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tcubunny · 3 months

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switch!tzuyu x switch!fem!reader - “trying our best” (warnings: smut, praise, breast play, scissoring, clit stimulation, oral)

a/n: thank u to my pookie @soyeonsbabygirl for proof reading 🤗 first time writing for tzuyu, kinda nervy. i’ve had this idea in my head from the second i thought up this au. small issue that we’re going to fix with our imagination, as always: let’s pretend jyp is strict on hotel rooms and if the company placed/booked/whatever-the-balls two specific members in a room, they HAVE to the be ones who share it🙏idk if i’m lying ab the switch tags bc i think that’s what’s happening, but idk tbh. maybe if i feel generous in the future ill write a fic about how her and the reader ended up getting caught and what their punishment was. for now, much love and enjoy pookabutts😘

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“goodnight you two, don’t do anything you know you’re not supposed to.”

jeongyeon warns and gives you and tzuyu a kiss before walking to the door and shutting it behind her.

you and tzuyu are the best girls for your unnies, you never get in trouble. your notoriously great behavior has fully merited their trust, yet letting you two share a hotel room still seemed risky. everyone insisted that being alone with each other would be too tempting, but there was nothing they could do about it.

you both promised—specifically to jihyo that you would sleep on separate beds, and wouldn’t try anything, and you plan to follow through on that promise.

“are you tired?” tzuyu’s voice bellows throughout the room. “i guess.” you get up and lock the door before walking to the other bed. “well, goodnight.” tzuyu turns off her bedside lamp and lays down, draping the covers over herself.

“goodnight.” you do the same as her and get comfortable. you close your eyes, trying your best to clear your head, but you’re far too hyper-aware of the fact that she’s right next to you. you really wouldn’t dare disobey the others, but it’s all you can think about.

the minutes rush by and you still can’t manage to fall asleep, completely immersed in your less than holy thoughts about tzuyu. you toss and turn, but nothing works.

“y/n, are you asleep?” you hear a murmur in the dark and turn to face tzuyu’s bed. “no.” there’s a few seconds of awkward silence before tzuyu speaks up again.

“i know we said we wouldn’t, but do you want to sleep with me? i just feel so isolated.” you think about it for a second, you desperately want to say yes, but you know you can’t. “tzuyu…”

“please, they won’t find out. the door is locked and they have no other way of checking on us.” she is correct, there’s no way they can find out unless they enter the room, which they can’t do if the door is locked. and you always lock the door when you’re in a hotel; it wouldn’t raise any suspicion.

“okay…” you get up and walk to her bed, hesitantly joining her under the covers. you turn away from her, too scared that you won’t be able to control yourself if you face her. you both say goodnight again and the deafening silence returns.

falling asleep is significantly more difficult now that tzuyu is right next to you. you can feel the warmth emanating off her body and you want nothing more than to turn around and kiss her. you can also feel your own warmth stretching from your flustered cheeks to your aching core.

“i can’t sleep.” you’re jolted out of your trance of sorts by tzuyu turning on the light. you turn to look at her and she sits up against the headboard, so you do the same. “me neither.” you reply, trying to hide your reddened face.

“i’m bored.” she says, tucking her hair behind her ears. “me too.” you look around the room, trying to think of something else to continue the conversation. “you think the others are asleep?” she exhales before answering. “let’s think critically here, none of them can keep their hands off each other.” you look down at the floor. “yeah…”

you both sit without saying anything. having her so close but not being able to touch her how you want is absolute torture. you bite down on your thumb as a weak attempt to distract yourself, but it doesn’t work in the slightest.

you look over at her, head tossed back on the bed frame, eyes closed, and arms inside her shirt. you’ve never been one to make impulsive decisions, but your desire for her completely takes over.

“tzuyu…” you call out, inching closer to her. “wha-“

you crash your lips into hers, cutting off her sentence. the kiss is slow and sends heatwaves straight to your core. her lips feel amazing, you swear you’ll never be able to separate from them. you let your tongue wander inside her mouth and she gladly takes it in. you entangle it with hers, lifting your hand to cup her face.

she pulls away and you whine in frustration. “we can’t.” her actions greatly differ from her words; she tugs the collar of your shirt towards her and continues kissing you.

“why not?” you repeat the pattern of pulling away and going right back to the heated kiss every time either of you speaks. “we promised.” “they won’t find out,” you pause your sentence to keep tasting her “like you said, the door is locked.”

it appears you’ve fully convinced her as she pulls you closer and makes you straddle her. you let your hands get lost in her hair as she grabs your face.

you can already feel a pool of slick collecting on your underwear while you’re squirming on her lap. the air in the room suddenly feels hot and your clothes start feeling like a burden.

“take off your clothes.” you instruct, getting up to do the same. you toss your things to the side, not caring where it lands. you watch as tzuyu rips everything off and crawls to the edge of the bed to sit.

you admire her body with a smirk before pushing her down and getting on top of her. the truth is, neither of you has any experience with being in control, but you’ll have to make do.

“you’re so pretty.” you whisper in her ear, moving your mouth down to her neck. “you’re so pretty.” you kiss her chest, making sure not to leave any new marks that the others could notice.

you gradually move lower until you reach her tits. you take one of the into your mouth and she lets out a loud moan. you slap your hand over her mouth to shush her.

“nayeon and jeongyeon are right beside us, do you really want them to hear?” you take your hand off and she brings her own hand to her mouth, urging you to keep going.

your mouth goes back to her tit, sucking and biting it gently. her choked moans make your pussy drip, you can’t wait any longer. you replace your mouth with your hand and tap on her thigh. “can you spread your legs?” “mhm.”

she does so and you swing one of your own legs over one of hers so that your pussy is directly aligned with hers.

you look into her eyes waiting for approval to go on, but she just pushes your hips down instead, making your soaked cunt collide with hers. you almost scream out from the feeling, but bite down on your finger to stop yourself.

you gyrate your hips, twitching slightly every time your clits touch. “you’re so fucking hot.” tzuyu coos from beneath you and pulls you down to her lips. you moan and whine into her mouth, trying to remain as quiet as possible.

you no longer care in the slightest about how many rules you’re breaking, the only thing on your mind is how amazing tzuyu sounds.

“you feel so good, tzu.” your sentence comes out hurried and broken, the feeling of tzuyu’s pussy on yours messing with your senses. “hm, thank you.” an inebriating smile adorns her lips as she responds. one of her hands remains placed on your hip, pushing you down against herself. you lean back, resting your weight on your hands as you brush your hair back.

“faster.” she hums while digging her nails into your skin. you whine at the feeling and speed up, making tzuyu reflexively thrust her hips up.

“shit, don’t stop.” her back arches as she pleads with you. “i wouldn’t do that to us both.” you giggle and bend down to meet her lips.

you can feel your muscles beginning to contract and hold onto tzuyu’s hand against the mattress.

“i’m so close.” you cry out and squeeze your eyes shut. “hm—me too.” hearing her weak whimper is all you need to reach your climax. you fiercely hold tzuyu’s hand as your hips shake, silencing your moans with her lips. you don’t stop until you see her body tense and she lets out a string of profanities with her orgasm.

when she completely finishes, you let yourself fall down on her chest, completely slumped. you both lay there panting without moving until your heart rates settle and you regain your composures.

“you’re incredible.” she traces your lips with her fingers and you look up at her. “i pay attention.” she laughs at you, pushing you off of her to get on top of you.

“it’s my turn to show you how well i pay attention.”

your eyes widen at her remark, you didn’t think she could sound any hotter, but somehow she does. she kisses down your neck, going past your chest and all the way to your stomach. she plants a kiss right above your core and your hips jerk forward.

she stands up and pats down the edge of the bed for you to sit. she then kneels in front of you, opening your legs with her hands. you can feel the slick pouring out of you, she looks absolutely ravishing on her knees for you.

she kisses your thighs as you stroke her hair with a smile on your face, completely drowning in how beautiful she looks.

she looks up at you and dips her tongue between your folds, already earning desperate moans from you. her tongue moves with great agility, sucking your clit and pushing into your entrance every time she passes it.

you give her feedback in the form of hushed whines and whimpers, still very aware of the people on the other side of the wall.

“does that feel good?" she asks in a sweet, innocent voice, the contrast between her actions and her inflection adding to your arousal.

you whine and arch your back slightly, pushing tzuyu’s face further into you. she chuckles as she lets go of your clit with an audible ‘pop.’

“y/n, answer my question.” she begs with the same tone and you look down at her, a dangerous glint painted on her eyes.

“hm,” your attempt at answering comes out as a moan and your cheeks redden as you feel tzuyu’s laugh against your pussy.

"i think,” you whimper into your own hand as she pushes her fingers inside you. “i think you can tell, ah fuck.” she mercilessly pumps her fingers in and out of you while her lips wrap around your clit.

it doesn’t take long for the edges of your vision to glow white, you orgasm hitting you without warning. you grab a fistful of tzuyu’s hair, holding her in place. she eagerly swallows every bit of sticky white fluid pooling out of you, allowing you to fully come back from your high.

you let go of her hair when you realize how hard you were holding onto it and she stands up. “i think i won.” she teases, coming closer to sit on your lap.

“oh, it was a competition? in that case, i think i’d like a rematch.”

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vamph00n · 21 days

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idea, but idk if you take ideas

reader gets turned on by hoon’s vampire like features, and convinces him to rp as one while they’re fucking

mdni

tags: femreader, vampire kink, mentions of the twilight movies, hoon is jealous obv.

*not proofread will do later

wc: 1,2k

smut tags under the cut

i added my own lil spin on it annonie~ mainly cause i’ve been rewatching twilight rndjsoskdndknsla

smut tags: biting kink, implications of sex, dirty talk, chest groping, etc

he doesn’t know how many times you watched those stupid twilight movies. all he knew is that you fawned over some guy in those films with the most victorian name ever. he wasn’t your type and sunghoon was sure of it, why would he be your type when he; your boyfriend, was right there? nah, he didn’t like that you thought of any other men than him. even if he was fictional.

you had all the books too, along with whatever smutty literature he saw on that well dusted shelf in your house. you lived in those dirty fantasies when he was right there. the way you’d kick your feet and giggle while watching those movies. it really pissed him off, it was all imaginary, pretend. it was stupid for him to be so jealous, but god there was one thing he hated the most about your little hyper fixation…

well, the thing is sunghoon doesn’t want to come off as a pissy bitch. he’ll happily go along with whatever endeavors you put him through. it’s just when you make him watch the same few movies with you again, he felt his ego shrink every passing second spent staring at robert pattinson play a vampire. especially when your comments consisted of comparisons between him and edward whats-his-face’s character.

“look at him hoon, he’s like all sparkly in the sun, n’ he has like this mad gaze.” Your eyes pan over to your boyfriend, watching him stare at the tv blankly, in a boredom induced daze.

he’s tuning out what you’re saying, because well, it makes him feel somewhat inadequate. it’s so rare for him to feel this way. he’s so self assured, maybe even a little egotistical sometimes. how can he not be? you yourself loaded up his little brain with compliments and ideas. saying how he’s the man of your fucking dreams, or the way your body contorted in different ways, becoming helpless when he did so little as touching you. hell yeah, you made him feel so damn special.

with his brows furrowed at the screen, he sees your odd stare from the corner of his eye. why do anything to reassure you of what you were thinking in that moment? he knows you, he can practically read your mind. before diverting your attention back to the screen a scoff leaves your mouth. call him petty or whatever you want, he just wants to get through watching this god forsaken movie for the millionth time without his brain frying.

sunghoon is so ridged. his arms are crossed, and he’s like, all stiff. whatever, you can deal with it. although it’s frustrating that he’s so oblivious.

you find yourself scooting closer, leaning and commenting on the movie. with each sentence you say, you can feel his dreary attitude loom over. it’s given, you’ve forced him to death watch your silly little movies to the point where he himself can recite each word.

“he’s like, —i don’t know. like can you imagine? getting puncture wounds, and hickeys at the same—“

that’s where sunghoon draws the line.

“can you shut up?”

dang. he was livid. you have right to your own thoughts but to think like that? when he’s right there? when he can well rip off your panties and fuck you the way this guy can’t because it’s all speculative? all you had to do was let him, just ask and he’ll deliver. you know it.

but then again, you boyfriend is as dense as concrete and dumb as bricks sometimes. guess you’d have to give him a nudge, a hint too probably.

“i mean, can you imagine what’s it like to be a vampire?”

you’ve practically told him what you wanted, and he still has that red cloudy look of jealousy with somewhat of a frown on his face and his overgrown bangs shading his eyes. if he wasn’t upset, you’d tell him how cute he looks right now. how dumb he is, is also what you’d tell him. then again you weren’t exactly being straightforward.

with your question slipping in one ear and out the other, he just tunes you out. yeah it’s pathetic he feels so strongly about something so meaningless, could he help it though? he was insane about you.

your eyes darken as you grab the remote, and thank goodness you turned it off. sunghoon finds you sliding on of your legs over his thighs as you take a seat. you gaze into his eyes, he looks annoyed. he’s suppressing the urge to just fuck the stupid crush you had on that twilight vampire out of you. it makes you laugh at how blind he is. nevermind, you probably had to spell it out for him.

“you can do that. you can bite me here, and here-“

you drag your two fingers indicating where he could, and his breath hitches. it’s like all his senses are tingly, and piercing. his ears are ringing, with the rush of adrenaline and the newfound excitement he had. just hearing you describe what you wanted him to do.

you saw his jaw hang slack, as you merely told him what you wanted. tracing your fingers down your abdomen and to your thighs, you tap on the fleshy inner part.

“you can bite here too.”

his hands grab your hips, he gets it now. he slides a hand up your shirt holding your chest. your mind drives him crazy. his touch sends shivers down your spine.

“here too?” he asks asks, so politely.

it makes you heat up, and become more wet than your imagination allowed. when you thought of him like the cold blooded undead he resembled so much, it made you infatuated with the idea of it. the idea of him. how could he not see it? when you drew comparisons that surely pointed towards his own features that you loved so much.

his pretty skin glows in the dim light of your living room unlike of that portrayed in the movie. he’s real, and right here.

“didn’t you ever think, perhaps..” you say it so sweetly as you feel his hand roam around your body.

before you can finish your sentence, your breath is cut short. your back is now against the cushions of the couch, and his arms trap you beneath him. sunghoon wonders how he got so lucky, to have someone like you to show him all the ways he can make you wet. your so sick and twisted, not for your little fantasy you wanted him to indulge in, but the fact you didn’t just tell him straight up. he ought to punish you.

he’ll let it slide though. partially because he feels his cock twitch restrained by his pants, and because he’s so willing to do what you ask of him. he knows this is the just the beginning, and honestly he’ll have fun woh it. so with his lips ghosting your neck, and his hot breath up against your ear he asks you a question.

“tell me what else you want me to do as your vampire. sweetheart”

#enhypen #enhypen hard thoughts #enhypen smut #boost #enha #sunghoon #sunghoon hard thoughts #sunghoon x reader #sunghoon vampire #roleplay #vampire k!nk #biting k!nk #redacted

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bomberqueen17 · 28 days

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ugh

I can't sleep and I'm just sort of stewing over how unprepared I am to be entirely on my own managing my own healthcare. blech.

Did I mention, Farmsister was suffering from hip pain and went to her doctor and was diagnosed with the exact same problem I have?

Diagnosed, I said. Yes! Her doctor actually investigated the cause of her pain, diagnosed her, referred her to a physical therapist, but also came up with a plan of treatment. Told her physical therapy often can't resolve this issue, so after a set amount of PT, if there wasn't enough improvement she'd refer her to an orthopedist instead.

Imagine that. My doctor was like "you've got intermittently debilitating pain? You should go see a doctor about that." and that was that. I went to a physical therapist because that's what she recommended, but I don't have a plan, I'm just spending $150/wk to work out in a room full of other people. I guess I'll ask my PT if there's a plan or like timeline or like, idk, something we should look for, or what. IDK what a realistic goal is. Pain-free seems out of reach. I'd settle for largely functional, I guess? But I don't know, and I guess I'm on my own to figure it out.

And the same with the ADHD! She was like "oh, your insurance isn't going to cover it and it's probably going to take months of waiting, but you had better go see someone about that", and refused to engage any further. So I messaged the psychiatrist today and he doesn't check the messages on that platform so I texted the admin who was like oh usually medication is adjusted at follow-ups, and I'm like well in the three minutes he talked to me it didn't come up I guess, so then they texted back that he says to try taking two pills a day for a couple days and then schedule a follow-up.

I've asked around, and usually I guess the regular adderall pills, you take in two doses at separate times. But if the point is that I'm trying to see if a higher dose helps, I'd probably better take them at the same time??

It's just that when the small ineffective dose wears off four or five hours after I take it, without my ever having had a good phase, I get horribly drowsy and also get this kind of gross formless yearning that I think might be a dopamine crash, where I roam the house in itchy horrible discontent trying to think of something that might help me, but it's not candy and it's not reading a book and it's not napping, and I guess I understand why people turn to drugs or self-harm because the feeling is awful, spacy and wrung-out and aimlessly needy.

But I guess it's up to me to research what that is and what to do about it, and then at my $250 three-minute follow-up appointment in three days or whatever I'll tell the psych what I want prescribed to me, because it's sure as shit not like he's going to have any fucking advice for me.

And like. Laugh out loud at the notion that my primary care physician would give a single shit about this. Maybe I didn't mention this on here either but literally the only thing she has looked into about me is that my blood tests came back with a fasting blood glucose level of 5.7 (idk what units, just that she's fixated on that number) and it is exactly entirely that post circulating about """"pre-diabetes"""? She has put in my chart that she wants to start me on Metformin!! Christ all fucking mighty, it could not be more obvious that she took one look at my fat ass and was like "this bitch eats only candy! I'd better scare her straight!"

Ma'am fuck off. She wants me to get my blood retested in July and I am figuring I'll take advantage of having to have a visit then anyway to get the ADHD stuff entered into my main chart, and I'm also going to tell her that since she was so disinterested in literally any of the conditions actually debilitating me (my hip pain and my ADHD) I had to research those so I could treat myself, and in the course of researching that I found out about the fake "epidemic" of "pre-diabetes" which isn't a thing, it's a fucking PR gambit to sell drugs, and so if she prescribes me diabetes drugs when I do not fucking have diabetes I will not be taking them, and I will also be looking for a new doctor, because I do not appreciate her fixation on treating a condition I do not have while ignoring things that are literally preventing me from leading the life I want to, wherein I can do things like, stand/walk as much as I like and can also like, perform tasks.

So there's my timeline.

(Yeah my insurance won't cover blood testing a second time in a year so that's gonna cost me $200ish, and the phone doctor visit she insisted on to discuss the results last time was $45 and it'll be that again for this one, but I mean, eventually I'll hit my deductible maybe.)

I don't know, people tell me that they have medical professionals that actually listen to and treat them and give them like actual good actionable advice on how to improve their various health conditions but as far as I can tell that all sounds fake and isn't a thing.

Unfortunately, I am too fucking debilitated by my Can't Think Good disease to do a competent job at caring for myself, so I guess I'm just going to have to fucking muddle through somehow, or something.

Probably I should put together my citations on how Pre-Diabetes Is Fake so that when I unload that on my doctor I can do so with fucking footnotes at least. Lord knows I can't sleep at the moment so I might as well do something productive.

#about the author #whining #adhd

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babiebom · 9 months

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What Kind of ~dere the bachelorette's would be

A/N:it's the girl's turn<3333 it took me 5ever to finish this for some reason. I'm only writing it now because i'm watching doctor who and need 2 different kinds of stimulation and i have no snacks tbh(doctor who started buffering so now im watching the little mermaid Im not trying to give play by play of me writing this but Im so hyped rn and its 2 in the morning)

TW: maybe some spoilers, maybe some cursing, idk yet nothing that bad! There is some brief mention of childhood trauma and abuse on Penny's part but nothing graphic.

Genre: Headcanons

WC: about 10 bullet points per person

Abigail

Hiyakasudere

Penny

Described as light-hearted and flirtatious, often mischievous and playful on the outside and constantly teases their loved one as a sign of affection.

Would playfully bully you to try and make her crush on you not obvious

Makes it painfully obvious to everyone but you

"This sunset is cool but you know whats cooler?" "What?" "My sword collection"

Probably smacks you when laughing

Smacks you when you do something funny

Laughs extra loud

"Lmao I'll fight you idiot"

You two probably get in trouble to playing around in serious situations

Invites you to the mines with her

Or to the woods past the wizards tower

You two probably get into trouble together and think its funny that you were attacked by slimes

Does make fun of you even when you get together

"Ew you have a crush on me that's so embarrassing"

Undere

described as a "yes-man" to their loved one no matter what the consequences are their devotion doesn't allow them to betray their loved one easily and is an extension of the Goudere characterization.

Leah

A Kekkondere

Which is described as some who believes in love at first sight and wants to get married right away. They have a deep desire to remain close to the person they meet for better or worse and this can sometimes evolve into them becoming a yandere type

So I could not choose which she fit more so I will try to fit everything within 20

I feel like due to her being a more submissive type in my mind that she would 100 percent be a yes man

Especially with a woman like Pam as her mother.

She has probably learned that disagreeing with her led to consequences that she does not enjoy.

So due to her childhood trauma she is more likely to just agree with whatever you say

And even if you try and get her to actually say her own opinion I don't think she fully grows out of it but it develops into a more shes a yes man because she feels safe.

Does not matter what will happen to her you are her main priority now so it is whatever you say goes because this is her fairy tale ending

On the other hand I think she is on par with us fanfic girlies on how delusional she is

Spends time constantly reading romance novels and imagining herself as the female love interest or heroine

So when she meets you and is immediately attracted to you

It turns into oh yeah this is love at first sight

This is meant to be because look at how i feel

This is like in the books I read

And she wants to get married very quickly

Brings it up maybe once at the beginning of your relationship

If you dont agree she doesnt say anything again

Just tries to manipulate you into marrying her quickly by doing wifey things

She will put it on you and make you wanna marry her

Will have you forever and ever just don't try to leave because she will enter yandere territory

Deredere(explained on Emily's part because I did hers first)

Honesty I thought none of these fit her thoroughly

Shes too....normal I guess?

At least to fit these categories

She's literally just an artsy girl i don't know

Like shes a creative but not delusional like Elliott so yandere is out of the question

Especially because her last relationship moved at a pace she disliked and was going to restrict her and what she wanted to do

So obviously shes not going to be the type of partner to hold you back in any aspect

But shes not going to let you run over her

Shes just a stable adult

Love that for her tbh

Could never be me where can I learn to become a Leah?

Emily

Deredere

Described as someone who is energetic, kind, and caring and while they show their affection to their loved one they can still hold normal relationships with others.

The sanest one here

Would not let herself get swept up in romance to the point of where its her whole life

There are other things she has to worry about

Like her sister, the wellbeing of all of her friends, being the chilliest woman on the planet

Emily tingz

Is the least likely to do something deranged because she knows that your relationship is stable and she doesn't need to do anything special

Because you love her for her and she loves you for you

Like yeah shes a weird(affectionate) person in general

But I also think she's the oldest out of the bachelorettes(hcs maybe?)

So she does have a clear head most of the time.

Amd she has probably been around and knows that she doesn't have to be crazy because trust is a good thing and luckily she has trust in you

Was probably insane in her younger years and its why shes chill now

Tbh overall a green flag

Maru

Hajidere

Haley

Described as someone shy and nervous around their crush and can socialize with anyone who is not them. Usually blushes or gets flustered at them making the first move

Gives me vibes like she will become super clumsy in front of you

And 100 times more socially awkward

Will stutter and trip over her words

Or drop things

Is the definition if the shy anime girl tbh

"O-oh Farmer! D-did you s-see that?"

I cringed writing that pls

Like it isn't very apparent in the game she just gives me these vibes

Especially because she does sort of go on about her sciencey stuff but i think that's just her being a nerd

I feel like she would be fine before she has a crush

But the second she realizes her feelings it becomes a problem

Obviously you notice but I think you would be too nice to say anything

Unless you're an Abigail type then ofcourse you say something

Becomes dumber the longer you are in her space because you're so attractive and now she cannot breathe

Mayadere

described as someone who is usually the antagonist who switches sides after falling in love with the main character. Usually first appears hostile or intimidating but a change of heart allows them to reveal their true feelings later on

Mostly this because I think she's a butch

But then she becomes cute after getting to know the farmer

Honestly I did not really like her and wanted to fight her up until I actually started gaining hearts with her

So I feel like this fits totally because like

She was the antagonist of my story at least

And she became cute and lovable the second she started feeling feelings

Like with one of her heart events

You literally take pictures with animals

She gets mud in her hair and doesn't even complain like

How she got me on her side Idk

Would probably be the type of girl to be like

Oh farmers here? And then very loudly say things like

"Oh yeah i could TOTALLY grow a few crops no big deal AT ALL"

"Did they hear it? You think they want me to move in yet? Do you think they're in love with me yet? Of course they are i'm Haley duh."

Not quite tsundere because she wouldn't do the whole "its not like I like you" thing

She would make it clear that she likes you but that she's the prize and not you

Sometimes is still hostile before she remembers she can let down her walls.

Its a journey to get her to say what shes actually thinking about certain things but you get there!

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solo-by-choice · 3 months

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alright, so would my fave survive castle Dracula? For the sake of @canyourfavesurvivecastledracula I'm doing Josh Lyman from The West Wing myself. Although I've only seen the show once and am not super... sure of my ability to remember enough minutiae to do this but I'm trying anywayyy

uh, no. He'd die. lol.

He wouldn't take the crucifix. He's not a superstitious person for the most part so I think he'd just find everyone freaking out about him going to the castle to be ridiculous. He's also Jewish. If he did take the crucifix, it would be to get the lady to stop bothering him and then he certainly wouldn't wear it.

He is technically a lawyer. I guess. He doesn't practice law, though, and I don't think he ever has. I suppose he could, but you know what let's not get into this because then I'll start questioning what an American from the late 90s/early naughts is doing in this story... (If Josh were from 1897 I suppose he'd be from Europe in the first place, but not England, and I'm having trouble imagining Dracula going to all this trouble to move to idk Poland or whatever.)

anyway

So maybe Josh doesn't make it past the shaving scene.

If he does, I think he might be able to keep alive for a while. He's good at talking; he could keep Dracula entertained as a conversation partner. The biggest issue might be his documented inability to be civil with people he doesn't like. He might be better at faking it with someone who has a (metaphorical) gun to his head, but we have no data on that kind of situation.

I doubt he'd put up with Dracula's weird touchy-feely habits. I'm not sure what he'd do about it, but I just don't think he'd be as fun to toy with as poor Jonathan because he wouldn't have Victorian manners preventing him from calling Dracula's behavior out. Which of course means Dracula won't put up with him as long.

If anyone's expecting him home on time, it's Donna. And presumably his boss is either Leo or Bartlett. (Sorry I'm thinking too much about transposing the cast of west wing into Dracula rather than assuming everything is the same in Josh's life which I think is how you're supposed to do this. So whyy is the deputy white house chief of staff bringing real estate paperwork to a count in Romania? oh nvm) Unfortunately I'm betting none of these people know shorthand, so Josh can't try and send them secret messages.

I do think Donna would recognize any letter that wasn't written in Josh's voice, but what good would that do them?

Does Josh get eaten by the Girlies? I guess the real question is whether Dracula saves him. I don't think Dracula would find Josh as fun a plaything as he did Jonathan. By this point Josh has probably started loudly demanding to be allowed to leave, is climbing the walls in boredom in every way but literally and has read every English book Dracula owns and taught himself basic Romanian. Josh's no genius, but he's smart and has the energy level of a working dog. He needs enrichment! Anyway Dracula probably thinks he's really annoying and maybe he lets his roommates bite him.

Unfortunately for him, Vampire!Josh is also annoying. But if they could get past that, Josh could do a great job running Dracula's take-over of his new country. Wants to be the guy the guy relies on, after all. America won't know what's hit it.

#tww #dracula #goofyness #i tried my best!#i think josh would be fun as a vampire and not just bc of my gay crush on him #getting this finished before you disappear for lent!

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rjalker · 1 year

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well, for writers out there who want to have disabled characters:

things that are painful to do with a partially (or fully) dislocated rib, which people with certain kinds of hypermobility will probably already be aware of:

Breathing deeply. you will not be able to. the messed up rib will forcibly catch your breath and hurt.

Walking. whatever side it is will hurt every few steps if you move too far.

Bending over? Nope. You can't breathe if you do this.

Passively it feels like being very forcibly jabbed in the back with a blunt object. Like imagine someone is walking behind you forcibly stabbing you in the back with a blunted plastic point or something. Like a halloween toy. A consistant pressure/pain that gets more intense if you move the wrong way..

Breathing at all? Well you will have to keep stopping because again, it will forcibly catch your breath and hurt.

Sitting??? if you move the wrong way it'll hurt and you can't breathe.

Lying down???? maybe if you find the right position it'll be fine but if you move it'll hurt.

????

how do you fix this??

well maybe if you have a character who's doctor who's an expert at this they could put it back into place or something but I doubt it. mostly you just have to get lucky and move the right way and it'll go back.

If your character has hypermobility, they can dislocate a rib by something as simple as:

sweeping the floor

reaching to grab something off a shelf

picking up a stack of books

picking up a jack o lantern that's not even that fucking heavy

holding an umbrella

changing shirts

sleeping

dreaming about cute baby dragons and reaching to pick them up in the dream and apparently this made you move IRL so now your rib is fucked up!!! have fun with that!!!

what can you do about this? try not to move in ways that hurt. Take pain medicine I guess, but I don't think that's exactly a good idea because not feeling the pain won't mean it's no longer dislocated so you could probably hurt yourself worse if you kept moving a certain way. IDK. I don't have health insurance.

#hypermobility #dislocated rib #Rjalker has fucking EDS #writing injuries #writing disability #writing hypermobility #writing tips #writing advice #disabled characters #ehlers danlos syndrome #or whatever the fuck it is #hypermobility spectrum disorder

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joekeeryswife · 2 years

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Just a best friend - E.M

i’m having a bad day so enjoy some angst 😍. idk if i’m gonna do a part two but i probably will because this was one of the most awful imagines i’ve ever made and it has a lot of mistakes but enjoy i guess <3

Eddie Munson was your best friend. he’d been your best friend since you were 7 years old, he was 9 and nothing had ever separated the two of you. not when he became the freak, not when you got into high school and people called him a devil worshipper, none of it bothered you because you knew the real Eddie. now, you were quite popular in the school and you’d always wondered why, maybe it was because you were a cheerleader who was actually nice to people but you hung out with Eddie sometimes but people still treated you nicely.

you had developed a crush on Eddie when you were 14 and the feelings had only progressed from the moment you realised. the only people who knew were Chrissy, your cheerleading friend and Robin. Robin had also been your friend for a while (since you were both 13) and she had kept the secret from Eddie the minute she found out, you also worked with Robin at family video which was always a bonus. both Robin and Chrissy encouraged you to tell Eddie your feelings but you never did. you didn’t want to ruin what you already had with him and you knew telling him your feelings would ruin that.

it was a Friday afternoon and you were at your locker collecting your English book, which was thankfully the last lesson of the day, with Robin by your side pestering you about Eddie. “c’mon y/n, you have to tell him some day, it’ll just make you feel worse keeping them in for any longer” she said in a pleading tone. she begged you practically every day to tell Eddie your feelings for him because she would say she was ‘99.9% sure he also felt the same way’. “Rob come on now, you know i can’t do that” you replied, closing your locker after getting the book.

“look i’ll make you a deal. i’ll tell Vickie how i feel once you’ve told Eddie how you feel. i know you want me to get it out as well so i’m willing to risk everything for you to tell him and you definitely shouldn’t be scared because i know he likes you back dingus” she said, as you both walked to English. it was true, Vickie and Robin were so cute together and you wanted them to be together so badly. you sighed loudly and stopped walking to look at her. “god- fine i will. i’m going to his tonight so i’ll tell him then but you better do it Robin. i’m not joking” you said nervously as you heard a loud squeal come from her.

she wrapped her arms around you and jumped around in excitement. “thank you thank you. now dingus i know you’re scared but please don’t be. i’m 99.9% sure he feels the same way” she said those words again. “yeah yeah whatever” you said jokingly as you both walked down the hallway which was still filled with students. you both spoke about how you were working tomorrow and how she was definitely going to find out about how it went tomorrow.

after English was done and school was finished for the weekend. you walked to the car park and saw Eddie waiting at his van, cigarette in his mouth as he waited for you to come out. every Friday without fail you and Eddie would either go to your house or his trailer for a movie night and tonight was definitely the perfect time to tell him your feelings. Eddie’s posture changed once he saw you walking towards him. “hi love, how was English?” he said, pulling you into a tight hug. “hi Eds, it was okay, Mrs Lane just has such a monotone voice i always almost fall asleep. she needs to liven up a bit” you joked making Eddie laugh out loud.

“she does have a boring voice. but come on, i have the exorcist at home” he said, pulling away from the hug and opening the door for you to get in. you said a small ‘thank you’ before he closed the van door carefully. you and Eddie talked about school as he drove to the trailer park, your nerves building up as you got closer and closer to his trailer until finally you stopped outside. “ahh home sweet home” he said as you both got out the van and walked towards the trailer. it was October time and it was starting to get darker earlier. it was already getting dark when you were leaving school, now it was practically pitch black, making you even more nervous to watch this terrifying horror film.

Eddie walked in first and headed straight for the kitchen to grab any snacks he had and you walked to the living room. you were thinking of the perfect time to spill your secret but no time came up. “make yourself at home princess. you want a blanket?” he asked as he watched you sit down on the sofa. “sure, i can get it-” you said before Eddie interrupted you. “nope, i’ll get it just put the tape in please?” he said, walking to his bedroom to get a blanket. you nodded your head and put the tape in the VHS player and waited for Eddie to come back.

he came and sat next to you, blanket and snacks in hand which he chucked all over you. “god Eds be careful” you joked as he pulled you into his arms making you tense slightly. you prayed Eddie wouldn’t notice and you assumed he didn’t because he didn’t say anything, he just kept his arm around your shoulders as he watched the tv screen.

you eyes were on the screen but your mind wasn’t watching the movie, it was focusing on the arm around your shoulders and how you were gonna tell Eddie how you felt. Eddie must have realised you were in your thoughts because he pulled you out of them by speaking to you.

“you okay princess? you’re acting strange” he said, his hand stroking your arm gently sending shivers through your body. you coughed before turning to him. this was it. this was finally the time you were going to tell the boy you’ve loved for so many years your feelings. “i just- i have to tell you something Eds” you said, sitting up from the sofa and grabbing his hands, your palms were sweaty and your nerves were building up more and more.

“what’s up? you’re scaring me” Eddie said as he paused the tape, turning his full attention to you. you took a deep breath before looking directly into his eyes. “im

in love with you Eddie.” you said, relief filling your body as you finally let your feelings be out in the open. “i- what?” Eddie said, eyes wide in shock as he heard you say this. “i love you. this isn’t a joke and i’ve been feeling like this for a while. i’ve been wanting to tell you for ages but i just didn’t know how” you replied, eyes still looking into his. although there was relief in your body, there was still the lingering nerves as you awaited his response.

“y/n sweetheart, you know i love you” he said, his hand squeezing yours tightly. excitement filled your body as he finished that sentence but you didn’t let it be known to him you were excited. “but i’m not in love with you like that. you’re my best friend and i’m so sorry that you feel that way bur i don’t feel the same way you do sweetheart” he carried on, the excitement from your body leaving immediately. embarrassment and shame now filled you. how could you be so stupid? of course he didn’t love you like that. “oh” you whispered as you let your head fall to look at your lap, tears filling your eyes, blurring your vision.

you let go of his hand and stood up, hoping he couldn’t see the tears now spilling from your eyes. “i- i need to go, my mums probably worried” you said, voice cracking slightly as you gathered your things quickly, wanting to leave the trailer right then and there. Eddie followed you around as you slipped on your shoes and walked out the trailer door as fast as you could. “no wait. y/n, sweetheart you have to understand-” “no i get it, i’ll see you around Eddie” you said, slipping your bag over your shoulder as you walked up the pathway.

“at least let me drive you home y/n. you can’t walk home in the dark, i’d hate myself if something happened to you” he shouted after you, guilt filling his body. “i’m good thanks” you shouted back, he knew you were crying, he could hear the tears in your voice as your figure got smaller and smaller as you walked further away from him. you kept your sobs quiet as you walked home but you didn’t stop the tears falling. you had never been so embarrassed in all your life and he was the last person you’d thought you’d be embarrassed in front of. it was safe to say you definitely not going back to his for movie night any time soon.

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bizantineempire · 9 months

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So I have some thoughts on RWRB

If you divorce it from it's adaptation, it's a perfectly servicable film.

IDK how to say it but it was too polished? I guess? (Maybe that's book nerd for it doesn't look like how I imagined it IDK) it feels like an adaptation of a short film that got a bigger budget but it lost some of the heart of the original you know?

I should have expected it but it was a lot simpler than the book. other people have mentioned the things, June, Nora, Pez, Leo etc.

I did enjoy the way they did the texting at the beginning and I wished they carried that through with the emails later (although maybe they did and I wasn't paying enough attention?)

In this day and age of streaming there is no excuse for book adaptations to be simplified movies. Here's my reasoning: streaming platforms don't need to have time slots, so they can literally release a 3 episode miniseries or a 2 episode miniseries, or 2 movie length mini series or whatever. Black mirror does a bit of this where the different eps are different lengths and honestly, there should be more of it.

I liked some of the references to the book like the powerpoint presentation reference but it just made me want to see that.

I missed seeing Alexs drive and enthusiasm for politics. Look, I'm Australian, I couldn't give a rat's bum about american politics, but reading Alex give a shit about it was interesting and to see him kinda do a politics thing but also not really made me miss Book!Alex more.

I feel like the King being all "this could be fake" would have been a lot better if ALEX HADN'T JUST RELEASED A STATEMENT SAYING THEY WERE IN LOVE!

Stephen (Steven? Stephen.) Fry saying Homoseksual

Stephen Fry BEING a homophobe was funny A+ casting

The lake scene being in the day was weird. So Henry just turns away and is silent. And then he swims away and what, doesn't say a word to Alex for the rest of the evening? Does Alex ask him what's wrong? Why don't they talk about it? it makes more sense being in the middle of the night because he cracks a joke, changes the subject and goes to sleep. Alex is a little offput but he figures he can talk about it later if it's still a thing and then Henry's gone. Makes so much more sense.

Also (this also happens in the books) So Henry's "The Spare" but what about Bea? I'm p sure she's older than Henry, but younger than Philip. Doesn't that make HER the spare? He's just overkill at that point.

If they were going to cut out a sister imho they should have cut out Bea since they did her dirty anyway. Like if she's not going to have character anyway. June would be far more utilised.

One of the things I love about the book is that by the end Alex has a great friend group. I missed that in the movie.

Zahra was perfect.

I miss chaotic brains Nora

I have very few thoughts on the actual romance part. It was fine.

TF is Miguel

As a bisexual myself, I missed the bi panic.

Also Liam. He was great.

This has nothing to do with the movie but my cat is kneading right next to me.

Why was it rated R? It was sanitised the hell????

If you like the movie, if you love it that's great. I'm glad for you. For me I might have to sit and think about it for a bit before I rewatch it.

#red white and royal blue #rwrb #rwrb film #red white and royal blue film #spoilers #agcd #alex claremont diaz #firstprince

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oh my goddd your dwd fic was < a m a z i n g 3 🤩🤩🤩🤩

Idk if youre taking reqs rn but if you are, how about a one-shot/hc/imagine ( whatever you feel like ) with reader being harassed by the pap? Like they invade her privacy and take some indecent photos of her? I feel like harry would go ballistic on them 🥵

Tysm for putting your works out for us to read!!!💖

I love this request, sorry it took soo long. I hope it is okay for you, (sorry if the ending is a bit shitty) there’s a bit of implied smut, fluff and a tad of angst, but lmk what you think. Thankyou soo much for reading and supporting me, it means the world!! If anyone else has any requests please send them in, I would love to see them!! 💗

‘Baby, m’just gonna go for a run okay’ Harry whispers to you, you eyes were still half closed and you still felt as though you were on top of the clouds after the way Harry had just taken you.

‘How do you still have energy after fucking me like that’ you groan remembering the feeling all to well, Harry can’t help but smirk at how you literally had no filter around him.

‘What can I say darling, I’m a man of many talents’ his ego increasing ever so slightly.

You shake your head at him, trying to contain your laughs.

‘Why are you shaking you head, you know you can’t deny it, not by the way you were screaming my name earlier.

You look away from him bashfully, your cheeks going slightly red ‘Guess you’ll have to prove your many talents to me when you get back from your run’

‘It’s a deal baby’ he slips his shirt over his body and you miss the sight of his bare torso already.

‘Gimme a kiss’ you lay there pouting ready for Harry inevitable arrival. It’s a mere threes seconds before his lips are on your one and you can’t help but sleepily smile into it.

Harry pulls away after a minute of so ‘gotta stop cause if I carry on I will not be able to leave that door’

‘Maybe that was my plan’ you smile sadistically at your boyfriend.

‘You are such a little minx you know that’ he smiles, fighting the urge to jump back into bed with you.

‘I know, and that’s why you fell in love with me’

‘Dam right baby, now I need to go because the sooner I do the quicker I get back’ he edges towards the door to the bedroom.

Okay, I love you, don’t miss me too much’

‘Don’t worry I will, love you my darling’ he says and with that he is out the door, and you shut your eyes wanting to contain this dreamy feeling inside of you.

Yourself and Harry were currently in Italy after landing there yesterday, from the airport you travelled down to the Amalfi coast, a favourited and regular destination for the two of you.

You just loved the fact that you were right near the ocean and could practically go to the beach whenever you wanted and it didn’t help that Harry always booked the most amazing villas, you felt like you didn’t ever want to leave.

You lay with your eyes shut and bask in the Italian sun seeping into the villa bedroom for around a quarter of an hour before you decide that it was time to get up and shower because you felt a little sweaty from the heat and we’re still recovering from your and Harry’s shenanigans even though you did it over 40 minutes ago.

As you walk to the bathroom the door to the balcony caught your eye and you can’t help but open both of the doors to reveal the gleaming ocean, the balcony itself being made of glass so it didn’t obscure the beautiful image of the Amalfi coast whatsoever, you stand then for a few minutes before rushing to the bathroom because you had seemingly forgotten the fat that you needed a wee.

From there you take a shower, brush your teeth and manipulate your hair so that it flowed down your back, looking ten times more presentable than you bed head before. You decide to slip on a pair of panties and a bra, that were both lacy and a light shade of blue and left little to the imagination, you felt sexy in them and you knew that Harry would love to see you in them, before inevitably ripping them off of your figure. You hadn’t brought any other clothes into the bathroom with you because you were soo indecisive when choosing what to were, sometimes Harry would even choose something out for you to make the process quicker.

Once you were back in the bedroom it seemed as though you were drawn back to the balcony, maybe it was the heat or the ocean breeze that drew you but before you knew it you were stood on the balcony, leant on the glass in just your lacy underwear. Not having a care in the world because why should you have, you hadn’t seen anyone near it and it was pretty secluded, or so you though.

Ten minutes was all it took for you day to turn upside down, you had actually made a decision of what to wears before you heard you phone pinging with a lot of notifications, you wished you hadn’t clicked on them because when you did you realise that pictures of you on the balcony in your seemingly innocent baby blue underwear were spreading like wildfire all through the internet. You were mortified, not only at the pictures but the fact that the people, more likely paps, could still be near the villa.

You didn’t know what to do, you didn’t dare go near the doors again even though you were now dressed, you just didn’t know how paps thought it was okay to just invade peoples privacy like that, and some of the comments you had seen from internet trolls saying how they basically wanted to fuck you made you feel disgusting on the inside. You can’t think of anything else to do so instantly go to you contacts to ring Harry but he beats you too it, and you are relieved to just see his picture light up your screen.

‘Harry-‘ you say but he interrupts you instantly.

‘I know baby, I am running as fast as I can, promise I am two minutes away’ and you can hear how out of breath he is.

‘I think they are still here, I don’t know what to do’ you try and hold back tears, also wondering if he’d seen the pictures or if Jeff had told him what was happening.

‘are you still in the bedroom’

‘Yeah’

‘You stay right there, okay baby, I can see the villa now, I promise I will be there in a minute’

‘I’m gonna stay on the phone’

‘That’s fine baby, know your scared’ he speaks breathless words of comfort to you but in the inside he is absolutely furious, not at you obviously, but at the fucking paps that were invading your privacy, he absolutely hated it, he wanted to get to you as quick as possible because he knew the lengths that some paps would go to get a picture to spread around in return for money. If that meant trying to break an entrance, more than they already had, they would do it.

You are sat on the bedroom floor still, not even speaking to Harry letting him concentrate on getting back, his breathing alone is bringing comfort to you.

‘Okay baby, I’m at the door so don’t panic it’s only me’ he hangs up the phone and seconds later you hear him unlocking the door and opening it.

‘Y/n’ he shouts loud enough to be head throughout the whole villa.

He doesn’t get a response, instead it’s your body crashing into his sweaty one ‘im here baby, I’m here’ he kisses your forehead.

‘Im so sorry, didn’t think anyone would be there, I’ve ruined our trip’

‘Will you shut up, you have done absolutely nothing wrong my darling, it’s those bastards out there that are the fucking problem, thinking it’s okay to invade out privacy’ he says trying to keep his anger at bay, you know that it wasn’t directed at you.

‘Are they still there?’ You sniffle into his shoulder.

‘I don’t know, didn’t see anyone, I just needed to see if you were okay first before anything.’

‘This is awful, cause those pictures are everywhere, people are saying stuff about me on the internet’

‘Hey, hey I promise that Jeff and the team are doing everything they can to minimise the spread, think they’ve banned some accounts already’

‘It’s not going to get rid of it though’

‘I know baby, I know it’s not that’s the horrible reality of the internet these days’

You pull your phone out again and open instagram, and now you see not only pictures of you but pictures of Harry entering the villa aswell, confirming your thoughts over the fact that the paps were in fact still upside your villa.

Harrys sees the pictures aswell and at that point he’s had enough with these paps, he just wants to enjoy his holiday with his girl. So he decided that he is going to confront them which was probably a bad idea but he really didn’t care anymore.

‘Im gonna go and tell them to piss off’ and before you can stop him he is opening the front door and the sight before him almost makes him laugh because a few of the paps had emerged from wherever they were hiding before and now they looked like deer in a headlight, Harry startes talking and you think some of the mean and women are Italian and can’t really understand anything Harry is saying but he didn’t need to switch languages for them to know how angry he was, his facial expression and the fury in his eyes were the tell tale sign that they should probably leave and never come back.

‘I want you to leave right now, or I will call the police, and if you thought that I wasn’t going to sue every single one of you, you were very wrong, trust me I will be able to find out your names and what company you work for.’ Harry says quite calmly.

From you position peeking through the ajar front door you can see someone trying to argue back with him and that’s when he slightly looses it ‘I don’t give a shit if it’s your job, the fact that you have found me on holiday and invaded mine and my girlfriends privacy is disgusting, and the fact that you took pictures of y/n and spread them on the internet just so that your wallet is a bit fatter, you should be ashamed of yourself. My girl should be able to stand on that fucking balcony naked without any of you fuckers trying to take pictures, that’s what a private villa is supposed to be’

Harry is seething by now, a few look quite startled at his outburst and that’s when they start dispersing out from where they have somehow managed to sneak in, probably scared of the consequences they could face and Harry stands there till every single one of them leaves.

‘H you okay?’ You walk up to him now knowing it was safe and all the paps were gone.

‘Im okay now, fucking hate it’

What baby?

‘Just that paps never leave us alone, sometimes feels like I’m trapped, I know it comes with the job but it’s still shit either way, i hate it even more when they involve you, you don’t deserve to be exploited like that, not fair’ Harry is close to tears now because he feels like a shit boyfriend from not being able to protect you from happening like this, but you know that they are out of his control.

‘Hey, it’s okay they’re gone, Jeff’s doing everything he can to get those pictures down I know he is, I think all we should do now is call the police just as a precaution to make sure there definitely is t anyone else on the property and then we can forget about it, yeah, enjoy our holiday’ the roles are reversed and now you are the one comforting him having calmed down a lot since the paps had gone.

‘Yeah, wanna enjoy are holiday, wanna enjoy you’ he says cheekily.

‘You know what, you look so hot when your angry’ you flirt trying to lighten up the mood, referring to the way his muscles were tensing and glistening under the sun.

‘Swear I’m obsessed with you’ he smiles down at you ‘and those baby blue panties and bra’ he grimaced at the joke he tried to make out of the situation worried it was a bit too soon, but you can’t help but laugh and you kiss him straight on the lips.

From that moment you and Harry make it your mission to forget about the whole incident, because you knew that most of his fans would be on your and his side and hopefully stop spreading the pictures of you and then that could be put to bed, you spend the rest of the day chilling, making out which then led to more frisky activities, and ending the day eating your favourite Italian cuisines and cuddling, and before you knew it the morning events was a mere dot in the distance.

You both loved being inside your little Italian love bubble and you knew that as long as you had each other, you would be absolutely fine.

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What do you think about jhope fs? And appearance ?

When I think of her I always get a talented woman vibe. I think she must dancer, sometimes I get "Backup K-Pop Dancer" vibes. She's really talented and naturally talented. She fights and works hard to get whatever she wants, a determined hardworker person. She doesn't seem to be THAT spiritual though, I feel that she's more interested in other things than in spirituality, such as music, dance, reading books, studying and researching anything she has her focus on and want to know more about it, etc.

She has a very strong energy, you can feel the energy and her presence really clearly. Her energy is very sweet and kind, she herself is very sweet and kind I guess🩷

She's very very stylish just like her man(Hobi), at the same time I think she likes to wear floral dresses, I think that she also likes to wear red, black or silver hot short dresses(Especially when she wants more attention), she naturally catch people's attention and eyes. I also think that she likes wearing those black necklaces sometimes, and other silver necklaces too.

These feel just like her idk🥺🖤

When I think of her I imagine her having a curvy body, I didn't really thought about thighs but I think it is a bit thick or muscular and toned. Waist is defined and I imagine her having good shoulders and attractive collarbones as well. I think she has very dark hair, probably black, not dark brown. Also it is straight and very shiny. For eyes I think she may have siren/cat/fox eyes, I sometimes imagine green, sometimes imagine brown, be it dark or light, I think that green eyes fits her more, when I imagine her, green eyes fits her more in my mind. I got a feeling she may have some specific and unique moles in her face(Probably cheeks?). I think she has medium to big lips, full and round lips, red lipstick really fits her. She's tall, above 1,67 I guess. Skin is white and very bright, clear and smooth, not pale white but she isn't tanned at all as well. Full eyebrows and very very long straight hair.

These are some pics I found that gives Hobi's fs vibes in my opinion 👇🏻

I haven't deeply think if she's a foreigner or not, my mind is like 50% chances of being korean and 50% chances of being american or european, may gotta do a reading on that later💖

I think she really likes coca-cola or sprite. Cup noodles also.

I think people usually see her as a mysterious woman, very attractive, independent, intimidating and strong(Mentally). I imagine her having a killing gaze/look or idk a serious look?, that may be one of the reasons why people feel intimidated by her.

When I think of her I can also imagine a dark blue color, also black color and yellow color too.

This one may be too personal but I think her name may start with the same letter as Hobi, J or H..I thought of Julie and Heather, I know these are not korean names though. Julie is such a pretty name btw.

She gives me Scorpio, Sagittarius and Aries vibes sometimes. Also Aquarius?

I think she's very perfectionist and detailed.

That's all I could think as of right now, and I just woke up now so my mind isn't working at all🥴 I really appreciate Hoseok's fs, she seems to be so kind and generous, and very talented too🫂

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thompsborn · 5 months

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no but like i literally decided when i was in 4th grade, when i was nine years old, that i want to be an author and despite thinking about doing music and acting and fucking meteorology and accounting and whatever other potential career paths i’ve considered ever since i was nine years old every single idea and thought has been met with “okay, but can i still write if i do that?” and i’m still figuring things out and i love my original writing even though it’s hard for me to finish it and i’m very insecure about it in a lot of ways but i have wanted to be an author for so long that i have spent days upon weeks upons months upon actual literal years just daydreaming about it

and a lot of the times it feels like ?? really hard to imagine?? the idea of me writing things and having people not only like what i write but actively interacting with it, asking questions and theorizing the way that i love to do with my favorite books

and then i fucking. i update homeward bound or tbaf after MONTHS of being inactive and there’s already almost 20 comments and i’ve gotten multiple asks talking about it? i just.

idk i know it’s just fanfiction not like published books like i hope to have one day but it just. it’s very cool and makes me emotional and also makes me feel like i actually can have those published books the way i want to? like it actually seems achievable, yk?

it’s almost midnight and i have to get up for work in about 5 hours but i’m feelin sappy so idk but just

thank you?? i guess??? for liking what i write and interacting with it and making me feel like the dream i’ve had of being a published author for the past 14 years isn’t out of the question

❤️💙❤️💙❤️💙❤️💙❤️💙

#spidey colors feel appropriate #me sappy #me also sleepy but dont want to miss comments on ch 16 #i want hot chocolate and the ability to write as a full time job

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hollyhomburg · 10 months

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LIII !!! THE NEW BILY CHAPTER WAS AMAZING OMGGGG AHHHH ALL THE HOBI CONTENT YOU ARE FEEDING US YESSSS !! The slow burn between hobi and mc is so good, I can’t wait until they actually get together together and say they love eachother to their faces hehehe

AND THE CLIFF HANGER??? OH MY GODD

AND TAEEEE MOMMY TAE CONTENT THAT WE ARE ALWAYS WANTING MORE OFF (the book gifts and tae reading to mc is the cutest thing ever! I love it!!) also! Cause I saw you saying that you weren’t sure about the titty scenes before I just wanna say that I honestly don’t think you gotta worry about it too much, after all the kinky stuff that is in BILY, I think it would be difficult for the audience to not be cool with it (at the very least) because like, it’s BILY bro, what else could you expect after all the previous scenes lol

Oh but the scene where hobo’s coworkers are trying to hit on mc and she turns on the ‘charm’ or whatever it was called was really interesting! I feel like it’s easy to forget that the mc would know how to do that stuff cause she’s so comfy with the pack so often now, but it’s sort of a bittersweet reminder of the stuff she had to learn to be able to do to like, survive I guess:(( It made me sad a little but also I was like, yeah girl you go play them cause you smart like that 💪💪💪 idk it was like cool the way you wrote it even though when you think about it :(( sad

Ahhh but towards the end tho! Where there was a line something like ‘jungkook didn’t even have a seizure this time’ in regards to namjoon’ rut!! I freaked a little and I have to mention it! Does that mean he’s had seizures during the alphas’ ruts before!? I can’t imagine how stressful that would be for the pack and poor jungkookie :(

I hope that whenever it happened, that he pack was able to take care of him and that whoever was in rut was gentle with him and able to give him space if he needed it or whatever. Cause you know, I doubt taking a knot after having a seizure would be very good AT ALL, if it was me, I’d reckon even having someone wanting me to take a knot afterwards would have me feeling shitty even if the pack was saying a clear cut no for me :( the way you write jungkook with his seizures is really comforting to me as someone with a chronic condition myself, because he’s such a strong bby despite it all ♥️

Anyway yikes this is getting really long haha, so I’ll draw it to a close! But I loved the chapter! It’s so fun seeing all the drama and plot pick up! And honestly, I’m starting to get a bit nervous thinking about what you have in store for us! Very exciting! Hope you aren’t feeling too stressed out with anything and are having fun, despite all the stuff that’s been going on recently that you’ve put on here, and anything you might’ve not put on here ♥️ thank you again for a wonderful chapter li! Have a good day ☺️☺️

Ahhhh thank you for appreciating the slow burn ;-; honestly when I look at the wordcount of bily I have to wonder if there is a slower burn in the fandom like, we’re nearly 700k into it and they haven’t even confessed yet! It’s probably a little too slow tbh

Ahhhh I think I got a little bit in my head about the mommy Tae sections, it just felt maybe a little too niche??? If it pleases the people who still read bily after all this time then I’m glad that I put it in <3 I also gotta remember as you said that the kink list in bily is EXTENSIVE as hell, the tummy bulge stuff was probably more extreme then this.

Yeah if we’re being honest, I think the m/c has forgotten a bit too it’s a bit sad at times, but I think she’s really gotten so comfortable that she doesn’t need to use many of her old coping mechanisms or protective mechanisms anymore- this was probably one of them like you said.

Oh yeah Jk has definitely had seizures during their ruts before, especially at the beginning. Some of Jungkook’s seizures are milder than others. It is very stressful, and I think it probably even knocked Namjoon fully out of rut the first time it happened, it would have been a large part of their conversation in the beginning of their relationships.

For a while Jungkook would take sort of an ‘emergency’ seizure medication to make seizures less likely- he did this especially during the time Yoongi was away- but Namjoon and Jungkook’s doctors decided the side effects (Jungkook’s own cycle being delayed, nausea, dizziness) outweighed the benefits. You’re right in assuming that if jk has a seizure during a rut, he’s basically out of knotting duty for at least a day after- until his usual hornyness wins out and jk makes the choice to re-join. The pack leave it up to him because it is one of his boundaries that they don’t decide when he can start doing normal things after a seizure, as long as he’s not hurting himself.

All of the alphas know that Jungkook stands a risk of seizing during a rut. Luckily, it’s not an often occurrence and he hasn’t had one of the seizures where he needs to go to the hospital after in a long long time (typically any seizure lasting longer than 5 minutes means he needs to go to the hospital or if he has more than two in a single day. Around 80-90% of Jungkook’s seizures are 1-2 minutes long.

Ahhhh thank you for the well wishes and for leaving such a dedicated ask! These are always so much fun to answer even if they take me a second longer to get too! I hope that you take care of yourself too!

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hrh-prince-butt · 10 months

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hiii!! literally just scrolled through your acc, and u said that u didn’t have much hope for the adaption. just wondering, since the trailer is out, what is your opinion now?? i’m very extremely gassed but i also read the book in a day after i saw the trailer and bc ao3 went down, so i guess i’m kinda biased bc i was already imagining the actors whilst i was reading. anyway curious to know what you think!!

well first of all, don’t let anyone else’s scepticism or criticism tamper your joy and excitement!

for me, i’m holding out judgement until i’ve watched it. after watching the trailer, i do think it looks like it could be fun! but i’m also a little unsure about certain aspects (seems like they’re changing several things that were pretty important to me in the book or just things from the book that i liked)

there’s also certain things about the casting that i don’t really get. i remember cmq mentioning long ago in an interview that they wanted to cast more unknown actors for the movie, and i wouldn’t really call these actors unknown? would’ve been a cool opportunity to uplift newer/smaller actors, which i had thought was casey’s intent, but maybe they didn’t have that much influence on casting or maybe they just ended up going a different direction with casting for whatever reason. idk, i’m not claiming to know better than casey or all the people working on this movie, but this has been bugging me a little. there’s also the fact that (one of?) the only jewish character(s) in the book isn’t played by a jewish actress as far as i know. that choice doesn’t really sit right with me.

but i don’t know, i don’t want to be too negative, especially not when it isn’t even out yet. it does seem like many of the people working on the movie are really passionate about it, and that’s a good start.

so yeah, we’ll see! i do hope it lives up to the expectations of everyone who is excited for it.

#hope that made sense!#tbh i’m usually sceptical of adaptations and often i am that annoying ‘the book was better’ person 😬#but i do plan to give it a chance!

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TW: suicide

this is just sn idea you dont have to write this but what do you think it would be like if reader found out simon tried to kill himself? in your hc’s you put that there would be a lot of crying, do you think simon would feel guilty? or would reader feel really really bad?

I feel, of course, reader would be devastaed that he would even think of doing that, I mean of course you are when you find out your partner wanted to kill themselves! If he did like in the book (which I'm basing this off of since show Simon didn't wanna kill himself) but failed, and ended up semi-okay at the hospital, I actually have like, a scene I used to play quite a bit in my head back when I first found out. So I guess hese are headcanons? More just how I imagine it going Based on the book All kept gender-neutral

I headcanon Simon, atleast book Simon, with glasses. Dunno why, I just do. And let's just say that on that day he wore contacts for convenience.

You, for the days he doesnt wear them, always keep his glasses with you, so if he needs them he can switch into them.

So you'll immediately freak when you find out what happened, rush to the hospital and all that stuff, yada yada you know the drill.

Idk if they do it but I just imagine that they took out his contacts (for whatever reason, I'm doing it for plot convenience) and he can barely even tell who's in his room.

At first he'll feel angry because now he'll have to explain everything and he's just really angry about all of this.

Then, however, you put his glasses on him, and he sees you. Face wet with tears, still crying, eyes red and puffy.

And then it hits him

All this time, all this planning and going through with it, he completely forgot about YOU. About the fact that he's not alone anymore. That he has someone who cares about him so so much.

He 100% doesn't want to tell you that it was planned. He doesn't want you to be devastated and sad, maybe even angry at him. He just doesn't wanna risk it.

Eventually though, after a while, you probably find his manifesto that he wrote, revealing it all. That's hen shit hits the fan. You'll subtlely ´let him know, and he just freezes in fear.

Then you start crying and asking "How could I have helped?", "Was I not good enough?", "What can I do to help you?" and how if you lost him you would be lost yourself and you wouldn't know how to go on because he's so important to you , and then he starts crying because

1. he's relieved you're not angry

and 2. he just feels so fucking angry at himself for making you so sad

There are so many literal hours of cudling and apologizing and TALKING that follow, you barely leave eachother's side. You just need eachother.

#oouil #oouil tv show #one of us is lying #simon kelleher #headcanon

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deathmycotime · 5 months

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a sort of idea I've been having recently !!!!

I'd love to make a comic or storyboard (or even just a set of drawings / sketches) out of it but I know I ain't never got the time these days.

I still want to talk about it anyway so ->

This takes place like, in the events of the original story, but, more focused on a what-if, i guess? where Aeron gets caught by the reapers and in an attempt to fix the,, broken timeline (?) he ends up integrating with the temporal network of the universe or something (I don't have any proper terminology yet).

Supposedly it starts with a collection of scenes of Noctis and Aeron's lives and daily routine and them just living together all that. Some initial ideas: Them waking up and getting ready, Aeron taking a fruit from the fruitbowl for breakfast, Noctis making coffee to go. Aeron having this one brand of apple tea canned drink and a habit is that he always leaves one half-drinken on the coffee table and then opening up a new one before the previous was finished (lmao tf man). Noctis often forgetting her keys when leaving the house, and Aeron being the one to remind and toss it to her before leaving. Idk man a lot of mundane stuff.

Maybe also a little about the people around them. Izz being their friend. then them visiting aeron's parents and family. maybe also hanging out with cryo and vern. etc etc.

Then blip to their first encounter with the time anomaly creatures and the reapers.

Then fast forward to destruction (???). Noctis sees their friend in the center of the monstrous amalgamation (is like, those things with connections. idk how to explain them. I imagine it like lichen), devastated as they get close to Aeron. They reach out to touch his face, then the lichen thing (? helpppp words) creeping up to their hand. They put their forehead on Aeron's, close their eyes as the thing starts covering them, consuming.

Then Noctis woke up, as if nothing had happened. They continue their normal routine, making coffee, then heading out to work. Noctis enters back into the house because they forgot their keys.

Then it's just a series of scenes of Noctis in their daily life, it's exactly the same as before. They suddenly get a feeling to check what we know as Aeron's room, but when she opens, it's just the storage room. They thought nothing of it, but soon they start having weird distant feelings, like something is missing. It's like the empty feeling that suddenly attacks you for no reason, and you can't explain it either. It's like Noctis has a memory, but it's stuck in the back of their mind. Like when you hear a song in your head, but can't remember the lyrics. Or when you can think of a word, and you know there is the word, but struggle to get it off your tongue.

Noctis starts buying fruits to fill a fruit bowl, despite not really one to eat them as much. They also get the urge to buy a specific brand of can drink. Then a scene where she drinks it, then puts it on the table (unknowingly where Aeron always places it).

It starts getting weird, where she becomes more aware of the word "Aeron", or i guess, there's just one too many coincidences of things spelling out "aeron" (a random generated letters of a receipt has the word, assortment of books with a letter on the sleeve that spells it, keymash with the word in the middle, etc.) that is not obvious for others, but is difficult for her to ignore for some reason.

Eventually Noctis starts asking Izz if "aeron" rung a bell. Izz probably just says something like "Oh, you mean Aaron, the school janitor?" etc etc. Then Noctis looked it up or whatever but still not getting answers. They start going to places, like a construction site, and just, trying to understand tf going on. Then meets Cryo (and maybe Vern) who ask her to leave because mam this is a construction area (?) so then Noctis asks if they know any Aeron and they just say no. (or maybe points to a guy working there named Aaron but Noctis doesn't recognize the dude and it doesn't help anything so she just leaves)

Idk how to write this part, but basically a lot more pieces of what seems to be memories start to surface, and it's making noctis go a little unstable by the moment. She'd become more and more desperate to find out, reading up on the sciene of brain and memory, then ending up reading about dreams and mystical things related to her experience. She started borrowing a lot of books from the library about uhh the mystic and spiritual related things (?).

This starts taking a toll out of their life, where she starts missing work and getting trouble and stuff leading to Noctis resigning. Worried, Izz visited their place, then seeing the messy state of their apartment, full of notes about something kinda occult-y and stuff. Noctis still somewhat tried to hide whatever was going on, and Izz didn't understand anyway. Izz manages to convince Noctis to spend time with her, joining the crochetting club on the weekend, getting lunch together, walking around the park etc. and for the few days Noctis is distracted from the weird memories and seemed to be doing better. One night, Izz brings Noctis along to a nightclub and, well, Noctis shouldn't be at the club🗿 LMAO then she drives Izz back home and starts remembering about the memories and that she was determined to get the meaning of all that.

Noctis starts looking up people nearby, if there was any person nearby named Aeron. Idk borderline stalking social media and i guess finding an post by an old woman that named their artwork 'aeron' or soemthing. she looked through their photos and the a picture of the old woman with an old man felt familiar to Noctis.

She takes a visit to their shop or something, and started asking if they knew an aeron. At first they were like "ah why do you suddenly ask that" and she's like "oh i met them before and wanted to meet again" or something idk man. but that surprises the couple and they invite her to have a talk over some tea.

They start talking about Aeron, their son, the say that Noctis might have the wrong person, because that Aeron had already died when he was younger. The couple started asking if she had any relatives or friends that could help them, but she was already in shock and disbelief and still insisted she knew aeron. So the couple tried calming her down and suggested that they know people that can help her, meaning psychiatric help.

This was the point where Noctis kinda broke. (?) They start getting back to reading up about weird occurences, about "hidden memories", leading to sorta occult-ish things.

I don't know how to explain this part. Basically Noctis follows a book on performing a ritual at the storage room, which involves,, something.

And before they could finish the final step of the ritual, something enters in their peripheral vision.

A feather(??), flying, but more importantly, a dark figure standing in the corner of their eye.

The figure must've not expected it when Noctis jumps(?) on them.

The figure's hood falls off(?), revealing their face.

A face, somewhat all too familiar to Noctis

Aeron.

#oc talk #haaah i'm trying to avoid calling everything i do stupid but this is dumb hahahahahaaaa #if you read it till the end..why. i appreciate it thank you but. damn 😭#long post #now that i've written it down please stop haunting my mind please and thank you brain

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kaddyssammlung · 6 months

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Hey, I'm begging you to stay My dark side won today My heart keeps breaking Over and over Hey, don't let me out your sight Can't trust myself tonight My heart keeps breaking Can you talk me off the ledge again?

Bring Me The Horizon - Darkside

My fellow addict Oli Sykes says it best sometimes.

I just found a strange article about him and he...what?! I had no idea. He even read the Bhagavad Gita?! Jésus that dude seems to crave enlightenment as much as I do. I'm not totally imagining him and Vessel talking about books like ”A course in miracles” and other stuff like that when they tour together. Maybe he just thinks that he finds more answers in Hinduism? Idk. Or that it's cool to learn about that. Whatever broadens your horizon.

Not what I wanted to talk about.

TW from here on: SH, ED and trauma

A video showed up in my suggestions on YouTube yesterday and I watched it. It hit home in a very strange way. It was not bad or anything it just idk. It was Gabor Maté talking about how Childhood Trauma leads to addiction. I just put it in here if someone is interested in watching it.

youtube

It's that sentence that destroyed me “when there is stress and trauma these endorphin systems don't develop and then when people do h*roin it feels lika a warm soft hug to them. They feel love and connection for the first time”. Yes....I can confirm that.

He resolves this whole thing by saying that you have rediscover yourself so you can recover. I love that. And yeah that is also true and that is what I have been doing.

But it triggered something in me and it happened really fast. My impulse controlle stopped working and I crumbled. I started eating way to much because it's an easy “thing” to do. The reason I keep overeating is because most humans don't even rise their eyebrow on behavior like that. They think it's normal. I ate until I couldn't eat anymore. But I did not calm down. So I threw up. Have not done that intentionally in a long time but there are things you just remember in a way. If that makes sense. When I was done with that I still felt shitty. So I sat down and guess what?! There is not much left to do? Right?! So yeah I self-harmed. I got so angry that I put on a meditation and focused on that instead. Finally.

You should have done that earlier, you might say and yes you are right. I was still in a weird mood this morning but a lot calmer. I ran with my doggo until I was totally calm. It took me almost 13km but that's what running is for. So I decided to meditate again. My goal was to really and fully let go regardless of how long it would take. After almost one hour I had that strange experience where I started seeing light coming out ofmy hands. This has never happend to me before! It's not uncommen. I have heard many humans talk about stuff like that.

But a few questions remain...

Did I get a reward now for acting out yesterday? Did something step in and help me today? Like an angel or a spiritual guide? I'm confused but also in a good mood.

#childhood trauma #living with cptsd #actually cptsd #actually borderline #actually bpd #tw ed #tw sh related #healing journal #healing journey #spiritualgrowth #spiritual awakening #Youtube

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