if you can can you write s comfort headcannon with fem or nb reader who hates themselves to the point they refuse to look at themselves in the mirror?? (Thinking about vil and/or malleus tbh but any characters are fine) feel free to refuse!
Vil and Malleus with an S/O who can't look at themselves in a mirror because of how they hate themselves
a/n: Thank you for sending in the request! I do love some good comfort with a side of angst so this was nice for me to write! If you're similar to the S/O in this story I do hope this could provide some form of comfort to you!
Warnings: Self deprecating speak(from S/O's end),
Gn!Reader
Characters: Vil Schoenheit (710 words), Malleus Draconia (
Vil Schoenheit
Ever since the two of you started dating, Vil has made sure he compliments you at least once a day.
Doesn’t matter the time he will once a day without fail give you at least one compliment.
From telling you your hair looks nice to you did good on a test.
It’s rare he repeats the same compliment once so you’re surprised with something new everyday.
In the Pomefiore dorm, not only are there mirrors in almost every room.
The floors and walls are polished so well that you could see yourself in it
And you hated it.
It was hard to find a room where you didn't have to feel your own reflection in the room with you.
Vil wouldn’t pick up on it immediately, but that doesn’t mean he wouldn’t pick up on it soon
After the first or second time though he’d notice how you would avoid the rooms with mirrors
Even the ones without you wouldn’t look at the shining tile floor.
When you would be in his room you wouldn’t even towards his vanity, and none of this sat right with him
Once or twice when he would re-enter a washroom you were just in he would see a towel draped over the mirror
After that he knew he couldn’t let this just dwindle forever, he’d have to bring it up to you.
What was going on in his darling sweet potatoes head to make them cover every reflective surface they see?
So Vil one day while he was helping you on a skin care routine, and you had insisted on keeping your back to the vanity across the room
Vil saw this as a good time as any to bring it up. He furrowed his brows with a small frown and looked at you,
“Sweet Potato.. Is there a reason you are so adamant on never looking in a mirror..?”
You could feel your breath hitch as his question left his lips.
you did tell him about your true thoughts the fact you couldn’t look at yourself because of the hate you felt towards yourself
About how you couldn’t bear the thought even.
Vil would listen and let you spill your heart out even if you cry.
He’d gladly hold you or touch you as you cried if you needed the comfort but won’t force you if not.
He knows this is a vulnerable moment for you and he doesn’t want to make it worse
Once you have spilled your feelings to him he’d look almost saddened by your confession.
“Oh darling… You’re beautiful… in every faction…”
He partly feels as if he hadn’t been telling you how he sees you as the most beautiful person in all of the Twisted Wonderland
He’d let you cry but he silently promises to himself that he would make sure you’d be able to look yourself in a mirror, and he’d help in anyway he could
How could his dear sweet potato see themselves as anything less than perfect?
After the confession from your end on how you felt about yourself Vil made sure that you knew he meant every words of his affirmations and complements
Vil would also work with you on looking in the mirror
He wouldn't push you to far as he understands that this whole process will take time
Every time you would enter his room if it was a bad day as much as he’d like to leave it uncovered, he would cover his vanity
He wouldn’t want to worsen your mood that's the last thing he’d want to do
If you’re able to look into the mirror at least once and be able to smile at yourself, even if it’s teary eyed and for only a moment
He will be so proud of you and he will make sure you know.
Wrapping his arms loosely around your neck and resting his forehead on your shoulder as he stood behind you, and you sat in the vanity chair.
That one look you were able to do and not have a look of disgust or disappointment was more than enough for him
“You’ve done so well sweet potato… I love you so much… so please love yourself as much as I do…”
Malleus Draconia
Luckily (or more like sadly given the situation) Malleus dorm doesn't have that many mirrors.
They mostly just have very large and tall windows that can be reflective once freshly cleaned
but for the most part it was easy to avoid your reflection when it came to that dorm at least
In Ramshackle though the mirror, even if dusty, still reflects your features well
So with the extra cloth you covered every mirror in the dorm.
Malleus I believe that Malleus prefers the atmosphere of the Ramshackle dorm
Not to mention his beloved child of man was there so what was not to love about the place you called home?
He never really noticed the lack of mirrors until one day he saw you hiding one that had been uncovered
Then he started to become curious
It had gotten so bad that the mirror in your room that according to Grim "They have really weird dreams about" was moved out of the room and into a spare.
Malleus tried to talk to you about it "Child of man? Why is it your dorm has such a lack of mirrors?"
You'd brush it off saying that a majority of the mirrors were far beyond broken
But if you thought he wouldn't see the way you became anxious at the question and answered as if you had rehearsed it
you'd be gravely mistaken
He'd then be acutely aware of how you acted around mirrors, how you'd do everything in your power not to face them
Every time he'd look back on the times he'd frown. Why couldn't his child of man face themselves?
He even did a bit of an investigation and found all mirrors intact and fine
so he brought it up to you one day during one of your late night walks you took
You had stumbled across a small lake but you didn't look at it's beautiful reflective surface
"My dear..? Why do you never look at yourself?"
The question was sudden and took you back with a twinge of fear making its way through you.
You looked aside ashamed and pressed your lips in a thin line as you mumbled a response the feeling of tears pricking at your eyes
Malleus was taken aback, how... how could you see yourself in such a light..?
The silence was deafening and Malleus slowly reached out to you grazing your arm with his fingers
You pulled away looking anywhere to avoid his sympathetic gaze
"My dear, you have helped so many, done feats no other could dream of, and all the while captured my heart... how can you see yourself as any less than brilliant..?"
His voice was laced with pain, how could he let this go on for so long and not do something?
Malleus then made a personal vow to himself, 'even if it takes an eternity, he will have you see yourself the same way he sees you'
He would stay by your side, if you show even the slightest bit of insecurity
"My dear have I told you how wonderful you look today?"
"You are doing so well, you should take a break!"
Similar like Vil his sayings and compliments he'd barely repeats and if he does another on is coming up right after to assure you there's plenty more he loves about you
He's now acutely aware of every little thing you say about yourself and if something is even slightly self deprecating, even if it's a joke..
"Don't say that, it was one test child of man, there are plenty more to come. All things considered you didn't do as bad as you may think, some people (he's talking about Ace and Deuce/hj) barely got anything right."
He's now your personal coach helping you in some subjects, slowly building your confidence
The one day on your walk you come across the same lake and you looked at the lake, at your own reflection.
Granted you were only pointing out some flowers floating on the water, but when you looked over at Malleus it was as if you had done a heroic act
even if you didn't bring attention to yourself, or it still hurt to do, in his eyes it was progress.
The last time you were here you couldn't look at the lake in fear of seeing yourself staring back at you
This was progress, progress the two of you had worked so hard to come to
He smiled and pulled you gently and mumbled a small string of words
"I'm so proud of you my dear..."
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Hioi! I hope you’re doing well. May I request romantic Vil Schoenheit headcanons with a reader who’s also an actor just like him just reader prefers to play villains unlike Vil.
🥀anon
vil schonenheit w/ an actor! reader who unlike him prefers to play the villain
a/n hihi! i’m doing well! ty for asking and for requesting again, my dear anon. i hope you enjoy \( ᐖ)/ (i'm also still taking requests for my halloween event in case anyone's interested; only 11/30 slots taken)
-vil and you met while filming a movie. for once vil was not chosen to play the role of a villain but the role of a hero; something he had always wanted and preferred over playing the antagonist. while you, you were chosen to play the role of the villain and opposite of him you adored playing the villain. but because of your innocent and sweet looks you were normally chosen to be the hero, the protagonist of the story.
-you reminded him of neige, your sweet looks, innocent smile, and that bright personality irritated him. but… seeing your enthusiasm for your role, he felt… conflicted? he didn’t understand how you would enjoy playing the villain, the one who always loses in the end with no glory or fame unlike the hero. but your enthusiasm, passion, and determination he saw throughout the filming made him feel something for you. he immediately knew what it was, but he didn’t want to believe it. you were basically neige after all just… different in a way.
-while you two were filming you often reached out to him, he is the vil schonenhit after all, often chatting about your roles and the story the movie is based on. you were really passionate about your role, having already read the book making you all the more enthusiastic about being the antagonist of the story, your favorite character. the two of you would go sit in the garden or in a small cafe chatting about the film while trying your best to avoid both of you guys fans.
-these small rendezvouses of yours slowly became more regular with more conversation not just about the film but about more day to day life. along with some deep conversations about characters and acting. which is where vil finds out why you prefer to play the villain and not the hero, whether that’s because you have fun with playing the villain or just simply love being the antagonist. he knows now, either laughing at the simplicity or thinking seriously at the complicated reason.
-then on one of the days the two of you decide to meet up at a garden, he would ask you out, very straightforwardly while offering you a rose; simply saying “will you go out with me?” you of course accepted and the two of you started dating. nothing really changed at first, you two were mostly normal, the only difference was that you two became more affectionate of course only behind closed doors, you can’t risk any of your fans finding out after all.
{twisted wonderland masterlist}
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