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cutielights · 7 months

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ITS HERE!!!

I think exactly one person voted ‘No’ on The Poll :p <3

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Leo

Activities- what do they like to do with their s/o?

He loves going swimming with you, beach, pool, waterparks? They’re all game in his eyes

Beauty- what physical attributes do they like the most about their s/o?

He loves your hands, cuddling and absentmindedly playing with your fingers

Comfort- how would they comfort their s/o through a bad day or a panic attack?

“Hey, hey I’m here, breathe, it’s me, Leo, remember?” He’s practiced in these things. Guides you through the 5 4 3 2 1 method

Dreams- how do they picture their future with their s/o?

When it crosses his mind, he pictures it with kids, training them to be ninjas. But that’s in the future, he’s in the now

Equal- are they the dominant one in the relationship or are they passive?

You guys take turns, kind of looks like a competition to the outside eye

Fight- how easy is it for them to forgive? How do they fight?

The thing he does most is sulk for a few days, silent treatment. Depending on who he thinks was truly in the wrong, he’ll confront you or apologise himself.

Gratitude- how grateful are they? Are they aware of how much their s/o does?

He is so insecure about not being enough for you. He is so grateful you put up with him, please comfort him, he needs to know you actually love him and don’t hate him, super aware of everything you do

Honesty- do they keep secrets from their s/o, or do they share everything?

The secrets he keeps are more of, ptsd related things. Doesn’t want you to worry about his nightmares. Can be coaxed into telling the truth, usually with cuddles after said nightmares

Inspiration- has their s/o inspired them?

Inspired? He’s definitely more open with his feelings now, healthier coping mechanisms

Jealousy- how jealous are they?

Possessive Jealousy? No. Insecure Jealousy. Plays it cool on the outside, but nervousness runs rampant in this boy’s skull, what if you think that guy is better than him? What about that yokai? They’re conveniently attractive and oh god they’re making jokes and you’re laughing?! Oh no oh no oh no

Kiss- are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

It was awkward to say the least. You both knew you wanted to kiss, but didn’t know how to express it. Kinda went like; “So-“ “Are we gonna-“ “y’know…”. after some failed attempts, you finally kissed

Love confession- how did they confess?

He confessed in the middle of a Jupiter Jim marathon. It was accidental as he thought you were asleep, after panicking and saying he didn’t mean it, you returned his feelings

Marriage- what are their thoughts on marriage?

Scares him half to death. Not that he doesn’t want to, it’s just- he feels he’s not worthy of marriage

Nicknames- what do they call their s/o?

Baby, Honey, Love of my life

On cloud nine- what are they like when on cloud nine? Is it obvious?

Zones out just staring at you with simultaneously the most dorky, smug, and lovestruck smile on his face

PDA- their thoughts on PDA, do they practice it?

110% he gives you kisses in public, he is holding your hand, either piggybacking you or the other way around, it’s game

Quirk- a random ability they have that is beneficial towards the relationship

His ability to clock you feeling down the moment it happens is wonderful if not otherworldly

Romance- how romantic are they, is it cliche or creative?

He can be cliche, nights at Hueso’s, but also mixes it up a bit with nighttime strolls or Hidden City shenanigans

Support- are they helping their s/o achieve their goals, do they believe in them?

Of course he’s helping! Maybe a tad too enthusiastic at times, but he wants the best for you

Thrill- do they feel the need for new things? Or prefer a relationship with routine?

He is doing new things all the time with you, but only new things you want to to ofc, may give you a nudge outside the comfort zone every now and again, just to help things along

Understanding- are they empathetic?

He might not seem it at first glance, but he is empathetic. Helps you through nightmares, injuries and anything that may ail you

Value- how important is the relationship to them?

Holds it above his own mental sanity

Wildcard- random fluff hc!

He is an arms guy, jumping into your arms or picking you up and spinning you around in his

Xoxo- are they affectionate, do they like to kiss and cuddle?

He is kissing your cheek to get attention, on the hand when being overly dramatic or romantic, on the forehead when cuddling, so very affectionate

Yearning- how do they cope when they miss their partner?

Quite sulky, whiny about it the whole time, saying things would be so much better if you were simply in each other’s presence. As for coping? He cuddles a pillow at night until you return

Zeal- are they willing to go great lengths for the relationship? If so, what kind?

He is ready to do anything. Stay in the prison dimension? If it means you’re safe. Steal a cake? If it makes you happy

Raph

Activities- what do they like to do with their s/o?

He loves working out with you. Buuut if that’s not your speed, he won’t complain about getting pizza

Beauty- what physical attributes do they like the most about their s/o?

He can’t pick a favourite! Perhaps your height is his favourite, he likes using you as a teddy

Comfort- how would they comfort their s/o through a bad day or a panic attack?

He’s bringing you ice cream and a shoulder to cry on after a bad day, maybe even some flowers too

Dreams- how do they picture their future with their s/o?

He gets very anxious about the future, especially the future of your relationship. Sits down to have a very serious talk about it, would you want to get married? Would you want kids? Can we afford kids? How do we acquire children? Takes it seriously and doesn’t marry himself to one particular future

Equal- are they the dominant one in the relationship or are they passive?

You both stand on the same level of equality

Fight- how easy is it for them to forgive? How do they fight?

Snaps if he’s particularly stressed about something. Apologises after taking a few deep breaths. It’s extremely rare for an argument to last more than a day

Gratitude- how grateful are they? Are they aware of how much their s/o does?

Oh my man thinks you’re way out of his league, will forever be eternally grateful for you and everything you do

Honesty- do they keep secrets from their s/o, or do they share everything?

If he has secrets, he wouldn’t be able to keep them for long, they eat away at him. Mind Raph helps him tell the truth before it does some damage to the relationship

Inspiration- has their s/o inspired them?

You’ve definitely inspired him to take more time to himself, and just relax, even just for a bit

Jealousy- how jealous are they?

He refuses to call it jealousy, he just refuses to. He knows you would never do anything with that person, that conveniently attractive person, with a great personality, and you’re laughing at their jokes?! “Haha, yeah we just need to go… somewhere else.”

Kiss- are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

He’s getting better with practice. The first was at a drive in theatre, neither of you were really paying attention to the movie, something about a cafe owner going broke, he blurted out the question so quickly you didn’t even hear the sentence. You had to ask him to repeat himself twice before he had calmed down

Love confession- how did they confess?

With flowers in your favourite colour, he stood on your fire escape and poured his heart out in front of you

Marriage- what are their thoughts on marriage?

It crosses his mind often, he’s very concerned about the future, dislikes that he can’t just know what will happen. As for marriage itself? He’ll ask someday, but not now

Nicknames- what do they call their s/o?

Shortstack

On cloud nine- what are they like when on cloud nine? Is it obvious?

He’s obvious. But in denial with it, even when called out

PDA- their thoughts on PDA, do they practice it?

He’s not one for PDA, preferring cuddles in private

Quirk- a random ability they have that is beneficial towards the relationship

His pure strength and size is good for many things, including amazing cuddles

Romance- how romantic are they, is it cliche or creative?

Cliche, he knows it’s cliche, but it’s cliche for a reason right? Flowers, candles, the whole shebang. People wouldn’t keep doing it if it didn’t work!

Support- are they helping their s/o achieve their goals, do they believe in them?

He would! Would help you set realistic goals and work up to the ultimate one

Thrill- do they feel the need for new things? Or prefer a relationship with routine?

He likes his routine, throwing in a surprise here and there

Understanding- are they empathetic?

Yes! Ofc, he is. Doesn’t want you to suffer, cuddles count as therapy right?

Value- how important is the relationship to them?

Important, he is making sure you are safe 100% of the time, he knows what a pain villains are for stealing s/o’s

Wildcard- random fluff hc!

Piggybacks! Or carrying you bridal style, just imagine all the things you can see up there

Xoxo- are they affectionate, do they like to kiss and cuddle?

Yes and yes, not so much as PDA, but as general cuddles for movie nights

Yearning- how do they cope when they miss their partner?

Won’t try to outwardly express this to anyone, shows up outside your window, if that’s not possible due to some unspoken reason then he probably just messages you, staying up later than he usually does

Zeal- are they willing to go great lengths for the relationship? If so, what kind?

Man is ready to jump off a building for you

Donnie

Activities- what do they like to do with their s/o?

Going to conventions, dancing, pure enjoyment of the other’s company

Beauty- what physical attributes do they like the most about their s/o?

Any facial markings or scars, stretch marks included

Comfort- how would they comfort their s/o through a bad day or a panic attack?

Asks before doing absolutely anything. “Can I come in?” “I’m going to come closer, is that okay?” “May I touch you?” Does his best to calm you down, if not, then he’s finding the root of the issue and eliminating it

Dreams- how do they picture their future with their s/o?

He pictures his future quite often, the vision changes from time to time, but your always next to him in it

Equal- are they the dominant one in the relationship or are they passive?

Says he’s the dominant one, but really likes when you’re the dominant

Fight- how easy is it for them to forgive? How do they fight?

Fights actually don’t happen that much with the two of you. If you do fight, he only lets it last a few minutes before cutting contact and giving you the silent treatment. Forgiveness is given in a few days and you guys are on good terms again

Gratitude- how grateful are they? Are they aware of how much their s/o does?

He can forget sometimes, but he spends a day without you and takes it all back, realising how much he relies on you

Honesty- do they keep secrets from their s/o, or do they share everything?

According to the internet, honesty is key to a healthy relationship, so he does his best although honesty is quite difficult sometimes, in general

Inspiration- has their s/o inspired them?

Inspired in the way that you give him new insights he himself hadn’t considered fully yet, set on one path, helping him see the bigger picture on things

Jealousy- how jealous are they?

It’s through the roof, although, he’s in denial about it

Kiss- are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

It didn’t happen until at least six months, awkward at first, but followed your lead after some reassurance

Love confession- how did they confess?

He had a whole plan on how to do it, like a months long plan. You got there first, catching him off guard

Marriage- what are their thoughts on marriage?

He’d get married if you really wanted to but, he doesn’t see the point exactly. That doesn’t stop him from being emotional on the day however

Nicknames- what do they call their s/o?

Darling, Significant Other

On cloud nine- what are they like when on cloud nine? Is it obvious?

Gets extremely defensive about the fact that he’s definitely not on cloud nine that he forgets to act like it

PDA- their thoughts on PDA, do they practice it?

Absolutely not, especially not in the first few months. Hand holding is acceptable, and the occasional hug

Quirk- a random ability they have that is beneficial towards the relationship

The ability to force himself to stay up all night, caffeine helps of course. You guys can just talk in the dead of night, as we all know, that is the best bonding time

Romance- how romantic are they, is it cliche or creative?

Gets creative with it, but isn’t shying away from flowers. Better yet! Mechanical flowers that bloom in the day! They never die!

Support- are they helping their s/o achieve their goals, do they believe in them?

Much like his red older brother, helps you set realistic mini-goals, and then helps achieve them. Not too hands on however, wants you to accomplish it yourself

Thrill- do they feel the need for new things? Or prefer a relationship with routine?

Routine. Routine. Routine. Cannot function without it. If there’s something new he needs to know about it at least a week in advance and that’s being lenient

Understanding- are they empathetic?

He is empathetic, just not the best at expressing it

Value- how important is the relationship to them?

This is so important to him, you would not believe

Wildcard- random fluff hc!

He pulls you onto his lap when working on something, refusing to let you leave

Xoxo- are they affectionate, do they like to kiss and cuddle?

After the initial phase he most definitely is, but only in private will you get kisses

Yearning- how do they cope when they miss their partner?

Calls and messages 24/7, if that’s unavailable? Workaholic

Zeal- are they willing to go great lengths for the relationship? If so, what kind?

He’s ready to destroy his inventions for you. Yes- he has backups, but that’s beside the point!

Mikey

Activities- what do they like to do with their s/o?

Let’s go, come on we’re going to paint New York with graffiti. Loves cooking with you and showing you techniques he learned recently

Beauty- what physical attributes do they like the most about their s/o?

Loves your hair/fur/whatever, running hands through it

Comfort- how would they comfort their s/o through a bad day or a panic attack?

Comfort foods, but never overboard with it, too much is unhealthy. Movie nights and gentle words

Dreams- how do they picture their future with their s/o?

He honestly doesn’t think about it all that much, preferring the moment. But he does picture his future with you in it

Equal- are they the dominant one in the relationship or are they passive?

Passive, prefers standing on equal ground with people

Fight- how easy is it for them to forgive? How do they fight?

Dr feelings isn’t letting fights go unresolved, preferring to talk it out and get to the bottom of the issue

Gratitude- how grateful are they? Are they aware of how much their s/o does?

He’s super grateful! Does occasionally let it slip, but just tell him and he’ll remember himself

Honesty- do they keep secrets from their s/o, or do they share everything?

He wouldn’t keep secrets on purpose, likely the only reason he hasn’t told you anything is because it hadn’t come up in conversations yet, or he’s self conscious about it, not wanting to be a bother, but never out of malice

Inspiration- has their s/o inspired them?

Inspiration in the sense that you’re his favourite muse? Yes! Inspiration in the sense that he’s changed? Probably not

Jealousy- how jealous are they?

He tries his best to not get jealous, but sometimes he just can’t hold it back, Dr delicate touch tells the person you’re taken

Kiss- are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

Rooftop rambles at night are a must in this relationship, it happened under the moonlight, you could taste the pizza on his breath

Love confession- how did they confess?

He tried making it romantic, he really did, but one disaster after another passed through. He was about to just leave and take it as a sign you guys weren’t supposed to be together until you confessed instead

Marriage- what are their thoughts on marriage?

He’s up for it if you’re up for it, but only after a while, when you’re both adults, just to be safe

Nicknames- what do they call their s/o?

Baby, Honey, CutiePie, Angel, Wonder

On cloud nine- what are they like when on cloud nine? Is it obvious?

He physically has heart eyes, most obvious in his cloud-nine shenanigans, zoned out whilst staring at you once and added way too much baking soda it was a disaster

PDA- their thoughts on PDA, do they practice it?

PDA all day, as long as you’re okay with it ofc, mostly just hand holding and an arm around your shoulder

Quirk- a random ability they have that is beneficial towards the relationship

His ability to completely clock whenever you’re down avoids most complications

Romance- how romantic are they, is it cliche or creative?

He gets creative with it, thinks the traditional things are nice, sure, but overdone

Support- are they helping their s/o achieve their goals, do they believe in them?

Oh absolutely he believes in you! Supports your goals and helps out with what you may need

Thrill- do they feel the need for new things? Or prefer a relationship with routine?

New things. Hidden city dates all the time because it’s the most unpredictable, carefully avoiding the law enforcements.

Understanding- are they empathetic?

Absolutely! Have you met this boy? Sureee Dr Delicate touch isn’t empathetic, but that’s not a problem with you guys, he hasn’t met you yet.

Value- how important is the relationship to them?

You’re pinned in his contacts, he adores baking or cooking anything for you, overall one of the most important people in his life

Wildcard- random fluff hc!

Has one of those jars that have the lolly sticks with things to do with a s/o written on them, you made it together! Orange stick for an indoor date, green for outdoor, white for something that can be done anywhere

Xoxo- are they affectionate, do they like to kiss and cuddle?

Affection levels at 110% he’s giving you all the attention you deserve and could ever want

Yearning- how do they cope when they miss their partner?

He spams messages for a while, but if you’re not responding for some reason, listens to music in order to zone out. Takes his mind off of things ya know?

Zeal- are they willing to go great lengths for the relationship? If so, what kind?

He would go to the greatest lengths. This man would have taken Leo’s place in the prison dimension if it meant you were safe and alive

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razorblade180 · 6 months

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Aether headcanon because why not?

Actually enjoys fishing

Has a mean competitive streak after several losses in TCG

Paimon braids his hair in the morning if he’s too sleepy to do so

Kinda introverted but was forced to be more outgoing after losing Lumine

Likes quietness in the daytime, but not a fan of it at night.

Enjoys quality with close ones. Even if it’s sitting in a room doing nothing

An actual menace to society when around his sister or someone he’s very comfortable

Likes the feeling of being sore

The right corner of his lip bleeds when he’s hyper focused in a fight because he’s biting the inside. He’s trying to stop

Enjoys light rain.

Favorite Teyvat meal is Kaeya’s specialty and Noelle’s specialty.

Sneaks off sometimes to fight abyss mages as a way of “blowing off steam”

His personality changes ever so slightly depending on alignment. No one is certain if it’s to reflect the archons or if it’s a deeper meaning

Anemo Aether is pretty casual and curious. Easily the most extroverted demeanor.

Geo Aether can be a bit more blunt (heh) as well as focused. Tends to be a little more imposing.

Electro Aether takes the least amount of bullshit and less forgiving temperament. Not the biggest fan of being looked down on and ready to put someone in their place.

Dendro Aether holds the most outward joy. Someone might mistake him for some kind of fairy or spirit when he’s playing with Aranara. Pretty reckless yet adept.

Hyrdo Aether is calm and pretty resilient. Kinda emotional but fairly good at keeping it in check. Fairly easy to agitate in comparison to the rest aside from Electro. Empathetic from all the emotional people and it kinda stinks.

Is awake more than he sleeps but also known for having many napping spots.

Questionable choice in men some would say.

Amazing choice in women, others might say.

Bisexual and polygamy enthusiasts

Gave Paimon her own house in the teapot

Not a big climbing fan.

Has a low energy day like every two weeks. Sometimes less. Very much relates with Kokomi.

Slight fear of lighting after fighting Raiden.

Thinks often about Jeht and the adventurer from The Chasm.

Claims the world changes or grows bigger than he remembers. Paimon never believes him outright.

Can’t get enough of Albedo’s company.

A little envious of Diluc’s high ponytail

Would actually commit atrocities if someone hurt Paimon.

The automatic big brother to every child and the feisty lion cub to Dehya and Jean.

Has accidentally called Ningguang “mom.” Will not talk about. She actually found it quite endearing.

Will die, fight, and live for Collei in any given situation. She is cherished at all times.

Tends to usually drink around Beidou, Venti, Eula, and Rosaria. Its a swell time.

Everyone claims he clearly has a slight accent that gives away he’s not really from here. Aether doesn’t hear it at all.

Will occasionally do something dramatic enough like scream in a secluded forest or attempt to cut his hair just to get Lumine to show up for like five minutes. She won’t tell him anything but that’s no excuse to not hug him.

Enjoys quality time with Lynette.

Makes two separate birthday cakes for Ei and Makoto.

60% a cat person. 40% dog person.

Knows a little archery thanks to Amber

May or may not own an Inazuma wanted poster of himself because it looked cool.

Actually has standard Favonious armor, Watasumi military garb, and a suit with shades after helping Navia.

#genshin impact #genshin headcanons #gi aether

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dirtytransmasc · 1 year

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do you have any ao'nung and tsireya bonding w their new brother, spider, hcs?? <3

I had almost finished writing this post out, and then my computer died, and I wanna scream. anyway

both siblings are good kids, so when their parents take spider in and tell them to treat him as one of their own, they do it. spider is their baby brother (we don't know ao'nung or tsireya's ages, so they might be younger, but I don't care, spider's the baby of the family as far as I'm concerned) from the second he's brought into their home

tsireya is the sweet supportive sister from the very beginning, she loves having another baby brother to coddle and annoy (cause that's what big sisters are good for). ao'nung is the pain in the ass big brother who would die before someone harms a hair on his head.

tsireya is the empathetic, emotional protector sibling; she helps keep him grounded, gives him a rock to hold onto when he can't go to their parents, since his sort of parental trauma doesn't just go away easy, no amount of proper parenting with undo it, so sometimes he needs someone in his corner when his mind gets the best of him. ao'nung is more of physical protector, he makes sure no one messes with his baby brother, that he takes care of himself, and that he doesn't push himself too far.

tsireya is normally the one who follows him when he sulks off, and it always works out the same way; she goes to find him, sits next to him without saying a word, and then waits for him to fall against her before she wraps her tail around him. sometimes she starts humming or singing, sometimes they talk, other times they just sit and listen to the water or the forest. he feels safe to just feel and react and cry when he's with her.

ao'nung is his partner in crime, they're attached at the hip, constantly butting heads, and always ready for chaos. ao'nung taught spider everything he knows about their culture, diplomacy, leadership, and mischief; so not only are they good at pissing each other off, but they're good at breaking havoc against any poor unfortunate soul, and getting away with it (they're best friends and it shows)

when spider first joins the village, but was not yet adopted, tsireya tries to be kind and welcoming, as she did with the sully's joining the village. ao'nung does the same, in the way that he treats spider like he did the sully's; he antagonizes cause he's a stupid teenager. he hits a sore spot fast and see's spiders true nature very quickly. he thought that spider was a relatively well-rounded kid like him, thought he could take a couple jabs here and there, he didn't know how badly he had been alienated his whole life, so the few stabs at spider's human nature revealed how sad and anxious he was, how hard he tried to fit in. he's pretty protective after that, so you can only imagine how he reacted when he found out how spider was treating himself, and how he was being treated by the sully's after neteyam's death.

when spider goes through his mental and physical burnout, its ao'nung that won't leave his side; he practically force feeds him when he won't eat, is constantly offering him water, watching him sleep, forcing him to clean himself up. he makes sure he won't lose another brother (spider's body gave out during the clean up of the battle, ao'nung subsequently witnessed it, and after losing neteyam, it made him feel a certain type of way).

ao'nung and tsireya were the first people to get spider to smile again.

spider brings out tsireya's competitive streak, they always have some sort of petty bet going on between them; who can finish chores first, who can piss off ao'nung first, etc.

ao'nung and spider, no matter how they present themselves, are fair, intelligent, competent leader's. they are s perfect duo when it comes to helping tonowari maintain the village during the war times and they're are constantly surprising everything everyone with how serious they can be at times.

spider likes to show his siblings his live by making them things or doing their hair. he likes quiet time with his loved ones.

ao'nung and spider are a mirror image of neteyam and lo'ak respectively, and it makes them both a little sad, and it chills the Sully's to their cores.

when they sleep together as a family, the kids sleep between their parents, with spider in the very middle, cause they all know that boy needs all the cuddles.

#my mind is in an angsty gutter today #most of these are kidna sad #oops #I also feel like this are kinda subpar #my brain is super slow today #I'm probably gonna make another one eventually #cause I had to force these #anyway #spider socorro #miles spider socorro #miles socorro #avatar spider #spider avatar #aonung #tsireya #spider tonowari'itan #hi'i'tsyil te fkew'weopx tonowari'itan

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marie-eria · 1 year

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hcs of if you dated sonic (r or qp)

bc i have a shameless massive crush on sonic the hedgehog i made a list of things sonic would do/how he’d act if you dated him. either romantic or queerplatonic

-nicknames. so many nicknames. mostly goofy ones. his main pet names he uses are “babe” or “baby” bc he finds the others embarrassing (he likes being called them, though.)

-sonic struggles to initiate romantic or queerplatonic contact, and is frequently rather embarrassed by receiving it. but when he's in the mood for touch, he will basically melt into you.

-despite struggling to intentionally be all mushy, he has a habit of picking you up bridal-style to run around with you in his arms. its fun feeling the breeze at such high speeds, and the giant smile he has on his face whenever he runs makes it even better.

- a very good shoulder to cry on. he’s attentive and empathetic, and he’ll just sit there and let you hold him for as long as you need when you have a rough day.

-if you fight alongside him, he's playfully competitive. a "whoever beats up less robots does dishes tonight" challenge is commonplace with him

-gift giving as an act of affection. over time, a lot of silly little knickknacks he’s found along his adventures have made their way into your room.

-he’s kind of bad at expressing his love via words (he’s not as bad as he thinks, he just feels like he never gets his point across) and so he focuses on actions. subtle gestures are common--brushing his hand across yours, a glance in your direction, a hand on your shoulder...little things to let you know he’s there and he cares

-sonic is really good at knowing what people like and will use this to give you exactly what you want or are interested in as gifts.

-sonic tries to be active in his partners hobbies, even if they arent his own. he might not Get It on the level you do, but he's happy with anything that makes you happy

-sonic will put all of his faith into you. he has a habit of masking his pain or negative feelings, but he will put his everything into trusting you and hopes you trust him enough to feel the same

-protective. VERY protective. his friends & family are the most important thing to him, and you're part of that. he'd do anything to keep you safe and is willing to take any blow or fight any battle to protect you

-very encouraging. he knows you have potential in anything you set your mind to and really wants to help you reach it. will spar with you for hours if asked

-sends goofy memes as a sign of affection. a lot involving chao bc he loves them

-a bit of a showoff--he likes looking cool in front of you. he’s winked in your direction during a fight when you’re watching on the sidelines, hoping you notice.

-and if you’re ever interested in kids, sonic would be happy with that. having raised tails pretty much, he’s very good with children (alongside his extreme passion and love for animals & wildlife.)

#sonic the hedgehog #sonic hc #queerplatonic #romantic #sonic dating hc #sonic x reader #sonic x reader hc #sth hc #sth headcanons

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littlemissbumblebee · 1 month

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The Fernweh Saga by @lacunafiction

Name: Phoebe “Bee” Silver (she/her)

Personality: Snarky - Cautious - Friendly - Pessimistic - Merciful - Shy

Traits: Heart – Cooperative - Resistant - Skeptic

Past Affinity: Music: Guitar

Primary Ability: Empathetic Impressions

Job (if asked): Barista

Past Susceptibility: Forward.

Social Dynamics (as of Book 1):

Becca Warrick:

The moment Phoebe told Becca about the letter, she immediately began to organise work leave so she could accompany her to Fernweh and show support. She would make sure her closest friend was cared for, no matter what.

Phoebe hates having to be back in Fernweh, and more or less clings to Becca at every single given opportunity. She is her lifeline, her reminder that outside of this Gods forsaken town, there is a life she built herself that she will return to, and everything will be OK.

Phoebe and Becca have been close friends since the year Phoebe was sent away from Fernweh by her grandfather. Becca found Phoebe crying alone on Father's Day, and took it upon herself to befriend her, starting up a conversation about bees – the subject of her photography at the time. In the following years, the two would joke about that meeting, and began calling one another “Bee”.

While Phoebe has dated other women in the years since they first met, Becca has always been the constant person in her life through every high and low. Through her time at Fernweh, Phoebe slowly realised why her past relationships never worked out: She was in love with Becca, constantly comparing whoever she was with with her. She always had been, she just had never realised.

Phoebe feels absolutely, horrifically wretched for Becca being trapped in Fernweh with her, and entirely responsible for it. Every morning she wakes up to see Becca’s spot at the table empty, knowing its because she’s out walking the boundary, trying to find a way out, twists the knife. She’s worried her best friend, the woman she loves, might regret her. Regret ever coming. Maybe even hate her. She wouldn’t blame her, Phoebe’s own mind echoes those sentiments.

Sofia Dorran:

Phoebe never really knew much about Sofia, save for the facts that she was lovely, her mother was really nice, she read a lot, and she was her neighbour when she was little. While Mrs Dorran always doted on the young Phoebe, her daughter tended to prefer to read quietly, and Phoebe was entirely too shy to initiate any kind of proper interaction.

Since returning to Fernweh, and spending her time living in the B&B, Phoebe and Sofia have been getting along a bit better, with Phoebe having grown to be a little more assertive, and Sofia appreciating the genuine care Phoebe shows those around her – especially her mother.

This new closeness is nice – Phoebe may be a friendly gal, but she’s not very good at actually making new friends. Sofia is a lovely person, and even respects Phoebe’s wishes when she is asked not to refer to her as Bee (its just a her and Becca thing), something that skyrocketed Phoebe’s opinion of her.

Reese Verner:

This is a... complicated one. Reese has always been particularly hard for Phoebe to read. She could never be truly sure if he was her friend, her rival, or something in between. She certainly never liked his mother. Because of this, Phoebe treats most interactions with Reese tentatively, like someone approaching a scary looking dog.

More than once, her mother had suggested that maybe the reason Reese was so competitive and vaguely annoying with her, refusing to call her by her first name, was because he had a crush on her. Phoebe hates that idea, and not just because she’s a lesbian. She can’t stand the idea of being a part of that family, or having such a frustrating partner.

That said, Phoebe is a forgiving and friendly person, and it has been a long time since she was last in Fernweh. And, even if she was never sure if he was ever truly her friend, she does have good memories of the Verner heir, and is making a (very cautious) effort to try to befriend him. It’s not gone horribly, but it definitely needs some work.

James Corvin:

If Becca is Phoebe's anchor now, James certainly was when she lived here. He was her best friend, and Phoebe used to find herself at the Corvin farm, laughing and playing pretend with him and his sister Alina more or less every afternoon. She still wears the necklace he got her when they were little – a little sword that slots in behind the matching shield James wears on his necklace.

There’s a lot of reasons for Phoebe to hate Fernweh, to want to forget it ever existed. James Corvin is not one of them. Learning he had written her letters and they had never been delivered to her had been devastating, especially because she had assumed he hated her for leaving given the supposed lack of contact. If there’s a good thing about returning to Fernweh, its being able to see the Corvins again. She loves them both like family, and has gone out of her way to properly reconnect since she returned.

The Waitress:

Mal. Oh boy. Whatever magic is in that woman’s eyes that can cause Phoebe to freeze like someone pressed pause on her should be studied and weaponised because it’s potent.

She’s stunning, of course, but that’s actually not what’s gotten Phoebe so spellbound. It’s the mystery of her, the deep darkness of her eyes, the true care she shows for almost everyone she interacts with. How does she know her favourite food? How is she showing up in her dreams? How can someone so stunning and spellbinding have never stood out before now? Why does it feel like she can look right through every wall and mask she has and see the raw vulnerability inside?

In any other circumstance, any other, she wouldn’t feel so horrid for being so spellbound and smitten by the Waitress, but now she’s realised how in love with Becca she is, Phoebe is having a bit of a crisis. Becca isn’t poly like her, at least, she doesn’t think she is, and she would rather cut off her own leg than hurt her Honey Bee. But nonetheless, whenever Mal is in the room and fixes her with that look, it’s all Phoebe can do to not melt into a tiny gay puddle.

A bit about Phoebe:

Being “kicked out” (as she thinks of it) of Fernweh and more or less thrust into the foster system almost immediately after she lost her parents in a fire when she was still basically a kid really did a number on Phoebe. She has major abandonment issues, and is very slow to trust, despite being outwardly very friendly.

To her mind, she lost her parents, and all of a sudden absolutely nobody she cared about wanted her around anymore. Her Papa (grandfather) slowly cut himself off, and she never once got a single letter from a friend, or literally anyone from Fermweh until her Papa passed away. She might be friendly and forgiving, but that’s because she wishes the world had been more friendly and forgiving to her. She truly thinks her grandfather stopped loving her, and blames herself for it. She believes nobody could truly love her just for being her - the fact that Becca has seen her at more or less her worst and still stays around is baffling to her.

Because of all this, Becca being there for her for all these years, through breakups and breakdowns, and even coming with her to Fernweh has solidified her as a core pillar in Phoebe’s life. She’s shown time and time again that she will be there no matter what, which is something Phoebe feels she has never truly had before.

This doesn’t mean she doesn’t expect the worst the moment something she’s done causes Becca pain. The separation being trapped in Fernweh has caused feels like slowly drowning, and Phoebe is beyond worried that she’s ruined the most important relationship in her life.

She’s been through some doozies as far as relationships go, often falling for people that take advantage of her abandonment issues and clingy nature. As a result of the generally crappy experience her life has been, she tends to be sarcastic and make jokes out of everything – particularly at the worst time you could possibly make a joke.

She still plays her guitar, most often selecting songs based off of people she cares about. Given how distressingly short that list of people is, a very large number of these songs are romantic, cute or indie in nature. Her first instinct when she wants to show someone what they mean to her is to sing for them, and give them a personal trinket – though she is always surprised when people give her little trinkets, or do little performances for her. She does not value herself very highly at all.

Also, fun fact, Phoebe is trans! Something she figured out about a year before the fire. Since she didn’t have very long in Fernweh after coming out, Becca has been her primary support through the process (yet another reason why Phoebe thinks the entire world of her)

Last Thoughts/Ramble:

Golly I adore Fernweh. If you haven’t read it yet, I cannot stress enough how much you should. The first book is both on the Choice of Games website, and the Hosted Games app, and it’s written by the wonderfully talented and amazing Aelsa Trevelyan (who I definitely don’t have a massive crush on). Once you’re done reading and re-reading and re-reading it and are sufficiently obsessed, do yourself a favour and join her patreon. I guarantee you will not regret it.

Now, with that little plug out of the way, I wanted to gush a bit about this beautiful world and its amazing characters. The sheer page-turning grip the Fernweh Saga has on me is palpable. I adore horror, and the eerie, subtle, almost psychological horror themes, paired with cryptids and supernatural abilities, and some truly spectacularly written romance, make this series absolutely incredible to me.

I’ve played/read a lot of interactive novels, but none of them have ever wormed their way so deeply into my mind as TFS. The town of Fernweh is so beautifully rich with lore and intrigue that I just need to know. The imagery Aelsa portrays with her words is equally wonderful.

But where this story really shines is the characters. All of them, not just the romance options. Every single one is so vibrant and rich, you truly do feel like they’re real people. I don’t blame Phoebe for falling in love with Becca, I think I might have as well. Every interaction feels appropriately weighted and realistic.

I adore this budding series with my entire heart (which the discord channel may be sick of, given how much I post fan art and fanfic 😅). The freedom to mould your character however you like, while also having a pre written origin story is so interesting, and makes me want to know more about the character I more or less created myself.

So yeah. Do yourself a favour. Read the Fernweh Saga. You will not regret it.

#TFS #the fernweh saga #oc #interactive fiction #romance

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💓 BEATING HEART, 💘 HEART W/ ARROW [s0rry if aII my asks are ann0ying erte]

They're not annoying I love answering you dw🫂🫂💕 ask as much as you want

💓 BEATING HEART - what gets their heart racing?

Jade/Jean- a challenge, whether it's a passionate argument, a heated debate, or the opportunity to prove themselves. They appreciate when someone stands up to them intellectually and emotionally. J's brain also turns to mush when their partner very casually touches them.

Uma- beauty in all its forms. A breathtaking piece of art, a serene natural landscape, or even a heartfelt, emotionally charged moment can set their heart racing. A partner asking to be tattooed by them.

Statler- making a positive impact on someone's life. Acts of kindness, helping someone in need, or being part of a cause they believe in all energize Statler emotionally. Consequently, Statler also loves being taken care of.

Wanda- trying new things, taking risks, and living life to the fullest. Fun outings, bold gestures of affection, and moments of spontaneity are sure to ignite her passion. The one thing that flusters Wanda, though, is the domestic aspects of a relationship.

Kai- appreciates wit and cleverness. Kai is very used to being wanted and lusted over— they appreciate much more when someone lusts after their mind. Kai loves being loved for who they are and their opinions.

Travis- a sense of accomplishment and mastery. Achieving goals, pursuing their passions, and proving himself intellectually are key drivers for him. Also seeing their s/o around animals, or seeing that they're good around animals.

💘 HEART W/ ARROW - what traits do they look for in a relationship? do they believe in love at first sight?

Jade/Jean- values ambition, determination, and shared goals. They appreciate someone who can keep up with their drive and competitiveness. It's also very important for J to feel like they're needed in any way. J is skeptical of love at first sight. They prefer to get to know someone well before committing to a serious relationship.

Uma- seeks deep emotional connections and values creativity, spontaneity, and shared passions. They appreciate a partner who is empathetic and understanding, and who respects their need for space while being just a call away. Uma is more inclined to believe in love at first sight

Statler- values empathy, compassion, and emotional support in a partner. They want someone who shares their values and can engage in meaningful conversations. Statler really values their future plans, they involve their partner and expect their partner to reciprocate. Statler believes in the potential for strong connections at first sight.

Wanda- values excitement, adventure, and passion. She appreciates someone who can bring spontaneity and fun into her life, while also being understanding of her life and kind towards her daughter. Wanda is open to the idea of love at first sight, as she is impulsive and often follows her heart.

Kai- looks for independence, and shared interests in a partner. They value someone with whom they can banter and have fun with, all while telling everything straight to their faces. Kai likes people who don't beat around the bush. They hate the idea of love at first sight.

Travis- values intelligence, competence, and independence. He wants someone who he feels connected to but who gives him plenty of space. Travis values authentic ideas and meaningful conversation. He doesn't believe in love at first sight, and thinks it's wistful thinking.

#dropout if #dropout #ask #ask game #j gray #kai alofa #statler amani #travis camaro #uma bharat #wanda pavon #ros

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Thinking about how much the Zimvoid arc and Loki season 1 had in common.

Like, both of them star a villain protagonist who ends up trapped in an apocalyptic wasteland populated almost entirely by alternate versions of themselves, most of whom all suffer from the same vice of needing to scramble for power to prove their superiority while a handful of more enlightened versions of themselves reject competition in favor of cooperation. They even both have a kid version of themselves as the leader of the cooperative faction along with an older, wiser version, an aquatic version, and a huge beefcake version.

Of course because Loki is a drama and Invader Zim is a tragedy, the stories take different directions with their character arcs. In in a drama, the story is driven by characters having a flaw that they overcome or a false belief that is corrected, or possessing virtues that allow them to triumph, which all goes toward supporting whatever the story's thesis is. In a tragedy, the story is driven by characters who fail to overcome their flaws, who either never learn their lessons and change or just keep getting worse and worse, or who either abandon their virtues or let their vices win out over them, or whose virtues aren't enough for them to succeed without the support of the world around them backing them up.

Because Loki is a drama, Loki's story is about having his ego broken down so he can be built back up into a better man. He's humbled upon finding himself powerless in the TVA, forced to confront the ugly truth about himself and understand the neediness and insecurity at the root of his obsession with power and superiority. He meets other versions of himself who reflect his worst qualities back at him but also show him that he has the capacity to be better. He learns to be empathetic and care for other people besides himself and causes greater than his own ambitions, but also learns to love himself from falling for another version of him and recognizing that that all the qualities he admires her for are qualities that they share.

By contrast, Zim goes through his experience with the Zimvoid unchanged. Meeting other versions of himself and seeing them all compete for power doesn't make him self reflect on his own pettiness and meeting better versions of himself doesn't inspire him to do better. He doesn't learn to empathize with other versions of himself and doesn't learn to value himself for his own intrinsic qualities. If anything, the experience makes him worse because defeating all the Zims only reaffirms his false belief that his worth comes from his superiority over others.

Loki and the Zimvoid are essentially telling the same story, but the genre makes all the difference to the outcome.

One thing the Zimvoid does though that I really wish Loki had done is support its themes by making the villain another version of the protagonist.

Like, I remember when Loki season 1 first aired everyone was expecting Kang to be behind everything just because it would tie-in with the greater Marvel universe and I was saying I really hoped it would be Loki himself instead. Because Kang wasn't a character in the show until the very end. He had no personal relationship with Loki, he was just some guy we'd never met before. And literally everything else in the show was about Loki being in conflict with himself. It would've made so much more thematic sense if his line early on in the series about his plans to take over the TVA and become the most powerful being in existence was foreshadowing a reveal that one version of him had already done it and the reason he was pruning all other Loki variants who strayed from the path that would lead them to death was because he didn't want any other Lokis to overthrow him or mess up his timeline and throw him off the path that got him to where he was. Kang did end up still tempting Loki with the opportunity to have everything he ever wanted as a final test of his character growth, but it just didn't feel as impactful coming from a stranger as it would've from another Loki.

With the Zimvoid though, we got Zib as the absolute perfect villain for the story. A dark reflection of both our protagonists who are themselves mirrors of one another, reflecting all their worst qualities back at them and showing them the folly of basing their self-worth around proving their superiority over others.

#invader zim #loki #zimvoid #loki series #marvel #marvel comics #mcu #also #thematically speaking #dib is functionally the same as sylvie #therefore #zadr #and #sylki #are the same ship

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Name: Andrea Durand (Known as Andy Bennett) Species: Hunter (Ranger) Occupation: Baker’s Assistant (The Bread Cemetery) Age: 27 Years Old Played By: Ci Face Claim: Luca Hollestelle

"At this point I can’t tell if it’s selflessness or selfishness. Guess that’s for somebody else to decide."

TW: Parental death

As the oldest daughter, Andrea felt the weight of her parent’s expectations heavy upon her shoulders. It was due to her younger sister, Alexandria, that the weight did not crush her. Andrea lived up to the title of older sister far better than she lived up to that of experienced ranger. Though, when looking at it from an outside perspective, Andrea was miles ahead of her sister in terms of training and retention. What drive Andrea lacked in feeling malice towards the monsters her parents spoke of, she made up for in the fierce protectiveness of her sister. Even at her young age, Andrea understood that there was a certain horror in devotion.

Andrea had heard the whispers, her mother and father behind closed doors speaking on Alexandria’s lack of ability. Though, Andrea believed that they just hadn’t given her enough time to show what she was truly capable of. After all, she was only a child. But hadn’t she been a child once, her own skills showing though effortlessly? After a while, Andrea found herself making excuses, hopeful to dissuade her parents from believing that the youngest in their family was defective. In tandem with those excuses, Andrea provided her younger sister with a careful guidance, noting the way that she was watched in moments where their parents’ expectations came to light. At least she wasn’t unaware.

It was a trip to the Smoky Mountains that changed everything. One moment, Andrea was sparring with her father, and the next, he was gone. Her mother, too. In the bloodshed, the sisters managed to escape, but not without a few bumps and bruises, and to Andrea’s horror– a bite. The fear and exhaustion accompanied them on their journey from Tennessee to Lyon, France. Andrea watched as Alexandria dissolved into the shadows. Guilt dug its claws into her in a number of ways, but due to the nature of their purpose, Andrea had very little time to mourn the life she lost in Tennessee, and instead had to push through, resuming training with her cousins.

Andrea had considered herself to be a lot of things, but never a traitor to those who had raised her. Or rather, the ideals they enforced. She thought herself to be a ranger through and through, unlike her sister. The competitive spirit her father wanted to grow throughout her so badly waned as she realized that her sister could not participate in those same ways. Maybe that was the beginning of the end for Andrea Durand. But what she did know was that she was not a traitor to blood. The moment that her sister shifted– giving way to the bite that was not supposed to infect her, Andrea knew they had to leave.

It was not easy, collecting the funds or the documents to escape back to the United States, but after making a deal with a few faces from the underbelly of Lyon, Andrea and Alexandria arrived in the states under the names of Andy and Lexi Bennett. It took years of travel, theft, and general con-artistry, but eventually, the sisters landed themselves in Wicked’s Rest.

Over the years while at her sister’s side, Andy grew used to the inescapable creeping feeling, so much so that when approached by other beast-like creatures in Wicked’s Rest, it’s fairly easy to ignore. Though she has no drive to continue hunting or “putting down” evil, both for the sake of her sanity as well as the safety of her sister, she has continued training in a number of ways to ensure that she is able to protect Lexi. There is always the fear, however– is she the most dangerous thing for her sister?

Character Facts:

Personality: Empathetic, protective, responsible, adaptable, uncomplaining, disorganized, meddlesome, paranoid, vulnerable, vindictive

Can speak French fluently and understands some Latin.

She has an old butterfly knife that her mom gifted her on her 7th birthday that she still carries around to this day. Instead of using it for violence, she tends to use it for when she’s restless, teaching herself new tricks every now and again.

Has a younger sister who didn't inherit hunter abilities and was bit by a wolf and turned. Andy’s entire life has revolved around her sister, and honestly there isn’t room for much more.

#parental death tw #retired

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Writer Spotlight: Alexis Nedd

It's New Release Tuesday! We caught up with Alexis Nedd (@alexisthenedd) to talk about her debut novel, Don’t Hate The Player, which is out today. Alexis is a Brooklyn-based pop culture “fanthropologist” who has only ever loved things in a big, obsessive way. As the Senior Entertainment Reporter at Mashable.com, she covers television, movies, and video games, focusing on sci-fi and fantasy universes like Game of Thrones and the MCU. When she’s not writing for money, Alexis is writing for no money on her socials, where her feeds consist of deep dives on weird history and analyzing pop culture as an artifact of society.

Don’t Hate The Player is a YA romance novel that follows two competitive eSports players as they navigate school, parents, and other IRL stuff, while preparing for their biggest (and only) tournament yet. As real life and online life collide, both find the boundaries between online and IRL slipping into each other.

Can you start by telling us a little bit about Don’t Hate The Player?

In one corner, we have Emilia Romero, a popular, high-achieving Puerto Rican girl who secretly plays Guardians League Online with the elite Team Fury. No one in her real life knows she games, and everything hinges on it staying that way. In the other corner is Jake Hooper, a quiet, detrimentally empathetic nerd who’s had a crush on Emilia for years. He plays GLO with Team Unity and thinks he’s otherwise invisible.

When Guardians League Online announces a huge tournament in their city, Jake is shocked to see Emilia competing. Jake is now the only person who knows her secret, and they have to work together to keep it...all while the tournament brings their teams closer and closer to an ultimate Fury vs. Unity showdown.

Outwardly, Jake is an awkward, suffering bundle of anxiety, quite successfully hiding his integrity and wit. What was enjoyable/difficult about writing a neurodivergent romantic lead?

I started working on DHTP around the same time I learned I had ADHD. Getting that diagnosis as an adult ushered in a really strange and painful period of reevaluating my childhood, knowing that I was neurodivergent and didn’t get the help I needed. I gave a lot of the traits I used to think made me “wrong” or “bad”—the anxiety, the spinning thoughts, the self-deprecating coping mechanisms—to Jake because writing them into a lovable character felt like correcting the narrative I had grown up writing about myself.

It was difficult to excavate all of that because that level of self-evaluation totally sucks and takes forever, but by the end, I could look at Jake and think, “if I can’t hate him for feeling this way, I have no business hating myself for having felt that way.”

DHTP comes alive in its use of online gaming maps and chatrooms. How did you approach getting those virtual places right?

I made my first internet friends when cameras on phones or laptops were still rare, so I got to know a lot of people through chatrooms and forums. People’s personalities, real or constructed, come off so strongly in those rapid-fire conversations. That solved one of the problems I knew I’d have coming into this book—how do I introduce the reader to a group of characters who aren’t going to show up until the end and make them seem like part of the story the whole time? Answer: Spy on their group chat.

It was so fun to play all five roles in those chapters and determine who uses acronyms or memes, who always punctuates, what their in-jokes say about them, and so on. Truly some of my favorite parts of DHTP are in those chats.

How important do you think it is to meaningfully include online culture in YA literature?

After the year we just had, when most social interaction moved from the analog space to the digital, I consider the transformation of “online culture” into just “culture, full stop,” complete. I say this knowing I am a fully discourse-poisoned individual, and other people or writers may have the freedom to think less about that all of the time. A significant chunk of life takes place on screens these days, so if I’m writing about life... I’m going to write about the screens.

One of the big themes of DHTP is that what happens online is real whether you like it or not. So what looks from the outside like a mummy and a snake beating a guy up outside a space church can actually be the beginning of an IRL love story. Just because it’s silly doesn’t mean it’s not important.

What makes a good beginning to a story?

I don’t have any definitive advice on this, but with DHTP and the second novel I’m currently working on, I think my favorite method is putting your main characters in a situation designed to make them act the most themselves. For DHTP, we meet Jake at a party he was invited to out of politeness, so his discomfort and anxiety are front and center. Until he meets Emilia, who is only at the party because it’s in an arcade where she can indulge her gaming obsession without her parents watching. There, now we know some important things about both characters, and from here, it’s a 75k+ word journey to get them to kiss.

What’s the first book you remember loving?

This is the hardest question anyone has ever asked me. Are you sure you wouldn’t like a nice explanation of string theory instead? I’m sure I had others, but one of my formative obsessions was A Series of Unfortunate Events because as a child, I was so often frustrated with adults who didn’t believe a single word I said just because a child was saying it. Those books capture that frustration and, more importantly, do not resolve it, which I think was kinder than telling young people that everything would be OK if we read a lot of books and placed value on facts.

As a writer, how do you practice self-care when juggling work commitments and the creative processes of writing and editing?

I simply do not. After two years of working full-time and writing this book (most of it during a global pandemic), I have mastered none of the skills required to unplug and take care of myself beyond remaining alive and upright. I do not want to project the image of someone who has the self-care matrix figured out.

You don’t have to have it figured out to make something you’re proud of. You can be exhausted and smelly and know you should probably work on that soon and still create. I don’t recommend it, but it’s possible. Ask for help when you can.

What would Emilia or Jake’s blog look like if they were on Tumblr? What kind of content would they (re)blog?

Emilia’s blog would be a secret Guardians League Online stan account. She’d reblog fanart and write incredible deep dives on strategy and lore. No one would know it was her blog, but talkswithknox.tumblr.com would be required reading for people who want to know the deep magic of the game.

Jake is mostly here to read good takes on his dashboard and learn something he didn’t know when he logged in. He has never written an original post, and that’s fine.

Thanks so much for taking the time, Alexis! Don't Hate The Player is on shelves from today (and it's really, really good).

#writer spotlight #alexis nedd #don't hate the player #neurodiversity #writeblr #bookblr #books #writers on tumblr #authors on tumblr #gaming #mmorpg #writing advice #long post #worth it #ya literature

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juno in synastry: all the little reasons i love you (part 1/2)

juno, despite being an asteroid, can still be felt within our relationships in a tight orb. this post will be specifically for trines and sextiles within a (0-3) degree orb, conjunctions within a (0-5) orb (square and oppositions will be in a later post!) the aspects will be more potent than the house placements

juno trine/sextile/conjunct sun, juno in the 5th house:

a warmth between the two is indicated. the sun person could easily and naturally represent the ideal person for juno. juno can see the sun person for who they are with ease, whether that be good or bad. the sun person can be seen as “marriage” material to juno, and they will be very loyal to them. especially if other aspects favor towards romance. strong sun-juno aspects, especially if exact, can point to an almost insatiable mutual attraction. sun will be the type of person that juno needs, even if they are not typically who they attract (look to mars/venus.) this aspect can point to marriage if both parties are emotionally mature enough to handle it. with the conjunction sun may feel like they have to be with the juno person, the juno person could be the “one” in their eyes. the type of people who could suddenly elope. juno will be the warmth the sun never wants to stop burning up.

in the 5th house we can see an attraction strongly based on enjoying the others company(similar to juno-jupiter aspects) the house person can feel as though they have a lot of fun with juno, and enjoy activities with them immensely(the sign will point to what type of activities they enjoy together. in leo we see couples who may enjoy theaters, in aries it may take on a more physical plane such as hiking or sports) or perhaps they meet in a 5th house way. the house person will feel more creative and inspired around juno, and juno could easily become their muse.

juno trine/sextile/conjunct venus, juno in the 7th house:

with this, we can see a love at first sight interaction. particularly with the conjunction. (love at first sight will be experienced by either juno/venus person, or both) juno is likely to be engulfed by venus’ presence. juno will find the venus person obnoxiously beautiful, and could find it hard to focus on much else. juno will want monogamy from venus, which could go either way depending. venus will very much be visually the type of person juno pictures themselves with. this aspect usually starts off superficially and develops into something much deeper (look to synastry and composite) venus will enjoy the appreciation from juno, and will find them unforgettable. they’re likely to be drawn to each other from the start. venus will feel more attractive and desirable around juno. both parties are likely to be extremely physically attracted to each other. this aspect definitely gives me jack and rose from titanic vibes

in the 7th house, this can be a strong marriage indicator. the 7th house rules partnerships, and with juno falling there we have the perfect recipe for a long term relationship. juno will be fiercely loyal to the 7th house person, and will be reluctant to want to end things even if they go south. (reminder that juno stayed with jupiter despite how many times he was unfaithful)

juno trine/sextile/conjunct mars, juno in the 1st house:

juno and mars create a firestorm together. the two will be on 🔥 in interactions. it is likely to happen fast, explosively. the type to just be talking casually and be rolling on the floor together the next. while you two are more likely to get hot under the collar with each other (similar to moon-mars) it can feel urgent. mars could even become competitive for juno if they have other suitors. the easy aspects are more able to evade the stressful arguments that the square/opposition/conjunction have to deal with. with the conjunction, it heightens the speed in which you two get involved, the intensity of emotions, and likelihood to quarrel. without other aspects supporting it, the two will burn out just as fast as they started.

in the first house, juno may be crucial in the development of the house persons identity. the house person may feel truly whole around the juno person. the first house can also point to early childhood, perhaps juno meets the house person at a young age and guides them to who they are. or maybe the two fell in love at a young age. (think forrest gump)

juno trine/sextile/conjunct neptune, juno in the 12th house:

juno can feel like they are caught in a fairy tale. very “too good to be true” vibes. juno will look past neptune’s flaws, seeing them for their ideal version, even if that isn’t who neptune truly is. juno may tirelessly forgive and twist things to fit their narrative of who they want neptune to be. neptune may even be confused with exactly how they feel. the type that can feel each other in the room without having to see them first. with the conjunction, it feels more fated and unconditional, at its best it’s the fairytale you never want to get to the last chapter of.

juno in the 12th house can still feel fated, but how it plays out depends on the rest of the chart. the house person may develop personalities quirks around the juno person they hadnt experienced before. the house person will want to “live up” to juno’s ideals and wants. the house person may not be aware of their true feelings, and subconsciously suppress them. the 12th can point to hidden enemies, even with juno here. this could be a couple who gets married and over time the illusion fades, and both feel deceived by who they thought the other was. or maybe the house person meets juno when they are ill/vice versa, and they’re unsure of what the future holds.

juno trine/sextile/conjunct moon, juno in the 4th

the juno person will be extremely emotionally attracted to the moon person. on an emotional level, they’re the ideal mate, especially if juno is a male. juno will feel accepted here, safe, and nurtured. this can be an addictive feeling if the juno person has an afflicted 4th house natally. the moon person will be able to express their emotions in a way they may not be accustomed to. the two are likely to absorb each other’s emotions, and feel very empathetic to the others misfortunes. with the conjunction the two can feel incredibly emotionally attached. if things go sour it can be hard to let go and let someone in emotionally again. (think moon in the 8th synastry) codependency can be a problem as well as jealousy, a true ride or die couple.

in the 4th house, a stronger emphasis on building a family together, or in platonic synastry you may actually be family members. juno will want to build a home and life with the house person. the two may move in together quickly. most likely to meet at the house persons home, think family get togethers where your parents invite their friends over, or neighbors. could be the “girl next door” type of love.

disclaimer: based on my notes, and observations over a few years. depending on the specific synastry chart, aspects may be shadowed or hindered. every relationship is unique to you, and these aspects will not make or break any relationship.

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The signs as types of friends

Aries - The friend who is always reliable and there for you, but who will also tell you when you’re wrong. The friend you always have a good night out with and you can tell anything to. The confidant, the wild child, and the person who will check you when you’re being an asshole. Aries’ moods tend to change very fast and without warning, any friend of theirs will have to be understanding that Aries is complicated and not to take their mood swings personally.

Taurus - The friend that makes you feel at ease. They make you feel heard and will also introduce you to cool music. Taurus people typically look put together with minimum effort, so they are the friend that will influence your style for the better. Silences are not awkward when you’re with them and your conversations will inevitably go from casual to deep. As acquaintances, Taurus are stubborn and believe they know what’s best. You’ll know a Taurus is your close friend once he or she begins to change their thinking and ideas because of you and confide in you.

Gemini - This is the friend that often needs your help. They can be emotional rollercoasters while simultaneously feeling like strangers to their own emotions, so they need support from their friends. The funny friend of the group. Gemini will always brighten up your mood and encourage your vices. Even though they rely on you sometimes, you can always count on Gemini to hype you up. Beware of them stirring the pot within groups. As friends, Geminis tend to withdraw when they get bored or when they are at peace. You may notice they come around more in times of chaos--whether it is their own chaos or someone else’s.

Cancer - The friend that has your best interest at heart, even though they sometimes can come off short-sided or selfish. Cancers’ intuition and their need to nurture loved ones makes you feel relaxed and taken care of in their presence. They make friends easily because they are generally chill, understanding, and accepting of others. Cancer is the friend who gives you the best advice and will often be there to help you resolve conflicts within a group or with a mutual friend. Cancers are moody and not always agreeable friends, beware of mood changes and negativity if the Cancer person is stressed or withdrawn into their emotional world.

Leo - The person everyone wants to be friends with. They are the friend that introduces you to new people, places, and things. They are generous with their friends and come to your defense at the drop of a hat. Leo is the life of the party, or so they think, and can sometimes become jealous or competitive if the spotlight shifts, so beware of power struggles. Overall loyal and protective of their friends, Leos thrive in large social circles. Friends of Leo must keep up with appearances and behave honorably, otherwise Leo finds it difficult to understand or relate to you.

Virgo - The friend that reminds you to do important things and helps you with your real problems. They are like a light in a storm guiding you back to reason in tough times. Virgo also has your best interest at heart and holds their friends in extremely high regard as they are not easily impressed and do not warm up to just anyone. Your friend that reminds you to have high standards when choosing who to date, where to live, or what job to have. The friend that likes timeliness, order, and planning things ahead of time.

Libra - The social butterfly friend. Libras have large, diverse friend groups that are somewhat superficial. Libra is likely to be the friend that you enjoy being around at parties or in large groups as this is where Libra’s energy is exalted. They like to have lots of acquaintances and tell everyone about their crushes. When a Libra considers you to be a very close friend they go out of their way to help you in tough times and do whatever they can to keep your spirits lifted--this includes cluing you into helpful information and defending your honor. Even an introverted Libra seems to come out of his or her shell more in a group rather than one on one.

Scorpio - Scorpio friendships are long lasting and deeply comfortable relationships. They make you feel protected and offer understanding and support in dark times. Scorpio is the friend you call at 3am to come pick you up, and they actually come. They are understanding and empathetic in your dark times, but they might not always be reliable 100% of the time because when they need emotional support they tend to withdraw from everyone. Not everyone can handle the type of friend that Scorpio is because Scorpio can come off as hot and cold; their friendships may occasionally seem one sided. Close friendships with Scorpio can take years to solidify, they do not trust just anyone.

Sagittarius - The flakey friend. They always come around when you have a big event planned. Sagittarius people love large groups and parties because the attention they get is fragmented and diverse. They often shy away from low-key or small gatherings. They get more from large groups than from small circles. They enjoy their time by themselves if only to charge them up for an extravagant outing or social scene. Sometimes things they believe to be harmless can rub others the wrong way, so they are more often than not problematic, but still they can be very fun friends. They will usually be up for any adventure; but beware of their tendency to change their minds or just do whatever they feel like.

Capricorn - Although Capricorns tend to be pragmatic most of the time, when it comes to friendships they are silly and fun. The Capricorn is the responsible friend that will sometimes pass on going out because they have work or class early in the morning, but they make it up by always having your back even if it’s from afar. They are strong components within groups of friends and can lose themselves sometimes in a large crowd. Although their confidence does not falter, their character can. In toxic groups Capricorns become corrupted and blind even if its just for the sake of fitting in. With maturity, Capricorn gets better at navigating these situations. Strong, protective, forgiving friends, they do not tell anyone else when they need help.

Aquarius - The friends that will give you a helpful perspective. They have a simple way of going about people and relationships, so there is typically a lot of harmony in friendships with those who are Aquarians. As the humanitarians of the zodiac, Aquarians make very reliable friends that inherently understand you without needing to pry. They are the friends that make you feel at home, their energy is consistently peaceful and positive. Aquarians love conversing about ideas and will challenge you when your ideas seem to be heading in the direction of a pipe-dream. They offer a realistic perspective in contrast to the unwavering light-heartedness of their presence.

Pisces - The friend that is extremely fun, but also a bit selfish and immature. They love to have a good time and are emotionally deep as individuals, but are not typically able to truly consider or show interest in the emotional problems of their friends. They need a listening ear but often do not return the favor. Their dreaminess and creativity makes them remarkably fun to be around. These are the friends that you do not go to in times of need, but who you call when you need a fun night out.

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glattandblade · 3 years

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Fluff Alphabet with Quackity!

By Author Glatt

warnings: none

alphabet: @magical-warlock

A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?

Games! He loves to play stupid roblox games, or minecraft with you! Its fun, especially when you get competitive, he loves to see you excited about it.

B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

Quackity loves your smile, that and your voice. It just sounds so nice, especially while singing.

Quackity like his hair! He doesnt show it on stream, but without the beanie, he thinks he looks almost better without it, although you joke with him and say its illegal without his beanie.

C omfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?

Quackity would probably try the distraction method, asking if you want to play games or watch a movie, or if you want him to play you a song

D reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?

All he knows is he wants to live with you and spend his days with you, he hasnt really thought about the finer details like kids/marriage and all that crap.

E qual - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?

He’s rather passive, hes not too dominant outside the bedroom, except when he’s bein a little bitch to his friends n shit-

F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

Quackity would be one to forgive easily, especially if its you, although you guys get into alot of joke arguments.

G ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

Yes! He thinks about it alot, and he adores you for it. He’ll give you things in minecraft and small things irl here and there.

H onesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?

I think the only secret quackity would have is the secret gc with karl and sapnap in it lol

I nspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?

Quackity has gotten way more hyper (somehow..) ever since you guys got together, on streams hes even louder and giggly, especially when you end up showing up.

You’ve gotten louder aswell, you’re not afraid to yell around the house if need be, thats for sure.

J ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?

I would say so, he’d get kinda defensive, although some of its just joking with his friends, sometimes its serious.

K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

Quackity is a good kisser, even when you first met him, you were kinda surprised.

L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?

Either playing minecraft and annoying the shit out of you or blowing your phone out at like 2 am and being like hey bitch guess what? Ur my boy/girlfriend now ha

M arriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?

It wouldnt matter to him, you’re still his partner, but if you suggested you wanted to, he would propose at night, going to some random park you guys frequent and sitting looking at the stars with you

N icknames - What do they call their s/o?

Mi amor, hermosa/o, mi vida, sweetheart, he prefers mi amor and hermosa/o the most!

O n Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?

Its.. pretty fucking obvious, he keeps joke flirting with you infront of others, although not a joke to him, being a fucking simp just in gen

P DA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?

He’s shy to kiss if hes streaming or anything, he likes to keep it to just hugging and holding hands, off camera though he’ll take a kiss when he wants, even if others are watching. Hes upfront about the relationship and he likes to brag!

Q uirk - Some random ability they have that’s beneficial in a relationship.

Well, his singing definitely comes in handy, whether it be you had a bad day, cant sleep, etc. it always seems to help.

R omance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?

He tries to be romantic, although he fails alot of time time, he mainly just tries to be goofy and play it off, or he’ll actually be romantic and surprise himself, hes rather cliche.

S upport - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?

Of course! He always believes in you, and he is willing to do anything to help you.

T hrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?

Quackity is fine with a routine, he wont mind anything to spice up the relationship, but he wont go out of his way to spice it up besides like getting you chocolate filled croissants and coffee for breakfast instead of eggs and sausages.

U nderstanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?

It depends, some days he’s got you down to a T, sometimes he misses the mark by alot… but he is very empathetic!

V alue - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?

Your relationship is worth more than his career! He loves you alot!

W ild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.

Quackitys love language is touch! He’s always holding your hand, or is touching you somewhere, it comforts him

X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

Very! He loves giving you forehead kisses and being the big spoon! He cherishes cuddles.

Y earning - How will they cope when they’re missing their partner?

Texting them alot!! Snapping silly random pics and sending them, hoping for silly stupid pics back to save, that and facetiming.

Z eal - Are they willing to go to great lengths for the relationship? If so, what kind of?

He has his boundaries, but he’s willing to do a good amount, he’d sacrifice his career.

Masterlist

#authorglatt #dsmp x reader #quackity x reader #flufff #fluff alphabet #alphabet #headcanons #hcs #quackity headcannons #x reader #dsmp #quackity #mcyt

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maddieinwonder · 3 years

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The Eighth

Spencer Reid x Fem!BAU!Reader

Genre: Fluff

Warnings: None, this is a fluff-only zone!

Word Count: 2.3k

Plot: Reader has been in the BAU for one year and a lot has changed, especially her relationship with a certain genius. (Part 1 here!)

Author's Note: Seriously, I wasn't expecting my first two fics to blow up like that. Just, thank you to everyone who read them ♡♡♡

As for this one... I had to write a Part 2, basically as an excuse for me to write good things about everybody in the BAU and go wild with the backstories hahaha I hope you enjoy!

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Under the dim lighting of the BAU jet, your pen paused on the small book beneath it, causing a small blotch of ink to seep through its pages. The words usually flowed out of you without inhibition, but today was different, and frankly, you were feeling a little overwhelmed.

You didn't think the team would remember this, but today marked exactly one year since you joined the BAU. As if the universe were smiling down on you, the week also turned out to be a great one - or at least, as good as it could get around here.

The team had just closed a challenging case with minimal casualties, everyone had been ordered to have a long weekend off, and the person you most wanted to spend it with was dozing off beside you without a care in the world. Of course, he didn’t know about your feelings... yet.

Closing your journal, you gave up on writing as your eyes wandered restlessly toward your sleeping teammates.

Your eyes crinkled into a smile when your gaze landed on Hotch. This was the first time you’d seen him actually asleep on the jet, and in your opinion, he deserved whatever rest he could get. Since you joined the team, you had seen the man endure countless late nights in the office. Something you had quickly attributed to the missing wedding ring on his finger.

Yet, he remained a stalwart to the team. He constantly checked in with everybody, shielded the team from messy politics, and even managed to crack the occasional joke. Of course, he was still stoic most of the time, and you weren’t exactly sure if he was capable of blinking, but now you knew the warmth and care he possessed too.

Then there was Rossi, who had defied all your initial expectations. You had thought a celebrity like him to be gracious, maybe a little egoistic, but he was straight forward and meticulous to a fault. Still, it seemed he couldn't escape his nature as a performer, as he shone the brightest in the interrogation room.

The day you first witnessed him in action, your jaw had dropped to the floor, and he never stopped bringing it up in jest. He always joked that he didn't know whether you or the unsub was more shocked, but after that day, he also took the time to mentor you in the craft. You liked to think he was proud of how quickly you were able to put it into practice.

Your eyes wandered to Emily, sleeping soundly in the next seat. With Penelope and JJ’s busy schedules, she had taken on the role of showing you the ropes, and you had become fast friends. Turns out, the both of you were eerily similar: competitive, quick thinkers who never backed down from a challenge.

Unfortunately this meant you were never paired together on cases, but you did have an ongoing chess tournament slash drinking game. The chess was your idea, the drinking was Emily’s, and you were currently winning, much to your obvious pride and the rest of the team's amusement.

The person you actually got paired with the most was Derek; effectively fulfilling the fantasies of many women you knew. But as it turned out, the two of you made a damn good team. His calculated disposition combined with your breadth of knowledge - only rivalled by the good doctor - made you an extremely effective duo, and Hotch picked up on it immediately.

You being younger than him by a few years, Derek made it a point to check in with you often, and in turn, allowing you to glimpse at his pensive, empathetic, and insightful sides. He had become a big brother to you, and you like a sister. A bond that proved to be a strong one, across the many cases you tackled together.

You smiled to yourself, eyes landing on Penelope and JJ, dozing off together under a bright pink, knitted blanket whose ownership was in no doubt. It was rare that the tech analyst came along on cases, but she was always a welcomed presence for everybody involved.

Amidst the sea of gruesome cases sent to the BAU, you had come to look forward to Penny's witty banter, either over the phone or in person. The image of her colourful outfits and her outrageously decorated office were enough to make you believe in a light at the end of any tunnel.

It reminded you of your first case, an extraordinarily challenging one that the team managed to unravel in the nick of time. When you arrived back at the BAU, Penelope was the one to drag you out to celebrate. Little did you know, the rest of the team had also gathered at the bar with party poppers and birthday cake. When you found out that Penny had planned everything, you knew you had earned a friend for life.

As you smiled at the memory, JJ shuffled in her sleep and your attention was drawn to her sleeping figure. You didn’t know how she could look so perfect even when she was asleep. But then again, you’d come to realise that there was very little she couldn’t do.

You had already been friends with the communications liaison, but working with her in the BAU was a completely different beast. Of all the chaotic personalities in the BAU, only JJ had a hold over every single one. She was able to apply the same to the local police and media, and still meet the victim's families with the utmost grace and empathy.

During her brief window of absence when Henry was born, things just weren't the same. You liked Jordan, and you knew she always gave her best, but there was an unmistakable sigh of relief when JJ was back. And although she never asked for it, you and Penelope did everything you could to give her and Will a break from their newborn, including regular movie nights in with baby Henry.

Last but not least, the one that you couldn't forget even if you tried, Dr. Spencer Reid. You had joined the BAU because of him, you realised now. But what began as professional interest, had quickly developed into a full blown crush on your co-worker.

You realised this fact on an absolutely unremarkable day, except for the fact that your heart skipped a beat when Spencer walked into the office that morning. He wasn't wearing anything out of the ordinary, his usual combination of sweater vest and shirt, but when he smiled at you, your face flushed visibly and you wanted to melt into your chair in embarrassment.

If the genius had noticed it, he didn't let it show. But Derek most certainly did. Every chance he got that day, he teased you about your newfound crush on "pretty boy", and soon the news made it to everyone's ears. Emily not in the least, as she used the knowledge to win several chess games, much to your annoyance.

And still, Spencer remained oblivious. Despite how often you sat starry eyed listening to him explain a completely random fact. Despite how many weekends you spent together bonding over your shared interests in Star Trek and Doctor Who. Despite the fact that the seat next to him on the plane was basically reserved for you. You didn't think he knew, because he never made a move.

That's why you decided last week. The next time the team had a long weekend off, you would ask Spencer out on a date. You just didn't think it would happen so soon.

Midway through your thought, Spencer groaned in the seat next to you. His hands lifted to move his hair away from his face, and you resisted the urge to do it for him.

"Are we there yet?" He asked, rubbing his eyes tiredly.

You felt your heartbeat quicken at his voice, gravelly and soft, not fully back to reality just yet.

"No, not yet," you answered back in a whisper. "It's only 3AM. We have about two hours to go."

"Why aren't you asleep?" He asked. His head leaned back onto the headrest, but this time, his face turned towards yours. The two of you were far too close to each other for this to be work appropriate.

"Just thinking." You tapped the cover of your book with your pen in explanation, trying to look anywhere but at him. Spencer hummed in acknowledgement, the sound driving you wild. Then he did something you could have never expected.

"Hey," he began, pulling your gaze to meet his hazel eyes, "happy one year at the BAU." His lips formed a small smile, sleepy but genuine.

"You remembered?" You couldn't fight the wide smile that made its way onto your face, nor the glee that spilled out of your voice.

"Of course. Eidetic memory, remember?" He joked, gesturing at his head. Maybe it was the lack of sleep talking, but you felt like you were on the verge of tears.

"Thank you. Really."

"Hey, hey, hey, don't cry." Spencer said, suddenly sitting upright. He leaned forward as if to touch your cheek, but his fingers lingered in the air in between you awkwardly.

You brought your own fingers to your face, realising that you were, in fact, crying. A small laugh escaped your lips at the absurdity of it all.

"No, no, I'm alright, Spencer. Just overwhelmed, I suppose." You tried explaining, gently wiping the tears from your face.

"Why?" He asked, his voice laced with concern.

“I didn’t expect anyone to remember it, that’s all.” You said, feeling a little ashamed now, but your words seemed to light a fire in the doctor’s eyes.

“Well, whoever forgot it must be stupid because you’ve made a difference in the lives of every single person on this jet.” He said in an uncharacteristic huff.

This was your chance, you realised.

“Hey, Spencer,” you said after a pause, biting your lip nervously, “what difference did I make in your life?”

Spencer looked as if he had been caught, his eyes instantly darted to the seat behind you, his fingers twitching. You tightened your grip on your pen, willing yourself not to collapse from the anticipation.

“Of course, I-I mean, many things can’t be quantified due to its subjective nature, but you did change my life."

"Like?" You pressed on.

"You gave me something to look forward to everyday." He said, his eyes lifting to meet yours. You felt your heart soar a hundred stories above the ground.

"Really?" You were in disbelief, your voice barely a whisper.

"Really. You're... you're intelligent, beautiful, and you open my mind to new things every day. I feel like you understand me in ways the rest can't, and you’re the person I want to tell everything to. There’s nobody else but you.” He blurted out in a single breath, as if he'd lose the words if he waited any longer.

Your eyes threatened to spill tears again, but you blinked them back, preparing to say what you wanted to say to him long ago.

"Spencer... I like you. Like, romantically like you." You whispered, your eyes barely able to meet his. His eyes were wide open, his eyes glancing briefly at your lips.

And in a moment of pure bravery, as he explained later, he placed his hand over yours and squeezed. "Me too. I like you, romantically."

Long after that, he would tell you that he'd never seen you smile so widely before, and he instantly knew that he wanted to be the reason you smiled that way all the time. But in the moment, he just laced his fingers with yours.

You squeezed his hand back. Feeling calmed by his warm touch, you leaned closer to him. You still had one question on your mind.

"Did you know that I liked you?"

"I figured it out eventually. Last month." He said sheepishly. "But I've had feelings for you since a month after you joined the team." His cheeks turned a light pink at the confession.

"You know what? Me too." You blushed, leaning against his shoulder.

“Another thing we have in common now,” he said, resting his head on yours.

You weren’t willing to let him go now that you had him, and luckily, it seemed like he had the same idea, wrapping his arm around your shoulder and pulling you close.

The two of you fell into slumber easily, not even realising it when the jet had landed back in Virginia.

It didn't take long for the rest of the team to realise the interesting sight in front of them, but not even Penelope's high-pitched squeal managed to wake you up.

In the end, it was JJ who decided to end your unknowing humiliation by shaking the two of you gently. You and Spencer jolted awake, immediately taking in the various smirks and grins from your team in front of you.

"Ok, that's enough guys." Hotch announced. You noticed the small smile on his face before he turned around to leave the jet.

The team - mostly Emily and Penelope - looked as if they wanted to enjoy the sight for a little longer, but at Hotch's word, decided they would leave the teasing till later.

"That's not exactly how I imagined telling the team," Spencer said, when the two of you were finally alone. He ran his fingers through his hair in an action of mild distress, but you noticed the smile that was still glued to his face.

You leaned over to give him a kiss on the cheek, enjoying the blush it left behind. "Well, that means less time with them, and more time with you," you teased.

Spencer picked up his bag and offered his hand to you. "I'm counting on it," he said, smiling widely.

You took his hand, your gaze trailing up his wrinkled shirt to his messy brown hair, finally landing on his earnest eyes. Of all the times in the past year you got to be the BAU's Eighth. This moment had got to be the best.

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dangermousie · 3 years

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CFC Chapter 54

“A crashing car?” Ahahahaha I see you, Meatbun. But it was indeed an utter pileup!

I know I commented on this passage in its various iterations eight billion times already but I still have more to say. And it’s that XQC taking so long to realize that even though HY is young, his emotions and feelings are as genuine and strong as those of anyone older is so realistic - people do tend to think that especially with regard to children - think of a reaction of an adult to a three year old crying over ice cream they dropped. It’s all amused even if not meanly so. Because to an adult with vastly more experience, this is not a big deal. But what that forgets is that whether it’s ridiculous to someone else or not, to the person at issue that is a real feeling, AND that of course a person can only feel through the lens of their experience - what else is there? Emotions aren’t any less valid because they are informed by lesser or different experience.

Honestly, to me so far this is one of the driving messages of the novel - everyone is in their own world of issues and pain and none of these characters can truly look through the lens of another person and it would be so much better if they did. To XQC, for so long, He Yu’s strong feelings (and we know so many of these feelings are awful - despair, and self-loathing, and loneliness) never quite felt real and therefore never quite felt fully valid. And by the time it wasn’t the case, it was too late.

But the same is true for He Yu - he is so concentrated on his own grievances and his own pain, he cannot perceive others’ different issues. In He Yu’s mind, he’s the winner and always champion of Misery Olympics and while he’s had a horrible time of it, that doesn’t mean other people didn’t either just in different ways. Whether because of his condition, his issues or just his age, HY is not empathetic in the least.

And think about it - XQC does not have a horrible illness. He does not have unfeeling parents. But he had to watch his beloved parents brutally murdered in front of his eyes at 13 (!!!!) and then had to raise a 5 year old by himself. Is it worse or better than HY’s trauma? That’s a matter of opinion but what there is no question about is that is a different type of trauma and a different type of scar. Or think about the patient in the asylum whose name I am too lazy to look up - her life is such a theater of horrors that to me, it makes the combined issues of HY and XQC seem small, though once again that’s subjective. Nobody wins when people start this sort of competition.

My heart breaks for XQC but also - I am sorry - if/when HY x XQC hook up again (how? I have no idea! But that is one of the joys of Meatbun - I both have no idea how/where it’s going and utterly trust her), please have He Yu read up and learn things because Good God. You should not be in major pain the morning after unless you are into pain and XQC clearly is not!

The other thing is the bit about XQC forcing himself to walk in his usual ramrod-straight manner is the moment I went utterly gone for him. I mean, I liked him and found him interesting before. But this is the thing that flipped that invisible switch for me and I went rabid and irrational and now I am Team XQC and I don’t care what he wants and does from now on, he should have it. It’s so small but so real. My mother and her mother were both big on straight posture. And one of the reasons they gave was when you walk with good posture - you look confident but also it makes you feel confident and stronger. And I’ve actually found it to be true - when you throw your shoulders back and straighten your neck and hold your head up, it does not just give others a signal, it gives a signal to your own brain. So to see XQC insist on doing it, despite being emotionally and physically shattered - because of his pride refusing to give up, because he’s so unbending, but also this being some sort of instinctive armor, just hits straight through the heart.

OK, I laughed at HY as a fucking machine. But also, this is another point in the whole “everyone has issues” narrative and HY’s life could be worse. HY, with all his other issues, can pay an insane amount, an amount that XQC could not pay in a million years, so easily. It’s not even a blip to him. Hell, the fact that he forgot to pay speaks to that - I can see forgetting to pay a friend a couple of bucks back right away because it’s not much money. HY forgets because it does not loom in his mind. And this rich lifestyle is instinctive, is ingrained in him. I think he’d find it hard to be poor.

THAT is what he’s thinking about? Priorities are...

The sole good thing that came out of this insanity is that XQC is getting in touch with his emotions, even if those emotions are (rightly) rage. He’s too closed off from them normally.

The fact that you slept with a man should be secondary to the fact that you drugged and raped him, but here we are...

To me, this sums up He Yu as a moral wasteland. To still, when sober and past his fit and not under influence of wine, to still feel excitement over his revenge and to somehow twist it that it’s XQC’s fault for being raped by He Yu is !!!!!!!!!

(I suppose if I were charitable, I’d assume that the disquiet is small stirrings of almost dead conscience and his “he deserved it” is an attempt to justify the unjustifiable to himself, but I honestly don’t want to think so because I am so angry at him. Not until I see some more evidence. I don’t feel like being indulgent with He Yu since he’s indulgent with himself enough for two.)

1. The fact that you can tell from the picture XQC got taken by a man (I am gonna defer to Meatbun’s expertise here) definitely points to the fact that the pictures are going to be used for something bad later - because if it’s just oh XQC had sex, so what, he’s single what’s the big deal. But like this it becomes a different matter. No idea if it will be used for HY or XQC or both, and by whom (money is on Duan and co, but after the way HY went off, I would never say HY himself won’t use it badly somehow) but knowing Meatbun, it will go for maximum damage.

2. Ruthless? Perhaps. Unfeeling? Hmmmm. I am not He Yu’s biggest fan atm but that’s a wonderfully misleading adjective here. He does still seem to be in shock. And fixating.

3. The whole “hahahaha XQC is a hypocrite when he was all ‘I am not interested in sex’“ is - I am not sure if HY is just short-circuiting (fine) or using a rapist justification/rolling in a sea of toxic toxicity (not fine) because I am sorry, that’s totally like “he/she had a reaction, can’t be rape” writ large. Yeah, sure he had a reaction - you poured drugs down his throat. That has nothing to do with his default preferences or his actual state. THE FUCK?!

Anyway, we end on the whole “u mad bro?” bit and you know what strikes me? HY was all “I am done, we are done, my revenge is complete I don’t care” but here he is, still desperately seeking and craving reaction and interaction from XQC.

I remain utterly puzzled as to how these two will ever be a couple except for a couple being defined as “two mutually homicidal people.” Leaving aside everything else, I am willing to accept HY is in the closet - clearly whatever his orientation is, it includes men. But I do not get that sense from XQC at all. When he’s not drugged, he’s barely interested in sex with anyone and I do not get the sense he’s in the closet either. Chances of anyone, let alone He Yu, who is both a man and someone who raped him to humiliate him, being able to entice him into sexual encounters voluntarily is about the chance of me going to visit Mars. Meatbun loves doing insane things so I can’t wait.

PS I know people use the term psychopath all the time casually but ummm, I think He Yu may actually be one? When he has his father (!!!) on speakerphone, calmly carrying a conversation with the man as he’s raping his father’s friend in the club as he talks (!!!!!) that is...in RL I’d be “team lock him up for life, there is something so basic broken in him that it can’t be fixed.” Like - the hell? The ability to put things on different shelves so much is not in the same country as sane (it makes me think of 2ha and TXJ banging CWN being the curtain while performing court business but TXJ was bona fide clinically insane and also this is worse because this is his actual freaking father omg.) Of course, only time will tell whether it’s evidence of him being irreparably incapable of normalcy in terms of living in the world/interacting with others or it was an extreme psychotic (in casual parlance not medical one) break because most people are capable of truly horrific stuff if certain levers are pushed and his default is saner. It’s the question, isn’t it? Whether He Yu’s factory default setting is the monster of the previous chapters or the kid who’d cut his wrists so as not to hurt others.

Anyway, this novel is a terrifying roller coaster ride and I love having strong emotions.

#cnovel #meatbun doesn't eat meat #case file compendium

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Sometimes I wonder about Booker and privilege a lot.

Of all the members of the guard, he is the only one who gets to go through life with the straight white man privilege. Who can walk into any country, any part of the world and be, well if not accepted, at least treated with caution. White people inherently have that advantage.

Now, Andy and Nicky share it too yes. But Andy has years and years of sexism to contend with. Of being forced to conform to the norms of a woman, of being thought weaker, of being treated as eye candy by lecherous men. For her, I imagine being captured by the unsavory always included the threat of rape or sexual abuse. And Nicky can find acceptance easier than her as long as he chooses to hide his love, as long as he distances himself from Joe and since thats antithetical to who he is as a person, it will grate his soul. His acceptance into white society comes at a price that he most often feels is too high. So his privilege comes at a cost that grants him awareness of it each minute.

I hardly need to talk about the multiple ways these issues intersect for Joe and Quynh when they attempt life in the western world at any given point in history. I'm not even talking about direct racist abuse and hate crimes. But day to day life. Restaurants and inns that either refuse to serve them or demand entry through separate doors, restrooms that are divided, public transportation issues, buying power being affected because too much money would raise questions of whether it's stolen money, that kind of thing. Problems coming up just because of their skin, even without the gender and sexual orientation.

Nile's experience with racism and sexism is subtler as all modern day issues are, but it is still very much present. Micro aggressions and purposefully designed power imbalance cloaked under the guise of a fair and upstanding world that left its ugly past in the last millennium and chooses to treat issues as things that magically vanished one day in the 20th century. Especially with America insisting it neither has a racist history nor is it anything but the land of the free.

Booker has no concept of dealing with discrimination in anyway but tangentially and no matter what, no matter how empathetic an individual is or how much one tries, it is not the same. The lack of privilege is the only way to fully comprehend its absence.

Which is another reason why I personally find it very hard to understand and sympathize with the 'nobody knows what it feels like, nobody understands' ideology he has. I accept the presence of his mental health issues and I very much find them valid, be it crippling depression or extreme alcoholism. But it still reeks of 'my suffering is unique' vibes to me and demonstrates a lack of understanding of the struggles the others face.

And sure, suffering is not a competition and everyone has pain tolerance to different degrees and Booker might just be one of those people who doesn't cope with it well. But his woe is me, my pain is beyond your comprehension is just... Idk suspect as hell.

Like, yes, it was not his intention to hurt the others, the set up at the start was only to give proof. He knows the risks of exposing their secret better than anyone though, since he came to them post the loss of Quynh and has heard their deepest fear. But he still went ahead with it, like did he think a big time pharmaceutical company in a capitalist world would want anything but profit at any expense?

His intention might not have been to hurt the others but making their worst fears come true shows, at the very least, a high degree of disregard and self centric attitude that comes with privilege.

Thoughts anyone?

#i often struggle to care about booker #not booker friendly I guess #he's super interesting to write as a grey character tho #someone tell me if this deserves an anti booker tag #the old guard #andromache #Quynh #yusuf al kaysani #nicolo di genova #sebastien le livre #nile freeman #white privilege #cishet privilege

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