#my birth name i just straight up dont like and am only called it in formal settings & at work
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ur name is siobhan that is actually so cool and based
epic women moment
lol it's a super common irish name but I really like it too! believe it or not me going by siobhan predates my obsession with succession & shiv roy but I did pick up her nickname
#i have 3 names that i go by with different people im like a theythem that way#my birth name i just straight up dont like and am only called it in formal settings & at work#then theres my childhood nickname that my family & older friends call me#& then siobhan/shiv is what newer friends & everyone online calls me (:#for anyone curious my birthname is christina. i dont like it bc it reminds me of my stupid born again cultist father & his religious abuse
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through the green glass door (*) loki laufeyson x reader
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Guess who watched the first Thor movie 😁😁
(*) - leads to smut but it doesnt go all the way. but like, its super suggestive lol
Song: lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off by panic at the disco
@cynic-spirit
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"do you have any idea what the consequences will be if i get caught?!"
i exclaimed as quietly as possible, my three friends giggling as they huddled around me.
"y/n, youre the most agile person we know. and we've all been dreaming of the fruit off that tree for ages. please."
Lenore said and i rolled my eyes.
"if i get caught im taking you three down with me."
i said, gripping the tree bark on the outside portion of the wall.
"we believe in you."
she said as i began climbing. i couldnt believe id let them talk me into this. but they were right, we had all been wanting the fruit off this tree for a very long time. it was forbidden to any outside the palace walls. something none of us had ever or would ever have the pleasure of enjoying. until now i suppose.
"im at the top."
i called back down to them still on the ground. they all cheered and clapped, jumping up and down as they giggled. but i wasnt triumphant just yet. i could see the tree, barely touching the branches of the one i was in. just over the garden wall.
"youve got this."
i whispered to myself, stepping as lightly as i possibly could towards the wall. there was a creaking and i paused, taking a deep breath. it was fine. this was fine. so i kept going, jumping onto the top of the garden wall as the edge of the branch snapped. i took a staggered breath, still hidden within lots of leaves. but there, like a light in the distance i could see the golden fruit. i plucked one off the branch, its smell as it got closer becoming sweeter and sweeter.
then i saw another, plucking it too and tossing both to the ground below. there i saw the three of them, rushing over and picking them up. i grabbed another that was close enough to reach and dropped it down, so each of them could have one of their own. they all celebrated with happy noises of content as they devoured them. as i looked back up to grab another fruit i noticed there were none left nearer to me.
"drat."
i complained, seeing one of the golden fruits just past the wall, barely out of reach. i knew i shouldn't be greedy but i went through all this trouble, it would be a shame to not have one for myself. so i stepped further, to the edge of the wall. i found a branch sturdy enough and planted my foot on it. i took one step, then another, and so on until i was nearing the trunk of the tree and the fruit i had seen from the wall.
"finally."
i whispered, plucking it off the branch and sinking my teeth into it. it was just as sweet as it smelled and i was glad i had continued on my journey over the wall. that was at least until i took one wrong step, another branch breaking under me. then it was one branch after another, falling straight on my face in the grass below the tree. i groaned, lifting my head and my eyes going wide. there in front of me was a pair of black leather boots.
"um, i can explain."
i started, looking up and pausing again. there in front of me was the young prince, holding a book in one hand and a pear in the other, looking just as surprised to see me as i was to see him.
"im sure thats one hel of an explanation having dropped from the sky."
he stated and i moved to my knees quickly, bowing in front of him.
"yes, my prince. i am truly sorry."
he laughed and i looked at him confused.
"please, stand."
he said and i did as told, bowing my head.
"i have not seen you before."
"my prince?"
i raised a brow, watching him as he leaned against the tree.
"where do you come from?"
i cleared my throat.
"outside the palace my prince."
he laughed again.
"do you think me an idiot?"
he asked and i stopped breathing.
"of course not, how could you? you are but a peasant."
then i drew my brows.
"now you wait just a minute! i may not be of noble birth but that does not mean you will disrespect me. arrest me, for all i care, but i will not be spoken to like a-"
"relax."
he said and i stopped.
"relax?!"
he shook his head.
"what is your name?"
i opened and closed my mouth a couple times. then i inhaled sharply.
"y/n."
he stood off the tree, tucked the book under his arm, and offered me his hand.
"well y/n, i am of the impression that you are in need of a new dress."
i looked at him funny before looking down at my outfit. i was dirty and my skirt had torn when i fell out of the tree.
"you arent going to arrest me?"
i asked hesitantly and he smiled.
"i am not."
he said and i slowly took his hand.
"my prince i, i dont believe-"
"you dont need to believe, just trust me."
he said and i nodded. i followed him blindly inside, walking openly past the guards up the stairs and down a long glimmering hallway. it didnt necessarily feel right, but something about him made me want to keep walking. to keep following him.
"my prince-"
"call me loki."
he interrupted.
"um, loki, right. uh where are we going?"
he squeezed my hand before pulling me into a room.
"my chambers."
he said and i froze, the door closing behind us. then out of nowhere a woman appeared, bowing her head.
"bring us one of my mothers old dresses. my guest is in need of some new clothes."
he said in a suave tone, the woman walking past me and out the door.
"i dare say, my prince, i am not worthy of wearing the queens garb."
he looked at me and smiled, pulling a chair out from under a small golden table and sitting at it.
"i think she would disagree."
i smiled back in amusement and joined him at the table.
"why are you being so nice to me?"
i asked and watched as he took a drink.
"it has been a long time since someone has been able to get over garden wall and not get caught. i admire that."
i raised a brow.
"so you like that im mischievous?"
i questioned and he smirked.
"exactly."
i made a small noise of disbelief.
"i should have guessed. the midgaurdians call you, what, the god of mischief? it only makes sense you would like someone sneaking into the palace garden."
"my lord."
i heard from the door and both our gaze turned to the girl, holding a blue dress.
"ah yes, a perfect choice."
i watched as he took it from her, shooing her away afterwards. and then he started towards me, making me more curious.
"for the lady."
he said, offering it to me and i smirked at him.
"care to help me put it on?"
i made a face, realizing what i had just asked and almost couldnt believe myself for being so bold. but part of me also didnt regret it. and i couldnt help notice the knowing smile across his face as he led me to his bed. there he laid the dress out and moved to help me.
"a bit intrepid for someone who believed me to want to arrest them."
i looked over his face for a moment.
"theres something about you i cant get off of my mind."
"and that is?"
he asked, stepping behind me and undoing the top op my dress slowly. i just stood and stared ahead as he did so.
"though i know we could both be in large amounts of trouble with the king if he were to find out i am here, i still feel like i can trust you."
i said, looking at him over my shoulder and we both examined each other. his face was soft. softer than before. and the golden light peaking in over the terrace railing made him look more ethereal.
"i can trust you, cant i?"
i asked and his gaze shifted down my face.
"you can trust this."
he said calmly before capturing my lips in his. it was gentle and i could feel my heart knocking a my rib cage to be let out. i was kissing the boy prince. the heir apparent. and gods did it feel great.
"loki."
i whispered when he pulled away, looking between his eyes for any reason not to trust him and coming up with nothing.
"do you still wish for my help?"
he bargained and i nodded.
"i wouldnt want anything else."
it was said in such a hushed tone im sure no one else would have been able to hear it had they been in the room. i stood there as he stripped me slowly. He began with finishing the top of my dress, letting the lacing down and pushing the fabric down off my shoulders. as the dress pooled at my ankles i was left there in my sark, a small shiver traveling up my spine as his fingers traced up my arm.
"may i?"
he asked, placing his other hand firmly at my waist, tugging at the fabric. i swallowed hard, almost feeling like i shouldnt be doing this.
"yes."
i said quiet and bold.
"you are quite the woman."
he noted, pulling the sark up over my head and dropping it to the floor with my dress. i should have felt more exposed standing there naked but my back was still to him.
"Thank you my prince."
I said with some form of sincerity. He kissed my shoulder.
"I told you, call me Loki."
He whispered into my ear, sending goosebumps over my skin.
"Loki."
I half moaned, leaning back into him as his hands found their way to my hips again.
"May I touch you further?"
He questioned and I nodded against him, feeling his hand trail up my torso painfully slow. He kissed across my shoulder, up my neck, and onto my jaw before spinning me around swiftly. I gasped at the sudden movement, looking over his face as he stepped closer to kiss me properly. When he pulled away I noticed his clothes had also vanished, gone in a flash of green.
"May I make love to you?"
He asked, barely gracing my lips with his own.
"Please do."
I whispered against him before kissing him, again and again, until my back hit the soft silk of his bedding.
#wattpad#x reader#Loki Laufeyson#marverl#imagines#one shots#342#loki#smut?#idk not really but kinda#smut
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Pink Chains Sequel
The oldest. Male, twin. Souta.(Means A sudden wind or sound)
The middle. Male. Twin. Kaito. (Means sea or ocean)
Youngest. Female. Kana. (Means powerful)
@galagcica @squeaky-ducky @kozushiki @haikyuu-but-low-iq @lunebabie @derpeedoo @kayisweird @zopzoop
“We do now!!!!” You told him, rubbing your stomach
“Swee..sweetie are you serious?” He climbed over the desk grabbing you and pulling you between his legs.
“Yep!!! Surprise Kyo!!!”
He was a little shocked for a few minutes, you were telling him how excited you were but he could not register it. A kid, not one but three. Will they be like him? Scary? Will they think hes scary?!?
“Kyo?” You lightly tugged his shirt so he would look at you. “Kyo whats wrong?”
He squeezed you sighing deep. “Im nervous sweetie thats all.”
You laid your head on his chest. “Well.. i am too . But! I have you to help and you have me. Not to mention all your friends. “ you took his ring hand to hold it and nuzzled his sleeve. “I love you, we will be fine Kyo.”
Kyo took in a deep breath and kissed your head. “Yeah, we will. I love you so much sweetie.”
It was an interesting nine months for everyone. Kyo had gotten his friends together for beach volleyball one night , you were there too but you were sitting with a sundress on looking excited.
“Soo...” Iwaizumi said, rubbing his head. “Whats this about?”
Oikawa and Mattsun were stumped too, so was Yahaba. Bokuto was trying to piece it together as well.
You got up and turned to the side and Kyo put his hand on your stomach. “Well... lets just hope you can deal with more of me”
Safe to say Kyo got tackled into the sand by everyone.
Time Skip to the kids being 7.
💕Kyo and Reader still live in his home. Iwaizumi does too since he owns the basement half of the house.
💕Chicken Legs had trouble adjusting to the children but Readers cats have helped relax and calm him. He's not so shaky anymore.
💕King is the kids number one fan. He is always there to help them with a prank on their father or to help them up and down the stairs.
💕Rex gets brushed every five minutes and he *loves it*. Kana also likes putting ribbons on his tail.
💕Mango is carried around everywhere by Kaito because he is small and “fun to carry”
💕The twins get up to no good alot. Souta is like the wind, no one ever knows if he's gonna do something. Kaito is more calm, like the ocean . But just like his brother, he's right there to lend a hand in mischief
💕Kana is attached to Kyo and Readers hip nearly 24/7 because she is scared of everything. She was tiny at birth. A “runt of the litter” Kyo called it, which gave her the nickname “Kana Pup” by Kyo. Everything is bigger than her and she doesn't like it. She's scared of Oikawa and it makes him sad.
💕Kyo and Reader own a bigger building together that they turned into The Dog House. They sell apparel but with Readers designs now too. The kids hangout at the shop usually after school.
💕The building has an upper floor or office area where Reader works on new designs / manages the finances while Kyo works the floor.
💕Souta and Kaito spend their days greeting customers and telling them specials (as best they can) . If Kana is not with her mother she is with Kyo at the register coloring under the desk so no one can see her.
💕kyo does not know what to do about Kana, he's worried she won't have friends and isolate herself. Iwaizumi suggests a hobby or club for middle school and Oikawa suggests volleyball.
💕its at the beach Kana realizes how fun volleyball is. She even lets Oikawa show her how to play.
💕Mattsun still has his tattoo shop. Kyo now has a back piece too. It's three wolf pups .
💕Kana joins the volleyball club
💕the twins join an art club and it is very interesting to them . Souta & Kaito are naturals at coming up with designs
💕iwaizumi babysits when Kyo and reader need alone time at the house
💕every now and then Kyo will check in on his kids at night, he leans on the wall of the door just watching them sleep. It's been a few years since they were born and he's still dumbfounded he could make such blessings
💕Kanas first game is a little rocky, she's nervous about people watching her. That is until Bokuto yells for the stands ‘all eyes on you because you are the star of this court!!!’ . She pulls through and turns out she spikes just like her father. They win because of her. Reader cries tears of joy and the twins are going nuts , Kyo pulls reader close kissing her
💕The twins debut a simple design. It's a crow with its wings out with a chain collar on its neck. Their parents love it.
Time skip to HighSchool
💕The kids go to Karasuno
💕The twins are in a design/business club
💕Kana is the wing spiker of her team. She is tall like her father and brings her team to Nationals.
💕Mattsun has a pretty little happy girl come into his shop one day asking for a fluffy kitty tattoo . Mattsun thanks god this is happening and gets her number
💕Oikawa & Iwaizumi still work at the Dog House. Oikawa now has the same volleyball tattoo his friends have. Iwaizumi helps the twins bring their designs up to sell online
After High School.
💕Kana plays for the Black Jackals. The twins have a successful online business selling their designs on different things.
💕Kyo and Reader have expanded the Dog House and it has more locations now.
💕Every friday night they spend their time laying on Kyos car with music on watching the stars in their backyard.
The end 💕
Little bonus mini drabbles!!
“raaaa!!!!!” Yelled Kaito
“Aaaarrgg!!!!” Yelled Souta.
Kana had her ears covered and had Chicken Legs laying down next to her with his paw over his eyes. She was sitting on the floor coloring in her book when her siblings rushed down the stairs with toilet paper and heavy eye makeup on their face and body. King, Rex and Mango were close behind with equal amounts of toilet paper on them too. This was a regular saturday...
Iwaizumi was on the couch watching these terrors run around the house . He pat Kana on the head counting quietly. “And 5...4...3...2...1...” The garage door could be heard and the twins and dogs stopped. Heavy steps and giggling were getting closer.
“Kaito.”
“Yes Souta?”
“It appears we are going to die today”
“Yes i believe so.”
Kana peaked at Iwaizumi and he just gave her that smile that made her get red in the face. The door opened and you and Kyo saw your kids covered in toilet paper and makeup. The dogs too. Kyo rubbed between his eyes and you giggled going over to Kana who was holding her arms up to you.
“Souta?”
“Yes Kaito?”
“It was nice knowing you.”
“Likewise”
(Whenever Kyo asks Iwai why he allows this he just shrugs and says “hey they aint my kids 😋”)
*💕
Kyo had picked the kids up from school and went straight into work. No one minded that the kids were there, they behaved. Mostly.
“Welcome to The Dog House!!!” Yelled the twins“The finest dogs and the biggest house!!! At your service!!!!”
Youd never seen so many metal heads giggle and chuckle like little kids before. Kana though, was under the register coloring and leaning on her fathers leg. Kyo leaned on the register looking down at his daughter.
“Kana pup”
“Papa..?” She asked, looking up, brushing her hair from her face.
“Do you wanna greet customers with your brothers?
She shrugged pulling the book closer. “N-no..”
He rolled his shoulders looking back up to see his friends frowning at him.
“Maybe a club will help”
“Or volleyball!!!”
*💕
The twins were running around the beach with Mattsun chasing them , Kyo, Iwa, and Kawa were tossing the ball to each other. And you were sitting on a towel under an umbrella with Kana clinging to your arm. You had noticed she was fixed on what her father was doing and you signaled to get his attention and pointed at yoir daughter.
“Kana pup.” He said, catching the ball. “Cmere for a second.”
She shook her head and you rubbed her side.”just for a second baby.”
Kana gets up joining her father and he crouches down behind her. “Put your fists together , be still okay?”
“ dont.. wanna get hit..”
“You wont i promise.” He nodded to Iwaizumi and he lightly tossed the ball to Kana . “Now just move your wrist down. Then connect with the ball semding it up”
As soon as the ball hit her wrists she whined turning around to hug her father. “Kana, look.” He turned her head . The ball was in the air . “You did it.”
“I.. i hit it.”
“Maybe Oikawa can explain better.” He said, getting up and Oikawa crouched down next to her. Kana whined giving him a scared look and he just held his hands out to recieve the ball.
“Its easy, promise!” The ball bounced off his wrists.
After a few tries Kana got the positioning right and even asked Oikawa to help and show her more.
*💕
One night Mattsun is at his shop filling in his laptop with appointments, transactions, bills. Its late, maybe almost 10. He liked to stay open when he had late nights like this. No one ever came by but.. it made him hope someone would. Mattsun was covered head to toe in tattoos. The bell dinged and he looked up from his desk and fell forward.
It was a girl; pink shoes, dyed highlighted pink hair, a white belly top and shorts. “Hey Mr!!!! Can i get a tattoo please?! A fluffy kitty or kitten? Do you do those? “
Mattsun smiled up at his ceiling . “Whoevers watching , thank you.”
He looked back over at the huffy girl. “Yeah i can do that Kitty, let me get a sketch going and you can tell me what you think.” He said with a very big smile. “Whats your name?” He asked , going around his desk to his wheely chair .
“Y/n!! “ the girl skipped over sitting in the chair criss cross. “Can you do it here?” She pointed to her inner thigh .
Mattsun thanked whoever was watching over him again but in his head. “I sure can y/n. I sure can.”
“No no!! Kitty!! I like it.”
Mattsun had a silly grin on his face now. “Okay kitty”
*💕
Its late at night and the only one up is Kyo. He was leaning on the wall watching his kids, ‘how did i get here?’ He asked himself while eyeing his bruised knuckles. Slowly he looked up. “I love you guys so much...”
“And i love you.” He heard behind him. A giggle too.
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[ENG] History3: Trapped Novel - Chapter Nine
Translation Masterpost can be found here
Disclaimer: Translations are entirely mine - these are not official translations and some phrases have been changed for better English interpretation so you’ll definitely see better/different translations elsewhere. Also keeping in mind when we translated this we aren’t exactly thinking about the style of writing and this translation is as close to the novel as we can make it XD So yes, some parts may be a little awkward to read. And yes some teeny weeny details and words may not turn up in the translation because the Chi to Eng mind acrobatics didn’t work out. If you see asterisks, scroll all the way to the bottom for notes!
Full chapter below the cut
Note: JFC I AM FINALLY DONE WITH THIS DAMN THING, BYE H3T NOVEL CRIES I DONT WANT TO BE PLAGUED BY THIS ANYMORE HAHAHA - Also give the masterpost a few hours, I need to update the new links with my new username ARGH - History3:Trapped novel translations are now COMPLETED (with the exception of terrible sex scenes).
This was a muchhhh longer chapter than usual (more than 30 pages) + gosh I have a lot of things to say about the sex scenes because they’re just totally not logical but never mind I’m glad to like be done with this hahaha. It’s dragged on for long enough!
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Chapter Nine
Inside the abandoned warehouse
Chen Wen Hao and Tang Yi have their guns trained on each other, and at the same time, they are staring at Shao Fei in shock, who just said ‘Chen Wen Hao is your father’.
“Don’t panic, the evidence is in my pocket.”
Shao Fei holds up both his hands, and then slowly reaches into the pocket of his jacket with one, pulling out two pieces of paper folded together, and looks at Tang Yi and Chen Wen Hao.
“One of these is the birth certificate from the hospital, and the other is the note you wrote to Li Zhen-jie.”
Chen Wen Hao’s expression morphs entirely, and then he turns to his henchmen and says, “All of you go outside and wait for me.”
The men guarding Chen Wen Hao’s safety put down their guns and then head outside to the open space outside of the warehouse.
“The both of you put down your guns first, so you won’t regret in case you misfire, and then listen to me finish speaking, okay?”
Both men in confrontation with each other exchange looks, and then keep their weapons at the same time.
Shao Fei heaves a sigh of relief, and continues explaining, “I found these two things in Li Zhen-jie’s belongings, and I also went to Tang Yi’s adoptive father to confirm it. Tang Yi, you were born on 21st October 1990, and Chen Wen Hao, you began serving your sentence in February 1990, and when Li Zhen-jie went to visit you, the date was 17th May 1990.”
Realising what this means, Chen Wen Hao’s eyes go wide, and he mumbles, “It cannot be… this is impossible… Li Zhen told me she aborted our child, so it can’t be…”
In the third month of pregnancy, the mother will begin to feel nauseous and most due dates are calculated 266 days after confirmation of the pregnancy date, that means if Li Li Zhen was already pregnant before Chen Wen Hao entered prison, then the expected due date indeed would have fallen somewhere in October.
Chen Wen Hao rushes over suddenly, gripping at Shao Fei’s shirt collar tight, “Are you using this to make me spare Tang Yi because you knew Li Zhen visited me in jail before?”
Shao Fei is almost entirely breathless from the tight grip, but still continues with his answer, the closest thing to the truth after piecing all the clues together, “I don’t know what Li Zhen-jie said to you in jail when she met you, all I know is that after she visited you, she applied for a year long break, and this is unusual for a workaholic like her.”
“And after she returned to her post, she never once applied for long leaves and did not get married either, so there’s only one possibility left. Tang Yi, is yours and Li Zhen-jie’s son.”
“Son… I have a son… a son…” Chen Wen Hao repeats dumbly, loosening his grip on Shao Fei’s shirt collar.
As if juxtaposing Chen Wen Hao’s helplessness at this moment, Tang Yi seems as cold and calm as he always is, “So what if this is true?”
“Tang Yi, Li Zhen-jie may not be a good mother, but she was loving you in her own way. When you ran away from home when you were 12, she immediately went South to search for you, but still lost all clues of where you went.”
Tang Yi’s lips curve up in a sneer, “I only have three family members in this life. My adoptive mother, Tang-ye and Hong Ye. Everyone else are unrelated strangers to me.”
“Tang Yi…” Shao Fei softly calls his name, his heart aching as he looks at Tang Yi’s expression, trying to suppress the pain.
“Tang-ye is the most important person in my life, he is my father… and you, you’re only a murderer who took him away from my side!”
He says the word ‘murderer’ through gritted teeth, slides his gun out from his waist, and points it at the murderer he managed to draw out after four years. Seeing this, Shao Fei immediately puts himself in front of the gun.
“No, I didn’t kill him. I didn’t.”
Chen Wen Hao has not yet calmed from the emotions of guilt he is feeling, and then he looks at his son who’s pointing a gun at him, shocked.
“You’re lying!” Tang Yi looks at the man in front of him angrily. “I remember your face very clearly, you’re the one who killed Tang-ye, it’s you!”
“It’s true that I was there to look for Tang Guo Dong, because I wanted to question him, to ask him why he had to sabotage me like this? But I didn’t kill him. When I reached the scene I only saw him pass something to Li Zhen, and then there were two gunshots, and they fell to the ground, their blood spilling out…”
Chen Wen Hao has his face in his hands, filled with guilt and anguish.
“If you’re not the murderer then why are you trying to have me silenced? Why did you bring a gun there?”
“I’d only just witnessed them being shot and then I saw you, if it you were me, wouldn’t you take your gun out to defend yourself? As for that gun… yes, I wanted to kill him. These twenty years, I hanged on because of my hatred for Tang Guo Dong, and now you’re telling me, the person that I’ve wanted revenge on is not Tang Guo Dong’s bastard son, but my son? I don’t even know who I should vent my hatred on now, why did my life turn into this?”
“Are you done?” Tang Yi immediately unlocking the safety on his gun, and then to Shao Fei who is blocking his way, he snarls, “Get out of the way!”
The person in front of him does not move, however, raising his chin instead and staring at Tang Yi head-on, “If the murderer really is Chen Wen Hao, then why would he have stayed put after he killed them? Besides, even if he did have a reason to kill Tang Guo Dong, he definitely wouldn’t have killed Li Zhen-jie.”
“…”
At the flawless argument, even through his anger, Tang Yi finds himself frozen to the spot, before he finally lets his right hand, which is holding onto the gun, fall back to his side.
“Chen Wen Hao, I’m not taking your life (now), and when I find evidence to prove that you are the murderer, I will kill you myself!”
Once he’s done, he turns and leaves.
“Tang Yi!”
Shao Fei quickly chases after him, and attempts to hug him from the back to calm down the man whose emotions are teetering on the edge of a breakdown, but the other shakes him off, hard.
“Meng Shao Fei! You know how long I have been waiting for this day, why did you stop me? Why?”
“Because he’s not the murderer.”
“You!”
With his raised arm, the fist that is about to descend is retracted at the last moment, and instead lands heavily on the car engine’s top, the sound deafening. He then pushes away the Shao Fei who stopped him repeatedly previously, sitting in the driver’s seat and stepping on the accelerator, leaving the long-time abandoned warehouse at high speeds.
“Tang Yi…”
Shao Fei follows after him shakily, and can only watch the other drive away, standing in the same spot.
Tang household
The door is slowly pushed open to reveal a room shrouded in darkness. A man sits unmoving like a statue at the end of the bed, and with an aching heart, Shao Fei walks over, opening his arms to embrace the angry and anguished Tang Yi.
“I’m sorry… I know it’s hard for you to accept this…”
This is why when he discovered the truth, he was hesitant, because the truth would hurt the person he cares about the most.
“I don’t care if Chen Wen Hao is my biological father or not, only Tang-ye is the most important person in my life.”
“I know, so all the more we need to find the real murderer, right? Ah-“
Tang Yi pulls Shao Fei onto the bed with force, using his firm chest to cover Shao Fei’s back.
“If you don’t want this, push me away.”
The hot puff of breath coming straight from his throat comes into contact with a spot behind Shao Fei’s ear, and this is the last chance he’s giving his partner to flee from him.
Shao Fei is pressed face first on the bed, and he can even feel the other’s hardness at his butt, “I’m drenched in sweat all over, how about you let me go take a shower first… mmn…”
He’s flipped over and with his face turned up, Shao Fei looks at Tang Yi in a room that is not illuminated by any lights except for the moonlight.
Their breaths become increasingly harsh, and through their tightly pressed bodies, they can feel the other’s breaths and heartbeats with every rise of their chests.
Tang Yi supports his weight with a hand against the bed, and looks at the person lying down, “Push me away, or shall I continue? You pick one.”
The ends of Shao Fei’s mouth curve, and then he reaches up to grip at the man’s shirt, tugging him downwards until he’s right in front of him.
He answers, “Continue.”
—
“Tang Yi…”
Their tightly pressed lips slide across each other’s, the dryness turning wet with the saliva coming from the sides of the mouths, and Shao Fei never once realised that he had such an intense thirst for making love.
But perhaps he was wrong, because the other person wasn’t the person meant for him, and just like before, he never thought that one day, he would fall in love with another man. A man who’s built exactly like him.
“Sss… ha….”
Deeply inhaling after exhaling the carbon dioxide in the lobes of his lungs through the gaps between his teeth, he emits a sound left to everyone’s imaginations.
Tang Yi loosens the hands cupped around the sides of Shao Fei’s face, and gazes deeply at the eyes which have chased after him for the past four years, unwilling to give up.
“What’re you looking at me for?”
Shao Fei wants to flee, and yet cannot help but fall into himself that he sees (reflected) in Tang Yi’s eyes. How contradictory. Is this what loving someone else is like? It’s like holding a raw egg in the palm of his hands, afraid of losing grip if he holds on too lightly, but also afraid to crush it if he holds on too tightly. His heart is just like a dandelion floating in the air. It flies with the breeze from time to time, and lands without the help of the wind.
“Thankfully, I didn’t kill you then.”
He does not deny that there were a few times, Tang Yi wanted to make the cumbersome thing that was Shao Fei disappear with the simplest but also most violent way, and he is thankful to the him who decided to change his mind, otherwise he wouldn’t be able to have Meng Shao Fei in the future. At this moment, this is a Meng Shao Fei he cannot bear to let go.
Shao Fei’s mouth curves in a smile, and he compliments himself, “What a pity it would have been to kill me, you would have one less person to argue with you, and no one would point out your flaws right in your face, like I do!”
Tang Yi once again kisses the mouth that is still moving, but it’s different this time as the kiss is deeper, hotter.
“Hmm… Tang… Tang Yi…”
The tongue that slid into his mouth is exploring every inch and sensitive crevice, making sure that Shao Fei is filled with his own scent inside and out.
His competitive spirit is piqued, and Shao Fei unceremoniously returns the favour with equal fervour. His hands reach out towards Tang Yi’s back, and he tightens his hold behind the other’s neck. Pushing the tongue that’s marking its territory inside his mouth back into Tang Yi’s own mouth, he draws out the other man’s desire more passionately.
“Hnn…”
A satisfied moan sounds from his throat, akin to the purrs of a large-sized cat.
Changing the direction of their kiss endlessly, they don’t stop until they slowly run out of breath. Tang Yi’s smile is indulgent, his thumb swiping at the saliva stained on Shao Fei’s lips.
“I’ve underestimated you after all.”
Thinking that Tang Yi is praising the way he took initiative in the kiss earlier, Shao Fei smugly answers, “This is nothing, I’m like this, once I’ve decided on something, I definitely will get it.”
“No, what I mean is, I definitely underestimated you-“
Tang Yi grabs the wrist of the other’s dominant right hand and guides it to the lower half of his body until Shao Fei’s palm is pressed against the part of his body which has already hardened in reaction, before answering fully.
“-how much you tempt me.”
“…”
Because of this, Shao Fei’s ears turn red immediately, obviously visible on both sides of his face.
“What about you?”
“Don’t, don’t say anymore!”
He immediately curls backwards but is unable to avoid the palm that is already pressed against that spot between his legs, separated by the material of his light blue denim jeans. On the already hardened spot, Tang Yi rubs, his hand moving up and down.
“You’re hard too.”
Tang Yi’s tone reveals delight as he says this. Knowing that it is not only just his one-sided attraction to the man, Tang Yi grabs onto the hardened member under Shao Fei’s pants with pride, feeling Shao Fei’s thirst for him and also coming clean with how much he wants Shao Fei.
“Of course, it’d be weird if I wasn’t hard from our intense kiss earlier.”
Shao Fei turns his face away out of embarrassment at having his cock caressed like this under his jeans, but ends up revealing his red ears to Tang Yi. As a predator, just like a large feline creature, Tang Yi naturally is not willing to miss out on this opportunity, and so he opens his mouth and with his sharp teeth, he targets Shao Fei’s left ear, and bites down.
“A-hah!” Shao Fei startles at the pain, inadvertently making a pornographic sound.
A tongue delves into Shao Fei’s sensitive ear, and the wet sounds as Tang Yi licks at his skin causes his member to fully harden.
“Tang… Tang Yi…”
“Hmm?”
Tang Yi responds to the other’s soft call in a deep, nasal tone lazily, his sharp teeth rubbing against the soft spots of Shao Fei’s ear. This thrill, which he both anticipates and is afraid of, makes Shao Fei’s body shudder again and again.
“You… can’t be…” he swallows, then asks, testing the waters, “…thinking of topping me, can you?”
Sexual intercourse between two men means that one of them has to be on the receiving end, unlike sex between a male and a female, where the male is always the one driving the desire of the other.
“If not? You want to top me?” Tang Yi asks, laughing as he frees Shao Fei’s left ear from his teeth, and turning Shao Fei’s face towards himself.
“Who said that I must definitely be under you? I can-“
“Shh,” Tang Yi says, his eyes curved as he puts up a finger to Shao Fei’s lips.
“Of course I’ll be topping you, because I began loving you way before your confession on the hospital rooftop.”
“When?”
“The abandoned hut in the mountains, do you remember? The things you said to me.”
“Tang Yi, you genuinely want to leave the underworld and that’s why you’re trying to reform, right?”
“I’m using this as a ruse and pretending to go legal, but in actual fact I am-“
“My bad, I was too full of myself to just think you were like that… Tang Yi, I’m sorry!”
“…”
“Hey, I’ve already said so much, you should at least give me a response?”
“This is the first time I’ve seen a monkey capable of reflecting on himself.”
“Hey! Who’re you calling a monkey? I’m telling you, even if you are sincere in wanting to reform I will still be watching you. As long as you use any illegal methods, I will still arrest you and throw you into jail!”
“You’ll keep watching me?”
“Yes! Watching you! Using both my eyes to watch you!”
“Okay, then I’ll let you always, always, always watch me.”
“From then on, I realised that when I look at you, I experience a different kind of emotion.”
It was just that at that time, he still did not understand that this was a sign of a budding love quietly planting itself his heart.
“It was then,” Shao Fei looks at Tang Yi in disbelief.
He thought he was fated for a rejection after having loved Tang Yi first, and in the end, the person who fell in love first was actually Tang Yi.
“Okay! I admit defeat, I’ll let you top me.”
There is no winning or losing in love, there is only whether he is willing or not. And he is both willing and accepting of this.
“Don’t worry and give yourself to me, I definitely won’t disappoint you with my skills.”
—
“Ah…. Hah….”
Shao Fei sits at the head of the Super King bed, biting at his bottom as he watches Tang Yi, who has his face buried in the lower half of his body. The man is like a devout follower, crouching between his separated legs, which have long been divested of his jeans and underwear, thrown to the floor next to the bed. Just like how they do it in dramas, whenever sex happens, the floor is always littered with clothing items.
“If you’re uncomfortable, remember to tell me.”
After the reminder, Tang Yi once again buries his head between Shao Fei’s legs, gripping onto his upright member and using his tongue to lick at the sensitive head.
“Ahah…” Shao Fei opens his mouth and inhales at this.
He’s never had a girlfriend and could only ever use both his hands to satisfy his desires. Even though he has seen this image thousands of times, he has only been able to see this on several unsavoury sites. Who knew that when he is surrounded by someone’s mouth, the feeling would be this pleasurable. Being licked by a wet tongue triumphs over the satisfaction he feels when he masturbates by hand.
“Tang… Tang Yi…”
He can only call the other’s name repeatedly, just like a child who has just learnt to speak, his mind going increasingly hot, speechless.
“Hnn, mnn-hmm…”
Tang Yi retracts his tongue and then swallows the hard organ whole. Although Shao Fei’s size is not huge, it still fills up every crevice of his mouth.
“Ahah… oh god… oh god…”
His hardened member is suddenly engulfed by a hot and wet place and as it ventures deeper and deeper into the mouth, and because of Tang Yi’s gag reflex leading to the uncontrollable contractions of the throat, his red tip is being tightly squeezed. The pleasure rushes up suddenly from his groin, and he almost has an out-of-body experience from this.
His ten fingers are curled up in Tang Yi’s hair; he wants to push away the head that is making repeated bobbing motions, but is also unable to resist pressing the back of Tang Yi’s head forward whenever he moves downwards, all to get further into the deeper parts of his mouth.
The pressure on the back of Tang Yi’s head is too forceful, but Tang Yi resists his gag reflex from having this hard cock down his throat with only a furrow of his brows, as he continues to draw out Shao Fei’s pleasure.
“Ah… Ahah… Ahah….”
Not enough, it’s not enough!
He wants more, he wants it deeper, he wants to feel even greater pleasure!
His brain and loud thoughts drive Shao Fei’s body to lift up his waist and send his member into the deepest part of Tang Yi’s throat as he presses on the back of the other’s head.
“Mmhm-“
“Ahah… ahah… ah-“
The lines between Shao Fei’s eyebrows deepen as he gradually loses control over his movements. Tang Yi does not stop Shao Fei’s almost-violent motions until Shao Fei loses himself entirely in a thrust and shouts, a thick liquid spilling into his mouth.
Finally spent, his raised hips naturally drop back onto the bed in its original position, and the movement has his softened member sliding out of Tang Yi’s mouth after his release.
Tang Yi turns over, opening his mouth and coughing incessantly to expel the mixture of cum and saliva lodged deep in the back of his throat. It drips onto the floor next to he bed, sliding down Tang Yi’s mouth and jaw.
“Tang Yi! Tang Yi are you okay?”
After Shao Fei calms his harsh breaths, he finally realises how despicable his earlier actions were and immediately sits up. Feeling guilty, his arm goes around Tang Yi’s shoulder as he looks at the man he loves, hurting for him.
“Why didn’t you stop me?”
Tang Yi lifts his left arm and wipes away the traces of Shao Fei’s release left on his mouth and jaw, then seriously says, “As long as it’s something you want to do, I will not stop you.”
It doesn’t matter if it was Shao Fei’s relentless chase throughout the past four years, or his almost violent actions during sex.
“You! Damn it!”
Tightly clenched fists strike against the soft bed, and his heart lurches, biting at his lower lip. Then, Shao Fei hooks his hands around Tang Yi’s neck as they fall backwards, hard.
The bed makes a twinge of protest at the force of their weights.
Tang Yi stares at Shao Fei who’s trapped under him, waiting for the other to tell him why he’s acting like that.
“Tang Yi you listen to me! No matter how much I say it hurts later, you’re not allowed to stop. I want to use everything I have, and love you fully!”
The ends of Tang Yi’s mouth curve upwards, and then seductively he says, “If you dare to seduce me, then you must be responsible for putting out the fire.”
“Who’s scared of who? At most I will just ask for leave from the station tomorrow!”
“Meng Shao Fei…”
“What?”
“Remember to call in sick for a few more days.”
“Why?”
“Because I’m very certain that when you’re able to leave this bed, it’ll be at least two days later.”
“Fuck! Mmm-hmm-“
Tang Yi, I regret it already! Let me go!
Tang Yi!
—
“Remove your hands!” Tang Yi orders, glaring at Shao Fei who is using his hands to cover his face.
“I don’t want… it’s… hah…. it’s so embarrassing…”
His ankles are caught in Tang Yi’s hands, his legs spread wide and his butt lifted up as Tang Yi’s cock forcefully thrusts inwards, emitting wet sounds. Because this position allows him to clearly see this secret spot, a spot which his fingers have never come into contact with in the past 30 years, and yet it is this very same spot that is being driven hard into repeatedly by another man’s hardened cock.
“Ah… ah…. Tang Yi… you… don’t…. you’re too much… a…hah…”
Damn it! How is this guy’s stamina so good?
“Remove your hands!” Tang Yi frowns.
He likes seeing the way Shao Fei’s face is flushed red because of him, the expression he’s making as he is in trapped the depths of lovemaking, out of control.
“Ah-ah!”
Another deep thrust and Shao Fei cries out even louder than before.
“Meng Shao Fei!”
He warns in a low growl. On this planet, it is only this person who would dare to oppose him twice in a row.
“Ahah… jerk… Tang Yi you’re a fucking jerk-“
Shao Fei removes his hands from his face, and with what he thinks is a fierce gaze, he glares at the man who’s thrusting into his body. Tang Yi licks at the corner of his mouth and smiles, satisfied, “It’s a really nice expression, why would you hide it?”
His hips are aching and his legs hurt from the intense workout, and Shao Fei doesn’t know that what he thinks is a powerful frightening expression, looks like a tiny cat with its claws out to Tang Yi. Cute, and it makes Tang Yi want to bite him, hard. And so he does as he wishes, loosening the hold he has around Shao Fei’s ankles, letting both of Shao Fei’s legs fall back onto the bed, and then he lowers his body and bites hard on Shao Fei’s left nipple.
“Hmm… you… you bit me!!”
“Only you, Meng Shao Fei, would dare to let me repeat the same instruction thrice.”
With both hands on each side of Shao Fei’s waist, and different from the heavy and intense thrusts from earlier, Tang Yi settles into a slower rhythm. In this tightly filled channel, Tang Yi’s cock is well lubricated with the help of pre-cum left inside, and with the tip of his alarmingly-sized member, he unceremoniously strikes against Shao Fei’s prostate.
He drives Shao Fei’s pleasure towards the peak again and again, but before he can truly reach it, Tang Yi would retreat. Shao Fei, who is pressed under him, is just like that rock which is endlessly pushed by Hercules in Greek mythology as he is unable to obtain the highest pleasure from this.
“Hah… hah-ah… Tang Yi you… you… purposely… ha-ah, you purposely-“
“It’s so difficult to serve Officer Meng. If I fuck you too hard, you say you’re embarrassed, and now that I’m fucking you slowly, you say it’s not enough. Unless… this body, instead of me treating it gently, you wish for me to torture you mercilessly?”
“Shut… shut up…”
Absolutely not intending to admit that he does indeed want to be fucked hard, into his deepest parts, Shao Fei is almost driven insane by this slow friction. Biting at his lips and staring at the evil man, he curses him in the back of his mind, and then suddenly hugs his arms around Tang Yi’s neck, using a grappling technique to hook his legs behind Tang Yi’s back.
Tang Yi squints, looking at Shao Fei, who has attacked him with such a move.
“Damn it! Since you won’t move, I’ll move!”
With that said, he lifts his butt upwards and takes the initiative to ride Tang Yi’s cock with his soft entrance. Although it’s very tiring and almost impossible for him, it at least makes him feel good.
“Ha… ah…. ah…..”
Using his hole to rub against the hard member, Shao Fei finally finds the uncomfortable sensation being alleviated. But… it’s not enough…
“Ah-ah… Tang Yi… help me… hurry up and help me… It’s not… enough like this… ah…hah… it’s not enough….”
“Beg me.”
“I beg you, I beg…”
“Beg me to fuck you?”
“Yes… I can’t, I can’t take it anymore, hurry…. hurry up and fuck me, fuck me hard, ah-ah…”
Shao Fei shakes his head, scattering the hair strands on his forehead, stuck there by sweat.
Finally hearing the other man’s initiative, his hands lock around Shao Fei’s waist, and then Tang Yi thrusts heavily into the spot that will make Shao Fei cry out the loudest.
—
Having completed their intense lovemaking, both men lie on the bed on their sides facing each other.
“I can’t, I’m going to sleep first, goodnight,” Shao Fei yawns, and then shuts his eyes.
“Sleep then! Goodnight.”
Tang Yi looks at his lover’s face, and recalls what Tang-ye said to him before…
“Xiao Tang, one of these days there’ll be that person that will make you understand what a marvellous feeling it is to live a simple and normal life.”
At that time, he didn’t believe Lao Tang’s words at all. To him, being normal means allowing oneself to be bullied, and he does not want to be bullied anymore. Thus, he needs to become stronger, until no one dares to hinder his way and stop him from doing what he wants to do.
“Tang Yi! I’m chasing you for life!”
But there is indeed one such person, who stumbled his way into his tightly guarded heart, who said this to him standing on the hospital’s rooftop as he pointed at him.
“Tang Yi.”
“Hmm?”
“Can you give me a wish?”
“Okay.”
“I wish that I will be at your side for every birthday from now on, and with me around, you’ll no longer be alone.”
He thought it would be a lonely birthday, but instead he received a cake that made him so touched, a cake made personally by Shao Fei, even though it didn’t look very nice. And…
The third birthday wish, promising the rest of his life to Tang Yi.
“Lao Tang, I finally believe in what you said.”
Tang Yi’s mouth curves in a faint smile. He caresses at Shao Fei’s lips with his finger, and repeats what he said told Shao Fei before…
“Meng Shao Fei, you made my life so different. You made me experience warmth again, so I hope you live on well, for my sake.”
“Also, I love you. I really, really, love you.”
At a riverbank
“Why did you arrange to meet?” Yan Zheng Qiang asks, his back facing another person who is approaching from behind him.
“I just wanted to tell Sir that my previous mission is over.”
The man with red hair responds to the other person standing at the riverbank with a seemingly harmless smile on his face. Yan Zheng Qiang turns, and considers Jack, who has delivered a USB into his hands.
“This includes all of Xing Tian Meng’s information, and also what you care about the most, Chen Wen Hao’s current list of deals and channels.”
“The information has been verified?”
“Of course.”
“You’re as good as expected, it’s not a waste of the station to hire you at high costs.”
Jack smiles and accepts the other’s compliment, then says, “Since this mission is already over, let’s talk about our next one, I believe Interpol will be very interested in this.”
“I’m listening.”
“Chen Wen Hao’s actual battle place, a complete set of information from Cambodia.”
Yan Zheng Qiang’s eyes narrows as he looks at Jack in disbelief, “These few years, despite having worked with the Cambodian government, we have been unable to penetrate this drug channel. Chen Wen Hao has planned everything well and has corrupted both the good and bad in the region, just you alone, you’ll be able to reach in?”
“If it’s just me, of course I wouldn’t have any solution, but it’s a different matter altogether if Chen Wen Hao personally invites me in.”
“For a mercenary who does as he’s paid, you’re actually giving up the interests laid out before your eyes?”
Jack shrugs and smiles, “It can’t be helped. Who asked me to have a liking for thrilling challenges, and I get more intrigued by things that are more difficult to obtain. Don’t worry, since I have taken the initiative to cooperate on this, the price is negotiable, as long as you deal with Xing Tian Meng for me, I will be able to help you infiltrate this channel. How’s that, are we good on this deal? Or not?”
Yan Zheng Qiang thinks about this for a bit, and then reaches out with his right hand, “Okay, we will be responsible for dealing with the aftermath of your leaving Xing Tian Meng, and I hope you will be able to give us more information of the drug trafficking deals in Southeast Asia.
Jack returns the handshake, and smiles, “No problem, sir, may our cooperation be pleasant.”
—
“If the murderer from four years ago is not Chen Wen Hao, then who is it?” Zhao Zi mumbles to himself dejectedly as he walks on the road, having just left work at the station.
“Shorty, is there gold on the floor? Aren’t you afraid of hitting something if you walk with your head down like that?”
Having just looked up, he sees Jack squatting at his doorstep, and who knows how long he has been waiting here?
“Why’re you here?”
Jack stands up, pinching at the other’s cheek, and teases, “I wanted to see you, so I came.”
“Don’t be ridiculous, I don’t have the mood to joke with you today.”
“I’m very serious, shorty…” Jack loosens the grip he has on the other’s cheek and his tone is suddenly somber, “if I can’t come and see you for a period of time, will you miss me?”
Frightened, Zhao Zi’s eyes go wide as he looks about his surroundings anxiously, “What did you do? Was it something illegal?”
“I can’t say and I don’t want to implicate you in this,” Jack shakes his head, his mouth curving up in a forced smile.
At this, Zhao Zi is even more certain that Jack has done something bad that he can be arrested for, and immediately takes out his keys to open the door without paying the person next to him any mind.
“You haven’t answered my question from earlier-“
Jack has only just opened his mouth and is immediately dragged into the house, the other covering his mouth, and as they walk, Zhao Zi says in a low voice, “Hey! Speak softer, what if you’re found out by someone else? Damn it, you still dare to come to me after having done something illegal, did you forget that I’m a police officer, and all my colleagues are policer officers? I can let you hide for a night, but tomorrow you have to leave first thing in the morning.”
“Pfft!!!”
Jack pulls down the palm covering his mouth and with a tug, he brings the man into his embrace and kisses at his cheek.
“Hurry up and answer me. If i left, would you miss me? And do you like me or not?”
Zhao Zi does not reply, and quietly closes the door with reddened ears.
Police station rooftop
Shi Da Pao sits on the rooftop of the station by himself, his mouth biting at a cigarette as he stares at the moon-less sky. Around his feet on the ground, several cigarette butts lay, and it’s apparent that he has been sitting here for a while now.
“Whoo…”
Another heavy exhale of white smoke leaves his mouth.
The wallet he has between his fingertips holds a photo of his daughter when she was younger, and every time he was tired at work he would open his wallet and look at it a few times, thinking about how he would be able to see her run to him happily when he get home, and with her arms raised, she would shout, “Daddy, a hug!”
No matter how much pressure he was under, everything was easily forgotten. His daughter is his power bank, always giving him power which is full of love and hope.
“Xiao Ya… Daddy is sorry, he is sorry…”
On the protective plastic cover over the photo, teardrops continue to fall one after the other.
He then wipes away the teardrops on the plastic film and shuts the wallet with the photo inside, and then throws the last cigarette onto the ground. He gets to his feet and uses the bottom of his shoe to stamp out the cigarette and then leaves the rooftop as a cool breeze blows over him.
He heads downstairs and walks into the floor with the label ‘Inspections Team’.
Tang household
“Good, good morning.”
Finally having the strength to leave the bed, Shao Fei sees Tang Yi who is already preparing breakfast when he walks into the kitchen, and immediately shifts his gaze, greeting Tang Yi awkwardly.
“Are you still okay?”
Tang Yi looks up and sees the other person who has one hand pressed at his waist as he pulls a chair at the dining table back and sits down, and Tang Yi’s mouth curves upwards.
“Great, I’m great, I’m totally reinvigorated and filled with energy- sss….”
Wanting to pretend that everything is fine, Shao Fei has only just straightened his back when that spot begins to throb, after having been put through the grinder the previous night.
“Officer Meng’s stamina is not bad.”
“Of course.”
“Then next time I don’t have to be considerate towards your body, and can do it until I’m satisfied.”
“What? You did it twice yesterday and you’re still not satisfied?”
With a red face, Shao Fei looks at the Xing Tian Meng leader in alarm, who after doing so many things to him, could not only carry him to the bathroom to clean him up, but also wake up bright and early in the morning to make breakfast.
Tang Yi’s smile deepens as he places the already made breakfast in front of his lover, and then opens the fridge to take out a coke, placing it on the table. Then, he pulls out a chair and sits down opposite Shao Fei.
“Tang Yi…”
Shao Fei observes the other’s reaction, and after hesitating for quite a while, he opens his mouth finally, “If you find the murderer before me, please hand him over to me, and don’t put me in a difficult position between my relationship and duty to my profession.”
If Tang Yi kills someone, then he will be a criminal who must face the punishment of law, and as a police officer enforcing said laws, Shao Fei will have to arrest him.
Tang Yi looks up and watches this man, who aside from his adoptive mother, Tang-ye and Hong Ye, is the fourth person whose life is more important than his own, and changes the topic, “Head to work after you’re done eating!”
“Tang Yi…”
Shao Fei wants to try and persuade him again, but he’s interrupted by a Jack who has just walked into the kitchen.
“Boss, we caught He Hang.”
“Okay, I’ll be right there.”
Tang Yi, in the moment he gets up and leaves the table, is immediately caught by the man seated opposite him.
“Leave it to the police!”
Looking at the other’s determined gaze, Tang Yi sighs, and removing Shao Fei’s hand, he says, “All i can promise you is to send him to you while he’s alive.”
“…”
Shao Fei watches as Jack and Tang Yi leave together, and then the phone he has in his pocket rings. The moment he picks up, he hears Zhao Zi’s panicked and rushed voice.
“Zhao Zi what is it? What? You said laoda turned himself in at the inspections team?”
Investigative Team Three
“Zhao Zi be clear, what do you mean by laoda turning himself in to the inspections team?”
Shao Fei asks Zhao Zi who is waiting at the door once he sees him, after having rushed from Tang Yi’s house back to the team with his foot stepping aggressively on the accelerator on his way back.
“I’m not sure either, but Jun Wei went to ask, and it seems like laoda admitted that he was secretly involved in the resale of drugs back to the underworld.”
“How is that possible? Why would laoda do that? What’s the motive? What motive does he have?”
“Could it have something to do with Xiao Ya’s surgery give years ago?”
After Zhao Zi says this, everyone descends into silence, and only Yu Qi asks, confused.
“What happened to Xiao Ya, what surgery?”
Zhao Zi looks at his junior and explains what happened five years ago, ‘You only joined the team last year so you don’t know, but Xiao Ya was really sick last time, and what was it…”
“Leukaemia,” Shao Fei continues where Zhao Zi left off. “At that time laoda was almost driven insane from desperation, and there were no matching bone marrows locally. Everyone on the team helped to check if they were matches, but none of us were suitable.”
Standing at the side, Jun Wei sighs, “After finding one for a year, just when everyone thought there was no hope left, laoda suddenly found a matching bone marrow from some other channel, and that’s how he saved Xiao Ya.”
“Could it be that laoda resold the drugs to the underworld because he needed the money to save Xiao Ya?”
Everyone’s expression is somber, silently agreeing with their junior’s deduction.
Then, the phone on the table rings, and Jun Wei rushes over to pick it up, but his face falls when he hears what the latest new update is.
“What is it?”
Jun Wei looks at Shao Fei who has walked over, and answers, “Top brass wants to open a large scale internal investigation, and that another member from the team is involved in the case.”
“Who?”
“Ah Zhi.”
Everyone immediately turns to look at the seat that originally belongs to Zhou Guan Zhi, and Shao Fei becomes uneasy.
“Zhao Zi, where’s Ah Zhi?”
“I haven’t seen him from just now onwards.”
“Go with me to find him at his house.”
“Okay.”
Shao Fei rushes out quickly after finishing what he said, and Zhao Zi swiftly follows, one hand clutched tight around his phone. Seeing her seniors leave so hurriedly, Yu Qi asks Jun Wei, dumbfounded, “First it’s laoda, and then it’s Ah Zhi-ge. We are police officers, right? Our job is to uphold justice, and go after criminals, right? Then why…”
The woman’s eyes go red and she is unable to say anymore. Jun Wei pats at her shoulder with a sigh, unsure how he can reassure the other as well.
Private club, inside a room
“I didn’t think you would come and beg me,” Si He Hui’s leader looks at the bills piled on the table in front of him and says, sarcastic.
Zhou Guan Zhi looks at Lao Ke, his palms sweating, “Ke-san, I know you have contacts, anywhere in Southeast Asia is fine, all I ask is that I am able to leave here as soon as possible.”
“You brought the team to ‘take care’ of me just a while ago, and now you’re begging me? Officer Zhou, you’re trying to fool me, is it?”
“Ke-san, we’ve known each other for more than a decade, and you know exactly how many times I’ve let you go in between, and besides…” Zhou Guan Zhi’s eyes darken, and he hints, “You still have some ‘items’ in my possession, and as long as you arrange for me to leave, I will make sure those things disappear from now onwards.”
Lao Ke side eyes the person sitting in front of him, and laughs, the sound cold, “If it wasn’t because you had no choice but to leave the team you wouldn’t even be here looking for me, so I’m afraid those things you have on me, you won’t be able to use them yourself.”
“You’re right, I won’t have any use for them, but Ke-san don’t forget, my colleagues are still eyeing Si He Hui’s every move, and I’m very sure they will be happy to receive these ‘things’.”
Lao Ke’s expression freezes immediately, and after a moment of hesitation, a smile returns to his face, “Let’s talk it out, let’s talk it out. Fine, I’ll help you this one, but the price…”
“Another 10,000 NTD, I will give after I’m on the boat.”
Zhou Guan Zhi takes out another 10,000 NTD from the backpack he has on him, then puts it back inside.
“No problem, the location and time I will let Officer Zhou know later.”
“Okay.”
After confirming his escape route, Zhou Guan Zhi opens the door and after checking his surroundings to make sure no one is following him, he then walks out of the room with his head down.
Inside the club, Chen Wen Hao is speaking to another man surnamed Wang as they walk out from another room.
“Xiao Wang, I’ll leave finding the person to you.”
“Chen-ye, leave it to me! I’m just very curious, is the person you’re looking for really so important?”
“Very important, and he’s not easy to find because I’ve never seen his face and only remember his back, and it is also an impression from four years ago. Just from these clues, asking you to help me is indeed trouble for you.”
“Chen-ye you stand on too much ceremony with me by saying that, don’t worry! Even if you give me just a single strand of his hair, I will be able to dig him up.”
“Good, then I’ll have to entrust you with this.”
Chen Wen Hao reaches out and somberly shakes the other’s hand. Right at this moment, however, the door to the room in front of them suddenly opens, and Chen Wen Hao casually looks at the other once. Just as he’s about to look away, that person suddenly pulls up the hood on his shirt, and then quickly leaves, his expression full of anxiety.
In that moment, the scene before him aligns with the hazy memory he has from four years ago. He points at the other man and orders, “Get him!”
“Yes.”
His two men rush over immediately from behind him, and restrain the hooded man on the ground.
Outside an apartment
Numerous members from Investigative Team One stand inside Zhou Guan Zhi’s apartment, and plenty of items are scattered all over the ground.
Shao Fei and Zhao Zi have only just reached the door, and before they can say a word, the officer standing outside the door stops them.
“I’m sorry, we are searching through the house right now, so the both of you cannot go in.”
Shao Fei looks at the other and asks, “A search? I’m from Team Three, can I ask what’s the situation right now?”
The man standing at the door side eyes these two officers who have turned up in a hurry, and answers, “Zhou Guan Zhi is suspected to be involved in a homicide case four years ago, and also a drug trafficking case. The warrant for his arrest is out.”
“Homicide? Which one?” Shao Fei persists.
“I’m sorry, due to confidentiality, we are unable to reveal much.”
Zhao Zi tugs at his good friend’s sleeve and says, “Ah Fei, we should leave here first and see if we can find Ah Zhi.”
“Mnn.”
As Shao Fei walks down the stairs, he thinks about what the person just said, and suddenly realises what the last piece of the puzzle of four years ago is…
Five years ago, laoda resold the drugs confiscated by the police because he urgently needed the money for Xiao Ya’s leukaemia treatment, and Zhou Guan Zhi was one of the people involved.
Four years ago, Tang Guo Dong who had begun reforming Xing Tian Meng met up with Li Zhen-jie, and according to what Chen Wen Hao said, Tang Guo Dong once handed over a package to Li Zhen-jie, but after the homicide happened, that package was taken away by the shooter.
And now, Zhou Guan Zhi is involved in a homicide that happened four years ago, and this is related to drug trafficking.
It can’t be-
“I know who the murderer from four years ago is!” Shao Fei shouts at Zhao Zi who’s standing in the stairwell, his feet coming to a stop.
“What? Ah Fei you know?”
“Zhao Zi, I’m going to go find Tang Yi, you hurry head to the station and get some people over, hurry! Any later and we won’t make it!”
“What do you mean by we won’t make it? Ah Fei! Ah Fei!”
With that said, and not caring about Zhao Zi’s calls, he immediately rushes down the stairs. He opens the door to the car he parked in the alleyway and sits in the driver’s seat.
“Tang Yi, you must not do anything foolish!”
Inside the speeding car, Shao Fei frowns as he holds onto the steering wheel, then steps harder on the gas pedal, quickly driving towards Tang Yi’s house.
Tang household
“Tang Yi!”
Shao Fei pushes aside the Xing Tian Meng lackeys that are blocking his way to the living room, and once he goes in, he sees Zhou Guan Zhi with his hands tied behind his back, his face bloodied as he kneels on the ground. In front of him on the table, a picture of Tang Guo Dong and a gun is placed there.
Tang Yi stands next to the table and glares at Tang Guo Dong’s murderer in anger from a higher angle, and then reveals a cruel smirk. His fingers are dripping with Zhou Guan Zhi’s blood.
“Ah Fei! Save me! I beg you please save me!” Zhou Guan Zhi hollers anxiously, seeing that the person who walked in is someone familiar, as if this is his only chance of survival.
“You still don’t intend to tell me the truth? Good, since this mouth is of no use, I shall knock out your teeth one by one.”
Tang Yi cracks his knuckles, the sound of his bones interlocking echoing.
“Tang Yi…”
Shao Fei walks until he’s in front of this man, whose murderous intent is apparent. Looking into his eyes, he tries to calm the person whose emotions are out of control down.
“If you kill him right now, we’ll never know the truth! You let me bring him back to the station to investigate, and I promise I’ll give you the truth back from four years ago.”
“The truth?” Tang Yi sneers, and says, “I don’t need to know the truth, all I need to know is that this is the person who killed Tang-ye and that is enough!”
Shao Fei sighs as he turns around and walks to Zhou Guan Zhi, and from start to end says what he found out.
“Ah Zhi-ge, I already know that the people who released the confiscated drugs from the station is you and laoda. Li Zhen-jie, who has always hated drugs, must have found out about this and so cooperated with Tang Guo Dong to find the internal mole in the station, but they would never have thought that the people she was looking for were the both of you.”
“…”
Zhou Guan Zhi glares at Shao Fei, who has deduced most of what happened, his entire body trembling.
“I just don’t understand, laoda did it to raise the funds needed for Xiao Ya’s medical fees, then what did you do it for? That you needed such a huge sum of money?”
“Gambling debts…”
Shao Fei inhales sharply, his eyes reddening as he looks at his colleague, who he has gone through so much with, and then asks, “Then why did you kill Li Zhen-jie and Tang Guo Dong?”
“I… I didn’t… I didn’t…” the person who still refuses to tell the truth shakes his head vehemently.
Tang Yi picks up the gun on the table and presses it against Zhou Guan Zhi’s forehead, then unlocks the safety. As long as Tang Yi’s index finger moves on the trigger, he will turn into a cold corpse. In the face of the threat of death, Zhou Guan Zhi sobs and yells at the only person who can save him now, Shao Fei, as if mad.
“Yes! It was me! It was me! He Hang told me it was Li Li Zhen and Tang Guo Dong who were cooperating to investigate the people in the station, and he said I would be done for, so I… Ah Fei… please bring me back to the station… I beg you… I don’t want to die here, I really don’t want to die… Ah Fei…”
“Tang Yi, let me bring him back.”
Shao Fei looks at the man, who has blood and tears all over his face, with both disgust and anger. He heads over to Tang Yi’s side and reaches out to press down on the muzzle of the gun pointed at Zhou Guan Zhi’s forehead.
Even though he knows the truth, Shao Fei can barely resist the urge to beat up this man, who he once thought of to be his brother, but as a police officer he has to stick to his duties and the law. This is a line he will not compromise on.
“These four years, all I’ve been thinking of everyday is how to take revenge for Tang-ye!”
“But I can’t watch you kill someone in front of my eyes.”
“Then arrest me!”
Bam!
The sound of a gun firing shocks the three people present in the living room.
Blood drips down his fingertips onto the floor incessantly.
“Don’t.. don’t kill others…”
Shao Fei, who pushed Zhou Guan Zhi aside and dived towards the gun, says weakly as he looks at the man who is holding onto him tightly.
“Why did you have to stop me like this….”
Tears fall uncontrollably onto Shao Fei’s face.
“As long as I can stop you from killing others, I.. it doesn’t matter….”
Wanting to use his usual tone and smile to chase away the shadows cast over the other’s heart at present, Shao Fei is unable to even lift up an arm to wipe away his lover’s tears.
“Meng Shao Fei, you’re the stupidest police officer I’ve ever seen.”
“And that’s why I fell in love with you, is that not?”
Those pale lips curve indulgently, and he turns his head a little, wanting to see the other man’s expression more clearly, but he pulls at the bleeding wound on his right chest.
“Don’t move.”
Tang Yi uses a hand and presses at the gunshot wound, applying pressure to slow down the flow of blood, and at the same time uses his bloodied hand to make a call as he says anxiously, “I need an ambulance here, someone was shot.”
“Meng Shao Fei, you better live on well.”
Shao Fei’s heart cannot bear to see Tang Yi’s tears as they fall continuously onto his face, and looking at the man who has said this through gritted teeth in a threatening tone, it’s as if they have gone back to the days of their first meeting.
That stoic, expressionless Xing Tian Meng leader that no one dares to approach-
-Tang Yi.
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Be Happy
https://archiveofourown.org/works/29807574
Summary: Kirishima and Tamaki are soulmates and Tamaki doesn’t know how to deal with this.
Word Count: 2,472
Tamaki found out who his soulmate was when he turned 18. Everyone found out who their soulmate was on their 18th birthday at their time of birth. Their soulmates’ name would show up on their skin somewhere. Some people would stay up all night until they could finally see that name, too excited to even sleep. Tamaki though, he forgot it was even his birthday.
He woke up that morning and got ready like any other day. It wasn’t until he ran into Mirio that he was reminded of his soulmate.
“Tamaki! Hey big day today, isn’t it? Have you found the name yet? Who are they?” Tamaki stared at him blankly. “Oh sorry, I almost forgot to wish you a happy birthday.”
Tamaki’s eyes widened. He had totally forgotten about his soulmate, and the fact that it was his birthday. “I haven’t checked yet.”
“What? Why not?”
“I forgot, I just know that I have patrol with Fatgum and Kirishima today.”
“Well, you’re going to check, come on.” Mirio then dragged Tamaki to the nearest bathroom.
“Mirio, is this really the time?” Tamaki complained.
“Just check Tamaki. I want my best friend to be happy, okay? I’m also very curious.”
Tamaki sighed and went to one of the stalls. He checked all the obvious places first. His wrists, arms, and his sides. He checked his legs and every other place he could see, which left his back. Tamaki fixed his shirt before exiting the stall.
“So?” Mirio asked expectedly.
“It must be on my back, because I couldn’t find it. Or I don’t have a soulmate.” Tamaki added. He wouldn’t be surprised if the universe decided they hated him.
“You have a soulmate.” Mirio said as if it was just a fact of the universe and not the most likely outcome. “Take off your shirt, I’ll check for you.”
Tamaki hesitated for a minute before he turned around and took off his shirt.
“There it is, I told you, you do have a soulmate.” Mirio said, tapping the space in between his shoulders.
Tamaki put his shirt back on and turned around to look at Mirio. “So who is it?”
“Ejiro Kirishima.” Mirio said it as if it was the easiest thing to say. As if this didn’t completely change everything.
Tamaki then started panicking. How was he supposed to go on patrol later now? He couldn’t look Kirishima in the eye after this. Kirishima was also younger than Tamaki, so he didn’t have a soulmate tattoo yet. There was a possibility that Kirishima would have someone else’s name on his skin. It was rare, but not impossible. Tamaki’s breath started to get more erratic as he started to spiral.
“Hey Tamaki, calm down. It’s okay.” Mirio said, grabbing Tamaki’s shoulders.
The touch of his best friend made Tamaki start to relax enough to not have a panic attack. But he still wasn’t happy. “What am I supposed to do? Kirishima doesn’t have a soulmate tattoo. He’s only sixteen.”
“Tell him then. He’s a cool person, and he will be so excited to learn his soulmate early. You’re lucky, Tamaki. You know your soulmate and you already like him. You don’t have to wait to meet them. At least try to talk to him, okay?”
Tamaki gave him a small nod, and then they left the bathroom and headed to class.
…
Tamaki had so much anxiety leading up to going on patrol, but it only got worse once he was finally there and had to actually see Kirishima. He could avoid the other while they were getting ready for patrol, but he couldn’t avoid him during patrol. But today Fatgum had Kirishima and Tamaki patrol just the two of them which only made everything worse for Tamaki.
“Oh, I almost forgot to tell you happy birthday. It’s your eighteenth, right? So you know who your soulmate is?”
“Yeah, I found out this morning. I haven’t figured out how to tell them yet.”
“So they are younger than you? Thats cool. Dont worry about it. Whoever they are, they are going to love you. You’re super great and your soulmates so it’s meant to be.”
“Is there anyone that you want to be your soulmate?” Tamaki decided to test the waters a bit before he jumped in.
“Well, I guess I would have to say Mina. after all, we are dating now.”
Tamaki then drew in on himself more. Of course he would have a girlfriend. Someone he really liked. Tamaki wasn’t going to ruin that. Kirishima didn’t need to be with him. They could be just friends. He just wanted Kirishima to be happy with someone he loved, even if that person wasn’t him.
Tamaki didn’t talk for the rest of the patrol. He spent that time taking all his feelings for Kirishima and locking them in a box. All while Kirishima went on about his girlfriend, and how great she is.
…
As Kirishima’s birthday grew closer, Tamaki was distancing himself more from Kirishima. He didn’t mean to distance himself. He was just trying to mentally prepare himself for Kirishima to talk about how he and Ashido were soulmates and how great that was. He didn’t even realize it until Kirishima confronted him about it.
“Hey, Amajiki. I want to ask you something.”
“What is it, Kirishima?”
“I was wondering why it is you’ve been avoiding me.”
“I haven’t been avoiding you.”
“I keep asking you to hangout, and you keep finding reasons not to hangout. You have also been making sure we don’t work together anymore. We used to work together a bunch. You have been avoiding me and I don’t understand why.”
“Well, I’m usually just busy, I haven’t been trying to avoid you or anything. I’m sorry.”
“It���s fine, I just was worried you hated me or something now and I wasn’t sure what I did. I’m glad you aren’t avoiding it. So, are you going to come to my birthday party tomorrow?”
“Sure, when is it?” Tamaki started to get uncomfortable. He knew tomorrow was Kirishima’s birthday, but he still wasn’t ready to truly know the fact that he has an unrequited soulmate.
“We are all going to go out to dinner, so come by around 4?”
“Okay.” Tamaki responded. Kirishima then smiled at him, wished him a good day and walked off.
As Tamaki was getting ready the next morning, he got called into work. Fatgum was short staffed and needed Tamaki. Tamaki felt bad, but he had to send a message to Kirishima letting him know he would be unable to make it to his party. He was, however, kind of relieved that he didn’t have to go. Tamaki did not like parties, and he didn’t want to have to listen to Kirishima talk about his soulmate the entire time.
…
Ejiro woke up early that morning, so excited about the day. He was excited to hangout with his friends and find out who his soulmate was.
After his friends wished him a happy birthday, Ejiro sat down to a birthday breakfast that Bakugo had made for him. As he took a big bite, his phone buzzed next to him, indicating that he got a text.
He smiled as he picked it up, realizing that it was from Amajiki.
‘Hey Kirishima, Fat Gum called me into work today so I cannot make it to your party. I’m sorry, I hope you have a good birthday, nonetheless. Happy birthday.’
Ejiro frowned slightly at this before quickly covering it up so that his friends didn’t see. A couple years back after he and Mina had broken up, Ejiro realized that he really liked Amajiki. But, Amajiki had already turned eighteen, he found out who his soulmate was, and if it had been Ejiro, he would have said something. Now Amajiki was getting really distant, he didn’t talk to Ejiro as much anymore. Sure, Amajiki had a life now and perhaps hanging out with high schoolers wasn’t something he really wanted to do, or had the time for, but it still hurt.
Ejiro knew he couldn’t blame Amajiki for not being able to come. So, he finished his breakfast and set out to make the best of the day.
When he finally got back to the dorm, he was in awe at everything his friends did. They decked the common room out. There was a snack table full of his favorite things, and he could see that Bakugo had all the ingredients for a nice big dinner.
Ejiro was happy to see all the effort his friends put into his birthday. However, he was just so excited for 5:13 exactly because that was the time he was born, and when he would finally receive his soul mark.
“Hey Kiri, you excited to find out who your soulmate is?” Kaminari asked.
“Very excited. I wonder if I know them. Wouldn’t that be interesting? If there is someone I interact with daily and had no clue was my soulmate?”
“I’m excited for you man, it will be good for you to have someone else to think about other than Amajiki.”
“Yeah. It would probably be easier to be around him when I know there is someone out there for me that will like me back.”
“Everything will be great, man. Now come one let’s go bug Bakugo.”
Ejiro chuckled and followed Kaminari to the kitchen where Bakugo was starting to lay out the food he was going to make.
Ejiro spent the next couple hours bouncing between talking with different friends, including bugging Bakugo every so often. He did this until dinner was finally done and they all sat down to eat. As usual, Bakugo’s food was amazing, and it distracted Ejiro to the point where he didn’t notice the time ticked past five and then started creeping towards six.
Once Ejiro was done eating, he grabbed his dirty dishes to put them in the kitchen which is when he finally saw the time. It was 6:05, which shocked Ejiro. He placed his dishes in the sink and then rolled up his sleeves to start his search. The search didn’t last long. On his left wrist, his soul mark read “Tamaki Amajiki.”
Ejiro paused and stared at his wrist. How was it that the person he had a major crush on was his soulmate? No, the real question was why was it that he was just now finding out. Amajiki turned eighteen three years ago and yet didn’t tell him?
Without even thinking, Ejiro walked out of the kitchen and went straight for the door. He ignored the calls of his friends as he pushed open the dorm door and started running toward the train station. He didn’t know how long Amajiki would be at the agency, assuming he was still there, but Ejiro needed answers. He couldn’t let Amajiki get out of this conversation. Ejiro needed to know why his soulmate hated him. Why he refused to ever tell Ejiro that they were soulmates for so many years.
Once Ejiro was outside of Fat Gums agency, he lost all of his confidence. Now he was just scared. For a minute he considered tuning back. After all, why did he want to go through a true rejection. However, in the end he decided he had to go in. He had to know why Amajiki didn’t tell him, why he would let him get excited when he knew that Ejiro’s soulmate didn’t love him.
Ejiro walked into the building and over to where Amajiki was normally if he wasn’t on patrol. Sure enough, as Ejiro rounded the corner, he spotted Amajiki sitting and working on some paperwork.
“Hey Amajiki.”
“Oh, hi Kirishima, what are you doing here? Shouldn’t you be hanging out with your friends and enjoying your birthday?”
“I was at my party. It was a lot of fun, but I wanted to ask you something.” Ejiro was fidgeting with his shirt. He wasn’t sure that he could ask without breaking down. He was feeling so many emotions right now. He was angry that Amajiki never told him the truth, but he was mostly just sad that this all just meant that Amajiki didn’t feel that way about him.
“Okay? I don’t know why you would leave your party to ask me a question, but go for it.”
“Well. I know that you don’t like me and that’s why you are always avoiding me. I know you don’t want an actual romantic relationship. But why is it you never told me we were soulmates?” Just as Ejiro worried, tears started to stream down his face. “Why didn’t you tell me years ago? Then you could have saved me from the heartbreak of falling in love with you.”
Ejiro tried to stop his tears, wiping them away. He then looked towards Amajiki, who just looked shocked and confused.
“Please give me an answer. Please don’t run away. I need to know.”
“I don’t understand. Don’t you have a girlfriend? Isn’t she your soulmate?”
“Mina? We broke up forever ago. Is that why you didn’t tell me? Or are we not mutual soulmates?”
Amajiki was fidgeting with the cuff of his shirt before he pushed his chair and got up. He then walked off, trying to leave the room. Ejiro reached out and grabbed his wrist to stop him.
“Amajiki, is your soul mark my name?”
“Yes.”
Amajiki was looking down at the floor. Ejiro let go of Amajiki’s wrist and stepped around him. He rolled up his sleeves and showed his soul mark to Amajiki.
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
“I was going to, but then you started talking about how you had a girlfriend and you hoped that when you got your soul mark, it would be her. I assumed it was an unrequited soulmate. I wanted you to be happy, happy without the guilt of knowing you don’t feel the same way I do.”
“Are you saying that you like me? As in more than friends kinda like me?”
“Yes.”
Ejiro smiled widely and threw himself at Amajiki, crushing him in a hug. He was so relieved and happy that Amajiki liked him back, that’s all he had wanted. Amajiki tentatively wrapped his arms around Ejiro and hugged him back.
“I have liked you for years. Does this make us boyfriends?”
“If that’s what you want?”
“Of course that’s what I want.” Ejiro pushed back, smiling brightly at Amajiki. Amajiki looked at Ejiro and gave him a small shy smile back. That’s when Ejiro realized just how close their faces were, and he leaned forward. He wanted to kiss Amajiki, but he wanted to give him the time and space to tell him no. When he didn’t do anything, Ejiro closed the distance and finally kissed his soulmate.
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Home - Part 17
A/N- Thank you all for the lovely comments on the last chapter!! 💕 I think this maybe coming to an end soon.... probably 2/3 more chapters and an epilogue? We’ll see how it goes lol 💕
"Oh hi Dr Forester its Y/N Y/L/N, i had a message to call you?"
"Oh yes! Y/N! I was just calling to inform you some of your test results got back late and something interesting showed up...."
"Oh, okay...?" I replied waiting for her to continue.
"Y/N....It would appear your pregnant"
"Im sorry..... I'm what now?!" I asked her, i needed to hear it again..... it wasn't possible!
"Your pregnant"
"A...are you sure? Like 100% sure?" I said feeling my heart racing like crazy.
"Yes" she chuckled "congratulations. Can you come in to see me tomorrow?"
"Erm... i guess so...why?"
"Just so we can check everything is okay and work out how far along you are"
"Ok"
"Im guessing this news is a bit of a shock?"
"Huge shock, yeah. I don't know how this happened I'm on birth control....."
"Have you missed any pills lately? Been sick? i know you've been under some stress lately..."
"Oh god, i missed a couple a few weeks back when i was sick. I was on antibiotics for a throat and chest infection"
"Thats probably it then"
"Well shit" i felt myself start to panic at the thought of telling Bucky i messed up!
Would he be happy about this??
"Ms Y/L/N?"
"Yeah?"
"I asked if you could come see me at 9am tomorrow?"
"Yeah sure, i'll be there" i told her nodding my head even though she couldn't see me.
"Thats great, i'll see you tomorrow".
After ending the call and taking some deep breaths i went back inside to get the girls, i needed to get home and work up the courage to tell Bucky the news.
"Everything okay? You look like you've seen a ghost" Wanda asked as i sat back down with her and began gathering our things together.
"Mhmm im okay, i just need to get home"
"Hey, calm down sweetie.... your shaking" Wanda said grabbing my hand to keep me still "you want to tell me about it?"
"I.... i cant.... not yet"
"You can if you want. I promise it will stay between us.... if you need someone to talk to...."
"Im pregnant" i blurted out with wide eyes that were rapidly filling with tears.
"Your... pregnant?" She asked with eyes just as wide as mine "wow..... i was not expecting that"
"You and me both! Wanda what am i going to do?? What if he freaks out when i tell him and he leaves me??"
"Okay I'm not gonna lie, he may freak out....but i know he wont leave you. Im afraid your stuck with him for life, that man is crazy about you" she smiled before pulling me in for a hug "congratulations by the way".
"Thanks" i mumbled against her shoulder "urghhh i feel sick".
"Okay lets wrangle the kids and get you guys home" she smiled at me wiping away a stray tear that had escaped.
"Okay. Girls.... time to go" i called out and waited for them to make their way over to where me and Wanda were sitting so we could put their shoes on and head home.
Steve was still hanging out with Bucky when we got home and i found myself sitting on the sofa nervously tapping my foot against the coffee table while they watched some football game. I felt like i couldn't sit still, i was full of nervous energy and couldn't settle.
"Doll you okay?" Bucky finally asked turning to face me to which i nodded quickly and forced a smile.
"Yeah why?"
"You've been tapping your foot for 40 minutes straight and your picking your nails"
"Sorry" i stopped what i was doing as if only just realising i was doing it.
"Its fine babe, you just seem antsy"
"Nope I'm fine..... is it hot in here?" I suddenly felt like i was on fire "I'm gonna go get some fresh air" i told him before making my way outside. I sat down on the back porch steps and let my head fall into my hands as i let out a frustrated moan. I looked up when i heard the back door open and watched as Bucky came out and joined me on the steps.
"You wanna talk?" He asked putting his arm around my shoulders and pulling me close.
"About what?"
"About whatever is making you nervous"
"Yeah....." i nodded slowly "i just..... im scared"
"You dont need to be scared babe, i got you"
"While i was out with Wanda and the girls the hospital called. They got some of my test results back late...."
"Your not sick are you???" He asked leaning back to look at me, i could see he was nearly reaching panic mode so i quickly shook my head and took hold of hand.
"Im not sick Buck"
"You sure? Why else would they call you?? you'd tell me of you were right??"
"Im positive. And yes, id tell you if i was"
"Thank god! So what is it...?"
"Um well, she told me I'm...pregnant.".
I sat and watched Bucky closely as he absorbed this information, his eyes went wide and i swear he stopped breathing.
"Buck....."
"Your pregnant??"
"It would appear so. Look i know this is fast and we didn't plan for this...." i said quickly "i get it if your pissed...." i was cut off by Bucky crashing his mouth against mine before a smile broke out on his face.
"Your really pregnant?" He asked grinning as he looked down at my stomach.
"Yeah...." i nodded slowly, i was not expecting him to be this happy about it.
"Doll this is great news" he kissed me again before leaning back to look at me, tears rolled down my face freely as relief flooded my body.
"Hey baby, why you crying? your happy about this right?"
"I am happy Buck its just..... i thought maybe you'd be mad"
"Why would i be mad? The woman i love is having my baby. Our family is getting bigger"
"We never really discussed having kids...."
"Of course i want kids with you. Your already a great mom baby" he smiled kissing me hard "i cant wait to see you all big and round with my baby" he said running his hand over my stomach.
"Oh god i bet I'm gonna be huge" i moaned before laughing with Bucky.
"You'll be beautiful no matter what"
"I love you Buck" i stroked my hand over his bearded jaw.
"God, i love you too" he smiled before kissing me breathless.
"Oh, i have to go see the Doctor tomorrow at 9am if you can make it" i told him breaking the kiss suddenly "I know its short notice so if you can't make it i'll totally be okay on my own...."
"I'll be there. I wouldn't miss it for the world"
"Good" i sighed in relief, i really didn't want to go on my own at all!
"Can i tell Steve? I know we should probably wait but...."
"Sure, i told Wanda earlier I'm sorry! .... i was freaking out and it kinda just slipped out"
Bucky just laughed shaking his head "your so fucking cute doll" he kissed me quickly before jumping up and running inside calling Steve's name.
"Steve!!! Steve!!! Im gonna be a dad!!! AGAIN!!"
"Such a dork" i smiled to myself shaking my head as i got up to go back inside.
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In your opinion, which fast food place has the best fries? i love me some mcdonald’s fries.
Are there hurricanes where you live? they happen every once in a while
What do you hate the most about yourself? I'd really rather not get into this right about now. same
What song are you listening to right now? nothing but catch fire by 5sos is stuck in my head.
What was your first concert? brad paisley 🤠.
What’s your favorite Johnny Depp movie? willy wonka and the chocolate factory
Who did you last say “I love you” to? My sister. probably same
Do you like pumpkin pie? it’s about the only pie i DO like.
Do you know anyone named Austin? no one i like
Do you know anyone who is having a baby? my friend just gave birth to a baby about a week ago
What was the last thing you cried about? i cried in the car on the way home from work last night while listening to jet black heart lmaooo.
Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk? i dont drink milk.
Do you think you are an argumentative person? Definitely not. agreed, i’m conflict avoidant to a fault
How many deep dark secrets do you have? i dont think i have any
What was the spiciest thing you’ve ever eaten? the hot wings from bonchon were pretty f’n spicy
Who last called you sexy? i dont remember
Would you class yourself as a good role model? i think for the most part
Are you scared of the dark? sometimes i am
Do you have a motto? nah.
Who did you last see on webcam? my club committee from school
Do you need a haircut? i just got one about a month ago so not atm
How would you react if your mother told you that she was pregnant again? that would be impossible considering she’s in menopause and has her tubes tied
You log into Facebook and see the red ‘1’ notification next to the message icon. Who do you want it to be? no one i hate facebook
Would you rather exercise alone or with other people? most of the time alone but sometimes i’ll exercise with my sister or in a structured workout class
What is the most difficult or involved video game you’ve ever played? any bc i suck at video games
Ever watch the show Supernatural? nope
Ever heard of flavored honey? If so, what’s you’re favorite flavor? i’ve heard of it but never tried it
Do you remember what your favorite show was when you were little? i went thru hardcore icarly and victorious phases, also LOVED spongebob
Do you put anything besides cheese on grilled cheese sandwiches? sometimes i’ll do bacon on mine
When it comes to books, what do you think is the “perfect” amount of pages? the length of a book has never deterred me from reading it, ever.
Would you ever be interested in going scuba diving? maybe
Out of all of your friends/relatives, who would you say has the best vocabulary? not to toot my own horn but me
Are any of your fingers or toes deformed? What about the nails? no
When is the last time you cried? didnt i already answer this
Would you ever date somebody that has been divorced more than once? mm prob not
What are some stereotypically nerdy things that you like? i guess marvel and space would count
Have you ever attended a wedding that ended where the bride and groom didn’t actually get married? What happened? no but i’ve attended several weddings of people who have quickly divorced
What scares you the most about becoming a mother (hypothetically, if you don’t want to have children)? raising them to be a good well adjusted person.
Would you ever want a job in fashion? What would you enjoy about that type of job? prob not
Would you ever be a surrogate mother? nope
What do you think would be the best and worst parts about being a twin? i would love having that strong of a bond with someone and having someone to go thru life with but i would also feel like i never had anything that was truly mine esp in early childhood
Do you feel that your childhood was more rough compared to others around you? my childhood was great compared to a lot of peoples and i’m extremely thankful for that
How would you react if you found out today that you were actually adopted? i would feel betrayed that i’d lied to for 20 years
Have either of your parents ever cheated on one another before, that you know of? How would you react if you found out today that one of them cheated? not that i know of and again i would feel crushed and betrayed
Do you like cleaning and organizing? when i’m in the mood for it
How would you react if you found out you were infertile? If you don’t plan on having kids to begin with, what is a long-term goal you’d be crushed to find out was impossible to achieve? i would definitely be upset bc i want to have at least one biological kid but in the end i would find just as much joy from adopting a child and giving them a loving home.
Would you take your dream job if it were out of the country? it depends on what other factors are in my life at the time
Have you ever been robbed? no
Is anyone close to you an alcoholic? my friend at college and that’s not even a joke that’s genuine. i think he’s getting the help he needs tho which is good
Have you ever dumped anyone? no
What kind of tea do you drink? I hate tea. same it tastes like dish water
Do you know anyone in a gang? No, and I hope I never do. same
What’s the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for you? omg i still remember this bc i was blown away by how sweet it was. so in 9th grade i had one friend in my pe class and idek how we started talking but we just stuck by each other bc we didn’t have anyone else and we sat at our own table right by the teacher’s desk in health class and we actually became pretty close friends throughout the year well anyway i mentioned my birthday was coming up and she asked me what i wanted and i was like no you don’t have to and she was like do you want flowers and i was like sure why not and i didn’t think she was gonna actually do it but then on my birthday she shows up to health class with these beautiful purple flowers and i was so shocked that she actually got them for me so yeah i’ve never forgotten that ever. she moved away after that year and i never saw her again but i hope she’s doing well
What is your orientation? Gay? Straight? Metrosexual? straight but i have questioned before.
Have you ever done anything really dangerous or illegal with friends? nothing too wild
Name three feelings you’re feeling right now: bored, content, excited
And the reasons for these feelings? bored bc i’m at work, content bc i like the way my life is going rn, excited bc i get to go back to school and see all my college friends soon.
How do you feel about your life right now? pretty pleased at the moment
Is it easy for you to like yourself? Why or why not? no. it’s a conscious choice to like yourself that you have to make everyday and some days that choice is easier to make than others
What subjects come naturally to you? English, some aspects of science. agree with this, i’m very good at english and i understand some science
What subjects do not? MATH
Do you read more fiction or more non-fiction books? fiction but sometimes i like a good non fiction book.
How has today been for you? pretty good nothing too exciting
What did you do? watched tv and went to work
Are there any candles lit in the room you’re in? no
Are there any lava lamps near you? nope.
Do you like cats or dogs better? Cats. agree i have 4
Are any of your friends a pothead? yes, several
What’s a goal you’re trying to accomplish soon? start working out consistently again and get into therapy.
Are you a high maintenance person? nope
The last time you yelled as loud as you could, what was the reason? i was at a karaoke night
Have you ever been heartbroken? yep
Who did that to you? my ex crush
Did you go through an ugly stage as a kid? ohhhh yeah
The last type of sandwich you made or ate: a ham and cheese sandwich with pepperoni and mayo
The last time you spent most of the day in bed: when i was at school and i had stayed up until 6am the night before.
The last friend or acquaintance you made: my coworker
The last thing you took pictures of: a rainbow
The last time you were scared: when i thought a car was following me the other night
The last thing you looked up online: manic panic hair dye.
The last thing you disagreed with: i don’t remember.
Does your house have a separate laundry room? yep
Do your parents still help you financially? yes, a lot
Does your car have a backup camera? nope.
Have either of your parents ever been in trouble with the law? not to where they’ve been arrested
Have you ever had a pet that lived to be really old for its breed/species? my childhood cat lived to be 18 which was pretty impressive.
What was the last strong scent you smelled? my cat’s fart
Have you ever told someone to their face that they were ugly? no way
Is your bed against more than one of your walls? nope
Have you ever been attracted to someone’s parent? um yes some people i know have dilfs i’m sorry
Have you ever pole danced before? no
Have you ever broken into someone’s house? no.
Have you ever seen a live bat? yup at a beach house in the obx
What is the most amount of money you’ve spent on a meal before? i bought bonchon for my friends and i one time which was just about $100
Have you ever taken a woodshop class? no
How much time do you spend on Facebook, if you have one? as little time as possible.
Has a teacher ever made you hate yourself/your work? i had one math teacher in high school that consistently made me feel dumb bc i needed extra help to understand the concepts and couldn’t do mental math that fast so didnt like her
Have you ever been on the barrier or front row at a concert? closest i’ve been was second row
Are your parents supportive of you? yep
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7. “I told you that I’d never leave you; I’m not going anywhere.”
On Goro’s thirty-fourth birthday at ten-thirty in the morning, Akira calls him at work and says, “Happy birthday, dear. I just got hit by a car, and I need to know what color bike you want.”
*
On Goro’s thirty-fourth birthday at ten-thirty in the morning, Akira calls him at work (which Goro dubiously eyeballs for a whole four seconds before picking up) and says, “Happy birthday, dear. I just got hit by a car, and I need to know what color bike you want.”
Well, neither Goro nor Akira own a car for Akira to drive, so that means Akira got hit on foot. Goro is very calm, and has no immediate panic response to that, because he’s a rational and responsible adult. “Are you dead?” Goro asks.
“Probably not.”
“And is there a reason you’re calling me instead of the ambulance?”
“Oh, I’m fine. I think I have a bruise on one of my legs, if that counts. But I was riding your bike when it happened, so the bike got totaled, so, you know. They’ve got the same model you had, but there’s tons of new colors, if you want pictures.”
Goro takes a very long, very deep breath. Goro is very, extremely calm. “Anything is fine,” he says. “Are you sure you’re okay?”
“Yeah, hundred percent. I even landed on my feet; you should’ve seen it.”
“You should go to the ER anyway,” says Goro, in a voice that is truly the epitome of calm.
“I mean, I guess I could, but that seems like a waste of time. And I don’t want to just leave your bike in the middle of the road.”
“Throw it away if it’s wrecked, then.”
“But it deserves a proper send-off.”
“You’re doing this to me on my birthday, Kurusu.”
“I’ll go to the ER if you go with me,” says Akira hopefully, who is a perennially bad influence who is of the opinion that Goro should have just said he’d be ‘working from home’ and spent the day with him.
Goro takes a look at his calendar, tallies up how many meeting he’d have to reschedule, and waits a whole five seconds before he lets himself say, “Fine,” because Akira just said that he’s fine and Goro isn’t upset and everything is so calm that Goro can wait five seconds before agreeing to leave work. “I’ll see you at Leblanc.”
“Wait, wait, which color for the bike? They’ve got green, blue, a red, a kind of fun rose-gold thing, which is a bit excessive considering it’s a bike, and teal, and a kind of blue and orange Naruto-y thing…”
“Anything is fine.” Goro stops. “Except the last one.”
“Red it is! See you in a bit.”
“Don’t ride that bike back to Leblanc,” says Goro, as if lightning might strike twice on the same day on the same man riding the same model bike of the same color, but Akira’s already hung up. Goro speed-drafts a rescheduling email, copy-pastes it to four different people, and then sprints out the office door without even a goodbye to his coworkers.
*
Friday, 11:16 AM
FUTABA: hey
FUTABA: hey goro
FUTABA: hey gorororororororororo
FUTABA: HEY MR AKECHI KURUSU
GORO: If it’s about the traffic accident, I heard about it.
GORO: I’m going back to Leblanc now.
FUTABA: no it’s smthg else
FUTABA: well it is about the accident but i got smthg else for u
FUTABA sent MOV19.mp4
FUTABA: ripped this from the traffic cam
GORO: Is this footage of the accident?
FUTABA: yeehaw
GORO: …Thank you for the offer, but I don’t know if I want to see this.
FUTABA: ok i hear u but i promise it’s hilarious
FUTABA: and also u might feel better if u see it
FUTABA: like idk what he told u on the phone but like
FUTABA: look the car even slowed down at the intersection
FUTABA: the dude was obeying traffic laws and everything he was doing something like ten under the speed limit
FUTABA: the car ENTIRELY missed akira
FUTABA: got the bike full on
FUTABA: and then he just rolls up across the hood and up the windshield like a looney toon
FUTABA: rip ur bike tho it just goes cronch
FUTABA: instant pretzel
FUTABA: ty bichael for ur sacrifice
FUTABA: also idk i figured you
FUTABA: might wanna see for urself that he’s okay
FUTABA: like u can see him stand up at the end and he’s not even confused or anything he’s super duper ok
FUTABA: he’s not bullshitting u over the phone and pretending he’s ok when he’s not ok
FUTABA: u know how he does lmao
GORO: …Huh.
GORO: He really did land on his feet for a whole second there, didn’t he?
FUTABA: yeah like a cat
FUTABA: it’s nuts tbh
FUTABA: and then he remembers he’s a human and falls on his ass LMAO
FUTABA: show it to morgana i want his professional kitty cat opinion on the matter
FUTABA: rate akira’s near death experience
FUTABA: also the driver was v nice and v apologetic and he gave akira his insurance
FUTABA: but i have his home address and work address and phone number and the name of his dog if you want it
GORO: Just the insurance will be fine.
FUTABA: kk
GORO: …And thanks for sending the video.
GORO: Even though I already knew he was fine.
FUTABA: you know those like
FUTABA: itty bitty teeny weeny micro dogs
FUTABA: that are like four and a half pounds
FUTABA: but they think they can take any mfer on the block out of sheer will alone
FUTABA: and theyve always got their eyeballs bulging out and they pick fights with 70 pound dogs
FUTABA: and they have only two emotions which are rage and anxiety and they shake constantly because theyre only four pounds and they have So Much Emotion and nowhere to put it so they vibrate at the speed of sound
GORO: Is this a metaphor about me.
FUTABA: it’s a metaphor about you
FUTABA: because i can hear your shaky angry anxious four pound vibrating all the way from the other side of tokyo
GORO: You are the smallest, angriest, most anxious person I know, who regularly picks fights with international hacking organizations and billion-dollar companies.
GORO: And I, somehow, am the angry shaky dog.
FUTABA: your husband got hit by a car on ur birthday
GORO: I know that.
GORO: I do not need to be reminded.
FUTABA: ah yeah
FUTABA: sorry
GORO: He’s fine.
GORO: He said he’s fine.
GORO: And from this footage, he’s more than fine.
FUTABA: he is super double extra fine with a side of fine
GORO: Unless this footage was in any way edited.
GORO: And unless he was faking his call, somehow.
GORO: In which case, I’m going to walk into Leblanc and find out that he was just pretending to be okay so he could hear my voice one last time and Leblanc will be swarming with police officers to break the news the newly bereaved.
GORO: But that’s not going to happen.
GORO: Because Akira is fine, and I’m perfectly fine.
FUTABA: im rly glad to hear my man
GORO: This footage isn’t edited, is it.
FUTABA: no
GORO: Are you very sure?
GORO: Videos are easily modified.
GORO: Would you even know if it was edited?
FUTABA: yes im a literal wizard of course i would know
FUTABA: where are u even getting this idea from
GORO: The entire series of events is unrealistic, isn’t it?
GORO: You said yourself that it was almost like something out of a cartoon.
GORO: The likelihood that someone gets hit by a car and comes out of it entirely no worse for wear is practically ridiculous.
FUTABA: i ripped that film straight from the cam it is entirely unedited
GORO: But how can you be sure? Did you see him in live camera?
FUTABA: i mean no but he texted me
GORO: What if that was his dying text.
FUTABA: i rly dont know if his dying text would have been the “i lived bitch” meme with the cat filter
FUTABA: he’s fine dude
FUTABA: that’s why i sent you the video
GORO: I KNOW he’s fine.
GORO: I’m asking if there’s any solid evidence.
FUTABA: THE VIDEO
GORO: I’m going to call him. Brb
FUTABA: so what he can tell you he’s fine AGAIN and you’ll be like
FUTABA: “oh but what if it was secretly a pod person who stole his body after he died tragically after calling me one last time to hear my voice”
FUTABA: he is FINE
FUTABA: like go ahead and call him if u want but
FUTABA: the only person who was gonna edit that footage was me
FUTABA: and if he were dead i would not be functioning enough to be doing any kinda photoshop like that
FUTABA: let alone LIE to you jesus christ!!!!!
FUTABA: god
FUTABA: i pronounce you King Shaky Dog
FUTABA: the tiniest and angriest and shakiest and most anxious four pound goblin
FUTABA: i will reclaim my title tomorrow
FUTABA: for now it’s my birthday gift to you
FUTABA: the title of Shaky Dog allows you to go absolutely apeshit and nobody will judge you
GORO: You know I hate birthday presents.
FUTABA: did you call akira
GORO: I hate birthday presents so much that I will be refusing my title as King Shaky Dog and will henceforth not be going ape shit.
FUTABA: ok so
FUTABA: i didnt mean to
FUTABA: get snippy with you or anything
GORO: It’s fine.
GORO: I wasn’t… exactly polite, myself.
GORO: So.
FUTABA: um
FUTABA: you really can call him if you want
FUTABA: there’s nothing wrong with that
FUTABA: between u and me……………………. i definitely did that more than once for a lot lesser reasons than someone getting hit by a car
GORO: My stop is in less than thirty seconds.
GORO: I will probably live.
FUTABA: lmao ok well
FUTABA: if u change ur mind about losing ur shit then please know i gave u that footage in the first place because i think if something like that happened to MY partner i would mcfreakin lose it
FUTABA: speaking of her
FUTABA: sumi says happy birth btw
FUTABA: but cuter because u know how she is
FUTABA: “happy birthday crow-senpai~~~~~~~~” in her shy voice that makes u wanna die
FUTABA: ofoogofhghhfoghfhhghfh g gh SUMI ur so cute ilysm
GORO: Tell her I said thanks.
GORO: And stop telling me how much you love her and use the ring you made me go ring shopping with you for.
FUTABA: HHHHH
FUTABA: im being cyberbullied for being a cowardly lesbian
GORO: I’m at my stop, by the way, so I’m going offline.
FUTABA: which tbh i probably deserve
FUTABA: oh kk see u
FUTABA: watch the video again mr shaky dog
FUTABA: akira is fine
FUTABA: everyone is alive
FUTABA: you are one year older
FUTABA: happy birthday goro
*
The bike is totaled.
Akira isn’t the sort of person to dump a piece of trash right in front of Leblanc, but it’s hard to miss sticking out of the nearby public trash bin. The back wheel has exploded into serrated wheel-spokes and limb rubber bits that Akira’s shoved into the trash as best as he could. The body of the bike is crushed in on itself, exposing its sharp hollow innards; the handlebars resemble a badly-tied knot. The front wheel is left to stick up and out, creaking gently, spinning overhead from half a hinge like a head not quite fully severed.
The cafe is empty except for its usual barista who, of course, is a very normal and mild-mannered barista, who has nothing to do with the several hundred millions worth of dollars of repatriated art hiding in the attic en route back to South Korea. That would be illegal, of course, and Akira Kurusu-Akechi has never once in his life done anything illegal in the name of what’s morally right. “Welcome back, dear,” says Akira, and hangs up a coffee mug to dry, and it’s so normal that Goro is convinced that either he’s experiencing yesterday, or maybe he’s re-experiencing the year 2016 all over again, or maybe Akira really is dead and this is just his ghost.
Goro sits in his usual spot at the bar. Same chair, sixteen years later. Unbelievable. Maybe Goro’s giving him a little bit of a dumbfounded look, because Akira tilts his head, leans across the bar, and pecks Goro on the cheek.
“Where’s Sakura?” Goro asks.
“Having his midday old man nap. So,” says Akira, looking pleased with himself, “either we can close Leblanc for an hour and raid the kitchen and make lunch, or we can close Leblanc and go out and have a fancy lunch. Your choice because I already made dinner reservations and we’re doing those no matter what.”
Goro really means to give him an answer, because Akira really does love Goro’s birthday every year and never fails to pick someplace nice for the day, but instead what comes out of his mouth is: “Did you ride the new bike back home?”
“Yeah, I did. Figured I might as well take it for a test drive. It’s a good bike.”
“Why didn’t you take the subway?” Goro says sharply.
“Didn’t have my card.”
“You just rode the bike all the way across Tokyo?”
“It wasn’t all the way across Tokyo, just a bit away and back… Goro?”
Ah, Goro’s going to become one of those people who has a meltdown any time their loved one gets on a plane or a train or ksomething else associated with heebie-jeebie nonsense magical thinking. Great. Fantastic. God dammit.
“Do you really want me to go to the ER?” Akira asks eventually.
Goro really wants Akira to have never gotten hit in the first place, but people don’t get what they want and sometimes the universe decides to send one bad fucking driver through a red light and take away Akira’s entire life in a split second—one mistake, a coincidence at the wrong place and time, and the boy who fought God and won is a smear of bones on the pavement.
This would be different if it were sixteen years ago, and Goro had the power to bend people’s minds in half until they broke, or dive into the deepest, bloodiest parts of the collective psyche and pummel the worst of them to a pulp—but what’s he going to do here? Lambast a guy who was going ten miles under the speed limit and just wasn’t looking the right way? Is he going to summon a new Persona from his soul and undo time itself?
Can he do anything if the universe decides, one day, that Akira’s time on this earth is up? He spent all those years desperate for power, and then abusing that power, and then desperately guilty for having abused that power, and then desperately trying to get up that power, and now here he is with the power to do jack shit when his husband almost gets run over and if the Metaverse were still around he swears he would have carved Loki from his own soul out of sheer fury alone—
“No,” says Goro sharply, and stands up. “It’s nothing. I’m not hungry, and I’m going for a walk. Please don’t text me unless it’s an emergency.”
“What—hey! Goro, wait, wait—”
“I’m getting some fresh air!”
Akira’s scrambling to get out from behind the bar. “Didn’t you just get here—?”
Goro spins around and points a finger at Akira like it’s his fault: “You were the one,” he snarls, “who promised, when we got married, that we’d always be together. And now you get hit on a bike, and then stand up like it’s nothing and—and get on another bike and go cycling around the exact same streets where you got hit—? Aren’t you scared? Are you trying to get yourself killed?”
Akira falls silent. “I didn’t go back to the same intersection,” he says at last.
Goro can’t take this. “I’m taking a walk.”
“Wait wait wait, Goro, just—” Akira grabs Goro’s hand and Goro has the sudden urge to yank his arm away, but Akira’s hand is also incredibly real, just like it felt this morning and yesterday and the day before that and all the days Goro ever took Akira’s living, breathing body for granted. “I didn’t think it was a big deal. He was going, I dunno, twenty miles per hour at most. It was an intersection. He’d slowed down beforehand and everything, and I didn’t even get hurt on the fall.”
Right, because Goro’s the one who’s just freaking out for no reason. Right. Okay. Because that’s how he is, isn’t he, always being dramatic over little things. Right. Of course. This is fine.
When Goro doesn’t turn around, Akira moves around to the front to look him in the eye. “Sorry if I made you worry,” says Akira. “But it was really nothing at all.”
“Maybe it was nothing this time,” says Goro forcefully. “But what about the next time—the next car—the next time you borrow my bike? What about tomorrow? Or the day after that? Literally any one of the hundreds and hundreds of days coming up where you could easily die just as easily as you died today.”
“Then I’ll escape death hundreds and hundreds of times,” says Akira.
Goro scoffs.
“I mean it. I was a Phantom Thief, wasn’t I? I escaped death more than once. Did it again today. I’ll do it as many times as it takes until we’re both old and grey.” Akira takes Goro’s hand, but it’s Goro who laces their fingers together.
“Sometimes it doesn’t work that way,” says Goro, like a bad echo of his ten-year-old self, trying to figure out what kind of world would let his mother die.
“I’m just keeping my promise,” says Akira. “I told you that I’d never leave you. I’m not going anywhere.”
“Sometimes that’s not your decision to make.”
“It is and I’ve decided I’m immortal until you die.”
Goro scoffs. “Don’t be arrogant.”
“Is it being arrogant? I didn’t let death steal you away from me. I’m not letting it steal me away from you, either.”
“Sometimes…” Goro begins.
“'Sometimes’ what?”
'Sometimes’ what?
Sometimes things get worse. People die early, and unfulfilled; they streak through the sky in a blaze and then wink out, without even a burst of fire to show for it. Sometimes nobody gets a say in what happens, and plans don’t pan out, and wishes aren’t granted, and everything happens for no good reason and no good end.
Today, Goro Akechi-Kurusu is thirty-four years old, about sixteen years older than he ever figured he was going to be. He has a career in a non-profit for maladjusted youth getting reacclimated to school systems and preparing for college, instead of the career in law he figured he’d have if he actually lived that long. He doesn’t just have one friend, but multiple friends. He has, unbelievably, a husband, which honestly still floors him to this day, considering that he was and maybe still is convinced that marriage is a scam devised by asshole men like his father to manipulate young women into a false sense of security. The other day, Akira mentioned that he wanted to get a cat to keep Morgana company, maybe in a few years when they moved into a pet-friendly apartment, and in Goro’s head, it made sense that they would both be alive and together entire years in the future for them to get a cat.
Today is already an impossible day, isn’t it?
“Sometimes,” says Goro flatly, “you say ridiculous things, and I think that you could actually pull it off.”
Akira grins. Akira leans in for their regular greeting kiss when one of them comes home, but this time, Goro closes his eyes, leans into it, really tries to memorize the feel of Akira’s lips on his. Every line and scar on his hands, the odd ends of his fingernails, that familiar way he waits for four beats, then takes a breath through his nose and kisses Goro again, and never can quite seem to avoid kissing him more on the bottom lip than the top. “I don’t make promises I can’t keep,” he says plainly not three inches from Goro’s face. “It’s bad form to leave a calling card and never show up.”
Goro smiles. “Then I won’t let you break your word.”
When Akira pulls away, he kisses the back of Goro’s hand, like a proper gentleman thief of old. “Happy birthday, dear,” he says, and surprisingly, despite the way this awful day started off, Goro thinks that Akira might be able to pull that promise off, too.
#clouis-loumentine#mine#I TRIED RLY HARD TO WRITE YUKAMITSU but it wasnt happening im sry#please take this apology akeshu instead#also yall have no idea how much self control it took for me to write this oneshot instead of#'goro akechi goes bald at age 24 and akira reassures him he still loves him even tho he has shido's hair genes'#honestly i shouldve done that
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The Ninja as Things My Friends and I Have Said
My friend keeps a quote-book and I thought y’all would enjoy this lol
Jay: say your last words to me, I’m about to be smited
Jay: I am so bright, I am star
Kai: Pickles and Dick
Jay: Pickle my dick?
Kai: PICKLE AND DICK!
Lloyd: TICKLE MY DICK?
Kai: I want to play hot potato with a hand grenade
Lloyd: this chocolate milk mocks me
Kai: Can we all agree that when Jay walks he looks like a flamboyant gay drag-queen toddler
Lloyd, looking at a tampon: is that a cheese stick?
Kai: Where you at you little hoe?
Cole: Don’t do gay it’s not healthy
Jay: I live life as a pirate. Because a pirate is free
Jay: The sun's only up for half the year in Alaska
Cole: We have that too. It's called nighttime
Morro: Lick his nuts, they have a sorta Mexican flavor
Kai: I need to be surrounded with seven beautiful naked women in order to sleep at night
Lloyd: You know how there's like a line between bravery and stupidity?
Nya: Jay is that line
Jay: Disclaimer: I am an anxious bean
Wu: It’s not your fault but it is your problem
Cole: I can't keep a straight face anymore. It's gay now.
Lloyd: That was such a late reaction it could've been my dad coming back
Zane: DISCO PENIS
Kai: I wanna stand around and look GORGEOUS
Kai: I'm outrageously good-looking
Zane: No you’re not
Lloyd: I admit when I'm wrong!
Kai: Oh yeah. But I'm like never wrong!
All of the ninja, always: It would be so much fun to hurt a bad person
Zane: what state do I live in?
Jay: depression
Kai: cool onesie... can I get inside it?
Lloyd: They call me Santa. I bring snow to the children.
Kai: Don't fucking giggle you little shit.
Nya: I will beat you with a meat stick
Cole: You moan more than the dumpster out back
Wu: Don't stick the plungers on your foreheads!
Garmadon: whY are you SMelLING the plungers?
Zane: How does one piss in a watermelon?
Lloyd: When I become 99 pounds I'm going to eat a pound of chicken nuggets so I can be 1% chicken nugget. It's indisputable.
Cole: It smells like SHIT. Like it smells kinda okay now, but it still smells like shit. So it's like. Perfumeshit
Jay: Your socks are untied
Lloyd: Morro can just molest himself
Jay: Can you please not get a fucking locker smaller than my self esteem
Zane: You be smellin your own shit soon
Jay: I already do
Zane: Get it? Cause your mom gay.
Everyone: ...what?
Lloyd: My name's Lloyd and I wear shoes sometimes
Nya: Unlike Skylor, they actually like balls
Kai: Fuck fuck fucking fuck fucking fucktown
Jay. I’m about to go commit space heater in bathtub
Kai: Vaccines make you gay
Lloyd: It’s not because I’m Asian, its because I eat rice so much
Zane: Hi. I’m Zane. ... my dick fell off
Kai, to Lloyd: Your dad is my fuckbuddy. ... wait. Shit.
Lloyd: You didn’t miss. You hit me right in the fucking nipple.
Kai: Eat my dick
Nya. Bite off your own dick
Cole: Your face looks like you're trying to make your dick fall off
Lloyd: So we were sitting watching TV eating macaroni with a fruit roll-up soaking my feet in a trashcan
Jay: I’m gonna go commit visit Pompeii in time machine
Jay: How can spiders fall from the ceiling and just skrrrrt away
Kai: Because none of us can speak proper sentences
Kai: Hold on. I'm sending a meme. I can't fight.
Jay: Engulf your own dick
Jay: Please don’t have a Boston tea party in my back yard
Kai: Still it felt like I committed a minor crime in Iran with all the water in my nose
Jay: Sensei Wu, please throw scissors... I kinda wanna die
Kai: I got royally fucked
Jay: Get your meaty luscious legs
Jay: The fuck you mean take my pants off? They're always on! Cause no one wants me to take them off!
Lloyd, picking up a napkin and seeing food fall out: IT’S BIRTHING
Zane, threateningly: Give me your kidneys
The Overlord: Where is your technology stored?
Zane: I can balance my body on my boner and spin like a beyblade
Kai: My balls are not a muscle
Cole: So apparently I'm not the only one with asymmetrical balls.
Lloyd: Wait actually?
Cole: Well yesterday Kai gave us a very descriptive description of his balls
Zane, sarcastically: Gosh darn don’t you hate it when you're not allowed to bring your 5 dollar footlong subway to training
Lloyd: So he poked me in the back with a pencil and my third grade self was like, "BLASPHEMY"
Kai: You.... dickmuncher
Jay: We're playing infinity Life. It's like Life but the cars are infinity stones.
Kai: I could have divine gay sex and it would still be nohomo.
Cole, during some super serious training: Bake me into a pie daddy
Kai: a compliment sandwich, like this: I like your shoes, YOU SUCK, your eyes are pretty
Zane, to Lloyd: Don't KILL her! Too much paperwork!
Jay: Stop moving your butt. It's uncomfortable when you clench it
Cole: The STICK.. will be UP YOU!
Kai: My ASS is your spot!
Jay, teaching Kai to roller skate: First, we master walking
Kai: I know I’m beautiful and perfect and amazing and huMBLE
Lloyd: I'm here for a good time, not a long time.
Cole: I'm allergic to emotions!
Zane: Yeet is not a valid Scrabble word
Kai: I love myself 3000. And you should, too. Love yourself, that is. Unless you wanna love me as well, cause that’s cool too.
Zane: Is doing drugs illegal
Lloyd: Post-traumatic stress? More like spicy memories
Jay: Be quiet so I can see
Cole: Why is my wallaber grinding its ass on the floor?
Kai: Whatever, my ass cheeks are balanced ... just as all things should be
Garmadon: IT WOULD BE SO MUCH FUN TO MAKE SOMEBODY THINK YOU WERE GONNA HIT THEM WITH YOUR CAR!
Sensei Garmadon: First of all, nobody says they're fine when they're good
Lloyd, getting himself a donut: A chocolate frosted donut for a chocolate frosted child
Nya, about Harumi: I just loathed her at first sight. Like your dad!
Morro, about Lloyd: He reminds me of a cucumber.
Cole, after becoming human again: I’m like Jesus... I thirst
Lloyd, sipping apple juice out of a shot glass: I'm just... done, ya know
Jay: Zane was eating my popcorn and I was like "hey that's my popcorn!" And he looks me dead in the eye and goes "surprise communism!"
Lloyd: I consumed a spatula
Jay: I almost burned down my house making a peanut butter and jelly sandwich
Zane, after Jay climbs on his back: Unmount me you heathen.
Kai: Yeah it's been such a dick-licking long time
Karlof: In Metalonia we do not have sister, we have brother with pussy
Zane: I want to delete my meatsack
Little Lloyd: At about 10 I was so hungry so I went to the med tent and pretended to be fainting so I got crackers
Garmadon: Before we leave I'm gonna sing a Disney song to attract all the females. Especially Misako
Jay, about to get sunburned: I know right, sunscreen is gross, you look like a glazed donut after you put it on
Cole: I like nuts but not that much. ... both kinds... I like my own nuts.
Zane: Hi I’m Zane and I’m the only one in this group with any form of common sense
Lloyd: Oh there's just someone throwing up over there!
Kai: That’s hot
Cole, having a cashew thrown at him: I don’t want to swallow your nut ... I DON’T WANT YOUR NUT
Lloyd: My uncle is going to sacrifice my body
Kai: Okay. You ALL can eat MY ass
Lloyd: A picture will last longer than your family will
Garmadon: That last rep was like a hydroflask and this one was like a kleankanteen
Kai: I bet for a second he was like "oh my God they care about me"
Kai: Because no one would be ballsy enough, no pun intended, to whip his dick out and piss on a crowded bus
Jay: Fuck a duck
Lloyd: Please just dont ..ff... a duck
Jay: But the duck likes it. It goes quackquackquackQUACKAFLACK.
Lloyd: Digiorno? More like I'm fucking hungry
Lloyd: My socks are so wet tis but a small price to pay for salvation
Kai: No means no muchacho
Dareth after failing at spinjitzu: Now I'm just dizzy and my ass hurts
Zane: I said, Cole, don’t orgasm in public, it’s rude, and Cole started moaning as loud as humanly possible
Lloyd: Say cheese!
Kai: Whiskey!
Jay: Who the fucking dammit
Jay: Spongebob square-nuts
Jay: Actual- ACTUALLY it WOULDN’T make me more of a smartass because my SMART has yet to be caught up with my ASS
Lloyd: I hate it when my foot becomes the itch
Kai: STDs are like pokemon, you gotta catch em all
Kai: Here y’all are like "I like them 'cause of how they hold themselves and whatnot" and I’m just like “GIRL PRETTY"
Cole: I hate it whenever my foot becomes the gay.
Kai: I’m shit at being a person, not a shit person.
Zane: Buses turn me on
Jay: No pissing in our VSCO hangout!
Lloyd: Are y’all on high?
Kai: Its gotta warm up to start lavaing, now it’s just lamping.
Kai, crying: When I was crawling through the sewer my hair got stuck in my knee pit and ripped out a chunk
Lloyd, deepthroating a plastic recorder: I’m blonde so naturally, I'm good at this
Kai: I’m depressed. I’m stressed. But at least I’m well-dressed.
Lloyd: Nom nom milk carton
Cole, playing Life: Give me children
Jay, on a Thursday: If Friday was a Tuesday, it would be today
Kai: We're eating lotion and calling it spicy butter ... it’s spiritually spicy
Kai: I don’t fucking know! I'm not a cheese wheel!
Zane: Beepbeep bitch what's that? My lie detector smells a lie
Lloyd: I aced two tests today! The PSAT and the rice purity test!
Pixal: I don't really get the phrase "dry as bones" because your bones are in fact, wet
Cole: Kai, Kai, we can draw you as one of those anime girls. With humungous eyes. Actually no, it doesn't matter what the size of your eyes are. But your boobs are HUGE.
Lloyd: Jay wants to become the Alpha hoe
Cole: STOP TOUCHING MY HEAD AND SAYING IT FEELS GOOD
Jay: Deli sandwich equals cold hamburger
Lloyd: How was your day?
Cole: Good. I have pie dough in my water bottle
Jay: If we do that we can reach our minimum requirement which is our goal
Kai: You can taste the freedom in that nacho cheese
Lloyd: I lust for the crust
Garmadon: You dirty-minded fools!
Anyone, to Skylor: You sucked the fire
Lloyd: OHMYGOD WE GET TO COLOR WITH CRAYONS!
Nya: Not to be lesbian or anything... but DAMN
Jay: No means no in Spanish
Kai: Bro saxophone is literally the sexiest instrument alive
Wu: The only wrong answers are the ones I don’t agree with
Kai: Look, why do you need to be a bottom to suck someone else's cock?
Cole: Jay, you suck
Jay: More so than you do?
Kai: Wait... wait you mean like you suck at the game or you’re better at sucking than he is?
Kai: WE CAN WANT YOU SEXUALLY TOO
Cole: That's not kinky, that's just abusive
Lloyd: CAN WE STOP USING THE TERM “BLONDE BITCH”
Cole: That’s not how you do it! Straddle me HO!
Kai: I didn’t mean to kick you in the coochie!
Jay, I’m the distance: Be genital with her!
Cole: Yeah, also Jay tackled me and then grabbed me in between his legs and Kai jumped on top and Jay smacked his ass and I tried to record so Kai tried to smack my phone out of my hand and missed and his finger went right in my eye so I rolled over screaming and they got up and threw pebbles at me
Cole: It sounds naked! Music!
Kai, to anyone after they say Wu seems chill: He looks like a big soft squishy man but he is not
Zane: On average, in order to feel happy, you need to be touched, (pokes Jay) 8 times a day
Kai raises two fingers on each hand: I’m about to make you ALL happy"
*every person at the table in unison scoots away*
Zane: You looked like lord farquad but in a cute way!
Jay, after getting a pizza shoved at him. The pepperoni sanitized my facehole
Kai: I am the WITNESS! VICTIM! And I will play ... the e x e c u t i o n e r .
#ninjago#incorrect ninjago quotes#incorrect quotes#lmao#s: my friends#the most these were edited were like#the names#and like#'band practice' to 'training' or something#yes I'm aware my friends and I are all crackheads#also peep the shameless self promo
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Fanart dosent belong to me it belongs to oursweetescape.this is just a fanfic story.
apokolips war did not happened.
Raven was turning 23 today. She left titans and lives now in metropolis. She has a fiancee name Jack. Her life was doing great until on her birthday eveything changed.
Jack:So who are you going invite to tour birthday,I hope no ex boyfriend.
Raven:you know just my dad and my uncle john the usual .
Jack:Why dont you tell me from your past?
For christ sake we want to get married some times dont we and start a family.
Raven:It is my birthday and cant you not ruin it.Im going to see my dad at daily planet.
See you later.
Jack:Talia wait im sorry.
Raven lefts the house.she changed her name,her identity for a better life. After she left titans clark kent adopt her and took her and raised as her own.she sees him as her father that she never had and john Constantine helped her with her dad trigon and her magic .she sees him as a uncle.
She walks to the daily planet looking for clark but she cant see him. she calls him .
Raven:Dad where are your right now?
Clark:I'm at Gotham,i have some business here.
Raven:Oh sorry didn't know.
Raven can hear batman saying to clark:Do it or i do it.
Raven:Do what?
Clark:Im sorry i call you later .
Raven gets confused. Clark always tells her everything he trusts her but in batcave He is responsible for something big that will change ravens life.
In batcave=
Clark:Are you our of your mind i cant tell her to come here its her birthday.
Bruce:I can prepare her birthday party right now and i already sent a jet to pick her up they will be here for one hour so i hope you are ready to tell her.
Clark:Goddammit bruce this all your fucking fault.
Bruce:My fault? I didn't took a half demon in my home as my daughter. I told you the first day of this situation. If you cant handle it then let me handle or i find someone that can handle it for you.
Clark:I know i know im sorry . Its just she is my daughter and i cant break her heart.
Bruce :I understand.
Clark:Is damien going to be here ?
Bruce:No, i sent him on a hard task. He is on a boat in sea looking for croc and king shark.
Clark:does he know?
Bruce:No.
Bruce get angry and sad.he goes to alfred and talks to him about the birthday. while he does now clark is on the phone with raven.
Clark:Bruce wanted to get you something nice and because you are getting married soon he thought he want to see you before he goes to a long mission.
Raven:Ok i understand but why couldn't he tell us sooner?
Clark: i explain everything to you here.
Raven:ok.
Raven got in the plane and started concentrating. She was looking for someone.
She closed her eyes and started concentrating on her magic.
She saw him on the boat fighting with king shark and croc.she saw that he was bleeding.
She shouted no and jack woke her up.
Jack:is everything alright?
Raven:yes, no ,... ah i mean yes it was just a dream.
Jack:ok we are landing now get ready.
They landed and after they got in a car and drove to Wayne house.
They arrived and alfred greeted them.
Alfref:Master wayne and master clark are waiting for you lady raven follow me.
Raven started following and jack was about follow when.
Alfred:Im afraid they want to see only lady raven is a daughter father matter.
Raven:it's ok i will join the party later.
They were going to batcave and raven started a conversation with alfred.
Raven:so how you been alfred.
Alfred:oh I'm good thank you for asking.
Raven:I dont see damien around here,his bike wasn't outside too.
Alfred:oh master damien and master jason left for a mission they are sorry that they cant come to your party.
Yesterday at batcave=
Bruce: i need you to distract him tomorrow night.
Jason:For how long?
Bruce:All night.
Jason:what do you think the witch do when she finds out. She will go straight to him and he finds out.
Bruce:let me worry about that.
Raven arrived she went to clark and hugged him.
Raven: What it is? Why are you wanted me here?
A little girl started running to raven she was like 7 years old and hugged her and told her:
The girl:You look beautiful.
Raven:Thank you and what your name?
The girl: my name is martha and I'm 4half years old.
Bruce:Alfred could you please escort Martha wayne to the party.
Alfred:of course sir,lady Martha could you please follow me?
Martha waved and said goodbye to raven.
Raven saw damien's eyes in her.
Raven shouted angry:WHO IS SHE ?WHO IS SHE?
Clark:calm down sweet hart let bruce tell you everything.
Raven:Don't tell me to calm down who is she?
Bruce:Her name is martha wayne she is 4 years old and it's my granddaughter.
Tears started to come out of raven's eyes
Raven:who are they parent's?
Bruce:Damein and you.
Raven fell on her knees and started crying she look confused. She knew it was her daughter because of ber looks and that damien and her and a thing back in day.
Raven:but i can't remember giving birth.
Bruce:zatanna took your memory of being pregnat and having a child.
Raven:Does damien knows?
Bruce:No and will stay that way.
Raven:Why did you do this?
Bruce:you are hald demon half human and your father's are a ailen and a demon. Damien is air to being leader of league of assassins and son of Bruce Wayne and batman. Your daughter would be in danger all the time and not knowing a normal life.
I let you know this now because Martha started to ask about her parents and damien is out of control .He goes to missions like he wants to die.
Raven:I'm going to tell him and im going to have my memory back . And im going raise my daughter with damien or without damien.
Bat computer alerts bruce that damien and jason are coming back.
Raven:I want my daughter NOW.
Alfred brings martha and give it to her mother.
Raven:Martha im your mother amd you are going start livng with me.
Martha:yaay am i going to meet my dad to.
Raven:yea and we have to go now say bye to your grandfather.
Martha:bye grandfather bruce.
Bruce:Bye sweety i will see you every weekend.
Clark:raven let me help you.
Raven:I'm sorry but I'm mad at you to i just want to be alone with my daughter.
Clark:What about jack?
She took her ring off and gave it to Clark.
Raven:Tell him I'm sorry but i can't marry him.
She was about go when Jason and damien arrived.
Damien was bleeding and was looking so good.
Jason:We need help alfred prepare the medical room.
Jason carries damien to the medical room.
Raven gets worried and heals him with her healing power.
Damien:Raven what are doing here? And who is the little girl?
This was chapter one let me know shoud i continue or not?
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9.06
I’m a day late but I have thoughts
- Fred is truly a gem lol but another garden seems redundant
- Trixie actually working!
- Why did they bring back Val’s really bitchy cousin lol, I’m sure she has others on the block😂
- Also Mcnulty seems eager to come back, nice boy
- Sister Hilda tryna stay positive when she knows the truth, bless her
- Also the heat 2000 feels just as far away when you say it now at days too😂
- Save Nonnatus House 1k65/2k20
- I was always wondering when the Turners would tell Angela she’s adopted. I think it should be soon, she deserves to know & I hope we see it
- Little girls always wanna be the same😭 that’s true, but I hope that they acknowledge the fact that it’s a different situation and Angela won’t ever have the struggle May is about to have
- “Maybe they’ll move and carry on like before” Trixie in tears makes me wanna cry😭 she’s literally already been through this. I wish we saw more moments where she reflects as the only OG midwife left (yea Shelagh is technically too but you already know all the issues)
- Also Trixie looks damn great
- What will midwives the do!? We shall see
- Oh so Val has a dad? Did he pass? Give us more info lol
- I also feel like it’s been spring/summer this whole series lol
- Ok but the suddenly alive lost parent trope is pretty soap-y/melodramatic but go on,
- Shelagh stress smoking is a big ass mood but also stop you have weak lungs sis
- Reggie always have great ideas
- Chugging castor oil uh I rather die 🤢
- She’s going to shit her brains out now
- LMAO YUP
- Sister Hilda and Trixie could be an interesting dynamic, let’s see it
- Fred do not worry you’ll figure it out
- What’s wrong with Sister Frances?
- Where is Ms Higgins from that she just said laboratory like that LMAO?? Or do all brits say it like that? i dont remember
- Can’t wait to see Phyllis back with her cubs
- Fred and Reggie hugging for so long🥺
- Sister MJ is going to make a garden, I love her
- Trixie’s new pyjama’s are so cute
- It’s a boy 🥺
- “I am not alone sister” LMAO omg reminds me of the time my grandma went shopping by herself right after she came out of the hospital and we called her and asked who she was with and she straight up said “con díos” aka god and I died
- Never underestimate Sister Mj tho
- Tim is so grown and yet he’s still just the babysitter is so wack give him a little story
- “I like that we’re complicated” awww
- The photos of May🥺awww
- Give Esther a chance man, I feel so bad. She only asked to meet her before she goes back
- Gtfo how can the agency not provide a translator so that she can understand official documents in her first language? That’s bullshit
- LMAO FRED IS WASTED
- “Only in the line of duty ma’am” 😂
- Oh no poor Sister Frances, cramps are the WORST 😭
- I legit would not be able to move for hours and have thrown up before from period pain. Thank god for birth control
- What’s wrong with baby warren?! Omg noo a heart problem
- Trixie’s fit is great
- The fucking chicken pox caused this omg nooo
- THE BEATLES AT SHEA!! iconic! Remember when Don took Sally on Mad Men
- Omg baby is blind? and only going to live a few weeks? Noo😭 this is heart breaking
- Poor Val and poor Maureen ugh this is so awful
- My niece turned 1 today and baby warren is making me extra emo😢
- Sister MJ with the teddy bear 🥺 she doesn’t even care she got caught for taking the blankets LMAO
- Damn May doesn’t remember her or her language. This is so heartbreaking
- ALSO why were there not subtitles so we could know what she said? 🤔 very questionable... just like how they emphasized earlier her going by a “christian” name now...
- Esther shouldn’t have gotten loud but they didn’t even give her a chance? That’s not really fair
- I know Patrick is being protective but he’s so defensive that he probably did scare May
- PHYLLIS FAKING CAR TROUBLES TO GET CRYRIL AND LUCILLE TOGETHER I LOVE IT
- Damn that didn’t go well LMAO
- I’m really feeling conflicted here. I know the Turners have the best intentions and want to keep May safe but I feel like they haven’t given Esther enough of a chance before passing judgment. Like how do we not know she’s a completely changed/clean from drugs women?
- like she is working for a family with enough money for international travel so they probably pay well? IDK what to think rn. Maybe I’m giving Esther the benefit of the doubt but no one else really is
- “They made my child afraid of me” that’s so sad to hear
- “Forgetting her language, forgetting that she’s Chinese” !!! THIS, no one is talking about May’s loss of culture & what’s worse is that no one else seems to care. It really upsets me, the show always wants to pride itself on respecting other cultures and being inclusive but I don’t always feel that
- Also what she said about what they’ve done to her people. She ain’t wrong. F**k colonialism and all its evils !!
- Poor Esther 😭 this is so sad. It’s a lose lose situation for her and she just wants her daughter to know her and know that she loves her
- Also I know sister J is sister J but her talking to Esther is a bit biased don’t you think
- NO NO NO Warren passed 😭😭😢
- Damn Patrick has to carry a stack of death certificates 😢
- ANOTHER look from Ms Franklin
- all the girls look great though
- My heart really breaks for Esther man. This is so sad. She’s the victim of circumstances and it sucks to feel like the world is against you
- It’s so awkward bc the Turners are always set up in moments to kiss and then they don’t and just stand or sit there
- Such beautiful flowers
- They developed the film of Baby Warren😭
- Cyril’s FIT ! A fashion KING who loves Lucille. I love it. I love them.
- The nosy nurses of course
- Alright this is an awesome little festival good job Fred and Reggie !!
- Love the dress Trixie. The hat no so much but it’s the 60s so
- A BABY GARDEN OMG HOW PRECIOUS
- SISTER MONICA JOAN WON OK!
- “Flowers take many forms. Each one has its story. Each one unfolds...” 🌼🌸💐🌷🌺🌻🌷
- “Not every garden blooms as we except it... tears take the place of rain when the sunshine fails us...” 😭💖
- This was a beautiful ending to a sad episode wow
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hello i’m back with another senior citizen and i am incredibly sorry .. i finished s3 of ozarks n couldn’t help myelf :/// but ANYWAYS this is gabriel taylor, laura’s shitty dad ! uwu
basics
✎⌠jason bateman. cis male. he/him⌡❝ — well, look who’s just arrived ! if it isn’t the one and only gabriel taylor. though, around here they’re known as the fortress. don’t tell ‘em i said this but the fifty-one year old lawyer kinda has a reputation of being cold and enigmatic. but y’know, they can be driven and astute too. typical capricorn. anyways, welcome home and stay safe gabe ! ❞
statistics
full name: gabriel jebediah taylor
nickname(s): gabe, sometimes
date of birth: january 7th, 1970
hometown: misty hollow, connecticut.
gender identity: cis gender
preferred pronouns: he/him
sexual orientation: heterosexual
hogwarts house: slytherin
aesthetic: crisp collars, silver tie pins, the smell of fresh laundry, hollow smiles, always a handshake, never a hug, leather briefcase always on hand, a glass of single malt scotch, perfect posture, the sound of waves softly lapping at the shore, thunderstorms with no rain.
distinguishable characteristics: always Clean
their song from the sigh no more album bc i love this album and it makes me Sad™ : dust bowl dance
background ( emotional, physical abuse tw )
born and raised in misty hollow, gabriel’s family has relatively deep roots within the town. the man comes from old money, with all the law firms he owns having been passed down from generation to generation. his father was a part of this business and his mother, on the other hand, is your typical southern belle, moved here from a small town in texas. she was a corporate lawyer ( it’s how she met gabriel’s father ) but since becoming a mother she really has had no interests in any other occupation other than trophy wife and socialite.
to say that gabriel’s parents were old school would be putting it lightly. basically, both of his parents were deeply religious republicans and were very aware of their image as a family. they were harsh parents, extremely controlling when it came to their children’s lives but at the same time were also really emotionally absent. to this day they still believe that it was all in the name of tough love but obviously it was just emotional abuse.
his father was especially hard on gabriel, he was a strong believer in physical discipline and thought gabriel to be too “soft”. he was always berating him, punishing him for petty offences, and pretty much just fostering your typical environment of toxic masculinity. though he never laid a hand on gabriel’s sister as she was what he called, “a lady” and his “pride and joy.”
but gabriel was a good kid, he was obedient aside from stupid mistakes that kids are bound to make. he was your typical golden boy, a jack of all trades of sorts. not exceptionally good at one thing, but averagely good at a multitude of things. he was a quick learner and dedicated, anything he took a crack at, he eventually excelled in. but all those opportunities he was given as a child; being able to practice multiple instruments, getting extra coaching and tutoring in activities of his choice — definitely gave gabriel a leg up among his peers.
throughout high school, he mostly kept to himself, choosing to focus on his education and after graduating, he went to harvard where he earned a dual degree in business and law and carried on through with law school. the plan was to move to boston where the business’ main office was and work for his father, making his way up until he was ready to inherit it all himself.
ok this is where things get shoddy cause everything from above is part of an old intro so if this doesn’t make sense dont look at me ndfjsndjk but i imagine this is where gabe met his future wife ? i don’t want to set anything in stone for when that role gets picked up but ! gabe’s always been .. well-meaning, for a lack of a better word. like in the beginning he initially wanted to go into criminal law and become a prosecutor before his dad pressured him into staying in corporate. these good intentions were really able to develop during his time away from home, i think. he was able to develop his own opinions and views, different from his parents.
but gabriel’s always lived to serve and aims to please, giving himself to others until there’s nothing left. and he still has this really messed up view of his relationship with his parents, especially his dad. it’s just something he’s never been able to shake. out loud, he would never utter a word against them and in his head, he’s justified his father’s actions, forcing himself to think of it in a way that made it okay because putting his actions under any other sort of light would have felt like he was betraying him.
and while he didn’t have the same dreams and ideologies as his father, gabriel felt as if there was really no choice other than to adapt. it’s what’s been expected of him since he was born. so, he poured himself into his work despite hating every minute of it, his pride preventing him to be the one to drive generations of hard work into the ground. and gabriel was good at it, like really good. and he let himself believe he loved what he did, associating the feelings of success with enjoyment.
and in regards to his own family, i think that things in the beginning were good and almost picturesque, y’know? like the vision of a white-picket-fence type of family. but as the years went on, the more time he spent working with his father and the family business, he subconsciously allowed his father’s habits and tendencies into his own head. He succumbed to his parents’ influences and allowed their ideas of success and vision for his and his family’s future to become his own.
and i think one day gabriel looked in the mirror and straight up did not like what he saw. he’s fully aware of the mistakes he’s made in the past and he feels the heft of those mistakes everyday, but what is he supposed to do now ? it’s too late, he’s too far in. and so gabe did what he does best, he compartmentalized and began distancing himself from the family. spending more time at the office than at home because the farther you are away from people, the less likely you are to hurt them right ?
personality
i’m gonna keep this loose cause i’ve noticed i tend to diverge from them a bit when i actually start playing my muses !
but gabriel is the fakest mf you’ll ever meet. all smiles and formalities, he’s like a goddamn politician i hate it. but i think if he were ever to let this decades long charade fall, everything just falls apart for him, y’know? his emotional sitch is like a house of cards, everything being perfectly curated and placed
he’s incredibly loyal to his family, he’d do anything to protect his family. and like sure, he loves them more than anything, but i think this loyalty comes more so out of duty than love, y’know ?
smart as a whip, always calculating and very cunning. the dude’s a shark in the courtroom and has he done morally questionable things to win a case? probably
idk i think... gabriel as a whole is a moral grey area. i rlly do love him and this version of him is always fun to play but we ! shall see !
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whew! what’s up everyone! my name is crissy and yes, i am the clown who sent my account ask on anonymous last night. luv that for me! I GOT A COOL FAMILY ICON IM CRYING!!! now this is yi eun hye, better known as evelyn yi or evie, paging dr. sexy md don’t call her that though, she’ll kill you omg the second eldest princess of the four neglected korean princess sisters aka the mom friend sister or the buzzkill responsible sister.
~`click anywhere here for a link to my app ~
under the cut i’m gonna throw some important personality and background stuff along with maybe? half-formed plot ideas? if not i’ll make a follow up post later, but pls like this plot if you wish to plot, i’ll try to come bother u. my ims are open hmu anytime (also bc im anxious af to b first message bc im BABY) and I ALSO have a discord located at quarantine queen#2918 where i’m usually v v v active. (lmk if u cant add me shoot me a message on here and ill fix it) ok imma shut up here is cranky daughter! ITS LONG SRRY
( pS: also if my blog is too hard to read just stick /mobile on the end of the url xx )
background
the empress and emperor of korea had 5 kids, 4 daughters, 1 pampered son and evie was the second oldest daughter after dianna but like, she’s bossy and high strung and acts like the oldest anywayS so it doesn’t matter!
woo! however, korean tradition is rooted deeply in patriarchy and other backwards thinking, >:(((( so evie’s parents basically pretended like their son was the only kid they had and sent evie and her 3 sisters off to swedish boarding school to ROT as they each turned 10 and forgot abt them while they groomed their son for the throne! thx mom n dad! luv u too! sdjlaksjd
during her time at boarding school evie was expected to not learn much of anything, not do anything spectacular, she wasn’t expected very good grades or to be smart or successful or anything bc that was Men’s Work and so evie did . . . THE EXACT OPPOSITE.
evie EXCELLED in school, straight a’s, top of her class, honors, ap valedictorian, which meant all nighters, nose bleeds at 2am from studying too hard, looking dead walking through the hallways, eating ramen 25/8, falling asleep w her face in her textbooks, getting bullied a lot for being a nerd and Not looking like her sisters and like...the creature from the black lagoon.
her parents, understandably, were not very happy with this but it wasn’t until she wanted to go to medical school that her parents were like FURIOUS. to them, women, esp the princesses, were only supposed to get married, have kids, THAT WAS IT. so evie wanting to be a doctor enraged them. STAY MAD!
they tried to have her engaged SO. MANY. TIMES. but she has a really repellent personality, she’s very kat stratford from 10 things i hate about you. and is rude and states her very liberal very socialist opinions often, dresses sloppy and hurts mens feelings a lot just for fun so they all went rUNNING from those match appointments! her parents literally are losing their minds they don’t know what to do w her theyre like god why did we give birth to the aNTICHRIST!?!?!?
not wanting anything to do with her parents, evie got into college and medical student on scholarship based on her own merit and skill. evie went to the seoul national university for 4 years then did a 2 year residency at the country’s top hospital, becoming one of the best on call heart surgeons there.
the korean media likes to clown on her A LOT! bc shes scary and angry and cares very little abt her appreance is A DOCTOR and not a princess really for the opposite reason they clown on dianna but evie does not really care she doesn’t care abt impressing people, just saving lives and proving people wrong. finger guns
but yes! thats what u missed on glee. evie was a heart surgeon in korea before being shipped off to thailand! shes v salty by the way ... even more than usual.
fun facts?
evie wears massive grandma glasses to see bc shes BLIND when shes in line with her sister people do not think she’s related and are like “OMG OMG THE PRINCESSES!!! BUY WHATEVER U WANT ON THE HOUSE I--oh? maam? uh? can we help u, ahjumma?” HELP
very dry, mean, will call you out on ur shit and hurt ur feelings probably. doesn’t really know how to Chill or have fun, stays out of drama and parties for the most part literally that old man that tells u to get off their lawn
LOVES HER SISTERS!!!! LOVES THEM!!! moms them and nags the FUCK out of them tho abt everything. wear a sweater its cold, drink water, dONT DO THAT GET DOWN FROM THERE, i told u to eat before u drank all that soju pabo!!!! skhaslkfh BUT SHE LOVES THEM VERY MUCH HER WOOOORLD the only people shes kind of nice to
as stated, has tried to been matched up before but has basically scared away all her matches by being A Lot and not polite or dainty and burping probably
her mom calls her all the time to talk abt how shes having a heart attack bc her second daughter is an unmarried, childless, spinster with a cat who is embarrassing her by being a doctor and being loud and obnoxious and outspoken against the royal heirarchy and right wing politics. evie just puts her on mute and lets her keeping yelling at no one for the next hour
loves beer, loves fried chicken, very unladylike, wears oversized sweaters and her hair messy and watches love island australia and the bachelor just to make fun of the people being in love and stupid i think secretly she kind of wants it but...thinks shes unlovable and will die before she says that shh
bisexual legend! cue mr and mrs yi screaming somewhere
not that it matters bc she cares little abt romance and sex and always put work and school before everything so everything touchy like that she either ends abruptly or stays the hell away from
never parties or goes out but when she does get really drunk gets very cute and touchy and happy there is one video on the internet of her like on a table ashdkh yikes
is soft deep down just like *shrek voice* donkey, orges are like onions they have layers and u gotta get past a lot of them for her to get past her level 4 tragic backstory and into the soft, vulnerable part of her personality its nice i promise she is SQUISHY
weird plots???
best friend? im sure she has one somewhere. or friends at all? people who arent scared of her who shes nice to....mostly
enemies woo! hate her its very easy to hate her so do it
u want to do a daredevil thing like when matt shows up bleeding and dying or after a fight or something and she patches u up
just anyone need a doctor bc paging dr sexy md~
past loves? boyfriend? girlfriend? weird flings? weird tension unresolved stuff WOOO
ANYONE who broke her heart for the angst and drama
hit on her itll b funny
anyone who she was previously matched w who she scared off
someone shes currently trying to be matched or betrothed to GOOD LUCK
someone she has a crush on YIKES or vice versa
any of the college kids need a tutor?
roommates?
ANYTHING PLS HMU <333
#;;ooc ( out of crissy ).#hello this is angry daughter shes scary but we stan#sorry this was so long pls hmu#ALSO LOOK AT MY COOL ICON!!
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Vent / personal / tmi / menstruation / endometriosis / long post ... Im so fucking sick of healthcare professionals telling me to just wait it out and pushing my problems onto other doctors I just got my 5th shot of lupron and have 1 more next month. On my appointment last week i told the gyn how ive been having much more cramping and tissue but not blood coming out regularly and he said its possible the combined lupron and norethindrone are making my uterine lining too thin, and to stop the norethindrone (it was being prescribed to help any menopause-like side effects the lupron can have) And less than 24 hours after my first missed dose i get a full blown period complete with extreme mood swings and depression Im not bleeding this week but im still cramping and the mood swings are so fucking bad, being chronically ill and not getting enough relief from any of my medications is making all of this worse but im literally breaking down over any little thing The lupron and norethindrone combined i guess have been suppressing all my emotions bc this is what it was like on the daily before i started it (just not as bad) which is telling me that none of my psych meds are working but whatever I just now got off the phone with my psych and he said he doesnt want to do anything with my meds or dosing bc he says its related to hormones and thats what my gyn needs to address and i Need To Wait im fucking sick of waiting i cant do this ive been waiting since last august!!!!!!! I now have to wait 2 more whole months of mood swings until i can have another appointment with him hes refused to actually screen me for adhd too and says its bc im An Artist type that im not able to sit down and draw anything since last fall like i fucking hate him and he never gets my name or pronouns right and i cant go see a new psych bc of all the closures and i dont wanna call my gyn bc he said if things get worse i need to have a pelvic ultrasound done again and i cant do it!!! I fucking cant do it it hurts too much im too traumatized from depoprovera and mirena that i cant even touch myself without extreme dysphoria and fear that im going to cramp Its killing me that as someone who was so personally sexual to completely be traumatized from the road to an endometriosis diagnosis that i can no longer masturbate or even talk about sex without anxiety and being trans on top of it hurts even more Next gyn appt is my last injection of lupron and im really gonna push to plan for a partial hysterectomy (i only had endo cysts on the back of my uterus but it was 100% confirmed with surgery and biopsy) so i hope it will help so i can stop taking all these fucking hormonal medications like Before being diagnosed i was really planning on going on testosterone but now im too scared because i feel like it would really fuck up my health problems more - mentally and physically Ive given up on passing and am trying to focus on body acceptance especially now that ove had rapid weight gain that isnt being addressed by any of ky doctors i bring it up to God im just trying to vent here but seriously Do not take the diagnosis of endometriosis lightly its super serious to go forth with any treatments and you really have to commit to long term treatments and its a gamble either way For me not starting any treatments was unacceptable i needed help with extreme monthly periods and all forms of birth control ive tried exacerbated symptoms and never stopped bleeding - i literally cannot personally recommend any form of medical birth control bc every one has fucked me over, many different pills at different points in my life, shot (depoprovera gave me debilitating cramps and i bled non stop all 3 months which started this whole journey to diagnosis), iud (iud was the worst i had to go to the er bc the gyn refused to give me pain meds and i was screaming in pain a few hours later unBle to move or think - i really cannot stress enough how painful and long insertion is like it was the longest 5-10 minutes of my life crying while it felt like a knife going through me) I really dont want that ultrasound tho ffs i had to get the first one done while i was in full force cramps during my depoprovera shot and the pelvic ultrasound rod is humongous and they dig it around inside you (i already had a painful and hard time trying to have pleasurable penetration even by myself or with partners) and it takes like 40 minutes of jumbling around your insides for them to document every thing like at least at that time i was only like 2 months from my last time jerking off but now its been almost 6 months of me not even thinking about putting more than one finger in to clean myself in the shower like to go right into an huge ultrasound is going to be so painful and anxiety inducing and i cant do it id rather go straight into surgery My biggest phobias have to do with pain around this part of my anatomy i cannot stress enough how long ive wanted a hysterectomy just so i dont have to fear accidentally getting p r e g... like i would literally kms... i would probably be able to handle the pain of cutting off my arm with a rusty knife better than extreme cramping pain like i had with the iud or ultrasound its such a phobia and now its source of trauma for me from everything ive gone through the last 6 months Having to readjust my life goals from doing p o r n as a hobby and wanting to transition and be who i am, to becoming a vegetable and trying to cope with the fact that i cant ever transition how i hoped Everything just really sucks for me right now and i have literally no social life any more, not even online bc im so stressed about my health and my attention is so bad i cant focus on a convo online, my laptop is about at its grave so all i have is a phone and xbox with bare minimum internet speed.. i live in the middle of nowhere and cant get my license bc the person who was guiding me to drive is an essential worker in a hospital so i cant go in their car any more... im just so fucking alone i cant do anything except break my back gardening and then cry about it later bc my fucking meds dont fucking work!!!!!!!!! Oh thats another thing im also dealing with fucking gerd on top of all this and i cant get the proceedure i need done to confirm if i need surgery or not bc the fucking lockdown!!!! So im stuck taking pantoprazole (been trying similar meds since march 2019 and its currently june 2020!!!!!!) I just want to eat tomatoes and chocolate again it fucking kills me if i dont take pantoprazole i will lose my voice and have such a sore throat and ears from the stomach acid and i know im gonna have to stop it for 2 weeks for one of the tests i need done and its going to be literal hell like it feels worse than strep throat ill probably do the thing where i start choking and coughing at night bc it gets so bad Im a fucking mess like why couldnt all of this happen one at a time I really want to get my belly pierced again bc i feel so naked without it but i cant bc i probably will be having 2 surgeries once covid blows over (if it ever does) Sorry for taking up so much dash space im just really hurting and need some outlet bc therapy isnt helping rn
#personal /#vent#long post#endometriosis#mental illness#menstruation#tmi#i need to stop crying but i cant lmaO#fuck endometriosis#literally a life ruiner#like i was already having a hard time before it but now i have zero hope for the future
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A LOT LOT LOT OF REALLY LATE ASKS
While I’m here, @lilietsblog send me a bunch of asks a while ago (back in october) that first I forgot about and then I felt awkward since it was months ago. But since I’m still here, I’ll push through the awkwardness i’ve been avoiding since December
Note they send a bunch, some numbered but apparently the second one is missing. @lilietsblog i dont expect you to remenber after months but if you do...
Also this is so fucking long that im putting a keep reading
About Catherine and Rat Company (1): these are war games monitored by adults. They are intended to be training, and even though winning/losing also matters, I imagine major breaches of discipline (ie straight up disobeying the person supposed to be your commanding officer, which was Catherine with Nauk incapacitated) would be remarked and punished anyway. In the army it's more important to obey than to be clever or the whole thing can't work.”
No comment since I know nothing about armies but i’ll take your word for it
(3) You keep suspecting Name shenanigans, but you think if Catherine was a side character and someone else became lieutenant and then led them to actual successes against First Company they wouldn't be cheering that person on and swearing eternal loyalty (until evening anyway)? It's just how people work. Charismatic leaders are a real world thing, not just a story thing. Story can enhance what's already there, but Speaking has been explicitly called out so far. Catherine isn't doing that.”
Really good point. Also consider this, I will suspect Name shenanigans until the day I die. The story will end, I will be in my deathbed, and I will tell my grieving family that it was Name shenanigans in apgte
“(4) The subtler effects of Name shenanigans are mostly in coincidences and luck. What COINCIDENCE it is that Cat was placed in the loser company willing to rally behind ANYONE who gave them even a modicum of success. What COINCIDENCE it is that they went up against First Company, making Cat look even more impressive in context. And, uh, the fact Cat got lieutenant's position is explicitly no coincidence, just Black's fiat. That's being apprentice to the head of the army for you.”
See above for my take on this (also I truly hope in my deepest of hearts that you know its deep Name manipulation because you already read this and am trying to throw me off. Because I would love a story about confronting Tropeworld, please give me this)
“(5) To bring characterterization together a little bit: remember how Sergeant Ebele in Rat's Nest liked Cat and encouraged her? Remember how Cat fast-talked her way into a rebel group? Remember how she called herself out for being too much of a brave idiot when she went to save that girl in chapter 1? She's just in the exact position to show off and capitalize on these traits that were there from before Black got involved.”
Really good Catherine analyzing and I agree. After all theres a reason Black picked her. BUT it can be Cat being charming and leadering material, AND name stuff. I dont trust the Names and Roles at all.
“(6) These are TEENAGERS in a WAR GAME. LEEEEEROY JEEEEEEEEENKINSSS!!!!!.... tl;dr it would take a mind-controlling Name to get these children to act DIFFERENTLY in this situation lmao”
Oh yes, holy crap this is just lord of the flies. However,I’m still side eyeing everything
“ God this will give birth to so many more rumors. Who laughs in the middle of fighting?" this is called adrenaline and I'm not saying ANYONE would but it's at the very least a real thing lmao (if you're of Catherine's temperament~)”
Are you sure? Absolutely sure? I didn’t want to know that and I’m pretty sure there will still be rumors even if that only makes a small percentage of the ones that will pop up (hell we just seen the Blackguards take Cat in front of her classmates, god the rumors everywhere)
(I am not saying whether there are or not Name shenanigans involved, why that would be spoilers. Just pointing out that it comes together as is, either way)
Name shenanigans Name shenanigans Name shenanigans
(the psychological parts come together, anyway. No comment on jumping over rolling logs)
oh yeah we’ve already seen its pretty impossible and it tipped of Hellhound
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and a comment from when I returned last month
WELCOME BACK WE MISSED YOU
I was gonna keep this one to myself but I’m already commented of everything else from lili so why not. thank you :)
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Currently on the verge of a massive breakdown my guys 👌👌
Not only have my parents never accepted me for being Non-binary, I find out that as well as my mums being transphobic, my dad is a biphobe?
The thing is, I've been out as Bisexual to my parents (my birth mum and my dad) since I was 14. That's 9 years I've been out. They both didnt care when I first told them and makes sense yeah? I mean, my mum is gay, my step-mum is bisexual and my dad is a transvestite.
But both my mums are raging transphobes so when I came out as non-binary (well forced out in the middle of pride) they didnt take it well. Constantly using my birth pronouns, refusing to use my chosen name (Or even my chosen nickname that I have used specifically to make the transition easier for others) they misgender my trans friends and always look disgusted in me.
My birth mum has always gone out of her way to make me seem like a fucking trender when I came out, nothing changed, I've used the bi label for as long as I can remember and more recently, the trans and nb labels. She will go out of her way to say things like "oh, so you're bi now? I thought you were pansexual like, last week" or "but I thought you were gay" and with my gender identity shes worse saying shit like "if you were really trans you wouldnt wear this." "Your hair wouldnt look like that if you were trans."
What's worse about that is my step-mum joins in. My BISEXUAL step-mum joins in. And if I joke around calling her gay she gets assy. She seriously, to my face, calls my sexuality and gender made-up and then gets assy that I corrected her.
Now, I'm almost used to that kind of shit, I just dont see them often. Clears it right up. But now, I have nowhere to go.
My dad recently told me that he hates that my generation "complicated things" saying how back in his day there were only gay and straight, man and woman. (Not trying to think of all the historical examples I could have given him that he is blatantly wrong).
He said that bisexual is made up by straight people who want attention which is entirely untrue (even more so when you consider I'm a gay leaning bi)
And originally when I told him I was non-binary he straight up shouted at me and threatened me before saying to my face that I'm not allowed to do this because I'm just an attention seeker who is trying to be interesting 👌
My siblings are almost as bad. (More specifically my younger brother.) He has many cis friends, a couple trans and surprisingly enough, some enby friends. He uses their correct pronouns and names but he has said straight to me "I wont respect your pronouns because I dont want to." And yet he perfectly respects my friends pronouns?? I dont understand.
My older sister is not that bad. She is the only one in my immediate family that doesnt know but I think she has noticed something is off. She tries not to use my name and will just kind of gesture? But at this point I'm too scared to say anything because I know she'll probably just be like the rest of my family.
As a quick nudge, both my siblings are straight cis, I'm the only one that doesnt match either of those descriptions. It honestly does make me feel like I am that one fucked up sibling. I dont WANT to be different. I fucking dont! This is who I am and I cant help it. I hate that I'm different but shouting at me and being assholes isn't going to change that.
It's not just my sexuality and gender that they scrutinise either which makes this family feel less like a family and more like jailers.
I dont understand why I try to express myself anymore. My step-mum has said to my face before that my whole family (THE WHOLE FAMILY) didnt believe in me being able to go to uni. They all thought I would fail.
For years, since I was very young, I've been called a Hypochondriac for actually going (and wanting to go) to the doctors when I'm ill. To the point that since I was about 17 I've been terrified to go to the doctors because I never think I'm sick enough or that I shouldn't bother the doctors because there might not be anything wrong with me (this has led to me almost being hospitalized with major infections and health issues more than once)
I struggle to breathe 24/7 and yet I'm too scared to get help for it incase they put me on anything (which I know my dad will guilt me into throwing away which would be a waste of money).
I feel like no matter what I do they're never pleased at me. Those 6+ years I did of dance? My parents hated it so I changed to business and language. Those near 15+ years of music, singing (church choir as a soprano & alto and school choir as an alto) and instruments, my mum genuinely laughed at my music teacher in year 10 for asking if I'll be joining up with the choir again bc my mum thought I couldnt sing.
I like cosplay, making props and costumes (for over 4 years)? Mum tells me I'm shit at it and should put my time into something useful.
I like languages so start it as a degree doing Japanese, Korean and German with extra classes in Spanish and French? My dad turns horribly racist and makes jokes about languages and how they're useless, my mum tells me that languages is a stupid degree to do because there isn't any money in it unless I'm a teacher. (I'm going into translation)
It seems like whatever I do, it's never good enough. My siblings get all the praise and help but I get nothing. Currently, while I'm between my uni and an international uni, I'm homeless. I sleep on a mattress in the middle of my dads living room. I have no privacy and have to clean up their colossal hoarding messes to be allowed to stay. I have nowhere else to go and nearly all of my friends live up north where I belong. I have 2 friends down here and no money to do anything.
Honestly dont even know why I'm on this planet some times.
Sorry. Rant over. Anyone got any tips or whatnot, I'd really appreciate it.
-Killian.
#bisexual#nonbinary#gender non conforming#gender#sexuality#transphobia#biphopia#abusive parents?#i dont even know what this family is#rant#i need tips or help or something#i hate it around my family#i am stuck with them for another month
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