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i just wanna cut and cut and cut and cut until i’m dead

Mein Kopf ist so voll und gleichzeitig so leer.

I don't think this is a healthy coping mechanism

♥︎ Whatever higher powers there may be made a mistake by letting me continue to survive another day ♥︎

Ein Herz so düster wie die kalte Winternacht.

Wenn wieder keine Ablenkung hilft…

sometimes I just get so sick and tired of fighting just to survive.

My problem is me. I can’t socialize for shit. All i do is self sabotage. There is something wrong with me that no one can fix.

I want someone to notice, but on the other hand, i don’t.

Why don't other people find life as hard as I do? I think about death everyday. I'm so overwhelmed. Everything is sooo hard. I don't know if I really want to die or if I just can't live. I want someone or something to strip me of all my responsibilities, all the pressure. If that is death then so be it.

i wish i had never woken up

Was ich Hasse?

Mein beschissenen Kopf, meinen nicht erklärbaren Zustand, meine unzählig vielen Gedanken, meine komischen Gefühle und mich selbst.

I feel nothing, I just distract myself the whole time, to not feel this emptiness. It feels like I’m draining

You ever just fall asleep and not wanna wake up.

I need a hug but I’m too disgusting to touch