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uselessheretic · 2 years

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i think the thing that irritates me about izzy ofmd hate is that you don't have to like izzy? you don't. he's an unpleasant little man who does bad things and as an antagonist is very easy (and fun) to hate. you can gleefully cheer for him to be tossed overboard s2 that is okay!

i am bothered though by the push for other people to not engage with his character. like i made one joke post about izzy's perspective that was still making fun of him, and someone sent me hate messages saying i was racist and supported homophobia and that i should get my teeth kicked in (which is VERY funny considering i'm gay and black and this was sent by a white fan)

less extreme than that though is people consistently talking about how he's not that deep, that interpreting him as queer is homophobic, and that fans trying to analyze him are trying to redeem a flat white villain instead of engaging with other characters. which... you can engage with multiple characters to be clear. you can. there isn't a limit to how many dick jokes one can make about a cast at any given point in time. also analyzing izzy means analyzing ed like you need to understand izzy if you want to understand ed.

but also it's just not true to call him flat? if you say "izzy's in love with ed and acting out because of jealousy" then people say you're reading too far into it. but this is something that is supported in the text of the show and by the creator. i don't understand how "ed and izzy is its own love story and izzy is a spurned wife and izzy is in love with ed but their relationship is very toxic" could be any more clear. wanting to read more into him isn't grasping at fake straws either, he was written that way to be complicated where david jenkins has said that izzy's the character to pay attention to on a rewatch because there's more to him at first glance.

like this is literally canon. i cannot stress enough that izzy being in love with ed and izzy being a complex character worth analyzing is just canon and the creator specifically pointed to him as a character to focus more on

he's LITERALLY in love with ed this isn't reaching this isn't "it's not that deep" and he's not generically evil without anything else to him. this is a textual, canon reading of their relationship explicitly stated by the creator several times

and i guess i'm just? confused then on how we keep going back to a pushback against analyzing the actual show and character. it doesnt absolve izzy of his actions, but it does make him more interesting. if you think about it, izzy's character doesn't make a lot of sense if you read him as having his motivations based solely in a homophobic desire to keep blackbeard masc especially when you don't actually see much pushback from him in show of ed being too feminine or whatever. he kicks him when he's down in episode 10, but i stfg it's so much more interesting if you just pay attention to what actually spurns that on because the "you're blackbeard not ed" as a running theme thru the show is SO interesting when you realize that izzy primarily calls him ed and edward, but he hates it when others do it. like ugh sir you are so toxic and possessive lmaooo

you don't need to like him, but what's the point in trying to force others into flattening his character? where again, you can dislike him. you can even dislike him loudly and on your own blog. but it's weird for people to go out of their way and get mad at other people for engaging with the content or stating facts about the character that are literally canon.

#izzy hands #ofmd

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itty-bitty-mess · 6 months

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TW: BITTYBONES AB//USE, BITTY WHUMP, BITTY T*RT//URE

Currently thinking about bitties being adopted to complete certain tasks that are usually hard for humans, like reaching very narrow places or finding very tiny items. And once they're done, they get discarded like trash.

Imagine a bitty like a Cherry who is forced to do an extremely stress-inducing task. His anxiety is through the roof and he won't stop crying. He hates it, he can't do it, he wants to throw up, this ammount of stress is NOT healthy for his breed. Oh but Mommy promised a warm bed and yummy food after this, so maybe he can! Yes! He will do it for Mommy no matter how much this traumatizes him, because she loves him very much and she believes in him!!

Finally, he is done, and Little Cherry believes he's gonna get rewarded with a loving home and lots of cuddles from his new Mommy, he's so hungry too, so surely she will be glad to reward him with a little baked treat too! Mommy loves to bake and her treats smell delicious and super yummy! Mommy approaches little Cherry with a big smile on her face, he believes she must be sooo proud of him!! She gently takes one of his tiny bony arms, while Cherry looks at her with pure adoration in his eyes, and then....

*SNAP* Before he can even register it, she effortlessly snaps one of his arms in half like a toothpick. Cherry screams, of course. Oh god, it hurts so bad, its absolutely unbearable. The love and adoration in his eyes disappear and get replaced by confusion, panic and sheer terror. He's screaming and tears flood out of his eyes. He asks Mommy why she did that but she doesnt respond. Instead, before he can even pull his other arm away from her, she grabs it and yanks it off, making it pop off his arm socket and essentially leaving him arm-less.

Cherry screams like he's getting murdered. This ammount of stress can be lethal for his breed, but who cares, he's just a replaceable little piece of garbage. Just a tool Mommy bought because she needed some extra help. Since Cherry had done his job, he was now essentially useless to her and to the world in general. He was disposable.

All those promises of a loving home and yummy treats? just a simple tactic to get any bitty to willingly do unpleasant tasks for its owner, they always fall for it without fail, especially the weak, pathetic ones. Cherry is in so much pain. His arms are dusting at unbearably slow speed, he feels everything and needs it to stop. His face is now permanently stained red from his nonstop tears. His screams of agony are ear-piercing, but somehow Mommy doesn't seem bothered.

He begs Mommy to help him, he says he loves her and asks her why she is doing this if he did what she wanted. She doesn't respond, he's not even worth a simple answer. To her, he's simple, disposable trash no more valuable than a used napkin. She kicks him in one of his tiny legs and it snaps like a twig.

"NOOO- AAAAAAAAAA PLEASE MOMMY STOP IT HURTS, PLEASE HELP ME IT HURTS SO BAD, PLEASE I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU PLEASE IM SORRY"

She just laughs as she grabs him by the collar of his tiny red sweater, now stained with his tears, and takes him somewhere he cannot see. The position hurts his neck badly, it hurts. His entire body is in agonizing pain. He can't feel his leg or his now-dusted arms, however he can feel some empty gaps on his mouth where some of his teeth used to be, they probably fell off with all the hits he had taken by that point.

He began pissing himself like any other Cherry, as a built in survival tactic, hoping Mommy would pity his already pathetic nature and maybe spare his life. Thats just wishful thinking of course, because all that does is gross her out enough that she finally decides to toss him on some dirty dark alley, too far away from home or from any bitty shelter that could save him. Once Mommy tosses him, he hits the ground skull-first. Now his head spins and hurts as well.

She leaves the alley, her disappearing figure is probably one of the few things Cherry can make out before everything turns blurry. He cries once again, as the realization finally hits him a little too late. She never loved him, he was never gonna be adopted or loved, he was just a simple tool and a commodity to her. He had been abandoned and left to rot alone, dying slowly, bones broken irreparably, discarded like a piece of trash that is no longer of use. He was worthless.

The next morning, there's an extra pile of dust in that alley. But who cares, that's a common occurence anyways.

#bitty abuse #bitty whump #bitty bullying #bitty torture #bittybones #ok so like wow. this was intially a short post but then i edited it and uh got inspired. this was fun haha

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rewritingcanon · 1 year

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hp next gen red flags for @sunflowersandscorpius 🫶🫶

rose: will think she is better than you because she reads something with more literary merit

albus: will act like such an asshole to you bc hes tired or hungry or something small but when you snap back at him he’s completely shocked like he didn’t just deserve that

scorpius: something bad will happen to him and his anxiety has him warning you and making you stress over the most random ass shit. like he’ll say “omg last week i said i felt pretty and i said ‘i feel pretty today’ and NOW i have a pimple on my chin. NEVER call yourself pretty. uh huh. in fact, never say anything good about yourself because you will accidentally JINX yourself yeah uh huh”

delphi: literally tortures kids she gives off the vibe of a weirdly conservative alt siege mask girl idk

victoire: will complain with you about how HARD that test was and how she is going to absolutely FAIL it bc she did so bad. then she will get a 98% and you will get a 67% or something and she’ll be like ‘omg you did so well! 🤭’

teddy: type of person that you will spill your heart out to and you wont know a goddamn thing about him because of how fucking secretive she is

james: will break up with you by saying ‘im sorry im just not ready for a relationship’ and then will ghost you forever and find a new girl in two minutes

lily: you will tell her a secret and everyone and their great aunts will know it in an hour

lysander: worst person to be spilling drama with. he could tell you his parents are getting divorced and when you ask him why he’ll say “idk i didnt ask 😐”

hugo: has wayyyy too many friends to the point you could give him the most thoughtful carefully crafted gift ever and he’ll be like “omg thanks this is so cute 😻” and then chuck it with the rest of the just as thoughtful carefully crafted gifts

yann: hes not exactly problematic but he has friends that are, and he’s the type to say “oh no they’re really not that bad 🥺” as polly is beating someone up beside him

polly: will say the most fucked up thing EVER like its nothing and add a ‘lol’ or ‘xoxo’ to it at the end 😨

karl: cannot have a real conversation. try to strike up a mature conversation to better the relationship with him and his attachment issues got him saying “damn aight” to your carefully thought out heartful speech

craig: plays devils advocate in history class 💀

sophia: will offer to massage you if you’re feeling stressed and will end up breaking your bones (accidentally but still… unpleasant)

dominique: thinks shes better than you because her eyeliner is better

louis: will call you poor (as a joke but still)

molly: will point to someone literally getting run over by a car and will say “omg thats so embarrassing”

lucy: says “its on like donkey kong”

fred: says ‘who’ and then pauses and says ‘asked’ and acts like he roasted tf out of you

roxanne: will tell you in detail about personal things and dgaf about TMI topics. she just took the most massive dump and you’re going to hear every detail. you’re also going to hear about this incredibly steamy scene in the book she read last night, and all the random places of her body where she has weird bumps that she thinks she should be concerned about.

lorcan: doesnt wash his back

alice (bonus): will do work of her own free will and then complain about it. same vibe as your mum going “i slave away in this house”

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bnerdler · 1 year

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This week has been a really shitty week. This post is mostly just me venting. I'll be OK, im not looking for pity. I have a support system and coping strategies to sort myself out I just need to vent a little.

I moved on Thursday last week from my 1x1 apartment that was slowly draining me of money into my friends townhome which is going to half my living expenses. And that's great and all but my cat has extreme aggression and anxiety problems. He'd been getting medicated for it but he's got such a high drug tolerance that anything we give him we have to double the dosage for it to have the effect that the normal dose would have for a normal cat.

Needless to say, during the move on Thursday he broke out of the room I'd had him and my other cat in while I got my room set up. In the process of getting him back in the room and into the crate, he bit my hand and scratched up one of my roommates. We got him started on a short term sedation drug while we weighed the options over the weekend. He settled down enough to not be so scared he attacks me but just yowls for hours nonstop due to separation anxiety.

The vet thinks he might have a brain tumor which has caused the aggression. Even scared cats don't normally attack their owners. But I can't afford to get him brain scans to diagnose much less treatment if he does. Not to mention the off cha ce that it's not a tumor or that it is but treatment doesn't help. We've decided to drug the hell out of him. We upped the dosage of the anxiety meds he was already on, added in a secondary anxiety drug, and I'm slowly getting the rest of the stuff the vet suggested such as cbd oil, pheromone sprays, and the like. If it says "calming" on it im getting it. Its... only mildly helping so far but we've only been here a week and today is the last day of the sedation drug and we started the new anti-anxiety meds yesterday. I just really hope this works. I hope this is all worth it and gives me a cat that I love being around. That im not scared of. That I'm scared for.

Like on a scale of 1-10 how anxious are you, my cat is constantly living at a 10. He has no quality of living like that. He can't be around other people bc he will attack them. And he's just anxious and scared out of his mind all the time. So if this new action plan doesnt work... well I'll have to euthanize him. And I really really don't want to have to make that decision.

I got the news about all this on Monday and just sobbed for like 6 hours straight. And I still had to go to work.

It's been a shit week at work too. The boss man was having a gout flair up from stress so he's grumpy and in pain which has made him irritable and altogether unpleasant to be around. He's also been really paranoid bc of the stress. We have security cameras in the school which isn't a bad thing, we need to have them. But the fact that he watches the feed, purposely moved the camera over the front desk to monitor everything I do, calls me and asks me what I'm doing when I'm there alone. Like yesterday the spot where my cat bit me was feeling very sore, so I was icing it and he calls me and asks me what happened to my hand. And like it's not like I'm fucking around at work. I do my work I get my shit done. But it's the assumption that I am and that even when I'm alone, I'm still being watched and have to monitor myself. Like I was raised barely reformed jewish. I wasn't meant for this Christian guilt panopticon bullshit.

faked an emergency to go home early last night bc I just could not stand being around the boss man last night. I did not want to take class with him. I was already emotionally at my wits end and was not in the place to deal with him.

It's also the anniversary of my grandfather's passing. So just the reminder of oh yeah I buried my grandfather on this day 2 years ago sucks.

And then also there's the news about moonbin which is hitting me hard too. Like when jonghyun passed I didn't consider myself a shawol (I still dont). But there was a really long time where I couldn't listen to shinee's music. But with astro and moonbin? I've been an Aroha since day one. The day hide and seek came out, I listened to it nonstop. Their music helped me through some really dark times bc it was just impossible for me to be sad while listening to their music. And as shallow as it feels to say it, moonbin was my bias. He was also incredibly close in age to me. He was born only a week before I was so that just makes it hit different. I know that one day I will be able to listen to Astros music again and feel joy but I don't know how long that will take.

And this weekend is my boyfriend and my roommates birthday but I don't know how I'm supposed to go out clubbing with them when all I want to do is stare at a wall and not think. Like my social and emotional batteries are just drained. I really don't want to have to perform being a person. Just for 24 hours I need to turn off. Like you know when a computer is giving you problems? I feel like that like someone just needs to turn me off and then turn me back on after waiting 30 seconds.

It's just all this heavy things this week, all the grief and stress. Not to mention the kids I work with being absolutely off the rails too. They've been pushing every single button. And I just have no patience for it.

And on the one hand I want to channel all this emotion and grief into my writing, on the other hand I just want to not do anything. I'm like any minor inconvenience will set me off crying.

I'm also just living on the razors edge monetarily. I've got no savings, my credit card is maxed out, I've got bills to pay, and I don't get paid enough to cover it all. At the last apartment I was living paycheck to paycheck with barely enough to cover my most pressing bills: rent, utilities, food, gas. I had to put off buying new underwear for like 6 months bc I couldn't even afford the $10 for a pack of the cheap Walmart shit. I've also got some big bills happening right now. With the move I had to break my least which cost me. Getting into the new place I've got food costs bc I finished almost all of my staples before the move. I've got all this shit for my cat. I'm behind on my student loans. I'm behind on my membership for taekwondo. I'm going on a cruise in like 20 days and I need to have money for that. Afterwards is our tournament and I want to compete which costs money that i dont even know if I'll have. I'm just tired of living frugally not because I want to but because I have to.

I'm just tired.

So that's where I'm at lmao.

#ive got so much chores to do too #theres laundry to put away #and dishes to be done #cat litter to be cleaned #i think I'll come home early from work tonight again #i just need some time to reorganize myself #1 day to do nothing #and 1 day to put everything back together #but i #have to work today and tomorrow too #long post

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tessell · 1 year

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can i talk about how my dad yells almost every time he comes home. how he doesnt ask me to help with anything, he just gets angry when i didnt read his mind and know what he wanted me to do. he comes home and brings the groceries in. then hes like "i shouldnt have to fucking bring this all in myself" bitch. i didnt know you were home and needed help. its so fucking easy to send me a text or call or pop ur head in like "hey i need some help can you help me?" so. Easy. i hate all this stress my parents have put me through for no good reason. i get berated for not reading their minds. i get blamed for things out of my control. i try to help and i dont do it right, i still get yelled at. i can be the dump for all their unpleasant emotions. and im expected to be emotionally mature.

#tessell talks #emotional abuse

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exchangersilverr · 1 year

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to experience the complexities of our natures and what is hidden and shown is simply what it means to be "human," isnt it? to experience each thing, each person differently. to wax poetic of lost things... humanity has done it from the start. it's scary. it's beautiful. it's the culmination of being a little beast blessed with consciousness.

loneliness is one of those complexities. its unpleasant but it yearns for love nonetheless. it cries to be helped. it is innocent, in a way, to feel lonely . childlike. it just wants to be loved.

it may not seem it, but everyone has a niche. and if it doesnt seem it you simply need to carve it. life may be given without purpose, but perhaps the purpose of life is to seek one out, no...?

self discovery is complex, its strange, and above all... its terrifying. or perhaps it just was for us.

sorry if i ramble. the moth is here aswell and he tends to fill my mind with such strange things! - 🔆

I don't think... I want to have consciousness. I want to just be a little beast with no thoughts in my head. No stresses. Just each day as it comes. Maybe it would be hard, maybe I'm not used to living outside of this strange comfort. And I like the thought. You have a way with words and it is pretty to read.

This might sound like a weird connection but I think I know exactly how to make loneliness look, as that creature that yearns to be loved. That is how I feel when dealing with it, that I want to be loved, that I want to be comforted. And maybe that is what is needed, provided I don't... hmm. I guess that is for another time.

I have heard before that our purpose in life is to create our own meanings. The thing is nothing intrigues me in quite that way. Or maybe less that and more that I can't live without doing something that I have absolutely no interest in. I just want to draw my silly little pictures but I can't do anything with that.

Not a problem at all! Like I said, these words are pretty. Something poetic about them, I think. I don't have that talent really. But in saying that I have some creative thoughts again. I miss... everything.

#but life goes on #or something #i have been stuck in the same thoughts because i cant share them #i miss her so much #but she is busy and there just isnt time any more #...time...#...existing is pain.#🔆

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waveswept · 5 years

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u ever almost start crying on a tuesday night just to flex on ppl who have stable relationships w their fathers

#it doesnt even matter why am i getting so fucking upset over this #im just. me n mom had plans tommorow n we said tentatively that maybe id see him between tommorow night n thursday but now he just fucking #made up plans out of nowhere tomorrow for me to see a movie i dont even want to see w him n he keeps saying how moms trying to keeo me away #from him n he never gets to see me otherwise and im just. so fucking tired #like!!!! i wanted to see my friends!!!! we had shit we were gonna do and he just comes in and acts like hes completely entitled to my time #like we never even discussed this what!!!! hes just deciding shit with no communication at all hello!!!!!!!!!!!!#he makes it as unpleasant and hard and stressful as possible n then wonders why i never make more of an effort to see him like i did but #this is what u do!!!!! always always always he acts like moms fucking evil or some shit but shes not!!!!! shes the only one who ever acted #like a damn parent here im just. content to be w her!!!!! hes always hostile n then acts like he deserves a fucking award n for what????#all he does is cause issues everywhere he goes hes never content w what he has until he ruins it and then its too late #bun.txt

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sapphic-bifrost · 2 years

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bitter thoughts.

i think nothing quite irritates me as much as not being truly listened to. i try so hard to make the effort to understand myself and reflect deeply and communicate my feelings to people and it feels like people just swat it away.

as if it was easy for me to do all the work of learning how my brain works. as if it’s easy for me to explain myself and make myself vulnerable. everything i do takes so much effort and people assume it all comes naturally and easily. and sometimes it’s backfired but im so determined to continue being soft, continue being vulnerable, continue trusting people with my mind. but by god people do not make it easy.

anyway it just hurts me? so much.

it feels like i’ve made this great huge piece of art and people walk by like “hm. yeah that’s nice! but ur just naturally talented im sure it was so easy for u. i could never do that lol”. im not naturally anything. I’m naturally curious and determined and everything else i have are things i fucking built for myself.

#just because i did it doesnt mean its any easier for me than it is for everyone else #and people say such invalidating things and id have a feeling they think i somehow did less work #obviously people have varying degrees of trauma and unpleasant life experiences #but at the same time #i do have my own BaggageTM and i dont like using it as an excuse to avoid doing the work to grow #i am objectively more mature than most people my age so it makes sense that other people my age seem immature #but even adults are so frustrating #how the fuck are you all just okay with hurting people constantly because its too difficult to change behaviors #i fucking fight tooth and nail to improve like my life depends on it #genuinely baffled that the number of ppl ive met that actively improve themselves w/out constant external pressure is in the single digits #and i helped raise one of them #my friend is stressed and reevaluating his entire life plan bc its started affecting his personal relationships #and that’s where he draws a solid line #and im happy for his gf that her talking to him actually resulted in him taking it seriously and working so hard to find a solution #bc i wanted that. with friends and family and relationships #but i guess me being unhappy is my fault and my problem to fix

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nem0-kn0ws-n0t · 3 years

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Hermits when theres a physical fight/wrestling nearby

This is my vibe check, feel free to give opinions.

Bdubs- loudly reacts, tries to go up and stop them, gets dragged into it. Holds his own

Cub- doesnt really react, if its someone hes close to he'll snip the other or what have you, might sell you numbing cream at the end. Starts a betting pool

Doc- wpuld demand to know whats going on, he has such a precense that the fight would immediately stop. Might let them continue, might chide them for being idiots

Etho- films the entire thing but you never see his camera, gives tips to both sides

False-would intervene, if its for fun will tell them off for bad fighting style and teach them how and where to punch.

Scar-Does not notice, hes been zoned out for 10 minutes now. If dragged into it, will talk his way out

Grian- talks smack, watches from the sidelines

Gem- calls for help, if she manages to pull them apart, she sits them down and tells them sternly why that was a bad idea. Will scold while patching wounds.

Hypno- has popcorn, reassures everyone around about the fight, will drag people apart if it starts to get dangerous

Jevin- tries to talk them out of it, but will start swinging if they're assholes about it

Impulse- "oh no!" In that voice of his, if noone holds him back he'll try and pull them apart with little success, if hes stopped he'll anxiously stay on the side trying to find why theyre fighting

Iskall- jokes about it to get them to calm down, but gets dragged into it. Does a good job at calming everyone down by knocking them unconcious

Joe-pulls them apart by talking, talks so much he gets punched in the face and falls over. Is still talking while trying to stop the nose bleed

Keralis- has shirts for both sides and a head band. Also the paint on his cheeks. Hes cheering both sides on interchangeably, if they try and drag him into it he disappears.

Mumbo- Nervously jokes about it to get them to calm down, but gets dragged into it. Gets knocked unconcious pretty fast, but he managed to get a few hits in while flailing around.

Pearl-is not impressed but a bit amused, stays on the sidelines, amyone who gets too close to her gets one punch hit.Participates in the betting pool

Ren- tries to calm down, ends up double teaming with someone and gets really agressive into punching, does talk the whole time. Likely to win

Stress- She talks loudly and scolds them and tries to call their moms

Tango-having the time of his life, holds back impulse, cheers people on, asks for more violence

TFC- who even dares to pick a fight infront of him. They spot him and immediately stop fighting.

Beef- tries to pull them apart, also tries to understand why the fight started, is not amused when its dumb reasons, makes them feel bad for being idiots. Still friendly tho

Wels- stops them, tells them exactly why that was a bad idea, if someoen starts talking back he smacks them around a bit and they shut up quick.

xB- is vaguely interested, but street brawls are kinda pathetic. Will go "ouch" in place of the fighters

Xisuma- picks everyone up and moves them away. Gives them a disapointed glare, stays with them till the police arrives, if its someone he knows he'll drag them away anf they're in for a unpleasant time

Zedaph- full on commenter voice, gets dragged by the hair into the fight but manages to escape, all while commenting on their fighting "exchelant phunching there, defhinitchly broke my thooth"

Cleo- Starts the fights. 'Nuff said.

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scalproie · 2 years

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sub zero! 5, 6, 10, 22 and/or 23!

First off im so sorry this took four (4) business days to answer anyway THANKS FOR LETTING ME TALK ABOUT BLORBO THE 2ND💙

5) On an average day, what can be found in your character’s pockets?

One item we know for sure he canonically carried was that little telescope in mk11, and he does have those little knives on his belt, which Im not sure actually have their use, so its headcanons from now on:

I think on an average day, Sub Zero may not even have pockets, or doesnt use them, cause hes the grandmaster of the Lin Kuei so if he needs something, it will brought to him, or taken away when he ask for it. Missions would be different, but still, hes not heavy on objects, cause having too much can put you off balance when you fight I imagine, so: save from those little knives he carry (just in case of... something I imagine?), he doesnt need any weapons because he can just materialize whatever he wants from ice in his hands... ice is his greatest multi-tool actually, it take care of almost everything his (old) assassin job required: target in sight? Make an ice dagger. Door locked? Freeze and punch the handle. Injured? Freeze the wound. I still think he would carry some minimal first aid kit for the latter, again just in case, but emphasis on the minimal: needle, wire, maybe bandages. Can also double as a sewing kit if he need to fix his clothes. Only thing ice cant do is making you see far so thats why he carry the telescope. He DOES strikes me as the kinda guy who get emotional over special items tho so maybe he would carry something he has an attachment to if its small and/or practical enough, maybe thats why he carry the knives.

6) Does your character have recurring themes in their dreams?

Canonically, the only times dreams are involved in Sub Zero's story is one in the mkx comics where he wakes up from a pretty vivid nightmare (that basically recap his story from him about to kill scorpion and then getting teleported and cyberized in mk9 all the way to him getting resurrected in mkx), and another one in a shared intro with Raiden in mk11 where they both had a strange dream about "a strange and unjust world with a dark knight and a caped wonder" (debunked by Cetrion in another intro where she tells Subz that it was no dream). Anyway the latter is just a cheeky lil nod to Injustice so its not to take too seriously. Other than that theres not much in canon concerning Sub Zero's dreams.

As for my personal thoughts, I dont think Sub Zero dream much in general honestly, for a variety of reasons. I think he has a very light, survival oriented, sleeping pattern, staying up as late as possible until exaustion get the better of him, and you dont really get dreams out of a rest like that. Then, (and especially nowadays), if he DOES dream it would most likely be unpleasant considering the amount of stress and trauma hes had in his life and naturally I dont think hes looking very forward to that so thatd be another reason to delay sleep, also nightmares are more question 7's thing.

But if he does get dreams sometimes, and should they have a reccuring theme, at the risk of giving the boring answer, its gotta be about ice and the general cold, cause of course the element of which he has the mastery of, which he uses to defend his life with, of which he has 5 puns at the ready at all time, and which is like, His Whole Thing, would bring him comfort. I think his most peaceful dreams would be accompagned with gentle snow falling in the background, whatever they are about. Probably his family. Or Tomas! They would also be very bright, cause yknow, reflective white snow and the likes (but then if hes unlucky itd turn into static snow and it ends into one of many themed nightmares whoops. Subz has a lot of things to process). Anyway to conclude I dont see Sub Zero as someone with particularly thrilling dreams packed with themes and symbolism, just having a full night feeling safe and free of nightmares based on or twisting memories would be enough.

10) Does your character feel more comfortable with more clothing, or with less clothing?

Sadly theres nothing in canon concerning this so lets just jump straight to headcanons

TAKE A WILD GUESS

in both timelines, mf left the shirt as soon as possible once the old lin kuei was no longer in the picture, tits out tuesday every day of the week from that point on, god bless. But more seriously I hc that Kuai has some funky cryomancer biology going on, so for him the world is hotter than for anyone else, which is kinda ironic considering his (old) job required him to be heavily dressed with hood and mask and everything. He would have ways to cool himself down with his own powers but that still would mean making an (tho barely noticable) effort to remain at a comfortable temperature, when you can do that by just taking your shirt off once youre free to do so cause nobody can tell you what to do anymore.

22) What does your character like in other people?

So like most things, theres no clear cut canon indication written somewhere so its interpretation time:

A lot of his intros are about this so OR COURSE he likes people with honor and integrity. He was raised in the Lin Kuei which we can safely guess was quite the strict place, so of course he would be used to rules and be comfortable when theres structure, but somehow he mostly took to heart the good aspects of it, so of course he would like people with strong morals and an equally strong sense of duty, and keeping true to oneself.

Also as seen in quite a few of his intros, he seems to admire good leadership, and not in a "people he want to follow" way but more like, fellow leaders yknow? Because I dont think becoming grandmaster himself has EVER been in his end goals before but he was duty bound to redeem the Lin Kuei as the last true one after the cyber initiative, so I imagine him being put in a leading position was not a natural transition for him, despite his found affinity for teaching as he would find later in his life, hence why he would "look up" for lack of better words, to other people with leadership status in his life, like jax, sonya, and perhaps hanzo.

This one would fit his Lin Kuei upbringing but of course he value strength in other people, "only the strongest join the Lin Kuei" didnt leave his mindset but now its aimed to protect first and foremost, yourself, your clan, and your realm.

He also seems surprisingly fine with ambition, he did say that "loyalty shouldnt stunt one's growth" and considering his history in the Lin Kuei (esp after the cyber initiative and what he thinks of it) itd make sense.

I also kinda got the vibe that hes fine with ambition but not in a competitive way, more in a "better oneself" way than seeking to be above others in one way or another (he was fine with Frost's ambition, he intended to pass the mantle of grandmaster to her, but it was her impatience and lack of wisdom that eventually strained their relationship). I guess this one falls into him valuing strength again. But this also fot his role as a teacher now: of course youd enjoy someone who know their place but still seek to learn and improve.

Anyway I think Subz is a fair straight guy who enjoy people with a similar mindset, despite yknow, what I never shut up about

23) What does your character dislike in other people?

opposite of whats above lol. Impatience, as said with Frost. Definitely lack of discipline or downright foolishness, Jonnhy Cage only gets a pass from getting iced because theyre allies and probably have been so for years. He has a few lines about it so its safe to say he cant stand cockiness, or people getting way too over their heads because of their own power. Subz is a man with diamond hard principles so hes not big on lone wild cards as well Im betting. Bad Bosses too, Subz wants to lead by inspiring respect and value honesty so of course leaders like Shao Kahn and Sektor who led with cruelty and lies and fear would revulse him. Also hes NOT fond or authority figures somehow higher than him aka Gods, the Lin Kuei did not/do not worship them for starters, tho Raiden kinda gets a pass because hes an ally to Earthrealm, theyre equals in its protection tho Raiden is stronger, and also saved his life once so Subz is indebted but its not like he actively look up to the guy, except in a literal sense cause Raiden is stupid tall.

#I slowly but surely chipped at this each day #AND I STILL DIDNT SAY ALL I WANTED TO. I HAVE THOUGHTS ABOUT THIS MAN. THAT I CANNOT COMMUNICATE #anyway again beloved im so sorry thank you SO much again #tagging later #ask meme #miss-shydeer

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angeloncewas · 3 years

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yeah i totally agree with what you said about satire and schlatt basically taking the easy way out. it seems like since that video he's kinda eased back from doing that shit, either bc the backlash or bc his friends have started verbally calling him out on it, both to his face and through making comments about him on stream (comments as in like saying they dont agree with what he did and saying they thought that video was terrible, not like them shading him or whatever ajsksk) which is good but also i wouldnt be surprised if something like that video happened again just bc like. it is his career and at this point he has to know what his larger fanbase is like to an extent, which means he also knows those terrible fucking jokes will make him money. i dont like that, but im also not gonna sit around and pretend like i cant see the fucking obvious, ya know? from what ive seen of him when he's not putting on a show for his main channel, or when he isnt around people who both encourage and enable his bad behavior (not saying this to shift blame, ive just noticed how he goes from making actually funny jokes that are harmless or, at most, a pretty obvious example of him poking fun at shitty people, at least imo, to like. straight up just being offensive when he's with people like swagger, miz, etc. vs ted, charlie and so on), he seems like a pretty good guy and its pretty clear to me that he doesnt hold the same views as the character he plays up for his main channel but that doesnt change the fact that his audience is now full of the worst kinds of people and that is how he makes money.

as someone who, again, watched idubbbz, as well as filthyfrank, they both stated they were playing characters and they didnt agree with the shit they were joking about, joji especially, but them saying that isnt very well known by even their own fanbase who just watches their main channel stuff, bc the one video where joji made that explicitly clear what he was doing, he later deleted for people harassing him in the comments (it was an old ass video where he basically said that playing those characters was giving him literal health problems, specifically stress induced seizures, and his comments were so bad that he never made an ooc video on his main channel again) and the one video i can think of where ian explicitly said he was playing a character was like an hour long podcast with h3, which most people dont even wanna watch bc it is a painfully uncomfortable one hour, considering the fact that they are supposed to be friends. besides that, the only other time they were really out of character was in vlogs with maxmoefoe, and they still did their offensive bits from time to time bc it was still going up on youtube, even if it wasnt their main channel. compare that to schlatt who has, as far as i know, never explicitly said he's playing a character, and the closest he has gotten to saying that was in some weekly slap video that i cant remember the title of bc all those videos kinda blend together if im being honest. like they definitely show a different, better side of him, but they are also all really short videos with only gameplay to watch and he never even promotes the channel, so its not like the shitty people watching him are like "hm time to take some time out of my day to go watch big man schlatt give people advice and be a genuine person for once", right?

idk. schlatt is just such a weird person for me bc like. he is a big comfort for me, i really do enjoy his content when he's not making bad stabs at satire (bc sometimes he does it right!! but a lot of the time, at least recently, he has just missed the mark entirely, to the point where it feels like he wasnt even trying to hit the mark at all), but he is also so uncomfortable to watch sometimes just bc he seems to either not know where the line is, or thinks crossing it is okay bc its him playing a character and that's not fun to watch as a minority who often ends up being apart of that "punchline".

that aside tho...yes, unfortunately idubbbz does still make content (and i say unfortunately bc it is not very good) though it seems like he is very slow to upload and last i checked, the views arent too great, but ive seen worse. probably the only thing that could bring back his views at this point would be a content cop, but like a year or so back he said he has no plans of continuing the series bc he finds it boring now, which is fair enough. i dont really keep up with him anymore, but as far as i know, he just got married to anisa and he streams on twitch sometimes, besides that the dude is a mystery to me!

—🦷 (also im sorry if this is formatted weird, for whatever reason tumblr has indented each of my paragraphs with one of those grey line thingys and it wont let me remove it. if it doesnt show up in the actual ask then ignore this!)

This is kind of old now (sorry), but I still wanted to respond because I really appreciate your perspective :)

> I always wonder how people not involved in the fandom view Schlatt. Because wasn't there this thing about Hasan genuinely thinking that he was conservative? And like he obviously doesn't now, but does that not impact how he sees him and his content? I don't mean to dictate friendships - of course - I'm just curious as to the impact of having that audience from an outsider pov. I remember being shocked what that thing happened with the pdp fan, but I later found that many people weren't because they knew the nature of the audience he cultivated; maybe I'm just stupid, I had no idea. (Not that Schlatt and pdp are the same, it's just a loose comparison.)

> No one should face harassment, but I doubt Joji deleting that video helped his case. (I mean ig it worked out in the long term considering everything that happened with his music, but yk.) I'm very sorry for the health problems he faced with the characters themselves though. I don't know much about him but that sounds awful.

> I have thoughts on The Weekly Slap, but I think they make me sound bitter and don't add much so just know that they're there ajfdkjdf. I will say that he doesn't seem like "Jschlatt" in them, and moreso just a guy. I know that he quit it for a number of reasons and one of them was not being comfortable with that kind of connection in relation to his increasing fame, but honestly I think his complete dislodgement from his fanbase isn't healthy either.

> I mean, I get it. I've watched a lot of content from a lot of people - ranging from kind of unpleasant to very unsavory - and it's kind of a weird feeling with YouTube and Twitch stuff. Idk it's like - when I go to the grocery store, I'm not wondering if the guy checking my things out is a racist. When I see a commercial, I don't wonder if that guy advertising chicken nuggets is a secret creep. But with content creation of this kind, it's just a weird thought in the back of my mind. I don't know if this makes sense lmao

> Weird that Idubbz finds content cop "boring." I guess the formula is kind of stale and half of the content was the edge, but it seems like the kind of thing that'd be perfect to capitalize off of around now. Cool that he got married... I think. I mean if he's happy ???

> Don't mind the formatting, and sorry to respond like WAY past when this conversation was relevant T_T. I read it right away but the timing got off with actually being able to type stuff out.

#angel answers #long post #discourse #🦷 anon #ask to tag #negative #cc critical #if u like schlattit is #sidjfd

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The OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) in FF7

This thing actually caught my eyes while reading a few theory about FF7R and the word OCD appear in their certain analysis, in IG, youtube comments and some posts in tumblr too. Dunno why but they always relate Biggs with OCD. I looked back to the scenes where Biggs appear and... Okay, i understand why they thinj Biggs has OCD or perfectionist

A lot of people, including the psych students themselves easily confused with OCD and perfectionist (I got confused by it quite often too). Now, is Biggs OCD or is he just a perfectionist? Let's take a deeper look at it

Biggs is not a famous character. So fans dont really care about him, but I do

Disclaimer : i'm not a psychologist. Im an intern and still studying. Psychiatric is not my major field but i got assigned there as an intern for quite a time and we got exposed a lot about psychology too. We didnt learn them professionally like the real psyche students, we learned (and still under training) through real life experience + a little bit from the books.

So there might be wrong interpretation here and there. Pls correct me if I'm misleading u. And pardon my english. Pls dont use any of these terms to diagnose urself. Remember, I'm a student, not a professional.

I kins of blame the social media for portraying OCD in such a nasty way, when someone with OCD is actually suffering inside.

OCD is not just about 'clean clean, must clean this place till squeaky clean' and OCD is not about being perfectionist. OCD and perfectionist are two different thing.

Perfectionist is more to a demand demeanour, eg "I want the cake to be like this. I want it to be pink. No, not that pink, it must be neon pink with slight purple. Do it again. No, i dont want that pink. Do it again. Ahhh yess, nice pink." Someone with perfectionist, after they got their result, they will immediately bcome calm and satisfied. Perfectionist is obviously different from OCPD (Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder). OCPD falls under Personality Disorder and it is different from OCD. Im not going to talk about that

Credit goes to crazyheadcomics.

Look at how OCD got spoken from the media perspective. It is very much resemble to Biggs, dont u think? In reality, someone with OCD always feel stress about everything around them, and they will find it hard to complete their task.

OCD has two components - Obsessive and Compulsive

| 1. Obsessive. It is a repeating thoughts about something and often occur until it makes someone feel stress about it. Eg, u think that ur hand will get bacteria infection if u touch a chair, door, fridge or when holding someone's hand. This thought always appear in ur mind everytime u touch the door, chair, fridge or somebody's hand, but when u touch ur shoes, u never think about the bacteria (in certain cases, some patients become scare of everything they touch)

| 2. Compulsive. It is a repeating of the same actions to fulfill the 'obsession' in order to reduce the stress acted upon them. Usually the 'action' has a specific ways in which the patient believe he has to do it like this or that way or else he will fail. Eg, after touching the chair, he will immediately wash his hand 10x from left to right. He believes the hand washing wont be effective if he starts from right to left

Another sign of OCD is when someone re-checking the door lock few times. Its normal for us to re-check once/twice the door lock for confirmation, but for people with OCD, they will re-check the door lock for about 6-10 times and still not feel satisfied and later they stress out. And also the OCD people, they tend to get annoyed when something is not in particular order and they will immediately fix it eventhough they know they're wrong.

I met a funny woman at the hosp arranging our students' books according to its thickness, when I asked her why did she arranged our books like that,

She replied : "Doctor said I have CDO"

Me : "Sorry, CDO? Never heard of it"

She : "It is actually OCD but I feel so stress hearing that term so I put it in alphabetical order. CDO, much better"

We both had a good laugh. Her case was not serious though, but she was feeling miserable with her thoughts and decided to meet a psychiatrist. I would say she was still in early stage for someone with OCD, but may lead to severe if left untreated

It is really hard to satisfy and convince someone with OCD and they always feel stress about something they shouldnt care too much about. U can say OCD is a fastidious type, and they're actually more than that

If we want to relate this condition with Bigg's case., urmm. The only time where I can spot him being different than the other characters is when he's busy sweeping his front house and when he pat Cloud's head during the Sector 7 plate fall.

The cleaning stuff isnt exactly weird thing for a human to do. But it is something odd, I mean, he just finished his mission with Jessie and survived a jump from the plate, and yet he still have the energy to sweep dry leaves, AT NIGHT! He can wait till tomorrow though and should get himself a proper rest.

Wedge says Biggs has a habit of overthinking stuff

And there we see Biggs sweeping the dry leaves. It might be because he is trying to distract himself from doing his bad habit - overthinking. But urm , i think there'll be higher chance for someone to overthink when doing house chore like Biggs is doing. This is where lots of people say Biggs cleaning the house at night is bcause he has OCD or he's a perfectionist.

But I dont think thats the case. For real, he is completely normal. No sign of him acting weird in that scene. If he really does have OCD or he's a perfectionist, we'll see more of him arguing with Barret about unnecessary stuff. He cant become one of Avalanche's strongest member (not exactly strong, but hey, he's trustworthy). Also, if u notice, Biggs have one earring on his right ear. Someone with OCD will feel irritated by it bcause his ear doesnt look 'balance'. OCD people, even in mild case, they want everything about them to be balance and in good order.

After trying to understand Biggs way of thinking and style through his short screentime, I strongly believe this guy has no such thing as OCD or being a perfectionist. Biggs just cares tooooo much about his friends, he thinks 10 times ahead from the bigger picture in which it frightens him about the bad consequences that will occur to people he cherish.

He is the type that always have a back up plan in his mind. He thinks of 5 possible bad things and comes out with 10 solutions. That's the power of an overthinker like Biggs I'll tell ya

Biggs probably cleaning his front house area at night bcause the next early morning, he will need to leave his house for the bombing mission. Better take care of things the night before the big day. He can ditch the cleaning work but he wont do it, not bcause he's a perfectionist/OCD, but try to imagine this, if ur front house is full with dry leaves and rubbish, it will be unpleasant for the neighbours next to ur house to see. Living in the slum means higher chance for u to get sick if u dont take care of ur surrounding hygiene. Biggs is a kind man, and I believe he doesnt want to upset his neighbours

He probably has overthink this matter like "If i dont do this now, I probably dont have time for doing it tomorrow. Maybe I'll broke my leg from the mission and this trash will be left untouched, then there'll be high chance for the children around here to get sick. What if they get infectious disease bcause of this dry leaves? And then the parents will be worried and the Sector 7 Slum will be in chaos etc etc. Time for plan A. Let's clean this place"

Besides, remember the post where I mentioned about Mental Health First Aid? Biggs, as the side character gives the best MFA to Cloud even without knowing what Cloud had gone through. Biggs is just toooo kind with his friends, he cares too much causing him to overthinks about his friends conditions. He can notice even the slightest change in his friend's behaviour and with his own instinct, he cheers for them

Aww man, how can u not love his personality? He's the sweetest side character ever (and kinda hot too).

Soo as the conclusion for my post here, Biggs does not have OCD. He's a side character with a big heart who cares tooooooo deeply about his friends that leads him to overthink too much.

However, if the devs say Biggs really has OCD then my statement about him will be invalid. I'm sure they have put everything in a very close detail look.

Btw, I personally think Biggs kind of portrays the other small side of Cloud, the overthinking part for their romantic partner. But Biggs express his worry through words while Cloud express it through his actions, eg - like how he always keep an eye on Tifa. He never speak it directly like "I'm worry about Tifa, I must help her", he just simply be with her either she needs a help or not. While Biggs clearly says "Jessie been acting weird, I should go if she needs any - help -"

Action speaks louder than words but sometimes our eyes failed to listen.

Alright, that's it. Thanks for being with me till the end.

#final fantasy 7 #final fantasy 7 remake #cloud strife #final fantasy vii #biggs #biggs final fantasy #ffvii biggs #mygif #character analysis

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maddiethebull · 4 years

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Lucifer (Obey Me!) - Prompt #9 - “I could quote a thousand poems, but none can describe what I feel.”

Lucifer was stressed. He had been looking over Mammon’s grades, which was bad enough, then he got to Levi’s grades and practically lost his shit. He sat in his room alone leaning back into his chair with his hands covering his eyes. If he saw the letter F again that day he felt like he would just start screaming. As he sat there being a) stressed about his brother’s grades and b) worrying about his brothers a knock on the door retrieved him from thought. He opened it and there you were, standing in your most comfortable oversized sweater and your favorite leggings. You looked like calm embodied as you offered Lucifer one of the cookies you had freshly baked. He looked like distress embodied as he loomed over you and just took the entire plate.

“Woah, is something the matter?” you asked. He silently nodded and pointed to the papers on his desk.

“Oh, that explains why you need all of those cookies, though Beel might have a different opinion,” you joked, trying to make him feel better. The hint of a smile graced his lips. He sighed, trying mentally to release some of the weight on his shoulders.

“I thank you for the cookies, MC, and Beel is to know nothing of this.”

“Do you want to take a break? I was supposed to go to this new cafe with Ma-”

“UGH.”

“With mYSELF yes, all… alone. By myself. And I was wondering if you wanna join us- me I mean me, you want, yes?” you added a giggle on to your trainwreck of a proposal. You were so adorable to him, he couldn’t help but laugh.

“Indeed,” he chuckled, “I want yes.”

You two left for the cafe (as you rapidly texted Mammon to not come along if he wanted to live). Once you got there, it was pretty full, but seeing as you were with the second most powerful demon in Devildom, you guys were allowed to skip the line that ran around the quaint brick building.

One very scared teenage demon spoke from behind the counter like a deer in the headlights,

“Good a- afternoon Mister- Sir- Prince Lucifer, what would you like to order?”

In a baritone voice he replied, “black coffee,” and handed the kid money for the order. Even though you knew he wasn’t trying to, he exuded the most intimidating aura. The cashier’s voice cracked,

“And you, Ma’am?”

You gave the poor kid a sweet smile and a twenty grimm tip, “Hi, I’ll have a hot chocolate, please.”

Lucifer noticed the kid relaxing a little as he was taking your order. He tried dumbing down his intimidating nature, thinking, ‘I’m not that scary. Surely, not everyone can exude kindness like you, MC. I’m not scary, hmph.’ Though he was making fun of your caring and soft nature, it was the thing he admired about you the most. He thought you could bring all of Devildom to their knees with that precious smile alone. He felt so different from you, if he smiled it would most definitely scare whomever received it; he didn’t not like that, but around you, he hated it. Every once in a while, he wanted to make people feel the way you make them feel, the way you make him feel -- all… mushy. Ugh, you even ordered a hot chocolate, which was arguably the cutest of drinks! He frowned as the two of you went to the other end of the counter to wait for your orders. He looked at you tenderly, you were smiling and bobbing up and down in anticipation. He stood stagnant with his eyes focused on only you, as far as he was concerned, you two were the only ones in that crowded cafe. You whisper-cheered as your hot chocolate was handed to you and he grabbed his from where it was set on the counter.

You sat at a small two-person table by the window.

“We already know I’ve had a less than fortunate day, so, how was yours?” he asked.

You replied, “Oh, it was here and there. I’ve been feeling sort of down lately, so I didn't do much other than bake those cookies. Overall, it was okay.” You looked down at your drink.

“I’m sorry to hear that, what’s been bothering you?” He was slightly shocked, you looked perfectly cheery the entire day. In fact, you always looked so happy.

“Mmm, It’s nothing much, really, so don’t worry about it,” You added a smile to make it believable. But, what was bothering wasn’t just nothing. It was him, Lucifer. Lately, he’s been so stressed and irritable, you couldn’t talk to him much as a result of that. On top of that, you didn’t know that it was his brothers he was frustrated with and you began wondering if it was you he was irked at. Your mind was set at ease knowing that you weren’t the cause of his unpleasant feelings so right now, you just wanted to make him feel better. You wanted to spend more time with this Lucifer, not cranky Lucifer.

He didn’t believe you, but he didn’t want to make you uncomfortable by asking more about it so he nodded and politely sipped his coffee.

In the awkward silence, you looked around the cafe and your gaze settled upon a set of bookshelves. One book in particular caught your eye. It was a collection of poems by Lord Byron. ‘This is a good way to change the topic of conversation,’ you thought. You pointed to the bookcase,

“Hey, my favorite poem is by him,” you say excitedly before getting up to grab it. Lucifer’s eyes followed you, just seeing you made him feel better, you weren’t scared of him. At least, he presumed you weren’t intimidated by him. Luckily he was right. You came back with the book and eagerly searched through it’s pages to find your favorite poem.

“Here it is!” you turned to Lucifer who possessed a guileful smirk as he studied your features.

“Read it to me,” he said while maintaining his smirk.

You blushed then smiled, “okay, I-I’ll read it. I’ll read it really good! Yeah! I mean, I’ll read it very well!” You shuffled in your seat, cleared your throat, and began,

“So, we’ll go no more a-roving

So late into the night,

Though the heart be still as loving,

And the moon be still be as bright.

For the sword outwears its sheath,

And the soul wears out the breast,

And the heart must pause to breathe,

And love itself have rest.

Though the night was made for loving,

And the day returns too soon,

Yet we’ll go no more a-roving,

By the light of the moon.”

(‘So We’ll Go No More A-Roving’ by Lord Byron)

“It sounds rather sad to me, I’m surprised that you would call it your favorite, MC.”

“No, it's not sad, it's endearing. It's about growing old with your love. The subjects of the poem are older; though their bodies aren’t as strong as when they were still young, their love persists in its strength. That’s why it’s my favorite.”

He gave it thought. He smiled gently,

“I took it in a way that the subjects of the poem wish they were as energetic as when they were young. The way you described it, it’s quite beautiful isn’t it, hm?” ‘As bright and beautiful as you.’ He took a sip of coffee, “I also know my fare share of poetry.”

“Oooh, what’s your favorite?”

“I can’t say that I have a favorite, really, I just enjoy many different pieces.”

“Hmmmm, well, what about the first poem you like that you think of? You know, like one that describes how you’re feeling now or whatever.”

He paused for a moment to think. His deep red eyes that held such intensity were softened by the warm yellow light that shone onto them. He felt so soft looking at you. ‘I can be gentle too, I’ll just say what I’m thinking and I will have no regrets. Yes, Lucifer, you can do this.

“MC, I could quote a thousand poems, but none can describe what I feel when I’m with you.” He said it so calmly, as if it were common knowledge, how could he be so poker-faced right now? You felt a hot blush rise to your cheeks.

“Lucifer! Don’t make fun of me,” you said, burying your face in the ends of your too-long sweater sleeves, trying to hide how hard you were blushing.

‘It worked! Yes!’ He spoke with a joyful bump in his voice, “I don’t understand, I would say that’s a compliment.”

“A- and that wasn’t even an answer okay,” you said still too embarrassed to look him in the eyes.

He pondered for a moment, wondering which one he should say.

“Okay, how about this one,

“When, in disgrace with fortune and men’s eyes,

I all alone beweep my outcast state,

And trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries,

And look upon myself and curse my fate,

Wishing me like to one more rich in hope,

Featured like him, like him with friends possessed,

Desiring this man’s art and that man’s scope,

With what I most enjoy contented least;

Yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,

Haply I think on thee, and then my state,

(Like to the lark at break of day arising

From sullen earth) sings hymns at heaven’s gate;

For thy sweet love remembered such wealth brings

That then I scorn to change my state with kings.”

(‘Sonnet 29’ by Shakespeare)

You blushed even harder, which you didn’t know was possible. “You can quote Shakespeare?? Just like that? From memory?!”

He laughed, “of course, can’t you?”

“Oh, I see how it is,” you chuckled out. He laughed even more, a deep, bellowing laugh that struck you to your core. He looked so wonderful like this, so very wonderful.

The rest of the afternoon and most of the evening was spent going over various poets and writers and even classical musicians, and at one odd point, different types of frogs. While he knew more about it all than you, you held your ground against him in knowledge and that filled him to the brim with joy. Maybe you two weren’t so different after all.

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BONUS: The original layout of the story:

The Damnit, Mammon, Grade schoolwork, hes stressed, you come in, you start chatting, you make him feel better, he doesnt want you to leave his side he plays some music, this sounds like cafe music, you wnat to go to a cafe, he decides to go with, you make fun of his coffee choice (black coffee), you get up and search the you read a poem aloud to him (so well go no more a rvoing by lord byron) He saiys the Line, you roll your eyes but your heart is full, he takes you to the desert, youre in an rv, he starts cooking meth, you are jesse pinkman, he his walter white, this is breaking bad.

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bts-story · 4 years

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i liked the taehyung drabble (yn proposing)!!! could you make a an alternative drabble on what if fem reader was the one caught off guard of taehyung proposing to her? like she wasnt expecting anything bc they fought the night before or theyre both probably busy on the kids or their careers? :) (it doesnt have to be on the same settings as the prev drabble)

The silence is oppressing.

It really is, and nothing you can do or say about it will change anything. You know without even trying. Taehyung has been silent for the most part of the night, avoiding your gaze and finding a sudden interest in anything but what you were talking about. He’s fidgeting with the hem of his shirt and it’s weird because, he haven’t done this since he was a teenager. And that was a long time ago, already.

Indeed, you both have your own teenagers, back at home. And the day of their birth seems like a lifetime ago, like all your young years disappeared in a trail of smoke. You can remember as clear as spring water the day Taehyung asked you out, the way he kept stuttering over his tongue — he didn’t make sense, at the time. It was hard to decipher the words escaping his mouth, however, he managed, after a few failed tries, to ask the dreadful question.

So many things happened since then. So many good things, other a little less entertaining and of course, difficult times always comes at the worst point in life. But you found a way through, between love and care, it was always Taehyung and you, you and Taehyung.

But now, something doesn’t feel quite right.

It’s been happening since the beginning of the year — something didn’t quite catch up to the both of you. Something is missing, and no matter how long you ponder over the question, it’s too hard to put a finger on it. Like the missing piece of a puzzle can’t be found and the game is condemned to spend the rest of eternity with a hole gap in its center.

“I’m just — stressed over work, don’t worry about it,” Taehyung had said one day, when you took courage in your own hands and asked him if something was wrong. But Taehyung shrugged his shoulders, avoiding your gaze at all costs and leaving the kitchen in the blink of an eye. “We’re meeting our daughter’s boyfriend, of course I’m stressed, don’t worry about it,” he confessed another day, just at the end of winter. And it didn’t quite make sense, if there was one person to be stressed about this whole situation, it should be your daughter. “The car broke down, I’ll handle it, don’t worry about it,” was one other thing he said when you asked him about the frown on his face. But Taehyung shrugged his shoulders and complied to call the nearest garage instantly.

But no matter how long he said it, you can’t help but still worry about it. Because that’s the only thing left for you, and it’s never good to be left alone with one’s own thoughts. And you have a house, wonderful kids and a career you wouldn’t change for anything in the world, what is this thing missing to Taehyung?

So now, right now, you just follow him, going wherever he is. Your feet stomps harshly on the ground and too lost in your thoughts, you can’t even notice where he’s taking you. But then, you bump into him, at some point, because he stopped. And when he turns around, he has this strange grin at the corner of his mouth that you can’t find a reason to.

But then, you bring your hands around your own arms, unpleased by the cold, wet air. It’s only then you recognize the docks of the Han River and for a moment, you even ponder this is the exact opposite of where you both live.

The question dies on your lips as you look at Taehyung, because then, he holds you close and circles you with his big embrace. Then, he whispers slowly, “You remember this?” And you don’t see what he’s referring to, but it doesn’t seem to bother him all that much, instead he chuckles and pulling you away to look down into your eyes, he adds, “This is where we kissed for the first time.”

It is, actually. It’s weird not to notice, but still, with his hand pulling your hair behind your ear and falling to cup at your jaw, he lets his lips reach your own and the moment you kiss, it’s like you can finally breathe again. He kisses you every day, each morning and each night and all throughout the day unbothered by the kids’ snarky, disgusted comments. But now, now it’s warm and nice and comfortable.

But then, Taehyung adores this frown again and you can’t help but frown yourself too, at the sight. “What have you frowning for the past few months?”

Taehyung chuckles again, and then, “I’m sorry,” he says with a genuine sad spark in his eyes, but tightening his grip around, he continues, “I haven’t really been a good partner, this last few months. I just — I’ve been thinking about something.” This is it, probably. The thing you feared more than anything in the world, the moment the love of your life would break your heart. And even after all these years, you can’t oblige someone to feel the things you desire, “We’ve been together twenty years, yeah? And we have amazing kids, and a great house and greats jobs that we love. But I have something missing.”

Yes, something missing. That missing piece of the puzzle.

“And maybe,” he takes your hands, and without so much blinking, he finally says, “maybe what I miss is to be able to call you my wife.”

So, he falls, down there, on one knee, and out of his pockets, he reaches for a velvet red box. And then, you really can’t worry about it.

I tried to go a little different way than what you exactly requested! But I hope you liked it nonetheless xx

- Nageoire

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