Aaron Smith, from “Boston”
I watched two men
press hard into
each other, their bodies
caught in the club’s
bass drum swell,
and I couldn’t remember
when I knew I’d never
be beautiful, but it must
have been quick
and subtle, the way
the holy ghost can pass
in and out of a room.
I want so desperately
to be finished with desire,
the rushing wind, the still
small voice.
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I love writing.
I thought, “I’ll be a news writer.”
That was why I went to grad school.
This is why I quit grad school: I learned
that there are only four stories
and there’s only one way to tell each
but no matter what pen I used, new
stories came out, seditious and unwieldy, and I
still can’t stop finding
new ways to tell them.
This is why I
correct typos for a living while
others depict glorious international events in
black, white and read
Virginia Woolf the other day; she
said for a woman to write, she must first kill
the angel in the house.
The grad school chair was too alive
to be an angel, but given another chance
I’d fix that and drive a
red ball-point like a stake through
his shriveled black heart and watch
the ink run out then
wash my hands.
I still read. I read all the time. I read the newspaper.
On the bus. Over the shoulder. Of the person sitting in front of me.
Today, it’s Wednesday but the paper’s stuck on Sunday.
You’ve got to figure, though, with the speed of information
these days, it was out of date on Sunday
even for speed readers, outmoded even before the ink was dry and
here’s the headline: NIGHTMARE IN BAGHDAD:
A WOMAN SEARCHES FOR THE TRUTH
ABOUT THE GULF WAR.
Do you believe everything you read?
Do you believe anything you read in the newspaper?
Teen Pregnancy Up, Moral Decay in America Up,
Rate of Incarceration of Black Males Up,
Dear Beth, Why can’t he get it up?
So, there’s a NIGHTMARE in Baghdad.
Wake up and the nightmare’s gone
It’s not like it affects property values here in
Baghdad-by-the-Bay and
it’s about a woman anyway and it’s in the
newspaper and she’s looking for what
really happened to her son or
something like that I’m sure because it’s a woman and
women are only news when they have
sons or husbands or they’re dead and I’m sure he’s
not really dead since no one
ever really dies in press rhetoric and
anyway it’s only one
woman “searching” for the “truth” so she’s
obviously a kook or a martyr or
both and we can make her disappear by
turning a page we can make thousands of
deaths disappear by talking about collateral
damage we can make thousands of deaths disappear by
not writing about them at all; wasn’t Bosnia
last year?
It’s hard to turn the page of a
newspaper on the bus. You hit the elbow of whoever is
sitting next to you, jostle the hair of the
woman putting on eyeliner in
front of you. It’s messy, yes, and
difficult, but a search for a story, even
just one, is like that
keep turning those pages next page
Headline: 70 YEARS AFTER SUFFRAGE:
WHAT DO WOMEN WANT
Why don’t you go ask the angel in the house?
All she’s doing is reading Cosmo, which won’t cover AIDS
since women aren’t really at risk
no one really dies in the glossy pages with perfume strips
and why dwell on that when you could be talking about
seven ways to drive him wild in bed or six
ways to flatten your stomach or five ways to love your body
(as long as he loves it) or four ways to
dress for dinner or three new hairstyles or two
pages about knowing when it’s over or one story that the
angel knows as she lies on her bed, looking so pretty.
All stretched out, wearing her high, high ivory pedestal heels.
Look at her pretty painted mouth twist in an O as I pluck
her wings feather by feather—it’s painful, yes,
but I guess it’s going to be like that—
and I pull a feather and she’s saying there’s a story—
that one about the woman who bit an apple and ruined the world
and I pull a feather and she’s crying that in the beginning
there was the father, the son and
something invisible
and I yank a handful of feathers and she screams that in
the beginning there was the law, the father
and I shove the feathers in her mouth and tell her, quietly,
that here is the beginning and we have
a murder, a motive and a body of evidence
that here is the beginning and we have
blank walls to write on
that here is the beginning
and we have blood.
—Daphne Gottlieb, “Death and the Maiden and the Information Age” (Pelt, Odd Girls Press, 1999)
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Richard Siken, "You Are Jeff"
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“Icarus.”
it's all about freedom really
Credit goes to An Sifakah for the poem. Enjoy!
Support me on Ko-fi maybe?
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it’s their’s to burn
sharing a cigarette with joan of arc - dante émile ( @orpheuslament ) // photography by brendon burton
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working at a grocery store has only made me even angrier about inflation and how food, water, and shelter isnt free
like just looking at groceries (not water or shelter) i see just a few bags (maybe around 5 or so) of food costing over $125 USD regularly. I've seen orders upwards of $600. and sure those have been bigger orders but no food should cost that much.
my coworkers and i shouldn't be complaining about the price of food when we get employee discounts.
a single bag of food for myself (usually containing some small pizzas, crackers, milk, and cereal) regularly costs between $50-60. minimum wage in my state is 15/HR. thats about four hours of work for one bag of food
a coworker who works on the front end of our store prides herself on being able to catch theives. everyone says how good she is at it. and sometimes it makes sense, sometimes people are just stealing to steal. but how do you ever know?
when the card reader we take outside is broken we are supposed to have the customers come inside to pay for their groceries if they're paying with EBT. there's a woman who's a regular who has a few small children and when she comes to pick up groceries they're usually asleep in the car.
am i supposed to make her choose between leaving her children alone in the car or waking them up and taking them inside?
four hours of work for one bag of groceries. is this not also theft?
four hours of work. let that sink in. four hours for one small bag of groceries.
we aren't supposed to accept tips but if we don't accept tips then how else are we supposed to afford our groceries?
i haven't seen a single person stealing food. you cannot steal whats already stolen.
although im no longer a christian, the teachings of my childhood have stuck with me, and in the bible it says "When you reap the harvest of your land, do not reap to the very edges of your field or gather the gleanings of your harvest. Leave them for the poor and for the foreigner residing among you."
society has reaped right up the the very edge and beyond of its fields, so it's up to us to reap what we can
four hours of work for one bag of food
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I’m okay.
it’s getting bad again
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john bull's other island and major barbara (1907) - george bernard shaw
"dont be scraed"
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"Salamander" poem from "Violet Bent Backwards over the Grass" by Lana del Rey ♡
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Rick Barot, from The Galleons (Milkweed Editions, 2020)
The Names
Now it’s time for the lilac, blazon of spring, the prince
of plants, whose name I know only when it blooms.
The blooms called forth by a bare measure of warmth,
days that are more chill than warm, though the roots must
know, and the leaves, and the spindly trunks ganged up
by the trash bins behind our houses. The blue pointillism
in morning fog. The blue that is lavender. The blue that is
purple. The smell that is the air’s sugar, the sweet
weight when you put your face near, the way you would
put it near the side of someone’s head. Here the ear.
Here the nape. Here the part of flesh that has no name
at all, the part that is shining because it has slipped naming.
In the crumbling photo album, the dead toddler on a bier,
dead for decades, whose name I now carry. On another
page, the old man, also decades gone, whose same name
I now carry. The name a fossil, the calcium radiance
that I bear and will eventually give up. Again it’s time
for the lilacs. The quiet beautiful things at the sides of the
rec center parking lot. The purple surge by the freeway.
The sprigs I cut from the shrub leaning toward me
from the neighbor’s yard, taking them at night because
I shouldn’t be taking them. The blooms that are a genius
on the kitchen table, awful because I want to eat them
with my terrible eyes, with my terrible hands. The awful
lilacs, the brief lilacs, the sweet. Here is the recklessness
I have wanted. Here is the composure I have earned.
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The Little Towns of West Texas
know all the roads go somewhere else
and never come back. They know
Heaven is directly above them
and from it comes great suffering.
In their fierce localities they suffer
without complaint. They believe
in their names and in the Holy Ghost
whose tongues of fire surround them.
They are covered with cotton silt,
insulated from the cold and the world
as if wearing a coat of frost all year.
They are mirages of mica shimmering
in the distance, moving always ahead
of the traveler. No stranger
can enter them, no native can leave.
Their seasons are summer and winter,
the hot wind and the cold. Spring
avoids them and goes a different way.
At night the wind spins them upward
into the darkness. At dawn it drops them
back to earth in no particular order.
If a house is found closer to the road
or at a different angle, nobody notices.
The horizon is always the same.
The wind flays everything equally.
Near the graveyards of the little towns
of West Texas beer cans are crucified
on fence posts and shot full of holes
The wind plays them like flutes. Coyotes
answer with voices that could wake
the dead. But the dead sleep on,
having everything they ever wanted,
a cool, dark place to rest where the wind
cannot rattle the lids of their coffins
and the sun no longer torments them.
Their mouths are pale crescent moons
drawn down over teeth they paid for
and intend to keep. They await
no other transfiguration, having heard
a voice roaring out of the desert
and it was not a comfort to them.
Now they sleep without dreams,
rocked by the rhythm of the pump’s
heartbeat and the faint susurrus of oil
sliding like from beneath them.
—Richard Shelton (x)
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I think I was too young for all these things
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"it's so embarrassing you like that popular thing" "oh ew that geeky/strange thing is so cringe lol" "oh it's kind of weird you get excited about that harmless shit"
dude i love how ironic and jaded you are and that's so cool and sexy of you. and i am so so glad to tell you - you won!! we all had a meeting and we decided that you won, and we are writing your name on the inside of a burger king crown. the marker smeared, sorry, but we knew any form of real effort is ugly to you. but anyway. congrats! you are officially the coolest, most ironic, most jaded person in-the-world-right-now. we would throw you a party but you would think it was totally boring - and besides, we're weird so we wouldn't have been coming. we would have brought our love of beetles and of baking and of little canapes. we would have brought our artsy videogames and pages of writing. we would have written a poem with you, our hands covered in ink, and spread out a canvas to dance on, the night so lurid and pink.
but do not worry. we will not throw the party. we will just get you a ringlight and that crown i mentioned. it is a nice crown, except for where one of us dropped it.
the vote was a really hard one because we had so many cool ironic people to pick off the shelves. all of you have hands that rot fruit, how strange is that - you can't look at something without destroying it for other people. you like it when you can squeeze a person into a pinpoint - all us small ones scampering our little feet around our ugly joys. the vote was also a hard one because we kept our voices down because you don't like it when we talk too loud. you were on your phone at the time, talking to people other than us. you are a ghoul of every moment - half in, half out, you resent us for being here without shame or embarrassment.
so good news! we have invented an island for people like you. you get to go there and speak into the air things like if you still like watching harmless twitch streamers in 2023 you're fucking boring. you will say things like liveplay podcasts are fucking ugly and it's kind of awkward they try to make everything gay. on the island we made you, all of your words will have weight. they will form in the air like icicles, large white behemoth letters that will crumple in anvils around your feet. maybe we will send someone there once in a while to sweep, but honestly you might be there for a while, alone, waiting. we are busy being outside looking for mushrooms and flapping our hands and humming. we are busy kicking our little heels while we watch cringey tv. we are busy - sorry! as an apology, we have pre-filled the island with every bland, mediocre, unscented thing we could find. the island has the texture of american cheese. the island has an ocean that never gets angry. the island is perfect for you, trust me. you will be so happy there - as happy as you can be, ironically.
we want to say we are sorry for doing harmless things that you find annoying, childish, or unappealing - but we are not sorry. we thought we could help you, because we don't mind laughing at ourselves, but it turns out you are allergic to color and noise and atmosphere, so this is the best that we can do for now. we are all making a big shirt that says i voted in the ironic monarchy. we got you one that is just a fast fashion buttondown. i am so excited for you and this island and the big life you have won. you have a cool jaded grey life and miles of irony to roam. i love you! be well.
now leave us alone.
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Would you travel to another dimension to taste my lips,
Would you love me for a lifetime where others have left in few minutes.
Would you be mine and breathe life into me,
As I'm wandering in this limbo my skin feels numb and my eyes can't see.
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