suspected bpd culture is i showed you something i made!!! that i’m proud of!!! and you said nothing at all!!! radio silence!!! do you not fucking appreciate me and my creations? it always feels like what i can make is just never as good as whatever shit some fucking rando made. so great that you always just have to show me it, when i literally make things right here you can look at those!!! i don’t want to fucking see something someone else made!!! when do i get to have even the smallest bit of pride in what i make? it’s like everyone else is so much better, right? right?

-🤍🖤

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and then looking back on that i might as well be splitting over something that’s probably trivial otherwise. hahaha

-🤍🖤

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and i fucking love having to avoid someone for however long until i stop viewing them as the living devil. totally.

-🤍🖤

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BPD culture is realising that no matter what you do the people around you and who you love and care about will always end up feeling like they need to walk on eggshells around you, no matter how hard you try to minimise or control or regulate your symptoms, because eventually you will show your symptoms because you cant hide and mask forever, and when that happens everything will be ruined.

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bpd culture is if theyre not obsessed with you like you are them then they may as well not care at all since it hurts the same

-🐍

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[vent-ish?]

BPD culture is fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK

Everything is going to shit

Please please this can't happen again

-FoxAnon (if I can take that sign off)

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bpd culture is every second he doesn’t answer my text is another droplet of gas on the raging forest fire in my chest

-ghost

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bpd culture is “wow leaving me on read 😔” presenting as a joke and them responding “I swear I just forgot to turn off my phone this time 😭” and then you get kinda serious about it “wow so you just don’t wanna talk to me? 😔” again disguising it as a joke when you’re genuinely serious because that’s what’s going through your brain and you can’t stop it but you don’t wanna be seen as crazy-

-ghost

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bpd culture is any little thing setting you off and making you split. “it's like the same schedule it would've been, except now instead of going out with friends I just hang out with them at [extracurricular] and get to feel useful” do I not make you feel useful? am I not enough for you? on top of that, you’re dreading it starting because you’ve been dealing with your fp doing that full-time the past ton of months and they’re literally on their way back from a trip for that thing (and then leaving for another thing again on Wednesday) and it makes you feel sick to even think about it. It being over was supposed to be like the fucking promised land. Where we could hang out every day and get to spend as much time as possible together. And now it has an EXPIRY DATE?!?! NOW I HAVE A GODDAMN TIME LIMIT TO BEING HAPPY AND I KNOW BEFORE THE HAPPINESS HAS EVEN STARTED?!?!? God why can nothing last-

-ghost

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suspected bpd culture is when one person has an off tone to you youre automatically convinced everyone hates you and is mad at you so you leave every gc youre in and deactivate all of your accounts (this has happebed like twice atp helpppp)

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(questioning) BPD culture is panicking at how relatable this blog is despite suspecting you might have BPD and feeling oddly comfortable knowing you're not the only one fighting this shit and it all helping you realize you were doing this thing called splitting on someone you genuinely love and they deserve better than you splitting on them

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suspected bpd culture is remembering how you got into a heated argument with an ex fp for spending a lot much time on their interest because it was interfering with the time he spent on you and you took it as threat and got jealous. fast forward to now youre seeing yourself get just as jealous and mad as you did then with your current fps interest and getting youll scared ruin everything again

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bpd culture is seasonal depression makes everything so much worse so much worse (and im a lucky one that gets it in summer and am doing So Much Worse)

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Bpd culture is "life would be so much better if I kept my mouth shut."

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bpd culture is getting pissed off when one of my fps friends talks about missing them like fuck off stop trying to take her away from me (they arent)

- 🐱🧩

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Suspecting bpd culture is meeting one of your long distance friends for the first time and get so attached you don't know if they're your new fp, you're crushing on them or both at the same time

- 🦋✨️ (I'm still alive and reading this blog!! Ive just been silent lately LOL)

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bpd culture is sudden bouts of apathy and numbness

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