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I'm curious as to your thoughts on how Nico and Will manage chores?? you've mentioned that you hc Will as OCD, but I'm interested in how you think that would combine with the different aspects of adhd. plus, I can't imagine Nico had much experience with chores having been rly young in Italy, plus living at the lotus casino, plus being on the run for so long
YES okay so i answered a similar ask here but i'm going to reiterate it and also explain a little bit of my ocd headcanon.
when they move in together, how do you think they will split the chores?
they do not.
they are in an interesting situation: nico has never had to do chores in his life. as a kid, he was the son of Literal Hades and an aristocrat, he for sure had people doing that shit for him. in the lotus, they presumably had room service. he may have had to do a few chores at the military school, but a) they weren't there for long and b) as an older sister with a younger brother, bianca was doing that shit for him. she ordered him to make his bed, he did a horrible job, she huffed and did it herself because it's more of a pain in the ass to make your brother do it again than it is to do it yourself. bianca i get you. after that he was homeless, so there was obviously no cleaning there, and then he lived in his father's palace. he has never so much as done a load of laundry except maybe hastily with a public washroom sink and a bar of soap. he barely knows what a mop is.
will, on the other hand, has been in charge of both a cabin and a literal infirmary since he was 13 years old. on top of that, if i am not mistaken (i'm so sorry i still havent read toa and tsats im getting there i swear), he grew up on a farm. his ass knows how chores work, in fact i would bet money that he gets a little obsessive when it comes to cleaning. he is acutely aware of how many germs are on every single surface ever. he cleans and he does it a lot.
this could go really badly, because habit would indicate that will would be doing all of the housework and nico none, which is Bad For Relationships.
however:
nico really likes will.
will is a massive hypocrite who overworks himself. he also is a bit of a control freak.
nico is also very, very observant.
i think, in the beginning of their friendship, even, nico noticed that will, like bianca, would let the onus of cleaning and tidying fall to him because 'no one else does it right', and also, maybe, it's just easier not to fight people about it. i think this would bother him. i think he would, in his inability to, like, be normal, impulsively challenge will to a cleaning contest.
and. like. will is a competitive person, okay. maybe not about things he knows he can't win, but when he knows he's good at something? he is not letting that shit slide. look at how fast he was to dunk on octavian, how prickly he got when nico doubted his ability to outrun the romans. if nico, who will knows damn well has done like four chores in his life, tries to challenge will, mr. antiseptic is my closest friend solace, to a cleaning contest?
he is going to sweep the floor with him.
pun absolutely intended.
from there things kind of spiral. at first it's a dorky ass learning curve, because nico loses every cleaning competition so so badly and quit fucking laughing, solace, you dickead, the windows are not that streaked and also watch me spray you in the goddamn eyes, huh, how do you like that and it's just kind of...fun. for the first time in a long time cleaning up doesn't make will quietly bitter.
plus, as an added bonus, nico helping will clean up makes it less invisible when he does it. now people are starting to notice that, no, the infirmary does not magically clean and organise itself, someone does that. and maybe a few more people pitch in to help. and maybe will realises, and maybe he smiles gratefully at nico when, for the first time in years, he has two entire days off, back to back, in the summer, for the first time in years. and maybe nico thinks he is going to collapse into dust because gods will has a nice smile. not that he cares or notices or anything.
do they need to keep having competitive chores forever?
no.
but does it make both of them kind of shyly pleased and happy to remember how they started? to remember how much their friendship means to them, first and foremost, and not just their relationship?
yes.
(also, by the gods, nico is going to beat will at laundry one day. he is. as soon as he learns to fold without creasing the whole stupid shirt it's over.)
on ocd:
so i've technically been diagnosed with ocd. i'm not sure how much i believe it, because i have severe anxiety and in 2020 when i was 17 i had anxiety about being ocd so i called my psychiatrist and went 'hey i think i have ocd' and she said 'yah you do', which, well. i've read some testimony and biography of people with ocd and there's a lot of stuff i don't relate to. so i'm not rly comfortable calling myself ocd, but i do have a lot of obsessive behaviours that i am aware extend past generalised anxiety disorder.
but on the stuff i do relate to:
mostly i am Fine. but i am also Aware of the Germs Around Us. at all times. taking a safe food handling course was a Mistake.
however i am also aware that these germs are Unavoidable. and i work with children. i get covered in fluids a Lot. (have you ever held a tissue to a young child's nose and told them to blow, feeling the hot gush of mucus, because they are too young to blow their noses themself? i have. it is revolting. more revolting than being thrown up or shit on, frankly, although those are also Not Great.)
for the most point i employ the Very Clever strategy called: Just Don't Think About It.
i don't think about it.
don't think about the germs on your laptop. don't think about the germs on the seat you're sitting on. don't think about how many germs are built up on your hands and transferring onto your laptop from all the dirty doorhandles you touched to get into the building. don't think about all the airborne germs that you are breathing right now. don't think of how easily staph virus travels. don't think about the germs built up on your phone, dear god. don't think about the germs on your bracelets.
Germs Die. Hands Wash. Germs Die. Hands Wash. Germs Die. Hands Wash.
this is a regular thing i chant to myself.
i have to.
so i don't go Insane.
there are some things i won't do, though, regardless of whether or not germs die and hands wash. i won't wear outside clothes to bed or let them touch my bed. i won't touch door handles with my bare hands if i can avoid it. i won't fill up the gas in my car if i don't have hand sanitizer or lysol wipes handy (gas pumps are DISGUSTING). i won't eat without washing my hands before and after. won't use the bathroom without washing my hands before (we should all do that?? frankly?? why do we allow germs near a place that gets infected real fuckin easy??????). i won't put my toothbrush on the side of the sink (INSIDE A DRAWER WHERE IT'S SEALED OFF). i won't flush the toilet with the lid up (DO YOU WANT THOSE PARTICLES IN THE AIR MORE THAN THEY ARE). i won't use hand dryers in public bathrooms.
lots of stuff i will do too. i will turn the water off and SCRUB my hands for thirty seconds (MISSISSIPPI) before rinsing the soap off. i will wash my hands every couple hours at least but regularly if they feel dirty. i keep a mental note of what is Contaminated and what i have to wash after i touch. i keep a mental record of what i'm touching. i look into ways bacteria and germs spread so i can learn how to keep myself protected. i keep hand sanitizer on my at all times, as well as extra in my car.
etc etc.
i don't always have all this in the forefront of my mind at all times. in fact most of this is habit.
i do spiral though.
sometimes i become Hyperaware of what i'm touching and i feel rly rly unclean. the germs and grime build and build and i get nauseous. usually, this only happens when i think 'i need to wash my hands' and i Cant. i can handle it because i have been handling it my whole life but it makes me really irritable really quickly, and then panicky if it goes on too long.
other times i get really obsessed with preparation. i'll try really hard to Avoid germs, which is impossible, and when i can't i get panicky too.
it is also Really Embarrassing. i get screechy when i'm not expecting to be germy (like at work i'm fine, i know i'm gonna get gross at work, so it's Fine to get gross at work; but if my sister wipes something gross on my shirt to get a reaction out of me she is Going To Get A Reaction Out Of Me, and it is going to be me shrieking at the top of my lungs). so that's fun.
on will:
i do think will would be kinda similar to my experience?? so ocd-adjacent.
he is Hyper aware of germs for one. i imagine he struggles to turn it off. he knows how disgusting something is at any given time because it is really important for him to know if something is sterile.
as he gets older and is abilities get more defined, i think he has a period where he spirals a Lot.
in the infirmary, he knows where the germs are. they are his job to treat or add as necessary. it's no big deal if he has to deal with catheters or sweat or vomit or snot or whatever. that's part of the job.
but Outside of the infirmary???
what really peaked my interest was, amusingly, the shaking hands line: that whole birth thing Bothered him. it was outside the norm, outside of something he could prepare for, and sure, it's just regular horrifying but i feel like it might be Germ horrifying as well.
does he panic about accidentally infecting people?? i think that might make him spiral. he has to do surgery and shit -- if he's hyperaware of what is and isn't sterile, i imagine the situations under which he has to apply medical care would send him spiraling after they're over.
i think he has a lot of anxiety Build Up. i think he shoves it back to Do His Job and then he's supposed to have free time, supposed to chill, and he's rushing away every forty minutes to scrub his hands.
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beeloovedd · 3 days
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First of all, I really like your fics about phantom with ocd
Can you write something about him having a REALLY tough time with his ocd and maybe even some comfort from Swiss or Mountain?
Maybe he’s so up in his head and kinda stuck in his thoughts and tries to refuse comfort?
And big thanks in advance if you write something
-Anon
Hi! Thank you!
And of absolutely course
TW: Crying, Mentions of Nightmares, a couple cheek and head kisses, trying to make it seem and act ok when your not, overthinking, panic
As ok as anyone could be
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Phantom sniffles quietly and hides more in the pillow to muffle up the quiet sobs
It's been a really long day...well a long week at that
They went to the store and he kept tapping everything, he tried to keep it minimal but people noticed and were looking at him
They had a meeting with the other churches and the masks felt too tight and too loose at the same time
Maybe it was just his mind running and him getting overstimulated
But today has been hard since he got up
As soon as he woke up his body was sore from tossing and turning all night from nightmares and not being able to sleep and his face was sticky from the sweat and the tears from not being able to sleep and the nightmares
Maybe the nightmares has a point
Maybe he was too much, too annoying, too loud
A burden
He didn't deserve the love the pack gives them if he just brings them down all the time
And here he is proving his point as his eyes begin to get glossy with tears
He quickly wipes his eyes and sits up slowly
He sniffles and takes a deep breath before standing
His head a bit dizzy and vision a bit blurry from tears
He begins to walk to the bathroom but first of course he has to do the compulsion Ritual
He sighs and taps his dresser twice with both hands then once with one hand
He taps the bed twice with both hands then quickly rushed to the bathroom before he finds something else to tap
He gets to the bathroom and quickly closes the door then looks at himself in the mirror before letting out a quiet groan
He taps the door knob twice then taps the wall three times then the other wall twice
He makes a small click noise with his mouth twice then he sighs quietly as he finishes for now
He turns on the water and cups it in his hands then puts it on his face
He splases the water on himself about 5 five times before turning it off then shaking off his hands
He looks at the sink knob and the towel, debating on which one to touch first
He lets out a small whine in his throat as his mind tells him something bad gonna happen either way
He stands there looking like a wet cat for a few seconds before finnaly just getting the Ritual over with
He takes a small and light deep breath before tapping the knob once with both hands then patting his face dry with the towel
His ears twitch as he ears knocking on his bedroom door and a muffled voice
He thinks it's just his mind, no one would or should actually care to look for him anyway
As soon as he finishes patting his face he hears his bedroom door open
He tenses as he realizes it wasn't his mind messing with him
"Hey Bug you in here?" He hears Swiss's voice from the other side
He takes a deep breath and shakes his hands slightly to try and calm down some of the anxiety
"Yea, just a minute" he says back as mind mind begins to run 10 times faster and he tries to calm himself down
Swiss looks at the door concerned and confused
He feels that something's off, a high spike in anxiety and sad energy
Though he thinks that could just be a false alarm or him just thinking that since he can't sense energy that good due to him not being a full earth or Quint ghoul
Phantom wipes his eyes and takes another quiet deep breath again
He opens the door and forces a smile
"Hey Swiss, what do you need?" He says with his voice breaking slightly
Swiss raises an eyebrow and looks at him
"Oh I just came to tell you that Cumulus and Aroura made cupcakes, though I don't know how many are left, cirrus and Dew kept sneaking some out" he says with a small laugh
Phantom chuckles, not surprised by Cirrus and Dew being cupcake thiefs
Then Swiss looks at phantom with a small smile to offer some comfort
"hey bug? I'm not trying to be an intruder and please tell me if I'm crossing anything here but are you ok? You've been in your room almost all day and the energy around here has been..off"
Phantom tenses, not liking or expecting this conversation again
He doesn't like talking about it, well it feels good to talk about it and get it off of his chest but he also really doesn't like putting the weight on his shoulders on to others
It shouldn't be their problem, he shouldn't be their problem, they have their own life, they should be worrying about his
"no I'm ok" he says with a forced small smile
Swiss raises an eyebrow and hold his hand out
"I know that's not true bug, what's wrong?"
Phantom tenses and avoids eye contact
"No really swiss! I'm fine, it's just been...a long day" he says, his voice breaking slightly towards the end, he hugs himself to provide himself a small bit of comfort
Swiss looks at phantom and opens his arms, letting the ghoul decide if he wants a hug or not
Phantom glances at Swiss, desperately wanting a hug but his mind telling him that he's being weak and that he doesn't deserve it
Phantom let's his heart win over his mind and falls into Swiss arms
Swiss hugs him tightly and Phantom finnaly lets his body win and let's himself cry into Swiss's shoulder
Swiss kisses his head and rubs his back as he lets the younger ghoul let everything out
He's just glad he was there to catch it
After a few minutes Phantom calmd down a bit and they move from standing to sitting on the bed
Stray tears fall down his cheeks as his mind continues to run
"I don't deserve this" he whispers out with a sniffle
"you don't deserve what, bug?" Swiss asks quietly
Phantom sniffles and looks up at Swiss
"anything, I-i don't deserve any of this" he says quietly with his voice cracking from the tears
Swiss looks down at him and pets his hair gently
"why don't you deserve this? You deserve the world Ant"
Phantom shakes his head and his breath hitches
"no.. I'm annoying, I'm a burden, I'm always keeping you guys behind or p-pulling you all down with me, you all have your own problems, you don't need to worry about mine" he whispers about with a sniffle, not even realizing he's saying what's on his mind
"i-im a bad ghoul, Swiss" he says as tears begin to fall again
Swiss looks down a phantom in surprise then gently and carefully makes phantom look up at him
"hey, we don't talk about ourselves like that, you wanna know something?" Swiss says as he waits for phantom to look him in the eye
"what?" Phantom says quietly
"you are the most special and fun ghoul I've ever met, in no way at all are you ever a burden or annoying, we all have our own wants and needs and that's perfectly ok, you can't keep trying to fight your thoughts alone, bug, you have us to help you now, and if you think your ever a bother then that's wrong, you always have us, got it?" Swiss say while gently cupping Phantom's face and wiping his tears
"g-got it" Phantom says with a last small sniffle
"good"
Swiss smiles and kisses his cheek and Phantom laughs
"now, how about you go get comfortable and I message mountain and ask him to bring us some tea and we'll watch the nightmare before Christmas again?" Swiss raises an eyebrow and smiles
"yes please!" Phantom says excitedly, jumping up to go get into his pajamas
Swiss laughs softly, happy that everythings ok now and texts Mountain
A few minutes later Swiss and Phantom are on the bed with phantom laying between Swiss's legs with his back to Swiss's stomach and swiss playing with Phantom's hair
"hey here you go" Mountain says softly as he hands mountain and Swiss their tea
"thank you" Phantom says with a smile as he takes a drink
"thank you Mount, wanna watch nightmare before Christmas with us?" Swiss says looks up at mountain with a smile
Mountain looks at them then at the tv
"you both are welcome and scootch" he says with a chuckle as he sits joins on the bed with them
Eventually the night falls and Phantom falls asleep on Swiss's chest and Swiss lays his head on Mountain's shoulder
"Long day?" Mountain asks as he runs his fingers lightly down Swiss's shoulder
Swiss shrugs
"Yea, for him too" Swiss says, leaning down to kiss phantoms head
"hes ok now?" Mountain asks with a soft smile
"as ok as anyone could be" swiss says with a smile before leaning up to kiss mountains cheek
Swiss leans his head back on Mountain's shoulder and mountain leans his head on top of Swiss's and they fall asleep peacefully on top of eachother
<3
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urfavehasocd · 3 days
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Bruno Madrigal from Encanto has OCD (Canon)
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sparrowsortadrawzzz · 19 hours
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pssssst...neurodivergent person.....
reminder to stop picking at your cuticles <33 use an orange stick, some trimmers, and cuticle oil, the owie is not worth it
love you big bunches!
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somesecretpie · 9 days
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Greetings bugs and worms!
This comic is a little different than what I usually do but I worked real hard on it—Maybe I'll make more infographic stuff in the future this ended up being fun. Hope you learned something new :)
If you are still curious and want to learn more about OCD, you can visit the International OCD Foundation's website. I also recommend this amazing TED ED video "Starving The Monster", which was my first introduction to the disorder and this video by John Green about his own experience with OCD.
The IOCDF's website can also help you find support groups, therapy, and has lots of online guides and resources as well if you or a loved one is struggling with the disorder. It is very comprehensive!
Reblog to teach your followers about OCD
(But also not reblogging doesn't make you evil, silly goose)
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brain--rott · 8 months
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"everybody experiences that" says mother who has the same symptom of the same mental illness
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hurristuff · 8 months
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For this Disability Pride Month, I saw a post that was shittybad and it made me angry. So have this
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selfundiagnosed · 8 months
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bl0w-m3 · 6 months
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Maybe she’s born with it, maybe it’s her dads fault.
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osangwoo · 1 year
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“don’t let it bother u” baby i’m gonna be bothered by this for the next 10 years
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12u3ie · 9 months
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if you have violent intrusive thoughts I love you. if you have sexual intrusive thoughts I love you. if you have bigoted intrusive thoughts I love you. you are not your thoughts and you are worthy of love and care and help and affection. you are not a monster you’re a person going through it and that’s okay
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chroniccoolness · 8 months
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ocd is not fucking destigmatized
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punpkinpi · 3 months
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Recently saw an insta vid where a musician was singing lyrics that described their intrusive thoughts as a person with OCD, and in the comments every so often there would be people writing like "bro what is this 🤨🤨" and "keep this between you and your therapist dont post it on the internet" and it just further fueled my belief that OCD symptoms and intrusive thoughts need to be talked about more because a majority of the struggle with the disorder is the shame surrounding its symptoms. OCD is not able to be easily romanticized or 'quirky'fied like other disorders or neurodivergencies have been*, and as a result its symptoms are more quickly met with disgust or repulsion.
Other people in the comments were thanking OP because it captured the struggle of real intrusive thoughts instead of impulsive ones. Impulsive thoughts are more of the 'I'm gonna dye my hair randomly on a thursday night' thoughts vs the intrusive 'what if I drove my car into that family and suddenly killed us both' thoughts, the latter of which make OCD as a disorder truly debilitating. And the people that immediately assign bad morals to intrusive thoughts? They only further condemn people with OCD to never wanting to talk about the symptoms they've already been struggling with shame about.
I feel it needs to be made more blatantly explained to the public that OCD intrusive thoughts aren't desire based. They're fear and disgust based. You fear hurting anyone so badly your mind can't stop thinking about what if you hurt someone. You fear molesting anyone so you never want to even touch anyone. Your mind fixates on the 'what ifs' and distorts them into the idea that, because you think this way, you must want to act this way--when the reality is the exact opposite.
If a person with OCD ever confides to you one of their intrusive thoughts and you feel a knee-jerk reaction of disgust towards them, it needs to be reiterated that:
1. the person does not want to be thinking about this, their brain is legit hardwired to make those thoughts pop up
2. the person themselves also feels this disgust, often intensely, and they very likely resent themselves for ever thinking it
and
3. they have no desire to enact the intrusive thought, because its intrusive nature hinges on the person's fears and dislikes.
*And to clarify what I mean by romanticization and 'quirk'-ifying, I do not mean to imply that romanticizing any disorder or condition is inherently a good thing. It's only to state that conditions like anxiety and ADHD have been made such common/'trendy' topics recently that they're less taboo to speak about--leading to more people talking about their struggles with it, and helping others realize they might have it too and aren't alone. Because certain OCD traits aren't as marketable (obviously) a lot of those with it are left rather isolated.
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jewishranpo · 10 months
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“the intrusive thoughts won” “that’s psychotic” “i’m so delusional haha” “narcissistic abuse” “the weather is so bipolar” SHUT UP!!!!!! SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!
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