Is there a way to make it so I never existed?

The way he circles her desperately just-

BPD VENT

bpd life - i had a breakdown this morning because my bf woke up with a headache and was REALLY REALLY moody and off and it triggered me to fuck i couldn't function i just hid and cried every time i tried to interact i got the bare minimum which made me spiral further trying to harm despite not having the privacy or facilities to at the time, pacing round crying smashing my skull into the wall just wanting to end it all.... later he apologized for being moody and was all happy and cuddly and flirty with me and i felt euphoric like life was eternal bliss and i was so stupid to ever think it was shit and that i should cut myself or die... later on he dismisses my needs and suddenly the world is crumbling again I'm a piece of shit who no one loves no one misses and that everyone would be better if i just killed myself...... and its a never ending cycle its exhausting i love him but i wish my emotions weren't dependent on his... i wish i was healthy

Creí que todo mejoraría pero solo siento que el pasar de los días no tienen ni un sentido para mi

i just want to disappear

How do I trust again?

Something's wrong again but I don't know what

Since I can’t kms, couldn’t leave my mother alone like that. I guess I’ll just destroy myself. So far no one has noticed or said anything but I know my head wasn’t this messed up just a couple years ago. Maybe I’ll be broken enough one day that no one will be able to put me back together.

They lie, it never gets easier

I need a "keeping up with Daemon Targaryen" show rn. I want EVERY details in his chaotic life.

I want to know how many crimes he commits on a daily basis and give him the praise and the attention he needed and lacked just to encourage him to do crazier things.

I'm unsurprisingly okay with not being sane at the moment.

8 and 14 year old me would be so dissapointed if they knew we made it to 20 ew what a failure

He perdido mi rumbo en esta vida y que ahora solo vivo por vivir, aunque realmente no quiero seguir.

First love or the current one ?

Whom would you choose?