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colourstreakgryffin · 1 month

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Hallo again! I am the one who asked about Val, it wasn't a request I was asking if you write for him so here we go!

Could it please be where reader is Valentino's son ( or just child if you don't write for male reader ) and Valentino can't find someone to trust-worthy to babysit his son so he just take him to work since reader is non-verbal anyway and won't be much of a bother?

So reader now comes regularly with him and see the other Vees as family. Perhaps Vox as another dad/uncle and Velvette as a big sister ( or any family role for them ).

Thank you for giving a look to my request!

Ooh! Right! Okay, okay. I can try this out. To be honest, Val is a monster but something tells me he wouldn’t be THAT bad with a kid of his own and yes, I do write male readers. Female, male, transgender, genderfluid(if that’s possible, idk how but I would do it anyway), nonbinary/GN! But anyways. Let’s try Val out as a dad!

Valentino- Silkworm Caterpillar

Everybody who knows the director of the Pentagram City’s Porn Industry, Valentino, is aware how much of a bastard he is; cruel, abusive, exploitative but nobody had ever suspected that he would actually one: have a son and two: treat that son better than he’s ever treated anybody, even his on-and-off boyfriend, Vox

Your dad’s an insufferable man-child but yet, he is actually pretty good with you. He doesn’t really like much things, other than you. He is awful but he feels kinda soft and fluffy whilst he is around you. You’re basically his soft spot

Valentino needs hugs and he will get them, no matter what may step in his path. You are non-verbal and mute so he cannot communicate with you properly, he just acts on his affections for you since he believes it’s fine

Valentino is that type of wingman-father. He always encourages you to get out of your comfort zone and boosts you up to look even better. He’s a close friend to you and you can hang out with him in casual settings where it almost seems like he is just your uncle, not your father

Valentino always offers to get you what you want, he is a father that spoils his seed rotten. Want a drink? He’ll get it. Want a phone? He’ll get it. Want more hugs? You’re getting them rather you want ‘em or not. He likes it when you smile and he does very much have favouritism towards you, where he almost never raises his voice to you

Valentino is actually protective, believe it or not and he is defensive over his son. Rather said son be above ten years old, he doesn’t trust a single being in Hell. Not anybody in Vees, not any under their luck bum he picks up for hire, not any one of his assistants. Nobody. He doesn’t ever want to leave you with somebody who can cause a threat

Valentino doesn’t really want to resort to this but after some more time. He decides to stop leaving you in the Vees Tower. You’re alone and you need him so he begins to bring you to his porn studios but what he does is that he glues you to other devices so you don’t have to be uncomfortable with watching pornography

Valentino is relatively soft and gentle. Even somebody as deranged and sick as him has a moment of love and affection and it’s in his son. He could be the most pissed off and at his absolute worse but when he is greeted by his offspring, he swallows back everything to be doting to you

Valentino calls you his silkworm because you’re a little caterpillar to him. He’s the moth, you’re his caterpillar and he’d pop you on his back and spread his wings for you if he had to. He enjoys your reaction of surprise and awe at his rather beautiful moth wings. He can understand where it comes from, it’s incredible. Isn’t it? He likes it when you’re proud of him or in awe of him

Valentino is aware of your deafness. You’ve been deaf since he had you… back in human life. Believe it or not, but he did and he actually cared to get you hearing aids but after you two died, he lost a hold of hearing aids and he has literally no other methods to help you

Valentino also much prefers you like the Vees themselves and the effort proves worth it since you end up viewing his on-and-off boyfriend, Vox as a stepfather and Velvette, their close friend, as a surrogate big sister. Valentino finds your point of views on his fellow rulers rather adorable and will playfully tease you about them

Valentino is learning sign language, since now of this time, sign language has been fully developed but he is struggling and his temper makes him go from trying to giving up to trying again. He’ll get there eventually, all for you

Valentino out here doing aggressive sign language and failing a whole lot

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dragonsdendoodles · 1 year

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More headcanons because I want to and I need somewhere to put these that are not my brain

Horace, as much as I absolutely love the kid, is not someone who can draw things. (Have you SEEN his drawing in book one? That kid cannot draw.) Because of this, he almost never plans out any clothes he makes. When he absolutely needs to, he goes to Millard and asks him to draw figures for him so he can put very blocky clothes on top of them. Millard is always happy to do so.

Enoch can kind of draw. He likes to sketch out his homunculi so you’ll find little figure drawings everywhere around his room but he will absolutely refuse to admit they’re his.

He/they nonbinary Hugh. I will DIE on this hill.

On a similar vein, AFAB Jacob, Hugh, Enoch, and maybe Millard (I go back and forth with Mill), AMAB Fiona. Alllll the trans kids.

Not a single child on that island is cishet. Fucking. Fight me.

They have a computer Jacob and Noor got and convinced Miss Peregrine to keep in a safe house outside Devil’s Acre. Jacob taught some of the kids how to play Minecraft on it and now if you can’t find Enoch and Horace that’s probably where they are.

On the few instances he leaves the loop, every time Jacob texts someone or types something on his phone and he’s by himself he reads it out loud to himself the way he would’ve said it in a verbal conversation. He has no idea why he does it and only Emma has witnessed this. She just looked at him funny and shrugged.

Horace knows how to ice skate. If you couldn’t tell by the figure skater including this in literally everything he physically can.

Emma and Millard are just as much partners in crime as Enoch and Horace are. The difference is that they’re not dating or crushing on each other and most of their plots outside of Raid the Village are how to make Enoch and Horace as flustered about liking each other as physically possible. (Occasionally Bronwyn joins.)

I like to think eventually Emma was convinced to play Raid the Village with the others because personally she seems too inclined to burn shit to the ground to be as bothered by it as Enoch said she was

Both Miss Peregrine and Sharon are the group parents. They have absolutely nothing to do with each other, but they both individually looked at these children and said “yep, these idiots are mine” and now every time one of them does something stupid (COUGH Emma and Enoch being given access to fire) their immediate reaction is “what stupid kids. Oh shit those are MY kids—”

As described by my boyfriend, Sharon is the bad influence adoptive father who will absolutely drive you somewhere to go commit arson but if you don’t put your seatbelt on he kicks you out of the boat

Around Christmas one year Jacob figured out that outside the loop he could put a speaker in Sharon’s boat and play music so he played The Polar Express (just the one song) on repeat for an hour and now he’s not allowed to play music on the boat anymore. (The speaker is also somewhere at the bottom of the Thames, courtesy of Sharon and also Enoch.)

Hugh, Fiona, and Millard hate winter. Anytime they have to go to a cold loop for more than a few days or have to go to the present in winter for more than a few hours they sit and sulk until they can go home.

The three of them also learned BSL for Fiona once everything had calmed down again and they actually had time to do it. The rest of the kids kind of know it, but those three are the most fluent in it, and Millard carries gloves around with him anytime he’s wearing clothes so he can put them on and the three of them can talk shit about the other kids in front of them

Okay that’s all :)

#mphfpc #horace somnusson #millard nullings #enoch o'connor #hugh apiston #jacob portman #fiona frauenfeld #noor pradesh #alma peregrine #emma bloom #bronwyn bruntley #sharon mphfpc #sharon acheron #if that is his actual last name that’s fucking awesome and i love it #enorace #fughllard #i have. so many ideas for these kids #headcanons

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daandyli0n · 7 months

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About He Came Back au... could you tell us a bit about the "missing" children once they grow up? We know about Gabe, Cassidy, and Charlie, but I'm a bit curious about the other kids! Love u and this au <3

aw, thanks man! yeah i have. Many Thoughts on these lil guys <3

so! they all kinda had to recover after y'know. almost getting murdered. but depending on what happened to them, they either took less or more time to recover (Cassidy took the shortest, Charlie took the longest, out of the main group). this only strengthened everyone's bonds.

now! onto the kids!

Susie:

- she becomes a dog mom :] she gets another golden retriever that she names Lucky II, after her first dog :] she has three dogs at any given time.

- she also adopts a child later on, and becomes a single mother (she's aroace). she names her daughter Clover, another reference to Lucky :]

- she gets into baking. she has shown up on her friends' doorsteps multiple times with either cookies or cupcakes. depends on the day. she works at a bakery.

- just a really bubbly and happy lady, despite everything. she's still got some sass, though.

Fritz (Jr.):

- his and Jeremy's bio parents get back together and he and Jere get a baby sister (Tabi)!! woo!!

- he gets sent to therapy for. a multitude of things: anger issues, the abuse he and Jeremy suffered from their stepfather, and The Incident.

- he mellows out after a few years, but he's still the brave, outgoing kid he was back then.

- they think his scars make him look more badass.

- Cassidy Introduces Them To Being Nonbinary, And He Could Not Be Happier.

- You Bet Your Ass That He Started Wearing A Pirate Eyepatch After Losing Their Eye.

- he is the guy that got Tabi into being a Foxy fan :]

- funnily enough, he grows up to be a child psychiatrist. he wants to help kids like him and Jere, y'know?

- they end up marrying a genderqueer person. good for him :]

- he's still very much into pirates (they're a special interest for them), and he makes that pretty clear. his therapy office has pirate related decor, sometimes he'll talk in a silly pirate voice to cheer kids up, and they still go to see Foxy shows at the Pizzeria. he doesn't care if the kids look at him weird, it makes him happy. :]

Jeremy:

- yeah, uh...he kinda lost his voice after Being Repeatedly Stabbed In The Throat. the doctors honestly thought he wouldn't make it.

- he learned ASL :]

- you thought losing his voice would stop his clownery at school? you fool.

- he got into playing guitar later on, and he owns a music store :].

- he teaches kids ASL when he goes over to the pizzeria to check on Gabe :).

- he confesses to Gabe in '94 by signing out 'I love you.' Gabe got real flustered.

- you don't wanna know how Overjoyed he got when he learned gay marriage got legalized. like, Gabe and Jere were just known as being unofficial husbands, sorta like how Cassidy and Charlie were known as being unofficial partners. but now!! they can Make It official!!

- he still has nightmares pretty often :(

Gabriel:

- he gets more confident over the years :)

- he gives the vibes of an awkward kid who felt embarrassed for being awkward and a lil goofy, but upon growing up just acts as silly and goofy as he wants. let him be a little silly and awkward!! the guy deserves it!!

- when he finally inherits the pizzeria after turning eighteen (long story: i have a hc about there being a Third business partner along with Afton and Emily, and this is Gabe's dad), he does really well, and gets along well with his customers. he is also the only person in Fazbear Entertainment, other than his father and Henry, who seems to have morals, because Jesus Christ.

- he doesn't follow the rule of Fazbear Entertainment where "We Are Not Liable For Anything Bad Happening-" because no!! tell him if something bad happened!! he wants to help fix it!!

- just a really sweet, goofy, and anxious man.

- he's also literally the only person besides Phone Guy (Daniel) who warns people about Afton (O'Hare/Springbonnie). because That's Kinda Some Important Info To Know.

- when Cassidy finally sealed Afton behind a wall, in a slightly illegal way, Gabriel promised not to say anything and also cover for them should word get out (he'd just claim that he asked them to do it).

- Freddy's is still open to this day, it's just moved locations around every few years or so.

- Gabe my beloved <3

the kids, when the og restaurant was still open, always felt uneasy about O'Hare after everything with Afton. is...is he really looking at them, or are they just being paranoid?

yeah, those are the kids i've spoken less about. Cassidy is on a quest to get rid of Afton once and for all, no matter the cost. Charlie is concerned for her partner, but willing to help where she can.

also, bonus!! The Afton Kids!!

they all have. Really Mixed Feelings on their father:

- Elizabeth feels kinda guilty about this whole thing, and really doesn't like thinking about it. she typically tries to change the subject if people talk about her father too much. she doesn't want to think about how her father tried to kill a bunch of kids, effectively because of her. as she's told Michael before, "If hadn't been so fucking stupid and actually listened to him for once, maybe none of this would've happened.." so yeah, she ain't doing well!

- Michael both hates his father for what he did, but can't help but miss him. regardless of the universe, Michael's got some Daddy Issues™️

- Adrian also doesn't wanna think about it too much, mostly because he can't wrap his head around why. it's also because of some weird, kinda traumatic nightmares where his father tries to reach out to him, but that's an entirely different post.

as far as Adrian's concerned, it's out of sight, out of mind. thinking about it brings up Bad Thoughts, and he'd like to Not have those, thanks.

but yeah. It's The Kids! minus Cassidy and Charlie, cause those two are practically their own post.

#fnaf #fnaf au #He Came Back au #fnaf missing children #< technically not 'missing' but you get the idea #fnaf charlie #fnaf afton kids #Dandy goes 'baa!'

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unravellingsilencehq · 1 year

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“Oh, Merlin, tell me, does THE BENEVOLENT get what they deserve?” They are in THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX & OPEN to finding out.

— they walk through the world as ;

name → mary macdonald pronouns → they/he identification → nonbinary year of birth → september 1959 - september 1960 face claim → quintessa swindell blood status → muggle-born sexual orientation → up to applicant occupation → bartender at the hopping pot in carkitt market future information → married to reginald cattermole, parent of maisie, ellie and alfred cattermole

— they are best described as ;

A SOCIAL BUTTERFLY among caterpillars, they are pockets of love heart sweets with the promise of ROMANCE lingering in sweet admirations. VANILLA PERFUME laced with GIGGLE WATER, they are the spring day dreams of floral patterns yet fresh blooms PLUCKED BARE from callous lovers. While broken loneliness masked by KINDHEARTED BRAVERY concealed ANXIOUS FEAR, harrowing torment lurks in the waters depths of their eyes haunting their troubled dreams.

— their story starts with ;

tw: blood

Born an only child to a young single mother, the pair lived comfortably in their home in Nottingham with only each other to hold. A summer romance had led to Mary, with news of a child their father left as quickly as Autumn came; slipping into the thick of night without a word of goodbye. Harboring questions of why, their curiosity was merely avoided accompanied with their mother’s face of displeasure. Adamant not to recall a man that had left her broken hearted. While Mary’s father had been absent, their mother had been anything but. Lifting them up and showing them the love held in the world if only they had the bravery to seek it. It was the determination to stand tall again after being hurt that counted the most. Trying despite the odds and having the courage of heart to get back up if you fall. They learnt that asking for help held its own bravery and was never something to be ashamed of and above all, to always offer your own hand to anyone who may need it. Their mother’s compassion was mirrored in Mary, finding that people would always be the best part of any given day.

With their mother working for a high end fashion company, Mary longed for the buzz of the city and thrived in the vibrancy. Capturing diversity through their vintage camera, they craved the feeling of belonging. Colourful folk from all walks of life filled their film reels, delighting in the fact that in London, anyone could be anything. Predominantly, their times in the city revolved around glamour. Accompanying their mother to offices, events and photoshoots, Mary was exposed to the complexities of the fashion industry and subsequently the lifestyle from a young age. Seeing slim models fixate on appearances, subconsciously Mary started mimicking behaviors. For an insecure youth, being surrounded by subjectively beautiful people made them over analytical of their own appearance. Combined with their mother’s need for high presentation at social affairs, it instilled deep rooted self scrutiny in an attempt to fit into a box of idealized beauty. Mary tried to be the personification of perfection. Behaving how they thought others wanted them to rather than being their own person. Vanity rooted from insecurity, painted nails and the perfect accessory acted as their shield to mask the uncertainty and loneliness behind.

Thankfully normality dashed when they started to receive their letters to Hogwarts. Overwhelmed with a sense of relief in knowing their differences didn’t make them odd. It made them unique, literal magic. In the wizarding world, Mary came to life. Sorted into Gryffindor, they found kinship in LILY EVANS [best friend], MARLENE MCKINNON [best friend] and DORCAS MEADOWES [best friend], friendships that would last a lifetime. Unlike their friends, Mary wasn’t the most outstanding student. Often in trouble gossiping to ORLAITH MACMILLAN [close friend/roommate] or from dozing off on a text book after dancing and drinking the night away at one of the Marauders famous parties.They were often passed off without a second thought by their peers, appearing unthreatening as they hummed muggle pop music in the corridors and doodling hearts on the corners of parchments with whichever boy had accidentally brushed their hand in the hallway that week. Captivated by romances, Mary dreamed in soft pinks, whispered moments and a summer breeze. While some considered them naive, for others Mary became a confidant entrusted with secrets; namely in Doe’s affection for Marlene. Offering kindness a soft hand squeeze in moments of dismay, a shoulder and hand full of love heart sweets to distract from heart ache.

Hopelessly romantic, they fell hard and often for people who never fully appreciated them. Taken advantage of more than once, tears stained their cheeks as they cried into their dormmate’s arms. Offers of hot chocolates from Lily, help finding someone new from Marlene and the threat to teach them a lesson from Doe, they would all mourn together. While Dorcas warned maybe finding themselves was a better solution, Mary passed off the comments deeming it in ridicule. Knowing the value of connections, there was never a scenario where Mary would miss a party; unwilling to squander their chance of meeting someone over a beverage. Though, there was one connection they wished they could rewind and cut; infamous Slytherin LARKIN MULCIBER [former partner/adversary]. Things didn’t start out as sinister as many like to believe. None of them had expected for Mary to fall as hard for Mulciber as they did. Cautious words came from all their best friends' lips the moment they’d alluded to their romance. Concern that a purist had bothered giving them the time of day when there were plenty of purebloods lined up to take their place. Still Mary fell hard. Convincing themselves they could fix whatever was broken in his heart, they saw him as a lost soul rather than Lucifer himself.

Swept by stolen moments, his insistence to keep their relationship a secret was prevalent so they obeyed. Besides Lily, Doe and Marlene, no one knew of their love affair. At least that’s what they had thought. One moment they were encapsulated in his arms, taken by that smirk until it had turned devilish. Lips trailed to their ear the only thing they remember is an uttered ‘Imperio’ before everything went dark. The next? Found screaming in the Black Lake with blood stained hands. Lily’s attempts to sooth them fell short. Spending the following weeks in the infirmary, too shaken and betrayed to deal with the twisted actions Mulicber has inflicted; fragments only coming back in nightmares. They’d been a fool. Shame followed them like a shadow as they caught the pity lingering in everyone’s eyes. Graduating, they longed for a fresh start and people that weren’t so familiar with their past. Still dealing with the trauma that was forced upon them, the idea of that torment becoming widespread was sickening. When ALBUS DUMBLEDORE [former headmaster/leader] came into the tavern to inform them about The Order Of The Phoenix and others involvement, Mary was extremely hesitant. Having seen first hand the horrors of the Unforgivable curses, the fear of being subjected to more torture was terrifying. But worse was standing ideally while others faced the same fate.

Entrusted to find a prophecy that would aid them in the war, together with SIRIUS BLACK [close friend] and PETER PETTIGREW [close friend] they fought in arm to fend off KERVENS BORGIN [rival] and CAIUS BURKE [rival] who too were in search of the prophecy. Victorious in the duel, it exhilarated Mary to make a feasible difference in a world crumbling. That was until the Summer Solstice of 1983. What had started as a wholesome event turned to riots as The Death Eaters announced their claim on the wizarding world leaving them petrified with Unforgivables tormenting citizens. While still wary and worried for their friends, Mary is trying to come to terms with having to face Larkin again in due course. Knowing he is a valued member among the Death Eaters, they want to bring karma as justifications of the pain he caused them. While they fear the repercussions it could hold, facing their past is inevitable and something they hope could stop Mulciber inflicting the same nightmares on others for good. All they need is one thing, proof. Assisted by double agent GORKEN POLAT [friend], Mary wants to trick the king of the underworld at his own games. If only they don’t get caught in the process.

— they are a LEVEL 5 SORCERER & readied for war ;

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crashdown · 2 years

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okay ive been thinking about it a lot and i think it's time i actually wrote it down bc the pratchett fandom can be a little transphobic! i wont lie. anyway:

trans characters in the discworld

(minor spoilers for thud!, monstrous regiment, and literally anything with dwarves in it)

first and foremost, the obivous one. dwarves. in the discworld, dwarves are a one-gender race, though they don't have a single sex. this just means that female dwarves are expected to be men, behaving like men and living their entire lives out as men.

this means that any dwarves who don't conform to this are considered unusual and usually looked down upon. now, in the tv adaptation of the watch, the dwarf cheery littlebottom was cast as a nonbinary character. this caused a lot of uproar because cheery is a woman. that's a huge part of her character: the fact that she refuses to conform to the gender norms set by her people. like, i dunno, nonbinary people? trans people in general? the way that cheery presents herself, fully bearded yet unapologetically female, really resonates with me as a trans person.

(cheery is in front of the man in red)

while i didn't really like the adaptation, i personally saw nothing wrong with cheery's casting. female dwarves have always been sort of a trans allegory to me, and i definarly think they were at least a sort of commentary on gender itself.

now we move to monstrous regiment, which is arguably terry's queerest book. you'd have to hope that a book centred around the concept of a girl dressing as a boy to go to war would be a little queer, wouldn't you? polly, the main character, is not trans, however. it could be aruged that she's sapphic, but that's a whole different discussion.

no, the trans characters in this book are maladict and jackrum, and though there might be some argument as to the valididty of these claims, i can pretty confidently back them up.

starting with maladict, the vampire joined the military in a different country to escape the opressive, suffocating expectations of womanhood in his country. though as the book presses on and more and more of the characters are revealed to be women, maladict only really tells polly his sex at the very end, and in private. he sees that it's more than a safe place to be a woman and yet he doesn't reveal himself. why?

well, because he's not one. you cannot honestly tell me that a woman behaves in such a way when given the oportunity to exist as a woman on their own terms. maladict remains a man.

(a note i want to add here to validate this claim. in the book thud!, sally, a vampire, explains to angua that when vampires turn into mist or bats and then re-form into their own bodies, men keep their clothes and women lose them. when mal turns into mist and re-forms again, he still has his clothes. therefore: man)

which brings us to jackrum, who's transness is a little more pronounced. jackrum joined the military to follow his lover, william. he ended up being much more sucessful than william, being promoted and gaining a reputation. but even after william died and jackrum gave birth to their child (we love a seahorse dad), he stayed in the military. he had a family to raise now, and his boyfriend was dead. he had no reason to stay, right?

only the idea of womanhood is no longer appealing to him. so much so that when they're sneaking into the kneck keep, both him and mal opt to stay behind (for jackrum, he’d rather miss the action than be perceived as a woman, even in disguise. for mal it was more that he was in a coffee coma but even if he wasn’t, i’d like to think he would have stayed behind as well).

there's a really beautiful line in regards to jackrum after his discussion with polly about going back to his family:

"Polly paused when she got to the door. Jackrum had turned her chair to the fire, and had settled back. Around him, the kitchen worked."

this is the moment that jackrum realizes that he doesn't have to be a woman. he can go back to his family and be the father he's always wanted to be, he can keep his legacy and his glory and his pride. he knows that it's okay to be a man now, that he no longer has to be a woman in disguise. that sudden change in pronouns always gets me.

you can have any opinion you want, but personally, these stories really resonate with me as a trans person, intentional or not.

#long post again oops #discworld #monstrous regiment #thud!#terry pratchett #jack jackrum #maladict #trans #cheery littlebottom

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honeyandbloodpoetry · 3 years

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Abuse and Gender Expression - Gender Thoughts Part Three

Huuuuuge trigger warnings for peer abuse, emotional abuse, physical abuse, sexual abuse, religious abuse, a murder attempt and mentions of self harm, suicidal ideation and an eating disorder. 18+ talk of sexual activity also included. Discretion advised!

I feel like the first time I realized I needed to perform high femininity to be accepted was in sixth grade. I was slotted into a rotating elective class, and the first one was a careers class. That careers class was utter hell for me. Every single day, I was tormented by an entire classroom of about twenty of my peers. I was bullied, no, abused for being fat and ugly and weird. I was called a whore, and told the only way I could ever be loved was someone raping me. Things were thrown at me, I was shoved down and tripped. I was bullied for my special interest in Transformers. I was told I was so fat and ugly I should be killed and be made into meat and cheese and fed to starving people because that was my only worth. Every single day I was told I should kill myself in varying ways. And all of that is just a quick summary. It was intense and brutal abuse for an entire semester, and I distinctly remember a day where there was a literal pool of tears on my desk. I couldn’t understand. I reached out to the teacher for help, and genuinely can’t remember exactly what he said. All I know is that he simply watched, and sometimes even joined in with “jokes” of his own. This was also the year abuse from my mother amped up, and home was a warzone--we were constantly arguing, and she became a professional at gaslighting and poking and prodding me until I exploded so I could be blamed for fighting back. My father would vacantly stand by and remind me not to fight back. This was also the year I began to self harm as a way of release.

I remember thinking that if I looked more like the girls in my class, I wouldn’t be bullied so much. I was told I was ugly and unlovable, so I thought that if I performed more femininely, maybe I could be like those who tormented me and therefore not be a target. I thought there was something inherently wrong with the way I presented myself. I convinced my mother to take me to the store, and I bought wedge heels and gaudy jewelry I did not like to wear with my uniform--replacing my autobot necklace and sweatband. In another class I was teased for not shaving and for having ugly feet, so I learned to paint my nails, file my heels, and shave every bit of hair on my body--the echo of my father saying that since I grew pubic hair, I was now a woman and held accountable for all of my sins an echo on the cusp of my mind. I did everything in my power to be more pretty and girly. I used to be loud and rambunctious, and began to go silent and demure.

I remember walking up to the class in the new get-up that was certainly not me. I felt that I would be accepted but as I walked up...I fell flat on my ass. I couldn’t walk in the heels. They all pointed and laughed at me, and the abuse continued in even higher intensity. It was until the next semester that I fought back by throwing a desk at two of my abusers who followed me to the next rotating elective, screaming and snarling at them to leave me alone. Those two in particular stopped, but abuse from others continued for many years in many instances. I developed an eating disorder, continued self harming, and began to try and form femininity and “attractiveness” to the best of my ability. I added things like bows and kitty ears and flower crowns to my wardrobe--sure they were cute, and I did like them in a way, but it felt like putting on a costume or some sort of womanly obligation. It didn’t feel like me. Years later, I was told by someone I trusted that I was “too fat to wear pants”, which I internalized and began to only wear dresses--same thing with feeling like I was wearing a costume. I tried to be beautiful. I wanted to be butch, be myself, but I felt that if I was a cute and girly girl, demure and sweet, I wouldn’t be a target. I would be loved.

And so I locked myself away.

My relationship with my mother was a rocky one. She is definitely a sick and broken person, but I doubt she will ever get help. She swings between extremes, and I was always her doll and punching bag. She had a habit of pushing and pushing, finding all the littles holes in me that triggered autistic meltdowns and despair. She criticized everything about me, from my weight and height to my blaming me for how tangled my hair was. She entered me in sports and spelling bees with gentle but insisting prodding about how good I would be when I would rather be reading or playing, and when I got frustrated she would say it was my choice...when in reality I just wanted her approval. When I got older, and especially after my father killed himself, I began to fight back and question her authority though--sometimes violently. She didn’t like that, and was violent right back, and oftentimes first. I struggled my whole life with blaming myself for my outbursts and reactions, but through therapy I have learned I was a child being gaslit and abused, shown that violence was the only answer… And through therapy, I have learned to do better and grow. The worst instance of abuse was me having an autistic meltdown where I said that we should both just die and her response was to pull out a gun and point it at me--I collapsed down into our trash covered room (I was forced to share a bed with her) and pleaded with her to stop. She threatened to kill me and help me out since I was so suicidal, then turned the gun on herself and threatened to kill herself, in which I had to talk her down. When the gun was down, I fled in a flurry of tears and barely contained screams. It was truly the most horrible moment of my life, and I still struggle with the ptsd of that moment to this day. I was only fourteen.

All that background to say, my mother was extremely possessive of my body. She seemed to love to touch my breasts and butt, jerk me around, slap my butt, watch me get dressed. When I begged her to stop, she would tell me that she made that body and could do whatever she wanted to it. I found messages on her phone of her talking to guys about having sex with me and stealing my panties. She wouldn’t let me do my own hair because I couldn’t do it right. She wouldn’t let me bathe alone until I was over ten years old. I didn’t ever have my own room until I was 18 and shared it with my partner. She never let me play with my hair and kept a close eye on what I wore. This combined with my very religious Christian father, who said things like “if you know more song lyrics than bible verses when you die, you’ll go to hell” and the aforementioned accountability, along with things like letting me know he loved God more than me and always seeming to walk in while I was changing… I always felt owned by something. I never felt like my body or my identity belonged to me alone. And so it was extremely difficult to explore myself.

Sexual exploration became an outlet. I was asexual and didn’t possess sexual attraction or a desire for coital sex (still don’t), but I enjoyed kink play with my partner and playing with myself. I enjoyed porn, mostly stories. I always felt drawn to mlm porn, but never understood why. I saw myself in the big, fat men of the stories. I wished it could be me, wished I was a big hairy man like that. Wished I could be loved like that. Reading those types of erotica always got me off and made me feel relaxed and fulfilled, no matter what kink it regarded. Of course my mom would slutshame me without even knowing what I got up to, but sexual activity and pornography helped me find solace and ownership of my body. When I was aroused and taking care of myself, being taken care of, or taking care of someone else, I felt like I was finally in control of my body and my happiness. I had been sexually abused in different ways by different people throughout my life, and finding a certain safety and security in the kind of sexual activity I explored made me feel like...me. I found myself in those big men, but still didn’t make the connection that I was not cis.

It wasn’t until many years that I began to question my gender. First nonbinary, then agender, then genderfluid, then bigender, then nonbinary again, now finally transmasc. I am autistic and struggle with a resistance to change. I have struggled with shifting my name because it feels like a betrayal to become something new. So I have become Charis instead of Charissa...but I think I may be Myles instead. Since I have struggled with abuse and feeling owned my whole life, it is scary to take my self creation into my own hands. People I am close to have expressed concern and dislike for my transition--especially my mother. I came out to her two days ago over the phone when she guessed I was transgender--or “wanted a sex change” as she put it. She outed me to her anti-lgbt boyfriend without my consent, and now they want to have a discussion. She cried and told me it was too much and she couldn’t talk yet. I am still unsure of what to do about it. I know my mother is broken, and has come far from the cruelty she was once capable of--but she still swings. I see those shattered pieces and their sharp edges and know they have the ability to cut. It is terrifying.

Coming out, especially after so many years of abuse, has been absolutely terrifying and difficult. I am still navigating how to do it, especially with a name change. The clinic I am going to for hrt screwed up with their scheduling and had to reschedule me for later this month, a frustrating thing. I am looking forward to starting hrt, but also scared how people will treat me once those changes begin happening. Even with these fears and struggling with my interpersonal relationships...this is the greatest choice I have ever made. It is my truth and my freedom, and I will fight against that fear to become my most authentic self. I have an incredible partner by my side, and with their support and my own self love, I can do anything.

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clearsky · 3 years

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My Top Comfort Characters/Kins and My Main HCs For Them

(Note, not all my kins/comfort characters are on here, just the ones I have more than 5 hcs for)

CW: Korekiyo Shinguji (DRV3), Himiko Yumeno (DRV3), Shinsou Hitoshi (BNHA), Kyoko Kirigiri (THH), Tsuyu Asui (BNHA), Entrapta (Spop), Ibuki Mioda (SDR2), Celestia Ludenberg (THH), Funtime Foxy (FNAF), Peril (WOF)

Korekiyo Shinguji (DRV3)

Nonbinary

He/They pronouns

Autistic

Chains and loose accessories are for stimming

Likes the feeling of silk and cotton

Can't stand the feeling of anything rough or bumpy

He likes collecting small trinkets and the bones of small mammals

Can't stand anything salty. He'll eat it but he certainly won't enjoy it

Dating Rantaro

Can flirt, but only if he doesn't try

Petnames are a hell yea

Gets sunburnt really easily

Group dates with Celesnaegiri and Ikuzono

Can't cook for s h i t

Had a scene kid phase in middle school

Went to the same middle school as Celeste and Maki

Knew them when Celeste went through her "I'm not like other girls" phase and Maki was a Band Kid™

Himiko Yumeno (DRV3)

Female

She/Her pronouns

Lesbian

Can force herself to fall asleep within seconds regardless of where she is

100% forces herself to fall asleep when she doesn't wanna listen/talk to someone

Himiko/Angie/Tenko relationship. I'm calling them the Traffic Light Trio

She likes taking naps in the forest

She prefers enclosed/tight spaces more than open ones

Has several hundred stress balls and squishies laying around

She overheats easy

Shinsou Hitoshi (BNHA)

Questioning his gender, but goes by any pronouns

Knows he's Asexual, at least

Has no clue what his romantic orientation is though

The kind of person to carry treats in his pocket just in case he runs into a cat

Will stop to pet literally every cat he comes across

Great at reading people

Doesn't talk unless it's 100% needed

Hangs with Tokoyami, Jirou, and Denki most often

Aizawa has 100% unofficially adopted him

Fosters kittens

Not a big fan of physical touch

He is 100% in the bakusquad. Anyone who says he's in the Dekusquad is a c o w a r d

He and Tsuyu vibe

Knows a bunch of random facts

Dark humour? Dark humour

*skates backwards into his therapist's room slowly sipping from an absurdly huge cup of coffee* Candice you're not gonna BELIEVE the shit I just went through

In case I forgot to mention it, he skates

Kyoko Kirigiri (THH)

Mtf

She/Her

Bi with female preference

Burns go up to her shoulders/collarbone/chest

Prefers to just listen as opposed to saying anything

Knows a ton of random trivia about everyone else in her class

She keeps a notebook she fills with all the trivia

Doesn't celebrate her birthday. She just doesn't see the point of it

Doesn't hate sugar/sweets, but if given the choice she would choose literally everything else

Cuts her own hair

A cat person

Permanent dark circles

T-Tall 😳

Like,,, 6'1 at LEAST

Only person taller than her is Yasuhiro (6'3)

Canon no longer exist

Ahahaha healthy life habits? What are those?

Can't handle horror games

She's the kind of person you'd go to if you needed to rant but didn't want any advice

Polyamourous yo

Celeste/Kyoko/Makoto

She's a dom yall are just scared to admit it

Tsuyu Asui (BNHA)

They go by They/Them

Lesbian

They and Ochaco are dating

They like to hang with Shinsou

Which mainly just means the two sitting in one of their dorms in near total silence doing whatever

Can speak English and French as well as Japanese

Learned English from cartoons

Picked up French bc they thought it'd be fun

Prefers to stay neutral in the whole Bakusquad / Dekusquad thing

They're invited to all outings/events by/for both squads

They like puns

They're a dumbass but willingly, and for fun

Like "someone says they like dark humour and they'll turn off the lights before telling a joke" kind dumbass for fun

Great at poker

Likes Disney Movies

Very touchy once you get close enough

Not in a sexual way, just likes physical contact

Especially fond of piggyback rides and cuddles

Extreme fear of needles

Entrapta (She-Ra)

She/Her or It/Its

Doesn't bother trying to figure out whether she's cis, trans, nonbinary, or what

Was AMAB though

Short as fuck (4'7)

Strong as fuck though

Cuddle game strong

Physical touch is a fuck yes

Cuddles

Piggyback rides

Hugs

Anything where she's touching someone is wonderful in her book

As long as she's the one that initiates it

Anyone else touching her without her permission makes her freak

Prefers being high up

Makes it harder for anyone to sneak up on her

An ace at video games

When it comes to sexuality she just says she's Questioning

Ibuki Mioda (SDR2)

Any pronouns + Pup/Pupself + It/Its

No idea what their gender is otherwise

Biromantic Asexual

Just likes sexual jokes

Gets distracted easily

Has severe hearing problems

She's plays her instruments as loud as possible, with the amp right next to her, without ANY ear protection

It's caused some damage

She talks so loud bc she has no idea how loud is considered acceptable

Wears hearings aids most of the time

Several piercings and tattoos

Likes hearing things jingle

She has a bracelet with a few bells hanging from it

She'll shake it whenever she's bored

LOVES hair accessories

Ribbons are a particular favourite

Occasionally she'll hang little charms from her hair "horns"

The kind of person who never takes any pills/medicine bc she keeps forgetting she has to

Frequently uses emojis

Skates everywhere but she isn't very good at it

She keeps crashing into everything

Has broken every bone in her body at least 3 times

Most of which was bc she keeps trying to kick in doors and skating down the stairs

Celestia Ludenberg (THH)

Nonbinary

Any pronouns, mainly goes by She/They

Bi, 70:30

Collects mini hand sanitizers and can tabs

Has single handedly gotten Mario Kart, Mario Party, Monopoly, Uno, and Clue banned a grand total of 17 times (and counting)

The kind of person to purposefully target someone regardless of what game was being played

Favourite victim is Byakuya (bc he gets so upset about it and she finds that hilarious)

Mains Waluigi

Celeste/Kyoko/Makoto

Has several banned Twitter accounts bc whenever she's bored she'll start discourse on purpose

Hangs with Korekiyo, Ibuki, Byakuya, Yasuhiro, and Leon most often

It's a weird friend group but everyone's sorta gotten used to it

She and Byakuya gamble together occasionally

She tries to avoid it bc he'll willingly blow his entire fortune in an attempt to beat her

Autustic

Can't stand the feeling of water

Mainly bc she can't swim for shit

Horror movies? Hates them

Gets flustered super easily

Taka is her twin brother

Kotoko, Kokichi, and Gundham are their half siblings (Same father)

Peko and Toko are their cousins

She sucks ass at go fish

Fuck canon she's 4'11 now

C h u b b y

Freckles

Once she gets comfortable enough with herself she dyes her hair in the peekaboo style

Either black and red or black and blonde

Haven't decided yet

I'll be doing Celesnaegiri hcs as a seperate post but I just feel it's important for you to know that she expresses her affection verbally and is a very touchy person

Went to middle school with Maki and Korekiyo

Has horrible eyesight

She wears contacts most of the time but she always puts off buying more

After the 5th or so time she ended up blindly stumbling around a week after her contacts ran out Kyoko convinced her to buy glasses as well

Religious accessories yo

Like chokers and dangly earrings with crosses and pentagrams and shit

Likes wearing wacky earrings

Can run and do all sorts of tricks in heels

She and Mukuro are exes yo

Keeps her hair short so it's easier to manage

Hair never gets longer than her shoulders if she can help it

She seems like the kind of person who'd keep her bangs grown past her eyes regardless of how frustrating or inconvenient it is

She's a sub yall just don't wanna admit it

Funtime Foxy (FNAF)

I'm going on the record to say this

Funtime Foxy is genderfluid and that is that

Goes by Funtime

Any pronouns, They/Them most commonly

Plays music (keyboard and guitar mainly)

They and Funtime Freddy (Freds) mainly play with the kids

Freds mainly tells stories with Bonbon while Funtime more so plays one-on-one

Has nicknames for everyone

Circus Baby - Ringleader

Ballora - Bells

Funtime Freddy - Partner

Bon Bon - Bun

Peril (WOF)

I like both Nonbinary She/They Peril and Mtf She/Her Peril

They're both such good concepts

She's a lesbian, Harold

She only had a crush on Clay bc he was pretty much everything she was supposed to like in a guy

Gimme a moment while I force all my mental disorders onto this poor child

Autistic, Anxiety (Social anxiety, mainly, but she has most types), Adhd, PTSD

I'd like to reiterate yet again that She's a lesbian

Sunny and Glory were her gay awakening

Peril in Book 1: Damn, Sunny and Glory sure are pretty. Anyone would be lucky to date them. Clay would probably go for them over me. He would be stupid if he didn't. I myself would willingly date them over someone like me. They're just so pretty :(

Peril waking up in a cold sweat in the middle of arc 2: WAIT-

Rarepair alert but Peril/Sora

Peril meeting Sora: "Hmmm She's attractive. I would love to date her. Too bad I'm straight and in love with her brother lmao :P"

Peril, a mere month later, waiting for Ruby to leave Jade Mountain, pacing in her cave, running face first into a wall: WAIT-

I remember reading this one amazing story where Sora taught Peril to read/write and Peril found out she set off the bomb and comforted her/convinced her her run so that's canon now

Btw if anyone can remember what that story was called/what platform it was on and could tell me I'd appreciate it very much

I'd even be willing to draw a character of your's or make you an icon or something

I usually don't accept requests bc I get burnt out easy but this is a special case

She runs into Sora again sometime between the beginning of TOP and the end

I like to imagine she just goes wandering around

Anyway she confesses like a mere few minutes after running into her again bc Peril is just subtle like that

The actual confession takes 15 minutes and the entire time Sora is just sitting here like "👁👄👁 sure"

Bam Peril/Sora

Peril plans to keep it a secret for a little while longer but she spends 3 seconds around Clay and pretty much blurts it out

Clay, who wasn't even aware that Peril was a lesbian, is just "👁👄👁"

I wanna say Clay doesn't know what a lesbian is but in my canon Sunny is a lesbian so Starflight has already told him

Anyway he's super supportive

From that point Peril is sorta open about her sexuality?

Like, she gives Clay permission to tell the rest of the D.O.D bc she isn't about to risk being in front of them when they hear the news

(When Sunny starts actively seeking her out as a hang out buddy and Tsunami, Glory, and Starflight appear to tolerate her presence just a bit more afterwards she pretends she isn't confused by the change)

She's pink, white, and blue bc I said so

If you look at a certain angle in the right lighting her eyes, mouth, fire, and under her scales all look purple

But her fire is normally white and blue bc I said so

Also she pale as fuck bc in my canon their fire just sorta burns their colour away

You know how you leave something outside for too long and it gets sunbleached? Where it gets all washed out?

Like that but more extreme

By the age of 10-12 firescale dragons are just white with pale eyes

That's right not even the eyes are safe

Ram horns :P

I'm also fond of Peril/Sunny

Or maybe Peril/Sora/Sunny

But Peril/Sora is the main thing

On the topic of that bringing in my hc that if one sib in a sib group is fire resistant all of them are

She,,, She can change her scale colour

But only slightly and only if her emotions are strong enough

Bc I don't give a fuck about Darkstalker's scroll we were robbed of hybrid Peril

Unfortunately all of Peril's emotions are strong

Rainwing ruff along her head and neck

It's like a hood

It's mainly smoothed to her sides but when she's startled it flares out

RAINWING PUPILS

Y'all will know what those look like as soon as I get off my ass :P

She,,, She can mimic bird cries

Hates the summer

She has more than enough body heat already and the outside is just hot enough to add on and make her feel sick

She can somewhat control her heat but most of the time it's based on her emotions

It can go from standing-in-the-middle-of-a-burning-building-cant-see-your-nose-smoke-is-so-thick heat (Strong emotion) to Hey-thats-a-nice-cozy-campfire heat (Calm/"weak" emotion/Sleeping)

I'm just gonna make a different post with all my Peril hcs cuz there isnt enough room for all of them here

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itsthenovelteafactor · 3 years

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Superhero Gothic

Thanks to everyone who responded to my previous post (special shoutout to @jeyfeather1234 💛 ) about superheroes and gothic media! I know it’s been, like, a month, but here we go.

Here’s a bit of a look into some common gothic themes, and how they apply to Doom Patrol, The Boys, Watchmen (2019), and The Umbrella Academy. This one’s a bit long, not gonna lie, but I hope you enjoy!

Part I: Let’s Talk About Gothic Media

There is not actually an all-encompassing definition for gothic media, or even a universally agreed-upon one. You’re probably familiar with some well-known gothic works (think Dracula, Frankenstein, Edgar Allen Poe, Stephen King) but there is a lot of debate on what exactly makes them gothic.

There are some common themes in gothic works, though: families/characters under the control of a tyrannical paterfamilias, the crumbling of the established order/estate, long-buried secrets that have consequences in the present, and supernatural events that are stand-ins for/reflective of the emotional state/past actions of the characters.

(Note: these aren’t all the themes of gothic works or even most of them, but for purposes here, I’d like to limit this analysis to them. I’d love to talk about other themes/ideas, though, if anyone has them. 😊)

So… superheroes (quick overview in case you haven’t watched any of them… spoiler warnings for the rest of this discussion)

Doom Patrol:

Five misfit superhumans attempt to rescue their mentor figure when he is kidnapped by an old enemy.

They are very, very bad at it.

Also features a singing horse head, a sentient nonbinary teleporting street (who is by far the best character) and the narrator is the fourth-wall breaking series villain.

Beautifully weird but will also emotionally devastate you. Criminally underrated, tbh.

Watchmen (2019):

Story takes place after the canon of the graphic novel which is too much to summarize.

Alternate history (that should really feel more fictitious than it does) where white supremacist organization the Seventh Cavalry, masked police officers, and former superheroes in hiding all collide in Tulsa Oklahoma

Swept the Emmys this year and ABSOLUTELY DESERVED TO

The Umbrella Academy:

Washed up former child superheroes are forced to reunite when their father dies under mysterious circumstances

Time travel, dysfunctional siblings, and a killer soundtrack

Basically a family drama with the superhero story as secondary (complimentary)

Probably the most obviously gothic of all of these it is aesthetic AF

The Boys:

Superheroes exist but they are corporate sellouts under the control of evil company Not-Amazon (AKA Vought)

Regular human protagonists try to hold them accountable for their actions with varying (read: usually minimal) success

Yes, it’s the one from those weird ads earlier this year

Billy Joel!!

Part II: Niles Caulder, Ozymandias, and Other Terrible Father Figures

The Tyrannical Paterfamilias:

Does not always mean a father figure explicitly, often relating to the notion of a patriarchal tradition, or family inheritance that plays a role in controlling the main characters.

Sometimes, it is a father figure.

Sometimes, it is a representative of patriarchal tradition/male head of pseudo-family unit.

So, uh, role call:

Reginald Hargreeves (even in death) holds power over his children, and has shaped all of them into the adults they have become, and that drives the majority of the conflict. Each of the major character individually grapples with the after-effects of his abuse. Luther feels the need to be the leader and protect everyone and alienates his allies as a consequence. Diego constantly asserts himself as a hero (often to dangerous extremes) because it is the only way he was ever valued. Allison has to teach herself boundaries and responsible use of her powers after he encouraged her to abuse them for years. Klaus turns to drugs to cope with his childhood trauma. Five disobeyed his father with disastrous consequences and is constantly fighting to not become him. Vanya spent her entire childhood in the background, and never learned to assert herself in a healthy way. Thanks, Reggie.

Homelander says that The Seven are like a family. While whether or not this is accurate (it isn’t) is up for debate, he does occupy the tyrannical paterfamilias roles incredibly well. Homelander controls every member of the Seven, threatening them and their loved ones whenever they step out of line (read: do not do exactly what he wants in the exact way he wants them to do it.) He is also very closely tied with conservative/patriarchal rhetoric in-universe and at one point dates a literal Nazi.

William Butcher less evil than most of the other characters on this list but the bar is also like, on the ground. Butcher tries to control the Boys in a similar way (Butcher and Homelander are character foils, okay? it’s actually pretty neat). He’s perfectly willing to sacrifice them in pursuit of his own goals, disregards their points of view and the well-being of their loved ones, and tries to cut loose anyone who disagrees with his methods (recall when Hughie tried to rescue his friends at the end of s1 and Butcher… punched him in the face? Yeah, that.) The difference is that the Boys can push back against his without being, you know, brutally murdered. (And also the Butcher isn’t a literal monster; I’m not anti-Butcher, okay? He’s an interesting character and the fact that he seems constantly on the verge of becoming that which he hates most is part of what makes him interesting.)

Guess what, folks? It’s hating Niles Caulder hours. He engineered accidents to turn the main characters into his test subjects, and then kept them conveniently hidden away in his large manor. Stole their autonomy and independence but paints himself as a benevolent father figure. And that’s not even including what he does to his actual daughter, Dorothy. He’s terrified of her growing up (read: becoming a young woman) and so he locks her away for almost 100 years and, when she is freed, yells at her constantly and makes her terrified of showing any signs of maturation (even though she’s 111 and clearly tired of being written off as a child).

The relationship between Ozymandias and his daughter, Lady Trieu, is integral to the final act of Watchmen. Heralded as the “smartest man in the world,” Ozymandias refused to acknowledge his daughter as his until he needed something from her. While Lady Trieu is more self-sufficient and independent than some of the applications of this trope, she goes to great lengths to prove herself, first to him, and then to herself when he rejects her.

Part III: Been a Long Time Gone (Constantinople)

Gothic fiction is often associated with change, and particularly, the collapse of established systems of power. For example, many works like The House of the Seven Gables and The Fall of the House of Usher take place in old, crumbling manor houses. There is a reason for this! These kinds of estates are remnants of a past that is irreversibly gone, and their continued presence in decrypt forms serves as a reminder.

Each of the four series takes place at a moment, either on a wide scale or on a personal scale (or both!), in which an established order is being questioned, and the constant reminders of that failed order are used to gothic effect.

The Umbrella Academy plays this most directly (In fact, there are TONS of parallels between the end of s1 of TUA and House of Usher that I don’t have the time to get into right now... lmk if you want that meta). We can see the Hargreeves mansion as a very literal example of this. While not worn down, the house is notably both very large and very empty. Shelves are filled with merchandise for a superhero team that disbanded over a decade prior, and portraits of a family that no longer speaks to each other. None of the family members ever seem truly comfortable or at ease in the house, and for good reason - every back corner is a reminder of their incredibly traumatic childhood.

In The Boys, the story begins with the fridging death of the main character’s girlfriend, Robin, at the hands of a member of the Seven, a group of heroes so ingrained in the public consciousness that when they later hide out in a costume shop, literally every single costume is for one of Vought’s heroes. The Seven represent the system in power, which, at the disposal of Not-Amazon means corporate greed, shallow altruism, and the cultivation of public personas at the expense of actual humanity.

From that moment on, the sheer presence of The Seven on everything from public billboards to breakfast cereal is a remainder for Hughie (and the audience) that this established system doesn’t work and is based on lies, which serves this effect on a personal level. In the broader scale, however, we also see that the Seven themselves are fracturing under an unsustainable business model. Even their name, “The Seven” starts to seem a bit dated when halfway through season one through the end of season two there are notably... less than seven of them.

The main characters in Doom Patrol are all in recovery after the accidents that irreversibly changed their lives. We see through flashbacks the people that they used to be, and the difference is striking. They were each established in their own elements: Cliff a famous race-car driver, Rita a world renowned actress, Larry a hero pilot, Jane was involved in counter-cultural movements, Vic was a student and athlete. The foundations upon which their worlds were established are completely decimated by the accidents, and now they (save Vic and sometimes Jane) live mostly in isolation in Niles’ manor house, an estate that is far larger than would be necessary to comfortably house a group of their size.

And you feel the emptiness, both in the manor, and in the lives of the characters. They have barely created a shadow version of their own existence when the series starts, so fragile that a simple trip into town devolves into utter chaos.

Angela Abar of Watchmen has also constructed a life following the terrifying act of terrorism on the White Night. It’s a bit of a double life, and we see that the balancing act is challenging for her, even before the story truly begins. The death of Judd Crawford, and the revelation about him that follows is not only traumatizing on a personal level (but it definitely is that), but also upsets her understanding of the world. People she’s come to trust are not just dishonest but truly monstrous. And the more Angela learns about what has been happening, the more her understanding of the world begins to unravel. Her memories, and the memories of those around her are cast in a much more sinister light, and the effect is genuinely chilling.

Part IV: “I’m the Little Girl Who Threw the Brick in the Air”

In episode 3 of Watchmen, Laurie contacts Dr. Manhattan on the cosmic phone booth to tell him a joke. It’s a version of what TVTropes calls the “brick joke,” and it relies on set up taking place early on, other stuff happening, and then the response coming at an unexpected moment.

So, yeah. Events of the past/buried secrets resurfacing with consequences in the present.

Continuing with the theme from Watchmen, the entire series is punctuated with the way the past and the present intertwine, with elements from both the original Watchmen graphic novel, and actual American history. One of the things we talked a lot about in my gothic lit class was the manner in which the overhanging specter of past atrocities casts a shadow over the present, and how many works cannot help but have gothic themes because there are so many horrifying things in the past that cannot be ignored, and provide both context and nuance for the discussions we have in the present. No series tackles these topics quite so directly (and with as much care) as Watchmen. (note: it does not always make for easy viewing, but if you’re in a place where you feel like you can engage with that kind of material, I highly recommend the show.)

In Doom Patrol, the past actions of the characters very much control the storyline (see: previous discussion of Niles Caulder), but the character whose storyline I want to talk about here is Rita (partially for plot reasons and partially because I just love Rita, okay?). We learn when we first meet Rita that in the past she was... not a great person. We know that the trauma of the accident that gave her her powers has changed her, we also know that she still holds on to the guilt and that her guilt has limited the scope of her world for years, but we don’t know what exactly it is that she’s done.

Enter Mr. Nobody, all-powerful narrator who is not just aware of Rita’s greatest sins, but perfectly capable of manifesting reminders of them into the story. She is confronted with empty cradles, and the sound of crying children in the background of many scenes and we see how much it effects her, without a full understanding of why it does (see: The Tell-Tale Heart). Her past begins to haunt her physically, and she begins to crumble in response to it, until finally she is forced to confide in a stranger (and thus the audience). The past actions do not just inform the audience of Rita’s character - they show up to influence her behavior in the present.

The ending of The Umbrella Academy season 1 is super evocative of the gothic genre with Vanya breaking open the soundproof chamber (wherein she was silenced for years) and rising from the basement to destroy the last remnants of the Hargreeves legacy (which would be awesome if the last remnants of the Hargreeves legacy didn’t include the rest of her family). Pretty much every mistake the siblings make over the course of the season feeds together to create the finale, but the primary cause isn’t something any of them actually did. It all ties back to Reginald Hargreeves’ complete inability to be nice to children. Any children. His own and random strangers that need help.

In The Boys, while the extent to which people are making f-ed up choices in the present cannot be expressed enough, we see through the characters of Homelander that many of the present difficulties are a result of past mistakes. Particularly, the profit-seeking corruption within Vought. We learn in s1 through Vogelbaum that Homelander was raised in a lab by Vought as an experiment, only to be unceremoniously thrust into the spotlight and told he was a superhero (which... does not justify a single one of his actions but is still a major yikes). As the head scientist of the project, Vogelbaum is very aware that ignoring his conscious if the name of research has essentially created the biggest threat their world has ever seen.

(Seriously y’all just stop raising your super kids in isolation)

Part V: Put Them Together, and They’re the MF-ing Spice Girls

Having the environment respond to characters’ emotions/mental states is pretty common in gothic works (it was a dark and stormy night = someone is probably not doing super well). One of the advantages of the genre’s tendency towards the supernatural is that, often, those elements of the stories, as well, are reflections of the main ideas of a work of fiction (see: Stephen King’s really unsubtle period metaphors).

Because all of these shows have a ton of supernatural/scifi elements by virtue of being, well, superhero shows, I thought it would be easier (and more fun!) to come up with a short list of elements, what they mean, and what cases they might apply to.

1. A Nonlinear Experience of Time

The Umbrella Academy: legitimately about time travel. Characters are attempting to fix the timeline but are unable to because they are both mentally and sometimes literally stuck in the past.

Watchmen: In the episode This Extraordinary Being, Angela experiences firsthand the experiences of her grandfather, under the influence of a drug called Nostalgia. The episode touches on many themes, one of which being the impact of generational trauma in marginalized communities. Throughout the series, Dr. Manhatten is cursed with experiencing all time at once, and the episode A God Walks into Abar illustrates that, because of this, he is constantly facing the consequences of particular actions before, after, and while he is preforming him.

Doom Patrol: Mr. Nobody is able to physically travel to one of Jane’s flashbacks via his fourth-wall breaking powers, and gives Dr. Harrison an ultimatum for the future.

What it implies: Events, particularly events that evoke guilt or conflict, are not as rooted in the past as one would like to think.

2. Powers/Abilities that reflect personal trauma/failings

Doom Patrol: Larry’s abilities/bond with the Negative Spirit have made it so that he is constantly covering himself with bandages/avoiding other people, which reflects his experiences having to hide his identity as a gay man in the 50/60s. Rita forced herself to walk a thin line, betraying everything in pursuit of her image; her abilities require constant effort to keep her entire body from becoming misshapen and out of control. Vic’s father with boundary issues can literally control his perception of the world through his cybernetic enhancements. Dorothy’s abilities manifest as imaginary friends because she was kept isolated for years at a time.

The Umbrella Academy: pretty much all of the kids’ powers are representative of the interpersonal skills they were never able to develop. Luther is super-durable but also the most emotionally vulnerable of the group. Five can teleport and time travel but always seems to be too late to stop things. Diego can manipulate the trajectory of projectiles but cannot escape the path his father set out for him, not matter how much he resents it. Vanya always forced herself to stay quiet until the sound literally explodes out of her.

The Boys: Annie’s abilities allow her to control light, but she struggles (in the beginning) to bring to light the horrible things done to her behind closed doors.

Watchmen: Not technically a power, but Looking Glass’ mirror-mask is a constant reminder of the hall of mirrors that both saved his life and traumatized him forever.

What it implies: from a story perspective, these allow for an exploration of trauma/guilt to occur on a scale much larger than people simply talking about their problems (as if anyone on any of these shows knows how to talk about their problems...) It also means that the trauma/guilt of the characters takes on a physical form that is able to haunt them, and constantly remind them/hold them accountable for their past actions.

3. Diluted Sense of Reality:

Doom Patrol: The first season is narrated by its main villain, and throughout the season we see that the act of narration itself has an impact on the story.

Watchmen: The event that kicks off the plot of the story is hinged upon a paradox introduced by Angela near the end of the series when trying to speak to her Grandfather in the past through Dr. Manhattan.

The Umbrella Academy: The pair of episodes in season 1, The Day that Wasn’t and The Day That Was take the same point in time and explore two possible avenue for the future from there, with The Day that Wasn’t ending with the events of the entire episode being completely erased from the timeline.

What it implies: you can’t necessarily trust everything you see, even from the audience perspective, giving them a position not unlike that of the characters. The character’s uncertainty and confusion is magnified and reflected in the world that surrounds them.

Other examples: an apocalypse (The Umbrella Academy, Doom Patrol, Watchmen (of a sort)), ghosts (The Umbrella Academy - hi, Ben!), immortality/invulnerability (Watchmen, Doom Patrol, The Boys), and characters that look significantly younger than they actually are (The Boys, The Umbrella Academy, Doom Patrol).

Part VI: Why Did You Write a Literal Essay Don’t You Have Real Schoolwork (yes... shhhhh...)

And... there you have it. I don’t really have some grand conclusion here. This is (clearly) far from a complete analysis but it is the most my finals-week brain can concoct at the moment.

If you have other ideas, let me know! You can always add to the notes or message me – my inbox is always open! If you got this far, thank you so much for taking the time to read this! Much love! ❤️

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theblackbirdsgemimagines · 4 years

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Ramble away, cause I feel the twisted head rot, I kinda wanna see what you think about our bois. ~ a pocket sized dragon hops in excitement.

A POCKET SIZED DWAGOOOOOONNNN 😭💞💞💞 That’s so BLESSED, and tysm omg, I’m very glad to just spill out my barking on every boy, bc yEAH THE BRAIN ROT SKDHAKDB

THE BRAIN ROT IS SO REAL LOL

Everything I breathe ends up relating to TWST in some way, like at this point just let me take my friends, cousins, and pets, and of course Lulu and Seb, and I will have 1. A Gottdamned Harem, 2. So Many Children, and 3. NEVER WANT TO LEAVE. Kwfhskdhjwek

Ok this is gonna be long bc I gotta cover all my boys, so rip lol.

Dorm Leads:

Riddle

GOD, my Fucking Baby, my CHILD, my SWEET BABY BOY, I’M 👁💧👄💧👁

I would die for him, beetch, he is PRECIOUS ♥️

He reminds me of how I feel Ciel would behave if S/O took the place as Sebastian’s contracee, too, so like 🥺 Lots of feels 😭

Is Son, I have adopted him now. If you mistreat him, don’t ever speak to me or my son ever again. I’ll FIGHT his MOM, don’t TEST me. I’m his new mom now. His BIRD mom. So proud of him, he’s like...one of the few that’s actually shown growth in canon after his overblot kshdkadjs

Leona

👁💧👄💧👁

.....I am a Mere Simp....

Ya’ll.... I swearh to ghOD I simped hard for Scar back when I was a wee thing, I did NOT expect to simp for him AGAIN LATER IN LIFE, what the FUCK aidhskdhskdj

Like shit bitch, damn, you may not be king of Afterglow honey, but you can be king of my heart if you wAnt to bb....

Leona: *smiles once, even if it’s smugly*

Me: *WEEPING* Look at hiiiiiiim!! My sunshine booooooy! 😭

Does this make me a furry

Probably

I am too Simp to Care Anymore

I HESITATED TO GET ATTACHED BC THIS BOY LOOKS LIKE A FUCKIN WOMANIZER IF I EVER SAW ONE, BUT HE DRINKS HIS RESPECT WOMEN JUICE EVERY SINGLE MORNING AND I WAS A GONNER SNDJAJDHSJ

FUCK

Call me a Herbivore again, bully me //SLAPPED

Azul

He secretly a lil shit sometimes, but tha’s ok, it’s mostly in a silly way, especially post overblot~ UvU

The sweetest bby everytime I read fanposts on him, like god, ah 💜💜💜 WHOMST COULD BULLY SUCH A CUTE CHUBBY OCTOBABY I’LL FIGHT ALL OF EM!! A sweetheart 10/10 would be his friend 💗 Not making contracts with him tho, lol

...ok maybe SOME after his overblot, but they’re able to be easily reversed now, so it’s way more chill andhsjdj

Kalim

FUCK!!!! F U C K!!!! BABYYYYYYY!!!! BABY!!!! I HAVE ADOPTED HIM IF YOU TOUCH HIM YOU D I E

He is literally so sweet, anytime anyone was like “you’re so nice it’s annoying” I WAS READY TO COME FLYING IN TO BITCH SLAP THEM LIKE AJDHSKDHSJ (even if I also loved them lol)

Like NO you are WRONG whfksjd

He has also grown so much, and I am proud ♥️🧡

Vil

Jesus Christ, canon Vil is Hurting Meeeeee ajdhskdhsj

My fave fanon Vil is the one that recognizes all different types of beauty, though~ uvu and is v encouraging to anyone that may be struggling with self hatred 💜

Canon: Vil is pretty~.

Me: Wow, wtf???? He IS so pretty... How rude I didn’t think you were serious! Wow him??? Pretty??? Wow??? Wow...

Idia

I’m not sure yet, as I haven’t seen him very often, but of the few times that I have: BIG same, huge mood, and Me FUCKING Too, goddamn akdhakdj

Idia is my Anxiety and Anime Nerd personified tbh lol

What Ortho is to him are what all my comfort characters are to me, honestly.

Like what would you like bby, you want that singing voice?? Ok here comes a synthesizer just special for you~. Ily, mwah~ u3u 💕

Malleus

HEAVY BREATHING

Ok maybe it’s just the lack of story/info out on him yet, but I don’t currently simp as hard for him compared to Leona, I’ll admit jajdkajd

BUT BOY HOWDEY DO I EVER STILL S I M P...

He Is Baby... And I Lob Him....

I am going to smooch those horns and forehead crown of beautiful scales 🖤🖤🖤 I am going to do it!!!! Here I go!!!

HE CAN HAVE ALL THE ICE CREAM AND TAMAGATCHI DATES HE WANTS I’M- 😭

This man is too precious for words, and I have so much childhood nostelgia to ‘enchanted’ woods, and being in the mountains, so he has Old Fae Friend vibes to me~🖤

DRAGON FORM DRAGON FORM DRAGON FORM DRAGON FORM DRAGON F-

Ngl I ship him and Leona a lil bit lol

No, not just bc that makes a poly with my two faves easier, but that is a bonus factor jadhajdj

Vice Dorm Heads:

Trey

Oh my god, the Daddy to my Mommy with all these newly adopted lil kids of ours, ya know??? What a wholesome sweetie and funny lil shit jahdksdh~

I love him, I would gladly make tarts with, AND for him 💚💚💚

The kind of boi who I’d ship HARD with anyone he started dating bc My God it would warm my heart So Much 💞💞

Ruggie (unofficial but may as well be at this point lol)

He took a while to grow on me kadhskdhsj

But I think he’d be a sweet, if a trouble-maker of a friend to have~.

Dank you for taking care of my sweet lion bby, honey, I’m sure Farrena is a sweetheart, but boi I hope he gets his shit together to fix up where Ruggie lives 😭

I think if I met his granny, I’d CRY jadhajsh 💗💗

Leech Twins (?)

Idk if they’re vice leaders, but who cares lol

THESE are the older Big Brothers in every sense of the word. (My canon ages most everyone up just a bit, save for Riddle, Ace, Deuce, Kalim, Jamil, Cheka, and anyone already 20+)

The ANNOYING older big brothers, lol.

The ones that hug you to death (Floyd), or use you for an arm rest (Jade), and specifically Do the thing you asked/told them NOT to Do.

This is fine with me tho, I’m an only child, please give me the experience of annoying older brothers lol 💙💚

Jamil

I used to hate you bby, I’m so sorry akdhskdhs

I’ve adopted him now, and I’m v proud he’s trying, but making clear what his boundaries are, and trying to come out of a shell he was made to be in for so long 😭

AND HIS DANCING IS SICK LIKE HONESTLY I’M SUCH A PROUD MOM 💗💗💗

Rook

God. FUCKING Rook, lol.

IDK IF I SHOULD TRUST YOU, but I also kinda wanna be your friend akdhakdjs

HE CONCERNS ME but he also seems nice and v sweet sometimes, lmao

Blz don’t stalk me tho 😬

STOP SHOOTING YOUR ARROWS AROUND SCHOOL YOU BLOODY HEATHEN FRENCH PRISS, YOU ARE GOING TO KILL SOMEONE

Also, if he DARES hunt cute animals around me, especially BIRDS, I am going to GRIP him jahdkahdsk

He’s like if Lord Druitt was a Little More Nice and a Little Bit Less Creepy ajdhak

Lilia:

GOD.

I LOVE THIS FUCKING GRANDPA.

I. FUCKING. LOVE. THIS FUCKING. GRANDPA.

I absolutely hc him as nonbinary w/masc pronouns, I absoLUTELY do.

I adore him, I love him, I haven’t gotten a squish (hardcore desire to be someone’s friend, lol) this hard for a character since AngelDust, I-

Pwease be nonbinary friends with me, Lilia 🥺

THE ONLY PERSON HERE SHORTER THAN ME, BUT I’LL TAKE IT AJDHAKDHJS

Anyone know Corpse and how he plays Among Us? That’s how I see Lilia playing his video games with friends and I JUST I JUST I J U S T

The Spencer to your Carly.

He and Crowley are free to compete as Dad with me too like honestly kshdkadjjs

He’ll always be granpa tho uvu 💚💖🖤

Extras:

Ace

God, the Fucking Annoying Middle Brother that pranks you ALL THE DAMN TIME, but I love him andhakdhsk

Deuce

THE BROTHER THAT WILL BEAT UP YOUR BULLIES 💙💙💙 SWEET BABY BOY

The Josh to Ace’s Drake. The Cody to Ace’s Zack. The Freddie to your Carly and Ace’s Sam.

If he and Ace started dating, tho, I would CRY.

But regardless who they end up dating, it’ll be slow burn friends to lovers, and literally the most adorable shit to watch EVER 💞💞💞😭

Cater

Seems Like A Womanizer But Actually Drinks His Reapect Women Juice And We Stan That 🧡

Can always count on him to help tou get the best Magicram shots, bless you Cater 🧡🧡

Also rly wanna be his friend, ngl 😭 Even IF he pranks me a lot kadhakdhsj

Jack:

H E AV Y BR EA T H IN G

Ngl my feelings for him are in the air IDK IF I WANNA SMOOCH OR NOT YET I JUST KNOW I LOB HIM HE GOODEST BESTEST BOY 💛💛💛😭

If all three Savannaclaw bois got in a cuddle pile with me, I would Not Be Mad

How can I give this boy love, tell me and I will Do It

Gift him all the cacti’s he WANTS💛

God he drinks that respecc women juice bright and early on his run every morning, you KNOW he does 💛💛💛

I wawnt to pet his ears an tail an fwuffy wolf form 😭

I WAWNT TO SEE THE BOY SMILE AND BE HAPPY 💞💞💞

Sebek

CHILL CHILL CHILL CHILL CH-

He is a v devoted guard tho, we love to see it UvU

I don’t have more info on him hekdhskdj but his fanmade content seems v v sweet~ 💚

Silver

HE ATTRACTS BIRDS AND I CRY ABOUT IT PLEASE BE MY FRIEND AND TEACH ME HOW 🥺🥺🥺

Him being raised by Lilia and Malleus literally gives me so much Fucking Seratonin....... God 💞💕💗💗💞💞💗💗💕💞

Ortho

IS BABY????? IS BABY!!!!!! I’M LOVE HIM I’M ADOPTING HIM IS BABYYYYYYY 💙💙💙💙💙

Cheka:

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-

He is so FUCKING CUTE what the FUCK!

Leonaaaaaaa... 🥺 Your NEPHEWWWWW 😭

I might steal him from Farrena tbh, lIKE MY CHILD NOW~ 🧡🧡

I just sob and hug him every time I see him honestly 😭

Teachers:

Dire Crowley

Ohhhhhh god oh god oh god

Be my dad. Please. Be my dad. PLEASE be my dad. Ya’ll think I’m joking, I’m not. Please adopt me. Fuck. Fuck. FUCK.

This man as a father gives me so much dopamine and oxytocin and seratonin??? I have been weeping for WEEKS, please adopt me, Sir

Fathers with zero braincells being wrapped around a daughter’s little finger makes me so weak, and I am just here with Daddy Issues like ajdhakdhsj BLEASE ADOPT ME MISTER BIRD MAN

Crewel

Ew.

Forgive me, I haven’t seen much content with him in it/that could be considered wholesome, bUT JADHWKDJSJ

UncoMFORTABLE

Please keep the kink talk out of the classroom, S I R

Call me puppy one more time, see what happens, I’m not scared to fight a teacher akdhakdhsj

Trein

The Dad Figure that tries to be the stern part to Crowley’s blumbering kahdkqrhsjdj

Don’t feel as much attachment to him emotionally, but I like him~

Just let me pet your cat sometimes and give you holiday presents, and we’re cool~ ♥️

Vargas

Found the womanizer //SMACKED

And of course, I can’t forget Grim~!

He’s grown on me, and if anything happens to him I will kill everyone in the room, and then myself 😭

I will pet and snuggle and hold him all he wants and feed him all the tuna his heart desires uvu 💙

#THIS TOOK A LONG TIME FORGIVE ME JADHSKDHSKDH #MY PHONE WAS LAGGING IN TYPING AFTER A WHILE I WAS LIKE KEEP GOIN BESSY ANDHSJJD #twisted wonderland #twst dorm leaders #twst vice dorm leaders #dire crowley #leona kingscholar #riddle rosehearts #azul ashengrotto #idia shroud #vil schoenheit #malleus draconia #asks #answered #THANK YOU FOR GIVIN ME MORE OF AN EXCUSE JSADBJASDN #<3 <3

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lowell-moonguard · 3 years

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I mentioned this on twitter but I wanna talk about it here because there's no character limit and the post lenght will be religated to exactly one (1) post. Unless someone talks to me about it then idk.

Its super fucked up that the trans experiance is so throughly fetishized that people can't really conceptualize the idea of a trans man becoming a father by any other means than adoption because to do it "the old fashioned way" is just straight up a lot of cis people's fetish?

Like I am trans masc, I am capable of becoming pregnant. And while I don't want kids, and neither do any of my partners. The idea of someone like me can have children and find it to be an empowering and normalizing experiance is something that's a little beyond words for me right now.

Like sit down and really think about it, what is the vision most people have about trans people, including trans femmes. Do you think any are parents? Do you think that this was a planned endevore or was it something they had to "earn" via adoption? What about a trans masc and femme couple? Where the traditional roles of mother/father are flipped in our bio-essentialist world? Do you know of a single story where a trans person has a child, The Old Fashion Way, and this is treated like not only a normal thing but something to be celebrated?

I can think of maybe one (1) article I read a few years back about a nonbinary person who was capable of becoming pregnant and the journey that was. The dysphoria that induced and the struggles they underwent both due to the changes pregnancy brings and every bit of it was a story that needed to be told, that needed to be said.

But because of how people make my sheer existance into a fetish, I can't tell my stories in peace. I can't bring this character out into public because I'm afraid people are gonna start excluding me from things because I'm "bringing my kinks out into public" when really its just that I, a trans masc capable of becoming pregnant, want to tell not only a story that is rarely told in a non-sexual light, but one that is empowering to me personally.

Like I get it, I'm queer and I'll never fit into the cisheteronormative ways that American Society want me to. And I also get that because transness is just seen as a vehical for sexual taboo that no matter what I do, people are gonna see anything I do as a sexual thing. But there's some normalities that I do want to have accessible to me and people like me.

You know that post that's gone around where if you take a tired, run through, cishet romance trope and turn it gay it suddenly becomes intresting again? Imagine actually treating the journey of parenthood with the same respect. I have two characters now that are trans and parents, one was simply backstory and one is current.

And I know people like RCDArt fucking scarred all of us, and that the literal fucking DECADES long list of cis people writing mpreg because their ships are gay and they want the Drama™ of a pregnancy storyline without any of the introspection, research, or fuck maybe even awareness that trans people even existed back in the early days of fic. There's a history of this stuff just being used as fap material and nothing deeper.

But that doesn't mean trans people shouldn't be able to tell stories that are about us, that are usually inaccessible to us because we spend so much time trying to prove to The Cis that we aren't ~weird~ and are Just Like Them except we get to die alone and childless. We don't pass on The Queer Gene that makes more of us because well that would be counter productive to allowing us to exist wouldn't it?

And on the flip side I totally get other trans mascs that don't want to touch the subject with a 30 ft pole because even thinking that they're able to get pregnant gives them the kind of dysphoria that makes them wish they weren't alive. I get it. I do. But what makes you dysphoric doesn't make everyone dysphoria. Everyone experiances things differently and we need to make stories that apply to trans people and our lives.

#long post #Guarding The Moon.txt #pregnancy mention #ramblings #I'm queer and upset

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rosesmith18 · 3 years

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(PnF) Headcanon #11 Thomarie Nitpicks #2 Pt.1 Clothing

This is sort of a sister post to post #6 & #7, it mentions characters from post #6, and is connected to my current series of post about the problems I have with the MnT(Marie and Thomas) Universe. I want to make it clear that I like these characters...to an extent, but to another extent I don't. I want the best for them as they were a big part of my childhood, and so in this post I want to make some tweaks to their clothing and personalities, as I find them currently sporadic and dated.

*Disclaimer: The MnT Universe is centered around (OC)Maria Flynn & (OC)Thomas Fletcher. Marie belongs to angelus19 & sam-ely-ember deviantart. Thomas Belongs to Melty64.

Maria's Child Clothing: Okay, so a lot of people have made the claim that Maria's design is generic which I will not deny. It's a blatant ripe off of her mothers clothes with a change of color palette, and while I enjoy the idea of Phineas designing her clothes to be that way, it's a waste of potential(as are most things I will mention in this post). Maria canonically adores France, and in my headcanon was born there, so I think some Parisian style could be added to this design. I'd draw instead of writing about this, but I have no artistic talent. For starters, based on my research(as I myself am not French)puffed sleeves are a common occurrence in French clothing culture, so giving Marie puffed sleeves in place of her mothers regular ones would be nice. Instead of basic shoes, ankle boots are also a common item in French clothing followed by white and/or black tights. Now, ironically enough the style of belt Isabella has on her clothes is similar to a French Skinny belt called a Maison Boinet, so just change it from being one color to a light brown with a metal clip, and it can stay-as can the main outfit. Lastly, to quote https://leoncechenal.com/french-girl-style-guide/ 'And I think the ultimate goal of all French girls is to find their own style (what they like and what they don’t) and to stick to it.', so in summary this doesn't need to look perfect or fancy it just needs to look natural.

Maria's Teen Clothing: Okay, this one is even worse in my opinion, but the whole one color thing is killing me! So, for this I did a COMPLETE recall and came up with this; A purple beret, orange bow wrapped around her neck mimicking a Parisian scarf, dressed in an orange & purple horizontal striped sweater dress that hangs off her shoulders, and a pair of black single buckle ballet flats. She would have a gold chain-link belt to replace her Maison Boinet one, a cameo necklace of the Virgin Mary, and a gold choker with small bells. Based on my research actual Beret's aren't that common in French culture anymore, though ironically striped shirts and dresses are, but Marie's is canonically the one her mother wore in the episode 'Summer Belongs to You' and familial connection is super important to Maria-so I decided to keep it. I kept her Garcia-Shapiro bow as I am appalled they tried to get rid of Isabella's in AYA(Act your Age)! Vivian clearly still has her from when she was young, and I believe every Garcia-Shapiro who wants one should keep them to some extent throughout their life! Off shoulder tops and dresses are pretty common in France as are sweaters, so I gave Maria an off shoulder sweater dress. And, ballet flats are some of the most common footwear for woman in France, they have many styles like the single buckle that don't actually look like ballet flats we American's would usually associate with ballet. The jewelry wore by French woman is wore all the time, and is rarely below the quality of 10-carrot gold. Layering necklaces of different sizes such as a cameo necklaces and a choker is normal, and chain-link belts are considered appropriate for any and every outfit. Chokers are a bit longer than some might expect them to be, and I went with a cameo necklace of the Virgin Mary as I headcanon Maria to be a serious Jew. Lastly, make-up in the French world is some of the most neutral in color and shade, so I gave Maria a soft pink lip and nose bridge blush at best.

Thomas' Child Clothing: I heavily dislike Thomas' child design. It lacks any personality in my opinion when compared to Ferbs or Vanessa's. I appreciate that it isn't a ripe off like Marie's, but that doesn't make it good or interesting. Also, this ties into my biggest problem with Thomas, but he's too...boyish. There is nothing wrong with having a practically boyish character, but that kind of personality and style is better used on a character intended to be boyish, and not characters who happen to be boys. I mean Thomas is the son of one of the most headcanon'd nonbinary characters in the whole show, and one of the most headcanon'd bisexual's in the whole show. This is why I mentioned these characters being a bit dated. They definitely came out before LGBTQ+ representation became popular in the fandom-at least compared to the extent of today. So, for Thomas I want to propose a few heavy changes to his child design, starting with...SKIRTS. I petition Thomas to have an either black & white(or purple and green), plaid skirt that reaches his knees. This style of skirt is popular in both British and German(Drusselstein) clothing culture, and is something his family would so support! I mean the potential Thomas has for normalizing clothing as gender neutral is being completely wasted! A white polo shirt inspired by his fathers and his original design underneath. A tweed blazer-of the same color scheme-which is considered always in style in Britain, and the Haferlschuh which are the most popular type of shoe found in Germany-and suit any outfit. Add some tracht socks in white and you have the perfect style!

Thomas' Teen Clothing: This design wasn't horrible, I actually quite like the overall vibe it was going for, but it's not specific enough. I don't find this design to be more than a vibe; It doesn't go deeper than that when it could. So, I summarized it into this; Ripped up, leather pants, sleeveless, white turtleneck, high-heeled, black boots, and to top it all off a trench coat and leather satchel. Considering Thomas is the lead singer and bass guitarist for a classic/heavy rock band I think some ripped leather pants with a bell bottom are perfect. I kept the sleeveless, white classic turtleneck that came from his original design as I do think it's appropriate. I also wanted to pay homage to his mothers almost iconic heels by giving Thomas a similar pair himself; A pair of black, over the knee boots, with a stiletto heel. The trench coat MADE his original design, and the traditional leather satchel is a perfect accent to it, both are British classics in the world of fashion.

Thomas' Rock Outfit: I'm added a subsection for Thomas' clothes as we NEED to talk about his band outfit. I want to say this first, I don't like the original name for the band. Clair is a generic name that doesn't sound too rock-ish in my opinion. It's supposed to represent Maria as it is a French girls name, but it's too simple for someone like Thomas. So, I changed it to Église des Gémeaux which represents Maria in more ways. The name literally translate to Church of Gemini from French to English. It represents Maria's French heritage, her connection to her Jewish Religious roots, and contains a reference to her birth month of June-her birth sign Gemini. The band in itself is canonically represented by The Spill Canvas which is an American Alternative rock band which I also changed. I gave the band a more Eisbrecher/Queen style as Thomas is German(Drusselstein)/British. Eisbrecher is a German Neue Deutsche Härte rock band(translating to New German Hardness aka Industrial Rock), and most of us know Queen the British rock band known for helping to start the rock genre making them a Classic rock band. Major headcanon to this band I want to add, Thomas primarily sings in German(Drusselstein) as he himself has a heavy German(Drusselstein)/British accent. His canonical outfit is a leather top similar to his mothers teenage attire, some basic jeans, and some black boots. I have rewritten this design as such; Ripped up, bell bottom, leather pants, long-sleeve, purple, deep V-neck top, covered by a studded, leather jacket, and keeping his pair of black, over the knee boots, with a stiletto heel. Accent this outfit with some studded, leather cuff bracelets, silver chain choker, and industrial piercing as well as some crescent moon 2nd/Upper lobe piercings. Now, the style of rock/punk is highly personal and changes heavily from generation to generation, but as someone whose family is highly involved in the antique business; It can be expected that Thomas would have a classic rock style inspired by the band he loves such as Eisbrecher, Queen, The Rolling Stones, Mozart L'Opéra rock, Amon Düül II, etc. Some of the elements of his outfit repeat such as his pants and heels, though his deep V-neck is inspired by a picture of Queen. His studded jacket is inspired by MANY rockers of the past. And, his jewelry has a very punk aesthetic. His make-up can be expected to be heavy with intense eyeliner, mascaras, and aided with a plum lip to match his V-neck. While I do enjoy the Grunge style take for Fred & Xavier; I personally find it underwhelming for someone such as Thomas.

I'll end the post here for now as it's getting pretty long. I'll make a post about personality changes at a later point(likely my next post). If you have any questions, comments, etc about what changes I've made feel free to share them! If you have any expertise with French, German, British, or Rock attire and believe I've been misinformed than please tell me! I remind you I am not an expert on fashion, character design, and am only aware of American trends. These changes are entire based on what knowledge is available to me, and my own personal feelings about clothes and characters, but I'm open to learning! I apologize if my opinions come off as harsh, I am merely opinionated about things I enjoy, but I hold no ill-will towards anyone who thinks differently. At the end of the day, I don't own Marie or Thomas or Phineas and Ferb, and am merely expressing my freedom to make or suggest changes. I encourage anyone reading this post to do the same, and be has intense as you feel, of course WITHOUT being insulting of the people you disagree with. Thank you!

#phineas and ferb #marie and thomas #headcanon #oc #clothing #marie flynn #thomas fletcher #phineas flynn #isabella garcia shapiro #ferb fletcher #vanessa doofenshmirtz #next gen #phinbella #ferbnessa #pnf

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luwupercal · 4 years

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Got any magnus the red headcanons?

boy do i ever. this is a magnus stan twit

once again, if any of these contradict canon, my L, i drink dumb bitch juice sometimes

the warp equivalent of Extremely Online. can cite daemonic memes at you at 30 paces. it’s awful

will make the awful concept a reality just to taste it. “tomato strawberry bagel sandwiches aren’t that bad”, he’ll tell you, “i’ve tried them and-- where are you going”

him and leman are the only primarchs whose natural hair isn’t brown/black

another thing in common with leman: will go to sleep naked and not give a shit. honestly magnus has 0 body modesty. he doesn’t care

him communicating with big E early on was way less “psychic visions at the witching hour” and more “hey, this weird plucky little red parentless child who doesn’t need to earn a living because tizca is quite literally a psychic hippie nerd commune says he doesn’t need parents because he can already communicate with his dad psychically. is... anyone gonna question that?”

(they did but they couldn’t really stop him)

(amon was the one who mostly questioned that one)

he did kinda raise himself/get raised by others kind of communally(?) because E only popped in sometimes? he’d be gone for weeks. he was very much an absent parent. connection wasn’t stable at the best of times and after a few years of not being able to fully raise magnus E kinda half gave up on being a true parent to him. but magnus considered him his truest parent for all his childhood

sidenote with an E headcanon: he really did mean to raise his children, but his plan got fucked up and so now he’s operating on the backup of “yes i always meant you all just as tools”. he didn’t cut it cleanly though and that... caused problems. whoops (also he was a narcissist who saw all of humanity but especially his children as extensions of himself COUGHS loudly)

y’know how the wiki says he embraced E when E arrived? MAGNUS FUCKING GLOMPED HIS FATHER AND YOU CANNOT CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE

has never konmari’d in his life, he lives in a cluttery ghibli howl’s-room hell if not physically then at the very least emotionally. he’s got KNICK KNACKS and he is NOT afraid to show it. he’s got like, the shera s5 horde prime museum of artifacts from cultures he personally made sure didn’t exist anymore in storage. i can’t find pics of the scene but it’s bone chilling it’s cool as hell i like new shera hordak is basically a primarch to horde prime’s emperor. like HP’s literally a galactic emperor

(daemonic) back brace for his injury. Back brace to help with his (russ-induced) injury. Magnus gets the back brace that he needs!

there is no way magnus isn’t nonbinary. i’m [used to identify as genderfluid at the time i wrote this now just identify as nonbinary] and ive claimed every single fictional character who can shapeshift for my cause. theyre all genderfluid. magnus will sometimes just have boobs for the day and you will have to cope with it. genderfluid bisexual magnus truther jules luwupercal

speaking of his ability to shapeshift hes got like a ton of physical appearence details that are strikingly different from basically all his brothers, who take more after big E? and it’s like, on purpose. if he didnt have his powers hed have the same similarities they all share. its still like physical build, hand shape, ears, small details like those. he still looks related to them, just, less of a brother and more of a cousin? but its all like By his own design. he looked way more similar to them back before the heresy

(actually one last one in this topic: he actually shifts between looking closer to E/his brothers and looking more different depending on circumstances. its not immediately very noticeable unless youve picked up on it before, then you cant really unsee it? for example, when he fought with russ he looked very different, and when he was getting along w say, khan or perturabo he looked more like them)

(sorry i have so many headcanons abt shapeshifting im just trans and jealous)

BEYOND obtuse, romantically, in case you wanted to know

A Smidge Excentric. just the slightest pinch. for flavoring. it’s mostly restrained to his appearence and he’s honestly mostly grown out of it, especially after the burning of prospero, but it could resurface if he allowed himself to relax and act childishly/immaturely again

likes hanging out upside down. he says it makes blood rush faster to his brain and that’s good, right (big “all my injuries are internal that’s where blood is supposed to be” energy, imo)

PEAK aquarius, like absolutely

kind of a gaudy motherfucker. would 10/10 have a neon-hued mcmansion with authentic tiger furs strewn all over the place. has ultimate garbage kitsch taste and we love that for him

probably a homestuck somehow

i can keep going but i’m gonna stop for now. magnus is my boy and i love him despite how dumbfuck his ass his because i know how dumptruck his ass is <3

#ask #alina-marie-07 #magnus the red #warhammer 40k #wh40k #headcanons

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kittymsmithwritesstuff · 4 years

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Why I love Bloodhound

Here’s something I really like about Bloodhound: They are a ridiculously confident non-binary character who is not defined by their gender identity. A ridiculously confident, non-binary character who is deeply involved in a religion they love and does not let their faith waver in the face of modernity, nor let it prevent them from progressing as they see fit.

I just love that Bloodhound is Bloodhound. They are a survivor of major trauma, someone who has worked at a skill-hunting-so rigorously and with such passion and drive that they have become the best in a majority of a galaxy, not just a world but a whole ass star system. And they know it, they own their skill. They recognize they are fucking awesome, fucking incredibly capable and don’t let anyone tell them otherwise; they are smug and proud and they value it, and have every right to. But they don’t undermine the skills of others because theirs are so great; everyone has their place to shine, their piece to offer, and they recognize that while simultaneously saying, “I’m still pretty fucking epic, bro.”

here’s a cut because I didn’t realize how long this was at 2am and I am so sorry for people on mobile

I also love that they are a very religious character in a mainstream video game, fanatical really, but this is not portrayed negatively! They are allowed to have their religion, they are allowed to have it be a huge part of their life, and still shown to live and work well with the other Legends. Paganism is different from something like Christianity, but being I know people who are religious and have my own beliefs, it’s nice to see a positive representation of religion, especially with a non-binary character since LGBTQ+ (in my experience) seem to struggle with religion, both whether they believe in it and whether they can even be allowed to believe in it anymore. Bloodhound is just a wonderful show of how it doesn’t hurt anybody to believe something, even if others might think it’s a little odd.

Also I love their personality. They are stoic, well spoken, and socially withdrawn without being awkward. They are bloodthirsty, ruthless, and a good team mate. They are also polite, thoughtful, caring, playful and smug (”Have you prepared for your end? I have.”) and even sweet, and going off of what we learned with the Old Ways video (and some of their voice lines with Revenant) they got a lil temper too. Just a lil. (That could probably be More Than Lil but this ain’t my headcannon zone). I just like that they didn’t sacrifice personality in a completely masked and covered character. This is both to the writers and a big fuckin noiiice to Allegra Clark’s voice acting. They’re not a token inclusion character, their personality is full and real and interesting; their identity as a nonbinary person isn’t second, but interwoven. They are just a good character and I love it.

OKAY I KNOW THIS IS REALLY LONG AND I COULD SAY SO MUCH MORE BUT THIS IS MY LAST POINT BECAUSE IT IS LATE OKAY THANK YOU

A point I’ve wanted to make for eons about something and I feel like they’re a great if not perfect example for this: They are a brilliant show of someone who has overcome and learned to live with their trauma.

Bloodhound saw their father die before their eyes as a child, in a horrific way (imagine your dad is a fucking ice statue and somebody knocks into him wrong and he shatters into a million pieces except there’s blood in there). They lost their uncle and only (parental) guardian at a young age, while also becoming badly scarred in the process of avenging the source of this trauma-trauma they caused themselves by not following the “old ways”. Let alone what other shit happened after that. But Bloodhound doesn’t let it rule their life.

They are a successful hunter. They have confidence in themself and the ability to instill confidence in others. They take pride in their work and their religion (which I think is partially a way to stay closer to Artur but that’s a different post) and have, presumably traveled extensively and lived a full life in name of Allfather. Nothing ever fucking stopped them, but it wasn’t like it didn’t happen. A little spoilery, but in the letter to Loba they state that they literally do not go a single day without thinking about their parents. If you go through their Trials on Worlds Edge, you know Bloodhound misses Artur terribly, and has very specific things they wish they could talk to him about (including but not limited to their religion and Boone and holy FUCk I love them).

They experienced trauma and moved forward. They are living with trauma-and by living I mean living, they aren’t trapped in some existential hole of dread from which they’ll never escape. They are a positive before and after picture, a show that trauma is not the end of life but a step within it, a stumble from which you can rise. I am so sorry for people who are trapped or just sitting there thinking they’ll be completely fucked up forever. The fact is it’ll be hard and it isn’t fair, but it is possible to keep moving forward. And I just think Bloodhound is a brilliant example of

Tdlr: Bloodhound is a wonderful balanced character who is a great example for those going through struggle and is also a sassy little shit and that just makes it better.

#its 2am help #this took too long #bloodhound #bloodhound headcannon #bloodhound headcanon #apex legends #bloodhound apex #bloodhound apex legends #apex legends headcannons #character study #i proofread this but it is also 2am so i am sorry if theres just some bullshit aight not gonna regret publishing at all

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I plan to return to my favored coping method when I need “I’m not me” time- roleplaying- but before I did that.... I wanted to talk about what happened. Why I’ve been so depressed. Why I’ve been quiet. Because for the first and last time....... I don’t have to worry about what my stepdad thinks of me.

TW: transphobia, misgendering, mentions of a lot of -isms (sexism, racism; stepdad is an ASSHOLE), mentions of suicide and depression

TL;DR: I finally told Marshal- my stepdad- about being nonbinary. Not only did he react the way I knew he would, but my mom largely defended him before all of this and even said my pronouns were “confusing” to her. I had been hoping to have support from her, so this broke my heart. I officially don’t live with them anymore, but I struggle to find a single place to be in, due to my boyfriend’s dad being uncomfortable with me being home without Cam (my bf).

....Alright, let’s get into a bit of a doozy of a story...

It started with another fucking day of Marshal being on his bullshit. The day previous (13th), he made a comment about how “and that’s why women shouldn’t be cops,” because, while he and mom were watching a true crime show, a woman police officer brought up an acronym. Mom guessed it, was wrong, and Marshal brought that out there.

Yikes.

The day of, he was watching a kid’s movie with his daughters (the younger three; the movie was Hotel Transylvania) and he wanted to know if there was a derogatory term for Irish people. He was going with “potato eaters”, but wasn’t sure if that was right, or if there was anything worse he could be saying. (And he wanted to know so he could say it.) He tried to ask mom, citing a Jewish slur, but she said she didn’t know so he could shrug and go back to “potato eaters.”

After they left to go to a birthday party, I overheard a video on his phone mention “...the hypocrisy of the left...” and decided maybe it was time I had enough.

....Except she defended him when I brought it up. “Oh, he’s half-Irish, so....” “We can’t change what he believes in. He was raised like that and the construction site reinforces his views. Even Google shows him more and more of that kind of thing.”

I got understandably upset that my mom was defending him and didn’t understand why I’d be feeling unsafe around someone like that. I left to go back on the computer and talk to friends. Buuuut because I was in tears at that point, mom felt like it was time to pursue the issue.....by standing right next to me. The monitor was HUGE on the family computer. (My laptop wasn’t at the house due to it crashing the internet a lot.) So I felt even MORE cornered.

In came a talk about MY GENDER turning into politics. How Republicans and Democrats don’t talk anymore, how the parties think of each other like family, and it just sucks, to her. I bring it back to the ACTUAL talking point..... Only to get the reaction I mentioned in the TL;DR: she thinks that singular “they” is weird and not viable for pronoun usage. No matter what I say or try to.

My sobbing draws out Marshal from upstairs, who asks what’s going on. I decide to power through and talk about what’s been delayed for months, if not almost a full year... I’m nonbinary and want he/they pronouns.

See, though... His mom had called him when I attempted “social suicide” on Facebook, coming out originally. Despite having explained myself and my gender/sexualities, miss grandma decided to tell this to Marshal as, “I think there’s something wrong with Rachel.”

.....Which was then followed up with what I knew was coming: “I think there’s something wrong with you. I think you hate your body. You’re always going to be a beautiful girl to me.”

Now, maybe it wasn’t a wise thing to scream. (Did feel good, though. Emotional turmoil calls for a good scream, even if I still wonder if I frightened our neighbors.) It was a less wise thing to hit myself... Though I also thought Marshal had left the room. He had not; instead hovering at the bottom of the stairs or on the stairs themselves, hovering over us.

.....It’s an emotional situation, I do lash out in screams, and I’m not proud of it. But I do want to note that it’s hard to be autistic and talk about things like this when NOBODY ELSE is the mediator. (I talk about my dad a lot when it comes to this part. He took me being polyam very well, as though he didn’t understand it, he made sure to deescalate my panic and explain it more in-depth, so he could get a better idea of what it is I’m doing. Why it’s healthy, why it makes me happy... Stuff like that. Ending it with, “If it makes you happy, awesome.”)

Mom? She....wasn’t doing much, at that point. Sitting in a chair and sobbing. Misgendering me- literally- behind my back. “She thinks you’re not accepting her.” (Because he isn’t? Duh?)

Long story short of Marshal also trying to needle mom into saying something against him, as the only religious person in the room has decided he feels VERY attacked and wants to hear his wife say some shit, too..... Cam shows up to pick me up. I stumble out of the house in slip on shoes and a pair of ancient PE shorts.

....Went back later to pick up some stuff w/ him and a friend of ours in silence. Mom was still crying. She’d try to eventually use that against me to paint herself the victim and gaslight me into making ME feel awful for....... [checks notes] Wanting my gender to be respected.

I made another semi-bad decision of making a FB post talking about my anger and mentioning LBGT+ suicides, because being perceived as only female was really putting a damper on my mood, on coming back every day (after hanging out with Cam) and dealing with depression. I was NOT happy in that house and it definitely was a rising factor in why I often felt hopeless and, well, depressed.

I let my friends respond to family since I was gonna be out anyways and I also trust these people with my life. I very commonly mince my words or try to give some ground out of politeness, thus never really getting far when it comes to arguments. (Everyone always seems smarter than me and I end up feeling so stupid after....) Of course, that then resulted in my mom and Elo’s mom feeling targeted and attacked by my friends and boyfriend (who had EVEN MORE RIGHT to say shit), apparently the latter even going on to say this was a “family matter” and my friends (and boyfriend!!) had no place in it.

....Except I let them and the only negatives that came from that was my mom having to face facts that she WAS gaslighting me. Oh, and didn’t use my pronouns until AFTER a friend of mine called her out for it. But okay.

.:.

At this point in time, I....definitely am bitter on how my mom has chosen to go about certain things- the gaslighting and a convo on Insta (that I have screenshotted) where she said “if you cut out all the people who have different opinions from you, you’re going to lose a lot of people”- but I’m not as mad at her as I used to be? (Or maybe it’s the gaslighting. I can’t tell anymore.) It just hurts a shitton to realize that the only reason I couldn’t talk this out with her.....was because of Marshal.

She wanted to play both sides and that isn’t POSSIBLE when “both sides” are “choose between your LGBT+ child or the racist, sexist, transphobic breadwinner and father to 3 kids.” You know who she’d choose. And she did.

(Also, consider that “different opinions” should REALLY mean “we agree on some things, disagree on others, but that open-mindedness keeps us close” and NOT “befriend a person who makes suicide jokes, thinks your gender is a fad/fake, and makes racist remarks, “but it’s just a joke, bro”.” Like?? Just me????)

Definitely pissed at Marshal, though. That’s been a constant from day one of me realizing how garbage he is. Even a friend who defended my mom said fuck him, which really goes to show how awful the man is, without needing to know all of the other things he’s said before. (And he’s said a LOT.) And he’s also the reason that I’m not going back to the house. Why I’m going to try to be moving out.

If it was just my mom, I’d consider it. I’d give it a month to think about things and what I want to do, where I want to go...but Marshal involved? No thanks. Never again. She thinks I’m going to “get a dose of reality” and come crawling back home? Nope. And if she keeps talking like that, none of my future kids are going to meet grandma. >:/

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musicfeedsmysoul12 · 5 years

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The Other Diplomat Kid

Summary: Sam Williams goes to Paris when their dad temporarily takes over the title of diplomat to get away from their grandfather. They end up meeting a girl everyone in the diplomat circle knows is a liar.

Notes: Sam Williams is from a book I am writing where Sam discovers their identity and ends up rebelling against their grandfather. Their dad ISN’T a diplomat but like given this idea bit me... here.

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Sam Williams walked into the school carrying their camera and bag, feeling nervous. Getting out of Canada and away from their grandfather was great. Even if it was just for a few months. But France was… different. Didn’t help they spoke Quebec French rather than French-French.

“Oh, hello.” A pretty girl with dark hair in pigtails smiled at her. “Are you new?”

“Uh yeah. I’m Sam? I’m just here for a few months… I’m in… Mlle. Bustier’s class?” Sam said.

“Oh! I’m in her class to. C’mon I’ll show you the way.” Sam grinned. That was good. They followed the girl to the classroom, feeling relieved they had found someone who was in their class. “I’m Marinette.”

“Nice to meet you. Oh umm… I use they/them so you know.” Sam said awkwardly. Marinette nodded her understanding and Sam felt relief as Marinette directed them to the class. Once there the teacher smiled.

“Oh, you must be… Samantha?”

“Sam.” Sam corrected. The teacher nodded as she thanked Marinette as Sam turned to face the class only to frown. “Liar Rossi?”

“Sam!” The teacher said in shock while everyone gasped.

“Did Marinette tell you that?” Demanded Lila Rossi. Sam stared for a long moment.

“... you really don’t recognize me? My dad used to be the diplomat from Canada? You are literally called Liar Rossi by every single child in the diplomatic circle? Cause you are one?”

“... Samantha Williams?” Lila gasped.

“It’s Sam. And yeah- if she’s been saying anything there’s like a ninety percent chance it’s a lie. She’s well known for it. Her mom doesn’t believe it but I think her dad does. Isn’t he in like the USA now? I thought he yanked you out of public school after you bullied that girl and was caught on tape pushing her down the stairs.” Sam took out their phone and waved it. “One Google search and we can find it.”

“That was another diplomats daughter! I was framed!” Lila sobbed.

“Yeah well, I don’t believe you.” Sam snorted and shook their head. “I’m Sam by the way. I’m nonbinary, I like photography and I refuse to sit next to Liar Rossi.”

“Sam please-“ the teacher began but Sam refused to sit near the girl. Marinette looked secretly pleased which made Sam like her. She seemed to have a good head on her shoulders.

At lunch, a girl with ombré hair confronted her with some of the class.

“Lila said you were the one to-“

“Frame her? Yeah. Okay- it was in England when I was still in Canada but sure I did it.” Sam said sarcastically. “Did you look it up at all?”

“I did and-“

“It wasn’t Sam.” A voice said. A black kid with glasses had spoken. “I double-checked. Paul Williams was not in England at the time. He wasn’t even a diplomat then. He had… sort of retired from my understanding?”

“My grandfather had a heart attack and dad had to come home,” Sam replied. “I’m here with my dad cause he’s filling in while John- the other diplomat- is back in Canada while his father is dying of cancer. Mostly to get away from my homophobic grandfather so yeah.” Sam shrugged. The girl in front of them looked uncomfortable.

“Well, what’s your proof she’s lying?”

“Other than experience? What is she claiming?”

“She knows Prince Ali.” The girl replied. “She helped him with his pollution charity and stayed st his palace a month or so back with him. She also said she met him at a ball.”

“Lie. Prince Ali is focusing on orphans and children homes right now. Also, he hasn’t been in his home country in a year. Plus we don’t do balls. We do stupid dinners. I went to one where Prince Ali was at but I didn’t get within fifteen feet of him.” Sam shook their head. “Look it up. I’ll wait.” A small blonde girl did along with a goth girl. She gasped.

“She’s right.” The blonde choked.

“Next lie… whoever you are. None of you gave me your names.”

“Alya.” The ombré girl said. “She knows Jagged Stone! She got tinnitus from saving his cat from a runway!”

“... I’ll admit I’m not that into celebrity gossip… but…” Sam pulled out their phone. They typed it in and then pulled up an article. “Hmm… ah. Jagged Stone has gone on record saying he hates cats ever since he was six and his grandmother's cat scratched his wrist and nearly killed him… wait…” Sam clicked another article then blinked. Alya looked eager but Sam gave her a look. “That Marinette girl made his glasses and CD case and was on a TV show with him? This legit says he thinks of her as a niece? I assume form a comment earlier she’s said Liar Rossi is a liar? And you believed Rossi? What kind of friends are you?” Alya went pink while others slowly took out their phones.

“She knows producers and rockstars?”

“Bullshit. How? As the kid of a diplomat the chances of her running into them are better than most yes but who exactly does she claim to know?” Listening to the list Sam shook their head. “None of them are politically active or have been to any diplomatic dinners or meetings. Look it up.”

They did. All except Alya. The little blonde was looking so upset while the goth looked somewhat murderous. The black boy looked upset and a little shocked, while a tall Asian kid looked mad. A short girl looked even madder while a big guy with a skull on his shirt, a small girl with a bandana and a redhead all looked exhausted and sad. The boy next to Alya, one with a cap, looked nervous.

“She knows Ladybug.” Alya hissed.

“... who?” Sam asked, confused. Alya stared. “What? Some local celebrity? I’m from Canada.”

“No!!! She’s a superhero!” Alya said. Sam stared. Then pulled out their phone, only to find a text from their dad. Apparently, superheroes were real, Akumas targeted negative emotions oh and the mayor was bribing people.

“Ah. Apparently, the mayor was squashing that.” Sam said. Then they turned to the class.“Question- when did Ladybug first appear or where anyway?”

“Here in Paris- about a year or so ago.” Answered the small blonde. “I’m Rose by the way.”

“Thank you Rose. Nice to meet you. Now… when did Lila show up?”

“Four months ago?” Sam nodded slowly at that answer.

“So… how the hell could she know her if she was in Italy before that?” That froze Alya.

“... she uhh…”

“You don’t have an answer,” Sam replies, looking up Ladybug and… oh. “Wow. You posted it to your blog without even thinking about that? Nice tabloid reporting there Lois Lane.”

“Hey!” The cap boy said. “Not cool!”

“What? I’m calling her out? Look better it’s me than an actual like boss or someone suing her cause she doesn’t fact check. None of you do. Now if you excuse me. I’m going to go and take photos. I told my friends I would.” Sam left the class, the Alya girl clinging to her beliefs.

They’d always secretly believed in magic thanks to Rossi. After all- the bullshit she said that made people believe her had to be magical.

“Williams.” Sneered a voice. Same sighed as they took out their camera.

“Liar.” They said calmly as they snapped some photos of the courtyard.

“Stop calling me that.”

“Stop lying. I already told the class to look things up. Good luck convincing them now.” Rossi scowled darkly then smirked. Sam ignored her, pulling out their phone to pretend to text but really putting on their recording app.

“You think you’re so clever Samantha.” Rossi sneered. “You flounce in here, pretending to be this nonbinary and-“

“Okay whoa no. Fuck you very much.” Sam said. “I am nonbinary.” Rossi scoffed.

“Sure.” She sneered. “You come in here and think you can get my little pack of fools to believe you? Please. I just tell them what they want to hear and they listen. Won’t take long to say you’re the liar who hacked the websites.”

“Mhmm. And Marinette? Who knows Jagged Stone? I mean I had to remind them but there are pictures of her with him and Adrien.” Rossi flushed, eyes widening. “Wow, you didn’t know?”

“Shut up Williams. Most people would brag. One messed up lie won’t hurt.” Snapped Rossi.

“Admitting you’re a liar, Liar Rossi?”

“It’s LILA Rossi.” Snarled the girl. “And I don’t see anything wrong with a few stories. These idiots will believe anything.”

“I could see that. All of your stories are so stupid I just wanted to sigh. I mean- That Marinette girl actually knows Jagged Stone. How the hell did they not think to ask her?”

“She’s ridiculous. Pretending to be so humble and shy and oh she couldn’t brag about it.” Lila sneered. Sam hummed, taking more photos. “Pay attention to me!”

“Why? Are you going to threaten me? How will you? With my reputation? I’m only here for a few months. Something outside of school? I have email trails, multiple character witnesses of your bullshit, and my dad to back me up. With school itself? Try to get me expelled and my dad comes in again and the same thing happens all over again. You have no power over me. You’re just a pathetic child who gets joy out of bullying and manipulating others.” Sam told Lila. An ugly look crossed her face.

“I have connections now. Like a certain… villain.” Sam deadpanned.

“Are you legit telling me you’re working with Hawkmoth? That’s like the worst lie in the world.” Lila scowled.

“It’s not a lie. I have connections to him. He’s asked for my help a few times and I’m sure he’d love to help mess with your life.” Lila sneered. “My mother also has connections to the mayor.”

“Oh, she’s accepting the bribes?” Sam asked. Lila blinked.

“How did you know about that…”

“Well, mostly it’s cause my dad was also bribed? Or the guy tried. I’m fairly certain my dad is going to… Interpol? Or whatever it is in France. Higher than the police force cause who knows who is in his pocket.” Sam grinned at Lila. “Guess your mom will be answering for that! And your lies crashing down! Enjoy your last few weeks here!” Sam left as Lila stared, open mouth after them. They headed to the cafeteria to grab a cheese bun, noticing a blonde kid they thought…

“Huh.” Sam blinked, kind of recognizing him. “Cool.”

“... you don’t know me?”

“I know you’re a model but like I don’t know your name and I don’t care,” Sam said. “... are you going to confront me about Liar to?”

“I’m Adrien and… well, it’s not going to make her a better person if you do it.” He pointed out.

“You’re assuming she wants to be,” Sam told him. He looked confused. “Look- Adrien- there’s a difference between someone not knowing better and someone who does but does it anyway. Lila knows better. She knows what she’s doing. She knows exactly what she’s doing and she doesn’t care about the harm she causes.”

“What harm?” Adrien asked in confusion. Sam raised an eyebrow.

“What harm? You’re not that dumb, are you? Lila lying to people hurts them because either a- She promises things she can’t do which could hurt their chances. Like… I heard about this from the son of the Greek diplomat but like she told this girl she could get her an in with a music producer. This girl kept passing up opportunities for her cause she trusted Lila. When it all came out the girl was so hurt… that’s harm.” Sam told him. “Also- She bullies people who don’t believe her lies and tries to call them out. There’s been so much evidence that bullying leaves mental scarring and it’s not just something you can brush under the rug. It can cause long term effects. Lila isn’t a good person. And she either never will or she needs to be punished to change. People don’t change just because someone was nice- or at least not people like Lila. They change when they are shown their lives will suck so much if they don’t.”

“... but that’s not how it happens…” Adrien looked confused and Sam stopped. They were reminded of their friend Marcus’ little sister before the real world got her. She’d been homeschooled by Marcus’ stepmother because Kyoko had wanted her daughter to be bilingual and their hometown didn’t have any place for her to speak solely in Japanese often. She had been very naive…

“If you’re talking about anime or TV it’s because people have an idealistic view of the world. Or they want to pretend it’s like that. Sure being nice and kind can change people. But the fact is that it’s not a hundred percent likely all the time.” Sam told him. “I know a kid who hated the people who stood by and did nothing when their bullies hurt them more than anything. Because it was them saying I believe you deserve it. I believe them over you. Standing up is the only way to deal with bullies.”

“... but…” the boy hesitated. “Tabloids…”

“Ah.” Sam nodded. “That’s different... what’s your last name?” Upon receiving it they pulled up news articles. “Alright, latest lie was that your dad was forcing models to sleep with him.” Adrien choked as Sam flicked through the articles. “Disproven but they did have to launch an investigation into his business due to the allegations.” Adrien blinked, looking shocked. “Oh and one about you sleeping with a girl and getting her pregnant.”

“WhAt?” Adrien said, his voice cracking in the middle. Sam laughed.

“Yeah. That one was ignored and when the baby was born your dad went and had a paternity test done. You’re good.” Sam showed him the article and Adrien looked stressed. “Look, I get that you feel like not reacting is best but with people like Lila is it better to step in. She won’t stop. Look at something similar that happened to you with Jagged Stone- I don’t pay attention to gossip and I heard about it. Some fan kept claiming that it was his child she had and she refused to take no and kept lying and lying until she was sued for millions. Some people don’t stop.”

“...I want to give people second chances.” Adrien said, looking like he was about to put his back up.

“When did I say you couldn’t? Sure, give them a second chance. But as soon as they ignore it or go back to their normal way of being that chance is done. All it’s doing is being an enabler. Or even a bully yourself if you let a bully get away with things.” Adrien looked pensive at that, and Sam left him to his thoughts to go and photograph more of the school before it was time for class. Lila was glaring at Sam who ignored her as they looked at the photos they had taken. A few of the classmates entered the room with Marinette who looked happy and relaxed. Lila stood up to go to them but they all glared, except Alya who was on her phone. Sam idly pulled out their phone only to snort.

Oops, they’d continued recording. Turning it off, they typed out a message to their dad before sending it and the recording to him. Sam watched as Lila checked her phone and then began dramatically crying.

“You and your dad are trying to get my mom in trouble for no reason!” she sobbed, pointing at Sam who snorted as their own message came.

“Uhuh, sure. By the way thanks to confessing you know your mom takes bribes while I was recording our conversation. My dad says that it’ll be the best thing to give to the investigation.”

“YOU WERE RECORDING US?!” Lila shouted in horror. Alya, who had been comforting her froze.

“Yep!” Sam smiled and then went back to fiddling with their phone.

“YOU BITCH!” Lila screamed, running up to jump at Sam who dove away. “I AM GOING TO RUIN YOU!”

“You ruined yourself! Thanks for confessing to lying and mentioning you work willingly with a supervillain! Pretty sure that was a lie but thanks! You’re finished!” Sam snapped back, feeling incredibly annoyed. Lila growled in anger and then her gaze snapped to the window where a butterfly was. Sam suddenly knew what this was from their research. They grabbed a ruler from a desk and jumped, glad for their height as they managed to get the butterfly before Lila did. “You don’t get the satisfaction of beating the crap out of me.” snarled Sam.

Hmm… you managed to fight her off. But… Sam ignored Hawkmoth, reaching deep inside themself to pull on their feelings of anger and exhaustion at being considered a she, at their grandfather for trying to control their life, at people for not understanding… Well then, Milewalk, will you help me?

“Sure.” Sam grinned. Maybe this would be a little fun.

And they’d get to smack Lila around so win-win.

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Random thought: Lila’s mom has to know the truth about Ladybug and Chat Noir cause I doubt her coworkers keep their mouths shut. But that’s not the point.

Anyway, so yeah. Sam becomes Milewalk in which they stomp around Paris and have people ‘walk a mile in their shoes’ by making people feel every scrap of fear and hurt or the feeling of being hated for no reason. Basically if you’re an asshole you feel what it would be like to be your victim. If you harass someone you feel like you’re being harassed.

Milewalk does get Chat Noir and a few others which changes a LOT in this world but like I was: How do you write fights? How do I write Akuma? So here.

Also the big about bribes is mostly me going: Does the rest of the world no? Why is no one else from outside Paris knowing? So yeah bribery probably. And that’s done. Oops.

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