‘ordinary’ flirting doesn’t work on me.

tell me how obsessed you are with me.

tell me how you worship the ground i walk on.

tell me how i matter more to you than anyone else in this world.

tell me the things you’d do just to be with me.

if you don’t stroke my ego or share my obsessive nature then you have no value to me.

more of my cluster b memes for you all.

someone asked to see my clown collection.

these are just a few of them since i have like 20+ clowns and they’re currently in storage until my housing problems are resolved.

but here are a few that i already had photos of. ask and i deliver.

i collect dead things and porcelain clown dolls.

this has no relevance, i just feel like you should know this about me.

I wanted to thank you for being a safe place for people with NPD and ASPD. Im someone who fall under the cluster B umbrella and I hate how people just assume it makes us a bad person for simply being who we are. I never really understood empathy in some contexts because of my disorders and to see people who also struggle with it helps a lot. I also am just happy to see people understand that these disorders are often co morbid and you can have aspects of other parts of the cluster. Sorry if this is all over the place it just makes me happy to know I shouldn't feel ashamed to be who I am. - 'The Lovers'

that’s sweet of you, you’re welcome. as someone who has ASPD, NPD and BPD ive only ever faced stigma and people dubbing me as something terrible without even knowing me, i’m glad to create a safe space for people who also have these conditions. i’m glad me sharing my experiences on this blog has helped you and allowed you to be more comfortable within yourself.

tattoo time 🕺🏻

the question is do i fill my chronic boredom with destructive decisions or with sex

i’m so fucking bored all the time

I'm not someone you should get close to ever

‘i like masked men’

i actually do have a hannibal lecter mask if that counts.

‘you’re really mentally ill’

yes, i’ve noticed.

i am insanely jealous and possessive, even the thought of someone else being with someone i love makes me genuinely violent.

some of you really missed the point when i complained about the demonisation NPD and ASPD experience for having a lack of empathy, and it fucking shows.

What's a piercing you'd never get?

after experiencing the pain of having my nipples pierced, i probably wouldn’t commit to getting genital piercings.

Mouth piercings??

12 of my piercings are around my mouth

“I don’t really care what people think”

*Proceeds to have an earth shattering meltdown because someone dare go against perceiving me within the strict image I invented for myself*

first ask on my blog, woo-hoo. i looked through your posts a bit (not in a stalker way, i swear,) and i see you 've been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. i 've been suspecting something like this is what 's ""wrong with me"" (/sarcasm,) but if a diagnosis were to happen .. would it be worth anything? like, my time? my money? i feel as though i 'm just searching for more problems, but i really just want to know what 's going on with me. i 'd give more context to my current situation but i believe this is enough yapping for now. no harm is meant with these questions, thank you SO much if you see & reply.

that depends what you mean by it being ‘worth anything’.

just because i’ve been and seen psychiatrists and had my mental illnesses acknowledged professionally doesn’t mean my treatment is accessible. the mental health services here are terrible and it hasn’t been ‘worth it’ for me because it was a long difficult process to even see the psychiatrists to begin with since i can’t afford private healthcare.

id probably look into what help is available to you and if they’re actually going to be useful and then make your decision from there