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YOU HAVE BEEN HAIKU BOTTED
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Iā€™ve been blessed by Haiku bot,,
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ACHTUNG, BABY! šŸŽøšŸ’œāœØ
did you know that leftovers are open til november 28 for gavinners zine and that you can get it HERE?!
the gavinners are like that little piece of insignificant ace attorney canon that i started thinking about and now i CAN NOT stop thinking about! there's just something really silly imagining klavier gavin and his band members having verified twitter accounts okay pftt
so of course, what a goddamn joy to get to draw for this zine bc man!!! i love thinking abt the gavinners and i've grown very fond of the members i made up for it <33
again, here's the link! go get it before it's gone!!!
extra stuff under the cut! :^P | like this art? it'll be a print in my shop once the leftovers are over! | like what i do? support me on ko-fi!
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my art style's evolved since i drew this but i think this is the one that really got me going with coloring things very iridescently! i also just love outfit design so OFC i thought about doing like a magazine cover for them! shows all of the gavs AND i can design clothes that are off the shits, a win-win <33
and if you have no idea who my gavinners ocs are, well here they are! i finished these character sheets once art fight happened. i'll probably post these separately too but rn, they're here for added context ;^P
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i also really enjoyed drawing the icons! and maybe got too carried away drawing like, nine of those wheezes. i had a lot of ideas ok!!!
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I SAY YES TO ERAS DANCER!YN
i thought about this concept when i watched the eras tour film and you guys encouraged me to write it so here it is ! i enjoyed it a lot so i really hope you like it
ps. the usernames on the comments are taylorā€™s dancers ! (theyā€™re all so cool iā€™m obsessed with them)
MASTERLIST | MY PATREON
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yourinstagram ready for hotel rooms to be my new home now šŸ•ŗ
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audreydouglass ā¤ļø
taylorfan1 sheā€™s one of the eras tour dancers ! make sure to follow them all
gemmastyles Best of lucks !
janravanik Letā€™s go !
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harrystyles Love On Tour. Manila. March, 2023.
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harryfan1 BABYYYY
yourinstagram miss you šŸ¤
harryfan2 heā€™s pocket size
alessandro_michele ā¤ļø
harryfan3 i love singlerry
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yourinstagram 2023 had a blank space, and i wrote @taylorswift in it. let the games begin, the eraā€™s tour !
to the castā€¦ i canā€™t wait to spend this season of life with you.
šŸ«¶āœØšŸ’œšŸ§£šŸ’ƒšŸ–¤šŸšŸ’˜šŸ’‹šŸŖ©šŸ„‚šŸ’›ā±ļøšŸ¾šŸŒƒ
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yourbestie Wishing you the best šŸ’˜šŸ’˜
taylorfan1 YOU KILLED IT
nat_b_peterson A true star love you ā¤ļøletā€™s do this
taylorfan2 my dream job
annetwist ā¤ļø
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harryupdates HARRY ATTENDED OPENING NIGHT OF THE ERAS TOUR LAST NIGHT !!!!
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harryfan1 WTF???
harryfan2 NO WAY
taylorfan1 is that really him ??
taylorfan2 HUH?
harryfan3 OMFGGGGG THE IMPLICATIONS
taylorfan3 taylorā€™s best ex
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yourinstagram whoā€™s coming to tampa night two?? let the games begin āš”ļø
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taylorfan1 obsessed with them
gracieabrams Best one out there šŸ•ŗ
taylorfan2 i love the tour dancers soooo much
taylorfan3 MY SHOWWW
gemmastyles I cannot wait to see this show
ā†³ harryfan1 gemma hello ???
FANS VIA TWITTER
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yourinstagram when your boy couldnā€™t make it to nashville but heā€™s a hopeless romantic lol
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taylorfan1 aweee
kamnsaunders That boy is head over heels !
taylorfan2 she has a boyfriend nooo :( sheā€™s my crush
annetwist ā¤ļø
ā†³ harryfan1 i think sheā€™s a family friend or something, anne and gemma always comment on her posts lol
nat_b_peterson This relationship gives me life
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tmz_tv Looks like #TaylorSwift & #HarryStyles really never go out of Style. Tap the link in our bio to see what we know about their recent rekindle!
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harryfan1 huh?
taylorfan1 SOMEBODY CALL TREE PAINE
ā†³ harryfan1 AND JEFF AZOFF
harryfan2 man i hate tmz with a passion
taylorfan2 yā€™all is this true?
harryfan3 you guys are better than believing TMZ
taylorfan3 IT COUPLE IS BACK
yourinstagram šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚
ā†³ janravanik I was about to send you this !
ā†³ taylorfan4 taylorā€™s dancers are laughing its FAKE
TMZ ARTICLE
Harry Styles and Taylor Swift have their fans buzzing with excitement at the possibility that theyā€™re back together.. and based on the many sightings of him at Taylorā€™s concerts.. they may be on to something.
The former flames, who had a brief but memorable relationship back in the day, have sent the internet into a frenzy with speculations about a possible rekindling of their romance.
The' As it Was' singer was seen sneaking into the opening night of Taylor Swift's tour in Arizona, catching the attention of eagle-eyed fans who couldn't believe their luck witnessing both pop icons under one roof. But that wasn't all ā€“ Styles continued his tour attendance, popping up at shows in Tampa and Atlanta, adding fuel to the already rumors of a reconnection.
A source has also provided us pictures of Harry pulling up at Gillette Stadium in Foxborough, Massachusetts, where Taylorā€™s show took place this weekend.
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Their history is no secret ā€“ Taylor Swift and Harry Styles' romance made headlines years ago, with their short-lived yet highly publicized relationship making fans go crazy. From romantic strolls in Central Park to cozying up at award shows, their time together never goes out of style.
But what does Harry's sudden appearance at Taylor's tour mean? Could it just be a friendly show of support between two mega-stars, or is there something more happening behind the scenes?
Fans have taken to social media, discussing every moment of their recent encounters, analyzing their body language, and even coming up with conspiracy theories about secret messages hidden in their song lyrics. Some die-hard 'Haylor' shippers are convinced this could be the moment they've been waiting for ā€“ the reunion of one of pop culture's most talked-about couples.
Both Styles and Swift have remained notoriously private about their personal lives, keeping fans guessing and rumors going around. Neither camp has confirmed or denied the speculations, leaving the world to wonder if there's a romantic renaissance on the horizon.
As the 'Eras Tour' continues its journey across the country, all eyes remain glued to the stage, anticipating every possible hint of a rekindled spark between Harry Styles and Taylor Swift.
Stay tuned as we keep our lenses focused and our ears to the ground for any whispers, sightings or signs of this potential Hollywood romance getting back together.
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harryupdates Harry out in New York today !
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harryfan1 AHHHHH
harryfan2 who is THAT
harryfan3 waiiiiiit whats going on
harryfan4 chill istg yā€™all have been sooooo dense lately, first starting rumors of him and taylor getting back together and now freaking out over harry greeting a (probably) a friend
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yourinstagram i really do šŸ«¶šŸ» new york
šŸ“øby my, my, my, my, my, loverrrr šŸ’˜
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taylorfan1 sheā€™s so prettyyyyy
audreydouglass You both give me life šŸ„¹
janravanik Quoting the boss šŸ¤©
gemmastyles I canā€™t wait to see you rock the stage tonight
ā†³ harryfan1 GEMMA IS GOING TO THE ERAS TOUR ???
taylorfan2 eras tour dancers give me life
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harryupdates Harry and Gemma at The Eras Tour in MetLife Stadium tonight !
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harryfan1 WTF?????????
harryfan2 iā€™m officially believing the rumors that him and taylor at back together
taylorfan1 WE?
harryfan3 what the actually fuck is going on this is the FOURTH show he attends and now with his family ?? lord iā€™m coming up
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gemmastyles I went to The Eras Tour in my Reputation era I guess āœØšŸ–¤šŸ
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harryfan1 SLAAAY
annetwist My turn now ! ā¤ļø
ā†³ harryfan2 ANNE IS GOING TO THE ERAS TOUR ??? wtf is going on
yourinstagram love you so much, so happy you could make it šŸ„¹šŸ’˜
ā†³ harryfan3 see iā€™ve been saying that she must be a family friend
harryfan4 rumors of haylor being a thing again lowkey donā€™t sound too crazy
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annetwist The Eras Tour with my girl @gemmastyles šŸ‘Æā€ā™€ļø watching the amazing @yourinstagram rock the stage. Of course the star of the show @taylorswift gave her all and blew us away ! Amazing night ā¤ļøšŸŽ¶
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harryfan1 OMG
gemmastyles Oh I love being a woman šŸ’˜
ā†³ harryfan2 she gets it
yourinstagram love you both so much ! thanks for coming šŸ¤
ā†³ harryfan3 she must be gemmaā€™s bff or smth
taylorfan1 HAYLOR IS SO ALIVE
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harryupdates Harry just followed this account on Instagram !
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harryfan1 oh????
harryfan2 he has attended so many eras tour shows he befriended the cast
harryfan3 she also interacts with gemma a lot šŸ‘€
harryfan4 how crazy would it be if heā€™s dating her and not back with taylor like everyone thinks lol
ā†³ taylorfan1 donā€™t be delusional
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harryupdates HARRY BACKSTAGE AT THE ERAS TOUR IN DENVER !!!
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harryfan1 STOOOP
harryfan2 i was against the rumors of haylor rekindling but this is so šŸ˜­
taylorfan1 if i had a nickel for every time harry has attended the eras tour iā€™d have more than 5 nickels which is INSANE
harryfan3 the rumors are true i guess
TWITTER
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yourinstagram the way fans figure things out never ceases to amaze me šŸ˜› #randomthougts
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harryfan1 is this who we think harry is dating?
tamiyaxlewis šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚ Love youuuu
taylorfan1 i want to know the eras tour inside tea
gemmastyles Welcome to my life
harryfan2 blink if youā€™re dating harry
harryfan3 sheā€™s so pretty tho
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haylortea TAYLOR JUST ANNOUNCED 1989 TV WITH HARRY IN THE AUDIENCE !!! STYLE FT HARRY IS COMING
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harryfan1 OMFGGG
harryfan2 WAS HARRY REALLY THERE ??
ā†³ taylorfan1 yes thereā€™s pictures around twitter !
taylorfan2 i think a collab with harry is possible since itā€™s been denied that theyā€™re back together !
harryfan3 THE IMPLICATIONS !
HARRY VIA INSTAGRAM STORIES
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yourinstagram hereā€™s the reason he attended so many shows šŸ„¹šŸ’˜ (if you know you know)
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harryfan1 HUH?
kamnsaunders FINALLY !!!
harryfan2 if i canā€™t see his face itā€™s not real
annetwist Love, love ā¤ļø
taylorfan1 this is hilarious LMAO yā€™all really thought it was all about haylor
harryfan3 WHY AM I CRYING THIS IS THE SOFTEST HARD LAUNCH EVER
harrystyles ā¤ļø
ā†³ harryfan1 STOP
ā†³ harryfan3 I JUST FELL TO MY KNEES
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yourinstagram Taylor Swift: Eraā€™s Tour World Premiere šŸ«¶šŸ»āœØšŸ„¹ To Taylor and the cast: I just love yā€™all. Thatā€™s it.
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harryfan1 okay sheā€™s stunning
audreydouglass Sheā€™s beauty and sheā€™s graceā€¦ love you twin šŸ„°
harryfan2 DID HARRY ATTEND THE PREMIERE?
ā†³ harryfan3 i donā€™t think so thereā€™s no pics
annetwist Congratulations ā¤ļø
harryfan4 iā€™ve lived 293728 lives since the first time harry was spotted at the eras tour
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harryupdates HARRY AT THE ERAS TOUR FILM PREMIERE !!
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harryfan1 AHHHh
harryfan2 HE LOOKS SO BABY
harryfan3 my heart he gave yn her time to shine
harryfan4 I LOVE THIS COUPLE !! who wouldā€™ve thought harry would be dating one of the eraā€™s tour dancers
taglist: @lightsoutstyles @willowpains @straightontilmornin n @sleutherclaw @gimsaysay y @hazzassmirk @platinumbarbie143 @musicforcinemas @celesteblack08 @scntfrhs @eleanordaisy @lomlolivia a @iceebabies @iloveshawn @be-with-me-so-happily @watermelonsugacry @rayisthehoe @drewrry @white-wolf-buckaroo
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new favorite video, yes!!ā¤ļøšŸ¤šŸ’™ #RWRB #RWRBMovie #RedWhiteAndRoyalBlue thank you Aneesh!!
!! more VERY IMPORTANT RWRB content in this post: https://yourartmatters-itswhatgotmehere.tumblr.com/post/739408729011781632/rwrb-this
Henry Fox & Arthur Fox-post here: https://yourartmatters-itswhatgotmehere.tumblr.com/post/738761008290627584/when-alex-texted-henry-yo-theres-a-bond
----from: https://instagram.com/p/C1POyPot_ZC/
my RWRB instagram highlight here: https://www.instagram.com/stories/highlights/18198132073262637/
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THIS SONG IS SO FIRSTPRINCE!! thank you Nick & Taylor, i'm adding it to my RWRB playlist!!
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ā™„. and now some RWRB links here:
Matthew talking about Alex's bisexuality ahead of the movie:
Alex, our ACD, our bisexual king post:
our FIRSTPRINCE post/mostly beautiful pictures/:
FIRSTPRINCE EDITS(post with edits/linksā™„):
coming out-important post/A's speech(both movie+book versions):
RWRB DELETED SCENES post:
RWRB BLOOPERS/BTS post:
THAT SCENE-Alex and Prince Henry Flirt Over Text:
KARAOKE SCENE:
Them reading RWRB:
!! https://nicostiel.tumblr.com/post/725473496174575616/red-white-and-royal-blue-2023-text-posts
for more bonus content post, nick's other queer roles posts, more taylor etc visit my tumblr account and use the hashtags in the search!ā™„
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Napoleonville [Chapter 1: The Fall-Down House]
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Series Summary: The year is 1988. The town is Napoleonville, Louisiana. You are a small business owner in need of some stress relief. Aemond is a stranger with a taste for domination. But as his secrets are revealed, this casual arrangement becomes something more volatile than either of you could have ever imagined.
Chapter Warnings: Language, sexual content (18+ readers only), dom/sub dynamics, alligators, kids, parenthood, smoking, cupcakes!
Word Count: 7.2k (she's very chonky for a first chapter).
Link to chapter list (and all my writing):Ā HERE.
Since this is the first chapter of a new series, I'm going to tag a bunch of usual readers, but I won't tag you again unless you want me to. šŸ’œ
@persephonerinyes @tinykryptonitewerewolf @daenysx @babyblue711 @arcielee @bhanclegane @jvpit3rs @padfooteyes @marvelescvpe @travelingmypassion @darkenchantress @yeahright0h @poohxlove @trifoliumviridi @bloodyflowerrr @fan-goddess @devynsficrecs @flowerpotmage @thelittleswanao3 @seabasscevans @hiraethrhapsody @libroparaiso @st-eve-barnes @chattylurker @vagharnaur @moonlightfoxx @heliosscribbles @beautifulsweetschaos @namelesslosers @partnerincrime0 @burningcoffeetimetravel-fics @marbles-posts @maidmerrymint @backyardfolklore @dd122004dd @jetblack4real @joliettes @mariahossain @minttea07 @please-buckme @florent1s @tempt-ress @wintersire @w3ird11 @eltherevir @florent1s @maii777
Let me know if you'd like to be tagged! šŸ„°šŸ§
ā€œWhat do you want to do to me?ā€ you whisper through the phone, stretched out across your bed like a cat as George Michaelā€™s Faith plays from the baby pink Panasonic boombox out in the kitchen. Itā€™s late afternoon, and fading daylight falls in tiger stripes through the window blinds. The May air is hot, muggy, golden; cicadas hum in the southern live oaks, an ancient earthen music like rattling bones.
A few seconds pass before he can reply. It was a bold way to begin. You are admittedly a little impressed with yourself; an idea like this has been pacing around in your skull like a beast behind bars for years, but youā€™ve only now set it loose. ā€œThatā€™s difficult to explain in words,ā€ he says; and in the low, teasing purr of his voice you can hear that your gamble paid off like striking oil. He has a British accent, which you never would have expected. You only recognize it from clips youā€™ve seen of Prince Charles and Princess Diana on 60 Minutes. ā€œBut Iā€™d enjoy showing you.ā€
Itā€™s laid open beside you on the bed, his personal ad in the Bayou Journal: Educated white male in his mid-20s. Single and not looking to change that. Seeking an open-minded, adventurous, and spirited lady for short-term D/s arrangement. Be prepared to answer the following riddle: Iā€™m small but loom large, Iā€™m Italian but French, I give away much to gain little. Who am I? Best regards, An Indecent Gentleman. ā€œIā€™m waiting.ā€
ā€œYou understand what is meant by D/s?ā€
ā€œOf course,ā€ you say, your best feigned flippantness. You only know because Amir told you; heā€™s been daring you to call for three days.
ā€œThank God,ā€ the man on the other end of the line sighs. There is an inhale like a drag on a cigarette. You imagine what he might look like: broad or slight, dark-haired or blonde, striking or average or homely, treacherous or safe, forbidden fruit or just plain forbidden. ā€œIā€™ve had four different women ring me thinking Iā€™m going to be their boyfriend, dinner and flowers and everything. Theyā€™re functionally illiterate down here.ā€
How unfortunate, you think. Heā€™s highfalutin. But alas, no one is perfect. Thatā€™s no prohibitive obstacle. He doesnā€™t need to be faultless; itā€™s not as if youā€™re planning to marry the guy. ā€œI like when someone else is in control.ā€
ā€œWhy?ā€ This is a test, you can feel it. You can sense his rapt attention across the wire, through the electricity and the lush treetops and the rust-amber sky.
ā€œI have a lot ofā€¦responsibilities in my real life,ā€ you explain. ā€œA lot of pressure. I make the decisions, I look out for other people. Sometimes I want to be the one whoā€™s told what to do.ā€
ā€œI can make that happen. And the riddle?ā€
ā€œItā€™s Napoleon.ā€
The grin is sharp and triumphant in his voice. ā€œGood girl.ā€
ā€œHe was short but an emperor. He was born in Corsica to an Italian family, but he ended up ruling over France. He sold off a bunch of French colonies to focus on conquering Europe and still couldnā€™t quite manage it. But the U.S.A. got this charming little corner of the world as part of the bargain.ā€
ā€œYouā€™re a historian,ā€ the man says, sounding pleased.
ā€œNo sir, we all had to learn about him in school whether we wanted to or not.ā€
ā€œSir,ā€ he echoes, tasting it, savoring it. You imagine a pink tongue flicking out to skate across his lips. Then he is abruptly cool, impersonal, businesslike. ā€œListen, Iā€™ve got a scar down the left side of my face. Itā€™s thin, itā€™s clean, but itā€™s noticeable. The eye is glass, although you canā€™t really tell unless you look closely. Is that a problem?ā€
A scar? Is he a veteran? A lion tamer? A motorcycle enthusiast? You try to remember what kinds of hobbies British people have. Isnā€™t there some kind of sport where men swing sticks around while riding horses? That sounds like it could put an eye out. Perhaps to your own surprise, you find that you are more intrigued than uneasy. Oh, you realize, dull like dawn through mist. I like him. I want him. Not just THIS, but HIM. ā€œNo, I donā€™t think so.ā€
ā€œBrilliant. I donā€™t want to talk about it again.ā€
ā€œThatā€™s fine.ā€ You hesitate. ā€œThereā€™s actually something I should tell you too.ā€
ā€œHm?ā€
The hum of his voice is arrogant, hungry. You try not to get distracted. Blood rushes hot and ashamed into your cheeks. ā€œUm, well, uh, sometimes itā€™s difficult for me toā€¦you know. Finish. Not when Iā€™m alone, just when Iā€™m with a guy. Especially if Iā€™m anxious. And I donā€™t want to feel worried about faking it or making sure it happens or dealing with you getting offended or upset or whatever. Because itā€™s fine, really. It doesnā€™t mean Iā€™m not having a good time. Iā€™m justā€¦stuck in my own head.ā€
There is a sound you canā€™t quite match to an expression, an exhale, a scoff. ā€œObviously I wouldnā€™t be mad at you. But youā€™ll come. I know you will. Iā€™ll make you.ā€
And youā€™re flooded with a relief that you never dared to hope for. A confession spills out in a trembling whisper: ā€œPlease.ā€
ā€œWhen?ā€ he says, eager, urgent.
ā€œI think if we donā€™t do it now, Iā€™ll lose my nerve.ā€
There is a razor-thin pause, and then he asks for your address.
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You havenā€™t had a man in your bed in years; you are abruptly and unkindly reminded of this when you paw through the top drawer of your bedroom dresser and find only practical, deadly unsexy cotton Kmart underwear. You dash to the closet, yank open the squeaking door, andā€”tucked away in a cardboard box of winter clothes like sweaters and jeans, forgotten, needlessā€”unearth a sprinkling of insubstantial silk and lace, all in luxurious gemstone hues: amethyst, ruby, sapphire, onyx, emerald.
ā€œOh, hallelujah.ā€ You throw off your sunshine yellow shorts and tug on what were once upon a time your favorite panties. They donā€™t fit nearly as well as they used to; they fit horribly, in fact. They evaporate the thrill and leave nauseous trepidation in its place. ā€œOh God. Oh no. Oh no, oh no.ā€ You steal a harried glimpse of the clunky black alarm clock on your nightstand. The flashing red numbers inform you that you have approximately ten more minutes until he arrives.
You jog pantsless to the kitchen, pour yourself a glass of sweet teaā€”ice cold, bright with a squeeze of lemon juiceā€”and pace back and forth across the wooden floor as you sip it. The pine boards slope at just the slightest angle; if you laid an apple by your feet, it would roll. The house is sinking. It was built at the turn of the twentieth century, but it wonā€™t live to see the next. Ailing sunlight casts your shadow against the wall, mint green, spider-leg cracks inching through the paint. Outside cicadas buzz and doves coo in long, mournful whirrs.
You pick up the phoneā€”pink to match the boombox that is now playing Poisonā€™s Nothinā€™ But A Good Timeā€”next to the refrigerator and dial with one finger, your other hand still clutching the frosty glass of sweet tea. It rings twice before he answers.
ā€œWassup?ā€ Amir says distractedly. You can hear a commotion from his living room on the other side of town: his grandmother squawking, ambient applause, Wheel Of Fortune.
ā€œQuick, what should I wear?ā€
ā€œHuh?ā€
ā€œThe guy! The guy from the ad! I called the guy! What should I be wearing when he shows up?ā€
Amir cackles. ā€œHo, you must be truly desperate, why the fuck are you asking me?ā€ There is some shrill protestation in the background. ā€œGrandma, donā€™t you dare try to act like youā€™ve never heard that word before, we just rented Aliens.ā€
ā€œYou know what men like,ā€ you plead.
ā€œNot the straight ones!ā€ And then, not to you: ā€œGrandma, calm down. Grandma, Grandma! Itā€™s my homegirl. She has an emergency. Sheā€™s got a man coming over and she doesnā€™t know what to wear. What did you wear for Pop Pop? What? What?! You expect me to believe you got seven kids out of that dude with just some old floral nightgown?! Prairie girl fabulous? Looking like youā€™re on your way to join the Donner Party? Okay, if you say so! Phyllis knows best!ā€ Amirā€™s attention returns to you. ā€œGrandma suggests a nightgown.ā€
You are skeptical. ā€œThat seems slutty.ā€
ā€œYouā€™re inviting some stranger over for an all-expenses-paid ride on the Pussy Express and youā€™re concerned about looking slutty?!ā€
He has a point. ā€œOkay. Okay. Yeah. Youā€™re right. Okay.ā€
ā€œYou wear that nightgown with confidence and you take that random kinky man directly to bed, do you understand me?ā€ Amir orders.
ā€œTotally,ā€ you say, gulping sweet tea with a shaking hand.
ā€œGood luck. I gotta go, itā€™s the Bonus Round. Hope you have a few rounds to tell me about tomorrow.ā€ Then he hangs up.
Back in your bedroom closet, you find a black satin slip that runs to your ankles and flows like a ballgown. You put it on some nights when youā€™re feeling desirable, after a bath of bubbles and steam, candles and Madonna, freshly shaved legs and shimmering with Pondā€™s, when you want to lounge around daydreaming, when you want to remember the fantasies you once had about what your life might turn out to be. Now you wear it in the fading daylight, nothing underneath and golden sunbeams turning your skin to something that warms and glows.
You appraise yourself in your dusty dresser mirror, and you think: Not too bad, actually. Youā€™ve had your hair up in a haphazard bun. You reach to take it down, then stop yourself. You like the wayward wisps, the I-donā€™t-care-too-much casualness. Your breathing is slow and calm again. There is a noise outside: tires crunching on gravel. Your glass of sweet tea, now mostly just ice cubes, is sweating on top of your dresser. You grab the glass, swipe the Bayou Journal off your bed, and take both to the kitchen counter, still speckled with flour, powdered sugar, flecks of cinnamon. Then you pad across the sloping wooden floor in your bare feet to open the front door. Amber dusk streams in; you can hear bullfrogs croaking and the hoots of the long-eared owl that lives in the collapsing, overgrown shed behind the house. Spanish moss hangs like cobwebs, like chandeliers. The tree swing rocks idly in the breeze. The first notes of You Shook Me All Night Long play from the kitchen boombox.
His car is red, sporty, with a logo on the grill that you donā€™t recognize, a series of circles intertwined like rings. He cuts the engine and steps out into the driveway as you watch from behind the screen, leaning against the doorframe with your arms crossed over your chest. Heā€™s tall, trim, blonde, wearing Adidas sneakers and light-wash jeans and a Marlboro jacket that itā€™s far too hot for. He peers around, taking in the trees and the house through his black aviator sunglasses. He puffs one last time on a cigarette before putting it out on his own windshield and starting towards the porch. And immediately, primally, you crave him like water or air.
He climbs the groaning steps, splitting wood and rusty nails. You open the screen door to meet him in the threshold. And he takes off his sunglasses so he can look at you, stowing them in a pocket of his jacket, his gaze not wavering from yours, his lips not saying a word. Yes, he has a scar, but it doesnā€™t diminish him in the slightest. Yes, his left eye may be glass, but you wouldnā€™t have noticed if he hadnā€™t already told you. Youā€™re too tangled up in the right. His iris is a brisk greyish blue, not like the ocean, not like the bayou, more like the sky before a hurricane, heavy with the threat of wind and rain. His face is strong, jarring, beautiful in a rare way. His full lips are curling into a grin.
At last, you speak first, an inane observation that feels somehow significant. ā€œYou found me.ā€
ā€œI did.ā€ He nods towards the large lavender sign out by the mouth of the gravel driveway. Hand-painted on it are the words Hummingbird Bakery and a logo that Amir designed, a hummingbird feeding on the frosting swirl of a cupcake as if itā€™s a flower flush with nectar. ā€œYou told me to look for the sign. That helped.ā€
ā€œWhat kind of car do you drive? I donā€™t recognize it.ā€
ā€œItā€™s an Audi Quattro.ā€
ā€œAudi,ā€ you repeat, like a hopelessly distant place, New York City or Los Angeles or Paris or the moon. ā€œIs that British?ā€
ā€œGerman, actually.ā€
ā€œYouā€™re from a very different world.ā€
ā€œYeah, I am.ā€ His eye flicks up and down your body, black satin that curves and clings; his grin widens. ā€œBut I could learn to like yours, I think.ā€
You step back so he can follow you inside. The screen door shuts with a bang. Under the shadows, as the sun sets into the west, he unzips his Marlboro jacket and tosses it onto your living room couch. Underneath he wears a white t-shirt. Weā€™re opposites, you think dazedly, wondering what he will taste like when he kisses you. He grazes his fingertips down the front of your throat, continues to your chest, stills when he hits the satin of your slip.
ā€œYou can tell me to stop whenever you want to,ā€ he murmurs, and you breathe in his smoke and cologne and dauntless, dizzying self-assurance. ā€œBut until you say stop, Iā€™m gonna keep going.ā€
Your heartbeat is drumming beneath his hand, part exhilaration and the rest nerves. You are afraid of disappointing him; you arenā€™t sure what to expect. ā€œI donā€™t even know your name.ā€
ā€œAemond.ā€
Aemond. Foreign, like Audi, like Paris. You give him your own in return. He leans in, presses his hips to yours, denim and satin that you can feel his heat through. And you think heā€™s going to kiss your neck, or bite it, bruise it, mark it, claim it, claim you; but he only ghosts his parted lips from the edge of your jaw to your bare shoulder, inhaling slow and deep, drawing your atoms into his lungs until they tumble down the narrowest corridors and into his capillary beds, into his bloodstream. You moan softly, helplessly, and turn your face to kiss him.
ā€œNo,ā€ Aemond growls, teasing you, catching your chin with one hand to hold you still. His other hand glides down the front of your slip and stops between your legs. Through satin the color of a starless midnight, his fingers stroke you roughly, commandingly. Animalistic yearning bolts low to weaken your knees, high to rip a gasp from your throat. ā€œNothing underneath,ā€ he notes in approval.
Oh, I like him, you think, in equal parts ecstatic and petrified. I REALLY like him.
But are you going to be able to impress him too? Are you going to ruin this?
You whimper, unintentionally and almost inaudibly. Aemond is studying your face; furrows appear in his scarred brow, so faint and fleeting you might have imagined them. Then his hand retreats as he says: ā€œShow me your toys.ā€
You gape up at him; this is not what you anticipated. ā€œWhat?ā€
ā€œI want to see how you make yourself come. You have toys, donā€™t you?ā€
ā€œI do,ā€ you admit, though youā€™ve never used them with anyone else before.
Aemond smirks mischieviously, then commands: ā€œShow me. Right now.ā€
You lead him to your bedroom and slide open the middle drawer of your dresser. You glance at his reflection in the silvery glass of the mirror; heā€™s staring, not at your body but at your face, his gaze locked with yours, his mouth open, entranced, hungry. You move to stand against the wall, smiling sheepishly as Aemond shoves aside folded sheets and pillowcases to reveal your collection. Itā€™s nothing too adventurous: five vibrators in different colors, styles, sizes.
ā€œQuite the assortment,ā€ he praises.
ā€œThey were gifts from a friend.ā€
Now Aemond is dubious. ā€œA friend?ā€
ā€œDonā€™t be jealous. He doesnā€™t like women.ā€
Aemond laughs, warm and boyish like heā€™s breaking character; and you are alarmed by the wave of fondness for him that crashes through you. Itā€™s something that could pull you under. Itā€™s something you could drown in. He picks up the largest vibrator: long, thick, pink like soft feminine vulnerability, like love. Then he is darkly, deliciously stern again. ā€œOn the bed.ā€
ā€œNo.ā€ Not because youā€™re genuinely protesting. Because you want him to make you.
Aemond grabs you around your waist and drags you towards the bed as you squeal, giggle, fight him halfheartedly. He throws you down onto the wildflower-patterned duvet and climbs between your thighs, parting them as he pushes the hem of your black satin slip up to your waist. Abruptly, you are bare for him, exposed, fiery dusk air cool against your wetness. Aemond is still fully clothed, white shirt and pale blue jeans. He is holding your legs open with his own. You can see the bulge of his cock beneath the denim: at least as large as the vibrator and hard with insistent longing.
I want him, you think as you hear the vibrator click on. I want him, I want himā€¦
Aemond brings the pink silicone tip to your flesh, and instantly youā€™re ravenous. It shocks you how much more erotic this is when someone else is holding it, when someone else has you entirely at their mercy. You cry out, loud and shameless, euphoric. Your back arches; your fingers twist into the duvet. As he presses the vibrator down more forcefully, Aemond braces his hips against yours, grinding into you through his jeans, taunting you, conquering you.
You fumble for the button and zipper of his jeans. ā€œPleaseā€”ā€
ā€œNo,ā€ Aemond snarls, beaming, snatching your hand and pinning it up by your head. His other hand is still circling your clit with the tip of the vibrator. ā€œYou havenā€™t earned it yet.ā€
ā€œAemond, please, I need youā€”ā€
ā€œNo,ā€ he says, defiant. He makes the rules. He has the power; heā€™s in control. Suddenly, he pulls the vibrator away. You yelp in dismay. ā€œYou know,ā€ Aemond quips cavalierly. ā€œItā€™s a shame you have such a difficult time finishing when youā€™re with a man. I bet youā€™re not even close.ā€
ā€œI am,ā€ you whine, in agony, in ecstasy.
Aemond pretends to be surprised. ā€œHm.ā€ He returns the vibrator to your skin, slick, hot, aching in the most wondrous way. You sigh as the pleasure surges through you, as you soar up to the previous plateau and then begin to ascend beyond it. You must have repositioned yourself without noticing; Aemond releases your hand to smack his palm against the inside of your thigh. ā€œKeep your legs apart. I want you wide open for me.ā€
ā€œI will, I promise.ā€ Iā€™ll do anything you tell me to.
Aemondā€™s hand ventures lower. Two of his fingers glide inside you and thrust in time with his hips. ā€œFuck,ā€ he hisses, breaking character again; and something rocks through his shoulders, his spine, a divine temptation that he is battling.
ā€œAemond, more,ā€ you plead, looking at the massive outline of his cock under his jeans.
ā€œNot yet,ā€ he pants, fucking you with his fingers as the vibrator hums against your clit. ā€œYou have to come for me first, baby. You have to earn it.ā€
And youā€™re close, you really are, youā€™re closer than you ever would have imagined youā€™d be with him tonight, this stranger, this elusive British man, this man from a personal ad in the Bayou Journal that you almost never replied to. Your hair has come undone and is wild around your face; your heart is pounding frantically; your skin is bathed in a sheen of victorious perspiration. When was the last time someone made you feel like this? You canā€™t recall; the answer might be never. There is a spellbinding, intensifying sensation of warmth, of opening, youā€™re only seconds from the brink, youā€™re ready to step off the precipice and into open blue air the same color as his eyesā€”
Aemond yanks the vibrator away again, grinning toothily down at you.
ā€œNo!ā€ You scrabble for him with shaking hands, pulling yourself up as you reach for the vibrator. Aemond pushes you back onto the bed. Despite your protests, you love the feeling of his weight on top of yours; you love the organic symphony heā€™s built of, muscle and bone and skill and power. His fingers are still pumping in and out of you, keeping you soaked and throbbing, pinning you to the edge of an orgasm without permitting you to succumb to it.
ā€œItā€™s going to be so good for you like this, baby,ā€ Aemond insists, low and raspy. Heā€™s reading your face, attentive to every detail, drinking up your desperate body and quivering voice. ā€œI swear Iā€™m not torturing you for no reason. Let me show you. Let me take care of you. When it happens, itā€™s going to blow your fucking mind. Are you ready?ā€
ā€œYes, now, please, do it now,ā€ you whimper as you lie beneath him, open, bare, senseless, vanquished.
Aemond drags his tongue over the tip of the vibrator, moaning with lust as he tastes you. Then he at last presses the pink silicone to your clit once more. In your electrified nerves, in your scalding blood, there are sparks and momentum and currents rushing towards the cataclysmic breaking of a rogue wave. ā€œNice and slow,ā€ Aemond murmurs. ā€œLet it build.ā€
Instead of the peak, you reach another plateau, so high and so rapturous you canā€™t stand it, you canā€™t fathom climbing any farther. Itā€™s becoming so sharp and intense itā€™s almost painful. Fresh anxiety flashes in your mind like lightning. The momentum begins to dissipate like dewdrops under the late-morning sun. Oh no, Iā€™m going to lose it, Iā€™m going to disappoint himā€”
Aemond lifts the vibrator off you again; before you have time to collect yourself enough to speak, to apologize, heā€™s slipped his fingers out of you and carefully guided the vibrator inside, stretching you, filling you, thrusting rhythmically but not too viciously or too deep. He places his thumbprint on the place where the vibrator was just seconds ago and circles quickly, once, twice, again, and thenā€¦
You try not to scream, but you canā€™t help it, canā€™t stop it; the climax wrenches out of you indescribable pleasure, vanished fears, awe and relief, twisted muscles and gasping breaths, every electrical impulse of every atom, and each time you believe itā€™s over it rolls a little farther like an endless summer afternoon. When itā€™s doneā€”truly doneā€”you arenā€™t sure exactly how it happens but suddenly youā€™re sitting upright on the bed and the vibrator is lying forgotten on top of the duvet and Aemond is laughing, kissing youā€”sweat and nicotine, smoke and saltā€”and caressing your face with his hands, saying: ā€œYou were such a good girl. You did amazing. Iā€™m so proud of you.ā€
ā€œOkay,ā€ you exhale unsteadily, smiling. You nod to the very noticeable bulge in his jeans. ā€œYour turn.ā€
ā€œNo,ā€ Aemond says primly.
ā€œWhat?ā€
ā€œNo,ā€ he repeats. ā€œNot today.ā€
ā€œButā€¦butā€¦why?ā€
The curl of his lips is crooked and playful. ā€œTo prove Iā€™m not just here to get myself off.ā€ He kisses you again, far more tenderly than any random dom from a personal ad should. ā€œYou donā€™t trust me. But maybe next time you will.ā€
ā€œHow could I trust you? I donā€™t even know you.ā€
ā€œWeā€™ll have to spend more time together.ā€
ā€œYou seriously arenā€™t going to fuck me right now? Me? A mostly-naked stranger you met up with exclusively for the purposes of fucking?ā€
ā€œAre you dissatisfied?ā€
In truth, no; your pulse is slowing, your thoughts are calm, your lust is satiated, youā€™re reasonably certain that youā€™ve sprained no less than four muscles. You feel like the sky after rain: emptied, unburdened, untroubled, at peace. ā€œNot at all.ā€
ā€œThen you shouldnā€™t be complaining.ā€
You reach out to touch Aemondā€™s unscarred cheek and he smiles. You try to ghost your fingertips over the left side of his face and he flinches away, leaves the bed, takes the vibrator to the bathroom to scrub it with soap and water. ā€œCan I at least pour you a glass of sweet tea or something?ā€ you call after him. ā€œI feel guilty. I feel like I didnā€™t uphold my end of the bargain.ā€
ā€œYou exceeded all of my expectations,ā€ Aemond says with a strange sort of somberness. ā€œBut sweet tea sounds great.ā€
You take five minutes to clean up and change into real clothesā€”ratty denim shorts and a red, white, and blue Pepsi t-shirt, chaotic hair, no braā€”and then meet Aemond in the kitchen. Heā€™s surveying the large circular table, which is littered with covered cake plates in a hodgepodge of sizes and colors; you found most of them at yard sales and thrift shops. The sun has set and the stars have risen; the kitchen is illuminated by yellow-hued florescent light. Night air flows in through the screens of the open windows. The boombox is currently playing Tiffanyā€™s I Think Weā€™re Alone Now.
ā€œWhatā€™s the deal with that?ā€ Aemond asks about the cluttered kitchen table.
ā€œTheyā€™re the baked goods. For my bakery.ā€
ā€œRight,ā€ he says, remembering, tapping his chin thoughtfully. ā€œThe sign out front.ā€
ā€œWould you like anything? Today we had butterscotch chiffon cake, coconut custard cake, blackberry dark chocolate cupcakes, pecan pie, red velvet brownies, lemon blueberry cookies, lavender black tea cookies, chocolate meringue pie, butter pecan muffinsā€¦ā€
ā€œHow about those?ā€ He points.
ā€œOh! Those are banana bread cupcakes. One of my favorites.ā€
ā€œBanana breadā€¦cupcakes?ā€
ā€œHere.ā€ You plop one on a plate for Aemond, then go to the refrigerator to pour two tall glasses of sweet tea. ā€œA lot of people put chocolate chips in their banana bread, but I feel like any chocolate really eclipses the banana flavor. Itā€™s so subtle, you know? So what I do instead is cinnamon, honey, cream cheese frosting, and a tiny bit of sea salt mixed into the batter. If you get the ratio just right, thereā€™s this really great blend of saltiness and sweetness, and the banana is still the star of the show. Of course Iā€™ve fucked up plenty of times too and almost given myself dangerously high blood pressure. If I ruin a batch, Iā€™m the one who has to eat it. We canā€™t let anything go to waste. Our profit margin is thinner than a crescent moon on the best months.ā€
ā€œOh my God,ā€ Aemond says. Heā€™s taken a bite and is now gawking at the banana bread cupcake. ā€œYou made this?ā€ He gestures to the table. ā€œYou made all of this?ā€
ā€œMy best friend Amir runs the business with me, but most of the recipes are mine. My mom used to bake all the time when I was little. Now she has rheumatoid arthritis and has given it up, more or less, but thatā€™s where I learned a lot of what I know. And I try to come up with new ideas each week to add to the rotation.ā€
ā€œThis is exceptional,ā€ Aemond says. His mouth is full of the rest of the cupcake. He washes it down with a few gulps of sweet tea; ice cubes jangle in the misty glass. ā€œThis is, like, insanely good. Can I have another oneā€¦?ā€ Heā€™s already lifting the cover off the cake plate.
You chuckle. ā€œYeah, seriously, have as many as you like.ā€
ā€œHow much do you sell them for?ā€
ā€œThe cupcakes are $1, but you donā€™t have to pay me. You get the unrequited orgasm discount.ā€
ā€œJust $1 each.ā€ Aemond is incredulous. You arenā€™t sure what thatā€™s about. He sets the second cupcake down on the table, tugs a black leather wallet out of his jeans pocket, and gives you a $10 bill.
ā€œAemond, really, you donā€™t have toā€”ā€
ā€œI know I donā€™t have to. I want to. Take the money. Stop talking about it.ā€
You smirk up at him. ā€œIs that an order, sir?ā€
He grabs your jaw with one forceful hand, kisses you roughly, bites your lower lip almost hard enough to draw blood. He tastes like cinnamon, honey, sugar, sex. ā€œYes,ā€ he says, grinning wickedly. Then his hands drop to unbutton your shorts. The idea of stopping Aemond doesnā€™t even cross your mind; your desire for himā€”him specificallyā€”is back, flaring red and primeval and irresistible. ā€œI want you on top of that counterā€”ā€
Outside there are footsteps bounding up the front porch, loud on the creaking boards. You tear away from Aemond and hurry to re-button your shorts. What? Already??
You know exactly who it must be.
Well, now Iā€™m definitely never going to see Aemond again.
Heā€™s terrified, heā€™s wondering whether he should try to jump out of a window. But really, heā€™s already been spotted; his Audi Quattro is still waiting for him in the gravel driveway. ā€œPlease donā€™t tell me thatā€™s your homicidal armed boyfriend or something.ā€
ā€œNo,ā€ you say. ā€œItā€™s my daughter.ā€
ā€œWait, yourā€¦?!ā€
The door swings open; you hardly ever lock it. Cadi trots in just as you are flipping over the copy of the Bayou Journal on the kitchen counter so Aemondā€™s personal ad is no longer visible. Instead, what now faces upā€”dotted with flour, powdered sugar, cinnamon, grease stains of butterā€”is a column about the rigs opened in Lake Verret. Just what this town needs, you think distractedly. An environmental disaster.
ā€œMom, whose radical car is thatā€”?ā€ Then Cadi spies Aemond and blinks at him a few times. She is ten years old but thinks sheā€™s your age, short hair, short temper, denim overalls and a t-shirt underneath patterned with multicolored horses.
ā€œThis is Aemond,ā€ you explain. He waves awkwardly and then resumes nibbling on his second banana bread cupcake, avoiding her scrutiny. ā€œHeā€™s a friend.ā€
ā€œBut you donā€™t have any friends,ā€ Cadi replies.
ā€œWatch it, Child Of The Corn. I have friends.ā€
ā€œYou have like one friend.ā€
ā€œWhat happened to your sleepover with Mawmaw? I thought you were excited to trick her into watching Hellraiser.ā€
ā€œBlockbuster didnā€™t have it. Then Great Aunt Ethel called and said she broke her hip. Mawmaw dropped me off here on her way to the hospital.ā€
ā€œAnd she didnā€™t even think to check with me first, huh?ā€
ā€œAs if youā€™d have anything better to do.ā€ Cadi races to the refrigeratorā€”careening around a shellshocked Aemondā€”and heaves open the door. ā€œWhatā€™s for dinner?ā€
ā€œI think we have some Swansonā€™s meals left. Oh, and spaghetti.ā€
She narrows her eyes at you. ā€œWho made it?ā€
ā€œYouā€™re in luck! Not me. Amir.ā€
ā€œYay!ā€ Cadi trills, then drags out the pan and begins spooning mounds of spaghetti onto a plate. Aemond looks to you, intrigued.
You say: ā€œI bake, I donā€™t cook.ā€
ā€œShe really doesnā€™t,ā€ Cadi concurs.
ā€œCompletely different skillset.ā€
Cadi places a few paper towels over the heaping plate so sauce doesnā€™t splatter all over the microwave and then sets it to three minutes. As she waits to eat, she wanders over to where the Bayou Journal is lying on the counter and scans the page: Viserys Targaryen, three state-of-the-art oil rigs, Lake Verret, an additional 50 employees hired, Jade Dragon Energy. ā€œThose bastards are going to get their way, I guess.ā€
You sigh. ā€œYup.ā€
Aemond is alarmed. He polishes off the last of his cupcake, frowning as he licks frosting from his lips. ā€œYou donā€™t approve?ā€
ā€œTheyā€™ll blow up the whole town,ā€ Cadi says matter-of-factly.
You smile wanly at Aemond as you sip your sweet tea. ā€œYou work for Jade Dragon, right?ā€
He stares back at youā€”stunned, perhaps even fearful, a deer flooded with headlightsā€”but doesnā€™t speak.
ā€œItā€™s alright. I figured you must. Some smart British guy way out here in Cajun Country? Itā€™s gotta be for a job. Donā€™t worry. We wonā€™t shoot and skin you or anything. Itā€™s not your fault. Youā€™re just collecting a paycheck, itā€™s not like youā€™re running the company.ā€
ā€œRight.ā€ Aemond grabs a third cupcake and gnaws at it. After a moment he adds: ā€œI have a degree in petroleum engineering. I just moved to Napoleonville last week.ā€
ā€œI knew it,ā€ you say.
ā€œBoo!ā€ Cadi heckles jokingly. The microwave beeps, then she disappears into her bedroom with her plate of spaghetti. You hear Cadi turn on her little television and flip through the channels until she finds Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. Aemond watches her closed door for a few secondsā€”still processing, you assumeā€”and then turns back to you.
ā€œHer nameā€™s Katie?ā€
ā€œCadi. C-a-d-i. Itā€™s short for Arcadia.ā€
He is impressed. ā€œGreece?ā€
You titter nervously. You donā€™t know what he means. ā€œItā€™s a town up by Shreveport, itā€™s where Bonnie and Clyde were arrested or killed or something. Iā€™m not sure. Her father picked it.ā€
ā€œYou didnā€™t have an opinion?ā€
ā€œUm, I wasnā€™t reallyā€¦uhā€¦conscious for a few days after she was born. By the time I was up and around again, heā€™d already filled out the birth certificate.ā€
What is that you see flicker across his face like the transient surge of a lightning bug? Curiosity? Apprehension? ā€œI see. And her father isā€¦ā€ Aemond raises a blonde eyebrow, the one his scar cuts through. ā€œOn an aircraft carrier somewhere?ā€
You laugh. ā€œHeā€™s not deployed. Weā€™re divorced, Willis lives about fifteen minutes down the road. Itā€™s amicable.ā€
ā€œSo I donā€™t need to worry about him showing up on your front porch to murder me with a 2x4 full of nails.ā€
ā€œNo. Although he is the town sheriff.ā€
Aemond smirks. Is this a challenge or an inconvenience? ā€œWhyā€™d you two split up?ā€
You shrug, glancing at Cadiā€™s bedroom door. She is quite aggressive with her television volume; youā€™re confident she wonā€™t be able to listen in if you keep your voice low. ā€œItā€™s not that interesting a story.ā€
ā€œIā€™m extremely interested.ā€ And he sincerely appears to be, head tilted to the side, eyes fixed on you (though you know the left one sees nothing), thoughts whirling like storm winds.
ā€œWellā€¦we only ever got married because ofā€¦ā€ You gesture towards Cadiā€™s room. Aemond nods, following along. ā€œAnd I was too young and I didnā€™t know anything. I didnā€™t know what I wanted out of a man, I didnā€™t even know I had the right to set standards to measure a husband by. Willis wasnā€™t terrible. He didnā€™t hit me. He just wasnā€™t really who I wanted.ā€ You chew at your lower lip, peering down at the kitchen counter, drawing circles in the sparse flour dust. ā€œHe never even proposed to me. Not properly, I mean. I told him I was pregnant and he said: Well, guess we oughta get married, huh sugar? and then drove me to the Kmart up in Gonzales to pick out a ring.ā€
ā€œClassy,ā€ Aemond mutters.
ā€œI had to buy it myself, actually. Willis didnā€™t have enough cash on him. He paid me back later, but still. It wasnā€™t about the ring. I donā€™t need gold and diamonds. But I need someone who really sees me and understands me and chooses me, you know? Iā€™ve never felt chosen. And I decided I didnā€™t want to settle for that. If I ever get married again, I want the whole goddamn thing. The real thing. I want the candles and the flowers and a boombox blasting Heaven Is A Place On Earth. And if thatā€™s not in the cards, I guess Iā€™m not the marrying type.ā€
ā€œAnd youā€™ll make do with occasional visits from your friendly neighborhood dom.ā€
You grin up at Aemond. ā€œYeah, exactly.ā€
ā€œYou really hate Jade Dragon?ā€
ā€œCompanies like thatā€¦they just use us. Our land, our labor. And then when they decimate the place they pack up and disappear overnight, no pensions, no retirement, no unemployment, no meaningful cleanup, just Thanks for the millions! Bye! and weā€™re left to live in their filth.ā€
ā€œThatā€™s a rather cynical perspective,ā€ Aemond says.
ā€œItā€™s a realistic perspective,ā€ you counter. ā€œIn 1965, there was a pipeline explosion in Natchitoches, in ā€˜79 there was an oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico, in ā€˜80 a Texaco rig accidentally drilled into a salt mine under Lake Peigneur and destroyed the whole ecosystem. Two weeks ago there was a refinery explosion an hour east of here in Norco. 4,500 people had to be evacuated from their homes. So no, the jobs sound nice, but in my humble estimation theyā€™re not worth dying for.ā€
Aemond considers you, a look that is not patronizing or combative but not convinced either. And thereā€™s something else too: a caginess, a nervousness.
ā€œAnd these Jade Dragon people, the Targaryens? They have a history,ā€ you continue. ā€œI read about it in the Bayou Journal. Last year they had an oil spill at an offshore rig near Ketchikan, Alaska. They poured hundreds of thousands of barrels of poison into the ocean and killed a bunch of dolphins and whales and everything. Fishermen went bankrupt, people committed suicide.ā€
ā€œMistakes happen.ā€ Aemond places his empty sweet tea glass in the sink.
ā€œBut they didnā€™t make it right. Their lawyers blamed a defective piece of equipment and kicked liability back to the manufacturer. Theyā€™ll be battling it out in court for the next decade. And meanwhile, the people of Ketchikan get nothing but misery. I donā€™t want Napoleonville to end up like that.ā€
Aemond gazes out the kitchen window and into the cicada-rattling night, faraway, pensive.
ā€œBut seriously,ā€ you say, more casually now. ā€œI get that itā€™s not your fault, Aemond. I donā€™t hate you or anything. Youā€™re working for a living like anyone else. You can only do so much.ā€
He looks back to you and smiles vaguely. ā€œI just go where they tell me to.ā€
ā€œAnd thatā€™s why you like to be in control when youā€™re with me.ā€
ā€œYes,ā€ Aemond says; and on his faceā€”strong, scarred, perfectā€”you can see that he is reminiscing, that he is planning what he wants to do to you next. But he canā€™t do any of it. Not here, not now.
ā€œIā€™m sorry aboutā€¦you know. The kid thing. I really didnā€™t think sheā€™d be home tonight. I would never subject her to something like that, walking in to find a strange guy in the house. And I wouldnā€™t want to make you uncomfortable either.ā€
ā€œItā€™s okay. I believe you.ā€
ā€œI donā€™t usually do this. Iā€™m sure you think Iā€™m lying, but Iā€™m not. Iā€™ve had two boyfriends since I got divorced seven years ago, and both times it didnā€™t last long and Cadi never met them. And it wasnā€™tā€¦like it is with you. The dynamic, I mean. Theā€¦control thing. They were just normal dudes.ā€
ā€œAnd they couldnā€™t satisfy you,ā€ Aemond says, taunting, proud, setting your blood on fire.
ā€œNo. They couldnā€™t. Not even close.ā€
You both stand silently in the kitchen amidst a cascade of inconsequential noise: Eurythmics from the little pink boombox, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles from Cadiā€™s room, cicadas and bullfrogs and the long-eared owl from the world outside that is primordial and feral and green. For the first time in as long as you can remember, you feel not like the piecemeal potential of a desirable woman but whole. Aemondā€™s right eye traces every curve and edge of you in a way that makes you think: Maybe I will see him again after all.
ā€œCome on,ā€ you say, turning towards the front door. ā€œIā€™ll walk you out.ā€
But when he steps onto the creaking porchā€”pulling on his Marlboro jacket, watching lightning bugs bloom like daisies in the yardā€”Aemond seems to be stalling. ā€œThis is lopsided,ā€ he says, tapping the wooden boards with his Adidas sneakers.
ā€œI know. The whole foundation is, itā€™s sinking. Weā€™ll have to move eventually. But weā€™ve been in this place since Cadi was five, it has a lot of memories. She calls it the Fall-Down House.ā€
ā€œCute,ā€ Aemond says, but heā€™s pondering something. ā€œDo you own it?ā€
ā€œOh no, God no. We rent.ā€
ā€œAre you saving for a down payment to put on a new house?ā€
This is a rude question. ā€œA little,ā€ you reply curtly. Not enough. You need to make money to save money.
ā€œOkay.ā€ Aemond senses your discomfort. Heā€™s good at that; itā€™s an advantageous skill for a dom to possess, knowing when heā€™s approaching a limit long before you have to shut him down. He descends the porch steps. ā€œIā€™ll be back for more of those cupcakesā€”ā€ There is a shrill, alien hissing from out by the tree line. Aemond shouts and scrambles back onto the porch, throwing an arm in front of you to shield you from his enigmatic nocturnal adversary. ā€œWhat the fuck was that?!ā€
ā€œJust a gator,ā€ you reassure him, amused.
ā€œA what?ā€
ā€œAn alligator.ā€ You show him the shadow that lurks beneath a young oak tree draped with Spanish moss. ā€œSheā€™s over there. Just stay on the gravel once you get off the porch.ā€
Aemond is puzzled. How does anyone live in this hellscape? his face says. ā€œHow do you know itā€™s a female?ā€
ā€œSheā€™s not too big, and she doesnā€™t bellow. But she sure loves to hiss.ā€
ā€œI think alligators should have gone extinct with the rest of the dinosaurs.ā€
ā€œWell, thereā€™s a secret to dealing with them.ā€
ā€œYeah?ā€
You smile, skating your fingers into the sleeve of Aemondā€™s Marlboro jacket and up his forearm until you feel goosebumps rise on his skin. ā€œIf she gets mean, you just have to bite back.ā€
Aemond chuckles, turns your face towards his, kisses the apple your cheekā€¦and then, for only a moment, his teeth close around the sensitive flesh there leaving a whirlpool of pulsing, forbidden heat. He whispers through your hair: ā€œSee you soon.ā€
ā€œWill you?ā€
ā€œYes,ā€ he says, severely now. Itā€™s a commandment, itā€™s a need. ā€œI absolutely will.ā€
Aemond leaves you, strides across the gravel driveway without glancing back, ducks into his car, lights a cigarette; you can see the rust-colored glow through the windshield as he takes a drag. You wait in a flurry of moths under the dim florescent bulb of the front porch until his Audi Quattro veers onto Route 401 and disappears.
I hope he meant it, you think as a lightning bug lands on your knuckles and illuminates there like the gemstone of a ring. I hope Iā€™ll see him again.
Then you shake away the insect and go inside to see if Cadi wants to help you clean up the kitchen and get a brown sugar pie baked for tomorrow. As compensation, youā€™ll offer her the $10 bill Aemond gave you for the cupcakes.
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miss ā€™Bine missed her blueberry just as much āœØ
Based on this text post by @flilisskywalker + an added draw of Sabine having her ā€œmissing Ezra hoursā€ once again šŸ„ŗ
I hope yā€™all enjoy these silly doodles, more will come soon enough, after all I have a list ćƒ½( Ė˜Š·Ė˜ )悝~ I also love drawing Ahsoka, sheā€™s so fun to draw with her design šŸ¤šŸ§” as well as Sabineā€™s howler friend šŸŗšŸ’œ
Please do NOT repost without credit or linking it back to meā€¼ļø
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virgo-mess Ā· 2 months
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The time has come that @karatekels and I gift you guys the link to all the TIG movies we have been able to find. It will also be routinely updated if we happen to get hold of another one! There's 12 movies on here, and the two part episode of In the Heat of the Night TIG guest starred on as the hunky carnie Luke Potter šŸ„µ! The Secret of Giving was curtosey of whichever lovely person posted the link for it during Christmas. I wasn't able to find your account again, but if you see this, thank you, and I hope you don't mind. We put it in this folder. And once again, thank you to whoever shared Beyond Forgiveness with me ages ago šŸ©µšŸ©µšŸ©µ. I hope you guys enjoy it, and I'll be sure to notify you if a new movie has been added šŸ’œ
Movie List-
Excessive Force
Black Friday aka The Kidnapping
Rock Hudson
The Secret of Giving
The Heat of the Night two part episode
The Unexpected Mrs. Pollifax
KK3
Ulterior Motives aka Kill Fee
Vampires
Black Point
Hallow Point
Beyond Forgiveness aka Blood of the Innocent
Kull the Conqueror
High Adventure
Seawolf aka The Pirate's Curse
Crackerjack
Avalanche aka Escape from Alaska
Timecop 2
Final Encounter/ For the Cause
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the-kipsabian Ā· 4 months
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wrestling fic writers!!
i have decided to be the change i wanna see, so lets do a nice little thing for each other, as a community full of incredible and talented writers. yes this is writer specific only, but thats cause thats where the main problem of people not interacting with creative works lies in this fandom as far as i can tell and have seen people talking about it especially in the last couple of months
if you read this, please add links to your written works. it can be just a single fic youre really proud of, your writing blog, your writing tag, your ao3 account, anything where your works can be found
and if you leave your link here, PLEASE check out someone else that has left their works, and interact with them. leave them a comment, even just a kudos, REBLOG their fic, etc. interacting is the keyword i want to emphasize here, along with building a sort of a masterpost of where to find people writing in this fandom
and if you are not a writer, youre still highly encouraged to interact with this post and share it and show love to the writers in this fandom, obviously!! i think that should go without saying, but adding it in anyways
a bit more about my vision and resources and such under the read more, but thats the gist of it. happy linking and please be kind and supportive to each other!! šŸ’œ
nobody is too big or too small to add their things on this list. if you write and post anything in this fandom whatsoever, be it fics or drabbles or headcanons, any companies or any kind of ships or reader inserts or any content whatsoever no matter how 'dead dove dont eat' or hell even if its just meta, we welcome all here and nobody can say that one thing is less valid than another. just please tag your content accordingly, especially if theres content warnings, and feel free to mention what you write, who you write, any info you wish to leave that would help people before they click on your links. but even so, that should not and hopefully will not deter people from interacting, no matter what it is. someones trash is another ones treasure, i promise you
and unless the amount gets really overwhelming, im personally going to be checking out everyone that leaves something here. unless it squeaks me out, but even then, i'll spread the word. and i just wish as many people as possible will do the same, and not just use this as a potential board to only get eyes on their stuff. ofc thats also the point, but you should give as much, if not more, than you get. we need to be kind and supportive of one another (besides, from personal experience, if you show love to someone else, they are more likely to do it back than without you taking the first step, so... pay it forward)
as for resources, heres a few links that should be helpful in leaving comments and feedback. of course everyone does their own thing and no comment is too big or too small to leave, but for those who need them. if you have anything you'd like added to this list, dont hesitate to get in touch or drop it in the post yourself!!
101 comment starters
ao3 floating comment box
kudos html
dont know how to comment? easy solutions
a quick hot guide to commenting (by yours truly)
an overall guide to appreciating fanfic writers
and just in general.. leave people comments. leave them asks about their projects. just go over and gush about their work. i know it sounds embarrassing but writers love nothing more than to hear that someone likes what they are doing. if you find a fic that hasnt been updated in forever, comment on it. it might just be the spark the author needs to continue. while kudos and likes are nice, and just as valuable to some, its definitely in the words the people leave for them that matter the most. im not saying this to put pressure on anyone, its just how it is, and i feel like unless people are writers themselves, and even then sometimes, thats just hard to grasp, especially if the writer is a smaller and less popular one who doesnt get a lot of traffic in the first place
i think thats all. just be nice and considered to everyone, reblog peoples works, this post with others add ons and so forth. and if i find anyone talking shit here or at other writers for something they share, you'll be blocked and im probably taking your kneecaps. be fucking nice. we are all struggling here and we need to stick together
happy sharing and commenting šŸ’œšŸ’œ
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Frenemies
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Happy birthday to my gorgeous, talented, amazing, bestie, mate, @nikethestatue!! I hope you have the lovelies of lovely birthdays, my friend. You are such a treasure to me. šŸ’œšŸ’™šŸ’š
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Please let me know what you think about this update. I love getting your feedback. Constructive criticism is always welcome. šŸ’•
Trigger warnings:Ā nsfw, hate sex, basically porn with no plot
Word Count: 3,440
This fic will be posted on AO3 only. Read here.
Elain sat at the bar, sipping a tumbler full of whiskey. Her face grimaced as the amber liquid slid down her throat, burning the whole way down. The annual office holiday party was in full swing, and she had parked herself at the bar the moment he entered.
That was an hour ago, and two and a half glasses of whiskey later.
She could feel its effects already, that warmth growing from the pit of her stomach, her head buzzing. Elain didnā€™t typically drink like this, but she felt compelled to when her obnoxious coworker walked in, found her gaze from across the room, and smirked.
Azriel Knight was hands down the rudest, most competitive, egotistical person she had ever met. He always had to one-up her on reports and tasks and anything else their boss threw at them. No matter how well she put something together, he somehow always had the upper hand. And it irked her to hell and fucking back.
Worse than that, he was undoubtedly the most gorgeous man sheā€™d ever laid her eyes on, and he knew it too. Azriel knew he had charm and charism and a fucking body most men dreamed of. Used it to his advantage too. Elain often found herself growing warm when the fought. When he stepped just a bit too close, his dominant personality overwhelming all her good sense.
Read more.
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Remember, sharing is caring! Please reblog if you liked the fic. It helps spread my work and I truly appreciate it. šŸ’•
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Welcome to Blinky's Rewatch Party!
Hello Nighthawks, Sniggles, and Latte Hattes! You've found the official tumblr page for Blinky's Rewatch Party--where we organize semi-regular watch parties of Nightmare Time 2 episodes as part of our campaign to both share our love of NMT and hopefully get our grubby little hands on Nightmare Time 3!
Current Rewatch Party Planning Polls: None Currently Active!
FAQ with all the basic info under the cut!
WHEN ARE THE REWATCH PARTIES?
The Rewatch Parties are every other Saturday, at two different times, so that as many people as possible can participate directly! The schedule for the current round of Rewatch Parties is:
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HOW CAN I PARTICIPATE?
Here on Tumblr, we will be using the tag "Blinky's Rewatch Party." You can use the tag to liveblog your rewatch, or wait until the story is over to post any and all thoughts at once. If you can't make either of the chosen times, that's okay! The tag's not going anywhere; simply watch and post your thoughts whenever you can. And remember to check out the tag to see what other people are saying!
If the Tumblr tagging system isn't your ideal communal watching experience, that's cool too. We're set up on several other social media platforms that you are welcome to check out!
Also you can follow this blog! It's not super necessary, but it will make keeping up with any updates easier. Also, likes and ESPECIALLY reblogs of any and all posts are greatly appreciated--I don't really care about notes for notes' sake, but since the whole point is to keep people watching Nightmare Time, I'd love for the parties to reach as many people as possible!
WHAT OTHER SOCIAL MEDIA PLATFORMS? HOW DO I FIND YOU THERE?
We'll be hosting the watch parties here on Tumblr, but also on Discord, YouTube, and Twitter.
The link to our discord is here: https://discord.gg/Mz2P65mt29! it's super chill and fun and there's a surprising amount of discussion and theorizing about Chumby.
We don't have a specific YouTube page (yet!)--we'll simply be hosting the watch parties in the comments sections of the Nightmare Time episodes themselves. This will have the added bonus of really showing increased interest in NMT, and getting us one step closer to our ultimate goal: MORE HATCHETFIELD!
The link to our twitter is here: https://twitter.com/BlinkysParty. We will be using the hashtag #BlinkysRewatchParty.
For more information on participating in the Rewatch Parties on various social medias, go here.
WHO RUNS THE WATCH PARTIES?
That would be me! Hello! My name is Brooke (she/her), and you may know me on here as @man-down-in-hatchet-town. I want these watch parties to be as positive an experience as possible, so please feel free to reach out to me on this page OR man-down with any thoughts, questions, or concerns. Unlike Hidgens, I promise I won't show you my rƩsumƩ!
Our discord is also largely managed by the amazing @abarryswiftexit! They are super cool and friendly and the real hero of this whole endeavor.
YOUR ART IS SO COOL! WHO MADE IT?
I'm so glad you asked! Our awesome text graphics and unbelievable avatar are all by my wonderful fandom best buddy @its-short-for-jackalope. Seriously, guys, their art is so good and interesting, so be sure to check it all out and give his page a follow!
Thanks, Jack! šŸ’œ
AND THE BIG ONE: WHAT HAPPENED IN 2005 TO MAKE THE HATCHETFIELD TIMELINE SPLIT?
I actually don't know this one (though I have lots of thoughts and ideas, help)! But I do know that rewatching Nightmare Time will help us get the chance to find out. So let's get our Bliklotep on and do this thing!
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Batkids Music - Playlists Linked
So I've made playlists for almost all the batkids now (I will go back and edit this post once I have added at least an hour to Cassandra's, Duke's and Damian's, but for the moment I am stuck).
Dick - Bimbo Pop? I dunno just fun and a little embarrassing, but mostly fun. That video of that girl dancing down the street listening to Fantasy by Mariah Carey? Him - šŸ’™šŸ–¤
Cassandra - soft and comforting with some more upbeat sounds tossed in, like staying in on a rainy day but also playing video games with your girlfriend - under construction
Jason - grungy/emo/punk-ish? Hasn't updated his playlist since he was 14 but still likes everything on it for old times sake at least - ā¤šŸ¤Ž
Stephanie - ridiculous. Keeps people on the edge of their seats, wondering what shit will play next, an actual song or ???, gives Bruce a headache - šŸ’œšŸ–¤
Tim - chill and relaxed, maybe a little depressing at times, nice driving music, and skating music - ā¤šŸ’›
Duke - classic rock? Like Zeppelin and Hendrix maybe? Help welcomed - under construction
Damian - I literally have no ideas, help needed - under construction
These playlists are for music that I think they would listen to, rather than songs that fit them. The playlists include music that they listened to when they were younger and still now (coz who doesn't still like the same shit they did as a kid, even if its just for nostalgia?)
I add to these and edit them all the time, and suggestions are very welcome!
Enjoy
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Now Iā€™m Covered In You [Chapter 6: Dawn]
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Series summary: Aemond is a prince of England. You are married to his brother. The Wars of the Roses are about to begin, and you have failed to fulfill your one crucial responsibility: to give the Greens a line of legitimate heirs. Will you survive the demands of your family back in Navarre, the schemes of the Duke of Hightower, the scandals of your dissolute husband, the growing animosity of Daemon Targaryenā€¦and your own realization of a forbidden love?
Series title is a lyric from: Ivy by Taylor Swift.
Series warnings: Language, sexual content (18+), dubious consent, miscarriage, pregnancy, childbirth, violence, warfare, murder, alcoholism, sexism, infidelity, illness, death, only vaguely historically accurate, lots of horses!
Word count: 6.4k.
Link to chapter list (and all my writing): HERE.
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Sheā€™s worse than you could have ever imagined.
Sheā€™s dignified and graceful and courteous, stunning like an opal or a pearl, a portrait in motion. She has hushed footsteps and large bright eyes that dart around taking in every detail. You can tell sheā€™s intelligent, everyone can tell, and thatā€™s worse than all the rest of it; as she and Aemond stroll together through the gardens, she asks him questions about history and hunting, and then has clever retorts to his answers. Their conversation has the seamless, pacific quality of language between people who have known each other for years. Itā€™s just like the Duke of Hightower said it would be. She is precisely the sort of woman Aemond would have chosen for himself.
The Duke prattles on about various features of the palace and its grounds, inflating favorable attributes like a seller at a horse auction whose children are waiting hungry at home. Itā€™s not difficult to imagine what fuels his freneticism. The king, unresponsive and reeking of decay, lies dying in his bedchamber. Rhaenyra is keeping a vigil there. She must genuinely love him, as there is nothing more to gain from cooling his forehead with damp cloths or clasping his feverish hands. The Greens have no such tender heartache brewing within them. They mourned King Viserys long ago, not his death but his dreadful, interminable absence.
Rhaenyra refuses to leave her father, and Daemon refuses to leave her here in London unprotectedā€”though he should be riding north to command soldiers pledged to the Blacksā€”and so the two factions circle each other like snarling dogs. The second the king dies, the war will erupt, and everyone knows this. The court is a powder keg. Letters are scrawled, noblemen are dispatched to raise their banners, no one eats or drinks anything unless it is brought to them by a lifelong loyalist. In the past 48 hours, there have been twelve fistfights, seven sword duels, and no less than five deaths, six if you include the poisoning servant who (allegedly) threw himself from a window of the Tower of London before he could be racked. And for once, the Greensā€™ supporters know exactly what to say to you. They fawn over your health and mourn your losses, all four of them, as if they happened only yesterday. They never tire of expressing their horror. They vow that the treacherous, murderous Blacks must not be given any further opportunity to endanger you or the child you now carry. You are not justā€”at long lastā€”a true Green. You are a beacon that draws ever more allies to their side. You are a talisman. You are an example of how mercilessly low Daemon will sink to devour his adversaries: a serpent, a wolf, a butcher who no man of honor could count among his friends.
You are walking behind Aemond, Kunigunde, and the Duke of Hightower with Nico and Daeron, trying to remember how to smile, how to speak about trivial things like fabrics and feasts. Nico is hoping that even considering the haste with which this wedding must take place, the kitchens will manage to whip up some famous Austrian dessert, cheese strudels or Linzer tortes or Marillenkuchen, a sort of apricot cake that is renowned throughout the Continent. You canā€™t follow her phrases; your hearing goes in and out like a tide. Late-April rain, cool and benign, falls in large sporadic droplets.
The Duke is rambling: ā€œYouā€™ll see that we have here in the gardens all manner of herbs, angelica, feverfew, St. Johnā€™s wort, betony, chamomile, rosemaryā€¦ā€ He does not mention pennyroyal, a word that now brings tears to your eyes. ā€œThere are a plethora of roses, of course. Bluebells, daffodils, wisteria, tulips, lavender. And calla lilies, a symbol of matrimony, I believe. Perhaps you would like to use some in your wedding bouquet.ā€
ā€œDo you grow any edelweiss?ā€ Kunigunde asks in a voice like windchimes.
ā€œEdelweissā€¦?ā€
ā€œIt is found in the Alps,ā€ Aemond explains. ā€œSmall white blossom that thrive in rocky limestone soil. It cannot survive in England, regrettably.ā€
ā€œA shame,ā€ Kunigunde says with what you would guess is well-disguised homesickness. ā€œItā€™s my favorite flower. Thatā€™s whatā€™s used in my perfume, you know.ā€
ā€œA splendid scent!ā€ the Duke chirps, and he is not a man inclined towards chirping. He is a child on Christmas morning, a hound whoā€™s found the trail of a fox. ā€œWe shall arrange to have edelweiss perfume shipped here directly from Austria for you.ā€
ā€œAh! But I see you have an infestation.ā€ Kunigunde points at the grasping emerald vines that are spilling from the grey stone walls of the palace down into the gardens.
The Duke follows her eyeline. ā€œOh, ivy, yes. Well, thereā€™s no stopping that. A stubborn weed. It would cover the whole world if it could.ā€
You and Aemond glance at each other, like a reflex, then immediately look away. His cheeks flush a deep hectic pink.
ā€œBut it kills,ā€ Kunigunde says. ā€œIt smothers everything else. It must be tamed.ā€
ā€œWeā€™ll have it ripped down,ā€ the Duke assures her, then leads you all into the royal stables to escape the rain.
Kunigunde drifts down the aisle, inspecting each stall. She moves swiftly past Caraxes; he kicks at the walls when she comes near, flattens his ears and glares with bulging black eyes. Kunigundeā€™s gown is not the sunlike gold of the Holy Roman Empire nor the green of the family she is marrying into. She wears a harmless unaffiliated color, a pale watery pink that makes you think of the organs of a gutter bear: a lung, a kidney, the deflated globe of a stomach. Sheā€™s not trying to prove that sheā€™s anything. She doesnā€™t have to. Everyone knows exactly who she is: the only daughter of a kingdom far larger, wealthier, and more stable than England. As the wife of the second son instead of a third, she will outrank Nico. As a superior partner in every conceivable way, she will eclipse you.
Sir Criston Cole arrives, hauling Aegon along like an errant child. Your husband keeps running away and hiding in stairwells, in trees, behind curtains, under beds. He knows people are always searching for him now, wanting to meet the almost-king, trying to coax him into discussions of alliances and war plans. He sighs and bows to Kunigunde, his white-blond hair uncombed, his ocean-blue eyes groggy.
ā€œWelcome to England, princess. And, uh, I presume you have a nickname of some sortā€¦?ā€
Kunigunde blinks bewilderedly at him. ā€œWhy would I require a nickname?ā€
ā€œJesus Christ,ā€ Aegon mutters, and wanders away to pet Sunfyre.
ā€œWeā€™ll purchase you a horse of your own,ā€ the Duke of Hightower promises Kunigunde, papering over the mishap. Aemond has migrated to Vhagar, stroking the white blaze of her face, ticking her velvety muzzle with his expert fingers that you wish you could stop staring at. ā€œA gift to commemorate your marriage. Any color and breed that you wish. Perhaps a golden Akhal-Teke like Sunfyre, or a mighty Percheron like Tessarion, or a breed from your native Austria if youā€™d preferā€¦ā€
Kunigunde stops at your horseā€™s stall. She marvels at herā€”gleaming black coat, vast muscles, defiant eyesā€”and gasps in delight. ā€œMeine GĆ¼te! What is this one?ā€
ā€œSheā€™s an Andalucian,ā€ you tell her. ā€œFrom Navarre.ā€
ā€œYour homeland,ā€ Kunigunde notes gently, like someone who knows the pain of being exiled from the same earth that grew you.
ā€œYes, princess.ā€
ā€œSheā€™s beautiful,ā€ Kunigunde declares. ā€œGorgeous. Formidable. What do you call her?ā€
ā€œMidnight,ā€ you reply, then steal a glimpse of Aemond to test his reaction. He pretends not to be listening, but again his cheeks color with a fleeting wash of scarlet. His betrothedā€”in a few short hours, his wifeā€”observes this thoughtfully. Itā€™s nothing as low as suspicion; itā€™s an intelligent, acute sort of awareness. One can look at her face and see gears and levers shifting, hear the ticking of a clock.
When the Duke continues the tour to show off the archery fields, Kunigunde insists that he begin without her; she will have you escort her there shortly. As soon as the rest of the group is out of earshot, she leans into you and takes your hand, painting the air with her fresh, lively edelweiss perfume.
ā€œIs it awful?ā€ she asks in a conspiratorial whisper.
You genuinely have no idea what sheā€™s talking about. ā€œWhat?ā€
ā€œHis eye,ā€ she says. ā€œPrince Aemondā€™s lost eye. A grisly thing, surely. The scar is bad enough, but the eye? I canā€™t imagine having to stare at it whileā€¦whileā€¦well, you know. While heā€™s lying with me. Fortunately, I have been assured that I wonā€™t ever have to see it. But Iā€™m sure you have. Iā€™ve heard that youā€™re very good friends.ā€
ā€œIā€™m afraid I canā€™t be of much help to you. I havenā€™t seen it myself.ā€ Youā€™ve wondered about it, though never with such scandalized revulsion. Thereā€™s nothing about Aemond that could disgust you. And then you say to comfort her: ā€œBut heā€™s well worth it.ā€
Kunigunde smiles hopefully. Itā€™s the first time youā€™ve detected genuine vulnerability from her, but itā€™s there. ā€œIs he?ā€
ā€œYes. Heā€™s very clever and chivalrous. He has no vices, drinking, gambling, idleness. He loves history and sword fighting. He always smells of smoke and leather and hard work, like a blacksmithā€™s forge. He always has ink stains on his hands. And he writes poems.ā€
ā€œPoems? Really?ā€ Kunigunde says. Sheā€™s pleased, but sheā€™s something else as well. Thereā€™s that watchfulness in her face again, too many layers for you to sift through. ā€œHave you read many?ā€
You reply briskly as you lead her out into the scant rain: ā€œOnly one.ā€
An hour laterā€”when the Duke of Hightower has concluded his ever-so-slightly-desperate flaunting of Westminster Palace and turned his attention to the hurried wedding arrangementsā€”you return to the royal stables to see Midnight. You brush out her coat, feed her handfuls of oats from your palm, wrap your arms around her colossal black neck and rest your head against her, feeling the radiating heat of her body and the thudding of blood in her veins.
ā€œI donā€™t think I can do this,ā€ you tell Midnight. She nickers in reply, a low sympathetic rumble.
You hear footsteps in the aisle. Anxiousā€”you really arenā€™t supposed to be going anywhere alone until the Blacks have left the courtā€”you step out of Midnightā€™s stall to see who it is. Aemond is waiting there, his silvery hair wet from the light rain, wavy and dripping.
ā€œWhat do you want?ā€ you pitch at him.
He speaks with hesitant, quiet words. ā€œI just wanted to expressā€¦Iā€™m aware thatā€¦Iā€™m sure this is difficult for you.ā€
ā€œWhat an astute observation. I hope your tutors were well-compensated.ā€
ā€œIvy, I know how you feelā€”ā€
ā€œDo you?ā€ you snap. ā€œHave you ever had to feign pleasure as some drunken stranger was invading you? Have you felt that your entire worth was whether or not you could produce a living sonā€”an endeavor that might kill you, by the wayā€”and then been vilified when you could not do it because you were being poisoned, all that sacrifice undone like someone pulling out a loose thread from a tapestry, all those nights of forced smiles and premeditated moans wasted? Have you stolen seconds of happiness, your first in a year, only to watch the person who gave them to you marry someone who is not a pitiful failure by any possible metric but a godsend who surpasses you in every way? Have you felt what itā€™s like to carry one manā€™s child when you desire another? No, you havenā€™t, and you never will. You have no fucking idea what this feels like.ā€
ā€œWe need to end this,ā€ Aemond says. ā€œThe Holy Roman Empire must support the Greensā€™ claim to the throne. All our lives hang in the balance. Yours, mine, Aegonā€™s, my motherā€™s, Daeronā€™s, Nicoā€™s. Everyoneā€™s.ā€
ā€œRight,ā€ you hear yourself tell him.
ā€œMy wifeā€¦ā€ And you flinch as he says it, like heā€™s hit you, a palm crashing against your face, a wave of flesh and bone. ā€œShe has to be happy here. She has to have a real marriage.ā€
ā€œUnlike mine.ā€
He closes his eye. ā€œYes.ā€
ā€œThen go,ā€ you say, biting back sobs. ā€œGo and get ready for your wedding.ā€
ā€œYou donā€™t think Iā€™m being ripped apart by this?ā€ he demands, striking a fist against his chest. ā€œYou donā€™t think Iā€™d like to have some choice in the woman Iā€™m bedding? For once in my life? You donā€™t think Iā€™ve spent hundreds of hours wondering how our lives would look if the timing had been different, if you could have been wed to me and Aegon given the emperorā€™s daughter?ā€
ā€œSheā€™s perfect, sheā€™sā€¦ā€ Your voice breaks off, bitter and fracturing.
ā€œYes. She must be, everybody agrees. Even the Blacks are in awe of her. Theyā€™re petrified by the advantage this match gives us. But I canā€™t see it. Because Iā€™m not the man I was before and I canā€™t get him back. Because now Iā€™m covered in you.ā€
You clean tears from your cheeks with quick, aggravated swipes. ā€œIā€™m sorry our momentary indiscretion has become such a source of regret.ā€
ā€œI donā€™t regret it.ā€
You look at each other from across a chasm of silence like a miles-wide torrent of dark cold water, a river, a channel, an ocean.
ā€œIā€™ve made something for you,ā€ Aemond says, kindly now.
ā€œYouā€™ve had it made, you mean.ā€
ā€œNo.ā€ He shows you his hands. He made it himself.
ā€œI donā€™t want it.ā€ But youā€™ve made something for him too: a tunic to wear as he takes Kunigundeā€™s hand in marriage, deep forest green with bears and horses and roses stitched into it with gold thread. Youā€™ve already given the tunic to Daeron so he can present it to his brother this evening. You wonā€™t be there when heā€™s getting ready. You wouldnā€™t be able to bear it anyway. ā€œI wonā€™t accept it.ā€
ā€œThen Iā€™ll leave it in the box where you keep your sword.ā€
ā€œAemond, you donā€™t have to pretend,ā€ you say. ā€œI know youā€™ll spend the rest of your life avoiding me. You can start now.ā€
He comes to you and lays his hand on your belly; youā€™re not showing yet, but everyone knows you carry Aegonā€™s child. And now that the sinister cause of your previous losses has been revealed, there is no reason to believe that this one wonā€™t live. ā€œI will always protect you. And the child.ā€
You reply cynically: ā€œBecause if itā€™s a boy, he might be the king someday?ā€
Aemond shakes his head. ā€œBecause whether boy or girl, itā€™s a piece of you.ā€
He turns away and walks out into the rain, a grey spring afternoon hurtling towards night.
~~~~~~~~~~
You hide in the stables for as long as you can. When it grows so late that you know people will start looking for youā€”Nico wanting your opinion about her dress and her hair, the Duke of Hightower ensuring that the vessel carrying Aegonā€™s heir hasnā€™t gone missingā€”you take Midnight and trek down to the edge of the forest. Sheā€™s as good as any guard who might escort you; sheā€™s been known to bite and kick at anyone besides Aemond and Vhagar who ventures too close. You use the spade you keep stabbed into the earth there to dig up the pink ivory wood box your sword is stowed away in. The soil is already soft, recently disturbed. There beside the blade, on velvet the same color as the flag of Navarre, is a thin gold chain with a charm attached to the center. The charm is a leaf with three distinct points like little mountains, like a crown.
ā€œIvy,ā€ you tell Midnight, showing her the necklace. ā€œHeā€™s carved a leaf of ivy.ā€
Midnight only peers at you, onyx-black eyes attentive, ears pricked forward, chomping on the mouthful of lush wet clovers.
You put on the necklaceā€”feeling traitorous, feeling heartsick, feeling comforted somehowā€”and then pick up your sword. You take it to the base of the tree to carve the dates youā€™ve left there ever-deeper, keeping them alive in a way that your first four children never will be. You locate the small imprints in the bark, and then you stare at them in puzzlement, the sword in your hand abruptly unnecessary. Someone else has already revived them recently. Someone else has traced over the dates so they wonā€™t fade.
Aemondā€™s words come back to you like rain after a spell of drought: Because whether boy or girl, itā€™s a piece of you.
You press your knuckles to your trembling lips and sink to the dark damp earth, embers burning in your eyes and your throat.
ā€œIā€™m in love with him,ā€ you say aloud for the first time. ā€œI donā€™t want to be. But I am. And I donā€™t know how to stop.ā€
And you stay there for what feels like a lifetime before you return to the palace to ready yourself for his wedding to the Holy Roman Emperorā€™s daughter.
~~~~~~~~~~
The ceremony is almost ludicrously simple in its haste, in the Duke of Hightowerā€™s urgency to get the marriage finalized before King Viserysā€™ death. Aemond and Kunigunde recite their vows in the tiny private chapel, the same place you found him after you lost your last child, after you read his poem.
Itā€™s like Iā€™m reliving everything between us, you think as you look down at the wooden floorboards, unable to watch him linked by the hands with the woman he will share his life with. The stables where we first spoke, the chapel where he gave me the name that only he knows, where now he pledges himself to be someone elseā€™s husband. The beginning and the end.
Aemond wears the tunic you made for him. Kunigunde wears a delicate and impassive pale blue. You wear the gold ivy leaf necklace and a gown green like envy. There is no sunlight streaming in through the stained glass windows today. Even if the sun had not already set, the sky is thick and churning with rainclouds. There is thunder somewhere, distant, ominous. Hundreds of candles illuminate the chapel like a pinpoint inferno in a world full of darkness.
In the Great Hall, the Greens sit at the high table together: the Duke of Hightower and Queen Alicent, you and Aegon, Nico and Daeron, Kunigunde and Aemond, Sir Criston Cole pacing restlessly, seeing threats in every shadow. No Blacks attend, nor would they be welcome to. Their great defender lies dying on the other side of the palace as the Greens stitch the final thread into their design. This is the Greensā€™ triumph to revel in. Everyone knows it will be their last glimmer of joy before the bloodshed begins. The English countryside is blooming with banners: green roses, black roses, but none in the proper color. You are the only one whose homeland is red. You have already written to Alonzo that the war is imminent, that the Blacks have slaughtered your children and risked your life. Soon ships, soldiers, archers, horses, and gold from Navarre will be arriving in London. You fold your hands together over your belly, wondering if the war will be over by the time you deliver your child, how many lives it will claim, what sort of king Aegon will be.
Beside you, your husband drains cup after cup of wine, but he cannot escape the inevitable. When the Greens wage war, it is his claim they are fighting for. And as long as he lives, it is he who must wear the crown. Aegon glances at you, smiles tiredly, dark patches around his eyes like a badgerā€™s. He reaches over to touch you fondly, your hair and your cheeks. He drapes an arm across the back of your chair and rests his head on your shoulder, one hand on your belly. Aemond watches this, his eye sharp and glacial, then departs with his new wife to dance.
ā€œHow are we tonight?ā€ Aegon asks. Meaning both of you, you and the baby.
You twirl messy locks of his white-blond hair around your fingers. ā€œWell enough, all things taken into consideration.ā€ And you wonder, as you do with increasing frequency, what sort of man he might have been if he hadnā€™t been beaten black and blue by the demands placed upon him since infancy. ā€œAegon, when are you happiest?ā€
ā€œI donā€™t know,ā€ he says, as if he hasnā€™t ever considered it. ā€œNever.ā€
ā€œNever? Really?ā€
ā€œWhen Iā€™m with Sunfyre,ā€ he decides. ā€œAnd when I think about the fact that Iā€™ll always have you.ā€
He canā€™t mean that. Heā€™s spent most of the past twenty-one months ignoring me.
ā€œI miss you,ā€ he murmurs. ā€œI miss being with you.ā€ He turns your face to his and kisses you sloppily. The Duke of Hightower rolls his eyesā€”this is far from decorous feast behaviorā€”but is otherwise content to ignore it. Across the exuberant hall, the Montfords hang their heads in resigned disappointment. Aegonā€™s murky gaze skates over your body: green velvet, gold metal. ā€œI was always uneasy about it because of the pressure to give the Greens an heir. But nowā€¦you are already with child. And neither of us were at fault for what happened before.ā€
He kisses you again, his tongue darting between your lips, wine and drowsy desire. And you think, through a fog of melancholy and self-loathing: Could I find some happiness with him? If Aemond will spend his life with Kunigunde, if Nico will know true passion with Daeron, if Rhaenyra will have Daemonā€™s single-minded devotion until it destroys them and their children tooā€¦could I have something for myself that makes the burden of existence lighter? Could I even learn to love him? If I tried for months, for years, for decades?
ā€œI understand if we canā€™t lie together,ā€ Aegon says. This is a stipulation you have been clinging to; it is more of a recommendation from physicians than a decree, a guideline that many couples break without consequence. It is a convenient excuse for an unenthusiastic wife to neglect her marital obligations. ā€œBut when youā€™re ready againā€¦I want you. No one else. I want you so fucking badly itā€™s killing me. Itā€™s all I can think about.ā€
It's just an escape, you think, you know. Itā€™s a port in a storm for him. And yetā€¦perhaps it could be the same for you. You push back his hair and touch your lips to his forehead. ā€œYou can have me, Aegon. If youā€™re gentle.ā€
He beams at you, dazed with wine and reckless optimism. ā€œI always am.ā€ And heā€™s right; he is. ā€œShall we dance, wife?ā€
ā€œI donā€™t think Iā€™m supposed to. And Iā€™m certain that you are not capable of it at the moment.ā€
He takes your hand and staggers to his feet. ā€œLetā€™s walk then.ā€
Aegon accompanies you around the perimeter of the hall, clumsy and stumbling, yes, but also proud, his palm on your belly, presenting you to various Green-affiliated noblemen and their wives, daughters, sons. They are warm and compassionate to you, appalled by your now-infamous suffering, mindful of the fact that if their faction wins you will soon be the queen; and with a husband like yours, the people closest to him will be more influential than the king himself. Among the dancing couples, Daeron spins and giggles with Nico. Aemond revolves with Kunigundeā€”sheā€™s almost as good a dancer as you are, almost, though as far as anyone besides you and Aemond know sheā€™s the best at courtā€”but his eye follows you and Aegon around the crowded room, betrayed even though he has no right to be, incensed by the only honorable choice you can make. Aegonā€™s wine sloshes out of his cup each time he trips over his own feet, leaving a trail of maroon puddles on the floor. You sip mead now, weaker than wine and sweet with honey. You cannot stand the thought of apple cider; even the scent of it makes you nauseous and unbearably sad.
The Duke of Hightower, red-faced with frustration, appears as Aegon clutches the wall to keep his balance. ā€œFor the love of God, go eat something! Sir Criston?ā€ The Duke waves the knight over. ā€œI command you to take Prince Aegon back to the high table and do not permit him to leave it until he has consumed no less than one full plate of bread and meat. Is that understood?ā€
ā€œDoes the apricot cake count?ā€ Aegon slurs.
ā€œFine,ā€ the Duke agrees, and Aegon is ushered away. You and the Duke of Hightower stand together without speaking, watching Aemond and his wife dance together, two flawless figures with their hands resting lightly, sheepishly on each other, speaking in clandestine voices that no one else can hear. It knocks the air out of your lungs once, twice, again. This is going to kill me, you realize. I canā€™t drown out the memory of his voice with Aegonā€™s. I canā€™t stop wanting him.
You say with dark disdain: ā€œMy beloved grandsire-in-law. Did even you ever dare to dream of a future this bright?ā€
ā€œHe should be groveling in appreciation for this arrangement and so should you.ā€
You glare at the Duke and echo something you once heard Aemond say to him. ā€œYou care nothing for love.ā€
The Duke of Hightower turns to you; his voice cuts like jagged, rust-laced metal. ā€œI loved my wife more than you could fathom, princess. More than the future or the past. More than my titles, more than my children, more than myself. And yet over the course of five days I watched her die of feverā€”insane, in agonyā€”and there was nothing I could do about it. Nothing. There was no amount of money to pay or men to cut down with a blade. The wheels of the world turn again and again, and weā€™re all just running on top of them until itā€™s our turn to be dragged screaming below and crushed into oblivion. None of us own anybody. Not even the ones weā€™d kill for. All we own is our legacy. Thatā€™s all we can salvage from the maelstrom of this life. And thisā€¦thisā€¦this affinity between you and Aemond? It has no place in a future where we could win.ā€
You study Kunigundeā€”the daughter of one emperor, the sister of the next, the wife to the man you love, the future mother of his childrenā€”and marvel at what you would give to be her. Anything, everything.
ā€œIf you love him, you will not imperil him,ā€ the Duke says. ā€œYou will not jeopardize our ascension.ā€
ā€œI love him,ā€ you confess in a splintering whisper.
The Duke of Hightower frowns at you in disappointment, in disgust. ā€œLearn to hide it better.ā€ Then he sweeps away to make his rounds among the noblemen, to ensure their banners are rising and their loyalties unfaltering.
Nico, in exuberant spirits as always, finds you and joins you in observing the newlyweds. She reads the words in the lines of your face, the wonder in your eyes. The princess from Austria is beautiful, brilliant, flawless. She is entirely worthy of him.
ā€œYes, sheā€™s certainly the next best thing, isnā€™t she?ā€ Nico says cheerfully.
You furrow your brow in confusion. ā€œSecond to who?ā€
Nico grins. ā€œYou, of course.ā€ And then she sees your horrified expression. As usual, sheā€™s hit just a bit too close to the mark, to the truth. Nico stammers an explanation. ā€œI mean, you know, because youā€™re such good friends, and you understand him, heā€™s so odd to most people, so unnerving, but you like him as he is and heā€™s clearly smitten with you, and if you werenā€™t already married to Prince Aegon youā€™d be his choice for a wife, Iā€™d imagine, but since itā€™s impossibleā€¦ā€
ā€œVery impossible,ā€ you say flatly.
ā€œRight,ā€ Nico capitulates, anxious. ā€œI didnā€™t mean to offend you.ā€
ā€œIā€™m not offended, Nico.ā€ You lay a hand on her shoulder and then her flushed cheek, forcing a smile. ā€œIā€™m sorry. Iā€™m just tired. Iā€™m very tired.ā€
ā€œYou have had a very eventful few days.ā€
ā€œIā€™ve aged centuries.ā€ Sometimes I think Iā€™m already dead.
ā€œWould you like me to come back to your rooms? We could read, or do needlework, or just sit and talk by the fireā€¦ā€
ā€œNo, you stay. Youā€™re having such a good time. I donā€™t want to ruin it for you.ā€
ā€œItā€™ll be ruined if I fear youā€™re unhappy.ā€
ā€œIā€™m happy,ā€ you insist. ā€œIā€™m happy, Nico.ā€ Iā€™ll never be happy again.
Courtiers are beginning to tease the newlyweds good-naturedly, shooing them off to bed. Kunigunde flashes her audience a timid, demure smile. Aemond is stoic; he wears no emotion that you can decipher. He raises his wifeā€™s hand in the air, and there are whistles and applause. Then the couple retires to Kunigundeā€™s bedchamber, flanked by a flock of servants who will ready them for the essential next step: cleansed bodies, prayers recited, blood on white sheets. The room is spiraling around you; all the air in your lungs evaporates; your vision is speckled with dizzying splotches of darkness. In the midst of the cheers, you flee unnoticed from the hall. As you pass by the high table, you see that Aegon has laid his head down beside his plate and is practically unconscious. You fly through the corridors and take refuge in your bedchamber, a sanctuary, a prison.
You donā€™t even let your ladies undress you. You send them away and kneel down on the bearskin rug and stay there waiting for nothing, time crawling over you, prickling and slow and murderous like ivy. As the bells toll and the hours pass you imagine what they mean, you envision it, though you wish you couldnā€™t. Now he is taking off her nightgown. Now he is combing out her long lustrous hair with his agile fingers. Now he is admiring the glow of her bare skin in the firelight. Now he is tracing the slope of her jaw with the lightest touchā€”entranced, reverentā€”and tilting up her chin to kiss her. Now his hands are on her throat, her breasts, her waist, her thighs that have never been stained with the blood of another manā€™s child, parting them, reaching between them, angling himself to enter her. But he wonā€™t rush; he wonā€™t want to cause his lover pain. For all of their innumerable differences, he and Aegon have that in common.
You stare into the flames until they blur and bleed together, your eyes brimming with tears. And suddenly it feels like the fire is inside rather than out: your throat, your lungs, everything youā€™re made of, searing through vertebrae and veins. It feels like you could burn until thereā€™s nothing left but echoes, threadbare ricochets of memory, a murmur of ash. Aegon does not appear. Heā€™s probably not fucking some Green loyalistā€™s daughter, you concede that much, but heā€™s gone nonetheless: passed out under a table, or in a stairwell, or in the garden, or in Sunfyreā€™s stall in the royal stables. Aemond is bedding his wife and Nico will dance with Daeron until the sun rises but you are here alone, alone, alone, and you always will be. When Aegon drinks himself to death you will be widowed. When your child is born it will be given away to wetnurses and governesses. Nothing here is truly yours. Even if the Greens win, thereā€™s no scenario in which you do.
I should have gone back home to Navarre when I had the chance. I should have fled from here like a sheep from wolves. And now Iā€™m trapped. Iā€™m so fucking trapped.
You cover your mouth with both hands. You donā€™t want anyone to hear you sobbing and decide to investigate, to piece together what has caused you such distress. Tears pour down your cheeks like spring rain. And you know now that if you are ivy to Aemond, then surely he is the same to you: a merciless trespasser, vines that have grown through your palms and into your bloodstream, scraping along the path of ruby arteries until they strangle the heart. Thereā€™s no point in trying to rip him out of you. Thereā€™s no way to return to the person you were before.
The bedchamber door flies open and slams shut, so quickly itā€™s over before you register whatā€™s happening; hurried footsteps travel across the wooden floor. You whirl to find Aemond standing in the stone-heavy silence, in the firelight. Youā€™ve never seen him like this before. Heā€™s still wearing his eyepatch, but his long silver hair hangs free and wild, strands obstructing his face. He is dressed in only loose trousers and a white sleeping shirt that has been unbuttoned down to his navel. Heā€™s backed himself against the wall. Heā€™s trembling all over.
You rise and go to him. ā€œAemondā€¦?ā€
He pushes your hands away when they settle on his forearm. ā€œDonā€™t,ā€ he pleads in a whisper.
ā€œAlright,ā€ you agree immediately. He wonā€™t look at you, his blue eye darting everywhere except your face. He runs his fingers through his hair, shaking his head, breathing rapidly. Perspiration gleams on his bare chest, etchings and basins and steppes youā€™d only ever imagined. You ask him softly: ā€œWhat happened?ā€
ā€œI couldnā€™t do it,ā€ Aemond says. At last, his gaze catches on yours, as if heā€™s surrendering, as if a gap in a page has been filled. ā€œNot with her.ā€
Oh God, what is going to happen to us? What the hell is going to happen?
Before you can ask him, Aemondā€™s palms are on your tear-streaked face, and heā€™s kissing you with an intensity that cuts through all the strings that were knotted around you just minutes ago: hopelessness and solitude and bone-rattling terror. Your hands debate stopping him; instead, they come to rest on his salt-damp chest, exploring hungrily, a feast after famine. Heā€™s begging for you in every way but words. Thereā€™s no question as to what your answer will be. There should be, but there isnā€™t; you need him in a way that is inescapable, like the seasons, like time.
You take blind steps backwards until your bare feet meet the bearskin rug, downy black fur of a beast that was killed for you. You stumble down onto the rug together, Aemond on top of you and tugging impatiently at the laces of your gown, you pulling up the hem, unable to wait, unwilling to lose the mindless rush of this moment. The necklace he made for you is a stripe of frost against your sweltering skin. You nip teasingly, ravenously at his neck, tasting smoke and paper and ink and leather, leaving flairs of red that vanish within seconds like dissipating smoke. Your fingers snag in his long white-blond hair; you lift his shirt from his back, inhaling a split-second hint of his wifeā€™s edelweiss perfume as you toss it away. Aemond yanks off his trousers. Heā€™s big, you knew he would be; bigger than his brother, bigger than you are confident you can endure.
Please let this be everything I hope it can be, you think fearfully. Please donā€™t let it be the way it was with Aegon. Please donā€™t let it be nauseating, tiresome, lonely, painful. The trepidation must show on your face.
ā€œI wonā€™t hurt you,ā€ Aemond swears. ā€œIā€™ll never hurt you.ā€
He retreats, hooks his arms beneath your thighs, and drags you towards him, burying his face between your legs; you bite down on your wrist to keep from crying out in pleasure. Beneath the gathered layers of your gown, his lips and tongueā€”greedy, dominating, starving for youā€”find the place where you are most sensitive, most aching. He licks, circles, licks again, sucks gently until you can feel that powerful wave of heat, bliss, finality building in your muscles and your nerves.
Not like this, you think. I want him closer to me when it happens. I want him inside of me, one with me.
ā€œAemond, come back,ā€ you moan. ā€œPlease, please, come back. I need you. All of you. I need you right now.ā€
He rises obediently, his lips and chin dripping with your wetness, and kisses you deeply, intoxicatingly; you can taste yourself on him, minerals and desire, love and earth. Heā€™s positioning himself between your thighs, two fingers of his right hand slipping effortlessly inside of you, working to ensure that you are prepared for his thickness, his length. Youā€™re nodding as your hips move with his rhythm, gasping in air like youā€™re drowning, lost in a lust-red haze of helpless desperation. ā€œAre you ready?ā€ he asks in a ragged whisper.
ā€œYes, yes, Aemond, yes.ā€
His lips traverse your throat, the arc of your jaw, your cheek. ā€œStop me if you need to, okay?ā€
ā€œOkay.ā€
ā€œWeā€™ll go very slowly.ā€
Kissing the side of your face, his left hand smoothing back your hair, Aemond begins to ease himself into you. There is pressureā€”tremendous, delicious pressureā€”but no pain yet. He stops to give you time to adjust; and perhaps itā€™s for him as well, shaking with euphoria and anticipation, trying to last long enough to please you. The first tentative rays of dawn are bleeding in from the slits between the curtains. And then thereā€™s a sound that at first you donā€™t recognize: a creaking, a draft of new air. Itā€™s the bedchamber door opening.
It happens too quickly for you to push Aemond away, to make any attempt to disguise your treason, your lethal weakness. There is only time to turn your face towards the open door to see who has discovered you. Perhaps it is the newlywed Kunigunde searching for her absconder husband, or the Duke of Hightower ready to drag Aemond back to consummate the marriage, or Daemon coming to murder you, or a servant or a guard or Queen Alicent or Sir Criston Cole. Each would be horrific in its own way, legacy-shattering, life-threatening.
But the intruder is none of these people. It is the one silhouette you didnā€™t even consider. You had assumed he wouldnā€™t be here. Heā€™s almost never here.
The person in the doorway is Aegon.
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winterandwords Ā· 6 months
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šŸ“ Tag game advice
Obviously there are no hard and fast rules in the weird world of writeblr, so this is really just a suggestion and you're free to ignore it if it doesn't vibe with you or improve your experience here.
For folks who are new to writeblr or just new to tag games, this one's for you!
There are tag games that specifically ask you to reblog the original post with your addition, but this isn't talking about those. This is about games where you're invited to answer questions or share a snippet of your work, like Find The Word, Find The Vibe, Heads Up Seven Up, Nine Lines Nine People, Last Line Tag etc.
When you respond to a tag, it can be a good idea to make a new post for your response instead of reblogging the post of the person before you and adding your response to the reblog.
Here's why...
The person who tagged you can reblog your post without also reblogging their own post
The people you tag can reblog your post without also reblogging the post of the person who tagged you
ANYONE can reblog your post without also reblogging anyone else's
The person who posted before you won't get lots of notifications related to the reblogs of the people they tagged and the people they tagged etc
It's easier to respond in comments or reblog tags to individual posts than to long reblog chains, and to keep track of those responses so you can respond to them
Long reblog chains can often become unwieldy and awkward to engage with
If you use hashtags to index your own blog, your responses will show up through those links without lots of other people's responses also being attached
Finally, reblogs don't show up in hashtag searches on Tumblr, so making your own posts for tag games brings them more visibility
If you want to share the post of the person who tagged you and the people you tag (again, not a rule, just good etiquette and a lovely way to spread each other's writing around) you can reblog their posts separately from yours and/or put a link to the post where you were tagged in your post.
I hope that helps and encourages more of you to take part in tag games šŸ’œ
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Hiiii I just recently discovered your blog and omg your writing is so good?? Damn Iā€™m impressed
Idk if youā€™re taking requests, if not just take this as a general ask, but Iā€™m obsessed with the idea of Silco and a reader who is like a mother to Jinx after I read that ā€œsoftā€ (i think that was the name?) ficā€¦ and I was wondering, how do you think it would get to that point? Surely it mustā€™ve been hard for Silco to accept that this woman would just come into the last drop demanding to see his little devil of a daughter and taking care of herā€¦ enemies to lovers much? Anywayā€¦ just wanted to hear what are your thoughts in how they would come around to become a couple
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Ooooh, thank you so much for reaching out, my darling anon!! I appreciate your sweet compliment so much. It made me smile so much during my crappy week šŸ’œ
Iā€™d love to write a longer piece about this (and I absolutely will), so Iā€™ll just leave you with a few thoughts for now!
Here's a link to the Soft fic mentioned in the ask! (it is absolutely NSFW, be warned) If you'd like to be added to my taglist for when I post the full thing, click here
Pairing: Silco x fem!reader
Warnings: None, really. This is SFW with the barest hint of suggestive content at the end
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At some point, Silco realizes that he either needs to eliminate everyone from Jinx's past life or he needs to use them to connect with her. This strange, incredibly vexing woman is the strongest link to Jinx's past that she still has.
I'm sure that Jinx has a very hard time in the first few weeks after Silco's takeover. It's a struggle to get her to eat, bathe, and just generally take care of herself. She opens up to Silco some, but to his immense frustration that damned woman just keeps showing up and Jinx instantly calms for her.
Silco still has that choice to make. He can forbid the woman from returning (which she's very unlikely to agree to without force), outright get rid of her, or he can just accept her help and try to manage her involvement in Jinx's life.
I think Silco mulls it over quite a bit, especially when Jinx inevitably shuts him out, and he can't connect with her in any way. Killing the woman would be relatively simple, and maybe Jinx could move past the devastating loss, but he can't stop thinking about how his new daughter curls up in her arms.
Silco tells himself he's just being practical, and maybe he is, but the softness with which the woman holds Jinx is the first small chip in his armor towards her.
She does annoy the hell out of him, though, as the only person who can seemingly defy the most feared kingpin in the undercity. He also finds this more attractive than he'd care to admit, which makes him even more sour about the whole thing.
Meanwhile, the woman continues to just show up unannounced to The Last Drop. In an attempt to gain some form of control, Silco finally just snaps and tells her to come on two specific days of the week. Jinx cheers, the woman smiles at him, and Silco instantly realizes that was probably her plan all along. Damnit.
Continuing on with the soup idea from the fic, I think she and Jinx bake together a lot. Silco may have a hard time getting Jinx to eat at every other time, but the little girl absolutely devours anything the woman makes her.
She always leaves out a plate for Silco, which he doesn't eat after that first night. The first reason is because he's petty and still doesn't want to like the woman, and the second is because Jinx will eat the leftovers.
Sevika absolutely loves her, and so do the rest of Silco's staff because the woman has bribed gifted them all with homemade food. They all know her as a woman with a heart of gold who is fiercely protective of Jinx. She's not a threat Silco couldn't handle if he had to, but Sevika does derive some secret pleasure from how badly the incredibly lovely woman vexes her boss.
The first time Silco loses his temper at her in front of Jinx, the little girl cries, and the woman immediately brandishes a rolling pin at him. The sight makes Jinx break out into a small fit of giggles, and Silco just freezes and walks away, muttering under his breath.
Silco can't stop thinking about her, which frustrates him to no end. She's kind but will stand up to a drug kingpin with a fucking rolling pin, she loves his daughter like her own, and she's annoyingly good at cooking. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if she stayed.....
I absolutely do think the more Silco realizes he actually likes the woman, the nastier he behaves towards her. He finds some way to rationalize it, but the truth is that he's trying to manufacture a reason to hate her.
I think it all comes to a breaking point one night after the woman puts Jinx to bed. Maybe the woman tries to make some gesture of goodwill towards Silco before she leaves, but he lashes out at her. It starts a yelling match between the two, and they start getting closer together as the argument grows more heated.......
And this is where I'll leave you ;)
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