I hate my life so much. I just took truxal for the second time, but I still feel like shit, not even selfharming made me feel better, that's so fucking unfair. Everyone is enjoying their life, while I'm stuck in the psych ward.

Hi, just came across your blog, i was about to end it a couple days ago but if it wasn't for my cat i would've been gone already. I understand everything you're going through and despite the severity of being super close to ending it, I don't know why I'm glad that I didn't. Although the pain of life isn't stopping and I can't catch a break just like you, at least i feel like I'm not alone in this. Thanks for your blog and all your written thoughts, truly and I wish you the best. May life turn around for you in such a way that your mom, dad and all the assholes that fucked you over won't ever be able to reach you. I speak blessings over your life in the most abundant way. Health, wealth, safety and joy to you ❤️

This is the cutest ask ever. Thank u so much, messages like this literally mean the world to me. I love u so much u made my day a bit better. I hope u are alright and I'm so proud of u for staying here. Keep fighting, one day we'll finally heal <33 take care of urself

hey I don’t want you to freak out but I have a friend at school named Catalina. And I really really doubt you guys are the same person but I don’t really care- Ilysm and I hope you have a good week :) I’m sorry that shits hard I’m there too rn but we’re all just hanging on. <333333

Heyy I'm not catalina I promise u this. But take care of her, she probably really needs a friend if she's going through smth similar. And take care of yourself too <3

I am this close to discharging myself rn, I fcking hate this clinic. U are supposed to help me not make everything worse, the nureses here are literally so stupid and mean, it's making me sick.

I wonder if all this fighting will be worth it in the end.

I'm so close to giving up.

I don't think I'll ever get better, it feels like its my destiny to suffer, it's always been like this and it'll always be. I live like this anymore.

I'm so afraid of this one man in my clinic, he screams at people for showing symptoms, and he has touched my shoulder and knee. I know touching my shoulder and knee isn't a real reason to be afraid of him, but I'm afraid of EVERY SINGLE MAN I MEET, and if stuff like this happens it makes me even more uncomfortable. I'm so afraid omg

I swear to god one day I'll slap this nurse in her fucking face. How can u be so fucking dumb??

My mom never asked "why did u s3lfharm", or "how are u?" She only ever asks how deep the cut is and screams at me for beeinv so stupid.

I had to drive to the hospital to get stitches yesterday... I thought my mental hospital could stitch up my arm real quick, but they couldn't. The doctor in the hospital was soo weird, he like forced me to look how my arm is getting stitched, and then started singing while putting a needle trough my arm. Really weird.

I fucking hate my life so much there are no words to describe how much I hate my life.

I have my father's rage inside of me. And it's getting bigger and bigger, I can't stop it this time. It's killing me, I don't wanna turn into him, I hate this man sooo much, he has ruined my life.

WHY IS EVERYBODY SO FUCKING FAKE OMGG

You seem very close to tori spring, I’m guessing you relate to her a lot?

yes Tori spring is my spirit animal.

Beeing okay with existing until you enter your own house is so fucking painful.

BRO WHY DO U HAVE TO CALL MY MOM WHEN I SH??? WHATS THE FUCKING REASON?? ITS MAKING EVERYTHING WORSE