tired

it's 8pm here and i just finally finished my thrice-weekly PT exercises which i didn't have time to do any earlier today and i was so tired and sore when i started and i'm so tired and sore now i'm done and i didn't want to do them and i groaned the entire time but i did do them and so i am posting here that i did them because i'm not exactly proud of myself and i'm not getting any serotonin or dopamine or whatever out of this but i feel like i should write it down so some other time when i'm not so tired i can say hey, b, that was good that you did that, and you deserve butt-pats.

I do deserve butt-pats.

instead I'm going to combine mucinex and sudafed and hope that gets me through the night. oh yeah! i got farmkid's cold, complete with stuffed, oozing sinuses and a wet, rippling full-chest cough, i'm doing fucking great.

I did package like 150 lbs of chicken sausage today, and managed to make at least some dick jokes, so we know i'm not dead. I suspected I was feverish though, and tried to take my temperature, and it came back between 89.9F and 92.4F, so it's possible I am dead, which wasn't the result I expected right then.

I guess we'll see if any bits of me fall off.

to succeed in adult friendship you must remember the key tenets of child friendship:

Play Toys

Play Pretend

Snack Time

I was in Donegal when the contract for my Gollancz books was finalised and I signed it and sent it in, so here's a photo of me outside Oideas Gael right after that happened, which I couldn't caption honestly at the time.

(I feel like the car is disrupting the vibes of this photo. It is not my car. I have nothing to do with this car.)

I teach high school Bio, and I had my students do an assignment about the mass extinctions. One of my students then referred to conodonts as "funny little guys"

Which is fair

Image © @alphynix

State of the Codex March 2024

It is not a secret that I have had a bad year.

I am a school teacher. And a trans woman. This is my first year using she/her pronouns full time in the classroom, after a multi-year period of social transitioning. It has put a target on my back.

Over the course of this year, one period in particular has been a wellspring of hate. Homophobia, transphobia, racism and sexism. Not all of it directed at me personally, but a barrage of students showing over and over again that they are hateful and that they want me to know it.

Administration has gotten involved. Multiple students have been transferred out, but it feels like playing Bigot Whack-a-Mole. And now that the students know that they're under scrutiny, they've gotten subtler. Today someone left me a message. Subtle enough that it has plausible deniability, targeted enough that I know that someone intended for me to find it, and to know that they think of me as a man. I have my suspicions, but I don't know who did it. I feel gaslit, emotionally abused. I don't feel safe.

Someone else is going to be teaching that period for the rest of the year. They succeeded in chasing me out. I am exhausted and relieved.

And would like to know that I am loved.

Please, reblog and comment on monsters you like. Leave nice things in the tags. Send a friendly ask. If you want to make a material contribution, go to the support page. I want to feel like I'm valued and supported right now, because I have spent the last six months feeling like the wrong kind of monster.

Thank you

The fact that Iskall keeps breaking into old regretful love songs when beef refuses to give into his shenanigans is one of my favorite parts of their dynamic

AU with four love triangles but they’re all just Clark Kent/Superman and Bruce Wayne/Batman falling for one another’s multiple personas and being super conflicted

Example:

- Clark is falling in love with Bruce, who despite being rich seems like the only decent man in the entire city.

- But at the same time SUPERMAN is falling in love with BATMAN, for being a soggy troubled mess

- Bruce is pining for Clark Kent, the one journalist in Gotham who doesn’t take bribes.

- But BATMAN starts falling for SUPERMAN who seems to always have the right answers and never gives up hope

- and then CLARK falls for BATMAN because he sees him take down fossil fuel executives in an alley in the business district

- Meanwhile BRUCE falls for SUPERMAN because he sees him save the lives of an entire train full of people like it was no big deal

You get:

- Bruce sweating being interviewed by Clark for humanitarian projects hoping he won’t realize he’s Batman

- Clark sweating at the same time hoping Bruce won’t realize he’s Superman

- Superman meeting with Bruce for intel on the bad guys and hoping he won’t realize he’s Clark

- Batman meeting with Clark to give him the inside crime scoop for the paper and hoping he won’t realize he’s Bruce.

- Batman and Superman being relatively normal and comfortable around each other because neither knows to be nervous, but feeling guilty for betraying their respective crushes

the babbit masterpost

HELLO welcome to the Babbit's Blog masterpost!!! On this post you'll find some fun facts about yours allegedly (me <33), some ref's for my different 'sona's, and a couple links to my fics and whatnot! Are you ready? No?? Excellent neither am i let's do this

Meet the Babbits!: the self-inserts/personas

the first ref is for my general/most commonly used persona, Babbit! They aren't really an anthro/furry as much as they are a humanoid with the head of a rabbit. I like to think of this one as the 'me' that's in my head- the purest form of my thoughts and feelings, but not the solid real-life me. The second ref is my self-insert persona, Rabbit, the one i picture using most often when i'm reading a fic or imagining a self-insert scenario lol. This one is like the me that people see and meet and speak to in real actual life, if that makes sense. It's the way I come across to people and all of the things I wish I could iron out of my crumpled up real-self <3 The third is a much more specific 'sona, Hazel, who started off as a FNaF:SB animatronic self-insert. She does have a backstory and lore now, which i think makes her more of an OC than a self-insert, but a lot of her is still me and a lot of what she experiences in her backstory is from my life/instills the same feelings that were taken away from things that happened to me, so I think she kinda counts enough to put a ref for her here sdkjfsdhfj (Why the different names?: makes things a little easier, and they hold meaning to me symbolically, I guess!)

Content!: Here's a short list of my various fics that will get updated as I create more! (it was, in reality, not fine.): FNaF Sun/Moon x Reader fanfic, gender neutral, for general audiences, fluff-fest, idiots to lovers "You're the new tech/repairman at the Fazbear Mega Pizzaplex, unfortunately. Your first task? To make the Daycare Attendant into two separate animatronics. It's an amazing opportunity, really, and there is nothing you love more than getting a chance to really work with such tech! The only bad part is that you don't know how to tell anyone that you just might be in over your head. (You are extremely in over your head.)" After Everything Was Fixed (but you were still broken): AU FNaF Sun/Moon x (Animatronic) Reader, gender neutral, read with caution, angst, harm to sentient robots, traumatized main character, hurt/comfort slow burn, romance slow burn "The virus was gone. Everyone was fixed. You had been put back together. It's a time for a new beginning, to do things right this time, to wash away the past and paint a better future. Their memories of the infection had- mercifully- been taken away from them. Yours had not. He doesn't understand why you try to avoid him. Even if you could tell him, you're not sure you would. You want to be his friend, but it's difficult; every time you see him, you remember the hundreds of times he killed you." A fic where you are a repairman-themed STAFFbot, taking place post-virus. In the past, Moon, infected by the virus, took delight in attacking and dismantling the reader during the night. Now, in the present, you find yourself burdened by the memories of the past while everyone around you has no recollection of the events. It gets more complicated as Sun and Moon, both now cleared of the virus, grow curious of you. This fic will follow a series of arcs, presently on arc one. For anyone curious, feel free to send an ask about the arcs in 'After Everything Was Fixed'! The Sun, the Moon, and the Blazing Comet (title subject to change): AU FNaF Sun/Moon/Eclipse x Reader, gender neutral, teen and up audiences, travel/journey, betrayal, hurt/comfort slowburn, reconciling, themes of breaking the mold, found family (TBA) Hold My Broken Hands (title subject to change): AU FNaF Sun/Moon x Reader, gender neutral, mature audiences, dark romance, dark comedy, severe bodily harm, mutilation, murder, obsessive behavior, possessive behavior, lovesick (TBA)

My AU's!: i'm going to make a Babbit-AUs-Masterpost and then put the link here i swear, i just have so many im sorry jdfhsjdfhs (like more than twenty)

Fandoms!: I enjoy, have been in, made or make content for: Pokemon Undertale FNaF Creepypasta (YEAH I KNOW LET ME LIVE OKAY) My Little Pony (I KNOW OKAY LEAVE ME ALONE) Steven Universe Star Trek Warrior Cats i'm sure theres more but i just forgot everything i have ever liked wheeeeeze

Whomst the hell?: HI I'm Rabbit! Or Bones! Or Babbit! Or Avarice/Ava, if you want to go for a more legitimate-sounding name. I'm 24 years old, prefer to use they/them pronouns, and so, so incredibly ace. I've been drawing as long as I've had the ability to hold a pen, writing since I was in grade school, and being a plague to the ones around me since the beginning of time! If you've seen my art, its probably from the absolute mountain of fluffy-wuffy love-dovey (y/n) x Sundrop/Moondrop/Eclipse doodles I've been sharing for several years now sdfjhsdj. If you've heard of my fics, it was probably the one I made just for fun that's now turned into an actual fanfiction that I enjoy writing, the silly-lovey-fluff incarnate (it was, in reality, not fine.) !

Likes n Dislikes!: I'm a sucker for sap, fluff, and lots and lots of love-dovey bullshit! I also like stories about finding oneself and monsters being befriended or loved. I like space, aliens, robots, the odd and strange, injecting humanity into things not human, monsters, creatures, animals, the fae, concepts of spirits and karma and the afterlife, and more! I dislike 'fanservice', most anime tbh LOL it's not personal I just don't enjoy it im srry, FLY BABIES i know they have an actual name but i hate that word too pls just dont i will scream, sexually aggressive/forceful content/characters, being made to feel small, dumb, or trapped,

Other!: I have a pretty high gross-out tolerance! I also have a pretty high 'wow that's messed up huh' tolerance, in that sometimes I will just say stuff that's super grim or dark or messed up and not realize it lmao. I am full of random facts and anecdotes, especially weird or gross ones! sometimes i get on tangents that can go for actual hours so pls forgive that lol

WARNINGS: THIS BLOG MAY FEATURE CONTENT BASED ON/RELATED TO THEMES OF GUILT, CHILDHOOD LOSS, GRIEF, SELF HATRED, DISCONNECTION FROM REALITY/SELF, TRAUMA, AND SEVERE DEPRESSION/ANXIETY. YES I AM GETTING HELP. YES I AM OKAY. THANK YOU FOR YOUR PATIENCE AND UNDERSTANDING.

bonus persona: crybaby

⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ welcome to my dollhouse- i hope you play for a while. . .

my most recent fic post: savage bonds part 2

❉ dolly ❉ 25 ❉ a virgo. . . but the cheeky kind

i wish that i was born in the fifties so that i could have experienced the 60's and 70's in my prime. wanna talk about cute boys? message me, ya filthy lil animals.

make sure to explore my masterlist guide!

i'll be turning my requests back on the second that i finish "fake dating", "be my lover" and "i just ride"

forever dreaming about elvis. forever dreaming about austin. forever dreaming about rockstars and men that i can't ever have.

xoxo

-forever dolly

. . . come on baby, let's play house! ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

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sketchy grocery store shit: a very middle-aged rant

Man so. I went to college in Rochester and so I did my first I'm An Adult Shopping For My Own Groceries shopping in a Wegmans. I got used to the way the store works, how things were laid out. And of course, i got a Shopper's Club card.

I still have it somewhere, use it occasionally, but I had to get another one when I misplaced it because they asked what phone number it was tied to and like, man, it was a Rochester number with a 716 area code, that's how long ago it was. (It's 585 there now.)

I got conditioned to try the Wegmans brand generic for whatever brand name thing I was buying, because it was often the same, and was cheaper. (Though, RIP to the old Wegmans box mac n cheese, they enshittified that in 1999 once we were all good and hooked and we all mourned and switched to Annie's and never looked back. Maybe it's better now but I don't rely on that stuff the way I used to.) I got conditioned to always swipe the card because sure they were collecting data on you but in a $70 trip I'd save five bucks easy, it wasn't nothing! And I also learned to look for their Family Packs, which were larger containers of the same item for less per unit-- if it was something not that perishable, or something you could get through, it was worth spending a little more now to stretch it later!

Anyway. I went to Wegmans yesterday, I live in Buffalo now and we have them here too, and we have a rotation of grocery stores we patronize but when I do the shopping, I'm still the most used to Wegmans, I know where stuff is, and I knew some of the stuff I wanted, they'd be the ones to have. (The organic co-op doesn't carry Doritos and sometimes in the doldrums of winter a bitch needs some of that poison, y'know?)

I'd noticed before that the Shoppers Club isn't a savings thing anymore. I didn't have my own card for one visit and the cashier went to great lengths to get me a swipe from a manager, and at the end I'd spent $200 and saved.... fifty cents.

This time around I'd taken advantage of a buy one get one deal to get a second box of something I didn't really need a second box of, only to discover it was buy one get a dollar off the second, so I saved a whole dollar and actually spent three I hadn't needed to. Well, whatever. It's not perishable and I'll eventually go through it.

But the other thing I noticed was the wild price swings by different packaging of the same item. I should've taken pictures. But like-- ok, raw baby spinach. I fucking love spinach. They had a smaller bag and then next to it they had a Family Pack. I hesitated-- it is hard to use up leafy greens but I fucking love spinach and I could make the effort-- and then I looked. I can't do math but fortunately they are required by law to have the price per unit breakdown on every price sticker. Because the small bag of spinach was $1.99, and was $3.99/lb. (A pound of spinach is a lot.) The Family Pack next to it? It was $3.99, which seemed like a good price jump. But on the per-item breakdown, it came out to $7.99/lb. It didn't actually have any more spinach in it. It was just a different-shaped bag and cost more. For no reason. And there was a whole shelf of the larger bags, and only a small display of the smaller ones. They're just expecting people, conditioned like I am, to say "ah i can use more spinach i'll take the savings" and buy the more expensive bag. But I did just do the math (which is difficult for me so you know I'm mad about this) and that is literally the exact same amount of spinach for twice the price.

Similar for stew beef but they went too far with it, it wasn't even plausible. There was a large pack for forty-nine dollars and I didn't even look to see how much was in it because i do not have forty-nine dollars for stew beef, I found a one-pound bag for $8.99. But I had this same issue before, and was more persistent last time I went: you can buy a three-pound chuck roast for $7.99/lb, which is a chunk of change but it's a lot of meat, and cut it into stew beef yourself and save some money that way, but I just knew I did not have it in me this week to cut up yet another chuck roast when I got home. (Full disclosure: i wasn't even looking at the grass-fed organic shit this was just regular USDA whatever Meets Regulations And Is Legal To Sell shit.)

Stew beef is supposed to be the trimmings and it is supposed to be cheap. But they have realized people prefer it, more recipes call for it because it was historically cheaper, and so they have marked it up and it is more expensive than the whole roast. Because most cooks reading a recipe are not going to necessarily know why it calls for stew beef and that they could substitute a superior cut if the price wasn't good.

I am aware that buying the pre-marinated individual convenience cuts is historically where they make their profit and I don't begrudge them that; if that's what I was shopping for I would not be that mad about paying $7 for three cents worth of marinade ingredients, because it is much easier to cook something like that with the attached recipe and because a lot of the markup is the labor costs in putting all that shit together. I don't begrudge them that at all and when I'm paying for it I'm well aware that I am.

But I really do resent how much of the price-gouging is happening by abusing the patterns of behavior they conditioned us into. I learned, twenty years ago, to look for the deals and look for the bulk packs, and now I am being punished for having learned that. I don't mind paying a premium for something I know is a convenience fee, but being charged extra for my formerly-thrifty shopping habits really stings. I shouldn't have to exercise constant vigilance in the fucking grocery store, it's stressful enough to be the only masked person in there and now you have to compete with the huge carts they use for the online ordering peeps that take up a lot of the aisle.

Maybe it's easier to do the price comparisons on the website?

Oh and there are a number of products they now only carry the Wegmans generic for. (You can't get Snyder pretzel bites anymore, and the Wegmans version doesn't come in quite the same flavors, so I have to go to Dash's to get those now.) And still others where the Wegmans version is pricier. And, alas, some where the more expensive Wegmans version is better. (Polly-O string cheese, why are you so bland?? You're a snack baby. The Wegmans generic has salt in it and is a ton more pleasant to eat.)

IDK I don't have a thesis here it's just that being alive in the 2020s is way harder than being alive in the 2000s even though I was poorer then and didn't know shit. I don't miss my youth and I super don't miss George W Bush but I miss when I was figuring stuff out and it seemed to make sense. And I sorta miss when the Wegmans cashiers used to wear t-shirts bragging about how highly-ranked Wegmans was by whatever organization that was that ranked how good places are to work for.

Also, they try to steer you to use the self checkouts, but baby if you have more than two shopping bags' worth of stuff in your cart you had better wait in however long that line is to let a real human put it into bags for you because the self-checkout does not have any mechanism for you to remove and replace a full shopping bag from the bagging area. I told the cashier how much I appreciated him because he wasn't screaming at me, and he was like yah those self-checkouts yell at you a lot.

(Every Wegmans cashier for twenty years has been super nice. I doubt they're in a union, I wish they were.)

Yeah yeah this is the most middle-aged thing I've written yet but I'm in physical therapy and just bought a recliner for the ergonomics so I'm clearly grappling with my own mortality here, and I'm writing this partly out of concern for the kids who are where I was in 2000. What the hell are they being conditioned to do, by all this????? Shit, man.

hi! i'm philomena! you can call me philo, phil, or phia. i am 24 and from florida, usa (est timezone) & i'm neurodivergent (autistic) i am irish & cherokee! i am also non-binary, any pronouns are okay. i love dragons, moths, and the moon. my ao3 • my main is @eiralune, so follows & likes will come from there!

i don't do taglists any more unfortunately, its mostly because i never remember and then feel bad about it so i've made a second blog just for reblogging my fics! @huramuna-fics -- follow & turn on notifications for just my fic postings!

requests are open! request info & masterlist under the cut.

i am currently obsessed with HotD, more specifically, Aemond Targaryen. i also love Alicent Hightower and Helaena Targaryen and am always up to talk about them. i am a new aegon ii girlie, but i love that pathetic sopping wet cat! i have been writing most of my life but finally have the courage to actually publish some of my work, so enjoy!

my general fic recs are here! take a look at my golden grail fic recs here! these are fics i would take with me to a desert island, to the grave, adorned on a shrine, etc. they are the ones that i reread semi-regularly and are my absolute favorites. my work is 18+, so minors please DO NOT interact. i will smite you.

MASTERLIST

feel free to drop requests, but there is no guarantee i will actually do them -- my writing drive comes and goes and i usually hyper fixate on the one thing i am currently working on, but i will mark them for later and reply once the request is done! rest assured, i am looking at every request. 🤭

i will write for aemond, helaena, alicent and aegon II. i will only write wlw for alicent and helaena. i won't write requests the following themes: - non-con - incest - underage

hello!!! as someone who just started writing as a hobby and an avid reader (i adore the way you write btw hehe), i’m curious on what got you into writing :o!! and also what you do to stay motivated c:

Ever since I've been a kid I think I've loved reading books, and so that naturally translated to wanting to try my hand at writing. I was very young when I first started writing silly little original stories purely for myself, I think maybe at 12 years old? Gosh, I've been writing for 16 years on end now. Even before that, I enjoyed thinking up elaborate tales in the form of bedtime stories I would make up on the fly for my younger brother. I've always been very prone to daydreaming haha.

Anyways, at some point after that, I discovered... fanfiction 💀

I think I first started posting fanfiction when I was as young as 14 years old (don't ask me what it was, it was all very embarrassing), and even back then I was given a lot of encouragement and compliments from total strangers who enjoyed even my absolute cringe fanfics. That definitely played a huge role in keeping me motivated to keep writing throughout the years. If it weren't for all the positive comments I received as a kid, I don't know if I would've continued doing it.

Now that I'm more secure in my writing and have gained a lot more experience over the years, most of my motivation comes from within myself. I feel confident enough as a writer that I don't necessarily need validation from other people to keep going--though of course, it's always greatly appreciated. I think it was most important for me to receive that kind of positive feedback when I was just starting out as a young kid.

So, all that to say, if there is a writer or an artist creating things online whose work you like and admire, especially ones who are just starting out (like anon over here), please let them know!! Give them some form of encouragement, even if it's a small compliment 💖

I know we’re literally two episodes into s10 but gem and grian’s ocean rivalry-siblingism is giving me, you guessed it, another nautical horror idea

Because Grian can’t stop himself from fishing/going to the ocean (to spite gem) and gem is basing her whole identity around the ocean. And dredge is a game about impossible horrors and unreliable narrators and forgotten pasts. So.

Gem who took to the sea to find her brother Grian, who went missing during a very, very strange series of events and was last seen telling someone he was ‘going to have a word with the ocean’ while headed towards the beach. Gem who’s always had an affinity for the ocean, but now it’s taken her brother—a wedge between her and what she loves most, even as she gives herself over to it in a desperate attempt to bring him back. Of course, that’s assuming he’s still recognizable by the time she finds him—and that’s assuming there’s anything left to find.

I've knit my first cardigan! It's intentionally oversized, and made with 100% wool yarn and wooden buttons. I started knitting it during the evening of November 28th, and finished it a week later during the evening of December 5th. The layout of the colours is based on a house I used to visit, especially the living room walls.

• call me G

• 30 yrs old

• bisexual

• she/her

• requests are CLOSED! will open them back up eventually, but i've got like 6 WIPs to finish first.

kinks:

tickling // gentle femdom // bondage // hands //chase & capture // collars // marking // breeding // fingering // oral // possessiveness // mmf

current fandom(s):

love and deepspace, jujutsu kaisen, dragon ball, spy x family

❌ DNI ❌

• minors

• biphobes

• if you're weird about niche kinks

Behind the Blindfold - gojo x reader

pt. 1 || pt. 2 || pt. 3 || pt. 4

cw: tickle kink, female reader, vaginal fingering, oral sex, hand kink, size kink, enemies to lovers (kind of), dubcon, light humiliation with verbal teasing, squirting, penetration (penis-in-vagina), blowjobs, creampies, body worship & praise, edging, switching, big dick, aftercare/post-sex cuddling

Phone Sex - toji x reader, toji & gojo x reader

pt. 1 || pt. 2

cw: female reader, penetration (penis-in-vagina), unprotected sex, exhibitionism, voyeurism, doggy style, possessiveness, jealousy, vaginal fingering, creampies, dirty talk, size kink, mild dub con, mmf threesome

Suguru's Hands - suguru geto x reader

cw: female reader, hand kink, vaginal fingering, finger sucking, penetration (fingers in vagina), g spot stimulation, multiple orgasms, squirting, tasting your own cum

Double Teamed - satoru gojo x suguru geto x reader

cw: female reader, mmf threesome, jealousy/competitiveness, blowjob & swallowing, fingering, squirting, licking/tasting cum, praise, penetration (penis-in-vagina), big dicks

Boyfriend!Sukuna - sukuna x reader imagine

cw: female reader, four armed Sukuna, kidnapping/stockholm syndrome, inc, rough sex, penetration (penis-in-vagina), giant cock, primal, choking, fingering, hand kink (finger sucking), possessiveness, toxic dynamic, ownership/controlling, marking, squirting, aftercare

Stalker!Gojo - gojo x reader imagine

cw: stalking, peeping tom, voyeurism, obsession, fear play

Sub!Nanami - nanami x reader imagine

cw: female reader x nanami, gentle femdom, male submission, marking, collar & leash, light pet play, objectification, edging, forced oral, subspace, possessiveness

JJK men getting tickled - gojo x reader, suguru x reader, choso x reader, nanami x reader, toji x reader, sukuna x reader

cw: gn reader, tickling, fluff

JJK men tickling you - - gojo x reader, suguru x reader, choso x reader, nanami x reader, toji x reader, sukuna x reader

cw: gn reader, tickling, fluff