Getting closer to becoming thinspo 🙃🌱 now i need to get rid of that butt fat 🤢 but i can do it and so can you! 🫶🏻💗

I’m a full adult who’s still a virgin because I don’t want someone to see my body in such an intimate way. This is what I hate most. The fear that when they see me they’ll be disgusted. Like wtf.

I’m not sure that anyone relates to this, but I needed it off my chest, and well none of you know me.

Keep my secret would you?

EVERYONE DO A 4 DAY FAST (or more)

I recently finished my longest full fast (84hours), and it was the best decision I've made, so I want to tell you a bit about how it went and what I've noticed since finishing it.

I had binged the night before I started, so the next morning I wasnt hungry, and didn't feel like eating until late afternoon. I drank a lot of water (~3.5L throughout the day) to prevent hunger, and went to bed early so I couldn't eat. I got a bit hungry around lunch time on the second day, but after that I can honestly say I didn't feel hungry for the rest of my fast. I was surprised, I'll admit I'm one of those people with a bottomless stomach, and I'm terrible at knowing when I've had enough. It's amazing how quickly my body adapted from visibly shaking from sugar cravings to looking at or smelling foods and feeling absolutely nothing. After the second day I had normal energy and was able to do the odd workout and keep going for walks. I was thinking clearly and productive. The only issues I had were a) finding something to do to fill the time and b) the intense nausea I would get at night time from taking my vitamins without food. This was only an issue if I took longer than usual to fall asleep, so exercising before bed helped. I didn't feel hungry when I ended my fast- I am diabetic, and my blood sugar level dropped and wouldn't have risen unless I ate. I was worried eating anything would kind of 'open the floodgates' and I'd binge again, but actually this didn't happen. I went to my dining hall the next morning because I was a bit peckish, had a piece of bacon and half a hash brown, and then threw out the rest of my food because my body told me it had had enough.

Since ending my fast, I don't have sugar cravings: going cold Turkey really worked for me. I eat semi-regular meals, but I'm never really "hungry", so I don't worry about binging. I'm also fine with throwing food away: I think letting my body know what real emptiness feels like helped it learn when I've had enough, and fasting in general just killed any personal connection to food that made me feel bad about not finishing it. I lost about 4kg in my fast, which honestly isn't my record, but I've kept it off since with pretty normal eating habits (2 to 3 meals/ day with no snacks). Personally, I love that now my body physically revolts when it doesn't want food, and when it does, it doesn't demand it.

Moral of the story: do a fast. I would've loved to do a week, but just do however long you can and know it will help. The first 2-3 days will be the hardest, so remove all temptations and see how you feel from there, and you will be surprised at how easy it is. If you have any questions or want any advice you can comment/ message me and I'll help. I know fasting isn't new but I just feel so completely satisfied with my experience and want to help my disordered babies out <3

be strong.

do it for a body like this.

"I don't care if it hurts, I wanna have control. I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul."

This part of the song always hits the most. Lyrics from "Creep" by Radiohead.

You deserve this, piglet. Tomorrow you will eat 6 celery sticks and a cup of watermelon AT MAXIMUM. That’s awful generous considering what you ate today. You really think you deserved a second meal? Really? After walking only a mile? You’re awful funny for such a disgusting whale! Your legs are beyond disgusting. How could anyone see you naked without throwing up? How could anyone stomach looking at a body even half as hideous as yours? How could anyone truly love someone as disgusting as you? They couldn’t! And they don’t! And they probably never will. All because your pathetic, lazy, fatass just lies in bed and cries. Stop crying. No one cares when a fat girl cries. You deserve it. No one is coming to save you. Only pretty, dainty girls get saving. Try again Tomorrow, piglet, maybe you’ll be able to actually use some self control for once. You will walk all day. No breaks for someone as undeserving as you. You deserve to be miserable, overheated, and exhausted. Maybe that will help you finally understand your place, the garbage can.

i wonder what the fasting buddha at lahore museum’s ugw was

TW ED 🦴

the feeling of food in my stomach just feels wrong. I feel like I've failed everything and there's no way back, no way to fix my slip-up

wonyoung from ive

5.9 lbs down in 4 days!!!

Kept it SUPER low in cals today.

84 grams of chicken (100 cals)

85 grams of cauliflower rice (20 cals)

Total - 120 cals

I think I found the root of my 3ating dis0rder today. So that’s not fun. In that now all of you get to know it’s not because I want others to like me it’s because I want my family to be kind to me. God wtf.

I cannot believe it has taken me this long to put that together.

Like obviously that’s not the entirety of it theres other factors of course but definitely the big one

I didn't want someone to care about me being sick, I wanted someone to care about me being sick.

Oh hi 💜

It’s worth it 💗

In a week and a half I dropped 5kg. I was really happy about it and I have received a lot of compliments about my appearance already. Now imagine how good you’ll feel when you drop 10, 15, 20…

My boyfriend lifted me up and said “you’re so light”. When I tell you that I almost died of happiness.

My mum said that some of the tighter trousers are starting to look better on me, since I’ve lost weight.

It makes me happy. To see my collarbones… To have a bit of loose clothing.. To become tiny, dainty, fragile…🦋