“i love you” until i’m sobbing because your tone slightly changed

♥︎ Whatever higher powers there may be made a mistake by letting me continue to survive another day ♥︎

"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

They will never understand the sadness that you can physically feel in your chest

i don’t know who i am anymore, there’s too many versions of “me”

that moment when you’re empty and nothing matters anymore . you don’t even know who you are anymore but it’s okay it doesn’t matter , you just want to disappear .

I swear I can physically hear my brain telling me to unalive myself.

i’m either just going to be numb or have extreme mood swings for the rest of my life i guess

sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

bpd develops for a reason. don’t ever let anyone make you forget that.

you were hurt and had no one when you needed it most. you’ve been through so much pain and trauma. regardless of what the world sees you as, this was the way your brain decided to cope. this was the only way your brain knew how to survive and keep you alive to this point. you’re amazing and i’m proud of you

i hate that BPD gives me such a lack of emotional permanence.

you can spend hours describing the ways in which you care about me, yet the moment you stop my brain will immediately decide you hate me and are destined to leave me.

I don’t care anymore. Just let me go.

This is all meaningless and pointless. I’m fighting a losing battle, I’m trying to survive something I never had a chance to begin with.

This place only brings me sadness and paint, just let me leave.

you healed wounds then constructed new ones