“i love you” until i’m sobbing because your tone slightly changed

bpd culture is if i can do it, why can't you? if i can sacrifice everything for you, why can't you do the same? i try so hard for you. why does it feel like you don't try?

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BPD (and suspecting NPD maybe?) Culture is hearing a therapist online say that they think their clients with BPD endure more pain than anyone else they see, and going "teehee that's so true", and feeling compelled to repeat it to your friends constantly like, "Hey, see how this guy says I'm constantly in emotional pain, it's so true, why don't you pay attention to me and pity me for how miserable I am all the time (BECAUSE YOU NEVER TALK TO ME!!!!!)"

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it hurts

talking to someone that’ll never be yours

that’ll never see you the way you see them

will never care about you like you do them

it hurts

Once I learn how to stop being me it’s over for y’all

i don't wanna be alone anymore, but i don't wanna interact with people and be hurt again. i don't wanna hurt anyone either, and i don't want more people to hate me. what the fuck am i supposed to do? i really wanna kms rn

that moment when you’re empty and nothing matters anymore . you don’t even know who you are anymore but it’s okay it doesn’t matter , you just want to disappear .

sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

Bpd culture is 'fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you please come back I need you'

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i feel so much i can’t breathe

i just wanna cut everyone off and rot away in my bed

Touched starved and touch repulsed

i hate that BPD gives me such a lack of emotional permanence.

you can spend hours describing the ways in which you care about me, yet the moment you stop my brain will immediately decide you hate me and are destined to leave me.