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in the hour or so it took me to draw this op turned reblogs off

EDIT: reblogs are STAYING OFF. op was right and correct and i have never regretted making a post as much as this one. if you want to reblog my art you can reblog something else from my blog. or commission me, lord knows i deserve financial compensation for the nightmare this post has put me through

please be nice to me, i'm in my twenties. do you know what that does to a person

Would you like to find out what you would be the god of? Take my new uqiz to find out

Again, it’s fucking insane how the entire world is witnessing these war crimes first hand, yet none of these western governments seem to give a shit.

It’s like “Oh what’s that? The Israeli government is stopping civilians from receiving aid and healthcare? Huh, must be a day that ends in a y!”

Just…… fuck everything.

and separate from platonic feelings too. explain in the tags if you can obvi + feel free to specify if you're aspec! seeking out answers... reblog for reach...

i hate when people ask how i’m doing like.. horrible. next question

My problem is me. I can’t socialize for shit. All i do is self sabotage. There is something wrong with me that no one can fix.

I worked so hard to destroy myself, why would I get better?

This might seem like an "old man yells at cloud" situation, but it's just wild growing up and being told how dangerous distracted driving is - how, at highway speeds, you can traverse the length of a football field (100 yards, 91 meters) in a matter of seconds - how one split second sending a text while driving could result in a potential fatal crash, and then getting on the road as a driver and being surrounded by billboards. Their entire purpose is to catch one's attention, so they're lining major roads, which tend to be highways. How is it that you're told how important it is to never be distracted while driving, but still being advertised to?

At best, this type of advertising is an eyesore to pedestrians and motorists and a general waste of electricity to light it, and at worst, it is an active danger considering they are there to advertise and therefore, must catch people's attention.

I'm not even against advertising in theory, but this particular mode bothers me so much and I hate how pervasive it is - especially in large cities or highways.

I destroy myself to make me feel better but in the end I always feel worse.

POV You don't open up to people in real life, but you overshare on the internet for everyone to see.

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

Sometimes i look at my $elfharm scars and think “Damn it wasn’t even that deep”

i'm so useless, worthless and replaceable I should kms

soooo today's ep, huh QwQ