Current mood: Casually suicidal, with a hint of lemon

BPD is so confusing. I don't want to be in another relationship again, I'm too afraid of them leaving me. But I want to have sex. I can't have casual sex though. Now I want more than that, I want to cuddle and be told that I'm precious and such a good girl. I want someone to tell me how good I'm doing and how proud they are of me. I want to cuddle someone to sleep while I'm wearing a t-shirt and they're completely naked. I want them to spoon me. But I'm too scared to be in another relationship. I can't deal with another person leaving me. I can't deal with anyone else, period. I'm tired of people. I'm tired of being used. I deserve to be alone. I deserve to rot. I deserve everything that comes to me but God damnit deep down I know I just want to be truly, purely, completely loved.

“i love you” until i’m sobbing because your tone slightly changed

fuck this shit they’ll never get it anyway

"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

♥︎ Whatever higher powers there may be made a mistake by letting me continue to survive another day ♥︎

sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

sorry I cried and told you I was gonna kill myself over a small thing, I have crying and wanting to kill myself over small things disorder