watching those you care about move on without you is oddly consoling. i couldn’t live with the thought that i had created a hollowness in the heart of someone I’d dissect myself for.

A new life - Longueuil, QC.

(Moving into my first apartment with my fiance (2022). A beautiful flower sprouting for the first cactus we got, 2 years ago, a metaphor for our new life and letting go of what used to hold us back)

You’ve grown into someone who would have protected you as a child. And that is the most powerful move you made.

Forgive yourself.

studies

I will never forgive myself for the way I begged you to love me.

-Poetry At Most

maybe you weren’t the one for me but deep down I wanted you to be

Suptober Day 1 - Liminal

Reminder.

Watching a soft person come out of a family of insensitive and hard hearted people is like watching a little beam of sunshine come out on the rainiest days.No one ever actually moved the clouds for them,no one ever taught them kindness,it was a choice,one that they made every day.They didn’t just survive the bad days,they came out of it as a softer person.It’s not like the issues didn’t effect them,and it’s not like they didn’t cry rivers over it,but they knew better than to continue the cycle of pain and sadness.