(questioning) cluster b culture is accidentally telling someone about your homicidal ideation and them saying "it's ok lots of people have intrusive thoughts about that." no. you don't get it. I LIKE thinking about this. It makes me feel BETTER.

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I think it’s so funny when people are like “people with aspd are super manipulative and evil and are constantly plotting to ruin your life 🤓”, when in reality I’m just someone who does bad things because I’m bored, lack any self control, and I don’t really care who the fuck it effects because at least I had that millisecond hit of dopamine.

Like goddamn it’s MY life I’m plotting to ruin, stay out of it 💀

idk who needs to hear this but you CAN romanticize your own mental illness. you don't have to be miserable and in constant pain all the time if youre mentally ill. dont cater to the comfort of ableists

me when my personality disorder actually impacts my life and doesn’t just make me a cool manic pixie dream girl (i will have this realization twice a week)

Das Problem mit Gefühlen ist das ich sie nicht kontrollieren kann.

I want to kill myself thank you for asking

My partner just said "you aren't in your villain era you're having an episode" and if that isn't the ultimate cluster b culture idk what is

Someone: *slights me in a very minor way* Me: *thinks of the most hellacious, out of pocket insult that is very specific to them and would hurt them in ways words cannot describe but does not say it bc I am nice..*

I feel like the worst person alive but simultaneously the most beautiful handsome man to walk the earth 🤪

Also I need my FP

npd culture is this conversation i had with my EP (paraphrased)

him: don't you think you're better than me or whatever? me: no, i think us two are better than everyone else him: something is wrong with you

bpd + npd culture is splitting on friends cause theyre hanging with ur friends wo u and thinking you hate them and dont need them but then need keep them around for the supply tho u hate them... sigh

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BPD (and suspecting NPD maybe?) Culture is hearing a therapist online say that they think their clients with BPD endure more pain than anyone else they see, and going "teehee that's so true", and feeling compelled to repeat it to your friends constantly like, "Hey, see how this guy says I'm constantly in emotional pain, it's so true, why don't you pay attention to me and pity me for how miserable I am all the time (BECAUSE YOU NEVER TALK TO ME!!!!!)"

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Cluster B culture is being in a bad mood and knowing you have to answer at least a "yes" as soon as you leave your room because you know someone will talk to you and repeating to yourself before "be nice, be nice, be nice. You can do it, just answer nicely and keep going" But the moment someone actually talks to you, you accidentally pull out the harshest voice you ever had and then thinking "oh come on! seriously? you had one job!"

I tried.

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i will always long for a home i never had and a mothers love i never got to feel.

How it feels when your FP calls you sensitve/complains about you being emotional

and then suddenly everything is bothersome and everything I do feels embarrassing. I know it’s time to dig a grave