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ed-recoverry · 1 year

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Reminders this Sexual Assault Awareness Month that your assault(s) are valid even if:

Your loved ones don’t believe you

Your assaulter was your lover/partner

You “didn’t fight back”

You were intoxicated

You originally consented

You had consensual sex with them in the past

You waited to speak out

You’ve never spoken out

You didn’t realize it was assault until later in life

You didn’t speak out until later in life

You didn’t go to police

You still haven’t told anyone

You were a child

You were a teenager

You were an adult

You both were children

You were wearing “provocative” clothes

You flirted with them

You pretended to like it

Penetration wasn’t involved

You “gave up” on fighting

You’re scared to tell someone

You can’t talk about it

You can talk about it, but don’t want to

The police didn’t believe you

Your “friends” didn’t/don’t believe you

You still had consensual sex with them after it happened

You never developed any mental illness/trauma-related symptoms from it

The person(s) stopped

The person(s) apologized

You thought it was consensual at the time

No one else was assaulted by them

You initiated the encounter

You orgasmed

You showed signs of arousal

You never were given an apology

Your assaulter refuses to say it was assault

Your assaulter was a family member

Your assaulter was a friend

You feel like it was your fault

You feel like you could’ve stopped it

You’re a girl

You’re a boy

You’re trans

You’re nonbinary, gender-fluid, etc.

You were bigger than them

You were stronger than them

If it was “only” once

If it happened multiple times

If you didn’t act on a bad feeling before the assault happened

If you could have escaped

If speaking out will “ruin their life”

If “it was just a mistake”

If you were warned

If it was an affair

If they were never punished

If they were punished, but it doesn’t feel like enough

There is no right or wrong way to be assaulted. There is no real or fake way to be assaulted. There is no type of assault that “isn’t that bad.” There is no assault that is your fault. You didn’t deserve it. It wasn’t okay. I believe you. I believe in you.

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borderlinejackiee · 10 days

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sickmuseum · 1 year

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I am sitting down in the shower It is this dirty type of clean That keeps me trapped in here for hours Still, I scrub and scrub until my body bleeds Convince myself I am coming clean Forget and ignore who I used to be That kid is never coming back

Bathtub - The Front Bottoms.

#cocsa survivor #sa survivor #csa survivor #sa awareness #cocsa vent #sa vent #cocsa victim #sa victim #sad writing #vent

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tobusysinking · 2 months

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“But he was just a child”

So was I

And I’m suffering and he’s not

#cw cocsa #cocsa victim #cocsa vent #cocsa survivor #tw cocsa #csa vent #tw csa implied #csa survivor #tw csa #actually mentally ill #actually ptsd #ptsd vent #personal vent #traumatic experience #actuallytraumatized #mental health #repressed memories

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flowersbark · 3 months

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having a complicated relationship with sex/sexual things after sa is so weird because like . it'll be 1 am and ill be switching through apps and ill be thirsting over a character and then ill open tumblr and i remember everything bad shes ever done to me

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medicineteeth · 7 months

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justflesh54 · 4 months

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the way i would never have experienced HALF my truck of trauma if i was born without autism.... its not fair

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iknownotthesemyhands · 2 years

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the way sibling abuse is erased constantly and treated as "normal"... to all my fellow survivors of sibling abuse: I see you. You didn't and don't deserve this. You shouldn't have been made to feel unsafe in your own home. You shouldn't have to feel like people laugh about your abuse. You shouldn't feel like you're not allowed to talk about it. I'm sorry this happened to you.

#It just makes me so so so mad #Sibling abuse #actual ptsd #cocsa survivor #txt

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unfortunatelyaugust · 2 years

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reminder that you were a child. its not your fault, even if it seems like it might be.

#csam survivor #csa vent #nccsa vent #csa survivor #cocsa survivor #csem #nccocsa #child abuse #physical abuse #mental abuse #emotional abuse #child neglect

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surviving-life · 1 month

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Flashbacks are rough. I'm still learning how to deal with them myself. I just want everyone to know it's okay. Crying is normal. Hold your favourite stuffed animal, get comfy under a hundred blankets, or hug your friend. You can get through it.

Here's a gif of the box breathing technique:

#cocsa survivor #csa survivor #dealing with flashbacks #actually ptsd #ptsd #complex ptsd #ptsd recovery #i need to find all the popular trauma tags lol

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pixiedoll2 · 18 days

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I'm a little lamb

A sacrificial lamb to their happiness

They keep dragging me to the alter

Im destined to get hurt over and over again

So they can wear the "perfect family " title

While the little lamb bleeds out in the background

#tw vent #sad poem #tw family trauma #family issues #actually cptsd #living with cptsd #cocsa survivor #csa vent #emotional abuse #dysfunctional family #toxic family #psychological abuse

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sickmuseum · 6 months

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milk and honey - rupi kaur.

#vent #cocsa survivor #cocsa vent #cocsa victim #csa survivor #sa survivor #sad writing #sa awareness #vent art #sa vent

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astronomergrump · 19 days

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Did y'all know it's SA awareness month? Cause I sure didn't! Hope all you fellow SA survivors are okay!

Take this drawing of baby bluey suffering!!! Ik this ain't my usual bugsnax content but I'd looked it up and it's April, SA awareness month. And ik that other people are suffering with the side effects of being SAed and the scars that were left, with the trauma they we're left with. But I'm proud of all you, of everything you've managed to get past and achieve. Your past doesn't define you and never will, you're more than the scars of the past. Look into the future and see yourself achieving even if it's difficult. Never give up. Someone will always be there for you, even at your lowest and scariest point. Even if you least expect it <3 I hope you have an amazing day.

#sa awareness #sa awareness month #Bluey sugarshores #sa mention #sa survivor #cocsa survivor #cocsa victim #cw blood #tw blood

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flowersbark · 4 months

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my body

my autonomy

my philosophy

my psychology

will always just be

what you made of me

#vent #vent post #cw vent #tw cocsa #cocsa victim #cocsa survivor #sa vent #sa victim #sa survivor #sa poem #poetry #cocsa poem #vent poem #vent blog #csa vent #csa victim

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xx-webfoxxez-xx · 2 years

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sometimes you need to whatever yourself through the beggining of your recovery.

I've been talking to my therapist about recovery lately, here are some thoughts.

i had to face a challenge today:

I've got a choice. I send the message to this nutritionist and begin my recovery or i say 'fuck it' because i know it will stay the same.

Then, suddenly, something clicked: people usually tell you that you've got to be ready or you gotta want to be better to start your recovery.

But the thing is: i think this is some sort of lie. That's why so many people can't relate and feel hopeless. Because when you hit rock bottom, you don't want to get better. Because getting better means getting out of this horrifying "comfort zone" bubble your brain has created. Anything outside your daily horror will sound uninteresting and maybe scary to your brain. We do it unconsciously.

I thought about it. I didn't want to fucking message the nutritionist.

I tried to not overthink it and quickly sent the message. I thought to myself whatever.

I didn't want to do it. But i did it. Baby steps.

#i hope this helps someone #recovey #actually traumatized #actuallyautistic #actually autistic #actually neurodivergent #actually bpd #trauma #childhood trauma #csa victim #recovery #csa survivor #cocsa survivor #recovery time #recovery thoughts

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tobusysinking · 2 months

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I Will Never Be Dirt Free

#sa survivor #traumatic experience #lyrics #sa awareness #csa vent #csa survivor #cocsa survivor #actually traumatized

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