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getting compliments on my writing always makes me go
#just in general#you guys dont get it#every compliment i get has me frothing at the mouth and slamming my head into a wall /pos#(i cant handle compliments. it makes me short circuit every time)#someone just told me theyre subscribed to me and?????? i would die for you?????/#i struggle a lot with being nice to myself abt my writing so hearing so many of you really enjoying my stuff helps me a lot <33#genuinely. im learning self love and all of u are helping <3#summer post
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out of curiosity, what are the common qEtoiles mischaracterizations, and the accurate characterizations you wished people used more? Sincerely, an English speaking fan who is re-learning French!
honestly i kind of consider it a mischaracterization when people like... make etoiles into this team leader who always knows what to do and move things forward. or like that he has a bad attitude to like... match his fighting skills. or like the dark knight brooding warrior. he says he is these things. these are lies. he lies about himself constantly. i wouldnt trust a good 2/3 of the things he says about himself to be true. you read him clearer through his actions than his statements.
in my opinion etoiles is more like. sturdy second in command. he's not there to lead, he's there to fill in the holes where they pop up. he's there as cover. he's quick witted in shortchange scenarios, but that is so not the same thing as a genuine strategist. in another expression, if someone is a leader, the leader is a doctor, etoiles's role is more like... the EMS team in an ambulance. He's not there to fix your problem, he's there to keep your problem covered until you can get someone else to fully fix it. but that doesn't mean his role is any less important when he's needed.
Etoiles is also, like, so very much a team player if he respects and trusts a person. And it is so easy to have his respect and trust. His trust starts at 100% for everyone. he's also so very very very good at reading people (gesture to the bbh clip where bbh moves his mouse slightly downward and etoiles calls him out on being depressed). He read Mousey as enjoying dungeons and pvp way more and wanting to hang out with her. He's also one of the only people who like continuously runs in the girlies group and makes all of them pvp with him and they all love it so he keeps coming back to pvp with them. Thats how he started his whole thing with Tina and pvping with her constantly. Reading other people also, he loves finding other pvpers so he attacks roier constantly now bc he knows roier can pvp.
What else OH Etoiles loves whining (and this is because Rayou loves whining) that dude will just complain constantly. You haven't seen an etoiles stream if youve never seen him whine. Can't say I'm not kind of endeared by it. With this too he loves over explaining things (RIP armor powerpoint wish you couldve been given...) because he wants to help everyone....
OH and he's very over exaggerated too in replying to people in a complaining way and a self deprecating way and also likes to try to push the envelope with people and he does all of that to try and get a laugh out of others. like he's well aware people find him going "Oh so you don't give a shit about me and want me to die ? you want etoiles to die ?" fucking hilarious and also loves complaining in the first place thats why he does that. if your etoiles isn't complaining and whining then it isn't etoiles. the self deprecating thing is... its interesting bc he does have full faith in his abilities but will never say it out loud unless its trying to reassure someone who is worried. pushing the envelope is so specific he won't do it too much and its like........... from what ive seen (correct me if im wrong) heavily directed at non francophones where if they laugh at something wack he's done he'll try to do it again to make them laugh more. shoutout to the time he made bbh laugh so much when he cursed he didn't get languaged by bbh so he kept cursing to try to make bbh do it again. the dudes a total people pleaser.
smaller thing ive talked about extensively already (u can prob find it in my q!etoiles tag if i remember i'll edit a link to the posts in here soon lol) etoiles hates losing he looooooves winning he's very intense about it lol. its cute!
on a final note even if you don't become deeply unwell about etoiles like i am i think this highlight clip video has like everything he's like condensed into like 11 minutes. You should watch it. It's a good starting point.
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love ur baldurs gate 3 oc so much. idk anything about the game but i genuinely likes him. i wish hes a real character bc i would buy the game for him
thank you anon i know this message is weeks old but ily and also im going to use this ask as an excuse to dump information about him now (swagdor lore (swaglore)) for anyone who cares
general stuff;
hes 49 years old as of game time
necromancy wizard, learned scholar, heavy interest in the boundaries between life and death and undeath, researching different types of resurrection unrelated to god worship (just not a big fan of asking for favours yknow)
stoic even keeled personality, reacts neutrally or stone faced to most things (this does not mean hes uncaring, hes got a curious nature). he used to be very showy and loud when he was younger, he finds that now very embarrassing
used to be a leader of an adventuring band in his 20s, fell apart when his group were defeated in battle leaving him lone survivor, wasnt a necromancer back then
has a distinct lack of self regard, half of him believes he'll be more of use untethered to the chain of mortality (undead in some fashion, or just thinking his corpse more functionally useful) the other half is just still struggling with survivors guilt (lol)
wanders around looking for old crypts and tombs to help his arcane pursuits, do-good's alot accidentally while he does, though most people get scared of him when he reveals the necromancy magic so hes got a mixed reputation (has some sort of misnomer like The Specter of so-and-so that wyll probably recognizes and laughs about)
will go along with just about anything if it amuses him, and has a weird sense of humour. hard to catch off guard or fluster, he yes-and's people alot to see how far they'll go with something or out bluff them (sometimes this causes them to try and beat the shit out of him)
truthful about his feelings when asked, but rarely volunteers his thoughts on things of his own accord, this gives him a weirdly mysterious image at first to most people
treats his raised corpses with care befitting living beings outside combat, and used to even raise some for company even if they were functionally just puppets.
he likes skeletons more than zombies (smell…)
his fake in game quest line is called 'The Wandering Necromancer' and involves inquiring about his old adventuring days of times past and learning why he's so into skeletons. He eventually reveals his past and you can bring up his groups old misadventures (oh my god you were the backstreet boys???) and he is very embarrassed by it. He reveals his group was felled by a lich, and he never found their bodies so hes always been curious on a way to speak with them again somehow.
plot continues BLAH BLAH eventually you find out that lich is still around and swagdor's old friends are now in its undead service so you go to kill it <3 but on the way he considers if he should take the lich's place so he can have his old companions around again (even if they're in his undead service) and try to give them some semblance of new twisted life again. You either help him with the preparations (yay phylacterys) or go bro you need to Move On. Man. and instead choose to release their souls when the lich is killed.
swagdor is stronger as a lich but also becomes even more detached from concepts of mortality (his sense of danger is basically nill now regarding others... its okay if u die ill bring u back somehow :) <- unnerving smile) and also all his dead friends are talking to him in his ear so he's constantly got a sense of being away from everything.
unliched swagdor moves on properly and begins The Healing Process (better late than never king) and seems more present in current ongoings, finding a place he can really set his feet. He's also less obsessed with death but sees his necromancy instead as a means to help and speak with wayward souls of the dead.
useless trivia corner: his names swagdor bc i based him off an old div2 oc i made when i was playing that game with aqua, where i used one of the randomly generated names they gave me and put the word swag into it (lol) i now am using his div2 swagdor's adventures as a semi basis for his new bg3 versions background thats why his younger versions outfit is based off that one captain armour set i never took off in that game
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₊˚. getting comfy being uncomfy
ᡣ𐭩ㅤ૮ ᪲ ⠂⠂ 𐭩 hi its me again <3 so i see this about a lot but when its mentioned theres often never any elaboration on the topic. so even though im not an expert i wanted to try help out w that <3
₊˚⊹ fear
an unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain, or harm.
₊˚⊹ uncomfortable
causing or feeling unease or awkwardness.
🍮 first thing; learn the difference between uncomfortable and genuine fear. of course i encourage you to do things out of your comfort zone and push yourself but never to the point it mentally or physically hurts you!
🍮 please dont be afraid to change! its perfectly okay to grow out of people or places or things you used to love because change is a natural part of being human! we are constantly growing and evolving every day, please dont hold back your success and opportunity to flourish for someone or something else <3
🍮 be ur own no.1 supporter - i mentioned this in my self reliance post and i think that applies a lot to this too! ur always gonna be by ur side so prove that to yourself. youd want someone you love to be there by your side through thick and thin, failure or success, right? be that for yourself! you can do this! itll be okay! ily! 🩷
🍮 once youve done something that makes you uncomfortable, what i'd do is id then reflect; but you can do this before or after. for before, id say:
what aspects of said uncomfortable scenario makes you uncomfortable? have you had similar experiences like this in the past that may have triggered this? what are the pros and cons of this situation? will you gain from this?
and for after:
was it as uncomfortable as you imagined? why did it make you uncomfortable? how did you feel during said uncomfortable scenario? what did you learn from said uncomfortable scenario?
🍮 using this information, you can then log your experiences from this time and decide on how you can incorporate this into next time so you can begin to grow accustomed to it using what youve learnt. think of it like an experiment.
🍮 analyse your triggers, recognise what makes you uncomfortable and why that is, study yourself! you are the most important subject you could ever study
🍮 finally, trust in your ability to bounce back from anything. done something embarrassing? doesnt matter. this is all our first attempt and we are all failing and learning and growing. everything that gets thrown at you in life is to teach you something, everything is a lesson. youve been through worse but youve always had your back. lets do this!! <3
ᡣ𐭩ㅤ૮ ᪲ ⠂⠂ 𐭩 I HOPE THIS HELPED U <3 i still struggle w this myself but i believe in myself and in you too- lets do this together!!!!! i love u 🩷
(headers by @florietas !!<3)
#♡#self improvement#<3#self care#confidence#girlblogging#wonyoungism#it girl#self healing#u can do this#love u!#wrote this on a time crunch#but it still turned out good !!!#glow up era#2024 truly is my year#!!!
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Rem, I'm so excited and I want to share this with you.
I have an SP, everything started off pretty well but at some point I sabotaged it. The thing is although I have been learning about the law for a while now (like 3 years), I started blaming it all on him and calling him stuff, dwelling on the unwanted story and complaining about it with my friends.
I luckily caught myself doing this and just thought "what the fuck? I really keep preaching the law is real and here I am conforming to unwanted circumstances" and I decided to manifest him back. I got into the typical cycle of having him coming in and out in a loop. I did not understang why this was happening. In one of those moments where he came in, I realized something... I Iowkey wanted to push him away. When he wasn't with me I wanted him back, and when I had him I wanted to push him away. This is when I realized I had commitment issues lmao, I would have never imagined this because I LIVE FOR ROMANCE. The funniest thing is that I kept thinking HE was the one with issues, but it was me the whole time.
I didn't know how to deal with my fear, and there is not many help for people with commitment issues on the internet. Luckily one day I came across a guided meditation and decided to try it every night, and for meditational purposes I imagined my SP when the meditation asked me to imagine myself in a 1-year commited relationship with someone special. My main purpose was to overcome my fear, manifesting my SP was not really on my mind.
This is where it gets interesting, I started getting very comfortable with the feeling of trusting my SP and being long-term and commited to him, and he naturally started being more consistent with me in the 3D, pursuing me more, trusting me (in the past I felt like he didn't trust me), opening up, showing me his feelings. I no longer feel like he is trying to run away from me and I feel more at ease, like I can genuinely enjoy having him in my life and not be scared of him. For the first time in my life I can say that I feel a connection to someone. After years of feeling numb and like although I loved romance, it was not for me, I can finally feel comfortable and secure loving someone.
I think the law works beautifully, I was really seeing myself in him all the time. It was so easy to think he was the one who couldn't commit and who couldn't trust, but he was just showing me my own reflection. He was really a mirror and when I changed, so did he, as if we were one. And in the end, all of us are one, which is so increidible. I can't get over how perfect the law is, it makes me want to cry of joy hahaha.
hi love, im so happy and excited for u!!! eiypo is one of my favorite things about the law!! the fact that "there is no one to change but self" is really so comforting. im wishing you and your sp lots of happiness!!! <3
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a list of things Mikey does after the movie
- he can’t use his hands.
- at the very least he can like. touch stuff- but in terms of actually holding things? PBBT.
- has sessions with draxum
- learns more about his mystic abilities + their side effects
- also learns that he’s able to stabilise said side effects with external help. so no dealing w that shit alone (AND NO DYING I HATE THAT SCENE SO MUCH-)
- he asks a lot of questions about the future
- don’t talk about the hair with him.
- he may not razz his tazz with his hands but his feet are still rated e for everyone
- can’t cook so like.. takeout is their meal aside from pizza
- vents to April and his dad when he can (u think he’s gonna put more on his brothers’ plates? LMAOOOO *cries*)
- nightmares. he opts for sleeping next to Leo bc haha. pull that self sacrifice bs again and he will lose it
- no art making :/
- and it genuinely saddens him for a good while
- until raph comes up with this idea
- bc as kids, raph liked to join mikey with art
- but sometimes 2d mediums was just hard. pens and crayons got small in his hands so he doesn’t like making detailed drawings
- but one time they got play dough
- and raph LOVED it and mikey was so happy to see his big bro loving art even more
- so he offers mikey some clay to mess with (“when did you-?” “i was gonna plan on making something with you again but,, things got in the way,,”)
- and he sculpts things!!
- “LIKE THE OTHER MICHELANGELO!!”
- he couldn’t hold shit but poking and prodding and pushing something as malleable as clay made him feel.. good. not helpless.
- he’s abt to ask raph if he wants to join but :((
- but regardless sometimes in the medbay with Leo while he’s sculpting his bro throws out random ideas on what to make
- “i already made a red eared slider!” “hmm.. but have you considered making a second one”
- “Donnie?” “you already made the Donatello bust in my workshop so it’s not really necessary to make another one,” “CAN I GET AN IDEA THAT DOESNT REVOLVE AROUND YOU TWO NARCISSISTS-”
- he makes them anyway bc he loves them
- Donnie’s already made a kiln (“when did you make this????” “dw about it”)
- his little sculptures hang around Leo’s bed, Donnie’s workshop + lab and Raph’s shelves
- sometimes with extra bad nightmares he clings onto Leo
- “I’m alright- im alright” “if you pull that ever again I’m gonna kill you myself-“ “ALRIGHT 😭”
- he has a serious talk about leo though, how he leads, how it effects everyone including him
- ofc it ends in a nice cuddle bc u think u can get rid of him?? you’d have to pry him off
- and he asks about the crater in raph’s shell once
- and after hearing what happened he’s going to Donnie to ask about the escape pods (his face is all ruddy with tears)
- and goes to raph and snoozes on his bench press bc he won’t let him near without bringing his nunchucks >:(
- sometimes he also just spontaneously cries
- like he could be typing something and then boom tears
- only goes to sleep w ppl by his side
- he’s putting stickers on everyone’s casts and bandages lol
- he put his lightning sticker on the top left side of his plastron for raph “so you’re not the only one!” (raph starts crying abt it-)
- he wants a pizza cookie.
- “aren’t your hands-?” “yeah, which is why i want the family making it! with yours truly as the instructor!”
- it’s actually a delicious pizookie
- they all eat it at like 2 in the morning bc 1. insomnia 2. nightmares 3. why would they wait to eat a pizza cookie
- it’s a nice bonding time even though they’re all tired as shit
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Dex I am hitting you up now for some renlie headcanons since you offered <3 feel free to answer whenever it strikes your fancy 🥰
chawlie. :^]
loves giving you petnames. tries new ones out all the time and most dont stick but he likes to toss them out anyways. stuff like "pookie" and "honeyrat" and silly things that he just mashes words together to make alongside traditional stupid silly petnames
his goofy silly smile whenever he sees u is unparalleled. he gets the happy jitters whenever you come over
he tries SO HARD to clean his apartment btw. when he knows ur coming over hes scrambling like never before to tidy up. its actually impressive and the gang is like "holy shit you're capable of organization??"
pillow and blanket forts with movie night !!!!!!!! its his favorite date because its cheap and private and cozy.
he gets a little self-conscious though about like. the fact his pjs are all old and ripped up and stained and ur just sooo pretty and fancy in his eyes at first when u come over hes like :(( sorry and u just gotta reassure him and he'll be back to his solly giggly self
oh ya. he's a little chuckly giggling mess around u. u just make him so happy.
hugs u like a teddy bear at night. total spider monkey cuddle bug
he always runs ideas by u first before anyone else. he trusts u more than anyone to help him with Shenanigans ™
maybe kind of intentionally leaves hoodies and jackets out. for u to steal. maybe. bc u just look sooo cute in them. maybe. but only a little 👉👈
u. teachin him to read. and write. i hc he's dyslexic but idk about u so i'll just say you helping him learn/manage it and just being able to be proud of him and !! he's so grateful about it and the gang is astonished when he shows up being able to like casually read and he's like. im not stupid u know.
which. btw. ur the only one who makes him feel smart and worthwhile like he's not just some stupid idiot and. it's one of the reasons he loves u so much. bc u see more than just like the dumb janitor and it genuinely is the first time in his life he's ever felt like someone actually likes having him around for more than just being able to push him around and make fun of him so. to say he loves being with you is an understatement.
ya idk !! charlie's always been my favorite. so. i think ab him and his character a lot LOL
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hey clari! i hope this doesn’t sound weird but i just wanted to say i’m so proud of you for responding to so many asks lately! i can see your progress nd i am so proud of u n i really hope i can make the same progress one day as well. for a loooong while now i’ve been repeating the same negative cycle and it’s so hard to just get out of it. every time i feel like i’m making progress something happens and i start all over again….(n it’s really fucking annoying!!!!) but i’m still trying!!! :/
i’m still working out the kinks of finding a good and mellow-paced daily pattern for myself but everything seems like too much lol nd i cant muster up the energy to do the bare minimum most of the time….i was wondering (if you’re ok with it) if you could share your daily pattern or routine.
you totally don’t have to!! i just thought it was worth a shot to ask lol
anyways…i love u n im so very proud of u! keep moving forward!!! u got this <33!!
hello anon!!! (´∀｀)♡ fair warning, this answer is extremely long lmao
it absolutely does not sound weird, omg!!!! it made me feel so happy and warm and giddy inside to hear that, thank you so much for telling me!!!! <33333 genuinely, i cannot tell you how much i appreciate this message <3 i’ve been working really, really hard to get back to the level of productivity i used to be at, as well as just working extremely hard to heal myself and learn how to healthily deal with my mental illness.
it is extremely difficult to break that cycle and i empathize so deeply with you, anon bb :( it requires a lot of self discipline, optimism, and motivation, all of which are especially hard to come by when you’re in the middle of an episode or stuck in a rut or a bout of sadness/icky feelings :( i want you to know that i believe in you!!!! i KNOW you can do this, i have complete faith in you, and i know you WILL succeed.
i’ve been going through exactly what you described—beginning to make progress, and then something happening and forcing me to begin all over again—for almost a YEAR now, so i completely understand how incredibly frustrating that is. it’s difficult not to lose hope during times like that, where it just feels like its some sort of endless, vicious cycle, and we’ll never break free of it. but i have personally broken free of that cycle once before, and now, i am going to do it again. and if i can do it, you can definitely do it, too!
first of all, i want you to know how proud i am of you!!!!!! it takes so much strength and bravery to continue trying in the face of all of this, so already you’re doing incredible. that’s an amazing feat all in itself and i want you to give yourself a pat on the back for it!!! no matter what’s happened, you still haven’t given up, and that says so much about who you are, your resilience, and your determination. it’s such a cheesy saying but it’s so true: the ONLY failure is the failure to try. every time something happens, you can look at it as a learning experience. this week my therapist said this to me, and it really helped, so i want to repeat it to you, too: she told me that every challenge, obstacle, or mistake we encounter is merely another opportunity to learn, to gather more information and to use that information to make ourselves better. it’s a very positive way to look at it, but it’s also TRUE.
she really likes to use the analogy of a scientist testing hypotheses through experiments: every time a scientist’s experiment fails, or proves their hypothesis wrong, they have learned something, they have failed better, and they can take this information to help themselves improve in their next experiment or endeavour. if you can, try to think of your life this way, as well. i can give you a personal example: i often have the tendency to set myself up for failure by expecting WAY too much of myself right off the bat. when i was first trying to get back into being active on my blog every day, i had set a goal of ten asks a day for myself. it seemed reasonable at the time, because before i had been answering 10-30 asks a day, so i figured i could totally start out at this threshold and work my way up.
it turns out, i completely forgot to factor in the fact that i am much more sick than i was when i was answering so many asks a day. it was akin to breaking your leg, resting until it heals, and then immediately trying to run a marathon the moment the cast comes off, instead of building up muscle and stamina gradually. i realized this, and lowered my goal to five asks a day. it turned out that that was also too many at that current moment, so i have set my goal for one ask a day. i have put the bar an inch away from the floor, because at this current moment in my life, this is where it needs to be. it isn’t there every single day, and it definitely won’t be that low forever, but at the moment i need to set goals that are consistently achievable, things i know i can do every day without being overwhelmed or getting so scared i just don’t do it at all.
so that’s my first piece of advice for you. give yourself goals that are easy to achieve, things you know you can do. my goals for every day are: answer one ask a day, work on a piece of writing for my blog for one hour a weekday, work on a piece of personal writing for one hour a weekday, practice cursive writing for 15-30 min a weekday. they are all small and most importantly ACHIEVABLE goals. here’s the secret: more often than not, once i start, i actually end up doing more than that, because i feel like i can, or because i WANT to. but the reason why setting these easy, achievable goals is important is because on the days where you truly, genuinely cannot do more than the bare minimum, you will still feel this sense of accomplishment, because hey! you did it! you did the one thing you set out to do, and that’s so much better than giving up or not doing anything at all, even if it is really small. ANY progress is better than no progress at all. ANY progress, no matter how little, moves you towards your goals.
my second piece of advice for you is to set up rewards for you achieving your goals. this is where your self discipline really comes into play. this is something i used to do in university and it helped me SO much. i would make a deal with myself: read these three articles, or write a few pages of this essay, or do two hours of research, and then i will allow myself to hang out with friends/go shopping/watch a film/play a game/etc.
for me, right now, my reward for myself is playing genshin (LMAO). it is the hyperfixation currently occupying the most of my mind—all i want to do is talk about it/play it/write about it—so i make myself a promise every single day: achieve your daily goals, and you can spend the rest of the free time you have playing the game. if i am able to achieve my goals consistently every day, monday to friday, then on the weekend i treat myself to something small—i either buy myself gems, or this weekend i bought myself a lil plushie hehehe c: but the point is, make the reward something you really want, and hold yourself accountable for achieving it.
i went to a prestigious uni, and they really beat into my mind that i’m completely worthless all the time unless i am constantly doing work. this makes enjoying relaxation time extremely difficult, because i feel disproportionately guilty. i’ve found that setting these goals with rewards helps lessen this A LOT.
so anyway, these are the techniques i’ve been using recently. my therapist also has me check in with myself every single morning; she says its very important to track things like our mood and our energy, as well as other factors (sleep, environment, stress, etc) so we can catch burn-out before it happens and take those extra rest days when they’re required. that isn’t lazy, that’s called taking care of yourself and being kind and compassionate to yourself—and it’s a responsible thing to do. some days i really can’t answer more than one ask, and that’s okay, because at least i’m doing something.
just the other day i had to bring down one of my writing sessions from an hour to 30 minutes, because i was having such a terrible day and an hour just sounded way too daunting. but guess what? i began my session, keeping in mind that i was only going to do it for 30 minutes, and actually ended up writing for an hour and a half! sometimes you will genuinely surprise yourself, and honestly 90% of the time it’s only starting that’s the most difficult. on the days where i’m having a really rough time, i remind myself how important this is to me. i remind myself how much this means to me, how special it is, how much i truly DO want to do it, how good i feel when i achieve something, and that usually helps me push through and get started.
it’s so important for us to be flexible with ourselves and give ourselves what we need when we need it. i think that as long as we’re continuing to try, then we’re succeeding. adjust accordingly!!! for me, i know that being productive makes me feel really, really great, so even on those days where simply getting out of bed and making food is difficult, i still try to at least tick off ONE thing on my goals list. that way, at least i’ve done something, even if it wasn’t everything. it’s still a step in the right direction, you know? there are also days where we really do need to take a full break from everything as well, and that is okay as well. only you know what you need <3
you mentioned having difficulty doing the bare minimum; maybe your bare minimum is still set too high for where you are at this current moment. is there any way you can bring it down even lower? even if you have to bring it down to just one thing a day, that is STILL progress and that is still success, and it will still help you move forward and built momentum. start as slow and as small as YOU need to, anon <3 you are doing what is best for you, and there is absolutely no shame in that. if your current bare minimum is still too much and too overwhelming, bring it down even further. make it the barest you can. because doing the barest you can is still so much better than doing nothing at all and feeling all crummy because of it!
the last thing i wanted to mention is that i try to do something meaningful to me every single day. just one thing, it doesn’t have to be big, but it makes me feel good and it helps keep me rooted in this current moment as well as helps me appreciate everything i have more <3
waaaah okay i know this is SUPER long but i hope this helps at least a little, anon bb <333 i have so much faith in you and i KNOW you can do this!!!! if you have any other questions please do not hesitate to ask <3 i love u so so much and i’m so thankful to have you here with me!!!
#like 1800 words long#waaah i just wanted to make sure i was explaining and coming across as clearly as possible!!!#but anyway sweetpea that's what i'm doing at the moment <3#i genuinely hope this helps you <33333#ily sm!!!!!!!! have a wonderful sunday and stay safe + hydrated!!!#inky.bb#clari gets mail
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cheering you up ; haikyuu boys
synopsis; different ways the haikyuu boys care for you and cheer you up when you’re sad
pairings; karasuno x reader, nekoma x reader, aoba johsai x reader, fukurodani x reader, shiratorizawa x reader, inarizaki x reader
genre; fluff
warnings; none probably a bunch of mistakes lmfao
note; i had to repost this like 3 times rip. anyways, im sorry for not adding inarizaki on my last one jbshds but they’re here now!!
karasuno ━━
sugawara koshi; i definitely think he's so in tune with you, and your emotions. he learns your cues very well, and knows every little thing about you that there is to learn. if you're having a bad day, he'll notice right away. he won't comment on it though. all he'll do is these little things to try to cheer you up, but it's going to be very subtle. he'll let u rest ur head on his shoulder, run his fingers through ur hair. he'll sneakily buy u ur favorite snack. doesn't bring anything up until you do. ends the day with cuddles and a chick flick.
sawamura daichi; he notices but he doesn't really know how to react. not because he doesn't know what to do, but because he doesn't want to trigger you or deepen your sadness in any way. he's very careful with you. if it's something throughout the day, he's very quiet and tender with you, just silently lets you rest your head against his chest and rubs your back/arm tenderly. as you're walking home he asks if you want to talk about it, and reminds you that it's good to, but it's also okay if you don't want to.
nishinoya yuu; not a single sad moment with mr noya here. seriously you cannot breathe. ok but in all honesty, when you're sad. he's sad. sends you memes, and you'll be laughing at them with tears streaming down your face because you don't really know what you're feeling anymore. he does a lot of tiktok trends with you, any of the couple ones. grabs your faces and ,,, smooch all over. until you have no choice but to laugh. if you want to cry even more, he'll watch the notebook and the vow a thousand times over, and be a sobbing mess next to you. just don't tell the guys okay? <3
kageyama tobio; he's so. bad. at this please help him. like he can tell ur sad, bc he's v good at reading people. but like. what the fuck is he supposed to do. anyways. when u two get to be alone and he kinda notices how quiet you are, he just nudges you slightly, and pulls you to him. it's easier to talk to you, he's calmer, when he can't directly look at you. when he feels you start to shake in his arms, feels the wet tears down your cheeks as you start to sob in his arms, his heart kinda breaks. all he can do is hold you, but it's what you need. and he'll listen too, if that's what you need as well.
tsukishima kei; i think he notices, but doesn't bring it up at all. the way he goes about it is he'll tease you to try and bring a smile on your face. because this is tsukki, and you know him well enough, you know the truth behind his jabs, enough to appreciate them. if it doesn't work, he'll just start to make fun of people in front of you, pointing random people out with you and just being like "wanna bet on what's making their relationship fall apart" this sadist i stg. like suga, he subtly makes you feel better until you yourself approach him about whatever's upsetting. actually gives 10/10 advice bc he's v honest.
asahi azumane; he's so empathetic oh my god bruh. notices immediately. "baby what's got u so upset" w a big pout on his face and when u just mumble "nothin" so low he barely catches it and instead throw yourself into his arms, he gives you a big, certified asahi bear hug. doesn't leave your side at all. constantly mutters sweet nothings and encouragements. if you do the bare minimum like make it through class he'll meet you after and be all "im so proud of my pretty baby". cuddles all day. all night. he's not very good at advice but he is the best listener !!! so attentive and you'll feel a huge weight lifted.
tanaka ryunosuke; "aight who do i need to jump" type beat. u love him so much though. that one sentence and sentiment already has you feeling better. immediately hugs you so tight, borderline suffocating you. "wanna ditch school". 100% willing to do so. he doesn't really know whether to approach it with distracting you or facing the obstacle head-on, but he finds a middle ground. eats your feelings out with you. saeko pulls out the embarrassing ryu pictures and suddenly you don't know why you were ever sad.
hinata shoyo; is really oblivious for a bit tbh. when he first meets you at the start of the day and his hyperactive self is greeted by your duller, sadder self, he doesn't think much of it. it's when you don't react to him or interact with him the way you usually would that he starts to notice you being off. he's actually super straightforward about it, and approaches you with some of your favorite snack that he bribed ukai to give him for free and just "wanna tell me whats up, baby?" he's so, so easy to talk to. immediately you're venting. and he listens to intently, gives stupidly good advice. it's like such simple approaches to your problem but?? it works. anyways you love him.
yamaguchi tadashi; will be super worried about what he could do to make it better, and kinda just tries to feed you as much positive energy as he can. once he's comfortable with people, he becomes really chatty, so i see him talking your ear off with the biggest smile on his face that you have no choice but to kind of ? mimic it? he just radiates goodness and sweetness that it shifts your own energy. he on some witchcraft shit on god. anyways when he walks you home or something, he'll just stop for a min and avoid your eyes when he says "ik u dont feel the best, but i dont want you to have to hide that from me, okay?" stan tadashi <3
nekoma ━━
kuroo tetsurō; drops everything. i mean it. i genuinely think kuroo would be such a good boyfriend that he'll sense it and text u as ur getting ready for school and be like "are u sad i feel like ur sad". you dont really wanna worry him and you'll just reassure him ur fine but he's already at your front door in — not his school uniform. insists the two of you take the day off saying "its fine babe im super smart". you two will spend the whole day just simply existing, talking when needed, he listens to you if you vent, and tries to come up with as many options of solutions for you so you don't feel weighed down. he'll make sure you eat even if you don't have an appetite, and will try to make u do something productive bc in a lotta cases, it could help you feel a lil better yk :)
kozume kenma; i pretend i do not see it — kozume kenma (2020). jbwjwks im jk. he's like tsukki in the sense that he will never address it, and he doesn't outwardly approach you about it. if it's just an off day for you, and you also happen to not have school, you'll go over to his house, hoping to feel a little bit better when you see him. "can i have a kiss, sunshine" to which he responds "why." you just go "im sad" and he gives u a big smooch. he'll have you lay on his lap while he plays his games, occasionally just sneaking in a peak at you to make sure you're okay. he'll ask if you wanna play to get your mind off things for a while. eventually, when things wind down a bit, he'll just mutter "yk i love you, yeah?" and that lights up your world hehe
haiba lev; as soon as he notices you're sad he just ☹️. he picks out a small flower and as soon as he sees you, he just tucks it by your ear, and smile so brightly and youll just be like "oh my god lev please stop being so cute". he won't really know what to do tbh, but the way he's so lost makes it so heartwarming and it honestly cheers you up all on its own. he just. "would a kiss make it better" and if you nod he'll just start kissing all over your face so softly, until he finally kisses your lips. when he pulls away he asks "again?" with a cute smile and if you nod he'll just kiss you over and over again. very simple way of cheering you up, and very foolproof tbh.
yaku morisuke; i think throughout the day, he might pester you a little bit about telling him what was wrong, but after you keep insisting you're fine, he relents, and decides that maybe giving you your own time and space to open up to him is better. he tries not to act differently in that sense, but he finds himself being a little more soft spoken, and gentler with you. i just had this image flash in my brain of you resting your head on a desk, head turned to the right, and then yaku comes and sits to your right, putting his head on the desk and facing you. and just. "hi :)" your heart melts. he kisses your forehead softly and tells you you're wonderful, in case you've forgotten. if, or when, you do open up to him, he'll be very eager to listen, and ready to fight off whoever upset you.
yamamoto taketora; this man is angry. like properly. "who the FUCK put a frown on my baby's face. speak the fuck up. i won't hurt you. ill just mutilate you." if you tell him that it's no one, and that you're just upset, he'll be so confused but he'll just nod and be like "okay. okay. do you want a hug?" and he'll hug you so tight. he'll admit that he doesn't like seeing you like this, and that he'll do anything to make it better. at first he's very cautious, but then he just lightbulb moment and as soon as you get home he'll be like "karaoke night babyyyyy" and then. no more sad.
aoba johsai ━━
oikawa tōru; very. perceptive. he greets you normally, even if he notices something's off, because he won't want to worsen anything. you meet him right before he has practice after school, and he'll just cup your face, lifting them to brush at your hair, and you just sigh. "my baby's had a long day, yeah?" he'll be very gentle and careful with you, i'm sure. he gives you a kiss, smiling softly into it, and reassuring you that you're much too strong to let a single bad day destroy you like this. he meets you later that night with a lotta ice cream and you two just binge watch any reality show you could find, shit talking the actors together. he himself is terrible at talking about his feelings this dumbass >:( so he understands if you don't want to yk? will encourage u to vent it out though. expect terrible, makes no sense advice
iwaizumi hajime; he kinda like. gets mad? when you continue to be upset and not speak about it? he's not mad at you! he's just. mad. this is iwa okay. anyways. he won't bring it up mostly, only being slightly more affectionate, especially in his hand holding, which is super gentle already as it is. when he invites you over, that's when he actually starts to talk to you about it. he lets you know that there's nothing worse than seeing you like this and not knowing what to do, and that he wants you to be able to talk to him. about anything. even if you think it's stupid. he'll listen, and tell you that it's not stupid if it's making you upset. he cooks for you <33333 then bakes with you <33333 you feel a lot lighter at the end of the night tbh
hanamaki takahiro; (he's so annoying i love him). as soon as he sees you upset he makes it his mission throughout the day to cheer you up in any possible way. spams your phone while you're class with ten thousand wholesome memes. sends you pick up lines. when he meets you in between classes he just yells out "how's my favorite person in the entire world!" and kisses you so wholly in the middle of the school hallway lmfao. while he's walking you home, takes a longer route and purposely, he passes by your favorite store/bakery/ice cream parlor. buys u ur favorite, and pretends to be shocked when you give him a piece. late at night, he'll facetime you, wondering how you're feeling, asking if you needed to talk about it. whether you do or you don't, you two will fall asleep facetiming.
matsukawa issei; the minute he sees you he's like "whats wrong". no hi or anything. he has like this frown on his face, which seems off bc it's rare to see a frown on issei's face, and he just tucks your chin in his palm gently and stares at your pout. "you good, baby?" he can tell you're not, but he wants you to be able to tell him on your own. sticks by your side the entire day, and nobody really mentions it. he talks to you as if it were a normal day, but his voice has a softer edge. he's not distracting you, per se. he's more, talking to fill the space while giving you your own space to think. once you're alone, he'll just drag you to the nearest comfy surface, flop down, and pull you on top of him. if you even try to resist or ask whats going on he'll just "nap and cuddles first." and when u sleep a lil bit of ur sadness away, he'll just let you talk it out as he continues to hold you <333
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bokuto kōtarō; just as empathetic as asahi, if not more. he really does feel it all with you. yk sympathy pains that partners get when women get contractions? bokuto is that partner. with bokuto, i feel like he'd never make you feel like you couldn't just straight up text him "im sad" and feel bad about it. if you ever do that, he'll immediately call, not even bothering with a text. if he can't come over, he stays with you until you've cried your heart out and then laughing until you can't breathe. if he can go over, he smothers you with love. repeatedly says "you know i love you, yeah? you know how grateful i am for you?" and in between kisses "im so lucky. so, so lucky."
akaashi keiji; i feel like as soon as akaashi notices you're down, or you're slightly off, he just grabs your hand and squeezes, forcing you to stop spacing out and focus on him for a second. if you're with a lot of people around you, he'll lean close to you and ask if you wanna go home. he'll be so soft and gentle and understanding, making up some excuse on the spot on why the two of you have to leave. if you're alone, he'll grab your hand and kind of tug you towards him, silently asking you to come into his arms, where you yourself know you feel safest. as soon as you're in the comfort of your home together, he'll like run you a bath and slip into it with you, just holding you until the water grows cold and the droplets on your skin are from your own tears. he'll wait it out, just holding you as reassurance, then make sure nothing's stopping you from spilling everything to him.
konoha akinori; when he first notices, he kinda deflates. like. who would wanna see their s/o like that? his smile is gentler when he greets you, and he's so soft with you. he grabs a pen and lifts your palm up, quickly scribbling down in his unique handwriting "i love you :) <3" on your skin, whispering for you not to wash it off until the end of the day. it is weirdly motivating tbh. as soon as the two of you are alone, he says it to you, face to face, an expected look on his face as if to ask "you know that, yeah?". puts on a movie to tune out the rest of the world, and holds you close to him as it drags on. he'll give advice if you're asking for it, but he's a better listener than anything else.
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ushijima wakatoshi; does not notice. in all honesty, he expects you to approach him whenever you have an issue or if you're upset. he's kinda like ? so confused when you're so down and really unresponsive, until he starts to notice how touchy you are. like you're leaning more into his touch, holding onto his hand like it's your lifeline, stealing his vbc jacket because it smells like him. is very straightforward, and will just ask you if you're okay as he walks/drives you home. kinda just stops in front of your house and presses a kiss to your forehead, then pulling you into a hug. "please don't be upset." he won't tell you that it kills him, but you can sense the unsaid words. he urges you to keep his jacket when he notices how safe it makes you feel. greets you the next morning with a new cactus in a pot hehe.
semi eita; is very cuddly once he notices. you'll sit at a table in school and he'll be sitting next to you, but he just pulls you into him and lets you rest your head on his chest, mumbling softly into your hair "i know you're sad and it's okay." he doesn't say anything else, just holds you there with a few kisses in between until he has to let go. late at night, if your thoughts are still keeping you up, he'll be up too, worrying, and will text you at 3 am if u wanna sneak out to meet him. takes you to the park and lays on the grass with you, picking out stars and constellations in the sky, with a soft soundtrack playing from his phone next to the two of you. he makes you feel secure enough to be sad even if you have all the blessings in the world, and makes sure you know that he'll always be there for you, even at 3 in the morning.
satori tendō; cheers you up by making you forget literally everything. replaces the sadness in your brain with just pure serotonin in any way he can think of. he'll take you to an amusement park, get ice cream with you, take you to the carnival in town, to the park, to the beach, to the pool, take you up to his house's rooftop. literally anything. and then he'll say something like "life's too short to spend it being sad over anything, darling." he's so understanding, and if you're frustrated or something he'll tell you to let it out by like wrestling him or some shit. exhausts you so much and you're filled to the brim with dopamine. he makes sure you're always happy, never seeing a dull moment in your relationship with him.
goshiki tsutomu; freaks out. plain and simple lmfao. but once he like grounds himself, he just softly comes up to you and asks you if you wanna talk about it, or if there's anything he can do. if yes, he'll break his leg running to go do it. if no, he'll just sit with you in silence, leaning over to hold your hand, talking to you about volleyball and his aspirations and how well he's improving. he's better at distracting you than helping you face your issues, mainly because he stresses out about giving the wrong advice or somehow making you sadder. he'll take a lot of pictures of you together on snapchat random filters to try and cheer you up, then later on in the night he'll send them to you and be like "look how cute we are ugh what a power couple" i love this dorkhabsjsks
shirabu kenjirō; i think he definitely notices, but keeps it to himself. he’d maybe think he’s imagining things and that you’re okay, so he’d go about his day normally. he doesn’t see you after school, and that’s when he puts two and two together and realizes yeah maybe you are sad. so he texts you, and texts you, and texts you, and gets no reply, so he just. comes over. unannounced. uninvited. just straight vibes. he’s already ordered your favorite take out, and already settling in bed with you under the cover with the lights dimmed and some chick flick playing in the background. gives the b e s t advice because he’s so blunt. like he will tell you if you’re overreacting, but you’re still his s/o, so he’d like wince as he says it. that’s all the sympathy you’re getting <3 but his bluntness will shock you into laughing hehe
inarizaki ━━
miya atsumu; usually, with atsumu, you’re always experiencing loud days. your relationship is all fun and flirty and suave and cool. but when he notices you’re sad, he goes quiet. like. eerily so. immediately pulls you aside somewhere private if you’re at a public place like school or something, and with his hands in yours he asks you if you’re okay. yk that thing where ur on the verge of tears and someone asks you if you’re okay and you just burst. yeah <3. his heart absolutely breaks and he just pulls you into a hug, resting your head on his chest and wrapping his arms around your neck. he just holds you there, even if you’re missing class/your friends are worried. he’ll stay with you until your tears have dried up, until you yourself let go.
miya osamu; i don’t see osamu as someone that loves pda. i feel like he’d be a more lowkey kinda guy. but if you’re sad, that gets thrown out the window. he doesn’t really in the moment, and won’t think too much when he pulls you close to his side and just wraps an arm around your waist/shoulder. yeah he’ll get looks but he can feel you trembling and shaking from holding back tears so yk, priorities. he’ll definitely stress eat with you. takes you literally anywhere and feeds you as you rant to him with tears streaming down your face and he’s just nodding sympathetically as he stuffs your mouth one bite after the other. romance is beautiful
suna rinatarō; when he notices you’re sad, his first response is alright what the fuck who messed up. he immediately blames someone else, and if he’s right, he’ll only get really agitated. just giving everyone the side eye from where you can’t see as he walks the two of you, your hand in his tight. if it’s not someone specific, he’ll just hum thoughtfully and then nod, before pulling you away somewhere private and just sitting you down and saying “talk.” very, very good listener. i can’t stress this enough. as you’re speaking he’s already thinking of a million different ways to help you solve your problem. walks with you as he traces your hands and just quietly tells you all the solutions.
aran ojiro; oh my god as a boyfriend he ticks all the boxes. he’s great at communicating, always satisfies your needs, is trustworthy and trusts you. the list goes on. immediately knows when you’re off/sad, and just smiles softly as he takes your hand, kissing your knuckles and saying, “let’s go home, yeah?” at home, he makes you some calming tea, probably pulls out some cookies or brownies or biscuits (that HE made but we’re not gonna get into that) and just listens as you talk, whether it’s about why you’re sad or just in general. gives you honest advice, but also a lil biased bc he loves you hehe <3
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this is very random but i was hoping maybe you could give some insight? i finally accepted that im lesbian but ive been calling myself bi for 5 years now and also realized that i used it to avoid women cause i was scared to admit that i found them attractive. now im admitting it and that i never really wanted anything to do with men but.....i have no idea how to romantically approach women loool like im so lost with it, i have no idea how queer culture or anything of the sort works cause ive avoided it as much as i could until now......how does this shit work, i feel like im reealizing things too late (even tho im only 22 ) and ive missed my chance to live a happy gay life ashfkfjkf even tho i know that sounds stupid. this sounds so dumb but i dont know how to be gay lmao
oh it's suuuuper normal don't even worry about it. it's why a lot of lgbt ppl feel like they have their coming of age moments much later. or they feel like they go through a second puberty of sorts where they rediscover sexuality and romance and love, through a lens they finally feel comfortable with, for the first time. also ur soooo young it's fine it's fine it's fine. you will be fine. i know it's frustrating and it feels kind of like stumbling through the dark TBH i'm kind of in the same boat so maybe everything i have to say on the matter is kind of stunted - but yeah it's honestly so natural. i think familiarizing yourself with queer culture and media is a good first step like movies, certain communities, tv shows, online spaces, books, music and artists etc etc. and also maybe learning a bit about lesbian history in ur country if it interests you! or not that's just an idea some ppl don't care LOL anyway. i recommend finding other lgbt ppl online too, it's really cathartic and fun and it's great to have friends who r on the same wave length as you like that, even just on the internet. THEN i guess the next step would be looking for gay/lgbt scene in ur area, if there is one, and maybe checking out a few gay bars or clubs with ur friends. or just look for any sort of communal activity that is popular w other lesbian and bi women specifically and kind of learn from there as you go through adjusting and observing. there's also sometimes these lgbt support groups to help ppl find each other/cope w hard situations that stem from being lgbt so maybe you could look into those? it sounds cheesy but there literally is no wrong way to be gay at all, it doesn't even have to be a whole thing if you don't want it to be. it's truly just an aspect of ur identity. and nobody knows how to flirt or talk to ppl at first, there's no script you need to follow with women just because theyre women or anything. they're not expecting you to know exactly what to do or say right off the bat, either. it's just about trying to genuinely connect w people when the opportunity presents itself, i reckon, and seeing where it goes from there. you could try lgbt/lesbian dating apps if u want, though they can be kind of intimidating - i always delete them every few months feeling like i have no idea how to talk to women, either. it is hard ngl like it's a weird world to navigate especially when you're new to it and it's normal to feel lost and a little strange about it so don't feel like ur some outlier who didn't get the memo! none of us did! we're all somewhat estranged from each other, even ppl who grew up out and proud. just the fact that you're finally in a place of self acceptance is a really good sign and there is no set trajectory for this sort of thing at all, where you have to measure yourself up against everyone elses time scale and journey and experiences. you're doing better than you think. baby steps into getting to know the lgbt culture and scene wherever you live is more than enough. no rush <3
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-ˏˋ & HE CALLS ME MOONLIGHT TOO ˊˎ-
♡ gn!reader x kageyama tobio
cw: fluff, romance, slice of life, awkward!kageyama and reader, timeskip!au
synopsis: kageyama tobio hates feeling vulnerable. however, with you, he learns vulnerability probably isn’t as bad as he perceives
wc: 650+
notes from mei!
ariana singing moonlight under the moon will never not make me feel 🪐🪐🪐🤯🤯🤯
and um just found out it’s kags birthday like ten minutes ago so this might b all over the place <///3 but happy bday kags im kinda obsessed with u
there’s something about you.
when you’re asleep on the couch with some lame tv show becoming white noise in his ears, kageyama can’t help but feel like he’s known you long before he met you in his first year of high school.
he hears you yawn.
his head turns to you stretching like a cat. tobio almost laughs, finding the scene endearing. you meet his eyes and smile sleepily, “hi.”
“hey.” he mumbles back, “sleep well?”
you arch a brow at his subtle teasing, before rolling your eyes and sitting up.
there. his heart begins to beat a little faster for no reason. you’re speaking; he can see your mouth moving but the only thing he hears is his heartbeat. his hands begin to feel sweaty and kageyama realizes he’s nervous.
it’s strange; he hates it. he’s never nervous.
but you feel so familiar. you are familiar. so there’s no reason to be nervous.
his eyes trail to that ten centimeter distance between you both.. he suddenly wants to close in on it.
kageyama was never a lust-driven fool. he’s aware his self-control isn’t all that bad. but, perhaps, it’s because of the late hours of the night, and your messy hair and your still not fully-awake smile, that his self-control feels as though it’s crumbling to pieces.
“what’s on your mind? you’re so deep in thought that you look constipated.”
he’s glaring at you now. so you laugh, putting your hands up in defense.
“you’re making me feel weird.” he states bluntly. if this were any other day, you would look at him like he’s a weirdo (not that he isn’t). but right now, with his cheeks the colour of tomatoes and his brows furrowing like he’s deep in thought, you find that your heart is starting to beat faster.
you laugh airily in fascinated disbelief, turning your body to face him fully.
“what’s so funny?”
“do you like me, kageyama?” you question instead if replying to his, knowing that if you don’t say it bluntly, he might never understand.
not once has he been the best at handling feelings for others, tobio finds it weird. he finds that when he likes someone, he feels more exposed. and he knows that he isn’t fond of it.
so he has a habit of looking in the other direction. yet, he stares into your eyes a bit longer, and for a moment he looks like a troubled high schooler.
(the silence is agonizing, but you can’t help but stay patient).
“yeah. do you like me?” he affirms with a nod and now red ears.
you smile a bit wider and nod. “yeah. i do. not in the friend-kind-of-way, though.”
kageyama nods, a bit frantically, as he leans on his arm to move closer to you. you want to shrink under his gaze, then you realize he’s staring at your lips.
taking the first step, you lean in a bit closer. you meet his gaze right when you can feel his breath on your lips.
and then he pushes his lips to yours. gently and carefully, it begins, but desire starts to cloud his mind at the first taste (of you). so he pulls away, pressing his forehead to yours.
your breaths mingle as you meet his eyes. he’s smiling; genuine and soft.
kageyama’s character is naturally cold and prickly, but with you, all his edges seem to be smoothing out.
“mine,” he breathes, thinking his words are only being spoken in his head.
possessive asshole, you think, smiling. he pulls away completely.
“c’mere, moonlight.” he says, beckoning you to close that stupid ten centimeter gap between you both.
so you crawl over and awkwardly lean into him. kageyama is stiff, but after a few minutes of mindlessly staring at that dumb tv show still playing, he relaxes, and so do you.
“moonlight.” he whispers it so quietly to wonder if it’s all in your head. humming, you look at him, and tobio swears that if love is actually a thing, this has to be it.
he kisses your forehead. “nothing. look at the tv.”
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please tell me what aspd is like for you since you're diagnosed? ive had a life time of antisocial (illegal/violent/aggressive) behaviour, im incapable of feeling love and i really lack affective empathy. im becoming 18 in a few months and it's not getting better so atm i think my personality is legitimately disordered but i don't know anyone who has it irl to ask questions
so there's a really good breakdown i saw recently of the core disordered thought processes and internal logic that guide aspd that I thought really hit the nail on the head so I'd absolutely suggest giving it a read here
as for my own personal experience, for me the biggest factors were my aggressive and violent behavior, my pervasive and obsessive need for control over both myself and others, and my lack of remorse and inability to conceptualize the feelings of others.
ive talked a lot about my anger issues in the past so if u want more info on that just go thru my aspd tag here
but my aspd now vs my aspd when I was in my early 20s is very different. ive done a lot of work in trauma recovery and it has drastically improved my ability to cognitively empathize with others, love and form bonds. it is a myth that antisocial ppl cannot experience genuine love and care for others, we just have a much harder time with it.
im much more social now and ive learned to become much better about not only recognizing the emotions of others, but caring about them as well. tho i still don't like the company of many people and am easily irritated and put off by others so i do spend the majority of my time either alone or in the company of 2 or 3 select ppl. I can also still be very callous and I tend to speak "out of turn" a lot. I dont really notice when something ive said could be considered upsetting or insulting usually until after ive said it. peoplw often describe me as harsh and say that im very blunt and straightforward. i dont give much thought to making my words soft or kind and whether or not I care about hurting others feelings depends completely on if the person in question is someone I like or not. I genuinely do not feel any negative emotions from hurting the feelings of people I dont deem worth my care or who I dont like and enjoy even to this day. so while my ability to care for others has definitely increased, its still well below nuerotypical thresholds.
this was much worse when I was younger and it was almost impossible for me to form genuine close attachments with others. i was paranoid and distrustful of people by default, I didn't care about peoples feelings and was extreamly self focused and defensive. if I didn't personally find it upsetting or if it didn't go against the morals I had set for myself, I just did not care. I still don't care about most things or people and when I dont care it feels like genuine torture to have to pretend to do so or to perform an emotion im not having for the sake of appearing normal
I also viewed all social interaction as inherently manipulative. people were not their own unique individuals, they were pawns for me to use for my own personal gain and interacting with them was a chess match to "win" what i wanted from them. I never considered their feelings wants or motivations and cared only about myself and my wants.
anhedonia has also been a big persistent symptom for me. its been very difficult for me to cultivate happiness and find things that both keep my attention and make me feel positive emotions. when I was younger this was also much more difficult and I would partake in increasingly risky behaviors in order to feel emotions because I could only experience them if they were at extremes. this led to things like breaking the law, self harming, doing lots and lots of drugs ect. anything I could do to dump as much adrenaline into my brain as possible in order to feel anything other than a pervasive numbness.
I still struggle with this but again to a much lesser degree. I still absolutely do drugs and struggle to find meaning and purpose with my life and am just kinda floating thru it, but most of my days are positive and im able to find hobbies that make me happy a lot easier
those are most of the big things for me, tho there is a lot more. but honestly working on trauma recovery helped SO much with most of my symptoms. unpacking the disordered ways I was taught to live and the abusive mindsets I was raised under help me understand the world around me better and view it through a more positive lense. also being surrounded by people who did genuinely care for me and whose company I found enjoyable. its very hard to care for people who clearly don't care for u.
I hope that was at least a little helpful but feel free to ask anything else if u have more specific questions!
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im so happy you are in a place like that with yourself <3 it must've been very hard to get where u are today. I hope it's okay if i share my feelings with you cause it has been bothering me lately :/ you don't have to read or answer this!!!!!
i have been experiencing worse and worse dysphoria for a few months, and i have no idea if it's gender or body dysphoria, and i think it might all be linked to mental problems of mine and overall not being satisfied with myself as a person. I will be seeing a therapist soon thankfully, but it's so frustrating to figure this out. I know many people don't have that option, which is heartbreaking... What has been advised to me and what I'm trying to do is experimenting with how i present, seeing what feels comfortable for me, what doesn't etc. And really just trying not to push these feelings under the rug until i know what they mean, instead just try to accept them.
I hope you're only going to get better, and i wish you luck on your journey <3 sorry for venting on u, i just don't really have anyone to talk to at the moment, i hope i didn't bother you
Hi! I wanna start off saying you absolutely didn't bother me it's alright! No need to apologize ^0^ I'm so happy for u for being able to see a therapist and being open to change!! That's super good and I'm proud of you! I'm gonna type a lot under the cut !!
I think alot my dysphoria,body and gender wise, did absolutely stem from a place of discomfort with my own self! Like not being satisfied with myself as a person. Learning to accept yourself n grow, and learning to love/accept all the bits I was ashamed of and growing past that has definitely helped. And by no means am I perfect at it. Like don't get me wrong I still have those days,weeks,months! But I just think it's part of learning to grow up and living your life for you yknow? I'm still young, I still have time to work through this shit. I don't want to be miserable anymore, after suffering for so long. I think I've just got a different way of processing yknow? I think I've tough loved myself bc like. I can't lay down and die yknow? I can't just give up and say it's too hard or too much. I have to try, even if it's a small inch a day. I might not even make the full inch in a day! But the point Is I'm actively trying. I wanna better myself for the people I have around me and the people who need me.
You're absolutely right in not pushing those feelings down and under the rug btw! That's exactly what I'm tryna get at. Addressing your feelings n the things you experience can only help you in the healing process even if it hurts!
I genuinely wish the best for you anon :] I'm sending all my luck n love n well wishes for you on your journey too!! If you ever need anything feel free to drop by bc I don't mind at all ^-^ admitting your emotions and having the courage to talk about them will never be bothersome, not to me!
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things i loved about the new sanders aside
-thomas: oh yeah the sanders asides will be really short lil mini-episodes
sanders aside #1: *is fully 20 minutes long*
fanders: *are blessed*
-all the fanfic writers are now canonically correct about logan being really good at helping virgil calm down when he’s panicking and i adore it
-vIRGILS REACTION TO DECEIT WAS GREAT AND ALSO HEARTBREAKING LEAVE VIRGIL ALONE PLEASE
-remus no
-tHOMAS WRITING FROZEN FANFIC
-rOMAN EGGING THOMAS INTO WRITING FROZEN FANFIC
-rOMAN’S ONESIE
-VIRGIL’S ONESIE
-LOGAN’S LOVE FOR HIS SECRET ONESIE
-the weird viking bit at the start?????? incredible.“rEEXAMINE YOUR CULTURAL BIASES!!!!”
-roman BLATANTLY rigging the vote and everyone letting him get away with it anyway bc they love him <3
-baby Anna: I lOVE YOU, Olaf!!!!!!
Patton, tearing up: i aLSO LOVE YOU, OLAF!!!!!!!!!!!
-the genuine UTTER JOY in each Side’s voice when they all chorus “JOAN!!!!!!” ????? they love thomas’s friends so much????????? i cannot Handle this???????????
-Logan having iced coffee and then making a face every time he sips it (and also it still being almost entirely full at the end of the whole movie) which like Definitely implies that he hates coffee but thinks he should drink it for the Aesthetic (also Logan why are you intaking caffeine in the evening you should know better stop that ur doing the “self care for everyone else and not me” thing u deserve love)
-“Nope nope I’m an adult that’s not funny”
-remus no
-“The ONLY explanation for it is that that’s just his Evil Plotting Face™️”
side note dOES THIS MEAN ROMAN HASNT SEEN THAT ONE TUMBLR POST SAYING THE TROLLS ARE EVIL???????
-“AW MAN YEEEAAAAAHHHH IM SO F*CKED UP ON CHOCOLATE FONDUE I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT IM SAYING ANYMORE”
-also Roman cursed so much in this episode omg
-i love that roman is now canonically That Person who makes snarky comments throughout the entire film while everyone else is trying to enjoy it but will also wax poetic about its virtues at you for 8 hours if you make the slightest critique, it’s so annoying and extra and relatable and very him
-Roman pointing out the footprints behind Elsa as she sings that there’s “not a footprint to be seen” and Logan’s shock and horror and agreement as he realizes roman’s point (also SAME HA IM SO GLAD THEY POINTED THAT OUT IT’S ALWAYS BUGGED ME)
-vague Angsty Patton Hints as he sings along to “don’t let them in, don’t let them see”??????
-“she really shouldn’t let go of any more of her clothing, that’s for sure..... she’ll,, freeze to death” Logan your Gay is showing that was a hastily constructed excuse of a reason, you of all people would definitely have immediately recognized that her ice powers in all likelihood make her completely immune to cold
-the WAY TOO EXTENDED metaphor about the bridge that at the end of a solid like 2 minutes or however long we learn Logan has been taking literally this whole time 😂😂😂
-Roman: “We need to make like Elsa and—“
Patton: “Let it go!”
Roman: “—Lie low in our kingdom of isolation, come ON Patton, don’t go for the low-hanging fruit!!” what a drama queen i love him
-Remus NO
-Logan being SO IRRITATED with Roman’s admittedly annoying movie-watching style 😂
-“Oh, sweet frank iero—“
-virgil: “Just think about it—“
thomas: “Like I have a choice!”
-the small detail of Logan not letting Virgil’s worried comments count for the “5 things you can see” etc and only counting the serious ones that he says <3 <3 <3
-roman: “Yeah, just take it from frozen’s most inspirational song: Fixer Upper!!! [weird metaphor]”
thomas: “Thank you Roman, that’s.......barely applicable”
-Logan at the end revealing he was keeping a list of elsa’s powers
-“creating fabric from....... ice, I guess??????”
-patton’s “yeah, all checks out!!”
-logan’s further, incredibly detailed, analysis of what she could theoretically do with those powers
-Virgil’s “what if your soulmate was at the party” comment sending Roman into instant flustered gay panic
-Roman: WE’RE GONNA REWRITE FROZEN ONE!!!!!!
Logan: Oh!!!!! Are we gonna [fix it but in loganese]????
Roman: “no! .......yes. ........I don’t know what you’re asking?? WE’RE GONNA MAKE IT BETTER!!!”
-Roman, scoffing at the idea that anyone but him could create perfection: ‘Instant classic’ doesn’t mean ‘flawless flick!’
Logan, SO EAGER to be helpful and back roman up, what an adorable lil underappreciated nerd, i adore him: oH!!! It’s true!!!! Those two phrases are not synonymous!!!!!!1!
-“hans gets a PROPER Disney villain song” Roman r u sure u don’t have just a tiny crush on hans lol
-everything????? this was incredible i loved it send tweet
#sanders sides#sanders asides#thomas sanders#ts#tss#roman sanders#logan sanders#virgil sanders#patton sanders#remus sanders#deceit sanders#ts spoilers#fander#fanders#i loved this so much#sanders side#sanders aside#frozen#morality sanders#logic sanders#princey sanders#creativity sanders#anxiety sanders#thomas sanders sides
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( olivia holt, 23, she/her ) * hey, i’m looking for the office of ALICE ADAMS. they’re the EMPLOYEE who’s known around the office as THE MASK if that helps ? not to be a gossip, but i’ve heard that they’re ADAPTABLE but JADED, is that true ? i also heard that they’re the one who CATFISHED DAVID HASSELHOFF. anyways, here’s the coffee they ordered.
hi y’all !! i’m may ( 21 // est // she/her ) and i am super super pumped to be here !! i’m also very much writing this against my better judgment ya girl’s running on four hours of sleep and has the option to sleep more but......... is not tired ?? so i do apologize if my mind is secretly tired and makes this intro,,,, even worse than it would be fahouedn. on with the show !!
anyway anyway!! feel free to like this if u wld like 2 plot and i will hit u up!!
( also, for some vibes if you so choose to read, here’s the link to her playlist ! )
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QUICK FACTS:
full name: alice audrey adams
date of birth: october 26th, 1997
*will not perfectly reflect the zodiac big three below because that’s.... math.
zodiac big three: scorpio sun, virgo moon, taurus rising
gender & pronouns: cis woman & she/her
sexual orientation: bisexual
education: ged, bachelor’s degree in film — pratt institute
enneagram: 4w3
mbti: enfp
temperament: sanguine-melancholic
label: the mask
various inspirations: “nutshell” - alice in chains, “santa monica” - everclear, “polly” - nirvana, “jennifer’s body” - hole, “creep” - stone temple pilots, kate wallis ( cruel summer - shhhh ), heather davis ( crazy ex-girlfriend ), satana hellstrom ( marvel comics ), bojack horseman - without the amount of problematic ego ( bojack horseman ), eddie huang ( fresh off the boat ), the great britney spears evolution ( temporarily stopping at circus era )
BACKSTORY:
triggers in order: toxic family dynamic, grooming (nothing super in-depth), kidnapping (? like it was ‘willing’ but no. see next trigger for why), toxic “relationship” (and 11yr age gap w/ a 16y/o we hate it), straight-up captivity, very brief mention of suicide + heroin (very!)
*would like to quickly preface that this isn’t just Dark for the sake of being r/im14andthisisdeep but that’s for a later time
**(also! i have markers for where the grooming + Super Dark parts begin and end! -- also, the Super Dark part is all very public knowledge. had articles. media frenzy. first thing that comes up if you google her name)
*** also. if u need it then a tl;dr is below this section hfkldsa
alice audrey adams was born to the type of family that names all of their children alliterative names ( however, they sadly didn’t get their own kardashian-style show )... alexis adams (working name, utp if taken as a wc)... alfie allison adams (working name, utp if taken as a wc)... born to anna adams and allen adams... we hate it here.
as u can see... all of the kids were basically named after allen... they all had ‘al’ names.... extremely confusing
plot-twist: THAT’S the darkest part
the adams were very concerned with public image. as a family in the upper echelon, they simply had to be! a narcissist father, a distant mother, put in competition with her siblings — there was no truly healthy dynamic in the household. but they looked good. they went to church every sunday, a ‘wwjd’ sticker on the back of her mother’s car. they did just enough activities and took just enough trips together to get the image across. they threw parties. they attended parties. they were the picture perfect american family — they even had two cats in the yard! life used to be so hard!
of course, in reality, this all left ms alice quite the lonely gal. but don’t worry! she didn’t turn to hedonism! lord no! instead, she turned to other people. a lot of friendships — couldn’t tell if they were real or #fortheclout — but at a point, did it matter?
grooming tw: it all came to a screeching halt when she met luke johnson, the son of their neighbors. he came back from california to georgia to visit family, care for his ailing father. oh, he was a good man! sure, he was ‘somewhat’ older than her — 27 when she was 16 — but he was such a good, handsome young man! and they were all still calling him young man, after all.
alice ‘began’ a torrid affair with luke after about a month into his visit. although she saw no immediate wrong in it, he insisted she keep it a secret ‘for the time being’ — which really just made it all the more exciting! he made all the storm clouds that hovered disappear.
one day, the levee broke for alice (still figuring out what exactly happened because i don’t wanna go too dark since this is already extremely dark, but trust that it had something to do with her parents and was just enough to push her over the edge). convinced luke was the only safe person, she turned to him. knowing their small community would catch on and essentially exile him, he took that opportunity to convince her to go back to santa monica with him where they could ‘start anew’ after his father’s death.
there are a few details i plan on adding regarding like. how legality playing into it. but i may just reserve those for an official bio lhakfsdfj
**BEGINNING OF SUPER DARK** for a while, there was the question of whether they should consider it a kidnapping or not. she went with him willingly, but she was still underage (and… you know, that age difference… the power dynamic... gross y’all). the adams insisted that it was (bc it basically was lbr) — primarily because it would make them look far better — but the community still questioned the logistics and legalities of it all… ugh. did the police really wanna deal with that? ugh.
in any case, on the other side of us america, autumn was nearing. alice would have the very occasional inquiry over how school would work (very occasional! don’t worry, luke!), over the logistics of her new life… and, after receiving multiple calls from various friends (in addition to her siblings) that sounded genuine, began wondering… if she’d made the right choice. questions about him.
when she began bringing up the idea of going back — at least for the school year!! — he would continuously remind her that she was not old enough to buy herself a plane ticket (and he was not about to do that). she also couldn’t rent a car yet (and he certainly wouldn’t let her take (one of) his car(s)!). but most importantly? he loved her. and she loved him. (what a creep!)
so, for a hot second, it seemed like she was stuck. damn legalities!! damn love!! you know, until she texted her older sister back with all of the problems that only being 16... and “in love”.... caused. her sister offered to fly down, buy her a plane ticket, and fly back with her.
when luke saw this (with all the unrestricted access to her phone he had so he could block, delete, and manipulate as he pleased), he confronted her. things went awry. she wound up in his budding wine cellar (which he soon emptied, of course… those merlots :( ….). he messaged back and, as her, said it was actually all good!! luke had figured out the logistics and she could call whenever she wanted!!
and those calls became frequent! because she would pick up when luke held it up to her! because she was pretty sure luke would kill her if she didn’t!
she wasn’t sure how long it was until she was officially Found. it took what was ruled a suicide by luke, a shot to the head and heroin in his system, to finally get any authority’s attention. all she knew was that she went to santa monica in mid june and she stopped seeing regular daylight by late july. so some time in august to some time in april… **END OF SUPER DARK + GROOMING**
she was returned to georgia shortly after and everything was different. from herself to her friends. but everything was also the same. from her room to her family. it was all… teasing. she began going to therapy, but she really sucked at it?? so she just let her therapist rely on various articles that covered the event. because it had been a media circus. good enough, amirite??
she didn’t have the will or patience to put on that peppy facade she’d had before, but there were still a few things she found a smidge of joy in. music (although her taste had… slightly altered and wow! it’d been almost a year since she’d picked up that bass!), videography… just those small things, you know??
for the first half of the ~ 2014 fall semester ~, she attempted actual school. really was not working out. with, for probably the first and only time, her parents’ approval and understanding, she dropped out and studied for a ged -- shorter and self-led -- instead.
she passed with a pretty decent grade... but it’s been argued that she really shouldn’t have gotten into pratt institute (she was at least realistic and didn’t apply to, like… cornell), but she did. national news helps.
while in the concrete jungle where dreams are made of, she learned of masters. she submitted an application as a joke — because her grades sucked!!!!! — but guess who got a job?? oh, she could pretend it was because her selected portfolio was actually genuinely good… but, man… we all know…
fun fact: my uncle applied to harvard as a joke. some twenty-five years later, we still haven’t heard back :\
she… continues to suck. like… she kinda wants the place to eventually burn down?? figuratively speaking (or is it…) but ya, for all the monopolizing she has seen turn people Evil?? but the hell can she do about it… just gotta make sure she keeps her in-house videographer job… maybe she can do something about it when she like… is capable. fuaihoelwdjkn
she sees an in-house therapist and i’d say ‘good for her,’ but it was mandated l m a o
doesn’t talk about herself all that much!! but that might not matter for some people, yk?? ugh journalism <3
y’all im so bad at ending intros.
TL;DR:
(consult above trigger list): bright kid in a super rich and toxic family because obviously. everything they did was just to look good <3 also they all had ‘a’ names which is the biggest tragedy of all :( ‘fell in love’ when she was 16ys/o with a 27y/o who was visiting to care for his father in his final days. had a torrid affair. creep. creep (luke) basically made her ‘fall in love.’ she thought creep was the only safe person at one point and creep was like ‘wanna go back 2 santa monica w me?’ and she was like ‘yes.’ and everyone was like ‘was this kidnapping... we cant tell....’ then he became even more possessive when she started questioning him and some logistics. when she finally found a way she could go back to georgia for a spell, he was like ‘no u can go in my wine cellar btw i will be taking all of the wine out.’ he kept her there from august to april and... only reason he didnt keep keeping her was bc he was Caught so. back to georgia where the devil went down. everything was Worse. even the things that were the same. but hey, the sob story that landed her in the news plenty of times got her into a college she shouldn’t have gotten into and gave her a leg-up in a joke application for a job at masters (in-house videographer). really bad at doing her work but like... fuck the man i guess??
PERSONALITY + HEADCANONS:
has no time for Fake Nice (which, as a born southerner, she’s really good at sniffing out!). has no time for arrogance. kind of makes her at odds with the nyc upper class...
on that note, still got a lil bit of some georgia twang
she lets herself indulge in various vices, but has left a previous hedonist status. weed and alcohol are still pretty common, but everything else is kept at arm’s length.
also, while on that topic, she Does Not drink wine. being trapped in a cellar... kinda makes u averse. like. literally despises it. will go on autopilot and make it KNOWN if offered wine.
also ALSO while on that topic, after looking it up and seeing she fits the new york city requirements, she has a medical marijuana card <3 the one good thing, if u ask her, to come out of therapy/psychiatry <3 will not show it off unless absolutely NECESSARY bc then it gets personal or <3 will lie about why and say it’s like for epilepsy or sumn unless ur rolfe but <3 she has it <3
at odds with herself. enjoys the company of others, definitely has a history of being an extrovert, but has become very selective with the company she keeps.
VERY private person! has had enough public standing!
...has occasionally used her story to advance her tho bc it’s her national newsworthy tragic story and she can exploit it if she wants <3
when good charlotte said “i don’t wanna be in love”?? she felt that. her last ‘relationship’ ruined that for her <3 save her <3
used to be really into pop! bc pop is fun! she loved some britney (i mean... she still does... how can u not!)! but. her taste has changed drastically. rarely listens to pop. has traded britney for like.... hole and the like.
her parents didn’t use this as the basis for her name but,, 2 me,,, she’s named alice for a reason <3 gotta luv alice in chains <3
y’all i found a youtube comment on a video called ‘nirvana - half the man i used to be’ (the song was, in fact, ‘creep’ by stone temple pilots) and it’s <3 her music taste <3 click here for it <3
the above said, dresses like she’s in seattle in the early 90s.
her rumor is true btw she DID catfish david hasselhoff and she will proudly tell u. it’s her best accomplishment.
completely stopped talking to her parents and got cut-off a while back ago so now she’s livin like the Prols
which is how a rich kid one of my profs once advised referred to his classmates.... hilarity ensues.
the above in mind, her parents say she’s testing the waters as a ‘normal person’ to save face. they can’t have anyone knowing their family isn’t perfect <3
she has a pet turtle whom she named “dr. turtle,” although he’s constantly referred to as “doc” or “the doc.” he has his own youtube channel and tiktok account.
she has a wall full of evidence that courtney love did not kill kurt cobain... it makes sense, believe me.
became a vegetarian...... partially because it was different from her original life and a way to control something, partially because this commercial made her feel SO BAD.
literally her default mode is stoned like... a totally sober alice is rarer than a nessie sighting
when she was 18, before she could ‘hold her liquor’ as well as she can now, she got a lil too drunk and now has a portrait tattoo of courtney love on her forearm. but it was done well at least!!
kind of ironic considering her career, but RARELY posts on any social media site except twitter. after the media circus in 2014 and All Eyes On Her, she’s just..... so tired...... of ppl seeing her face and being like ‘omg ur that wine cellar bitch!’
(drugs tw) has become more and more Addicted to playing around with fate. j chill on a ledge, talkin to some pals, but deciding it’s a good idea to swing her legs on the wrong side of ledge? totally! mixing a lot of alcohol with opioids which she is not accustomed to? DEF!! (end tw)
more to come!!
CONNECTION IDEAS:
i have two (2) queued up!! but while we wait for them to post, i’ll just… link them over here: 1, 2
muse u <3 the other half of her subplot from the main <3
her older sister!
her younger sibling!
some of the basics!! you know: close pal, roommate, drug buddies (but she gotta hit them up), fwb, ons, frenemies, enemy
ppl who recognize her from the 2014 luke johnson articles and have either brought it up or,,,,,,, act Awkward™
cld be fun 2 just have like. a jam bud. someone who plays any instrument and they j. jam sometimes.
ppl she sells. some of her medical marijuana to. bc yk what weed may be legal in nyc now but,,,, she’s still found a way to be broke she will accept anything. and also it just became legalized THIS YEAR so!!
i have a budding wc page @ https://escxpiism.tumblr.com/wcs (and when i say budding, i MEAN budding) so feel free 2 check it out!!
more to come!!
#masters.intro#alice | intro !#this took me like....... 2hrs 2 write so i do indeed think my mind is fooling me and actually lagging behind.
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haikyuu boys & whether or not they would listen to 100 gecs
listen this is PURELY self indulgent i have no idea who will see this but those who do this was made for u
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KARASUNO
- right off the bat nishinoya & tanaka f*cking LOVE 100 gecs ;; before every single game they absolutely have to play hand crushed by a mallet bc it gets them super hype and ready to play any opponent.
- those boys for sure tried to put hinata onto 100 gecs, but as much as he wants to impress his upperclassmen, hinata just cannot get into it. he puts on a front when noya & tanaka play it before a game but he’s secretly scared of it
- tsukishima also likes to listen to 100 gecs but he would never listen out loud bc hes afraid noya & tanaka might hear him. he doesn’t really care what other people think of the actual music, but if THOSE two found out they would have a field day and tease him relentlessly or worse ,,,, try to talk to him about it
- yamaguchi heard the original ringtone through one of tsukki’s playlists and he actually liked it. so he tried listening to their other songs and was SO confused ,,, like he doesn’t really understand why tsukki or anyone would like their other songs when there’s way better coherent music
- daichi, suga, & asahi defintiely do not understand the appeal. suga is a lot more forgiving than the others and is glad it makes the other boys happy, but asahi and daichi literally die laughing when they see noya & tanaka headbanging to money machine
- lastly, kageyama absolutely HATES 100 gecs. his brain literally cannot comprehend why anybody would want to listen straight up autotune for an entire album. he heard noya & tanaka listening to i need help immediately and almost exploded with rage
SEIJOH
- matsukawa is the only one on the team who truly loves to leisurely listen to 100 gecs. when he saw that rico nasty did a collab with 100 gecs he almost cried
- hanamaki & kunimi started listening to them as a joke bc they wanted to make fun of mastukawa, but once they started they literally couldn’t stop. neither of them will admit it out loud & they both go on a private session to listen
- iwaizumi is a true 100 gecs neutral. absolutely has no opinion on them at all, but he doesnt mind the ringtone remix every once in a while. considers working out to them as a possibility
- oikawa is a pop top 40 guy to the core, so 100 gecs genuinely scares him. he had no idea music like this existed bc he only listens to shawn mendes, halsey, & ariana grande. he seriously thinks tame impala is too radical for him so 100 gecs is so far outside his comfort zone.
NEKOMA
- believe it or not, kenma is a day one fan. you wouldn’t really expect it, but he has watched every interview & listens to them at least once a day. his spotify top artist for 4 years in a row. u would never guess that his headphones are actually blaring stupid horse as he walks through the halls.
- speaking of stupid horse, kuroo saw the stupid horse dance trending on tik tok & (of course) learned it. he tried to show kenma this new band that he found. when kenma told him that he already knows about 100 gecs, kuroo didn’t believe him. he chooses to think that he’s the one that put kenma onto 100 gecs
- taketora started listening to 100 gecs after he hung out with noya & tanaka at the training camp. much like hinata, he puts on a front & pretends to like them in front of his homies, when in actuality he would rather be listening to a pretty indie girl with an angelic voice like clairo or something
- yaku & lev don’t really mind some of their songs, but they will never EVER play 100 gecs in their free time. lev is more willing to listen at a hangout or something, but yaku isn’t afraid to tell them to skip the song LMAOFDJSIFJ
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there u have it. i have been thinking about this for a few days now so im glad i finally got to get it off my chest <3
#haikyuu!!#HQ!!#haikyuu hcs#haikyuu!! headcanons#haikyuu headcanons#hq hcs#hq headers#haikyuu imagines#hq imagines#Nishinoya Yuu#tanaka ryuunosuke#hinata shouyou#tsukishima kei#yamaguchi tadashi#sawamura daichi#sugawara koushi#azumane asahi#kageyama tobio#haikyuu x reader#ooey writes!
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