Remember to try to not always work on autopilot: read accurately that text and try to understand, listen to all the words that person says and try to understand... be present, don't come to conclusions, don't work based on your own perception: sometimes our perception gets biased by our feelings and traumas and we stop being open and grounded. We stop understanding for real what is going on and responding accordingly.
Don't let this happen to you. At least, don't use it for too long cause, despite it may save you from some pain on occasion, it may also create distance, isolate you and increase your pain indirectly.
Take care
With Headmate A gone, the body was left on autopilot, and Headmate B pursed their lips as they watched the body go through the basic motions of "reading" (more like passing its eyes over without processing) the page before it and occasionally taking a sip of water. Sooner or later, someone else would switch in and take care of things, but for now... with the perfect opportunity in front of them...
Headmate B tentatively sent out a mental "poke" to the area around them, just to be sure there really wasn't anyone else in front. When nothing came back, Headmate B gathered themself and took as calming a breath they could without physically taking in oxygen.
And then they let themself slip into control.
Admittedly, they could have timed it better, as they immediately dropped the cup of water the body was holding, but the sensation of an automatic "Shit!" spilling out of their mouth brought a laugh of shock and glee from them.
Their very first time fronting, and they were already swearing and making a mess. It almost made Headmate B wish they hadn't kept their existence from the rest of the system, just so they could share this experience with someone else.
I suspended the use of myself; that is, I was not here, I was not the actor within my body, but rather an audience for the scenes my body performed, a reader of the fictions my body lived.
I know this is the most unpopular opinion in the world when it comes to the lost gem Wall-E, BUT I think everyone is wrong about Auto.
Specifically, I don’t think he was a blind dumb machine mindlessly following his programming. In fact, I think the very reason he acted the way he did is because he was self-aware and had developed some bad vices over time. If he was a mindless machine who only did as his programming and superiors told him to, he would have obeyed the Captain’s orders to return to Earth after seeing it was habitable again. I think he knew what he was doing was morally wrong, but he didn’t care. Auto is capable of feeling emotions like frustration and even fear which are clearly shown during his face off with the Captain. Moreover, I think Auto was aware that if the humans returned to Earth, he would not only lose his power over humans, but also over machine. Plus, he would become obsolete because all the humans would leave the Axiom ship which is the one ability he doesn’t have.
In other words, I think Auto was very aware that HE was the one who had all the power and didn’t want to give it up. I think over the 700 years, being “king” got to his head and corrupted him to the point where he stopped caring about humanity and was more concerned with staying in power. People forget that personhood doesn’t mean sainthood. In other words, Auto can serve as a cautionary tale that power can corrupt anyone.