BPD culture is feeling like you've lied about yourself when someone calls you a nice person, you've somehow manipulated them and they've fallen for your lies, because they can't honestly think that

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You know what’s selfish? Breaking someone to the point where they don’t live. Breaking them so bad that they cant be fixed anymore. When they think of life, it’s synonymous to agony. They just survive each day. It’s not selfish to want to end it. It’s liberation from suffering. It’s selfish to do this to someone repeatedly and ask them to stay.

Why should I stay when no ever did.

bpd is so unbearably lonely. you never feel like anyone loves you because they only care about the sanitized idea of you, the one you made up so people don't abandon you again. as soon as your messy symptoms show, suddenly you're not nearly as loveable. having bpd is to spend your whole life trying desperately to make yourself more palatable

starting to think maybe the years of unsupervised internet access as a child was a bad idea after all

they left me on read theyleftmeonread theyleftmeonreadtheyleftmeonreadtheyleftmeonread dontpanicdontpanicdontpanic

i want to bang my head against the wall until the demon telling me nobody cares about me leaves

im funny on twitter, follow me

beyond hurt and upset, completely hollow and empty inside

nothing screams bpd more than fearing abandonment more than death

relationships are generally bad for me, but i can’t help but them as a remedy to my suffering. like the idea of someone entering my life and saving me from myself sounds so lovely

BPD + Autism/ADHD culture is having an interest you’re extremely defensive and territorial about since that interest is the only thing defining you.

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I’m done, defeated. Some of us aren’t meant to be loved. Today is the day I will try to accept that. Keep to myself. It’ll hurt. A lot. A lot. But I’m done. My life has been agony and my fragile heart can’t take this anymore. I’ll always be an object. To be used then thrown away. I’m not good enough or worthy of being loved.

sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

I will be like "I'm fine" and then another fucking event will occur

Thanks for hanging out with me! Was I cool? did you like me? What do you think of me in detail? Do you hate me?