I've come to the realization that, although I don't even care about you, I'm still not over the breakup we had.

It's not even that I miss you. It's the way this shit ended that made me miss the chance of having a successful first relationship I always wanted to have. That's what I'm missing. If I knew it would end like this I wouldn't even bother to start a relationship with you.

Today's dating is as toxic as it can get

Heyy... how r u doin..??

I'm alright

I just feel like what I'm doing is pretty ironic because you've moved on and I still think about you. Like how can it be so opposite, where you changed my future self so much while I'm just an afterthought to you.

All that heartbreak has helped me become the human I am. The hurting is continuous. And I don't think anyone can heal me.

The matter of the fact is, the reason why this blog exists is you. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't even have Tumblr on my phone right now. You're the only person who's known me in real life who knows what I post here. And the reality is, you know a lot because of that. And you'd think that, considering half the things I post here are about you, I would've blocked you by now. But at the same time, these are things I wanna tell you. But also I swore I'd never speak with you again. So I guess in a way I'm talking to you right now. And idk if that's a good thing or not.

I never wanna see you again, but I'm looking for you everywhere I go.

I don't think saying that every man/woman is the same is fair. Like I know people sometimes can be cruel but we're all different. That doesn't mean every man/woman does the same thing everyone does. There are people out there that are good for you. Just be patient and careful.

You're doing way better than you think you do.

I don't deserve you and you don't deserve me. But there's a difference between the two.

That shit's eating me alive

I'm not mad because you broke up with me. I'm mad because I wasted my first relationship on someone who didn't even wanna put in the effort and called it quits after a month. I wanted it to be special and long lasting and you spoiled it for me.

It's just all lies man

I think it would better if we just cut the bullshit and just be straightforward with each other.

It's the pain that made me the person I am today. Pain that nobody will understand because they've never been in my shoes.

You don't make sense. You were the one that wanted to get in a relationship. How tf are you turning to me a few weeks later telling me you don't know if you're able to handle a relationship? Honestly if you cheated just say that.