensure he's handling things delicately but he would love to help style it for you as well. Pretty please? At this point one request turns to another because he's having way too much fun. But it couldn't be helped since you would need his assistance in almost everything so there's really no escaping.

You were so happy when things were normal again but Kaeya would bring this up again during your conversations (how next time he would like to put you in his drinks while you're wearing a swim suit).

Albedo

Legit blurted out if he could put you on a hamster wheel.

What about trying out the little maze he just made?

Or participating in a race against slimes of different elements?

No? Okay, then he'll just turn you back.

Albedo isn't going deal with this as along as he can help it (especially when he remembers what Klee did to him when he turned small.)

heartbreak avenue (3) || albedo x reader

heartbreak avenue (1) heartbreak avenue (2) -- tell me how, do you do this thing called living? when theres nothing more to gain. gn reader -- ignore the link below idk how tf to hyperlink on mobile but that’s ur part 4 ig

damn. imagine missing mond so much that you visit just for the vibes and accidentally become a one time vigilante for dominating over a couple abyss mages

how oddly specific!

you moment.

TO BE FAIR, you didn't mean to and also ur just strong with that 245% crit damage ugh yeah yeah get it ig

it was night time, like, idk 1am and you were in this cloak because idk look swaggy and comfortable

abyss mage went ŏ̸̡̡̹̘͉̫̬̬̭̘̙̝͐͒̆̈́̒̿̄́͠͝ǒ̸̧̺͕̣̬̝̱͈̭̭̻̮̈̏̔͆̑̀̍ǫ̵̡̜̲̭̠̤̰̹͍̣͎̤̈́̓̍͠ḩ̴̡͍̣̹̯̭̩̮̣̩̭́̔̀̍͊̂͒́̆͘͜͝͝ȃ̷̧̡̢̡̨̛̪͓̤̜͕̳̦̼͊̏̃͆̓̈́̈́̽̈́͌͐̋̚ͅh̸̡̩͍̟͕̥͚̰̰̟̮̖̪̉̈́͛͂̍̾a̸̧̢͕̙̞̳̩͈̲͉͕̒̆̎̐̎̍̀͊͘̚͝h̸̡̼͓̝͕̫̤̰̱̬̣̗͚̙̀͜ and you were like "lmao shut up"

and like it did! because you made it shut up and also mans diluc was watching in his dark knight hero thingy

of course you noticed his presence from the beginning, you just wanted to piss him off and act like he wasn't there at all

you walked. straight past him like he was actually on the bridge in the middle and you just w al ked .

i mean ofc he gonna say something. and he did. dude said "who r u"

stared at him directly in the eye and said "the embryo made of chewed bubblegum."

he stared. sh o ck ed . what were you even saying

"jk im a resident of mondstadt, visiting from my liyue trip."

"and how do i know you arent lying?"

you sighed and grabbed your dendro vision, letting him look at the frame. "its incased in a mondstadt styled frame." after a few seconds, you put it back. "if that is all, i'll be going."

"k"

"literally fuck off" you responded and walked inside.

sometimes you forget how rude mondstadt people are lmao loser.

ok so like this donna girl really went up to you like "JFKLSJFLKSDJFL NUMBER ??? HELLO ?? UMM THE WAY YOU SAVED MONDSTADT RLKDFFC" and you resisted every urge to flip her off on the spot.

you just stayed and let her talk, smiling through all of it. your hood was still on but it was quite windy s ooo

its been ten minutes. girl please let us go. you were literally begging for anyone to cut in because ur too nice (or unbothered) to tell her to shut up even though you totally went off on diluc aadahahhshdf

and someone did! not the one you expected though.

"good evening donna, and... oh? who would you be?"

ALBEDO LMAO GET STICKBUGGED? ? ? ?? AH a hjfkahfjah . im so funny .

guys i meant that ironically please

anyway

you got even more uncomfortable lmao and you just looked at him and smiled. what do you respond? "no one of importance."

he heard your voice, saw your eyes and it registered. it was you...

or was that what he wanted to believe?

cause this whole time hes been waiting for you, only using experiments as a thing to pass time. it got... a little more lonelier, because nothing could replace you.

he decided to not believe it. because 1) you knew well they welcomed you with open arms, so there would be no need to hide yourself

(which is also proof of how much the whole situation fucked up your thinking)

a second of silence before he continues on the conversation with normal evening meeting stuff things idk

then ur like "ahhshaaajk i must be taking my leave now for matters i will not disclose ahaha skidoosh"

skidoosh

so you go to the big venti statue next to the cathedral and just stand. stare. yikes

no ones out right now and theres nothing to do. but you remember this place because its where the both of yall would eat together whenever he had free time (which wasnt that often, but he still made the effort)

you look up to the sky, counting all the stars like you used to.

no ones gonna know that you're here, you decided on that. you only visited because you simply missed it, but after this, you were going back to liyue.

no ones gonna know. because no one needs to know. no one needs to know that you were here. that would only cause more trouble to the situation you tried to avoid

albedo ends up catching up to you later, still having some spark of hope left that it really was you

i mean lowkey there isnt really anything saying it wasnt. he wanted to believe that he was just overthinking when he thought it really wasnt you

like you look the same. sound the same. its just the reasoning of you coming here, but he can push that aside

"(y/n)."

you flinch but didnt react with anything else. he doesnt need to know that its you.

"(y/n)?"

you turn around to meet his eyes as he was approaching you. slightly distancing yourself another inch away as you were not used to the proximity, you responded, "i'm afraid i'm not the one you're looking for."

albedo stops for a moment, and was about to apologize,, but then

yknow that wind i mentioned earlier? like right after donna started bothering you

yeah that same wind blew ur hood off! lmao L

okay time to get serious !

you stay composed and sighed, your breath visible in the cold air.

so your features are exposed, and its so obviously you, like theres literally no way it cannot be you

"it really is you..." he doesnt understand why youre not admitting to it. "(y/n), please.."

you shake your head and walk away but mans grabs your wrist gently

"(y/n), whats wr-" he starts, but youre quick to respond

"im not (y/n)." you flat out said it and looked right into his eyes. and you swear there were small tears even if he was deemed nonchalant.

he doesnt understand, its your physical features, and your same energy, there is no other person that completely matches it.

he pulls you closer to examine this black smudge on your hand, a small yelp of surprise coming from you.

"this is... ink," he studied the properties of the substance. "you responded to my letter a day ago. (y/n)... i know by now. there's no reason to hide it."

you step away, freeing your hand from his grasp. your voice broke, tears forming in the corners of your eyes. "i'm not... i'm not (y/n). i never will be. i'll never be so vulnerable again, i'll never be so naive again, i'll never be so lonely again, i will never ever be anything like they were again."

your vision blurred, but you werent oblivious to the tears streaming down his face as well. reaching to brush them away, you paused and let it drop to his shoulder instead.

"albedo. i... the (y/n) you knew... they're gone now. and if i could revert back to them any time, i would, i swear, but... i'm al-... they..." you buried your head in your hands. "i'm broken. to the point that i refuse to identify as the (y/n) you know me by."

doesnt know what to say, so he almost pulls you into a hug before you move out of the way. something you never did.

"don't... please. it never works out in the end." you shake your head, facing the other way. "for me at least."

"..we could work together, no?" he tried, still oblivious about your feelings towards him.

"only if you're willing to cross your moral boundaries," you looked back and tilted your head. taking a deep breath, you continued, "but you know that neither of us are willing to do that."

he couldn't say anything, because as much as he hated to admit something for once, you were right about that. at this point, he would've thought that literally any extent would've been fine to reach to bring you back.

yet in multiple situations where he's doubted himself before, theres always a line he will never cross.

"...i wish you the best. treat her well because i worked hard." you walked away without him stopping you this time. i worked hard. not we worked hard.

even if you had honestly felt that way, there was no chance the old you wouldve actually voiced that.

and so he watched you slip from his grasp again, only this time, he stopped himself from holding you back from his own will.

yet he swears- the next time he meets you again, he will bring you back.

I haven't seen you post in a while, I hope you've been doing okay? How is everything? Hope it's been a good year so far for you 💕💕

You're too kind, u & everyone who made inquiries, bless ur hearts.. im sorry for disappearing, but yeah, I don't have net— using my phone credit and hope this posts..

I tried to record my voice answering this, like I sometimes did on tik, suddenly ended up trying to muffle the floods of my burning tears, so now I have an awkward vid of me talking then weeping out of nowhere, which a good reason for me to keep up the no cry habit, heh.. but seriously, I suppose I'm fine till I be conscious of it.. its much easier for not to talk .. even tho I'm aching to be back in thy company, lonely in my foresight to catch on to the present that joins us, hand held out to reach like minded souls but shying from the fear of forgetfulness occurring..

I'm fine tho, did few new stuff, merely drowning in too muchness and nothingness as usual, this month I guess you could say I took an act of mad fury in search of any happy source because the echoing silence and the swarm of sadness nipping on my brain cells thickened, and the reasoning merged with the obscene. So instead of giving my guardians the usual of 3/4 of my earnings last month for net and groceries, I spent it all. Ya know, as it was told to me it mine to do as I please? As being prevented any chance of work if it was possible, 't was supposed to be spent on art supplies & measly delights craved for years ?

Before hand, I've been begging them to take me for months to get any clothing or whatever, be it the first time I ever see a shop, then just to drive around, then just me peaking to the outside when the front door is open, merely seeking change I suppose. They kept vaguely promising me until they refused point blank— getting tired of my nagging, then their car just stopped working till this day. Its in the workshop rn..

Anyway, befouled by despair, needing the mere basics of life and not granted, I was delighted when i found a site to buy from cheap & pretty, I pressed buy without any further considerations, or taking their permission and thrilled to be able get gifts for my siblings too. I say gifts but really they are deprived necessities too and not even much just one each cuz well, they are 5 of my babies and to start with the top of priorities; we all draw

I could already see it, they can't help themselves; heck seeped through the clenched gates of their mouths, trying desperately to poison me with undirect attempts this time, cuz I bought for my sibs they're out of the option of calling me selfish. I was upping the same trance like state of vague existence dealing with them, absorbing their insults and degrading just to make sure my shi arrives safe.

Unfortunate for me, the site chose the worst carrier in this country

I did everything in my power to make it into their convenience, by embarrassingly messaging the carrier daily, they took a week of promising to deliver and flanking so my guardians reached a heated level of threatening, waving their hands nd almost tossing shi at mE saying that they don't care if they came and if i dared to order something again they'll do this and that. Not allowing me to open the door for the delivery guy when he comes, blaming me for missing vaccination dates (they kept missing them even before)& missing going to important places(again, they just didn't go to for ages), made them loose sleep, etc etc— in turn, I seen red and regretfully blew up.

I screamed at them its literally the only time I ever did this, it BECAUSE it easier on them & I'll do what I want whatever anyway, & to stop interrupting me while I try to explain things , then they suddnly back done and be like I'm not mad at u I'm mad at the delivery ppl, that they are proud of me for being able to do all this, and such sort. I left them to cool in my room, Idk how I did it but must have slam-gripped something so hard it chipped most of my short nails & cracked one, was glad I didn't hurt my drawing hand but yeah, goofy mani

They robbed me of the joy of anticipation & the dissipation of apathy, I started to lose sleep again and my liberating dreams left me and I don't think I remember leaving bed.

But still, If not force myself to do things.. there'll be nothing for me if I don't.. at least I know im able of that

I got my guardians happy tho after another tiresome refusal, by trying out one of those Uber-eat like local apps here, since they have no car and being disabled & ill, I ordered McDonald's for the first time. Slythry behind their backs per habit, told them someone coming and they had that look again, but thankfully the guy came through and didn't steal my money, heh. For a big 1800 calories meal I suppose it was passable, the happy fam faces I got was the real treat..

Oh with that thing with the credit card stating I owe them money, waited weeks & nobody got back to us? They started taking from my guardian's account directly to pay it, saying oh we did send you warnings--- TO THE SHADOWY LINES OF THEIR POSTERIOR A.K.A NOWHERE. Thankfully the account is mostly empty nd just for random transactions, i alerted my guardians not to use it. And again, my god, another round of endless calls and promises started, and we wait again so they just don't act as if we owe them a frking 17k dollars that we don't have.. was panicking cuz I have nothing and but my guardians were weirdly comforting about it and told me not to worry

One thing good bout no net is it made me stop thinking about life in general, and stop the tiny unnoticeable prick of misery when I have no input to share, trying not to helplessly compare people just living, in inflated style or not, in media, to my isolated-most-of-my-life style and missing much of that organic "life experiences and chances", heh. At least, my situation would be favorable to me if it was ever possible for it to let me have peace, or have the simple knowledge I'm not virtually imprisoned and have never familiarised with nothing of this world but the surrounding walls.. its nice to have more time to be consumed by muse and day dreaming that flutters life through my dull being and sing chorus of inspiring means for art to flow and finds its way delicately onto my realised canvas.. but no, I continued drawing whilst sight blurred with salty droplets contradicting that happy tintin dance on tiktok I worked so long on just cuz I couldn't stop, not the tears or the mad scribbles of determined intention to visualise the mourned excitement I need, hating everything I make

Somehow the lilac dream still intrudes, visualising me friends, living, in a quaint home, maybe we roommate, arm in arm we go to make every fracture of fate's encounters a disgusting adventurous thrill, like building a maze of cardboard or chasing each other in the dark.. maybe getting that half bleached head and endless ear pericings ... then it dies and I totally forget it..

But what those awesome headphones helped me do, literally blocks all their voices listening to Sev losing it and I can Waltz around not feeling gutted to go and interfere or play the referee each time. But I can't wear them forever, gives me a bad headache, and honestly; I can't be too neglectful.. my sibs hates me for it already hehe

At least these clothing came true to their measurements, felt the new sensations on how everything I wore hugs me & learnt the baffling ways on how "gender" and region plays different tunes on the same measurements. Getting fitting things felt like suddenly there's hope to be, for myself to be me, and ease this severe disassociation between who I am, and what my body is .. from how little I see myself nd consider it worthy of anything because of how long it been living like a phantom among people.. to numb this dysphoria until it be gone one day

Saddened that the only site I can't order from again if they keep using that awful carrier

...

I missed our country's 91 national day, too. They made sales everything 91 riyal so.. but knowing the sellers here, I don't think most of em went true with their offers.. Horrible news tho on the celebrations, sigh

I turned this into a dear diary, guess bothered you enough today, sorry

So thankful to yous, Idk if I can be back, but I'll remain creating, and will keep the thought alive of being tickled when sharing my creations with your viewing pleasure somehow

'till then my precious dears, take care 💛🙏

26.9.2021, 8 pm, sleeping

Hi u and ur blog are so cute !! can i request hc for how the brothers apologize after a fight (where they realize they're wrong)? Tysm! good luck to ur blog and i'll keep supporting u 💖

hi lovely, thank u so so much !! this is my first request so thank you for that too <3 i hope you enjoy it! also, i assumed you were talking about the obey me brothers, but lmk if you meant something else! i’m gonna split this into two posts, too, since it’s a lot.

– how the obey me brothers apologize after a fight (pt.1)

> lucifer

it’s going to take him a lot of thinking and missing you to get him to apologize.

this guy is the proudest demon in the devildom. apologizing, unfortunately, has never come easily to him.

lucifer will always think he’s right, so get ready for a long session of pretending the other doesn’t exist :/

and even if lucifer finds out he was wrong, he won’t admit it. not immediately, at least.

eventually, lucifer will begin to miss the warmth next to him in bed. he’ll find himself thinking about the things he said to you. he begins to think that MAYBE... it wouldn’t hurt to ask for forgiveness every once in a while.

what a human you are, he thinks. nobody has ever made me reflect on my actions like this.

you’ll find your dear lucifer calling you to come early before a meeting one day. immediately, you think he’s going to demand you to apologize for the other day, and stand in front of him with strong eyes, not ready to back down

instead, he goes behind the judge’s table, taking out a large bouquet of your favorite flowers.

“i’m sorry for the accusations i made against you last week. i was... i was wrong. will you forgive me, my love?”

> mammon

you’re mammon’s treasure. his precious human. you’re worth more than all the diamonds in the world, and in his eyes, you shine brighter too.

but the raw greed he’d always felt in his bones was never going to go away, would it? even with you in his life, he’d still always want more.

it was the third time he had blew a date off to attend to another “jackpot opportunity”... that ended up making him blow all his money instead

when mammon got home, in low spirits from his latest fail, he found lucifer waiting for him. “where’s _? it’s late and they haven’t come home yet. the rain tonight is extremely heavy too.”

“hell if i know. why don’tcha ca- wait. wait a minute.”

oh shit. mammon turns on his heel, running back out the door. he ran and ran until he reached majolish, where the two of you were supposed to meet four hours ago.

and there you were, crouched in front of the store, sopping wet and shivering. the scary thing was that you didn’t look angry, just sad. tired.

“you finally showed up. thanks, asshole.”

you stood up, walking right past him.

i’m so uncool... mammon couldn’t believe he did that to you, his only one. you deserve so much better than him. maybe i really am scum after all.

but what mattered more than what he did was what he could do now. with that thought, his body moved like it was on auto-pilot.

and right there in the rain, as if he was the male lead of some cheesy romance movie, he turned around, running after you. grabbing your wrist, he pulled you into his embrace.

“dammit, i’m so stupid and i’m sorry, baby. give me one more chance and i swear on diavolo’s name that i won’t ever let myself treat ya like this ever again. please.”

> leviathan

envy is a difficult thing to be accustomed to.

levi knows you love him and more than he’d like to admit, he knows he loves you too. that’s all he should need, right?

but envy is an evil thing, really.

so evil that it pushed him to accuse you of never loving him, just using him to get to his brothers.

(which, in blatant truth, is an insane accusation. why would you use him to date his brothers? you literally LIVE with all of them???)

and when levi felt your hand connect with his cheek, he knew he messed up big time.

“leviathan, i have NEVER taken advantage of you. you’ve been my best friend since the beginning of this exchange and not long after that, my boyfriend. and you know that. how dare you accuse me of thinking about anybody else when it’s only ever been you?”

after seeing you walk out of his room, levi slumped down in defeat. he knew what he said couldn’t have been farther from the truth.

he’ll have trouble figuring out how to apologize, leading you two to not talk for a few days

a text message? no, not sincere enough. should i order a cloud-writing thing? no, too grand...

eventually, he realizes the perfect way to show how sorry he was

you’ll find him knocking at your door one night, when the newest episode of “the magical ruri hanai: demon girl” is airing. you only knew because he was always so excited to watch it with you every week. cutie.

“i-i know this may not seem like a lot, but instead of watching today’s episode, i wanted to just... just talk to you. and apologize. um. is that okay?”

> satan

satan didn’t mean to yell, he swears. not ever at you, at least.

and it’s the worst excuse, really, but he was just filled with so much anger after mammon sold one of his less easily-obtainable books that he couldn’t help but raise his voice.

you sweet thing... you had only come to him to tell him that you loved the book he recommended to you, but he had shouted out of irritation, wanting to be alone

and satan regretted it the moment you turned away from him. no, before that. when he saw your eyes gloss over? when he saw you flinch from the sheer volume of his voice? well, it didn’t matter anymore, did it?

i’m the worst. making them cry like that.

after taking a few minutes to calm down, he went looking for you. satan found you in your room, sniffling into your pillow. you must’ve not even heard him walk in.

he’ll sit on the bedside, whispering your name softly. you stiffen immediately.

you’ll feel a hand on the small of your back, one so warm, so full of love, so familiar, that you almost want to turn to him, but you don’t

he’ll smooth out your hair and rub between your shoulder blades until your sniffling stops and he finds the right words to say to you.

“please look at me, darling. i’m so sorry for what i said. it’s no excuse, but i was angry at something else, not you. never you. let me make it up to you.”

hope u liked it !! part two coming soon! :D sorry if it wasn’t exactly what you wanted :(

i think my biggest issue with how twitter handles drama is just my my issue with twitter is how fast they respond/react... like the hivemind of seeing one thing with little context and going wild with it and spreading it to everyone and everything before the creator probably even knows whats happening (not saying what fun.dy said was okay at all but like... some of the stuff the people on twt are adding on without the context is... :|)

Oh absolutely ur right like. This instance not As much but

I remember when eret was on james charles' love or host and one other guy was talking about his own experiences and struggles with realizing hes bi. And twitter blew up because they thought eret had Laughed at him?? Even tho literally it was cuz they werent paying attention n was on they phone n like

Twitter is Built in a way thats like. What is given the most attention in a short period of time is put up and teending high n stuff. So often if something is said that is Shocking and makes people concerned, it gets spread So quickly often without much context or its jus. Not easy to Find the source for things. N like u said sometimes ccs dont get the chance to even See what its bout before its spread so far

But ya w fundy's situation Right Now. Yes. Absolutely i understand whats upset bout like ya that sucks. However im seeing So much spread without context or even warping whats the big deal. Literally seein ppl trying to involve schlatt somehow and like the specific tweet that had me postin that thing was something like 'this is why you cant say sapnap, karl, the dream team isnt funny' like. What?

In order, which companions would be your favorite to least favorite (also ur great btw)

OOO great question (also no u omg)

Nicholas Valentino - who’da thunk right

Paladin Danse - I really love his story and character progression, at the time of playing it literally blew my mind to learn about danse and go through the story with him, the only thing is that I wish it was more attentive to his voice lines afterward blind betrayal. He also has a fat ass

Hancock - this man literally owns my entire actual heart everytime he talks I’m like uwu who you callin sunshine you little man. He’s a fun traveling companion and adheres most to my play style. I wish he had a personal quest and a little more depth in game but besides that 9/10. Give us a kiss

Dogmeat - dog good. Good boy dog, best big boy

Deacon - dude what a fun guy. He makes me genuinely laugh and is a wild time to keep with you, also interesting person altogether. But because of the whole compulsive liar thing it’s hard to tell if he’s genuine so that makes him a little shallow to me in that aspect, especially with no personal quest, but his personality more than makes up for it

Piper - ok I’m putting piper dead in the center (ish) because I really love her and her quips and snark, but lack of personal quests really kills it for me and I hate it!! She’s such a great character!! MORE DEPTH AND CHANCES FOR INTERACTION PLEASE!! And compared to the other previous companions feels just a little blazé to travel with. But I still love her

Cait - I put Cait in middle ish too because I like her journey of coming out of addiction and how you can change and how she warms up to the player character, but I’ve never travelled with her tbh so I don’t have any stories that make me like attached to her or anything. She’s fun tho I like her accent and spunk

Preston Garvey - LISTEN I LOVE PRESTON but unfortunately the game just be like it is and just makes him a fetch quest guy which SUCKS because he’s genuinely one of the best people in the game and I love his story and who he is but...the game just makes me not wanna talk to him :(

Curie- IVE NEVER TRAVELLED WITH CURIE but I mean, French accent. She’s really really too good for this world and is so nice and caring. Obviously new to the world so kinda naïve but so wholesome. But that’s not who I am I’m here for angst. Love you cutie-pie

Robert MacCready - I really like his backstory and why he’s doing what he’s doing, but the first time I met him he was mean and I was like >:0 and he’s too mean for my play style. We just don’t mesh well. Sorry rob. I think we need to see other people

Codsworth - I love you codsworth but...I just...compared to all the other options I never really have a want to travel with you. I’m sorry. Nothing against you I think you’re cute and a great way to keep the player reminded of who they were prewar

X6-88 - What a cool guy tbh. He has so much more emotion and feeling than what people take him for and I really like him, it’s just, by the time I get to him I’ve been traveling with someone else (nick) for way too long and I’m attached and I’m like...noooo I wanna keep my buddy with me. I wish he had just a little extra meat on his character development bones tho. I think he was done dirty

Strong - where’s the flavor? Where’s the flavor in this? I don’t taste anything

Hey ⑇ p.js

a park jisung oneshot

genre : fluff

wc : 4k

The screams got noticeably louder when a familiar tune began to play from the speakers.

A bead of sweat trickled from the side of your forehead down to your neck as you desperately tried to fan yourself with your hands. Joined by a few other fans, the six members of NCT Dream were in the middle of the crowd, dancing to their latest song, "Boom". You hadn't expected this to happen—actually, none of the people here had, not even the host of the occasion. It was merely a coincidence, you thought. For Korean idols to appear and eventually join this random K-Pop dance event was something out of a fangirl's dream, your dream, and everyone else's for that matter.

As you rapped Jaemin's lines along with the crowd, you let your eyes take in as much of your bias as you could. Park Jisung was indeed just a few meters away from you. Hell, you hadn't had the chance to go to concerts your whole life, but guess what? Your very first one was free, and it was better than those VIP seats that you couldn't afford with the five bucks you called your "savings".

It was hot. It felt like the sun's rays were stabbing your skin, and the heat from being squished in the middle of the cluster of sweaty bodies certainly didn't help either. You ignored the pounding in your head and focused on Jisung who was now dancing to Chewing Gum. The corners of your lips twitched upward. It's been years since the song was released, and you could still remember the curly hair that had brought you into the fandom.

Despite the obvious changes from 2016 Jisung and the present, you could still feel the childlike innocence that radiated from him, the absolute cuteness that caught your eye when you first watched their debut video.

Minutes passed, and they were finally done. The host was now talking to the group, thanking them as each of the members took their turn in shaking his hand. Most of the people were filming the moment, wanting to have something to remember the experience with. You would've been doing the same, but you weren't. It didn't occur to your mind that you should've been doing something like taking a picture, of recording a video on your phone. Instead of doing any of these, you screamed.

"I LOVE YOU PARK JISUNG!"

You had screamed at the top of your lungs, your shrill voice piercing through and drowning out every other noise. Silence suddenly existed in the busy area you were in thanks to you, and you hadn't noticed what you'd done until Jisung's eyes locked with yours.

Actually, all eyes were on you, but it was as if you and Jisung were the only ones there, as cliché as it sounded. Was it mentioned that you were wearing a shirt with Jisung's name and face imprinted on it? And that your backpack was embedded with NCT enamel pins, half of them being, again, Jisung's face. Well, now you remembered.

Finally, you snapped out of your trance and slapped a hand over your mouth, face flushing when you realised the amount of attention being directed to you. A few people started laughing, giggling, whatever. Some went "aww" at your adorable reaction. This made you look down at your feet, and because you did so, you failed to see how Jisung's cheeks reddened, too.

×

Having finished your grieving session, you walk down the stairs to grab a glass of water, phone in hand. You've been wailing in your room for the past few hours, and you basically let your heart out as your parents weren't home yet. But you were probably loud enough that your neighbours may have thought of calling the police, which they thankfully hadn't.

"Legit, I wouldn't be surprised if Jisung has a fanboy crush on you right now," Kim clicked her tongue, her voice seemingly laced with excitement.

Videos of NCT Dream's appearance earlier had started to circulate the internet, not one from any of the social media platforms you used didn't have at least ten posts about the afternoon event downtown.

Of course, that wasn't what had gotten you riled up.

There were clips dedicated to you, most having your face clearly shown in them. Notifications from your phone blew up the moment you got home, friends and strangers spamming you with messages, and you weren't surprised that some even had threats.

Apparently, a lot had seen how Jisung reacted, and some speculations of you being someone more than a fan began to spread across the whole fandom. Oh boy, how you wished.

"Um, no," you retorted, placing the glass on the coaster as you plopped yourself onto the couch. "Did you even see my face in those videos? I looked like crap! Jisung probably felt embarrassed!"

"That's not the overly confident Y/N I know," Kim laughed through the phone. You roll your eyes at her comment. "You looked cute! Like, you looked haggard as fuck, but it was the pretty type of haggard!"

"What does that even mean?" You were annoyed, but you couldn't help but laugh at her statement. "This isn't a fanfiction, Kim."

She groaned, "Oh shut up, ten bucks to you if you don't get involved with NCT's Jisung within a month."

"Are you serious?" you replied, enthused. "You do know that I'm totally winning that bet?"

"Yeah, sure." As she spoke, you heard your phone emit a soft ring from the coffee table. You lean forward from the couch to peak at the screen, there was a notification from your social media, someone had just sent you a message.

"Was that yours?" Kim asked. Your response was a mere hum as you took the device into your hand. It was from a user whose name was literally "akzkjzjsj", and you almost ignored it if it weren't for Kim's comment; "I bet it's Jisung."

Squinting, you saw how the person's icon was a picture of the ceiling, nothing else but a light bulb in the image, like it had been taken just now for a one time use.

akzkjzjsj

: hey

Curious, you were. It didn't seem like a bot. Maybe the person would give you threats, too? It made sense, as it was an account that had just been made.

PJiuwusuwung

: whats up?

akzkjzjsj

: do u know nct

You scoffed, wasn't that already obvious? Ignoring Kim's voice, you typed in a reply.

PJiuwusuwung

: this is legit a jisung fan account ur talking to

akzkjzjsj

: ok

: can we meet up tomorok?

: tomorrow*

PJiuwusuwung

: um what i dont even know u???

akzkjzjsj

: that dog cafe downtown tom at 3 pm

: Nthnkzs (:

Your eyebrows furrowed. "What?" you let out a confused noise, beginning to type once again.

PJiuwusuwung

: wtf !

: what makes u think i'll go !

: hEllo? !

Noticing that your messages weren't sending, you clicked on the person's icon. A wry laugh bubbled from your throat, the person had blocked you. You exited the application and placed the phone back onto the small table.

"Are you done ignoring me?" Kim's irritated voice made you sigh. "What happened? Wait! Don't tell me Jisung actually contacted you."

"No, it wasn't him," you began, "Some guy—or girl, just asked to meet up tomorrow at that dog cafe we go to a lot. And guess what? The asshole blocked me before I could even reply."

"Don't go," she said with a stern tone. "It might be sasaengs, you should be careful when going out. Some people can be dumb enough to do something crazy before thinking twice."

Kim was right, but you decided to brush it off. "Calm down, it's not like I was planning to go anyway," you chuckled lightly, shaking your head.

"Yeah, good to know."

×

"Dad, I'm going out!"

"Where to?" he questioned. Slipping your shoes on, you thought of what your best friend had told you the night before. You technically weren't going to the cafe. There was a sale in the small store downtown, and you didn't want to pass the chance to get your hands on K-Pop merch for lower prices. Obviously, you had to ask for money from your mother, and she was reluctant to give you any, but you had begged enough that she was finally just forced to do so.

"I'm going to meet up with Kim downtown."

"Have fun," he replied. "Don't stay out too late."

After half an hour, you finally arrived. You entered the store, but not without bumping into a few bodies, the place was filled with people after all. Noticing how many customers crowded around the NCT section, you lowered your cap, and you snickered silently. Why were you acting like this? You thought you were being too dramatic, they probably had no clue who you were, anyway.

Your hand hovered an inch above the mask you wore before you stopped, hearing the conversation of the girls by the stand.

"Have you seen that video Jisung? The one where he acted weird when that one fan suddenly screamed "I love you" out loud?" one of them asked, studying Jisung's photocard in her hand.

"Who hasn't? Ugh, seriously, I would've went if I had known that Dream would show up!" the other whined. "The girl is so lucky, all the members looked at her at the same time! I would sell my kidney just to experience that!"

A shiver ran down your spine. It certainly wasn't nice to hear people talking about you, even though it wasn't anything bad, it made you uncomfortable.

Saving the money given to you was undeniably the better option rather than staying here. Right when you turned your back to walk out of the store, your head bumped into someone's chest. You softly mumbled an apology and stepped aside.

A hand grabbed your arm, and you felt yourself stiffen. Fuck, were you recognized? You didn't even wear the bag you wore yesterday, and you had normal clothes on, not those unofficial NCT shirts you usually used. How could someone possibly. . You tried to jerk your arm away from the person's grasp, but his voice stopped you.

"Good thing you didn't remove your mask," he remarked before pulling you out of the store. You knew better than to attract attention to yourself and the boy, and because you had an idea of who he was, you didn't cry for help. Once the two of you were a good distance away from the shop, you pulled your arm out of his grip and stepped back.

"What do you—"

"Don't worry! I won't do anything to you," the boy chuckled, shrugging his shoulders awkwardly. You look at him, he wasn't Jisung, the neon hair peaking out from the front of his hat said otherwise.

"Zhon—"

"Hey now! No blowing our covers!" Chenle hushed you as he crossed his arms, sending you a playful glare. He noticed your confused expression and sighed. "Why are you even here? Didn't we tell you to go to the dog cafe down the street?"

"Wh—" you paused. Realisation hits you like a truck and you gasp, hands moving to slap your cheeks. The person who had messaged you last night, the one who'd asked you to meet up. Was it Chenle?? "Why did you want to meet me?"

"Me? Oh no, not me! All we did was talk to you for Jisung," he explained, voice retreating to a soft whisper at the end of his sentence. Before he could say anything else, you cut him off.

"We?"

He tilted his head in confusion before letting out a sound and clasping his hands together. "I mean me, and the other members, aside from the youngest."

"You see," he continued, "Jisung basically developed a crush on you when he saw you yesterday! He couldn't stop asking himself, and us, what your name was and if he was your favourite among all the members—which was obvious because his face was literally on your shirt."

Chenle shuts his mouth, realising what he was doing. "I'm sorry for babbling. Jisung's waiting for you in the cafe, you should go now!"

He twirls you around and gives your back a push, snapping you out. "Wait, I—"

"Follow me," another boy shows up in front of you. You feel your head pound from everything that's happening, but you follow him nonetheless as he crosses the street. It takes the two of you a few minutes to get to the doors of the cafe, and you almost feel like fainting right there and then.

"I-I still have so many questions," you stare up at the person who escorted you to the cafe. The familiar eyes were enough for you to know that you were talking to Lee Jeno. "Can I pleas—"

"You should get in and sit down," he assured, giving you a pat on the shoulder. "You'll have your questions answered in there."

You nodded your head and tiredly pushed passed the door, the bell ringing from the motion. Puppies started to swarm around your feet, and you began to feel better as you squatted down in an attempt to stop the dizziness you felt.

As you pet the small poodle softly on its head, you take notice of the person who knelt beside you. Raising your head, your eyes immediately meet his. Jisung's face blushes a bright red, and you head the choked howling from the other side of the cafe. The other three members were clearly here.

"H-Hey," he uttered softly, averting his gaze onto the puppies that played with you. "I'm Park Jisung."

Despite the awkwardness, you didn't stop the laugh that bubble from your throat, and Jisung was glad that you didn't, because your voice truly was music to his ears.

"You didn't have to introduce yourself, Jisung." You wanted to give yourself a good ol' pat on the back as you smiled at him, making him even more flustered than before. It was weird, you should've been the one unable to talk properly! He was your idol, after all.

"Do you—I—uh, should—" Jisung was being the exact meme you'd expected him to be, and you felt your lips twitch at his cuteness.

"Let's take a seat on the tables—I mean chairs, the chairs, yes," he kept on stammering, standing up and holding a hand out for you. Now it's your turn to be awkward, staring at his hand for a long time before feeling the heat rise up to your ears.

"Oh, I'm supposed to—" you took his hand and stood up. The other members couldn't stop themselves from making noise. Chenle, who had already entered silently from behind the two of you, would've burst out laughing if it weren't for the four covering his mouth.

The two of you settle at the table further inside of the cafe, cautious of the fans that may possibly pass by. Jisung sat across from you, facing away from the transparent walls. Silence lasted for a long moment before he finally spoke up, "So, how long have you been a fan of our group?"

You looked up from the puppy on your lap and bit back a smile. He actually spoke without stuttering this time. "I started liking NCT when I saw Dream's debut video."

You saw the interest sparkle from Jisung's eyes as he leaned forward, intrigued. "I was actually skeptical about it first, because I wasn't quite a fan of cutesy concepts. But once I watched it, your unit became my favourite group."

"Why's that?" he wondered, tilting his head to the side cutely. An action so adorable that it made your heart skip a beat.

"W-Well, first of all, the song was catchy," you shifted on your seat, avoiding his gaze. "The vocals and raps were everything. I even spent my time trying to learn the choreography!"

You were about to start talking again before you remembered who was sitting in front of you. It was hard to do anything when you knew that the Park Jisung was giving all his attention to you.

The corners of Jisung's mouth quirked into a grin, he knew his effect on you, but he didn't want that to ruin this rare opportunity to be able to spend his time with someone he liked. "Hey." His voice made your shoulders jump. "Let's try to be comfortable with each other. Just talk to me, and I'll listen."

Because I want to get to know you better.

"Actually," he began when you finally faced him, "I was wondering if—"

"Sorry to interrupt," Renjun's voice startled the both of you, and Jaemin had to slap his shoulder to stop him from giggling. "Your drinks are with us,"

The two boys moved to the side of your table and placed each beverage on the coaster provided. Your eyebrows raise when you realize that the one given to you was your favourite. Jaemin was beaming, and seeing Renjun give you a polite smile, you decided not to question it and thanked them before they retreated back to their spot.

Either they stalked you hardcore, or they asked the lady in the counter for your usual.

"G-Go on," you shyly urge Jisung to continue, looking down into the glass as you look a sip from the straw.

"Can I get your number?"

He'd said it so softly, so sweetly, and oh so smoothly that you almost choked, shocked at his straightforward question. You face becomes beet red and you clumsily try to get an answer out.

Jisung sees how you react and panics as well, "I m-mean you don't have to! I just—"

"It's okay!" you cut him off, shaking your head profusely. He went silent, and so did you, not knowing what to say. What's next? Your mind was a total mess as you tried to think. Finally, you decided on getting your phone out, but he beats you to it, handing you his phone with a new contact ready to be added.

He knew that your first da—meeting, wouldn't go well. Jisung was an idol, and you were his fan. Although he was glad that you didn't go brain-dead, it was still a shame that the two of you couldn't speak to each other properly as it was, clearly, awkward.

That's why he thought that getting your number would be best, as he could easily talk to you without you seeing him get flustered about everything you did. It was an idea that he was proud of, so he couldn't help but bite his lip in an attempt to hide his smile as he watched you type in your number.

"H-Here," you return the gadget, looking away embarrassed and bewildered. Park Jisung asked you for your number. Park Jisung has your number. Park Jisung plans to contact you after all of this. The Park Jisung, actually knows you?

Jisung shot up from his seat, arm sticking out ready to catch you when you almost fell off your seat sideways. He moved to kneel beside you, pressing a hand onto your forehead and taking your wrist into the other, "Are you okay?"

It felt like your body was on fire when he touched you. "I-I-I am! Yeah, I'm good! Totally good!" you yelped, gently peeling his hand away from your head.

"But you're hot to the touch!" he protested.

"That's because I'm blushing!" you shook your head, pulling him up to stand. "I'm not sick, I'm just flustered."

"O-oh," he mutters, rubbing the back of his neck. "Sorry about that."

"Don't worry, it's not your fault!" Well it is his fault, WHAT WERE YOU SAYING? You mentally slapped yourself and opened your mouth to speak.

"I—"

"Jisung!" a voice softly hissed. Donghyuck moved hastily, slamming his hands onto the table harshly. He turns to your and gives you a smile. "Hello, Y/N."

"Hi?"

The boy laughs and turns back to his friend, shooting Jisung a panicked glare. "We have to go. Now. The manager is looking for us!"

Both your eyes widen and the two of you stand up in unison. Haechan pats Jisung on the chest before hurrying back, and Jisung looks back at you.

"I can see that you have to go," you gestured to the boys in chaos from the other side of the room. You quickly took notice of the apologetic face he had. "Don't be sorry, I understand. Now go! I don't want any of you getting in trouble."

Jisung nodded and took your hand, giving it a gentle squeeze. Your breath hitched when he pecked your cheek before he runs out of the store with the other members, but not without sending you a last wave. You stood there, dumbfounded, a hand on the place where Jisung had kissed you.

A moment passes and you finally recollect yourself, staggering toward the counter to pay for the drinks you had. The lady smiled and returned the money, "Those boys already paid."

You uttered a soft "oh" before nodding your head and walking out of the cafe. Damn, the past hour felt like an eternity! You were dead on your feet when you arrived home, and you quietly made your way upstairs to your room as your father's snores echoed through the living room.

Crashing down onto the softness of your bed, you let out a tired moan. It didn't take long before you felt yourself drifting off to sleep.

×

A vibration from your leg woke you up, and you groaned as you sat up, rubbing your eyes and looking around your room. You yawned, stretching your arms out and arching your back. "That was one hell of a dream."

You reached for the phone that had gotten out of your pocket, and you blink. Why were you wearing the clothes you had on in your dream? A gasp escapes your lips and you quickly unlock your phone. An unknown number had sent you a message.

Unknown #

: hey

: its mee

You

: who is me?

: j88sufn?

: jisung??

Fingers shaking, you clicked your tongue as you had wanted to slap yourself for being so nervous.

Unknown #

: your one and only :))

You wanted to yell at the top of your lungs, but all that came out was a croak, your voice getting stuck down your throat.

You

: BUT i thought it was a dream?

: are u messing w me

The person takes time to respond before the bubble disappears. Instead, they sent a picture of you playing with the dog in the cafe you were in earlier.

Unknown #

: certainly wasn't a dream

: anywayyy how r u?

You take a full minute to process what was happening and slowly let your thumbs type.

UWUSUNG

: hold that thought

: i gtg for practice, i'll ttyl c:

: ♥️

What? Did Jisung just send you a heart? You, Y/N L/N, could talk to Park Jisung anytime you wanted to. It felt like a dream, like you were being one of those delusional fangirls. But you weren't, because this was real, you concluded after biting onto your arm.

You hadn't sent a reply back after that, as it was too much for you to take in. This only happens when your crush is in the same school as you, not when your crush is an actual idol from SM Entertainment!

You almost threw your phone the moment it rang, someone was calling you. Was it Jisung? No! He left to practice!

The contact "Kim✨😘" flashed from the screen and you sighed in relief, feeling your shoulders relax before you answered the call. Not waiting for her to make a sound, you squealed into the mic, earning a shout from her.

"What the actual FUCK?" she growled. You shrugged her clear annoyance off and started rambling about what happened. Kim, on the other hand, couldn't understand a word you were saying, telling you to shut up.

"Okay, calmly, tell me what happened," she told you, letting you breathe in normally. As you were about to speak, your phone vibrated, and you held it in front of you to check the screen. Jisung had sent you a picture of himself, although it seemed like it was taken by someone else. He was posing for the camera, a sheepish grin on his face as he went with the awkward peace sign.

You let out a laugh at this, finding the picture, which was presumably taken by Chenle, cute. You replied with a heart after saving the image.

"Hey." You heard her huff. "Did you hit your head or something?"

"Hey," you repeated, lips a permanent smile. "Let's meet up tomorrow."

"Sure, but why?"

"Because you're getting your ten bucks tomorrow."

i’m finally all caught up with @thepenumbrapodcast​ ‘s juno steel stories! here are my discordant thoughts on the story and the characters.

(i did this with the magnus archives season one, too! check it out here.)

SPOILERS FOR JUNO STEEL from s1e1 to s3ep2

general plot stuff:

this show. THIS SHOW. is written so well. the characterization is top-notch. the characters are fleshed out and interesting and engaging and they all grow and change and are affected by people and environments and time and events. they’re not static in the slightest.

i haven’t come across a story that deals with depression and suicidal idealization so well. i’m thoroughly impressed with how the writers both portrayed them and how well they have (so far) portrayed the healing process. wowowow.

THE LGBT REPRESENTATION IS OFF THE CHARTS. QUEERS LISTEN TO THIS SHOW. they have a nonbinary politician?? mlm romance and kiss in the first episode???? main character is nb with he/him pronouns??? SO MANY BADASS SAPPHIC SPY/MAFIA COUPLES.....IT TUGS AT MY HEART. the big strong guy is asexual??? i could go on for days but spoilers! just know that genuinely, you will not be disappointed.

this show has two main focuses/themes: trust and the future. it’s been so fantastic to see how juno and the other characters view both themes and how they changed themselves and/or others while encountering those themes in their everyday life.

ramses o’flaherty and the entire plotline that came with him was absolutely top-notch. it blew me away. ramses is a true complicated character, a grey area that makes you question everything you believe in. the storyline tackles politics, morals, and values while keeping it exciting and entertaining. it’s definitely one of my favorite storylines ever.

the writers are truly incredible. i’m really in awe. they inspire me!  i wish i had the energy right now to give them the praise essay that they deserve but i’m really tired and i want to get this posted. someday!

the worldbuilding is the perfect balance between two extremes that a lot of scifi authors really struggle with. juno explains how a (sort of) functioning mars city works in a way that feels natural and easy to understand, and the world he describes is both familiar and fascinating. although the environment is different, the audience is all too familiar with corruption and capitalism and classism. they keep the world relatable while giving it some really new and funky details (do i want a cat with six eyes and a stinger? of course! do i want to step outside for more than five hours and get radiation poisoning? that’s up for interpretation). they also chose a great route in making this story take place in the aftermath of (what seems to be) a galactic war instead of taking the traditional Save The World, End The War scifi route. it’s refreshing, and again, relatable (especially to me: i was born after 9/11 and have lived through the entirety of the war in afghanistan so the underlining feeling that hyperion city has that Something is Going To Go Wrong....i feel that).

there is so much more i want to say but this has been sitting in my drafts for weeks and i want to get it posted!

tl;dr: juno steel is really a fantastic work of art. it’s engaging and relatable and teaches valuable lessons about healing, trusting, and moving on in ways i have never seen another piece of media do so successfully. please give it a listen if you have a chance!

some character/character arc thoughts under the cut :)

juno:

god so dumb. just so fucking stupid. i love him.

i’m going to be honest. s1 and the beginning of s2 Juno was really hard for me to listen to. the way he treated others obviously was, to put it lightly, not the best (the monitor incident with rita comes to mind; i really hated that). it almost got repetitive, and since i’m already not a big fan of the depressed-asshole trope i was kind of hanging by a thread by the time ramses came around.

god am i glad i stuck around. his character growth and maturity within the second half of season two and the beginning of season three has been so satisfying! it hasn’t been perfect, but that’s part of the reason why it’s so good--it’s realistic and believable. he’s realized where his faults lie and is making a physical and mental effort to better himself. he’s even doing it verbally, explaining to people he trusts (rita) that he’s trying to be better and then actually acting on it. too often we see the depressed-asshole say the “i’m trying to be better!” line but don’t see any actions following it that signify that effort--that was my fear going into this. but that’s really, truly not the case here, and it’s such a breath of fresh air. plus, in-canon-wise, i’m so happy for juno he’s come so far!

okay nonbinary king i see you

GET THIS LADY A CAT PLEASE.

that moment during the end of s2 when he found that baby rabbit in the sewers.....god.

juno appreciate rita challenge (accepted!)

his voice......is so soothing. except when he yells but he’s better now we’ve established that

i LOVE how as soon as he figures out that he likes you he sticks to you like glue. that’s super funny and cute and also fits him perfectly

miss dahlia rose if you’re out there.....

his complicated relationship with ramses was so fascinating and important. i loved listening to that storyline.

juno: “there’s no way in hell i’m doing this, fuck off” juno, five minutes later: [is doing it]

that’s pretty much the beginning plot of every episode lol ur so valid juno we love u

he’s ability to make the dumbest decisions continues to astound me. he likes to talk about how mick is always getting himself in trouble but god juno you’re really not one to talk

the fact that, in a world that literally runs on tech, he has no idea how a coms works. that’s so fucking funny. if you ignore the backstory that comes behind it.

did juno ever tell alessandra that he made it out of the desert alive or is she just out there in hyperion city somewhere mourning him with her wife?

i already sort of wrote on juno’s backstory but it’s so good. so good.

he’s so fucking soft. he loves so much!!!! and that scares him!!!! but he’s working on it!!!!!

rita:

is she the love of my life or do i just relate heavily to her? who knows

actually no we’re gonna talk about this

rita penumbrapodcast, queen of adhd. queen of oversharing. queen of tangents. queen of love. queen of excitement. queen of caring for her friends more than herself. queen of incredible intelligence shown in an unconventional way. queen of being underappreciated.

s1 and the beginning of s2 really stung me because i’ve been in rita’s positon--used as a punching bag by someone i care deeply about because it’s better me than someone else, because i’m willing to sacrifice my own health and safety for the sake of giving them an outlet. we put it under the guise of “helping”, but we don’t realize until later that it’s really not; we’re just letting them get away with hurting themselves and hurting us. the monitor incident comes to mind again. i actually had to pause and take a step away after hearing juno yell and the glass break--although my abusive friendships thankfully never got violent, that kind of unbridled anger was all too familiar and i was begging out loud for her to leave. she handles it like a champ, and i honestly can’t say whether or not that’s a good or bad thing: good because she knows he doesn’t mean it or bad because she’s used to it? because it’s later revealed that juno’s treated her poorly from the first day they met. i was really worried that their relationship was going to end up being static, “depressed-asshole bullies quirky female sidekick and she never fights back because she loves him” trope. but, thankfully, they’re not!

towards the end of s2 and the beginning of s3 we didn’t just see growth in juno, we saw growth in rita. she confronts juno through a thetabot down in the sewers, calling him out on his self-destructive tendencies and his habit of doing important things without anyone else’s help (in this case, disappearing for weeks without telling her where he was). she points out that maybe the only way for him to appreciate her is for her to do the same thing--disappear for weeks, forcing him to realize just how much he needs her. thankfully, this is after juno’s Big Realization, and he sincerely apologizes for his treatment of her and assures her that he’s trying to be better. (and, side note, but that apology was a good one. a really good one. he verbally acknowledges his many mistakes, including the one rita specifically mentioned, acknowledges that he does not deserve her forgiveness, tells her what he’s trying to do to be better, and then apologizes and asks for her help. that’s good. take notes, people.) later that season, she takes initiative for what seems to be the first time, coming up with a solid, well-thought-out plan, enacting it on her own, and saving both an entire city and her boss. you could probably hear my cheers from wherever you are on earth, because they were there and they were loud! rita saving the day mixed with juno breaking through the mind control with his overwhelming love and appreciation for her.....god. good stuff.

rita buying juno’s office as a surprise for him.......i Will cry

literally she’s just so wonderful i love her so much

every time she talks i’m like [one billion heart emojis mixed with like forty crying emojis]

RITA SPINOFF WHEN. i come from the critical role community so yall know for a fact i’ll back it on kickstarter

once her and juno’s relationship reaches a healthy balance (and they’re already well on their way which i’m so happy about!) they’re going to be so good together. so powerful. the Ultimate cheery vs broody relationship (although juno is less broody at this point and more....gentle asshole. we love growth). they were unstoppable before, but now? god help the galaxy lol

the fact that rita can just casually hack into literally any system in the galaxy is so.......impressive? hot? yeah.

please get this woman a girlfriend and a cat

rita x franny xoxo

RITA BACKSTORY WHEN. PLEASE KEVIN AND SOPHIE PLEASE AS A RITA STAN I AM POLITELY BEGGING YOU.

rita is now in space, which is an interesting development. i just.....”rita in space” is not something i would have ever guessed at a week ago

wait oh my god.

i was sitting here thinking rita has some sort of trust fund/is secretly rich and that’s how she bought juno’s office and kept it afloat, but with the most recent episode’s developments it’s probably equally if not more likely that she either hacked into the nearest bank to give herself the creds needed or hacked the person she was buying it from to make it seem like she had made the payments. i literally adore her whoops

the little rita episodes make me so happy and i hope we get more of them!

tldr: i love her and she deserves the world and more, i’m glad her relationship with juno has changed into something a lot healthier with juno’s Realization mid-season-two, i hope she realizes the hero she already is in season three

peter:

.........oh how the turntables.

peter, season one: juno come with me so we can be together forever and travel the galaxy! i think i love you! juno: aw babe i wish i could but i’m sad and the city needs me :( peter, season three, when handed the opportunity to travel with a healing juno through the galaxy on a silver platter: actually fuck this lol i have One Job and it is to Only Think About My Current Assignment. this is smart and healthy.

this man.....this man right here officer. stole my fucking heart.

i don’t really have an essay for him because we haven’t seen enough of him to really gauge his character development beyond an obsession with debts and his aging. i’m guessing that will change this season though

the debts....what are they

can rita hack in and pay them off

god wouldn’t that be so funny. he spends his entire life trying to pay off these impossible debts and it’s stressing him out to the point where he feels he can’t focus on anything else. and one day he comes to the fam and explains everything and rita’s like “oh shit that’s easy i’ll take care of that right now!!! why didn’t you say something sooner” and hes like “what” and she’s like “yeah!” and he’s like “holy shit” and then he gets married to juno and they live happily ever after the end.

no but real talk

these debts. there’s a lot about them and the way he talks about them that really worries me. i feel like having them be simple money debt would be too easy, so maybe it’s something medical? that would explain both his obsession with his aging and his uncharacteristically excited reaction to the healing mother prime (i think that’s what it was whoops).

he also mentioned someone else before juno, someone that had some pretty strong romantic undertones. maybe they’re sick? but peter doesn’t seem like the type to throw away a relationship like that so quickly, so it doesn’t really match up that he would have someone sick and waiting for him but he’d still go after juno in season one. hmmm.

this one’s a real mystery lads. you think you have something figured out about peter nureyev but it just gives you more questions.

peter is the one mystery juno can’t solve. god, that’s good.

his voice is so good. i don’t remember who his voice actor is but they’re doing a fantastic job thank you!!!!

i actually don’t picture peter like how he’s portrayed in the official art and fanart? i wish i was an artist so i could draw him the way i see him but alas. (i still really like his official design tho!)

listen. you give me a mysterious thief that doesn’t exist and i am Forced to love him. i have a type.

thankfully peter seemed to come around during the most recent episode (s3e2 the man in glass) so i don’t think we’re going to get a repeat of season one. these debts, whatever they are, are definitely going to cause problems. i can’t wait to see what the writers do with this.

(my only fear is that it will end up fitting the “gay character has a sickness parallel to aids and it is incurable” trope. although the writers have so far done a fantastic job of writing queer characters and worlds as well as turning tropes on their heads, so even if it may seem like that’s the case in the beginning, i’ll most likely stick through it to see where they take it. i trust them).

peter i know you’ve never had a family in your life but. im gonna tell you a secret here. found family is cool and good and you’ll like it if you give it a chance.

i love him and as soon as i cut my hair short i’m gonna cosplay him. fashion king

peter nureyev makes me want to fall in love

watching (listening) to juno grow and mature was already fantastic, but to see it through the eyes of someone who respects him, cares for him, and loves him deeply? good lord.

the way peter talks about juno.....yeah.

and peter as an individual....WOW. master thief, yes wow impressive! but his growth is already focusing so much on trust and it’s been written so well. i can’t wait to see how much he continues to grow and learn to trust this season!!!

i would love to see him continue to narrate s3. i think it’s a really strong change of pace and it also puts some extra emphasis on juno’s growth while focusing on peter’s motivations and inner thoughts. i’m genuinely fine either way tho!

tl;dr: i love u emo boy i love u i love u

♥️ MY BTS WINGS TOUR IN ANAHEIM EXPERIENCE (04/01/2017) ♥️

SNEAK PEAK: The chaos in the morning for the official line to get the numbered wristbands. Soundcheck. Eye contact with Jungkook, Jimin and J-hope. BTS solos. CYPHER!!! Getting baptized by the holy J-hope. Throwing the two Mickey ears on the stage and making one of the most iconic SOPE moments in the history happen.

Enjoy~ :,)

OKAY so, I arrived there at 6:30am because I had P1 GA with soundcheck and there was already a line outside the venue with a security guard In front. At 7:45~7:50am (as soon as the security sent a go signal) EVERYBODY RAN!! I mean RAN!! It was absolutely insane and TERRIFYING!! The sound of foodsteps was so loud and the pushing was so bad that people literally fell and others just ran over them!! And this happened RIGHT in front of me! I was so scared and felt so sorry for those people! There were people falling head first, injuring their knees n legs literally drawing blood! I was just running and couldn’t see where because of the sun and I heard my friend calling out to me who was already in the line. She had to GRAB me so I wouldn’t get washed away by the TSUNAMI OF PEOPLE! Yes TSUNAMI!!! At this point I was terrified To death and thought “if this is just for the line how bad is it gonna be at the actual concert?!” And really wanted to trade for a Seated But I didn’t lol nobody with Seated wanted GA and that was completely understandable! Anyways, now we’re in the official line waiting To get our numbered wristbands (my number was 226) which wasn’t that bad. At the end of the day there were over a thousand people with GA Wristbands! Anyways, after the wristband there comes the merch line, again it was insane! In terms of length. I got sunburnt because of how Long I stood in that line under the sun! But thankfully I got my jungkook picket!! It’s huge!! At this time, it was around 1:45pm and they said the soundcheck people should line up starting at 2:45pm. I took this time to really hydrate myself since I heard people have fainted Because of dehydration. I drank 4 bottles of water! Lol 😂 but I mean I guess it helped cuz I didn’t faint. The security told the Soundcheck people to line up at 2:30 based on their numbers which was good and horrible at the same time. Their organization skills were 0!! After we lined up, they opened the doors and checked the bags and stuff and LET ME TELL U when they say the security is pretty strong..NOPE IT WAS NOT! THE SECURITY DIDNT EVEN OPEN MY BAG AND LET ME GO THROUGH!! Like wtf?? There was no picture/video allowed during the soundcheck. OH I FORGOT SOMETHING!! while we were behind the doors waiting for the security to tell us when to line up, WE COULD HEAR BTS PERFORMING INSIDE!! WE WERE LIKE shouldn’t we be in there?? Isn’t this the soundcheck we were supposed attend?? It was awful and sad af and we just chanted the lyrics from outside :,) one song I could clearly hear from outside was cypher and I was like :,,,,) I wanna be there! Okay now back to the Story: now were inside, all of soundcheck people had to stand on the left side of the runway towards the main stage. The view was great and people didn’t push at all!! They were standing still and everyone had enough space for themselves to breath and do whatever. We waited and waited until BTS came out!!! First was jimin! they were all in their sweat pants like they just came straight out from their dorm :,) No makeup no nothing AND JUNGKOOK WAS WEARING A CAP!! 😭 they all looked like college boys you see every day (BUT OF COURSE THEYRE MUCH MORE BEAUTIFUL) jungkook looked much more slim than his pictures, idk if it was becuz of the loose clothing or what but he was slim. They all Kinda looked tired too. I held up the picket as soon as they walked in and Jimin came right in front of the stage where we were at AND JIMIN MADE AN EYE CONTACT WITH ME!!! When ppl say jimin stares at u when he makes eye contact THEYRE NOT LYING!! I screamed and jumped up an down so hard THEN came Yoongi! He was in all black and looked hot af! He waved at us shortly then went back to the middle of main stage And JHOOOOOOPE!! He’s literally a living sunshine!! He was so bubbly and smiley and greeted us with such energy and positivity all the pain In my body from the last 19 years went away :,) AND THEN JUNGKOOK OMG!!! When he stood in front of the stage where we were at, I held up the Picket so high AND HE SAW IT!!! HE MADE AN EYE CONTACT WITH ME AND NODDED SHAKEGSKAVDKA!!! My baby noticed me now I can die happily :,,) Jin was pretty attentive with fans too!! He made eye contact with as many people as he could and all Jin stans were living their lives!! Then Taehyung and Namjoon. They greeted us and started rehearsing. They only did three songs first was 21st century girl 2nd save me and I CANNOT REMEMBER THE THIRD ONE😭 (it might’ve been Am I Wrong) but we all did the fan chants and it was so loud and beautiful Tae was trying so hard to hold in his smile :,) It was good and then it was over… it wasn’t an hour or even half an hour :( it was around 10 mins and then they were gone 😭 Then we got out, waiting to get into the official line for the concert, we started at 5pm. THANKFULLY they really did go by the number policy and now everything was starting to feel a lot more organized so we all were happy lol. Fast forward to getting inside the venue again I really wanted to be in front of the extended stage but there were a lot of people there already so we ended up at the side of the extended. BUT the view was excellent!! We were in the second row and could see everything perfectly! Which was awesome~ when we were waiting for the show, a girl passed out three headbands (Mickey ears) to us and asked us to throw them on the stage at the end of the concert for them. I got the silver one, the one that was had Jungkook written on the ears and wore it on my head. The security told us that if we throw anything on the stage we will get kicked out, but I told the girl who gave us the headbands to not worry and I WILL throw it for them. It was gonna be at the end of the concer anyways and at that point nobody’s gonna listen anymore. […] its 7:55pm and we’re losing our shit!!! Only 5 more minutes!! They played Spring day mv and we all sang with it! It was beautiful :,) then was VCR AND THEN NOT TODAY!!!! LIT LIT LIT!!! So good!! Sooooo good!! Since it was on the main stage I had difficulty seeing them but it still was awesome!!! People really did the fan chants throughout the whole show Their solos were so nice, YOONGI’s SOLO MAN… it was beautiful! I get chills even thinking about it! I cried, really did cry Cuz I can really relate myself with that song and the experience he went through and just the feeling, the vibe of his performance was like Re-living that experience. It was beautiful. I was wiping my tears when jimin jk jin and tae came up on the extended stage for LOST!! I STARTED SCREAMING AND JUMPING WHILE MY FACE WAS STILL WET FROM THE TEARS!! Jimin came to our side and AGAIN MADE AN EYE CONTACT WITH ME!! LET ME TELL U!! JIMIN AND JHOPE MADE ALOT OF EYE CONTACTS WITH ME THROUGHOUT THE SHOW BUT JIMIN MAN… HE STARES AT U FOR A WHOLE 10 SECONDS! WHEN HE SAW ME I BLEW A KISS AT HIM LIKE JIN AND THEN HE LOOKED DOWN omg!! It was insanely good!! JUNGKOOK ON THE OTHER HAND… I HELD UP TWO JK FANS WITH A JK SLOGAN JUST TO GET A LILL EYE CONTACT WITH HIM THROUGHOUT THE SHOW BUT I GOT NONE!!! NOT EVEN A GLANCE IM SO SAD YALL, my arms were on fire for holding the slogan so high up for such a long time but NOPE!! He kept looking up at the Seated ppl :,,,,) I’m not sad (I’m dying inside) anywayyyyys Namjoon’s solo :,) ppl did the “WE LOVE YOU” and it was beautiful! Jin’s solo was STUNNING!!! And Jhope’s was….GODLY!!! He was smiley throughout his whole solo and it was BEAUTIFUL!!!! Omg I love him so much!! CYPHER YALL… C Y P H E R!!!! FINALLY I GOT BAPTIZED BY THE HOLY JHOPE!!! JHOPE BAPTIZED OUR SIDE AND YOONGI THE OTHER! I CANT BELIEVE I WAS PART OF IT OMG ITS UNREAL!! The whole show was fantastic but I was unable to record much SINCE I WAS BUSY TRYING MY ASS TO GET NOTICED BY JUNGKOOK 😒 but I recorded wings :,) fast forward the the end of the show when they were bowing to say goodbye and I took the chance! I removed the headband from my head and threw it on the stage!! I threw it so far but thankfully It didn’t fall. I was extremely careful when throwing it and making sure it didn’t hit any of them! Now, the headband I was wearing the whole show and threw it was the silver one and the girl gave me the other (black) To throw that as well WHICH ENDED UP ON SOPE’s HEADS!!!!!! JHOPE WORE THE HEADBAND THAT WAS ON MY HEAD THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE SHOW!! CAN YALL HEAR ME SCREAMING??? AND YOONGI WORE THE BLACK ONE!! Out of all the plushies and stuffed animals on stage SOPE CHOSE THE HEADBANDS I THREW FOR THEM :,,,) IM TOUCHED!!! But the security did ask who it was and lol I played it cool like “did anyone really throw something on stage?? Smh” lmaooooooo BUT OMG THAT WAS AMAZING I FEEL BLESSED!! THANK YOU JHOPE THANK YOU SUGA!!! I love u guys so much!!! AND TO JUNGKOOK!!!! PLEASE DO LOOK DOWN SOMETIMES WHEN YOURE ON STAGE!!! THERE MIGHT BE SOMEONE RIPPING HER ARM MUSCLES HOLDING UP UR SLOGAN JUST TO GET A QUICK GLANCE FROM U!! So please 🙏🏻 lol but all in all, it was an amazing experience and it still seems unreal to me! Now I’m really glad I didn’t trade for Seated cuz I was able to make one of the most iconic SOPE moments in history happen :,) Also, I feel weird asking this but, is it normal for someone to forget some of the songs they performed after the concert?? Becuz I literally can not remember I NEED U performance (which REALLY sucks since this song was one of my most favorite songs to see live!!) and BOY IN LUV and some of the other songs in their medley and that’s HELLA depressing :,) but thankfully I clearly remember all of their solos! I forgot to tell u this but JUNGKOOKS SOLO WAS COOL AF!!! The way they edited his performance and play/showed it in the background of him singing/dancing was so beautiful and epic! It was classy! And omfg don’t even get me started about JIMINS SOLO… I’m sure you all have already seen his lie performance so I’m gonna shut up now and leave lmao Thank you for reading my crazy experience and I hope and wish for those of you who haven’t seen them live to really get a chance and attend their concert!!! And don’t worry! You WILL see them live one day! Two years ago when I started liking BTS and was already head over heels for them, they had already announced their LA concert and it was too late for me to get a ticket and all the prices were so high I couldn’t afford it. I cried myself to sleep listening to Let Me Know while they were performing literally one hour away from me. But thankfully I did get a chance to see them at Kcon LA 2016 and their Wings Tour! So do not worry 😊 you all WILL get to see them one day! Hope u have a nice day ❤ BYE~!

Make A Bet

For my Akashi-kun, @hanyamiya. I’m sorry it’s so short, I really didn’t have time like I expected to. I’m sorry for any plot holes, but I hope you like it. PS it’s only like 3,000 words it might be a bit short but I had nO TIME OKAY. PPS I might rewrite this later when I have the time. But for now enjoy ur crack

If you were looking for the official definition for the word sweet, chances were you’d find a photo of Kuroko Tetsuya. Akashi guaranteed, there was nothing and no one who was sweeter than Kuroko.

But, there was also no one more protected than Kuroko. If it weren’t for those stupid ‘lights’ of his, maybe Akashi could have scored a date. Of course, Akashi was off his luck and he couldn’t even talk to Kuroko if they weren’t in their dorm. He had even tried “Take it away”, but all that did was catch his own hair on fire. Kuroko had asked if he was okay later, and Akashi lied and said yeah.

Also, did he mention the lights even come to their dorm until night, in which Kuroko has to cast a spell to get them to go away? No? Oh, well okay, they do. It’s too bad Akashi sucks at magic, otherwise he’d have shunned them from their dorm long ago.

He probably would have done that to Midorima too, considering how he only came to their dorm to reprimand Akashi, even if Kuroko was there too.

“Akashi, there are more important matters at hand than pining over Kuroko,” Midorima chided while Akashi cleaned up both his and Kuroko’s halves of the room. “For example, the magic vacuums, nanodayo.” He knew Akashi wasn’t listening, but he still continued complaining, even as the creep smelled one of Kuroko’s favorite books. (Vanilla is an addicting smell, Akashi would defend.)

Akashi couldn’t do magic like how Midorima or Kuroko could. His magic was apparently too powerful for that, so all he got was a fizzle and pop before something blew up. Meanwhile Kuroko could probably cast perfect spells in his sleep and Midorima could just by sighing. But Akashi Seijuro, who literally had the word perfect in his name, couldn’t cast even the easiest spell.

Guess how happy his father was about that development.

The answer is very much. (Can you sense the sarcasm yet?)

“More important matters than that are getting this room clean. I never took you as the disorganized type, Akashi,” Midorima reprimanded, adjusting his glasses while he pulls out a new roll of tape for his fingers. He frowns and casts “A place for everything and everything in its place”, ignoring Akashi’s smoldering glare as he casts it so easily.

“I tried to cast a spell, but it failed. On the bright side, no one dropped dead this time,” Akashi joked, straight-faced as he always was when making jokes. (Probably the only thing he could keep straight.)

The books put themselves on the shelves in the order Akashi had them organized and the laundry folded itself. He could have done that later, he really didn’t need his second mother coming to clean up after him. Especially not when that spell got rid of the nice vanilla and cinnamon scent of the room. Yeah, double thanks.

“Honestly, your humor is nearly as bad as Aomine’s. I would recommend buying a joke book, or a new sense of humor altogether.” Triple thanks.

As appealing as it sounded, Akashi did not “accidentally” cast another spell just to spite Midorima. The guy went through enough grief bickering with Murasakibara, he deserved a break.

“And to you, perhaps a dial back on the sass would be in order,” Akashi fired back into their light-hearted banter. The two never really fought, the most of it was Midorima crying about how stubborn Akashi was with magic and how childish he could be.

Midorima didn’t respond, preferring to flip through the collection of books on the walls. Akashi walked away from him and went to flop on Kuroko’s really, really soft bed.

A moment of silence for Midorima’s dwindling sanity.

“10,000 yen that Kuroko’s lights follow him here,” Akashi said suddenly, “and that he’s a vampire.”

Yeah, it’s definitely gone now.

“Some of us do not have that kind of money, unlike you, and it’s inevitable they will. Sagittarius is 11th today,” Midorima states, as if it’s painfully obvious. Why Midorima followed that Oha-Asa thing like a religion was beyond Akashi, and why it was only incorrect regarding his luck was also beyond him. His luck was definitely always in 12th. “There’s no way Kuroko’s a vampire.”

“He is though, I’ve seen him sucking the blood from rats down in the dungeons. Although he was apologizing as much as Sakurai-kun as he did it.”

“You’re delusional, Akashi. In Kise’s exact words, ‘there’s about as much chance of Kurokocchi being a vampire as there is of Akashicchi getting a date with him.’”

Way to add insult to injury.

Akashi almost scoffed, holding out his hand. He shushed Midorima before counting off on his fingers. “We have company,” he said, and exactly three seconds later, Kuroko and his two dim lights burst into the door. “Pay up.”

“I didn’t even bet!”

“Oh, hello, Akashi-kun,” Kuroko greeted.

Akashi switched from one mood to another almost immediately when he heard Kuroko’s voice. “Hello, Kuroko,” then switched again regarding the others in the room “Kagami, Aomine. Don’t put a hole in our roof this time.” Last time Aomine and Kagami had come over, they had had the brilliant idea of jumping on Akashi’s bed, effectively breaking many springs in the mattress and also putting Aomine’s head through the roof. It had taken three of Kuroko’s spells to fix it.

“I’ll be leaving now. Good luck with your sexual tension, Akashi,” Midorima bid before practically sprinting out the door.

The remaining four stood quietly as Midorima dashed away, ditching Akashi. Aomine whistled.

“Tough luck.”

“Akashicchi’s hopeless,” Kise sighed. He used to have all of Akashi’s attention, but here they were, Kise wanting to punch his magazine as Akashi gawked at Kuroko, who scribbled something in his notebook by the river.

Akashi smiled. “It’s not hopeless if I have a chance. Aren’t you the optimist here?” Akashi looked high, for lack of better words. He always did when it came to Kuroko, and it was disturbing.

Kise rolled his eyes. He just wanted Akashi to at least stop making bedroom eyes at the poor kid. (Akashi would protest that Kise used to do the same, Kise used to be obsessed with Kuroko.)

“I am but right now each ground of friends needs a realist. It isn’t you when Kurokocchi’s around,” he sulked, sticking out his lip.

Kuroko was drawing a dog, Kise saw. Akashi had mentioned something about Kuroko having a dog (what happened to Akashi hating dogs, we’ll never know), so that must be who he’s drawing. Tetsuya Nigel, or something.

“Tetsuya Nigou, he’s a Siberian Husky,” Akashi stated. Yeah, he forgot. Akashi with his creepy fortune-teller sight but 10 times more accurate.

Akashi went back to watching Kuroko, and Kise went back to trying to get his attention. He looked through his modeling book for a good photo.

He found one of him and a kitten posing cutely. He put on his smile and held the magazine in front of Akashi’s face. “Akashicchi, look at this one, it’s really good. It’ll appeal to the younger crowd, yeah?” He laughed and pointed at the cat. Akashi glanced at it.

“It’s cute,” he said, before pushing away the magazine and “observing” Kuroko again. Kise deadpanned before pulling away the magazine. At least Kurokocchi’s got a cute dog, he thought.

Kise tapped on the edge of his magazine and watched Akashi, thinking of all the spells he could use to get his attention.

Akashi smiled to himself. Kuroko was really beautiful. That tiny smile and his shining ocean blue eyes as he drew. Every once and a while, he would move hair out of his face with his pen or chew on the lid. They were cute habits, at least to Akashi. He remembers having asked Kuroko if he needed a stress ball, he fidgeted with things so much. Of course, Kuroko had politely declined and still chewed his pen.

'Pervert.’

Akashi frowned.

“Am not.”

“Akashicchi,” Kise moped, leaning so he could see Akashi better. “10,000 yen that Kurokocchi won’t date you.”

Akashi looked up. Kise had quite the nerve to say that out of the blue, especially when Kise had actually stated how scary the redhead was multiple times.

“Be prepared to hand over your money, Kise.”

Kuroko could draw really well. At first, Akashi had expected him to be the sort to write better than he drew, but after a few hangout sessions with Kuroko, he knew better. Kuroko had even drawn Akashi a few times, always mindlessly commenting about certain aspects he liked about him. Akashi would watch as Kuroko sketched him, sometimes surrounded with different things. Mostly things like roses, books, or basketballs.

“Akashi-kun’s hair looks like a rose, and he likes to read books,” Kuroko muttered. “I’ve seen the basketball under your bed, so you must like basketball.” Observant as ever. He was nibbling on his pen again.

'Honestly, you’re a creep.’

“I do. I used to play before I came here. What about you?” Akashi was leaning over Kuroko’s shoulder, trying not to make it too obvious he was flustered at how close they were sitting.

Kuroko’s pencil swiped across the page, drawing a rose over Akashi’s left eye. “Aomine-kun and I play together sometimes. Kagami-kun tags along occasionally,” he said distractedly.

Kuroko kept drawing. Akashi watched until he finished, which must have been a while, because the sun had set before they were done. Kuroko didn’t seem upset that Akashi was watching him, and even showed him the final product.

“Akashi-kun is handsome.”

If there was anything redder than Akashi’s hair right then, it was his face.

Akashi really loved this whole second identity idea. It was amazing having someone other than Midorima calling him out on any of his sexual fantasies with Kuroko. Especially when he was with Kuroko.

'You know, the mere thought of him shouldn’t trigger the images currently running through your brain at the moment.’

It was difficult to communicate with him when he was in public, or around other people. But he had no problem with it in the middle of the library, where hardly anyone came unless you count for studying spells. Even so, Akashi was the only person there at the time, where he was trying to cast a successful spell for once in his life.

“Up, up, and away!” he cast at an old book. The spell did hit the book, but nothing actually happened to the book. One of the chairs at the table he was sitting at, on the other hand, shot across the room, knocking down a shelf of books.

'We’re in a library, you of all people shouldn’t be casting spells.’

“It’s empty, as long as I clean up after myself it’s fine,” he chided, standing up to retrieve the chair. Thankfully, it hadn’t flown too far away.

'You should have brought Shintaro, or at least Tetsuya to clean up after you.’

“Midorima was busy, and I’d rather not burden Kuroko with my mess,” Akashi said sweetly. He pulled out his wand (an heirloom from his father) and pointed it at the chair.

'Do not.’

“As you were.” Akashi watched as the chair sat there stubbornly, not moving an inch. “I didn’t break any windows.” But his arm hurt like nothing else now, some of those spells lashed back at his casting arm.

'I can see why Shintaro can’t tolerate us.’

Akashi picked up the chair and put it back, only small technical difficulties holding him back; his arm was going to hurt for a while. “Most of it is because you tried to hit Kagami with one of his spells. You could have killed him with Midorima’s magic.” He tapped his wand on the bookshelves, careful not to accidentally cast a spell.

'It wouldn’t have worked unless he was a bird.’

“Kagami’s brain is about as big as a bird’s, so he’s close enough to have been injured by the spell,” he said, now picking up the books a few at a time. He was about to open his mouth to talk again, but his 'brother’ beat him to it.

'Tetsuya’s here, without his lights for once. Do not plague our mind with inappropriate thoughts about him.’

Sure enough, Kuroko rounded the corner of one of the bookshelves, surprised to see Akashi cleaning up books. “Akashi-kun, are you okay? I heard a crash,” he worried, walking over to crouch next to him. He looked really good in his uniform, although it was a bit big for him. (There wasn’t a size smaller than the one he wore now, so he and Akashi had to get the same size every year.)

Akashi picked up a book, Kuroko following him. They both replaced the book before Akashi responded. “Yes. I wasn’t paying attention and ran into the shelf,” he smiled. He put back another while Kuroko looked at him blankly.

“You aren’t hurt? You’re holding your arm strangely,” Kuroko commented, moving to grab Akashi’s arm. Akashi swallowed at how close Kuroko was, pressing at certain spots on his arm.

“No need to worry, Kuroko. I still have a mess to clean,” he muttered at the last part, while Kuroko still moved his arm around, then froze. He looked around for a moment and sighed.

“Did Akashi-kun cast another spell?” he questioned, finally letting go of Akashi. He glared at him and crossed his arms. Akashi smiled fondly and shook his head. If this was how Kuroko acted normally, then it really wouldn’t be terrible to have him as a-

'If you finish that thought I’m taking over.’

“I did, but the outcome wasn’t as dastardly as usual.”

Kuroko reached up, and as much as Akashi wanted it to be for a kiss, he instead got a flick on the forehead. Kuroko pursed his lower lip. “Akashi-kun should be more careful. His magic is too strong for small, everyday spells.”

Akashi smiled again at Kuroko’s worrying. (He may be considered grumpy to some, but that was more towards the lights than it would ever be to Kuroko.)

Akashi decided it was time for a change in subjects. 'Don’t embarrass yourself.’

“Kuroko, are you coming to the end of the year dance tomorrow?” Akashi asked smoothly, catching Kuroko’s attention. Kuroko nodded.

“Kagami-kun and Aomine-kun have already asked me, I turned them both down. I do plan on going, though. Have you asked anyone?” he asked, reaching into his sleeve for his wand. He cast a cleaning spell on the rest of the books, and the mess disappeared.

'Don’t get ahead of yourself, either.’

“No, I haven’t. I am planning to, though. Yourself?” Akashi held out his arm for Kuroko to take, a common ritual when the lights weren’t around. Kuroko took it and smiled back.

“The same, actually,” he suddenly got that mischievous glint in his eyes again, “but I think I’ve been too busy drinking the blood from rats down in the catacombs.” There it was. Kuroko loved to pick fun at Akashi for thinking he’s a vampire. Not thinking, knowing, but the possibilities of Kuroko admitting to anything like that was low.

'Shintaro’s the superstitious one, not you.’

“Oh, then maybe you’d like to go with me?”

“Bold move, Akashi-kun. It’s getting late, we should go back to the dorm,” Kuroko said, slightly brushing off Akashi’s request. He started pulling at the other’s arm, a small command to go forward. (Much like Aomine’s “the only one who can beat me is me,” Akashi had a sort of “the only person who can boss me around is me… and Kuroko” rule.)

Akashi walked side by side with Kuroko, passing whispers back and forth, Akashi even asking about the lights and Kuroko saying they were most likely being stalked. Then Kuroko asking who was Akashi’s lucky girl, and Akashi saying it wasn’t a girl. Still, more like Kuroko teasing that he could see perfectly fine with his vampire-vision. He probably could, considering Akashi knew he was a vampire.

Only a few times did they acknowledge Aomine and Kagami, who really were hiding in the shadows. It wasn’t that difficult to notice them, they were both over 6 foot and well-built.

“Do they really think that we can’t see them?”

“Probably.”

They walked in silence, ignoring the loud crashes and accusations of “Idiot” behind them, left in their own world as they kept talking. They even let a few giggles slip as Kagami tripped on the staircase. “Clumsy as always,” Kuroko teased.

“You’re quite evil, Kuroko,” Akashi snickered. He spared a glance back at the two idiots and shook his head. Kuroko smiled and leaned closer to Akashi.

“Should we tell them to go back to their dorm?” he uttered lowly, and Akashi put his hand on his chin in fake contemplation.

His answer was obvious, “Yes,” and Kuroko slipped his arm away as Akashi went to go open the door.

The door clicked open, and Kuroko turned to Aomine and Kagami. “Thank you for worrying about me, but I’ll be fine from here on out. I trust Akashi-kun.” He bowed at a perfect angle, and the lights started bickering again, a few curses slipping out.

Akashi smiled as Kuroko wreaked havoc for the lights, letting them beat themselves up as he added fuel to the fire. “Damn it, Ahomine! It’s your fault!” “You’re the one who wouldn’t shut up!” “Actually, you both were very loud.”

“You two, Kuroko will be fine. Go back to your dorms, he is in good hands,” Akashi bid them goodbye in his own way, while Kuroko waved them off. A pair of dark red and blue eyes stared at Akashi. Kagami raised his voice first.

“If anything happens to Kuroko, we’ll make your life hell, Akashi,” he said, Aomine agreeing nonchalantly as he picked at his ear (ew). Kagami crossed his arms, looking every bit like a disapproving mother.

'Good luck.’

Kuroko nodded at them. “I am sure I can handle that myself, but thank you. Good night.” Aomine and Kagami waved and walked away, allowing Kuroko to take Akashi’s offer to go in first.

“Akashi-kun, thank you,” Kuroko said, sitting on his bed as Akashi closed the door behind him.

“For what?” The redhead inquired, taking off his shoes by the door. His heart fluttered as Kuroko curled his bare feet around the carpet and smiled. Akashi had never seen him smile like this before.

“For being you. For being Akashi-kun.”

Akashi blinked. Was that a confession? 'Sounded like one.’ “I’ll take that as a compliment,” he said, and Kuroko looked up from the floor and into his eyes. Kuroko stood up to face Akashi. He moves to stand directly in front of him.

“It was.”

Kuroko leaned forward, leaning his head against Akashi’s neck. He wrapped his arms around Akashi’s waist, making Akashi all too aware of his tender touches. Both of their heartbeats picked up speed. Akashi pulled Kuroko closer by his shoulders and moved down to his ear. “There’s 10,000 yen bet against us. Come to the dance with me?”

Kuroko understood, obviously. “Akashi-kun is the evil one here.”

His answer was obvious.

'You’re right for once. He really is a vampire.’

I am legitimately sorry for this and for anything in general. What kuroko says is up to you but in my ending he says no for the dance but yes for dating akashi-kun just so he could see him suffer.

RITES OF PASSAGE (JURY)

AUTUMN

@ Jurors: y’all play too much and it’s a miracle that I don’t have an ulcer lmao. Idk how this is all gonna turn out but I pray my placement justifies the trillion emotions I’ve had in the past 35 days

AUTUMN

One day, one day we will get it right hahaha. I don’t know why our relationship makes no sense to this day and I need you to go ham the next time we play together again. Vote wise, I just knew you could get swooped up by Hufflepuff once merge came so that led to everyone agreeing and being like we need all hands on deck to take out Hufflepuff. But yeah I hope you’re well and that you’ve gotten lots of tea and entertainment as the second juror- this was definitely the game to watch

CHIPS

Did not get to see you!! But dude I was thrilled at the idea of seeing you in this game! You are so much fun and was hoping you’d spend more time playing the game even though I know you’re busy hosting Big Brother seasons!

JULS

hi baby.. HSBSNS i’m literally so sad we were never together on a team.. but i just know the universe wasn’t ready for something so powerful. i just wanted to let you know you are so lovely and i adore you!!! my best friend yes it true.. ugh mwah i can’t wait to be in the reunion chat with so i can hug ur cute lil self 

RUTHIE

A legend! I’m sorry that we never got the chance to play together in this game and hope that you are doing well!! Congrats on making jury and I hope you are doing well!

Autumn

Everyone still talks about how hilarious you are and every round I’m like damn I really still haven’t met Max. Highkey everything happens for a reason though because we probably would’ve been on opposite sides. Plus this game was too cracked and the whole being grounded thing would’ve been your Achilles heel at merge. Anyway I’m still excited to meet you and just vibe

CHIPS

Man! Your social game! Or game in general is ON POINT! I am not even joking - for a whole tribe to go to bat for you and be willing to eliminate themselves is KING ENERGY! Especially with the number saying they felt foolish after the rock elimination. I loved getting to know you throughout the game and it was so COOL getting to see your Animal Crossing island. You were so much fun and I think that had we not been swapped onto a tribe of four that you would have ran deep in this game.

JULS

oh max.. literally i saw his icon and already told him i love him within the first hour of the cast reveal HSVSBSN i was obsessed! him landen and i quickly grouped up due to our mutual interests and i literally would die for that group chat still. max is not only so understanding and kind, but so funny and made the best out of any situation. i felt awful voting him twice in this game, but he ultimately understood which i am still grateful for.

RUTHIE

A KING! There was NEVER a dull moment with you around! I was glad that my tribe won but sad that your tribe lost in the round that you went home because I remembered you mentioning that you were grounded shortly before the swap happened. I hope that you are no longer grounded and thanks so much for all the fun times and the laughs! Sorry in advance for complaining about you in the confessionals during the first challenge, LOL. I adore you and had so much fun meeting you and playing with you!!

AUTUMN

I knew you would do this hahahaha. knew you would do some wild shit that pisses me off but reminds me why I love you. You’ll always be one of the greatest players to me so this face-off in particular means more to me a) because I prevailed lmao and b) a lot has changed since our Athena days. You’ll see in the confessionals lmao but the whole game I was like Owen can’t die because who are we without the other. We’re like the Batman and the Joker at this point hahaha. We are icons alone but legends anytime we’re put in the same room. So if we do the math, this was our second square up and that makes this The Dark Knight so maybe we’ll get to complete the trilogy and play together one more time

CHIPS

Dude! I can’t believe I pulled a rock for you! It shocked me so much.I know that our relationship in games is pretty tumultuous leaning into the fact that we just never connect, but I’m proud of that moment. It was a moment that we talked game and worked together and even got into an alliance. However, speaking to that, you did disappoint me RIGHT AT MERGE by trying to flip the vote on me. I don’t even understand. Anyway - want to play Animal Crossing?

JULS

every time i’ve played with owen, he’s been nothing less than an absolute gem. he has such a kind soul, and is one of the most kick ass players i have ever met. we worked together briefly, and even when i voted him out he was incredibly understanding of my decision and reassured me that he loves me. and i love him! every moment with him is a blessing, and i can’t wait to reunite with him at the end of this all.

RUTHIE

OH GOD, we had quite the ride! From making a final two deal on the first night (RELAX EVERYONE, this was before everyone was told they couldn’t) to me getting salty and writing your name down that led to rocks to you leaving making me feel the most emotional I have EVER felt in a game… we had a ride!! I absolutely love you and I love that we could talk game and then bounce around to other stuff like life and boys! You leaving when you did completely gutted me and had a big impact on my game and how I decided to play going forward. I cried A LOT but then got myself together and whether I make it to the final three or get fourth place I feel like I played a really good game and without you I KNOW I would not have made it this far! You are a complete ray of sunshine and I’m so glad that we got to play something together again!!

AUTUMN

Speaking of trilogies, I don’t even know what to say here lmao because I think this is the second or third time we’ve played together? And now we have Akhmim lmaaaoo. Not gonna lie had you listened to me and lived, you probably would’ve won in the end because like I said you’re the best of the best. So thank you for saving Ruthie and clearing the path hahaha. I cannot wait for you to see the confessionals lmao. I’m sure jury has told you by now that I voted you but you need to watch the video because I had no clue you were going home and I felt so bad that I threw my vote hahaha. But yes now we have something else to laugh about lmao

CHIPS

It’s seriously always a pleasure being cast in games with you! I love that you always give your all in everything. I appreciate completely that you are ALWAYS willing to talk with and try to work with me in these things. I appreciate that, even when my conversations are boring cardboard you feign interest. You are a fantastic individual who needs to be told that! I am sorry that this game affected you in such a way that you felt down and done with the community and the rigamarole. I hope you are at a happier place in your personal life now and saw that you were cast in a Tumblr Survivor season! I wish you the absolute BEST in that and hope it doesn’t create more strain on you.

JULS

we didn’t talk much, and literally right when merge happened he stole my vote so i was kinda pissed HDBDNN but i empathized with him on a personal level and what was going on with him. he was overall a very nice and chill guy, and i overall really liked him.

RUTHIE

Plot twist… up until the Owen vote I thought you were out to GET ME!! And that you and Joanna were a duo! I am SO happy that we got to play this game together. Between Owen leaving the round before and then you giving me your immunity idol to hang onto, I had so many ugly tears and it meant SO much to me. The night that you left when I gave you the idol back I really thought that I was a goner and I genuinely wanted you to use the idol on yourself. I came to terms that I was leaving and you are REALLY good at challenges and I knew you would do great if you stuck around. The fact that you SAVED ME! ME!!! Someone that didn’t think that you really wanted to work with me until the round before just completely blew my mind and I just wish we would have both made it so we could have taken over the game together! It means so much to me that you saved me and that I made it to this point because without you and you saving me with that idol I DEFINITELY would not have made it to where I am right now. I hope that everything is going well with you and your fiance and that everything is going well at work! I love you and I’m so glad we got a chance to play together, you are such a great person and I have had so much fun, thanks so much again! <3

AUTUMN

Girl. What the hell hahahaha. Ok I do really love you even though my confessionals will suggest otherwise but yeah we have tea to discuss because I loved you at the beginning but I saw the way you came after so many people that once I found out what really happened between you and Owen, that was like the last straw. It is definitely all in my confessionals haha but I did care about our alliance so for y’all to flip the vote at Final 11 last minute and not even tell the truth about what happened made me feel like yall thought my social game was for you and I was just like nah I gotta cut my losses. And then once Kevin blew up the vote at Final 10, that was the nail in the coffin. Looking back, it’s wild to see all that came out of that alliance dying/ I think that was the actual line in the sand moreso that tribe lines, which most people don’t know. But yeah we can’t get into aaaaaaaallll this right here haha so see you on the other side

CHIPS

You are an icon. That’s literally the truth. Point blank and the period. I loved getting to meet you SO MUCH! I don’t even know where to start with this. You are probably the first person in an ORG that is to the point. Someone who doesn’t beat around the bush and someone who knows how they are going to win and how they are going to get there. I am SORRY for making the round you left so so messy. I did not realize at that point how close you were to Juls so I’m sure that the back and forth was a mess. In my defence I did tell you the TRUTH in that you were getting voted and me lying about Landen was a mess. Please continue to be fantastic! And if you ever want to speak to me either here or on Discord I would welcome it gladly because I love you as a person.

JULS

GOD. my love for jules is actually infinite. it’s no secretly we’re basically the best of friends, alongside with kevin. but this was my first game that i’ve been able to play with them. they’re such a loyal and dedicated player, and i’m literally just obsessed. i constantly remind them of how much i love and adore them, but i will constantly remind them of such. they’re beautiful both inside and out, so fucking funny, and are literally just so angelic. they light up any room they walk into and if i’m joining them in jury, or seeing them at FTC i’m gonna cry because of how much i’ve missed them game wise. i literally sobbed whenever they got voted out so seeing them again will mean the world to me.

RUTHIE

UGH, a queen! I LOVED our conversations and how we would write each other novels and did not even talk game until this round when you went home! We didn’t always work together or anything but the fact that you came to me after Dan saved me and told me you didn’t vote for me meant SO MUCH. You were one of three people that talked to me after the vote and I went from feeling like I was on the bottom to having a little bit of hope. You going was a weird vote and I still don’t know the entire story and why I wasn’t clued in on it until after the fact but I am so glad I got to play with you! I hope you are doing well and as soon as we get to all talk to each other again expect a reply to the last book you left me that I never got a chance to reply to!! <3

AUTUMN

Oh my son. it’s weird because your robbery meant that I didn’t have to do it but I still feel like they did you dirty. Also I can’t believe we only had 5 rounds together it feels like we knew each other the whole time. Maybe it’s because we had the best of times and the worst of times which feels like a whole arc haha. But anyway- thank you for being you, for being funny and perceptive and cracked and hyperactive and caring and loyal and understanding. Meeting you was such a pleasant surprise and I didn’t realize how much I enjoyed our friendship until you were gone. I have no clue which video it’s in but at one point in a confessional I said “Landen’s like a damn Jack Russell Terrier” lmaaaoo. And it’s true! You will always get feisty and get into trouble but you’re a lot of fun and bring heart to everything you do and I love it

CHIPS

Dude! You were amped up SO HIGH in this game. I don’t even know where to start. You were bouncing off the walls with a million ideas and a million scenarios. And… WOW! I loved that you always remained open to working with me throughout the game and LOVED the round that we both lied and made the vote split. You are super wild and I am glad that I earned your trust in that round even if you went on to get voted out the following one. I heard that you were worried I was going to vote for you anyway and were propositioning Autumn to turn on me. Glad you didn’t!

JULS

my husband.. the loml.. and the most cracked player i have EVER played with. HDBND the first time i played with landen, our time was cut short. so i literally JUMPED whenever i saw i got to play with him again. we’ve always instantly clicked because of our similar interests, but that just brought us closer in this game. even though he pissed me off a bunch in this game, there’s not a thing i don’t adore about mr disasterprince. i’m gonna give him a big ol’ kiss when i see him :flushed: no but seriously i truly do consider him one of my best friends and i really hope to talk to him a bunch after this.

RUTHIE

This was honestly another really hard vote and I’m sorry. It was completely strategic and NEEDED to be done. This week was a very important one to me because it was the FIRST TIME that I voted with the majority and actually kinda sorta knew what was happening, haha. YOU are a complete ray of sunshine and I LOVED playing with you and watching you play. If you would have stayed there is no way anyone would have beat you in my opinion (no offense to anyone but SERIOUSLY) and when you get old enough I need you to send an audition in to be on Survivor because THAT would make for great TV!! I will never eat a marshmallow again without thinking about team hufflepuff! I love you and I hope you are doing well. I DEFINITELY could not have made it this far without you. Thank you for everything and once this thing is over I think that you, Lily, Kevin and I should revive our hufflepuff alliance chat (and maybe even add Max too, haha!)

AUTUMN

And my daughter. I WANTED YOU TO LIVE!!! And it’s in the confessionals too! But I felt like you weren’t really with me after the Landen vote and I felt like I’d be better off letting go of anyone who wouldn’t vote Kevin and then attempt to reunite Gryffindor in the process. Obviously it worked lmao but I really grew to understand you and care about you so I was relieved that you weren’t at tribal that night. Our relationship was literally the most surprising thing to me and I’m lowkey nervous to see what I wrote at the beginning cause I remember thinking you and I would never get along lmao. But anyway, you are my favorite Ravenclaw member NO CONTEST and I’m really glad we got to play together. You’re very no-nonsense and unbothered and it always made me laugh as well as wish that I wasn’t an overthinker. I always just say “it’s just not that deep” irl and I feel like that’s you as a person. You care and you don’t take anyone’s shit but you also don’t let things get to you and it was so refreshing to be around you each round while everyone’s losing their shit and you’re just like I’m not gonna be at tribal anyway so like I really don’t fucking care hahahahaha. You are the best and thank you for everything

CHIPS

I am so sorry that your senior year of school got ruined by a virus. That is honestly the worst! It displaces your mind and everything so much. I hope the best for you and really wish for a positive road forward not only for you but for everyone! I hope that you know what a great person you were and the times that we were able to connect in this game were positive experiences. I look very much forward to using Airplane Mode to play games and avoid ads.

JULS

QUEEN. SHIT. god, so at first she and i did Not talk at all, and after seeing we both mutually agreed i was probably the goat of the season i said legend.. HSBSNN and that’s when our bond began because of our interests in books. and i’m defiantly taking her suggestions into account so i have a reason to message that queen again.. also a strategic mastermind.. i love everything abt her yes it’s true.

RUTHIE

I’m sure you leaving was a very ‘What the hell???’ moment for a lot of people. This is a move that I’m still kind of unsure about, I’m not sure it was the best move but it was something I felt like I needed to do for the strategic reason of gaining Lily’s trust going forward. I’m sorry, I’m still at the point where I’m not sure that the risk was worth it but you are such a lovely person and I’m glad that we got to play together! I love that you are a LEGIT Harry Potter fan and I am happy to say that I ORDERED THE FIRST HARRY POTTER BEAUTIFULLY ILLUSTRATED BOOK THAT WE TALKED ABOUT!! :)

AUTUMN

Lil boy…. I don’t know where to begin with you lmaaaaooo. Because I adore you as a person but you really tried it in this game! And I never saw that coming. I knew this game would be intense because of all the heavyweights- Lily, Ruthie, Owen, Dan- that I’ve played with before but you are now 100% in that category. Your mist will get you far, I hope you know that. Like you are incredibly charming and personable so it’s no surprise that people flock to you and I at one point felt like you were my closest ally. I wish things had been better between us at the end? Cause like I missed the good ol days when we could both talk life and talk game. But once I found out the truth about the Final 11 vote and how you stirred the pot only for you to turn around and blow up the Lily vote at Final 10, that fall from grace was STEEP. Which is on me? Cause like maybe I could’ve forgiven you like Juls did but then maybe I wouldn’t be here because you would’ve just kept trying to dupe me round after round. SO I don’t regret anything persay but I still love you and you are the real deal

CHIPS

Honestly! Talking to you was a highlight of the game. I’m just very sad that we didn’t really speak game ever. I get that we were clearly on separate sides of the fence and that no matter what was said it probably would have been lies anyway. Also, I get that we likely would have been relaying the information to the “other side” no matter what but it was disappointing. I loved talking movies with you and am more than willing to continue speaking about them and weird ones after the season if you want.

JULS

my duo <3 HSVSBSBN honestly.. kinda glad we got pinned together even though we were 1000% already aligned. it was just so fun to play dumb. this was also my first experience Actually playing with you so having the alliance with you and jules filled me with so much joy. you guys literally MADE this game for me, and i can’t thank you guys enough for wanting to work with me. i also cried when you got voted out!!! a bunch.. i understand why people did it but it still made me so upset.. i wanted to make it to the end with you and jules so bad, so if i make it to ftc just know it’s for YALL and YALL only. i love you so much and hope you realize that, because being able to get to know you has been some of the best moments of my life!

RUTHIE

You leaving was hard. I knew it was going to happen and part of me DOES wish that I told you so that you, Juls and I could have tied up the votes and kept you around. Lily and I discussed the vote that day and were torn between the plan or you because you are a HUGE threat! We decided to do the vote split but Lily got quiet and I just kind of figured something was up so I talked to her before hand and she decided she was going to vote with Autumn and Chips and I decided that the best move for me was to (FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE) keep my mouth quiet. You are a ray of sunshine and I loved working with you during the game. I definitely couldn’t have made it this far without you and time will tell if it was a smart move or not. It was so much fun playing with you and working with you! I have no idea if you are going to take a break after this game or not but I hope we run into each other again in something in the future!! THIS HAS BEEN WILD AND FUN!

AUTUMN

Why does the hardest one have to be last oooof. I just wanna say that I meant what I said and I really enjoyed playing with you. Idk how to explain it but after you bamboozled me in Kilimanjaro, I was very ready to handle business and take out Hufflepuff by any means necessary. However I didn’t anticipate that all the rounds of us being on the same side and talking about life and game would really change me. Like I knew it was a matter of time before we took a proper shot at each other? But it was really bittersweet because I knew that you were hurting and trying to save your game and that both of our fates would be decided by one vote. My biggest thing was just knowing you would pull a lot of votes between all of Hufflepuff being on jury and me and Chips, if we walk(ed?) in. We’ll never know technically but once I started doing the math, I was like if I would vote Lily plus all the people from her actual tribe it’s a wrap. If we were different kinds of players, I think we would actually sit beside each other hahaha but that’s easier said than done since you get me and I get you. I always remembered how brilliant and strategic you were and how dumb I was for underestimating you in Kili but I never saw how compassionate and wholesome you are until this game. Basically it was a lot easier to play with you when we weren’t actually merged/ playing together lol because then I was just a strategist as supposed to now, a strategist that made (and then betrayed) a really good friend. I love you and I miss you and it was an honor to really play with you

CHIPS

I think that you should know how much I adore you. Ever since I first met you however long ago you have been one of my favorite people in this community. I know that you are good at these games and that you always play to win! I know that you always want to make genuine connections and friendships. I am NOT kidding when I say that we need to stay in communication better when we are not in a game. You are a light that I want to continue to see! Honestly hearing about Kevin or your dog or the Kindergarteners or anything else is SO pleasant and fun. You are fabulous! And you are absolutely correct in what you said in your closing statement - YOU WOULD HAVE WON!

JULS

genuinely such a kind person. i’m not used to people talking in such a proper way too, but it made lily so cute. we defiantly didn’t see eye to eye in a lot of competition, but i had so much fun with her. especially during the music video competition and the endless amount of kindness she showed me. i love her!!

RUTHIE

While as of lately, even when I vote in the minority I HAVE known who would be going home but you leaving definitely came as a shock to me tonight. We have had a CRAZY game together and definitely not been on the same page the entire time but I have loved playing with you and getting to know you! I honestly feel lost without you right now. Who am I going to talk about Disney movies with? Who am I going to talk about Disney World, mouse ears, cute date ideas, weddings, school stuff and SO MUCH MORE with? I didn’t cry, only because I worked really hard to desensitize myself to that after ‘week Owen’ because writing this out I REALLY want to cry. In the beginning you were DEFINITELY my closest ally in the game. I loved idol hunting with you and I felt like I could tell you ANYTHING and trust that you not tell anyone. I know that we kind of played against each other AND got saved by idols on the same night (which was iconic). I’ve been battling with myself over wanting you out or wanting to sit in the finals with you because if I was sitting next to you I don’t think I would have a strong chance of winning but it would be next to YOU!! I would rather lose next to you than anyone else and I honestly think you deserve to be here. Fun fact that I never told you- around 8 I asked if I could give my immunity to someone because I wanted to give it to you to insure you make it even if it meant that I leave and I was shown in the rules where it had to be done 4 hours prior to tribal. It would have been a stupid move on my part because I do want to win but if I can’t win I would have wanted it to be you. You are such a sweet soul and I KNOW we will stay friends after all this. This has been a wild and crazy ride but I got to meet and reconnect with a lot of great people and you are definitely one of them! And now I’m crying. This was hard and I don’t know HOW I’m going to make final three without you but I’m going to try.

RUTHIE

I’m not sure if this is even allowed but I just wanted to say that I have had a BLAST! This is honestly my favorite game I have ever played. The hosting has been great and this was such a good cast. I have no idea what is going to happen, if I’m going to get fourth.. (like usual), win or even get second or third place but I am very proud of myself and proud of everyone that is in the final four! Everyone here has played such different games and I can’t wait to see what happens! Thank you so much Sammy, Caeleb and Eve for hosting this, I will come back to play ANY TIME, even if it means having to play on discord! Thanks so much and thank you to everyone in the final three! If I become the last juror I have NO idea who I would vote for because everyone left is a deserving winner and has played a great game! Good luck guys! <3

TLJ THOUGHTS BC I CAN’T FUCKING HELP MYSELF 

major spoilers below pls beware

okay so first off one of my top three scenes was when rose’s sister was kicking that fucking ladder the SLOW MOTION, the RESILIENCE, the INTENSE FOCUS ON A WOC DOING SOMETHING REALLY FUCKING COOL and also just.... that we saw a resistance fighter who we didn’t know, just one of the vague “resistance” getting a long drawn out sequence? it really prefaced a lot of the later emphasis on this being  MOVEMENT not just a few heroes and their back up

LEIA USING THE FUCKING FORCE OH MY GOD I WANTED NOTHING MORE IN MY LIFE I LITERALLY NEARLY SHRIEKED 

luke throwing away the lightsaber was one of the best parts to experience in a room full of nerds there for the midnight premiere cos one guy was like WHAT??? out loud and everybody like gasped then burst out laughing

the little bursts of comedy: poe keeping hux on hold/rey’s “i can feel it” with that fuckin leaf, chewie w the roasted porg etc. were just so great 

SPEAKING OF POE CAN WE TALK ABOUT THAT FUCKING MUTINY

can we talk about how much of a fucking fighter he is i love his reckless, GOOD, fierce spirit it was such a joy to see 

rose i loved rose so much rose is such a wonderful addition to the main cast and the scene where they’re at the casino and she says she wishes she could put her fist through the entire town had me near tears FUCK UP THE SPACE CAPITALISM, ROSE

ALSO THAT SCENE. WITH THE LIGHTSPEED CRAFT RIPPING THROUGH. EVERYBODY GASPED. THE SILENCE. THE CINEMATOGRAPHY. IT. WAS. INCREDIBLE. 

and because i have to talk about it: fuck. kyle. ron. 

i was SO FUCKING NERVOUS about the entire bond plot and wanted to VOMIT because i know how reylo shippers would take it (and lol i’ve looked at the tags and YUP ITS VILE ITS HORRIBLE DONT) 

but oh my god. u fuckin blew it kyle. U HAD A CHANCE YOU WHINY SHIT BUCKET. U HAD A FUCKIN CHANCE TO LIKE IMPRESS THE GIRL UR CRUSHIN ON (bc i accept that element of reylo but if u think for one moment its fuckin reciprocated oh my god no you have misread this entire fucking movie) 

anyway i am VERY glad that they didnt go that route although shamelessly enjoyed them fighting together more than i thought i would

but i kinda liked that i enjoyed it??? i kinda like that i got this weird stab of hope that he could be good even though a) he doesn’t deserve a redemption arc and b) it wouldn’t make sense

it made his turn so much better in a way cos it was fully expected but for the briefest of moments i was like MAYBE and then lol

u dun fucked it

there is an element of annoyance tho that this big build up was just something to show what we already knew from like 5 mins of tfa that he’s a shitty ball of whiny shit

sorry i hate him so much

ANYWAY BACK TO THE GOOD GUYS “REBEL SCUM” HAD ME SCREAMING I LOVE FINN SO MUCH

there was like no need for force ghost yoda tbh but go off i guess? like honestly luke burning the jedi shit himself would have been so much better but ok

i loved every fucking second of carrie and leia but i’m so scared for what will happen in 9 cos i don’t want her to be written off hastily?????? like i don’t know how they’re going to approach that?????

but as for female heroes idek how to talk about rey but i love her

i love her belief that stretches to naivety so often, i love that she isn’t sure where she fits into everything, i love that she fights so fiercely for good regardless of that fact

i’m v sad she’s not a skywalker but i actually really like the fact that she kept up hope for her parents despite them being shitty people who abandoned her

she is so so strong and i love her so so much

i am also sad about lack of poe/finn but that was kinda expected 

i like finn/rose but i’m hesitant about them just being smushed together bc they need a romance - if they’re gonna have a romance finn/rey feels so much more organic to me?? but i’m ok with either i guess??? would rather they did not romance at all tbh???

also i have One Fear after that movie and that is poe/rey lol please don’t do that please no that little scene with them saying hello it felt like it was building to something and NO 

(i know i ship finn/poe/rey but that’s a ship which only works in the context of the three of them so nO to trying to shove them together without finn smushed in the middle)

honestly i really like that they’re going full in on irredeemable whiny baby kyle that fire all our guns shit was just a hot mess from his side i love watching this powerful but pathetic piece of shit 

he’s not scary??? BUT he’s so trying to be. he’s so trying to be the vader legend and if there’s one thing this movie proved its that LEGENDS ARE SHIT. LEGENDS GET YOU NOWHERE. IT TAKES FAILURE AND TRYING DESPITE FAILURE AND SACRIFICE AND BELIEF. NOT RIDING OFF THE BACK OF LEGENDS. 

because oh my god this was a fucking WAR MOVIE. i was reminded of rogue one quite a bit???

and that scene. that last scene. was just -- perfect. the shot where you can physically see how many people the resistance now consists of..... vs that little kid believing i just

ugh i am so so emotional

it was wonderful