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#theyre actually taking care of themselves and sleeping
fandomestloser · 4 months
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im2tired4usernames · 2 months
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They stole any possible joy of motherhood I could have possibly wanted they stole my entire childhood they stole my teenage years my twenties and they continue to steal my future they won't be happy untill they've taken my whole life
#i hope your in fuckin hell you ugly cultist bitch i hope your getting what you deserve dad i hope karma hits you#i hope all your children grow up to hate you#quiverfull parents are monsters and they all deserve a place in hell#i hope my next life is that is a thing i get freedom and respect in my life#i hope they get a say in their life snd are well loved well rested and happy#im tired of being alive im so fuckin tired of my life#i cant die because there's wo many people who depend on me but fuck life sucks and it really is 100 because of my parents#i wish my future was actually reachable#i wish people would stop using me#i love my siblings i love spending time and caring for them#but i look at all my other siblings and my dad who fits in dates multiple times a week#who get jobs that pay that they enjoy they get hobbies they are responsible for themselves and only themselves they are starting families#they're getting to experience what it's like to be allowed to be a teen a 20 something a fuckin human person they go to concerts they sleep#when theyre tired they use their money for their own bills and wants and needs they get to go do things with they're partners as often as#they'd like to they get to EXPERIENCE LIFE WHILE I TAKE ON ALL THE RESPONSIBILITY#i want to be able to move in with my partner go in dates do things with friends get married write books draw get a job#i want to grow and change#they get to experience young adult life i get the adult responsibility but not the life experience or world knowledge or wisdom#I'm supposed to be the friendless sexless constant caretaker whos hobbies are dishes and vacuuming#that being said i cant make a future if no one is willing to make a move i cant be the only person trying to grow up#this includes my partner my siblings my dad they all need to make steps for our goals or we'll be stuck in a stagnant bullshit of 'someday'#constantly daydreamin about a future that'll never come i need to start making steps for it and i need other people to start making steps to#gwt ready to start growing up I'm not goin to let people keep holding me back forever my life is goin to fucking change or I'm goin to die
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rxtchetprime · 1 year
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i want ratchet and june to interact more. so i wrote some stuff down.
i want june to introduce human biology and medicine to ratchet. i want to see them compare notes of the medical and biological differences and similarities of humans and cybertronians.
ratchet asking about the history of medicine and june recounting how medicine used to be things like leeches and soda but are now actual thought out formulas for certain illnesses. june teaches ratchet about otc medicines like ibuprofen and tylenol. she goes into detail the biology of humans and ratchet will point out things here and there that are similar to their biology.
after a while of learning about humans, ratchet will keep a few first aid kits for them around. he sets up a small corner of the medbay for the humans aswell. if one of the children or even fowler gets injured and june isnt around, he'll activate his holoform and tend to their wounds to the best of his ability until june can get there as soon as she can.
the nurse is usually left impressed by the level of care shown in how ratchet dresses bandages, tucks in the paitent, and pays attention to monitor the persons vitals. shes proud of him, and also impressed at how quickly that he picked up on the vast differences of taking care of their species.
if jack offhandedly complains about a headache, ratchet will hand him a bottle of tylenol and a glass of water, he'll gently carry the teen to the couch that is set up in the base and advise him to rest. if miko comes in and looks like death warmed over, he'll hand her a heating pad and a small sweet treat to cheer her up. and if raf comes in feeling sick from a common cold, he'll make the boy a bowl of soup and allow raf to sleep in the crook of his neck. fowler getting injured in an altercation with a decepticon, ratchet patches him up and lets him rest in the medbay.
the other bots notice ratchet's new interest in human health and wellbeing, and how gentle he is with them. but they just smile and carry on, ratchet is a medic, its in his nature to learn about how to help others.
but also, give me june being interested in cybertronian biology. let ratchet teach her basics of first aid for bots. ratchet describes certain things like "pain that comes and goes in a bot's joints" and june tells him that humans call it chronic pain. "a pulsing pain in a bots helm" "thats a headache, ratch."
since the bots are just, metal, that means that their type of wounds dont need a long time to heal, they just weld themselves together. ratchet uses his holoform to teach june how to properly weld together injuries so that if he is unavalible, june can take care of it until ratchet is back.
since those lessons, june keeps a leather apron and a welding helmet around at base.
arcee coming back with a gash in her side, june has her sit on the floor so she can reach and gently tends to her wound. she advices her to get some energon in her systems and rest for a little bit. bulkhead with a few scratches here and there that hes complaining about stinging, june can buff them out. one of bee's doorwings is cracked and hurting, this is beyond her, she sits with him and comforts him until ratchet can get back to tend to them. optimus stalking out of recharge at an unholy hour looking uncomfortable and moving stiff, june lets him sit with her as he fans his plating out to relieve some of the pain in his joints.
the kids notice that ratchet and june have gotten closer lately, but they both need someone to confide in. let them have their bitchy medic talks, let them compare notes. theyre happy and theyre learning :)
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knyontop · 4 days
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I already requested something similar to somebody else but whatever- Could i have some creeps (maybe include Ben, Sally, Toby and Ej) with a new preteen proxy?? And the kid is obviously always tired/sleepy and somewhat depressed. Reader is also just really shy and nervous around people (ESPECIALLY PEOPLE OLDER THAN HER BECAUSE SHE OVERTHINKS AND DOESNT WANT TO MAKE A BAD IMPRESSION). And because of all this theyre really timid dont have any friends and just observes instead? (Whenever theyre alone they talk to themselves but nobody hopefully knows that <3) Theyre really intrested in others but theyre just scared and a loser. (also likes to keep things to themselves so hardly ever opens up) They only talk when being asked a question but when reader didnt understand them clearly they dont ask the other to repeat themselves but just stand like stupid literally the definition of awkward. Very isolant, overfriendly, nervous, silent and obedient. Will listen to you because they want to do a good impression. Oh youre hungry and want food? The kid will bring some snacks if you ask. (Theyre just a lonely scared kid who is trying to do their job correctly and fit in) sorry for yapping :c
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AWH DW ITS OKAY YOU CAN SAY WHATEVER YOU WANT AND MAKE IT PARAGRAPHS!!
Creepypasta x Child!reader
Ft: Ben drowned, Jeff the killer, sally willaims, eyeless jack, ticci toby, and our amazing, beautiful, handsome, reader.
Ben:
・as soon as he meets you he knows your an easy target for shit.
・he likes to fuck with your mind a lot.
・he sometimes feels bad about it because of how vulnerable you are, he has sadistic instincts and protective instincts about you.
・The more Ben hangs around you he starts to town down his mind games.
・he is practically your shadow.
・Ben also likes to teach you how to play games!
・Hes also starting to feel bad when he says thing like “What makes you think I care about you? Your so silly.” Because he sees how upset you get he then apologizes with a “Kid I didn’t mean it you dummy.” (Dw he means dummmy lovingly)
・he likes to think of you as his side kick.
・”Y/N, dont worry ‘bout jeff he dont mean it.”
EJ:
・when he first saw you, he knew you would be a tough case.
・sometimes he likes to spook you just a little bit.
・hes very curious about you even though your like an open book, he wants to know more about you.
・he feels bad for you because your a child, but he wont ever admit it.
・Jack sometimes lets you help him with small tasks.
・he has fatherly instincts towards you.. but also has thoughts about eating you because your like a helpless little lamb and hes the wolf. He likes his victims vulnerable.
・He does not understand his feelings about you see he pushes them to the back of his mind.
・”You want to help me? But your a child..”
・he looks down of you because hes older then you. It’s immature but he can’t control it.
toby:
・he sees himself in you and he doesn’t like thinking about the past so he tries to stay away from you.
・but it also makes him protective over you like everyone else.
・so he doesn’t hang around you, but, he protects you like his life.
・when he actually has moments where he hangs around you he starts to like you.
・like your the only person besides sally who treats him like a human.
・but that doesn’t mean he wont bully you a bit!
・Its more like teasing but like sometimes he takes it to far sometimes.
・his dark humor scares you.
・very clingy when he gets to know you.
・he asks to have sleepovers with you! (He watches you sleep)
・he takes up every opportunity to go on a mission with you.
・hes like obsessed with you at this point. (Platonically)
・he sees you as “his” Defenseless little sibling!
・”H-Hey there Y-Y-Y/N! Want to- to- go on a mission with m-me?” (He will force you if you say no)
Sally:
・Sally loves you so much!
・theres someone here age, and another girl!
・theres barely any girls!! ☹️
・loves hanging out with you and having tea partys and just everything!
・shes a sweetie<33
・she understands your anxiety around people who are older.
・she has that to.
・Sally even lets you babysit Mr. Charlie! (She will be mad at you for a bit if you hurt/lose him)
・just call her and shes there!!
・”Hey N/N!! Want to babysit Mr. Charlie?”
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NERVOUS ABOUT THIS AT FIRST BUT I LOVE IT!!
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vaguely-yandere · 2 years
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hhhhhh puppy yan…
a hybrid yan who you found huddling and shivering under a soggy old cardboard box on your way home. it was raining, how could you not have mercy on this poor puppy and take them home?? they were so skinny, so smelly, so scared. you just had to wash them up, feed them a good home cooked meal, and give them your love!! their floppy ears and tail reminded you of your childhood pet. you just had to care for them, you just had to!!!
puppy is cautious and scared when you first bring them home. getting them to bathe was a struggle that left both of you covered in soap suds and water. they would only eat if you weren’t anywhere near them. they tried their best to hide under your couch, but of course they weren’t as small as an actual doggy, so they had to resort to the corner of your living room. poor thing!!
but of course, they warm up to you after a little while… and soon, they’re obsessed.
what do you mean we can’t sleep together anymore?? you always offered back when you first brought me here… to help me stop trembling!! remember? why don’t you love me anymore :(
where are you going? work? i don’t understand… didnt you say you would always be here for me? why are you leaving? do you have to?
hnnghh… darling pet me more… it f-feels s-so good..!!!
stupid little pup who always has their tail thumping on the ground whenever you’re around. stupid little pup who always lays their head in your lap, digging their nose into your crotch, loving your smell and not so subtly humping your leg while doing so. stupid little pup whos YOURS YOURS YOURS, they make that very clear. ughhhh i want a puppy yan!!
- sunny !!
sunny you horny son of a bitch........... i love it!!! puppy yan whos just a bit of an idiot, bumping into things regularly, getting stuck because they dont understand their own size, getting scared by literally anything, eating things they shouldnt.. luckily, they have no intention of ever leaving so they dont ever run away!
and if you ever have food delivered or the mail comes by, puppy yan will be darling at them the entire time, teeth bared, a growl rumbling through their whole body because they refuse to let anyone take you away and i hope you own a lot of bleach if you ever bring a date over! puppy yan will not hesitate to bite a few limbs off.
and its so cute imagining them after youve spent all day at work and youre gross and sweaty and you just wanna go to bed and you catch them on your bed, humping your pillow, whining and moaning as they lick and sniff your underwear, tail wagging so fast its basically and blur and when they finally see you? they barely manage to take your clothes off before shoving their face between your legs and getting to work!
i imagine them topping a lot but remaining very submissive as they desperately pound into you, hugging your waist as they sink their teeth into your neck so everyone can see theyve staked their claim on you! and puppy yan just loves you so so much, youve done so much for them!! youve fed them, clothed them, bathed them, taken them into your home and theyre absolutely going to make sure they return the favor tenfold by being your perfect little puppy <3
ehehe and poor puppy is just so frustrated all the time and they just love you so so much and they just cant help themselves! bending over in front of them, stretching, exercising, licking anything, it drives them crazy and usually ends with them trying to subtly touch themselves right in front of you or trying so hard to fuck you while not stopping to take any clothes off, poor dumb thing <3 the first few times they fucked you, they struggled a lot with getting it in (lets just say you had a strap laying around for them if theyre afab) at first, getting too excited and eeee just so cute!!!
and people take notice of the bites and hickies, always so worried about you but you know youve just got a very, very excitable puppy at home who would kill if they knew people were so friendly with you,, <3
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og-danny-dorito · 2 years
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[ 𝐛𝐚𝐭𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐠𝐮𝐢𝐥𝐭𝐲 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞𝐬 ]
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dick:
HES ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARE LIKE "omg im SOO bad for that" but it's something tame like sleeping in an hour later than normal??
he's not super strict with his sleep schedule or anything but as he's grown older he's more used to routine of being a detective
so sleeping in isn't something he can do all that often :[
that and he sleeps really light and lives in the city so any time he can get somewhere peaceful to rest where there arent a bunch of outside noises he sleeps in
jason:
jason is the polar opposite of dick.
he's like "oh i mean its not that bad or anything" even though he's telling you about how he eats entire tubs of ice cream after missions instead of actually feeding himself
usually by the time a mission is over his blood sugar is really low and he doesnt have enough energy to order food
and its not like he has premade stuff at every safehouse he goes to cause the fridges are really just for over bake pizzas and beer if he wants some and bodies
he just really likes ice cream though so its not really a surprise
sometime's he'll watch musicals WHILE eating the tub of ice cream
he calls it self care (it is most definitely not)
duke:
quentin tarintino films.
he likes to pretend that hes like a normal film fan who doesnt watch shit a thousand times but he does
he watches them multiple times and cant get sick of them
theyre almost kind of like comfort films?? like he views them escapism even though most of the shit in them is stuff he sees everyday
idk but he likes them a lot. that and it gives him something to talk to jason about becuase theyre both film nerds
damian:
he likes to pretend that he doesn't enjoy things like everyone else on the planet but he tears up snacks in the middle of the night
its not even like normal amounts of snacks either
everyone knows bruce's loaded so he can provide enough to satiate all of his kids' late night snacking needs but damian tears through stuff like goldish, cheeze-its, and anything cracker-y that you can fit in your mouth easily
its so bad that every time alfred restocks the pantry he has to end up storing things away and gradually refiling them over the week because damian eats them so fast
tim had been witness to many of his late night feasts but he's bound to a mutual vow of silence cause of his bad habits
tim:
he has a problem with staying up really late and ordering takeout multiple times out of the week
he's literally the heir to wayne enterprises so its not like he cant afford it, but it means that he ends up not really taking care of himself
tim survives off of takeout, ramen, and coffee and no one knows how he's still alive
him and damian have a mutual agreement not to snitch on each other since they usually find themselves both in the kitchen at 3 AM making coffee and scouring the pantry for cheese crackers (respectively)
[ 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐤𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 :] ]
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i like your writings on gold star lesbian experience. it is so isolating, we are so alienated all our lives and then non-gold stars accuse us of being privileged.
i also tried to convince myself im heterosexual and capable of being attracted to men like u. i would try to imagine myself in a heterosexual romance and tell myself it could be okay. but even the sight of a man in a photo would make it too real for me, let alone the thought of physically interacting with him. so i cant really understand how non gold stars can do any of that. its one thing to think you may be ok with it, but the reality of a male is so diffierent.
even though i never once spoke of being attracted to women everyone throughout school was able to pick up on my disinterst in men and treat me as a freak because of it.
i dont care if the non gs want to talk about their experiences. right now i dont even care if they call themselves lesbians bisexuals pansexuals, whatever. but when they accuse us of being obsessed with sexual purity, or being privileged it makes me feel so furious at them.
i dont understand their double standards. they will say that not sleeping with men and everyone assuming theyre a ugly dyke was so hard, thats why they had to sleep with men. but at the same time they are also claiming that us women who didnt do that are privileged? how can both be true? we endured what u said was too difficult for u? but that makes us more privileged?
its so disgusting. i dont want to say anything and stir the pot because i know 9/10 people are non gold stars. i should swallow my discomfort and take care of everyones trauma. what about my voice?
i have pride in what i am but i am also tired of this. sorry this became more long than i wanted. but ur voice is much appreciated. thank u
Hi anon!
Never apologize for speaking up! You asked "what about my voice", well I want to hear it and other gold stars do too. The isolation and alienation we feel can be so painful, every time one of us speaks it makes things a little bit better because it reminds us that we're not alone :)
Their arguments make no sense, I agree. It's part victimization contest, part silencing us because they know that if we share our experiences, it will be obvious to everyone that they're not lesbians.
And I completely relate to keeping your mouth shut and playing free therapist for the fakebians (who will then tell us to shut up because our lives trigger them). They say that we're the ones destroying lesbian community and creating drama, but I'd argue that accepting fakebians was the first step of the very slippery slope that led us to "sexuality is fluid", "sexuality is a political choice", "non-men loving non-men", men identifying as lesbians, and actual lesbians being bullied even within the community. How absurd is it that we're harassed into silence by "lesbians" for never having touched a dick consensually and never wanting to?
I truly hope that breaking the silence will motivate us to be free from all that guilt-tripping and create a real lesbian movement :)
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yandereaffections · 1 year
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Jamari Blackwood (Ya’s Oc) Masterlist
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The human embodiment of hard on the outside chewy on the inside Jamari-
Character description
Werewolf
Halloween celebration
Hunted Down
Coming back from the dead
Scary movies
Haunted House
S/o trying to escape their werewolf mate
Werewolf jamari with a s/o who always gets lost
Succubus S/o
Random HC
Werewolf HC
S/o whose hesitant to live with him due to taking care of their sibling 
S/o whose flustered by his voice
Gentle affectionate S/o
S/o collapsing due to the pressure put on them from their parents
Scared S/o whose constantly trying to escape
Friendly S/o who cant bring themselves to completely abandon their ex
Happy energetic S/os fun behavior suddenly stopping
Pastry Baker S/o
Trans FTM S/o
Taking care of Sick Male s/o
Pregnant S/o
Abused S/o whos afraid to get into another relationship
Darlings clingy and dependent 
S/o has a thing for his piercings 
Darling who bites as a love language
S/o who feels safe in his arms
Darling who likes to knit
Waking up to find S/o missing from bed
Waking up to find S/o having a break down on the floor
Goth darling
Distant S/o cuddles up to him in the middle of the night
Wearing his clothes
Playing with his hair
S/o feels second place to his ex
Cubby and innocent S/o
S/o who has never been in a relationship yet and is nervous
Cubby S/o
Yandere Alphabet: D,E,F
Arriving unbelievably late for Valentines date
Soft Spoken and shy S/o
Yandere Alphabet: H,I,U,W,Y
Deaf Darling
Waking up to find his S/o making a surprise breakfast
S/o who constantly goes to the hospital cause of a chronic illness
Darling with a Eating Disorder TW
Chubby S/o getting bullied but hesitant to tell
Darling who has a hard time expressing feelings
Finding a girl with amnesia in a alleyway
Celebrating your birthday 
S/o coming home drunk not recognizing who he is
How Jamaris low empathy manifests 
Falling asleep on his lap during a movie
S/os his yandere admirer 
Baby whose clingy
Narcoleptic S/o
Putting up a fight even after being kidnapped
S/o who talks, moves and walks in their sleep
S/o w/ a little sister trying to break up with him
Baby who reacts physically to intense emotions
Psychoanalyzing him
Yandere S/o not wanting a actual relationship, just wanting to admire from a distance
Childhood Headcannons
Finding Yandere S/os secret room full of photos of him
Breaking up due to figuring out theyre Aro/Ace
S/os the child of a mafia family
Kidnapped S/o breaking down, thankful that they dont have to stress anymore
Pressured into breaking up w/ Jamari
S/o w/ Temporary leg paralysis
Baby who becomes mute when stressed/scared
Yandere S/o kidnapping Jamari
Big male influencer S/o
Amputee S/o who hates their prosthetic arm
Find out Crush is being domestically abused
Baby loving how their attacker said “Knife, to meet you” before stabbing them
Blind S/o who doesnt want to be in a relationship and stay independent
S/o who died has a twin that looks just like them
S/o w/ PTSD
S/o w/ OCD
Walking in on S/o torturing someone TW
S/o who cant feel pain
Calling him “cuddle monster”
Possessive Headcannons
S/o w/ restless leg syndrome 
Helping darling sell their BL manga
Possessive S/o whos also been cheated on before
Being introduced to his family
Kidnapped S/o crying themselves to sleep every night
S/o sleeps on a giant teddy bear instead of a mattress
Darling liking to feel up his chest
S/o whose great at escape rooms
Darling whos not used to affection
How Jamari got his Scar TW
S/o whos allergic to the cold
Kidnapped S/o thinking hes going to kill them
Dead S/o coming back as a ghost 
S/o flinches due to their childhood 
Finding Yandere Male S/o covered in blood
S/o w/ Rejection sensitive dysphoria 
Traits Jamaris ex had that would set off his paranoia
S/o whos constantly stressed and control freak
Breaking his jaw in a escape attempt
Queer Platonic relationship with aromantic S/o
Autistic S/o worried to talk about their special interest 
S/o that squeezes his chest anytime they can
Begging for him to let you go
S/o got the flu
Fluff HC
S/o Calling jamari to save them from a horrible road trip w/ their mom
Kidnapped S/o attacking him whenever he gets close
What would make Jamaris mom disapprove of you
Clinging to Jamari, refusing to let go after hes been out on a job for awhile
Gamer S/o
Caregiver S/o
Comforting Baby whos having night terrors
Insomniac s/o
His family finding out about his captive s/o
Rejecting him out of fear of being apart of a pattern or being left for someone else
S/o has a coughing tic
Dealing with another flirting with him
Walking in to see s/o holding a knife to their throat TW
Kidnapping S/o whos on their period
Kidnapped s/o starts to dissociate a lot
Kidnapped S/o injuring him everytime he gets close
Jealousy HC
Daughter loves being w/ him
S/o whose a major sweet tooth with a bunch of filled cavities
Kidnapped S/o passing out due to fear the moment they woke up
Getting Jamaris mother to like you
Platonic HC
S/o saying “lol if you ever ask me again i’ll make sure you won’t be able to, tree trunk” when he asks them why their being so cuddly
Decora Kei/Kidcore S/O
Kidnapped S/o almost stabbing him in the chest
Jamari gets kissed by some random person and the S/O sees
S/o needs a video playing in the background to sleep
“I’m sorry, I know it hurts.”
“Sweetheart…what are you doing?”
“Shh, don’t cry. You’re safe with me.”
Touch starved S/o who constantly needs cuddles
How Jamari would pace your relationship together
S/o who has a ton of stuffed animals covering their bed
S/o whos basically the "what's this?" "affection" "disgusting- do it again" meme
Masochistic S/o
QPR with a aromantic S/o who wants to be roommates
Random HC about sweet boi jamari
How he would woo a closed off S/o whos like him
How jamari would react to the silent treatment
Baby whos terrified of storms
Talking his baby to sleep
Taking advantage of The Purge to get his baby
Haunted house
Weredog S/o
S/o got bit by a zombie
Zombie Jamari
Vampire Jamari
Dressing up in couples costumes 
Werewolf Jamari during The Purge
S/o thinking he loves them too much due to past trauma
Bumping into his childhood bestfriend darling
Baby w/ Glasses
Germaphobe S/o
Aro S/o being self conscious of their ‘non typical’ relationship
College student s/o
S/os friend acting as his wingman
Fast food worker S/o
Kidnapped Aro S/o
Artist S/o who constantly doodles him
Kidnapped S/o managing to constantly slip out the apartment
Kidnapped S/o doing what he says out of fear
Hero Prompt
Platonic Shape Shifter prompt
Platonic Hunted down
Kidnapped S/o wants to dress up in matching costumes
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Werewolf Heat 
NS FW bits of HC
Jerking it to a picture of you 
Finding Darling dry humping his pillow 
Getting hard while cuddling 
S/o who has only fans/sells panties 
Male S/o teasing him 
NS FW hc
Car Sex 
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akirameta84 · 25 days
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do you have any scenes in mind for the hk bugdragon au that you cant get out of your head but havent shared yet?
oho the answer is yes, there are so SO many. but the majority would be a hassle to share because of format and needing context
however i do have a scene in easily shareable format, as i wrote a short oneshot for the latest rendition of the au!! never really planned to share it outside of the friends i already shared it with haha, so its your lucky day
enjoy. hopefully. takes place some vague time after a battle with the radiance but before hollow has officially been proclaimed to the kingdom as child of the monarchs, but the palace staff are aware that the vessel role is no more and theyre supposed to be treated with the same respect as their king and queen
warnings for dehumanization, but it focuses on thk. so thats to be expected. around 1.8k words
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They hadn’t even managed to fully emerge from their room into the gleaming hall of the palace before a voice caught their attention with a startling fashion.
“Ah, there you are! I was beginning to think you’d sleep all day!”
Considering they were still blinking off the last few dregs of sleep combined with some rather strong painkillers, Hollow flinched back in surprise as they jerked their head towards the speaker- a lone palace retainer standing beside their doorway at…not that far after sunrise, to be honest. They spoke as if Hollow had slept for an inordinate amount of time, though before, this would have been a very late time for the vessel to awaken.
The blasted tail attached to its body twitched with the first pang of confusion through its mind- their mind. As far as Hollow knew, they had not been assigned a personal retainer like a few bugs who resided in the palace had. They did not know if that would change, for that was up to their parents, though they did not particularly care for one. Movement impeded by a missing forelimb or not, they could take care of themselves just fine alone.
Regardless, they spread their mandibles wide enough so that they clicked when brought back to strike against their jaw, carefully spelling out the words they wanted to say. They had only begun learning deepspeech a few days ago, and so far did not know many actual words, merely the alphabet. But, while slow, it allowed for some communication.
The native tongue of Deepnest was picked for their communication for its focus on clicking and tapping out words, something easy to accomplish for a creature both mute and quadrupedal (and missing a forelimb to boot, making most forms of sign language barely accessible).
(They felt something warm that could have been happiness when they considered the topic of learning the native language of their baby sister. It was hers and now it was theirs).
“Hi. W-h-a-t-”
“Anyways, now that you’re here, I want you to sit for me, vessel,” The retainer interrupted, talking as if they didn’t even realize Hollow was trying to communicate in the first place (…Which wasn’t that far out of the question considering deepspeech wasn’t exactly commonly spoken in Hallownest, and was only being taught to residents of the palace to allow them to communicate with Hollow, specifically).
But-
It- They-
What?
Their body remained perfectly still even as their mind stumbled and struggled to process what it had heard, paying no mind the actual clarity with which the words had been registered by their senses.
They were not supposed to be the vessel anymore. They did not want to be. They were told that was okay, even. The light the vessel was supposed to contain was now dead and left to be forgotten, their wounds a testament to that, so there was not even a need for a Pure Vessel anymore. Yet-
Had something changed? Had they missed something in the short frame they had slumbered? Why-?
“You must not have heard me properly. Pure Vessel, I command you to sit.”
Its haunches lowered to the ground and it found itself sitting only moments after the words were spoken, staring attentively at the retainer.
Their breath hitched slightly once they realized how readily they’d obeyed. Not even a split second hesitation like they endured before speaking most times. Gods, was it any wonder their brief time as an actual person, as their father’s child, had abruptly come to an end? They were better suited for their old purpose.
…No, they needed to cut that train of thought off now. They weren’t the Hollow Knight anymore, just Hollow who happened to be receiving a long overdue knighting ceremony. Just Hollow, now a wyrm just like their father and technically heir proper (Not a true heir; their parents would have to die for that to mean anything, and gods with strong health and many followers did not tend to die unless they wanted to).
Just-
“Good, you haven’t lost your obedience the way you lost that much more convenient body.”
The words of the palace retainer forced their thoughts to halt and their head to bow as a fresh wave of shamed anxiety shot through their body.
But it did not let itself get lost in thought again. It sat still and merely stared at the retainer, waiting for its next set of directions.
The bug clad in pristine white robes stepped over to where it sat in the entrance of its room, humming as they reached to grab onto the risen hood of its strikingly vibrant, red cloak in their hands. A cloak so big that it draped enough to cover the large wings on its back, and yet they decided to use a part right next to its head instead of anywhere else for examination, tugging against the buttons that kept it fastened around its horns.
The pulsing urge to snap its terribly fanged jaws to the side and rip that arm right off was strong enough to cause its head to twitch slightly. That was their gifted cloak, their possession, their cloak, made just for them by Queen Herrah-
But it did not. It did not even turn its head to look. It sat still and listened.
“I think I’ll keep the cloak on you. Not nearly as regal as your armor and cape used to be, but anything is better than those unsightly injuries beneath!” The retainer chuckled as they backed away, gaze bordering on something like disapproval.
Disapproval that made it want to skitter back into its room and sit behind the door so that no bug could enter.
But it did not. It sat still.
“Come with me now. I am in need of a guard for myself and a few others for a function in the capital, and what better guard for a bug of my status than the Pure Vessel itself, changed or no?”
The vessel watched as the retainer walked off into the hallway, and when it first attempted to follow, its body jerked forward but failed to get up.
It did not make the same mistake twice. Its next attempt left it successfully lumbering after the retainer as it was led down a staircase to presumably exit the palace.
It almost lost its footing only a few steps in; this was only the fifth time it had used stairs since its most recent…molt left it no longer bipedal. This was only the third time time since it had lost what would have been an arm had this change not occurred.
This was the first time it did not once actually lose its footing and tumble painfully down. It made it to the bottom, albeit slowly and trembling more than before when it reached the floor.
…Why was it trembling? It was just following orders like it was supposed to.
No matter. It was to focus on the retainer leading it to where they needed it to go. That was its only priority.
Light brighter than the persistent glow of the palace already had in the corner of the eye it could still see out of immediately became its priority seconds later, and it was unable to stop itself from snapping its head over to the source.
That was the King. That was their father-
It snapped its attention back to the retainer fast enough that it could only pray its slip up had not been noticed by either party (Pray to whom? The god it was praying to have avoided in the first place?).
The sound of his numerous footfalls halted not a beat later, though, and the vessel knew its own limping stride was not capable of drowning it out to that degree. He had stopped.
He had noticed.
“Hollow, would you come with me? I have something to show you,” Came his unexpected voice, forcing their head to twist right back to his direction.
In what could only be described as an undignified, desperate scramble, it swiftly made its way to its fathers side, quivering as it fought to avoid its gaze for reasons it could not place. Unlike before, this lack of hesitation brought forward a traitorous feeling of relief.
“I do hope that you did not need them for anything important, for they will be unavailable for the next while,” He addressed to the retainer, and though their head was bowed, they were far taller than him even like this and could easily see how he shifted to face them.
“A-ah! No, no worries, it wasn’t! I just asked if they’d be willing to help me move some heavy furniture, but I can find someone else!”
…They were lying straight to the face of the Pale King. Hollow couldn’t stop the flood of sheer indignance on his behalf at their audacity. Why would they not tell the truth? Did-
Did that mean that they weren’t the vessel again? Was the King not supposed to know they had been ordered such? He…
…was facing them now. They met his gaze, resisting the urge to flee back to their room as his eyes narrowed in…contemplation? Anger? Disappointment? They had hardly learned how to read their own emotions, let alone others-
“I see. Hollow, is that what they asked you to do?”
…He was asking them for what happened. The prospect, let alone actually being asked as much, broke the slight reverie they’d fallen into. Evidently, things had not reverted back to before.
They flicked their gaze at the retainer, who was fidgeting with the sleeves of their robe.
They flicked it back to their father, who was watching expectantly.
And then they opened their jaws to click out the needed words.
“Go-to p-a-r-t-y. O-r-d-e-r-e-d f-o-l-l-o-w. G-u-a-r-d.”
Despite merely explaining the actual, truthful story, they still shook as if they had just lied as egregiously as the other bug…though maybe that was also because their remaining forelimb was beginning to ache as painfully as the one that wasn’t there somehow did.
Their father sighed and immediately faced the retainer, who Hollow didn’t dare glance at as they waited for the tense moment of silence to pass. Their tail threatened to break the silence with how it twitched against the floor, annoyingly, though.
“Right. Why don’t you go find your mother in the palace’s gardens and take your breakfast with her? Tell her I will be preoccupied for the next while,” Was what he settled on saying at last, and Hollow didn’t spare a second glance before turning to leave with his permission.
Breakfast sounded nice. Being anywhere else sounded even nicer.
“Come with me. Clearly, you have ignored some of the recent changes within the White Palace, and I take pleasure in properly enlightening you on them.”
The words they heard from their father as they left had them feeling warm again, though. It left them believing they truly could be more than just a vessel someday, no matter how much that fact was sometimes a struggle to accept.
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cornerdreams-txt · 1 year
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haiii, sorry to bother again hehe. but since you said some agere cassidy hcs, would you mind writing him as a caregiver? (/not forced)
<- forgot this sideblog of ours existed for a while (i am so sorry)
AND WHY YES I CAN !! i actually hc cassidy to take care of genji when he regresses in a pinch since theyre longtime friends :) but!!! some general cg!cassidy headcanons, coming right up!
— definitely the patient/calm but playful kinda cg. he's careful with his little one and puts significant effort into making sure their every need is catered to, but also you bet he'll roughhouse on the floor for fun
— if his regressor's hair is long enough for it, he loves messing with it. braids, just petting his fingers through it, twirling it around his fingers, etc. either way, he'll definitely rub their scalp absentmindedly.
— "pumpkin, when was the last time you ate?" really softly whenever his regressor is upset or fussy over something small or otherwise unusual for them to get upset over. this guy totally understands the low blood sugar-induced frustration fits, that's gonna be his first question, especially if his regressor is prone to forgetting to eat.
— super super SUPER careful with his metal hand whenever his regressor is around, just in case.
— pumpkin, darlin', huckleberry, sweetheart, doll, baby - the pet name list goes on. definitely uses pumpkin, darlin', and sweetheart the most.
— will make sure his regressor wants for nothing as often as possible. food? he's on it. water? he's already got some on hand - he's not gonna let his little get dehydrated! who do you think he is? a nap? he'll find an excuse to get away for a while. need to get energy out? he's got a handful of games and his little is the lucky winner who gets to pick it out.
— hyper-attentive to his regressor. learns everything he can about them, and uses it to provide the best care possible at all times, because he loves them so much, and they deserve only the best.
— personally fond of sleepy or more private regressors. being able to bundle up and let a loved one sleep on him while he does paperwork or files things, or even takes a nap himself! is really nice. and being able to totally unmask right next to his regressors behind closed doors, in a private room where both of them can be themselves, brings him so much comfort, and he absolutely loves it. of course, he's happy with whatever makes his little one happiest, but he does like privacy in moments of emotional vulnerability like that. it gets him emotional too.
— final note: definitely cuddly. big time. loves snuggles and affection. 10/10 will pick up his regressor and carry them around while humming happily about it to himself.
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chihirolovebot · 1 year
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Could you talk more on the Kuzuryu x Physicist, it sounds really interesting (and I love any and all Physicist content)
absolutely . tw for brief brief mention of suicide / sacrificial death.
so i think they definitely would NOT get on at first . phys is not about his blase attitude , his threats , etc . they'd definitely have a healthy fear of him , too, considering he's yakuza and plenty scary even with the height and the baby face . i would not be surprised if they accidentally insulted him once and he did the whole 'grab em by the front of their clothes' and threatened their life , or something. likewise he probably thinks phys is stupid and gullible + doesn't see the point in putting faith in the others . HOWEVER .... i think he would be one of the only people to pinpoint how smart phys is , and would be pretty careful not to underestimate them .
after ch2 is when things change . of course. phys probably freaks the fuck out and disassociates when he Does The Thing with the Knife and i think theyd feel a little guilty they didnt see it coming or try to stop him or anything so they visit him in the hospital once or twice . also just to take some of the burden off tsumikis shoulders . IDK maybe they talk about pekoyama and ( assuming phys has the same backstory ) they swap stories about growing up + phys talks about the professor . it would be the first time they sorta connect . i could see kuzuryu remembering some passing comment phys made and bringing them a gift from the monomono machine . then getting super fucking embarrassed and blustery when they genuinely rly like it .
as the chapters go on they just start hanging out.! idk i just think theyre neat . no storms canonically happen in the game but i control reality so oops theres a storm and its not safe for phys to go back to their cabin so they gotta spent the night ! kuzuryu sleeps on the floor OBVIOUSLY . hes such a freak. if we're going love interest he definitely falls first + he does that Thing where he avoids phys for like three days after he realises he likes them and then he feels super guilty about it so he apologises very sincerely but he still doesnt confess so phys is just extremely confused .
phys despair disease victim maybe ... ? links back into that post i made before about their despair disease making them hyper paranoid of everyone . maybe theyre a near victim in the tsumiki case and kuzuryu realises holy shit they almost Just Fucking Died i cant let them out of my sight actually .
PHYS AT THE THEME PARK !!!! theyre fucking giddy about the rollercoaster its the most hyped anyone has ever seen them . so even tho kuzuryu's not a fan phys drags him on with them and kuzuryu sticks to their side throughout the funhouse . BUT . the lack of food starts getting to him and he snaps and they fight + phys is on their own for a bit and starts getting all sacrificial . they think about going into the final dead room , they think about offering themselves as a victim but they dont know who to turn to ... maybe they bring up the idea to nidai but he refuses bc he doesnt see them as a fair fight + word gets back around to kuzuryu . and he gets super angry and then super scared + he apologises for snapping at them and theyre besties again .
now if phys and komaeda r cautious friends i imagine ch5 would be tough for them . the loss of nanami would also hit super hard ... i imagine phys would like her quite a bit actually . i think most of ch5 would be them patching up their relationship after the stress and rocky terrain in ch4 but they go into ch6 pretty strong . this is also Probably when phys realises they like kuzuryu too btw if u even care. i dont have the energy to think abt ch6 but maybe they kiss . idk. maybe . im squeezing the life out of both of them btw
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pansy-picnics · 7 months
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ugh if there’s one thing this world needs is more Cass and Eugene interaction, like I don’t just mean bickering and the sort. Like actually being there for one another when they’re upset and helping each other out.
I’ve literally found about 2 fanarts where it’s just them and they’re not getting at each other! I still think that they would bicker but it would actually be way less intense and spite-fuelled after the series and they’d find some common ground, especially since they are the only ones (beside Pascal ofc) who know what it’s like to have died and come back to life, I can’t imagine how relieved Eugene would be to get to talk to someone about it and have them actually understand.
I hc anyway that after Cass came back she was like super out of it, and Eugene knew exactly how she felt and could help her, I think Cass would also be relieved that someone else knew what it was like and could sympathise with her.
I think though one of my absolute favourite hcs I’ve seen for them is that after Cass comes back Eugene defo sorts out Cass’ haircare routine and looks after her hair for her, cause he more than likely has wavy/curly hair too (but just straightens it most of the time). And although Cass is like super reluctant to let him help at first, she eventually gives in and it’s like the best her hair has been in forever so she just lets him do it regularly from then on and it’s just their thing. Also it gives Cass a chance to open up as well (no eye contact, relaxed and something to distract her if it gets too bad) which she definitely needs especially straight after coming back to the castle post ziti.
But yeah I neeeed more of these idiots interacting cause they literally have my heart istg (and also the show did nothing for them really post s1)
Hah realised I’ve just gone on a rant but like it 2am and I’m sleep deprived, sorry! :)))
anon you’re so right and let me just tell you ive felt exactly the same way for SO long so youve come to the right person
^ obviously theres been more since this was posted but THIS is a rlly good masterpost of art of them. THIS is a cassgene/uknighted dream triad fic and i dont know if thats your thing but it basically captures the exact bonding moment that you mentioned imo it fits them SUPER well both romantically and platonically!!
ur so right about the hair thing also omfg cass is the WORST out of all of them when it comes to taking care of her hair. like whenever it gets too long she just grabs the first sharp object she can find and cuts it all off. her ends are so broken and frizzy its SO bad. but eugene and rapunzel force her to do little spa days with them all the time. cass is very practical and really doesnt understand the point but she just likes spending time with both of them.
honestly as much as i love them i havent drawn a lot of art of cass and eugene individually….but theyre best friends actually. like they have banter and they tease each other but my general interpretation of them and uknighted dreams relationship is just. Comfortable. theyve come around to accept their differences and have a shared sense of solidarity with each other. and not just bc of rapunzel either!!! they hang out without her just as often and they genuinely have come to understand one another. they like to spar together and rapunzel watches while she works on anatomy sketches.
they’re not going out of their way to be physically affectionate or anything, but i try to make it obvious in my uknighted dream art that they arent averse to it either. it’s always the little things for me man!!!! the subtle affectionate gazes or the casual hand on the shoulder or just a gentle hand hold its so. IMPORTANT ok!!!!!!
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they understand each other on a deep psychological level and yet they regularly tell the other to kill themselves. they are literally everything to me. i need to draw them soon
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yunwooz · 8 months
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I so agree with your tag abt management putting their foot down and saying no....like thats what i've been saying !!! I hate the excuse of letting an injured artist perform bc "they rly want to" like BITCH !!!! IDGAF !!! Ofc they're gon wanna perform, it's their passion and for the fans, artists will always put those 2 before themselves....but company/management whtvr has more power and responsibility to take care of their artists...they can def say no and make their artists take care of themselves...it's instances like this where it's justified to use some force/power...idk feels like they just takin advantage and very careless when they let their injured artists still perform all bc artist "wants to"
Also batshit crazy theyre trying to have another tour next yr...."where to next" how abt to BED MF GO HOME GO TO SLEEP GET SOME REST aint no way they not hella exhausted rn 😭 Anyway.....i hope jongho recovers well :(
yeah imo that's NEVER an excuse like you as management have a job and responsibility to say no when the time comes. i know lots of people don't like the idea of management having the last say in things but i would much rather kq say no you cannot perform even if jongho wanted to perform than see him suffer and hurt the way he is now. it's his dream and his job and his passion.. imo there are very few instances in which you can trust someone to say no when they ride the high of their work the way idols do. it seems like a shitty excuse and very careless to not pay closer attention to the health of their artist when things like this happen. if i had to make an assumption i would say that kq probably asked jongho once or twice and he said no i want to keep going without actually taking the time to screen him for serious injury and instead did short-term minimal recovery options based on the use of injections and such
i'm feeling absolutely dismal about the 2024-2025 where to next bs bc break the wall will be an 11 month tour with schedules packed between.. it's total bullshit. i know these boys love performing and i know they love traveling but even just since kcon la multiple members said they STILL haven't adjusted to the jetlag or the timezone differences and haven't been sleeping at all and they're expected to put on a stadium concert??? and tours??? like? they're given no time to rest and adjust to their travels and then they go into these concerts on adrenaline and hype but that's not enough to protect their bodies or their mental health.
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forestryfae · 5 months
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but yeah. basically ive been sleeping during the day a lot and it sucks. works not going as good as i wish it did. balancing work and homelife isnt easy, and homelife is lacking.
i have an important letter i need to send, gotta call teh dentist, im supposed to be taking meds for rosascea but im not allowed to keep the meds in my room and noone is helping me remember the medication (which is stupid as fuck cus when im late to work once or twice theyre IMMEDIATELY on my ass asking if i need someone to come wake me up. hello??) i also have to call whoever gave me my drivers license for practicing or else i might have to take the whole course again.
i also have to go home for 3 weeks and im not looking forward to that. and i need to go spend christmas with mom which like. free food ig. family will need christmas presents but like im broke and i just dont see why. they fucking suck. why am i wasting money on people who care so little about me that they treat me like absolute dogshit. no basic respect or common decendy, talking down to me and treating me like shit all the time, literally anything that can be criticized will be critizied, no respect for boundaries and throwing fucking temper tantrums if i get mad that they trampled over them, just doing whatever the fuck they want and expecting me to be okay with it. nothing is ever good enough but if you dont try youre a lazy brat with no willpower. mental illness exists but its never the root of the problem, its always you. also everyone around them are mindreaders and if you didnt predict what they wanted youre an asshole and you lack common sense.
and i have to spend the next three weeks dealing with this shit with no chance of escape cus they can just show up with no warning at my house. she doesnt care if i was asleep or busy, that just gives her an excuse to be bitchy about it. the world revolves around noone and dont think youre something special except for if youre her. fucking bitch.
but yeah ill be spending 3 weeks mostly trying not to go insane. i need to clean the kitchen, bathroom, hallway and bedroom. i need to go through all the stuff in the kitchen so i dont have a million things i never even touch in there, plus i gotta actually cook every day and i have to go shopping atleats once a week, which wont be easy. the bedroom is a emss so i really want to clear out as much of it as possible, especially w the writing desk i have. its enormous and swallows up the whole room, and i have just a bunch of stuff and garbage lying around that i dont know what to do with.
then theres the bathroom, which is easy enough, but the cats been pissing on some of my clothes on the floor in there since noone in my family understands the concept of closing doors and not letting the cats play in insulation. like the doors dont. magically open by themselves. they were left open. theres also a fuckton of laundry and cleaning off the dryingracks since moms been fucking with those again, and she absolutely has been messing up my sorting. i went through my clothes and decided on what i want to keep and what not and now i 100% guaranteed have to go through that stuff again.
and like. i also have to look at what i have and what i dont have. cus i got some plastic boxes that i was gonna put stuff i wnated to keep in and i never got around to it so i have to just hope i can find it in me to bother going through verything in the house and packing what i actually want i really want to ask the people at the thriftshop i work at if they want like 4 or 5 boxes, if not more when im done, of just garbage. but at the same time, i KNOW theyll clean everything before selling it but i dont want to touch any of it and i dont want it anywhere near me. im so tired of cleaning and bad vibes. im so tired of stuff just not working out.
also. have been considering moving my bedroom to the livingroom. like it just seems easier but at the same time i dont want people in there or people going through my shit when im not at home. idk. its more like a bandaid in an attempt to deal with a broken leg that isnt healing cus its not in acast or getting medical attention.
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