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I just binge read your bully au for twst and OMG! What if MC ends up cracking, going numb to protect themselves. They still do as told, but they have sky eyes, no emotion. Who would keep pushing to see them fully break, or who would just dump them like trash!?! Hell, who would enjoy them losing the fight in them!
tw: yandere, bully!characters, blood mention, unhealthy relationships/behavior, victim blaming.
Disclaimer, you don’t actually want this n stay safe from people like this!
Continue tormenting for fun:
Leona
Doesn't take you seriously. That's it? You're giving up already, gosh you really can't do anything by yourself...Leona is less than disappointed, in fact he knew good things would come to an end. But you still serve some purpose to him, Leona can't find himself to throw away his favorite toy, some things are just meant worth keeping. Even when broken and used.
Sebek
I don't think he'd catch on very quick, how you follow his instructions yet when the heel of his boot hits your back you make no sound of pain. Sebek should've known humans were too weak to handle his training, being pushed a little really got you that gone? This will only give Sebek the advantage to harm you further, he likes taking his frustration out on you without you screaming.
Lilia
You lasted longer than the others, and he'll applause you for that. Lilia doesn't necessarily hate this new you, embracing it but continues to see just exactly how far you can go. You're only in a shell, and he's not dumb, Lilia will stare longingly into your hollowed orbs, there is still a hint of you. Hiding away from him, Lilia is only fueled to either have you brain dead or back.
Rook
You're absolutely divine, he'll say as he wipes the trickling blood on your lips. You can't fool Rook with those dead-beat eyes, in fact this new look is beautiful. Rook craves for more of this expression you possess, he's seen you smile and cry, he wants to unravel more until you actually break. Rook has done some research on how the human mind can shut down when pushed into pressure, the thought of your alive yet corpse like body not instructing as told, he knows you're still in there.
Jamil
Jamil is conflicted with himself, you're alive but not yourself. A part of him enjoys the fact you won't refuse his affections. But did he really want this? Don't get this the wrong way, Jamil still prefers to beat you into submission, a sick part of him loves you so much yet he can't reciprocate his feelings to you. Understanding that this new you, will help ease his overwhelming emotions, he doesn't need to pretend anymore. Your clouded eyes are what he loves best.
Vil
Recents posts of him explain that Vil absolutely needs you just to take his anger out on. He’s in love with you no doubt, but embarrassment shames him from normally communicating with you. So even if you were emotionless he’d find some use, because he can’t get rid of you no matter how badly beaten your skin is. It’s you, and he’ll have no other person.
Epel
Didn’t know how to react at first. Epel kicks you a couple of times to see how you’d react. I think he because you aren’t responding to any of his criticisms does he ponder. He’s smitten with you, creating a fake narrative on his behavior that what he’s doing is ok, when he’s well aware it isn’t. Keeps you around because your nice to relieve stress from, doesn’t mind if you aren’t screaming and crying.
Toss them away (but he'll start thinking about you then wants you back eventually):
Jade
What a shame...he knew it was a bad idea to share with Floyd. You broke so easily, so fast, just when things were getting good. What good of an experiment if they give the same reaction, you aren't screaming as much as he expected. And the worse part is you listen to exactly what he asks for, there is no hesitation or breaking down to crying, you really are willing to cut off your hand? How boring.
Floyd
Frustrated, acts as if he didn't expected this to happen. Floyd is throwing a huge tantrum once he finds out you don't kick or scream at him. He misses the terror in your eyes when he asks you a question of such, now you're giving him a blank look! Not safe to say, if Azul or Jade wasn't there, you would've been dead for good, Floyd can't handle the fact his shrimpy is lame now. Out of pure anger, he would let his feelings get the best of him.
Kalim
At first he wouldn't notice your change of behavior. But that spark in you is gone now, Kalim doesn't want broken things. You were fun to play with, because he usually got high off the power he held over you, his stress toy won't even give him a proper bark. I mean you do bark, just not with enough enthusiasm. Like a fussing child, Kalim would have you thrown out, until he starts to miss having you beside his feet....
Cater
Makes the saddest noise when he notices how little you react to his touches. Slaps your cheeks a couple of times to make sure. Dramatically mourns over your past self before rudely telling you how you weren’t gonna last long with him either way. It’s been a nice ride with you he says, leaving with a kiss on the forehead. It’s cruel but depressing, because on his end he’s up at night staring at the photos of your more lively self. He misses those terrified eyes..
Enjoys the new MC and somewhat stops:
Riddle
The fire within you finally died, no more to fuel to feed. Just burnt ashes laying pitifully on the floor, grimy and unusual. Riddle is relived, he had proved a point to himself. All of his hard work to make you into the perfect person, docile and understanding. Riddle now has no reason to push you, you're at your fullest degree. You do as told, and no one gets hurt, physically and emotionally. (he's just like his mom frfr)
Ace
At a sense of peace. Once Ace understands that you are no longer you but a fragment he's thrilled. His mean names slowly die down, much more softer and cheesy when talking to you. If you're still there, disgusted or not he'd lay his head on your shoulder and mumble to you how much of a coward he was to confess. But all went well, the paranoia of you rejecting him gone. I mean what else can a lifeless you do?
Deuce
Has no other reason to bully you. You’re doing things just as he wanted and he couldn’t be happier. Like Ace he was paranoid of your rejection. But you don’t stray away from his rough hands massaging your cheek, kisses that bruise your lips. It’s heaven for him, he wouldn’t trade it for anything else.
Malleus
He didn’t think you’d break so fast. Malleus barely lays a hand on you yet his words cut deep. Perhaps you finally learned your place, all that hard work and learning how to court a single-minded human like you payed off. You won’t have to face the wrath of his verbal abuse because he’s nothing but sweet to you. You look lovely no matter how bad it gets.
Ruggie
Ruggie didn’t go extreme measures to hurt you that bad. Maybe he got to you before the others could take advantage of your newfound persona. Like he always do, Ruggie takes care of things. By things he means you. Sure you’re practically not yourself anymore but it’s still you in some shape and form. His words won’t mean nothing to damage you, so now you’ll be taken under his care. Best person to be with in this situation.
Idia
Shitty attitude stopped so quick. Was leaning more to tossing you away but Idia gets attached quickly. He would never admit but you’re his favorite pastime everything, he can’t ditch you. So eventually all of his bullying stop because there is nothing to get a reaction from. Much more calmer and talkative around you. It’s nice knowing you aren’t actively judging him as he talks, no cover ups to be douche.
Jack
Once the numbers of people targeting you goes down does he step in. Jack is worried, genuinely. I think reader being emotionless snaps something inside of him, does he claim to protect you fully and run away from everyone else. His guilt that you turned out this way eats him, but he downs it out by telling himself you brought too much attention now he must clean the mess up.
Silver
There is a good case scenario if Malleus wasn’t so attached to you and Sebek left you alone!! Lilia can see how devastated Silver is once he finds out your condition. You’re almost lifeless, Lilia let’s Silver care for you because he finally found the guts to ask. Silver tends to your needs, all those years of standing from afar and watching you get hurt somewhat paid off. You’re dependent on him and he doesn’t wanna admit how good it feels.
Trey
Settles down like some retired man. He’s happy you found peace and stop causing trouble. You’ll be in his full care now, sure he’ll have his usual sadistic tendencies but it’s much more tame and softer. He doesn’t mind however if you come back to him all bruised and sore, he will feed and clothe you back to health. Over and over again. At least he stops his bullying behavior for a while.
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Camn I get bad sans! X Black! Zombie!Reader? Just how they react to a troublesome,dumb, and slow zombie girl on their hands?
Your wish is my command ;)
BAD SANSES X BLACK!ZOMBIE READER
NIGHTMARE:
The first time y'all met, he was in a 'Zombie apocalypse Au'. He was being cornered by Zombies, which didn't worry him as he could kill them by a blink of an eye. But when he was about to do just that, you appeared and killed them off by yourself.
He was very surprised to see you go against your own kind, and instead save him. After many more of those moments where you 'saved' him, he decided to take you in, see what you can do.
At first, he regrets it, you're slow and...a little dumb.
He's not very patient with you..but he can't kick you out, even though you're slow as hell, you're still an awesome fighter, and get the job done.
He once tried to make you faster, so you're not behind. But it was unsuccessful (shockingly)
When you two hang out, he spends this time with you to read in his library. Look, he just wants you to have some sort of education at least.
Hates...hates, and I mean HATES, how troublesome you are. Tries to keep you away from Killer, as he's sure he will corrupt you more. (This was also unsuccessful 😂)
Doesn't want you to do solo missions because of your speed.
He won't admit it, but he's very worried for your well-being.
After a few months of living with the bad guys, you became Nightmare's favorite. (Again, he won't admit it)
"Boss, we got in trouble on our mission! Me and Killer got very badly injured, and Y/n is-" Dust reported only to be interrupted by Nightmare. "Y/n?! What the fuck happened to Y/n?"
"..." You, Dust and Killer stood there in silence. "....I...got...a...scratch...." You spoke up, showing Nightmare the scratch on your leg. "Oh my god! You fucking idiots! Get the medkit!" Nightmare gasped, 'helping' you sit on a sofa. Dust and Killer stood there with a hole in their chest, trying to heal it themselves. "... What the f-" "Get the medkit." "Yes, boss...."
DUST:
Hates your dumbness. Doesn't mind your speed, or the fact that you're a troublemaker...but hates your dumbness...
He can't help but act soft towards you...maybe it's the way you're a lot like his best friend, Horror..but something in him shakes at the way you always exclaim that you're hungry.
Carries around food for you when on missions.
Dust spends your alone time watching movies with you. (He just likes snuggling against you)
Rolls his eyes whenever you ask a dumb question.
You know how I said that Nightmare tries to keep you away from Killer? Well, Dust is doing the exact opposite. He wants you to engage with Killer on his troublesome ideas, to piss off Nightmare. He thrives in the way Nightmare gets frustrated whenever you and Killer hang out.
Dust makes sure you're safe from any potential harm when at missions.
Dust is always very patient with you. He's used to it because of Horror. You two talk almost the same. Which can be frustrating for anyone else, but not for Dust. He's ok with it.
He's acting almost like a babysitter actually.
"Dust?" You tug his jacket to get his attention. He in turn hums. "Why's...the...sky...blue..?" Dust sighs at your question, and very carefully points at Nightmare. "I think you should ask Nightmare. He is your teacher after all!" You nod, and go towards Nightmare, while Dust quietly snorts and goes his own way.
KILLER:
Doesn't see why Nightmare decided to took you in at first. You're just a dumb...Zombie! What could you possibly do?
These thoughts were immediately gone when he saw you in the heat of a battle. You were... awesome! It's amazing how fast you are in battle, but slow out of battle. Strange..
He desperately wants to talk to you, but Nightmare won't allow him. That's until Dust helps him out!
After he talked to you, you became best buddies when it came to scheming. (A living hell for Nightmare)
Nightmare swears you two must share the same braincell sometimes.
You get along well. Not only are you a troublemaker, but you're dumb as well! The speed is what's bothering him the most... doesn't like slowpokes.
Is jokingly picking at you for being so slow, but stopped when Horror taught him a lesson...
You two play videogames in your free time. Loves to teach you how to play the games he has.
Laughs when you ask a dumb question, but immediately stops when he realizes he also doesn't know the answer to that..
"Is...Pink Panther...pink?" Killer bursts out laughing, followed by a small chuckle from Dust. "Are you kidding??" He asks, snorting. "Yeah, It's quite obvious." Dust nodded along to Killer. "Of course he's blue!" Dust yet again nods at Killer's words, not fully registering them. "Yeah-- wait, what???"
HORROR:
Instant best friends! You're so similar that it's crazy actually! You're both hungry almost all the time, you're both slow and you're both very sweet! The perfect duo.
Horror likes you very much! He finally has someone that understands him.
You two raid the fridge together very often. It's your hang out time ^^
Doesn't like it when Killer picks on you for your slowness. Often stands up for you.
He's always holding your hand whenever you're in the same room, to lead you along. (Since you're not only a slow-talker you're also a slow-walker)
If you're running away from something on your missions, he holds you bridal style and runs away.
You two are actually really cute when together.
Nightmare often pairs you two together for missions, since you have such a great bond.
One time gave up his food for you. That's when you know Horror's in love.
Horror stared at your empty plate with frown. "Yn....why don't...you have...food...?" You looked sadly at your plate, feeling hungry. "Killer...stole...it..." Horror glared at the wall at the thought of Killer running away with your food for shits and giggles. "Idiot...I'll teach him...a lesson..." He grumbled about to go find him, but not before giving you his food and smiling at you warmly. "Here...I already...ate..." You gasped and returned his smile. "Thank...you..." Horror nodded with a red blush.
CROSS:
Cross didn't know what to think of you. You didn't interest him much. You weren't interesting to him even after seeing you in battle! He just wasn't impressed.
What made him impressed though, was when you befriended Nightmare. The Nightmare. No one has been truly able to do that.
Always gets frustrated when waiting for you to finish your sentence. He just has short patience...
Finds your dumb questions...cute.
He plays board games with you when spending time with you.
Tries to help you out with your speed, which is... going well? I mean, you're not walking so slow thanks to him..
Also not a fan of 'troublemaker you'. Doesn't like the stupid pranks.
"oh my god..." Cross slowly tools out his scarf...being drenched in paint. He glared. "This is the fifth time this week! Y/n!! Killer!!" He tried calling out to them...but no one came.
ERROR:
Can't take your seriously. Like, never. He just sees you as a funky little zombie girl.
Gets irritated by your dumb questions.
Sometimes helps you out with your slowness, by dragging you with his strings.
Likes to watch you in battle. You just seem so fascinating to him....
Watches Undernovela with you.
Doesn't mind how slow you are. Just means he doesn't have to rush.
Always has a silly face on when waiting for you to finish a sentence, without knowing.
He's ready to defend you whenever someone interrupts your sentence, or doesn't wait for you to finish what you're saying.
Error was watching you very intently, waiting for you to finish what you're saying. He has a goofy face while doing so. He was enjoying listening to you talk, until Killer interrupted you. "Ok, that's GREAT Y/n! But we really need to get moving-" Error wrapped Killer's soul with his strings and flew him across the room. "DOn'T inTERruPt HeR!" After moments of silence passed, Error turned to you with a smile and nodded for you to continue.
#undertale#undertale fandom#sans undertale#sans x reader#dust sans x reader#nightmare sans x reader#killer sans x reader#horror sans x reader#error sans x reader#cross sans x reader
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FRED AND GEORGE - HC
-THEIR TYPE-
FRED
Looks > Personality
^personality is a big factor for him but i think he would care about more of what you look like, not that he's judgmental or anything.
Personality
funny but can't be as funny or more funny than he is.
he likes girls that have a lot of sarcasm, he just finds it hot
girls that play hard to get>>
he doesn't mind if your clingy, but he liked his space and can get a little frustrated when you cling to him when he wants to be alone, he doesn't want to be mean so he'll ask nicely
he cares a lot about what his friends think, ESPECIALLY george.
^if you don't get along with his friends then sorry, i think you'll have to go.
he likes girls that laugh easily and have a loud laugh.
he doesn't really care if you're interested in Quidditch but he would want you to support him, but it would be better if you played it
i feel like he would go for the mum friend, the one he knows cares about his well-being and state.
being sort of stupid himself- he can't say anything about your mind, but he'd definitely want you to be smart to even it out
he likes the idea of teaching innocent girls a few things, but he loves a girl who's dirty minded
extroverted girls >>
he likes girls who can handle their own shit, who can stick up for themselves, girls who are confident and can speak their own mind
^that being said, you can't be overly mean because that'll just turn him off
girls who have a soft spot for animals and babies (and him).
can handle a joke and crack one or two yourself
helps come up with pranks for him and George
girls that get mad easily when he teases them but still have a smile on your face when you yell
Looks
he doesn't really care about hair colour but he's definitely more into raven heads or dyed (mostly deep red or purple) doesn't care about hair type though.
seriously doesn't mind about how tall or short you are, that's the least of his worries
girls with eyes that hold a little mystery behind them, he can't describe it, but he knows it when he sees it.
doesn't discriminate against skin colour, this man loves women and all women. (let's say its mutual)
he likes thighs over everything, they just get him excited, idk why.
tits >>>
^^doesn't matter about the size but prefers the bigger end of the scale
likes fit girls but seriously doesn't care if you have a bit of chubbiness
he liked scars, he thinks they're badass (even if you got them in the most pathetic way, like falling over)
he likes girl who have good hygiene and look clean and fresh
girls who try to look good for themselves, not others or for him
he likes dimples, but he doesn't care enough to not like you if you don't have them
to sum it up he's not really picky but he knows what he likes
he'd be the guy to ghost you if he didn't like you after a few dates
GEORGE
Looks - Personality
they're equally important, although he leans a bit more to Personality because he finds all girls beautiful in their own way
Personality
he doesn't care how funny you are, it just matters if you find him funny or not
like Fred- he likes girls who are sarcastic, it's just a thing they have with it, idk.
he likes girls who love physical contact and don't care about clinginess
^he wants a girl to show how much she wants him.
girls that get easily flustered when he flirts with them
girls with loud and weird laughs (e.g. you snort while laughing or smt)
he cares about what his friends think but he wouldn't break up with a girl just because they don't like her because she made a bad joke or something, he cares about his feelings for you over his friends feelings for you, but won't let you get in the way of his group
he wants a girl who will watch all his quidditch games
he likes girls who are kind to just about everyone except the assholes.
he likes girls that care about their grades but also likes girls who can party, a girl who is smart but can be dumb when drunk
he likes girls who know what they want
girls who are innocent when they first meet but super dirty minded as you grow closer
he doesn't mind if they are introverted or extroverted
girls who can get nasty when her, her friends or family get talked badly about
girls who are kind and caring >>
girls who care about animals and get excited around babies
girls who pretend to be mad at people but smiles when trying to ignore them
girls that tease him as a joke
likes girls that are loud and bubbly and struggles to be quiet (even in awkward situations)
girls that have multiple laughs
girls that get grumpy easily but can be talked out of it with smt as simple as a kiss
^^girls that get scary when they are mad
girls that like to focus on the bright side of things (even if they fail and start crying) because they tried.
Looks
brunettes with long hair, slightly wavy. if you don't have that its fine but it's his favourite on girls.
likes girls with brown/green eyes
likes girls who are shorter than him, it kind of puts him off if they are taller or same height because he likes being to one helping you get things from high up.
girls who have soft eyes but get cold when pissed off
girls of all colour, he does not care.
Like Fred, he loves thighs, it's just something about them ig
he likes tits and ass the same.
^big but not TOO big
doesn't care about the weight, because he ADORES chub, something to grab onto. but it's too a certain level because then it's just unhealthy.
^^he cares about how they take care of themselves and their hygiene
^that being said, he doesn't mind acne or stuff
wouldn't judge stretch marks, he has them too from his big growth spurts and from the muscles he got from being a beater
chubby cheeks >>>. he finds them adorable and wants to squish them
girls that have nice smiles
he likes small imperfections
girls that look like they could be a bitch but turn out to be a total sweetheart
to sum it up, he adores all women
he'd be the guy to tell you why he doesn't want to continue dating you in the nicest way he can.
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#fred weasley headcanons#george weasley headcanons#weasley twins#fred weasley#george weasley#x fem!reader#headcannons#oliver phelps#james phelps#hp headcanons
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How do you cope with loneliness? My friends are so important to me but sometimes I feel like I can't fully relate to them anymore, and I just think about how they would hate me if they knew I was GC. I have TIF and even a few TIM friends that I love and cherish very dearly because I can see that they've just fallen victim to a toxic ideology feeding their body dysmorphia and self-esteem issues. But I can't tell them how genuinely worried I am about their mental health or send them detrans testimonies that I think they would relate to because they'd think I was some hateful violent monster that I'm not. Even the content creators that bring me joy and comfort are all so fiercely anti-TERF and it just makes me sad. I don't want to hurt anyone. I even distanced from the radfem community a bit because I felt like I was becoming too hateful towards men and TIMs when I truly believe many of the ones in my life are just trying their best and fell victim to a manipulative ideology that myself and other women also fell for. It's not that I wish I was still a TRA, because I feel much more at peace internally with my identity and my belief system, but I don't know if I can say peaking has made me happier overall. I feel like I don't fit in anywhere now. Making radfem friends helped a little bit but it's not the same as being around people I've known for years and gotten close to for reasons other than this one shared belief. I don't just want to abandon them all. And it's FRUSTRATING to see people spew misinformed fearmongered nonsense and not be able to actually help them dissect those beliefs. Feeling like the only one who sees things for how they really are, but forced to play along regardless, is just so restrictive and isolating.
To be completely honest with you, I don't have a great answer. I've been lucky to have one or two close friends at a time to whom I can tell everything, including my uncensored feminism-related beliefs. I've also been (and currently am) in friend groups with multiple people who identify as trans or are dating someone who identifies as trans, and have had to keep my thoughts and opinions to myself to keep the peace. I agree it's incredibly difficult sometimes, and I know a fair few of them would instantly drop me if they knew I was a "terf". It's kind of funny because I know some of them have an inkling of what I think about the issue, but say nothing so they don't have to fight with me. If anyone asked my opinion directly, I wouldn't lie, but I admit that I lie by omission.
It is hard to watch the ones who take the medicalization route hurt themselves. My ex girlfriend and I still talk, she's a they/them nonbinary now and despite always and still being very feminine and never expressing discomfort with her body before (including posting thirst traps often,) she wants to get a mastectomy soon. It sucks because of course after having looked into this phenomenon for so long, I'm well aware of the complications and side effects that can result from a major procedure like this: phantom pain/itching, extensive and restrictive scarring, the risks of infection and necrosis, and of course the risk of regretting having an entire organ unnecessarily removed from your body later on when it's no longer fashionable to do so. It sucks that voicing even the mere suggestion that it might be a bad idea is enough to have you shunned as an apostate. I genuinely care about her and I would feel similarly if she was having any other radical cosmetic surgery like breast implants or a BBL. At the end of the day, our friends will make their own choices regardless of how we feel about it, and the only thing we can really do is be there for them in the end.
I feel similarly to you in that I don't want to hurt anyone, only to protect people and especially women from the harms that are intrinsic to trans ideology. Unfortunately, you can't help anyone who doesn't want to be helped. Sometimes though, you can play dumb and ask questions that might get them to think a little bit more about the rhetoric they're repeating. For example, I often go out for drinks with coworkers, one of whom is a she/they nonbinary woman. One time she said something about how she couldn't be a full they/them because she's still 'girly' sometimes. I said something like "doesn't it seem kind of regressive to associate how feminine you are with how much of a woman you are? what about butch lesbians?" She didn't have an answer and brushed it off, but I could see the cogs turning a bit. Playing the uninformed normie pointing out the obvious sometimes gets them to realize how twisted the logic in trans echo chambers can be. And I think sometimes expressing your disagreement with the dogma can show your friends, who know you well and know you're a good person, that, contrary to what they've been told, not everyone who disagrees with gender ideology is an evil nazi out to slaughter transwomen in the streets.
But yes, in general, it is very very isolating to hold radical feminist beliefs. I'm sorry you're going through it. One thing to remember is, there are tons of women even in your general vicinity, who like you, don't buy into gender rhetoric but aren't saying anything in order to preserve their safety and social lives. I do believe that as the world seems to be becoming more aware of the reality of the situation, more and more people will feel able to be open about their dissent, and it will become less of a fringe opinion as the flaws in the ideology are exposed. Here's hoping I guess. Keep your chin up anon.
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could I send in a request for Edward (Twilight) if you write for him separately :>
Edward Cullen X reader ~ You Wimp
Warnings: Idk how to do warnings I never do cause I can't stand them but talks of K*lling ones self is here so beware. Who knows might be a gaslighter involved.
Hi lovely anon! Ofc I do write for just about all Cullens and other separately I just love poly because 1. There is not a lot and 2. I can never choose who I want so I go for all half the time. Anyways I hope you like it! Thank you all for the support! I'm loving the request that are coming through btw! I'll get to them when I can, love. <3
Word count: 1034
Time it took me: 1 hour
"Why are you staring at me?" You asked Edward while turning to look at him. Currently you too were currently in the woods together. Alone just how you liked it. But his intense eye contact made you feel giggly. You were just trying to read right now.
"What do you mean?" Edward said, basically fluttering his eyelashes in his own little way.
“You know what I mean don’t try to play dumb you sparkly mind reader.” You laugh pushing his shoulders playfully, making him smile.
“You're just so beautiful you know that?” He said, again staring at you with those loving eyes of his.
“You look like a love-stuck fool.” You said softly reaching up to stroke his check.
“I can’t say that you are wrong. I’ve waited for you for as long as I could remember.. I never thought you would come to me.” Edward said doing the same to your cheek.
“Maybe I just wasn’t born yet.” You laughed in his face. Once again making him smile.
“You are everything I could’ve ever wished for. No matter how long it took you to get here I am forever grateful for you and your love.” He said, pulling you closer into him for a kiss.
The kiss was everything you knew he felt for you. The way his lips moved against yours was intoxicating. The way his cold skin brushed against your warm ones brung a shiver to your body that only would happen with his touch. The way he was always so gentle with you, even though you always would tell him that you can handle it. He can let go. He never did. He wanted to make sure you were safe from anyone and everything. Including himself.
With these thoughts he pulled away from the kiss. Once again holding himself back.
“You make me crazy.” He said looking at you with dreamy eyes.
His words made you smile like they always do.
“I know. Now can you take me home Charlie is waiting for me.” You stated.
“I wish I could keep you here with me forever.”
“Too bad you don’t have forever because you refuse to change me but you know.” You said standing up gathering your things.
“Why do you have to bring this up?” Edward said, holding his head in immediate frustration on the topic.
“Because Edward you want forever when you know damn well forever is to not be had unless I am changed. What if one day I decide to go on a roller coaster and the ride falls apart cuz someone left a piece of gum on the track. Or what if I’m running from somebody and I don’t notice and I hit my head on a tree huh Edward? Then what! What will you do?!” You shouted but then backed down once you realized you were screaming at him.
“Carlise will fix it. He’ll always help and do his best-”
“His best may not be enough and you know it.” You said, your eyes following him as he stood up.
“I’d only hope that you would come to forgive me as I joined you in the afterlife, If there be a side for me with you.” Edward said.
You blink away the tears in your eyes that came with his words. You couldn’t bare the thought of Edward killing himself just so he could be with you. Were you really that important to him as he says you are? A part of you believed him. The other part of you said that this couldn’t be. You never thought anyone could love you enough to do something like that to themselves. Thinking of it yourself you don’t believe that you could live without him yourself either.
It would put a damper on your future of dating forever. The trust issues you always have would become 10x worse. You’d always think back to him. Edward. You’d always compare your potinect lovers to him. From the first moment you laid eyes on Edward Cullen you’ve seen yourself with him. That was your man from the minute you said Hi.
You always wondered if you manifested it or if it was just fate.
“You’d kill yourself? To be with me?” You questioned frowning a little.
“I’d do anything to be with you y/n.”
“Besides, turn me?” You said looking up at him to which he sighed in response.
“Your my light, My life, My soul. I couldn't do that to you, you have to understand that.” Edward said, frowning. His eyes searching your face. You could tell he was trying to read your mind but he couldn’t. He never could. You weren't necessarily a shield but everytime he tried to read your mind he’d get hit with a wave of overwhelming thoughts. Everything was always jumbled up. Nothing ever made clear since if you tried. And if he tried for too long the voices or thoughts would start screaming at him forcing him away. At least that's how he explained it.
“I can try.”
“Thank you, do you want me to take you home?” He questioned.
“Yeah, make sure I don’t die on the way. You know, I don't want to ruin our couple of years too early. That wouldn’t be so kind of me now would it?” You said giving him a soft smile to try and tell him you were okay with it for now, but also that you weren’t done fighting him for forever and a day.
“You're never gonna stop till I said yes are you?” Edward asked with a slight smile on his face.
“Nope, not until the day I die, Even then who knows I might haunt you.” You said turning your back to him and starting to walk away.
Behind you you heard Edward laugh making you smile even more. You always loved his smile. You loved being the reason for his smiles and laughs.
“I love you.” He said. You heard him walk with you now.
“I love you too.” And you were left alone with your thoughts and the presence of your sparkly vampire. That you would love till the day that you die.
#edward cullen#edward cullen x reader#twilight#twilight x reader#cullen romance#x reader#reader insert#oneshots#cullen x reader#cullen poly
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I'm so happy about Imogen and Laudna but I can't help but feel sad about FCG, and I think I've worked out why.
When we compare what Imogen and Laudna have with FCG and FRIDA, it makes it clear the difference between a long and true love built on friendship and a romance built on infatuation. These two automatons finally met someone they had a bunch in common with and immediately fell in love, Romeo and Juliet style. As in stupid love. Romeo and Juliet were young, dumb and full of daggers. FCG only has a few years of memories and has been blown away by this more put-together version of themself. Suddenly, they were ready to attach all their self worth to this person, to the point where just a bit of attention from FRIDA is enough to distract FCG from their impending breakdown.
And now FRIDA is gone, and they know they have a job to do and need to be fine. They can't afford to let themselves feel abandoned or lonely. They try to downplay their own feelings, try to minimise their pain. That's what they need to do to be useful. Suddenly they are back in the company of the people they care about most in the world, but it's a little colder. Nobody cares about FCG the way FRIDA does. Except, maybe...
Ashton and FCG FINALLY have a one-on-one chat with each other, but while most people seem to be celebrating them supporting each other and being happy for each other, I'm looking at it like
Because Ashton is having a manic episode. I've been there. They are there calling themself worthless, calling themself ineffective. They are trashing themself and swearing to turn over a new leaf, be useful and heroic. They are on a mission, moving so quickly and purposefully that everyone around them seems to be slowing down. Suddenly they are frustrated and disgusted by the same self destructive behaviour that has always been woven into their character. And hating it in themself, they start to hate it reflected in others. Especially FCG, who deserves better, and they've always thought so. But success! FCG is in a loving relationship now. It's different from their weird, co-dependent friendship. Because of course it is. Now surely FCG has a reason to live. And Ashton can finally relax and stop trying to save FCG. They can stop focusing on themselves and focus on the goal. After all, they both feel better now, right?
Right.
FCG, on the other hand, is hearing Ashton go off and feeling happy for them! Because FCG is just as brain broke as Ashton. FCG thinks it's cool and normal to throw yourself into a new lifestyle because you don't like or trust yourself. They just committed themself to the worship of a goddess they barely know! And also the Changebringer!
"I am so tired of saving you from yourself."
What a thing to say to FCG, who is constantly trying to save everyone else. Ashton doesn't mean it in a bad way, they are just not seeing the full picture. They think FCG's slef destructive problems are kinda solved now. FCG has a boyfriend after all.
To be clear, FCG isn't offended either. They would be tired of saving themself too. They are already pretty convinced of their own lack of value, beyond their utility to others. In the future, I think they'll hesitate to tell Ashton when they're not doing well. Because Ashton was so happy when he thought he didn't need to save FCG any more.
They're still close to snapping. They will probably snap soon. We will just need to wait and see what happens when they do.
But what do I know, it's fuckin Sam Riegel, he will probably have FCG double down and become a full blown Gods squad religious nut and still make us cry somehow.
#fcg#critical role spoilers#cr 65#critical role#cr fcg#cr frida#cr spoilers#ashton greymoore#cr ashton#imogen temult#cr imogen#laudna#cr laudna#imaudna#sam riegel
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A Type One Diabetic's List of No-Nos for Non-Diabetics
This is a guide for non-diabetics to better understand what NOT to do when interacting with type 1 diabetics. This is meant for educational purposes and is based on my opinion and experience. If any T1Ds want to add their own suggestions, feel free!
(Note: The things on this list probably somewhat apply to type two diabetics too, I just have no experience with that so I can't comment.)
Dear non-diabetics, please:
Don't make insensitive jokes. Saying stuff about "getting diabeetus" because you're eating too much junk food is really annoying and simply not how it works. Yes, my friends and I make dumb diabetes jokes, but that's because they've talked to me and know I enjoy specific types of jokes.
Don't act like it's my fault/choice. I didn't get diabetes because I did anything wrong. Nothing about my lifestyle caused me to get diabetes. I was born with it. Implying otherwise really pisses me off, especially if you act like somehow I deserve this.
Don't touch my tech. Please don't touch any of my diabetes technology without my permission. It's literally attached to me!
Don't ask for/steal my food. I'm totally open to sharing snacks, but not after I've counted the carbs and not if I'm eating it because I'm low! In other words, I might need that food for my health, so please don't take it!
Don't pity me and treat me like I'm less capable. I'm not. I can do everything you can do. Yes, the disease sucks. I appreciate empathy and you can totally be mad at it with me, but please, no pity. Just be understanding if I'm struggling or having a bad diabetes day.
Don't compare the things I don't eat because of my diabetes to your voluntary diet. When I say that I don't drink full sugar pop (unless I'm low) telling me that "you understand, you're not drinking it either because you're trying to lose weight" isn't helpful. I totally understand that you're trying to sympathize, but it makes me really frustrated because you get a choice and I don't, so it's not the same in the slightest.
Don't call diabetics "Cyborgs" unless you have their permission or they call themselves that. It's a common label because many diabetics have technology attached to them to help them manage their diabetes, making them, technically, part machine like a cyborg. Some diabetics feel like it's dehumanizing and makes them feel different and disrespected. Others, like myself, (it's literally in my username) fully embrace the title as an excellent and fun part of their identity. Make sure that you know how someone feels before you call them that!
Don't be afraid to ask polite questions! As long as it's not the only thing you ever talk to me about, I'm totally happy to answer questions about my diabetes. There is a lot of misinformation and misunderstandings out there and I would love to try and clear it up and share accurate information!
I'm sure there is way more I'm not thinking of at the moment, but the baseline is: be kind! Being diabetic isn't easy, but interacting with kind people makes it better.
Thank you so much for reading!
#type 1 diabetes#diabetes#t1d#t1diabetic#cyborg#actually diabetic#living with diabetes#list#textpost#cgm
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I love your writing so much! Your Yuu OC is so cool and I am so obsessed with their energy <3
Writing request time~! Can I get some headcannons of Yuu visiting all of the twst clubs for the first time?
HI FRIEND! Sorry this took me so long to do!
But ok, so I actually have this planned out as a chapter in my main story fic. So this is a perfect way to get it all written out for myself!
BUT ONTO THE ASK! MY YUU'S FIRST IMPRESSION OF THE NRC CLUBS!
BASKETBALL CLUB
Hi Jamil~ Flirty to the max, making him miss the shot he was trying to do
Isn't into sports in the slightest, but wanted to see what was offered at the school
Is honestly, too physical to play basketball, she'd be elbowing people in the ribs and Floyd would be supporting her
So for the safety of the other teams, Yuu was not allowed to join
Promises to come to the games to cheer for Jamil and Floyd (And Ace, but fuck him)
TRACK CLUB
Not a chance in hell. Boobs too big to be running around
Made fun of Deuce for thinking the school would have what is basically a motorcycle club
Did tell him it was a good choice of club since he wanted to be a cop in his future
Left the second Vargas showed up
BOARD GAMES CLUB
"Oh cool, Ortho's brother" "I have a name." "I don't care."
Liked the idea of the club, but couldn't see themselves actually joining. Enjoyed making Idia think they were gonna join
First meeting with Azul takes place here
Told them about the concept of 'The Game' and let that seed of chaos be planted into Idia's head to use against Azul at the most random of times (Sorry I made you lose UnU;)
EQUESTRIAN CLUB
"How much money does this school have?????"
Another they had no intention of joining but was really interested in watching
Later on, they help out with basic horse care if free time permits
Yuu: Wow this school really has whole-ass horses on campus?
Silver:
Silver: As opposed to??? Half-ass horses???
Yuu:
Yuu states only one 'Funny Bitch' can be in a club at a time and Silver clearly holds onto his title well
LIGHT MUSIC CLUB
HI KALIM!
If Yuu had a will for public performing this would be their club! sadly they don't so they didn't join officially.
Yuu still has their music library so they share their world's music with them a lot later on.
Not a member, but will pop in from time to time to do a jam session with them
Lilia gets her a shirt that says 'LMC #1 FAN' on the back as a gift
SPELL DRIVE CLUB
Another sport club that was interesting, but not something they'd do
Only goes to the games if dragged there by the other firsties but is an aggressive fan for Epel
Kepting asking Leona dumb questions because he was trying to sleep DURING TRYOUTS
Yuu likes the concept of Spell Drive, just doesn't have the care to really play or watch it
Has told Epel he should hit someone with his broom though
SCIENCE CLUB
Trey says 'No' with a smile
He's not TRYING to kill Yuu's budding passion for magical sciences, he's TRYING to protect the masses from the bioweapon they're probably gonna make on accident
Rook is so excited, he wants Yuu to join the club so badly
Trey knows Yuu will either make something that will actually kill someone or would drink something they're not supposed to on accident and die.
Yuu was not allowed to join the science club UnU
MOUNTAIN LOVERS CLUB
Honestly, feels so bad for Jade. Dude's clearly got a passion for his hobby and wants to share it with others
But also "Jade are you actually confused why no one wants to join your club and be alone with you in the fucking woods?????"
Not too excited for all the hiking the club seems to be (Interest is peaked at the opportunity to pet a bear though)
Promised Jade if they didn't find a club to join by the end of the day, they'd circle back and join his club
"I'm friends with your brother, you can't make me disappear that easily" "We'll see~"
FILM RESEARCH CLUB
What are you researching????
Honestly, the whole time just asked Vil questions in an attempt to frustrate him and point out how the club was a THEATER CLUB more than a Film Research club
Ends up joining because they ARE a theater club kid and is more than willing to take on the backstage work, that's their favorite part
Does end up being known as having infamously bad movie tastes and ended up traumatizing the whole club via trying to prove a point to Vil by sharing a movie from their world
OFFICIAL MEMBER OF THE FILM RESEARCH CLUB~!
GARGOYLE RESEARCH SOCIETY
Didn't know Malleus even had a club until he told her that night
Malleus didn't know the club fair was that day
Yuu shared their pint of depression ice cream with him while he pouted
Compromised in simply joining him on his walks or letting him info dump about a new gargoyle he found or his favored styles
Yuu will walk around abandoned areas themselves sometimes and take pictures to show Malleus to ask if he knows the gargoyle or not
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I. Am in the mood to be mean today. Savanaclaw in deep in a heat, but you've tied them up so they can't touch themselves or you while you put on a nice little show for them...See how long it takes for them to beg for you to mark up their throats and fill them with your cock
Horny savanaclaw boys live rent free in my mind! Thank you for requesting!
Mean (ft.savanaclaw)
Warnings: amab!gn!reader
a/n: all characters are aged-up and depicted as 18+ y/o
leona kingscholar
° honestly, it's a wise decision to tie leona up, because he gets too horny when in heat. He doesn't let you leave for a moment, demanding you to fuck him dumb
° leona acts tough and denies that he wants something from you. Yeah, it's uncomfortable not being able to touch himself and you, but leona is too prideful to ever admit it
° that is until you start pleasuring yourself in front of him, showing leona what he's missing. It does make him whiny, yet he still acts as if he doesn't want your cock
° I'd say it takes him about an hour of watching you, before he breaks down in tears, begging to be stuffed full of your dick. If you're feeling extra mean, you can tape a vibrator to his tip and leave leona alone, he will be dumb by the time you're back
jack howl
° first of all, jack is too embarrassed to tell you when he's in heat, he tries so hard not to show how much he wants to ride you, but eventually you find out. Bad boys need to be punished, and jack knows that
° he accepts being tied up and is genuinely sorry. But it still doesn't make his erection any less painful, and you touching yourself doesn't help at all
° yet jack doesn't complain to you, he knows he's done wrong and you're just teaching him a lesson. A very cruel lesson indeed. Honestly, jack wished you just left him alone in the room for hours, instead of torturing him
° it takes jack about half an hour to start begging you to touch him, fuck him, use his mouth however you like, just do something to him. He's very sorry, and it shows with how much he's crying, so please forgive him just this once
ruggie bucchi
° oh this is such a nightmare for ruggie. When he gets in heat, ruggie needs you more than air, he craves for your touch, so if you tie him up ruggie gets so frustrated
° and if you start pleasuring yourself, it makes ruggie feel so betrayed. He didn't even do anything bad, so why are you ignoring him when he needs you the most?
° ruggie wants to be mad with you, but the faces you make, the sounds you produce, and the sight of your cock just make ruggie go insane. He tries to ignore the biggest urge to be marked all over his body and be fucked dumb, but it's too much
° it literally takes him ten minutes to start begging you to fuck his hole, he is just too needy. Heats are always intense with ruggie, and he love-hates it. Please, don't be too mean to this little hyena boy, he promises to be good, just fuck his brains out
#twisted wonderland#twst#twisted wonderland hcs#twst hcs#twisted wonderland headcanons#twst headcanons#twisted wonderland x reader#twst x reader#leona kingscholar#leona kingscholar x reader#jack howl#jack howl x reader#ruggie bucchi#ruggie bucchi x reader#sub!character#sub!twst#sub!twisted wonderland#dom!reader#dom!gn!reader#amab!reader
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𝐿𝓊𝒸𝓀𝓎 𝒯𝑜 𝐻𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝒯𝒽𝑒𝓂
Ship: Stronger Together (Wrench x Delsin x Kaden)
Words: 815
Warnings: Just Kaden is sad for no reason lol
Summary: Kaden has the deep blue, their two loves help them out of their own head.
So, I couldn't write anything so I channeled my feelings and frustrations to make a comfort fic~ Actually tagging people this time! :D
Divider by @/benkeibear
Low. That was the word to describe how Kaden was feeling. They couldn't really pinpoint where it was coming from and that alone was causing Kaden to feel frustrated with themselves but it felt like an endless tiring cycle. Be frustrated and then feel really sad for no apparent reason. Thankfully, they had some people to snap them out of their funk.
Kaden trailed out into the living room to see Delsin resting on the couch, his legs sprawled out and hung over the arm of the chair, his eyes were closed and Kaden couldn't tell if he was sleeping or not, either way, they trailed over to him and gently crawled up on him and rested their head on his chest.
"Oh.." Delsin's voice filled the room, it was groggy, yeah.. he was asleep. His arm moved to wrap around Kaden. "What a nice surprise."
Kaden didn't say anything and nuzzled their face into his chest.
"you okay?" he asked as he started to gently rub their back to which Kaden only responded by shaking their head no.
"How can I help?" Delsin frowned, his voice holding concern.
Kaden shrugged their shoulders.
At that moment Wrench walked into the room his mask flashing to exclamation marks followed by slashes in the opposite direction of one another to signify sadness "How come he gets cuddles and I don't!" he hummed, a playful tone in his voice.
"I didn't ask for them, they came to me…Kaden's not feeling well"
Kaden shifted up and off Delsin as he moved as well until they were both sitting on the couch together, Wrench soon followed and sat down on the other side of Kaden. Instantly he reached over, gently rubbing Kaden's back.
"What's up? What has you looking so down?" Wrench asked gently.
Delsin and Wrench could see the tears welling in Kaden's eyes as they stared off into the ground, Their voice breaking when they spoke out "I don't know" the last part coming out as a choked sob and the tears finally fell.
It took both Delsin and Wrench a fraction of a second before they were both hugging Kaden on either side of them. They knew that sometimes Kaden's emotions would run high and could be rather negative for no apparent reason.
"It's okay, don't need a reason to feel down." Delsin hummed softly
"and before you say it, you're not a bother~" Wrench followed.
"I feel like it though.." Kaden sniffed.
"Well, you aren't, if you were do you think we'd stick around? You're never a bother. We understand you have high emotions that even you can't understand at times. We'd never belittle or judge you for them." Wrench sighed softly.
Delsin pulled away enough to look at Kaden "A gentle reminder that it's okay to not be okay.." he reached up and wiped some of Kaden's tears.
"Is there anything at all we can do for you right now?" Wrench asked softly.
"I just..I just need a distraction from myself for a little while..I don't really know how to do that though" Kaden inhaled deeply, trying their best to not start crying again.
"Done," Delsin said as he stood up. "Let's order some food and watch some movies. How does that sound?"
Kaden looked up at Delsin and nodded silently.
"Ouh! Then maybe we can play that racing game you like so much, you know with the missiles and stuff" Wrench said enthusiastically.
"We can IF SOMEONE doesn't launch their controller across the room because they exploded!" Delsin stares directly at Wrench while Wrench's mask flashes to two backslashes.
"JUST BEFORE THE FINISH LINE! My anger was justified! You blew my ass up just before I crossed!!"
"Well, should have saved your defensive weapon~" Delsin cooed with a dumb grin on his face.
"Yeah well you should use your….your…shut up!" Wrench growled
"uh huh~" Delsin teased.
"You're a menace" Wrench shook his head.
Kaden couldn't help but let out a small snort of laughter as they recalled the memory and it was like music to Kaden's husband's ears. They were both happy that their silly bickering over a video game could get them laughing.
The rest of the night was full of food, fun, and laughter. Wrench and Delsin had succeeded in cheering Kaden up, they were having such a good time they forgot that they were feeling horrible just hours before.
It was in these moments that Kaden felt like the luckiest person in the world, to have not one but two people in their life who actually cared about them and instead of judging them or invalidating their feelings they supported them and would do anything in their power to make sure Kaden could start to feel more like themselves when times were hard. They cared deeply but more important than that, they understood and Kaden would always be grateful for that.
Tags: @heatobrienswife || @ama-ships || @dragonsmooch || @roboraindrop || @mahitoslittlebird || @kylars-princess
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So you've mentioned that you like all the Soulsborne games, not just Bloodborne, but which Soulsborne was your first exposure to the series? What made you want to check them all out, and what is your favorite thing about them (each individually or in general as they also have reoccurring themes? nobody trolls people in power like they do xd) .
Also I can't forget you asking me about Creighton so I assume you like DS2 as well (rare but huge W in these trying times vvhjgjjg). Who are your DS2 favs? 🌛
I need you to know that I had to pause for like one hour after getting this ask because I got so excited to respond to it that I couldn’t think straight enough to properly manage a reply with actual words. in fact what I’ve written down here isn’t as eloquent or articulate as id want it to be but. autism works in funny ways so the best I can do rn is say words and giggle to myself with glee
im putting the reply under a cut bc it’s long af also lmao
the first dark souls was my initial exposure to the series as a whole! I got into it some years ago but I don’t think I was as invested in it then as I am now. I’ve always loved the themes of the series and the gameplay was, despite all the frustration, very fun and engaging so I wanted to check out more souls games after it. Dsi remains my favourite game of all time along with bloodborne btw! I would blame it on nostalgia but honestly the game really does have so much to offer. dark souls i meatriding is very cliche but there’s a good reason for that yk. Nothing teaches you patience like dark souls. (this game also has one of my two favourite characters of all time, gwyndolin! they managed to create a transgender allegory that speaks so closely to me- from familial expectations to the desire to be seen and recognised by the family that constantly neglects you and shames you for your very existence to the point where your identity ceases to exist because you are trying so desperately to belong. you try to forge yourself into the perfect shape but the core of the problem lies not in the shape of your identity, but your very existence. the unending cultist devotion to the people who made your life hell because this is all you have. I love gwyndolin so much)
I moved to dark souls ii after and honestly loved it (and still love it) very much. I feel like people give it too much shit and criticise it too quickly because of its reputation, which is a shame because it has so much to offer. The lore is so rich and the gameplay can get so fun if you just give it a chance. I agree that the start is difficult, but isn’t this true with every new fromsoft game you play? The thing I really love about soulsborne games is that there is a learning curve. Absolutely anybody can finish these games even if they are a terrible gamer because of the fact there is a learning curve. And sure it’s a frustrating one a lot of the time, but when you get comfortable enough with the mechanics and become more confident in playing, the experience becomes so so fun and rewarding. The estus problems people always complain about at the beginning of the game honestly stop being a noticeable issue after you discover items that help you replace this bother. I can 100% see why somebody would dislike dsii because it unfortunately went through developement hell, but I do believe that 98% of the time people judge this game too quickly and too harshly just because of the negative reputation it has. It sucks that they don’t give it a chance. I’ve seen so many people have an opinion on it (always a bleak one) without even playing it themselves also which is so dumb. At least play it man. Idk. It gets the second-installation-in-a-series curse I guess. dsii fans need to stick together and call it the best game oat to piss everyone else off
i got into bloodborne after dsi and dsii, i think I started playing bloodborne in mid 2021? Not that long ago but it has been my absolute favourite thing in the world ever since. SO much about it has kept me around because it manages to cater to so many of my general special interests lol. I’ve always loved cosmic horror and the victorian era of medicine. religion (and how those in power can use religion to control the masses) is another thing i always end up getting fixated on, so bloodborne was just the perfect thing for me. I love the themes! And characters! And designs! And gameplay mechanics! The world building! Everything is so so good. The thing that has mainly kept me around so intensely is how important exploration and personal interpretation is with this game. this is honestly my favourite thing about all spulsborne games actually- fromsoft never gives you any direct answers, and we are still finding new things about bloodborne several years after its release which is insane. It has just an endless amount of things to offer, I can’t say ENOUGH about it. I could write pages upon pages on why I love bloodborne so much, it’s difficult to keep my answer here concise. All I can say is it consumes my every thought every second of the day. Very good.
Dsiii was the last soulsborne game i got into (not fromsoft tho, that was elden ring, which i somehow only got into on august of 2023) i love dsiii because i love the dark souls series so so much in general, but for some reason it’s my least favourite out of all spulsborne games. The story and bosses are all super cool and i loved the conclusion it provided for the series, but it’s the one i find the least entertaining? or not the least entertaining, but it’s the one I think about the least. maybe it’s because i still kind of experience it as a. second version of bloodborne since i played bloodborne before ds3 lol. which is an unfair judgement but I can’t let go of that feeling it gives me for some reason. great game but I end up fixating more on the others fsr
navlaan is my favourite character in ds2 also! i love a little fucked up sorcerer. I need more grey thinking. good and bad mean nothing in the name of acquiring knowledge. nuance is required to understand navlaan and its why I often avoid reading stuff about him lol.
I’m realising my response to your ask focuses more on just my personal experience with the games rather than what it is within them that I love, I didn’t really get into detail about that at all lol but. I already said so much 💀
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Can you give an example of what are your yaoguai Golden Cicada's desires be would even be. Like I always thought the reason he fell asleep during class was that he was just a dumb teenager (cause cicadas emerge around 13-17 years even though most have a life cycle of 2-5) who'd over worked himself to the point of exhaustion and never asked for help. I thought that was point of all the kidnappings to force "Cicada" to realize that he needed help weather he liked it or not
Although now that I'm typing this out he might have been lonely. It couldn't have been easy to be an adult cicada and just kept on living, while the rest of his brood die after two months. Is he the only bug immortal? Does he have someone to confide in that understands?(Sorry if this is a lot, I just really like cicada)
Well anon in all honestly this is something I haven't even thought about that hard eawgrgrefed. If anything this was just based on my own personal and perhaps faulty sense of "falling asleep during a lecture doesn't seem like that big a deal" & "spending ten lives in the dust of Earth makes a lot more sense if his 'heedlessness' of Buddha was something much worse." And as per usual it needs to be acknowledged that the religious name "Golden Cicada" could be much more of a metaphor for rebirth/the 'casting off' of worldly desires than having anything to do with the actual insects. But we have very little information on who or what Golden Cicada "canonically" was, so that leaves a lot of room for interpretation.
AND SO THAT SAID you are bringing in some interesting potentials for this slowly formulating pre-Xiyouji tale anon! Because in JTTW we do encounter a number of yaoguai who earned their power and 'human' form from surreptitiously listening to the teachings of various boddhisatvas, and it could make for an interesting story if Buddha's second disciple started out life as an actual cicada who Buddha gladly granted a human form to in a similar way but deliberately when he saw the little insect listening to him intently. One one hand such a major transformation really would be an example of the mutability of all things and perhaps an act of mercy on the Buddha's part under the assumption that only humans have a chance of achieving enlightenment. And perhaps for some time (for we don't know how long Golden Cicada maintained the position of Buddha's second disciple) his life was one of peace and contemplation. But oh how things can change.
Maybe Golden Cicada came to formulate a sense that for as pleased and as proud as he was to be Buddha's second disciple, the others still saw him as less because of his insect origin. Maybe his status as Buddha's second disciple came with all kinds of pressure to always behave in an idealized way, something that could be very frustrating for Golden Cicada, especially if this was his first time being a human and having all these human emotions and having to follow all these human rules that he never experienced as a cicada. So maybe he starts putting more and more pressure and expectations on himself to figure out how he's Supposed To Act Like The Perfect Human without really understanding (or even at times refusing to accept) that these are things you can't simply immediately pick up and need someone to guide you, partially because of a holdover of the fact that cicadas rely on no one but themselves to survive from day one, and partially because he convinced himself he has an image to maintain as Buddha's second disciple. So he spends his nights studying later and later, and his days feeling like he can't tell anyone about his troubles because he needs to hold himself to a certain standard. And, well, there's no one in the heavenly realm or at the Thunderclap Monastery is quite like him. Even the Buddha's compassion couldn't erase that fact. It all makes Golden Cicada a little standoffish and surly, even while he still maintains his pride for his closeness to the Buddha.
And then one fateful day, in spite of all of his studies and efforts to maintain the image of the perfect disciple, Golden Cicada commits what seems to him an unforgivable act; he falls asleep while Buddha is giving a lecture. When he wakes up from the Buddha gently shaking his shoulder, he sees that all of the other disciples are staring at him. Some are whispering and quietly laughing, likely finding it hilarious that the prideful second disciple would have committed this error. The Buddha simply smiles and tells Golden Cicada to rest better at night before resuming his teaching.
But for the rest of that lecture, Golden Cicada doesn't pay any attention, too stung by humiliation and a bruised sense of pride. He was trying SO HARD to be the perfect disciple, and this is where it got him.
After the lecture, Golden Cicada wanted to flee, but instead he stays behind at the Buddha's request. He expects to be punished for having disrespected his teacher. Instead, however, the Buddha says that he knows about the late nights of study and the restless days of uncertainty and haughtiness that currently define Golden Cicada's life. The Buddha had been waiting patiently for Golden Cicada to actively tell his teacher about his troubles, but he sees that his second disciple has fallen prey to a very common mistake; that in his efforts to seem worthy of his position, Golden Cicada was allowing his character to diminish through a refusal to do anything that might appear to harm his image, even asking for help. The Buddha tells Golden Cicada that he is far from the first to do so, even stating that he himself had once fallen prey to this mentality; how in the Buddha's own youth, he never even thought to look "below" his high caste station, believing he would be forever happy as one of the best of humanity, when in truth he was nothing but an overindulged and spoiled prince who only learned about suffering in the world when he grew so bored of pleasure that he decided on a whim to see what lay beyond the palace doors. It was only after the shock of realizing how wrong his sense of himself and his understanding of the world was that he was able to start his journey of Enlightenment and become the Buddha.
What the Buddha thus wanted Golden Cicada to understand through this honestly minor mistake is that there's a vast abyss between striving to look like you're an Enlightened individual, and genuinely striving to be an Enlightened individual. That to truly achieve Enlightenment, Golden Cicada needs to comprehend how harmful his ego is even to himself; to accept that an active effort to cultivate oneself requires developing genuine and active compassion for all living things, including himself, so that he can forgive himself for the ignorance all are born within, and use that hard-won knowledge to take one step after another towards nirvana.
The Buddha understood that his second disciple was terrified his teacher would be angry. But of course he's not. Golden Cicada is still very young, younger than even the Buddha was when he first embarked on his own true steps towards Enlightenment. And the Buddha has experienced for himself how difficult it is to achieve this without a few human mistakes.
Golden Cicada is still embarrassed, but he is relieved that his teacher isn't angry with him. And in all honestly, he can see the merit of the Buddha's words. He thanks the Buddha for his understanding and for the lesson, and goes about his day feeling lighter than he has for a long time.
And yet...and yet Golden Cicada cannot (will not) ignore the light teasing some of his fellow disciples send his way. Every question that reveals his ignorance seems like a barb against his sense of self. His origin as a cicada still seems to stand as an unbreachable void between himself and every other entity in both heaven and at the Thunderclap Monastery. And though he cannot admit it, he starts to resent the Buddha for having taken him on as his second disciple. How could his teacher think that giving lectures was the way to solve the world's suffering when there was so much pain he could alleviate if the Buddha only utilized his unfathomable power and made everyone stop being so cruel? How could his act of turning one cicada into a human for a chance at Enlightenment be considered merciful, given that every last one of Golden Cicada's four hundred brothers and sisters, and countless cicadas besides, were doomed to die two months after they emerged from the ground?
Golden Cicada had heard the stories about even deities descending to Earth so that they could live free from the expectations of the heavenly court, embracing and indulging in all the joys that realm had to offer.
He decides to descend as well.
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He has, perhaps, lost all rights to call himself Buddha's second disciple, but Golden Cicada, now bearing multiple insect-like features upon his still mostly human form, finds he no longer cares. Because here there's lots of different people like him; spider yaoguai, scorpion yaoguai, centipede yaoguai, even nine-headed yaoguai insects, and no one bats and eye over any of this. But best of all for Golden Cicada is that NO ONE can deny his power or his high status. Having been the second disciple of the Buddha himself, Golden Cicada's cultivation translated in his yaoguai form to vast magical powers far above that of any other yaoguai he encountered. A number of these yaoguai asked to form a fraternal alliance with him, and for some time Golden Cicada felt that the loneliness which he struggled to ignore in heaven was assuaged.
But his obvious superiority against all others soon leads him to believe that, in truth, he neither wants nor needs any friends or even companions. What Golden Cicada slowly, insidiously, but absolutely comes to desire is pawns who will follow his every order, who will indulge his every whim, who will do everything they can to ensure that his sense of pride remains unchecked. At first the his fellow yaoguai desired his company out of genuine admiration, but now it is all tinged with ever-growing fear as to what Golden Cicada can and will do if they do not obey his commands. As strong as he may be and as much as he has learned about the martial arts in his time on Earth, of course, Golden Cicada has no desire to tangle with the likes of Erlang Shen or Li Nezha. So he keeps all his violence targeted at yaoguai, and grows rich off the treasures from their caves and the labor he forces upon them.
His pride in his power grows ever more monstrous.
On one of his raids against a yaoguai community, Golden Cicada massacres a troop of four-eared yaoguai macaques. The only one he spares is a strange little infant with six ears. For all its crying, he muses on how it would, tied to a post with a golden chain, make for a one-of-a-kind and amusing curiosity in his ever-expanding treasure rooms. A number of the macaques had thrown themselves at his feet and begged Golden Cicada to take everything he wanted, but not their precious infant. They were easy to slaughter.
He didn't kill them for any particular reason. It was just because they were stupid creatures in his way, and because he could.
Soon after, Golden Cicada has an encounter with an enraged monkey wielding an iron staff.
Nine lifetimes later, Tang Sanzang encounters this same monkey, and agrees to free him from under a mountain.
#anon answered#shark's scribbles#lmaooooo sorry that this turned into an entire fic but you got my brain chugging anon#jttw au#golden cicada#tang sanzang#i hope i did the buddha justice but of course don't fail to let me know if i could do better
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In another life. & History repeats itself..
(Merge post + The explanation)
A/N: Beware of Cursing and might also be Grammatical errors, and Yandere behavior, Inspiration of manhwas ahead.
Everyone this is the fully post of two separate posts, I add a explanation so it will help you understand the story better bc it doesn't really make sense, also i may or may not be posting anymore, after all i just posted those two as a entertainment but never thought would go viral but thanks to you all but sadly i will not post anything bc i will have my focus on the novel books i published there on wattpad and sooner have my original book too, that's all i have to say once again and thank you for understanding.
In another life.
Imagine your reincarnated husband!
Your reincarnated husband! Once died protecting you and the empire of sudden attacks was announced on your marriage day.
Your reincarnated husband! Died in your hands, blood is everywhere, especially around you. In devastated you kill yourself by slicing your neck, as you can't live without the person who loved you the most...
Silence filled the room, and then the next was nothing... Nothing but the silence of your sudden death with your only person you cherish the most. Two of you lay in the ground, pools of blood are everywhere around you two. A tragic life of both two lovely people who found themselves by fate itself.
The new emperor and empress had sudden news of dying because of a sudden attack that had happened.
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That was the tale of your childhood. The story tale you held dearly in your heart when you were a little child.
It was a pity, that the tale kinda reminds you of the empress who was once a duchess.
It was about a story between a duchess and a crown prince.
It was said that the duchess was mistreated as an outcast and a replacement real daughter of Duke, a 'lady duchess' as what people called the daughter of the Duke. The whole family neglected the duchess because she was just nothing but a replacement of the lady duchess who once went missing and never came back. The Duke tried to find his daughter, the one he cherished before she was gone. But suddenly stumble across the girl who look-alike her daughter, but the girl has dark red hair, her daughter has red hair and almost like peach-pink hair. The girl almost looked like the lady duchess herself, except for the hair color and the eyes. In exchanging words towards her, he adopted her not only for her to feel loved but for the replacement of his once cherished lovely daughter.
The brothers of the lovely lady duchess, were frustrated with the news of the fake lady duchess who was their "new sister".
Both of the father and her "brothers" never cared for her, never did, even if she acted a brat or spoiled one. They never once showed affection or worried towards her as they neglect her once she's in their presence.
The servants don't really care about her either. They make her starve, left out, and never serves her like a right duchess.
That was until she sneaked out of the duke household and somehow met her destiny..
The crown prince of the empire.
Some people just describe what the crown prince is, some will say, he isn't the favorite one as the people, especially noble ones, saw that the prince was also an outcast, but people assumed that the Emperor loved his half-sister and didn't have any time for the crown prince.
The crown prince's half-sister or his step-sister, the one destined to die at age 18 was once the Emperor's plan but it seems it backfired when he saw what she really is, just like her mother, his once a lover. The Emperor's true lover (the Emperor is too dumb and blind as fuck that he didn't even know that his lover who is concubine, just used him for the power and frame.).
The one that the emperor loved so much that he kept the kid around, pretty much of the dissatisfied and disagreement of the crown prince's statement.
The Emperor was known to be a cold and tyrant ruler.
A brutal one when it comes to his enemies.
'The crown prince is nothing but the heir of the throne', the Emperor said to his personal knight.
'Nothing but an heir' is what the crown prince thought. He knows, he knows yet can't accept it. He can't win his father's love and affection when it comes to his half-sister. So he stayed quiet and waited for the time to strike down and kill its enemy.
The Emperor loved the half-sister, but when it comes to him, HIS supposed to be a biological child.
The Emperor chose to neglect him and didn't really care about him after the assassination happened that resulted in the Emperor neglecting him. For all the Emperor's care, the heir can die, and the Emperor wouldn't help him or care for him.
After all, there's still one child to own the throne after all.
The crown prince is tired.
Tired of all of this.
If he can just confess everything to him then it would not be this mess..
Especially what happened in the past.
If the Emperor is not that stupid to fall in love with a plastic face of a lotus bitch then this should not be happening at all.
As the crown prince stands at the balcony, staring at the sky, moonlight shines brightly across his face. As he collected his memories then, he jumped off the balcony from the Palace he currently stayed with about 3 floors, he thankfully landed safely on the plant bushes.
The crown prince ran away, ended up lost somewhere, then he sat on the ground and silent crying filled the place as he felt worthless all of the time. But then he heard the noises towards him and when he looked up, he met the "fake duchess" which people talked about.
The fake lady looked at the child (the crown prince is older than the fake duchess btw) and asked. "Um.. Are you okay, why are you crying?"
Then the crown prince quickly wiped his tears and answered, "Y-yeah.. I'm okay..." and then, "by the chance, are you perhaps the new daughter of the duke?" the crown prince asked, the duchess froze in place and then answered in a low voice, "I.. I wouldn't call myself like that..." the duchess said.
The crown prince quickly understood and questioned a different one, like why are you here, and are you somehow lost too? And a bunch of talks right here and then. They started to get comfortable with each other and learn things from each other too, if they have enough time to meet each other that is. They would go to the same place where they first met.
But of course, we can't hide things so easily right?
When the crown prince reached the age of 18, his half-sister 14, there was an accident. Well the crown prince wouldn't call it a "accident".
Day by day the crown prince filled with envy and jealousy and frustration with his half-sister's actions and his father's words. That's when his sister hits her first celebration, the day where people will know about her and might be the day he will be replaced. So he instead had a plan to end his so-called family and end his suffering.
For many years of being miserable and being a mistake and just being neglected by your only biological parent who just chose some insect that isn't even fully blood related.
He chose to kill his father, his half-sister and everyone who served his father and sister.
Even for all the servants who choose to work here, it will be their last day.
They will be killed by his hands and his only hands.
Their end will be in his hands. And no one else.
When the news came of the Emperor's and the second Princess deaths and a massacre happened in the Palace!
The only survivor was the heir of the throne!
He explained in pain and traumatic expression as he tried to explain to the people of the empire that there were some bunch of the people who happened to be assassins and tried to assassinate his family, himself and the people who worked there, and not leave any witnesses.
In desperation, people believe his innocent act.
How funny..
Really people are easy to be fooled with. When the people of the empire believed his words, he smirked a little, happy about what had happened.
This is only the beginning of the terror of the people of the so-called empire.
Especially for the people who hurt his darling duchess..
History repeats itself..
Pt. 2 of In another life + Your reincarnated husband! Headcanon (at the start)
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That was the story from your childhood, you remembered the name...
It was "The fake duchess met the crown prince!"
At first, you thought back then it was a story but it wasn't, the story was called a "novel" you just found out back then, not too long ago.
It was published as a novel book that people read either on the Internet if they don't have the money to buy or the novel book itself.
You once thought that the duchess's past was like you, mistreated by others and neglected by your parents.
But that's okay, since you are already out of that hell hole anyway. That's what it matters..
Anyways, back to the topic, author.
...
Actually the one you talked about was, about the past only, so it means there are still events that are present in time when the duchess and crown prince were teenagers.
Most of the novel was about the duchess' view and then meeting the crown prince and then the next one, will be on the crown prince view. Mostly their childhood memories are shown there, through teenagers and adults where they become official rulers.
(not long enough because the sudden attacks strike in the empire, and it brings tragedy on the day where they're official news of being new rulers.)
The ending of the novel is mostly the end of the fate of two people.
The duchess and the crown prince.
But why does it feel like deja vu?
Like when the fake lady duchess met the crown prince was like...
It felt like you're the one who feels the feelings of the duchess...
But that doesn't matter anymore, probably another feeling of being single or you just felt nostalgic right now.
'Feels like a past life feeling?'
But, that matter should be dealt with later on.
Now, where were you?
Oh right, you just finished the work, great job!
Although it's a waste of time to do all these things..
You, as a reader, lived in an apartment.
You have to move out because your parents said 'you know it's time to move out? You have to learn to be independent, we can't always take care of someone like you.' they said.
Then you take that in your hands, by being an employee, to support your well-being and bills of the apartment you stayed with.
"*Sigh* it's late at night.. I think I have to do this tomorrow morning..." you sighed, feeling tired of the work you have done.
You clean up your table and then, when outside the company you worked with.
When you were walking through the crowded street, blending yourself in there, you suddenly thought of the sequel that the same novel author wrote of "The fake duchess met the crown prince." the sequel called, "We meet by the fate itself once again" where both of the duchess and the crown prince meet, but in the modern world though it's only a short sequel continues the novel story of "The fake duchess met the crown prince".
Where of course both of them knew each other's identity as the duchess and crown prince in their past life.
Because of a simple memory that brought them together once again, but this time is surely a happy ending.
When you were walking down the street, you suddenly bump into someone.
"Ack—!" you hissed at the pain of being bumped into someone, but little did you know, you were about to fall but someone suddenly caught you by holding your waist to support you so that you don't fall down to the ground.
When you open your eyes, your eyes straight look at the person who bumped you and saved you at the same time.
When you look at the person, he looks at you too. But sudden electricity rings from both of your minds.
Then you realize you're still being held.
You blush from the embarrassment and stupidity of not realizing it soon enough.
"Uh.. I'm sorry..." You said, taking small steps and making a space between you two. You look at the guy, the guy looks.. Puzzled? It felt like his thinking before he suddenly realized what's going on.
"Oh.. No, no, it's fine, after all it's probably an accident" he said, giving you an assured smile, you look and then look away because of embarrassment and feeling of awkwardness between you two.
And then he said this,
"If you don't mind me asking.. Have we met before? You looked so familiar yet so unfamiliar..."
You heard him, but then your mind suddenly brings the Flashback when you two felt an electricity together when you and him looked into each other's eyes.
The Flashback was nothing but a glimpse of a man holding a woman in his arms..
The appearance of the man was similar to the guy you accidentally met by bumping.
Even the smile is the same!
Because the man in the Flashback has the same smile!
You didn't reply, the guy looked worried but didn't say anything, he was about to go but you held his arm preventing him from going.
"I do have a memory of a man that looks like you, well glimpse of it.." you said, his wide eyes stare at you.
"You are... No, It can't be... There's no way.." the guy mumbled, the feeling is so familiar to him, it feels like the girl he met was the woman in his dreams and might as well include nightmares.
You don't even process the words you say, it's just like you were being controlled to say that.
"But I am not sure if we have met before." you said after, the guy calmed down, he looked at you, "It's fine, you don't have to... I'm sure in the near future or maybe now, you will be able to regain the memories like i did years ago.." he said to you, smiling gently, holding your hand, it's as if he knew you..
But you are sure that he knows about you.
Well your 'old' you of course, it's funny to know that you were reincarnated after your sudden death.
Without knowing he is also here..
And without knowing you are also a character that doesn't even exist.
Well, apparently he is also the same thing as you.
You smile as if all the memories that are from your old life are regained within you, you smile at him knowing that you two will be at peace now.
"Where the hell have you been in the past years..?" you asked, hugging him, your once-a-husband that died in your arms, came back alive this time.
"haha, I'm sorry if I'm late, my darling wife.." he said accepting your hugs, he knows your suffering, after all you two seek comfort together.
"Humph whatever, what's the matter is that you're here once again"
"I'm also happy for you to remember me and our past life though you regained it faster than me.." He pouted looking at you. "But, I'm sure you, no—we will have happiness this time."
He said as he looked at you with a long-lost same loving eyes again, you smile,
"Yes, we will."
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Now, the two lovers at last can rest assured.
After all, fate is the one who brought the two destined lovers.
The old true lovers who died because of its tragedy are now living their best lives in the world.
But, history may repeat itself once again.
EXPLANATION PART!
(Pt.1) In another life & History repeats itself, explanation about the past and how the story goes through.
The main male Protagonists : The HUSBAND
*The heir & the crown prince.
*Inheriting the throne after he was massacred and lying to the public saying, 'there's a assassination happening inside the Palace'.
*Born with royal blood and is a biological child and has a step-sister.
*The Emperor, his father, has a one-sided love for his mother, the previous Empress; she died while protecting him, their son from the assassination. And then the Emperor falls in love with the viscountess lady from the viscount family (before the assassination). So the viscountess lady becomes a concubine and soon enough has a child, who is his step-sister. The viscountess desperately wants a child so she could be the empress (bc she also wants to take down the previous Empress, who is still alive at that time. By making the Emperor divorce the Empress and her being the new empress. But that didn't work at all, as the biological child heard her plans and poisoned her after her pregnancy happened, and after the assassination.)
*The assassination happened when the viscountess lady can't take her anger off and send someone (plus the back ups cuz the Empress is not someone to underestimate with, as what people thought of her).
*And then, the sudden suicide death of the concubine which is the viscountess lady, was reached to the public, was killed by the poison after the assassination and the pregnancy happened. (it wasn't a suicide death)
(so what happened was:
-> The Emperor's one-sided love towards the Empress and falling in love with the viscountess lady.
-> The viscountess lady becomes the concubine and she clearly does not want that position but alas, it's the first step of her wanting to be an empress.
-> Has the time being passed by, the viscountess lady seduces the Emperor into making out and making him favor her more than his actual wife.
->The Empress was left out to take care of the child along with her loyal servants and soon, the first child born with royal blood was born at the age of five.
-> And then the assassination happens, as u can see above, the viscountess lady has enough and finally sends some assassins to kill her but she saw, through her living in the Palace, it wasn't easy to kill the Empress.
-> Few months after the assassination was ended and also the Empress's death. The biological child was seen walking through the hall, about to go to the room where the emperor stayed. He suddenly heard the viscountess lady, the Emperor's concubine, saying about the incident happened few months ago, and said it was her plan to become the Emperor's new wife and empress; her saying that her child should be the crown princess not him, as his looks reminded her of his mother. The viscountess lady was currently pregnant at that time, so he waited for the child to be born and after the pregnancy, a few weeks passed by, the death of the viscountess lady was spread around the empire.
-> Few days before the viscountess lady will give birth to the half-blood royal child which is his step-sister. The child of the Emperor and the pervious Empress plans to poison the viscountess lady's drinks and foods; order the servants to put poison on each foods or drinks she will get her hands on after she will gave birth to a so-called royal child and threatening them that if they told the viscountess lady or the Emperor that it was him who did it, not only he will fired them but also kill them along with their families, he isn't a heir or a Crown Prince for nothing. (this is the one of reason why people called him a brutal and cruel Prince for not being a favored one, they say, (ง'̀-'́)ง)
-> The servants of the pervious Empress couldn't do anything but to go along with the plan of the crown prince, 9 months had been passed after pregnancy happened, and this was the time where the Prince made his move, that is by ordering the servants to put a poison on everything that will slowly kill the concubine.
(who actually should become a empress the day after the Empress died but the Emperor was upset by what happen so the plan of the concubine was on hold; the time where the neglected and got blamed is also happened, in short the Emperor's hatred towards his own son and blamed & neglecting to his own son started at this time also I feel like this bitch is regret something..ಠ_ಠ)
-> And another death happened, words was spreading around the empire, some people said, the concubine dies because of someone poisoning her but no body was suspected at that time, then some of them said she dies giving birth, even tho she already done with the pregnancy but the Emperor didn't reveal it as much as the concubine disliked and denied the idea.
-> Though nobody knows who's real or not. The Emperor doesn't suspect any other than the poison. Though he doesn't know who really did it..
-> Now, the present is slowly approaching, the royal half-blood child who's related to the Emperor and his biological child, was now at age of 6 and is lost somewhere near the Emperor's palace and she wasn't aware of it, she was just looking around, trying to go back to the Palace where her mother once lived and died.
And the rest is history itself, (jk) the rest of it is shown in the novel itself. The thing is that in the novel, they only mentioned the mothers of the two siblings and mostly the one who cares abt them is the Emperor, (but since he's a bastard one, a blind fucking stupid, delusional one) he isn't really a good father.
And it isn't really explained, it's complicated like the writer here for example. This shit work draft should be, at least be done if they're just a motivated person but guess what? In real life stuff has been a shitty work only wasted time for them.
(literally here just want this to be done honestly (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ))
Also the side note/additional information: The Emperor & the Empress only has a political marriage, they aren't really loved each other since the empress is only used to pregnant a heir
(in short, the Emperor forced his way to the Empress without her consent).
And her family was a kingdom, 'was' the family of her, send her to the empire cuz in her kingdom, if a woman, a female child who got birth in a kingdom-bloodline is considered bad luck to the kingdom. So men there are considered as someone who will bring the kingdom a better one, in other words, they're considered as a superior especially if they have a family, a man, the father should be the one to follow and obey. While the female ones are y'know being treated as a slave or someone who is used to impregnate a male child, not female.
So her family sends her to the empire and marry the current emperor, which is the Emperor (honestly it's the bastard for me). The Emperor on the other hand is a handsome but bastard shit (but no one knows, bc he's a two face one, and the heir got his two-face phase shit. TAT..).
He isn't really in love with the Empress, but fell hard on the fucking lotus bitch (╬≖_≖) and yeah, i hope you knew how the story goes now cuz really this is the only thing this writer can give you.
Manhwa inspiration:
Who made me a princess
And a little inspired by 'The remarried empress'?
(really it's just that the viscountess lady has the same personality as rashta so not sure yet. Let's just say, its the personality not the social life bc the viscountess lady is from countess family so please don't attack me---)
Author's notes: Parentheses are the writer's way of communicating in a safe way, i think?
viscountess lady = The concubine
Empress = The once a princess
Emperor = The cruel & tyrant ruler with the attitude of an asshole.
Biological child = The crown prince & The heir of the throne
Step-sister of the biological child = second in line of the throne, and the viscountess lady's child (& the Emperor)
(Pt. 2) In another life & History repeat itself, explanation about the past and how the story goes through.
The Female Protagonist: The WIFE
*Known as the 'fake duchess' or 'fake lady duchess'
*Got adopted by the Duke to replace his once a lovely daughter.
*Ever since child, her mother died when giving birth to her. Leaving her with herself to take care of.
*Once she got adopted by the duke, she thought she would have a feeling of being loved. But that hope was crushed when she knew that she can't replace their heart that is full of void, losing their beloved real daughter. Because she's just an 'illegitimate child'. And a replacement of the position of a once 'Duchess'
*She first got hatred by her brothers, and her 'father' neglected her, won't even glance at her and help her when she's in desperate danger of society.
*Because of her 'brat-acts' or in other words, spoiled brat-acts, her reputation was ruined. Just because she spilled tea and hit a teen noble lady in a tea party and since then her reputation kept ruined by the time wherever she went, people kept looking at her disgust and hatred looks and always spreading a fake rumor of her.
(FUN FACT: THE WIFE'S BACK STORY IS ALREADY ON STORY OF 'IN ANOTHER LIFE' PRETTY MUCH EVERYTHING IS THE WIFE'S STORY OR THE 'EMPRESS')
*She used to admire her step-brothers.. But now she hates them. She hated them because when she needed them, they didn't help her. Instead they both glared at her in a cold way.
*Hell, even the servants there. Even if they know they shouldn't disrespect the one they served but yet they go against it.. She hated it.. She hates it, the fact that she has the power yet she doesn't have the authority to at least be herself. She wanted to shout out, but she knew nobody would hear her shouts.
*Days, weeks, and months went by.. Her realization came to her, she now realizes that nobody really is willing to give her the love that she once wished to have.
*By then, she knew she was nothing but a fool to everyone's view..
*Until she met the crown prince. The situation when she met the crown prince was okay, but not really what she expected, guess the rumors about him were wrong. She and the crown prince always hang out at the same place they first met, and would also talk through writing letters.
*Soon enough of time, the duchess grows with determination, clearing and gaining her reputation again, the problems that involve her, and she, working properly like a duchess she is. Through her hard work, it paid off, having trusted workers, along with a good reputation that speaks nothing but the truth.
(I truly don't want to detail everything but let's say, your family felt the guilt since the wife isn't what she was before especially (her) father of the Duke. Her and her step-brothers somehow get along but in reality, she was just faking the -'get along'- since she needs the support through her family members first. The Duke's family never know that their daughter or sister has already met the crown prince and even build a strong relationship (its friendship, everyone TAT) but the first brother is suspicious towards it but denies the feeling. AND after the massacre that happened in the Palace, did the wife know? Well... Of course she knows, as I said in Pt. 2 the two of them seek comfort and information from each other. BUT she didn't knew about killing spare that the crown prince made (which is killing everyone who despite and loves the duchess))
(NOW LET'S TALK ABT THE MAIN TOPIC OF THE 'IN ANOTHER LIFE & HISTORY REPEAT ITSELF'. THE STORY IS ABOUT THE HISTORY OF THE TWO NOBLES. THE ONCE A CROWN PRINCE AND A ONCE A DUCHESS. IN PART 1, IT TALKS ABOUT THE PAST OF THE TWO NOBLES AND IN THE START IS WHERE THE END OF THE 'STORY' OF THE TWO NOBLES. IN READER-INSERT, IT'S MOSTLY YOUR POV TALKING ABOUT THE 'STORY' ITSELF. AND MOVING FORWARD TO THE PART 2 IS WHERE YOU FOUND A MEMORIES SOON TO KNOW ABOUT THE 'PAST LIFE' MOSTLY KNOWING WHAT YOU ARE IS.
BUT ONE THING IS DIFFERENT, WHAT IS IT? ITS BOTH OF TRANSMIGRATION AND REINCARNATION. BUT IN TRANSMIGRATION IT'S QUITE DIFFERENT FROM WHAT I WAS PLANNING FOR THE STORY PLOT SINCE I PREFER NOT TO GO IN DETAILS TOO MUCH BUT IT'S ALSO MY FAULT NOT TOO T-T
ANYWAY, HERE'S THE EXPLANATION ABOUT THE WIFE AND THE READER ITSELF,
-> BOTH THE WIFE AND THE READER HAS THE SAME SOUL, SO BOTH OF THEM CAN CHANGE EACH OTHER'S BODIES.
-> SO LIKE, IF THE WIFE LOST CONSCIOUS, SO DOES THE READER, THEN THE WIFE & READER SWITCH SOUL, LIKE THE READER'S SOUL WILL GO TO THE BODY OF THE WIFE AND WHEN THE WIFE'S BODY GAINED THE CONSCIOUSNESS, THE READER IS MOSTLY THE ONE WHO WILL CONTROL THE WIFE'S BODY. IT'S THE SAME WAY AS THE WIFE'S SITUATION TOO. AND BY REMEMBERING THINGS LIKE HOW THEY LIVED IN THEIR OWN, THEY WILL SLOWLY GAIN THE MEMORIES BY EITHER SLEEPING OR A SUDDEN HEADACHE.
NOW I KNOW YOU WILL BE HAVING A BUNCH OF QUESTIONS BUT! IN THE FIRST PART OF THE STORY, IT EXPLAINS THAT THE WIFE'S BODY DIES BC OF SUICIDE (NOT ACTUALLY BUT SHE KILLED HERSELF SO YEAH) SO IS THE READER STILL CONTINUES TO GO INSIDE THE WIFE'S BODY? THE ANSWER IS BASICALLY A NO. WHY? BC THE WIFE'S BODY IS DEAD. MEANS IT WILL NOT CONTINUE TO BE LIVED ESPECIALLY SINCE THE TWO SOULS ARE SOMEHOW CONNECTED, THERE'S A POSSIBILITY THAT THERE WILL BE ONE SOUL GONE AND ONE SOUL ALIVE.
SO THE DUCHESS'S OR WIFE'S SOUL TRANSFERRED TO THE READER'S BODY AND THE READER ITSELF STAYED IN THEIR OWN BODY LIKE THE BOTH SOUL IS SHARING THE SAME BODY SINCE ITS ONLY THE RESOURCE THEY BOTH HAVE. MOSTLY THE READER'S SOUL IS INSIDE BUT THE DUCHESS'S IS THE ONE TO CONTROL THE BODY, WITH THE HELP OF THEIR MEMORIES, THE DUCHESS WAS ABLE TO REMEMBER HER 'DEAR HUSBAND'.
SO.. IN THE PART 2 BTW, THE READER'S SOUL IS STILL ASLEEP AND THE HUSBAND ALSO GAINED THEIR MEMORIES BC OF THE DREAMS AS WELL AS THE NIGHTMARES.
ACTUALLY THE STORY SHOULD BE TALK ABT THE 'REINCARNATED HUSBAND' SINCE I THOUGHT IT WILL BE A GREAT HEADCANON AND IS ACTUAL TITLE BEFORE IT GOT REMOVED BUT SINCE IT BECAME A STORY OPPOSITE TO WHAT I WAS PLANNED BUT HEY I THINK IT TURNED OUT OKAY? BUT PLEASE I KNOW SOME OF YOU HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY ABOUT THE 'TRANSMIGRATION IS THE SAME AS THE REINCARNATION' I KNOW THAT, I JUST MAKE IT LIKE THAT KIND OF IDEA SINCE I VERY LIKED IT. AS MUCH AS I RESPECT AND DON'T MIND WHAT YOU GUYS COMMENT ON PLEASE REMEMBER THIS IS JUST A WORK OF FANFICTION WHICH IS CREATED BY ME. THOUGH I DON'T KNOW IF THIS ACTUALLY EXPLAINS THE SHIT STORY HONESTLY TAT)
MANHWA INSPIRATION:
DEATH IS THE ONLY ENDING FOR THE VILLAINESS/ VILLAINS ARE DESTINED TO DIE.
THE REASON WHY RAELIANA ENDED UP AT THE DUKE'S MANSION.
Duke = The Head of the household
The Two step-brothers = One is the Heir and one is a General Captain.
The Fake lady duchess = A Once empress, ruler and the Fake duchess, illegitimate child.
The lovely daughter of the Duke = The child of the Duke who went missing for no reason.
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A/N: Everyone! As i told you before this is a merged post as i promised. And bc of my decision visit my wattpad pf bc i would not be active here anymore, but i still be having it in my phone but if my phone can't handle anymore then i be removing it, thank you and here it is:
#Imagines#transmigration#Reincarnation#reader insert#x reader#Headcanon#in another life#& History repeat itself#modern era#HusbandxWife#scenarios#Manhwa inspired#incarnation#yandere behavior#Merged post#+explanation post#Historical period#Reincarnated Husband#Transmigration Wife
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How does the body swap episode go in the Uncle Philip AU? Can't imagine that he'd be too happy with that.
Figuring out this episode in particular has always been a pain, but I think this finally motivated me to try and get it down so
Badly sketched visual diagram of who swaps with who!
The first three - Luz, Eda, and King are mostly the same, with King swapping with Hunter instead of Luz but the storyline for that is mostly the same.
Adding Hunter and Philip to the mix though… well, things get pretty interesting there.
Philip only really agrees because Eda jokingly threatens that if he doesn’t she’ll make sure he’s stuck with Hooty all day, and that isn’t a choice he’s willing to make. So, body swap it is! He knows it’s risky, but he’s taken care of the palismen for the most part, and besides if someone else’s mind is in his body, then surely they won’t even be able to act up.
So he thinks.
This, I’ve decided, works best as the storyline that reveals the true extent of Philip’s condition to the others, and Hunter gets to experience that first hand woo!
As I said, the plotlines with Luz, Eda and King stay the same, but I’ll talk about the stuff that would change, mainly Hunter and Philip, as well as a bit on the aftermath.
Hunter
Hunter’s reason for being the one to swap with Philip was due to his own argument which he made for both himself and for Luz. Philip had been incredibly overprotective and overbearing lately, acting as if they couldn’t look after themselves, despite having already learned a spell and Philip having trained Hunter how to fight from a young age. He claims how hard it is to constantly be underestimated, and how Philip has it easy because all he has to do is wave a hand and he can order them about however he pleases, even if it has nothing to do with whatever mischief they got up to.
By swapping place with his uncle for the day, Hunter has to take the place of parental guardian, and while bodyswapping certainly doesn’t change personalities, Philip’s inner little brother starts to show, much to Hunter’s dismay. Eda instructs that they have to stay together as that is, in the end, what their problem is about, and if they don’t do that they’re disqualified and automatically lose the bet. Obviously, neither of them want to be on House/Hooty Cleaning Duty, so they begrudgingly go along with it. Hunter is also mildly concerned for his reputation, what with King in his body and all. At least his uncle doesn’t have to worry about that.
Philip
Ah, the bitch himself. As mentioned previously, he’s been growing more and more protective of the kids, and ever more frustrated with their lack of concern for the situation they’re in. He frequently prevents them from doing anything that might get them in any more danger than they’ve already been in, and is also attempting to conceal his history with the place, so there’s that too. They’re too curious, too wild, constantly getting themselves into trouble and giving him more grey hairs in the process.
He doesn’t really see how this ‘bodyswap’ will help. Besides, his nephew being in his body and him being in his neice’s body just feels too weird and too extreme for a problem that could easily be solved through communication. As if he isn’t the same man that has on multiple times decided communication and telling the truth is overrated and stabbed his brother over it. But, you know. Philip.
The weirdest things about it, besides being short now, is how energetic he feels without the curse. He’s so distracted by that it doesn’t even click what that means for Hunter, too busy running about without care, completely forgetting the situation entirely. Like I said, inner little brother, and he’s on his way to give Hunter grey hairs.
What wacky shenanigans occur?
Gee, I’m glad you asked strange green text!
Everything goes wonderfully, until it doesn’t.
But let’s start with the stuff that doesn’t. And that’s Philip realising the position he’s in with his dumb kids, is the same position Caleb was in all those years ago. It’s not something he ever likes to think about, but it’s a comparison he can’t ignore. While Caleb was always the most adventurous of the two, he tended to be safe about it, whether as Philip charged in head first without thinking, and he did a lot of stupid things that could have gotten him killed if it weren’t for his brother. It almost feels like he’s in that position again, really. And god is he embarrassed to realise how childish he started acting.
Hunter, meanwhile, is stressed as all hell. He doesn’t know if it’s just him, or if his uncle really is this tired and weak all of the time. It doesn’t help when said Uncle is running about like a kid, and eventually almost gets himself hurt, to which Hunter finally realises ‘Oh. So this is how he feels.’
They both sort of yell at each other at the same time “You’re going to get yourself hurt!” “I’m not a child, Hunter, I can look after myself!”
That sort of thing. It clicks for both of them then, the realisation, how Hunter, despite priding himself on being the more responsible sibling, has been acting out just to prove a point to his uncle. And how Philip, despite his overprotective nature, would do just the same in their position, and has done so before.
The realisation that maybe both don’t have easy lives is both a win for communication potential and a loss for the fact they won’t be getting out of cleaning duty… unless Philip cooks up a lie with that silver tongue of his, which he does suggest, but Hunter’s good morals say no.
Now, as to where everything goes horribly wrong? Philip’s condition! Woo! Hunter starts feeling sharp pains on their way back to the town. He brushes it off immediately but Philip already knows exactly what’s happening. It’s an awful experience for Hunter, with pain, body shifting, skin feeling tight and itchy, insides burning, something else fighting for control etc. He starts stumbling about and falls to his knees, making it very difficult for Philip to be able to grab his bag which has palismen’s magic stored in bottles for safe keeping.
My thought chain is losing momentum so I’m gonna have to skip by a lot of what happens in the moment, but I’m sure you can imagine the absolute panic as Philip rushes to get a bottle. Hunter fortunately doesn’t actually turn into the full monster and just experiences the pre-stuff to that shift. Hunter ends up asking why he wasn’t cursed to this extent, why it was just his appearance, and Philip goes quiet. For the first time, he can’t bring himself to lie. He’s a bit too stressed out and high on adrenaline for that.
I know this episode is supposed to be more a comedy one but… come on, I love myself some good emotional development.
After they all swap back, Hunter suggests they all just do the cleaning together for some family bonding and, though it isn’t the most enjoyable of activities, everyone does eventually agree on the way home. It’s after that, when King is fast asleep, that the kids talk to Eda and Philip. Well, Hunter goes to talk to Philip, meanwhile Luz goes to talk to Eda.
Just some heartfelt discussions really, especially on Hunter and Philip’s end. Hunter admits he had no idea his uncle’s condition was anything like that, to which Philip laughs. They both come up with a compromise, that Philip will only step in when he has to, and Hunter will try to make sure he and Luz stay safe in all their hijinks. Philip also sprinkles a little bit of information about his brother here, just the fact he can’t blame Luz and Hunter for how they act, and no he knows how his brother must have felt.
Woah, soft Philip and Hunter moment? In this AU? More likely than you think!
And also a small bonus interaction that would happen after they all swap back:
“Sooo, how was being a teenager again?”
“Uneventful. It didn’t change much.”
“Pfff. He tried to climb a tree.”
“Hunter.”
“You did!”
#the owl house#toh#the owl house au#toh au#philip wittebane#emperor belos#hunter toh#hunter wittebane#asks#uncle philip au
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Hi, i read your analyseses religiously and i love all of them and this question is probably dumb but you keep mentioning "survival mode" whenever astarion is mentioned. I don't really get what that is though, can you explain? Sorry if it's super dumb and it feels like i should understand but I really don't
Hello dearest!
Please don't worry, that question is not dumb at all - survival mode can be really hard to understand if you've never experienced it yourself and/or don't know your way around mental health, trauma, coping etc as such. So I'm super happy to explain, don't worry!
"Survival Mode" as such is more of a casual term for what is, essentially, chronic stress. As with anything "chronic" we're speaking of chronic stress when stress has been prolonged to such an extent, that a person finds themselves unable to relax.
Now, I know my hypochondriacs out there - I'm one of you, you can't fool me - who now grab at their chest and go "Omfg, I'm constantly stressed, I must have that!" So I'll add: Please don't worry. Even if you're stressed a lot, it doesn't necessarily mean you're dealing with chronic stress.
Everybody and their mothers prostitute has been stressed at one point in their life, and some people have been stressed more often than others - that's entirely normal and can even be slightly beneficial. Stress is meant to help and protect us - it makes us more aware of our surroundings, it makes us faster, and it makes us stronger for a short time by essentially burning more of our energy to help us push past our limits.
But normal stress will eventually subside once the thing that stresses you out - the stressor - is gone.
A tight deadline is stressing you out? You'll return to a calm state once it's met.
You're understaffed at work and there's a lot to do? The stress will likely already start to subside once you clock out.
If we take out the stressor, our body is supposed to return to its normal state.
People with chronic stress, so those who are constantly in survival mode, don't get those breaks in between. Their body is never returning to normal because being stressed IS their normal. Due to the extreme stress and duress they were under for a prolonged time, their body has now been taught that in order to be safe, in order to survive, they need to be hyperaware of everything at all times.
Ever been around someone who out of nowhere suddenly jumps up and goes: "My mum is coming home, she's in a bad mood, be quiet and don't say anything, okay?"
And the the door actually slams open and it actually is their mother and you're like: ??? How the fuck did you know??? And how can you tell she's in a bad mood, she looks normal?
One word: Steps.
It almost sounds like magic or a straight up lie, but that poor thing is probably in survival mode and her survival is linked to whether her mother is a) home and b) in a good mood, so she's learned to discern her mothers presence and mood solely by her steps while coming up the stairs.
People who are under chronic stress can often be described as hypervigilent but extremely forgetful at the same time. They are painfully aware of everything, but they can't focus long enough on most things to actually remember them, especially those that aren't deemed important to their survival. They also tend to be constantly tired, moody, indecisive, and quick to frustration and despair when faced by even a tiny inconvenience.
So, in the end, being in "survival mode" essentially just means that a person has been put under stress for so long, that they've forgotten how to rest and are now stuck in an endless cycle of high vigilance, low energy until they're taught how to rest once more.
Phew! I know those are a lot of facts and those can be hard to really understand, so let me know if you'd like me to be a bit more clearer or more visual in my explanation! I'm sure I can come up with something in that case ❤️
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☆°・. Comfort Zone… You Mean Coward Zone?? .・°☆ | Punk Girl Culture
The first person to have ever said, 'Get out of your comfort zone!' must have been a psychopath.
I mean, what even was the idea behind saying that? Was that person jelly of a friend who was content and comfortable with where they were in Life—perhaps because that person was feeling lost themselves? Or, was that person just a Sagittarius Pluto who was trying to motivate a dejected friend who was stuck in Life?
Well, I guess I wouldn't know.
But if I'm trying to comprehend it from a more compassionate point of view, I think that person was just dumb with words. Because they confused a whole concept. And dumber still are the people who subsequently propagated that mistake and continued to misguide themselves and everyone else.
People can't be stuck in their comfort zone; people can only be stuck in their coward zone. Those two things are immensely different. So people are really confusing the two: being comfortable and being miserable. There's a whole fucking world of a difference in that. How Humans managed to confuse the two is beyond me.
They all say, people need to get out of their comfort zone. They say it's good to be courageous and go see the world and adventure and struggle and suffer so you get to learn. But—to learn what and for the purpose of achieving what? Isn’t this usually said to motivate people to get going with suffering out there in the world so they end up becoming more comfortable later on when they're older?
So what is this whole uro uro (ウロウロ; circling around) the same topic in a confusing and manipulative manner? Everybody wants to live a comfortable life but you say it’s sinful to stay in a comfort zone. So what am I supposed to think? Are you making sense or am I crazy?
These psychos are just seeking to make you feel bad with being happy. Trust me.
The way I see it, when those adults scold you for living a carefree lyfe (they say it's being lazy), all I’m seeing is you’re living just like us. Ugh, excuse me? That’s a Fae lifestyle you’re mocking there! If anything, I think you ought to strive for ultimate comfort. Comfort is good. You stop being afraid when you’re comfortable. You stop feeling miserable when you’re comfortable.
That's totally not the same as living as a coward and causing yourself to get fucking stuck in a rut. I don't think being stagnant is precariously comfortable. I think it's miserable to feel like you're not improving at all in Life. And when people are frustrated with themselves, they get scared. Humans get scared very easily when they're feeling miserable. And then, it just seems like there's nothing you can do right to help yourself.
If ever you’re stuck in Life, you ought to get thinking, then get learning, and with courage get through with whatever is causing you boredom or stagnation. But careful you don't get comfortable with being uncomfortable itself because that's literally the stupidest thing anyone could ever say.
Those who are comfortable and those who are cowards are totally not playing in the same dimension.
I guess, the first person to have ever said, 'Get out of your comfort zone!' must have been extremely polite for not wanting to call someone a coward.
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