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lokislittlemidgardian · 2 years

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Omg Sam and Bucky content!!!! Can we please get them taking little!reader to the dentist and lots of comfort happens?

The dentist

Content - age regression, cg!bucky, cg!sam, sore tooth, fillings, the dentist, numbing cream, comfort, cuddles, food, don't like dont read.

Summary - when you have to go to the dentist your caregivers comfort you.

Authors note - this has been sat in my asks for about 2 months and I only just remembered how much I loved it, reblogs are greatly appreciated <3, I hope you enjoy <3

It all started when you were eating some sliced apple.

"Ow!" You exclaimed feeling it push down on your back teeth, it felt like it hit a nerve. "Honey are you okay?" Bucky asked walking over to you a worried look coming over his features "my tooth daddy" you whined swallowing the apple and shuffling over to him.

"Oh angel, do you want daddy to have a look" he asked smiling down at you "yes please" you mumbled fiddling with the loose strings on your top "Okay, Sam!" "Yeah?" Can you bring out my phone please?" "Okay!"

Listening to Sam's footsteps becoming heavier you looked up and saw him enter the kitchen "what's going on?" He frowned seeing your pained expression. "Y/N's got a sore tooth" bucky explained taking his phone from sam and turning on the flashlight.

"Okay sweetheart can you open your mouth for me?" Bucky smiled moving his phone closer to you. Opening your mouth you looked around the room nerves creeping up on you "that's the way" Sam cheered you on with a smile.

A few more seconds went by of bucky examining your teeth until you heard him groan "sam" he said with a cringe on his face. Passing sam the phone his switched places with bucky.

It definitely didn't look good.

"Yep, that's gonna need a filling" "No!" You shrieked scooting yourself away from the two of them "Y/N calm down" "No don't wanna go!" You cried listening to the pair of them sigh before you felt sam pick you up.

"Come here baby" he said cradling your head to his neck signalling for bucky to make a phone call to the dentists office. Walking you both towards the sofa he sat down and repositioned you in his arms.

"Now I know you hate the dentist but bub, we have to get this looked at" he explained "if we don't you could get really sick and then you won't feel good at all okay?" "Is it bad?" You mumbled sadly resting your head on his chest.

"Well, it's not great" he chuckled making you giggle "you know what the worst part about not getting it looked at would be?" "What?" "You wouldn't be able to have sweets anymore."

That convinced you completely.

"Alright, I've made an appointment with Dr joy baby, you like Dr joy you don't have to be big with her" bucky said softly with a smile when he came back into the room.

He was right, Dr joy had always been your dentist and she already knew you were an age regressor having found out before you had to get a tooth out once.

"Okay" you mumbled holding your arms up to him accepting your fate of going to the dentist "whens the appointment?" Sam asked repositioning you so bucky could take you in his arms.

"Tomorrow at 3" he sighed giving you a soft kiss to the nose shushing your soft whine "it'll be okay baby, you'll be fine" "but it hurts daddy" "I know doll, but it'll be over before you know it I promise."

You really hoped he was right.

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The three of you were currently sitting in the waiting room the pristine white walls and the muted television making you feel uneasy, "deep breaths honey" Sam smiled reaching into your bag and pulling out your grey rabbit handing her to you.

"Y/N?" You heard Dr joys voice call you, one she spotted you she gave you a wide smile "hi love, how are you?" She asked kindly writing something down on her clipboard before leading the 3 of you into her office.

"I'm okay" you mumbled shyly smiling back at her "that's good, can I get you to pop up here sweetheart?" She asked signalling to the dentist chair "umm, alright" "here baby ill help you" bucky said propping you up onto the seat and helping you lie down.

"Okay what are we here for today" "well, yesterday Y/N was eating an apple and she got some pain on one of her back teeth so we both had a look and we think she might need a filling" Sam explained while bucky gave you a gentle smile. Returning it you hugged your bunny to your chest and looked towards Dr joy.

"Okay hon, can I have a look at you?" She asked moving her dental equipment to the side of you and manoeuvring her dental light above you. "Okay" you mumbled nervously, noticing your discomfort the boys came up beside you Sam holding your hand and bucky stroking your hair.

Opening your mouth while Dr joy looked around you realised how uncomfortable your jaw felt "it's okay baby" Sam whispered "right, okay yep that's gonna need a filling sweetheart" she said kindly giving you a reassuring smile.

Looking to your caregivers with panicked eyes "Hey honey it's alright" Sam cooed stroking your cheek "is the something you can give her to numb it?" Bucky said anxiously hating the sight of you being scared.

"Oh yes of course we can either giver her a needle or some gel I can apply to the effected area" exchanging a look the boys came to their decision almost instantly "we'll go for the gel I think" Sam chuckled "I thought so" Dr joy smirked kindly.

"Okay hon, let's get this over and done with shall we?"

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The procedure didn't last long, it all felt a bit hazy.

All you could remember was feeling a cold gel on your back tooth, bright light and the comforting feeling of sam holding your hand and buckys vibranium one stroking your hair.

And then you were back in the car.

"Were so proud of you little one" bucky said from the front seat "you did such a good job!" "Thank you daddy" you mumbled looking out the car window "you okay baby?" Sam asked warily looking in the rear vision mirror "mhm, my mouths numb dada" you said playing with the ear of your rabbit.

"Yeah? Aww baby its okay it won't be for long" "what are we having for tea?" You asked your mind going straight to food making the two of them chuckle "we can have whatever you want hon but we'll have to wait a few hours until you mouth gets better" "aww" you whined "I know baby" bucky smiled opening his phone looking up your favourite takeaway places.

After getting up the menus he passed the phone through to you "choose what you want bub" "as long as we thoroughly brush your teeth afterwards" Sam chimed in with a serious face making bucky smirk.

Maybe going to the dentist wasn't that bad after all.

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iwyzz · 1 year

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My eyes are not full of our future anymore

♡pairing: neteyam × f!omaticaya!reader

♡warnings: crying,

♡: angst, no comfort

♡notes: english is not my first language, so I'm sorry for any mistakes.

♡translation: yawne - beloved

Enjoy! ♡

It has been a several months since you and the Sully's arrived at the Matkeyina clan. At first it was amazing and you loved it here. But then you started to notice how your boyfriend Neteyam started to get close to one of the metkeyina girls Awun.

She was so beautiful to you. Her long black hair falling down her back and her big blue eyes sparkling on the sun. She had the most beautiful smile that could lit the whole clan.

You weren't surprised when Neteyam walked to you asking you to talk. "Hey, Y/n can we talk?" He asked. You were making a bracelet for Tuk that moment. You looked up at him and nodded your head "Yeah, yeah. What's wrong?" He sat in front of you and took a deep breath "So uhm. You know Awun right?" You nodded your head again and smiled "Well she is really good friend of mine" you furrowed your eyebrows at his words. "What are you trying to say?" He looked at his hands for a second before looking in your eyes "She is maybe more than a friend of mine"

Your heart skipped a beat. "What?" You laughed hurtly "It is some joke Lo'ak told you to do?" Your eyes were starting to well with tears. "Y/n..I'm so sorry. I just..I can't stop my feelings, I can't change them" Were you dreaming? "So i guess its not a joke" you said looking away from him "Y/n you mean a lot to me okay? That's why I dont want to lie to you" you nodded your head. "You wanted to mate with me like five months ago." You looked at him remembering the last night in the forest.

You were sitting in a cave you and Neteyam found when you were kids. Your head was on his shoulder while his hand was caressing your palm. "Nothing will change yawne. Everything will be the same except the place." He confronted you "But what if there will be some other girl you will find more pretty and interesting" the tears in your eyes didnt go unnoticed by him. "Hey, hey" he placed his hand on your cheek and made you look at him "You are the most perfect girl on this planet and noone can replace you I promise you.." You smiled "I see you Y/n." And before you could say anything he continued "and i want you to be my mate. I want you to be mine forever. Because I see our future in your eyes."

You saw in his eyes that he was thinking about the memory. You wiped your cheeks. He wasn't saying anything just looking at your crying figure. "I'm glad you told me." You stood up "I hope she will treat you right" And then you walked away from him. After 5 minutes of walking around the beach you sat down and started crying even more. Why would he do that? Wasn't you enough?

You were asking these two questions even now, six months after you and Neteyam broke up. You were looking into the mirror. When Neytiri walked in "Are you ready?" You nodded "yeah i will be there in 5 minutes" she smiled sadly and walked away. You turned to the exit looking at the ocean remembering another memory.

You were standing in the same spot looking at yourself in the mirror. "You ready?" You heard familiar voice. You turned around faicing them. Neteyam "You look beautiful, yawne" you smiled. "Thank you. You don't look bad yourself." He chuckled "thanks. So are you ready?" He asked again. "Yeah. I am. Lets go".

It was memory from the night everything changet. It was memory from the night where Neteyam met Awun. It was memory from the night you and Neteyam started drifting apart. You were crying on the spot. You were realizing what was about to happen. Neteyam and Awun becoming mates. It's okay. You walked out of the hut being welcomed with Kiri. "Hi Y/n" you smiled at her "Hi Kiri" Then you heard Jake say "We need to go"

It..It hurted. Your heart was being teared apart in the spot when you realized they are mated for life now. But now it was even worse. Seeing him that happy with her was making you question yourself Was he even that happy with me? Maybe not. Maybe yes. But you didn't know. And you maybe even didn't want to know. You were looking at him seeing him laughing at hers joke. Did he ever laugh that much with me? That was when he looked at you. It was more that 5 seconds that you were looking at each other, neither of you being able to look away. Your eyes started watering when it hit you. Your eyes weren't full of yours future anymore.

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Hii!!!

Thank you for reading!♡

I hope you like it!♡♡

#neteyam #neteyam x omaticaya!reader #omaticaya reader #matkeyina #future #omaticaya clan

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sweetbydarkness · 1 year

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I hated this but i'll post It anyway

Siblings

Mammon, satan, fem!MC, all platonic, probably with a Lot of errors and very ooc, i didn't know How i would write this.

It's been a while since i got here in the Devildom and started living with the brothers, and It serem that they've gotten a liking for me. Which is good, because i've gotten a liking for them too, and that helps after all that passed. But i can't say exactly how they feel towards me, since im way younger than them.

When Diavolo made the list of possible human students he mistook my age for somebody older, and when Lucifer choose the papers he let that slide, so the second exchenge student is a 15 year old girl. All of the demons were extremely surprised at that news and they were a little uncorfortable with my presente for some time, but eventualy everybody got accustomed, and even started to take more of a protective atitude, which took a longe time until i proved It wasn't necessary. Now i just lived in HoL trying not to get arrested after being part of their "adventures".

"Hey mc!"

"Oh, hey Mammon"

"Where are you going?"

"Satan's room, i wanted to see If he got the book i wanted. Wanna come?"

"Yeah sure"

And we walked away. Earlier that month i asked Satan to buy i book for me with the money Diavolo gave me as a present, It was the last book of a series of cursed books that i was super interested and i really wanted to finish, like REALLY wanted.

When we got to satan's room i knocked on his door with a little rhythm and waited him to open his door.

"Who's there- oh hey mc, and Mammon"

"Hi satan"

"Heya"

"What do you need?"

"Remember the book i asked you to find for me? Did you get It?"

"Oh... Sorry, but while i was looking for It i found out that is a extremely rare book, and all the copies have owners"

"Are you serious?"

"Sadly yes."

"Oh...okay then"

"Hey! Dont worry we'll find a copy for you!"

"But satan Just said that all the copies have owners"

"Are you doubting your big brother?"

"Yes of cour- wait, my what?"

"Her what Mammon?"

"Ah.. um... Hmm-"

"Mammon, i know all of us have gotten a affection for her but you dont know If she see us that way too, pra If she is confortable with us referring ourselfs as hers 'big brothers' "

"I wasn't referring myself as her big brother It was Just a way of-"

"I dont mind"

"Ahn?"

"You dont?"

"No i dont! I even find a bit comforting really"

"Ah- see Satan! She dosen't mind!"

"Well, in that case that's good, but even still you should be more careful, stupid mammon"

"Just... This isn't a Lilith related thing, right?"

"..."

Mammon put his hands on my shoulders, in a way to Reinforce what he was going to say

"It is not. You're note Lilith and we dont see you that way. That...." He seemed to consider If he would really say what he was thinking "what i Said wasn't in a bit related to that, dont you worry."

Satan sighed "i know i can't say much but i can say that nobody here see you that way. You're you, and that's enough."

Mammon let go of my shoulder after giving It a reassuring squeeze

"How about we alredy go looking for It hm? Maybe that Will lift your mood!"

"With what money hm?"

"Oh! Erm..... "

"I Will Go with you both, you would need my help to find It anyway."

"Thanks Satan"

"No problem Darling"

"Okay, lets Go!"

And the tree of us left to search for the book. Ata that moment i knew i had another family, one that loved me Just as much i loved them. That made me happy, i wasn't alone, not anymore.

#i really hated this #obey me #obey me mammon #obey me satan #shall we date: obey me #obeyme #obey me swd #obey me mc #obey me female mc

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imgonnagetkilledbynutstink · 2 years

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Just A Few Small Things

Part 2/2

Greta Van Fleet witch au

Rating: none

Warnings: swearing, minor violence

Summary: the boys are gonna get those ingrediants if it kills them

Notes: id suggest listening to Stardust Chords during the fighting bits cause thats what i listened to while writing them lol. Plus sorry for any misspelling, i didnt proof read this :/

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Jake runs full speed into the darkness of the ally after the dark figure. He realizes he cant see where he's going when he runs face first into a stack of crates. "Fuck!" He yells as he falls back from the inpact. Sam runs up next to him and stops when he reaches his brother, panting and hands on his knees. Sam offers Jake a hand and helps him up. "Whatever... it was a dumb idea anyways" Jake says sadly. He feels defeated. He cant even hear the figure anymore, let alone see them. "No" Sam said. Suddenly he was determined. Not even to enchant their instruments which was what the waterroot was for, but to make Jake happy. He was so excited about this idea and how good it would be for them. Hes not about to just sit around and let that go to waste. Sam claps his hands together and produces a bright light from his palms and starts running into the ally further. Jake follows him but looks unsure. They run and run until they finally catch a glimpse of the cloaked figure. They run out of the ally at the other end. When Jake and Sam get to the end they see it leads to the woods. "Its not worth it, lets just turn baAACK-" Jake attempts to get out but fails before Sam grabs his hand and runs in after the person. They finally get to a spot in the woods wear they hear the fugure stop and they turn to face the two. "You're really desperate for a little waterroot, arent you?" They say. Then they hear a loud owl screech and feel a heavy gust of wind, accompanied by an extremely large shadow pass overhead.

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With Danny leading the way, he and Josh run full speed and blind to escape the giant kipine that was chasing them, which, if you dont remember from last time, is a huge scary monster with a lean bear like body, an owl head, bird legs, and leather wings. With only Danny's lantern and Josh's light spell lighting their way and little to no clue where they were or where they were going, needless to say they were fucked. Josh, being the first one to take action in the situation, stopped in his tracks and ended his light spell with something much more useful. fireball. A huge, bright, hot and very loud burst of fire shoots out of Josh's frankly small form and hits the bird making it screech, it didnt do much harm and made it angry, but it perked its head up like it heard something new and began to fly overhead, now ignoring the two. Josh took a second to fix his bandana amd noticed danny looked like he was questioning something. "What now? Lets just go home" Josh wines. "... i think we should follow it" Danny replies. Josh takes a beat and grumbly makes his way in the direction of the very thing they where trying to escape seconds ago. "Remind me never to go scavenging woth you again" Josh complains.

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Jake, Sam, and the anonymous person stop in their tracks, no longer interested in each other but now interested in what the fuck just happened. They all look up to behold the exact thing Danny and Josh had just barely survived a moment ago. It lands and screeches. Jake and Sam duck and cover their ears. The theif they had chased out here ran off. The kipine looked interested in chasing them but remembered the two attempting to hide. Jake stays in that position hoping if he doesn't move it wont see him. Sam gets up and quickly lundges himself towards some large rocks and attemps throwing them at the kipine, but has noodle arms so its not doing much. Sam hears footsteps on the ledge above him and looks up to see Josh and Danny. He was shocked but delighted they now had more help. Josh sees Jake and without any hesitation jumps off the ledge to get to him. He lands on two feet but feels a sharp pain run through his right leg. He doesn't let that get in the way though and limps over to his twin who is still hiding. Danny takes the safer way down and meets Sam under the ledge. "Wow you look fucked" Sam says. "Yeah thanks i think we have more important things going on right now" Danny replies being snarky. The kipine screeches again and heads towards the twins. Danny throws the lantern off his staff and plants it firmly to the ground. In the same motion he grabs Sam and holds him to his side as a large gust of wind along with some shakes in the ground amits in a large circle around him. It catches the kipine off balance but also pushes the twins back a few feet. Josh tucks and rolls and Jake gets flung againts a tree. Josh scrambles towards him to make sure hes okay. "Im sorry its my fault we're in this situation i shouldnt have mentioned my dumb idea or asked you guys to help me or we wouldnt be here-" Jake says but Josh cuts him off "this is NOT your fault. Theres no way you could have seen this coming" Josh stands up to cast something but before he can he hears Sam shout "COVER YOUR EARS!" And after giving them time to do so casts sound boom which creates sort of a loud explosion noise. The kipine screeches in pain at the loud suddon noise and seems to realize its not worth it. It flies away into the nightsky hopefully never to be seen again. Danny and Sam run over to the twins to make sure they're all okay. Jake notices Josh's limp and helps him walk. Jake looks like hes about to say something but Josh interrupts him again "no time for blame taking. Lets just go home, Jakey" Jake nods softly and they all start walking. As they're heading back out to the city, Danny notices a little bag on the floor. "Whats that?" He asks. "That would be the waterroot! The theif must've dropped it on their way out!" He grabs it and puts it in his satchel. They tiredly make their way home to heal their wounds and do what they worked so hard to, hopefully to be helpful in another adventure.

Tag list: @theweightofstardust @goodpointsandbadpoints @asthedaysgobythesun @tripthelight-fanfic

#greta van fleet #gvf #josh kiszka #jake gvf #josh gvf #jake kiszka #danny wagner #danny gvf #sam kiszka #sam gvf #witch au #gvf witch au #gvf fics #gvf fanfic #fantasy #dnd #fic #fanfiction

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gaming-universe · 3 years

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Who We Are || Russell Adler

Call of Duty Black Ops: Cold War

-PART FOUR-

Warnings: SPOILERS FOR CALL OF DUTY BLACK OPS: COLD WAR! IF YOU HAVEN’T PLAYED/FINISHED THE CAMPAIGN THEN PLEASE DONT READ! Gore, violence, course language, mature content.

Summary: Betrayed and alone after surviving the events that took place on the Solovetsky Islands, Y/n ‘Bell’ L/n faces new and more dangerous threats when she learns that Perseus has other plans for his failed nuclear detonation of Europe. It was only a matter of time before Y/n came face to face with her old team. There is unfinished business between Y/n and Adler, as this operation proves to be more deadly than originally thought.

Author’s Note: So, after finishing the campaign, I needed to do Bell/Player and Adler justice. I loved this game so much, and chosing to play as the female character, I felt like there was a genuine connection between Bell and Adler throughout the game. There is a tag list open for anyone that wishes to stay up to date with the series. Simply comment below. Gif by @travelllar (Girl I’m using all your gifs they are absolutely amazing)

Another day, another sleepless night.

It was 5am, the sky a light deep blue, and the last of the Soviet soldiers were leaving town. They had searched almost every square inch of this small fishing village, searching for anyone that might be harboring the ones who broke into their base. You thanked whatever god there was that they seemed to forget about Viktor’s house, which was practically veiled by the night sky on a hill below the lighthouse.

You had been awake since one that morning, watching the Soviet soldiers busy about the town like flies on a wound. As dawn broke, you sighed heavily, closing your tired eyes and pinching the bridge of your nose. Your head throbbed painfully from the lack of sleep, but between your nightmares, reoccuring memories and the ruckas of the soldiers, you doubted you would have slept much at all anyway.

The door to the house opened softly, followed by light footsteps as they moved behind you to stand on your left. You didn’t have to turn to see who it was, the familiar stench of cigar smoke almost made you choke. You could see Adler in your peripherals just fine, you rolled your eyes in mild annoyance. “Do you always have to wear those aviators?” You found yourself asking, as the man in question began to chuckle. You heard him sigh “No, I don’t always have to wear them”.

“Do you have to wear them at 5am in the morning?”

“I suppose not-”

“Good, because you look stupid”.

Adler laughed again, releasing a stream of smoke from his lips as he shook his head in amusement. But doing as you had somewhat suggested, Adler removed his aviators, and hooked them over one of the open buttons of his shirt. The two of you stood in silence, watching as the sky began to turn an early morning grey. Adler huffed more smoke “Did you sleep last night?” He questioned lowly, now leaning his back against the white wooden railing and turning his head towards you.

Looking at him from the corner of your eye, you merely shrugged. “I don’t sleep much, not anymore...” You replied smoothly, now wishing that you had never said anything to begin with. You focused your gaze forward again as Adler’s expression fell, he brought the cigar to his lips. You watched as the waves danced in the early morning sunlight, remembering what is was like to be at their mercy. Adler moved closer to your form, flinching slightly as he watched your hands clench into tight fists. You flexed your fingers with a small wince, a sense of pride washing over you as you examined your bruised knuckles.

“How is your jaw?”

“Fucking sore, but thanks for asking”.

You laughed. A soft, genuine laugh as you finally turned to meet Adler’s gaze. His blue hues stared down into your (eye/colour) eyes with a mixture of emotions. His lips parted slightly as he went to speak, clearing his throat awkwardly. “I know you hate me, for everything I have done to you. Nothing I do will ever make up for the amount of shit I have put you through, but you have no idea how hard it was for me to do what I had to do...” He began, his grip on his cigar tightening. “I didn’t want to kill you, I really didn’t. But Park convinced me that killing you was better than the other option-”.

“And what would the other option have been?” You interrupted, folding your arms over your chest. Adler’s jaw clenched, “Letting you go through life not knowing who you were”. You scoffed loudly, stepping away from the taller man before you as you shook your head in disbelief. “She really convinced you that killing me was better than that!? Sure, I might not have ever figured out who I was before, but what was it you said to me after Cuba? ‘The CIA re-invented me’. I could have started a new life, Adler, and you fucking took that away from me” You growled, your eyes narrowing dangerously as you practically seethed with anger.

You paused for a moment to breathe, brushing stray strands of hair from your face as the wind blew in. There was so much more you wanted to say to him, so much you wanted to curse him for.

“Last night you asked me if I regretted it. If I regretted shooting you that day...” Adler spoke softly, almost painfully as his eyes suddenly became a darker shade of blue. “I regretted it, every single goddamned day afterward. And do you want to know why? Because a part of me hoped that you were alive. After you fell I...I hoped to god that you would resurface, that you would have survived that fall. But as the days went by, I realised you weren’t coming back, and that affected me, Y/n, it really did. When Woods and Mason found heard about what I did, they left, and you have no idea how pissed off Hudson was when he found out-”

“I would say just as pissed off as when he discovered that I was the Perseus Agent willing to defect and help the CIA take him down”.

Adler froze, his eyes widening significantly. For the first time in what you assumed was a long time, Adler was speechless. He stared at you completely dumbfounded, his mouth opening and closing as he searched for something to say. “I...w-what are you-”

“A few days before the whole incident at the airstrip, I sent an enrypted message to the CIA, telling them that I was willing to cooperate and answer any questions they might have had in regards to Perseus in exchange for asylum. I guess my message didn’t reach you in time-”

“But, if you were...” Adler trailed off, once again trying to make sense of things “Why didn’t you tell us? When we found you-”

“Things got a lot more complicated when Arash shot me, I think defecting was the last thing on my mind as I lay bleeding out in that car” You finished explaining, shivering slightly at the cool breeze. Adler hadn’t said a word since you finished your long explaination. He paced back and forth, running a hand along the back of his neck as he sighed heavily. You felt yourself tremble as his gaze focused on your form, he looked at you differently.

He looked at you the same way Mason had before Cuba, with pity, sadness, and empathy. “Y/n I...I’m so sorry, if I-” “Don’t apologise...” You interrupted, shrugging your shoulders awkwardly “I’m not mad about that. Actually, I am, but that isn’t the main issue”. Adler nodded, trying to regain his composure with a long draw of his cigar. You buried your hands beneath your arms, not wanting the man before you to notice their trembling. Clearing your throat, you averted your gaze back out to sea “Did you want to talk about last night, or did you want to wait for Woods and Mason?” You asked, trying to hide the slight shakiness of your voice.

You heard Adler sigh, “Y/n, I have to call Hudson. He needs to hear everything from us, and he will no doubt want to hear everything from you”.

Your blood turned to ice, a cold shiver running down your spine at his words. Call Hudson? You felt your stomach churn uneasily, you swallowed thickly and nervously. There was no way of telling how Hudson would react, how he would-

“Y/n...” Adler spoke softly, now standing before you with his eyes searching your distant expression for anything. Something that would give him an insight into what was going on in that head of yours. You turned to face him, looking up at him sadly. “You do what you need to do. But I just-”

“I know, I’ll take care of it. You can trust me-”

“Can I? Can I trust you?”

When Adler’s expression fell, you felt a strange sense of guilt consume you. You didn’t mean to be so hesitant toward him, you didn’t mean to be careful with who you trusted. But after everything that had been done to you...after everything that had happened...

You froze as Adler moved to step around you, your body becoming rigid as something warm was draped over your shoulders. It was then that you realised you had been shaking violently, and that Adler had given you his beloved brown leather jacket. You quickly spun around to face him, managing to catch the fleeting smile he gave you. Then you knew.

Adler understood. He understood where you were coming from. That you needed time to trust him again. “Like you said last night...” He began softly, giving you a barely there smile “no more lies, no more bullshit. Take things in your own time, but I want that jacket back, got it?”. With that being said, Adler turned slowly and made his way back inside, leaving you alone on the wooden terrace. When you were sure he was gone, you wrapped Adler’s jacket around your form tightly and collapsed to your knees, crying softly as strange, compassionate feelings overtook your worry, anxiety and guilt.

When you had calmed down, you leaned back against the wooden railing, letting your head rest against the wooden slats as you breathed deeply. You tried to ignore the scent of Adler’s jacket filling your nose, a mixture of old leather combined with cigar smoke and some kind of cologne.

As the sun began to peak through the grey clouds blanketing the islands, you decided that it was best for you to head inside. You still had the matters of last night to discuss, as well as the oh so joyous anticipation of waiting for Hudson to arrive.

After changing into more comfortable and warmer clothes, you begrudgingly gave Adler back his jacket, giving him a warm smile in thanks before disappearing into the living room.

Woods and Mason were playing poker with Viktor, and losing horribly. “How the fuck did you manage to get another royal flush?” Woods complained, this his cards down atop the coffee table with an annoyed groan “I swear you’ve rigged the damn thing”. Viktor chuckled, gathering his winnings with a sly wink in your direction as you passed. “When you have played this game for as long as I have, you learn all the tricks of the trade” He responded, as Woods threw his hands out in exasperation.

You watched on from the far wall, grinning as Mason caught your gaze. He waved you over “Hey Y/n, did you want to join us?” He asked, to which you shook you head with an amused scoff. “No thanks, I would like to keep my money-” “Wuss...” Woods teased “I’ll play for you” “No, I’m good thank you, but I appreciate the offer”.

Woods groaned again as Mason laughed, while Viktor practically bled them both dry. Adler emerged from the kitchen, moving to stand by your side. “Adler, lend me some money, I need beat this old man at least once!” Woods exclaimed, gesturing towards Viktor with an extended hand. Adler shook his head “No, I’m not doing that” He replied, glaring at Woods’ obscene gesture thrown in his direction. You chuckled quietly, looking up at the man beside you with a small shrug. “How did you go?” You asked, not liking the way his gaze fell. He huffed “Hudson has a few things to take care of in Washington before he gets here, but he plans on arriving sometime tonight”.

“Well, I guess we can’t really do anything until we inform him of what is going on then?”.

“We can prepare what we are going to say? Combine our knowledge”.

You nodded hesitantly “I really don’t know much. But whatever those soldiers were doing up there is in relation to something called Operation Hyrda”. The entire living room fell silent, as all eyes now focused on you. “Operation Hydra? What the hell is that?” Mason asked, his eyes narrowing in confusion. You sighed “From what I’ve remembered, Operation Hydra is a failsafe for Operation Greenlight. Reading that name back in that bunker triggered something. All I know so far, is that Perseus and I are the only ones who know of the failsafe”.

“And because we brainwashed you, you can’t remember what this Operation Hyrda entails” Adler interrupted, his eyes remaining trained on your smaller form. You nodded as Adler cursed, cringing at his dangerous tone “I’m trying to remember, if that helps-”

“I know you are, we’ll figure it out” Adler spoke distantly, before once again disappearing back into the kitchen. You sighed heavily, pinching the bridge of your nose with a groan. If only you could remember something, even if it was small. Every little detail counted right? A gentle hand was placed on your shoulder, causing you to flinch as your eyes lifted to meet the warm expression of Mason. “Hey, don’t beat yourself up about this...” He soothed “it’s not your fault you can’t remember”.

“I know, but knowing that I’m missing something important is just...” You paused, breathing deeply in through your nose and out through your mouth “I feel so fucking useless”.

“You might feel like that now, but it won’t always be like this...” Woods spoke solemnly from his position on the couch. “Sure, it might take you a while to remember things, but you will get there. Just don’t be so hard on yourself, alright?”. You nodded slowly, allowing his words to sink in. Though Woods did have a point, you couldn’t help but feel like a burden to the team.

As your lips parted to respond, there was a sharp knock at the door. Your head tilted to the side in confusion, your gaze meeting Woods and Masons’ who wore similar expressions. Adler emerged from the kitchen, carefully moving past you and Mason towards the front of the door. You waited anxiously as two voices echoed down into the living room. As footsteps approached, your body became rigid as Adler moved past you to stand on the other side of the room, followed by a woman you knew all too well.

Her midnight hair was slightly longer, but her brown eyes widened upon landing on your form before her expression hardened. All you could do was glare at Park, as she stood in the doorway to the living room.

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#russell adler x reader #russell adler #russell adler imagine #call of duty x reader #call of duty #call of duty imagine #call of duty black ops #call of duty cold war #call of duty black ops cold war

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chaos-writes-fanfiction · 3 years

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I need you

Pairings: Yamaguchi × gen!reader (gender neutral)

Warnings: angst to fluff, mentions of rejection and one sided feelings, I promise it does have a fluff ending

Being childhood friends with Tadashi Yamaguchi was great until you move away when you were 10, and being 15 now moving back to your childhood home you start to wonder if he was still living a house down from yours still or if he even remembered you anymore.

In the morning you woke up and started getting ready for the day, by showering and getting your school uniform on.

“Sweetie I don’t want to rush you but if you don’t want to be late you need to leave soon” your mom called

“Coming!” You said

And after running down the stairs and grabbing your bento for lunch putting it in your bag and grabbing a couple breakfast onigiri your mom had made so you can eat while you walk to school. After finishing your breakfast you notice you were close to the school.

“I wonder if I’ll see him” you mumble to yourself when you accidentally bump into someone very tall

“Watch where you’re going” the person snapped

“I’m sorry it was clearly an accident no need to be such a jerk” you snap back

You look up at him and your eyes widen.

“Tsuki?” You asked

“Dont call me that we aren’t friends” he said “and I don’t even know you”

“No I guess were not anymore” you said

After that you walk away from Tsuki and find your way to your homeroom class full of unfamiliar names and faces. The day soon came to an end. As you were getting ready to leave you walked past the volleyball gym when a ball flew out almost hitting you.

“Go get the ball!” You heard someone yell

“I’ve got it” someone else said

You picked up the ball

“Oh hey I can take that” the boy said

“Oh sorry” you said turning and seeing them “Tadashi?”

“Yeah? Do I know you?” He asked

“We used to be friends when we were kids but I moved away” you said

“Wait, Bubbles?” He asked saying your childhood nicknames

“You remembered” you said smiling

“I can’t believe it, you’re here” he said in awe

“Moved back same house” you said smiling

“I was wondering who moved in” he said

“So you’re still a house down?” You asked

“Yeah, have you seen Tsuki?” He asked

“This morning he didn’t remember me” you said a little sadly

“I’m sure he’ll remember you, come watch practice I’ll walk you home after” he said

“Okay sounds good” you said

He leads you into the gym.

“Who’s the girl?” Tanaka asked

“Oh she was one of mine and Tsuki’s friends as kids she moved away but now she’s back” Tadashi said “is it okay if she watches practice?”

“Sure that should be fine” Daichi said

You end up watching practice. Afterwards you end up walking home with both Tsuki and Tadashi.

“Geeze Tsuki when did you get so mean?” You asked

“What do you mean?” He asked

“You used to be a lot nicer than you are now” you said “and you were such a jerk to me this morning”

“I was annoyed because you bumped into me because you weren’t paying attention” he said

“I said I was sorry, and you didn’t even recognize me” you said

“Give me a break it’s been what 4 years maybe 5?” He asked “and how did you recognize me in the first place?”

“I took a guess, how many blonde boys with brown eyes and glasses would there be around?” You asked “I happened to be right”

“You recognized me too” Tadishi said

“Well yeah, your freckles and shy smile are still the same the were when we were kids” you said “you both got a lot taller”

“Later pipsqueak” Tsuki said as he turned down the corner to get to his house

“Bye Tsuki” you and Tadashi said at the same time

You couldn’t help but giggle a little bit at that. You smiled at Tadashi as you both continued to walk down the block to your houses.

“You should come over sometime if you want” you said

“Yeah?” He asked “you’d want to hang out?”

“Of course, you were one of my best friends Tadashi, dont you want to be friends again?” You asked

“Well, we never stopped being friends” he said

“Okay well do you want to to see if we can still be friends even though we spent years apart?” You asked

“Yeah sounds like a plan” he said

After that you started spending as much time with Tadashi as you could, finding it very easy to be close friends again. The slight crush that had begun to develop before you had moved away was back full force. So one day without thinking anything of it just to get your feelings out, you wrote them down in one of your notebooks.

Right now you were sitting at Tsukis house studying for your upcoming exams. When your phone rang.

“Hello?” You answered “oh okay yeah I’ll be right there, okay love you too bye”

“Everything okay?” Tadashi asked

“Yeah I hope so, my mom just said she needs me at home” you said

“Oh, okay” he said

You pack up your books and leave. Once home you start unpacking your bag and you realize you left one of your notebooks. It wasn’t just any notebook it was the one with your confession written in it. Panic ran through you as you ran out going back to Tsukis house. And knocking on the door a little frantic. Your heart sank as the door opened and it revealed Tadashi holding the notebook in question.

“Bubs” he said avoiding eye contact

“You read it…” you trailed off

“I thought it was the Japanese notes from class” he said “I’m truly flattered by what you wrote”

“…you dont feel the same” you said softly trying to blink back the tears that were tempting to fall

“No I dont” he said “I’m sorry”

“You dont have to feel the same Tadashi” you said “its okay”

“Let me walk you back home” he offered

“Its fine, it’s a block and a half away I’ll be okay” you said quickly

“Bubs I want us to still be friends, I just got you back in my life I dont want to lose you again” he said

You look at him with tear filled eyes. And before you could say anything else you grabbed the notebook from his hands then turning and running home as tears fell down your cheeks. Not daring to glance behind you to see him.

A few weeks have passed and you were avoiding Tsuki and Tadashi as much as possible. With them having practice it was a little easy but that didn’t stop Tadashi from going to your house to try to talk to you. Then one day while walking to the library you were grabbed and pulled into an empty class room.

“The hell?” You said alarmed

“Do you plan on avoiding him for the rest of your life?” Tsuki asked

“What are you talking about?” You asked

“Tadashi, do you really plan to continue avoiding him?” He asked

“Oh I’m sorry for avoiding one of my best friends because I caught feelings and was rejected by him” you said frowning

“Ever thought there’s a reason he wants to talk to you?” He asked

“He wants to stay friends” you said simply

“No you idiot” he said rolling his eyes “he’s been wanting to talk to you, and I’m sick of listening to him talk about you, that’s all he says anymore, so please just hear him out pipsqueak”

“Why are you doing this Tsuki?” You asked

“Because the both of you are my friends and I dont like seeing either of you hurting” he said and he hugged you tightly

“I’m sorry Tsuki” you mumbled “I’ll talk to him”

“Thanks pip” he said ruffling your hair as he pulled away.

Tsuki walked out of the classroom while you fixed your hair. After school you made your way to the gym where the boys where having their practice. You peaked your head in and saw the whole team.

“Did you need something?” Sugawara asked

“I just need to borrow Yamaguchi for a little bit” you said

They gray haired third year nodded and called him over. He saw you and you noticed the look on his face dropped when he saw you and realizing you had called him by his last name.

“Can we talk?” You asked a little hopeful

He nodded and you led him out away from the gym not wanting the team to hear your conversation.

“I’m sorry I’ve been avoiding you, Tsuki cornered me and told me I needed to talk to you” you said

He nodded a little bit “bubs, I meant what I said when I don’t want to lose you again” he said

“But you haven’t really lost me Yamaguchi, I’m just trying to get over the fact that you don’t feel the same way I do then things can go back to normal” you said

“Dont call me by my last name, you’ve always called me Tadashi” he said “and I did lose you again, you’ve been avoiding me for weeks your parents wouldn’t even let me try to talk to you.”

“Tadashi, I was trying to get over you” you said

“Bubs over the last few weeks without having you in my life again I realized I need you in my life” he said “m-”

“Just friends right?” You interjected

He got annoyed at your interruption and cupping your cheeks he leaned down and kissed your lips. After melting into the kiss and kissing him back you grabbed his shirt holding onto him. After slowly pulling away he rested his forehead against yours.

“Now if you wont interrupt me again, will you be my significant other?” He asked

#hq tadashi #tadashi x reader #tadashi yamaguchi #yamaguchi tadashi #hq x y/n #hq x reader #unrequited feelings #requited feelings #open ending #implied happy ending #rejection #childhood friend

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jee-ns · 3 years

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(ii) ladybugs. // kjn. // one-shot.

you couldn’t do anything. it was a curse you thought. all these years you’ve been through you’ve been waiting for this day. but what’s stopping you? what if you don’t want to get better. what if you wanted to stay this way. she was a miracle. that should’ve happened a long time ago.

note : i also rushed this one so sorry for the mistakes and confusions LOL - admin 🗣

warnings : violence, alcohol , abusive behaviour, mentions of death.

words : 1.3k

next : (iii) ladybugs

you looked outside the window of the dining area which had the whole view of the garden. it really captured the garden’s beauty. everything was perfect. it was a windy day. so you hoped you wouldn’t be sweating again if you meet that girl yesterday.

your face redden at the thought. god im a narcissist. but you crossed your fingers so you’d meet her again today.

after finishing the meal you took a walk outside the house and ran some errands in this small town. you met mr bae and he was just exquisite. he’s the owner of the convenience store that yehan usually goes to. so after hearing that yehan was your caretaker. he didn’t hesitate to say “if you need any help just come to me”

you also met mrs choi who’s the owner of the bakery you drove past yesterday when you arrived. the interior of the place really captured your attention.

walking down the thin lane where only one car can go through. you thought about your itinerary for today.

1. get home

2. help yehan put the groceries away

3. go outside (to see the girl again)

there’s something about the girl. your so hooked on her. come to think of it “i don’t even know her name” you cam to a stop with your mouth agape. you blink twice and put a pin to ask her what her name was when you get home. if she was there again.

upon arriving, yehan greeted you and you offered to help her. she denied once again "yehan .. groceries doesn't irregulate my heartbeat. don't worry to much" you held her hand that was going for the plastic and looked at her with sincerity. she let out a breath that was laced with worry. "fine.."

you maneuvered around the kitchen swiftly, figuring out where each food belongs and remembering them so you could come back at night and have a snack. you glance outside to catch a glimpse of the girl. she wasn't there. your mood went sour after that. you didn't want to go outside anymore. but you went anyway cause stress isn't good for your heart.

the wind of the warm day instantly makes your mood less sour. you took a walk around the garden, walking through the flower field, avoiding the tree for some reason. 'the tulips were a nice addition to the garden' you thought. then something caught your eye. it was a red ball. you furrowed your eyebrows. 'why would this be here?'

you grabbed it and smiled softly. you pulled it out the field. it looked like a dodge ball from gym class. you've never really had fun with it since you didn't have the ability to play dodgeball . . . yet. you set it down for a while not knowing what to do with it.

“kick it”

you heard from behind. you turned around. it was the girl from yesterday. your forehead crinkled with curiosity so you did what she told you to. you kicked it as hard as you can. the ball went rolling near the entrance to the backyard.

you had fun kicking the ball around. until “y/n don’t play with the ball. your heart rate!” you heard yehan yelled where she stood in the door frame. she had her hands out with an irritated face on.

you lowered your head and sighed. you walked towards her and handed her the ball. she ruffled your hair making it a bit messier. “you know why im taking it from you right?” she questions as you only nodded and walked away.

you walked back to the tree and slumped down on the trunk of the wood. looking slumped. you heard the sound of a stomp on the grass. like some landed on it “gee that was harsh”

you looked up and it was the girl again. “hey” you said lowly with your head still down. she hopped over your leg and crouched down. with instinct looked up and saw her smiling softly down at you. she moved a strand of hair away from your face. the gesture made your heart melt with the way she did it so softly.

"c'mon" she said as she tucked your hair behind your ear and held out a hand for you. you took it and stood up. she looked back and you with a gummy grin. "follow me" she pulled you to the leaf wall that serves as a fence. there was a small gap between the different bushes. she squeeze between the bushes and you could see her face through all the leaves. she had an encouraging smile "c'mon!" she urged you.

you quickly squirmed through the bushes and she quickly grabbed your hand again and dragged you through the woods, trusting her with where she was going and you just let your legs follow her. while she was dragging you, you looked around and appreciated the beauty of nature. the rays off light breaking through the tree branches. you saw birds soaring over the trees in the blue sky.

looking around made you unaware of where she was taking you. she suddenly came to a stop and you tripped over and fell to your face on the cold hard ground. you heard a gasp coming from the girl. you could also hear her chuckle a little. she helped you up "im sorry about that." you got up a little loopsy by the hit to the head.

you looked up to see her face turn from a grin to a worried look. "why" you said as you wipped your face to avoid from being embarrassed by how your dirty face would look after the fall. then, you suddenly felt a sting on your cheekbone. you hissed and the girl pulled your hand away from it. she planted a kiss over the cut.

"there i kissed it better" she said with a grin

you hummed and looked down while you take form into being a tomato. "i like how you look" you perked your head up. "the scar just makes you look brave and courageous" you chuckled at her statement. you were far from brave evermore courageous. you've spent half of your life afraid of everything and anything because in every situation there's a slight chance of you dying.

"come here." she patted beside her. she was sitting under a tree. you finally realized you were right in front of a lake. you took a seat beside her. the sound of the water mingling with each other filled the silence between you two. you suddenly remembered the question that has been bugging you all day. "um hey what's your name? i dont mean to be rude but when we met you didn't-"

"jennie" she cut your rambling off.

"jennie" you tried saying it. trying to get the feel of how it rolls off your tongue. you smiled and leaned your head on the tree bark. this is one of the most exciting days you've ever had in your life. "this is where i go when i need to calm down." you looked at jennie while she looked over the lake. her hand was fidgeting with a bracelet with a ladybug on it. you didn't notice the bracelet on her before.

"you like ladybugs?" she looked at your for awhile before looking down at her bracelet. "alot actually" she said with a giggle at the end of her sentence. "i had a small plushy her name was lily. she was the luckiest ladybug there was. we had great adventures together. she got hurt once on a mission together. her left antenna got ripped off on a tree branch. that's the reason why she's the most special. cause no matter what life throws at you. you'll still have to get back on your feet. alone. sadly, i left her." she said smiling at the start then she frowned. "where did you left her?"

"at my house."

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sokkas-honour · 3 years

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Black sheep: prologue -mako x reader

pairing: mako x fem!reader

summary (rlly need to work on this): they met working for the triads but sadly, leaving the criminal life behind isnt as easy as the brothers or their closest friend thought.

w.c: 1.2k

note: it’s my first time writing in a while so there might be a bunch of mistakes so feel free to point them out! also request for any atla/lok/tdp ship and character are open!! also massive thanks to @biqherosix for helping me out and listening to be spitballing :)

tw: mention of a gang (triad), slight mention of parents death but no details

taglist (always open): @biqherosix @draqondance (hopefully you dont mind)

prologue - part 1

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“Ah y/n, there you are. Did you get the message to Viper?” Lightning Bolt Zolt asked you as you entered their hideout. You nodded, you’d been recruited by the triad a couple of days after the incident that resulted in your parents death which had been at least a year ago. They were surprisingly welcoming and the leader had taken a small liking to you but he’d never say that out loud. You had sworn your allegiance to the Triple Threats meaning you got full protection from the triad, a place to live and even bending instructors.

The current hideout where you lived was situated under an earth kingdom inspired bar and was dimly lit by a couple of lamps hanging from the ceiling that shone a light in a small circle. The rest of the room was lit by candles that firebenders turned on and off. One of the black lamps sat right on top of a table where elder members gambled and played cards, it illuminated the table just enough for the people that played but barely affected the younger members around who were oh so desperately trying to see what was going on.

Near the back of the room that you first saw as you came down the stairs was a small bar counter where the majority of the alcohol and food sat. Lightning Bolt Zolt also had a velvet seat in front of said counter where he had a clear view of the entire common room. A lamp also hung above the bar counter but he had a couple of candles lit around him in order to seem more menacing.

Once you came down the stairs from the staff room of the bar, a couple of steps into the common room, there was a corridor that lead to a few rooms that only the higher ranked members could use but they had given you the smallest one in order to keep you safe as well as keep an eye on you. The senior members weren’t always there, they sometimes switched from hideout to hideout or lived in their own houses but always had a room in the basement in case they needed to hide from the cops or lay low for a while. Someone in the higher ranks was always on thin ice with the law so you usually had someone like Zolt, Zhen or even Shady Shin sleeping in a room across from you.

“Wanna take a go at firebending?” The leader asked before you exited the room. They were aware of your bending abilities but had noticed that you seemed very reluctant to even use your gift. They usually had a strict bending only policy but they made an exception for you as you were great at relaying messages between members, deep down though, they hoped you’d start firebending again because you showed so much promise in your hand to hand combat training.Occasionally puffs of fire would come out when you really got into your sparring sessions but refused to make anymore than that.

Much to Zolt’s dismay you shook your head. With a sigh, Zolt grabbed an apple that had been freshly bought that sat on the bar counter and extended it to you with a small smile. “No problem, remember Zhen is always available for more hand to hand combat. Isn't that right Zhen?” Zolt turned his head to make eye contact with the older member who nodded slightly before returning to his card game.

You shook your head but gladly took the apple out of his hand, only realising then that you hadn’t eaten since that small bowl of rice you had for breakfast. He excused you with a curt nod. You took that as your cue to leave the room infested with the criminals that had served as your family for the past year and head to the privacy of your room. Your room was quite small, just big enough for a bed and a small sort of hopper widow that gave you a small view of the bustling streets of Republic city. Thousands of people walked by you and the bar everyday and had no idea that the eldest triad were hidden there. You adored people watching even though you could barely see people’s feet. Next to your bed was a small bedside table with a candle that had been turned on by some firebender while you were gone. You only had a select choice of clothing notably three pairs of red pants to honour your fire nation heritage, two plain shirts, a white tank top and a beautiful blue dress that Shady Shin had gotten for your birthday not too long ago so you’d have something fancy in case you ever needed one. A few female members had promised to take you on shopping sprees when you got older so you’d blend in better as you grew.

You also had a small stack of books that meant the world to you near your bed. They were your parent’s and one of them was your favorite book of Fire Nation legends and you reread whenever you missed them. You had no idea what you’d do if you lost it and you could never buy it again as your mother had even written little notes in it and doodled in it, she had even included a family picture. She had planned on keeping the book when you grew out of it so she could give it to you as a 16th birthday present but unfortunately, that’ll never happen.

An hour or so after you had finished your apple, Zolt called for you. His voice carried all the way to your room so you jumped up and quickly made your way to the common room. You noticed that the majority of the newer members had left and only select senior members like Zhen were still gambling. You made it to the leader’s side when you finally noticed that Shady Shin stood in front of the lightning bender with two boys next to him. One looked to be around your age, you would’ve guessed 14 at the most. He had jet black unkempt hair and sharp tangerine eyes, making you believe that he must’ve had some sort of fire nation heritage. The boy next to him was shorter and looked 10, maybe 11 and looked way too innocent to be anywhere near a triad but then again, so did you. The younger one had similar black hair but instead had green puppy eyes.

“Meet your new teammates, they’ll be living on and off around here but we’ll mostly help you with messages and accounting.” Zolt introduced them, extending a hand to show the two brothers. “Now y/n darling, why don't you give them a small tour of the place while I talk with Shady Shin over here.”

You nodded and indicated the brothers to follow you down a hallway opposite to the stairs as opposed to the rooms that lay adjacent to them.

‘I’m y/n, what about you two?” You asked as soon as Shady Shin and Zolt were out of ear shot. Whenever Zolt asked you to not listen to a conversation you obeyed, he was still after all a powerful and dangerous man. The taller boy spoke for the both of them.

“I’m Mako and this is my brother Bolin.”

#mako x reader #mako #mako tlok #tlok #tlok x reader #firebender #avatar x reader #firebender x reader #atla x reader #krew #krew x reader #bolin #bolin x reader #triple threat triad

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marswritingss · 4 years

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semi and tendou with a s/o who is feeling down

req: hii can you write headcanons on semi,tendou having a s/o who just has sad days without any reason?like they dont even want to leave their bed and its hard to get through the day take your time writing this pls i dont want u to feel overwhelmed ;*)

me: ofc! as i said before, i didn't really know if you requested this as an emergency request or not so i did so just in case,,, also tysm for request semi bc he's ony of my best bois (i was going to write something else but i just forgot lmao)

warnings: mmmmm well there's fluff,,, not a lotta angst imo but idrk

semi eita

– it’s your first year of high school when it starts.

– at first, it doesn’t happen very often.

– but eventually it’ll start happening more and more often.

– you’ll just wake up and think about anything and it just happens that you want to cry and bury yourself back in the bed.

– you somehow manage to handle it, and you get used to it.

– that’s when you meet semi from class 2 in your second year.

– he’s babey and always smiling to you and helping you and everything

– so when he asks you out, you’ve already had quite a crush on him, so you say yes.

– internally, you’re hesitant. does he really want to date you? you ask yourself.

–but that day had been a nice day, you’ve had a 98% in an exam and your mind wasn’t fucking you up so you pushed the thought to the back of your head and accepted.

– so now it’s your third year, and oh oh, it’s finals week.

– you’ve been able to make it to most of the week, the only exams left are japanese literature and chemistry, and while literature wasn’t your best subject, you really liked chemistry.

– so, why were you feeling like crushing your head?

– you take a shower and brush your teeth hoping the feeling goes away. maybe it’s because you spent three hours last night with tendo and yamagata playing animal crossing? you’re not really sure

– but nope. the feeling doesn’t go away.

– so you just decide to skip breakfast because 1. the canteen is just too loud and 2. you already brushed your teeth

– when you don’t appear, semi gets worried. not a lot because he does know that it gets difficult sometimes, but he does worry.

– on finals week, the school gives third years have around half an hour before starting exams so they can study, but semi has already studied his stuff and he wants to find you, so he goes to your dorm, but you’re not there.

– he’s now more worried. you’ve had bad days, but when it happened you were either in your room or you messages him saying you weren’t feeling good.

“semi-semi~ what are you doing?” asks tendou when semi goes back to the students lounge. ushijima is with him, probably helping him revise for an exam he’s going to do by pure instinct.

“i can’t find y/n” he says, he sees tendou doing a round o with his mouth.

“if i remember well, i saw them heading to their class five minutes ago. have you looked there?” asks ushijima.

“oh, thanks wakatoshi” says semi, and heads to your class.

– he finds you trying to block your surroundings with a pair of headphones he had given you in your birthday.

“y/n? are you alright?” he asks. you’re not even revising, you’re just there, staring at nothing while listening to music. you probably don’t even hear him, so he taps you lightly in the shoulder, to which you jump a little.

“oh, hi eita.” you smile sadly.

– he just hugs you, and you just let yourself melt in his embrace, almost crying.

– he assures you it’s going to be alright, and stays there for the rest of the break. when the bell rings he’ll squeeze your hand and hug you again before assuring you you’ll do amazing.

– expect him to be waiting for you in front of your door when the day is over with snacks and a few movies so you can relax and cuddle.

– babyboy i love him so much

– he now sends you reassuring messages everyday

– like- everyday

– you also settle that, if it’s too much, he’ll take notes for you during class and after practice he’ll pass by and help you to feel better :))

– the end doesn’t make sense tf

tendou satori

– oh my baby satori

– he knows exactly how you feel

– he’s gone through pretty rough days

– and he also knows you enough to guess when you’re alright and when you’re not

– you’re usually, in contrast of his out going personality, really quiet, but still, he can differentiate between the good and bad quiet.

– so that’s why he worries when you don’t laugh at one of his puns at lunch and go back to your class after waving a good bye instead of the little peck you always give him

– he still has classes and practice before being able to talk to you, so he asks one of your friends to keep an eye on you

– ngl i don’t really know what am i writing anymore

– anyway

– so, after practice he sPRINTS to your room because he knows you leave your club activities half an hour before he does

– he finds you buried in your bed facing the wall, probably half asleep

– okay it’s not the time but i just bursted a vein thinking about you just asleep and he just awkwardly standing there like :// baby

– he wakes you up when he sees you’re in a really weird position and also because he wants to hug you

– i wouldn’t doubt it if you had this system where he asks you how are you doing and depending on what number you say, he’ll do one thing or another

“y/n how are you doing now?” he asks when you see him crouched in front of your bed.

“i think it’s a 2.2” you say.

“oh, did you have to help that girl from english class?” he asks.

“no” you say shaking your head “i almost cried in class though” you say.

“oh” he says. he hugs you tightly before taking his phone from his pocket and open semi’s contact.

“what are you doing?”

“well, last time you told me you almost cried on class you got pretty bad, and i can’t leave you here alone, so i’ll just ask him to bring some of the snacks we keep in the shared drawer.”

– the ash haired boy ends up bringing a whole plastic bag with different types of chips as well as his laptop, and threats tendou with putting dye in his shampoo if he dares to tell anyone on the team about the folder full of cheesy movies he keeps secured in case shirabu steals his precious laptop. again.

– you end up falling asleep on his shoulder in the middle of the movie and he just watches you snort while turning off the computer.

– i don’t think he’d stay, since your dorm is on the other side of the residence, but i do believe he gets scolded by semi when he forgets his laptop in your room and arrives at his room with a half empty bag of onion flavoured chips.

– alright i think i’m going to finish this because i don’t like how it’s turning

– sorry for tendou’s part :((((((

#haikyuu!!#haikyuu x reader #haikyuu hcs #haikyuu headcanons #haikyuu x y/n #semi eita #semi x reader #semi x y/n #semi hcs #semi headcanons #tendou satori #tendou x y/n #tendou x reader #tendou hcs #tendou headcanons

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fragmentwitch · 3 years

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Higurashi Gou Ep 21 thoughts + Satoko/Rika thoughts

In retrospect, it's pretty deliberate to leave out meakashihen and tsumihoroboshi-hen from the arcs that got 'remade' as the deception arcs in GOU otherwise it actually would have presented a big issue in its narrative.

By deliberately leaving Satoshi's entire back story out of GOU we don't really know for sure what led him to become comatose and the events leading up to Shion's promise. And since Shion doesn't seem to actually target Satoko, we only see them interact the way they did only in Minagoroshi.

In fact, ShMion focused on RIKA during the GOU ladder scene, when originally she said Satoko was cursed. In retrospect that's been a huge red flag pointing toward Satoko being a looper, she manipulated people into targeting Rika all along to avoid suspicion.

So a few seemingly minor missing items have huge implications for the narrative if we treat GOU as entirely standalone with no connection to the original stories:

meakashi specifically showed Satoko's realization that Satoshi became distant and ran away partly because she became codependent to the point of burdening him more. Satoshi protected her but she wasn't able to help him in return. He just shouldered all of their problems and crumbled under the pressure the worse things got because nobody could help him (Irie tried but iirc he wasn't allowed to adopt children as an unmarried man).

Shion doesn't realize her own sin: consumed by resentment and misdirected feelings of frustration, she not only forgot the promise to protect Satoko in Satoshi's stead but broke it by torturing her.

tsumihoroboshihen, there is a confrontation where Keiichi remembers killing Mion and Rena in Onikakushi, and regrets it immensely. It causes a chain reaction where multiple characters confront and admit their personal sins from their past, and it included Rika and Satoko (correct me if this is not from that arc). But in the end, Mion emphasizes that friends dont need ro reveal their worst secrets and regrets in order to be friends-- if it had to be that way, Mion preferred not having any.

No tsumihoroboshihen in Gou means Rika never finds it in her to actually try making a difference. We don't actually get Tataridamashihen, but a deceptive Minagoroshihen (where Ooishi kills, not Takano). I cant remember the scene where Rika forces Satoko to confront her problems and actually ask for help with her own voice. You cannot help someone truly to your best if they don't actually say "Please Help Me."

With these very crucial thematic elements missing, even if one can argue neither of them would remember previous fragments anyway (Disproven when Rika herself remembers what she tried to do differently and still failed in. She explicitly recalls Onikakushi, Watanagashi, Minagoroshi and Matsuribayashi but not Meakashi and Tsumihoroboshi) Ryukushi is able to make a story that logically doesn't have huge gaps. But the fact Gou retconned so much, leaves much to be desired on the intent and purpose this story wants to tell-- many are apprehensive about whether it actually can turn around into a hopeful ending or a very sad one. And more importantly, whether these two stories' themes are mutually exclusive or not.

Satoko never learns to explicitly ask for help, and stubbornly deflects it when Rika brings it up.

She hasn't faced herself in terms of being codependent to where she is actively affecting Rika's agency as a person. And in Meakashi, she seems to only confess/realize this right when she's bleeding out in shion's torture chamber...

Rika was shown to throw in the towel early on in Watadamashihen, and shortly after going Red Eyed, she disappears. She does seem more proactive in putting up a fight in Tataridamashihen though, yet we see her watching Satoko's breakdown with a fairly emotionless look. (Btw I'm 80% sure she faked that due to slapping Keiichi's hand before it even touches her, plus no bruise marks anywhere and her overall weird behavior at the end)

Rika seems fairly content with just dropping it when Satoko doesn't respond well to her (1) offer to help her, and even then she is so ignorant that she thinks Satoko is acting this way over her grades. And when she does reach out to spend personal time with Satoko she uses language that implies it's like an appointment. Definitely not the best way to approach a friend by making them feel like you see them as a chore/burdensome

Rika doesn't confront her directly and say "I can't help you if you don't ask me for help yourself". I don't want to seem cold and dismissive, but this is something people NEED to learn how to do eventually. Yes, Satoko feels isolated and put full faith into Rika keeping her promise in Loop 1; but note that she doesn't ever directly tell Rika about her feelings once they get into the academy. They did talk about this prior, but they were just entering middle school-- it's not completely impossible Rika actually forgot her promise in 3 years; Shion forgot hers to Satoshi in about 2 after all.

Even if Satoko brings up the promise Rika made, it's too late and they're past the point of reconciling their differences based on them stonewalling each other.

Rika has no idea Satoko thinks she was the one who reported the accident to the principal. So Satoko already had reason to start resenting her.

Satoko's wish is so that Rika would treat her better, but neither of them are willing to confront their own faults and are quick to point fingers at each other (sadly I have experienced this). They are quick to drop the subject when one says something the other doesn't want to hear (Rika even tells satoko to be quiet/shut up).

With or without 'Oyashiro' giving her these looping powers, as long as neither girl confronts their own flaws in how they're dealing with each other, they will inevitably break apart. Oyashiro is just making it more interesting for herself because, well, she loves drama. The sad thing is that Satoko said "well if you can make it happen, do it now" and Oyashiro took away any ability for her to rethink her decision and say no or change her mind. She can't NOT loop anymore until she has Rika exactly where she wants. With her, in Hinamizawa and away from St. Lucia's... but since it seems like Rika wants to go to St lucia's no matter what, Satoko is still killing Rika or setting her up to die even if she did everything right like in Tataridamashi. Because Satoko knows sooner or later once tragedy is avoided, Rika will immediately head for the books.

I'm not optimistic we'll really get a happy ending but hey... without love it can't be seen, right? We got the whodunit, the whydunit... all that's left is the howdunit and what Rika can do about it herself if she's trapped in Satoko's cage of loops.

#higurashi gou #i apologize if this isnt structured neatly #rika furude #satoko houjou #spoilers for the original higurashi arcs btw

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torivikachu · 3 years

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WARNING UNREASONABLE SHITPOST

recently, I see so much hate everywhere. magnetic storms or what but fandoms are getting rlly nasty when clashing with each other.

I think it is important to understand, that we shouldn't be bashing others, whatever we or they might like, as long as it is not offensive or reasonably immoral - and I stress, REASONABLY! some people believe homosexuality is immoral and that is just /warning! offensive language/ dumb.

as a huge fan of SNS I see a lot of anti's this days - antisakura, antiending, antinarusasu, antisasunaru, antinaruhina, antisasusaku, antiboruto and whatever. and - ugh - as much as I myself hate to admit that.... expectant drums sound.... nobody cares!

I mean - it's Kishimotos work. it's his idea, it's his story, it's his vision and - sadly - we don't get to decide whether he was wrong or not.

whether he should have ended the story with SNS,

whether he should have made female characters more prominent,

whether he should have killed Sakura off,

whether he should have made Naruto a better father,

whether he should have done many other things we all want him to do,

because - no matter how much we love the story or the characters - we are not the ones who created them, not the ones who understand them the most.

I mean, I have written myself a couple of paragraphs on how much I hate what is going on in Boruto - so yeah hi hypocrite! - but I sincerely mean well. yeah it pains me a bit to watch Boruto cuz of nostalgia I feel for Naruto series but I keep on watching, because I can't cut out that part of my heart that is responsible to crave more of Naruto universe even if I hate it.

and I am probably going to keep criticizing every damn thing - like, have you heard the Kara soundtrack? omfg I facepalmed the whole episode after that - and I wish it was better, but I am not going to bash characters for being created that way.

bc you know what? people are shitty. good people are shitty. bad people are shitty. everybody is shitty. so I guess made up characters get to be shitty too.

I mean, bashing Sakura for not having same problems as Naruto and Sasuke and thus not always getting them? - duh! remember yourself at 12, 13, 14, 15, you were a fucking whiner and you know it. and what were your problems? not getting a laptop you wanted? being punished for bad grades? getting into the fight with your parents for being unreasonable?

yeah, like you never said stuff like I wish I didn't have parents. I remember a moment after the fight I wrote a note to my parents before going to sleep that literally said ' sorry you got such a bad daughter I wish you didnt have to deal with me' and then went to sleep. in the morning - having completely forgotten it - I was woken up by my crying mom who said it was the stupidest thing on earth I knew I hurt her with it. and I regret it. it was dumb and shitty and I normaly consider myself a good person, but that was a huge shit I pulled. and I can't take it back. but I was like 10 and I didn't know better at the time.

why would I hold Sakura to higher standards then I hold myself?

then people bash her for being mean to Naruto - well, duh again - KIDS ARE MEAN. she got older and managed to see Naruto for who he was, but people still see her as a bully.

well, if we are not ready to accept peoples mistakes if they have managed to live up to them, I dont want to be a part of that 'we'

next I see a lot of bashing for Sakura being a bad mom - ugh, duh again /what is it, third time?/! how come? yeah she works a lot, since she is a single mother and all, but she genuinly cares for Sarada, even if she gets a bit overprotective at times. she doesn't have a very working relationship with Sasuke - well sure, he is never home!

then there's bashing Naruto and Sasuke for being bad fathers - you might think they'd learn to appreciate a family after being orphans.........

well where do I start. Sasuke is clinically afraid of losing loved ones after he has lost so much, so he is much better off not having many bonds and it is obvious as day. it doesn't make what he does right or good or wrong, it's just who he is. Naruto... well, lets start with the fact that he never had a role model. he had Iruka - at times, he had Jiraya for three years, but he never really had a family. he was a good dad - as we can see - when kids were little and he wasnt a hokage...

but now... he might work too hard, he might overdo it a bit at times, but if you think that he struggled his whole life to get appreciation why would you think he'd stop now? he just wants to manage everything, but he cant, and it kills him but he doesnt stop and its beautiful. yeah, its unhealthy and stupid but beautiful, because that is what the core of his character is. thats what this world has shaped him to be.

BUT THEN AGAIN THAT IS JUST MY PERCEPTION. I am pretty fucking sure Kishimoto and authors had their own reasons for it that are justified and totally okay because these are his characters who he can do whatever he wants to.

just like we people can.

and I can go on, because there is just SO MUCH HATING AND BASHING I just can't take it anymore.

I mean this whole war of sasunaru and narusasu - why would you care who fucks whom as long as both enjoy it and dynamics in bed dont influence dynamics in the relationship.

I mean... fanfics are not real. hell, even Naruto is not real, but fanfics exist entirely separately from the anime (most of them don't even get personalities right) and it is OKAY. they can exist separately to please those who are unhappy with how things go.

but please please pleeease stop bashing everything just for the sake of it. and I don't mean you are not entitled to feel and I am not telling what you should feel but there is so much more wholesomeness and awesomeness and beauty in portraying and seeing Sakura as a supportive friend and Sasuke as a helpless child inside and Naruto as a strong person who just really can't catch a break. and Boruto and Sarada as a way to make SNS canon in some twisted way.

you know? positive thinking.

but Next generation still sorta sucks.

no offense, though

😆

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bluemueana · 3 years

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Stained Glass (chapter 14) (fluff)

Pairing: Min Yoongi x female reader

Summary: You believed your relationship with Yoongi became toxic at one point. You think he doesn't love you anymore, so, telling him your little secret won't hurt, right ? He wants to tell you something too, but is it too late ?

Genre: angst (for this chapter fluff is included)

Warnings: mentions of parental abuse, mention of depression, mention of lack of self-love, crying, happy ending.

Part : 14/14 (angst version)

Stained Glass masterlist

Important note: i did a happy ending version just in case you weren't good with angst. The chapter is almost the same except the ending so if you don't want to read the whole thing again, you can scroll down to the part where Yoongi tells you about his sudden distant behaviour in the past. Also, I did do some research for the specifying of the cancer condition but if I get anything wrong, please ignore it ! I suggest listening to Stained Glass by Madison Beer while reading ! Hope you like it !

"He messed with my mind

Why did I fall in love with him ?

I haven't got much time left

So it's time for a good, goodbye."

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Yoongi ran through the hallways of the hospital with anxious eyes and shaking hands. As soon as he got the room number from the receptionist he hurried to room No. 42 to be by your side. Yes. Your side.

•One hour earlier•

Minji bombarded you with messages while looking around your house only to find you nowhere, she knit her eyebrows in confusion. 'Where were you ?' She put her phone back in her coat pocket and started opening the only three doors in your small flat. "Are you playing hide and seek with me ?" , she asked in a loud and playful voice. When you didn't reply Minji got more confused.

"Y/n ?" Minji raised her voice, just in case you weren't able to hear her.

A gasp escaped Minji's mouth as soon as she saw you.

Right after she had opened the door to your storeroom she saw you lying unconscious on the floor.

Yoongi felt as if all the oxygen had stopped entering his body, because it quite literally had. As soon as he gained his senses back he messaged Minji.

•Present time•

Minji heard the door creak open. She snapped her head in that direction.

Yoongi stood there. His face pale, seeing you on the hospital bed. Minji rushed to his side and cried on his shoulder while Yoongi placed a comforting hand on her back.

Both of them were upset at your situation. Why was this happening ?

~~~

Minji slowly opened the door to your room with a tray. Once she saw you awake she almost dropped the food she was getting for you. She regained her balance before walking over to you and keeping the food tray away.

“Y/n ?”

“Yes unnie ?” You did your best to sound normal but your voice came as a whisper.

Smiling sadly at this, she held your hand and kissed your forehead.

And her eyes got teary as she started apologizing.

"I'm so sorry Y/n that I couldn’t be there for you. And the one time I show up we don't even get to have a movie marathon."

You both let out a soft chuckle while sobbing.

Minji picked up the tray before saying, "Now let's eat, shall we ?"

While she helped you eat you asked Minji about her studies but she dismissed those questions and asked you questions about your health instead.

You always hoped that the moment you would meet your best friend again would be the happiest. You weren’t planning it to be in a hospital.

But what mattered was that she was back. The only person who had been with you the whole time even if she wasn't physically present.

~~~

Minji had left the room after some time because Yoongi soon came in after hearing you had woken up and she wanted you two to have privacy. When the door shut Yoongi slowly walked towards you. He sat down on the bed and held your hand.

"I- I want to tell you something. Something that's been killing me."

"I'm here." you comforted, giving him a sign to continue.

You could see Yoongi was hesitant at first but he also knew that he needed to get it out.

"I had tried my best to not fall in love with you since the first time i ever saw you because I wasnt allowed. But silly me just had to fall head over heels for you. You are just so perfect. I had my whole future planned out with you, I wanted only and only you. I would give you anyhing you wanted and I for once wanted to become someone in my life and it was all for you."

Tears could be seen in his eyes and his delicate fingers were now rubbing circles on the back of your hand as if he was handling something very fragile.

"But all my dreams started crashing like a glass because of my father. I was so lost in you that I had forgotten that I was already forced into an engagement with a girl whose family would provide riches to my father. I tried my best to hide you from him and everyone who could hurt you. I had money, I was working and I was getting ready to take you with me somewhere far for he would never let me marry you. But once again i was thrown down from the sky. My father found out about you and I was forced to cut ties with you. Now i knew i wouldnt be able to do that and my devastation started hurting you: after realizing I immediately tried to get you out of my stupid life. It was necessary Y/n. I loved you too much to let you go but I had to or I would loose you."

He took a deep breath before continuing.

"Y/n that d-day I didnt cheat. I was beaten up by my dad and I decided to drink to drown the sadness. In this state, my fiancee tried to make a move on me. You didn't see the whole thing. But once again I couldnt tell you everything."

"I had to pretend-" his voice broke.

"I had to pretend that I did it and use it as a way to get you away, and believe me Y/n it broke me so damn much."

You rubbed his back gently trying to control your sobs while Yoongi tried to even out his breathing.

"Did you notice Y/n that even after my sudden change i used to try to be normal again ?" He asked looking at you.

"I tried to take you away from home for a while but whenever i got close to my dream my father pulled me to reality."

You nodded remembering how whenever you saw a glimpse of the old Yoongi, he’d receive a phone call and would leave you there without a word.

"Y/n he told me he'd hurt you, I'm so sorry but I was too weak to face him. And what you had to face Y/n, It hurts me. Even the simple thought of it. I shouldn’t even be allowed to ask for your forgiveness. When you said you had cancer, I broke down right there. I hated myself, I hated that I wasnt there when you found out, tha- that i wasnt there to comfort you. And that I was pushing you away when you were trying to tell me. But I couldn't hate myself when I tried to save you from my life. After you stopped visiting me I broke the relationship with my father, I did regret not being able to do it before but only after all the damage was I able to trick him in a contract. Even after all the crying, breaking relationships and running i still couldn't let you come near me again and risk you getting hurt again."

"I am a terrible person who will just hurt you..."

Yoongis' voice, strained fron tears slowly faded away at the last sentence because of the emotional atmosphere. Now yoongi was shaking and crying on your shoulder while you whispered comforting words to him. The room was filled with his muffled sobs and your breaking voice softly soothing him.

When he finally looked at you and locked eyes he spoke the words you had wanted to hear from all these years.

"I love you, very much. And I dont want to loose you. You're my heartbeat, without you...without you I'm nothing."

Yoongi saw you smiling before you spoke what he was dying to hear.

"I love you yoongi and I always will."

That was the last thing he heard from you because Minji had come back.

“The nurse needs to check her. Yoongi....can you step out with me for a moment ?” Some strands of Minji's hair were stuck to her face because of her tears.

Yoongi knew something was wrong so he followed Minji outside right away.

~~~

"Minji, what's wrong ?"

"Yoongi it broke me when I found out so please just be ready for for what I'm about to tell you."

Minji hesitated for a second before continuing.

"Yoongi, Y/N never told me about her condition. No matter how much I tried she would just wave away the topic. Hell, she never even told me which cancer she had. Of course, her cancer is not curable just like any other but breast cancer at stage 0 can make a person live for at least 5 years. She never payed attention to that, she didn't even try to reach out to us for help. With you and me gone she-"

Minji lifted her head to look at the ceiling while closing her eyes but it didn't help her with holding in her tears.

She slowly continued, "She was so lonely that she didn't want to live. Sh-she wanted to give up hope."

Yoongi then took Minji in his embrace and let her sob on his shoulder because he knew how broken his best friend was.

Once Minji pulled away, Yoongi started rambling, "Alright then, I- I'll just go to the bank. I just need some time but I'll get something sorted-"

Minji grabbed Yoongi's hand to stop him. "No Yoongi. You're not going to be paying for anything. The both of you have always hid your troubles from me, suffering alone. I will not let that happen ever again. I want you, Yoongi to stay by her side while I sort everything out."

Saying this Minji walked away to make a call to her family doctor.

~~~

You had accepted that giving up without trying to live was easier but you didn't know you had enough time to stop the timer from reaching it's end.

~~~

Now holding hands with both Yoongi and Minji, staring at the beautiful scenery of the mountains that layed before the three of you, you laughed loudly.

Although your cancer was not curable, Minji was able to help you get treatment which would help you live. It was rare, no very rare for a cancer patient to live a very long life but it didn't matter if you had only seven or more years left, you wanted to spend them with Minji and Yoongi. Your Minji and Yoongi.

"THIS IS SO MUCH FUN !", Minji shouted.

"It makes it better that I'm here with the two of you.", Yoongi added.

You looked sideways at the pair. It was such a beautiful moment.

"Hey remember the thing we used to do in highschool ?", Yoongi asked to you both.

"Are you talking about when we randomly shouted together ?", Minji asked, voice bubbling with excitement.

You decided to come in. "At three, ok ?"

"3, 2, 1 !!!!!"

Loud cheers erupted from the roadside.

After screaming on the top of your lungs the three of you started laughing happily.

Such moments deserved to be treasured for ever.

The three of you together.

~~~

•Your life can change in an instant. That instant can last forever.~•

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Taglist- @sadhwstudent @betysotelo18

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I think I like this as much as the angst one. I'm done with the series I've gotten so attached to 🥺

I've thoroughly enjoyed writing Stained Glass and I hoped you enjoyed reading it just as much.

Lay~

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albino-whumpee · 3 years

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An old thing 4

First

Continued from here

Possibly the angstiest part of this. Not much whump really.

I´m gonna go ahead and tag @the-host-and-colton for this one. It´s not the BBU but I suppose the Boxies with babies dynamic is there. “Baby doesn´t understand the situation but the parents do” kinda thing. Excuse the ping!

CW// Dehumanization, slavery, human trafficking, forced breeding, mentions of past dub con and non con, blood, implied and mention of past whump of minors, hazing, noncon child separation, creepy and explosive whumpers, physical and emotional abuse.

Everything will be tagged and if there´s tags to be added, tell me please.

After five years, Kit was a rowdy little boy. Running around with a smile on his face at all times. You wouldn’t think he was a slave if it wasnt for the thin black collar on his neck.

In how obedient he turned with his masters. Even though he didn’t understand the concept yet.

“Master? Why are Roahn and Shy here?” Kit asked Danae once. Layo and Danae weren’t mom and dad. They were master. But for his little mind it was just the same thing.

“To serve you and us, Kit. You will understand it better when you grow up”

“Alright” Kit said watching Roahn taking care of the garden with her big bump “Master? Will I be able to play with Roahn’s baby?” Kit asked again.

“No more questions Kit” She said annoyed. The kid was quiet but he still looked at Roahn with curiosity.

“Roahn?” Kit asked the woman being hugged by Dimitri in their floor mat. She woke up as it was the middle of the night, and when she saw him, he shook Dimitri awake. They sat in the other side of the cell.

“Hey there Kit” Dimitri smiled at the toddler.

“Hi Shy” Kit said.

“What is it Kit? Are you hurt?” Roahn said stretching her arm for the kid to hold her hand through the bars. The kid took it.

“I am cold upstairs. So I thought you were very cold here too. Its always chilly down here” the kid grabbed the blanket he had carried all the way down and gave it to Dimitri. “I dont want the baby to be cold”.

They looked at each other with a pained and proud expression.

“Do you…wanna see how she moves?” Roahn asked the toddler who instantly put a smile on his face.

Roahn went close to the cell and told the kid to get closer. Kit did. She grabbed his tiny hand and put it on her abdomen. Curiously she moved. As if the little one inside her knew.

“She’s rowdy!” Kit said. The word coming from how Layo would call him sometimes. Kit was an smart boy.

“Yes she is!” Roahn laughed along.

“I cant wait to play with her!” Dimitri and Roahn went stiff “I mean, if I can…” Kit cleared up sensing their discomfort.

Roahn took his hand into hers and gave it a little kiss.

“Of course you can” she said looking at her son in the same hazel eyes she had. His worries escaped his face to be turned into smiling.

“What would you call her, Kit?” Dimitri asked him.

Kit reflexed for a bit, looking at the ceiling.

“Bunnie!” He said “oh! Or Sara! Or Emi!”

“Where did you take those names from?” Dimitri giggled. They were good names.

“Master is writing a new book. I am a character there too!” He said proudly.

“Oh? You are?” Dimitri said, resting his chin in one hand. Roahn thought it had been a long time since she saw him smile like that. Not since Olivia.

“Yes! I am a dog!” Dimitri stopped right there with a shocked face. He cracked a humorless laugh. He really hated Layo for doing that sick joke.

“Do you like dogs Kit?” He asked anyways.

“Yes!! Sadly master doesn’t like them…” Kit pouted.

“Hey Kit, what if I told you there’s a place where you could have a lot of dogs?” Dimitri asked him Roahn looking at him.

“Eh?! Really? Where’s that?” Kit asked getting closer.

“I can take us there but I need you to tell me something. I only will ask you to see one thing everyday ok?” He said getting closer to him. The camera and the microphone were not a problem. They had been tricked for years.

“Everyday?”

“Yes”

“What?”

“If you ever see big men with black suits tell me what day they come in alright? Or if master says something about an auction tell me. And then we will go to that place, Alright?” Dimitri said. Roahn wasn’t sure if the kid had gotten all, but Kit was smarter than they could see.

He already knew how to read.

“An auction? Like last time?”

Dimitri couldn’t help himself from looking down for a bit.

“Yes, Kit. Like last time. Would you do that for us?” She asked him calmly.

“Ok. I will tell you” Kit said. “Im going to sleep. Goodnight” Kit said going away.

“Wait!” Dimitri yelled, the kid turned back.

“Thanks for the blanket” Roahn said covering her and Shy.

“We love you Kit” Dimitri said. The kid didnt know how to take that and just blushed before running off.

Dimitri and her laid down again. After a moment, the woman’s arms squeezed him lightly.

“Are you sure?” Roahn asked him.

“We cant let this slip off again, Roahn” he said.

“You have changed” she told her “I remember you telling me you didnt have bad thoughts about your owners”

Dimitri embraced her stronger dipping his face into her neck.

“Ivan was all I had. And he was taken from me. He was killed by a bunch of brainless fuckers. I told myself I wouldn’t fixate on his dead. And tried to forget. But when that happened…” Roahn reached for his hand and squeezed “I knew I couldn’t ignore it anymore. I cant let this freaks fuck with us anymore. We have to go before the auction. Much more longer before that”

“Three months” Roahn said “after she’s born, three months and we will go”

“In that time I’ll have it all ready” Dimitri kissed her shoulder “I wont fail this time” he said as she smiled.

His face had a big scar that went all the way from his cheekbone to his neck.

Layo had tried to cut his carotid when they tried to escape the first time. And he almost succeeded.

The baby was born a week later. Kit was amazed by the baby’s arrival. Apparently her name was Jen. Although Kit thought how Bunnie would have had suit her better he went on. For him Dimitri was the only way of knowing how she was doing. Kit was a curious child so he would ask him lots of questions. Dimitri had received some education but many of his questions beat him. At those times he would pat him and tell him the library had a book about that day’s question they could read together.

Sometimes, when they knew there was no one in the house but them, he let Kit sit on his leg.

By now Dimitri and Roahn had to wear clothes at all times except when their genitals were required. They weren’t that used to be so covered but definitely it was warmer. And less humiliating. But the mounting…those were nights were those rules didn’t matter.

“How is Jen and Roahn?” Kit asked him.

“They’re ok. Jen is a very healthy baby. You would love her” Dimitri said.

“I would have loved if she was named Bunnie though…” the kid pouted. Dimitri laughed.

“You know my name isn’t Shy?” He said the kid opening his eyes amused.

“Then what’s your name?”

“Dimitri” He said with a bitter sweet smile. It was the name his brother had gave him. He wanted to tell him to call him dad, but right now that was too risky.

“What a pretty name! Why are you called Shy by Master then?” Kit asked. Dimitri pursed his lips together and touched his scar.

“Its a nickname”

“Nick…?”

“A name only good friends call each other”

“But you don’t like Master at all…”

“Well, some nicknames are for people you don’t like” he giggled wryly.

“Hey, Sh—Dimitri, what does “slave” mean?” The kid asked him, getting his full attention.

“Master called me that the other day when I dropped a bit of juice. I dont know if its a good nickname…” Dimitri held him strong.

“You dont need to know that Kit” he said to him “You’re a good boy ok?”

Kit thought about the many times he had been called bad things and found comforting he said that. So he hugged back.

They stayed there like that for a while.

—

At night, report.

“They havent mentioned it yet then Kit?” Dimitri asked him from the other side of the cell. Kit shook his head, his curly black hair flopping.

“Thats perfect. And what is master doing on thursday?”

“They have their cocktail party and go early” kit said. Dimitri was making mental notes.

“When do they go on their trip?” Dimitri asked him looking up.

“On sunday”

Dimitri has made his plan. Five days were a bit short but the three months had passed and he had it all ready. The few money he could slip from change. A few clothes. Tools. Food. They were ready to go.

“Kit, in Sunday I need you to do something fun. Would you grab your binoculars and tell me when they go and bring me the keys in Master’s office?”

Kit physically did a step back.

“What is it?”

“Im…not allowed there…I cant…”

“It’s ok Kit. Dont worry. Can you play explorer and tell me when they go then?” The kid shook his head vigorously. “You’re such a good kid, Kit” he revolved his hair. And gave him a candy hidden in the downside of the mat.

“Ah! Thank you Dimitri! I love you!” Kit said while hugging him through the bars. Dimitri had to be really strong to hold the tears in.

“I love you too Kit” he said watching him go off.

He stared at the ceiling unable to sleep.

How much he wished Cal and Olivia were there too. But the pain of losing them wouldn’t happen ever again.

Even if he died at it. They would go and get freedom.

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aaliyah-babe · 3 years

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The One With The East German Laundry Detergent: Part One

pairings: eventual joey x reader, jamie x reader

authors note: i own nothing from friends, all credit goes to their respective owners. feedback is always appreciated!

feeback is the glue that holds my writing together!

you and jamie had been having a great few days with eachother, and he and the gang had gotten close, his favourites are definitely pheobe and chandler.

“say babe, should we head down to the coffe house? i think they are down there,” you said to him after you guys finish discussing dinner,

“sure, let’s go,” jamie takes your hand in his and hands you you’re coat and the two of you head down,

“hey guys!” you smile at them and they wave back before monica continues,

“will you let it go?” she asks, “it’s not that big a deal,”

“not that big a deal? it’s amazing, okay? you just reach in there, there’s one little manoeuvr and bam! a bra, right out the sleeve!” ross exclaims,

“oh, my god, this is what you guys discuss?” jamie jokes,

“sadly babe, yes,” you both sit down next to pheobe who leans over to you,

“we’re discussing things that are better about being a man or a woman,” she whispers,

“ah, okay,” you whisper back,

“all right, as far as i’m concerned there is nothing a guy can do that even comes close,” ross states,

“oh, come on! you guys can pee standing up!” rachel argues,

“we can? okay, i’m trying that,” chandler says and high fives jamie.

you smile at the two,

“alright, you know what blows my mind? women can see breasts anytime they want.” all the guys point in agreement at joeys argument, and you scoff, “you just look down and there they are, how you get any work done is beyond me,”

“oh yeah, and when you look down i’m guessing you see nothing?” you joke about joeys penis, and he flips you off, “kidding,”

“ooh, okay, you know what i don’t get? the way guys can do so many mean things and then not even care,” pheobe says and the guys shut up, well before jamie speaks,

“multiple orgasms!” he yells, and you and the girls give in at this.

“damn it, i thought we were gonna win that argument,” you say to jamie and he smiles,

“nope, not even close,” he says before getting up,

“i got to head to work, but i’ll see you later?” he looks at you, and you nod,

“definitely! cherry pie ba-bay!” you laugh at yourself, he kisses your head before leaving,

“cherry pie ba-bay?” ross looks at you,

“what? it’s an inside joke, leave me alone!” you sink into chandler.

“so saturday night, the big night, date night, saturday night, sa-tur-day night!” chandler says

“no plans, huh?” joey asks,

“not a one,”

“not even, say, breaking up with janice?” you ask him, before taking a sip of your coffee,

“oh, right, right. shut up!” he says to you, and you giggle,

“chandler, nobody likes breaking up with someone. you just got to do it,” monica reassures him,

“i know, but it’s just so hard you know? i mean, you’re sitting there with her. she has no idea what’s happening, and then you finally get up the courage to do it, and there’s that horrible awkward moment when you hand her the note,” he says and you scoff,

“oh, my god chandler,” you sigh at him,

“why do you have to break up with her? be a man, just stop calling.” joey says and you swat his leg, he looks at you before pushing you to the side,

“watch it tribianni! i’m a whole lot tougher than you are,” you warn him,

“want a bet?” he asks you, and you smirk,

“yeah, $10 says i can beat you in an arm wrestle upstairs?” you say,

“it’s on!” you two shake hands,

“chandler, if you want, i’ll do it with you,” phoebe offers,

“oh thanks, but i think she’d feel like we’re ganging up on her,” chandler says,

“no, i mean, you break up with janice and i break up with tony,”

“oh you’re breaking up with tony?” monica asks her,

“yeah, i know he’s sweet, but it’s just not fun anymore, you know? i don’t know if it’s me or his hunger strike, or...” she trails off,

“does anybody want anything else?” rachel asks,

“oh, yeah. last week you had a wonderful nutty, chocolaty kind of a cakey pie-thing...” ross gets interrupted by rachel impatiently tapping her pen on her notepad, “nothing, just, just... i’m fine,”

“what’s the matter? why do scrunchy?” pheobe asks her,

“ugh, it’s my father, he wants to give me a mercedes convertible,” she sighs,

“man that guy.. he burns me up,” ross says sarcastically,

“why is that a problem?” you ask her,

“because, it’s a mercedes if i move back home,” she sighs again, “ugh, it was horrible! he called me “young lady””

“ooh, i hate when my father calls me that,” chandler says, probably not kidding,

“did he give you that, “you’re not up to this” thing again?” monica asks,

“oh, yeah. i actually got the extended disco version, with three choruses of, “you’ll never make it on your own”” she says,

“uh-huh, uh-huh,” pheobe nods her head, and you laugh,

the door to the coffe house opens and joeys ex-girlfriend angela walks in, looking extremely stunning,

“holy smokes is that angela?” you ask joey and he looks at her, his eyes widening,

“hi, joey,” she smiles seductively at him,

“oh my god it is,” he says,

“wow, being dumped by you obviously agrees with her,” monica said,

“are you going to go over there?” phoebe asks, joey looked at you, but you didnt see that, and he turned back to angela,

“no, yeah, no.” he looked at you again but low and behold, you didn’t see it, “okay, but not yet, i don’t want to seem to eager.” he sits back,

“one-mississippi. two-mississippi. three-mississippi... that seems pretty cool,” he got up and walked over to her.

“so, you guys got any plans tonight?” chandler asked,

“yep,” they all looked at you,

“cherry pie, remember? with my ba-bay!” you smiled at them and they nodded. you guys got up and grabbed your coats, waiting for joey before you all left.

you were getting a strange feeling from him, like he was a little distant when jamie was around, but when it was the seven of you or it was just you and him, did he not like jamie?

you were back at your apartment, bored out of your mind, so you decide to call ross, you know, see how he’s doing,

you picked up the phone and dialled his number, he answered as soon as it rang,

“hello?” you heard him say,

“hey ross!” you yelled,

“oh, hi y/n,” he sighed,

“wow, guess somebody’s not happy to see me- or hear me in this case,”

“no it’s not that it’s just- did you need anything?” he changed the subject,

“yes, i’m bored and i have nothing to do so, what are you doing?” you ask him,

“i’m with chandler at my apartment?” he offers.

“give me five minutes,”

you hang up the phone and rush to get ready so you weren’t bored anymore, and like you said, five minutes later you were banging on ross’ door.

“let me in! let me in! let me in!” you went to bang again before the door opened and you fell forward slightly,

“come in,” chandler sighed, closing the door after you,

“okay so what are we doing?” you asked them,

“we are helping ross get ready for laundry!” chandler said with the same excitement which made your face fall,

“laundry?”

“no but it’s good because it’s with monica and rachel,” ross tried to reason,

“and? i don’t have any laundry, but hurry up, once you go, me and chandler can go catch a movie or something,”

“okay, so-” ross was cut off by the sound of his phone ringing, he walked to the bedroom to answer it,

“so what movie?” you asked chandler,

“i dont know you’re the one who decided we should go,” he told you, following ross into the bedroom,

“dick,” you muttered following him, he put an arm around you when you got there.

“okay, bye.” ross said putting down the phone, “well, monica’s not coming. it’s just going to be me and rachel,”

you knew about ross’ giant crush on rachel, because it was so obvious.

“well, hold on there, camper, you sure you’ve thought this through?” chandler said to him,

“it’s laundry. the thinking through is pretty minimal,” he answered,

“see, it’s just you and rachel, just the two of you? this is a date, you’re going on a date,”

“what?” you scoffed,

“nu-uh,” ross said at the same time as you.

“yuh-huh,” chandler said,

“so, what are you saying here— i should shave again, pick up some wine? what?” ross worried,

“okay, ross. calm down, its fine,” you gave a death glare to chandler,

“first of all, you may want to rethink the dirty underwear,” chandler pointed to the basket,

ross looked at the two of you confused, “yeah i get what he means. this is basically the first time she’s gonna see your underwear, do you want it to be dirty?” you ask him,

“no,” he sighed,

“oh and uh, the fabric softener?” chandler asked,

“okay, okay, now, what is wrong with my snuggles?” chandler and you looked at eachother with wide eyes before back at ross, “it, what? it says i’m a sensitive, warm kind of guy, you know? like a little fuzzy bear,” he looked at you and chandler, “alright i can pick something else up on the way,”

“there you go,”

you and chandler were about to go catch a movie when he stopped you,

“i remember what i have to do now,” he told you,

“what?” you questioned,

“break up with janice with pheobe,” he said to you,

“chandler, come on! we never do stuff together!”

“now, that is not true, last week you uh, well you and i... we played softball,”

“that was with rachel, ross and joey!”

he looked at you apologetically, “fine, whatever. i’m coming until jamie comes though!”

“fine, that’s fine! that’s good! let’s go!” he grabbed your hand and ran to the coffee house as pheobe was already there,

“hey pheebs,” you said to her,

“hi, y/n,”

“tony not here yet?” you asked her,

“nope, neither is janice,” chandler said worriedly, “where are they?”

“you know, this is nice. we never do anything just the three of us,” phoebe says,

“it’s great, maybe tomorrow we can rent a car, run over some puppies,” chandler said,

“i don’t want to do that,”

you heard the door opening and janice walked in and you and pheobe turned to chandler before walking to the counter,

“hey pheebs?” you asked her,

“hey y/n?”

“did you notice something off about joey, like anytime we’re with jamie?” you asked her, her eyes widened but she quickly collected herself,

“no, why?” she said,

“i think he might not like jamie, and my friends liking my boyfriends are really important to me, you know?”

“yeah, sweetie. but i mean, maybe you shouldn’t be talking to me about this, maybe it’s joey you should talk to,”

“oh, you’re right. i hate it when you’re right,” you sighed and she rubbed your back,

“hey pheobe, you called me?” you both turned around to see tony standing there, and pheobe went to talk to him,

“hey gunther? can i have an espresso please?” you looked at chandler and saw how awkward he was, “two please? and a latte for janice,” he nodded.

he handed you the espresso and walked over to chandler and janice before handing them the drinks, chandler looked at you thankfully, so you smiled at him.

phoebe hugged tony and you looked at chandler to see him totally confused, and you shrugged.

“what?!” he exclaimed and janice looked up,

“what?”

“what.... did you get me there?” he saved himself,

you saw janice give chandler socks, and you chuckled before turning back to phoebe,

“so what are you going to say to him?” she asked you,

“i dont know pheebs, what do you say in that situation? “hey, do you like my boyfriend? if not that’s cool just me honest with me?”” you asked her,

“that’s good,” she said to you and you nodded,

it was later on and chandler still hadn’t broken up with janice, and had drunk about 9 espressos,

“chandler you can do it!” you told him,

“it’s just like pulling off a band-aid. okay, just do it really fast and then the wound is exposed,” pheobe guided him.

chandler sat back down next to janice,

“janice... hi janice. okay, here we go, i don’t think we should go out anymore,” chandler told her,

janice’s face fell and her mouth turned into an ‘o’ shape,

“all right,” she said, sitting back into her seat,

“well... well, there you go,” janice started to cry and looked up, fanning her face, “stop it. stop it, stop it,”

chandler looked at you and pheobe and you shared the same “oh my god” look.

she hadn’t taken it very well so this was try 358 of chandler to break up with janice, he was banging on the table, hyper because of how many espressos he had.

“here’s the thing janice, we’re different. you know i’m like the bing, bing, bing.” chandler emphasised with his hands, “and you’re like the boom boom, boom!” he emphasised with his hand but slapped janice right in the eye.

“my god!”

“ow,”

“i’m so sorry,”

“ow,”

“are you okay?”

“ow,” she got up and walked to the bathroom,

chandler tried to dig his head under the couch cushions but nothing worked, he was still visible.

“i hit her in the eye!” he yelled at you both. “this is the worst breakup in the history of the world!”

“oh, my god,” phoebe sighed,

“well, is she okay?” you asked,

“i dont know!”

phoebe was about to take a sip of her espresso when chandler took it and drank it himself,

“okay, how many of those have you had?” she asked him,

“oh, i don’t know, a million!” he said,

“chandler, shhh. easy, easy, go to your happy place, la la la la la la la,” pheobe began to sing,

“i’m fine! i’m fine! i’m not fine! here she comes, she’s coming!”

“okay, let me handle this,” phoebe said walking over to janice.

she talked to her for a while before giving her a hug, janice looked at chandler sympathetically before leaving the coffee house, leaving you and chandler baffled.

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baekterflyeffect · 4 years

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beginning of may ― b.b.h [tw!]

losing you is hard, but baekhyun knows ― you’re finally free from every pain and burden you’ve been carrying, and it is enough reason to continue with his life with a smile. a smile that you gave him.

characters: baekhyun and female reader genre: angst, slice of life word count: 2.6k warnings: major character death, mentions of: nicotine addiction, self harm, and suicide. ― note: most of the time, people write as an escape from their real life. and i am one of those people. please take the warnings seriously. i know it is some major, extremely triggering warnings, so please, if you couldn’t take it, do not read this fic. ― disclaimer: i am in no way romanticizing, glorifying, and normalizing all the warnings above. this piece is written for everyone who ever loses someone precious to their life. please stay the strongest, every storm will pass, eventually. for everyone who is struggling, please do not be afraid to seek help, either from friends or professionals. you might think your life didn’t matter, but always remember that you will never be alone and you are loved.

Baekhyun woke up at the feeling of a tongue being pressed against his cheeks; licking around the juncture of his nose. It was hard to open his eyes as he felt the drying tears stuck in between his lashes. He doesn’t remember the last time he didn’t go to sleep without tears in his eyes, neither he remembered when was the last time he woke up to your warmth. Today, as many other days before, he woke up with only An―the cat he rescued all those years ago―by his side.

“Okay, okay, stop, I’ll wake up now.” Baekhyun said as he placed his hand atop of An’s head, slowly scratching the back of her ear. When he was finally able to open his eyes, the whiteness of An’s furr and the brown eyes of hers filled his vision. He smiles, a genuine one.

Getting up isn’t hard, he did it for twenty nine years already, but today is different. It always was different every time he woke up a week before his birthday ever since you were no longer by his side. Today is the beginning of May, a day he will always treasure, because he knows, the first day of May is the month where you feel the happiest.

With a smile on his face, Baekhyun finally gets up to do his morning routine. Today is slower than his usual day, after all, he took the day off from his nine-to-five job. Because today is your day, and he will do everything to make it as special as it could be.

Baekhyun starts off by washing up, getting himself ready for the day. He couldn’t help but to notice how empty his bathroom is now, there are no longer traces of you, only your pink toothbrush stays in the mug together with his. The sight of your toothbrush able to make him form a smile. He remembered the first time you bought it, proudly showing him the couple toothbrush his strawberry patterns all over its handle; the only difference was, his is in blue. His mind wandered to all those days where you stood in front of the faucet, your short pink hair with black roots that he admires so much, formed into a bird's nest after a night's sleep.

Your body wash is no longer present in the bathroom, he had thrown it a long time ago as it already expired. The only remembrance of your scent is the vanilla scented shampoo he still purchases for himself. Memories of the both of you laughing together in the bathroom flashes through his mind, how you always playfully style his shampooed hair into a punk-rock style, how he press gentle kisses around the skin of your back.

When Baekhyun finishes with his shower, he walks to the kitchen, passing the balcony of the living room of his apartment. Nothing changes there, the white translucent curtains are still hanging, the round table with an ashtray on top of it is still there. The only difference was the lack of your presence. He decides to take a walk towards the balcony after he places the food for An, stepping outside to let the warm breeze of spring hit his skin. There’s a sense of familiarity when he looks around to find a pot of faux orchid flowers resting at the corner of the balcony, of course, it was your doing.

The ashtray that you used to snub your cigarettes is clean from its residue, having the owner no longer use it. Baekhyun traces the edge of the ashtray with his fingertips, remembering how happy you were when he gave you the pink ashtray as a present.

“You know, you’re going to ruin every bottle we could recycle because you decided to make it as a makeshift ashtray.” Baekhyun deadpanned, receiving him a series of laughter from you.

“I don’t care enough to buy myself an ashtray.”

Baekhyun shook his head, for an avid smoker like you, you really were careless. He let his eyes wander to your figure, seated nicely with both of your legs up, looking as tiny as ever. The light of the balcony accentuated the pinkness of your hair. You looked beautiful, with your eyes reflecting the glimmering lights from the city, a stick of cigarette between your fingers, and smoke coming out from your mouth. For Baekhyun, looking at you like this brought him a feeling of contentment. Because he knew, you’re most comfortable when you are smoking.

“You know,” Baekhyun starts, still looking at you as if you’re his most prized present, “I never ask you how does smoking feel.”

You turned his head to look at him, dropping the used cigarette inside the bottle you used as an ashtray. “It feels calming,” you slowly start, voice ever so soft as you take another stick from the pack, “like every problem in my life is gone, and it makes me think clearer.” Continues you after you light up the new cigarette.

“Ironically, I know smoking is bad. It destroys my body in ways I dont understand and refuse to acknowledge, but the taste of nicotine in my mouth enables me to forget about everything. I always feel like I couldn’t function whenever I didn’t smoke. And in a way, it is the most calming method of harming myself.”

The first time Baekhyun learned that you were an avid smoker, every fiber of his body wanted you to stop. He still does up until this very moment, but he knew you. He understood you, and if smoking is the only way for you to be able to feel peace, Baekhyun would never want to be the one who took it away from you. With a smile―a tight one―Baekhyun places a pink ashtray on the table, gaining your attention.

“I see. Here’s a little present so we could still recycle the bottles we have.”

You smiled at that, right away pressing the burned side of your cigarette in the ashtray to jump and hug him, telling him how grateful you are for him, “I love you, so much.”. With vanilla and a hint of nicotine smell filled his nose, Baekhyun hugged you back. Ever so tightly, because he never wants to let go.

For the first time of the day, his smiles sadly. Because at the end of the day, even nicotine was unable to save you from all the pain you’ve dealt with.

Today is a good day, the sun shines ever so brightly and it becomes Baekhyun’s companion as he walks inside the cemetery. His hands are full, with one hand holding a bouquet of your favorite, and the other carrying a bag filled with your favorite food and a cake. Baekhyun memorized the way to your resting place, having to visit you for way too many times for him to count.

Once he arrives at where you are resting, he places the bag down on the floor, taking a key from his pocket to open the glass that keeps your ashes safe. There’s a framed picture of you in it, you were smiling so happily that it made Baekhyun’s heart churns in pain. Of course, he remembers what happened in the picture; he was the one who took it when the both of you visited a strawberry farm. The last trip that you went with him before everything went south. He knows, in the full version of the picture you were holding a basket of freshly picked strawberries and the other was holding his hand.

You looked so happy in the picture, the pink beret you wore matched the washed out color of your hair, eyes crinkled into crescent moons. Beautiful, was the word he muttered after he took the picture. Because you are, always will, be beautiful in his eyes. Despite your permanent wounds, your emptiness.. nobody will ever be as beautiful as you when you looked the most carefree in Baekhyun’s eyes.

Baekhyun places the bouquet he brought inside the glass box, replacing the old one. The pink orchid flowers complimented your hair in the picture, after all, pink was your color. After he is done, he takes a box from inside the bag, opening it to reveal a slice of your favorite red velvet cake. There’s a candle stuck on the center of it, in which he lit up with a lighter he bought earlier.

“Happy birthday, princess.” Baekhyun says as he closes his eyes, making his prayer before he blow off the fire.

The start of May is your day. It is a day that Baekhyun treasures, because it is the day where you were born, and the day where you finally reached peace. The day where you are finally able to be happy, without any pain and burden to carry.

“Today, you are officially twenty-six. But it doesn’t matter, because today is the third year you are finally able to be at peace. It was hard at first, that I don’t see you anymore. You should know that your annoying stash of pink hair dye is still inside the cabinet of our bathroom, I bet it’s expired now though.” Baekhyun shook his head, then he smiles, a genuine one with happiness and contentness. “I’m living well, in fact, I just got promoted. If you were here, you would squeak so hard in happiness and my ears will definitely bleed at it, huh?” In the beginning of May after you reached your peace, Baekhyun stood in front of your ashes. Filling you in about his life journey, how everything hasn’t been the same yet everything is finally okay.

Hours passed, the cake and food Baekhyun brought with him all finished alongside the story of his journey. With a final look, he smiles once again. “I miss you, though. Every single day I missed you. Though, I am happy. So happy that you’re finally free from all the pain you’ve been carrying. And I know you’re still here, inside my heart. ‘Till we meet again, princess. I love you, always.”

"Baekhyun? Hey." You nervously run your fingers to the messy tangle of your hair, pushing it back making the natural color of your hair show. "This is so awkward, I apologize for doing this.. I know I must be the worst person ever to do this. At first, I didn't plan to leave you a video message like this, but I realized it would be way too unfair if I didn't." With a sigh, you paused.

"Baekhyun. Baekhyun. Byun Baekhyun. Baekhyunnie. Hyunnie. Hyun. Baek. Ah, your name sounds so beautiful that I know I will miss calling it. Remember that one time you got so annoyed at me for repeatedly calling your name without any purpose at all? Yeah, I do remember." A soft, yet sad chuckle left your lips. "I remember you tackled me to our bed to tickle me until I couldn't breathe, you're so mean for that!"

Your mouth was parted for a good minute, not being able to say the words you needed to say. But with a smile that was sadder than the previous one, and your eyes gleaming with fresh tears, you continued. "Being with you... I feel every sort of thing that I didn't know I would be able to feel. The love you made me feel is so beautiful to me, Baekhyun. Because you don't only love me for the good in me, you learned, you tried your hardest to understand all of my flaws, all of my scars, all of the things I hate about myself.. and it is beautiful. The times we spent together are the reasons why I manage to survive to this day. You taught me so many things in life, you showed me the light I never thought I am able to see. I appreciate all of that."

A choked out sob escaped from your mouth, making you exhale for a brief minute.

"Baekhyun. I love you, I love you so much. There is nothing I love more on this earth except you. I don't only love you for the love you give me, but I love you for the littlest things. Like how your lips stretched into a lopsided smile after you teased me, how your laughter sounded so breathless, how even though you have the worst haircut you are still able to pull it off. Then to your amazing personality. Your kindness to people, the way you are never arrogant and always humble nonetheless how successful you are. How loyal you are to your friends, and how you always remember your roots. I love all of them."

On the screen, you were now fully sobbing. Tears running down your face and breathing seemed hard. "Please," you whimpered as you clutch your own chest, "please forgive me for leaving you. For not being brave enough to go pass through the storm that continuously hit me."

You stopped yourself, trying your best to even out your breathing, and once you were done, you looked at the screen again. Now with a smile that no longer looks sad or painful, but a smile that makes you look ever so beautiful. "But, Baekhyun.. This decision that I made.. believe me, it is for the best. I want you to trust me, that I will be okay. Free from everything that chained me and hurt me. Please don't beat yourself over my decision, because it is not your fault. Sometimes, the pain is too much to bear, and I want to be at peace. Regretfully, this is the only way."

With a shaky hand, you placed a kiss on your index and middle fingers before pressing it right where the camera was located. "I love you, Byun Baekhyun. Please don't ever change, please don't ever lose your light. Live the hardest, because even though I am too far away to reach, I will always be by your side. Thrive, Baekhyun. That is my last wish for you. Once again, I love you. And this is not goodbye, because one day, in another lifetime, in another universe, we will meet again.. when that time comes, I hope you will welcome me with the tightest hug and a kiss that leaves me breathless. At last, thank you. For loving me, guiding me, being in my life. Being able to spend my years with you isis the most wonderful gift I will ever receive. I love you, Byun Baekhyun, until the day I stop breathing. Always, and forever."

additional note: + the beginning of may = 1 may = my birthday + “an” is a part of my real name, yes, i want to be a cat + the strawberry patterned toothbrushes are the ones i used, pink for me and blue for my brother + my favorite color is pink, and i have a pink beret that match with my hair color (obviously, pink) + plastic bottle as a makeshift ashtray is something that i always use, then my boss gifted me a pink ashtray + i have boxes of pink hair dye and i know my mom would never throw it away even though its expired and im no longer around

whoever you are, wherever you are, i know some days are hard, and some days are too rough to handle. it’s okay to be vulnerable, you’re only human and vulnerability is not a weakness. but please! always remember to reach your hands out to people to ask for help, because i am sure somebody will take your hand to help you.

be brave. be fearless. make the impossible, possible.

thank you for reading this piece, stay strong, whoever you are.

#baekhyun angst #baekhyun scenario #baekhyun scenarios #exosnet #bbh-net #livia writes #i feel like if i said anything more i will be the one who cant stop crying

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