So this tweet made a real good point and got me thinking about this scene:
As mentioned in their tweet, "you don't 'beg for mercy' for a job," and here he sounds so scared and desperate, like he's had to do this A LOT before with the directors and it's so... sad.
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Before he finds out the truth about Eden, he believed they saved him from his former life and gave him new opportunities to continue his dreams, but do you think having to needlessly beg to keep your position as literally being the face of Eden out of fear you'll be replaced and thrown right back out to your old life is a so called dream come true?
Eden even made a trailer for a movie about his life to fame, showing how everyone was rejecting him as a person, which they definitely made it more simplified like I KNOW he was getting way worse treatment than what was shown.
My main point is that despite believing in Eden's motives (before knowing the truth), he still wasn't truly happy deep down. He was STILL getting rejected and slandered by society, and he knew that deep down, so it's not surprising how the possibility of him losing his job made him have a whole breakdown and do the things he did to try and cope.
He quite literally has no one to lean to and hasn't had anyone since showing up to Eden besides the directors (because he probably believed they were treating him fairly and with respect), but... yeah.
He wanted to make a difference, to give hope to hybrids, and he thought he was doing just that. Despite the way the directors and everyone thought of him, despite how alone he felt, he still thought he was achieving his dreams and sharing that onto others
and yet... he was being used this entire time. None of it was true, all the hard work and the things he went through was for nothing.
Everything that Eden has done, and he was the face of it all... it's just devastating.
This comic was among the wips I lost in last year’s hard drive crash, but I have resurrected it since I am currently (re)reading the novels and back in all of feelings. (Also back on my book canon/cql designs agenda)
Mo Xuanyu...canon was not kind to you, but I can be 😔
Newsflash, the Admech have an augmentation to make them more racist.
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An excerpt taken from Fire Warrior, by Simon Spurrier, and published by Black Library on September 2003. The text reads as it follows:
of sophistication. Like some energistic equivalent of the gantry surrounding the powercore, the ship's logic engine was a structured gem: a perfectly aligned arrangement of operative tiers and commands, symmetrical and cohesive. Had his sense of awe been complete, he suspected, he might actually be impressed by the technology's complexity. As it was, the puritens surgery released a stream of disapproving endorphins into his mind, filling him with revulsion and making him all the more aware of the xenogens blatant disregard for the proper obeisance owed to the Machine God.
Summer is here, and I have been soaking up the sun a lot - reading outside, chatting with friends in the park, and eating many many strawberries. The knee recovery is coming along nicely, I even was able to go swimming and do a 30 minute walk! Although I’m currently paying for overdoing it (laying on my bed feeling exhausted), but it’s all part of the process. I’m also in the middle of an internship for the uni which has been so interesting, and preparing for my trip to New York at the end of the month!
Hc that Andrew was a huge book nerd growing up and only said he was "allergic to books" more recently because his meds made him so unable to focus that he was no longer able to enjoy books the way he used to and he was so distraught upset that he decided he would avoid books all together, and now that he's off his meds he's able to enjoy books again (and Nicky becomes so confused when he notices Andrew going to the library more often).
Happy because my American Literature books have authors&work I’ve been wanting to buy! The Great Gatsby is next on my list to read whenever I have time.