Guess who got her schizophrenia and DID diagnosed today? Me!!!!

Schizospec culture is "no I don't have hallucinations I just have visual snow and tend to misunderstand what I see/hear and things move on their own when I stare too long. No I don't have hallucinations, mine don't count."

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Schizospec culture is: not knowing if I have severe schizotypal or mild schizophrenia

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Schizospec autistic culture is feeling like a royal dingbat clown idiot when you find yourself suddenly disclosing your illness to the guy you've just started talking to at your brother's wedding, all because he said he works with severely schizophrenic patients, and naturally that was your cue to divulge your innermost secret (irl)

And bonus: now you're probably gonna end up being assigned him as your csw when you sign back up for getting support again in the New Year 🤦‍♀️

If it wasn't bad enough I keep getting assigned my high school ex-bf as the resident (free) therapist at my doctor's 😫

I have a dream of a world where this wouldn't be the biggest faux pas that it felt like, and i didn't have to add on after "don't worry, I'm not about to murder you 😅" 🙄

delusional culture is worrying something will be traced back to you and even your closest friends would hate you if they saw the real you

REAL

NPD + schizophrenic culture is ; no bitch , I ain ’ t no second coming of any of god , I AM THE FIRST COMING OF A GOD .

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bpd + schizospec culture is thinking your fp and a handful of other people are planning against you in a seperate gc and watching you and the only reason why you think so is because of a tiny tone switch

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Polyfragmented possibly schizo-spec culture is “ANP haha what ANP?”

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Self dx schizotypal and schizoid culture is struggling to find the right label/description for what you're going through (autism, OCD, schizophrenia, etc.), which led to getting evaluated for autism and being told you don't have it, but then later finding that STPD and SZPD fit perfectly.

But when you try to tell your family, they don't believe you because of how many things you've questioned in trying to find answers and because of a family history of hypochondria

HPD and schizophrenia together culture is feeling really asocial but also really needing attention. it's like, i need people to pay attention to me and compliment me, but i also need to not be expected to respond. but people won't get that if i say that so instead i'm on my way to a histrio crash because i just can't be damned to talk to anybody

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Paranoia culture + schizospec is taking a shower at 3 am and hearing a knock and thinking it's a hallucination, but then it sounds again and you panic because only your brother is home and you don't know why he would be knocking, did the neighbors complain because you did something wrong? Why would they complain at 3 am? Am I in trouble? My parents will kill me

So then you panic but it's just your brother saying he put your mp3 on your bed so it was all that stress for naught

can I claim this? -🦠🫧 (sorry it's weird)

you can claim it! Not weird at all!

Do you ever meet someone and then you’re like « wow. How did I manage to live before without them? » cause same.

schizospec culture is not wanting to be medicated because you're afraid you'll lose yourself

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Schizospectrum culture is has [person] blocked me yet? ^^'

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Progressives from big cities talk big shit about how accepting they are, but I feel like if you come to them with any identifier that isn't covered in corporate sensitivity training, they have no idea what to fucking do.

Like. I experience psychosis. I tried being OPEN with my friend about it and giving them resources (articles and screenshots of tumblr posts that i felt summed up my experience) for when I had episodes. But they act like they're on fucking eggshells around me. They sidestep and look PETRIFIED when they accidentally say the word "crazy" (when I personally could not give less of a shit. As long as you're not CALLING someone crazy, then it won't warp your perception of what clinical insanity even is, so I probably won't even notice you saying it). But then they freak out and go "okay we're leaving!" when a VISIBLY mentally ill man starts screaming at a trashcan in the parking lot.

Less important, but still an example of the same thing: I'm a horse alterhuman. I identify as a horse on some level (and that level varies based on my mental state, tbh). I tried coming to this friend with THAT and the best they could do was blink and go "oh. Okay." And then they never talked about it since. Even when I bring it up or try making jokes about it, they just COMPLETELY don't react or look uncomfortable.

If I came out as a lesbian, they'd be all "oh I love and support you and accept you, and whatever you identify as is valid," but the second I say "Hey, I have this condition that makes me sometimes think that people are trying to kill me, so if I act anxious or something, you know what's up," it's all "oh. Okay. I mean, you know what's best for you. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself."

Like bitch!! My mental illness is not gonna bite you!! You're perfectly sensitive and normal about queer people, about people of color, about people with palatable mainstream mental health issues. But the second I bring something to the table that hasn't already been dropped in their lap in a perfect-PC-package, they balk like a deer in the headlights.

delusional culture is HEY i stopped believing this one delu- oh. oh no. shouldn't have thought of it again oh no oh no oh no.

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