having bpd is like u do one little thing wrong and suddenly you want to kill yourself, you think you're the worst person alive, you think that the person you messed things up with is leaving you, you think they hate you, you're never going to be forgiven, they don't care about you or your apologies, they don't understand you didn't mean it, wait maybe they're the worst person ever, wait no im just crazy, why am i like this, this disorder is gonna make me kill myself one day. :3 ^__^

Nobody talks about how hard it is to face people again after you've had an episode in front of them

Once they've seen you do full-force into self-destruct, they always look at you with a sense of wariness and like you're not the person they thought you were

The shame makes me want to rip my skin off

Tw bpd vent

If you don’t want to deal with someone with mental issues don’t. I always warn new friends that I have bpd and I am going to show symptoms. Then they get surprised when I do.

Unless ur my parent you don’t have to deal with me. If you can’t handle it just be fucking honest. I don’t have the energy to be disappointed.

And no I’m not talking about “oh you can’t handle being abused, fuck you” I’m talking about when ppl get pissed that you have mental breakdowns a fuck ton of the time.

Or ignore them because you’re too depressed to talk. That type of shit.

i’m so over my life that i can’t even function anymore

i wake up and i immediately split - i get extremely angry, im extremely stressed out because of my job, i can’t focus on anything = bad performance at work, i can’t keep up with my relationship, i have too many things to follow up with, im procrastinating, i inherited my grandad’s debt bc my family didn’t tell me about the testimony so im basically fucked and i’m just SOOO done. there’s no reason for me to even try and make my life better

i don’t have the energy to deal with all of this, i want to die

i have bpd of course i’m gonna destroy everything and everyone i have in my life :))

I'm so fucking tired of splitting on people. I just fucking said a bunch of shit I didn't want to say cause I'm overwhelmed and stressed and I just...I'm so fucking alone and didn't know what else to do. Fucking hell I want to be rid of this stupid brain.

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honestly it’d probably be better for everyone involved if literally nobody ever spoke to me again

maybe in another universe i actually live life instead of surviving :)

Borderline culture is drowning in guilt, but not really wanting to change because you believe it's penance for hurting people

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I shouldn't exist

By @hel7l7

i wanna push everyone away from me so i can kill myself alone without anyone noticing

can i just die and reincarnate as a cat?

i’m so fucked up that i think my therapist finds it annoying when im scheduling appointments with her

FUCK THIS PLACE, FUCK EVERYTHING, FUCK EVERYONE, I HATE EVERYTHING. I JUST WANT TO FUCKING DIE OMG