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brainlessrot · 8 months

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Ranking NRC dorms on how much I would trust and like their cooking -

fair warning: I've skipped like most culinary croucible events and forgot 90% of the ones i played, so this is all based on my subjective reading of their vibes and the limited canon knowledge i could gather in my brain

Contents: As the title says +individual characters ranked

Characters: All dorms + students and teachers

1. Scarabia

do i even need to explain this one??

One of the first episodes in their chapter was literally cooking with jamil

I LOVE middle eastern food. give me hummus and some pita bread and im set for life.

Pre scarabia arc jamil would be a dangerous choice, but post chapter? im gonna be knocking on his door with bribes so that he gives me any extra food he made 🙏

not kalim tho, yall stay safe

(also wrote this while at Agrabah's cafe in disney land, so my opinion might be skewed)

Continues under this cut!!

2. Octavinelle

Mans whole bussiness is food

if im paying for it i better be getting something good

but would NEVER try to ask any of them to cook for me (for free obv) bc i dont think that would end well (for me)

Jade?? mixing mushrooms he found somewhere

Floyd? forgets and goes somewhere, now the kitchen is burnt

Azul? nuh huh 💀 i aint seeling my soul for some toast

theyre like, Norwegian/italian i think?? and idk much about Norwegian cuisine but like italian is soooo good 🤞

3. Heartslabyul

Only for the sweets (i might not trust trey but i have a sweet tooth)

I dont mind tea, but they better not bring out their British cuisine out

If i see any fish n chips im evaporating from that table (lies, free food is free food)

i wanna go to an unbirthday party 😔

riddle would cook something too healthy and would count my calorie intake 💀

ace or deuce? id better be getting ready to get intoxication

cater... i just dont see him cooking

4. Pomefiore

listen... theyre mostly rich pampered boys, so would they even be cooking?

i dont trust the source of Rook's food

epel would only give me apple based foods (tasty, but gets boring after a while)

Vil would probably give me those weird natural green smoothies AND I DONT WANT THAT 🤬

+ i dont like french people (jk)

5. Ighnihyde

listen

HEAR ME OUT

ik theyre all nerds and all they eat is instant ramen

BUT GREEK FOOD.

all for that greek yogurt 😩

idia doesn't know how to cook except for instant foods which i dont mind (he gets favourite character treatment)

ortho,,, questionable. He has access to the internet (aka infinite recipes) but would it taste good? hes like 10

6. Savanaclaw

sweaty men.

i should just leave it at that ngl

leona? rich ahh man (a GROWN man at that!! 20 whole years of age!!!) and he probably doesn't even know how to fry an egg

ruggie? no way he gives me anything good for free 😭

Jack is the only one i would trust, but man probably also drinks protein shakes and those sad chicken breast and rice meals.

7. Diasomnia

no thank you

i like my soul staying where it is.

i dont trust their magical food

lillia is not even my last choice if im ever hungry, he aint a choice AT ALL

Malleus... he probably doesn't know how to physically cook?? sure he can bibidi babidi boop me some food like the giant fairy godmother he is, but i want something real man 😔

Sebek... protein shake man...

Silver MUST know how to cook (living with lillia would be imposible if not) so if i HAD to, I would go to him, but i dont want him to fall asleep and faceplant on my food 😭

+ Characters Ranked in tiers! (students and teachers)

The best, five star Michelin food:

Jamil, Trey, Trein

You could be happy eating:

Vil, Epel, Floyd, Silver, Azul, Ruggie, Crewel

Its food:

Jack, Cater, idia (if making instant ramen) Ortho, Sam

its... food?:

Rook (seriously, where did he get that?), Jade, Ace, Deuce, Malleus (the food is uncorporeal), Sebek, Vargas

dubious taste, would rather not:

Riddle, Kalim, Leona (its just a slab of uncooked meat), Idia (if trying to cook real food)

call 911 BEFORE eating please:

Lillia, Grim, Crowley

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roseworth · 6 months

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vote in my poll boy but also im gonna skew my own results by giving my opinion. here’s my personal ranking of rose writers

sean mckeever: FRESH HELL <3 literally THE rose book. also tt03 #57 slayed. he ALMOST gets knocked down on the list because a) the fucking shitshow that was terror titans and b) he backtracked on like 3 different character arcs as soon as he started writing tt and it pisses me off. but he redeemed himself with fresh hell

geoff johns: i hate johns so much. but he solidified sooo much about rose as a character that he has pretty much the definitive rose. what he did completely defined rose's relationship with her father and her attitude towards the titans/being a hero in general. whether they realize it or not, every rose writer after johns is writing his version of her. as much as i hate him he is one of the best rose writers and i will stand by that

christopher priest: i have not made it a secret that i love ds16. there are some aspects of his characterization that i dont agree with but for the most part he killed it tbh. hating her dad but still coming back to him, loving her brother but still keeping him at arms length, HOSUN!!! HER HMONG FAMILY!!!!!!! ily priest

ed brisson: SLAY. the only reason he's not higher is because i dont like the fact in general that she chose to be on stormwatch (she would not do that), and he used baby rose in ktr and didnt even mention lili (and DID mention that foster family. im still mad). other than that!!! everything about her struggle to be a good person in batb was soooo good, and so much about ktr was so good for her <3 thank u mr brisson

marv wolfman: i feel a little bad not ranking him higher given that. he created rose. but she doesnt really do much in the issues he writes. which is fair given that she was a new character that was just made to hang around on the sidelines at the time, so theres not a lot to judge in his writing. but he definitely laid the foundation that johns expanded on, and he was the one that made her so uh thnx marv

jt krul: i wish he had gotten more time :( i wish he had gotten to do whatever he was planning with lili, i wish we could've gotten to see more of his rose. his rose was def a different take than before given that she was more... mellowed out ig? it was a lot more lighthearted, just her hanging out with the team, being an older sister to damian (<3), and looking for her mom. hes not my fav just because i like it when shes a crazy bitch instead of a normal girl, but i completely understand why people like his rose. not to mention tt03 #77-78 slays so unbelievably hard

jay faerber: NANNY ROSE <33333 i love love love rose in titans 99 <3 this version of rose is DRASTICALLY different than any other rose, which is the reason hes in the bottom half, but i like it in the sense that its nice to know that she was just hanging out in between the two worst things to ever happen to her (her mom dying & slade drugging her). rose with roy and lian lives rent free in my head every single day of my life i love it so much, also that issue with rose & toni was so fun. titans 99 rose you will always be famous

adam beechen: he is going to hell for what he did to cass but for rose? he was fine. he helped with that one really good wilson family arc (tt03 #43-46), and wrote the only pre-52 rose & jason interaction (#47) so he gets points for that. and batgirl 2008 was pretty good for rose. but unfortunately he just didnt make enough of an impact on me to be ranked any higher

matthew rosenberg: unfortunately im mentally ill so i have a detailed explanation of what i think of rosenberg's rose but the short version is: i like him, he writes a good rose. its fun, shes well-written for the most part, but there are some :/ parts about it to me. i think if he continues writing her he'd be ranked higher but for now hes sitting pretty near the bottom of the list

devin grayson: i used to really like devin grayson's rose but. i have since changed my mind. it doesnt feel like rose. this is NOT the rose that stabbed her eye out because she thought slade was disappointed in her! shes too Quirky Girl here even though this is theoretically during the period where shes being drugged (honestly. i dont think grayson actually knew about the super soldier serum. and if she did it does not show) and we've seen rose in this era in tt03 and bg00, and this arc does not read as the same character at all. it was a good arc for her, and she had a lot of good moments here! but the characterization overall wasnt great

joshua williamson: i won't go on a whole tangent about the way williamson writes but. he has no sense of character voice, his characters all feel like blank slates to get the plot across, there are no character decisions being made besides what's needed for the plot. theres not a lot that i can put my finger on and say that its bad, but there are so few choices being made that its hard to say anything about his rose. to put a completely different character in rose's place in robin 2021, all you'd have to do is switch a few words around. williamson uses a vague idea of who a character is to guide what he wants them to do, and all his characters come out shallow. his rose wasnt BAD but it wasnt good at all

scott lobdell: every day i blow on a dandelion and wish for scott lobdell to kill himself

#re: williamson. for some reason the 'he cant write character voice' rule does not apply to ollie #like everyone else in ga23 is very eh. but hes nailed ollie's voice #the plot sucks. the pacing sucks. the decisions usually suck. but he can write ollie in a way that he cant write anyone else #trying so hard not to go on an entire rant about how williamson writes characters. i swear im trying to stay on topic #rose wilson

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writers-vlogx · 1 year

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im soooo happy to find people that love rafa as much as i do 😍 i love the way you write, it feels so in character. if you could write more about him... domestic rafa, power couple running the business together, rafa spoiling the living shit out of you... idk man i just love him 😪😪😪

Straight up DOMESTIC RAFA ABSOLUTELY 💯

Domestic Rafael headcanons

Brief suggestive themes

Oh brother do I have to tell you my little gremlin ideas that have been piling up lately.

if he's free and doesn't have some crazy idea that may or may not get both of you killed, he is soft and sweet.

He's very gentle on the days that he can rest. He wakes up late in the morning and doesn't feel like getting out of bed, so he pulls you closer and cuddles you. Taking in how warm your skin is and how soft your hair feels.

Once you decide it's been enough rest, you wiggle your way out of his grasp and get up to start your day. When you come back into the room to check on him, you see him half asleep whinning and extending his arms while telling you to come back to bed.

If you A) successful get him out of bed he's your for the day, whatever you want he will give.

If you B) fail to get him up, he will pull you back in and refuse to let you leave.

Now, if he gets up and manages to make it out of the bedroom door without deciding to be a horn dog, he'll look for you, and if he can't find you he'll head to the kitchen to get breakfast started.

It is my full belief that this man likes to cook better than to be served. He would be so skilled too. Like I can see that being a secret passion he would have.

Just being able to provide for you, not only with his job but also in everyday life. He wants to show you that you made the right choice by giving him a chance. That he's worth all the things you gave up.

Grocery shopping would be another big one, listen the guy likes to cook, and more so if you tell him about a specific dish you've been craving lately. That doesn't mean he wouldn't take you with him though, dude likes doing things together and he also likes making sure to have you by his side just in case he forgets anything or if there's something specific you wanted to pick out yourself.

Another thing I think he would like to do is clean together. Listen I know it may seem boring but just imagine when yall are making the bed suddenly starting a pillow fight, or if yall are clearing the kitchen table and you have the radio on he gets all sentimental and starts dancing with you.

He's a hopeless romantic so of course hugging you and wrapping his arms around your waist if your back is turned to him. Bringing you roses from the garden you planted together. Making dates at home when you don't feel like going out and cuddling on the couch. Taking you softly and kissing every part of you until he has you pulling his hair and begging for more.

Rafael being domestic is so beautiful because it's in those moments when you are alone with him that you can really see the true him. Not a part of the cartel, not a dangerous wanted criminal, not a poor sineloan man. Just Rafael solo tu Rafael. El que no te hará arrepentirte de averlo escogido.

@yoongskook @hausofmamadas

#tenoch huerta #narcos mexico #narcos mexico imagine #rafa caro quintero #rafael caro quintero x reader #rafael caro quintero x you #narcos mexico x reader #rafael caro quintero #narcos x reader #rafael caro quintero x male reader #rafa caro quintero x reader #narcos mexico x you

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yanderu-deredere · 8 months

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Hello!! Ive been slowly working my way through your ocs and can i just say!!! They are soooo tasty, your brain is very big, also linking the profiles is soo nice im terrible with remembering stuff so its a nice refresher

Anyway i was just wondering how do you think Ayaka would be with a childhood friend darling 🤔

a/n: SORRY ANON BUT YOU'VE HIT THE JACKPOT this is literally my SPECIAL INTEREST i absolutely DIE AND LOVE THE CHILDHOOD FRIENDS TO LOVERS TROPE

ayaka yamato ★ profile

being childhood friends with ayaka means getting to know the social media super star before she became popular girl material

before, her hair was pitch black and she also had a lot of acne. like now, she wore thick rimmed glasses but they were always plain black. she also wore a lot of formal clothes, chosen by her nanny. stuff like button ups, long pleated skirts, etc

as a kid, ayaka was basically caged so, to be her childhood friend, your parents had to have been really good friends with her parents

ayaka's parents often scheduled play dates with their good friends' children as a way to gain more social power among the rich

unfortunately, that's really the only way you could've met her before she began her rebellious phase

like frfr ayaka was basically isolated as a child. i cannot stress this enough lol

her little brother was doted on by her mom and her older brother was coddled by her father (since he's the heir) so, often times, she was left to her own devices

she, of course, had nannies and tutors but none of them really truly treated her like the child she actually was

to everyone she met, she was a yamato. and that was the only thing that mattered about her

this made her very hungry for affection and she took whatever she could get

and if you gave her any sort of affection? when she's starving? she'd eat that shit up and praise the ground you walk on LOL

though caveat to that is that you'd have to be in the same boat as her LOL becos she's always been easily jealous, especially back then, and if you were more free than she was, she'd resent you too much to get attached to you

she'd definitely use you as her guinea pig when she starts experimenting with fashion and make up too lmao

when she does go thru her transformation from goody good daughter to how she really wants to live her life, she brings you with her

but she won't let you become a socialite like her. no, you're only allowed to be with her, to be close to her, to be her friend

anytime you start slipping from her grasp, she starts isolating you until the only person you feel comfortable clinging to and depending on is her

"Do you think there's more to life than this?"

You looked up from your homework to see Ayaka staring intently at you, her head resting in her arms. She was pushing around one of the fruit peels that she'd left on the desk but it was obvious from her expression that she'd been serious about her words.

You considered her words for a second before cocking your head a little to the side "What do you mean?"

"I don't know... more to studying. More to being the kid of a CEO. More to all of this." She just huffed in reply before leaning back and crossing her arms "Feels unfair that we live like this."

I don't want you to live like this. She wanted to say but the words just stayed lodged in her throat.

Unfortunately, she didn't inherit a lot from her parents but she did inherit their inability to express affection. The sweetness, the love, always felt awkward and tough on her tongue.

She wanted so desperately to tell you about her feelings, to let you in and let you know, but all she could do was peel you clementines and sit by your side, hoping and praying that you'd notice her.

Certainly, if not her, you found yourself thinking about her words. You'd never really thought about that before. You were always following your parents' rules that it felt blasphemous to consider going beyond them, to see what it was like beyond the rules and the gilded cage.

Because you were aware. You knew the life they had you live--the life Ayaka's parents had her live--was one of imprisonment, doomed to never do what you wanted to do.

But you'd lived the life for so long that imagining what life would be like any other way left you drawing a blank.

"Let's start living life our own way." Ayaka suddenly uncrossed her arms and took your hands into hers, that eager grin on her face infectious "You and me. Nobody cares about me like you do, anyway."

"And nobody cares about you like I do, right?" There was something dark to her tone right then, like there was more to her words. But she looked so mesmerizing, so sweet, that you found yourself nodding.

Ayaka only beamed even brighter "We'll decide how we want to become, not our parents."

#yandere oc x reader #yandere x reader #oc x reader #yandere #female yandere #female oc #drabbles #ayaka

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itgomyway · 8 months

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I've been into Non-Dualism for a while now, though not extensively. Previously, I was deeply involved in the Law of Assumption community. Then, I stumbled upon ND. It felt like a breath of fresh air, so liberating. I've consumed all sorts of ND content, from every nook and cranny of the internet. It's been a bit of a rollercoaster, this journey of slowly "detaching from ego".

Recently, something happened that sent me on a over-consumption, while trying to convince myself that "hey, it's okay". Honestly, I'm tired of reading without a clear sense of what steps to take. I've tried all sorts of techniques to loosen the grip of ego, but my mind keeps circling back to these issues, almost like they're haunting me. I get it, it's ego at play, but the anxiety attacks still hit hard.

I hope I'm not coming across as too demanding, I'm just genuinely seeking guidance in the best way possible. What more can I do?

There's so much conflicting advice out there. Some say understanding isn't crucial, it's just the ego making a fuss. Others suggest a slow process of self-inquiry, questioning what the ego is asserting and coming back to our core. It's left me feeling a bit bewildered and frankly, drained. I'm at a loss, just wanting a reset that brings some peace.

I get that Non-Dualism is supposed to be about simplicity and shouldn't bring about these feelings. But right now, I feel like I've got a full plate. My mom's financial situation hasn't been great, and I'm really anxious about her having to bear too much of a burden. Letting go of the desire to change my current circumstances is terrifying. What if letting go only means things stay the same or get worse? The pressure to make a change feels like it's closing in.

When people say "let it be" or advise to step back from actively trying to fix things, I'm left scratching my head. How do you navigate challenges by just letting them be? I feel defeated and just want to feel free. I'm scared about what the end of the week, or worse, the end of the month, might look like if I'm still stuck in this uncertainty. I've got a decent grasp of these concepts on an intellectual level, but when the day passes and I whisper "I AM" to myself, I struggle to truly feel it. It's like I'm held back by the limitations of this physical form.

I'm on the edge of giving up on chasing after achievements. Ego sometimes feels like this looming, scary presence. What I really want is to shed all of this weight, be kinder to myself, and find a path that leads to genuine freedom. What's the next step? What should I do? I want to stop trying, or figuring out.

Thanks a ton for taking the time to read this through. I've been following your blog and I really appreciate the kindness you bring to your community. Wishing you a great day ahead.

love im afraid in all of that reading, you missed the entire point. the point of non dualism is to free you from the human condition. you dont use non dualism to navigate the human condition it doesnt exist in the first place.

remember everything is you. you are consciousness. everything else is fake and its only the ego that deems it as real.

ignore it. its not real. who cares?

that’s how i live “life”. i dont confirm nor deny anything real or fake whenever circumstances arise cuz its ALL FAKE. the only existing thing is me. even when i think about “me” its not even “me” doing it. its the ego. the ego answers the question of who you are while you as CONSCIOUSNESS know what you are. the ego cant really grasp this so i don’t see a reason in trying to make it

i picture it as inner child = ego “grown up” = consciousness. the inner child is scared and confused. just wants to be safe and do any and everything to be safe, even if they think they know what theyre doing or that theyre in control. its not. its fake. be the adult in the situation and take control. understanding the ego is probably throwing a temper tantrum so let it cry itself to sleep. everything they thought that was soooo important they’ll forget when they wake up. so its not real anyway. you can relax you got this <3

#consciousness #nonduality #nondualism #awareness

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aita-blorbos · 7 months

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AITA for avenging my brother?

hiiiii ^^ so im (30, let's say M for convenience's sake) am currently the leader of a very big sect, which was Not the plan WhatSoEVER (i'll get into it). i was born as the younger sibling to the sect heir, which meant i had free reign to basically do whatever i wanted while he got the responsibilities and stuff! great deal methinks. our father died when we were both still young due to heart issues that run in the family and also being killed. since my brother had a decade or so on me, he pretty much raised me from then on while also having the new role of official sect leader on his shoulders.

again, seems like a good deal! he was strict, and really really insisted i practiced my fighting skills (like that wasn't the literal cause of our family's heart issues) to the point that one time he like kind of burned my paper fan collection in front of me but that's like it's all besides the point okay he loved me and i loved him and we were both there for each other okay? okay

anyway he had this servant/best friend/pretty sure somethingsomething was going on there. he was kind of like a second big brother to me. our interests overlapped and he also preferred stuff like art and poetry over fighting. he understood me in a way that my brother couldn't, and he helped raise me just as much, even accompanying me to my third year of summer courses. which lol was supposed to be a one year course but i failed twice. lmao w/e

things got... bad. a war broke out, the servant betrayed us by letting a dangerous enemy out of his cell, and he and my brother had a horrible fight that ended in the former's expulsion from our sect. fast forward yadda yadda this isn't so much the part of the story it's just context but basically that turned out to be a plan to get close to the enemy sect leader so he could stab him in the back. which turned out to become a recurring theme.

the servant, now a prominent figure in his own sect, my brother, and one basically-a-celeb from another sect became this big trio (and totally a Thing) because of the role they played in ending the war. servant-now-big-boy (let's go with snbb for convenience) used that position to send my brother into a cardiac arrest by playing a melody that was supposed to soothe him differently.

so now i was alone, and with one of the current biggest sects to lead, while all i wanted to do is look cute, paint and be bisexual. you can probably imagine how i felt when i learned who did it, especially considering how not only no one else knew, but he got /rewarded/ for it by becoming a sect leader himself. soooo i got a little silly and here's where i mighttttt be tah :3

basically i started a 10+ years revenge plan. i didn't really plan a /lot/ of it, but i knew i'd have to resurrect one of my childhood friends for it to grab attention away from me etc and such and so on and so forth. but basically i also got a gay and socially rejected teenager killed for that, desecrated the corpse of snbb's mother, paid some people to spread rumours here and there, possibly killed a few cats to lure a group of people where i needed them to be, and adopted a public persona of a useless idiot who couldn't run a sect for the life of me to keep suspsicions off of me for the duration of this, which was Also a part to get back at him because that meant he, as someone responsible and sooo niceys and oh won't you please help your poor little meowmeow with the big scary emails plssss (he basically ran the sect for me lol).

to top it all off i had him killed by the one person that loved him the most (mister sir basically-a-celeb. god his jawline is stronger than my will to live) (he has gone into seclusion and is isolating himself indefinitely to mourn)

but also all this allowed my old bestie to get gay married with his longtime heartthrob

so. aita?

#aita #am i the asshole #unreality #animal death

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lovebvni · 4 months

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the people have spoken — here’s my lore <3

hellooo!! <3 you guys said you wanted to see my lore from my main dr that i actually got from js thinking about my dr!!!

for context, this is for my main mha dr <3 i am siblings w himiko toga but she also has 2 more siblings including me, kuro (kurtis is his american name; he is also himiko a twin sibling) and himari (halo) (i just changed her name as of typing this)

i js realized how y/n this sounds but ykw it’s cool shit ok?

tw for assault (or battery idk im not a lawyer), cutting of skin, drug use of minors, getting drugged .

please stop reading if there is anything that is a trigger to you. and also know this is all FICTIONAL in this reality so please do not worry abt anyone lmfao 😭😭

im going to be as brief as possible! i dont wanna type long blog although this is interesting <3

soooo our family moved back from america when i was in ~5th grade. i was like what… 10 because i started school early (i started developing fast oopsie‼️), himiko n kurt were 14/15 idk man i can’t do math their birthday is after mine 😭 but we were all still young. halo was 6/7ish

so around the time we moved back to japan and himiko real REALLY didn’t wanna go back to japan. she had friends in the us who she felt like accepted her n whatnot, she has a girlfriend she had to break up with because of the move, etc. there was lot going on in her head — it wa as big change to move back to japan so our mom could thrive in her business.

so, himiko came up with a plan — to drug her family, run away and fly back to america to continue living her life.

now, obviously, she didn’t complete the whole thing because she felt bad. she would be without her twin and two younger siblings.

she drugged all of us at a family celebration dinner. i don’t know the details for this i didn’t think it through/didn’t get told what she used. it started with an a though, idk LMDAO 😭😭

anya ways she drugged us at this family dinner then decided, as a way to show her love, she was going to take some of all our blood and cut a heart out on a various part of all our bodies.

my mom got a heart on her outer right thigh, my dads was on his right shoulder blade, kuro’s on his left arm, mine on my left eye and kiara’s on her left hand.

i don’t quite know why she did this but obviously, right for her parents, left for her siblings. idk if it means anything to her but yeah!

anyways hospitalized stitched, blah blah medical recoveries whatever.

now with this next part i’ll be kind of brief. some of kurt’s school friends found out abt the incident and they were like “hey we got set that could help u” but he decided to bring me since i was his next closest sibling — whatever.

they were older or something so they had like drugs (😧😧😧😦😦) ( i can’t take this seriously it’s insane) anyways we went to a lot of parties like every friday n saturday night but on saturdays we wouldn’t get as high bc we have church on sundays (we watch the american one online 💀)

it was crazy tho bro!!! but anyways both kurt n i have nic addictions 🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️ woopsie poopsie!

i didn’t script all of this btw. i just scripted the part abt himiko drugging us then fucking dipping. all this other shit was included.

also dw i won’t get cancer or anything serious from using anything 😭😭 js temp shit!

anyways yeah! sorry it’s shorter than u expected. i have a weird headache that keeps coming n going (along w migraines) so i tried to keep it short so i wouldn’t stress myself

anyways!!! i hope yall enjoyed! if u have my questions feel free to ask or smth idk 😭

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sillyandquiteawkward · 8 months

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ME AGAIN ! GUY WHO LIKES YOUR OCS ! (apparently this didn't send before but thankfully I saved it beforehand !)

Okay So I really really like Bailey and his siblings because they're literally SO bad coping mechanisms core. Like damn therapy wasn't kidding that Child Abuse really Can leave you altered for the rest of your life !

Ignatius is Fawn, due to having had to have adapted into a role of a peacekeeper for people in the house not to fucking bite each other, but also because I can really see him trying to sympathize with everyone around him in an attempt to make himself more approachable, more demure, smaller even, so that no one is mean to him. He wants things to be "normal" Soooo Bad he can't stand the fact people won't just talk to each other despite it feeling like the most logical option [<- Bro cannot accept the circumstances of a much more complicated relationship between his siblings than he originally fathomed !]

Bailey is Flight to me, because much like Octavia points out in that one comic you made innnnn 2022 (? I TINK !), instead of actually solving the issues that bother him head on and face the consequences of doing so, he'd rather walk around them a billion different ways and pretend to be busy and avoidant and Cool because dealing with actual conflict is SCARY !!!!!!! Call this guy "Mask of my own face" by Lemon Demon the way he has never once in his life felt the full extent of his emotions due to an underlying self imposed expectation to be this untouchable being who's always right and never actually has to have a heart to heart with anyone <3. I just think its interesting how you write Bailey to be this all-logic-no-play person, while also giving him the feeling that all of this is an act waiting to fall apart, and that he does not in fact Know A Damn Thing. He's the world's dumbest smart man I wish I could throw him in a well <- loving

And Octavia, of course, is Fight, but not JUST because she's exceedingly aggressive in order to cover up her own insecurities and fear of not being her an actual individual ! There's so much more to her and I'm FASCINATED frankly. She lives in a shadow of someone who has never had much regard for her accomplishments, and now she wants SO BAD to prove that "NO, YOU WERE WRONG, I AM SO GOOD AT THIS AND SO SUCCESSFUL" that she ends up losing her personality along the way. She's so focused on the achievements she has gotten, the fights she has won, the struggle SHE ALONE overcame, that she forgets that she's like... a person. Octavia has been on self defense mode for so long that she's forgotten HOW to take off all that armour, and now she's just stuck under hundreds of pounds of metal waiting for that one final thing that's going to make her happy. I just need to work a little harder ! I just need to do this better ! I just need a little more time to work on this and then I can rest ! I am good ! I am good ! She shouts. And then, when she FINALLY gets that score, that perfect track record, she's like "Great ! This proves me my worth and that I am in fact Good !...Now what". It's never enough and it has never been enough but fucking dammit she will prove it to herself to her mom and to her shitass lazy siblings that NO I AM GOOD. I JUST NEED TO KEEP MOVING FORWARD. IM DOING GOOD BECAUSE I WORK HARD. She's normal ♡ [I love her so bad but PLEASE give her mood stabilizers]

Hoohhg this ended up longer than I imagined but anyway. Tldr, Im Bailey I'm Iggy and Im Octavia the MENTAL ILLNESS siblings <3

(Long essay anon here again sorry) I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT YOUR OCS CONSTANLTY IM SO SORRY. They came into my house (brain) one day and they haven't left so now I'm conducting experiments on them. They're so cool and I really want you to know that they are. 50 ttrillion dollars for yiu

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i literally love this soooo much please always feel free to have thoughts about my ocs ANYTIME! your thoughts about the bayleys are SO RIGHT. the mental illness siblings realness 😔 hehehehehe i think its really interesting that they ended up showing off the fight/flight/fawn responses. its not something i entirely planned for them, but its accurate. i especially enjoy the thoughts on bayley's flight response, it really is interesting how hes a master at avoiding things.

some doodles on your thoughts and what i thought would be silly in response. <3 bc i live for this stuff and it makes my day to read things like this, let alone on my own characters (sobbing crying <3<3)

#doc bayley #octavia #ignatius #silly art tag

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limbel · 19 days

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Bothering you with questions 🫡

Which moment/episode/scene from Supernatural you find the warmest to your soul? It doesn't have to be your favourite moment, but when you're watching this moment you should think "ha, life is worth living" and feel metaphorical sunshine on your skin.

hi hello!!! thank you for being annoying in my inbox (lie!! you're not) i'm srry if it took me some time to answer, but i had to think about this for a while lol

this is actually not an easy question because a) i suffer from Very Bad Memory Syndrome and i suck at recalling specific things/events especially when it comes to a series as long as supernatural where there are sooo many things and events. and b) many moments or situations that i think of as heartwarming at first are inevitably tied to so many other moments and situations that are just. plain depressing (supernatural thesis statement) and i didn't want to include those

this to say that my answer will not be a definitive one and that there are probably a thousand more moments that simply didn't come to mind at the right time. rip 😔 so im going to list things off the top of my head in no particular order (recency bias warning: im on s7 with my rewatch so they'll mostly be from the first seasons)

-- frontierland. so very deangirl of me to be fair, but they gave me my favourite guy in a little costume and the sheer excitement of a 8-year-old at a theme park and expected me to be normal about it. seeing dean so overjoyed and act so silly and goofy is actually the point of it all. for me

-- dean eating m&ms in 1x02. this is purely sentimental because it is the very first scene that made me go 'yep. that's him. that's my guy'. it all went downhill from there and all these years later im still here talking about him heh

-- free to be you and me, the alley scene. THE destiel scene to me. im sorry but that is the beginning of it all. AND THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW. the whole scene is just soooo innocent and genuine and wholesome... dean's laughter and his 'it's been a long time since i laughed that hard', cas' shy tentative smile when he glances at dean... YEAG

-- not really a specific moment, but cas and jack's relationship in later seasons. i love when they show how much similar they are and all the little idiosyncrasies they have in common. i'm thinking about the scene with jack and the fbi badge ('i just graduated from csi' 😭) but also about the head tilt + eyes squint. they mean everything to me!!!

-- other honorable mentions: very basic, but the impala scene from swan song. the night moves scene from baby (it's always so nice to see them enjoy the little moments) and also the firework scene from dean's heaven in 5x16. aannnnddd dean when he has genuine & positive interactions with jack, like teaching him how to drive or baking him the birthday cake etc etc. also every jack scene ever

that's it! but the list could go on forever :^)

what about you?? now i'm curious about your favourite moments (and if anyone else wants to share theirs please reply or @ me or whateverrr i'd be happy to read them!)

#i actually went and consulted my (WIP) spreadsheet of supernatural episode to see if anything else came to mind #im normal about my memory #also im realizing that these are almost exclusively and unashamedly about dean. terminal deangirlism #just half a mention of sam sfjhdsdfhj sammy i swear i love you im sorryyyyy #DEVASTATED that i just noticed that you asked for ONE moment and i gave you a billion 😭#this is actually why i shouldn't get asks btw. i will not stop yapping 😔#asks #spn thoughts #<- so i can find this again

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That includes Sweet Creature, a sweetly-strummed ode to a person that Styles won't disclose.. "The fun thing is, you can write a love song that's not always in the traditional sense - it doesn't always have to be romantic or even about a person at all, if you don't want," he said.

Do you know if this interview is true? I didn't find it anywhere until I found it on Google

hi!! i mean, that is what usatoday posted on may 12, 2017 about what harry "said" about sweet creature in the "The Zach Sang And The Gang Show" (x) that was published on may 3, 2017. You can listen to the entire interview, he didn't say that, at all...

that same interview was quoted in teen vogue, billboard, rolling stone (they deleted it but here's the article in web archive), and a lot of other popular magazines. and, as you can see, none of them use that quote.

i tried to find a transcription of the interview or quotes of UAs but i couldn't. so i decided to do it myself. the entire interview where harry styles talks about sweet creature for the first time ever below the cut! :)

one last comment before the interview: funny how they accuse us of using "questionable articles" when this situation proves totally the opposite. we say that sweet creature is about romantic love and certain people say its for his sister/mother/etc. the fact that somewhere there are people using that quote that he didn't even say to "prove" that its for gemma; proves us right lmao.

okay now the interview!! sorry im not a native english speaker soooo sorry if there's mistakes!!

Zach: Hello Harry Styles, what's going on man?

Harry: Hello! How are you?

Zach: I'm doing well. You're on with me.

Harry: Good.

Zach: Zach Sang, Dan and Heather.

Dan and Heather: Hi!

Harry: Hello Dan and Heather.

Heather: You said my name.

Zach: How are we feeling right now man?

Harry: I'm very excited man, thanks for having me on.

Zach: Of course.

Harry: I appreciate it.

Zach: Come on, Sweet Creature drops yesterday, Sign of the Times kicks off this new solo Harry Styles project. I mean this is exciting. This is creatively freeing.

Harry: What's exciting is that you called Sweet Creature, Sweet Creature because I spoke to someone earlier and they called it Smooth Criminal.

Heather: [Laughs] What?

Zach: Are you kidding?

Harry: I'm not kidding.

Heather: That's not the right thing.

Harry: We're off to a good start.

Zach: Dude, first of all, I am a big fan of yours for many years now. We worked together. I interviewed you guys as a band back in Nickelodeon years ago

Harry: Yeah.

Zach: And you got me drunk at Meghan Trainor's party once.

Harry: No I didn't.

Zach: You did. I was drinking too girly of a drink.

Harry: I didn't get you drunk at Meghan Trainor's party once. No way.

Heather: You got yourself drunk Zach.

Zach: No.

Harry: I don't drink.

Zach: [Jockingly] Never. Never. Okay, let's talk music. Seriously, this is very exciting because I think the art you're releasing, the world needs it. And I think our generation really needs it because we've been missing music with this type of message and with this type of sound. I genuinely believe that. So one, thank you.

Harry: I appreciate that. I am glad you're enjoying it. Yeah, I mean it's been very fun for me. It's been one of the best times of my life getting to make this and it's made me very happy to make. I think when I started it, I had no idea what it was going to sound like. And I just wanted to write stuff that I wanted to listen to and I'm really happy with where it's ended up and I'm really looking forward to getting to play it for people and being able to play these songs live and yeah, I'm very happy.

Zach: Can you take us back to that first solo studio session? A creative team of your choosing, what is the song that you work on? What was the first song to tackle?

Harry: The first song of the very first session, so I hadn't written for a while, and the first session that I did to start writing again for the album was actually Sweet Creature. So yeah, I mean I think I just, all I knew that I wanted to do was be honest and I didn't want to edit myself. I wanted to be honest and open and I feel like when you listen to the album through, I think you can see that and I think to me it's what makes it interesting to listen to. And it's why I am now proud of it.

Zach: Is there a top to bottom story through the entire album?

Harry: I think there's a few. I think more so than one story, I think it's very much a piece of me that I haven't shared or talked about before. So I think the album is very much a snapshot of me more so than it is about anyone else. But I think, like I said, I really didn't know what it was going to be when I started writing it and it finished in a very different place than it began. And I just had so much fun working out what it was that it was going to be the whole time. And that changing the whole time was really fun. And now I've ended up with something that I love listening to and proud of. I'm also, you know, found it very therapeutic to write and be vulnerable while writing. And I think if I'd made anything other than that, I would have been disappointed in myself.

Zach: Do you live life and then sit back and process what you just lived through and then write music? Do you write as you go? What is your style?

Harry: I think it's kind of all of it. I think very much all of the above. I think sometimes, you know, sometimes stuff happens and it's pretty hard to process and a lot of stuff is easier to kind of think about much further down the line. And sometimes it's easier to literally get home from something that happened and sit down and write about it. I think it's so different. There's kind of all sides of the scale. You know, sometimes you sit down to write and what's the first thing you think about? Oh, it's something that happened to you four years ago that you hadn't thought about for a while. You know, I think it's really it's really amazing to to kind of just let that happen. I feel like it's very much it's often much easier to say something and talk about something to an instrument than it is to a person. And I found making this album incredibly therapeutic, getting to, you know, allow myself to be vulnerable and think about things that I hadn't thought about for a long time or things that I maybe had kind of tried to forget or not. Or, you know, I think just being open is always good.

Zach: Was it nervous for you to be open and to go into the studio with, you know, your feelings literally on a paper or in a phone?

Harry: Yeah, I think I was really lucky to find a group of people that that made me feel comfortable enough to do that. I don't think I wanted to do anything else with the album. I really wanted it, to be honest. And I was lucky enough to find a group of people who created an environment where I felt like I could just be vulnerable with them all the time. And I think once you get through the first couple of sessions, you know, you start to strip away any feelings of, you know, censoring yourself or anything away. And then that's usually when the best stuff comes.

Zach: Is there any part of this music making process that you look at or respect differently now that you're solo that maybe you didn't respect or look at before?

Harry: Honestly, I think I've always loved the touring part of of working in music, and I've always loved performing so much. The last few One Direction records we made kind of on the road in between shows, which was amazing, obviously, for for different reasons. I think this time not rushing and having a chance to really immerse myself in the process and feel like I was learning a lot as it was happening. I really felt like I fell in love with the other side of music. I really felt like I loved being in the studio every day and working on stuff and trying to work stuff out that, you know, I know I don't understand as well as other people. And it was really fun to just kind of learn as we were going. So, yeah, if I'm honest, I fell in love with the studio side.

Zach: That's awesome. And that's really special.

Harry: More so than I had before. Yeah, it does feel special. Yeah. It feels like, you know, something that I now love. I'm now writing more than I ever have before and I'm playing more than I ever have before. And it's cool to kind of be in a place where I just love writing and I'm writing all the time. Makes me excited for the next one.

Zach: Are you already writing the next one or are you always writing?

Harry: I think, I mean, I'm always writing. I don't think I'm writing right now kind of going, oh, this is for this and this is for this. I think the thing I learned a lot about the process this time was there would be songs that I love that I would absolutely love to put out that just didn't feel right for this first album. And it's cool to kind of feel like, you know, this is something that I'd love to say. Maybe I don't want to say it right now, but I can just keep it. And that's really cool.

Zach: Harry, was Sweet Creature written about a specific person?

Harry: In my opinion, I think most songs are written for one listener. In my personal opinion, in the way that I think, you know, people who write books, I think probably write them for one reader. And yeah, I think it's a really amazing way of being able to say something to someone that, you know, maybe they'll never know it's about them. Maybe there's one thing in there that only they will know it's about them. I think it's, you know, like I said, it's so much easier to to say something in a song than it is to say it to someone. And I think it's it's really amazing to be able to communicate through that and be able to wrap up everything that you want to say in three and a half minutes and say it in a song.

Zach: For lack of like not wanting to like really analyze your art, right? You kind of said without saying that the song is kind of about somebody, right? You had a message that you were looking to convey. Who makes you feel at home?

Harry: I think that's fair. I think that's a fair, a fair acknowledgement. Yeah.

Dan: So does this person know the song is written about them?

Harry: I actually don't know. I think the thing that's important to remember is it's not always necessarily the first thing you might think of, but I obviously would never tell someone that what they thought was wrong. I think the best thing about music is that everyone can take away different things from from stuff.

Zach: It's different every year.

Harry: And that's not wrong. There's not really a wrong answer. I feel like a lot of my favorite songs that mean something to me, I'd be disappointed if someone told me that they're about something else. It might ruin the song for me. So, yeah, I think Sweet Creature is definitely about one person. But, yeah, I think it's important to remember that, you know, there's many different types of things that could be about, you know, a person. Yeah. Know what I mean?

Heather: It's okay, I know.

Harry: Oh, yeah, I mean, I'm a massive fan of that song. It's incredible.

Dan: Yeah. Was Blackbird by the Beatles an inspiration for the song? Because I've been seeing a lot of comparisons between those two.

Heather: Good song.

Harry: So, I mean, being mentioned in the same breath as that song is a huge compliment. But, yeah, I mean, I just wanted to write stuff that was for me and what I feel sounded like me and what I wanted to say and listen to. And I feel really happy with it so far.

Zach: Do you have a hand in the fashion that is a part of, like, the album? Like, that blue velvet suit is gorgeous. It's very unique. Did somebody pitch that to you or did you find it?

Harry: No, we found it. So, yeah, I think the thing that's really fun with music is you get to, you know, you see everything as well. And that has obviously become part of music in that people get to present stuff in the way that they want to present stuff. And I think it's a really good place to be able to, like, have fun with it and express yourself. And I guess just show the music in the way that you'd want to show it, I think. And it's a very cool way of being able to have some fun, I think.

Zach: We're going on tour. This is a very unique tour. It is a very intimate venue type situation.

Harry: We are going on tour.

Zach: You must be really excited to perform in intimate venues, right?

Harry: I am very excited. Yeah, I think it's my first album. It's my first tour. And I'm going to be playing some amazing venues that a lot of my favorite artists have played. They're amazing rooms. And I just wanted to I wanted to go and play these songs for some fans who wanted to come and watch and listen. So I'm very much looking forward to it. It's going to be really nice, I think. And the band I'm going to be with are amazing. And I think it's going to be a fun run.

Zach: By the way, you said rooms, right? Not arenas, not stadiums, nothing like that. Are you preparing differently mentally and creatively to cater to an audience of a smaller size?

Harry: Just kitchens. We're just playing kitchens across the U.S.

Zach: Yeah, that's actually a really good idea. There's a lot of people who would open their kitchen up to you.

Harry: Yeah, I that would be lovely.

Zach: You get a lot of food.

Harry: It'd be a bad kitchen though. I mean, yeah, it's very exciting. I'm looking forward to, you know, I think the energy that you can feel in those rooms, there's some of the some of my favorite shows that I've ever been to are in rooms very similar to the ones that we're going to be playing. So I'm excited to to see how it goes.

Zach: How long does it take you to get dressed and get ready in the morning? Like, do you sit in front of the mirror in your closet for a while or is it is it quick?

Harry: It's pretty quick, man.

Zach: Okay.

Harry: Pretty quick.

Zach: Because you always look real cool when you're out and about.

Harry: Thanks!

Zach: But I think the coolness, but the coolness is kind of like the real quickness of it. Right. The dishevelment. Right. You didn't try, but you tried.

Harry: Comfortable, man.

Zach: Yeah. Comfort is cool.

Harry: You just have to be comfortable.

Harry: Undecided, I'm enjoying both right now. I'm enjoying both. Right now, just add a little trim. I'm feeling pretty good about it. Yeah, a little breezy behind the ears.

Dan: All right. Harry, everyone wants to know about the hair. Is the is the hair going to stay a little shorter? Is it going to you going to grow it back out?

Zach: Are you going to bring back?

Harry: Good.

Zach: Are you bringing back painted fingernails at all?

Harry: Sure.

Zach: Cool.

Harry: Why not? Yeah, I haven't really thought about it too much. Probably, yeah

Heather: Now you are.

Zach: Sweet. By the way, I know we're talking a lot about music, obviously, because that's what's going on. Harry Styles, self-titled album, debut album coming out May 12th. He does go on tour. And this is a super unique tour. And I can't wait to see the show.

Harry: Thank you.

Zach: I just want to talk about movies real quick because you got music, but you are doing some movies. And do you have a dream role? Like, do you see yourself like in a dream role at all? Like, who would you want to play?

Harry: Well, that's a really good question. I don't know, really, I think I was with this one, I was always a massive fan of Chris Nolan's movies. Yeah, it was something that I feel like if I hadn't been involved in it, I'd be very excited to watch it. And I kind of really wanted to get involved. And I felt very lucky the whole time I was on set to be involved in a movie like that. And I think it's going to be good. I think it's going to be a fun one. And I think if there was stuff in the future where I really wanted to get involved, then I'd love to be able to try for it, I guess. Dream role, I'm not sure.

Zach: Can I put out into the universe that maybe one day James Bond, you know, just going to put that out there?

Harry: Well.

Zach: Right?

Harry: Well.

Zach: I don't know. I think like maybe like 15 years down the line, 20 years, whatever. Like, that's pretty sweet. I think you'd make a killer James Bond.

Harry: I don't know. I don't know. Maybe I could use some help.

Zach: No guns.

Heather: Kind words of love.

Zach: Compliments.

Harry: Throw roses around.

Heather: There you go.

Zach: Any collaborations on this album at all?

Harry: No, nothing on this album.

Heather: Only Harry Styles.

Harry: No, I feel like it's really important to me to work out what it was going to be going into it, not knowing what it was going to sound like. So I didn't know what my album was going to sound like. So I felt like I kind of wanted to work that out first and just kind of not kind of stray too far from just making an album of what I wanted it to be for my first one, I guess. But no, nothing on nothing on this one.

Zach: What's the hardest part of this solo process so far for you?

Harry: I'd say you can't deflect any questions to anyone else.

Zach: Yeah, it's a really good answer.

Harry: Yeah, just just just you.

Zach: It's all you.

Harry: And then, yeah, but I'm finding new ways to wriggle out of stuff, which has been a lot of fun.

Zach: Love for you, Harry Styles. Thank you so much for taking the time, man. It really means a lot.

Harry: Thanks for having me.

#ask #sweet creature

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Now that Taylor has released her new album, I need you to tell me which songs are perfect for swanfire 👀

OF COURSE 🫡🫡 the best part of getting a new taylor album is getting to add songs to the swanfire playlist

i’ll say that idk if this is a complete list yet bc im not super familiar w the album yet so there might be more i would add later but after a couple listens these are the ones i got (and also some of the lyrics i like/think fit them best):

loml

we embroidered the memories of the time i was away / stitching “we were just kids babe”

i said “i dont mind, it takes time” / i thought i was better safe than starry-eyed / i felt aglow like this / never before and never since

and all at once, the ink bleeds / a conman sells a fool a get-love-quick scheme / but i’ve felt a hole like this / never before and ever since

if you know it in one glimpse, it’s legendary / what we thought was for all time was momentary

i wish i could recall how we almost had it all

our field of dreams engulfed in fire / your arsons match, your somber eyes / and i’ll still see it until i die / you’re the loss of my life

so long, london

i didnt opt in to be your odd man out / i founded the club she’s heard great things about / i left all i knew, you left me at the house by the heath

and i’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free

two graves, one gun

you swore that you loved me, but where were the clues? / i died at the alter waitin’ for the proof

just in general the vibes of this one fit them so well

the smallest man who ever lived

was any of it true? / gazing at me starry eyed

and i dont even want you back i just want to know / if rusting my sparkling summer was the goal

the whole bridge fits emmas perspective after neal left sooooo well

imgonnagetyouback

whether im gonna be your wife or / gonna smash up your bike / I haven’t decided yet / but im gonna get you back / whether im gonna curse you out or / take you back to my house / i haven’t decided yet / but im gonna get you back

i hear the whispers in your eyes / i’ll make you wanna think twice / you’ll find that you were never not mine

small talk, big love, act like i don’t care what you did / im an aston martin that you steered straight into the ditch / then ran and hid

even if it’s handcuffed im leaving here with you

told my friends i hate you, but i love you just the same

chloe or sam or sophia or marcus

if you wanna break my cold, cold heart / just say “i loved you the way that you were” / if you wanna tear my world apart / just say you’ve always wondered

if the glint in my eye traced the depths of your sigh / down that passage in time back to the moment / i crashed into you, like so many wrecks do / too impaired by my youth to know what to do

so if i sell my apartment / and you have some kids with an internet starlet / will that make your memory fade from this scarlet maroon? / like it never happened

cause i wonder / will i always / will i always wonder?

peter

honestly this whole song just fits them soooo well esp w the peter pan/lost boy imagery?????

preserved from when we were just kids??? I thought it was just goodbye for now??? you said you were gonna grow up then you were gonna come find me??? promises oceans deep but never to keep??? and i won’t confess that i waited but i let the lamp burn as the men masqueraded i hoped you’d return??? lost to the lost boys chapter of your life??? please know that i tried to hold onto the days when you were mine???

PLS let me know ur thoughts also!!!! <3

#teresa answers #asks #mysteryandnonstopfun

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