Came across this post on my Facebook. The relevance. I've had this conversation with myself, as you can gain from previous posts.
I do and don't want to talk. Maybe we should, and I'll express every single thing I want to say. I would still look hopelessly heartbroken, he knows I am.
So should we talk? I know we shouldn't, because I just don't know how I feel anymore, it's so back and forth. Everyday is a different feeling. Sometimes I'm over it, other days I'm so disgusted (by my own thoughts).
I can't let my heart take the lead any longer. It's written enough excuses to forgive him. So I will not initiate talking to him. I keep telling myself that. I'm trying to talk myself through this phase of getting over him. I keep wondering how many phases I'll go through, though.
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all this love i have refuses to die inside of me
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Sending love to those who are struggling with their long-term relationships and considering breaking up/breaking them off. Long-term relationships are a different type of experience, and ending them can be filled with unknowns and a sense of grief. It is okay to feel these things. It is okay to be angry, sad, or guilty when you realize you do not want to be with this person anymore. Whether they changed, you did, or you both did— these things happen. You deserve a relationship where you feel fully accepted, loved, and loving in return.
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He did see me. He told me he needed me to know how pretty he thinks I am. Not that you can see someone's features intimately as you pass them going 40 mph, but he said it counts for him. He was surprised to know I saw him, back/too.
We had a total solar eclipse the other day. A local distillery had a party for it, so I went before work with some friends. They had a tarot reader there, and I decided to pay for a 10-minute session. She asked me what I wanted to talk about, giving me some general, common questions. Ex. What's going on between you and a love interest/partner? So I said let's do that. What's going on with us? With him?
She used an oracle pack, a more serious one. As she shuffled, a card fell out. "I can't express myself." She said it was about him. I laughed at the relevance. She said, "Let's find out why." I told her he said it was because he never learned how.
She then began to shuffle her tarot deck. More cards began to fall. The tower - something really big had happened between us. The lovers - the love still there, but it's broken right now. Four of wands - it would require a lot of communication to fix. Ace of pentacles - there is hope. Knight of pentacles - but efforts are not being made. The emperor - on either end, because I'm trying to control the situation.
She said she could see I was struggling with what to do and asked if I was scared of being alone. I said no, because I'm not. I said I'm scared of never finding another relationship with this much intensity, in a good way. What I'm also scared of, really, is finding someone else and wasting more time. Be it because I will always compare something new to him, or that I invest more time into someone who won't appreciate me properly.
The advice? "I know this isn't what you're going to want to hear, but there is no wrong decision. Either choice will come to fruition." Ten of cups - it would take effort from both of us. Six of wands - but I would need to set strong boundaries. "If you choose not to be with him, you will be okay. If you choose to be with him, it will be okay IF you set and maintain strong boundaries." Strength - I need to know that I have the strength to make either decision.
I've spent the rest of that day and the couple since then thinking about instigating him to say something meaningful. Why does he want to keep in contact? Really. What does he want?? But to keep myself from doing so, I keep cherrypicking times I was left feeling so empty because of his carelessness, negligence, disrespect.
• The night I asked to go out with him and he told me, sorry, no, it's boy's night. Really, any time he went out and didn't invite me at all or agreed to meet up but much later on. I always crave him extra when I'm drunk. It's hard for me that he never considers me. • The time he asked to come see me on a Sunday afternoon, got to my house and he'd been drinking. He got off then left to continue drinking with his brother instead of staying with me. I was upset later that week, and he told me I could've come and hung out with them. When I said I wasn't going to invite myself, he said I should have. • The time I might've already mentioned when I asked to meet his children, and he said she said no, that he had to respect that. I don't believe he actually asked her. • The couple times we got into arguments about her tracking him down in the middle of the night. One of us always ending up walking away. There was a night in particular that he went outside to talk to her. When I found him on the phone, he tried to shoo me away, and I became reasonably but only mildly upset. I just wanted to know why he answered her call, and he wouldn't answer me. He immediately decided to leave. I blocked his way and tried to get him to relax, stay, and have a conversation with me, but he refused. I grabbed the front of his shirt and he pushed me away. He and his brother left. I followed him trying to persuade him to stay and please talk to me. His brother called me crazy.
Whether subtle omissions or blatant lies, they all hurt just the same. His lack of support, never prioritizing me... I can't text him.
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I think the funniest part about Loquatius and Laerryn being divorced and Loquatius clearly being under the impression that she doesn't give a shit about him ("You have my undivided attention." "Well, that would be a first.") is that this power-hungry girlboss elf not only took his last name but also hasn't gotten rid of it.
Like, Quay, baby, I think she probably still loves you.
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Davison Chart • will there be reconciliation?
Tertiary Progression - A new phase begins when a planet moves from one sign to the next.
What is the current state of the romantic relationship?
Any particular events that sparked a shift in the relationship?
How are you feeling about it all at the moment?
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➤ How to Cast the Tertiary Progression for the Davison Chart?
Go to Astro - https://www.astro.com/cgi/genchart.cgi
1 ) Creat a Davison Chart
Birth data: Person A + Person B
Chart type: Davison Relationship Chart (between A & B)
Save > Add to 'My Astro" as Davison Relationship Chart (A & B)
2) Tertiary Progression for the Davison Chart
Birth data: Davison Relationship Chart (A & B)
Chart type: Tertiary Progression*
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Question : Is it a favorable period for reconciliation?
♡ Yes - higher possibility
Harmonious aspects between Moon and Sun / Venus / Jupiter - favorable time for reconciliation and there may still be a chance
Moon in Cancer / Scorpio / Pisces + Harmonious aspects between Moon and Pluto
Moon conjunct Descendant
Both have a strong desire to revisit to the past and revive the special bond they once had
Mars in Aries / Leo / Sagittarius + touched AC / DC / IC / MC - drive for actions to reignite the flame
Sun Conjunct Descendant
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♡ No - not the right moment
Moon squares / oppositions Saturn / Uranus / Neptune
Moon square / opposite Saturn - This can make both people feel emotionally repressed and unable to express their true feelings - emotional barriers and lack of understanding for each other's emotions. One person may not feel the love from the other, and tends to consider practicality and overthink.
Moon square / opposite Pluto - can give rise to a challenging dynamic characterized by mistrust, suspicion, revenge, and lingering resentment. They may find themselves testing each other and experiencing a mix of profound connection and discomfort. Significant issues are indicated.
When Saturn and Pluto enter the 5th or 7th house, it can create difficulties and obstacles in love and marriage. Relationships may face challenges, burdens, and slow progress. At such times, a person's emotional state may not be suitable for engaging in romantic relationships.
Moon-Uranus - Uranus represents change and separation. Whether the impact is positive or negative, this aspect often brings unexpected events or disruptions into the relationship.
Moon-Chiron - can be hurtful or healing
Whether the relationship will thrive or not depends on the overall picture and other aspects in the chart.
Please note that astrological placement can provide insights and tendencies, but it does not determine or guarantee specific outcomes. Personal circumstances and decisions play a significant role in shaping the course of relationships.
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