bpd culture is fp ignoring you to look at their hyperfix and wanting to die

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I don't fucking mean anything

When the fp isn't messaging and you don't want to bother them so you just sit in pain forever until they remember you message you

Why is everything so heavy? 😖

having bpd is actual hell on earth cause no one tries to fucking understand you and they write you off as being difficult and too much and they leave and we’re left with this fucking personality disorder that consumes my entire fucking existence and they act like its THEIR inconvenience that IM ill.

i wait for your notification like a puppy waiting for its owner.

losing a fp feels like you just got your soul ripped out and now you're not even a human being anymore.

i think the saddest part of BPD is wanting to find your “person” (not FP) that gets and understands you, doesn’t judge you, you feel safe with, etc but then when you do start finding that person, you start getting really paranoid about them leaving (bc everyone else does and will) and you tell them so they promise to never leave you but years down the line you’re still stuck in that “but you promised me and said you wouldn’t” cycle while they’re who knows where

Bpd culture is not understanding how easy it is for them to not talk to you and when you arent tlaking to them you feel physically ill and hopeless

BPD culture is constantly watching out for your FP's posts and status etc. to the point you find yourself going online JUST for it if not to talk to them.

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Felt this a little too much

hey (with the intention of cutting you open and living inside you so that we never have to part because you’re my fp and i love you and if you ever abandon me i’ll go insane)

mutual obsession is so hot

"bpd is this" "bpd is that"

can i just say bpd is more than a favorite person? i understand that part as ive experienced it but thats not all there is

as someone who doesnt currently have a "fp" i hate that thats all bpd tumblr is. js shit about your feelings towards other people, i understand but oh my god i wish there was more. it feels like romanticism of the mental illness that people are gifted the option of assisted su!c!de for. and thats not fucking right.

im sorry if this sounds rude or anything but it just makes me feel really alone in my illness and thats a shitty feeling to have, esp as someone who has bpd.