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fourraccoonsinacoat · 6 months

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Not sure if this is a hot take or not, but I'm going to say it. Astarion is more than his trauma and he doesn't need to be treated with kid gloves.

I say this as someone who relates hard with his backstory, and as someone who has heaps of C-PTSD from years of abuse.

I love his soft moments and absolutely think he deserves to be with someone who makes him feel safe, physically and emotionally. But, I also love that he's an asshole, is flippant, is egotistical, is rash and that he is flawed. It makes him into a fully realized person.

A person who, rather than being fixed, needs someone who will accept him and be patient with him. A person who, rather than needing a protector, needs someone who will give him a safe space to figure shit out and make mistakes.

As someone who struggles with sexual trauma and body autonomy issues, the way the fandom treats his character sometimes really makes me cringe. People with sexual trauma are still allowed to want and enjoy sex, whether it's with a longterm partner or a one-night stand. That's okay, just as long as it's their decision and they feel safe. People with sexual trauma are also allowed to be hot, and people shouldn't be made to feel guilty for thinking so.

Unless someone is being a creep, I'm always flattered when I'm complimented on my looks. It makes me feel good about myself and I'm not ashamed of that.

People with trauma are allowed to be strong, capable, successful and powerful. They are not damsels in constant need of soothing and saving. They are also allowed to be flawed, ignorant, rude and capable of making really dumb decisions. I've made plenty.

They are also allowed to be motivated by more than just their trauma.

Let's not take Astarion's autonomy away once again by making him into this fragile little lamb who is in constant need of hugs and soothing.

Let him be a sassy asshole who is capable of protecting himself and the people he cares about. Let him be more than just a damsel in distress and actually listen to him when he says he wants his autonomy.

Autonomy also means being seen as something more than a fragile babygirl in constant need of protecting.

#thank you for coming to my ted talk #i'll get off my soapbox now #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #baldur’s gate iii #baldur’s gate 3 #astarion #astarion bg3 #bg3 astarion #astarion romance #baldurs gate astarion #bg3 spoilers #astarion x dark urge #astarion x tav #trigger words

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ovaova · 9 months

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TW: Blood, suicide, cheating, etc

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“I told her…I told her that, I was pregnant….”

That’s when Bakugo froze.

His relaxed position against his desk became strict as his face started to morf into disbelieving shock.

“You what…” He hissed, looking at his assistant, Uraraka, as if she had grown two extra heads.

Uraraka stood there twiddling with her thumbs

“I told her that I was pregnant…and that it’s yours, I’m sorry-“

“No no no-“ He interrupted, pinching the bridge of his nose.

“You didn’t do that, you couldn’t have-”

Katsuki started to pace back and fourth as the panic started to creep in, causing Uraraka to start to buckle.

“I couldn’t hold it in anymore, okay!? Do you know how much guilt I’ve had since that night? Since I told you I was even pregnant? I can’t even look (y/n) in the eye! I can’t even talk to her like I used-“

“YOU DON’T THINK I FEEL GUILTY TOO? HUH? That’s my fuckin wife! Do you know how much I love her?? Let’s not forget, that all this was a goddamn mistake, all it took was one too many at a shitty award party..and now look at where the fuck I am-“ Katsuki groaned, his sentence being muffled at the end by him stuffing his face in his hands.

“Katsuki..”

“NO- do NOT call me that. DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU’VE DONE TO ME?? I should’ve listened to my first fuckin thought when it told me to tell you to get a goddamn abortion. But no, you just had to be so smitten by this mistake that I let you keep it...”

“SHUT UP- it’s not just my fault okay?! And it’s definitely not this baby’s fault that we both messed up! Look I know you love (y/n) okay? That’s why I HAD to tell her, it’s unfair to her to be living a lie when her husband has a whole child!”

Katsuki didn’t even say anything, he just grabbed his coat and keys before storming out the office.

“Where are you going?!”

“I’m going home, from now on, don’t call me, don’t text me, don’t come near me. You’re ducking fired and I don’t want you near me OR (y/n) for the rest of your goddamn life- have the child or not but don’t come to me.”

And with that he left, slamming the door leaving Uraraka more then stunned and shocked. But what did she expect?

She had ruined something good…

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He was going way over the speed limit but he didn’t care, all he cared about was getting home to you

“The number you have dialed cannot be reached, please try again..” His car spoke to him, he had constantly been trying to call you.

His heart sunk but he couldn’t do anything but just press on

Eventually, after what felt like a millennium, he finally made it home.

He didn’t even try to park right, he just pulled up and ran for the front door.

After quickly unlocking it, he entered and immediately noticed that the whole house was off.

Non of your music was playing in the background, the smell of your delicious food didn’t greet his nose, not even the background sound of your favorite show played on the living room tv…

It was just silence…

He slowly tipped around the house in search for you

“Baby? Where are you? (Y/n)?”

It wasn’t until he made his way to the bathroom, where he finally got his answer

His body stilled in horror as he saw you in a bloody stained tub fully undressed as if you were just taking a bath.

Your wrist oozing and pouring out crimson red as your eyes remained shut

He immediately rushed to your side, engulfing your body into his as he held you dear, your blood immediately staining his work suit

Tears automatically swelled in his eyes and he started to rock you back and fourth with his left while his right hand shook as he dialed 119

“Hello, 119 what’s the emergency..”

He knew he sounded like mush trying to explain everything at once while also being in shock and sorrow but he couldn’t help it…it was over.

Katsuki was your husband…

YOU wanted kids…

YOU trusted him…

YOU were supposed to be the only one to touch him…

YOU loved him so much…

But if another had woman already took everything that was supposed to be yours…

What was the point of staying anyway…

#bakugo #mha fanfiction #katsuki bakugo mha #fiction #mha smut #dad bakugo x reader #bakugo x reader lemon #katsuki x reader smut #kirishima x reader smut #original post #trigger words

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aqua0pan · 1 month

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Waking up | Wriothesley

Trigger warning: Somnophilia, sex while asleep, smut/nsfw, pet names, unprotected sex, overstimulation, fingering

To my Masterlist

Sleeping calmly next to your lover, your boyfriend, was already like a habit. You can’t go to sleep without him. Every night you two would cuddle in bed, enjoying each others company.

This night is no exception. Right now, you pressed your head against his chest, listening to his heart beat and falling asleep.

Wirothesley had so much trouble at work today, he needed to get everything off his mind. Your sleeping figure next to him, warming him, made him crazy.

Besides, it’s been a while since you two were intimate so it’s understandable if he’d do it, right? Wirothesley waited for you to be fast asleep before he lays you straight on the bed under him.

Your body shivered when he pulled off the blanket, revealing you in one of his shirts that was way too big for you. You were about to crawl yourself into a ball when your lover stopped you, holding your tights.

He himself just wore a pair of boxershorts, his cock already pressing against the fabric. Wriothsley hovered over your sleeping form, listening to your soft snores as he placed kissed over your neck.

His hands slowly rubbing your tights, going up to your clothed sex. "Such a slutty girl, only sleeping with your panties and my shirt..“ He murres and smirked to himself, rubbing over your panties.

Unknowns to him, you were dreaming about the same situation, only difference is that you were doing things in your lovers sleep. "You’re so wet. I wonder what you’re dreaming, sweetheart…“

Feeling a wet spot on your underwear, Wriothesley pulled them down your legs with care, not wanting to wake you up so soon. His hands found their way under your shirt, grabbing and massaging your tits and play with your hard and pink nipples.

You groaned quietly, pressed and rub your tights together. Wriothesley wondered why you could still sleep so peaceful, his hands all over your body . Your lover stared at your wet pussy, all puffy and pink.

He groaned again, pulled his boxers down and his long and hard cock sprang out, almost touching his stomach. The Duke leaned over you again, both his arms on either side of your head while his cock slightly touches your stomach, making him moan.

He couldn’t help but to press his tip against your lower lips, enjoying how your juices smears around. "Oh my sweet baby… you’re going to love it..", he panted and started to rub your pussy slowly.

You whimpered, reacting to his slight touches on your lower part, unbeknownst what’s going on right now. Your eyes twitched for a seconds, making the man over you stop in his tracks.

After he made sure you’re not opening your beautiful eyes, he continue to play with your body. Wriothesley gently pushed his index and middle finger inside your wet hole, clenching around his fingers tight. Moanes and cries escaped your mouth, getting fingered.

He curls his fingers inside you, moving them to reach your deepest spots, making you whine. Your body moved automatically with his movements, your hips moving back and forth.

"Good girl… such a filthy little slut even asleep…", your boyfriend whispered and pulled his fingers outside, making you cry out again. With his fingers dripping wet from your juices, he puts them inside your mouth, shoving it down your throat.

He placed himself between your spreading legs, positioning himself at your entrance and pushing it inside your empty hole, making you moan over his fingers. With his other hand, he held your tight, not wanting to move yet.

Inch by inch, he started how his cock disappeared in your dripping hole. You hissed, being stretched out by his damn big cock. He stopped when he hit your womb, not even fully inside now.

"Such a beautiful girl you are. Let me taste you too", he grunted, your pussy clamping over him tightly, his mind going crazy. Wriothesley almost forgot how tight your cunt is and how good it feels to be inside you.

The duke pulls his fingers out and immediately kissed you, his tongue entering your sweet mouth. "Hmmm…“ quiet moans escaped both of your lips. "Fuck… I can’t hold back any longer…“ Wriothesley mumbled after he pulled his back away, staring to thrust inside you slowly.

"How can you still be asleep?… Your gummy walls are clenching around me so tight…“ With time, his thrust become more forceful and his pace sped up.

Wriothesley grabbed your tights and spread your legs even wider for him to go deeper. His balls hit your ass with every thrust he makes and the bed started to shake with his forceful pumping.

You moaned and grabbed the sheets under you, still in a slumber while your lover is fucking you hard. The room is filled with loud noises from the bed and skin clapping together. Your boyfriend himself tried not to make too many noises himself.

Wriothesley was panting, he tried to hold back a bit, so he won’t wake you up. You looked so good while you’re asleep and even more beautiful while he fucks you. Both combined could make him loose his mind.

He wants to fill you up so badly, wants to make you choke on his cock, make you drunk on his cock. "Wrio~", you moaned out his name, your back arching a bit.

Hearing you moan out his name in your slumber, he picked up his pace, even picked up you hips so he could thrust deeper. Your hips were now in the air, getting held by the Dukes big hands. He kissed your body, sucked your nipples and did everything to feel you.

He rutted into your sex faster, harder and not desperate than anything else. Wriothesley already forgot what had happened at work, focusing on bringing you and himself to climax.

Your breast bounce with his thrust, your legs hanging down in the air and your gummy walls tighten slightly. "Oh archons… you’re feeling so good around my hard cock~“

Wriothesley gripped your hips tighter and and almost completely pulled out before plunging into your core again, entering your womb.

A bugle on your stomach formed and he could see the top of his cock very clear. You let out a sharp hiss and a moan, your back arching and slowly opening your eyes.

"Fuck… so good… You’re so good for me baby…“, you heard your boyfriend groan while he kissed you along your neck.

You’re gasping for air, feeling aroused and hot. Wriothesley let your hips fall down on the bed again, grasping your tights and pressing them to your upped body so your knees touches your tits.

"Wriothesley… Ngh~" "Finally awake, princess? Do you like sleeping like this?" Without hesitation, you nodded and moaned out a "yes".

The dream you had was something your imagined frequently but never does it came to your mind that you’re being woken up by him in that way.

You wrapped your legs around his hip, forcing him inside you again when he pulled out. You felt hot. The sounds you two makes, the situation your in and your dream. "Please… more~", you begged and gripped the bedsheets tighter, your knuckles turning white while your toes curls up.

"You want more? I’ll give you more", your lover grunted and forced one of his hands to your neck, chocking you slightly and making you even more sensitive. "Wriothesley~!"

Feeling his hand around your neck, slightly preventing your gasps for air, makes you clenching around his throbbing, big cock inside you even more. Mind hazy and with a blurry vision, you squirted around him, screaming his name loudly.

Feeling something wet around his cock, the Dukes cock twitched inside you, feeling his own release coming. "Shit! That was so hot!"

His thrust got sloppier by every second, your wet and puffy folds around him made him crazy. He moaned your name and shot thick and hot ropes of his semen inside your womb, making your arch your back again. He let go of your neck, pulling you into a deep and passionate kiss.

"It feels so hot… I almost forgot how it feels…“ you panted and thought that he was satisfied but you were completely wrong. Just as you were about to close your eyes, the male over you picked up your body turned you around, not even pulling out.

Your tits pressed against the mattress while your ass was pulled up to the air while he kneels behind you. His cock still hard and throbbing inside you even after finishing a load inside your cervix.

"Take all of it.. take every last drop of my seeds and don’t let them go to waste." You put your arms over your eyes, trying to hide your blush and hide your face from embarrassment. "D-don’t say that… It’s embarrassing…“

"Is my little princess shy? How cute“, he smirked and grabbed your hips, only for him to speed up. You were still half asleep, not really awake while he fucks you so good.

"Hmmm… Wrio~ Love~", getting called by his nickname, the male gripped your hips even tighter, rutting inside you even deeper, entering your womb again. His hands wanders to your stomach, rubbing against the bulge.

"You feel that..? That’s me and my cum, deep inside you and you will take the other load I pump into you as well", he whispers into you ear, kissing and biting your neck, leaving marks over it.

"You’re so tight… You’re squeezing me so tight right now.." Hearing his deep voice moan into your ear, a wave of pleasure washed over you, making you cum over his large dick. "Wriothesley~!"

Your body was shaking, some salvia leaking your mouth and your juices and some of his seeds from before trailed down your tights.

The sight of you under him, coming and leaking brought him over the edge. With one harsch and final thrust, he spilled his hot and thick cum inside your womb again, pressing his chest against your back.

You both moaned loudly, the pleasure washing over you. Your hips fell onto the bed, your lover laying on top of you, still inside your warm walls. Both of you were panting and sweating, trying to calm down from the orgasm you both just had.

"Hmm.. Sorry baby… You looked so good while sleeping, I couldn’t resist anymore." "You’re good.. I enjoyed it..", you smiled at him, not wanting him to know what you dreamt.

Your little dream should stay a secret for a while. Maybe, just maybe, you’ll make this dirty little dream come true.

#fanfiction #somnophilia #smut #x reader #sleeping sleepingsex #guild #trigger words #genshin #genshin impact #wriothesley #fanfic #pet names #wriothesley smut #wriothesley x reader #genshin x reader smut

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smiling-psychopaths · 2 months

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Information.

Welcome to the blog of the smiling psychopaths!

"Once a friend to the smiling critters, now turned into their torturer, Bubba Bubbaphant experiments on them to satisfy his twisted morbid curiosities, and his own sick pleasures. He feels no guilt, and enjoys hearing them scream and plead, he even made a special chemical mixture that amplifies pain, making a pinch feel like a gunshot."

Kickin... he used to actually be a normal KickinChicken, friends with the other smiling critters. But he wanted to be cooler. He was way more ambitious. So he joined a club he thought was cool, however… it turned out to be a gang, and they weren't going to let him quit that easily. He was forcefully dragged along in the multiple, MULTIPLE crimes the gang did, murder, mugging, robbing, you name it. Until one day, he was dragged into a heist, however it didn't go as the gang planned exactly as the authorities showed up way faster than expected. They got into a shootout, and while KickinChicken was scared and confused, then suddenly, he got shot in the forehead. However, due to how brains really work, he survived. But he changed. He became more violent, was a bit easier to anger, and loved seeing people dying or get hurt. After this new personality change, his gang actually started to like him. Until…. One day, fueled by his lust for blood, he slaughtered his own gang, before heading to his old friend's houses and caving in their skulls. Also, he was basically kicked out of the smiling critters friend group after his personality change, obviously due to him being violent and easy to tick off.

Mob!CatNap's description coming soon....

Slasher!DogDay's description coming soon....

Slasher!DogDay: 27

Twisted!Bubba: 25

Violent!Kickin: 24

Mob!CatNap: 41

There will be topics of gore, mutilation, torture, force feeding, death, and violence.

You have been warned.....

"F̵̙͌̏o̵̪̾ṵ̷̾̓ṋ̷́͛̑d̴̜̪̺̊ ̵͔͎͔̈y̷̡̨̽͂ǒ̶̰u̴̞͋̿.̵̢̩̋͜" -Twisted!Bubba/Bubba Bubbaphant the twisted

(credits to @protective-mama-bear thank you for making this lol, also this is probably what he actually looks like, wearing that lab coat.)

"I'm gonna cave your face in bitch!" -Violent!Kickin/KickinChicken the violent

(again, credits to @protective-mama-bear. just combine the normal body of this, and the detailing I gave to my art Kickin's jacket and the bat length, and bam, canon apperance.)

"Shhhh. I'll make you go to sleep... permanently." -Mob!CatNap/Mafioso CatNap

(Gasless version)

(Again, credits to @protective-mama-bear for this wonderful art!)

"Let's see how much blood is in you." -Slasher!DogDay

V(Woundless, barbed wireless, and maskless version)V

V(Barbed wireless)V

(Once more, credits to @protective-mama-bear, they really help me with my AU.)

#smiling critters #trigger warning #trigger words #information #info post #pinned info #pinned post #pinned intro #rp blog #roleplay blog #ask blog #poppy playtime #poppy playtime chapter 3 #poppy playtime 3 #smiling psychopaths

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madmanwonder · 5 months

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“Bumblebee being canon was a mistake”

#rwby #rwby shitpost #trigger words #blake belladonna #yang xiao long #rwby bumbleby #bumbleby

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ash-and-ari-comics · 2 years

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Tw rape

Bro I love that tumblr and Wattpad have x readers black readers but fuck why does it always have to be about sex. Like why can’t we get a 10k word fanfic about us falling in love and being loved gently with some background drama or action. It’s always sex or rape which is low key weird. Like I get people are into that or write it because of trauma but it’s always sex, violent sex, or just literally rape. Or they’re racist stereotypes in the fanfic which is a whole other story. On Ao3 they’re x reader fanfics that are fun, have adventure, a little bit of drama, and a splash of sex. Also it’s with the same people it’s either attack on Titan, Jujutsu Kaisen, or My hero Academia. Which is cool but it’s usually only them. At this point imma try and make a x black reader fanfic because this shit is exhausting. But I have work so someone dm if they wanna work on a fanfic together because things need to low key change.

#x black fem reader #x black reader #mha x black reader #jjk x black reader #aot x black reader #anime x black reader #black reader #tw rap3 #trigger words

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numberonestuckyshipper · 3 months

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It’s kind of funny to imagine that the ten/eleven trigger words that turn Bucky into the Winter Soldier are canceled out by another ten/eleven words

Longing. Rusted. Seventeen. Daybreak. Furnace. Nine. Bening. Homecoming. One. Freight car.

Haha nope

I’m. With. You. ´Til. The. End. Of. The. Line.

Uno reverse.

#bucky barnes #stucky #don’t mind me #random thought #hydra #fuck hydra #the winter soldier #winter soldier #winter soldier trigger words #trigger words #I’m with you til the end of the line

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leeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesworld · 22 days

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CALM AFTER THE STORM |BTS OT7 X READER| HYBRID AU (M)

Pairing: OT7 BTS!HYBRID X FEM!HUMAN READER

Kim Namjoon: Black Mackenzie Valley Alpha wolf

Kim Soekjin: White Alpha Lion

Min Yoongi: White Alpha Jaguar

Jung Hosoek: Alpha Snow Leopard

Park Jimin : Alpha Albino Cobra

Kim Taehyung: Alpha White/ Bleached Tiger

Jeon Jungkook: Alpha Black Panther

Reader: Heaven Valentino Human

Status: Ongoing

RATED (M) FOR MATURE

WARNING: EVENTUAL SMUT, BLOOD GORE, DETAILED GRAPHIC DESCRIPTION, ABUSE (ALL FORMS), PROFANITY, VIOLENCE, MENTIONS OF SUICIDE, CHARACTER DEATH(MINOR), SADOMASOCHISM ACTS, MENTIONS OF BDSM, ETC...

Summary: Heaven Valentino, the name that sends shivers down one's spine, is a woman whose influence leaves a profound impact.

As the youngest and only daughter of the esteemed Valentino family, many perceived her as a privileged and helpless individual who relied solely on her family's support.

However, little did they know that this very woman would rise to power, commanding the world with an unwavering determination.

Heaven's demeanor is one devoid of leniency; she refuses to tolerate even the slightest hint of absurdity. Her exterior holds an air of ethereal fragility, reminiscent of a precarious deity.

Yet, beneath this facade lies a heart of gold, a tenderness she reveals only to her loved ones. It is a contrast that intrigues many and keeps them guessing about her true nature.

Meanwhile, the story takes a compelling turn as the lives of seven rare hybrids intertwine with Heaven's destiny.

These hybrids, perfected through careful conditioning, represent a diverse array of predator species. Bound together by their unique circumstances, they hold on to a glimmer of hope for freedom, relying on their deep mutual affection to retain their sanity throughout their hardships.

A collision occurs, abruptly merging the paths of these hybrids with Heaven's own trajectory.

The question beckons: will their lives be elevated under Heaven's influence, or shall they descend into an abyss of despair from which recovery seems impossible?

Embark on this thrilling journey to discover the true potency of Heaven Valentino and witness the extraordinary consequences that unfold when lives intertwine with her unwavering will.

The answers lie within the pages of this captivating narrative, where boundaries shall be pushed, emotions shall run high, and destinies shall collide.

Read to find out more...

MATERIALIST

AUTHOR-NIM

Hey there!

So, let's dive into this book, shall we? First things first, if you're expecting a soft and fluffy story with cute scenes and characters, this might not be the book for you. Nope, this book is definitely not for the faint-hearted!

Now, let's talk about what you can expect. There will be some selected bonus chapters, specifically requested by you awesome readers. I want to make sure you're getting exactly what you're looking for!

But here's the thing, I won't shy away from deep and dark scenes. Brace yourself for some intense moments that might even trigger you. I believe in portraying real emotions and experiences, even if they're not always sunshine and rainbows.

Oh, one more thing. Plagiarism and translations of my work without permission? Not cool! I've poured my heart and soul into this book, so if I catch you doing that, I won't hesitate to report you. Let's keep things fair and respect each other's work, deal?

Now, criticism is totally fine. Feel free to express your opinions about the characters' behavior! But here's a line, folks. Degrading the characters or expecting them to follow your personal agenda? Nope, not allowed. We're here for a good time, not to pick a fight!

Okay, here's the deal with the pace of the story: slow-burn. Yep, you heard it right. We're taking our time, letting the story and relationships develop at a deliciously slow pace. So, if you're all about that slow-burn anticipation, you're in for a treat!

Now, let's talk about some ground rules. Racial, prejudiced, and intolerant comments? Not welcome at all! I won't tolerate any form of discrimination. If I catch you doing that, I'll report you faster than you can say "oops." Respect is key here, folks. Respect the characters and respect your fellow readers. No irrelevant arguments or fan wars allowed in the comments section. Let's keep it chill and focus on the story, okay?

Now, finally, let's talk about the content warning. Brace yourself, because this book has it all. We're talking blood, gore, sexual abuse, profanity, explicit mature themes, violence, mental trauma, and even torture. Yes, it's intense, but it's all part of the story. I just want to make sure you're aware before you dive in.

One more thing, I want to make it crystal clear that I don't own BTS or HYBE. This is all pure entertainment and should not be taken seriously. But everything else? Yeah, that's all mine.

If you're not comfortable with any of this, I totally understand. Maybe this book isn't the right fit for you, and that's okay! But if you're up for the challenge, buckle up and get ready for an exciting ride. I wish you the best of luck as you embark on this journey with me!

Author: Lynnetty Lee Mubanga.

©Lee.

Now, my friend, it's time to sit back, relax, and enjoy this wild ride!

Oh, the Tag list is open so feel free to ask me to add you to the taglist.

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haggishlyhagging · 3 months

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New cures demand new "diseases." Thus, in the last decades, we have seen the invention of gender dysphoria and body dysmorphia as well as chest dysphoria, which stands for "significant discomfort with the presence of [one's own] breasts."

The term "chest dysphoria" is a manifestation of another sign of therapeutic frameworks taking over our lives. Although it describes discomfort with the presence of female breasts, these are not mentioned. Such erasure is intentional, as women with "dysphoria," in other words those who would like to stop being female, often consider terms describing their secondary sex characteristics "triggering."

The word "trigger" is again a psychological term, which has been used to describe sensations, images, or experiences that prompt recall of a traumatic memory. Body dysphoria, as transgender ideologues periodically remind us, can lead to suicide. Thus, words describing women's body parts are made into triggers of guns, i.e., deadly weapons. So are different opinions. Consequently, trans-identified people often include trigger warnings before quoting ideas that are not 100 % aligned with their ideology.

The "triggerization" of discourse does not pertain only to the trans-identified world. Increasingly, it has been used by feminists to avoid dealing with unpleasant issues. To give an example from my life: in 2019, I was invited to lead a workshop at a Czech feminist conference. Before the event, I pondered devoting the session to the topic of fight against child pornography. However, the women organizers told me they found such a subject "too triggering."

I went along with this, as at the time I gave triggers greater importance than I do now. However, I was also angry. I thought: "who will stop child sexual exploitation when feminists are too fragile to even hear it mentioned?" Should we leave the fight to men who are most often the perpetrators? In fact, the reaction reminded me of the 19th century's trope of women fainting on couches when their nerves were stirred by shocking conversational topics. Mutilation therapy calls to mind another 19th century occurrence—the diagnosis of hysteria, treated by surgeons who removed healthy ovaries, uteri, and clitorises to relieve women of a nonexistent mental disorder.

-Dana Vitálošová, “Therapeutic Ideology as a Way of Bringing Women Back Two Hundred Years” in Spinning And Weaving: Radical Feminism for the 21st Century

#Dana Vitálošová #body dysphoria #radical feminist theory #trigger words #therapeutic ideology

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fourraccoonsinacoat · 6 months

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The beautiful subtleties of the Astarion scar scene, and why this is that headcannon scene where Tavurge draws Astarion.

***Trigger Warning for discussions of body autonomy and sexual trauma.

And we're back for yet another midnight dissertation where I over analyze the F out of a video game character romance, because I can't stop thinking about how amazing the storytelling is. I need help.

So we all love that Astarion romance headcannon where Tavurge draws/paints/does-something-to-show-Astarion-his-face. It's a beautiful headcannon and I adore it. But, allow me to convince you that Larian did, in fact, give us this scene. And it's the scene where Tavurge draws Astarion's scars.

Jump in the car, here we go:

The song playing in the background of this scene is "I Want to Live." I think that's a very deliberate choice, as that song is very tied to Astarion. So much so, that you can stand on a rock behind his tent and suddenly the full song starts to play, lyrics included. Music reminding us of the one thing Astarion wants more than anything else?

Astarion wants the freedom to live a life he chooses, he wants his choices to matter. He's been living 200+ years, but can't remember ever feeling alive until now. He is so deathly afraid of what he has being ripped away now that he's had a taste.

Because every other time he ever felt hope, Cazador tore it away and punished him. Cazador has caught him before when he ran, and locked him in a tomb to starve in darkness for a year. There's a reason the game makes it clear that this is his worst memory. It has to constantly be haunting him, fearful that at any moment Cazador is going to rip this away, too.

So, Astarion sleeps with Tavurge and is suddenly told that the design Cazador drew on his back is written in Infernal. Infernal being the language devils use to write Infernal Contracts. Astarion has to be out of his mind with fear that whatever is on his back binds him to Cazador in some way. Maybe in a way he doesn't know about.

I need to say something about body autonomy trauma, so trigger warning for those who struggle with these subjects. Sexual and body autonomy trauma both play into why this scene is powerful. I struggle with both and there's a reason his story hits particularly hard with me.

****Trigger For Description Of Emotional Response to Trauma: Having control of your body taken away leaves you with a type of deep, primal fear that is very difficult to explain. It's ridiculous and cliche, but the honest-to-best way to describe it is it, feels like a hole deep in your chest where something used to be. And it was literally wrenched out of inside your body, a place where nobody should be able to go because if your body isn't safe then where the fuck is? So keep that in mind.****

Not only has Astarion not had control of his body, he can't even see it in a reflection. Let that sink in.

To add it all up: he has something written in Infernal on his back that he can't see, but that could mean the one thing he's dreading = being bound to Cazador and having all of this ripped away. Again. And then he'll be punished, doing nothing but thinking about what he only just got a taste of.

This is why the cycle of abuse just crushes hope out of you. Because things hurt so much worse when you're hoping for them to work. At some point you're just hurting yourself by hoping.

He's terrified and he can't even look at his own body to see what someone forcibly mutilated into his skin.

So, Tavurge approaches Astarion from behind, just like in the mirror scene. Except this time, Astarion can't see them approaching.

Tavurge surprises him, in what's already a vulnerable moment, and surprises him from behind. A position of weakness. We'll hit on this more in a moment.

Astarion snaps at Tavurge due to being caught in a vulnerable moment. But, he quickly slides back into his charm and apologizes. Mask back up.

He explains what he was doing and the dialog choices here even throwback to the mirror scene. You can tell him you'll be his mirror in this scene.

He's hesitant about the idea. He's not comfortable with vulnerability, and outright tells Tavurge this isn't their problem. This is an extremely vulnerable thing, especially for someone with body autonomy issues. You're turning your back on someone and asking them to show you what's on your own damn body! What if they lie?

This is a major trust moment for Astarion. If you ask later to talk to others in camp about his scars, he is quick to say no.

He's not ready to trust that much. He just was vulnerable with Tavurge and that took too much out of the vulnerability reserves to push for more. Got to let those reserves build back up by seeing more reasons that show it's okay to be vulnerable.

This man does not want to turn around. He keeps his head down and grimaces, closes his eyes to brace himself. Think about all the triggers he must have about turning his back on people. He wasn't exactly bringing the morally upright back to Cazador. And Cazador, himself, obviously took advantage of his control to force Astarion to turn his back to him. Thus the scars.

Given all of that, he still turns around in an act of consent.

I love that you can just choose to quietly draw. You don't tell him how bad it looks, you don't try to comfort him by saying it's not that bad (which he would likely only hear as patronizing in this moment), and you can choose to not make a joke. I feel that's meaningful.

He turns around and can finally fucking see this thing that's been on his back for over two centuries.

At least he got to see his face, even if he can't remember almost anything about it. At least he can touch his hair, touch his face to get an idea. He can't even do that with the scars.

This means a lot, guys. Tavurge has drawn something that I argue is more meaningful than Astarion's face.

Tavurge has drawn a significant key to his future. The future he wants more than anything.

He needs to figure out what the hell this is before Cazador possibly activates it and Tavurge just made that significantly more possible.

And then, Tavurge has the option to call the two of them "we" for the first time in a way not tied to sex. Telling him "we will figure this out" and not asking for anything in return or giving him a hard time about it - at least not too much. The "shut up and turn around" dialog is one of my favs, and I feel Astarion appreciates the candor.

He's definitely sus when you say "we".

That is the face of sus.

But also...amusedly hopeful?

I like that he calls Tavurge "sweet" here. It makes me think of him calling them "cute" in the spawn ending at the grave with the flower.

I think Astarion really picks up on small things. Things people say and do genuinely, and I think it both amuses and confuses him, and in the beginning (here) still makes him uneasy and suspicious. He even asks it as somewhat of a question. Like, are you really actually this genuine?

I also would like to make an argument to the court that this is a significant moment when Astarion starts to realize he !FEELS! something for Tavurge and it's wigging him out!

They're making him hope again, and that's scary.

So, there. That's my evidence for why this scene is the drawing Astarion scene that we all love in our headcannons.

Tavurge is drawing something of extreme significance here. And I love how incredibly subtle this scene is in not blatantly pointing that out.

It's beautiful writing and that is all, your honor. Midnight dissertation - but also I may be in court - over!

Thank you for reading any of this nonsense.

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Yui’s POV:

The blood dripped down my thighs, I could feel it drying up very quickly. The puncture holes that Shu created were deep..He enjoys when I’m in pain, but still he finds ways to bring me pleasure…for a time I thought that Shu possibly felt something for me whenever he would kiss me or snuggle up to me, I definitely had strong feelings for him...I hated him. I never thought I was capable of feeling this type of hate for anyone but I need to remind myself he and all of his brothers are vampires, they do not care for me beyond being their personal blood bag. There was a moment where I did try to sympathize with him and instantly came to regret it soon after..I chose Shu because he seemed different from all of his brothers, less interested and extremely lazy but I found out, rather quickly he is just as bad as all of them..possibly even worse. I hate him..I hate everything about him, I hate how he makes me feel so used, I hate how he calls me a slut I hate everything about Shu..but my body craves him and possibly my heart too..

No one's POV:

Yui laid in her bed, all sore and covered in bites, tears streamed down her beautiful eyes, she took a pillow and began screaming into it, then threw it across the room with all her remaining strength. "I'm tired of this...I'm so tired of it all..no one will miss me if I die.." she kept chanting to herself, she found herself walking up the stairs of the manor, approaching the top floor then going to the roof of the manor. She looked down to see if the fall could possibly kill her. It looked like it could, she stood by the edge, "no one will miss me, I will finally be at peace..." a chant she kept saying.

“Humans really are weak…I torment you a little and you give up so quickly” a deep, tired voice lets out, Yui turns around and in behind her stands Shu, expressionless as always. “Go away” she said lowly, “what was that? I couldn’t hear you” he replies back taking a step closer to her. “Go away from me….Leave me alone!” She lets out, more loudly much to Shu’s irritation he lets out a sigh. “Get down from there now” she wanted to listen to him because she felt as thought he finally cared for her but then in the back of her mind the suicidal thoughts took over, ‘he doesn’t care for me…only for my blood’ her mind repeated this constantly and it pained her, she began to cry and then turned back around looking down at the edge, Shu still appeared emotionless but he reacted rather quickly. He pulled her to him and embraced her tightly, she knew not to fall for it so she did not hug him back, he brought her back inside of the manor, into his room.

Shu plopped down onto his bed and motioned his hands to Yui, signaling for her to come lie down with him, she wanted to feel some type of loving right now so she obeyed, they snuggled in silence, until he began to trace his fingers by her thighs, making his way to her butt. He began to rub her butt with his hand, causing her to blush but she did not say or do anything.

Yui’s POV:

Shu was touching me, but not the way he would before attempting to take my blood, he seemed to try and genuinely make me feel comfortable and loved…I’m not sure why, my heart and body are craving his touch, I want him in me..God forgive me for these sinful thoughts but I desire him more than anything, oh please let him learn to love me and I will devote myself to him…I was too much in my head I didn’t realize that he slipped his hand in my underwear and began to rub it up and down with fingers, I let out small gasps..it felt so good, I wanted more, I needed more. He began to flick and play with my clit, I had my legs up , holding them for him, he continued to finger me, then I noticed his face getting closer to my area, he kissed it, then began to lick but stopped for a second. He laid down and motioned his hands to me, I looked at him confused but I knew what he wanted, he wanted me to sit on his face and I wanted to do that ever so badly. But I played stupid I wanted him to say it. “I want your ass on my face” he means to 69. I did as he said, before he began licking or sucking on me he took out his hard dick, I took it in my hands and jerked it a bit but I wanted to suck it, who cares for innocence at this point…I licked it around and started to suck down on it boppin my head back and forth, he let out slight moans of pleasure but began to lick mine , and suck on mine, I began grinding my lower body against his face and this caused him to grab my ass and smack it , he licked and fingered me at the same time I wanted to cum so badly, he was going fast and hard. I know I wasn't doing a good job at sucking his dick, "turn around, I want you face me while being on me" I did as he said, my area was right on his face, he seemed to be enjoying himself, he took his hands and grabbed my butt cheeks so tightly, I knew for a fact it let his finger prints. I began moaning and begging him to let me cum, he chuckled and stopped "you really are my slut...but I must punish you for trying to take your own life" my moaning stopped when these words came out his mouth and a harsh bite was placed in my area, I screamed in pain. He sucked on it greedily, I felt paralyzed...I was stupid enough to get into this and now I am suffering for it, he rips out his fangs from my area harshly and throws me off of him onto the bed. I attempt to get out, I want to leave..but he grabs my wrists and pins them down, pressing all his body weight onto me, my area is burning and stinging I want out from there, he lifts up one of my legs, and starts kissing my inner thigh , then bites it even more harshly "Shu stop..!" I cry out, he shoves his finger into my mouth to shut me up, I bite hard on his finger causing him to bleed, I taste his blood it doesn’t have the metallic taste…he gets his finger out of my mouth quickly and chokes me hard. “I’m going to make you scream so loud, it’ll be a song for the histories” he takes out his dick and jams it into me, no teasing no foreplay, he thrusts into me hard and fast, it hurts so badly i cry out, I’m not sure if the blood from the bite on my area was making it wet down there or if I was turned on but I felt it gushing, he commented on how wet I was and how dirty that made me, I hated him and loved him at the same time. He stopped and turned me around, my back was arched on all fours and he pounded into me, I couldn't help but moan...he was panting and groaning, he thrusted one hard stroke before pulling out and turning me over, I was facing him, he combusted all over my face and chest..then he grabbed my face, traced his cream around my lips then opened my mouth and made me taste it, it was embarrassing...but I began to taste it , taking my hands and wiping it off of myself just to lick it in front of him, I began moaning while doing it, making him chuckle "enjoying that? What a dirty girl..."

#diabolik lovers #smut #rated: m #shu x yui #shu sakamaki #yui komori #tw: suidice #trigger words #fanfic #oneshot #diabolik boys #dialovers #sakamaki brothers

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Allison’s JetSki facts for Fanfics that I think people will find helpful!

*Disclaimer I’m not going fully into depth with any of these, but I’ll try my best to point out what stuck out to me after riding them ever since I was a little kid all the way up until I got a boating license to drive and take care of them all on my own. -Must also inform you I’ve only ever rode and drove SeaDoo brand Jetski’s - and got a boating license when I lived in California four years ago - so for fanfics maybe check your laws when it comes to your state, and find out what brand of jetski your writing about because my experience may differ.

(Also I’m mainly doing this because Jetski’s appearances in Loki but if this helps other fandoms or fics and such please enjoy!)

• I’m starting this off with Jetski’s are varying types of sturdy plastic/fiberglass/and carbon fiber - they are not metal. (I’ve seen a few fics so far of ppl describing the texture and such as metal and I promise it does not feel that way and it’s not metal at all.) - it is more thin-feeling plastic on the exterior bits and a much harder durable plastic on the undercarriage. (The seat and more “plush”accents [small spot in the middle of the handles] feel a mix of pleather with the texture of a basketball)

• Speaking of the undercarriage of the Jetski, there’s a sticker at the bottom that instructs you on what to do if you flip a jetski! -it mainly is just standing on the corner of one end and using your weight to turn it back over.

•You must be asking Allison how does one flip a jetski? I’ll tell you! Jetski’s are very fast and sleek, which makes you want to pull very sharp turns, which you can sometimes pull off but do not be surprised if you can’t - and this very well may topple the Jetski.

• Sharp turns is not all that will flip you, Jetski’s do have a recommended amount of passengers. Three grown adults is doable, but not recommended if you’re in a higher weight class and you also plan to do quick maneuvers. But otherwise, the ideal amount of people on a jetski for good maneuverability is two!

• Don’t worry too much about flipping a Jetski but keep it in mind because Jetski’s are heavy - mine alone with a full tank of gas where pushing 800 pounds and those models where fairly new. Not as new as the one seen in Loki but only a few years off so I’m assuming that one is much of the same in weight.

• In cases of flipping or even being thrown off (I’ve legit been thrown off and I was driving while my cousin behind me did not) if you’re behind the driver the seats have straps to hold onto.

⬆️CAUTION: these straps are thin and it’s not recommended you even stick your fingers fully under them, just your fingertips, because with the amount of force you go flying, you may very well lose your fingers.

• So when holding on while riding if you are a passenger, either tend to those small straps with your finger tips or place your arms on the drivers hips! - BUT PASSENGERS DO NOT LEAN INTO TURNS LIKE THE DRIVER MIGHT- THIS CAN FLIP YOU OR MAKE THE DRIVER OVER DO IT IF YOU MOVE THEM ACCIDENTALLY

• jetski’s run by pulling in water and propelling it out! Because of this, Jetski’s cannot be driven in shallow places. In case you do there is something inside called a wear-ring, it is built to break in case things get sucked in. (Trust me I’ve broken a wear ring before and it all I can say is a jetski sounds angry when this happens)

• above this motor is a pull down bar, so if you happen to get in the water, you have an easy way of climbing back onto your jetski (when it’s off obviously - please don’t try getting on behind a jetski when it’s on or if u are make sure it’s on idle)

• Jetski’s have little or big compartments depending on the model, one under the handle bars, and a bigger one in the front hood. This is excluding the space under the seat where the engine sits - do not store stuff with the engine unless you want to kill your jetski.

• in these compartments you should have a small anchor for your jetski, and as laws have increased, you should have your boater license on you, because trust me jetski’s do get pulled over a lot; and do you want to know why cause I will tell you bluntly; lots of people who ride jetski’s ignore the safety rules and get people killed or seriously hurt because of it.

• So I’m going to explain some of those rules for you! When you bring a jetski out, you’ll see the wake line (normally a line of buoys that will legit till you go 5 mph) That means go 5mph in that area as it’s for swimmers and boats to safetly move near one another to get out into where they can go fast.

(Idk how to even describe the thrill it was being young and going that long trek to the buoy line of 5mph and my dad immediately jumping to top speeds the second we were safe to do so!)

•Different color buoys have different meanings, this I will not explain as it’s been some time since I’ve been on the water but please do look these things up if you plan to go boating. Some buoys are colored as warnings!

• We all see the lines of waves other boats leave in their path, those are wakes and legally you are not supposed to cross those unless you feel you are a hundred feet back from the boat that made them. You do not want to cross someone’s wake close to them, it’ll save you from crashing because other boats are unpredictable.

(It legit is terrifying with how many jetski ppl try to cross other ppls wakes - especially other jetski’s- while being all too close. Seen way too many close calls that could have been fatal.)

• DO NOT RIDE YOUR JETSKI AT NIGHT IT IS AGAINST THE LAW AND DANGEROUS. Jetski’s do not come with lights therefore they are not safe to operate at night. (My sister lost a friend to this and it’s all too common a way to die on a jetski.)

• Jetski’s are mainly made for lakes not the ocean! That isn’t so say you can’t ride them in the ocean, you very much can, it’s just salt water is a immensely degradable substance that can ultimately affect the lifespan of your jetski. So finding a good lake is the best way to go.

•Anytime you use a jetski, after the fact you must throughly wash it ALL. That means running water through it and the motor to effectively clean everything out. This is an environmental law, and when you bring your jetski to any lake it will be inspected before it may come in! (I suggest watching a YouTube video of the process if you really want to go into it)

•if you’ve noticed when unloading a jetski, jetski’s on a trailer are normally facing your vehicle! This is because jetski’s have a reverse option much like a car, it’s usually a lever on the handle much like the break for a bike!

•jetski’s come with special keys, a normal and learners key mainly - though that depends on what you buy; those are just the standards we got when we first bought ours. The learners key will not allow the jetski to go as fast as the normal but trust me you probably won’t notice it still goes fast.

•Highly suggest these keys are connected to your life vest (WHICH YOU SHOULD BE WEARING AT ALL TIMES) because if you happen to go flying or fall off, the key will immediately turn off the engine.

•if you so happen to fall in and the jetski keeps going forward and is still running DO NOT STAY WHERE YOU ARE so due to some kind of physics or whatever (not sure how to explain this but I legit remember the hour long lecture I had to watch in boating school for this) Jetski’s will turn around on their own and come back. If you’re in the same spot, you will get run over. So boot out of the way as fast as you can. If the jetski doesn’t turn and comes to a complete stop in whatever trajectory it went off in, you can approach and get back on.

• For environmental safety you are not supposed to fill up the gas of a jetski on the water or at the dock or anything. Take your jetski’s to the gas station before hand, yes it’s tedious and hard to do with a trailer but it’s much safer and better for the environment than you somehow spilling gas into the water.

• For the safety of your skin, in that little compartment keep some sunscreen, you burn twice as fast and bad on the water as the sun is reflected off the water and back up at you.

• The day after, no matter how much you ride jetski’s normally, your thighs will hurt and ache. Riding a jetski is basically straddling something large enough to force your legs apart- and it does this for long periods of time. Even if you’re someone who drives standing, the width you hold your legs apart is barely natural. So expect some sore legs.

•Be observant and calculating, you need to always be scanning as other ppl likely do not know what they are doing, and it’s not like the roads where you have lanes. People will try to get in your space, you need to constantly know where the people around you are.

• That also goes for the water. Jetski’s come with a flag (I’m sorry I can’t recall if it’s red or white and I keep seeing different versions) but if you see someone waving a flag- stop your vehicle. It means someone is in the water! BEWARE.

• If you decide to have fun towing someone behind your jetski, you cannot be alone. You absolutely must have someone behind the driver, seated at the end of the jetski backwards - holding to the straps or small handle there- watching the tow. That person is in charge of the flag lest who you’re towing falls off.

(This one is more so a seadoo company fact rather than a full on jetski fact, but when they release new jetski’s they only release it in two colors at that time - so we bought two the same year and got the only two colors at that time which had been orange and blue - so if you’re writing about seadoo specifically I’d look up the colors and years of whatever model your talking about)

It’s very easy to get caught up in the fun of riding a jetski, and it’s a great experience truly it is, but there’s also a lot to look out for. Because at the end of the day it’s still a vehicle, not a toy.

It’s quite the responsibility but if you’re up to it, they’re a lot of fun to have. These are just some of the things that came to mind, and I’m not sure how helpful this will all be. But I’ll be sure to add more if I come up with anything else.

#fanfic #ao3 #fanfiction #seadoo #loki show #jetski #mobius #lokius #trigger words

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murasaki-cha · 1 year

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⚠️TW $U!D!DE⚠️

I kept saying Cale is not suicidal but actually I realized that he is. Strap along kids it's time for another psychoanalysis on Cale's mental health. A short one this time.

So first things first how is Cale suicidal? One of Cale's main purposes is to live. He has stated it multiple times that he wants to live since the begining of the story. But when you remember his life that wasn't actually his purpose it was other people's purpose for him.

He's gotten better now but in the begining if I were to describe him in the begining, he was like a leaf. This quote from Grey's Anatomy (I haven't watched the show so don't ask for the ep) made me realize this whole thing because it was a perfect fit for Cale:

"People run away from this line between life and death. You seem to stand on it and wait for a strong wind to sway you one way or the other"

This was exactly Cale throughout most of the story. The reason he wanted to live wanted to live was because of Lee Soo Hyuk and Choi Jung Soo. He wanted to honor their sacrifice and their last wishes. He lead the team after Lee Soo Hyuk's and made it his entire reason for going on. He wanted to retire and built an orchard to farm because that's what Lee Soo Hyuk and Choi Jung wanted to do when they retired. None of it were his dreams because he didn't have one.

Cale was somewhat Passive Suicidal. He lived only because he wasn't dead yet. If his life ended at some point he wouldn't do anything to stop it. It's shown in all his self sacrificial moments. He cares more about the safety of other people and never for his own. He says he wants to live but never takes proper care of himself. If anything slacker life was probably a way to let him wither away without any sense of guilt, because he doesn't want to die without fulfilling others wishes. Cale never lived for his own he lived for others.

Of course over the course of the story he has gotten better both mentally and emotionally. He's not that sacrificial now as he was in the begining and he has started to value his own life more. This was more of an analysis of cale in the begining of the story.

So basically yes, Cale is suicidal. He's just a different kind of suicidal than most know.

#kim dokja for example is a more concrete example of passive suicide and at some point in his life he was actively suicidal #cale is a more tame example of passive suicidal #tcf #trash of the count's family #lcf #lout of the count’s family #cale henituse #tcf novel #potentially triggering #trigger words

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x-snowstorm-x · 1 year

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Ich fühle mich alleine und krank unwichtig der Drang, nach der Klinge zu greifen ist so groß wie schon lange nicht mehr.

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moody-avocado · 1 year

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Since I am still salty about this

Every time I see a Reylo post, I get reminded just how much I hated the ending of TROS, which includes the abrupt change in Rey’s character, so here’s rant & some lists/meta.

I am still very annoyed by Rey's reaction to Ben' death, so here’s a list of 5 times Rey was grieving or was at least extremely concerned about someone’s well-being vs. TROS ending. The Force Awakens, The Last Jedi, and The Rise of Skywalker are all there. Daisy Ridley is an amazing actress, and this has nothing to do with her.

I am also including a second list of all the times Rey expressed concern and compassion for Ben, almost all of which were more emotionally intense and satisfying than her reaction to his death.

Rewatching all these scenes has reminded me what a sweet character Rey is; she expresses her emotions so easily and is really in touch with her feelings. The ending of TROS is so out of character for her. Making these lists has also reminded me just how frequently Rey experienced tragedy over the course of the three movies.

I wish Ben lived, of course.

Please keep in mind that a good part of this post talks about character deaths in Star Wars, so please proceed with caution. You might find the content triggering; I have used all the trigger warnings/“tw” tags that I could think of.

Let’s go.

1-2 - TFA

1. Han dies

At this point, Rey barely knows Han (I think she has known him for exactly one day here), and still, this is her reaction to him being stabbed/thrown off the bridge. She gets easily attached to people and that she cares deeply. Rey yells, she cries.

Interestingly, her grief lasts in TFA - this is her returning to the Resistance base after Han’s death:

For contrast, here is Rey returning to the Resistance base after Ben Solo’s death; they had known each other for some time and had a very complex relationship, where they were both vulnerable with each other/bonded through the Force, saved each other’s lives multiple times, and were in love/attracted to each other:

It’s almost scary how quickly she gets over the whole thing.

2. Finn get injured

This scene lasts for a a pretty long time - unlike the segment where Ben disappears/dies and Rey is alone. When it comes to the emotional reaction, while you can argue that Rey is aware that she may die as well (the planet is collapsing), and that that adds to her sadness and concern, it’s still pretty clear that she cares about Finn deeply. She is again crying, and she also starts hugging him almost immediately after she finds him passed out.

Bonus - we can feel the despair in this shot of the gloomy forest:

There was nothing to even symbolically indicate Rey’s profound sadness/loneliness/despair after Ben dies. She does end up alone in a desert, but this is presented both as a happy event and unrelated to her Force dyad soulmate dying. The return to the desert was also awful, but that’s a rant for another time.

This is also a beautiful and very dramatic shot:

This TFA scene would make me think that Rey cares more about Finn, even after knowing him for a very short time and very superficially, than she does about Ben at the end of the trilogy, if I were to compare her “shrug emoji” reaction to this one. However, I would assume that she cares about someone that she shares a connection that spans across space and time and that she is in love with, and a person she met that day, who is admittedly very likeable and who has helped her, in equal measure, at least.

Like with Han, this is Rey still being concerned after they get back to the Resistance base; she is reaching out to see if Finn is alright:

3 - TLJ

3. Luke’s death

Luke dies in this one. Rey talks about it with Leia, and says that it was peaceful and purposeful, which I believe is meant to, in part, explain why they are both not grieving more than this:

Please keep in mind that what I say in this paragraph is completely within the confines of the movies/the narrative and fantasy - it does not apply to real life. I guess that something along those lines could be applied to Ben’s death in TROS - that it was with a purpose - saving Rey. However, I just cannot compare Luke - who had a much longer life and a much less tormented existence overall, and who sacrificed himself to “right the wrong that he did”, which was “creating Kylo Ren” in the first place - dying to save the Resistance, to his nephew dying after he knew happiness for probably the first time in his life, after decades of abuse. A digression, but here is Luke vs. Ben, who is shaking, around the time when they made the decision to sacrifice themselves:

TROS had one of the most depressing movie endings I have ever seen.

4-5 - TROS

4. Rey accidentally zaps the ship that she thought Chewbacca was in

I have no idea how close Rey and Chewbacca are, but here’s how she reacts when she is convinced that Chewie is dead:

5. Leia

Leia dies and Rey senses it in the Force. This is probably the most miserable we ever see Rey. She has just lost her mother figure - it is difficult to watch:

Ok, now Rey expressing concern for Ben:

1. TFA - planet collapsing

This is a subtle one, and she is either concerned (she left Kylo Ren/Ben to die, injured) or she is intrigued by their meeting and is reflecting on it (some third option is a possibility - for example, she noticed a ship come pick him up):

2. TLJ - Ben explains to Rey that Luke tried to kill him

She calls him a liar, and while she might also be crying because she is shocked to learn such a thing and is disappointed in Luke, she is clearly sad about the whole thing:

3. TLJ - Rey is mad that Luke tried to kill Ben

Rey is protective when it comes to the people (and droids) she cares about. You could argue that in this scene she is angry about all the events that stemmed from “Luke creating Kylo Ren”, and that that’s why she is in fight mode. Still, it’s shown that she has developed some feelings for Ben:

4. TLJ - Rey sees Kylo getting strangled during the Throne room fight:

5. TLJ - The “you are breaking my heart! You are going down a path that I can't follow” moment:

6. TROS - Rey healing Ben

While she is still overwhelmed and crying due to Leia’s passing, Rey turns towards Ben (my interpretation is that she is also wondering what his feelings concerning his mother’s death are, due to their strained relationship) and then looks at his wound:

Rey informs Ben that she wanted to take his hand after she is done healing him:

She shifts from grieving for Leia, to grieving the relationship that she could have had with Ben.

7. TROS - Rey realizing Ben has arrived to help her fight Palpatine

I love this moment ^

I think that all of these moments show that Rey does care about Ben, deeply. These are her reactions to events that are not as final as his death.

And finally - Ben dying:

The way this scene is presented, it really seems that Rey is frowning primarily because she is confused - she doesn’t understand why Ben is acting all weird:

Rey when she comprehends that Ben is dead:

That’s it. There is no screaming, crying, trying to hold him, nothing.

And then

She doesn’t even mention Ben dying to anyone (there is no discussing Luke’s death-type scene). I am presuming that she has to bring it up, and fast, since this is also the Supreme Leader who has just died, she is the only one who knows for certain he is dead, and Rey and all her friends are... politically involved, but this probably happens off-screen then.

I could add that Rey holds a sort of a funeral for Leia and Luke (burying the lightsabers), but that she does not do anything similar for Ben.

If you have made it to the end of the post, please let me know what your thoughts are!

Thanks for reading, This has been therapeutic.

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