me everyday

lol hoping this finds the right audience

Fear foods of mine (so far):

🎀 Disclaimer that not everyone with an ED has fear foods and that EDs and fear foods are irrational- these foods are not actually bad it’s just my ED talking. 🎀

🍞Bread, sandwiches in particular, and anything like it like crumpets, muffins, pancakes, etc.

🍰Cake, cookies, Kit Kats, ice cream and all sweet food apart from low cal granola bars and fruit.

🥜Nuts, peanuts in particular because I can’t control my consumption of them.

🍝Pasta.

Breakfast in any way, like I actually just can’t eat in the morning idk-

🥛Drinking calories, in any way; especially milk in coffee or tea for some reason- actually milk in general, at this point even soya or almond.

🥔 Potatoes, CHIPS, especially baked potatoes since I don’t even like them anyway.

Beanie

Can’t wait til I look like this in jeans

Hiii, i found some th1nsp0 i absolutely adore right now and thought i should share :)

(not my photos)

If you ever wanted to know what scares me most it’s the fact that I could get better if I wanted to.

I could heal

I could change

I could restart

Yet I don’t want to

I run towards the pain to ease my inner turmoil

No healthy person wants to be sick and yet I seek it out, I feel like a moth to a flame

I know the fire will burn me, and for some reason I relish in that fact.

I have control, I have the life I want, it’s just not enough for me.

I need to recover. I’m nowhere near my goal, I have no idea how much I weigh, but I need to recover. I need to recover for my baby, so I can feed him better from my body and have less anxiety when we eat together. I still intend to lose weight since I’m overweight but I need to do it in a healthier way. I need to not care about the calories because when I do I get depressed. My baby deserves better than a mom with an 3ating disorder, so I need to recover for him.

I'm back on my ED bullshit again and I need someone to help keep me accountable.. someone in their mid 20s? If not okay but definitely can't be younger than 18. I won't aid in a minors ED struggle... So please let me know..🫥

Does anyone have any tips for getting a thigh gap??? Literally been struggling for SUCH a long time.

Does anyone know of any ED space Discords I can join that aren’t mostly just minors,? I want to be able to talk to other 18+ people abt this stuff rather than surrounded by 15 year olds, no offense. Pls lmk I need ppl to talk to bad :(

hi i’m looking for an an@ buddy bc i’ve been having a hard time getting back on track soo hmu in the dm’s if you’re interesteddd

I’m so tired of looking in the mirror and being disgusted by what I see and I’m even more tired of weighing myself and being disappointed by the number on the scale. It’s exhausting.

I binged yesterday and I’m greedy and gluttonous, still though, I can feel my ribs and hip bones so I’m ok, I managed to go three whole days with no calories last week, the only reason I ate is because I had exams so I needed physical strength, then I binged yesterday because someone stressed me out (as they always do) and they just basically constantly pick apart my character and tell me what’s wrong with me, so now I’m depressed again. It’s ok though because I’m not going to be greedy anymore, no, I’m going to ⭐️ve so much I fade away, I don’t want to exist anymore. Nothing I ever do is good enough, no matter how hard I try I’m always doing something wrong, I’m greedy, rude and antisocial and it would be better for everyone if I just shut up. So I will, and ana will help me.

Recent thinsp0: Beanie Boylston

food diary: 12/05/22

today was rough, but i'm glad that i burned so many calories.

milk 900 ml — 347 kcal

a sip of kefir — ~5 kcal

flavoured straw for milk — 24 kcal

monster ultra 500 ml — 12 kcal

iced tea 200 ml — 2 kcal

total: 390 kcal

alright i said i wouldn't weigh myself today, but i did anyway. -0.1 kg lost. that's a small amount, but i'm so bloated i'm happy i lost anyway. i have to weigh myself tomorrow too for tiktok accountability, so now i'm chugging water in order to get rid of water weight. i'm getting my fitness watch tomorrow, so now i'll be able to track my steps even at work!

Had a nutrition lesson at school yesterday and we had to go around the class and say our favourite foods and they were written on a board. Then the teacher was like, now we’re going to underline the healthy things in one colour and the unhealthy things in another colour.

The British government has already fucked us over by making it compulsory to put calories on menus and now they’ve put it on our curriculum to have a disordered way of looking at food?! It’s fucking ridiculous