FOAMING AT THE MOUTH BC OF ALL THE RECENT TOUYA-NII CONTENT YOU'VE BEEN FEEDING US!!!! i saw the anon who said inbred by ethel cain reminds them of touya-nii, and i got super excited! i'm a big ethel cain fan, and inbred is my absolute favorite song by her,, i always would think of your content when i listened to parts of it i wanted to make playlists for your fics if that's something you'd feel comfy with!

also! i finished hazbin! i'm literally having alastor brainrot >_< i went back and read all of your works for him after finishing the show!!

sending u love! drink lots of water and take care pf yourself! <3

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EEEEEE EHEHEHE ◟( ˃̶͈◡ ˂̶͈ )◞♡ i’m so glad you’re enjoying it!!!! i love writing him so, so much <333 oh my gOSH YES ABSOLUTELY YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY MAKE PLAYLISTS FOR MY FICS!!! omg i would be SO honoured if you did that!!!! i love music and i listen to it 90% of the time when i’m writing (i’ve rly been meaning to update my new spotify and share it with you guys but uGH the process of transferring over songs and starting all over again gives me anxiety LMAO) so i’m always looking for new music to listen to and i’d love to see what songs you think fit my works!! that would be so so awesome oh my goshhh <333

oh did you!!! HEHEHE welcome to the alastor love club ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡) he’s so ????? fucking sexy he makes me want to rip my tEETH out i dunno man i am feral for the deer man <3 i hope you enjoyed my pieces for him so far!!! i have an alastor smut piece coming maaaybe on monday??? sometime next week either way c: AH! thank u for the love bb i am sending u love back! enjoy ur weekend n stay safe! <3

Clarii, have you listened to the song favorite by isabel Larosa??? It's been feeding my touya-nii brain rot for days!!

i have heard it, yes!! i love that song!!! i totally see where ur coming from with the touya-nii vibes esp since we/reader is soooo eager to please him and be good for him, be his favourite lil baby <33

PLEASEEEEE DO MORE TOUYA NII you’re writing is sosososo beautiful, I cant help but reread!! <3 one of my favourites by you atm (it changes all the time lmao), is “i dont know where but she sends me”, it’s so emotional I love hm sm. Keep up the amazing work!!! Hope you’re having a lovely day :)

thank you!!! i’m so happy you enjoy it!! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ oooh yes!! personally, my favourite of my touya-nii pieces is i take my pills and i’m happy all the time hehe ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡) i will definitely continue to write him, i promise!! touya-nii is never going anywhere, you don’t have to worry about that <3 thank you thank you thank you!! i’m so grateful to have you here with me, thank you for reading my work! c: i hope u have an awesome weekend!

touya-nii is so jealous of everythingggg and you do such a good job writing it!!!! he also seems so needy >,<

aw hehe thank you so much!!! (ㅅ´ ˘ `) ♡ yes!! he is extremely jealous, extremely possessive, and extremely obsessive. this gives way to a peculiar type of clinginess; he needs to know where you are at all times, who you’re with, and when you’ll be returning. he wants all of your attention on HIM, yet he can be stingy with his own—he uses it as a currency for good (aka submissive/tightly controlled) behaviour: if you’re obedient, if you do as he says, he’ll reward you with attention in exchange. he uses it as an incentive, to entice you into complacency (which sometimes backfires, since your misbehaviour almost always garners his attention, even if it isn’t good attention). he can also be physically clingy, always needing a part of your body touching his; his hands on your waist or back or neck, your thigh slotted up against his own, tangled fingers a mess in his lap, etc. he just wants all of you, all the time—even when he tells you he doesn’t

NEW ILLUSTRATION

Kazutora is so pretty

He placed his mouth on her throat, kissing the words she could not utter. He seemed to divine where she wanted a kiss to fall next, what part of her body demanded to be warmed.

Anaïs Nin, from Delta of Venus

𝕳𝖊𝖓𝖗𝖞 𝖂𝖎𝖓𝖙𝖊𝖗

genuinely, earnestly, fervently losing my entire fucking mind over these negai no astro men!!!!!!!

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“Don’t forget to love her. The little girl you used to be. Perhaps She lies within you. Untucked. Sleeping peacefully.”

— “Nurture.” By Kiana Llanos (via arabarabarab)

Are you in pain?

was thinking of asking something similar but how would your Alastair translate into back then in his human form or I mean like how would be maintain his control with reader like through marriage or?????? I don’t know if that makes sense I’m sorry 😣

ooooh you mean like how would 1930s human alastor maintain his control over a reader during that time??? like how would he exert that same kind of ownership over them as he does to my readers in hell???

i dunno! that’s an interesting question!!! marriage is definitely an option that he might end up taking, just because a big pretty shiny ring on her finger sends a pretty clear message to anyone who sees her (but there’s a part of me that doesn’t ever see alastor as a marriage guy??? idk!!!) and replaces a collar nicely for the era. all-in-all though, i think his methods would probably be fairly similar to what i mentioned he does in hell with his precious lil pet. like he’d still be interested in her for the same reasons + expect the same things from her that he does in hell. i also think that even as a human, the only thing he can get off on is extreme sadism (so his human counterpart better be willing to allow him to slice them up!!).

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Wait im sorry clari im confused!!! So is reader just giving step enji attention to try and get touya niis attention and make him jealous?

sort of, yeah!!! here, i’m just going to quote my notes from when i was writing that piece to give u a little more insight into everything going on there:

⊹ touya knows this is disrespect; she’s acting out to hurt him, and even though he KNOWS this, it doesn’t make it hurt any less, even though he ends up giving her what she ultimately wants. it’s a little tangled and convoluted—touya’s pretty sure she does this just to piss him off, to provoke him and get a rise/reaction out of him, to gain his attention in any way, good or bad it doesn’t matter which. just ATTENTION in general. but there are genuine feelings to her love for their father, too, and there are genuine feelings on ENJI’s part, too, which pisses touya off even more because hello, this is HIS little sister. and it’s these genuine feelings from both reader and enji toward each other that leaves the tiniest sliver of truth to what she says and what she does, and that’s what ultimately hurts him the most. 

⊹ so, in other words: he’s angry because she’s doing this purely to disrespect him, and even tho he knows this he still can’t stop the hurt (an automatic, instinctual reaction he’ll never be able to soothe or stop); and he’s upset because there’s a shard of truth in it all and that’s rly what hurts the most. but knowing that his little sister will stoop this low to hurt him is painful as well—tho he supposes she learned from the best. he’d do the same, he’s such a hypocrite. still, obv he deserves more respect duh 

⊹ the obvious context of the fic is that she just likes running into enji’s arms and greeting him and it makes the rest of the family uncomfortable because it doesn’t exactly look or feel entirely innocent (this i want to SHOW through their interaction, tho). but the SUBTEXT is that she does this to piss touya off, because enji is really her only weapon against her eldest brother, but he’s also a foolproof weapon—he never fails to hurt touya, no matter what, and he always gets you what you ultimately want; attention from touya. (this should be hinted at in her comment about touya fuckin around with everyone)!

^^ these are my rough notes verbatim! their conversation after enji leaves is particularly important, because it shows where they’re both hurting; she mentions how touya sleeps around and he mentions how she’s all over daddy. reader boldly calling attention to exactly why touya is upset (with the jealousy bit), calling him out on his bullshit and explicitly hitting him exactly where it hurts, is the final nail in the coffin to her getting exactly what she wants (his attention!!). also, this piece obv is not set within my established touya-nii au. this is a different touya-nii entirely!

Clari ! I was listening to ethel cain today and her song Inbred (lol) is sooo touya-nii and reader ! I know you may not like it/listen to her because her music is similar to nicole dollanganger and I remember you saying somewhere that shes a lil triggering but! I just thought id share in case (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) ♡

gore pop!! (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) i can actually handle ethel cain a lot easier than i can handle nicole; there’s just something about nicole that hits so close to home, and i think it might be because we grew up so close to one another—she really captures the barren, desolate, absolutely eerie feeling of small-town ontario that’s so hard to explain if you didn’t grow up in small-town ontario AHAHA <3 ethel feels a little more removed from myself with her southern gothic type vibe n all that. i think they’re both absolutely phenomenal artists + lyricists though!!!

anYWAY enough of my rambling; i’ve heard inbred before and you’re literally 100% RIGHT it is so touya-nii. my favourite part is scumbag fuck but i swear that he’s not / he’s so good to me and to nobody else / so you should watch yourself because it’s just,,, it’s touya-nii and his little sister to a T. it’s he’s the best to me, he loves me so much, and he’ll fucking kill you <33

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Oh god Clarii, i had forgotten how much i love touya-nii🥺🥺 he has my whole heart!! I hope inspiration strikes and we get to see more of him, or the continuation to "are we having fun yet?"!!

HEHEHE ANON (ﾉ∀＼*) ur so cute!!! touya-nii misses you, too <33 i am definitely considering writing more in the adopted!touya-nii universe (especially since it’s so fun to have a reader that’s such a brat to him literally because she wants his attention; a stark difference from OG tnii’s reader) but you knowwwww you know i’ve literally always got a few different (step-bro) touya-nii pieces on the go ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡) i think i’ve got two started atm that have just been rotting away in my drafts for several months HAHAHA. either way, rest assured i will never leave him behind <3 i’ll always keep writing more for him and exploring my lil universe!!