There's no if, but's, or maybe's about it. I know what I am!
Someone: *Asks me literally one question*
Me: *Spirals into a hole as I struggle to identify if I am aroace or pan and poly or just the most ridiculous blend of all of them for the hundredth time*
I hate the persona that I've created after all this time. It's not who I want to be and at this point I don't know how to change it. The words that come out of my mouth are never things that I want to say. I only say what people expect of me. I don't think that I can ever be a full person. Just a hollow shell trying to act out a role that I never wanted in the first place.