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imashoe69420 · 10 months

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Hello! I'm having a bit of a rough time so I thought I'd send this ask. What would the turtles be like with a S/O that has anxiety, depression and PTSD? How would they help them if their depression is bad enough that on some days they can't get out of bed, forget to eat, etc? Bonus if S/O is plus-sized/kinda chubby and insecure about it.

So since I’m doing all the boys, each mental illness/self-image issue will be separated by turtle. I hope that’s okay!

The reader’s symptoms are also closely aligned with my own as well as outside research. If you feel that something could be more accurate, let me know! :)

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Rise!Bros X Reader Headcannons★彡

Genre: Fluff, Angst

Relationships: Dating

Pronouns: Gender Neutral (They/Them)

Timeline: Post Movie

Warnings ⚠️: Language, Mental Heath Issues, Brief Mention of Medication (Mikey)

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Leo // PTSD

• Leo would be the first the know how to deal with PTSD.

• Well, not necessarily know, but empathize with you because of his time in the prison dimension.

• Both of you had vivid nightmares, so most nights, you two would stay awake together.

• The first time this happened, Leo caught you with your head in the refrigerator picking at some leftovers:

• “Nightmares?” The blue turtle asked, sleep lacing his voice.

• “Nightmares.” You nodded.

• You two finished some leftover spaghetti, then trudged back to Leo’s room, spending the rest of the night under the covers watching TNTL videos.

• This became a normal occurrence, talks eventually getting deeper:

• “It’s just… I feel so stupid sometimes. It happened years ago. Why do I still think about it almost every day?” You sighed as you laid on the blue clad turtle’s plastron.

• Leo shrugged. “I dunno, it’s more annoying than traumatic now.”

• There’s a pause when Leo took your hand in his own.

• “But I don’t think you’re stupid for it.”

• You smiled as he rubbed his hand over your knuckles.

• “Thanks, Lee.”

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Raph // Anxiety

• Being the oldest in the family causes a lot of anxiety, especially in the Hamato household.

• You were also stressed being the oldest sibling as well. One of your siblings was in the hospital, and although it was just for a broken leg, it had you worried.

• Sleeping was a battle. One night, you were in the lair in Raph’s room.

• You slowly watched the clock tick by.

• 11PM… 12PM… 1PM.

• And you were still tossing and turning.

• Eventually, you started to think about your sibling and if it was right for you to be with your boyfriend rather than being in the hospital with them.

• It didn’t take long for the tears to start flowing as you had convinced yourself that you were a bad sibling.

• The snapping turtle eventually noticed your sadness and sleepily asked you what was wrong.

• “I should be with them, not here.” You said tearfully. “What if something happens? What if they dropped the remote to contact the nurse? What if—”

• “(Y/N), (Y/N)… don’t worry so much. They’re gonna be fine.” Raph tried to quell your anxiety.

• “But what if—”

• “Ya’ can’t live a life on ‘what if’s, (Y/N).” He interrupted you, speaking gently. “I know how you feel. You think I’m never worried about these knuckle heads? Ya’ just gotta trust them and the doctors.”

• You pushed your hair back from your face and sighed. “I… I know. It’s just…”

• “I know.”

• Raph scooped you in his arms and held you close. “You don’t have to explain. Just try to rest so you can see them tomorrow.”

• You snuggled up against him, attempting to hold back your tears. “Okay… I’ll try. Thank you. Really.”

• “What’re big siblings for?” He said sarcastically before you both eventually fell asleep.

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Mikey // Depression

• Despite being medicated, there were moments when you would have a depressive episode.

• This consisted of staying at home, ignoring texts to hang out, not showering for days at a time, and overeating while watching a random Netflix Original.

• Mikey respected that you sometimes needed time away, although he was naturally clingy.

• After about three days, he’ll come visit you.

• It’s always a gamble with you. You either let him in graciously, or simply act like he’s not there.

• When you would let him in, he would bring snacks and DVDs of your favorite movies.

• Most of the time, you two would huddle under a blanket and watch those DVDs for hours.

• Other times, he would beckon you to come outside. And when you obliged, you two usually had a good time exploring New York and the Hidden City.

• When you were out of your funk, you were back to being physically affectionate.

• You were always grateful for your little orange weirdo.

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Donnie // Plus Size

• Donnie never quite understood people’s hate for plus sized bodies, nor did he understand your misplaced desire to be skinnier.

• Your insecurities really stood out when you guys would go out or on dates.

• “We’ve been walking for a while. Are you hungry?” Donnie asked you as the two of you walked the streets of New York City.

• “I mean… are you hungry?” You asked bashfully.

• Donnie shrugged. “Not especially.”

• You shook your head. “I’m good, then.”

• It took Donnie a couple of minutes to become curious as to why you only wanted to eat when he was eating.

• “Why didn’t you want to eat?” He asked out of the blue.

• You sighed and shook your head again. “It’s nothing, Dee.”

• “No,” the purple clad turtle stopped walking, “I wanna know.”

• “Well… I dunno, it’s embarrassing.” You thought about how to formulate your words to help him understand. “When people see us eating together, they’ll just think that we’re hungry. But when I’m the only one eating…”

• Your words trailed off, and it took Donnie several seconds to finally understand what you’d meant.

• “That’s nonsense.”

• “Yeah, well, that’s how people will see us: a guy and his fatass girlfriend.”

• To say the turtle was angry at the absurdity of the world’s mentality on plus sized people was an understatement.

• He quickly took hold of your hand and pulled you back to the hotdog stand you’d just passed.

• “Two plain hotdogs, please. And some ketchup on the side.” Donnie told the vendor.

• He had really meant that he wasn’t hungry and only ended up finishing about half of the hotdog, but your comfortability meant more to him.

• After the meal, you started walking again before you took hold of Donnie’s bicep.

• “I really appreciate that, babe. I mean it.” You rested your head on his shoulder.

• The turtle leaned his head so it was on top of yours. “Anything for you.”

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nerves-nebula · 11 months

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Inspired by the art you reblogged from Tapakah0.

Donnie deserves to be a little shithead too:

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It wasn’t uncommon for Donnie to lock himself away for days at a time. He came out for meals when he remembered (or was loudly reminded), but typically during these times they wouldn’t see him until whatever project he’d thrown himself into was finished.

When he re-emerged, they’d all ask him about what he was up to in his absence, and usually he would tell them.

This time, however, he just smiled and said “You’ll see.” with an ominous smile that reminded them all far too much of their father.

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They were back at the farmhouse, having a nice time off as a family. April and Casey had joined them, the whole gang excited to spend some quality time together without having to worry about responsibilities or other annoying things.

Mikey and April were baking a cake in the kitchen. Raph and Leo were pretending to teach Casey to meditate and sticking things in his hair to see how long it would take him to notice.

Donnie snuck to his room, pulling the new invention out of its hiding place and setting it up. He pulled on some gloves- not uncommon, it was getting a bit cold- to hide the mechanisms hidden in his palms. With a mischievous giggle he flexed the prosthetic fingers, watching them sync up to his movements.

He took a moment to stim out his giggles, flapping his hands to help him calm down before calmly leaving back into the main area.

“I’m gonna bite your fuckin’ face!” Casey yelled, grabbing for Raph, somewhere near thirty odd sticks and leaves in his hair, as well as a couple forks and a margarita umbrella. Leo was on the floor, his eyes nearly bulging out of his eyes as he laughed, holding his stomach in pain.

Raph leapt over the back of the couch, screaming as Casey followed after him, nearly taking off the screen door as he bolted to try to escape his boyfriend’s wrath.

Donnie chuckled and stood over Leo, looking down at him, “So what w-was the final co-count?”

Leo giggled, “Thirty-seven, and that’s only because April poked her head in and laughed. He caught Raph with a stick in his hand.”

Donnie rolled his eyes and held out a hand, helping Leo up to his feet.

Leo didn’t notice.

“Where’d you go?” Leo asked, “You good?”

“Mmhm.” Donnie smiled, “Just had to ch-check something.”

“Okay.” Leo shrugged, accepting the answer, “April said they’re gonna ice the cake soon. I was gonna go see if I could help, wanna come?”

“Absolutely.”

The kitchen wasn’t a total mess, but there were definitely a lot of bowls in the sink. Mikey had his tongue stuck out while he smeared icing over the cake, making a solid base for any decorations they added after. April was sitting with him, mixing dyes into even portions of icing, coloring them all colors of the rainbow.

“Can we help?” Leo asked, leaning over the table, grinning, “I wanna draw a bunny.”

“Faggot.” Mikey coughed.

Leo punched him in the shoulder, “Your mom.”

April pointed to the counter, “The icing bags are over there. Grab me the roll and we can get them prepped.”

Donnie did that, handing the box to April, who paused. She stared at his hands for a good ten seconds before looking up at him, confusion evident on her face.

He winked.

She snorted and said nothing, taking the bags to start shoveling icing into them. He grabbed a spatula and helped, sitting next to her. As soon as they were all full Leo and Mikey were grabbing their colors and doodling all over it, making flowers and drawing faces and other things. April joined them, taking the green to make four tiny turtles climbing the side of the cake. Donnie took the purple and drew some random shapes.

Eventually Raph and Casey came back in, both a little scuffed up, and joined in the decoration… until Casey dared Raph to eat all the red icing left and Raph stepped up to the challenge, daring Casey to do the same with the yellow.

Needless to say, neither wanted any cake afterward.

Donnie offered to cut the cake, taking a knife and deftly twirling it in his fingers a couple times before slicing in to make the slices as even as he could.

“Yo what the fuck?!”

Donnie forced himself not to grin, looking to Mikey, who had not only shouted but also leapt up onto a chair, “Wh-what? What’s wrong?”

“Your hand!”

Donnie looked at his hand, feigning confusion, “What about i-it?”

Mikey grabbed his wrist, lifting his hand to show it to everyone, “Donnie’s fucking mutated again!”

“Whoa!” Leo laughed, “Your hand! Is it on both? Oh, gross.”

“What are you guys talking about?” April said, looking Donnie in the eyes with a steely determination and a devious grin on her lips, “Donnie’s always had five fingers. How did you never notice?”

Raph grabbed Donnie’s other hand, staring at it like it offended him, “You’re lying.”

“N-no?” Donnie lied, “I always th-thought I was weird b-because my hands were different.”

Leo reached out and touched Donnie’s fingers with his own, “This is so strange.”

“Why do you think he’s so good with tech?” April chuckled, playing it cool by grabbing the knife to get herself a slice of cake, “He’s got the extra dexterity.”

“Whoa.” Mikey gasped, “How did we never notice?”

Leo looked at his own hands, “We’ve held hands to go places! How did I not realize?”

“I’m still calling bullshit.” Raph crossed his arms, “I would’ve noticed. Casey, did you ever notice?”

Casey met Raph’s gaze, completely silent.

“Right, nevermind.”

Donnie and April were able to hold out on the lie for almost forty-five minutes. Raph tried to catch Donnie by making him use his hands to twirl his bō or juggle, but Donnie had prepared for that inevitability.

In the end, it was actually Casey who called him out.

“Oh! They’re lying.” Casey grinned, “Gotcha, nerd!” He slammed his phone down, showing them a picture taken a few months back. It was a selfie of Casey and the guys, with Donnie waving in the background, clearly three-fingered.

April and Donnie burst out laughing. They ignored the rude names shouted at them as they leaned on one another, gasping for air.

“You fucking gaslit us!” Leo slapped his shell, “You bastard!”

“I felt like a piece of shit!” Mikey screamed, “I thought I’d missed something huge!”

“I’m going to drown you.” Raph rubbed his face, “I’m going to end your fucking life.”

Donnie was crying.

—

In the end he showed them the prosthetics, showing off how he’d synced them to match the movements of his other fingers and revealed just how long he’d been working on this particular prank. He also promised April a favor of her choice for making it even better.

Mikey shoved cake in his face.

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Get fuckin pranked assholes

-Monster Anon

hahh thats adorable !! thank you

#nnstuff #ask #teenage mutant neglected turtles #neglected fic #tmnt donnie #farmhouse arc

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pianocat939 · 1 year

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Hi I just wanted to say that I love your blog !! I especially love your rottmnt ones (I adore the Yandere HCs one , you did an amazing job on them ) 💗 I was wondering is it ok to request Yandere HCs for the turtle brothers (separate please ) falling for the reader who acts motherly to them (if that’s to many then I’m fine with Leo , since you mentioned that he wants the reader to rely on him ?) also hope your doing ok and drinking plenty of water ! 💗🀄️

Thanks for enjoying my work~ Even if I'm sleep deprived half the time I'm writing.

I'm going to assume you're going by 🀄️ anon.

This is romantic btw

Yandere ROTTMNT Turtles with Motherly MC

Tw: SO MANY INSECURITIES, Mikey tries to start a cult, Implied violence, implied kidnapping, I think that’s it

(As someone who's an only child I don't exactly understand Raph's situation but I tried my best)

Raph

I think it would take him a bit of time to get adjusted to (because of how he's always been the responsible one), but in the end finding it comforting.

Since he's the eldest one, he's always had to do all the mature things for his brothers (Splinter was kinda there, but in some cases not).

So it feels foreign for him to rely on someone that wasn't himself.

But after he gets adjusted, he's obsessed.

It's such a warm feeling, something he missed out a lot. Feeling doted on and worried over, it's addicting.

He loves it so much that he clings onto it. Now if we are to refer back to this it would only make sense that he's dependent on it.

He's guilty, but at the same time he feels he deserves to be loved after dealing with the eldest child syndrome for so long.

He's basically glue at that point. Just following you around like a duckling.

"Can I have headpats? *proceeds to be big softie*"

He doesn't enjoy it when his brothers or someone else gets the same treatment too. Like sure you can be motherly towards others but he's the main point of your attention, right?

If it's an enemy or an unfamiliar person he'll go threaten them. Which eventually turns into a cold rage and he gives them a good beating or two (think of it the same way he acts when he feels he's all alone).

Overall wholesome big boy.

Leo

I feel like this man would go either two ways; either he internalizes the happiness and just acts all cocky, or he feels immature because of how he's treated.

If he interalizes the emotion and becomes egotistic snarky boy then I think he'll react to a smiliar way Raph does except less intense and more subtle about it.

He'll try to spend a lot more time with you, asking if you want to hang out more (he always picks more dangerous areas like the Hidden City for some reason).

So by the chance that he's injured (nothing major ofc) he'll go up to you with puppy dog eyes. Basically manipulating you to baby him.

On the other hand, and I feel like the more likely one, he'll feel even more useless. Like the fact you being motherly to him makes him feel more of a child who can't do anything.

What does he do? Why he pushes himself to prove that he should be the one relied on. Not the other way around.

He'll train his swordsmanship until he's forced by his family to rest, he'll take on villiains himself, and might even try to teleport enemies/unfriendly people of yours to another dimension (after he's done with them).

Praise him and rely on him for safety. That is probably the only way that'll calm down his antics.

If you don't, he'll manipulate you.

"Let me do this. Don't worry about me, I've trained my Kenjutsu for this." Kenjutsu = swordsmanship btw

(Now unlike Raph I understand Donatello to the max lmao)

D'Nello

You, my good friend, may be in trouble.

As canonically shown throught the ROTTMNT series he eats that praise up. So if you're a motherly type person you're fucking screwed.

He's obviously going to love it, since his father never quite showed such affection to him. My fellow Asian kids I'm looking at you.

He'll do anything for more praise, constructing advanced technology, showing his capabilities, all of it.

It's like he almost brags just to get that small ounce of love. Literally shoving his inventions into your face.

Sure he knows he's smart but to actually be told that he's smart? Confidence +100.

It's to the point he drags you into his lab and is like, "watch me do work :p". He hogs your attention and may be very offended if you try to interact with someone else.

If you push him far enough he'll kidnap you and force you to give him all your love.

He doesn't show it but he's extremely self-conscious about his intelligence and technology, kinda like how Leo is. So to be given the reassurance of love it feeds into his brain in a not so good way.

"Aren't I the most intelligent person ever? Look at my work, doesn't it make you proud?"

Mikey

Ok again, referring to my general yandere Hcs that I did earlier, I think he would just become more cult-like.

His brain's is like "This person loves me, cares for me, makes sure I'm ok, they must be god." (If you get this reference I love you)

He solely believes that you must be the reincarnation of angels who came down to adore his tiny little self.

He starts writing little notes to himself about your antics and thinks it's the perfect example of an ideal human.

He pulls reverse card in a way; but still wanting to worship your kindness.

Which may end up him trying to pull people into his cult. He'll try to convince them that you're the epitome of adoration and love.

If they try to turn down his offer he gets pissed. Like really pissed.

He'll hunt them down, ties them to a chair, and forces them to watch a slideshow about you for hours straight (or until they've converted to the belief).

"I'm sorry, did you just say that you don't believe they're the most perfect deity to exist? Looks like Dr. Delicate Touch needs to give you a check-up!"

You guys remember in the library episode that one scene where he's like a king or something and says "New Toy"? It's basically that except you're the one on the chair and he's ordering people around lmao.

I feel like he's the most terrifying one out of the bunch.

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I feel like compared to other Hcs writers I’m like some weird conspiracy theorist who makes a prediction and tries to prove it’s possible lmao.

Anyway hope you like it

- Celina

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thebattleofstarcourt · 2 years

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Hello!! So my mother is dressing up as Belle from beauty and the beast for her 46th costume birthday party (very Leo behavior) and I can’t get it off of my head that Beauty and the Beast would be THE perfect nickname for a Eddie Munson x GirlyReader fic 🥺 if you are accepting requests that is! Love your work! Have a great day ❤️🤏🏼

⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ beauty n the beast

eddie munson x fem!reader

a/n: thank u for the rq and all your kind words, i appreciate it so much. i'm SUPER sorry it took so long :( thank u for being patient w me! also yes as a libra i can confirm that costume parties are both leo and libra behaviors HAHA hope u enjoy!

you were probably the best thing that’s ever happened to eddie, if wayne munson was being honest.

how, he’s still the same eddie he always was – still driving way over the speed limit and smoking way too much – but now, he’s just, different. brighter. happier.

you’ve convinced him to eat vegetables, do his homework, and – fuck. you’ve got him sitting in a chair in the front lawn, towel draped on his shoulders, while you lightly trim the ends of his hair. of course, he’s bitching the enitre time, always trying to turn around to make sure you haven’t cut too much off, but you’re still doing it. that’s a miracle in itself.

still, wayne doesn’t think he could’ve ever expected to come home to the sight of eddie pacing in the kitchen, wearing a suit.

“ed?” he asked, walking through the front door. eddie spun around quickly, and he sighed at his nephew’s face.

his cheeks were red, his brows with pursed together, and his already large eyes were wide enough to plunge out of his skull.

“ed,” he said again, looking him up and down, “the hell are you doing?”

eddie groaned and put his face in his hands. “shit.” he said. “i look fuckin’ stupid, don’t i?”

“i never said that, it’s just …” wayne paused, trying to find the right words to say before giving up and sighing again, “eddie, what are you doing?”

“i’m going to prom,” he admitted.

“you,” wayne stared at him, “are going to prom?”

“yes!” he said. “i tryna find somethin’ to wear, but shit.”

wayne shook his head and smiled, occasionally spitting out a few chuckles while eddie gawked.

“what?” he asked.

“she’s got you wrapped around her finger.” he teased, evoking another groan from eddie.

“‘course she does.” he grumbled. “and this means a lot of her and i really need something nice to wear ‘cause i know she’s gonna spend a fortune on her dress and –”

“hey, ‘s alright.” wayne said, interrupting eddie’s premature spiralling. “we can go downtown this weekend and find somethin’ nice, it’s no problem.”

“i can’t.” he pouted. “i got the tickets today at lunch and now my wallet’s bone dry. and i’ve already gotta save up for a cor-sage and apparently those cost a fuckin’ arm and a leg.”

“corsage,” wayne corrected, which only bummed eddie out more. “and don’t worry about that, ‘s on me.”

“no.” eddie said. “i’m not asking you to do that. i can wear this, i just gotta make it look like it fits, ya’know?”

“you don’t gotta ask, ed.” wayne countered, pulling on the loose fabric on his shoulders. “this looks like shit, you can’t wear it.”

“it’s fine.” he said. “more than fine, actually. just gotta get it taken in.”

wayne examined him yet again, noticing some familiarity in the suit. “where’d you get this?”

“it was in dad’s unit.” he said, stuffing his hands in his pockets. “figured it’d be my birthday present.” he joked, chuckling awkwardly.

wayne nodded, knowing exactly why the suit looked so familiar. “he wore this for the wedding.”

“oh.”

“we’ll go sunday afternoon. the thrift store off glenwood will have somethin’ in cheap for you.”

“i don’t –”

“ed.” wayne said, holding him by the shoulders. “the only reason i don’t have a suit to give you ‘cause i threw the only one i had out.” the one i bought for the wedding, he almost said.

eddie didn't say anything, so wayne continued.

“she tell you the color of her dress?”

eddie nodded. “yellow.”

“you’ll need a yellow tie.” he said. “you can’t wear a yellow tie with a black suit, you’ll look like a honey bee.”

“seriously?” eddie asked.

“yeah.” wayne said, patting him on the shoulder. “now go take that off and throw it in the trash while i’ll start dinner.”

“oh my god, eddie!” you said, looking him up and down on your front porch. his tie was definitely not the same shade of yellow as your dress, nor was he tied correctly, but the fact he even tried made your heart swell to triple it’s size. you began untangling the fabric as you continued cooing at him. “you look amazing, baby. absolutely amazing.”

eddie, however, couldn’t speak. he hates clichés, but his brain literally malfunctioned the second you opened the door in your dress. with your golden gown and diamond jewelry, you could’ve already pulled off being a real-life princess. but the dainty crown that sat on your head made his own feel genuinely dizzy.

you giggled as he stared at you. “you like it, eds?”

like an idiot, eddie just nodded and mumbled “wow.”

“quit bein’ dramatic.” you hit his shoulder, acting like you don’t love it when he pulls this act with you.

“i’m not, baby holy fuck.” he grabbed your waist, examining the skirt of the dress further. “you’re a fuckin’ princess.”

“well, yeah.” you said. “i’m nominated for queen, so technically i am.”

“that’s right.” eddie remembered. he let go of your waist and grabbed your hands. “if you don’t win i’m gonna pull a carrie, i’m serious.”

“shut up.” you blushed. “that’ll just support the crazy cultist rumor even more.”

“i love you.” eddie said, ignoring your protests. “my beautiful, beautiful girl.”

“shut up.” you repeated, rolling your eyes. “i love you.”

another a/n: i took a lot of creative liberties w this, tbh. i started writing it and then it turned into family angst and i wanted to lighten it up w a second part (bc for some reason i cannot for the life of me include actually romance scenes in rqs LOL). it was literally only supposed to be a couple paragraphs max but then it starting giving druig and makkari and i short circuted. so yeah, it's a little all over the place but that's what makes it fun ! i hope

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kfanopinions · 2 years

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Taeyong Ideal Type (Astrology Based)

i will be looking into taeyong's moon and venus sign for this. as he has given some form of birth time i also looked into his house placements

Moon 6th House

caring for others taeyong may want someone who can take care of him. with moon in the 6th house he takes care of others so someone who can take care of him and remind him to rest and relax and take a load off (lord knows he deserves a break) will be good

also someone who likes animals as well ^^

i can see clearly now the bs is gone... -_- bubu just wants some attention. he may act out/whine/complain and even say he's not feeling well. with his moon in the 6th house this can lead him to being a hypochondriac, but for the most part it's just for attention. so again, someone who can dote on him would be nice

the key to a man's heart is through people's stomachs lol nah, just kidding. taeyong with his 6th moon placement probably watches what he eats. this placement can have digestive issues so he may be worried about his own health but of course his partners. so someone who eats right may be nice

"two, four, six, eight who do "i" appreciate? taeyong! taeyong! taeyong!" so with a 6th house moon taeyong may want to do various things within his career. so someone who is his #1 fan, who supports him and encourages him to — as Ms. Frizzle said, "take chances, make mistakes, and get messy [hopefully not]" will be a great partner for him

at home is at home taeyong has a lot of domestic vibes coming in with his moon and venus so someone who is a homebody will absolutely be good for him

Moon Leo

"i'm a hunter, i'm going hunting" taeyong's moon in leo likes the "hunt." so his partner shouldn't try to be captured to early on. playing a little cat and mouse will be good *wink*

"emotions taking me over" someone who can handle strong emotions. look bubu is a cancer (no offense cancer's) but this sign imo is really sensitive. that paired with his leo moon wanting to delve into emotions - he needs an emotionally mature person

lending a helping hand with this placement tayeong may want to rely on his partner as he does with his friends

be careful what you wish for his partner should be careful with how they act around him. if his partner is super serious and demanding him to compliment them his leo moon may want to bring them down a few pegs

quick on your feet taeyong's leo moon is always on the go. he may want to try new things so someone who can keep up with all his ventures of never ending inspiration and aspiration will be good for him

family means a lot he may want someone who is close to their family (take this with a grain of salt). with this leo placement it makes me think he's close to his family so he may want someone who is close to theirs

Venus 4th House

time at home again, taeyong will like to spend time at home. so he'll need a partner who loves being at home as much as he does

"don't rock the boat" a person who is not an attraction for scandal will be good for him. venus in the 4th house doesn't like scandals or negativity

"excuse me, but may i please have some attentions?" wants to spend lots of time with his partners so he'll need someone who doesn't mind a slightly clingy partner *wink*

Venus Gemini

mentally stimulating physical characteristics will come second. with his venus in gemini taeyong may want someone who can keep up with what he wants to talk about

playful banter someone who words things interestingly. who he can really feel this (like just stated) mental connection with

let loose and have fun with a venus in gemini, taeyong may want someone who can bring out their inner child and just have fun. someone who is enthusiastic about trying new things

design your character venus in gemini may want someone who is smart and beautiful (of course this is subjective so it depends from person to person :D)

"pillow talk...there must be a pillow talking boy for me" seriously venus in gemini loves to talk. so someone who can keep the conversation going will be perfect! as soon as one subject is dying down they can easily bring up something new to talk about will be a nice partner

a whole new world with a gemini venus someone who is open-minded, adventurous, and down to try new things will be good for taeyong

"i'm like a bird" with this gemini venus taeyong may have this "free-spirited" nature to him. so someone who trusts him and doesn't tie him down

(but since he's a cancer and imo will want to know his partner thinks of him as theirs as he sees them as his. so take the above with a grain of salt

"the lion, the witch, and lots of secrets" he will keep secrets from people and maybe his partner so they should be aware of this. but with his cancer sun and moon in the 6th house, I'd advise his partner to be as open as possible (cancer's are worried warts over the smallest of things...trust me -_-)

"it's your life!" as taeyong is living out his life with this gemini venus he will want his partner to live out theirs ^^

"L, is for the way you look at me..." gemini venus men may like passionate, smart women, who love to learn and keep learning new things/subjects. someone who wants to do things for fun. maybe shyness can be hard to get through to, so someone who isn't too shy - he wants someone who likes to talk about EVERYTHING no matter how weird. also, he'll want someone who can make him feel safe and secure

awe...bubu <3333

#taeyong #lee taeyong #taeyong ideal type #taeyong nct 127 #nct 127 #nct #nct 127 astrology #nct astrology #kpop astrology

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sims4storiesbygracepensora · 10 months

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Story 5

Story 5: Industrial Penthouse, Arts Quarter, San Mushyno Same day (Sat 2nd September) 7.01 pm

Leo: Dinner's ready!

Leo: Oh, you set up the table nicely? Are we celebrating something?

Kylie: I guess there's no point in waiting further... I'm pregnant!

Leo: Oh my God! Oh my God! (Takes kylie into his arms)

Kylie: Now, we'll start our own little family... You will help me to raise the kid, right? 50-50?

Leo: Yes of course? Are you afraid?

Kylie: Yeah, I have to admit... yes

Leo: (softly) Don't worry, I'll be right here with you, I'll give you and our little one only the best things...

Leo: Let us dig in before it gets cold...

(Leo puts one taco in each plate)

Kylie: Hmmm... that's yummy! I'd better appreciate food while I still can. Soon these morning sickness will hit hard!

Leo: When did you know?

Kylie: I'm two weeks late, I just did a test this morning. I wanted to be sure before telling you.

Leo: Woah... I don't know if I'll be able to finish the taco... I'm so happy I can't eat.

Kylie: There's something I would like to know... We've been married for more than a year now. And I can see you're a bit annoyed at your uncle, Brenden and your cousin. Hmm... I just don't understand, what happened between these two? And why did you not want to spend the summer holidays with them?

Leo: Pfff that's a long story... Do you really want to talk about that unpleasant topic.

Kylie: Yeah! I want to know... No! I need to know! I'm going to the mother of your child. I need to know why you're avoiding them! Are they supposed to be part of our lives?

Leo: I'm just so tired of all the drama, that's why I don't want to talk to them... Ok let me explain...You know my grandfather had three children right? My aunt Gwen , then my mom, Wendy and my uncle Brenden whose birth came a bit late, right... My grandfather was already 70 so he passed away when Brenden was only 3 I think...

Kylie: Ok

Leo: Then, when his mother passed away, my mom took him to live with her but you know that...

Kylie: yeah...

Leo: I was just a boy but Brenden and Danielle were dating when they were teenagers.

Kylie: They were?

Leo: Yeah! Brenden was a bit older, he was handsome and a lot of girls were trying to get their hands on him... So he left Danielle and started dating Kayla, his now ex-wife!

Kylie: Oh! But now they're back together....

Leo: Yeah, Brenden left Brindleton Bay, where we were living at that time to get in the military. He always wanted to start a family early, he did so with Kayla...

Leo: Brenden and Kelly were two buddies at that time, always doing pranks around, playing football together...

(Kelly is the nephew of Wendy, the son of Gwen)

Leo: When Brenden left town, Kelly came to stay at our place in Brindleton Bay for some time. That's when he met Dianelle. And according to what he told me, Danielle had his heart broken by how Brenden left her and went to Kayla.

Kylie: So he comforted her...

Leo: Exactly! Eventually they fell in love. When Brenden learnt about that he flew into a rage. There's was a huge fight. It was the day before Brenden was getting married. Kelly was supposed to be his best man. From what I understood, Brenden still had feelings for her. Kelly knew that but still continued to date Danielle. That was the end of their friendship...

Kylie: That's sad!

Leo: Yeah... They would not see each other. My mom had to invite them separately for each holiday. And you know my mom! She was whining and whingeing about how much she wanted her whole family to be reunited...

Kylie: She's not getting that now.

Leo: I think she came to peace with what happened. She blamed Danielle for some time, Kelly as well, but she's ok now.

Kylie: How did they get back together? I mean Brenden and Danielle?

Leo: Well, Kelly acted like a prick. He had an affair for a year.

Kylie: No way!

Leo: Now you know the rest of the story...eventually Danielle divorced Kelly.

Kylie: There's something else I don't get... Why did Danielle get back with Brenden. Has she forgiven him?

Leo: According to Mom, the reasons Brenden broke up with Dianelle in the first place was due to Kayla's lies. She succeeded in convincing Brenden that Danielle had no intention of settling down and is just interested in becoming a violinist. Brenden can be a bit of a jerk sometimes, when he's angry.

Leo: The reason I stopped talking to both Brenden and Kelly was because they were always calling me to know how the other was doing. Like Brenden would call me to know if Kelly had a bigger appartment when I would visit him. Or Kelly would call to know if Brenden got that promotion he was expecting. There always was some kind of rivalry between these two and now I am so tired of that.

Leo: I'm tired of Kelly calling just to know if I knew that they got back together...

Kylie: I see now...

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dark9896 · 2 years

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Hidden Secrets [Head Cannon]

This fun collection of head cannons was requested by anonymous 🧐

This will be the order of the head cannons:

Weirdest thing they've eaten

Annoying trait about themselves

Worst fear involving s/o

Worst fear not involving s/o

Klaus

A 200 year old recipe called Grand Trifle. It had genuine calf's foot jelly in it and while he didn't dislike it, he wasn't keen to eat much of it.

His fangs. It might be a family trait, but after so long away from his family he's grown to resent them. Especially around his s/o because of how much he can hurt them on accident.

His worst fear is being unable to protect his s/o more so than anything. While he can't protect them all the time, he still worries about not being there when they need him most

His other worst fear is falling to his curse. While it would mean he lost hope, he also worries about hurting others above all else.

Steven

Fried Spider. He didn't realize what it was until he went to buy it and decided to try it anyway while he was on a mission in Cambodia. He didn't really care for it, but it was nice and crunchy.

His emotional distance. He feels he's too distant from others at all times and worries that it hinders him as a person. He still forms connections, but feels like he could do better to come off as a warmer person.

That he isn't doing enough for his s/o. This stems from his annoyance and worries about his emotional distance. He can buy the things, he can take them to nice places...but is he really spending enough quality time with them? Will they leave him for someone who can?

Other than that, he fears he's somehow too rough or cold to others. He doesn't want to come off as authoritarian or dictator-ish, but also knows that Klaus can't (Or won't) do anything to reign in anyone in the office.

Leo

Cuttlefish Cheetos. He was tired and didn't realize the restock in the store had moved the Cheeto Puffs down a shelf. While they were the crunchy Cheetos, and Leo doesn't really likes those either, Leo hated the fish flavor and tossed the bag without a second thought.

His (height) "normalcy". He thinks everyone is better than him in every way. And that seeps through every part of his life. Literally the reason he himself thinks he's only valued because of his eyes.

He fears that his s/o is somehow an enemy only interested in him for his eyes. (He is traumatized after what happened with White.)

Other than that, he fears that he isn't doing enough for anyone. His eyes might be magical, but he's still a normal guy. And he usually ends up in the hospital after giving his all.

Zapp

Baby Shark Curry. He went with a date to an Indian restaurant and just ordered the first thing that caught his eye. He wasn't disappointed by the dish, but also wouldn't order it again. He was hoping it would be a bit spicier.

His lanky body. He actually has severe self-confidence issues that he buries under his bravado and it stems from not being very buff. Though being told he's ridiculously handsome helps, just not when his feet poke from over the end of the bed.

He fears that he's being used by a true s/o that he's genuinely invested in. Sure he has multiple partners, flings, and one night stands, but once he starts getting attached to a single person (every if they are both poly) he gets nervous that he's being used.

He also fears that he already peaked as a person and will only get worse. Certain milestones and expectations will always be out of reach because he tries so hard to fit his ideal of a manly man.

Zed

Deep Fried Gator Tail. He thought it was some kind of deep fried chicken nugget, but chewy. Once he was told about it, he questioned everything about it. But he definitely liked it.

The little webs between his fingers. He's up on dry land a lot. Those need water or they get flimsy and crack. His very existence needs maintenance but his hands get the worst of it because of his love at books.

He fears his s/o is going to get hurt because of him. Either his job or because of his physiology. He has claws and lives best in water! Human s/os, or just dry land s/os will be in far more danger with him.

Otherwise he fears that he will be attacked and have his air pods stolen again. Being a fish out of water he always worries about being stranded.

#bbb #kekkai sensen #kkss #blood blockade battlefront #klaus von reinherz #steven starphase #zed o'brien #zapp renfro #leonardo watch #ask

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imaginethreehouses · 2 years

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Hi! I saw that your matchups were open so I hope you don’t mind doing mine for male characters (one of each house? If you only do one per request, then just one in general in fine!) I use she/her pronouns! I have rose pink hair reaching to my mid-back and drown brown hair. I stand at 5ft and am left handed. I’m a Sun Capricorn, Moon Virgo, Rising Leo and an ISTP.

Most people think I’m quiet and polite upon first impressions, so they tend to be surprised when I’m with my friends and Im here bullying and gaslighting the living shit out of them. I’m told that I’m a blunt person, not in the mean way, but just speaking the truth when a person is in trouble and needs to see reality kind, apparently. I’m a very sarcastic person and am definitely a bad influence. I don’t tend to talk about myself much. I’m really bad at giving compliments and don’t tend to stress much. I don’t like seeming week or stupid, so I tend to act like a know-it-all as I try to hide my flaws, tho it has gotten to the point where a friend asked if I’ve ever cried once in my life which really hurt.

Anyway lol, I was a music oriented person, having played the piano mainly for over 12 years, violin, and guitar but it was never a passion of mine so I kinda dropped it. I love writing, drawing, and playing mostly JRPG games. I eat a lot lol, but I guess it’s better to describe it as I only get full when eating too much of one food since I get tired of it, and am a fast eater. I also have the humor of a 10-year-old boy with plenty of Your Mom and That’s what she said jokes.

Hey!! Sure, you can request one of each house, it's no problem! It actually makes it easier for me in a way because I'm always worried the people I write for will hate the match I pick? 😅 Now I have three tries. Also, I hope you mean bullying/gaslighting your friends in a figurative/exaggerated sense? I'm autistic and pushing 30 so I'm not always sure what younger people mean these days when they say these things LOL. Anyway! I hope you like the matches 🥰

From the Blue Lions, I match you with... Sylvain! ❤

Look no further. He's the one who'd be laughing his ass off at a "that's what she said" joke in the middle of a war council meeting.

Sylvain needs someone to be blunt with him and tell him how things are once in a while. Pretty frequently, actually. All the time, maybe, even.

He's often taken for someone with no feelings because of the way he acts, so he would get really angry if he sees someone do the same to you.

Sylvain would be the biggest fan of your writing, he would go as far as to draw terrible quality fanart of it.

If video games existed in Fódlan you can bet Sylvain would spend at least 3 hours a day gaming.

He's got his issues but I think the two of you could eventually fit together nicely!

From the Black Eagles, I match you with.... Caspar! ❤

I think he'd be another fellow 'fine' humor enjoyer and chaos wrecker 🤭

He'd support you so much in dropping what wasn't making you happy and going for what you really enjoy!

He'd think you're not that interesting upon first impression, then be delighted to learn what you truly are like when he sees you around your friends.

He might not really get your sarcasm sometimes and just get things comically wrong as a result. Feel free to either have mercy or mercilessly tease.

From the Golden Deer house, I match you with... Claude! ❤

Sorry, I think this pretty much completes the holy trinity of the "that's what she said" kind of humor fe3h guys 🤭

I think Claude would also enjoy gaming a lot. He is also a musical person though, so he would bug you endlessly when he inevitably decides that he wants to learn to play violin and piano.

Despite all his dreams and the complicated politics he's involved with, at heart he's a guy who loves to play jokes and tease. You'd fit together quite nicely!

This is completely unrelated to any of what you said but I think Claude is pretty much the best cuddler in the whole game. I can't explain it but IDK look at that gif up there, he looks so soft? 🥺

Bonus friendship match! From the Church of Seiros: Catherine!

#fe3h matches

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freestyle-crocodile-trashpile · 2 years

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I'm pleasantly surprised that you did my request already! Sorry about sending in two requests because Tumblr eats my requests quite often XD My what it's to date the turtle request is so good! I love this especially how fun it would be to date Mikey, he would have a lot of ideas for their dates, how good he is at taking care of them, he would tell them his interests, he's a hype man, he would try to make them listen to his Christmas hip hop album even though he heard it so many times XD, he adjusts well to the things they throw at him, he would love it but be a bit jealous if they're taller than him, he would love it & tease them if they're shorter than him, he gives great hugs, he would help them to work out if they want, why he loves their face, Raph would be scared if he's dating a human, he would be a bit calmer if they're not, he isn't into physical affection, he loves to hear them talk because it's soothing to him, he would trace their scars unless they don't want to, he's trying his best to cook even though he isn't good at it, he loves to hang out with them even in silence, he likes to watch horror movies with them even though he gets scared easily, if they get scared, he would hug them to make sure they don't know, if they don't, he would snuggle into them, he would never let them know XD, he will also help them to work out, his favourite part it their shoulders, he would be upset but learn to love it if they're taller than him, he would love it & mess with them if they're shorter, he leaves the date ideas with them because he can't think of good ones, Donnie would be confused why are they dating him, he fears that they might leave him one day, he loves to tell them about his invention or a plan he made, he stares a lot XD, he can't cook but can make smoothies or slushies, he loves to hear about their life, his favourite part is their legs, he don't like but also don't hate physical affection, he makes things for them even if they don't need it, he'll do almost anything for them, he would gladly go nightly walks with them even though he won't go when the sun is up, he would text them good morning & good night, he will bring them coffee sometimes, he would be shocked & worried if they're taller than him XD, he won't think much about it if they're shorter than him, he gets flustered easily XD, Leo panicked when they ask him out, he said yes even though he was nervous, he will help them with their plants if they have any, he will play hide and seek with them, he's a decent cook & has decent date ideas, his favourite part is their hands, he loves to gives back rubs, he loves them but not their pet if it's an insect XD, they're lucky if he goes to their place, he'll always lean into them and put their hands on his plastron if they're taller, he'll hold them while holding their hands if they're shorter, he loves to meditate with them, he might cry if they bring him a bouquet of flowers, he would love their pet unless it's an insect XD, all of them respect them, they're always lend a shoulder to cry on, they're smell like pizza grease or cheese most of the time XD, they all love to spend time with them & listen to them, they would love their tattoos or piercings of they have any, and they will cry if they name a turtle after them. Sorry for disturbing you so early in the morning! Thank you so much for doing my request because I love it so much :)

Your welcome, and I'm so glad you like it 😊.And I try to write ever request that comes my way quickly and since I'm not doing much and I think alot and quickly its easy.

#tmnt #tmnt raphael #tmnt donatello #tmnt leonardo #tmnt michelangelo #tmnt headcanons #anon ask #ask response

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slynbarnes · 1 year

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Embers: Season 2 Episodes 21-30

S2 E21:

(Texting)

Leo: Good Morning Baby, I hope you slept well after your mission last night. Work called me in early this morning so I had to leave before you woke up. I was thinking since I had to miss breakfast I would treat you to lunch at my gym and we could train together today. What do you say?

Y/N: Good Morning Babe, that’s okay I didn’t have time to tell you I needed to reschedule anyhow. Bucky promised Lucas breakfast just the three of us this morning since he has been wanted us all to spend time together. Lunch sounds perfect, this way I can train and get some time with you. I’ve missed you.

Leo: Sounds like a plan. I will see you this afternoon.

Y/N: See you soon!

(In the kitchen)

B: (Flipping pancakes) Hey, sleepyhead.

Y/N: Hey… how is your shoulder feeling?

B: Don’t worry about it. I will be fine.

Y/N: (You step closer to him, touching his shoulder gently, noticing he is bleeding a bit still.) I need to rebandage you, your bleeding through your shirt.

B: I’m fine, doll. (He tries to brush it off like it’s nothing.)

Y/N: Let me finish breakfast for you and then I will bandage you back up. Lucas shouldn’t see you bleeding. He will worry, plus I don’t want you to get an infection. So go sit down.

B: Doll, you worry too much.

Y/N: And you don’t worry enough, go sit, now!

B: Yes, ma’am.

Y/N: Thank you.

(You finish cooking breakfast and start unwrapping his old bandages to clean him up again.)

Y/N: One of your stitches came loose.

B: Probably while I was in the gym last night.

Y/N: BUCK! Why the hell were you in the gym after getting shot last night. You need to rest, you big dummy!

B: You know I can never sleep.

L: Bucky? (Lucas’ worried voice comes from behind us.)

B: Lucas! Hey buddy.

L: What happened?

B: It’s nothing bud, I just got a little scraped up on the mission last night that’s all.

L: You’re bleeding a lot.

Y/N: He just broke open a stitch. I promise he is okay. (You say putting your hand on Lucas’ shoulder to reassure him.) I just have to stitch him back up and then we can eat. Buck made pancakes, eggs and bacon.

L: Okay… (He says still a bit worried. Lucas then does something that surprises both you and Bucky, he gives Bucky a big, tight hug.)

B: I promise you I am okay. (Lucas nods a little.)

(Once Lucas lets go, you finish up redoing the stitches.)

Y/N: Now please don’t do anything stupid and open them back up.

B: I can’t make any promises.

Y/N: Buck… please…. for me.

B: Okay… I promise. But only for you.

Y/N: (You give him a small smile, shaking your head at him.) Okay, come on, let's eat.

(You all sit together eating like a perfect little family.)

(Later that day at the gym.)

(You and Leo practice your hand to hand combat and he ends up wrapping his hands around your waist.)

L: (Smiles at you.) Ready to break for lunch.

Y/N: (Smiling back at him.) Sounds perfect!

S2 E22:

(You arrive back at the tower and head in toward the lounge to see if Buck and Lucas are in there. Instead you find your Tony screaming at Buck.)

T: You acted irresponsibly putting the undercover team at risk along with the rest of the guests at the party! Someone other than yourself could have been killed from you not trusting her Metal Man! Don’t forget she is more than capable of taking care of herself. She did without you plenty long enough and is just fine!

B: I know she can take care of herself just as well as the rest of us can Tony but we all need backup from time to time and there was a gun pointed at the love of my life and mother of my son’s head! I was not about to risk that regardless of what that meant for me or anyone else. I don’t regret what I did and I would do it again without a thought if it was for her.

T: I get wanting to protect her, don’t you think we all care for her?! That’s why Wanda and Nat were there.

B: They would never have made it in time!

T: You put the mission and the team at risk and General Ross has sent orders for you to be put on probation.

B: Do I still get to go on missions?

T: Yes, but you will be watched closely.

B: I don’t care about what they do with me on this, I just care to know she is safe.

T: Try not to do anything stupid again and you will be able to continue to keep an eye on her, not that she needs it.

Y/N: Hey guys… (You smile acting like you hadn’t just heard their entire conversation or Bucky’s confession.)

T: Y/N! Come find me tomorrow afternoon. I have something I need you to help me with.

Y/N: Sounds great. Your workshop?

T: Where else?

Y/N: Bye Tony!

T: Bye kid!

B: Hey… how much of that did you hear?

Y/N: I just got here.

B: Y/N…

Y/N: Most of it. You are on probation… because of me.

B: I am on probation because of me, doll. But, it’s okay. I dont care what Ross says as long as I am able to keep you safe.

Y/N: You know… you don’t have to protect me.

B: Your my family, doll. Even if I didn’t have to which I do, I want to keep you safe. You and I should have escaped together. I will spend my life trying to make up for falling for their lies and not finding you and taking you home with me.

Y/N: Buck… you can’t blame yourself for that. (You touch his shoulder, feeling his tense muscles relax under your comforting touch.) But, I get it… I think that’s why I can’t not protect you either. You’re my family.

B: (His lips curl into a shy smile.) I am glad you feel the same, doll. Regardless though, probation is nothing I just follow orders for a while.

Y/N: With your attitude I can only imagine how well that will go. (You tease.)

B: You are just as delightful as I am so you have no room to talk. (He teases back.)

(You and Buck laugh a bit at how alike the two of you really are while he walks you back to your room.)

S2 E23:

(Standing at your door)

Y/N: Would you like to come in? I was hoping maybe I could talk to you about something.

B: Is everything okay?

Y/N: Yeah, I don’t know, I need to talk to you about Lucas. I guess… I just want your advice.

B: My advice? (He asks pleasantly surprised.) Did you ask Leo?

Y/N: No... I need your advice. I know Leo has been a parent longer than both of us combined but… oh just come in and I’ll explain.

(You gently pull Buck into the room with you sitting side by side on the bed.)

Y/N: I need you because Leo has never been to Hydra and had to figure out how to be a parent after. You are the only one who would understand. The whole time I have been a mother, until now, I was under Hydra’s control. Meaning, I had select memories and little emotions to work with. I was always away on missions and had the assistance of a handler to help me with Lucas. I wasn’t able to be a real mom to him… I mean I was but I was never the mom I wanted to be for him. I couldn’t be there as much or have compassion and sympathy or understanding like mom’s are supposed to have. I love him and I always felt love for him, I just never could understand and relate to his emotions because of Hydra messing with my head. I am overwhelmed with guilt for his childhood and everything I can imagine he is struggling with now. Trying to be a mom to Lucas has been harder since my memories came back… I’m not even sure I am making any sense… I am jealous (You admit.) … that he has a better connection with you than he does with me. I have had him his whole life and you are just now here. Don’t get me wrong, I am so happy he has you and that our family feels more complete now than it ever did before, but I feel like I don’t know how to be a mother to him after Hydra… at least not one that he doesn’t hate and you just clicked with him. He adores you. How do you do it?

B: I am honest with him even if it’s hard for him to hear. I listen to what he needs and tells me and I have taken things slowly with him. He doesn’t hate you, doll. He is scared and overwhelmed just as you are. This is all new to him. You have to remember he was taken from all he knows and then had found out that the dad he longed for was alive. Then when he had hope of us being a family that was taken from him. I’m not blaming you either, but he doesn’t understand. Try really talking to him and explaining that things are not always what we want them to be but that he is loved and safe now and that you understand how he feels, that he is heard. Just explain that he isn’t alone in this and that this is all new to you too and you're doing your best. Also remind him you're bound to make mistakes sometimes because just like him you are human. I think if he knows you are doing your best and that you are trying, he will have an easier time understanding that you're not the enemy.

Y/N: When did you get so wise?

B: I am just telling you what I would want to know if I were him. I think if you put yourself in his shoes, it’s easier to understand him. My brain was mush from Hydra just like yours and this whole parenting thing is new to me too. I am just trying my best and being honest with him is the only way I can do that. Lucas is smart and I know he would see through the lies… even the best of them.

Y/N: You’re right. Thank you Buck… I think I have just been so scared to upset him or scare him but he knows things are different so I just need to be real with him and tell him I know that it’s scary. I am scared too.

B: One thing I have learned is that fear isn’t always a bad thing. I was scared once I was free of Hydra too but it’s because I was free… I can make choices, I can be better, I could help now. Having choice and free will is almost scarier than not because now it’s on you if something goes wrong. Moving forward especially with a past like ours is terrifying but it’s a good thing. (Buck admits. He usually is not so vulnerable but with you he feels comfortable talking about the past because like you said before… you are the only one who would understand.)

Y/N: Exactly! I am scared of making the wrong choices, especially with him…

B: Tell him that. Tell him that your figuring it out as you go but no matter what you love him and he can always talk to you. You are a good mom y/n. You will know what to do.

Y/N: ….(You hesitate a moment.) You didn’t always think so…

B: (Looks down at his hands before looking at you.) I’m sorry I fought you so much… I didn’t want to fight but I had to keep my promise to you even though I wanted to tell you. It was either avoid you, tell you or fight you so I fought you.. And when I saw him home alone I freaked out because I had always wondered if he was mine. I was an ass and never should have yelled at you.

Y/N: I would never leave him uncared for. The night I went out with Scott, Nat and Wanda… Tony had been watching him for me and the night of the party, I never left I was just upstairs. I knew he would be safe and he is used to me being gone at night anyhow so it was normal to him. But… I get it. I’d be concerned if I were in your position too.

B: I don’t think you are a bad mom or irresponsible… I’m sorry I said those things. I know you wouldn’t do anything to harm him.

Y/N: It’s okay… stop apologizing Buck. I know how you get and I know why you did it now. I forgive you..

B: Point is, your a good mom and you love him so show him that.

Y/N: Thank you. (You wrap your arms around him, breathing him in.)

B: (Breathing in your scent, hugging you back.) Of course, doll. You know I would do anything for you and Lucas.

Y/N: I know and I'd do anything for you too Buck.

B: I know. Now, go talk to our son. (He pulls from the deep embrace.)

Y/N: (You kiss his cheek, your lips lingering linger than they should before pulling away.) Thanks for the advice.

(Buck gives you a kind smile before you leave the room and walk down the hall to see Lucas.)

S2 E24:

(You knock on Lucas’ door and he open up less than a second later.)

L: Hi mom.

Y/N: Hey sweetie.. Can I come in?

L: Sure.

(You enter his room and take the chair from his desk to sit across from him on his bed.)

L: Is everything okay momma?

Y/N: Yeah, I just wanted to apologize to you.

L: For what?

Y/N: I know the last few months have been really hard for you. Everything has changed and has been confusing. We moved and you switched schools and then your dad.. And now Leo. This hasn’t been easy for me either so I know it has to be even harder for you. Everything happened so fast and I never explained it all to you. I should have been a better mom. But, I just want you know I am trying my hardest bubs, to do what’s right for us. I promise you things will feel normal again soon but this time our normal is a new normal. This time we are safe. And I always want you to feel like you can talk to me too. No matter what, even and especially if it’s about me.

L: Bucky told me about the bad guys too so I guess I understand that we didn’t have a choice but I just don’t get one thing.

Y/N: What is it?

L: Why are you and Bucky not together if you love each other? Especially when you both are so happy together…

Y/N: It’s complicated. We may love each other but-

L: But you are happiest when your with him. And Bucky always talks about you… It doesn’t make any sense. If you both are that happy together then why not keep being a family?

Y/N: Leo makes me that happy bud.

L: Not like Bucky does. Mom, I am 9 and I have two eyes and brain. It’s obvious.

Y/N: (You are at a loss for words.) I-I … but… I am with Leo and I love him bubs.

L: For now.

Y/N: (Unsure of what to say next you say the only thing you can be sure of.) I guess we will have to see.

(A pause of silence.)

L: I do kind of like my new room though! Tony said I can decorate it however I want! He said Pepper will take me shopping this weekend once school is out to get me a new bed since this one is too big. And it is pretty cool to live with the Avengers. So… I guess I forgive you but I’m still not happy about Leo.

Y/N: That’s awesome! And do you think you can you try and get to know him? For me? I think you would really ike him. He is a big softy and he loves to play board games just like you!

L: Maybe..

Y/N: I ‘ll take it. I love you Lucas. So much. I promise I will try and do better.

L: I know you will mom. I love you too! (He hugs you tight.) I missed you.

Y/N: I missed you too.

S2 E25:

(The next day.)

(You knock on Wanda’s door.)

W: (Opening the door with a stupid happy grin on her face.) Y/N! Oh my god, I am so happy to see you!

Y/N: What happened? You are abnormally happy.

W: Vis asked me out!

Y/N: Wanda! That’s amazing!! I am so happy for you!!! Are you busy? I want to hear all about it!

W: I am completely free! He was so sweet, he brought me to our favorite spot in this park we both like and made us a picnic! He also brought me daisies and wrote me the sweetest love letter. He confessed that he was nervous but had felt this way for so long and he couldn’t wait to ask me to be his.

Y/N: That’s adorable.

W: Right?! Enough about me, you were coming over here for something right?

Y/N: Honestly, not really. I just wanted to spend time with you. (You laugh.)

W: Oh! Perfect. So tell me, what’s the whole Bucky thing about? He’s Lucas’ father?

Y/N: Yes. Buck is Lucas’ father. He and I were in Hydra together. He was my trainer. Bucky was the first person who showed me any kind of kindness when I was in there and because of that and other little things about him, I fell in love. He was my first. He and I were together but then Hydra found out and …separated us… (You explain leaving out the part about the days of torture you endured, and of watching them torture the love of your life.) Lucas always asked about him, but Hydra took my memories and told me he was dead so I didn’t know until recently and telling Lucas was hard enough… It didn’t even cross our minds about having to tell anyone else.

W: That’s crazy.. I wonder why he was acting the way he did if he loves you which is so clear to see now.

Y/N: Hydra put us through unspeakable things… (You pause.)

W: I was in Hydra too so I understand. That’s how I got my powers. They are not exactly the friendliest bunch.

Y/N: You were in Hydra too?

W: Yeah.. My brother Pietro and I were there for a while with them.

Y/N: I had no idea you had a brother.

W: He died. When he and I realized what was going on, we fought with the Avengers instead of against them and he saved a childs life but in the process gave his own.

Y/N: Wanda.. I am so sorry.

W: Me too. I miss him everyday. What did Hydra do? I understand if you don’t want to talk about it, I’m just curious.

Y/N: They brought me back from the brink of death when I was 18. Then they injected me with serum and froze me for a few years, when I came out they took me to train with Bucky and through training with him my memories started to come through. They would keep taking them away but eventually Bucky realized since working with me his would return quicker than usual too. Eventually after working together for a while we both had started feeling things and we weren't supposed to be capable of that but with him I felt it all and fell in love. We promised each other we would escape together and that if for some reason one of us got out but didn’t have our memories the other wouldn’t tell the one who was free of the memories of torture. We love each other too much to be selfish and bring back the horrific memories even if it meant bringing all that we had back too. It was easier for him to act like he hated me when all he wanted was for me to come back to him… When Hydra found out things got bad. Thats when we were separated… that’s also when I found out about Lucas. They took my memories though.. I never even had the chance to tell him that we had a son or were expecting.. They took our family.

W: It makes sense then… If I had been in Bucky’s position with Vis I would feel like I was going insane having to stay away and watch them with others.

Y/N: I feel horrible about that too. If I would have known I never would have pursued things will Leo, but now I love him and things are… complicated.

W: Doesn’t sound too complicated to me.

Y/N: If you don’t mind me asking, what did Hydra do to you?

W: They had experimented on both my brother and I giving both of us power from the stone. My brother had the power of speed and I have well… (She plays with her power.) This. They used us as weapons and kept us locked away. Not too much to tell but It wasn’t great.

Y/N: I never realized how much we had in common.

W: I always knew we did in one way or another. That’s why we get along so well.

Y/N: True. I’m really happy your my friend Wanda.

W: And I am glad you are mine.

(You and Wanda spend the whole morning talking until it’s time for you to meet with Tony.)

S2 E26:

(In Tony’s workshop)

Y/N: I’m here. What did you need to see me about?

T: I have a surprise for you.

Y/N: What is it?

T: I was thinking since you have been here a while it is about time that you are initiated in as an Avenger. Fury will notify the press, thankfully we do not have to be there but we can always watch from here and celebrate. It will take a while for the official initiation but for now I decided it was only right to be able to give you a suit. Everyone has theirs so I thought I would make you one.

Y/N: No way! Tony, are you serious? You made me a suit?

T: I did, (He pulls it out to show you) It’s a nano-tech stealth suit equipped with built in comms, a new camouflage tech that I invented which will allow you to go invisible making you completely undetectable, voice modulators, night vision and you have my new updated version of our old system J.A.R.V.I.S installed so he will be there to assist you. The suit also has weapons settings.

Y/N: Tony this is incredible! Thank you. (You leap into his arms hugging him.)

T: (Hugs you back.) I am so happy you like it! I want you to stay safe y/n. This suit will help with that so take some time to learn about the settings and how to use it when your alone in the training room.

Y/N: Alone?

T: Yes, If you accidentally use the wrong setting I don’t want anyone to accidentally get hurt.

Y/N: Okay, that makes sense. Thank you, Tony this means so much.

T: No problem kid.

Y/N: Thanks Dad! (You say playfully.)

T: (Laughs at you.)

S2 E27:

(You and Leo are spending time together at his gym)

Leo: (Wraps his hands around you.) Hey baby.

Y/N: Hey! There you are.

Leo: I just finished with my last client for the day. I’m sorry it took me so long.

Y/N: That’s okay. I’m happy to see you.

Leo: And I am happy to see you.

Y/N: I know you have had a long day, but can I take you somewhere? It’s a bit of an adventure.

Leo: Where are you taking me?

Y/N: It’s a surprise.

Leo: Why not?

Y/N: Okay, come with me. (You drag Leo by the arm)

(You arrive at an old abandoned amusement park.)

Leo: What are we doing here?

Y/N: Going in.

Leo: Isn’t that illegal?

Y/N: Only if we get caught. Come on. (You drag him over to the farris wheel and start climbing up the side.)

Leo: What are you doing?

Y/N: Climbing, follow me.

Leo: You are crazy.

Y/N: I love adventure. There is a difference.

(You both keep climbing but you step on a broken step on the latter causing you to almost fall but Leo catches you.)

Leo: You good?

Y/N: Yeah, I'm fine.

Leo: This is high enough.

Y/N: No we need to go higher.

Leo: Maybe we should go back.

Y/N: Why? (You turn back to look at him) You’re afraid of heights?

Leo: Everyone is afraid of something.

Y/N: I didn’t think you were afraid of anything.

(The two of you keep climbing)

Leo: Come on y/n, are you even human?

(At the top)

Y/N: See, this isn’t so bad.

Leo: Yeah.. (He says nervously looking down.)

Y/N: Don’t look down… look out.

Leo: (His eyes trail out to the world around him in amazement.) Wow…

Y/N: I told you.

Leo: How did you learn about this place?

Y/N: Sometimes as a soldier I would run away for just a bit after a mission to just be alone and think and one night I found myself here. I felt safe amidst everything Hydra was putting me through. This view would always help take some of the pain away. I’ve never brought anyone here before.

Leo: But you brought me?

Y/N: I guess I just wanted to share this with you.

S2 E28:

(Spending Time with Leo, walking through the compound.)

Leo: Are you sure you don’t want to do anything? It is your birthday after all.

Y/N: Im sure. This is all I want. After Hydra birthdays aren’t really something I celebrate.

Leo: Okay well as long as you are happy baby, that’s all I care about.

Y/N: I promise, this is everything. Just you and I since Buck was nice enough to take Lucas for the night.

(You get into the lounge and the room is dark.)

Y/N: Weird… these lights are never off. (You look around a moment.)

Leo: Where is the light switch? I will turn it back on.

Y/N: There isn’t one. Friday?

F: Yes, Miss Y/N Y/L/N?

Y/N: Please turn the lights on.

F: Lights turning on.

(As the lights come up everyone pops out at you, the room filled with Avengers and other people they know.)

Everyone: SURPRISE!!!!

Y/N: Oh my god! Tony… What is this?

T: Happy Birthday y/n.

Y/N: Thank you, but this is too much… how did you know?

T: Don’t thank me it was all Bucky’s idea. He told us you had a birthday coming up, so I took to planning to make it special but Bucky did the majority of it.

(You look to Bucky who has a big smile on his face.)

B: Happy Birthday y/n!

Y/N: You remembered…

B: How could I forget. (He gives you a hug.)

Y/N: Thank you. (You whisper in his ear.)

B: You deserve a nice night. (He whispers back.)

Leo: We should go talk to your guests babe. We shouldn’t keep anyone waiting. (He says feeling jealous of the long hug.)

Y/N: (You pull away, your eyes lingering on Bucky for a moment.) You’re right… Sorry babe, let’s go.

(Leo wraps his arm around you and guides you around the room talking to everyone.)

S2 E29:

(You make your way around the room, visiting Wanda and Vis, Nat, Bruce, Tony, Scott, Clint, Kate, Sam, Yelena, Thor, and Steve.)

S: Happy Birthday, y/n. (He says hugging you)

Y/N: Thanks, Steve.

S: Are you enjoying your night so far?

Y/N: I am! Did you know about all of this?

S: Bucky, may have mentioned it. (He smiles)

Y/N: That sneaky little shit…

S: Language!

Y/N: Old man!

S: Hey, you are old too!

Y/N: Younger than you.

S: Still old.

Leo: Wait.. How old are you?

Y/N: It’s best you don’t know. (You kiss his cheek.)

S: She is really old (He whispers to Leo)

Y/N: (You smack his shoulder.) We should probably keep moving or we won’t make it to everyone.

Clint: Happy Birthday!

Y/N: Thanks Barton! I havn’t seen you in a while, where have you been.

Clint: Oh, you know with the wife and kids and running missions with my new partner.

Y/N: New partner?

Clint: Y/N, meet Kate. She is my new apprentice and partner.

K: Happy Birthday, it’s so nice to meet you. I can’t believe I’m meeting the Avengers, you’re their newest addition right?

Y/N: (You smile.) I am, it’s really nice to meet you Kate and thank you.

C: And you must be Leo? The boyfriend?

Leo: I am, It’s nice to meet you. Does this mean y/n talks about me?

Y/N: Well of course I do. (You look back to Clint.) Nat?

C: Who did you think? She likes to keep me informed when I’m away.

Thor: Y/N! Happy Birthday.

Y/N: Hey, Thor!

Clint: Hey.

K: Hi, I’m Kate.

Thor: Hello, Kate.

Y/N: Leo, this is Thor.

Leo: Nice to meet you.

Thor: You as well.

Y/N: Is Loki here?

Thor: No, him and the Avengers don’t exactly get along all that well.

Y/N: Why?

Wanda: Happy Birthday Bestie! (She plows into you, wrapping you in a big tight hug.)

Y/N: Thank you! I was wondering where you had disappeared to.

Vis: Happy Birthday, y/n. We were with Bucky and Lucas.

W: We were giving a hand with a few things for later.

Y/N: Lucas is here?

W: Yeah, he is with Bucky and Tony at the moment.

Y/N: Yay! I havn’t seen him all day. I’m missing my boy.

(A little while later)

BB: Happy Birthday, Y/N!

Y/N: Thank you! Bruce, what happened to your face?

BB: Huh?

Y/N: You have green powder all over your face.

BB: Oh….uh… there was a little… explosion… with a project I am working on.

Y/N: Explosion?

BB: Yeah but all is good. No harm done. I tried to get it all off but it must have stained..

B: Sorry, I hope I’m not interrupting but y/n can I have a dance?

Y/N: (You smile) Fine… If I have to.. (You say sarcastically.)

(Finally Bucky pulls you aside for a dance with you.)

Y/N: Thank you for this.

B: I couldn’t let you be stubborn and get away with telling Leo or anyone else that you didn’t want anything. I thought since this is your first celebration since you were young, it should be special. You deserve to be celebrated, doll.

Y/N: You know me too well. And thank you, honestly. I can’t believe you did all of this just for me.

B: I would do anything to keep that smile of yours lit up.

(You give him a small smile and snuggle into his chest.)

(A few minutes later.)

Leo: May I cut in?

Y/N: Hey babe, of course. (You say pulling from Bucky’s warm chest, glancing at him one last time.)

S2 E30:

(You and Leo dance and Bucky watches with eyes of envy but he let’s you enjoy your night. He knows if he were to make a scene and try and steal you away it would not end well and Buck is playing the long game with you, being patient until you realize what everyone but you can see. You are in love with Bucky just as he is with you.)

T: (Over the microphone on the stage) If I can get everyone’s attention, our beautiful birthday girl has some presents to open. So y/n if you don’t mind coming up here I would like to go first.

(You walk nervously up to the stage.)

T: When you first got here, I was unsure about you sticking around kid. But now, I am thankful in many ways that you have been here to stay. To call you my friend. With that I want you to know I am thrilled you are part of our team and as a member of our team you should never have to walk miles everyday to drop Lucas off or have to ask to borrow a car, you should be able to have something to call your own for the first time in a long time. (Tony hands you a small rectangular box.)

Y/N: (You look at him and then down to the small box in your hands. As you open it you can not believe your eyes. You leap into Tony’s arms hugging him as tight as you can.) Thank you!

T: Do you want to go see it?

Y/N: YES!!

T: (On the mic.) Okay everyone her present is downstair so if you want to see it head to the elevator.

(You, Lucas, Leo and the team share an elevator down to the ground level. Tony shows everyone to the garage where your brand new Matte Black Rolls Royce Ghost.)

T: What do you think? I wanted you to have something nice and have plenty of space for family.

Y/N: Tony this is gorgeous! Thank you so so so much. (You hug him again.)

T: Your so welcome, kid. You ready to open the rest of your gifts?

Y/N: Yes! Let’s go.

(Once back upstairs.)

N: Open mine next. (She says handing you a gift bag.)

Y/N: (Pulls out a multi-pocket weapon holster.) Nat this is awesome! Thank you!

N: I though this could go well with your new suit or for everyday just in case.

Y/N: It’s perfect I love it.

Scott: Me next! (He hands you a Marc Jacobs bag.)

Y/N: What is this? This looks too fancy for me…

Scott: Open it!

(You pull out a box of your favorite chocolates and a bottle of Marc Jacobs Daisy Perfume.)

Y/N: How did you know?

Scott: When we went out I noticed you were wearing it.

Y/N: This is so thoughtful! Thank you Scott!

W: Open mine babe! (She hands you a small bag)

Y/N: (You open it to find a gold locket and inside is a picture of you and Wanda and on the other side is you with all of the avengers.) Wanda this is beautiful.

W: It’s so you always remember you have a family now. We love you so much!

Clint: (Hands you his gift.)

Y/N: (Opens the little envelope and inside are concert tickets to (your favorite band.) )

Clint: I hope this is the right one, I heard you and Wanda talking about them.

Y/N: This is perfect! Thank you Clint!

Clint: You’re welcome!

L: Mom! Open mine next! (He hands you a giant square box that weighs a ton.)

Y/N: Hold cow buddy what did you put in here. (You laugh)

L: Open it!

(You open it to find a family photo album with all of your photos of you, Lucas, and Bucky. This pulls a few tears from your eyes at how sweet it is.)

Y/N: I love it! Come here. (You give him a big bear hug.) This is the best present ever!

L: Yay!

Leo: It’s not a car or anything but I did get you something. (He hands you a small bag and a bouquet of roses.)

(You open the bag to find a charm bracelet.)

Y/N: This is so sweet thank you babe. (You kiss him. He then latches the bracelet around your wrist.)

T: We have one more gift before the night is over.

(Bucky hands you a small envelope.)

Y/N: (You open it to find passes to a spa and a receipt for a weekend stay at a hotel. You look at Bucky confused.)

B: I thought you could use a break after everything you have been through doll. I wanted to give you a weekend away all by yourself. All expenses taken care of. The spa, the hotel, food, shopping all of it. Take a weekend to yourself and I will take Lucas. You deserve some time off.

Y/N: (You become lost for words. This is the most thoughtful gift anyone has given you. Bucky is the only one who understands how badly you needed this. After Hydra torturing you and moving to a new place and the nightmares and flash backs and struggling to be a good mom.. You just need a break. Time alone.) I-I… Buck.. (You hug him.) Thank you. (You whisper in his ear.) For all of this. Tonight has been perfect…

(The rest of the night you and everyone dance the night away together.)

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rambleswhatsthepoint · 1 year

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12/09/22

well hello. been a few weeks.

Yesterday was my one year divorce anniversary. amazing how the year has gone by so quickly.

The World cup has been INSANE, especially today’s games. my heart today, o.m.g. LOL

My mom is on a trip with a tour group to Mexico and is having the absolute best time! my sis and i split the cost of the trip to treat her for her 75th bday. it was totally affordable that i was worried they were going to be staying in cockroach infested hotels, but it’s absolutely no the case and i’m so relieved.

found out my ex is “in a relationship” with someone from facebook. i’m intrigued/vaguely nosy curious feeling but at the same time, don’t care about it in a care about him kind of way. i more was thinking to myself how is it that i can’t even bring myself to think about trying to date and meet people and this mofo is already FB status in a relationship with someone and also on fucking facebook which he didn’t want to use before and didn’t have any social media. ok whatever. should i be ready by now? it just all seems so daunting and like so much effort and really just like gambling... and you hardly ever win big when you gamble. ugh i dunno.

had a big fight with Leo that exploded into work. we got through it, but it was a lot of drama and waste of energy.

lastly, i lost my Alley cat on 11/19. she was 18 years old. she’d been getting thinner.... she was always a skinnier cat, she was never more than 7ish pounds even when she was younger. but i brought her in cause she had a cold on 8/27 and she was only 5 pounds. she got better after her cold but i know she wasn’t eating well still, even with giving her appetite stimulant. I brought her in to the vet on 11/17 because the night before she was kind of out of it... like wobbly and not aware of where she was. and she had tried to jump up to her food counter and she fell. and when she fell she just lay there. just lay there where she fell, the poor thing. brings me to tears just remembering...

the vet said there was really nothing more to do for her. they gave her some fluids and a b12 shot and a steroid shot to see if that could help pep her up. but really it was just buying me time to realize i had to say goodbye. i texted the ex to let him know she wasn’t doing well. he said he’d be in town in dec and if she was still around he’d ask to say good bye. i said i don’t think she has that long but i’ll let you know. the vet is closed on fridays so i thought i’d be able to bring her in to our regular vet on Saturday when they opened. of course they have this whole come sign up to get in to see them type thing so there was no guarantee they could see me right away... anyways that night she slept in the bed (per usual in her older age) and it was the worst sleep of my life. i could tell she wasn’t doing well, so i had my hand on her nearly the whole time to make sure she was still breathing. i kept praying to ask God to give me a sign of what i should do. at some point i fell asleep and then i was so scared cause i realized there was something heavy leaning on me (stella) instead of alley and i panicked, but she had just crawled a little ways away but was curled up sleeping. fell back asleep a little bit but then i heard a thump. she had fallen off the bed. i rushed to get up and turn on the light and there she was just laying where fell again :(. so i picked her up, laid her back on the bed and then got dressed, i felt like that was my sign.

i brought her to the emergency vet and she passed in my arms at about 440 in the morning. tbh they had this whole room with couches and kleenex that was dimly lit and a whole system for saying goodbye that it was a way better experience than if i had made it to our regular vet. (yet super expensive ugh) they let you do all the paperwork and payment stuff while you’re waiting. they took her in the back and put an iv in. then they took me to the nice room to explain what would happen next. they would bring her to me, i could spend as much time with her as i wanted. then when i was ready i’d push a button and the dr would come. the doctor was just the kindest angel. i don’t know how they can take seeing the pain from everyone. but i guess they know that only that much grief can come from great love. then when i was ready, she gave the first injection to make her sleepy. then when i was ready again she gave her the injection that stopped her heart. she listened for her heart. then she said i could stay as long as i wanted with her again. and when i was ready to go i would push this button thing again and someone would come to take her away. she was in my arms the whole time. she was ready.

her ashes came back the day before thanksgiving and because it’s an emergency vet, i was able to pick her up on thanksgiving day.

Roger’s doing really well and i get regular updates or see pics of him posted by his new fam on facebook.

I took my mom to see Pentatonix and Girl Named Tom on 12/1 before her trip. they were both SO AMAZING.

I didn’t make it into the Chicago Marathon via lottery so I joined a charity team. I just gotta raise 1750 by 10/1/2023. Oh, and train for a fucking marathon. good luck to me lol.

there’s a song by Girl Named Tom on their Christmas album, called “one more christmas” The first line is “these tears are years of memories all at once” and i think of that every time i cry now. Alley cat is waiting for me with all my fur babies who have gone on ahead. I’ll see them again someday.

#Online Journal #rambles #my life #sadness

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plutosunshine · 2 years

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Your style of friendship

The 11th house represents friends and friendships. By looking at it, we can know our behavior in friendships and what type of friends we attract.

11th house in Aries/Mars in the 11th house

Your style of friendship is honest, direct, straightforward, active, restless, and generous. Sometimes you may be hot-tempered with your friends and say words that hurt but your friends don’t hold grudges. They love how sincere and goal-oriented you are. They know that you won’t lie to them and they rely on your opinion. The most important thing for you in any friendship is honesty. You discuss the problems directly. Also, you like to have active hobbies with your friends. For example, sport, dance, or hiking.

11th house in Taurus/Venus in the 11th house

Your style of friendship is very loyal, nurturing, stable, comfortable, and solid. If you make friends, your friendship may last forever. You are extremely loyal. Sometimes you may be stubborn and not so flexible. However, friends know that they can rely on you. You always help your friends. You create a sense of comfort and stability. You love to do relaxing activities with your friends. For example, cooking or eating food, decorating home, watching shows together, etc.

11th house in Gemini/Mercury in the 11th house

Your style of friendship is chatty, talkative, active, restless, exciting, and fresh. You always have ideas about how to spend time with your friends. You may talk with them for hours and you are never out of topics of discussion. You share a lot of information and ideas with your friends and you like organizing something with them. You are funny and creative and that is what your friends love about you.

11th house in Cancer/Moon in the 11th house

Your friends are your family. Your style of friendship is loyal, nurturing, caring, understanding, and kind. You worry about your friends a lot. Sometimes you give too much. Be careful because you may overspend your energy on your friends at times. Your friendships are solid and caring. You and your friends care about each other very much. You are sincere and kind. Maybe you have a motherly aura within your friends' circle.

11th house in Leo/Sun in the 11th house

You are so popular among your friends! They adore you and your sense of humour, generosity, warmness, and kindness. Your style of friendship is funny, bright, and creative. You know how to have fun with your friends. They know that you are generous and kind so they can rely on you at hard times. You may be really popular not only among your friends' circle. You like to hang out with your friends a lot, having fun, and just chilling together.

11th house in Virgo

Your style of friendship is loyal, serious, reliable, dependable, and caring. You show your love to friends by acts of service. You like to help them and do something for them. Your friends know that they can rely on you at hard times. You are a great advice giver. Friends like to ask for help or advice because you create a sense that you know everything. You care about friends very much and sometimes they may think that you are too critical or controlling but the only thing you want is your friends to be happy.

11th house in Libra/Venus in the 11th house

Your style of friendship is loyal, funny, committed, honest, and equal. You are social and you really like to spend time with your friends. You may have common interests and hobbies, especially something creative. You appreciate equality in your friendships. You want to give and you want to receive. You want all your relationships to be honest and equal. Your friends like how harmonious and balanced you are with them.

11th house in Scorpio/Pluto in the 11th house

You may have not so many close friends but your friendships are very solid, loyal, and honest. You don’t trust easily because you don’t like superficial friendships. You want your friends to be deep and thoughtful. You like to discover them every day. Also, you may attract traumatized people and you want to help them to heal. You like to discuss deep topics with your friends. You have a special bond with your friends and you unconsciously feel their needs and feelings.

11th house in Sagittarius/Jupiter in the 11th house

You appreciate freedom, personal space, and independence. So you attract the same personalities as you (in that sense). Your friends may have the 11th house in Sagittarius as well. You and your friends appreciate the personal space of each other. You are open-minded and don’t judge the choices of your friends. You are honest, open, sincere, active, generous, and optimistic with your friends. You are ready to give them everything so that they would be happy. Your friendships are funny, open, honest, and open-minded.

11th house in Capricorn/Saturn in the 11th house

Your style of friendship is loyal, serious, responsible, dependable, and stable. It is not easy for you to make close friends but when you do, they are with you for the long term and maybe for a lifetime. You and your friends are the support system of each other. You like to make plans with friends. You create a sense of stability and comfort so friends feel that they can rely on you at any time. You show your love to friends through actions. For example, giving money or providing job opportunities.

11th house in Aquarius/Uranus in the 11th house

Your friends play a big role in your life. Your style of friendship is creative, unique, unpredictable, and independent. You and your friends value personal space and freedom. You don’t like to depend on your friends so your style of friendship is free and independent. You can do everything to support and help your friends at hard times. You are funny, creative, and crazy together. You may do things that are not usual for you in daily life. You and your friends are unpredictable and spontaneous together.

11th house in Pisces/Neptune in the 11th house

Your style of friendship is loyal, compassionate, kind, caring, understanding, and helpful. You feel the mood of your friends easily and can say without words what they feel. You have a special connection with your friends and it is almost telepathic. You may notice strange coincidences and signs together. You sacrifice a lot to your friends and sometimes you give too much. Be careful with that and especially with toxic friends. It is because you feel and absorb the mood of your friends and if they are toxic, it may affect you badly.

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instead of you [part fourteen]

pairing: [best friend’s brother] tom holland x college!reader

summary: you didn’t expect to spend your summer pretending to be your best friend’s girlfriend- then again, you didn’t expect to fall for your best friend’s brother, either.

warnings: swearing, alcohol consumption

word count: 2.6k

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“Just that you’re not technically a chef yet,” Tom explained defensively. “You’re not certified.”

“A chef doesn’t need a piece of paper to call themselves a chef,” Leo countered. “Anyone can be a chef. But don’t tell the WAC I said that.”

“Yeah, Tom haven’t you ever seen Ratatouille?” you teased.

“Great movie,” Leo added. “Sam, great job on your dough,” he reiterated.

Sam stuck his tongue out at his brother across the table who rolled his eyes in response as Leo picked up his ball of dough and rolled it in his hands.

“Tom, yours is still a little tough. Keep working on it.”

He nodded and took his dough back to continue kneading it. You noticed his jaw clenched subtly in frustration, but he didn’t say anything else. You watched as he rolled the pasta dough with a little more force, maybe a little too much.

Leo checked yours next and gave you similar feedback to Tom’s, even though Sam had helped you with yours. You didn’t want to think about what kind of feedback you would have gotten on your own.

Your dough was still flaking apart when you went back to working on it, and you tried desperately to hold it together with little success. Sam had left your side to help his mom so you were on your own.

At least Tom was also struggling. You felt a little better knowing he was miserable too.

You were starting to sweat with effort, you were so out of shape that even cooking had you catching your breath. You had thought this was going to be fun, but instead you were having flashbacks to high school P.E. class.

Leo made his way down the rest of the table and checked everyone else’s dough before circling back to you and Tom. He took over for Tom and instructed Sam to finish kneading yours so that he could move on with the lesson. It was embarrassing to be singled out, but Sam assured you it wasn’t your fault. He wasn’t making much progress with yours either.

“I don’t know what’s wrong with yours,” Sam whispered to you.

“I probably did it wrong,” you hissed back.

“I watched you do it, you did it the same way as everyone else.”

“Then why is it being like this?”

“Sometimes food has a mind of its own,” Leo interjected, making you realize the entire class had been listening to you and Sam’s back and forth. “This is good enough, though. We can set it aside with the other balls of dough to let them rest while we make the fillings.”

You and Tom set your sad pasta balls on the counter with the others before moving to the sink to rinse your hands.

“I think they’ll still taste good,” Tom said thoughtfully as he offered the bottle of soap to you and pumped some into your hands.

“I hope so.”

“It’s pasta, it’s almost impossible to fuck it up.”

“Yet somehow we still managed to.”

“Some would say it’s talent,” he said and shrugged.

You bumped his shoulder with your own as you fought over the water stream. You managed to stick your hands in first and Tom put his above yours only for you to shove them away.

“Hey!”

“You’re completely ruining the purpose of washing my hands!”

“I have soap on my hands, you have soap on your hands, what's the issue?”

“And you’re washing off your germs and they’re going on my hands now!”

“Fine, fine, I’ll wait my turn,” he seceded and let you finish washing your hands before he rinsed off his own.

“Thank you.”

“You’re welcome.”

Making the fillings for the pasta was a much simpler process than making the dough. All you had to do was mix certain ingredients together. It didn’t matter what order you added them, if you whisked fast or slow, the only important thing was that everything made it into the bowl one way or another.

You worked in pairs for this step. Sam mixed together the pesto filling while you did the parmesan-truffle one.

“This is different than the pesto I make,” he said, looking at the mixture in his bowl.

You frowned. “But I like your pesto.”

“It’ll still be good, baby,” he assured you with a kiss to the forehead. “Don’t worry.”

When the fillings were done it was time to revisit the balls of dough and roll them into pasta. Sam explained it to you like rolling Play-Doh, but it was far more difficult in your opinion. Play-Doh was nowhere near as stubborn as this. The pasta dough somehow retained tension, and would bounce back every time you tried to stretch it.

Sam ended up having to help you and Tom because both of you were starting at a disadvantage with your fucked up dough.

“I never want to hear you say I have it easier than you ever again,” Sam warned as he folded your strands of dough into raviolis.

The class had moved on to the final step, shaping and filling the noodles, but you had already tapped out. Sam was done with his portion before you had even finished one so he had taken over for you.

“I’m sorry for saying that,” you said, remembering all the times you had teased him for stressing out over his ‘soufflé final’ or ‘crepe labs’. “I would much rather be writing a paper right now.”

He shrugged. “Everyone has their strengths.”

“I’m starting to think that Ratatouille movie was bullshit,” you groaned.

“How ironic,” Tom snorted across from you.

He was really starting to get on your nerves. But you let his comment go, not allowing your temper to get the better of you. He was still Sam’s family, even if they had a... complicated relationship.

When the class finally settled in the dining room of the restaurant to eat you were sweaty, sore, and exhausted. You could feel your skin sticking to the leather seat, and you felt severely underdressed. Back in the kitchen you hadn’t been so self-conscious. But now you couldn’t stop thinking about your appearance.

The atmosphere was much more sophisticated. The lights were dim, and soft music played in the background. All of the other guests were following an unspoken black-tie dress code while the fifteen of you were still wearing your disposable aprons, only now they were covered in flour and egg yolk.

And to make it worse-

“Smile!”

Nikki held up her phone and motioned for you and Sam to scoot your chairs closer together. You took a deep breath and complied, leaning your head against your fake boyfriend’s and managing a grin. You really didn’t want this moment to be immortalized, but you didn’t want to be difficult either.

The camera flashed once, then again. Sam wrapped a hand around your waist and pulled your body against his, pressing a kiss to your cheek for another picture. You scrunched up your face as the flash went off, the tickle of his breath against your skin and the feather-light touch of his lips making you squeeze your eyes shut.

“That’s a good one!” Nikki complimented, even though you were sure it wasn’t as flattering as she was making it out to be.

The pasta was served with a glass of red wine for everyone. Sam was right, the pesto was different from his, but it was still good. It was no match for his recipe, but the handmade pasta did give it a few bonus points. You were sure you hadn’t gotten any of the noodles you made because all of the ones on your plate were perfect. It didn’t feel fair that you got to enjoy somebody else’s hard work while they got your shitty excuse of a ravioli.

But as the wine dwindled from your glass the negative thoughts began to ebb away too. Your muscles, though still sore, relaxed slightly and you rested your head on Sam’s shoulder as everyone else finished their meals around you. The conversation carried on without your contribution. Your social battery had died hours ago, but you were content to listen to the Hollands chat with other students at the table.

You weren’t a huge fan of wine, but the one served with dinner was palatable, and to be honest you weren’t one to turn down complimentary alcohol anyway. It tasted more expensive than anything you had ever drank, like the equivalent of velvet on your tongue. You finished your glass and the rest of Harry’s.

The next few days in Florence passed in a similar fashion. You ate a lot of carbs, drank a lot of alcohol and let the business of the itinerary overwhelm you. It was getting tiring, living in an act. Trailing along behind the Hollands like a dog, worn on Sam’s arm like an accessory.

You had known what you were getting into, and you were trying your best to enjoy the experiences- because who the fuck knows when you’ll ever get to go on such a nice vacation again, but pretending to be in love with your best friend was a harder feat than you had thought.

It felt like being in a school play. Every move and phrase had to be intentional. You tread the lines of your relationship with rehearsed expertise. And you had to watch what you said, because everyone’s eyes were on you. At least that’s what it felt like.

Sam’s parents were easy. They fully bought into your lie, seeing what they wanted to. They usually left you to your own devices, too. His brothers were the ones who needed convincing. Not even Harry, though. Tom was the problem. Tom was always the problem.

You were in Rome now, walking back to the hotel from the Colosseum. Sam had his arm slung around your shoulders and was talking his twin brother’s ear off about the Gladiators and inaccuracies in films about Ancient Rome.

You didn’t think you’d seen him this excited the entire trip. It was cute, the way he talked with his hands and looked off into the distance whenever he was really engaged in something. Harry was also cute. He was trying his best to keep up with Sam, nodding his head at all the right points, asking questions when there was a pause in conversation.

“Yeah, gladiators fucking unionized,” Sam explained. “They put their lives on the line all the time, ya know? Might as well get benefits.”

“If I was a gladiator I’d join their union,” you said, adding to the conversation for the first time in a while.

“There were women gladiators too, babe! You totally could’ve been one.”

You laughed. “You remember my season on the intramural dodgeball team? I wouldn’t last a day. But I appreciate the thought, Sammy.”

You had dinner in the restaurant attached to the hotel lobby. Nikki passed around her Canon for everyone to look through the pictures from the day while a bottle of limoncello was passed around the table.

You’d scarfed down your pasta and passed on dessert in favor of another shot of limoncello. Rookie mistake.

In the past the sugary drink had always tasted like cough syrup to you, but this batch tasted like straight-up lemonade. You were tipsy, bordering on drunk, but nowhere near blacked. Nikki and Dom turned in around shot three, leaving the tab open for the four of you. Sam went upstairs next, having gone too hard too fast on the limoncello (he was on shot five when his parents went back to their room).

Then it was just You, Harry, and Tom. You told Sam you’d join him in a bit after the pianist played a couple more songs. In all honesty, the music reminded you of Sam. Back at school you could always find Sam in the music hall if he wasn’t in the culinary building. You’d always hear him playing as soon as you walked through the double doors. You could always tell it was him at the keys by the way the playing sounded. He was self-taught, but still a genius in your mind. He didn’t need any formal training to make beautiful music, and that’s what you loved about it.

When he moved out of the dorms and into an apartment he bought a keyboard, and you’d spend nights together in his room illegally pirating sheet music for him to learn new songs. He’d play whatever you requested, and if he didn’t know how to play it he’d teach himself.

The pianist in the restaurant played with a little more expertise. The notes sounded refined, perfected. Sam always told you that perfect music was restrained music, that real music had flaws, that a song should sound a little different every time it was played.

After an encore of Beethoven the man at the piano stood from his bench and took a bow, passing his hat around the room to collect tips. Tom dropped a bill into the hat and you did as well, handing it back to the man afterwards. He dumped the contents of the hat into a briefcase and closed the lid of the piano, thanking everyone in the audience for their donations.

“Well, I think I’m going to head up now,” Harry said, yawning for emphasis. “We still have to get up at the ass crack of dawn even though we’ll all probably be hungover.”

“Speak for yourself,” Tom said cockily, then turned to you. “One more shot?”

The bottle of limoncello was almost empty anyway. Might as well finish it off, it’d be a shame to let it go to waste, right?

“Hit me.”

“God, you’re both going to be so fucked tomorrow,” Harry groaned.

“We’ll be fine,” Tom insisted, rolling his eyes at his younger brother.

“Good night, Harry,” you sang, waving at him as he walked off.

“Yeah whatever.”

Tom wasted no time pouring you both a shot of what was left of the limoncello. The restaurant was beginning to clear out so he worked fast, filling the glasses up to the marked line. You both took one and clinked them together before throwing them back.

You winced at the burning sensation in the back of your throat and put the glass back on the table, searching for something to chase the shot with. Your eyes fell to Tom, lingering on his cheeks, his lips, both pink from the alcohol or something else. You flicked your gaze down to his neck, his collarbone that was peeking out from the neckline of his shirt. You thought about how it would feel to kiss him there, to run your tongue over a love bite you’d given him.

You forced your gaze back to his eyes, hoping he hadn’t caught you staring. You had to act uninterested, you couldn’t let on to- but he was staring back. His eyes were intense, and almost impossible to read in the darkness of the room. You knew you should look away, knew you had to keep up appearances, but you couldn’t.

Later you’d blame it on the alcohol, but in that moment you knew the limoncello wasn’t what was making your head spin, or your what was making your vision cloudy.

You were about to leave the table, about to rush to the elevator and back to Sam but then suddenly Tom was kissing you. He cradled your head in his hand and tilted your chin up to meet his lips. It wasn’t desperate or messy like most drunk kisses were. Instead, it was delicate. You swore you could feel every line of his lips against yours, feel his heartbeat through his hands on your cheek.

It was only for a second, not enough time for you to react or reciprocate and then he was pulling away, eyes wide with panic.

“Please don’t tell Sam.”

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