I've come to learn that we sometimes have to just appreciate someone from a safe distance. I get to spend undeniably large amount of time with you lately and i never once feel bitter about the fact that you are just a friend. How painfully lovely of the universe it is that i get to laugh and walk in the same pace as you without having to be afraid of breaking each other's heart. No, you won't know, i won't let it show either because i am happy just the way things are now. You are happy in your own way and i get to be part of a small fraction of that happiness, so that's really enough for me. I hope things never turn awkward between us and i hope you never cry because of heartbreak ever again.
This. Someone has to wash the blood out the shirt. Someone has to lie & say he was with you all night. Someone has to help hide the murder weapon & make phone calls while he sleeps the bloodlust off. Someone has to be at the integration protest.
“Çünkü en zayıf olduğum yerden sınanmış, en hassas olduğum yerden vurulmuşum. Hangi yanımdan yara alsam o yanımdan ağrımışım. Taşıyamam zannettiklerimi taşımış, taşırım zannettiklerimin altında kalmışım. İçimdeki ummanı önce sızdırmış, sonra taşırmışım.” 🥀
My love will always exist. In the unspoken morning hours, the small hesitant random texts, the sunsets and the songs. It will always find a way to torture me with regrets for the things i never say or do. My heart will always cry for you and the one sad part is, i just don't know how to not miss you.
Sometimes you want to stay friends with people you have been friends with forever. Someone you feel obligated to, someone you care deeply for. But what if they don’t treat you the same as you treat them? What if you just want them? What if you just can’t admit to yourself that this person is draining you?
I have been told I am “too nice” meaning I do things for other people that they would not do for me. That may be so in some instances but I enjoy helping people, especially people I care about. I will help those who have helped me. I have learned how to say no, to not apologize for refusing to do something that I am unable to do. But how do you know when enough is enough?
If I find myself bending backwards for someone who is not grateful? If I find myself putting more energy into a friendship than that person? If I don’t feel appreciated? If I feel like I am being taken advantage of? If I feel like I am losing my wellness and happiness to keep this person happy? That is when you know, you don’t need them in your life. That is when you know, you may want them in your life but you are much better off without them. You need to put yourself first.
Same can be said about your boyfriend or girlfriend. If you are texting and calling them first, if you are paying for all the meals, if you are giving all the gifts? You need to think of yourself first.
If you need to end a relationship because it is hurting you? There is nothing wrong with that. If you break up with someone because you feel they aren’t contributing to the relationships growth? There isn’t anything wrong with that. If you need to say goodbye to a friend that is taking advantage of you? You didn’t do anything wrong.
In every type of relationship, the most important person is YOU. All that matters is YOUR happiness. YOUR well-being. YOUR health. This is YOUR life, YOU can pick who deserves a spot in it. YOU choose who’s good for you.
You cannot help anyone else if you cannot help yourself. YOU are number one. No one else.
beklesem Sen gelsen Olmaz ya hani geliversen Hiç bir şey sormasan Hiç bir şey söylemesen Sussam Sussan Sussak. Susuşların anlattığını dinlesek Sırt sırta otursak Katılasıya ağlasak Sormasak birbirimize sebebini Sarılsam Sarılsan Sarılsak.
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