selective mutism due to autism has put me in very dangerous situations throughout my life going or being non verbal can be so hard and so scary and dangerous
hereâs to disabled people who canât speak/struggle to speak. wether it be a physical thing, mental thing, or both, itâs okay. youâre not any less a person for it.
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bpd culture is misreading a text in a way that makes you think your fp hates you and almost giving yourself an anxiety attack at 4 am, but it turns out you just misread it and it's actually nothing serious
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I have bpd, of course I assume everyone is going to abandon me for no reason.
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My day everyday
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supporter <3
Reblog if you're gay, lesbian, bisexual, pansexual, asexual, transgender or a supporter.
This should be reblogged by everyone. Even if youâre straight, you should be a supporter.
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having BPD is like simultaneously being a black cat and a lost puppy
you can be the sweetest little kitty and do no wrong but thereâs nothing you can do to change some peopleâs mind about you. theyâd stereotype you and believe all the misconceptions without giving you a chance.
youâre also constantly looking for your person. your place to call home. longing for that warmth and comfort of love but you feel so helpless in a storm that doesnât seem to stop pouring. following mindlessly any person that gives you the slightest attention and being obsessed with them until you look up and realize youâve lost them and are alone again in the unforgiving storm.
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having BDP and having a fp who is harming themselves
my fp is not doing well atm and has self harmed tonight but they dont self harm which makes me feel like ive done this to them... i infect everyone around me with pain sadness and missery to the point they harm themselves i hate it i hurt so badly when hes hurting
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me at uni literally want to die
iâm literally going to kms if my grades and attendance rate donât rapidly improve like right now (i donât have the ability or motivation to put in the effort i need in order for that to happen)
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i hate my breasts theyre so small and disgusting
i hate my breasts theyre so small and ugly im too old for them to grow anymore but they look shit they dont look like a womans boobs and it makes me feel disgusting
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this neverending this
Those feelings of âevery time i want its wrongâ and âevery time i have a desire its a burdenâ and âevery effort i make is somehow draining to youâ
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If the rest of my life is like this Iâm gonna be honest⌠I will definitely be killing myself at some point
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BPD VENT
bpd life - i had a breakdown this morning because my bf woke up with a headache and was REALLY REALLY moody and off and it triggered me to fuck i couldn't function i just hid and cried every time i tried to interact i got the bare minimum which made me spiral further trying to harm despite not having the privacy or facilities to at the time, pacing round crying smashing my skull into the wall just wanting to end it all.... later he apologized for being moody and was all happy and cuddly and flirty with me and i felt euphoric like life was eternal bliss and i was so stupid to ever think it was shit and that i should cut myself or die... later on he dismisses my needs and suddenly the world is crumbling again I'm a piece of shit who no one loves no one misses and that everyone would be better if i just killed myself...... and its a never ending cycle its exhausting i love him but i wish my emotions weren't dependent on his... i wish i was healthy
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cant have my safe food... that's fine i just wont eat
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im sorry for needing help
we need to make dinner he asks me what i want i answer with one of my fave safe foods (we have like nothing in but have half the ingredients for this) he says he wont have it its shit hell have noodles which is fine but then he went on about how hes always forced to go to the shop with me...im sorry its so scary and hard for me to go on my own i rely on help it made me feel really upset and triggered and now i cant speak and im sat empty and upset that misunderstood unsupported autistic child inside me feels abandoned and not understood and ignored i feel like a burden im sick of existing make it stop.
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i wish i was healthy
experiencing medical trauma for my legs from age of 3 - 14 finally free of it... just to discover i have endometriosis and have to live the medical trauma and experiences all over again... IT NEVER ENDS
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i cant process these memories and realizations about my abuse experience, i need this to stop i need the memories and the thoughts to go away
coming off my medication has been so hard i have so many memories and realizations that i never had before about my grooming and sexual abuse / exploitation and its making me so upset my heart hurts for the poor autistic child the poor vulnerable lonely little girl who was so unaware about what was happening to her...i wish i could save her but i cant so she will destroy me instead
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cant wait for my bf and his flat mates to go to uni tomorrow i have my cutting kit and they have a blade sharpener in their kitchen I'm triggered to fuck so this is gonna be a fun day tonight is just dragging so badly i just need tomorrow to come so i can cut!!!1
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