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It's still early when Buck wakes up, the first rays of sunlight just barely reaching into the bedroom. He stretches a little, working out the kinks in his neck, before letting his head fall to the side. There, right next to him, still fast asleep, is Tommy. The mere sight of him, all soft features and loose limbs and messy hair, makes Buck's heart swell. He likes him so much. Sometimes he doesn't even know what to do with it, those waves of want that washes over him whenever Tommy looks at him or touches him or just- or whenever Buck as much as thinks about him, to be honest. Which, embarrassingly enough, is kind of all the time.
And it's not just- the want, it's not only about sex or any of the physical stuff, although Buck certainly want that, too. But he wants- it's like, he looks at Tommy and he wants to kiss him senseless, but he also wants to- to fold laundry with him. It's not even a euphemism, Buck genuinely wants to fold laundry with Tommy. All those mundane, every day kind of things you do that you don't really think about, but still is such a big part of your life; cleaning the dishes, making dinner, going grocery shopping, doing the- the fucking taxes, too. He looks at Tommy and he wants to do it all with him. He just- he wants, so much.
Buck lets out a small sigh, before turning onto his side and moving a little bit closer, placing a hand between himself and Tommy, fingertips barely brushing the warm skin on Tommy's arm. Before, when he was with other people, Buck always wondered if he wanted too much, too soon. It's never been like that with Tommy. Buck wants, and he is pretty confident that Tommy wants, too.
Right now, though, Tommy's laying on his back, which means Buck has a perfect view of the broad expanse of his chest and stomach; naked, smooth skin that seems to go on for miles and miles. Buck allows his gaze to wander along Tommy's body, from soft curve of his neck all the way down to his waist, where it disappears beneath the duvet. Buck knows Tommy's naked under there, too. Another wave of want gently washes over him, unhurried and without any real force to it. Just a slow ebb and flow, lulling him safely onto shore.
Tommy moves then, still more asleep than anything, lifting his arm to make more space for Buck, letting it fall back over his shoulders, pulling him in closer. Buck goes willingly, scootches in closer, lets his hand move from the space between them to Tommy's chest, places his head right above Tommy's heart. Neither one of them say anything, but when Buck feels a kiss being pressed to the top of his head followed by a soft hum, Tommy's heart beating steadily beneath his ear, he thinks distantly as he drifts off to sleep again, that maybe being here right now is what he wants the most.
#hello i don't know what came over me but have this tiny soft thing#evan buckley#tommy kinard#bucktommy#bucktommy fic#911 fic#nea writes
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Randome TF141 headcanons
Some of them are weird. But I just know.
Price:
Never go to the toilet after him
has a hut in the forest for fishing but mostly ends up fucking a local in there
because this man is a whore
he is still the most loyal when he is in a relationship
his favorite food is Shepard's pie or red jelly but not the green one and no one understands why
has so hard Daddy issues that he fathers everyone
uses AXE dark temptation to get rid of the cigar smell in his house
smells like Tom Ford tobacco vanilla
his love language is gift - giving and acts of service
NSFW:
he is a munch everyone knows it but still he is the biggest munch
Breeding kink
He is a whore but just because he thinks he doesn't deserve more than a one nighstands , please give this man a soft wife to dot on - preferably me
he hates Anal sex but riming is okay in his cards
says he is straight but bottomed Simon and Johnny on many occasions and likes to get blowies from or favorite pretty boy :)
prefers hair down there
Ghost:
He only Shops at Lidl you will never see him at Tesco or Sainsbury, even with all the coupons and tricks Lidl is cheaper. You will never see him somewhere else.
He hates London with all his heart, if there were a hate page for London he would be the admin. Dirty tube, bad football, and too many tourists.
He has a deep hate against a parrot, if parrots have zero haters he is dead.
Read Jane Austin and enjoyed it.
Has a book of stupid jokes in his apartment and laughs about them
When he is in love he is the cutest man alive, but somehow still creepy, he knows your favorite things in everything even your favorite underwear company even tho you never told anyone.
uses 5 - 1 shampoo .... from Lidl (still very keen on hygiene)
NSFW
He watches stepsiblings' porn unapologetically
Has a mommy kink. I could go into heavy detail about it
He isn't a rough lover more of a service Dom
Doesn't care about hair down there
Soap:
He sometimes feels left out in his family, his siblings have children and "normal" jobs. His family doesn't see his lifestyle as something to be proud of
Except for his mom, he is such a momma boy but in a good way.
Was a sperm doner once (more than once) but only because he is a good guy with fertile genes
His mohawk was an accident, he decided it looked "fresh" so it stayed.
Watches DC instead of Marvel...... why?
Uses Hugo Boss, bottled Night, got it from his grandma, and never used anything else
NSFW:
Gaz was his BI awakening: after las Almas and the broken shoulder he couldn't wank himself properly, and he got so frustrated because he couldn't even sleep properly with a woman because of it, and he didn't just want to go to the Pub and say "Hey my shoulder is broken can you wank me". So in his half-drunk state, he asked Gaz. And after promising each other they would never talk about it, Kyle did help him. Johnny never cummed that fast. He isn't sure if it was because of Kyle's skilled hands, Kyle's fucking hot body, or that he didn't have a wank in two weeks. And when Kyle licked his cum that was his awakening that he likes men and Women. Of course, he returned the favor after he was healed:)
His favorite porn category is Woman Masturbating or Male Masturbating, everything that is solo is 100000 times better than "real porn".
He lost his Virginity very Young to an older Woman. Johnny always flexed about this, but this isn't a reason to flex.
When you sleep with him - you need to be on the pill because he is mister fucks so hard that every condom breaks.
He wears lingerie sometimes - he pulls it better off than some of us :(
cums way too fast but can last like 4-6 rounds
loves tit fucking
Gaz:
smells like Bleu de Chanel
had a more expensive skincare routine than you
he loves skincare
He grew up with two moms.
He loves listening to Taylor Swift. No one can convince me otherwise.
Is deeply in love with me
He played Rugby in school. If he hadn't joined the Military, he would be a professional Rugby player.
Kyle was still somehow that awkward kid in class. Even needed to change the school because he got bullied.
NSFW:
He was disappointed in Johnny's cock sucking skills, but Price is a different breed.
can pull anyone and is mister give everyone an orgasm, not once in his life did he let his lover unsatisfied
had a foursome once when he was like 23, with three girls who were obsessed with him, and who can judge them
he is a guy who doesn't kiss and tell
his fav porn category is Anal Sex
has a CNC kink but is afraid to ask
is shaven down there but doesn't care if you are or not.
I have so much more ahhhh
#cod mw2#cod x reader#tf 141#tf 141 x reader#captain john price#john price#call of duty#cod mwii#simon ghost riley#cod#kyle gaz x reader#kyle gaz garrick#kyle garrick#gaz garrick#gaz x reader#gaz mw2#gaz cod#sergeant kyle gaz garrick#kyle x reader#soap mw2#john soap mactavish#soap cod#soapghost#soap x reader#soap x you#john mactavish x reader#captain john price smut#captain price#task force 141#tf141
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JEON JUNGKOOK
FIVE SENSES:
SMELL
To Jungkook you smell like home. Always have probably always will. Sweet. Your scent is sweet not an overpowering sweet but not an underwhelming one either it’s just right, just you. Before you and him even thought about getting an apartment together you still smelt like home to him. Like he said you always have. The very first dorm that the group moved into you and Jungkook were actually roommates. Although he didn’t talk to you much, given he didn’t talk to anyone that much during those times, He enjoyed hearing you babble about everything and nothing from the bottom bunk each night, he enjoyed sharing the confined space with you. So when you had to move into your own room for “privacy reasons” or whatever Namjoon said he was upset, understandably so. And to add insult to injury they had given you the room furthest from his. Your presence, well lack of presence in now just his room was unsettling. He felt as if he couldn’t relax in his own room like something was missing-well you were missing but it’s not like you had moved out of the house completely you were just down the hall yet Jungkook felt so…. uncomfortable. In his own room, his own space, his own home. Uncomfortable. It wasn’t until two weeks later when Jungkook had finally worked up the courage visit your room, pathetic he knows, he understood why. As soon as he opened the door the sweet smell of you overtook him. Home. Here Jungkook officially named the smell of you home.
TOUCH
With everything you handle you do it with love, care and delicacy physical or not. It may not always seem that way to others but Jungkook knows, hell he’s experienced it himself more times than he can count. So when Jungkook reaches to touch you he only hopes it radiates the same level of love, care and delicacy you show to him and others. In fact he prays his touch radiates those same traits and more. Jungkook prays that through his touch you can feel his passion, desire, his need for you. Your skin soft in Jungkook’s palm, he thinks about all the times you’ve held your hand to his face looked him deep in the eyes and tucked his loose hair behind his ears. He repeats the same actions on you, your cheek warm, he hopes you feel the same butterflies he does when your the one holding him, hopes you want to kiss him as bad as he wants to kiss you in these moments. Everything about Jungkook’s touch on you is warm every high five, every hand hold to every kiss fuelled by nothing but love and admiration. Physical touch Jungkooks preferred love language solely because of you. He lives for your touch no doubt about it deep down he prays you live for his.
SOUND
The sound of your voice is calming to him, sometimes it scares the shit out of him and on occasion (many) it makes him feel…. things. Ultimately Jungkook likes the sound of your voice scratch that he loves the sound of your voice. Since trainee days he’s loved the sound of your voice. You talk a lot,much to his delight, you know being the shy kid and all he didn’t always talk much as he does now so having the sound of your voice was really a blessing. Your voice allowed him to be included provided him comfort and gave him friendship. The sound of you alone could has and will continue to stop him dead in his tracks every time. He enjoys the sound of you in all forms anger, happiness, joy, sadness, pleasure don’t get it wrong by no means does Jungkook enjoy when your angry or sad in fact if you’re crying he’s crying right alongside you but there is a small part of him that does enjoy that he’s able to hear the sound of you in these moments. Reminds him you’re actually real that you’re actually here with him. The sound of you grounds him. The sound of you is calming.
TASTE
Obsessed. Jeon Jungkook is obsessed with the taste of you. Unapologetically obsessed. From the taste of your lips to the taste of your… uh well…. lips. Much like the smell of you, you taste sweet but unlike the smell of you Jungkook could write a 14 paged essay on what exactly the taste of you is. Honey sweet honey you taste like what he imagines the shiniest star is the sky tastes like warm life changing just so fucking good. Call Jungkook an addict he would take the title with no shame whatsoever having the taste of you on his lips and on his mind constantly worth any title they threw at him although he would prefer ‘the luckiest man alive’. Now the first time you kissed Jungkook, yes you willingly kissed Jungkook, he swears that he was reborn died right there on the spot died again and was reborn. The kiss no joke was the best kiss he has truly ever had in his life as soon as your sweet warm honey star life changing lips came in contact with his he could of cried well, he did cry but not in front of you, no in front of you after the kiss he gave you a quick bow and a small “thank you” with a extremely red face before running off, again Jungkook DID NOT CRY (in front of you). However first time Jungkook got to taste you again, if you know what i mean, admittedly he did cry in front of you, how could he not? If kissing you was him being reborn this was like getting murdered. Shot in the back of the head close range no warning with a wife a house a dog and a newborn on the way. He was in heaven, had to be, a babbling fucking mess in heaven. The taste of you too good unreal almost. So yeah that time Jungkook did cry in front of you so what? You were into it anyways he thinks… he hopes, whatever 10/10 would do again. When it comes to the taste of you Jungkook doesn’t play the taste of you makes him unapologetically feral.
SIGHT
No phrase in any language no word in any dictionary could accurately describe the sight of you. Not breath taking not pretty not cute not sexy none of those words are you because you’re all of them and more, you’re just so… beautiful. He settles on beautiful, still it lacks the kick that he needs it to have, the warmth, the love, appreciation the everything but he’s fighting a loosing battle at this point so as much as it hurts him to he settles on beautiful. From the hairs on your head to the tip of your toes, inside and out. You by far the most beautiful sight Jungkook has ever seen.
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moral of the story jungkook a munch ☠️
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#bts crack#bts fluff#bts imagines#bts texts#bts x y/n#bts fanfic#bts x you#bts x reader#jungkook × reader#jungkook x y/n#!gc jungkook#gc offline#jeon jungkook
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Hello, Evil Residents :)
I’d like to introduce you all to my Village OC (who was amazingly brought to visual light by my good friend @crowquillustrate on insta🖤)
OC: Datura
Named after the sacred Datura flower (Hallucinogenic and possibly deadly if ingested improperly)
Age: 27/Immortal
Physical Characteristics: 5’3, Pale skin, Long wavy brown hair, Hazel Eyes. Has a scar that travels under her eye down to her neck from a Lycan Attack.
Background: Datura grew up on a farm just outside the Village with her parents and little brother Sebastian. When she was 18 a pack of rogue Lycans destroyed her home, killing her mother and brother first. Datura was attacked but her father sacrificed himself to save her, leaving her to fend for herself.
Mother Miranda took her in for a few years before sending her over to work for Donna.
Personality: Datura is hard headed but kind hearted. She immediately bonded with Angie, who reminds her of her little brother. It takes her a while to get used to Donna though, who always seemed to hide herself away from her. Datura CAN be cruel, especially when she feels disrespected. Does she go a little overboard sometimes? Yes, yes she does.
Hobbies: Datura likes taking walks at night, despite Donna’s wishes. (She’s worried for her safety) She’s a painter, a violinist, sometimes she likes playing the piano as well but she would rather listen to Donna play instead. She picked up on scientific hobbies from her stay with Mother Miranda, and likes to experiment with tea making/making medicine for the Village folk. Hunting.
Sexuality: Datura is sapphic but doesn’t really have a preference other than Donna. Would consider her grey ace. Likes to explore new things in the bedroom but would rather spend her time watching vintage romance movies and cuddling up to her love.
Relationships: Partner, Donna obviously.
She likes spending the night at Alcina’s and has a soft spot for Cassandra. She loves hunting so she brings the Dimitrescus the finest of her catches.
Karl reminds her of her father but hates visiting his factory (bc of the Lycans) but she learns to love them eventually.
Sal loves when she visits the reservoir. She made him a special tea that stops him from throwing up and built him a brand new boat for him to go fishing in. He calls her Deetee.
Mother Miranda also has a soft spot for her (though she tries to deny it every chance she gets) Miranda didn’t give Datura the cadou because she wanted to use her as a vessel, instead she felt sorry for her and actually asked Datura for permission. She’s the reason Miranda has came to terms with Eva’s death and has learned to appreciate the four Lords as they are. She’s getting there, don’t worry.
Other: Datura is noturnal. She doesn’t need to sleep as much so she can be awake for days on end, but most active at night. Where Donna can control the pollen to cause hallucinations, Datura does so through her eyes. Sometimes when she dreams those dreams happen in real life. Prophetic. Her bite is poisonous and causes the victim to calcify, though she’s only had to use that power once. It does not work on those affected by the cadou, so Donna is immune.
She can teleport but isn’t very good at it.
(Once she tried to teleport into the village and she ended up scaring the mold out of Miranda who was in the middle of making coffee, ouch)
I plan on posting fanfic drabbles on here once I get the chance! I’d love to talk about Datura more and meet your Res8 OC’s as well, it’s good to be back in the Village 😉
Please do not share this art without proper credit to the artist, you may not use my OC as your own.
#resident evil village#donna beneviento#alcina dimitrescu#mother miranda#karl heisenberg#salvatore moreau#bela dimitrescu#cassandra dimitrescu#daniela dimitrescu#donna benevento x reader#Donna Beneviento x oc#angie beneviento#resident evil 8
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ruthlessly deleting old 2021/2022 posts (not by me) from my dean studies tag like *click* un-incorporating that from my beliefs system! also the way SO many posts have me like ok uh-huh good aaand then say one completely wrong thing that loses me. it's so many posts.
#it's usually when they randomly drop some line of fanon. like saying dean has never admitted to being wrong in his life#or never expressed an emotion or been vulnerable or doesn't Talk About Feelings or is super duper RepressedTM#like i'm sorry. have you watched the show. oh and have you taken off the sammy POV goggles first?#bc this guy is always crying and being vulnerable and talking about his feelings. he is self-aware.#he may not always want to talk to sam abt things! but he sure does talk about things with other people#do i need to reblog the compilation posts AGAIN?#(also re: his sexualiy? AWARE. sorry i saw him flirt and be flustered by so many men. he knows how he feels.)#and then 'first time ever admitting to being wrong' this one came from a post abt dean's prayer in the trap#like i'm sorry but first of all. dean apologizes more than any other character on the show. there are hard numbers on this.#people have tracked this on spreadsheets. i think ilarual is one of them.#and often he is apologizing for things that aren't even his fault! but he still feels responsible for bc he's been made to feel that way#his whole life!!#other characters *cough samandcas *cough* apologizing Less doesn't mean they've Done less things wrong#it just means they're not owning up to it and brushing it under the rug. something both do frequently.#anyways. aside from apologies. dean also has no problem admitting he's wrong y'know when he's actually wrong#which is less often than you'd think bc he has pretty good instincts and intuition and often suspects things which turn out to be Right#but anyways. another thing abt the trap prayer is. i don't think cas Needed to be forgiven#i think dean was justified in feeling angry w cas over the circumstances leading to the Death of His Mother! totally normal grief response!#i think cas also understands dean to be someone who needs time to process and deal with his feelings (he says as much to jack)#however. despite me not think dean Needs to forgive cas. the thing is. with dean when it comes to cas the forgiveness is implicit#when he says /of course i forgive you/ and in the cut like /of course i wanted you to stay/ like. yes he was mad and dealing with grief#but also. yes cas was already forgiven even back then. he just needed Time to work through the feelings#anyways i think dean says he 'forgives' cas bc it's what CAS needed to hear to stop feeling guilty and dean gives him that closure#but i also think cas was already forgiven even in dean's anger. he wants him there always. i'd rather have you. we can fix this. etc etc#a lot of tags for a non-rebloggable post ajksdfs maybe i'll make these into a real post sometime#vic.txt#dean and feelings#so i can find this all again later
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Can you please make a mini fic about Mammon being a stalker?
Yes i have The Diner by Billie Eilish brainrot
Interesting! Let me writing (we have a real stalker).
﹅ contains ;; what in hell is bad, Mammon, sfw, stalking.
At first, it was simply fixation. Because he wanted to learn more about his teacher, and even more easily find something he could easily give you.
No matter how small it was. When he was by your side, he memorized your every move and gesture, the kind of smiles, and eventually just his eyes could not take off anything that involved you.
But it only escalated; first by the places you liked to go, and the kind of food you preferred, the style of clothes you often bought, and, slowly, your routine, not just in Tartaros, but everywhere else you set foot.
There were things that only Mammon could get through money, but it became an increasingly satisfying addiction as time went on. Funny, even when you weren't aware he was there, being informed of your every step, and sometimes following you wherever you went.
It could be any time of the day, and when you slept, it was all the better, because he could test the state of your sleep, playing with your cheeks, running his fingers over your lips, stroking your hair, or even inspecting every corner of your room, down to the smallest detail, of any place that was labeled as a your room.
It was a dark secret that even you wouldn't know, but he didn't mind keeping from you all the kind of information he got, even much more than any subordinate of Hades could know.
Only if he took care that no one tried to enter your room.
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Do you know who I thought of while writing this? Eligios would definitely have done something more racy while you were sleeping. (Aside from putting ribbons.)
And on the other hand… I also figured what might happen if Foras came into the room. Levi would have said that only he can “investigate” you from afar. LMAO.
And I feel it was too short, and the idea was fantastic. I'm keeping with the song, thanks!
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The Moon Prince's Secrets 🌙
Hanako's evolution throughout history.
Amane, the enigmatic boy from the moon, as I sometimes call him. He made me create so many, many questions, he made me create so many, many hypotheses.
He started out as a playful boy, he didn't want anything serious, just to have fun and hide the darkness that had been stuck in his chest for so many years under the rug. The darkness that those eyes hid so well.
The darkness that guided him to do things he shouldn't do to save someone he loves. It's comically tragic that he planned to use Nene's life for a dead end, even though he never wanted to do anything bad to her, fate, the short path she had, guided him to those choices.
But still, he tried to give her the best life he could give, he didn't expect her to be so sweet and kind to him, that she would be the first person who would show so much affection, of course, she is not perfect, she makes mistakes , like anyone else, but she was there, when no one else was.
He fell in love with the sacrifice, and little by little the pain increased. It was like dejavu, reliving the same suffering again, of being destined to receive and give love to people who will leave, to people who are destined not to be by his side.
Because every reality he finds himself in, Tsukasa is never there as he should be, he's not there just as a younger brother, nothing more than that, in the same way that Nene is not there to be the woman who will live by his side. .
It's distressing.
The two try to save Amane, but he doesn't want to be saved, not if he can't live with the people he loves. What's the point of being alive if he won't be with the one he loves?
I can't call Hanako's evolution that, I must call it discoveries. He's still the same Hanako, the same Amane who trapped Tsukasa so he wouldn't be abandoned, the same Amane who tried to trap Nene so she wouldn't die, so she wouldn't abandon him.
He is slowly showing us sides of himself that we didn't know, it's not an evolution, it's just a little truth being shown here and there about his real nature.
The obsessive love, the love that hurts and that doesn't allow him to let go of the ropes, the boy who loves so intensely that he doesn't care about certain limits, not only for the people he loves, but also for himself.
How far will he go to get what he wants?
Amane started out not knowing how to talk about his own feelings, and he still doesn't know how.
Amane started hiding everything he could from the people he loved from the beginning, and he still does.
Amane knows that what he did in the past was wrong, but he continues to do the same.
Amane started out afraid to talk about his past and himself, he is still afraid.
Tsukasa and Nene are the same, the same mistakes he made with Tsukasa, he is making with her.
Or maybe not?
There are things he didn't allow himself to do with Nene. The death of Tsukasa and himself differs from Hanako's desire for Nene to live.
Tsukasa was surprised by this, Amane did a double murder, but he wants Nene to live. This time, he let her free from the prison he created, but still, Tsukasa says he is selfish.
That's because Amane killed Tsukasa, arrested him, but didn't give him the freedom to choose to leave, like he gave Nene.
Even though he had already tried to arrest Nene other times, Amane gave her the freedom to live, but did not give her the freedom to choose to take her own life, like he did with Tsukasa.
Amane's love imprisons.
His evolution…. how could I say… a boy who started one way and remains in that state… has he evolved or are we just getting to know him little by little?
He is someone who fears himself, he is not evolving, he is slowly showing us who he really is, making the same mistakes.
After all, Nene is just like Tsukasa, what happened to him will happen to her.
Perhaps?
Even after all these years, I still wonder who the real Amane is.
#toilet bound hanako kun#jibaku shounen hanako kun#tbhk#jshk#amane yugi#aidairo#yugi twins#hanako kun#hanakokun#jshk spoilers#jshk tsukasa#jshk hanako#jshk theories#jshk analysis#tbhk spoilers#tbhk manga#tbhk hanako#tbhk analysis
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Kate Bishop headcanons
pairing: kate bishop x fem!reader
word count: 2.4k
warnings: possibly bad grammar, swearing
an: here is little something, i´m kinda having hard time to write a full fic at the moment, but i hope i will get there eventually!
Kate Bishop hates mornings as much as you do, but she will wake up before you to make you your favorite breakfast.
Sometimes you argue about that, since she is still the one recovering from the mission. And you should be the one taking care of her.
She always chooses and buys some take out for you, since she knows you´re the worst at chosing what to eat and in return you always chose the movie or a show to watch later together.
"We´re both indecisive, but you chosing a movie and me chosing a food, sounds like the best compromise we could ever think off." She proudly states.
Kate who always makes sure you drink plenty of water during the day, because there was one time you almost passed out from not drinking a single glass.
"Ugh…" you sigh.
Kate´s eyes move from her phone to you, "you okay?"
You nod slowly, while closing your eyes, "my head just hurts."
She knows the answer to her question, but she still asks, "how many glasses of water did you drink today?" Her head tilting slightly, already knowing you will try to lie your way out of this. Like you always do.
"A few-" you open your eyes, the archer already looking at you with her eyebrow raised, "would be nice, if I had, but uh none. I didn´t drink any, but that´s not the caus-"
Kate is so used to your little water issue, so she just stand up and goes to the kitchen, pouring you a glass of water and then coming back. "Drink it and no buts."
If you didn´t know Kate, you would be imitaded, but you´re not, already planning some smart remark, but the headache starts to be real pain in the ass. So with defeat you take the glass and drink it.
"Good, you can thank me later." Kate smiles and goes to pour you some more.
"I don´t see the point, the only thing it makes me do is to go pee, not a better skin, not making the headache go away, I don´t feel fresh at all…" You mumble under your breath, while Kate just chuckles at your words.
After some time you feel better and you hate to admit it, but Kate notices, she always notice the small things about you.
"Feeling better?"
Teaching Lucky to find you, just so she can have an excuse to talk to you.
"Where is (Y/N)?" Kate asks looking at Lucky.
"Miss (Y/L/N) is in her own room at the moment." The A.I. voice speak up.
Kate just sighs, "thank you, F.R.I.D.A.Y."
Sometimes Lucky is just full of Kate being a 'subtle' attention seeker.
When you two are cooking, it is always a disaster, not that you can´t cook, Wanda taught you something, but it is just too chaotic with Kate, that you are kinda banned to be in the kitchen together making something other than cereals.
"Wanda are you for real?" You look at the readhead putting a photo of you and Kate on the fridge with a big 'X' on it.
"It needs to be done, you two are horrible!" She looks at you.
"It was not my fault-" you try to argue, but there is no way you´re winning this fight.
Wanda cuts you off, "how do you start a fire, while making spaghetti?!"
You throw your hands up in a surrender, "I don´t know, ask Kate!"
Kate who is always taking your side, no matter what Pietro is arguying with you about.
"Pineapple is not bad on pizza," Pietro looks at you, annoyed.
"It is a crime. You don´t put blueberries on pizza either." You state your own thoughts.
"Oh my god, really?" Pietro throw his hands around.
"What do you think, Kate?" You look at her.
"I think (Y/N) is right, it is not the pizza I would choose." Kate chuckles.
"We ate pineapple pizza together, Bishop!" Pietro argues and you just look at Kate.
"I- yeah we did, but I still thinks there are way better pizzas in the world." Kate shrugs.
"See?" You look at Pietro.
"She said that there are better pizzas, not that it is a crime!" You don´t talk about pinaaapple pizza in the household anymore.
She insists that you walk Lucky with her because she's worried he might see a deer and run off. She definitely can't walk him alone since she's still 'recovering'.
You´re laying on the couch, watching whatever show is playing on the TV, you´re kinda existing, just taking a break on the Sunday afternoon. Not really planing on doing anything more than lay and relax.
Until Kate rushes in with Lucky, who jumps on you and licks your face.
You giggle, "hey buddy, hi, hi, hi," you pet his head.
"Come on," Kate says as Lucky jumps down from the couch, "you too, sleepyhead."
"Hm? Why?" You yawn.
"We´re going out, on a walk."
"Do we have to?" You groan.
Kate shrugs, "I was thinking you would join us, since Lucky is just hyperactive and I´m not really sure if I can hold him." And just like that, you´re up. Sometimes you´re listening better than Lucky does.
"I´ll just get my jacket," Kate gives you the jacket you were mentioning, "oh, thanks," you smile.
The whole time you we´re making sure Kate is feeling okay, in fact she was feeling just amazing and Lucky was happy that two of his favorite people are walking with him.
Kate who is always appearing in your room, because Yelena taught her so, when she´s bored.
After a long day of training with Natasha you finally come to your room, throwing your stuff on the chair, but missing.
"That was a shitty throw," you hear Kate says.
"Oh my god!" You jump at the sudden voice, "what the hell are you doing here?"
"Waiting for you."
"Jesus christ…" you shake your head.
"Nope, just me," she smiles.
You look at her, rolling your eyes.
"That´s all the exitement I will get from you?"
"I saw you this morning," you take the workout clothes that are on the ground and put them on the chair.
"Yeah, that was twelve hours ago…" Kate pouts.
You look at her once more, "weren´t you supposed to do some paperwork?"
"All done," she smiles proudly, "but then I got bored so I went to see you."
"And how long ago that was?"
"4 hours ago…"
"You were waiting here for four hours? Wouldn´t be easier to go to the gym and find me?" You´re trying to understand the achers thought proces.
"Maybe, but I wanted to see if I can use what Yelena taught me… sneak in and attack, both worked." She says while moving her hands, probably to gesture the attack.
You nod, still not really understadning what´s going on right now, "well I keep my doors unlocked all the time, so that was not that hard, Katie. And I would never in my dreams thought about you waiting here for me for four hours, so yeah, the 'attack' worked." You admit to her.
"Not even in your dreams? Damn." Ugh, how you hated when she did that, this friendly flirting, it was kinda killing you, but it was on the daily basis for her.
You and her both are always rambling about something you are passionate about and the other one is always listening, no matter how obscure the topic is.
"So I dowlanded this app, and it tracks your steps and it shows you how long it would take you to go to the Mordor. And it is really cool, like it shows you all this achivements and you have your own character." You open your phone to show Kate the app.
"Wow, that is really nice. So how long will it take you?" Kate asks looking back at you.
"Well, since this week I was just walking Lucky or laying on my ass it says…" you look at the date, "I´ll be there in July 17th"
Kate hums, "that´s good."
"2025," you add.
"Oh… is it that far away?"
"I think Frodo was there in 183 days, but he was walking all day everyday, or running and since I don´t really have to save the world I´m not in a big rush." You giggle, "did you know that even though Frodo was the hero who saved the Middle-Earth, Hobbits were actually hunted for fun?"
"I didn´t know that, no." Kate shakes her head.
"It is so fascinating to me that this world has sooo much to offer like, few weeks ago I read a book about all the battles and wars there´s been." And there goes your ramble.
"You never told me your favorite character." Kate smiles as she notices your eyes sparkling with exitement.
"That is a tough one, I can´t really say the top one, because that is just impossible, but I really do like the whole trio of Aragon, Gimli and Legolas…" as you start to ramble Kate obviously gets lost a bit, but it is nice to see you talk about stuff you love.
And the same goes all the other way around.
"(Y/N)! Look!" Kate shows you the new arrows she made with Clint.
"Oh, that is very nice!" You smile as you take on in your hand, "and it´s light, how did you make it so light?"
"It is! First, I started with high-quality carbon shafts because they're super strong and lightweight. Then, I carefully attached the fletchings – those are the feathers at the back to ensure they stabilize the arrow in flight. Then I used a jig to make sure they're perfectly aligned. For the tips, I have a variety of arrowheads, depending on what I need broadheads for hunting, blunted tips for practice, and even some trick arrows with special gadgets."
"So what´s the difference between this one and the one you showed me last week?"
"Oh, good question!" Kate nods. "Last week's arrow was designed for target practice, so it had a simple field point tip and plastic fletchings for durability. This one, though, is a trick arrow… I've added a grappling hook mechanism inside the shaft! The fletchings are a bit more aerodynamic too, made from real feathers for smoother flight. Plus, the nock has a small LED light that activates when it's shot, making it perfect for night missions."
She is always suportive of you, until the whole team is having a game night. Kate can turn into someone sooo competitive and it is just someone else.
"UNO baby!" Pietro yells as he places red one on the table.
That didn´t last long, Wanda put +2 and then Kate did, you did, Yelena did and Pietro had to take 8 cards, which made Pietro almost lose it.
Now it is your turn, "UNO, thank you very much," you put down blue seven. No one has another blue, which is just perfect for you, since your last card is blue six, you are already preparing some winning speech, but then Kate steps in and places +4.
Kate smiles at you, "thank you very much," she mocks you.
And then another round comes and she gives you another +4.
"Can you stop?" You look at her, being slightly frustrated.
"Game is a game, (Y/N)." She shrugs.
The game night ends with Wanda and Yelena laughing, Pietro almost crying, you having 26 cards and Kate winning.
Doing silly quizzes together, you found on the internet. Are you a spoon or a fork?
"You are a definetly a spoon." Kate mumbles as she clicks on some answer on her phone.
"What makes you say that?" You look at her.
"You´re small, cute and you wouldn´t hurt anyone," she says without missing a beat.
"None of that is true… I´m not that small and I could hurt someone."
"I´m taller than you, so yes, you´re small. And you cannot hurt someone." Her bright eyes finally looks into yours.
"Im an Avenger, I have to hurt someone." You are a bit offended.
"Yeah, but like a spoon, you won´t do much damage. Not because you´re weak, but because you choose not to."
"You can poke someone's eye out with spoon though."
Kate nods, "but you only do it in a case of emergency…"
"Who would choose a fork as a weapon?" Kate chuckles at your words.
"That is not the point, (Y/N)."
It turns out, you are really a spoon and she is a fork, but to this day you still have zero idea what it really means. It is still a stupid quizz online at the end of the day.
Showing eachother things that reminded you of eachother.
"I got something for you…" Kate says as she unclips Lucky´s leash.
"You got something for me?" You smile and close your book.
"Yup, now close your eyes and give me your hand." She was outisde so you can feel how cold her hand is, it sends small shivers down your body.
Kate places something small in your hand, it is also cold, you can´t really guess what it is, "open."
When you open your eyes, you look down on your hand, only to find a tiny coffee mug.
You let out a chuckle, "that is so adorable!"
"Tiny mug for an even tinier person." Kate chuckles, "and look inside."
"No way!" In the bottom of the mug, there is small frog painted, it is so tiny you wouldn´t really noticed it is in there.
Her teaching you how to use bow and you being not so perfect at it.
"I though this would be much easier," you say when you have problem to even draw an arrow.
"You need to just take a deep breath and concetnrate on the red dot over there, okay?" Kate whispers while being really close to you, which is not helping.
And you missed again.
"Not bad, at least you released the arrow," she tries to comfort you.
You sigh, "why does it look so easy, it looks so cool, when Katniss is doing it."
Kate´s eyebrow raise, "like Everdeen?"
"You know any other archer who´s name is Katniss?" You turn to face Kate.
"No, but I know better archer than her… me maybe?" You notice that Kate´s posture straightens. She looks offended.
You chuckle and nod, "right, well… I think that Katniss would teach me how to shoot the arrow properly, or at least hit the target." You tease, knowing what will happen.
"Like I can´t do that? Pfff, turn around." Her hands slides on your waist, making your body face the target. Kate taps on your thigh for you to move your leg slightly. "Be straight," that's easier said than done. "And keep your shoulders and your whole back in one line, don´t be too forward or too backwards," she mumbles and her hands slide on your lower back. "Just like that and when you´re feeling ready, just draw the arrow, take a deep breath, release the arrow and exhale."
You did what she told you to, it turns out that listening orders from women is kinda your strenght, and when you released the arrow, it didn´t really hit the middle, but it defiently did hit the target.
"Oh my god! It went over there!" You jump with happiness, "I did it!"
"Yeah you did, that was a good shot." She smirks, "so is Katniss still better archer than me?"
Thank you for reading! <3
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Angst alphabet for Asra please.
Which latters? D! And anything else you'd like to do for Asra.
Aside from D for Death, I want them all as Asra, but also know that's way too many. So D.
I'm a little overachiever at times so I did the whole alphabet LMAO
Asra Alnazar Angst Alphabet
A - Austere (what makes them feel uncomfortable and unwanted?)
Being ignored or straight up ghosted; Asra doesn’t like being perceived too much but you’re his whole world, he wants to savor every moment with you to make up for lost time and he feels so shitty when you don’t return the sentiment
B - Bad Habits
Ironically, ghosting. They’ll forget to tell you about a trip until the last minute, or maybe forget to tell you altogether, leading to them just up and disappearing for sometimes days at a time. It’s common when they’re upset or really stressed
C - Crying (do they cry easily? What causes them to crack? How do they cry?)
Asra kinda hates acknowledging most emotions he perceives as negative, so it takes a lot for him to cry. If it’s just because maybe things have been building up for too long but not one specific thing that set him off, just silent tears running down his face. If it is one specific thing he can’t run from, like your death, he just breaks down; it’s messy, there are tears and snot everywhere, his shoulders are shaking violently from the force of his sobs, his breathing is fast and shallow and when he’s done he has a headache from hell and he feels completely hollowed out; he’ll be walking around in a numb daze for a few days afterward, because he just released all the emotions that have been building up for months, maybe years. The first type of cry is a little stream and the second is a raging river; there is no in-between
D - Death (how do they handle the topic? What would they do if their s/o died?)
They don’t handle death well; Asra, post (upright) route holds their loved ones as close to their heart as they can; the thought of any of their loved ones dying can send them straight into a downward spiral of anxiety and dread. Conformation of death sends them straight into either dissociation and denial or a week-long breakdown and then dissociation and denial for a little before they start looking into necromancy with a frantic look in their eyes and terrifying determination. If their significant other died though? Oh boy
They were bad enough the first time but the second, it kills them. Their grief would actually kill them if they lost you again; they would not survive knowing you’re gone and there’s nothing they can do about it because they know they can’t make another deal.
E - Emotion (an emotion they try to suppress)
Anger; he tries so hard to never get angry. He allows himself annoyance, irritation, but never ever anger. Asra is not an angry person in general, there are few times he’s been truly angry at someone, most often Lucio, so he’s come to associate his anger to the former count
F - fights (how do they argue? How quickly do they start an argument? Are they patient with their s/o’s feelings?)
Asra has seemingly endless patience; especially when it comes to you. They were your caretaker for at least a year, probably more, so they’re familiar with your moods and act accordingly. Typically, they let you yell for as long as you need to then when they see you’re done they’ll try and soothe you or give you space, depending on what you need. But when they actually fight back, shit gets real ugly real fast.
You know Asra better than most people in their life; you know Asra better than their parents, you’re second only to Muriel. But Asra knows you too, knows you better than you know yourself sometimes, which means that when you’re both aiming to hurt, it’s all too easy to hit where it hurts for the both of you
G - Guilt (do they feel guilty over something? How do they handle that feeling?)
He’s still guilty for leaving you behind when he left Vesuvia during the plague; he will carry the guilt of your death with him for the rest of his life
H - heartbroken (have they had their heart broken before? Does their S/O have the power to break them?)
Absolutely yes to both. The first time they were heartbroken was the ‘deaths’ of his parents, then when Muriel was in the coliseum, then when you died. And yes, you absolutely have the power to break them; again, you know them better than practically everyone because they’ve never allowed anyone else to truly know them. They’ve given you so much power over them and they’re aware of it, but they gave it to you in the first place because they trust you won’t hurt them.
I - Insecurities
I honestly don’t think Asra is very insecure to be honest; I think he has his moments, like anyone else, but those are few and far between. I think he’d be insecure of leaving you behind and what happened, and afraid you’d leave him for his need to travel. He left you behind and you died; he’s terrified you think he’d leave you to suffer a similar fate again.
J - Jaded (how easily do they become jaded? How do they attempt to get out of that?)
Asra has been jaded for almost their whole life; orphaned and growing up with Vesuvia’s forgotten doesn’t lead to having the happiest outlook on life. Especially since they’ve seen firsthand how cruel the world can be with the Coliseum fights and how Muriel has been treated his entire life
K - killed (what have they killed? Figuratively or literally)
I don’t think Asra has ever killed someone literally. Hurt people before? Absolutely, a gang was after them as a child, so they were forced to be well-versed in self-defense, but never took a life. They definitely killed their morals when you were dead though; they crossed several lines they never wanted to cross before nor again to bring you back
L - lies (what lies do they tell their s/o? Are they a good liar?)
Asra is the best liar you’ll ever meet, but he absolutely hates lying to you. The lies he’d tell you were during your recovery, whenever you’d ask about your past or your memories; he lied only to protect you. After you prove you can finally handle your memories and your past, Asra stops the lies; if there's ever something he doesn’t want to tell you he either tells you he doesn't want to talk about it or deflects and changes the subject
M - mono (do they ever feel alone?)
Not post upright route, not anymore; they know by then that they have a lot of people in their corner, a lot of people in their life; more than they ever thought they’d have. They’re only alone when they want to be because they know they have plenty of people they can seek out if they feel lonely; you’re at the top of that list, of course
N - nightmare (what’s their worst fear?)
Death of a loved one
O - Obstacles (what things have they overcome? How much does it still affect them?)
He’s overcome a lot in his life. The loss of his parents, growing up a homeless orphan, teaching himself and Muriel magic, Count Lucio, the plague, losing you, beating the Devil; Asra has always been a survivor through and through. Of course some of that affects him still; he has nightmares, he has trust issues, he has issues expressing some emotions, but he has people wish shared experiences there and it helps
P - panic (do they panic easily? What instincts do they have? (fight flight, freeze, or fawn))
Asra is typically calm and collected damn near all times, so no, they don't panic very easily but when they do, their first instinct is flight. They avoid conflict whenever possible
Q - quiet (secrets they have)
I don't think Asra would like keeping secrets from his partner, especially after knowing you for almost a decade. I think Asra has things he hasn't told you yet, most likely pertaining to his childhood as one of Vesuvia’s orphaned children, but most likely it's because he doesn't want to acknowledge just how rough his childhood actually was or maybe the right moment to bring it up just hasn't happened
R - rejection (how do they handle rejection of any sort? Have they had a big moment of rejection?)
Asra handles rejection pretty well; they travel a lot so they meet plenty of new people but that also means that if they get rejected they can just leave lmao. If the rejection happens in Vesuvia, they’ll be a good sport about it and won’t make anything awkward, they know they’re not gonna be everyone’s cup of tea and they’re cool with it. They appreciate the honesty too
S - separation (how would they react to a S/O breaking up with them? What would it take for them to break up with their s/o?
If you broke up with him, Asra would be absolutely crushed; he'd respect your decision, maybe try to ask if he'd done something to warrant the breakup, but if you tell him it's because you fell out of love or something he'd never recover; you would deadass never hear from Asra again. He loves you so much still that he can't be part of your life anymore, he can't just be a friend or someone you see every once in a while, it would destroy him; he'd leave Vesuvia all together and probably take Muriel.
I can't really see Asra breaking up with you; he loves you so much, it would take a lot to get him to consider ending it, but I can't think of anything specific
T - trust (how do they break their s/o’s trust? How easily is their trust earned/broken? How would they react to being betrayed?)
Asra's trust takes a long time to earn, so I think it's pretty hard to break. But once it's broken, Asra would never be able to trust you fully again. After the first time there's always going to be lingering doubt about you, I think. They may not even be entirely conscious of their wariness, but it's there all the same.
If you betrayed them, it would destroy them; just crush them completely. It depends on the betrayal itself, of course, but Asra would definitely run. Depending on what you did, they might come back, but it's entirely possible they won't.
Asra would treat your trust like it's fucking frost; the most delicate thing ever. They'd never ever willingly break it, not if they could help it; you mean too much to them for them to ever willingly hurt you
U - urges (what’s something they want but cannot have? Or something they lost and can’t get back)
Asra will always miss the person you used to be; the version of you he left behind. He loves the version of you he has now, he loves you more than he will ever be able to say, but some small part of him will always miss who you used to be, and some part of him will always grieve the love you had/could have had back then
V - volatile (how quickly do they anger? What do they act like when they’re angry?)
Asra doesn’t often get angry; it takes a lot to push them to that point, typically. If you want to them angry fast, bring them to Lucio; he’s practically the only one who can piss them off by merely being near them. Otherwise, it’s incredibly difficult, especially if it’s you that’s angering them. You, Murial, Nadia, and maybe Salim and Aisha are the ones they find it the hardest to get mad at; they love you too much.
But because it takes so much to anger them, when they finally let it out it’s very…explosive, but it’s their magic mainly that’s lashing out. Asra will shout a little, pace around aggressively, but will never really do more than that, and especially won’t get close to you when they’re mad.
W - weak (what makes them feel weak?)
Lucio, typically. He lied to him about his parents so easily, he blackmailed both Asra and Muriel without batting an eye, he killed thousands, you included, without even trying. And Asra couldn’t really do anything about it because, powerful magician he may be, he had no political power while Lucio was the Count. Lucio has hurt almost all of the people Asra cares about and he feels like he wasn’t able to do anything about it
X - X-ray (how readable are their emotions? How good are they at reading their s/o?)
Asra reads you like you’re a picture book tbh because to them, you might as well be. They knew you for several years before you lost your memories, you had to relearn practically everything and Asra was there for every single mood, they saw your new tells and expressions develop, so they know you practically better than you know yourself, meanwhile Asra themself is very difficult to read unless they’ve actively trying to display their emotions. They learned a lot on the streets and few of those lessons were kind.
Y - youth (what kind of childhood did they have? At home and at school)
At home, before the ‘deaths’ of his parents, Asra had a happy life; two loving parents and a home. Afterwards, he had no one and almost nothing, until he met Muriel. Safe to say the majority of his childhood and teenage years were really rough
Z - zero (what would they do if they lost everything)
I truly do not think Asra would survive that; losing everything, they could probably come back from, but losing their loved ones, all of them, would actually kill them.
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can you write headcanons with andrew and naib with a really dominant female s/o
First a disclaimer: Regardless of s/o's gender, I think both of these guys would need a "dominant" s/o who understands that the submissive one actually has all the power, because nothing happens without their consent.
Very slight warning for spicy! I'm doing under the cut to be safe, but it's just one HC for each guy
-Andrew would take a long time to adopt what I would classify as an actual "submissive" role. If you get to the trust-level of a "friend" he will sometimes defer to you for leadership in social settings, but beyond that, you're looking at...maybe several years before you get the actual amount of trust and vulnerability you'd probably like from a submissive.
-When he does get to that point, he's kind of a switch, so the level of submission you get from him will vary depending on his mood. When he's grouchy, trying to lead him around is honestly a bit like prodding a caged animal. There's a time and place, you know?
-But back to those social situations. Andrew's anger and defensiveness of course come from years of mistreatment and forced self-sufficiency, so a caretaker sort of dom would be a better fit for him. He'd be a little resistant to it at first, but he comes to enjoy it when you take the initiative to spare him from certain actions and interactions. Make his plate for him at some kind of function so he doesn't have to deal with the crowded food table, fix his hair and clothes for him so he doesn't look ridiculous in public. And he honestly wouldn't mind you doing slightly more controlling things like picking out his clothes for the day (as long as you're not trying to embarrass him) and ordering his food for him when you're out (but he will complain if you choose something he doesn't like.)
-While he will agree with it sometimes, he doesn't love going full bottom with a fem s/o because he kinda thinks using a toy is less "both of us feel good" and more object insertion, which isn't his cup of tea. He likes real anatomy. He'd be more amiable to something double-sided. You still have control, but at least you're getting it too. It's equality. :)
-He doesn't mind someone dominant, but Niab himself is a full switch (as well as very independent) so his partner will have to understand that he's not always gonna play ball. So if you want someone who's always going to bend at the knee to you, he's not your man.
-That said, Naib is used to service. Both the military and his current independent line of work are "services;" he's both used to and fine with taking orders most of the time. Unlike Andrew, Naib expects to be treated as an equal adult most of the time, especially in public, but he doesn't mind being asked to perform subtle acts of submission in front of others. (That is, you ask him beforehand, and he will perform in front of others. Don't ask him to be a sub with someone else around.) Some examples: he'll test your drinks/food for you to make sure they're to your liking, wait for you to start eating before he does (but this one can be difficult, he's a hungry boy), fetch things for you. He also doesn't mind subtle touching like holding his wrist instead of his hand when you walk around together. And he will always be direct with you if he's not in the mood for all that one day.
-In more serious situations (read: matches) he expects to have the lead, though. Unless you've proven yourself to be MORE strategic, experienced, and tough than he is, Naib is taking the reigns to make sure you both make it out with as little pain as possible.
-He's chill with bottoming/pegging, but he gets to approve all the toys you bring into the bedroom first. He's had enough pain and discomfort in life and ,aside from maybe you smacking his plump ass occasionally, he's not about to feel those in the bedroom too.
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Since you’re a DickBabs shipper,
What are your thoughts on Nightwing Annual #2 from 2006/2007 besides its more…infamous moments?
I merely ask out of curiosity
Hi! It'd been forever since I read that issue (probably not since around when it first came out!), so I had to go hunt it down again to reread and I have Thoughts.
As an explanation about me, as a DickBabs shipper and just a fan of things in general, I tend to really like things that I see as having a solid foundation but lots of fun, crunchy sharp edges that can really hurt when they're dug into. I very much love adorable wholesome moments for them, but I also very much love when they're so far under each others' skins that it makes them do really wild, sometimes awful things.
But I think the cheating thing is just fundamentally out of character for Dick. I think I see what the author was going for, in that it came across as Dick feeling desperately guilty that he wasn't there for Babs after she was shot, that he would have done anything to comfort her when she needed it, this person who has always been so strong, and because this is Barbara Gordon, the woman he's loved for so long and would throw just about any moral out the window for her, because she's so deep into his heart. Reading the whole issue, where Babs turns down his marriage proposal because she believes he's living too much for other people, he hasn't really defined who he himself is (and that's why she hopes he goes in the trip with Bruce and Tim, not something as Nightwing for Batman, but as Dick Grayson with his family), that that night was part of what the author was going for, that their take on Dick was that he would do anything to help others, anything to help her, including stomping all over his own personal morals and boundaries.
But even squinting to see it through that lens, I just don't really buy it. I don't buy that Dick would cheat on Kory like that, not when he was about to marry her, not even for Babs. And I really do not buy that he would give her the wedding invitation so casually like that the next morning, that guy has way more emotional intelligence than that.
I enjoyed most of the annual, because I really like Dick and Babs running the gamut of their dynamic with each other, that sometimes they're in a really good place and are cutely adorable and so fluffy that it makes everyone around them want to vomit, and other times they've both got all the these really sharp edges that make each other even more interesting, that they're fun to read about because they have conflict and I think they both really want/need that sometimes in their relationship, someone who can bite back when necessary.
The annual provided a lot of good fodder in how complicated they are, how there's all these roadblocks put between them, that there's been unresolved tension between them forever, there's been feelings between them forever, but they just weren't the right time yet, there was too much else going on around them, that it's not a lack of love for the other or that they don't fit, but that it just wasn't lined up for them yet.
I like that Dick and Babs are so deeply entwined in each others' hearts that they can really hurt each other and with these characters, who are very much not perfect people, who indeed are both sometimes kind of real assholes, that's going to happen. They're going to say nasty things to each other, because they're both strong personalities and both kind of fucked up at times. It's similar to how I enjoy Dick's relationship with Bruce, one of the most defining ones of his life, a relationship that is deeply imperfect, but all the more valuable for it. Sometimes Dick and Bruce are horrible to each other, but it only highlights how much deeper down the love goes, how important they are to each other, because even this horrible fight can't truly break them apart, not long term.
That's a lot of how I look at the Dick/Babs relationship, in a sense! Sometimes you have warm, happy months in the sun. Sometimes you have tearing into each other level of fighting. Sometimes they both just need a little space. Sometimes there's an issue the other needs to get their head on straight about and the other knows they're important enough to say, hey, you gotta deal with that and stand firm on it. But they always, always love each other and always, always come back to each other.
Dick/Babs works for me in part because they have been through so much crunchy stuff together, but also so much good stuff together. Because they know each other so thoroughly--Babs knows that sometimes what Dick needs is a drill sargeant, rather than someone gently holding his hand, like she does for him in this annual. Sometimes he needs someone who will be the one to put on the breaks because he's not always good at that when it's someone he loves. Dick knows that sometimes Babs needs someone to lovingly call her out on the boundaries she's really willing to cross when it comes to dealing with people.
The best parts of this annual are the ones that capture the sense of scope about them, the hard edges they both have and how sometimes they enjoy getting a little mean with each other, because there's a lot of dark corners to both of them. They're both deeply loving, kind, caring people, but they're also both Bats, they're both not always nice people, that they're both a little fucked up in how they relate to other people, but that they challenge each other, they push each other, they shove and kick each other, into getting their shit in gear. Babs being the one to help Dick with his physical therapy and recovery after everything worked well because she was kicking him out of his self-pity and guilt spirals, she was kicking him out of going right back to living for doing everything for everyone else, and instead taking some time to figure himself out.
When the annual worked, it worked because Babs loves him so much that she knows him well enough to kick him into gear and she's right. And it's fun because she's not always the softest about it--she can be very soft and gentle, but Miss Barbara Gordon is also always willing to kick someone in the ass if she thinks they need it and she will not be sorry about it.
And when it doesn't work, it's just. Sigh. Sometimes comics are dumb and we have to make our peace with that.
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I can't think of a title for these clone wars headcanons
Ahsoka does this thing that never fails to get a laugh out of the people around her and it’s the fact that she calls herself an angel whenever someone calls her out for doing something bad or reminds her of something she’s done she’ll look around before going “Who me? I’m an angel”
Which has the whole group bent over laughing hysterically sometimes they’re able to choke out a sentence that sounds like “Jedi aren’t supposed to lie” or something along those lines
So I’ve had this idea for a while but I feel like something along the lines of sign language would be necessary for the troops to know if they’re on a stealth mission
And even tho the Jedi don’t need to sign with each other it’s kind of common practice for them to learn some to communicate with the troops
Some signs can differ from troop to troop but they’re close enough that they’re easy to understand and it’s very rare that the other troop will get confused
Sometimes those signs will leak off the field and into their day-to-day lives most of the time the troops will use signs to be kind to their Jedi who have migraines after a difficult battle but the signs are used the most around Anakin
I feel like it would be pretty easy for Jedi to get overstimulated especially if they’re as powerful as Anakin so it’s not uncommon for him to go nonverbal after a battle or if he’s in a force rich place
If he’s only kind of overwhelmed he’ll use Ahsoka and Obi-Wan as his interpreters and talk through their bonds but sometimes even that is too much so signs like “please” “thank you” “sorry” “hungry” “thirsty” “more” or “I’m okay” become pretty commonplace
It’s not enough to hold an in-depth conversation but that usually works in Anakin’s favor because drawn-out conversations tend to make him nonverbal for longer periods
When Anakin Ahsoka and Obi-Wan are stressed it shows up when they’re asleep
Anakin sleep talks whenever he’s even slightly worried about something he’s woken poor Ahsoka and Obi-Wan up more times than the duo can count by saying stuff like “Hey hey are you awake?” while he’s out like a light
It freaks the duo out because he’s weirdly eloquent in his sleep bro is holding entire conversations do those conversations make sense to anyone but him? No but they’re conversations nonetheless
Ahsoka sleepwalks it doesn’t matter what happens during the day if it even slightly stresses her out she’s up and out of bed the second she’s slightly asleep it scared the force out of Anakin the first time she sleepwalked in their quarters because she was just standing over him menacingly
The first time Obi-Wan was introduced to Ahsoka’s sleepwalking was during a sleepover that the trio was having and he had just drifted off to sleep when he heard the buzz of two lightsabers in the other room
Both he and Anakin walked into the kitchen to find Ahsoka standing with her sabers activated she wasn’t in a fighting stance by any means so they could easily disarm her but all Anakin did was ask “You want water snips?” and she nodded while holding out her sabers which he easily grabbed
Only after Ahsoka had a nice glass of water and laid back down did Obi-Wan ask questions the main one being “Is that normal?” and Anakins replies “Well the sabers are new” like someone talking about the weather
It wasn’t until morning that the trio discovered Anakin and Ahsoka’s kitchen table was cut in half the togruta was incredibly apologetic but Anakin was just impressed that she managed to do it without waking them
Normally Obi-Wan snores like a lawn mower but when he’s stressed he grinds his teeth the real kicker is he grinds them so hard that it’s just as loud as the snoring and the only difference is the poor man wakes up with a sore locked jaw
One time Anakin heard a shiny say that they could never tell what Ahsoka was thinking and the other commented that she’s “like a vault” which had him doubled over in almost painful laughter
When one of them finally gained the courage to ask him what was so funny he just said “If you wanna know what she’s thinking look at her face” and he’s not wrong girly has the most expressive face it’s like looking at glass
But the people who love her hope that trait never changes cause there’s nothing quite like seeing her face twist as she has to talk to some dirtbag or light up when she gets a compliment
Recently I got some ideas when it comes to Clone Wars characters and baking
Anakin is one of the best damn cooks in the galaxy he’s also really good at making a meal out of virtually nothing it’s scary impressive but on the other hand the man can’t bake for shit
Cause with cooking measurements aren’t really needed in fact on Tatooine people would scoff if you asked for them but it’s kind of the opposite for baking unless you’ve been doing it for a very long time
So Anakin “Just pour it until it looks good” Skywalker hates baking with a burning passion which is funny because he’s got a sweet tooth the size of a gundark
Ahsoka’s only really used to cooking by Anakin’s side which results in her only really remembering half the recipe like girl can mince like no one else but she can’t make a full dish without calling Anakin to ask for help
But baking is where this girl thrives she loves to bake and try new recipes which works out because Anakin’s the human equivalent of a garbage disposal with the aforementioned sweet tooth
Cody is pretty proficient at cooking and baking he doesn’t do anything fancy and he doesn’t really like doing either he mostly learned out of necessity cause
Obi-Wan and Rex can’t cook or bake for shit and they’re perfectly fine with that fact like they’re a-ok with living off government rations if it means they never have to step foot in a kitchen
Padme sweet angel lovely girl thinks she can cook and bake can she….. No
But the thing is she tries so hard and puts her whole heart and soul into her cooking and baking so everyone tries to act like she can it’s the galaxies best kept secret and it’s one that everyone’s happy to keep
There was one time when that secret was almost spilled on Ahsoka’s birthday when Padme offered to make her cake and no one could warn the poor girl cause that would spoil the surprise party
All Anakin could do to rectify the situation was buy a cake from his and Ahsoka’s favorite bakery and hide it in their quarters after the party
During the actual party Anakin pulled her off to the side to warn her just before the cake could be brought out and from an outsider's perspective it looked like a sweet moment between the siblings
But in actuality all was going on this “Soka you know how you said I was the best master you could ask for” “Yes I said when I first walked in are you finally going senile” “Well remember all that love when I ask you for the biggest favor” “which is?” “Padme made your cake” “No” “And I need you to act like you love it” “Anakin please if you love me at all” “If you love me you’ll eat the cake and tell her you love it and once the parties over you’ll get to eat your favorite cake in the whole wide world”
And they kind of just sit there and Anakin swears a few tears fall before Ahsoka says “Fine” and he hugs the everloving force out of her before they walk over to eat a slice of the galaxy's prettiest abomination
#star wars#the clone wars#star wars clone wars#star wars headcanons#anakin skywalker#ahsoka tano#obi wan kenobi#padmé amidala#captain rex#commander cody#snips and skyguy#disaster siblings#disaster trio#I love them all dearly#they're the most dramatic family in existence#telenovela's wish they were them#writers block kinda kicked my ass this week#but I could feel the creative juices flowing as I edited this#I'll probably write a whole new one later today knowing me
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giant mechs hc dump under the cut. some are silly, and some are. very sad.
- some times someone will ask Ivy a question and instead of her voice they get a text-to-speech voice because the info is from a data download instead of her reading it
- Jonny sleeps with a weighted blanket. if he is sleeping in the same bed with someone, they will usually roll him up in the weighted blanket because if they do not, they will get kicked in the face from his flailing
- Marius spends a lot of time in the cockpit with Brian. Partially because he's fascinated with the control panels (he only knows what a few of the buttons do) but also because Brian tends to hum while he drives and it's calming.
- Raph keeps a catelogue of plants & substances from every system they visit. Ivy helps her categorize them. when they leave a system often the two of them can be exclusively found in the labs or library for several days as they sort & label plants, drugs, ect
- Tim has spent a lot of time studying whatever notes he can cipher out of Dr Carmilla's works. he spends a lot of time tinkering to try to create more mechanisms. he blames himself for Berties death since he convinced him to enlist, and even though bertie is long dead he still wants to learn to build a Mechanism, just to prove to himself he could have saved him if he had time
- Marius absolutely will hand someone his arm if they ask for a "hand" with something. this has ended in him getting shot more than once
- Jonny enjoys laying his head on Brian and listening to his heart beat, imagining it's his own. He has sworn Brian to secrecy (everyone already knows)
- occasionally ivy's brain will crash and she has to reboot. originally this freaked out the others but they're used to it. they will fuck with her while she's out of it. once a reboot took several hours and she woke up and every inch of her face was covered in stickers
- in order from best cooks to worst- ivy, Nastya, Marius, Raphealla, TS, Brian, Jonny, ashes, Tim.
- ashes & Tim are both natural heaters and are usually in the middle of a cuddle pile on colder planets
- Brian doesn't technically need to breathe and enjoys walking on the bottom of deep bodies of water to see the creatures below. he does have to make sure he gets all of the salt water off so he doesn't rust tho
- no one is letting the toy soldier back into the aurora, it just exists where it believes it should (because it's needed, narratively important, or because it believes it will be funny). only aurora knows this, the others believe they keep accidentally letting it back in. this also means toy solider is *incredibly* good at startling others by just appearing in corners or behind doors.
- Jonny is missing the finger prints on one of his fingers from a bar fight, where he narrowly missed losing the whole finger.
- Tim has some knee damage from living in the tunnels during the moon war and while the mechnaizing has helped some, occasionally uses a cane
- Ashes has nerve damage in thier lower limbs from the flame damage
- Marius sometimes gets phantom pains from his missing arm
- somwtimes Brian turns all of his sensors up because he forgets what feeling actually alive feels like. his processor has limited ability to process things like warmth or pain so they just feel like echos of the real thing. he gets jealous sometimes of the others. everyone else can *feel* thier hugs. he's even jealous of TS. it can't feel like him, but it also doesn't remember what it felt like before. he's even jealous of the others feeling pain because at least it's more than just dull flashes that thier brain attempts to imitate as feeling
- ashes is Brian's favorite to touch/hug/cuddle with purely because they run hotter so it's easier for his sensors to pick up the temperature difference (so it feels the closest to hugging did before mechanizing)
- Brian hates the zero grav zones on the aurora & avoids them if at all possible because they remind him of his time before mechanizing (aurora knows this and will shuffle corridors around if she knows where he is going to avoid low grav areas)
- sometimes Tim will just. turn off the sensors in his eyes for a bit. usually when he's over stimulated. sometimes when he's tinkering on something he knows well and someone keeps bothering him. sometimes it's because someone keeps trying to get his attention and "sorry I didn't see you my eyes were off" is hilarious
#the mechanisms#the mechs#drumbot brian#jonny d'ville#ashes o'reilly#ivy alexandria#marius von raum#toy soldier#raphaella la cognizi#gunpowder tim#nastya rasputina
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Ninjago Western - Lloyd
Lloyd
He is more qualified to live in the country than in the city.
Before meeting Kai, Lloyd never learned how to use a real weapon. Lloyd always wanted to learn how to use a weapon like his father Garmadon's, since Lloyd always wanted to accompany his father during his hunts in the forest, but he couldn't because he was just a child.
Lloyd may not know how to use a gun, but he is pretty good when he uses his slingshot. Lloyd is more dangerous with a sling than with a gun in his hand.
He likes animals, but he has always preferred horses. But he gets along very well with Kai's horse, Flame, and Vania's dog, Chompy. He didn't know how to ride a horse, but thanks to Kai, Lloyd learned to ride quite well.
Lloyd met Kai when he saved him from being attacked by bandits who were trying to steal his amulet.
Lloyd decides to go with Kai when he discovers that he is looking for the men who attacked his house and murdered his mother, in addition to insisting on hiring Kai as a bodyguard since Lloyd promised him a good reward. Lloyd promised Kai that Wu, his uncle, would give him a good reward in return.
Lloyd saw how Kai rejected him at first, because he was a boy, but when he mentioned his uncle Wu saw how Kai changed his mind and reluctantly decided to accompany him, Lloyd didn't know the reason but it felt good to have company.
Lloyd sometimes likes to annoy Kai, he finds it funny the way he gets irritated and angry. He sometimes even goes to the extent of embarrassing him in front of others.
He even embarrasses him in front of some women who want to flirt with Kai in various cantinas.
It bothers him sometimes to see how Kai treats him like a baby, he believes that he sees him as a defenseless and weak child. Even when Kai treats him coldly and brusquely.
Lloyd knows that Kai is a good person, despite seeing him with a cold and lonely attitude, he knows that deep down he is a good person, and that he cares about the good of his friends. Since on more than one occasion, Kai has saved him from various problems.
He never lets anyone touch his amulet, he almost keeps it hidden so that no other person sees it. He knows it's the only memory his family has of him, and that's why he keeps it close to him.
Lloyd likes Cole, Zane and Jay, unlike Kai, they are nicer to him, they were even nice to him the first time they saw him. Even when he is with them they make him feel like a normal child.
Lloyd also likes Nya, Skylor, Pixal and Vania. In them he can see four very good mother figures, even when being close to them he can feel again the love he felt for his mother.
He loves listening to Nya's adventures, he likes to see how Pixal is good with machines, he knows that she is good like Jay. When he is with Skylor he asks her many times how she came to fall in love with Kai, and Skylor will always answer that she won't know either. And when he is with Vania he loves receiving good snacks from her.
He Sometimes he has even gone so far as to save Kai a few times from some bad guys. Just to show him that he can be a strong and brave boy.
Kai may have been cold towards Lloyd at first, but over time Kai begins to love Lloyd in a brotherly as well as fatherly way. Because of this, Lloyd comes to see Kai as the older brother he never had and as a second father to him.
The first thing Lloyd learns from Kai is about not getting into trouble with other people, riding a horse was the second thing Kai taught him, and it wasn't difficult for him to handle Flame.
Then Lloyd learns to shoot thanks to Kai, at first he did not master the weapon well but thanks to Kai's advice he managed to master his weapon and improve his aim. But Kai only taught him to shoot only in case of emergencies or when Kai was not around him to protect him, Lloyd would have to use the gun only to defend himself, with the condition that he never kill anyone.
Lloyd was once curious to try alcoholic drinks, but when Ronin and Kai let him try their drinks he realized that alcohol was like poison. And he swore that he would never again drink a single drink made of alcohol.
There are times when others make Lloyd feel like a normal child. Cole sometimes teaches him how to play the piano in his bar, Jay teaches him how to be a good engineer, Zane lends him books and teaches him easy methods to treat an injury, and with Kai he learned to hunt and sometimes takes him fishing.
But when he is with the girls, Nya is the only one who sometimes does more activities with him, like when she takes him horseback riding or when she tells him stories of all his adventures throughout Ninjago as the best sheriff in town.
When Lloyd sees his uncle Wu again, he is relieved that he did not lose his entire family and that he was the last member of the Montgomery family. He is happy to see him again, but decides not to stay with him and continue accompanying Kai.
He likes to see the stars and the sunsets. Things that he did with his father, and now he does with Kai.
#au#lego ninjago#ninjago#ninjago au#lloyd garmadon#lloyd#ninjago fanart#ninjago lloyd#ninjago headcanon#ninjago headcanons#headcanons#headcanon#western ninjago#ninjago western#ninjago western au#western au#western#western ninjago au
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so um, i wanted to rant in here for a little bit. so far, i have loved your dybmn series and this makes me think that the way you write your characters complexities is so good. i’m a little afraid of sharing this as everyone here seems to love dybmn spencer.
because god, spencer is so unfair and insufferable. reader is insecure but not as unbelievable unbearable as spencer, i understand if i might be misinterpreting this but it was easy to deduce he would be the one projecting his own insecurities on reader.
it annoys me how he won’t give her the opportunity to truly enjoy her body as she wants to sexually engage with him. he claims he wants her and cares for her pleasure but sometimes it doesn’t really look like it, it feels like some sort of manipulative traumatic tactic to actually hold her hostage even though he says he’s not.
it’s contradictory. just because everything went wrong with elle, which is WEIRD considering his whore phase doesn’t gives him the right to expect that much from reader. god, he’s a profiler. he might not be able to actually read minds but i’m pretty sure he’s perfectly capable of picking up clues with his IQ.
specially during her first fucking time with a man. how would he want her to tell him she loves him if she’s still soooooooo inexperienced? literally how? i feel bad for reading it this way but the andromeda chapter fucked me upppp. there were all sorts of theories going on my mind after i read it.
she knows nothing about relationships and is constantly put into the dangerous position of wanting to please him, he never forces her but it’s pretty obvious she TRIES. how is that not enough for him? and it’s not just the sex, he has always had her affection at his disposition (i say this according to the way she’s agreed to accept his invitations to events like the bar or film festivals, the way she’s constantly kissing him without being sexual and always asking for him).
nevertheless, i’m really excited to see how the series will be evolving as they go. every chapter comes up with something new and i love that we’re able to theorize about it. i just really hope we get a big apology from spencer because….
i’m keeping this one:
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thank u so much for taking the time to share ur thoughts!! I rlly appreciate it lovely!! and honestly i don’t think you’re alone in disliking dybmn spencer😭 he gets a lot of hate!!
me explaining stuff abt reid below👇 there are reasons for him being the way he is it’s not ALL inexcusable i promise!!
he is honestly probably more insecure than reader. one thing a lot of people have asked me is “how does it make sense for him to be so traumatized from what happened with elle and still have slept with a ton of women after” and honestly psychologically speaking it’s really not a reach that he would have done that! often when people are really insecure about themselves they seek reassurance and validation from other people, and sometimes they go about getting that validation through sex! i imagine since elle he’s never had a real committed romantic relationship and it’s all been very casual hookups, sometimes w the same people but never breaching into romance territory (don’t mention maeve idk if she’s canon or not in dybmn universe lol)
and I don’t think he’s holding her hostage, he just truly can’t imagine that she loves him back. and if you think about it he has every reason not to. his affection hasn’t been reciprocated or received well for most of his life (elle, his dad, his mom, jj (sorry for bringing up jeid)). even if you’re receiving all the input that someone likes you, if you hate yourself enough you’ll go to crazy lengths to not believe it.
i agree that it’s not super healthy, but he knows that! in my mind that’s actually why he told her on the phone that they didn’t feel the same way—he was trying to essentially be like hey girl you should know im pretty sure you don’t like me as much as i like you, and that’s fine, but if it makes you uncomfortable then we should talk about it because i don’t want you to feel like there are terms and conditions on our relationship that you didn’t understand.
also it might be helpful to realize that in some ways spencer really is not more experienced with romantic relationships than she is. he had a situationship with elle that never went anywhere and a bunch of hookups (and maybe maeve but even if that happened it was like a fake relationship lmao they were e dating and I don’t believe he really loved her but that’s a post for another day). but he doesn’t know how to exist in a healthy relationship with a partner who really cares for him any more than she does. most of dybmn is from readers perspective and she FEELS that he’s way more experienced but that experience is pretty much limited to sex which is obviously a big hang up for her so not surprising that she focuses on it so much and his experience seems so vast. but yeah romantically he is also a late bloomer and fairly stunted. he’s kinda figuring it all out for the first time just like she is!
so anyway that was me defending reid for four paragraphs!! but also maybe he’s just an asshole idk men suck why am I defending one of them
thank u again for giving me an excuse to talk abt this!!! ily
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Some days the fear of not being able to make it, of feeling like everything will go terribly and that nothing will ever change is really breathtaking. It's something hard to control. Your mind just keeps saying that specific word or reminds you of that specific event and everything, all your certainties and plans, seem to crash down like a sand castle. Overthinking, spiralling... are the only choices here.
But it's only a game your mind plays with you.
It plays with your fears, it brings them up, cause that's the only way to stop you from actually getting what you want or moving where you want. Because here, you're safe: you know everything out of this situation, you know how you feel (even if you feel caged, hurt...), you know every small detail and that's somewhat safe. While if you want to go somewhere different, you don't know how things are gonna be for sure. And according on your mind, it's unsafe: as unsafe as those times in which everything went "bad" (was it really THAT bad? Or it's just how your mind remembers it to be? Cause you're still here, alive and breathing, fighting for yourself through the anxiety and floating over fears... you're more than enough, honestly).
But the thing is: finding similarities (even a little one) with those times doesn't mean the result will be the same as back then. Thinking about how you were (made?) feeling like a failure, alone and not good enough after not succeeding at something, doesn't mean you're that nor that this time it will be the same. Exactly cause you're not a failure, you're not alone and you're good enough.
Think about all the times you didn't study much for a test (or the time you studied a lot). Did you failed/passed all of them the same way?
I actually didn't. Not all the times I got As, not all the times I failed miserably. And that's because, for as much as we want to be in control, there are other factors in life that we cannot control. We don't even know of them sometimes tbh. And they can change it all (sure, for the best as much as for the worse: but why always focus on the worse when there's the other 50% of chances it will be good? Is it really worth to ruin our mood? To only give half of our effort cause "I won't make it anyway..."? What if we gave our best anyway and had no regrets however it will go?).
We can only do our best with what we can control and just allow ourselves to see how things will be for real, without trying to sabotage the result "just to be right" about us not being able to make it (at times, when we put in only 50% of our effort, things may not go well exactly because we don't believe in them and us that much. We get what we give).
Convince your mind it may be good to change and try something else. And it may go better than you can ever dream of. And you're not being naive. And even if this time won't be as good, I don't think it will be as bad as the cage you're keeping yourself into: even the smallest move towards where you want to go or what you want to feel will help you slowly reach it. Even if you won't make it at the first try. Allow yourself to try one more time. And another one too.
You gave a lot of chances to others, don't you think you deserve as much too?
Please don't give up without trying. Don't do it to yourself, you deserve so much more. Would you suggest your best friend to give up if they were in your place or would you believe in them and support them?
#words#healing#important#positivity#thoughts#self healing#self love#positive thinking#healingjourney#self care#self embrace#self help#self support#self worth#self confidence#recovery#reminders#mental health#emotional health#emotional support
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