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inkskinned · 1 year

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im gonna start a fight; and, at the same time, i need you to take this in the most good-faith way possible, but:

videos that involve body-checking and intentionally (and uncritically) show a mealplan of an unhealthy number of calories are just a revamped version of pro-ana food diaries.

and yeah, i know there's arguments. i address some of them under the cut. but at the end of the day, we're just coming back to romanticizing mental illness; we've just found a better platform for it.

this is already something we've done. we knew it was wrong and tried to stop it. and tbh. it just wasn't enough.

there are people who argue "well, what if you have an eating disorder, you can't help it if you don't eat!" except that as someone with an ED; we are not infants. we know what we're doing. part of having an ED is that you are like, maybe too self-aware. even if we can't help our own food choices, we don't need to fucking romanticize the disorder - something we've been warning you about since 2013. there are hours of setup, filming, and editing that go into these videos. they do not happen to fall into place randomly. there is a reason they are pieced together to be beautiful, bright, inspiring.

there's this woman who pretty much only posts daily plans under a normal amount of calories, and everyone defends her saying but it's better than nothing! and i'm like. except she opens those with images of her showing off her body and provides no context in the video or caption that suggests that she believes what she's doing is unhealthy. she has hundreds of thousands of followers on a platform designed for young kids and teens. i refuse to believe that by accident her content just happens to be cheery advice on "healthy" versions of starving.

for any other symptom of mental illness, we would be incredibly enraged by this kind of placid acceptance of a "tips and tricks" fast-start guide. imagine if people posted pink & pretty videos saying "best places to cut yourself" as if it was a fucking storytime. we, as a society, are so fucking fatphobic that we would rather accept blatantly harmful displays of self harm than admit that we are obsessed with a hyper-thin body type.

i am not suggesting someone never talks about their disorder. i talk about mine. actually, it's a plot point in my book.

here's the difference: i recognize it's a fucking mental illness. i am very careful to never mention a specific weight, eating pattern, or calorie plan. i always make sure to position it as something that ruined my fucking life. i do not put cheery music in the background and hearts and sparkles over my worst moments. i do not film it in bright light. i do not start each passage with an image of a thin body followed by "here's how to look like her."

eating disorders should not be framed as aspirational. and the problem is that society worships the "after" image, so long as you don't get too sick. there is a reason so many people who quit being "influencers" will later admit - i wasn't eating well that whole time; an obsession with food was completely destroying my life.

we let any uncredited, uncertified person write the most backwards, fucked up shit about how to get the body you desire! because the underlying, secret belief is: well, at least they're thin! and the real thing that fucking gets me each time - they make fucking money off of it. their irresponsibility and societal harm literally pays off for them.

"why do you care so much." "don't like it don't look." "so what if people experiment with new ways of thinking of food?"

thank you for asking. we're about to get extremely personal. it's because when i was 18 i discovered "thinspiration"/"thinspo." and it absolutely influenced, shaped, and codified my pre-existing eating disorder. i went from having some troubling habits and traits to being incredibly unwell within what felt like a matter of days. there were actual pages designed to train me on how to have an ED correctly. it was all so suddenly easy. i was sick; and the nature of the illness meant - i wanted to be sicker.

it takes an average of 7 years for a person to fully recover. i know this personally - even now, 10 years from the worst of it, i still fucking struggle. i am so much happier now and i eat what i want and i literally don't think about food at all (19 year old me would shudder) and yet - i still fucking know the calories of plain toast with butter.

an eating disorder is one of the deadliest types of mental illness. over 1 in 4 people with an ED will attempt suicide.

and i'm sorry. i just do not see the exchange rate of "high rate of engagement" versus "the value of a human life."

#and there's something else in there about like ....#tbh once i got over something like 1k followers #i stopped being specific about my ED for a REASON.#yes on ur personal locked blog that u use like a diary go ahead etc #but we are OBVIOUSLY not talking about that. we're talking about the sheer NUMBER of people i could be talking about #in that one paragraph. that you and i probably were thinking about 2 different influencers #bc they get to say that they're just posting FITNESS and if it's FITNESS it's OKAY and im like #jesus christ lord almighty #every person in recovery from an ED: this is incredibly dangerous holy shit do you know how much this would have triggered me #each of these ppl: how dare you!!!!!!!!! i am only harming those who WANT to engage with my content!!!!!#their followers: leave them alone !!! they can't help that they make an hours-long choice to frame their disorder as if it was #fucking cottagecore !!!!#like girlie this person needs THERAPY #again! i didn't even have that large of a following before i IMMEDIATELY deleted any specific mention of calories food etc #bc i recognize responsibility and i didnt EVER want to even ACCIDENTALLY encourage this #and im not even GETTING PAID FOR THIS!!!#aND THEY ARE!!!#something something something they know this content makes them money #they don't give a SHIT about u babe

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jtbb · 1 year

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tummy hurt disorder

#idk why im taking so many hard classes at the same time rn i literally could have just . not done that #i have absolutely 0 reason to graduate so early other than my school not having great electives to pad my schedule with #but now ive got my brain set on it . so if i extend my graduation out to only graduate...one year early it will be like . a personal failur #girlies i think i need therapy (will not do anything about it)#i wanna make art and work on my fic so baddd but i have like 13 assignments due in the next week .#5 of which are like a week overdue #literally kill me

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yongseungkim · 22 days

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#like i definitely need therapy lol #not that i havent tried in the past nothings just worked/stuck like the therapists werent a good fit for me perhaps #so im trying to reach out again because holy shit #i want to a) get out of my phd and b) have normal fucking friendships #but its so hard right now when anxious thoughts take over SO much some days like i know i cannot do this on my own #i have good friends i know who will hear me out #but man its the same thing over and over again with me but in a new font sometimes i swear #and my friends dont need to hear all those anxious depressive thoughts lol like #once in a while sure esp my closer friends but all the time? nawr #i have been trying to journal but man the emotions just bubble up and i dont feel better until ive like said things out loud #so honestly just having someone to rant about the same issues over and over again might be nice lol .#but i need to find a therapist that fits which is the hardest part #i do think ive made small strides on my own which is nice #but the emotions are just so loud and genuinely affect my day to day like its so hard battling things on my own #im at the point now where im like this cant go on for much longer somethings gotta change #if i want to have a phd in the next year and if i want to maintain friendships normally #and esp if i wanna stay roommates with this girlie cuz holy shit its been a lot harder than i expected maybe #i dont think i can do it on my own without major reprecussions #bro its also been like so long #i feel like ive always had some human i was extremely fond of for the past ?? years albeit most of them were like fake right like in the kp #*kpop world so it was fine when it becomes a real person it is absolutely terrible let me tell u .#but its also been a habit like i didnt realize how terrible my thoughts w ys were until now cuz they really wernet normal thoughts at all #like i want to break free of having these kind of attachments to people in a way cuz the only way i feel like ive been able to deal with bi #feelings is by transferring them to a new subject which isnt what i want anymore #like i just want it all to stop!#i also feel like mentally ive gotten worse ?? than before ?? in some ways like #i dont know if i want to make new friends and connections anymore #the same way i was trying so hard in the previous year which is worse bc now my efforts are like #SOLELY on this one girl in a way which is NOT. GOOD.#ive been trying to have conversations with the third roommate but i have to force myself?

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tayytayy12 · 7 days

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I hate it here (a lot less when I’m with you) | OP81 x Reader

Summary - Reader just got out of a mildly toxic relationship and released a song about what her coping mechanism was during that time, but when her new relationship gets leaked by the paparazzi, she decides to show off her new favourite person.

Warnings | Mentions of a past toxic relationship/ breakup, swearing

FaceClaim | Gracie Abrams

Requested | Yes - No

Type | SMAU

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Yourusername | Long Pond Studios has always been a place where I’ve let my emotions and feelings guide my songwriting completely, every song that I’ve written and recorded in this place has been a complete raw reflection of my feelings, and I’m forever grateful that I can trust you enough to share them all with you without the slightest moment of hesitation. That’s why, I’m surprise releasing my brand new song, ‘I hate it here’ now. This song is about a method I’ve used to cope for the past few years of my life when I wasn’t in the best situation, and I hope that it will help any of you who are or were in the same situation I was. This song was made with my soulmate of a collaborator, chosen friend, found family of mine, Aaron and were so incredibly proud of it and we can’t wait for you to hear it. Sorry for being away for so long, I love you 🤍

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User1 - OMFG SHES ALIVE !!!

User2 - ONLY TOOK FIVE MONTHS TO CONFIRM YOU’RE ALIVE AND BREATHING

AaronDessner - My favourite one together so far 🤍

Yourusername - Love you forever 🤍

User3 - WTFDYM ‘I HATE IT HERE’ EXPLAIN?

User4 - GO LISTEN TO IT ITS SOOOOOOOOOO GOOD

User5 - A SURPRISE DROP? WE’RE SPOILED

User6 - When Aarons a co-writer AND the producer, you know for a fact the song will change your life (and make the therapy bill triple)

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User7 - Girl don’t apologise

User8 - FR like she gets cheated on, takes a brake and then apologises to us 😭 like girl it’s okay

JackAntanoff - *Alexa play Traitor by Olivia Rodrigo*

Yourusername- Your times coming synth man 🤫 LOVE YOU STILL

User9 - WDYM HIS TIME IS COMING YOU CRYPTIC WOMAN

User10 - “I hate it here so I will go to secret gardens in my mind.” That’s all I have to say.

User11 - Y/n could write Romeo and Juliet but Shakespeare couldn’t write I hate it here

User11 - “I place you need a key to get to, the only one is mine” girly I hope someone makes you want to make a copy one day

Yourusername - God I love you lmao

User11 - OMFG Y/n loves me I can die happy

User12 - “tell me something awful, like you are a poet.” BC HE ALWAYS PAINTED HER BLUE SKYS THE DARKEST GREY, RUINING HER DAY BY TELLING HER AWFUL SHIT LIKE HES A TORTURED POET !!!!!! (I knew Coney Island wasn’t fictional you fucking delusional people, no one in a happy relationship writes that shit 💕💕💕)

User13 - “This man made me feel worthless.” Y/EX/N ISTG WHEN I FIND YOU. COUNT UR MINUTES

User14 - “I'm lonely but I'm good, I'm bitter but I swear I'm fine” bitch where did you find my diary

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Yourusername - I’m sorry who’s this woman debuting at no.1 on the billboard hot one hundred? My god it is me, I can’t believe this, I love you I love you I love you thank you so so much from the bottom of my heart, I mean it, I really do. MY GOD I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU. (And my baby with her first top ten entry, I love you Sabby, Go stream espresso, it is that sweet 🤍💕) OKAY ONE LAST THANK YOU. 💕🤍💕🤍💕

Okay I lied but being among names like Beyoncé, Ariana Grande, SZA and Kendrick Lamar is one of the biggest honours ever, I’m huge fans of them all and to be in the same space as them is an honour no words can express, I love you all, the most caring sweet fans on the whole planet 💕💕💕💕

(And yes, it was a reference to a physical key, this is it)

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User14 - We made the right one famous guys

User15 - I’m actually crying, when did she stop being our little secret

SabrinaCarpenter - My biggest fan 🩷

Yourusername - Your biggest fan 🩷

User16 - Oscar in the likes for what?

User17 - Who?

User18 - Oscar Piastri, he’s a 23 yr old f1 driver

User19 - What is vroom vroom boy doing here

AaronDessner - Truly blessed to work with you

Yourusername - I’m the blessed one don’t even

User20 - Only y/n could send a five minute long, slow, alt pop song with a main piano background, basically a depressing lullaby bop, to number one above all these TikTok songs

User21 - She’s actually adorable

OscarPiastri - Been on repeat!

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User22 - UM HELLO WHAT ARE U DOING HERE LITTLE ORANGE MAN?

User23 - This is all bc of me btw

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Celebrity.updates - NEW COUPLE!!! Fast upcoming pop star, Y/n Y/l/n (21) seen out late at night on the streets of London with Formula one driver, Oscar Piastri (23), according to the source of these pictures the two were laughing and running around the streets together, when Oscar caught up to her and hugged her to him and kissed her. Rumours say that Y/n met Piastri through her ex partner who’s an engineer for f1 team Alpine, the pair seem to be quite smitten and loving with each other. What’s your thoughts on this?

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User25 - WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN

User26 - Posting these photos is bad enough, but tagging them in it is crazy

User28 - Neither of them have even been hinting at a relationship at all, they clearly didn’t want anyone to know yet

User29 - Can’t these sickos just let them live, they’re people too

User30 - Whoever took these is messed up

User31 - They do look rlly happy together though

User32 - The fact that her ex is an alpine engineer makes this situation so much more funny and interesting

SabrinaCarpenter - You’re actually disgusting

User33 - TELL THEM SAB

User34 - The fact that she’s not even wrong

User35 - the fact that she defends Y/n with no hesitation

User36 - The friendship we all need in our lives

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Yourusername - I hate it here a lot less when I’m with you 🤍 my favourite polite cat xxxx

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LandoNorris- Finally. The pair of you at the paddock hiding in MY divers room bc you were scared someone would see you in Oscar’s. Sigh.

Yourusername - You love me

User37 - OH MY GOD

User38 - I need to know the bears name

OscarPiastri- She named him Gerald

Yourusername - Don’t sound so disgusted, that’s our son

OscarPiastri - Sorry baby

User39 - Hysterical

OscarPiastri - My favourite smiling dog 🤍

Yourusername- Excuse me did you just call me a bitch

OscarPiastri- NO I DIDNT MEAN IT LIKE THAT

User40 - The dynamic is already everything to me

User41 - Even his GF knows he’s a polite cat

Yourusername - He so is (he’s in denial)

User42 -“ I hate it here a lot less with you” Shut the fuck up

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OscarPiastri - She made me a copy 🗝️🤍

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User43 - Someone sedate me

User44 - SHE. MADE. HIM. A. COPY.

User45 - WTFFFTTFTFTD

User46 - Literally the ultimate Oscar on Alpine revenge

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Yourusername - I don’t need my secret gardens, or my lunar valleys anymore, because I have you 🤍

OscarPiastri- My favourite and only girl 🤍

User47 - I’m taking a nap on the highway

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sscrambledmeggss · 2 years

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Reading normal people rn, and I feel like I should like it as a sad bi girl. But this is wild 😟 like I don’t think it’s poorly written or a bad book in anyway. BUT I can’t tell if I like it or not. I keep laughing at it, but also it is so hard to read. 🦧

#i hope the ending is just them getting therapy #like Connell sucks so hard #hes also so dumb because hes like “Marianne is so funny :) she jokes about me being ashamed about her :)”#like???#and Marianne girly please like yourself more and get a better person I am begging #Marianne also has the worst taste in men I have ever seen #I’m sorry I needed to rant about it a little LMAO #books #meg’s incoherent thoughts

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thisisaname-whatahappyname · 2 years

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vent

i mean oh wow it's like she wants me to kill myself

all of this because i botched my hair and defended the fact that i ended up botching my hair and keeping it

heyy guys if i end up not posting for like. two months please kindly assume im dead lmfao

pfft i should probably screen shot some of the things she said in messenger dms when she isn't watching the screen just as proof that she said it

#edit tags glitched this was more cohesive and as well as properly formatted earlier folks so sorry about that it you do end up reading #ALL BECAUSE I ACCIDENTALLY BOTCHED MY HAIRCUT #she adds this to her list of me having a bandetta against hair because she complimented my hair and sometime later i cut it short #when one i didn't even hear that (<-auditory processing issues) and two even if i did i didn't mean to botch it #(didn't even did that to spite her was just thought it was too long and messed up my cut but sure as hell thinking of shaving it now)#also i noticed that she thinks that the world is out to get her inherently it's infuriating and depressing #and she's hurt too many people cause of it #and you can say and argue that it's a me specific thing if she didn't assume that with anyone else too #like. man. she needs to fucking go to therapy or else she has a big chancs of loterally killing me lol #thank fuck i got a handle on my anxiety before i turned into That i mean dear god #mann if this is how she reacts to a bad haircut cause her reputation was at stake apperantly (girlie cares Too Much on what idiots think #enough to verbally abuse bully hit more more times and threathen to hit me if i ever botch a haircut again apperantly.)#how am i going to get into a gay and in love relationship now :(( /j i will just won't tell her.#i will marry someone with my family just thinking we're friends if i have to. pull a byoonei even.#breaking news person who calls my aunt sensitive gets this offended over a bad hair cut #she also took my cutting blade too but hey it was getting dull anyways #ello this is a cry for help actually #there is a nice big cold ocean to jump in just two streets down from where i live and i can easily get out of here with two keys #tell me who i am guess i dont have a choice all because i cut my hair #oh if i ever get in a gay relationship i am not telling that woman #she's going to call me selfish for putting my happiness over the family's (read her) reputation #she would honestly put what idiots think of her over her own kids happiness lmfao #like. she's telling me to go attend parent teacher conferences and buy my own stuff because im ''so grown up nowyo there's a vent in the ta #parents

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hausofneptune · 4 months

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"spicy" takes / unpopular opinions

[astro notes no. 002]

IF IT DON’T APPLY LET IT FLY. everybody’s chart is different, if you have any aspects or placements mentioned in this post that don’t resonate with you, that means the energy didn’t manifest the way that i described due to other influences in your chart (or you being delusional, idk, you decide). also, when i speak on certain signs i'm referring to their archetype and the innate energy they express. just be mindful that there's a variety of ways these energies can manifest from person to person.

disclaimers | masterlist | ask

y’all stay talking about how hard scorpios have it but y’all don’t talk about the struggles capricorns face. especially capricorn moons?? have y’all ever encountered a capricorn moon that wasn’t in therapy or didn’t desperately need it??? they be facing the most insane level of emotional distress and then turn around and pick up more shifts and start studying harder like that shit finna help lmfao

the discourse surrounding 8H synastry is... odd to me. i feel like some people (specifically the tumblr/tiktok girlies) are romanticizing trauma bonding. y’all can talk about how good the sex is all y’all want, but unless you and the person involved have a good amount of self-awareness and are spiritually evolved enough (especially if y'all have your own 8H placements in your own charts), i feel like you’re just setting yourself up to be in a “toxic” relationship with somebody. it could just be my aqua venus talking, but the whole “baring your soul” to someone and developing a possessive/jealous bond with them don't sound fun to me. i would rather perish.

everyone talks about how dramatic your saturn return is but why does no one bring up how traumatic your 12H profection years are? being 23 was literally one of the most unhinged experiences i’ve ever had

i be tryna advocate for geminis because i know they’re just lil creative mercurial sponges and wanna have enough knowledge to see everything from every side… but why do some of them act like that? and you know what i mean. especially the more “unevolved” gemini placements, they be doing the most insane level of mental acrobatics and be contrarian just for the sake of being contrarian

i have to say this as an 8H moon, i understand what y’all mean when y’all say 8H, scorpio, and plutonian placements usually face a lot of vitriol from others for no reason, but honestly, some of y’all be using that as a justification for being paranoid and manipulative. operating from a place of pain, assuming that everybody is out to get you, and being hyper-vigilant of people’s intentions isn’t the type of behavior anyone should be trying to normalize. let that hurt go pookie <3

i feel like this has been spoken about before but i’ll never understand why water signs are constantly stereotyped as the emotional crybabies of the zodiac but fire signs aren’t? water signs can definitely be sensitive and existential but prominent fire placements will literally lose their mind over the smallest shit and then be cool 10 minutes later… yes i’m looking at you aries

speaking of aries, can we address the way that they’re literally the toddlers of the zodiac and very much so behave like it? idk as a pisces i have a soft spot for them, i love their childlike, carefree spirit, and the way they be throwing tantrums for fun tickles me

this note doesn’t pertain particularly to signs/placements but astrology in general. i am begging y’all (specifically the people who are newer/beginners to astrology) to use traditional studies as a starting point and to stop taking notes from these tiktoks and tumblr posts. there are astrologers on these platforms who have done the work and studied (love y'all), but there are a plethora who haven’t. i saw a post the other day where somebody said squares/oppositions don’t indicate conflict in a chart and i felt like i was losing my damn mind. i definitely recommend the astrology podcast as a starting point for beginners, chris brennan is amazing and i still find myself re-listening to a lot of his content

i talked to one of my mutuals the other day about this, but astrology is such an amazing tool, and y’all should use it for so much more than self-validation. y’all do not need to have a certain venus placement to be considered pretty. y'all do not need certain mercury or uranus placements to be considered intelligent/creative. y’all do not have to rely on [insert random asteroid here] to know what your future spouse is gonna look like, when/where y’all are gonna meet, how they’re gonna perceive you, etc. etc. etc. i understand the hype around shit like that is due to social conditioning/constructs, but there are so many more important, relevant things you can learn about yourself through astrology that don’t revolve around "aesthetics"

the girls are gonna hate me for this one, but i don’t understand the hype around lilith. and i say this as someone with a tight sextile between my sun and BML. there’s three versions of it, two of which don’t even technically exist, and then there’s a mean/true version that affects the accuracy. if anyone has more knowledge than me on the subject feel free to give me your input, because i feel like the insane amount of attention lilith gets has to do more with the whole “dark feminine archetype” trend that the tiktok/tumblr girlies love and less to do with its relevance from an astrology/astronomical lens (i feel this way about most asteroids honestly, but we’ll wake up that tea another time)

i don’t wanna get dragged so imma end this here, as always let me know if y’all have any aspects/placements mentioned and tell me how they manifest in your life/personality! and if you have any insight feel free to let me know as well. and don’t be messy. you will be blocked expeditiously. <3

click here to read part two!

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pinkacademiaprincess · 7 months

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“she’s like a real life elle woods…”

fictional study icons guide, part 2: elle woods

relentlessly chase your goals

similar to rory, elle set her sights on harvard law and let nothing get in her way. people doubted her, she had no background in law, and nevertheless she made it happen. having a goal and wanting something is one thing, but you have to make it happen. elle spoke with an academic counselor, created a plan for herself, and meticulously checked off all the requirements. you can’t just sit around and hope you get what you want! determine the end goal, outline all the steps that you need to take to get there, and get to it.

have faith in yourself

throughout the process of getting into and attending harvard law, elle dealt with so many people who doubted her, were mean, and underestimated her. if she listened to all those people, she never would have applied or stayed in law school. no one knows you like you know yourself, so do not let strangers’ negative opinions of you rule your life. people assumed elle was unintelligent and not fit for law school, but she knew that she could succeed and she did. no one decides what you can or can’t do but you. tune out any criticism that isn’t constructive, focus on your strengths, and seek your goals.

let your personality shine

elle always had a strong sense of self. even when she started going to law school, in a totally new environment from her previous college, she stayed true to her personality. she continued dressing in pink outfits, getting her hair & nails done, and got school supplies to match her girly aesthetic. when you go to class, let your personality show through your outfits, accessories, school supplies - find little ways to bring yourself happiness through self- expression. especially when school and classes might seem to rule your life, these small personal touches will help keep you positive.

study with others

elle used the tactic of studying with others to help stay focused & accountable. when she was studying for the lsat, she had one of her sorority sisters keep her on track & practice with her. for some, it can be helpful to “body double,” or to have someone else with you while you study/ work to keep you on task. it might also help to have a study buddy to quiz you and work through problems together. at harvard she also tries to join a study group, which shows she generally thrives when studying/ working in a group setting. if this is something that works for you, find a classmate or group of classmates willing to meet up & body double or study together!

stay active

nowadays, a lot of schooling requires you to either sit at a laptop or hunch over notes for countless hours of your day. being seated for so long with questionable posture is not good for you, humans are meant to be active! elle is shown walking on a treadmill while she studies, and combining physical activity with schoolwork can be really effective for some. engaging your body while engaging your mind might help you focus better. otherwise, try to get some daily movement to give your body a break from being stiff & seated. find physical activity that you enjoy - going for walks outdoors, taking a sports class, hitting the gym, doing a youtube workout video, playing music & dancing like a maniac - move your body and have fun with it! in the words of elle, “exercise gives you endorphins, endorphins make you happy.”

pet therapy!

elle woods is always accompanied by her beloved chihuahua bruiser. spending time with animals is a great way to boost your mood & relieve stress. if you have a pet, spending time with them, petting them, having them in your lap or nearby are all ways you can take advantage of their presence to feel happier & more relaxed.

that’s all! elle is such an inspiration to me tbh. she really embodies that being true to yourself & being kind to others are the keys to success. good luck in your studies! 🩷

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meangirls-imagines · 1 month

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Welcome to the Poly!Plasticsverse!

collab with: @yungpoetfics (my fav bubs in the world)

Regina George

@queenbgina/@callmereginald (she/her)

North Shore's Queen Bee

Soft for her girlfriends

The mom of the group

Basically a sugar mommy for her girls

Lifehack Geek

TikTok hater

Has rational fear of werewolves

Will fight a bitch

Victoria's Secret girly

Female rapper stan (Doja, Cardi, Megan, etc.)

Gryffindor

Lesbian

Gretchen Wieners

@thegretchenw/@greatgretsby (she/her/it (only if ur special))

The second mom of the group

Softest human

Loves playing with her girlfriends hair

#1 Twilight hater

Has a letterboxd account just to leave bad reviews

The level headed one usually, but will snap when she needs

Cuddly as fuck

Loves Fleur du Mal lingerie

Stubborn as Fuck

Wine drinker/expert

Loves vintage music (Elvis, Elton John, etc.)

Hufflepuff

Bisexual

Karen Shetty

@karebearz/@karensheetty (any pronouns)

Ambidextrous™️

Loves Spongebob

Plant Parent

Knows Britney Spears and Lady Gaga choreo

Kpop girly (Blackpink, BTS, etc.)

Lettering expert

Has Funko Pop collection

Squishmallow lover

Ravenclaw

Pansexual

Cady Heron

@cady_heron/@defnotcaddy (she/her)

The third mom of the group

Whispers when angry

Carries bandaids at all times

Always has snacks

Lactose Intolerant (but LOVES cheese)

Cries at Rom-Coms

LOVES hugs

Cannot handle spicy food

Sleeps with a teddy bear

Happy to be here

Friends with everyone's parents

Token vanilla of the group

Has diary (with a heart shaped lock)

Bisexual

Aaron Samuels

@aaronsammy/@atomicaaron (he/him) or (ho/mie)

1/3 of Terror Trio

Y/N's best friend

North Shore's resident Himbo

Will do anything if someone says "I dare you"

Impulsive buyer

Has one brain cell (shares it with Y/N)

Overuses 💪 emoji

Usually confused

1/2 Golden Retriever duo

Can skateboard

Uses Axe body spray

Co-founder of Stuntmares

Dreams of grabbing a teddy in a claw machine (bucket list item)

Ass man

Owns too many grey sweatpants

Kisses his homies (homiesexual)

Has never watched Harry Potter

Watches lifestyle coaches on YT

Can play the ukulele (really badly)

Loves Eminem and Harry Styles (would fuck Harry Styles)

Writes Larry Stylinson fanfics

Kissed Y/N once (regretted immediately)

Bisexual

Damian Hubbard

@hubbarddamian/@damianishubby (he/him/they)

Learned how to sew from Janis

Does drag and has a YT channel (Anita Dick)

Huge Adore Delano stan

Will fight anyone who hurts Janis

Doesn't like Rupaul as a person, but is a religious Drag Race fan

#1 Poly!Plastics fan

Has an 8 step skincare routine

Cameraman for Stuntmares

Earlybird

Lies about having curfew to go to sleep early

Ravenclaw

(Lowkey wishes he was a Slytherin bc it's the "cuntiest house"

Him and Karen watch The Bachelor

Fav movie is Dirty Dancing (did the lift with Janis)

Learned how to twerk from Y/N

Gay

Janis Imi'Ike

@janiisimiike/@imiikenough (she/they)

Secret Barbie girly(live action and animated movies)

Will go straight for Ryan Gosling

Feral chihuahua of the group

Hozier stan

HATES THE KARDASHIANS

Pain in Regina's ass

Anger Issues™️

Secretly loves Olivia Rodrigo

Mentally Ill friend

Emotional Drunk

Karaoke Queen

Tits girly

Leather Jacket lesbian

Getting piercings > therapy

Has a suit collection

Thrifter

Loves her friends

Dog person (secretly)

Quotes niche memes

Kinky af

Middle Child

Lesbian

Y/N Y/L/N (FC: Chrissy Costanza)

@thisbeyn/@reginaslefttit (she/he/they/it)

2/3 Terror Trio

2/2 Golden Retriever duo

Has matching fried egg tattoo with Aaron.

Co-Founder of Stuntmares

"Hi, I'm Y/N and welcome to Stuntmares" *jumps off roof into pool*

Cuts her own hair

Blooper Reel Queen

North Shore's resident stoner

AUDHD (autistic + ADHD)

Playlists range from Beethoven to ashnikko

"IT'S NOT A PHASE. IT'S A LIFESTYLE."

Demisexual

Plays electric guitar

Has slight speech impediment

Gremlin of the group

D&D Dungeon Master

ALWAYS falls asleep during movie night

Power Nap Addict™️

Insomniac

Monster Energy Drink Enthusiast (collects the cans)

Oddly good at Origami

Tweets everything she thinks

Has been banned from Fortnite and Roblox

Married to Gretchen on The Sims (regina and karen were sad)

Anger issues

✨Spicy✨ Latina (do not fuck with her people)

Matching rings with her gfs

Def had one night stand with Cady

Shane Oman

@shaneomann/@omantastic (he/him) or (dumb/hoe)

Loves Old School Rap (Biggie, Tupac, Snoop Dogg, etc.)

Hates Y/N at first but comes to love her like a sister.

Only person who can outsmoke Y/N.

Has a dropped truck with red LED lights under it.

Blasts music walking down the halls.

Always has the zoomies.

Orange cat friend.

Has elevator music playing in his head 24/7.

Challenged Damian to a dance off. (He lost. But he had girls simping over him)

Posts thirst traps on TikTok. (Regina's mom is his #1 follower)

Has a frying pan tattooed to match Aaron and Y/N.

Always on Stuntmares trying to create new world records.

Or eating a bunch of weird combos.

"Oman! Not again!" *proceeds to eat a marshmallow and spam sandwich*

Ralph Lauren man

Whenever the polycule argues, he's a "fuck this shit, I'm out" person.

Professional party crasher

Dine and Dash expert

Has nipple piercings (Aaron and Y/N dared him to get them)

Curses like a fucking sailor (Half of his lines on Stuntmares are just censor beeps)

Talks way too fast.

Knows Italian and Spanish (Him and Y/N talk shit in Spanish)

His ringtone for Aaron and Y/N is the remix of the Windows error sound

Loves t-shirts with offensive prints (Regina tries to make him dress normally)

Has gc with Aaron and Y/N called "Hoemies"

Would fuck Aaron

TICKLISH

Major gossip (Him and Gretchen meet once a week to talk shit)

#regina george x reader #karen shetty x reader #gretchen wieners x reader #aaron samuels #cady heron #janis imi'ike #damian hubbard #poly!plasticsverse

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thebibliosphere · 1 year

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Do you have any thoughts/resources on the meds vs herbs/alt vs traditional debate? Only if you have them easily accessible, I don’t wan’t to cause trouble.

That is a very broad subject and one I have touched on numerous times as a chronically ill person who was also worked in holistic therapies for several years. (Side effect of being raised in an anti-medicine new age cult adjacent environment.)

In brief, I’m a firm believer that both have their place and can complement each other well when used appropriately.

The tl;dr version: I don’t believe enough people respect things like herbalism in the way they should because it is potent and not without side effects and too many people treat holistic as meaning harmless.

I see far too many people making herbal recommendations without either enough knowledge about interactions (either with other herbs or meds) or medical learning to be giving that kind of unsolicited advice.

For example, someone with IBS may find relief from fennel and peppermint tea and prefer it over having to take meds every day, but that same method may not apply to other forms of gastric distress (for example: peppermint can actively worsen acid reflux) or disease requiring greater medical intervention. Heck, the same may not even apply to someone else with IBS either. It depends on the individual and their needs.

I also believe that herbalism and things like essential oils need to be better regulated, especially the wellness mlm cults like doTerra and Young Living to name a few. But that’s a rant I’ve already covered numerous times and got harassed for by the wellness girlies.

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ash-says · 2 months

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Cheating Anxiety With Me

Seatbelts tight? Hands Steady? Are you still shaking? No, then lets rideeeee.

Anxiety the feeling of dread, uneasiness, fear, shaking, restless, heart beating rapidly, etc

Coping with anxiety is difficult especially for the mentally deranged girlies. No hate I love you all. You are just so my type of people.

Today I am going to tell you how to deal with it because you know what I say, "Kill or get killed."

The classic deep breathing technique: Start from 1 breathe in to the count of 4 then hold at 5 and breathe out from 6 to 10. This will help in evening out your breathing and slow down your heart beats.

Move, Sway and twirl: You feel an anxiety attack taking over you the best way to tackle all that excess energy released through FFF hormone is by MOVING YOUR BODY. Exercise. Dance. Run. Anything just move.

Sleep: Yeah, you read it right. Just shut down your system and sleep. This is my personal go to. Overwhelming anxious thoughts, feelings, anything we let it marinate over a nap. Works wonders for me.

Talk to a friend: Another personal go to. Sometimes the feelings are so loud, disturbing and dark that sleep is no longer an option. At such times talk it out. Seek a friend. Best if they are physically present with you. Ask for a hug. Loving touch. Don't be embarrassed. It does wonders. Trust me.

Nature therapy: One of the ways I accidentally discovered was that trees, plants and flowers can be extremely calming. No one to rely on. Go and hug a tree. I promise you it works. Social anxiety? Okay I got you also covered. Buy some fresh flowers or if you have house plants touch them. Inhale their scent. Graze the petals or leaves lovingly and tenderly. Feel them. It will calm you down.

Sugar saves the day: Okay some people might come at me for this one but honestly anything sweet is the holy grail for dealing with it. Now the trick here is not eating desserts and chocolates but rather fruits like grapes, banana, watermelons, etc. Basically eat healthy things. We don't want diabetes now, do we?

The 333 rule: This one goes like name 3 things in your surroundings, identify 3 sounds and touch 3 things. This helps in distracting your brain and calming down your wreck of a system.

Positive self talk: Keep on repeating like a broken record that it is going to be okay and you will get through it. As loud as your inner thoughts get that much loud this self talk gets. Basically overpower that annoying bitch inside you. Winning is the only option.

Identify the triggers and face them: Literally be a detective and find out your triggers and then put yourself through it by yourself until it becomes a normal thing for you. I am not advising this for dangerous things but you can try this on smaller triggers. Example: A song, a scent, a topic is a trigger to you. So now listen to that song, inhale that scent, read things around that topic willingly and train your brain and body to tackle it so that when it comes up suddenly your brain doesn't go in survival mode.

No to drugs, alcohol and risky behaviors: You should be going to them over your dead body. Please I am begging you don't indulge in them. Yes I am asking you lovingly, with teary eyes please don't do this to yourself. Don't punish yourself more. The world is already a harsh place if you won't be kind to yourself, who will be then?

Bonus one: Find a strict no bullshit friend who isn't afraid to call you out on your toxic behavior, put you in your place and is ready to be the pillar on which you can rely on. Because we are not able to differentiate in right and wrong during those times. Its really difficult to maintain the moral compass. That's why you need a community of trusted people to hold you down.

Fight your way back. Because this world is a cruel place babygirl. You do anything to survive. If you are still dreaming of a saviour. Dream on.

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arson-09 · 3 months

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Acowar Review✨✨ sjm needs to pay for my therapy✨✨

Its not as infuriating as acomaf but its still… bad.

Point 1: the court of ignorance and dumbassery

Lets cut to the chase. why the FUCK didnt feyre read Tamlin and Luciens minds at ANYPOINT while she was doin her hot girl shit of taking the spring court down??? huh sjm??? why is your fmc only powerful when convenient. So much could have been cut down. Acowar was way too long.

The whole destroying of the spring court didnt even make that much sense. Im all for a girlie getting back at the people who wronged her but feyre ended up hurting a lot of innocent people in the process. Feyre even tries to ignore the consequences of her actions. She had to invade peoples minds and manipulate people to get them to turn against tamlin and all this could have been avoided if she read his damn mind and learned he was a double agent. Lucien even hinted towards it

Part One: Princess of Carrion »

Chapter Six

None. It was either go to war with the Night Court and Hybern, or ally with Hybern, let them try to stir up trouble, and then use that alliance to our own advantage further down the road." "What do you mean," I breathed. But Lucien realized what he'd said, and hedged, "We have enemies in every court. Having Hybern's alliance will make them think twice." Liar. Trained, clever liar.

If feyre is supposed to be so smart, and she did pick up on this, why didnt she do anything? This is so frustrating.

Then once she leaves the spring court i found myself frankly not caring. Acomaf hadnt given me enough to care about the inner circle so i didnt and sjm cant make me like rhysand. which i have so many gripes but for word counts sake let me name my main ones

Point 2: Sarah Janet Maas and her shitty love interests

the ignoring rhysand sexual assault of feyre and EXCUSING it and his little habit of not telling his court things

Part Two: Cursebreaker »

Chapter Twelve

Was it going on before you even left?" I whipped my head to him, even if I could barely make out his features in the dark. "I never touched Rhysand like that until months later." "You kissed Under the Mountain." "I had as little choice in that as I did in the dancing." "And yet this is the male you now love." He didn't know-he had no inkling of the personal history, the secrets, that had opened my heart to the High Lord of the Night Court. They were not my stories to tell

here we have sjm acknowledging that yeah, rhysand Sexually Assaulted Feyre UtM in Acotar. Without her consent he dressed her inappropriately (which she was uncomfortable with) had her dance provocatively in his lap, kissed her, and made her drink alcohol so she wouldn't remember the details all without her consent. Yet Sjm is going “its fine” now and feyre herself going “you just dont get it…” ⁉️⁉️⁉️

Now see if sjm actually planned for rhysand to become the love interest why didnt she just avoid all this by having Amarantha make rhysand do this to feyre? Because that would have solved some issues but no. Because Rhysand did all this of his own free will in acotar. He actively chose to do this to feyre. To humiliate her and anger Tamlin because rhysand is obsessed with Tamlin.

Rhysand also loves to not tell his own court things. I was and still am very angry over him not telling Mor, Azriel, Cassien and at the very least his Wife about his plan with the court of nightmares. Just why.

Mors anger towards Nesta also makes no sense. sjm stop writing girl on girl hate challenge impossible

Point three: That one toy story scene “I dont wanna play with you anymore!”

Now tamlin. Tamlin tamlin tamlin im so sorry love for what sjm has done to you. If i start ill never stop. What Tamlin said to feyre and rhysand at the high lords meeting was out of pocket but he also wasnt wrong about some things. Also from established character these actions make no sense and his actions havent made sense since acomaf because sjm threw him and his character away to play with shadow daddy and bad morals. But she also cant commit to making a character of hers actually evil so tamlin saves the whole day by bringing the autumn court to fight and saving rhysand life. Tamlin has redeemed himself by sjm standards but she then wrote the holiday novel which i have read and detested.

Overall the plot was fine. i guess. it probably looked better when compared to the characters.

Sjm learn to redeem characters outside of “ooh they were abused and have trauma so everything they do is okay” for guys and “she fell in love/had sex with the most PERFECT MALE TO EVER MASCULINE.” its boring and flat. Also i know what happens in Acosf (i will not be reading that ty) so wtf happened to Nesta bro. she got the tamlin treatment. boooo 👎

to end off heres some of my favorite highlights from acowar 50%+ thru the book.

#a court of wings and ruin #anti acowar #anti sjm #sjm critical #anti rhysand #anti feysand #tamlin #pro tamlin #This book was bullshit

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dollypopup · 2 months

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listen. . .words TRULY cannot explain how vindicated i am feeling in the fandom after all these interviews and snippets

do you even KNOW how much hate I got for writing Come Over Here and Profound for Me? where Penelope was guilt spiraling over all she did as LW? and people accused me of being a 'psychopath' and needing therapy (as if being in therapy is a. . .bad thing?) and being oh so unfair to Penelope because she was beating herself up a lot and her friends were hurt and betrayed?

and then we got the clip of her talking down to herself, about how embarrassing she is and how no one wants her and 'of course you wouldn't want to court me' and how sad he was about how lowly she sees herself.

how absolutely baffled I was over the narrative that every new male character would be a suitor for her? how little sense it made and how Penelope was for us unseen girlies and her being a diamond would be weird and ooc and unfulfilling?

and then it was revealed that Dankworth is Prudence's husband, and that Anderson is a hit with the older ladies, hinting he's there for Violet (as a continuation of her Queen Charlotte storyline) and that Debling is in a grand total of two episodes and that even Adjoa Andoh said the season was for the wallflowers.

how confused i was over monolithic 'Penelope is a girlboss and never did anything wrong!' narratives that happened over and over in our fandom and that Colin would grovel and beg and cry to be in Penelope's good graces again over one comment?

and then the clip came out and the person she was actually dragging was herself and the worst thing she called him was 'cruel' and just about one day later she's staring into his eyes and telling him how beautiful they are and how they shine when he's kind

how peeps insisted he'd be just fine when the truth comes out that Penelope is Lady Whistledown and that he'd find her clever or already knows or wouldn't be upset at all?

LINK

Interviewer: 'How do you think Colin would react if he found out she's LW?' LN: 'He would react. . .worst out of everyone in the ton' NC: 'She slagged off a LOT of people! I'm like 'Girl, you should be worried!' LN: 'He's also a sensitive boy! We'll see, I'm sure'

i'm not gonna name names. . .but some of y'all owe a LOT of people in this fandom a LOT of apologies

#polin #bridgerton #nicola coughlan #luke newton #maybe this is premature but like. . .sorry not sorry #a lot of the very popular polin takes and predictions for S3 are aging like MILK #and i am gleefully clapping my hands about it #i mean this with my whole chest: some of y'all were straight up nasty to us #and even nastier to colin as a character!!!!!#you were AWFUL to so many people #for DARING to go against the status quo narrative #and i am so glad that the fandom revenge power fantasy is coming out to be wrong #this fandom owes us colin girlies a hell of an apology #prepare to be sick of me

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draftsandrecs · 3 months

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Pairing: Steve x Bucky x Bimbo!Reader

Summary: Green tea shots and back shots (2 for 1 deal)

Word Count: 3,460

Warnings: 18+, Threesome, Oral sex, Degradation

You joined the team about 6 months ago. While you were still finding your way within the team, you were happily accepted. Within the past few months you found yourself growing closely with the girls of the team. You fit in easily with Wanda and Nat, your demeanor as well as theirs fit together well. Wanda was more soft spoken and reserved. While Nat was more bold and of course spoke her mind with ease. Which left you the complete opposite of both. But in a good way. You were very outgoing, always talking, and friendly. It helped though since it fit your personality. That you deemed as a “bimbo”. Not because you were entirely dumb or naïve but because you were materialistic, party goer, and girly. You enjoyed being and feeling feminine more than the average. You loved getting ready, wearing makeup, finding new lip glosses to try, getting your nails done, hair done, and of course shopping. Unbeknownst to you though, two members on the team absolutely adored you for this, Bucky and Steve. They of course grew up in a different time where women wore modest outfits and kept to themselves. Though they had been around a while in the modern world they weren’t familiar with your aesthetic. When they met you it was a shock. It probably didn’t help what you wore the first time you were introduced either. Jeans that showed off your midriff, a small white tank top that perfectly outlined your breasts, and a tiny jacket that was there for looks rather than warmth. You were basically a bratz doll on walking legs. It also surprised them when you hugged everyone when being welcomed but they didn’t complain. Especially once they realized how good you smelled and felt against them. Ever since then, you were always known as “doll” for your looks. Always put together in one way or another.

You were a little starstruck when you met the super soldiers. You always thought they were attractive when you saw them in magazines or in the news but when you met them in real life it was completely different. They looked like models rather than soldiers. They just had such an ideal look to them. If they weren’t super heroes they could definitely be on the runway.

You, Bucky, and Steve grew close as the time went on. At first it was just being cordial since you didn’t see them a lot since they had their own place. But as time went on and sharing missions together, you guys grew closer. You really enjoyed their humor, especially Bucky’s dry wittiness and Steve’s cheesy jokes. You started to develop a little crush on them that you felt could be mutual considering there've been a few instances that could be used as examples. The latest incident was during a game night with a few other team members. Bucky had asked if you ever had a threesome, not just any threesome but with two males specifically. You answered no, which was true. But the way Bucky looked at you when he asked made it seem like the question wasn’t asked just out of curiosity.

Tonight was a celebration for working so hard. The team decided that a much needed break was needed and what better way to do that than by partying.You were very excited to go out tonight. It had been a while since you went out due to missions, briefings, and mindless paperwork. It felt like a relief when Tony suggested a night out. You figured it was necessary if Tony was suggesting a break especially with how hard he works. Which means drowning in work until you are about to explode because you are so stressed. Therapy isn’t always necessary, sometimes it’s needing to get shit faced and blacking out in an uber. And that’s exactly what everyone needed. You were looking forward to possibly dancing with- on two specific men.

Your room looks like your closet and drawers threw up. Clothes were spread out everywhere on the floor, chair, and bed. You were trying on everything you had along with trying to find shoes to match that wouldn’t completely destroy your feet tonight. You had totaled your picks down to three options. One was a brown dress that had thick shoulder straps and a V-neck down to the sternum. The next outfit was black leather pants with a cross stitch from the hips to mid though and a matching halter top. The last pick was nothing crazy, just a white mini skirt and a white crop tee that fell a little below your breasts. But you could dress it up with a coat and some body jewelry. You decided to debate for a little while. Until then you started on your makeup routine.

You finally decided on the last choice. You would thank yourself later once you begin to get hot with everyone in the club.

“Chromatic look, I like it.” Nat’s voice chimes in at the bedroom doorway.

“Thank you, I usually try to go for more color but I think it’s cute especially with the accessories.” You reply while you finish putting in some gold chunky hooks.

Your outfit was pieced together with a gold chain belt that fell at your waist, a long coat (for pictures), and some white fold over boots. You didn’t like the boots at first but it really did pull the fit together.

“It is cute! I like the boots, very nice.” Wanda had now joined you and Nat. And has confirmed that the boots are a good choice.

“I appreciate it, love. Do you need to borrow something?” you ask, turning around as she rummages through the glass case. Anytime you guys go out she likes to look through your jewelry box to borrow your stuff.

“Maybe.” She replies sheepishly knowing she always goes for a specific necklace and earrings.

“I’m ready if you guys are.” You say grabbing your purse and checking you have your necessity items (I.D., credit card, and lipgloss).

An excitement of yes’s follows your comment.

You turn the light off in your room and make sure nothing is on. Sam has forgotten once or twice to turn off the oven and almost burned down the kitchen. The smoke was not pleasant to have around, especially on an upper floor level. And the burnt pizza was basically a big hockey put.

“Tony said the uber is around the block so we can head down.” Nat calls as you're done making sure the building is fine. You head towards the elevator to join the other two girls down to the lobby.

The club is packed as usual. Body to body, strobe lights, drunk people failing to walk correctly.

It’s a 3 story club with a dance floor on each level and two dj’s. It’s one of the best clubs in New York considering the team doesn’t get recognized with how no harsh lighting is used.

Your hands are intertwined with Wanda and Nat’s as you guys form a chain to get through the floor to head to the area where the others are at. Getting lost in a place, any crowded place sucks especially in such a large club.

“I think I see them!” You yell to Nat pointing with your shared hands at Tony standing while taking a shot. A few women sat behind him like a mini entourage.

“Yeah that's him alright.” Nat says teasingly as you guys head to the area with an L shaped couch and table.

“You guys finally made it, here catch up!” Tony exclaims already buzzed. A handful of shots in his hands welcoming you three.

“Green tea?” You question before you take it.

He nods, replying “of course.”

You smile, taking both shots from his hands and easily downing them. Your body is full of excitement already with the music and friends around you.

“Do you want a mixed drink?” Nat asks as you begin eyeing the crowd. Which is hard considering the lights are flashing and everyone moving around. You find Wanda and Vision together easily considering he’s the only bright being in the club.

“Yeah, something fruity.” You reply as you discard your coat on the couch.

The bass fills your body with how loud it is. Amplifying how tipsy you’re getting. Four shots and two drinks down, you find yourself grinding on Nat. Her hands grip your hips as you move them. Lost in the music you look around to find Bucky and Steve across the crowd watching you.

“You know they like you, you know?” Nat’s voice is close to your ear as you giggle.

“Maybe but I assumed they were just nice, being friendly,” you reply as you turn around towards her.

“They’ve liked you since you joined the team. If feelings are mutual, I think tonight would be good to jump on that.” Her comment was definitely an innuendo that you picked up on.

“Yeah? I think I just might.” You say feeling the liquor gives you courage.

“Good, because they’re coming over here.” Nat’s comment doesn’t hit you until she’s walking away and a hard body is pressed against you and Bucky is standing in front of you.

“You having a good time doll?” Bucky asks, leaning down to speak in your ear. His breath is minty from his gum. Steve and his cologne are filling your senses causing you to melt.

“Yeah, what about yourselves?” You ask flirting back as you dance back on Steve. Feeling more confident now that you know feelings may be mutual.

“Better now that you’re here.” Bucky says with a smirk as his body moves with the rhythm.

“I like your outfit, you wear it just for us?” Steve’s lips brush against your ear as his hands find your bottom, lightly squeezing the soft flesh making you jump a little.

“Maybe.” Your voice is a little weak from how hot you feel. Both soldiers sandwich you making you feel turned on, warm, and dizzy.

“You should wear more easily accessible outfits.” Steve says as his hands lightly grab your breasts.

“Show us how you dance.” Bucky states as a new song comes on.

You let loose, allowing their hands over you as you move your hips to the music. Bucky and Steve grinding against you as you forget there’s other people in the club. It feels like it’s just the three of you especially in the little area you guys are in. Not like anyone could notice considering most are drunk and the club is dark enough to not notice two men feeling you up.

You move your head to the side resting against Steve’s upper body, rolling your body against the two men. Steve takes advantage of this to kiss your neck as Bucky leans in close to you. At first you think he’s about to say something until he kisses you. It catches you off guard but not unwanted. Bucky deepens the kiss as you lean your body into Steve for support.

You don’t know whose hands are which but you love it regardless. One hand finds their way between your thighs rubbing the soft flesh beforing finding the pads of their fingers on your pussy. You moan into Bucky’s mouth as you feel him smile into the kiss. The calloused fingertips aren’t too rough on you, creating circles as you grind against their hand.

“She’s not wearing anything underneath Buck.” Steve comments as your face becomes red.

Bucky pulls back from the kiss “No panties? You’re such a slut for us.”

Steve removes his hand from your legs as you quickly reply, “only for my favorite men.”

Your response creates a shared look between the two. Before you know it you’re basically being dragged by both men out of the club.

The bedroom is semi dark besides the hallway light casting in. You can’t make out who’s room but you don’t care as your body is being ravaged by the two men.

“Beautiful,” Steve's voice fills the air as your tits are free from the top. His mouth finds its way to suck on one while Bucky is undressing himself next to you.

“You have a safe word, doll, don’t want to hurt you.” Bucky says as he’s now stripped to just his underwear, petting his hard-on.

“Red is fine.” You say as you become more needy just watching them.

Steve’s lips move from your nipples down to your stomach towards your pussy. He kisses the inside of your thigh, teasing you with little bites.He licks and kisses the little marks he has left before kissing your pussy. Steve’s tongue glides on your pussy. Focusing on your clit, sucking on it and creating motions with his tongue. He laps at the wetness that drips from your entrance down to your asshole. Bucky is pumping his cock as he watches his best friend eat you out. Using his precum as a lube to glide over the tip easier.

Bucky moves next to you on the bed, now fully naked. His cock is girthy making you rethink for a second if you’ll actually need to use the safeword. He sits on his knees, making sure to get close to your head. He begins adjusting pillows behind your neck so you don’t have to strain your head or neck. Once comfortable Bucky rubs his tip over your lips. You open your mouth and Bucky takes that as a signal to slide the tip in. It feels heavy on your tongue and strains around your mouth trying to accommodate its sheer size.

“Oh fuck.” Bucky moans under his breath as your wet mouth invites him in.

This is by far the thickest you’ve ever had, you know your jaw will be sore by the end of the night.

You feel yourself aching from just how wet and horny you are. Bucky begins to slowly rock his hips making sure to not accidentally make you choke. Your tongue laps at the head trying to give special attention to the sensitive tip. One hand on his hip the other in your hair you let your jaw loose so he can properly use your mouth.

“That’s it, good girl.” He says moaning as he begins to feed you more of his length.

You moan around his cock as you feel fingers rub your clit down to your entrance before entering you. Even though it’s just two fingers, it’s such a relief you would be satisfied with this. Steve easily finds your g-spot and targets it. Causing you to rock against his hand. Your wetness creaming around his fingers.

“Just need to open you up so you can take us.” Steve’s comment is more than true as you look at Steve noticing how big he is as well. Not as girthy as Bucky but the length is something else, yeah you might need that safeword.

Mascara is running down your face as Bucky mocks you.

“Is it too much for you doll, you can’t handle us?” He taunts with a small smile on his face. He absolutely adores watching you being pleasured.

Steve’s movements stop for a second before you feel the tip of his cock at your entrance. You try to brace yourself for a second before you’re instantly stretched.

“Holy shit you’re tight.” Steve’s words make you clench around him. Inch by inch making you feel fuller than ever before.

“Yeah? You like his cock baby, you just needed something to fill you up?” Bucky asks as you shake your head yes.

Steve grabs your hips to roughly use you. Watching himself as he goes in and out of your wet hole. Pulling almost all the way before quickly thrusting himself back in which makes you choke a little on Bucky.

Bucky pulls out to let you catch your breath, “you watchin’? You see how good you make him feel?” Bucky’s words make you turn your attention to Steve abusing your hole.

“Your cunt takes him so well. You’re making his cock drown in your wetness.” Bucky’s stroking himself as you both watch Steve stretch you out.

Bucky uses his metal arm to lean down between you and Steve to rub your clit. The cold metal makes you jump as you whine. His motions become fast as you throw out curse words from how good the combination feels.

“You got it, pretty girl. I know you can take it.” Bucky’s words just add to the fire as he talks you through it.

“If you can’t even take this I can’t imagine how you’ll react once i'm inside you. Stevey’s just being nice.” His comment makes you open your eyes as both men are staring at you, watching you unravel in front of them. Enjoying your stained face, red cheeks, and swollen lips.

Steve begins to slowly come to stop, not to hurt you when he pulls out.

“Face down, ass up.” Steve says as you're pulled to the edge of the bed then flipped over.

Bucky is standing at the end of the bed, rubbing his cock over your abused hole. Taking his time teasing you, roughly spanking your ass and rubbing his cock against you.

“Remember the safe word?” Bucky asks you to make sure you know your limits as he leaves handprints on your ass cheeks.

“Yes.” You say as you anticipate Bucky’s next move.

Steve is standing in front of you, cock in your face as he smiles down at you. Holding your cheek with one hand and stroking your face with the other. You can feel Bucky lining himself up against your hole. You look at Steve for reassurance as Bucky slowly enters you. Steve pets your head, running his hand over your hair to comfort you.

“Oh my god.” You whimper as Bucky’s cock stretches you to your limits.

Steve takes the opportunity to guide your head to his cock as you open your mouth. His size is a little easier to take but not by much as you feel the familiar lockjaw begin to form. Your tongue sticks out to allow him to go deeper into your mouth for more pleasure. Bucky begins fucking your hole with ease. Your wetness allows him to easily use you as he pleases. You feel like you may rip apart if both men become any rougher. Bucky gripping your hips to fuck against him as Steve uses your head against him.

“I knew she’d take us so well. She’s perfect.” Steve’s voice pipes up as if you aren’t there.

“Yeah, her holes are perfect for taking us.” Bucky grunts as he leans over to fuck you as deep as possible.

You are the fullest you have ever been. Both holes are filled with two huge cocks by two huge men. Using you like you are nothing more than sex toy. And you absolutely love it. You enthusiastically bob your head on Steve’s cock as you feel him get sloppier with his actions.

Bucky’s motions are more aggressive as he keeps targeting your sweet spot over and over. You feel yourself get closer as you tighten around his cock. Bucky moves a hand down to your clit to give it much needed attention. A low vibration is applied to your clit making you moan around Steve’s cock. The pleasure of both holes being filled and your clit stimulated are making your orgasm creep closer and closer. Your cunt squeezes around Bucky even more with each thrust.

“If you keep doing that I’m going to cum inside you, you want that?” Bucky asks as you push your ass against him. Imagining his cum filling you up almost pushes you over the edge.

“You want our cum, want us to fill your body with our cum, fuck you until the only thing you know is our names?” Steve’s words make you feel like you’re going to explode.

Your wetness is dripping from your hole to your clit soaking both you and Bucky. Wet sounds from your mouth and pussy fill the room as both men use your small holes for their pleasure. You rock your pussy against his hand to create even more pleasure. He lets you find your rhythm to help you reach your orgasm. Bucky makes his arm vibrate even more which creates pleasurable shocks throughout your body as you cum. It rocks through your whole lower half as you milk Bucky’s cock for his cum. Bucky and Steve aren’t far behind you as they cum. Bucky pulls out cumming onto your back as Steve shoots down your throat which you swallow happily.

“Now you can say you’ve had a threesome.” Bucky says jokingly as he falls onto the bed beside you and Steve.

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