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#but i would prefer to be perceived as a guy than a girl
collapsing-sun · 5 months
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do you think i am a boy?
does my eyeliner make me less of a boy?
when you tell your new friends about me, do you tell them i am a boy?
if we kissed would you feel like you were kissing a boy?
do you see me as a boy?
— ‘she’
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friendlifyre · 2 years
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looking for that one reblog where someone said something like... 'when i think of having sex i picture myself with a dick'.
i cant even remember if it was in response to a post abt trans ppls sexualities or abt why bottom surgery can matter or abt why the 'youre a [gender] bc you say so not bc you have [x] body parts !!!1!!' positivity can be alienating to some ppl...
maybe a mix of all or none at all but i wanna find it again so badly bc that sentence exists rent free in my brain like i have Never experienced such a feeling of simultaneous Being Understood + You Put It In Words as I did when i read that sentence
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motherlvr · 11 months
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can you write something grumpy!42miles x sunshine!reader? where he’s always kinda mean but cares about her but they end up together
this prompt is so cute tysm for the req!!
Word count: About 1,600
Pairing: Grumpy Earth-42! Miles Morales x Sunshine! f! reader
Summary: The line between just classmates and something more is thin. Miles and You seemed to be walking that line.
Warnings: (begrudgingly) friends to lovers, he's a bit mean, fluff, minimal cursing, classmates to lovers, pure fluff, cannot contain the fluff, reader is a little slow, this is short and cute, spanish grammar is not my strong suit
A/N: if i haven't gotten to your request yet, its still a wip but will be posted soon!
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You were boisterously laughing. Obnoxiously, even. The guy’s joke wasn’t even that funny.
Miles called your name out with an aggravated tone,
"Would it kill you to shut up for a second?"
You promptly responded, "Would it kill you to lighten up for once?"
He regrets not skipping this class.
That was partially a lie. In reality, he didn’t care for this class at all. He only came to see you. You were one of the few people who put up with him.
Miles and you always sat together during class. "Unassigned assigned seats", you'd call it. But that’s all you were. Seat partners. That was the way it was, and the way it would stay. And he was fine with that, at least he tried to convince himself.
The next day, the seat next to Miles was empty. It hasn’t been empty since the first day you met.
If you asked Miles how you both met, he’d say you forced your way into his life. However, you’d say that you saw through his “cold guy” facade and he opened up his heart to you. He was a good guy if you had the patience. That was only one of the many things he admired about you. Your optimism.
He saw you across the room. You were sitting with someone else. A guy. What was his name again? Miles couldn't recall. That was how irrelevant he was to Miles.
"Is this seat taken?" Miles looked up to the voice that had spoken, hoping it was somehow you. However, as he glanced up, an unfamiliar face was staring at him.
"Nah." He muttered, not sparing her another look.
She introduced herself and told Miles her name, but he wasn't listening. He was listening to your laugh. How could he not? Your laugh was practically drowning out every other voice in the room. At least, that’s how he perceived it.
You were giggling at whatever the guy next to you said. But this time, he wished it was him making you laugh. That guy didn't deserve to hear you laugh, or see you smile.
He couldn't stand your laugh unless he was the cause of it. Miles didn’t pay attention to the lesson that day. He was occupied staring daggers into your back. Yet you never noticed.
You sat next to Miles the day after, as usual. It was an unspoken agreement, and you had broken it the day prior.
Immediately as you sat down, Miles started interrogating you.
"You left me with some random girl to go flirt with that moron? He's a dick." He scoffed at you, nodding his head towards the guy that you left him for yesterday.
Right, like you're not. You thought. "He's really not, he's a good guy!" You defended him and continued, "Plus, your partner was super smart. She was probably more help than I could’ve been.”
"Ella no es tú. What else can I say, ma?" Miles casually said.
You tried to hide your grin but failed as a smile spread across your face. The corner of his lip curled in a small smirk. If you blinked, you would have missed it.
"I’m sorry for 'leaving you', Miles. But don’t worry, I prefer you over him anyway." You smiled brightly at him. And for a second, his stoic heart gleamed.
"I wasn't worried." He grumbled.
"You sure? I mean, whatever you say.” You grinned amusedly at him.
The rest of the class period followed as usual. But this time, before the bell rang, Miles bottled up his dignity to ask you, "Ay ma, wanna hang out after school?"
You raised a skeptical brow at his unusual behavior, "What, you starting to like me now? I thought you couldn't tolerate me." You probed.
Oblivious to you, he does more than just tolerate you. He was growing fond of your presence. He was starting to miss the sound of your giggle echoing within the room when he wasn’t around you.
But he couldn't find the courage to tell you just yet. Instead, he murmured, "I can tolerate you. Out of most of these people in here, anyway."
"I'm kidding. Yeah, I'm down, Miles." You teased him and agreed.
What you didn't know is that your initial question wasn't very far from the truth.
The school day couldn’t have passed any slower. If you were being honest, you were eagerly anticipating spending more time with Miles out of school.
The final bell of the day rang, and Miles held up to his side of the agreement. He met up with you after school.
Walking side-by-side, you asked, "What've you got planned for us today, Miles? You gonna wine and dine me?" you winked at him.
"Maybe another day, mami." He cracked a slight grin as he responded, fond of your antics.
"I'll hold you to that. I've got a better idea, anyway." You said as you heard a familiar song ringing through the atmosphere.
You yanked Miles by his arm and pulled him, "Look, an ice cream truck! I haven't seen one of those in forever. Let's go!"
A rare smile adorned Miles' face. Not that you saw it. You were too busy chasing after the ice cream truck and dragging him along.
You approached the ice cream truck. The ice cream man greeted you, "Hey guys! What can I get for you today?"
Without missing a beat, you said "Hello! Can I get the Spongebob popsicle please?" with a bright smile.
Miles ordered his right after you. "Coming right up!" The ice cream man said. He shortly returned with both your orders in hand.
As you tried to give the owner cash, Miles lowered your hand gently and said, "Let me pay for you." It was more of a demand as he handed cash to the man.
You couldn't contain the surprise that formed on your face. "Really? Thank you, Miles! You didn't have to do that, y’know." You reached up to him and peppered a kiss on his cheek as a token of gratitude. "Nah, I wanted to." He dismisses it with a shrug.
The man gave you both your ice creams and said, "Have a good day!"
"Young love. A beautiful thing to see." The owner of the truck said as you both walked away.
You both sat on a bench surrounded by a garden of blooming flowers. It was quite scenic for Brooklyn. "Miles, look. He only has one eye!" You chuckled as you showed him your popsicle.
Unbeknownst to you, you had ice cream smeared on your face. He leaned in to wipe the corner of your mouth with his thumb, his gaze lingering on your lips. An almost too-intimate action for people who were just "classmates." But you brushed it off as him being friendly for a change.
"You're a mess, mami." He chuckled, shaking his head at you. You ignored how he made your stomach do flips.
Miles had led you to a rooftop that he frequents. It had an incredible view of the sun, despite all the tall buildings encased around you two.
Miles and you spent the rest of the evening together, basking in the presence of one another. You conversed for hours, only realizing the time when the sun started to set. Comfortable moments of silence were exchanged as you watched the sun disappear from the sky, the moon soon replacing it.
“It’s a full moon, isn’t it just beautiful?” You admired the moon as it shone down on the sullen streets of Brooklyn.
"Yeah, It is." He replied, but he wasn't looking at the moon. If you had just turned your head, you'd realize the true meaning of his words. He hadn't even noticed the moon. His eyes were fixated on you instead. He believed that the moon couldn't even hold a candle to you.
"Why haven't we done this before, Miles? I enjoyed hanging out with you today." You felt harmonious with him for once, laying your head against his shoulder as you studied his face.
"I did too, princesa. Maybe I will just wine and dine you someday." Miles said with a smirk, gazing down into your eyes with a borderline smitten expression.
A lightbulb suddenly enlightened your brain. You mentally banged your head against a wall. How could you be so naive to not realize it sooner?
You broke the tension in the air and raised your head to look into his eyes. "Is this a date? You know, people that are 'just' classmates don't go on dates." You told him cheekily.
Could he not have made it more obvious? He paused for a moment and said, “I don’t want to be just classmates.”
“So you want to be best friends? Great! Me too." You grinned, feigning naivety.
His face immediately dropped as he facepalmed himself. "Dios mío, no. That's not what I meant. Never mind, olvídalo." He said, shaking his head.
You beamed at him and laced your fingers with his. “I’m just messing with you, Miles. I like you too. In case you haven't noticed."
He sighed of relief as he lifted your entwined hands to press a soft kiss to the back of your hand. You stayed in each other's embrace for the rest of the night.
From that day forward, you never broke the unspoken agreement ever again. And Miles never had to worry about you associating with another douche again. Excluding himself.
You walked into class hand-in-hand the next day. The following days, as well. That's the way it was, and that's the way it would stay. And both of you were content with that.
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ella no es tú - she's not you
dios mío - my god
olvídalo - forget it
princesa - princess
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penny00dreadful · 5 months
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Okay, okay, okay listen.
Remember when we were all obsessed with Steddie Legally Blonde a while back? Yes, I’m still thinking about it, leave me alone. And I adore everything I’ve read. It’s all so fantastic.
But I had a thought because what if we switched it up a little? I’m going mainly off of the musical here, so bear with. 
So what if instead of having Steddie as Elle and Emmett, we instead have them as Paulette and UPS Guy/Kyle??? Like??? It fits, right???
But then, but THEN who do we have as Elle/Emmett?
Buckingham.
No, but just think of it! 
Or I guess you don’t really need to because I’ve thought of it enough for all of us and it goes like this:
(OMG you guys I blacked out and when I woke up this thing was 3.1k long written over a few hours. I haven't edited this at all so please be gentle about typos/tense changes etc. The fever just took me.)
Chrissy is your quintessential girly girl. She is Elle Woods. She’s blonde, pretty, cheerleader, very feminine and happy where she is in life, President of her Sorority with her besties by her side and her guy who is… well he’s as good as any guy could be, right?
Jason is handsome, rich, well connected, he treats her with affection and he humours her when she has some pretty wild, out there ideas. 
But then it happens and they break up because apparently having a girly girl for a wife just wouldn’t look good if he’s gonna live his life the way he wants to. Lawyer, his own practice, running for office. 
Apparently her blonde hair and boobs would hold him back which, what the fuck??? 
What does that have to do with anything?
They love each other, right? That surface stuff isn’t supposed to matter. At all! They’re supposed to be together no matter what because they… they love each other?
Well fuck that noise, no one tells Chrissy Cunningham she’s too fucking blonde to do anything which is a hypocritical ass thing to say because has Jason looked in the fucking mirror recently?
Different fucking rules, apaprently. 
Well, no more.
She’s gonna fuck up law school right along side him and she’s gonna wear fucking pink while doing it too!
And like, everything is going fine. 
Chrissy’s not stupid, she knows how she’s perceived by people before they get to know her. 
Vapid, bimbo, perky, blonde.
Like that’s an insult.
It’s just harder now that she’s away from her girls, gays and theys back home. And everyone here seems to think that the best way to live their lives is to look boring as shit while doing it along with tearing each other down.
She fucking hates it, but she’s determined to see it through. 
It helps that she seems to have found the one person on the whole of the fucking east coast who actually listens to what’s coming out of her mouth rather than just paying attention to the hair on her head or staring at her tits.
Robin is so strange.
She’s different in such a refreshing way, it’s like being able to breathe clean air for the first time in years.
And she’s fucking sharp. And sweet. And so, so comforting. 
Chrissy would have never managed to survive the depression of those first few weeks without her.
And like, she’s not ignorant to the fact that Robin sometimes does look at her boobs but at the same time it just feels different coming from a woman than it does a man. It doesn’t feel so objectifying.
Instead of putting Chrissy on edge it makes her feel a little smug. A little proud of herself, it makes her feel attractive and desired in a way she hasn’t felt in a very long time. 
Is that sexist? To prefer the attentions of a woman over a man when both do it just fine for her?
Chrissy’s not exactly sure, but she knows she enjoys it when it’s coming from Robin.
So maybe it’s a Robin thing. 
Chrissy honestly thinks things are looking up for her. 
Until Jason introduces Nicole. 
His fucking fiancee???
It’s been, like, four months since they broke up.
Nicole hates her guts, she can tell. She thinks she’s some two braincelled idiot who got into Harvard on daddy’s dime and needs to be babied through the simplest of tasks while not understanding how condescending everyone’s been the whole time.
Chrissy fucking understands. She’s been through it all before, but back then she had people by her side. It’s all so fucking childish. The world already hates women enough, Chrissy desperately doesn’t want to be at another womans throat, over a man no less, but Nicole doesn’t seem to feel the same way.
She’s ambitious and cut-throat and dedicated and a little bit terrifying. 
Apart from Robin, she’s on her fucking own out here.
And she needs something. 
Something of home to bring some light back into her life.
So she gets in her car and just drives around the streets hoping something will catch her eye. 
And it does. 
Some tiny little hole in the wall salon with a pride flag out the front that she’s immediately drawn to because god damn it she misses her friends. The girls, the gays, the theys.
As soon as she pulls over she feels both simultaneously like she’s come home and she definitely won’t fit in here, but she’s so emotionally raw at this stage it all kinda ends up converging on her and now she’s standing in front of a mostly empty salon and there’s a guy looking at her and she’s just fucking crying.
Through her blurry vision she can see the guy approaching and she really fucking hopes this isn’t gonna turn into a thing because she just does not have any spoons left to deal with some creep right now. 
But he seems to sense how he’s coming off because he becomes a little more effeminate from one step to the next.
“You okay, honey?” He asks, big brown eyes wide with concern and a hand covered in rings hovering over her shoulder, not touching. He has a cigarette in the other hand, held away to keep the smoke from reaching her, his arms covered in ink but Chrissy wants nothing more than a cigarette right now.
Or, that’s kind of a lie, but she’d love one in all honesty. She hasn’t smoked in so long. 
The guy spots her eyeing it, sticking the cigarette back between his plush lips and needing to use both hands to pull his carton from his pants considering they’re so tight.
“Bad day?” He hands her one and Chrissy ends up breaking down all over again.
She tells him that it hasn’t just been a bad day, but a bad half a year, really. She tells him all about Harvard and Jason and her professors and Robin and by the end of her ranting they’re sitting back in the breakroom of the salon. They guy’s name is Eddie, she learns and despite his mean and scary exterior Chrissy thinks he might be the gentles person she’s met in this whole god forsaken city.
He holds her hands between his and listens to her. Actually hears her talk and pays attention and is concerned and attentive and she loves him for it. 
He helps her find her confidence again, at least for the rest of the day. They commiserate about how they both stick out like sore thumbs in their communities and how people need to just kinda get over it.
He encourages her not to let the normies win, do go hang out with Robin, to go kick ass and she’s just wondering how on earth she can ever repay the favour when they hear
“Knock, knock.” 
Coming from the front of the salon.
Eddie’s whole face drains of colour before immediately turning red and he bolts up from his chair, stumbling out of the staffroom and moving back behind the receptionists desk.
Chrissy gets to watch in real time as all of Eddie’s incredible confidence and easy lightheartedness disappears into a vat of nerves mostly hidden by cheeky flirtation as he twirls a lock of hair around his finger and bats his eyelashes at the Hot UPS Guy who looks equally as charmed. 
When the guy, Steve, has to get back to his route, Eddie practically melts against the desk as soon as he’s out of sight. 
“Looks like I’m not the only one who needs help.”
Eddie rolls his eyes at her but smiles anyway. “I had that handled just fine.”
Over the next few months, she and Eddie get closer, Eddie and Steve stay exactly where they were that first day and she and Robin are quickly approaching best friends level.
But Chrissy is starting to come to terms with the fact that maybe she wants a little more than to be best girly-girl friends with Robin and maybe she wants to stick her tongue down her throat about it. 
The two of them are practically attached at the hip, spending all day at classes together, alternating between their respective rooms to study late into the night, ending up in the same bed together and waking up together in the morning. 
Chrissy is almost, completely, entirely sure that this is all very not platonic but it’s so difficult to tell.
She’d be constantly sleeping over with her friends back home, hugging, kisses on cheeks, cuddling in bed or when watching movies, just girly things.
But this feels different. Is it different?? Or is this just how Robin is with all her female friends, the same way it’s always been how Chrissy was with her friends back home. How can she tell if it’s going from platonic to romantic??
And all of that needs to go on the backburner anyway because they’re being put on a real life, for realsies you guys case. And if they fuck up this case they could be at fault for someone spending the rest of their fucking life in prison for something they didn’t do??
Unacceptable.
And after Chrissy finds out their client used to be on the same cheer team as her? It was all over. No way was she gonna let her go to prison just because everyone thinks a pretty young woman couldn’t possibly love someone a little older than her. 
Not on Chrissy’s watch. 
But first she has to deal with Robin’s wardrobe because they professor is insistent that all the women wear skirts and tights and Robin is not having it.
Neither is Chrissy to be fair, so she takes Robin out to the most lavish place she can, decks them both out in the fiercest looking pantsuits they can get their hands on, refusing to back down.
It comes as a surprise to both of them when Nicole stands with them in solidarity as well and now their professor is both outnumbered and losing his arguments with only Jason on his side about this and they fucking win.
It’s only a small win but it still feels fantastic. 
Riding her high of winning that small fight, she bursts into the salon and informs Eddie that he is going to either kiss or ask out Steve the next time he sees him and when Eddie reacts like she just said she was going to shave all of his hair off she refuses to hear it. 
Because the thing is Eddie is pretty, really pretty and she knows that Steve knows it, but she doesn’t think that Eddie himself is really aware of it. And despite his prettiness, he’s all awkward elbows and knees. 
So she gives him some tips and shows him how to highlight certain things about himself, the long legs, the tattooed arms, the hip bones. Even his cute little bum. She teaches him how to subtly pull at his clothes in conversation so some skin is exposed or his tiny little waist is highlighted. She teaches him how to use his eyes to go in for the kill.
He doesn’t seem to think it’ll work but she is almost certain it will. 
And it’s confirmed for her when she gets a call later that night from Eddie who sounds fucking over the moon and completely bewildered by the fact that Steve likes him back??? Has done for months?? And they had some incredible dirty nasty sex in the salon after it closed for the night and how they’re going to the movies tomorrow??
Eddie swears he’s gonna send her the biggest fuck off fruit basket he can find. 
Everything is looking up for her, especially after she has such a major win in court, figuring out one of the prosecutors witnesses had perjured himself on the stand (without outing him to the whole damn court, thankfully).
Or at least everything was looking up for her until she found herself alone in a room with her professor and she felt the energy in the room shift before it happened. 
His hands were on her before she could do anything about it and she cracked him across the face for it before she could even think about what this could do to her legal career going forward. 
Because that was the reality of it, wasn’t it? 
Either allow herself to get assaulted or destroy her career before it even started. 
She didn’t know when her priority had shifted from getting Jason back to actually pursuing this as a future career. But she had found to her own surprise she loved it. She adored it actually. 
And now…
Now it would all be gone. 
Jason had seen, of course he had and he was less than kind about it because apparently it made more sense that she had fucked her way into Harvard than had actually been smart enough to get there on her own. 
She couldn’t stomach anything Nicole could possibly have to say to her but if the way she was glaring at Jason with barely concealed rage after that comment was anything to go by, Chrissy didn’t need to worry too much about that.
She just wanted to go. To get out. She needed to get out. And she would have gotten away scott free if Robin hadn’t been hanging around waiting for her.
Robin’s face broke into a bright smile but that quickly slipped away when she saw the state Chrissy was in. She was all sweet concern and care and affection but Chrissy couldn’t fucking deal with it at that moment, she couldn’t face her.
She couldn’t face Robin who would find out what a fool of herself she’d made believing in Chrissy, when Chrissy had thrown all of their hard work away.
Because no one would ever fucking see her as a person. She was just a piece of ass.
So she ran.
She didn’t even realise where she was running to until she was standing outside the salon doors again. 
It was late, they were closed, of course they were, why was she here?
She was standing outside the door crying again like she had been the first time and it was all just so fucking stupid-
“Chrissycakes?”
She was enveloped in Eddie’s arms before she could even blink, being ushered inside and steered back to the staffroom, same as that first time. 
There were beer bottles and take out containers over the table and Steve sitting at the table and oh, she’d interrupted something hadn’t she? 
What a fucking way to officially meet one of her best friends new boyfriend right?
But they were so sweet. 
They sat and listened while she spilled the whole thing, offering at different points to hunt down her professor for her or slash his tires or lose all of his mail or whatever and she was forced to giggle through the tears.
But she shook her head in the end. She was tired. She was sick of having to defend herself constantly. 
She needed… she needed to go back to where she belonged. 
And she was about to. 
She was about to leave the salon, swear to keep in contact with Eddie because god damn it she loved him now and she was ready to run.
But then there was a hammering at the door and Chrissy poked her head out to see Nicole standing there looking like she was on a fucking crusade. 
And… was that…?
Robin was standing behind her, looking like she was just trying not to get in Nicole’s way.
Eddie grumbled to himself about changing the damn salons opening hours if this was to continue but he unlocked the door anyway.
Nicole burst in all fire and determination, shoving her finger directly in Chrissy’s face.
“I hated you. But god fucking damn it if you didn’t prove to me that this is the career you belong in. And I refuse to stand by and see an admirable woman of your smarts and calibre get run over by some small dicked professor with a receding hairline. You’re so much more than that. So c’mon. We’re breaking through that fucking glass ceiling if it kills us.”
Holy shit.
Robin pulled her into a tight hug, warm and comforting and a little too long to be platonic, running a hand through her hair. 
“We’ll do whatever you’re comfortable with Chris, but… you deserve to be in that courtroom.” She muttered into her ear and Chrissy could do nothing but nod into Robin’s neck.
She heard Eddie sigh behind her. “Okay if we’re doing this then… I need to make a few calls.”
A few days later Chrissy made her triumphant return to the courtroom. Everyone was there to support her. Eddie, Steve, her besties from back home that Eddie had called, telling them it was a friend emergency and so of course they all came right away along with Robin and Nicole bracketing her on each side. 
And while she could tell the court wasn’t taking her rants on hair care very seriously, when she finally came out with the verbal crackdown, proving the witness was actually the murderer, the gasps from the gallery were enough to feed her for years to come. 
When all was said and done at the celebration later that night, she found herself being approached by Jason.
He told her it was a mistake to let her go, to discard her the way he had and she agreed that yes it was. But his mistakes weren’t her problem anymore. And from the look of it they weren’t Nicole’s problem either. 
Jason surprisingly took it well enough, mentioning that he never really felt the same passion for law that she so clearly possessed. 
She wished him luck with finding what he wanted to do.
But now.
Now she needed to find Robin. 
Chrissy couldn’t take it anymore.
So weaving through the people around her, she grabbed at Robin’s hand, dragging her away from Steve who she had become inseparable with and pushing her into the hallway.
Robin didn’t even have a chance to ask what was happening before Chrissy was on her, pressing her into a wall, holding her close with her hands on either side of her face, kissing her with so much longing and elation and joy and happiness that when she pulled away Robin looked completely dazed. 
Robin blinked slowly a few times before her face broke into a wide grin. 
“Me too.”
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commsroom · 5 months
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as an extension of how hera reads as trans to me, hera/eiffel resonates with me specifically as a relationship between a trans woman and a cis man. loving hera requires eiffel to decentralize his own perspective in a way that ties into both his overall character arc and the themes of the show.
pop culture is baked into the dna of wolf 359, into eiffel’s worldview, and in how it builds off of a sci-fi savvy audience’s assumptions: common character types, plot beats, or dynamics, why would a real person behave this way? how would a real person react to that? eiffel is the “everyman” who assumes himself to be the default. hera is the “AI who is more human than a lot of humans,” but it doesn’t feel patronizing because it isn’t a learned or moral quality; she is a fundamentally human person who is routinely dehumanized and internalizes that.
eiffel/hera as a romance is compelling to me because there is a narrative precedent for some guy/AI or robot woman relationships in a way i think mirrors some attitudes about trans women: it’s a male power fantasy about a subclass of women, or it’s a cautionary tale, or it’s a deconstruction of a power fantasy that criticizes the way men treat women as subservient, as property. but what does that pop culture landscape mean in the context of desire? If you are a regular person, attracted to a regular person, who really does care for you and wants to do right by you, but is deeply saturated in these expectations? how do you navigate that?
I think that, in itself, is an aspect of communication worth exploring. sometimes you won’t get it. sometimes you can’t. and that’s not irreconcilable, either. it’s something wolf 359 is keenly aware of, and, crucially, always sides with hera on. eiffel screws up. he says insensitive things without meaning to. often, hera will call him out on it, and he will defer to her. in the one case where he notably doesn’t, the show calls attention to it and makes him reflect. it’s not a coincidence that the opening of shut up and listen has eiffel being particularly dismissive of hera - the microaggression of separating her from “men and women” and the insistence on using his preferred title over hers. there are things eiffel has just never considered before, and caring for hera the way he does means he has to consider them. he's never met someone like hera, but media has given him a lot of preconceptions about what people like her might be like.
there’s a whole other discussion to be had about the gender dynamics of wolf 359, even in the ways the show tries to avoid directly addressing them, and how sexual autonomy in particular can’t fully be disentangled from explorations of AI women. i don’t think eiffel fully recognizes what comments like “wind-up girl” imply, and the show is not prepared to reconcile with it, but it’s interesting to me. in the context of transness (and also considering hera’s disability, two things i think need to be discussed together), i think it’s worth discussing how hera’s self image is at odds with the way people perceive her, her disconnect from physicality, how she can’t be touched by conventional means, and the ways in which eiffel and hera manage to bridge that gap.
even the desire for embodiment, and the autonomy and type of intimacy that comes with it, means something different when it’s something she has to fight for, to acquire, to become accustomed to, rather than a circumstance of her birth. i suppose the reason i don’t care for half measures in discussions re: hera and embodiment is also because, to me, it is in many ways symbolically a discussion about medical transition, and the social fear of what’s “lost” in transition, whether or not those things were even desired in the first place.
hera’s relationship with eiffel is unquestionably the most supportive and equal one she has, but there are still privileges, freedoms, and abilities he has that she doesn’t, and he forgets that sometimes. he will never share her experiences, but he can choose to defer to her, to unlearn his pop culture biases and instead recognize the real person in front of him, and to use his own privilege as a shield to advocate for her. the point, to me - what’s meaningful about it - is that love isn’t about inherent understanding, it’s about willingness to listen, and to communicate. and that’s very much at the heart of the show.
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confusedemiposts · 5 months
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✿"so you're a girl?" ✿
Genre: fluff? Humour? Platonic mostly
Warnings: slight slander, touchy (Dazai) mentioned flat chest(Dazai), Tanizaki siblings, grammar mistakes
Notes: headcannons, probably oc, afab reader,referred to with she, reader is similar to haruhi from ohshc,I'm ashamed how long this took me,sorry if this shite I don't write often😭
Summery: You are the newest members of the Armed detective agency but (mostly) everyone thinks you are a boy, not that you really care about what gender you are perceived as its not like you were hiding the fact you are a girl but you just roll with it. How do they react and find out you are actually a girl?
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Ranpo
the first the one to know
the moment he met you he knew
stared blankly at you than continued eating his sweets
didn't really care that much that no one else referred to you as a girl
Didn't find it important enough to make a big deal out of it
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Dazai
When meeting you he stared at you for like one minute
watching your every move and observing your features
He quickly came to his conclusion
"That's a girl alright"
But didn't say anything and continued to refer to you as a guy
You know how he's quite physically affectionate?
Like jumping Atsushi and honestly just being close to people
He's definitely like that with you...
..but more touchy😰
waiting to see how long till you tell him you're a girl
once you're sick of his antics you tell him
Will act so surprised 💀
"My my your a girl?"🙀
"I couldn't have ever known! Your just so flat-"
SMACK
He got a deserved slap
Will whine about it
Asked if you can start wearing skirts and dresses
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Yosano
One of the firsts to find out
it was after your first dangerous mission and you had to have a checkup
I think she'd have to read your file to add the checkup to your medical file and saw that you were a biological female on the file
During the checkup she asked about it
When you confirmed you are a girl she asked if you had any preferred pronouns
I love her
you said you didn't really mind
Would refer to you as a girl from then on
More girlies for the office 💪
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Atsushi
took him a few months to find out
Always thought you were just a guy who's very in touch with his femmine side
Oh boy
Too be honest I'm not even sure how he finds out
heard you talking about periods with Yosano
He didn't suspect a thing
Thought that you were really knowledgeable about female anatomy
Poor boy wasn't taught anything so he actually wanted to learn too
Either asked you or Yosano
Honestly as I write this I still have no clue how he finds
Maybe the man just never finds out😭
I think he'd only find out either from Kyouka or accidentally seeing you change
Will grow nervous and awkward after finding out
Feels bad about any things he thought might have been inappropriate that he might've talked to you about
It will take him some time to treat you normally again
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Kunikida
my boy was definitely the last to find out 😔
like how he didn't know Dazai was in the mafia he didn't know you were a girl
did get suspicious a few times
he overhead you ask Yosano for a tampon/pad
He thought he heard wrong
But then everyone was suddenly referring to you as she
"Are you talking about y/n?" 🤨
was absolutely flabbergasted when he realized you weren't a boy
"HES A SHE???????"
Had to look at you several times
he just thought you were a feminine guy😭
shocked to the core
had to sit down and process this Information
asked you why you never corrected anyone when they called you a boy
when you said you didn't care what gender you were seen as he went
"Oh"
"very well then"
Struggled with refering to you as a girl for a bit but corrected himself each time
Only change in behaviour afterwards is that he treated you more politely
Hes a gentleman at heart 🤷
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Tanizaki siblings
Naomi
Naomi knew early on
was surprised when you both liked similar things
straight up asked
"are you a girl?"
when you said you are she goes
"Are you a crossdresser?🤨"
when she heard your reasoning she was fine with it
She decides to take you after work to see how you look in dresses
Junichiro
Found out the same day as Naomi
when Naomi said you guys were going somewhere alone together
"Okay-"
Then he thought it was a date
was going to kill you
Naomi told him you're a girl
He just stood there
🧍
"What"
Bro had no idea
Not even a single suspicion
Didn't believe it at first till he heard it from your own mouth
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Kyouka
didn't take her long to figure out
after a case together you walked by a store with cute plushies in the window
A bunny teddy caught Kyouka's eye
You saw it and said it looked cute
she would have thought nothing of that comment since Atsushi would have said the same thing
but for awhile now she has been growing suspicious of your gender
Especially when she saw you use the female bathroom
But she doesn't know how to bring it up
Rather quietly she asks
"...y/n.. I've been wondering...are you a girl?
When you say yes she has a lot of questions
Asking why you didn't correct anyone or just why in general
Hearing your reasoning she'd understand but a little puzzled
Just saying you definitely bought her the bunny afterwards just to see her cute smile
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kenji
Took a very long time
Honestly I don't think he would find out
He wouldn't care about your gender
He just likes you in general
He's so sweet
Always like
:D
Sorry I'm getting off topic
I think he'd find out only through Kyouka
"Ohh Mr is a miss?"
Still treats you the same
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Fukuzawa
When you joined the agency he didn't question your gender at first
He knew because you probably needed some sort of identification to join the agency or something
but when everyone was referring to you as a guy he was absolutely confused
Had no clue what to refer you as😭
just said your name instead of any sort of pronouns
My man is trying his best
You noticed after awhile he never used any pronouns on you
So during a conversation once you made sure to say you are a girl
Glad that you told him but he got into the habit of just saying your name
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Should I do PM next?
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celestialscatterbrain · 5 months
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Hey babe can you do a composite / synastry observation on Pisces mars in the 5 h composite and 1st h Lilith synastry if you are familiar, I appreciate your posts .
Pisces Mars in 5th House of the Composite Chart and Synastry of Lilith in Partner’s First House
Do not interact if you are a minor. (18+)
Oooo I like this combo 👀 I’ve never experienced either, but I would like to!
For Pisces Mars in a composite chart, I feel like this is a placement where you two don’t have to talk too much to understand the other. Perhaps you’re not a very confrontational couple, and prefer to ignore the severity of certain issues to maintain the dreaminess of your relationship. In the 5th house, I’d say maybe you guys are always doing something fulfilling that you can submerse yourselves in. You probably both love to stay to yourselves and have more fun together than with others, so you two can become very introverted together. I imagine you guys come off as the “quiet” couple, but they just might not get the butterflies that can be felt with just so little words. I feel like this is also a couple that loves to watch movies together, probably likes to smoke or do drugs together, get involved in spirituality together and maybe do rituals almost as a date, and loves to transcend to music together. I think going out to art and science museums might be a great date together. Even if the sex is casual I feel like it can still feel very spiritual and you can just go straight into doing whatever else you need to do even though you just spiritually transcended LOL. I think you guys can try out a lot of things with little to no judgement with one another, because whatever flows just flows. Painting on the beach would be a nice date for you guys. I feel like you guys can also encourage mutable styles with one another, and can be known as a more alternative couple in some way. I feel like there’s a lot of sweetness and acceptance here.
For Lilith in 1st house synastry, i think one of you might have a personal style that is different than others, and this could’ve pulled the other one in like a magnet (I feel like Lilith is the one who loves how the house person expresses themselves). I feel like Lilith instantly found the house to be their ideal “bad girl/bad guy” match, or that they look like they could be even if they are sweet. I think Lilith would encourage the house person to express themselves in a way they never have before without caring about what other people think. The house person may not have understood the sexual appeal they naturally ooze, or the extent of it, until Lilith pointed it out. For some reason I feel like Lilith might encourage the house person to get more piercings and tattoos. I feel like Lilith would love to show off how they pulled the house person, and loves to present them to whoever. They might love how scandalous you guys might appear together, especially because of your appearances. I feel like this is a couple people can look at instantly just tell they get down like that. I would love to see the outfits you guys pull out when you guys are going out together. This is the couple that is NOTICED when you go out together and can look like you guys get into trouble together even if you don’t. I feel like Lilith likes the world to know the house person is THEIRS and theirs only. The house problem probably finds the stimulation from the Lilith person to be extremely motivating and liberating. I feel like the house person can undergo a lot of changes in this interaction and grow in ways they didn’t expect to, because with newfound freedom in expressions comes a lot of self discovery that they can keep with them even after the relationship. Lilith might teach the house person how to, subconsciously or not, to be more assertive and not come off as someone to be messed around with or walked all over. With a poorly aspected Lilith, i think maybe lilith can be perceived as the house person’s “downfall,” or someone who led them down a worse path than what was originally expected of the house person. The attraction to one another here sounds so enticing.
All in all, I feel like you two can find a lot of freedom in your self expressions together, and there is no judgment in exploring and changing how you express yourself on a day to day basis in whatever respect it may be. This sounds fun.
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nika-vincent · 8 months
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Some of our reflections on the development of Halsin's personality in Bg3. Long post warning.
I can say that this post is something like a continuation of my previous one, which was devoted mainly to romance with Halsin. This time I gathered some more thoughts from my recent discussions with the guys who love this wonderful character, but this time the main topic will be the development of Halsin's personality in the game. Some things about romance will also be mentioned here a little, the moments we found in the game files, and a few more facts from the datamine. So if you haven't completed the game and don't want to get spoilers, then I suggest skipping this article for now. We will be very happy if this review can also help Larian to see some points that could be supplemented or repaired with patches and also look at how the players perceive our beloved bear and what they would like to see with him in the future.
I would like to start by saying that if we compare Minthara and Halsin in terms of the degree of personality development throughout the game, Minthara is prescribed better and even has her own different ways: to change herself for the better or to remain a bad girl. And I'm not gonna say that she doesn't deserve this because most players choose the path of good and there is no point in investing in the development of her character. Not at all. On the contrary, it shows that it is important for developers to take into account every detail in the game, and if players want to play the game differently for a change, they will discover a lot of new things and say: "Oh, dude! Minthara turns out to be not as bad as she seemed at first glance!". And this is really a wonderful move by Larian, which doesn't allow players to get bored and makes them look at situations and the characters themselves differently. (And by the way, if some character is in the minority according to the preferences of the players, this does not mean that it deserves to receive poor development.)
As for Halsin in this case, at the moment not only his romantic content is missing, but also his very development as a character and a full-fledged companion. This can be explained by the fact that he was probably recently added as a companion, and there simply wasn't time for him to prescribe more things that would reveal his character and potential to the fullest. Considering Sven Winke's recent post on Twitter, where he announced that Larian will again involve voice actors to record new content, there is a chance that these flaws will be fixed in patches and Halsin will get more interactive scenes than those he has now. (As far as I know, Minthara is also suffers from a lack of romantic content, as does Halsin, so I suggest waiting for now and following the official news from Larian …)
It's sad to see that new players who don't experience early access called Halsin a rather boring companion compared to others. However, players from early access spoke about him much higher and more positively, otherwise he wouldn't have become one of the popular characters of the community. So, why did this happen? I can explain this by saying that at that time Halsin was just something like an episodic character that we just had to rescue from the goblin camp and he would tell us everything he knows about our parasite and where we should go for further answers then. (And for an episodic character, that would be enough.) After that, we witness how he scolds Kagha because of the rite of thorns. And I think a particularly strong point was that in the case of Arabella's death, Halsin says in raised tones: "As for the Idol? It's nothing compared to life! A mere object, next to one nature's creations! You showed no pity, no remorse. I cannot absolve you!" I've seen people write admiring comments like: "Until that moment, I thought I couldn't love him even more!". The way he expresses his thoughts, shows concern, compassion, or regret and disappointment mixed with anger (because of the death of a little girl that Kagha allowed) - all this showed us the traits of Halsin's character and caused emotions among the players. Someone thought he was too soft, and someone admired his kindness. And that's how it should work, so that the character evokes different or even contradictory emotions in people, anything but boredom or the feeling that something is missing. This is what makes the character interesting, we want to learn more about him, see how he will behave in other situations and especially how he will react to the Baldur Gate City itself. And I can also note that we were particularly interested in his story with Ketheric Thorm, which he tells us about after the Tiefling party, as well as what he feels guilty about and what unfinished business he mentioned.
Unfortunately, much of what concerned Halsin's personal growth in the release version of the game remained not fully disclosed and seemed unfinished, especially in act 3. His quest during act 2 was challenging from a gameplay point of view, but from a story one it was quite touching and helped us learn a little more about Halsin's past and that the spirit of the land named Thaniel was his only childhood friend. We also learned a little about his parents, as well as the reason why he became the archdruid.
But the story of the shadow curse still remained as if unsaid, and also we didn't see any of his interactions with Ketheriс Thorm, which I think deserved to be realized, and were not limited to Halsin's stories only about Ketheric if we ask him. An interesting fact is that for a long time there were hints in the datamine that Ketheric's daughter Isobel died because of Halsin (correct me if I made a mistake somewhere, please). And I remember, I saw there that Isobel was killed by the spear 'Sorrow', the same spear that we can get in the secret vault in the emerald grove. Not to mention that in Halsin's room we can even find his diaries, in which Isobel was mentioned several times. This would have added a lot of intrigue and special opportunities for Halsin's interactions in the plot of Act 2 itself, but for some reason it remained behind the scenes and even if we ask Isobel about how she died, she cannot remember her killer. Although there are some special dialogues between Halsin and Isobel in the game files themselves at the moment, but there are none of them during the gameplay. I dunno why it was necessary to cut or change these things, and it is not for me to decide what to do here after all. But in my humble opinion, it would have added fire to Halsin's plot in act 2. I would regard this as a fact that even such a good and kind character as Halsin can make mistakes, has his own shortcomings and even dark sides. Therefore, before the release of the game, I had high expectations that Halsin would play a much bigger plot role in Act 2 because of these intrigues between him, Ketheric and Isobel than what we have in the game at the moment. The feeling of the whole story being left unsaid is still present in Act 2, but who knows, maybe it can be improved in patches?
When Halsin became our full-fledged companion in the game, we got new options for the dialogues, but very few of his interactions in the future. It's as if the development of his personality in the second act ended along with his quest. Remember what wonderful scenes with companions in Act 1 we watched over and over again when we stayed overnight in the camp. It helped us to get to know them better, to love someone or hate someone. Halsin definitely should not be deprived of this, we still want to get to know him so that later we can draw conclusions about him in Act 3 and help him find his own path, as it was with the other companions. We got to know our companions during acts 1 and 2 to see the end result of what we experienced together in act 3.
What confuses me is that the developers seem to have paid more attention to his sexuality than the development of his personality instead (not to mention that scandalous story of his sexual slavery to drows in his past, and he only tells us about it after we sleep with the drow twins in a brothel in his company). This looks especially sad for romance, because it looks like Tav fell in love with Halsin more for his sexy muscular body, and not for what kind of person he is. After all, even in real life, we fall in love with someone not for having a fine big booty, but for how a person presents themself to the world and how they treats us. I want to add here one quote that I just remembered: 'Personality is much more important, because the external beauty of a person is taken away by old age, but the beauty of the soul will remain forever.'
In act 3, at the moment, Halsin reveals much less, but we can still see some hints. After he appoints a successor to the Emerald grove in his place, and after we help heal the lands from the shadow curse, Halsin apparently has a conflict with himself about finding a new goal. He notes that he does not like the city of Baldur's Gate, he is saddened by the fate of orphans here, he would also like people to see a friend in nature. And there are also curious moments in his reasoning about shadow druids and their methods. But all this remains so far only at the level of discussions and comments that pop up sometimes. And we can only find out at the very end that he decided to find a new goal in helping people and orphans from the city in Thaniel's world. And you know, it's a really great idea, but I have this feeling again that in act 3 we missed a lot before he came to find this goal in his ending. The idea of his personal path still remained unfinished to the end. I also heard that he was supposed to have some kind of quest with a druid circle in the city, well, let's see if we'll have a chance to see it in patches.
Сomparing Halsin with the rest of the party, he still looks pretty unfinished in terms of development by the end of the game. Because each companion has their own personal options for the path of development, which we are able to influence, and we can notice the difference in the change in the character of a certain companion comparing with what they were in act 1 and what they became by the end of act 3. We can see what Shadowheart can be like if she rejects Shar, or what she will be like in the future if she becomes a dark justiciar. Astarion can remain as a spawn, but at the same time preserving himself as a person and not turn into the likeness of Cazador, whom he hated so much. Or we can help him become a Vampire Lord and the power will intoxicate him so much that he will even begin to dream of taking the city itself in the end. Even Minthara, the companion opposite to Halsin, also has her own personal path of development. But with Halsin himself, unfortunately, this is happening pretty weakly at the moment...
We have been discussing a lot lately what would help for the development of Halsin's personality, so that he could be on a par with the rest of the companions. And I'll start with an excellent thought from my dear friend @merrinla, which would give an excellent opportunity for the development of his personal path, which at the moment in the game looks somewhat unfinished (but I still believe in the power of patches, official writers and the love of fans!❤).
Considering that his background is labeled 'outlander', this makes him a person who grew up in a wild environment, wandering a lot, living in harmony with nature, free as the wind. And even his best friend is the spirit of the land, not from the ordinary people. In his youth, he lived this life, unencumbered by responsibilities, exactly before the crisis moment happened, which was a shadow curse that abruptly changed his usual life. And for 100 years, his goal was to heal the lands from this curse. Plus, his duties as an archdruid piled up here and he didn't have time for his own desires at all. "I was forgetting who I was," as he once told us. After the events in Act 2, he does not seem to be eager to return to the emerald grove, but keeps in touch with Francesca to find out news from there. He speaks quite critically about the city of Baldur's Gate, but he has a desire to help people here and make life in the city better. And I think it would be appropriate here to let Tav tell him something like: 'You know, Halsin, it's not for nothing that people say that everything can be found in Baldur's Gate. Maybe you can find yourself here too?' and also try to change his views on the civilized world, because at the moment he is not familiar with this world too well, and we could help him adapt, convince him that the city itself is not so bad, and find himself here. Even the romance with him will look great with this option.
So it would be a suitable solution if Halsin also had his own development paths: 1 - if he trusts our advice and assistance in adapting to the city, which will allow him to become more civilized. 2 - we agree that he is right in his critical views on the city and civilization, and ultimately he decides to remain an outlander.
I think that even his ending with the orphans could also look different depending on the choice of his personal path, as well as in the case of the romance with him. This is a really great idea, and thank you @merrinla so much for sharing it with me!🙏❤
I would also like to give my comment about Halsin's role in our party. Considering that we have often witnessed conflicts between our companions, in Halsin I see something like scales holding the balance. Someone like the 'father' of our party, an adult wise mentor with whom we could consult about our experiences and ask for his advice. And I would also be very happy to see how he will try to calm our companions in case of any conflict.😂 His wisdom and mentoring experience just have to play a role in our party. If we go on a romance path with him, I would really like him to let us know that he will always listen to us at any moment and support us. Maybe we could even unobtrusively take his hand in return for a while to show how much it means to us. It would also be nice if Thaniel could communicate more with Halsin in the camp, and, in the case of romance, in a dialogue with us, he would notice that Halsin cares about us. These cute moments and his modesty suit Halsin much more than excessive sexual innuendos.
I dunno if Larian will do something about the fact that in the game files Halsin should have received more interactions with Isobel. But I think it would be great and intriguing. And interactions with Ketheric would also be perfect here (Girls, don't start a fight until I find my popcorn😅). And it also seemed strange to me that Halsin had no reaction to Zevlor's betrayal. Maybe it's a bug or just another flaw, who knows. But it would also be good to get this scene, even if he was at our party at the time of the showdown with Zevlor. Maybe it would be nice to organize some kind of his reaction to Nightsong, too, given that Halsin learned about her from Aradin, but he thought she was an artifact, not a living angel. Some interactions with our pets in the camp, I think they should be for Halsin too. (Let him stroke Scratch's belly, haha) And also… the arm wrestling scene of Minsc and Halsin when? Just imagine how funny it might look, 'cause even the dialogue with Minsc about it was hilarious.😁
That's all for today! Thank you guys for reading this review to the end, and also join us in discussions in the feedback about Halsin of the official Larian's discord club! I wish great success to Larian and I thank them for creating this wonderful game for us, which unites people and allows us to discuss many things. We love you and hope that you will also succeed in your future projects, and I also wish you good luck and inspiration in working on new content for BG3!❤🙏
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ewanmitchellcrumbs · 1 year
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Tom Bennett NSFW Alphabet
A= Aftercare (what they’re like after the act)
Lights up a ciggy and will happily pass it back and forth with his partner, if they're willing to partake.
B= Body part (favorite body part their own or their lovers)
There's not a single part of Tom's body he doesn't love. He's a cocky little shit and knows he's hot stuff.
For this partner it's all about the tits and legs. He loves pawing at their chest while kissing and the sight of long legs in a skirt has him pitching a tent.
C= Cum (anything that has to do with it)
Straight into the condom. He's not completely irresponsible.
D= Dirty secret (Pretty self explanatory)
Not as experienced as he likes to make out he is. Has only gone all the way once before, the rest have all been drunken fumbles that have fizzled before they've gone anywhere.
E= Experience (do they know what they’re doing)
Not really, but he's a fake it till you make it kinda guy.
F= Favorite position
Cowgirl. It allows him to mask some of his inexperience and he enjoys watching his partner's tits bounce while looking up at them with that cocky smirk of his.
G= Goofy (how serious are they)
He'll definitely make crass puns during foreplay and can enjoy a giggle during the act. He's not totally serious about it.
H= Hair (grooming habits)
Doesn't manscape, but isn't especially hairy so it doesn't matter.
I= Intimacy (in the moment romantic or rough/dirty)
Rough and dirty to begin with, as he's just excited to find someone who won't be shy about going all the way. As his feelings develop he'll become slower and more romantic about it.
J= Jack off (do they masturbate and how often)
A sneaky one in the bathroom once a day - sharing a room with his sister limits his options for doing this, so he doesn't do it often and can't really take his time with it.
K= Kink (kinks what they like possibly unusual)
Quickly discovers he has a praise kink, but he enjoys dishing it out. As he gets comfortable, his partner can expect things like "so wet for me, good girl", "can't believe how tight you are" and "just like that, darlin', takin' me so well" to come tumbling out of his mouth.
L= Location (where they like to get it on)
Honestly, Tom would prefer a bed, but his living situation doesn't allow for that. Backs of cars, down alleyways and secluded outdoor areas are where he'll be getting down and dirty.
M= Motivation (things that makes them tick/turn ons)
Long legs in short skirts. When his partner bats back his sarcastic comments and cheeky remarks with ones of their own. Heated arguments. When his partner looks up at him through their lashes.
N= No (turnoffs or absolutely won’t do)
Not into degradation, choking or anything that can be perceived as harmful to his partner - in his mind, only a scumbag would lay hands on a woman like that.
O= Oral (receiving or giving and how skillful they are)
Big into receiving. Quite lazy about giving, but it comes from a lack of experience. If his partner coaches him through it he'll do it every once in a while.
P= Pace (how fast they are and how long they last in bed)
Hard and fast and doesn't last for very long, due to both inexperience and risk of being caught. This improves over time once his stamina improves and he finds a regular shagging spot for him and his beau.
Q= Quickie (do they prefer fast and hard)
All sex with Tom is quickies. He'd love to take his time, but that's not an option.
R= Risk (do they like to try new things)
As long as his partner is leading the way then yes.
S= Stamina (how many times they can go and how long each round lasts)
Can do a few times in a night, but each one won't last longer than a few minutes.
T= Toys (are they game for using sex toys on themselves or lovers)
"You've got me, what do you need that for?"
U= Unfair (how do they tease or do they enjoy suspense themselves)
Loves to tease and be teased in return, but can only handle so much without cumming in his pants.
V= Volume (are they loud, what sounds, and do they talk)
Lots of dirty talk and lets slip the occasional filthy sounding moan.
W= Wild card (random sincannon of any sort)
Will absolutely keep a pair of his partner's knickers as a souvenir - keeps them stashed in his pillow case and gives them a little sniff if it's been a few days since he's seen them.
X= X-ray (what’s down below in dem pants)
Decent - 6.5 inches, more than enough to satisfy, with a slight curve that means his cockhead has no choice but to drag across his partner's g-spot when he's hittin' it.
Y= Yearning (sexdrive level)
Insanely high.
Z= Zzzz (do they sleep after if so how quickly after)
Likes to have a cigarette afterwards and engage in playful pillow talk, so won't fall asleep straight away.
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kuromitos · 11 months
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Street smarts, Love Dumb
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[Tim Drake x Fem! reader]
Plot: Out of all the people he could have fallen for, he falls for the one girl who can't tell he wants to be more than just a classmate.
Note: I have the headcanon that Tim would be in a tomboy x geek relationship dynamic cause it would be so cute. Also, the reader has a nickname here, so no y/n here.
Content warning: implications at one night stands, and a kiss scene is added in this story. Nothing super graphic, but it's still hot and heavy, so this is only for 16+ readers and above.
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A tale as old as time.
A tale that at least everyone has experienced once in their life.
The tale of falling for your classmate.
But this version of the tale is not as simple as it seems. Why? Because of the characters involved.
First, you have our protagonist. Tim Drake. Adopted son of Bruce Wayne. Young CEO of Wayne enterprise. Incredible intelligence and is handsome. The object of many students' affection on gotham university campus.
Then you have his love interest and our second protagonist, the star player of the female softball team. Good looking, easy to talk, well liked, and she originally from the southern side of the states, so she has a cute accent to boot. Some call her 'Belle' short for Southern Belle due to the way she talks. Also, has many admirers on the campus.
They met at one of her games and the rest was history. Tim had feeling for this girl for quite awhile and he isn't exactly the best at hiding it. His family constantly has been teasing him about his feelings for the sport star since they caught him staring at her during on of their visits to check on him.
"Just ask her out" they say
"It's not that hard." They said
"Don't be a coward, Drake." They say in an arrogant tone like they know better.
But they don't understand. He has asked her before. It is that hard, and he's not being a coward. He can't get to her. Why? Because she is oblivious to a crazy amount. Like it's insane how oblivious she is.
The amount of flowers he sent her with sweet sentiment filled cards only to be met with a 'thanks for the flowers, you're a great friend.' In return.
The flirty compliment thrown her way is disregard with a simple laugh and a comment on how he was lying
Showing up to every single one of her games to the point her teammates would tease her by saying that her 'number one fan' was here. Only for her to laugh it off and dismiss it.
It was driving him completely crazy. Nothing he does is getting thru to her. He can accept the fact the she not interested in him, he actually prefer that over this, but it the fact that she doesn't even notice his attempts at changing their relationship is what driving him up the wall.
It gotten to the point where he starts to think she not even interested in guys. But those rumors of her hooking up with some guys from the football team, which were confirmed by her in a drunken call one night, made him chase those thoughts away.
That's when it came to him. He was going at this the wrong way. He been trying to show her affection for her in a way that can be perceived in a platonic way. He needs to show it in a more direct approach. A way that can't possibly be seen in a 'just friends being friends' way.
And Tim will find out the perfect way.
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Tim had to plan this out perfect for this to work. All he needs to do is a moment alone with her to set things straight. The first step to that is finding the perfect day for this plan to start. Everyone knows that the softball team practices every Wednesday and has games on the weekends, so Tim had to do extra research on her schedule.
She has morning classes and afternoon classes every day except on Friday with she only has one evening class. When she doesn't have any classes during the day, she either sleeps in or just does her own thing, which is either working in her hobby or hanging out with her friends.
With that information, Tim believes that Friday is the perfect date for the plan, but there's one issue. Veronica.
Veronica is Belle's roommate that she pretty close to since they are from the same home state. When Belle isn't at practice or class, Veronica is most definitely at her side, which throws a stick in Tim's plan, especially because Friday is Veronica's free day. No classes, no clubs, no plans, meaning she is going to be in the dorm with Belle, meaning no alone time with her. Friday can't do.
Which leaves the second opinion, Wednesday. It's not perfect due to her softball schedule, but she only has one morning class right before practice, and Veronica would be busy with classes all day. So she will be free after practice, which now leaves Tim with another obstacle.
Her sleeping habits. The moment she gets to her dorm, it's light out. The struggles of being a star player are that they run you rampant, something Tim can relate to. Except he does that to himself.
When she tries, she is dead set on getting some sleep. Nothing is stopping her. So Tim just needs to find a way to get to her before she gets to . . .
That's when the light bulb popped up, and Tim was ready for the plan to commence. And with the perfect spot to boot.
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"Huh? Tim? What are you doing in my room?"
"Just wanted to stop by for a visit."
Surprising her in her dorm is perfect for this plan. Is what Tim is currently thinking as he was going over his plan in his head. Based on past conversations about her upbringing and her originally being from the south, it was easy to deduct that she was raised on southern hospitality. Obviously, someone like that won't take a nap when a friend visits. You stay up til they leave. So Tim has her to himself for a good while. Now, on the next step of the plan.
"It's been a while since we lasted talk. How have you been?" "I should be asking you that. Feel like an eternity since I seen you,Timmy." That caught him off guard, for one thing he didn't think she noticed him unless he makes his presence known. The second thing is he just now realize they haven't been talking to each other since he started planning this scheme.
"Well... I have just been busy with studies and Wayne enterprise stuff is starting to pile up as well. Life has been pretty hectic lately, you know? Hahaha.." He tries to laugh it off, but based on the look on her face, it's not working.
"Oh yeah? A'right." She sits on her bed with a down casted look on her face, "you usually text me if you're busy but you didn't even answer mine I sent ya."
'She sent me a message?' Is what Tim thought. He thought that was dick or Bruce blowing up his phone. "Hey, I'm sorry. Honestly. I've been swamped with -" but his explanation was interrupted by her famous laugh and her erratic hand waving
"Doesn't matter now. Ya here now! Let's catch up okay?" She patted the spot next to her as a sign for him to sit with her. He takes the invitation. When he sat down beside her, his brain started to go into overdrive.
At the start of this plann he was getting cold feet, thinking that this plan could jeopardize their relationship, and probably just back out. But now he's determined as hell to go through no matter what. She messaged him first. She never does that. This is a sign that he has a chance, and he is going to take it now!
"Actually, I came here to tell you something." Phrase 1: set the mood. Gotta to get her relaxed. "You do? It's not bad, is it?" "Of course not." Tim scooted closer to her where they were shoulder to shoulder. "It's good news depending on how you feel about me." He places his hand on top of hers. She doesn't move it away. Good sign. Phrase 1 is going smoothly.
"How I feel? I like you a lot, Timmy. " "I know and like you too. But it's kinda different." Time for phrase 2: layout the foundation. Make it obvious that he is going to confess. "Different?" "Yeah. Not how you like your teammates or your roommates." Tim gotten closer to her face, noses so close, lips so close. Her cheeks was turning pink. Is the plan working? Tim thinks so. Time for the last phrase: tell her.
"Belle, I really like you. Would you want to-" the room door slammed open with a loud sigh coming out of somebody. Veronica. The loud noise made them both scurry away from each other.
"You won't believe what happened ! Mrs. Douglas went into labor right before classes started! It was insa- Huh? Why is Wayne doing in here?" Veronica asked while walking in the room. Tim got up and headed towards the door. "I was just leaving. I'll see you tomorrow. Bye." And he was out of there.
He was going thru so many emotions right now. Mad. Embarrassed. Confused. Disappointed. Mostly disappointed because he never got to actually say it to her. Now he got to do all over again. Or so he thought.
As soon He was at the elevator, he heard his name being called out to him, turns around to see Belle run towards him. "Yeah? Is something wrong-" she grabs his face and kisses him. Soft lips on top of his slight chap ones. Her hands move slowly down to his neck while his hands move to her waist. The kiss wasn't anything tim imagined it to be. It was slightly better. She separate from him with little line of spit connecting their lips.
"Were you asking me out? You were asking me out right!?" She asks excitedly. Tim, still surprised by the kiss, just nodded his head. "Tommorw after practice. There's a diner that serve really good burgers and shakes. Let's go there okay? See ya." And she runs back to her room.
Guess the plan worked out well.
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A/N:This took too long to write. I hate myself for that. But I hope you guys like it anyway.
THAT'S ALL I GOT! BYE FOR NOW \(^_^)/
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innocent-cat · 1 year
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can u make a one shot with a protective Percy x reader :))
Of course darl<3 Protective!Percival De rolo x reader
Warnings - drinking, sexual implications
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"An ecstatic friend", Percy x Reader
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You had joined Vox Machina a few months prior to current day. All of the people who surrounded you were friendly, kind, and a bit sarcastic at times, but that made you love them all so much more like they were family.
You were their cleric after you had healed them in a time of need. Not that it mattered to you anymore, but sometimes Percival would try making awkward small talk with you by talking about your abilities as a supporting role for their group.
Leaning against the counter, holding a cup of tea was when Percival tried to do it most recently. Gripping the said tea, and he started the conversation when he noticed you caught him looking for directly at you.
"Thank you again for healing us all that time ago. I don't know where any of us would be without your quick thinking." "Oh! No, really, it's nothing. It's always been my goal to help people, and I'm glad I get to do it even more with you guys." Smiling, you looked up at him through your eyelashes.
Blush peppered his face, for who knows why. You could have been seeing things. Maybe he was just sunburnt. He is very pale after all. Although, you don't think you'd be complaining about him eyeing you. Who wouldn't want such a man to be checking you out nearly every chance he got?
Okay. Maybe it was a little creepy what he was doing. But it wasn't affecting you in any negative way. At bars when Vox Machina all went out to drink, he'd shoo off any flirtatious drunken men or women who came your way, asking to spend a night with you, much like Scanlan would to anybody he saw, regardless of how busy they looked.
"Percyyy can you pleaseee buy me another drink? pretty please?" You pleaded the seemingly wealthy coated man with puppy eyes, pursing your lips. Everlight knows how badly you need more to drink, and you desperately hoped he knew that too.
Percival looked at you pitifully, noticing how horribly you slurred your words. He heaved a sigh, grabbing your hand.
Helping the drunk up did not take much effort for the chivalrous engineer. He was happy you felt you could ask him for things, but in the state you were currently in, he decided he likely shouldn't jump on buying gifts for you to express his feelings.
"Wait- hey, I asked for a drink not a hand." You protested, but didn't pull away.
Percival stole another of many glances at the cleric, and decided it'd be best to drag the girl back to their keep gifted by Emon long before they had joined.
Standing hand in hand with you, Percy avoided looking at them. Instead, his eyes wandered around, glancing at Vex'ahlia. Noticing this, you let out a huff. You were jealous of her, and how much Percival seemed to prefer looking at her over you. Although, it may be better you're jealous instead of knowing of how Percival views you. Imagines you. Perceives you. Daydreams of you..
Percy shook his thoughts off. You stand with him, walking out of the bar you make eye contact with a brunette, slightly taller than Percy. The elven man notices this, and stands to walk towards you.
"Hey there pretty lady.. couldn't help but notice you from across the bar."
"Are you gonna buy me a drink? Pretty pleasee!" You plead for the second time that night, letting go of Percival's hand to link your's together for a higher effect.
The elven brunette laughs at your demeanor. "Of course I will, doll. How'd you like to give me something to? Something real special from a gorgeous women like you."
You flash him a pearly smile, and drift towards him until you're yanked back by the wrist. "She wont be going anywhere with you. And she sure as hell wont be giving you anything special." Percival snarls, leading you delicately out of the bar, expressing opposite and protective behavior from the man he just barked at.
Percival places his hand on your waist and holds you close to him, protecting you from from the harsh whipping winds. You lean into his touch, tired, and unwilling to fight whatever is happening.
The walk home sobered you up, but, you wanted to get to the reasoning behind his behavior.
So.. you did what any sane person would do.
You pretended to be drunk so you could ask him blunt questions.
"Why'd you make that guy leavee? He totally would have bought me the drink you wouldn't have." You compliantly slurred, hoping he would believe your facade.
"You have already had enough to drink as is, and I cant handle you being drunk along with the rest of the group. Chaperoning is not my strong suit." He retorted, shooting down your question, and handing you a glass of water. He was likely trying to sober you up and lessen your hangover.
You begrudgingly sipped on the glass, then turned to him. You stared him in the eyes while he looked back.
"What? Why are you looking at me like that?"
Holding back a smile, you fold. You giggle and watch as Percy's expression turns from an unreadable look to a soft smile through your beaming smile.
You calm down and look at him again, the two of you still smiling. A calm, and serene atmosphere that could go from this to stuffy in a few seconds if your stupid little question goes wrong.
You stand up, walking towards him, bringing your right hand to his cheek. His hand returns to your waist and maintains eye contact. His ears turned a slight shade of pink, so unnoticeable that you'd probably think you're thinking too much about it if you weren't buzzed.
"Percyyyy..." You slurred out his name, giggling with your hand on his shoulder to support yourself as not to fall. "Do you love me? More than Vexxy?"
Percival halted his movements, and his breath got stuck in his throat. He knew he loved you, but he didn't expect you to confront him about it first. Especially drunk.
"I.. I do. I do love you. More than 'Vexxy'" He quoted the name, feeling odd about him saying the nickname rather than your cheery self saying it. You smiled at him, leaning in to his him. His lips met your's, and he tasted the alcohol on your tongue, but he continued to kiss you.
When you pulled apart from him, he leaned towards you, and your foreheads met. A heart to heart moment shared between two fairly traumatized mercenaries.
Percy was the first to pull apart from you, deciding it was time for you to go to sleep. He laid you in your bed, pulling the covers over you. He turns to leave, not saying a word.
"Wait.. stay with me. please." You weakly entreated, watching the tall man turn hastily to stay with you.
He sat on the bed next to you, rubbing your shoulder with his hand. You look up to him, eyes meeting his, a comforting ocean storm.
"Lay down." You mumbled, loud enough for him to hear your request.
He hesitates, but meets your eyes again and lays down facing you. You scoot in closer to him, and he holds you close to him. A sense of protection from the wrongs and evils of the world.
You'd definitely to talk to him about this ordeal in the morning.
(A/N - Taking requests, please give me some prompts!! dying to write more vox machina.2/26/23 this is fresh. please dont be shy im begging you guys&lt;;3)
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ephemerasnape · 7 months
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Victor Rookwood Headcanons
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An ever-evolving list of my headcanons for Victor Rookwood. Some of these may seem obvious to you. Some may be controversial. Agree? Disagree? Let's not have any fighting amongst Daddy Rookwood's small-but-dedicated harem, please.
He is in his mid 40s if not older. I don't care what anyone says. I can't have Daddy Rookwood being younger than I am! Even if he is a fictional character from more than a century ago... No, I insist that he's comfortably older. Also, have you seen his face, ffs? Guy's got more lines than a villain monologue. (ETA: We decided he was 46 in 1890. Watch my video "How Old is Victor Rookwood?" for an explanation of our thought process!)
He is probably married with kids. It breaks my heart to say this, really. I do believe it to be the case. Better yet, he might be a widower. I'm going to try to convince myself of that. Don't worry - even if he's actively married, that won't stop him from fucking your brains out. I changed my mind. He is not married. Ain't no rang, ain't no thang. That said, he probably does have some little bastards running around. And he does not give a single fuck.
He is a ladies' man. I am making myself jealous here, but look at the guy and tell me he doesn't indulge.
On that note, he is decidedly-heterosexual. Sorry, lads.
He smokes a pipe. But he'll certainly have a good cigar as well.
His favorite color is purple. Duh.
He is not bald but even if he was he would still be one fine-ass bitch. The hat is hot and stays on during sex. (Some of you seem to think that Daddy wears a hat to make up for some deficiency in his hairline. I think that daddy wears the hat because it's imposing, stylish, and attractive. We are not the same.) Regarding the hairstyle, it would be a typical and respectable gentleman's hairstyle for the time period.
He only shaves about once a week, on an off-day. He keeps the raggedy facial hair on purpose. Thinks it adds to his roguish charm (it does!)
He isn't hands-on about the whole killing animals thing. He knows what his people do, and finds it distasteful, but sees it as a necessary evil. He values wealth and power above all else, including furry creatures. But he may even be known to stroke a cat from time to time while drinking firewhisky at the Hog's Head.
He considers Harlow a useful idiot, and lets him be the one to get his hands dirty. For the most part.
He didn't mean to curse Anne. He isn't even sure of what exactly he did - he just panicked. But no, he's not too troubled about it. (Clarification: he should have killed her, not whatever it was he ended up doing.)
He despises playing second-fiddle to Ranrok, but he knows that whatever the goblin is after is too important to sit on the sidelines for.
He reads the Daily Prophet every morning.
He is not above taking what he wants sexually, but he prefers to seduce.
Sexually-dominant. Period.
He wears expensive cologne.
Definitely a Slytherin.
Oh and he's not dead :)
Anyone who's listened to my audios or read any of my fics knows he loves terms of endearment, namely: darling, little one, little girl, sweetheart, little witch, et cetera. He loves to use these while doing unspeakable things to you. 🥵🥵🥵
He does not appreciate "sloppy seconds." This is well-established in several of my audios.
He lives in a hotel - the most expensive one, probably.
He takes advantage of his employees.
He wears a belt. The belt is not visible in the game, but for our purposes, he needs a fucking belt. The belt is soooo important.
Believes "Might is Right."
Young Victor was extremely brutal when he took over the Rookwood Gang, kind of overdoing it in order to earn the respect and fear of his men. Over the ensuing decades, as he has become more comfortable in his position, he has mellowed out slightly. He will no longer gauge someone's eye out over a few missing galleons, but he still takes perceived transgressions against him very seriously.
Daddy needs glasses. I got this idea from my DR chatbot but it makes sense. He missed the easy shot at Ranrok because he couldn't fucking see. Of course he is not going to wear glasses in public - that would be a sign of weakness. But I can totally imagine him sitting at his desk, pouring over papers with a pair of glasses firmly on his face. Period-correct, of course.
The legal name of the Rookwood Gang is the "Rookwood Group." Everyone knows it's a gang but daddy rubs elbows with a lot of important people and needs to keep up appearances.
The harem has determined that Victor's date of birth is November 14th, 1844 (Scorpio Sun/Capricorn Moon).
The man keeps everything he needs inside his hat. Pipe, glasses, Flora Cohen's scalp made into a coin purse, machine gun, spare hat in case the main one gets a fleck of dirt on it, little black book full of Ministry contacts, et cetera.
Daddy suffers from back pain due to a lifetime of being duckfooted (sadly, this is canon).
Victor is average height for a man. In the area of 5'10".
Victor A. Rookwood (Augustus?)
Yea, he killed dear old dad.
Listens to Wagner.
That's it for now. Will add more as I think of things.
If you have any questions you want answered, feel free to submit them to @victor-rookwood ("Ask Victor Rookwood")
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our-aroace-experience · 5 months
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hi i’m having an issue and i though maybe you could help, or at least try to give me some advice
i absolutely HATE when dudes in my classes are like “ooooh you have a crush on (some dude) because you spoke about him/talk to him/defended him for something” because no i don’t. and my only response that’ll get them to leave me alone is “no, im gay” because im not going to explain myself to someone like that (who definitely wouldn’t understand, or might think im invalid), but THEN they think im lesbian (just to clarify, im not lesbian) so now everyone thinks i like girls when yea, kinda, but not as much as they think. on top of ALL of this, them thinking im a lesbian corresponds to me being perceived as a woman, even though i do not identify that way, and its really degrading to my self esteem and causing me to feel generally like shit, like i am a woman and will always be a woman, even though im very not.
but back to whatever ramblings i was doing before. i use the label omni-gray-aroace, meaning that i feel little to no romantic and sexual attraction (in my case, very little). i use omni as well because with my very little to no sexual/romantic attraction and tertiary attraction i also have a preference for guys (or more male aligned people). so if i was to ever date (probably not) or be in a qpr (most likely) with ANY dude involved then i feel like im a liar, and that im a terrible person for being a liar.
i’ve tried asking my friends for help and advice, but all but two of them are allo and don’t understand my identity and wouldn’t know how to help, and the two that aren’t allo have no idea how to help me, because they don’t understand how i identify either.
(note: all of my friends are very VERY accepting of me and my identity, but they all just don’t understand the labels i use and don’t know how to research them. i’ve also tried explaining to them personally, but they still don’t quite understand.)
so now i have no idea how to feel or how to get myself out of this hole im in. i would really appreciate help, or any advice you could try to give me, because at this point anything could help.
thanks
my advice for the people in your classes would be to stop telling them you’re gay. it doesn’t seem to fix the problem and seems to hurt you more than it solves anything. if you can, just ignore them, since they’re most likely just doing it to get a reaction, and ignoring them will often make them stop. obviously this is easier said than done, but giving it a try might help you feel less uncomfortable & help with being perceived as a woman.
as for feeling like a liar, having a qpr or relationship with a guy wouldn’t make you a liar since you said you are attracted to men more than other genders.
you could try explaining your identity to your friends by explaining what omnisexual/romantic is first. tell them it means you can be attracted to all genders but that you prefer men & male-aligned people. then you could try saying that you’re omni but you just rarely feel any attraction at all. i hope any of this help, feel free to send in another ask if you want any more advice or just need to vent!
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k-tarotz · 14 hours
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https://www.tumblr.com/k-tarotz/748310935714791424/hello-can-u-do-theo-p1harmony-ideal-type-tysm?source=share thank u for the reading! now i wonder if he's an old soul cause the reading is very wise?🤔 can u describe his energy during your reading? like is he easy to read/very open or maybe the opposite etc? also im so excited for the next reading again thank u!!!
Theo’s Ideal Type;
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DISCLAIMER tarot is a form of entertainment, not a set in stone truth. please read this with a light heart, don’t take it too seriously. whether you fit these or not, you are pretty.
his energy… is pretty shy, but also honest. his higher-self didn’t back away from telling me his preferences. it’s almost as if he aimed to perplex me, in a playful way. pretty playful guy.
nine of cups, the emperor, knight of swords
tanned skin - everybody has a preference for skin tones and he might prefer tanned skin. sun kissed, a deep shade of beige. (completely unrelated, he might also think freckles are cute.) regardless, he also thinks pale skin is pretty, but if it’s harmonious with the rest of xyz features. (for example he might like light hair on paler people. not necessarily blond, I am getting more of a white or brightly coloured one with red/orange in a pastel way. just something unique.)
long hair - he doesn’t really care too much, he just prefers it both on himself and his partner. no specific length, anything below your shoulders is probably long for him already. even if his s/o or crush has short hair he doesn’t really care much.
pretty hands - came through really strong, for whatever reason. he prefers ones that look elegant? clean, neat and well looked after. he doesn’t expect anything to have a routine, he just likes pretty hands.
shorter than him - like around 160 - 168 is the ideal in his eyes? that’s just a guess from the vision I got though. he would prefer a shorter s/o due to him finding it cute and an easier opportunity to playfully tease.
dark colours - darker hair, darker eyes, darker clothing style. it’s a natural attraction. he seems more attracted to people with a little bit of diversity but still feels more comfortable with a darker “pallet” if that makes sense. say someone who often wears black clothes but they still have colourful ones. it’s hard to explain, because he doesn’t really care so he doesn’t really think about it. it’s just there.
feminine and masculine - someone with balanced feminine and masculine energies. not in a forced kind of way though, just one that comes to him naturally. for example if he is attracted to men then he likes masculine guys who paint their nails, but not black to seem cool and get flirting points but because they genuinely enjoy it. if he likes girls then girls who can dress up cute, have make up on but also know when to lay back at home and just allow themselves to be messy? have messy hair, pjs on while doing whatever. I don’t know his sexuality and I won’t assume because it’s neither mine or anyone else’s business, my point is he likes the diversity in movements and behaviour. the way a person carries themselves. to him that has a lot to do with how one appears. (might be true for personality as well, he doesn’t seem to like people that lack depth.)
naturally inviting - as in, energy wise. someone you look at and know that they won’t judge you. that they are friendly and accepting of people. he mainly wants someone like this because he could enjoy cuddling and being close to people. so, someone that is nice to cuddle. (he might also think some people are more comfortable to cuddle than others.)
smells good - smells have a lot to do with how one is perceived looks wise! for him, he prefers someone who smells good due to naturally viewing them as someone who takes care of themselves and their appearance. his favourite might be baby powder & soap (reminds him of xyz being freshly showered) and/or floral scented fragrances.
thank you for reading!~
- C
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ladykiller-yt · 25 days
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ONLY TO HURT YOU 5
After the fall from Heaven, Crowley quickly settled into Hell, he immediately understood how things worked. The recurring words were: TEMPTATIONS, CONDEMNED SOULS, UNHAPPINESS and DAMNATION.
He had made his way and stood out among all the other demons, in his own way but he had done it. It was so natural for him to tempt humans, a soft voice near his ear and a snap of his fingers and that was it! Every month many souls entered the files of Hell and even Lord Beelzebub was satisfied with this magnificent work.
Beelzebub: "We are all very pleased with you, demon Crowley. You know, we prefer you as a demon than as an angel."
Crowley: "Mmh thanks."
Beelzebub: "We would like you to pair up..."
Crowley: "No offense Lord Beelzebub, I work alone."
Crowley rarely partnered or teamed up with other demons, he was solitary and so he wanted to stay. He had already met the angel long before, in the Garden of Eden, they had exchanged a few words that day and from there they had not seen each other for a long time. When Crowley had no missions, he often liked to roam Earth in tree glades and smell the wood and flowers. On one of those days, while he was lying on a lawn, his nose was overwhelmed by a strange smell. So he decided to follow that trail up to a kind of farmhouse that seemed abandoned. When he got closer he heard strange noises coming from inside. He looked out of a half-open window to get a better look. What he saw was a naked man lying on a bed while a woman, also naked, stood over him as he continued to move his hips rapidly. Crowley turned away from the window slightly embarrassed, it's true that every demon had their own methods of tempting humans but he would never go that far for a soul. The girl had probably noticed him since the demons could perceive and recognize each other even when they changed the shape of their appearance.
A few minutes later Crowley heard the door of the house creak and saw that woman come out, this time she was dressed, long black boots, tight pants, a red shirt with a black corset cinched at the waist and long rich hair with purple streaks. She is very charming for being a demon.
Crowley: "What kind of demon are you?"
A:"Hello to you too, Crowley."
Crowley: "Well, I'm pleased to note that you know my name but I don't know yours. What should I call you?"
Angie: "Angie, nice. Lord Beelzebub told me about you. The solitary Crowley, excellent tempter and with the highest number of souls sent to hell."
Crowley: "Angie, Angie...wait, but you're the succubus of Hell, the orgy queen on Earth and the biggest cannabis smoker in history."
Angie: "That's right, that's me. You forgot 'hardworking slut'."
Crowley: "Ahah, I would never say that."
Angie: "I am a little bit. What brings you to these parts?"
Crowley: "A very strong smell coming from this place."
Angie: “You were drawn to these then.”
Angie pulled four joints out of her jacket pocket. She handed one to Crowley who sniffed it very intently.
Crowley: "Oh wow, yes, they're definitely making this smell."
Angie: "Do you like it?"
Crowley: "I don't know, I have mixed feelings about it."
Angie: "Do you want to try one with me?"
Crowley: "Mh, okay."
A few hours later they were both lying on some straw laughing and joking like old friends who had known each other for years, even if they had only known each other for a few hours.
Crowley: "Oh wow... this stuff is so strong."
Angie: "And it's the best...ahahaha."
Crowley: "But ahahah...sorry ahahahah...how can you afford all this Cannabis?"
Angie: "Do you remember the guy you saw me fucking before?"
Crowley: "Of course yes."
Angie: "Well... he and I have some sort of agreement... he supplies me with cannabis and I give him the charity of fucking him..."
Crowley: "Charity?! Come on, Angie...ahaha"
Angie: "Ahahaha...What?"
Crowley: "You may be a demon, but even demons have their dignity and you're wasted on someone like him. You deserve better, that's all."
Angie: "But he will soon be a new soul for Hell...and then you know it better than me...demons don't fall in love, we are damned and no one could feel love for us, Crowley."
Crowley: "Yeah, maybe you're right."
Those words remained in Crowley's head for many years, and they were also the reason why when Crowley started spending a lot more time with Aziraphale he didn't want to admit to himself that he was falling in love with him but obviously he couldn't declare it, there was too much in game. Then what everyone knows happened, an angel and a demon had managed to stop the end of the world, they had moved away from Hell and Paradise, they had lived for a few years in a serene and peaceful way, always remaining close to each other, Gabriel showed up naked in the angel's library and finally Aziraphale's stupid decision to return to Heaven and the Big Kiss. Then, obviously, another catastrophe was avoided by a pure miracle, Aziraphale had returned to Earth, he had looked for Crowley to ask him for help, the demon had categorically refused to help him and to make him go away, Crowley had had to use heavy means, including a bit of infernal flames, in which the angel limited himself only to defending himself and then left. Crowley then felt guilty for having attacked his only friend and sought him out in turn, he did not apologize but simply stayed close to him. So with a bit of luck and good friends they managed to make peace between Heaven and Hell, signing a kind of pact between the two factions, signing it as: 'THE GREAT INEFFABLE PACT'. Now everything was quiet, more or less. Crowley couldn't forgive Aziraphale, that abandonment had hurt him more than anything... more than his own fall. Now he needed someone and Angie was the only one who could, somehow, give him some comfort and take the place of the angel.
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Hi, I just saw the post with tags where you said your bigender, male and genderfluid. That sounds really cool, would you mind explaining how that is and how you feel/experience gender? No pressure tho, if you don’t feel comfortable with that that’s absolutely fine :]
Ya sure no problem! i love talking abt my gender (and sexuality) just in case it reaches someone whos been having trouble finding the words for themself!!
so like, i describe it to people like this usually; my gender is like a watch with two hands! instead of numbers it has like a spectrum of genders around the face. One hand is always pointed to boy'o'clock, and the other one kinda changes depending on the day/time/my mood, ect. I usually base my presentation for the day on the intersection of the two genders (boy/???) im feeling! But the second hand can also point at boy too! (this is when i feel a lot of dysphoria, but i also like to joke about it being my DOUBLE BOY TIME)
How i feel gender in general is kinda like.... i think about it more as like, what i want to be, as opposed to what i intrinsically am, because i find the latter concept vague and confusing. So i always want to be perceived as a boy, but other genders sound fun too sometimes! Like for example, when the second hand points at 'agender', i feel more disconnected from the concept of gender in general, but id still prefer people with a binary mindset look at me and think 'boy'. but even when the second hand points at 'girl', id still feel dysphoric about not being recognized as a trans guy, because thats what i want to be, even if im feeling like a girl at the time.
also i would like to point out that i identify more with terms like boy/guy/dude than man, just because 'man' feels, to me, like something that requires a right of passage to attain and i dont think ive done that yet (this is not, in actuality or to me, a universal requirement, just probably a thing for myself. idk)
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