i dont know why the running joke of this chapter is kakashi fearing for his kidneys. where did that come from. WHY did that come from.

i should probably cut that in editing it's a little ridiculous.

except it makes me giggle every time so maybe i should leave it there.

deer!reader x jj

~🦢~🌸~🦢~🌸~🦢~🌸~🦢~🌸~🦢~🌸~🦢~🌸~🦢~🌸~🦢~

when he first met you, jj had no clue what to think of you except that you were a bit odd! you had barely spoke, just staring at him intently with your wide eyes

pope had strung you along, meeting you in the math team and the two of you got along well- both being the only people to have those long conversations about endless nothings on topics no one else would get

despite your silence and slightly discomforting staring, he found himself liking you; the way your eyes would dart around everywhere before finding their ways back to the blues of his irises

“aaand she’s doing it again” jj nudges to the brunette beside him, not moving his eyes from your conversation with sarah and kie

“what are you on about” john b asks, half listening to the answer “she isn’t blinking….again!” the blonde exclaims, hands jutting out dramatically “ion know how they don’t see it..s’kind of scary”

“scary…really?” john b deadpans, looking up from his phone, now facing the blonde eye to eye “i have seen you watch someone’s insides get gutted out an’ thats what you find scary”

“not scary…more so creepy” the blonde rambles, mind trailing off in his thoughts “slightly cute but like scary cute… you get me?” he turns to the brunette, who has know tuned himself out of the conversation, making his way over to pope- leaving jj alone, as he continued to bore his eyes into the back of your head

whilst the rest of the pogues had trailed off to go to the shops, promising they would be back soon, had left jj, you and the twinkie in a slightly uncomfortable situation

“y’know im like killer at staring competitions… so like you might aswell give it up now” the blonde announces in the car, as both of you continue to face each other with not a blink in sight

to that he is met with the ongoing silence, causing him to slowly gulp as the realisation dawns upon him that the rest of the group is not coming anytime soon

and there it is! the site he thought he would never see, you slowly blink as a small smile crosses your face as the blondes mouth slowly goes agape

all hell breaks loose as he cheers,a mixture of laughter and genuine excitement echoing through the small van and throughout all his ruckus he noticed the tips of your fingers grazing against his hand, softly wrapping around them as you shifted closer

and before you knew it he’d won you over

~🦢~🌸~🦢~🌸~🦢~🌸~🦢~🌸~🦢~🌸~🦢~🌸~🦢~🌸~🦢~

notes + creds: deer reader is by far my favourite reader variant of @princessbrunette because i am her she is me!!

NO CAUSE THIS BLOG IS A GODSEND.

Like me? I don't hate Aang. Or at least I'm trying not to, because it feels weird to me (personally) to hate a child, when he's just the product of some REALLY SKEWED WRITING.

But EVERY TIME I SEE AN ANALYSIS ON ATLA AND HOW AANG REALLY JUST. Was not it. It gets a little harder to not be a hater (I do my best though) AND I HAVE TO SAY. I absolutely adore how open you are with just. Hating him. Like I'm not even being sarcastic, it's just really refreshing to see someone so willing to express their pure, unfiltered opinion on a character. Especially now, where most people are concerned with impressions, or like offending people, it's just like a splash of cold water(in a good way, I love cold water) to see someone be so clear and unafraid to just. Hate on him (IN A GOOD WAY).

Along with the fact that so many people like to act like Aang is a perfect child, or that he's "only 12 so he doesn't know any better". I can't stand it when people excuse their favourite characters' flaws in favour of only seeing a perfect character.

Coz like. Do you really like a character if you're not seeing them/accepting them fully? Like, they're your favourite. But are you really appreciating them if you're not accepting criticism of them? Because then you're actively rejecting their flaws, which are still a part of that character. You're rejecting an entire aspect of their character. Which I feel is like. Chopping the character in half. It's not real appreciation, if that makes sense??

SORRY THIS GOT A LITTLE LONG, I GOT KIND OF AGITATED. BUT WHAT I MEANT TO SAY IS THAT I LOVE THAT YOU HATE ON AANG EVEN IF I DON'T HATE ON HIM.

I really hope I didn't come off as offensive (or rambly), because I REALLY DO MEAN THIS IS A GOOD WAY

First, I just want to say, it's totally alright to hate a FICTIONAL child (ask a few parents how they felt about Caillou. Go ahead. Prepare to hear some thoughts...). The thing about hating fictional children is that you're not hating on an actual flesh and blood human. You're hating a construct created by adults who should know better (especially in this case). You're hating tropes and traits and maybe even character design . That is not the same as hating a person, no matter what Aang stans try to tell you. You don't have to hate Aang, but you don't have to feel bad if you do hate him, either.

I will never stop voicing my opinion because strangers on the internet don't like it. It's a cartoon. It has no bearing on anyone's life (except maybe Bryke, I guess? ). I'm still having fun revisiting the show, and talking about it on this site (and only this site), but that's all it is. A fun way to waste time. Anyone who is personally offended by my not liking Aang (or Mai, or Azula, or any other character we disagree on), has a personal problem. An internal problem. One I hope they can recognize and grow from before they encounter people with different opinions in the wild.

I got the idea for an SCP hermitcraft au so here is my rambles

(sidenote: I don’t know an insane amount about SCP but I do know some, so. And if anything sounds similar to an existing SCP that’s not intentional)

- (who is what SCP is at the very bottom, if anyone is curious about it feel free to send more in my inbox)

Site 24-22 Director: Xisumavoid

scientists: Zedaph, StressMonster01, Docm77 Mumbo

Former scientists: Geminitay, Welsknight. grian

Safe SCP’s:

SCP 2-82; Reviewed Stressmonster01 by: the skinless clone of SCP 1-82. This SCP fears people, and often avoids the staff. SCP 2-82 does not try to fight staff when approached, but it does seem to know where SCP 1-82 is, however, it will not reveal its location.

SCP 88:

Reviewed by: Zedaph.

SCP 88 is abnormal, having three eyes, which color varies depending on state. And hair that is both iridescent, and fire-like. 88 is kept in a cold room to keep it contained, even if it does not try escape. 88 only responds to Dr. Zedaph, and SCP 469-78. Though, the two SCP’s should be kept apart at all times, even if 469-78 will try to escape to see 88.

Euclid SCP’s:

SCP 4897, and SCP 23. : reviewed by: Zedaph, Mumbo Jumbo, Grian

These two appeared to be normal people, being found in a nearby forest with. The taller one, 4897, said they were trying to ‘find Bdubs.’ But, the mentioned person was no where in sight. After observing the pair using magic to create illusions, and copy things, and observing them desecrate an abandoned camp sight, they were contained. These SCP’s are good at trickery, and lying. Dr. Zedaph didn’t used to be on the case, but after the inflicted insanity upon Dr. Grian, he was replaced. The same thing appears to be happening to Dr. jumbo

SCP 469-78: reviewed by: Grian, Geminitay , Docm & Stressmonster01. This SCP looks like an angel, appearing with blank eyes, and large white and purple wings. 469-78 will not move if attention is not given to him, only responding when the scientists are looking. 469-78 most often stays in a kneeling position, as if praying, with red, blood-like tears streaming down it’s face. If 469-78 is escaping, playing drumming music will stop it in its tracks. This scp will often escape to try to see SCP 88, despite the hostility both carry towards each other.

Keter SCP’s:

SCP 1-82. : Status: free, and dangerous.

Case reviewed by: StressMonster01 Welsknight

This SCP is…a strange thing. It seems to be a normal man, except the few times it has been captured by the foundation, it has managed to clone itself, and other scientists within the facility. The clone’s created always turn out..abnormal. The personal clone of the SCP appears skinless, but the clone does avoid confrontation with staff, and other SCP’s, and it does not try to escape unlike SCP 1-82.

SCP 1-45:

Status: Contained

Reviewed by: Grian & Docm77.

his SCP is a dangerous clone of the former doctor, Wels. After an incident with SCP 1/82, the doctor was transformed into a parallel version of himself, appearing like a knight in black armor with fire-like eyes and hair. This SCP has no recolection of who it used to be. This SCP often will try to escape to get to SCP 1-39 to “Destroy the world.” Open fire, metal, and SCP 1-39 should be kept away from SCP 1-45 at all times.

SCP 1-39, SCP 2-96, and SCP 0-856. Reviewed by: Docm77 & Geminitay

Status: Captured.

SCP 1-39, and SCP 0-856 were created together by SCP 1-82, forming from the lost part of Xisuma’s arm, and a framnent of his jaw. SCP 1-39 appears as a red-and black younger version of Xisuma, he has the magic capabilities of escape from SCP 0-586 and will often go to fight Xisuma.

SCP 0-856 refuses to speak, and is inseparable from 1-39. Both torment each other, but separation of the two hurts both of them.

However, 2-96, a child similar to 1-82 in age seems to keep both calm, and from escape. 2-96 Looks almost identical to Dr. zedaph, but he denies any relation to the SCP. 2-96 will often talk about being a ‘hero’ and seems to have the strange of a pocket dimension on his hair, and super strength. This SCP is safe, but it is best to keep the 3 together.

List:

Scp 1-82 / 2-82: VintageBeef - Skinlessbeef

SCP 1-45 : Helsknight

SCP 1-39, Evil Xisuma SCP 2-96 Wormman, and SCP 0-856 JeffTheMinion

SCP 4897, and SCP 23: GoodtimesWithScar, Cubfan135

SCP 88: TangoTek

SCP 469-78: ImpulseSV

What would you recommend for someone getting their first vibrator? (Preferably with discrete packaging...)

Okay so this depends a lot on who you are, what appeals to you, and what your budget is. There’s no right answer. Normally I’d have a conversation with you before making recommendations, but since this is an anon ask I’ll take it step by step and cover several bases. You should expect to spend at least $30 plus tax/shipping regardless of what you go with.

The stores I most often recommend are Shevibe and PeepshowToys (add a .com to either name to find their sites) and both ship discretely and internationally. Most sex toy retailer websites will have a section in their FAQ page where they outline their discrete shipping policy. If they don’t, I would honestly take that as a strong sign not to buy from them.

*This is your usual reminder to never buy any sex toys (and preferably not lube either) from Amazon. They do not adequately distinguish between legitimate items and knocks offs, which is really important when talking about something that is going to be in contact with your bits. And they certainly don’t give a shit about body safe materials.

The criteria I recommend when choosing any vibrator are:

Body safe material. For vibrators this mostly comes down to silicone (#1 choice) or ABS hard plastic. Soft plastics (jelly, TPE, anything that looks like a gummy bear, anything squishy that isn’t silicone) will degrade and harbor bacteria over time, leading to bacterial infections and in very bad cases, chemical burns. Not worth it, especially when you could have a body safe toy that will last much, much longer.

Waterproof. “Submersible” is ideal, “splashproof” is acceptable but you’ll have to be careful when washing it. Some exceptions apply.

Rechargeable. Listen, you don’t want to be fucking around with replacing batteries and keeping a bunch of AAs in your drawers. Rechargeables are also more likely to be better quality.

For a first vibe I tend to recommend a bullet vibe, which are named for their shape. They are meant for clitoral stimulation but not internal use, which is fine because most people are more likely to be able to orgasm from clit stimulation than from internal stimulation. These will run in the $30-45 range for basic models. I like the Charged Vooom ($40) for a nice basic bullet with decent vibration quality, but there’s lots of good options. If you’re a “best of the best” kind of person, you’ll want the We-Vibe Tango X ($80)

If you’re more in favor of internal stim, I would recommend something with a hooked-forward head so it can hit the g-spot more effectively. These can be used externally too, but they’re more likely to cost more. The Pillow Talk Sassy ($60) is my #1 rec here, hands down.

There are also pressure wave toys, which are not what most people think of when they think vibrators, but they are very reliable and very popular for good reason. To be honest, this is what I reach for when I just want to get off and don’t want to work too hard for it. There are lots of models and brands but I recommend the Satisfyer Pro 2 Next Gen ($55) so much I bought a second one when it seemed like the first was dying after many years. The old one still works fine and now I have 2 of them ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

There are also of course wand vibrators (of which the Magic Wand Rechargeable ($130) or Plus ($80) is still the reigning champion) but unless you have reason to believe you need strong vibration and noise won’t be an issue, I wouldn’t consider them beginner vibes.

Having said ALL of that, you’ll also need to buy toy cleaner and preferably lube but you can find my rambles about those in other posts in my sex ed tag [edit: post about cleaning sex toys and post about lube]

And as a final note, Black Friday is coming up and basically all sex toy retailers will have some nice deals for that, so if you’re looking at something that isn’t currently in your price range, consider checking back around then!

My post video ramble - not an analysis so much as just an emotional reaction/my feelings.

I'm really proud of Dream's video and what all he put into it. I think this was something he needed to do on multiple levels, many just for his own personal peace of mind, but being honest about things he never should have been forced to lie about in the first place (the doxxing details, his previous weight, information about his childhood, etc) took a lot of guts. He's never lacked that so I'm not surprised but I'm also sure he knows he probably could have continued on having a career by staying silent and saying nothing on those topics, and he chose not to. (And as one post I saw said, voluntarily handing over multiple new pictures of himself when he was fat was a cunt move that I love him forever for.)

In terms of the allegations, I think most people who followed the situation (more closely than just looking at twitter trending topics or people that blatantly hated him and wanted to drive him to suicide) already knew that the accusations were a mix of blatant and malicious lies, misinformation, and a dash of interpersonal drama from people Dream knew four years ago. I think he laid the evidence out neatly and as clearly as possible considering these are some complex topics and trying to prove a negative always puts you at a disadvantage.

For anyone reading this post from other fandoms that aren't aware, immediately after the video the person that provided the burner account with information came forward saying she was lying to the burner account and Dream did nothing wrong. This is the situation where there was no victim to begin with, because the woman involved (16/17 at the time, 21 now) has said she was never a victim and was not groomed. So the video also served the purpose of the people making those false allegations being forced to come forward about them being fake/wrong. Which is unsurprising since the people involved were basically dredging up the equivilent of high school drama where they were trying to get with the most popular kid at school (Munchy, mcyt in general, friends with popular streamers before he was even posting on youtube) and mad when they can't bag him. So it's unsurprising that people who tried to get something going with him and it didn't work felt scorned and then shit talked him, and fair enough, that's what humans do. But that years later it has turned into grooming allegations and pedophilia is just fucking inhumane and would never have happened if this had been anyone but Dream. Sites like KiwiFarms decided years ago, before any of this, that Dream was someone they wanted to take down and they spent years slowly poisoning public opinion and people's eagerness to believe anything bad about him is just an end result of this.

In terms of the rest of the video: I think the Quackity part wasn't necessary to the video but I do think that was just a part of what Dream felt like he needed to say. Same with the bit about shipping and nsfw fanworks/the fanart account, I think he wanted to cover all bases in terms of things people could possibly try and use to discredit him, and so those don't even feel like they were geared toward us at all. That was Dream talking to outside fandom people and trying to image rehab. I think fandom should continue on as before except with less people clamoring to show Dream every single thing they make in terms of shippiness.

oh yeah, now that it's closed, here's the post i wanted to make about that rt rebrand poll i made last week. this will be pretty long and kinda rambly, so feel free to just blacklist the "long post" tag :)

so like, i made the poll because of 2 main reasons: 1. because of a mix of comments i saw on other sites from people who also didn't know what color it was supposed to be, and 2. because of myself confidently believing it was some shade of orange until i switched from looking at it from my laptop screen to my phone screen.

it being a godawful shade of red/red-orange was mentioned in the article itself, which is why my question was phrased "what color do you guys think it is?" since either red or orange is both technically correct. going more into the specifics of the poll numbers:

tumblr doesn't show the specific number of people who voted for any given poll option by default, just the percentage, so i went digging and followed this tutorial to get the raw data using firefox's inspect tool. the final results are, with 934 votes total, red at 551 votes (59%), orange at 303 votes (~32.4%), and other/a secret third thing at 80 votes (~8.6%).

red winning wasn't a surprise, really, but i was pleasantly surprised at how many people didn't have a definite answer or switched between answers like i did. i can't exactly pin down why that is, but if i had to wager some guesses...

the color scheme has a high chance of being a callback to rooster teeth's Popular Web Series Red Versus Blue™:

and with a want/need for rt to rebrand, the idea of keeping the color scheme while also making it modern and pop out is really cool, but its execution is uh...

i couldn't fit everyone's tags, but you get the gist. it fucking sucks, man.

as @god-of-arts-and-crafts has pointed out:

orange and blue are complementary colors, with them being opposite each other on a color wheel except the people who made the rebrand chose a deeper shade of blue??? they couldn't even get that right, oh my fucking god, so while its technical color is red-orange, it can be overwhelmingly orange when paired with a similarly bright shade of blue, which is what's causing many people eyestrain. hell, the first time i looked at the picture when the news dropped, it literally gave me a headache lol

finally, as i've said in the tags of a different post about this eyesore, this is an accessibility nightmare. with the worst color combination possible, the colors used for the new font and logo are definitely not ada-compliant. there are free sites out there to test images for general accessibility issues. contrastchecker is what i use sometimes, and below is what i got using red-orange as the background and blue as the foreground, and vice versa:

(both versions had the same ratio and color difference lmao)

the americans with disabilities act recommends that the contrast ratio be 7 at the lowest, but should ideally be higher than that, if possible. this is objectively and subjectively a very bad corporate rebrand, and i really, really want rt to break their "no jokes on april 1st because that's our anniversary" rule this year. if for nothing else, then just so that people who haven't read the variety article and/or the reactions on social media aren't jumpscared once the new intros/endcards/whatever else start rolling in.

hi !!!!!

Hi !!! I'm Corin, I'm an unlabelled aroace trans demiboy (he/it/yip/fox/star, he/it primary) who loves loves loves rain world !!!

i have a lizard :3

Just a warning, my blog will probably contain a lot of shipping !! I tag all posts I reblog or create that include shipping with #shipping and #rw shipping since that's basically all I do

please do not send me grasshopper or cricket images / sounds

please do not send me slime gifs / videos

I'm a true and non-true fox cladotherian (meaning i am every single fox, including non-true ones so if they have fox in the name, i am them !!!) with a red fox kit and bat-eared fox "primary", gargoyle gecko and reticulated python therian, as well as rain world yellow + cyan lizard as well as rain world rivulet kin and Hornet hollow knight kin :3 I am all of these !!!! Please do not tell me that im not, I do understand I am human in body but I'm alterhuman anyways

DNI proshippers, zoophiles, pedophiles, necrophiles, anti lgbtq+, anti alterhuman / nonhuman, anti kin, generally rude people, aphobes, racists, sexists, ableists, pro-life, terfs, ect. Basic DNI criteria.

Please do not interact if you are younger than 13 years old !!

Please do not interact if you kin rivulet !!!

Adults can interact as long as you aren't an nsfw blog and aren't going to be weird.

more below !!!!!!! :33 tags, sideblogs, and other info

just a warning. i should NEVER be allowed to participate in favorite region discussions. it will always be the wall. it always has been the wall.

i LOVE LOVE LOVE yellow lizards.

I draw sometimes !! Mostly slugcats, rw lizards, foxes, and cats

my tags-

#kit yips - me rambling / being silly

#rolly says hi - posting abt my bearded dragon, rolly (pronounced raw-lee)

#stressed lizard - having difficulty typing due to gargoyle gecko shifts, usually these posts are negative and may be hard to understand.

#stressed lizard may bite - same as above except i will likely be ruder, more negative, and more confused. overwhelmed kinda

#lizard may bite - ruder, more negative, more confused, often vent posts. not having claw shifts that cause typing struggles

sideblogs- @ask-rw-dark-au - ask blog for my rain world au !!!!

@cheddarkit - nonhuman blog !!!

@rainworldlizardcatalogue - a lizard catalogue run by me and my friend tom :3 kinda like everyscavever but for lizards !!!!

@the-rivulet-rw - my riv kin / roleplay blog !!!!

my friend once told me if i was a slugcat i'd be spearmaster + if spearmaster talked they would sound like me and idk how to feel about that

i do enjoy rw shipping !!! i tag all posts including shipping with both #shipping and #rw shipping

my favorite ships are puffball (saint and gourm) and deepsea / lanternfish / starfish (rivulet and nightcat)

I'm a minor !!

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So, the Star Trek fandom is old, of course. And with Prodigy saved it's not unlikely we'll continue to exist for quite a while longer. And it's got me thinking. I've been viewing old fanworks from pretty much the moment I got into fandom culture at all over a decade ago and continued to do so for every fandom I've joined since that had existed long enough for this to be an option. Especially in my early days, most fics I read were at least 5 years old or more.

And trek is so long standing, it's really a great place to be in for this. I've read multiple Voy fics from the 90s and it's awesome that we have this option. Obviously pre internet fandom stuff isn't as well preserved since there's not many people transcribing their old zines and stuff like that. But nowadays, with fan run non-profit hosting sites like ao3 and also general increased efforts to preserve internet content, the stuff we publish now might just be here to stay.

Obviously, with bigger pairings (and also gen) old fics tend to get buried unless they're either outstandingly exceptional or culturally impactful (eg the fic featuring the oc Dr Mary Sue - in fact a trek fic btw, I don't recall the title nor have I read it but I just know it's archived somewhere) but rarepair fics are often sought after longer because there's just not as much to read for them.

Basically, what I'm saying is... I think it's very possible that sometime in the 2050s a young trekkie who hasn't even been born yet might be a big Voyager fan, they might love Tuvok/Suder and they might just read your fics about them and maybe those will even be their favourite. And isn't that so beautiful? And isn't that so human? Someone reading something written three decades prior about something from three decades before that. Stories that weave connections through generations. Makes you almost feel like time doesn't matter as much. It's nice.

Anyway, sorry for my 3am ramblings lol, my brain just wouldn't shut up about it

Yeah, I sometimes think about stuff like that too~!! I specifically remember when I first got into Star Trek it was because of Tuvok and I started creating art and fics of him because I could find barely any at the time. It always makes me so happy when people on here or ao3 take the time to engage with the stuff I make because I was really on here being like "If Tuvok has one fan it'll be me" and now here you all are saying "Let me on the bandwagon too!" and it's a really fun ride <3 Sometimes when I'm feeling a bit vain I like to think Hey! Maybe some day a new Tuvok fan will look up his name and find a lot more waiting for them than I did! And they'll scroll through pages and pages of art and speculation and screenshots and think.... "Wait, one guy did all this?? Was he like, ok???? Seriously, one dude???" and that's beautiful~

An Author's Rambling

I'm not really sure how to do this social media'ing thing. I don't use this site, or really have any desire to do so, so I feel like some hack making self-advertisements with the help of guides and AI and stuff, just throwing them into the wind where they'll be seen by no-one, because I don't have a follower base that would reblog them. It might seem self-defeatist to not want to really do the social media thing, but I'm asocial, a hermit, content to not interact with other humans for the most part, plenty neurodivergent. I guess this ramble is also me technically coming out in public pretty widely. Yeah, like Reggie, the narrator/main protag in my webnovel series, I'm an aro-ace with neurodivergencies up the wazoo, disabled in a few ways.

What am I hoping to accomplish? Just to get "An Age of Mysterious Memories" out there to people that need it, that need to be seen, to feel represented. But, like I said, posting here feels like throwing fliers into the wind, hoping that they'll land somewhere that someone picks it up and goes, "Huh, neat, maybe I'll check that out someday when I'm bored or depressed."

I'm actually surprised that a couple of my posts have been seen by at least one person that wasn't on my follower list, which, hey, shoutout to you new fam.

This social media stuff really burns me out and detracts from my writing, but between this, and some pretty-expensive google advertising, I don't know how else to offer up my story to the world.

I don't even care about "conversions" or conversion to click ratio or whatever. I have 0 patrons on Patreon, and that's fine. I've been skating by in life on the thin ice of every new day (Thank you Jethro Tull's Ian Anderson, heh.)

I guess maybe I should ask how I should even do this. Should I get more personal? Post more ramblings, with popular tags, and just hope that those bring traffic, and then hope that that traffic sees that I have a free webnovel up?

A lot of the guides suggest quantity, and a regular posting schedule for this social media stuff that's way too hard for me to keep up without burning out, because I have chapters going up every day or every other day, basically, nonstop. In the approximately two years since i started getting serious with my webnovel series, I've averaged at least a chapter every other day. Some days I write ten to twenty chapters, maybe a few days in a row, then I don't write anything for a month or two, because titling them, posting them, advertising them, burns me out. I could keep writing, forever and ever, even if that means writing chapters I can't post yet (I have so many chapters written for the next volume in my series that it's not even funny.) Or I could write side-projects, or fanfic I guess. I took my first foray into that a while back, and I kind of want to do a reread on my fanfic and plot out a conclusion to it, instead of leaving it hanging like it is. But fanfic isn't my baby, it's not what I want to get seen.

What I want seen is AAoMM, because it's... it's the representation, it's me putting myself out there, my internals, my neurodivergencies into a narrator, my Q status in the lgbtqia, having intrusive thoughts and not acting on them, and just so much more, that I know other people identify with, and honestly need. The representation matters, and I just want to provide that, because I know people who have been, or are hurting, or struggling, or are just in a funk, or depressed, or bored, or any number of things, that share so many of the traits that Reggie carries, that I carry. Several of my readers have said that it feels like the thoughts that are expressed are them in the situations Reggie is in. I don't think I've seen another adventure novel series where we get stream-of-consciousness moment-to-moment inner narration of a neurodivergent narrator that falls into the lgbtq community.

What a niche, right? Except... it's not. We're all having our own inner adventures. We all do have a stream of consciousness, whether we acknowledge it or not, and there are *Tons* of people out there who are neurodivergent in the lgbtqia community. Hell, at this point in Earth's history, I'd be surprised if anyone has survived unscathed without any neurodivergencies, trauma, or panic. We went through a global epidemic, a pandemic. That must have been rough on you peeps out there that actually leave your homes and do stuff with other humans. My sympathy to you guys. I'm a hermit, my life got a little bit easier, because things started allowing web-based doctor's visits, and delivery of groceries, and other stuff to help with social distancing. I'm rambling, but I just want to give AAoMM to everyone who needs it.

I want to nerd out about my webnovel series with people, and answer questions ranging from silly, to heart-wrenching. Why? Because I am in a good place, I've gotten somewhere in life that I feel content, despite all my comorbid things, all the depression and trauma and anxiety and social-phobia and adhd and spectrum'ness and the struggle with identity, especially my AA agendered ace identity, that I've slid around on, and worried I'd invalidated myself over the years, and everything else I've got, gone through, carry around, or deal with. Reggie's narration is that--, that beacon of, no matter how hard things get, what slams your mind with intrusive thoughts, that there's hope, that there's warm, soft times, contented times, happy times, ecstatic times, somewhere along the tunnel that is life's journey. Also that you can slide around on the scale of your agenderness or aromanticness, or your sexuality, and that that's okay, that you still are who you feel you are, or say you are, no matter what others think, that there can be romances and fluff and all kinds of things that are exceptions to rules, whether those rules are imposed by others, or yourself.

It feels like I'd look like I was shilling or pandering though if I interjected all the tags though, for every chapter, because not every chapter does it really come up that Reggie(and most of the inner circle) is at least technically agendered, or that there are several LGB relationships for side characters, or--. Well, it is always pretty evident that Reggie's brain is neurodivergent, we hear every thought that Reggie ever thinks, including the intrusive ones, almost every thought anyway.

But I also sort of want to put AAoMM in front of non-ally neurotypicals who are ablebodied and cishet, and be like:

"God forbid you ever had to walk a mile in our shoes 'Cause then you really might know what it's like to sing the blues" (Thanks Everlast, for those lyrics.)

Not in a malicious way or anything. I don't want them to suffer, I don't want anyone to suffer. Plus, I'm sure they're going through their own things, just like everyone else. I just want to try to remind people to be empathetic to each other, to think for that brief moment, before interacting with another human being, that -they are another human being-. That they deserve to be treated equally to how they're interacting with the world around them, more or less. Everyone deserves human rights, and the dignity of being acknowledged as existing with their own struggles.

I got pretty soapboxy here I guess, probably best if I shut up now and just hit post. (Could you guess that I'm an author by the verbosity of this goofy-arse post that was just supposed to be me semi-ironically whining about social media on social media?)

I need to ramble about my cardverse AU. I was daydreaming about it alot while "redesigning" Arthur's Queen of Spades outfit 🤲 I might actually draw cardverse or expand on this because I have so many things to explain about

Spades

This kingdom is known for many things: fashion, pollution, modernism, technology, clocks and their obsession with lions but the most famous would be the royalty. Arthur III, while he has never been crowned unlike King Alfred, is the first ever Queen to have power over a kingdom (especially while there's a king) as kings are the only ones who can rule. He has terrorized politicians, own white lions as pets, psychologically torture/execute people, wearing black lipstick (this is something relevent with the Hearts Kingdom) and having more power than the King. Though it's a kingdom known for fashion, it also has strict laws over what's reserved only for royalty or such as lion fur/skin (the wealthy are an exception) and the colour purple, which dates back to Roman times, though recently, the colour purple has been seen on products and companies if it has been officially favoured by the Queen Arthur III. So if you visit the Spades Kingdom, don't wear any purple or lion. (Idk where to add this so I'm adding it at the end but this is just some fun fact that I love and want to talk about more: were no records of any other royalty nor relative named Arthur even though he's titled as the third Arthur to be royalty. He added it himself. because 3 is his favourite number 💀. He would execute one politician - either for dinner or to import to the Diamonds Kingdom - for every day the government wouldn't make him the third Arthur and ofc by the 8th day they were getting understaffed from this so in the end, they allowed him to be titled Queen Arthur III.... He is so petty and a menance but it's something that would likely happen lmfao).

Hearts

Though, their royalty was never as known as the Spades, it is well very known for their aesthetics, music, art, romance, history and sports. Many of their architecture hasn't been modified since the renaissance era and in some areas, even the attire hadn't changed. The Hearts are very particular on makeup and attire so , they even have not-so-secret unspoken lipstick code which may not be as relevant to the common people anymore, it is more important on royalty. Many artists, writers and historians go there to make a living while others may go there for romance or the pretty architecture as many romance stories are set in Hearts. The Prince, Feliciano, is labelled as 'the face of Hearts' by Heartians but internationally as a romantic icon (sometimes a sexual icon but idk I think that would be King Francis IV). The Spades are fond of Feliciano for embracing modernism and doing things that would be frown upon for Heartian royalty like not abiding to the lipstick code (but thats okay for him to break the rules because he's the favourite out of the Heartian royals).

Clubs

Many people would think the Clubs Kingdom would be filled with greenery and nature by their symbol of a three-leafed clover but in reality it is a very snowy. The reason behind the clover may be from an old Cluban folktale or their obsession with luck and magic. The Clubs are famous for their competitiveness, tourism, and their strong belief in luck and magic despite having the most science labs/schools in the world. The King, Ivan the First , is always seen shirtless and smiling - a standard for Cluban royalty to show their health, luck and strength against harsh snow weathers.

Diamonds

Being known for their wealth, they are known for their films/theatres, mining sites, heavy surveillance, vast greenery, prestigious schools and famous cuisine. It is a kingdom many people go to for either their wealth or education meaning you'll find alot of aspiring actors, cooks and archeologists studying here (and rich snobs, though, you'll find those kind of people up north). They have plenty of famous cuisines that originated there that enjoyed around the world like Ligone Fries and Burgers, but they have their fair share of really questionable dishes like: shepherd-dog pie, human steak and cub stew (they are not as common nowadays, but there are no laws on what you can't eat in the Diamond Kingdom so you can eat these). The King - Francis IV - is always either oversees, or in small villages talking to locals. The Diamonds are stereotyped as very snobby, paranoid poshos, but in reality they are really laid back and hospitable.

Jokers

The Jokers are forbidden land that hadn't been "claimed" by any of the kingdoms. They either prank or hunt down people who are seen as threats to the land and therefore are depicted as savage barbarians. Not much is known about them and are usually either villains or silly goofy pranksters in many stories. The information known about them has been rumored to be destroyed and possibly also forgotten by Kingdoms.

People just don't seem to get that many of the "flaws" of tumblr are by design, sometimes OUR design, and the only thing keeping us safe. Tumblr is a community garden. The mods are half-conscious landlords that own the lot, stumbling around without much clue about what's going on or even who thier tenants are. WE made this place into what it is. We grew this site ourselves, planted every seed, maintained every plot. All the content was grown ourselves and shared via reblogs, they're the heart and marrow of this place. Reblogs aren't theft btw, as I've heard many confused by. To continue the metaphor, reblogs are like spreading fertilizer. You're definitely still contributing, it makes notes explode and motivates people, gives people the energy to keep creating. Reblogs start chains that can increase activity by orders of magnitude. Likes are private words of encouragement that only you and I see, they're quietly saying "good job" as you pass. I appreciate it, I truly do, they're like a cool glass of water that gives me energy to continue. If you wish to help the whole community without ever posting, a quick reblog on something you like seriously helps. Even without tags or additions, that's fine, it still greatly expands the lot we have to work in. We all follow blogs that're just "someone with similar tastes reblogging things," a good half of the people I follow are. That's all I was on my original blog for like 10 years before I started this, no shame. Oh, and I was serious about the maintenance bit as well. We've had bots spring up like weeds in the past and the only thing that ever kept them in check was community effort to block-report them. I mean "got 5 new followers every day even on brand new blogs" sort of bad, but we beat them down through group effort. So if you have no title or reblogs and are wondering why people block you after you follow, it's because people think you're either spam or a burner account about to start sending hate. Personally don't block until something actually happens, especially now that I'm aware many of you just showed up, but I did think that like half of you were bots at first. Chaning your title to anything, even just "not a bot" will fix that if it bothers you though. Or just reblog something. I see an account completely blank except like, a picture of a spinning lancer, I know they're just someone's personal sideblog. This is getting a bit rambly, but point is that the "flaws" people talk about are primarily by design and what we've fought to keep for 15 years. Yes our landlords wander around incompetently, but that's just as much OUR design. We don't want massive corporations paving this place over to make another shopping mall. We want to stay the quirky little farmer's market living off word-of-mouth, not be replaced by "more convenient" superstore of the algorithm. The work we put in makes this place the wonderful, terrible, irreplaceable treasure it is. Enabling our self-destructive staff, maintaining our community, and making sure we're bottom-of-the-barrel for advertisers is how we do that.

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My name is Mike, and I'm a longtime Souls fan. This is a personal blog, but I mostly ramble about video games, while occasionally posting GIFs I make of them. As you've probably guessed, my favorite character is Blaidd, so expect to see disproportionate fixation especially on him.

He's like a son to me. A very tall, hairy, stupid son.

Anyway, I've included below a general breakdown of navigation, as well as some warnings about what content I do not like to engage with.

Navigation

I use a pretty basic tagging system, but here's the bulk of what you'll find here:

my ramblings: Lore theories about video games, mostly Souls/etc. I don't insist my interpretations are "correct," so take them with a grain of salt.

my gifs: GIF images I made of video games, sometimes pretty, other times silly. (I record all of my material on console, so they might look a bit wonky, but this allows me to get a bit more cinematic with them.)

my screenshots: Like the above, except not moving. Less common, though, since GIFs are a bit more attractive.

my art: Drawings by me, often fan art. Sometimes pretty, other times stupid. I kind of fell out of practice, but eventually I'll get back into it...

blaidd: Posts pertaining to Blaidd the Half-Wolf from Elden Ring. Mostly stupid jokes, but also speculation and GIFs/artwork.

Warnings/boundaries

I wouldn't call this a "DNI," as I don't really care what people are into, but I do take issue with certain topics being addressed at me or cropping up in my notifications. I'm not going to tell anyone to stop, I just block anything I don't like and move on. Don't take it personally (unless you're a cunt).

Explicit content: My blog is SFW (I think? my likes might have dirty jokes), but moreover, I just don't care to hear about strangers' kinks or general horniness. Basically, if it gives me psychic damage, I block on site.

Being a dick: I don't care to hear any argument about anything, so if you get weirdly hostile toward me or anyone else under my shit, I will block you. I'm too old for "discourse," lol.

Being a bigot: Goes without saying.

Exotic pet content: Less commonly a forethought to most, I am an animal lover, to the degree that I vehemently oppose any media depicting unethical interaction between humans and wildlife. This goes for cutesy photos of foxes and possums in domestic settings or in clothing, and any other wild species. If I see it, I will block you and lay a curse upon your family.

[Disclaimer: though my favorite character is a wolf-headed idiot, I am not a furry and don't post/share any furry art. Sorry to disappoint.]

All said and done...

That's the long and short of it. Feel free to linger, don't feel obligated to reblog, whatever. Hell, you can even save my GIFs onto your personal device, I don't care! Just remember to be respectful to me and others. :)

Ohhhmihlird he looks positively hidiuose 🌈🌟🐺🌸🪳

Cracked is actually great at its best because the site's utter contempt for its readers makes it surprisingly entertaining to read

Think about it -- are there many websites out there whose target audience is just so . . . stupid that you get the feeling the site's writers just can't be bothered to accommodate their readers? If you wanted to create a porn site for "eight graders who haven't heard of boobies," it'd be hard to do it so consistently without either resorting to over-the-top crude humor and/or being very sloppy about tech. And I bet you'd find plenty of useful ideas for setting up membership fees, making "premium content" available on only one page, writing "user comments" in a way that gets around parental controls, writing about teenagers convincingly, etc. etc.

Anyway, to use another example, when the Onion started out, they'd do this thing where they'd say "one man's treasure is another man's trash," and Jake Tapper would treat them like a real news source, which was very entertaining to watch -- you always felt like this was happening because some small-minded news editor didn't understand how Onion articles (which were, remember, mocking the small-mindedness of editors like that) worked, and everything was going according to plan.

And of course if you run a gossip site you have to deal with this constantly, but it's different because you're trying to pander to people's celebrity obsession, rather than their incuriosity or what have you. With cracked it's totally different -- to my recollection, the articles are never "focused" on anything about a pop culture item, or even really about the pop culture item at all. They're nerd-ish rambling where some names are mentioned. It's basically like "whatever weird thing you think might possibly appeal to the idiot who comes to my website, assume you're right." Sometimes it's unfunny! Sometimes it's barely comprehensible! That's the point. You just know these guys have a rock-solid assumption that their readers will never read their articles all the way through, so there's no need to do anything except riff off the thing's title, get in and get out, and hope they never realize you could do something better.

In Pursuit of Ethical Argumentativeness

Assume I follow you on tumblr, and you have posted an original or reblogged opinion that I wish to express a strong disagreement with. It's not anything super personal, nor likely to cause horrible Discourse from other people (I already try to avoid those sorts of reblogs).

NOT arguing isn't an option because I have tried that in the past and it was Bad For Me.

But I know some people can feel REALLY hurt to have their posts reblogged with disagreeing commentary by someone they are friendly with, at least the way I do it, and I don't want to make people unnecessarily unhappy. But also I just have all these opinions!

I am SURE I have forgotten some obvious option but so it goes.

More rambling thoughts under the cut.

So I already sometimes use methods other than directly reblogging people if it feels like the right choice. But I largely base this judgement on what I would want, and afaict I am more comfortable than most when it comes to being directly argued with in a good faith way by people I know. I enjoy being able to have an open back and forth where we share ideas and opinions and I know where people stand with me. Also, I don't like the idea of anyone being afraid to argue with me. On the other hand, sometimes it DOES hurt my feelings or make me anxious, and I'm always a little worried I'm misjudging my tone and would actually feel bad if many people argued with me the way I do with other people. Also, even though it's not my intention, there's always the possibility that my reblog will put your opinion in the path of Discourse and Mean Strangers etc.

When people vagueblog me it sometimes feels passive aggressive and sometimes like politeness and I'm never sure where that line is so just avoid doing vagueblogs myself.

I don't mind the idea of people arguing with me in places I don't see, especially if they're expressing intense but petty annoyance (I take that stuff off tumblr too) But idk it feels uncomfortable to do that ALL the time, like I'm being duplicitous and only able to be friendly with people by hiding my real self.

This is tumblr specific since I avoid arguments on microblogging sites (mainly by heavily curating who I follow) and dreamwidth doesn't have reblogging.

My aim with this poll is just a general vibe check. Obviously individual opinions will vary, and will depend on whether you're a close friend or we have literally never spoken directly before etc. If you have strong personal opinions one way or the other let me know and I will do my best to follow them! (Except maybe private messaging, I included it because if that IS what people want it's good to know, but I'm too shy to do it much)

The ethics/expectations for strangers are different, so I made this post unrebloggable to get a vaguely representative sample of relevant people. But it's fine if you vote even if I don't follow you, if you're seeing this post at all you're in my radar enough for your opinion to be relevant.

Hello, CalmWriMo 26

Today was a very good day. You know why? I rediscovered walking around but inside. I took like a 30 minute walk but in figure eights in my house and it was very good for my writing brain. What did I proceed to do? I drafted 3 whole different scenes!

See, it's almost like taking walks for my mental health is REALLY GOOD FOR ME or something!

New goal dropped for December -- daily walks inside my house 😍

Also also, I got to play Shadowrun for the first time with my friends! I'm Cat with a Q (Qat) and my pet is Cat with a Ch.

"So... Chat?"

"No, Cacht. The CH is silent."

The joke works better in audio. 💀💀💀

https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/1272810/complete?cd=xsFqqefQ9U

Anyway, Qat is neurodivergent and a minor (except she isn't a minor lol). She's also an invisible Aspected Wizard with a pet cat, who was blessed by her spirit guide, and she lives in your walls. She's homeless. Her quest is for ramen with hot water.

ALSO ALSO -- I got sucked into Neocities today, on account of a post in my ridiculously long backlogged queue. But as I looked into it more, people are scared it might die soon cuz it's run by one guy?! Why do I always get into things when they're dying? Tiktok was the only thing I joined even VAGUELY early!? It's not fair! But sites on Neocities are SO COOL and I'm very seriously considering moving the entirity of the Yssaia site AGAIN lololol. But I had a complaint the Wix Blog and my Wix Site lowered its storage cap on me this last year so it isn't even EZ to read on or host images so... Hence why I'm very tempted to just scrap the whole thing and find somewhere else...

*ahem* Writing snippet! Right! Listen, the "journaling but on Tumblr" thing is going shockingly well. I don't censor myself -- the plan was just to cut anything I didn't want to post. But I haven't had any ultra-personal additions to add lately. So now I just ramble here lol. (Maybe I'm too open of a person?)

This snippet is between Lucienne and Nesa -- both gaslight/gatekeep/girlboss girlies dating Arlasaire, except Lucienne has generational trauma and Nesa does not. They are notably the same age, but Nesa has decided on the tactic of pretending Luce is a fantasy kindergartener

Lu: …Who are you? Ne: Nesa Kanespari — Second only to the Inquisitor General of the Ecclesia. And you are being a very bad girl, aren’t you? I don’t know how you do things in the North, but here in the South, we don’t hit people when we’re mad. Lu: “People.” She doesn’t even have a sash. Ne: Ah, so are you the type of little girl who kicks streetcats because she doesn’t have power over anything else? Lu: I’m not a child. Ne: Really? Because you’re acting like one. Apologize to Arlasaire. Ar: Nesa, it’s fine— Ne: No, it isn’t. Apologize. Lu: Why should I? Ne: “Why?” Well, for one, she could break you you over her knee, if she wanted. She won’t, because she likes you, but she could. But here’s the catch, Miss Lucienne, pay attention: She may not ever hurt you — but I have no qualms doing so.

I saw this Tiktok where a lady pretended to talk to Extended Family at Thanksgiving and told them to "Mind their bodies" and "Catch a bubble" and "Think silently, in your own head". And it was hilarious. I loved it. So Nesa is stealing this tactic -- but I did imagine an alt scene where Nesa is full-aggro, mama-bear for Arlasaire. But I think that might be too much for what is functionally a Charisma-based character lol.

Okay, thanks for the good talk! Take care of yourself in this final stretch of Nano/CalmWriMo!