"can I be [x gender] if I..." "can I still call myself [x term] if..." yes. yes. if you like the term then use it. do whatever you want forever. labels are just little words we use to categorize our infinitely complex existential experiences on this floating rock !! no two people who use the same label are going to experience it the same way and that's the beauty of it !! use "contradictory" labels, use labels that don't make sense to anyone, change your label every day or not at all, explore anything and everything, use no labels at all or every label under the sun, confuse people or correct them or let them assume things rather than explaining, I promise nothing other people think about your identity is worth your happiness !!
REMINDER THAT THE WAY YOU PRESENT YOURSELF HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOUR GENDER!! You could look like the most feminine person on the world and be a boy. It doesn’t matter. And also even if you prefer to dress like your agab you could be trans/nb/gq/ag/etc. or if you dress different from your agab you could still be cis. The way you dress is gender representation not your actual gender. Clothes shouldn’t be gendered at all but that’s a whole different topic. I think realizing that no matter how I dress my gender won’t be affected is something that helped me a lot with my self discovery. Now I’m not saying to dress different than your gender I’m just saying if you’re questioning focus on how you feel not the way you like to look (although that can be helpful too it’s all about the specific person!!)
If any of my fellow dudes,be you trans or cis or nonbinary,ever feel frail in their masculinity,just know you'll never be the guy who had a literal meltdown because i said i hate the Skater Boy Percy Jackson headcanon and one of my friend's lightheartedly asked 'You got a problem with skater boys?' so i replied 'yes' as a joke
as a trans man going through old photos of me is weird because its like looking at whole different person even though I have undergone absolutely no treatment or surgeries and don't even have a haircut, like I look at myself back then and its like no that wasn't me but then I also miss how happy I was back then before remembering how sad I was behind the scenes since I didn't know what was wrong with me and I also never had the freedom to wear almost any masculine clothes until I was 11 and even then it was limited its also weird seeing how much I changed from when I was 10 to when I was 11 like when I was 10 i was happy but you could tell I wasn't comfortable in my own skin since I hadn't figured out what was going on and when I was 11 sure that year I had a lot going on when I was at home and had no escape when I was at school but you could tell I was starting to feel more comfortable with what I was wearing and that was also when I had my so called male persona that my friends made up of which I would always 'turn into' and idek but its so weird looking back at when I finally started to know that didn't really wanna be a girl like sure I didn't know I was actually trans until like 2 years ago when I was 14 but I at least had some idea what was wrong and I started to base myself around that a lot more and you could tell I was happy about it since it seemed like I was finally starting to be myself.
So a couple of days ago I had an idea for a comic or at least an au or something I made this thing of TAWOG where it centers around Carrie and her thoughts/perspectives (I came up with this idea because while watching the pressure I thought Carrie seemed kind of jealous towards Masami sense she looked mad at her when she said Darwin was her boyfriend so I thought about what if we got to see her perspective in that episode and yeah)
I thought that the style would be more grim and creepy sense that’s how she sees the world and stuff
I changed some of the designs a bit due to stylistic preferences
I added some of my headcanons just because why not
I might do a comic if I have the time and motivation
(Edit because I ran out of tags: I just realized I forgot to do that drawn over effect on Gumball and Darwin as much as I did Carrie)
I was thinking of my gender(again) and I actually came to the conclusion that I’m mostly fine with how im presenting… I just want to be flat chested…. So that’s like, half of the problem with medical transition sorted out (since I don’t think I’ll be getting on hormones) now I just have to sort out of I’m willing to take the surgery or… just binding….
Kinda want to hear other experiences, I know not everyone is the same but, I would appreciate tales similar to this, and what you did or didn’t, or if you’ve changed your mind….
I AM NOT BASING MY DECISION FROM THE ANSWERS THAT I MIGHT GET